It’s good hearing that you’re doing better and taking steps outside your comfort zone for pleasant experiences that are making you happy such as signing up for dance class. Continue marching forward! I’m rooting for you!
31:55 these are my thoughts exactly: i have wanted to start playing a sport for more than I can remember but seeing as all my successful peers have started a lot younger I've always been deterred from starting "late"
I discovered your channel yesterday and I instantly loved all your videos. I'm really happy to know you're feeling better, as someone who also needed to get help to deal with a period of hopelessness. It can feel like those thoughts are still in the back of my mind and resurface every once in a while, but you're giving me hope that maybe it is possible to complete this healing process.
Everyones journey is unique. But I truly believe it can get better and sometimes it has to get worse for it to get better. If I wouldn't have had the nervous breakdown that i did I would've never dared to change my life.
Hey Docile. I listened to your story and ended up in tears in my car for an hour. Although our problems are different, i relate to your struggles a lot and was overwhelmed with sadness for you, realizations in myself and joy and inspiration upon hearing how you persevered. Having trauma or C/PTSD makes relationships and friendships so much more complicated than they should be and hearing that I'm not alone in this really made me feel something that i can't quite describe with words. Life has always been a struggle for me but of late it's been worse than usual, i needed to hear your words when i did. Thank you for using your small platform to spread mental health support and advice to those in need.
Don't remember the exact quote, but it's something to the effect of "The unbearable need to be loved versus the excrutiating pain to be known". To be honest, online is probably not a great place to look for meaningful relationships (not to say it's impossible) and it sounds like you came to a similiar conclusion. Not being yourself is simply too easy online and even someone who tries to act authentic might unintentionally slip into a persona of what they think would work for a given situation or person. Going out and just meeting people without the expressed intent of finding someone is the right call in my opinion. It gets rid of the pressure to form a connection and won't leave you hurting that badly if it goes wrong. Glad you're doing better and still getting better.
Just found the channel today after i got cheated on last weekend, its been rough but thanks for putting a smile on my face with some of these audios anyway ^^, saw the "neko BATTLES YOU" title and was like this is gonna be cute/funny , and did not disappoint in either aspect lol, i definitely struggle with like fear of abandonement and loneliness a fair bit and overall mentally not been doing too great for a long period but i think im heading in the right direction. Starting to more and more appreciate the smaller things which is an angle i didnt really see in the past, and trying to slowly build a future i can be happy with step by step, I got quite lucky earlier this year landing my first job and have some great coworkers/boss so its always a good environment and i think that helps a ton too. I'm not the best at advise but i do hope everything is going alright even if im just discovering the channel, don't let the world keep you down, you got this ❤
Oh I am so sorry to hear about the cheating, I have also been cheated on before I know how much it can hurt. However I am also so happy to hear that you are starting to appreciate the smaller things in life and that you landed your first job!!! Congratulations and I am so happy that you are treated well and feel good in that enviorment! Change is slow and it is often times hard to see that things are improving but every little good thing you do for yourself adds up in the long run it really does seem to me you are on the right path too.
@ no worries about the rant, more so thanks for taking the time to read and get back to me ^^, happy new year!, may this one be better to the both of us
@ that's great :3, yeah still slowly figuring everything out, and perhaps I never fully will but I can def tell I'm changing for the better in the grand scheme of things, also have about every sleeping issue in the book so that's why I happened upon asmr stuff, gets overactive mind off stuff like intrusive thoughts and able to sleep, suppose now I'm the one ranting xD but hey
I just found your channel yesterday, watched the most recent videos and got a lil worried, and BOOM the next day you upload this!!! Glad to hear you're okay now! :)
Hello! I am very happy that You are feeling better! That's great that You are trying many things to feel better. Good luck, everything will be allright 😊
im coming back to this video after about half a year becus its had a big impact on my life. hearing yurr struggles and the way you dealt with it helped me realize how i needed to approach my own problems. my life has improved a lot in the past few months and i hafta attribute it all to this one video for starting my journey to self improvement. yurr an awesome purrsin docile :3c thank s a lottems
Oh my god that makes me so happy to hear!! 😍Thank you for sharing that with me and I am so happy that it helped you improve your own life, that is just so precious!! You are awesome too and I am proud of you for having the bravery to take the steps needed, it can really be so hard at times! I feel for you and I am sharing your joy here. Wish you all the best this new year!!
it was really relaxing to listen to. relatable too, been trough lots of similar stuff. gotten a lot better by now trough lessons learned like for most things i dont actually need to do them. if somethings really difficult i dont need to force myself nor do i need to give up, can ask for help or try to find another equal way. When it comes to relationships, ill recommend vrchat, made many good friends trough there and met my so. touching grass is good too of course, but im quite neurodivergent
This is so strange how similar my experience i had, im currently trying to get over a friend who just cut me off because she didnt trust to talk things out with me. I feel sad and i needed someone to hold as well. Your asmr videos strike true for me and are funny, i hope you are doing okay and keep on fighting! I will too!
Ok uhh, I don't exactly know what to say that hasn't been said by everyone else, but here goes! :D I'm extremely glad you're doing well! I personally have never gone through really persistent hardships like that, so I hesitate to say I can relate or imagine what it's like. But of course we all have ups and downs in life and I understand the anxiety of going outside one's comfort zones, doing something new or getting caught up in one's own thoughts. (omg i do that sometimes, just like me frfr) It makes me genuinely happy to hear your story and even kinda inspired! You strike me as a kind, determined, thoughtful and genuine person and you should think the same of yourself too! No one deserves any less than true happiness. You talking about our thoughts not defining us and everything around that conversation really resonated with me and I've also recently been considering those things more (in relation to meditation and similar stuff, but that's besides the point). Sorry for rambling a lot! 🙏 Despite obviously not really knowing you, this video just touched my heart and I wanted to try to put some of my thoughts into words. Anyways, once again, I'm glad you're doing well and am sending much love and hugs! 🫂 Thanks for the update, Docile!
I just recently found this channel and listened to both the anxiety video and this one. I really relate to everything. It's interesting to listen to someone go through the same trials and feel the same way but deal with them in such different ways than me. I hated myself for not being where i wanted to be in life and so i would punish myself over and over again pushing myself further into despair. I lost hope for the future and had no purpose. All I wanted to become was a good man but had no purpose to apply it. I was just waiting to die basically. This is something I still struggle with today but I'm better and it's nice to know I'm not alone and that you're doing better too. The best thing i ever did in the past year was trust my irl friend and go out with them more. Now i have a tight group of irl friends i go out with every week and it's helping a lot with my social anxiety. I'm just learning to put myself out there just like you are and do my best to keep the friends i make. And if you're okay for making friends, i would like to get to know you better. (promise i don't ghost)
Hi again! I hope my previous comment helped you somewhat in the months it's been since then, that would be a relief to know. Well, I don't know if I should feel blessed or cursed that JUST yesterday I had stopped by your channel to see if you were okay, and then the very next day you popped back up! I'm so happy to know you're doing well!!! (It was always in the back of my mind, and I know it's a bit irrational to be that worried but I can't help myself) I'm beyond glad to hear that you're doing well compared to before, and that you're taking steps to do things that you're passionate about and that you're with family and being loved and appreciated because that's what you deserve! And I'm really happy for you that you're doing all of this without medicating at all. I've been extremely dedicated to doing that for myself for years because I came to the realization that, in order to legitimately be able to stand on my own two feet against my depression, self doubts, and self deprecation, I needed to not rely on anything but myself and leaning on medication won't be enough to get through life. I'd seen a lot of people around me start to lean towards using various vices or medications to get them through the day (and I don't judge them for their decisions) but I wanted to be able to handle everything on my own and I'm glad that you're able to do the same. And I absolutely feel you on how much I had started trying to make the Internet and social media friends my only means of socializing with others... I genuinely don't have many friends at all, and the few that I DO have are on discord (and among them I genuinely feel like one of them is slipping out of my life). I also felt it incredibly deeply when you brought up how easy it is to ghost people because of the lack of any actual faces/irl interaction because a very close friend on discord ghosted me a couple of years ago and it's been hard to let go of that since we had been close for 6+ years at that point.. it's pretty difficult to let those emotions go because you never get closure on that kind of relationship at all. I wish someone could help me make friends or I could miraculously stumble into an extrovert by some lucky chance who could help me put myself out there, because as I am now I feel pretty hopeless and I get in my head about not feeling wanted and that I'm the problem. Not much that can be done other than trying to find people but its extremely difficult when I'm both introverted AND my hobbies are all very lonely, single-person activities... didn't set myself up for much success there unfortunately 😑 Gotta find some way to socialize I suppose. I'm actually interested to hear your perspective on how you were taught to handle negative thoughts though, just letting that train of thought pass by and not feeling like you have to get on board.. truth be told I still struggle with that when it comes to existential thoughts and that's my biggest trigger that sends me spiraling. I definitely envy people who have the privilege of living in blissful ignorance of deeper mental traps and traumas, and I've also, on a few occasions, struggled with thoughts of "ending" things but I've managed to keep trucking on despite that and I'm doing okay for myself. I've been living with my mom and brother just before, during covid, and up until now and while that would ordinarily be nice for most people in terms of emotional connections and feeling loved, my brother has Asperger's which makes him mostly incapable of connecting on an emotional level, and my mom is generally emotionally unavailable and rarely gives any physical signs of love, so I get extremely lonely at home even though I have family right here near me.. it's difficult but I'm managing, and I get how you must've felt being on your own during covid when you genuinely want connections and love and you're left with nothing but the people you've met online which can't quite fill the hole that humans need filled with genuine human contact and socializing. But that aside, I'm just over the moon that you're doing okay! Like I said before, you are loved and appreciated by SO many people and I seriously appreciate and love you for the things you've given me, and even if other people didn't appreciate you then I would even if it was just me 😤 Keep doing your best out there and keep being your wonderful self because that's exactly who you should never be ashamed of being! So dance your heart out!
No way! I revisted your channel recently for some nostalgia and I am so happy you're doing well! Always have your chin up, remember that we are always here rooting for you, wherever venture you may take!
I just found your channel and i hella relate on the family part albeit differently? Despite the uncertainties I've had regarding what i want to do with my life, one thing that's always been clear is wanting to be a father Having a family It's something i know i want to give my 100% into Probably why i look for family connected rp asmrs however weird that may be I have nothing else I want for certain Idk why Ig having a family of my own is my idea of happiness That despite the heavy responsibilities with it, it's something I'd gladly tackle Idk why i wrote this Idk why i feel so hollow I just wanna relax
Omg, I was going to turn on one of your videos for tonight and was so relieved when I saw there was an update video. Continue to surround yourself with friends! If you need help, tell them! Even if you don't think you're worth it or deserving to be heard, you're worth it to them and to everyone here in the comments. Glad you're doing better, and sorry about how your life's been going. I know you can't really control your anxiety and so saying this won't really do much, but don't feel useless. Don't think the world is against you because so many people, whether it be online or people you know irl, want to help. So let us help. Enjoy the rest of your break. Hope we can see you again soon, even if it is just for another mental health update.
I cant lie you got me worried as hell but its good to see that your life is going in the right direction, dont expect recovery to always be smooth because life just doesnt work like that we all have our ups and down. I used to heavily rely on the idea that antidepressants would save me but i discovered that really isnt the case and I fear that things such as the side affects will make me possibly spiral even further. Its been about 2 years and my life has been going great, nobody is alone on this journey. And I honestly with the best to whoever is reading this. 🥳🎉
Its great to hear that you are doing better and that you can find happiness in doing stuff without over thinking about “how stupid you would look”. Really proud of you as anxiety is a hard thing to overcome. On a sidenote I hope anyone else who is combatting anxiety watches this whole video. Its really good 🙏 Love yall
Yea humans are social creatures deep down. Glad to hear that your parents were being supportive during this. I wish you luck on your continued healing journey.
Happy to hear from you and that you are doing good. It’s important to put your own wellbeing first. I hope that your journey can successfully continue in the right direction and that you are proud of yourself! Thank you for giving the update.
This was a wonderful video to comfort me in place of the ASMR I was looking for tonight when finding this. Thank you for the update. (And your great ASMR.)
Wooooo glad to see any upload from you at all. I'll listen to the rest of this video later, but I'm super happy to see you're doing better and are in a much better place. I hope you'll be uploading again soon, but I'm more than willing to wait for as long as it takes for you to feel ready for it
Hey you’re back!! I’m so happy! It’s nice to hear that you’re feeling better, this is legit the only status up date (the old video and this one) that I have watched completely through for any UA-camr or content creator in general. I’ve only discovered your channel relatively recently, like a few weeks before this post but you’ve quickly become my favorite channel. I’m sorry for all that stuff that’s happened to you, I’m happy that you’ve found a way to improve and heal, even if it’s not fully it’s going through the process!! You’re great, you’ve got this!!
I’m so.. So happy you’re doing better. After your last video I checked UA-cam like almost everyday for any updates for at least four months, I tried reaching out, but I didn’t know how… So seeing that you’re doing ok makes me feel so happy, so relieved. I think I might have gotten too attached to you, haha.
Welcome back Docile! Missed you :) Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience, it really helps as a little reminder even if we all go through different stuff. But it's also kinda comforting, hearing other people's stories. So thank you a lot ❤ Also, keep in mind that you're awesome and there'll be always someone thinking about you, wishing you all the best. Thank you, I mean it!
Thank you for the update and sharing your story with us. 💜Can definitely relate to a lot of stuff you mentioned. But I'm happy to hear that you're doing better. ☺ Hell yeah to living life and doing things! 💪
I had my apartment right after graduating highschool hand to end my lease to go help my mom and i was happy being along ngl didn't feel that different just less problems
I am so unbelievably Proud of you, it can be so damn hard to push through our hard times, I can relate to that recently, so keep going, keep on stepping, hope your taking care of yourself out there no matter what~ 😊💚🫂
I dunno if you’re still reading these comments, I hope you are, but something that I hope might help you is something I actually read on TikTok of all places. It’s basically this “10 likes is a lot, imagine if 10 people came up to you JUST to compliment you” now you have thousands of people coming up to you and complimenting you. So when you’re feeling down or relapsing, I hope this comes to mind and helps you get through it. I just watched your other video where you vented and related to everything you talked about. im glad to hear youre doing well now and hope you never have to deal with this shit ever again
Hewwo, erm just finished listening to the whole vid, yeah, dunno what to say mostly except that I agree a lot with the points that you've made and even though I have different struggles compared to you I can still relate and understand them. Tbh idk if you will even see this amongst all the other comments, but I'll be wishing for you and all of us here to be able to move through life with less struggles and trauma then we already have and to live life more fully! Only been subbed for a month but ye ur one of my fav asmr streamers :) Take Care!
Hm, about Love and realationship dont rush it, i tried to rush too and it hurt me so hard and i was still Never in a relationship BUT Today i dont rush that anymore and i Feel so much better But i Hope you find soon what You want and what you need:3
I already found it! I'm glad it felt better for you for me I just go with what feels right for me and the other person. Rushing doesn't have to be a bad thing if it's not forced
You lonely? Can I have your Instagram? We can chit chat. I need friend too 🥺. Not friends.. just friend. One friend like you it will be enough for me to keep me alive..
Hi. I know probably it is not going to help so much but if you are interested we can talk on discord. I want to be your friend and if I need help to you. And you not have cancer right? It is so good to hear that you are better even tho I just found you. And with this video I think you are going to help to a lot of people (or atleast me).Much love!
06:20 Well, that's the beauty of online. We don't have to see all those stuff, and just focus on the aspects we like. I think this is probably why some Japanese males (maybe jokingly) say they prefer anime girls to real-life girls, because anime girls don't have all those stuff and have the pure essence of girls, sort of like table sugar and sugar cane.
In order to grow, we have to be uncomfortable... now we try everything to be comfy. To reject everything that feels bad but we will not be very well equipped with real life if all we do is avoid the discomfort. It's in the discomfort that we grow imo.
WAKE UP BABE NEW DOCILE VIDEO DROPPED 🗣🗣‼GOOD TO SEE YOU BACK❗
LMAO THANK YOU IMAD
@@docilecreamscan I make a video request
It’s good hearing that you’re doing better and taking steps outside your comfort zone for pleasant experiences that are making you happy such as signing up for dance class.
Continue marching forward! I’m rooting for you!
Awww thanks so much!
31:55 these are my thoughts exactly: i have wanted to start playing a sport for more than I can remember but seeing as all my successful peers have started a lot younger I've always been deterred from starting "late"
I discovered your channel yesterday and I instantly loved all your videos. I'm really happy to know you're feeling better, as someone who also needed to get help to deal with a period of hopelessness. It can feel like those thoughts are still in the back of my mind and resurface every once in a while, but you're giving me hope that maybe it is possible to complete this healing process.
Everyones journey is unique. But I truly believe it can get better and sometimes it has to get worse for it to get better. If I wouldn't have had the nervous breakdown that i did I would've never dared to change my life.
Hey Docile.
I listened to your story and ended up in tears in my car for an hour.
Although our problems are different, i relate to your struggles a lot and was overwhelmed with sadness for you, realizations in myself and joy and inspiration upon hearing how you persevered.
Having trauma or C/PTSD makes relationships and friendships so much more complicated than they should be and hearing that I'm not alone in this really made me feel something that i can't quite describe with words. Life has always been a struggle for me but of late it's been worse than usual, i needed to hear your words when i did.
Thank you for using your small platform to spread mental health support and advice to those in need.
Don't remember the exact quote, but it's something to the effect of "The unbearable need to be loved versus the excrutiating pain to be known".
To be honest, online is probably not a great place to look for meaningful relationships (not to say it's impossible) and it sounds like you came to a similiar conclusion. Not being yourself is simply too easy online and even someone who tries to act authentic might unintentionally slip into a persona of what they think would work for a given situation or person.
Going out and just meeting people without the expressed intent of finding someone is the right call in my opinion. It gets rid of the pressure to form a connection and won't leave you hurting that badly if it goes wrong.
Glad you're doing better and still getting better.
Just found the channel today after i got cheated on last weekend, its been rough but thanks for putting a smile on my face with some of these audios anyway ^^, saw the "neko BATTLES YOU" title and was like this is gonna be cute/funny , and did not disappoint in either aspect lol, i definitely struggle with like fear of abandonement and loneliness a fair bit and overall mentally not been doing too great for a long period but i think im heading in the right direction.
Starting to more and more appreciate the smaller things which is an angle i didnt really see in the past, and trying to slowly build a future i can be happy with step by step, I got quite lucky earlier this year landing my first job and have some great coworkers/boss so its always a good environment and i think that helps a ton too.
I'm not the best at advise but i do hope everything is going alright even if im just discovering the channel, don't let the world keep you down, you got this ❤
Oh I am so sorry to hear about the cheating, I have also been cheated on before I know how much it can hurt. However I am also so happy to hear that you are starting to appreciate the smaller things in life and that you landed your first job!!! Congratulations and I am so happy that you are treated well and feel good in that enviorment!
Change is slow and it is often times hard to see that things are improving but every little good thing you do for yourself adds up in the long run it really does seem to me you are on the right path too.
@ no worries about the rant, more so thanks for taking the time to read and get back to me ^^, happy new year!, may this one be better to the both of us
@@viviacon6416 Thank you
@ that's great :3, yeah still slowly figuring everything out, and perhaps I never fully will but I can def tell I'm changing for the better in the grand scheme of things, also have about every sleeping issue in the book so that's why I happened upon asmr stuff, gets overactive mind off stuff like intrusive thoughts and able to sleep, suppose now I'm the one ranting xD but hey
@@viviacon6416 No it's good!! So happy you progressing
Hoi, I'm new to your channel! I'm glad that you're still here! You've got this!
I just found your channel yesterday, watched the most recent videos and got a lil worried, and BOOM the next day you upload this!!! Glad to hear you're okay now! :)
Hello! I am very happy that You are feeling better! That's great that You are trying many things to feel better. Good luck, everything will be allright 😊
im coming back to this video after about half a year becus its had a big impact on my life. hearing yurr struggles and the way you dealt with it helped me realize how i needed to approach my own problems. my life has improved a lot in the past few months and i hafta attribute it all to this one video for starting my journey to self improvement. yurr an awesome purrsin docile :3c thank s a lottems
Oh my god that makes me so happy to hear!! 😍Thank you for sharing that with me and I am so happy that it helped you improve your own life, that is just so precious!!
You are awesome too and I am proud of you for having the bravery to take the steps needed, it can really be so hard at times! I feel for you and I am sharing your joy here. Wish you all the best this new year!!
You know it is kind of crazy to think that despite not uploading for a year 3 thousand people still cared enough to click on the video
It's midnight here and I luckily stumbled upon your asmr videos (I love the little sister ones). Glad to see you're back and feeling better!
been watching ya since the first vid, very happy to see you're doing better! please never stop uploading, i love the vids frfr
Hope you have a merry christmas and a happy new year!
Nice to hear from you again. Welcome back! ❤
Oh thank you UR!!!
I am happy you are doing better. We will be here. Welcome back.
Thank you hope you doing well too!
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Im glad to hear you again ♡
I will pray for you, hope you get even better
Thank you, I will pray for you too sweetheart thank you
No way I never thought this day will come!! I'm so happy to see you again!
it was really relaxing to listen to. relatable too, been trough lots of similar stuff. gotten a lot better by now trough lessons learned like for most things i dont actually need to do them. if somethings really difficult i dont need to force myself nor do i need to give up, can ask for help or try to find another equal way. When it comes to relationships, ill recommend vrchat, made many good friends trough there and met my so. touching grass is good too of course, but im quite neurodivergent
Oh that is amazing so happy for you!!!
This is so strange how similar my experience i had, im currently trying to get over a friend who just cut me off because she didnt trust to talk things out with me. I feel sad and i needed someone to hold as well. Your asmr videos strike true for me and are funny, i hope you are doing okay and keep on fighting! I will too!
Good to know you're ok
HI DOCILE!! I love love love to hear from you :')
Awwww long time no see doc
Ok uhh, I don't exactly know what to say that hasn't been said by everyone else, but here goes! :D
I'm extremely glad you're doing well! I personally have never gone through really persistent hardships like that, so I hesitate to say I can relate or imagine what it's like. But of course we all have ups and downs in life and I understand the anxiety of going outside one's comfort zones, doing something new or getting caught up in one's own thoughts. (omg i do that sometimes, just like me frfr)
It makes me genuinely happy to hear your story and even kinda inspired! You strike me as a kind, determined, thoughtful and genuine person and you should think the same of yourself too! No one deserves any less than true happiness. You talking about our thoughts not defining us and everything around that conversation really resonated with me and I've also recently been considering those things more (in relation to meditation and similar stuff, but that's besides the point).
Sorry for rambling a lot! 🙏 Despite obviously not really knowing you, this video just touched my heart and I wanted to try to put some of my thoughts into words. Anyways, once again, I'm glad you're doing well and am sending much love and hugs! 🫂 Thanks for the update, Docile!
I just recently found this channel and listened to both the anxiety video and this one. I really relate to everything. It's interesting to listen to someone go through the same trials and feel the same way but deal with them in such different ways than me. I hated myself for not being where i wanted to be in life and so i would punish myself over and over again pushing myself further into despair. I lost hope for the future and had no purpose. All I wanted to become was a good man but had no purpose to apply it. I was just waiting to die basically. This is something I still struggle with today but I'm better and it's nice to know I'm not alone and that you're doing better too. The best thing i ever did in the past year was trust my irl friend and go out with them more. Now i have a tight group of irl friends i go out with every week and it's helping a lot with my social anxiety. I'm just learning to put myself out there just like you are and do my best to keep the friends i make.
And if you're okay for making friends, i would like to get to know you better. (promise i don't ghost)
Hi again! I hope my previous comment helped you somewhat in the months it's been since then, that would be a relief to know.
Well, I don't know if I should feel blessed or cursed that JUST yesterday I had stopped by your channel to see if you were okay, and then the very next day you popped back up! I'm so happy to know you're doing well!!! (It was always in the back of my mind, and I know it's a bit irrational to be that worried but I can't help myself)
I'm beyond glad to hear that you're doing well compared to before, and that you're taking steps to do things that you're passionate about and that you're with family and being loved and appreciated because that's what you deserve!
And I'm really happy for you that you're doing all of this without medicating at all. I've been extremely dedicated to doing that for myself for years because I came to the realization that, in order to legitimately be able to stand on my own two feet against my depression, self doubts, and self deprecation, I needed to not rely on anything but myself and leaning on medication won't be enough to get through life. I'd seen a lot of people around me start to lean towards using various vices or medications to get them through the day (and I don't judge them for their decisions) but I wanted to be able to handle everything on my own and I'm glad that you're able to do the same.
And I absolutely feel you on how much I had started trying to make the Internet and social media friends my only means of socializing with others... I genuinely don't have many friends at all, and the few that I DO have are on discord (and among them I genuinely feel like one of them is slipping out of my life). I also felt it incredibly deeply when you brought up how easy it is to ghost people because of the lack of any actual faces/irl interaction because a very close friend on discord ghosted me a couple of years ago and it's been hard to let go of that since we had been close for 6+ years at that point.. it's pretty difficult to let those emotions go because you never get closure on that kind of relationship at all.
I wish someone could help me make friends or I could miraculously stumble into an extrovert by some lucky chance who could help me put myself out there, because as I am now I feel pretty hopeless and I get in my head about not feeling wanted and that I'm the problem. Not much that can be done other than trying to find people but its extremely difficult when I'm both introverted AND my hobbies are all very lonely, single-person activities... didn't set myself up for much success there unfortunately 😑
Gotta find some way to socialize I suppose.
I'm actually interested to hear your perspective on how you were taught to handle negative thoughts though, just letting that train of thought pass by and not feeling like you have to get on board.. truth be told I still struggle with that when it comes to existential thoughts and that's my biggest trigger that sends me spiraling. I definitely envy people who have the privilege of living in blissful ignorance of deeper mental traps and traumas, and I've also, on a few occasions, struggled with thoughts of "ending" things but I've managed to keep trucking on despite that and I'm doing okay for myself.
I've been living with my mom and brother just before, during covid, and up until now and while that would ordinarily be nice for most people in terms of emotional connections and feeling loved, my brother has Asperger's which makes him mostly incapable of connecting on an emotional level, and my mom is generally emotionally unavailable and rarely gives any physical signs of love, so I get extremely lonely at home even though I have family right here near me.. it's difficult but I'm managing, and I get how you must've felt being on your own during covid when you genuinely want connections and love and you're left with nothing but the people you've met online which can't quite fill the hole that humans need filled with genuine human contact and socializing.
But that aside, I'm just over the moon that you're doing okay! Like I said before, you are loved and appreciated by SO many people and I seriously appreciate and love you for the things you've given me, and even if other people didn't appreciate you then I would even if it was just me 😤
Keep doing your best out there and keep being your wonderful self because that's exactly who you should never be ashamed of being! So dance your heart out!
I am glad you are doing better Docile! We all missed you very much!
No way! I revisted your channel recently for some nostalgia and I am so happy you're doing well! Always have your chin up, remember that we are always here rooting for you, wherever venture you may take!
I just found your channel and i hella relate on the family part albeit differently?
Despite the uncertainties I've had regarding what i want to do with my life, one thing that's always been clear is wanting to be a father
Having a family
It's something i know i want to give my 100% into
Probably why i look for family connected rp asmrs however weird that may be
I have nothing else I want for certain
Idk why
Ig having a family of my own is my idea of happiness
That despite the heavy responsibilities with it, it's something I'd gladly tackle
Idk why i wrote this
Idk why i feel so hollow
I just wanna relax
Omg, I was going to turn on one of your videos for tonight and was so relieved when I saw there was an update video. Continue to surround yourself with friends! If you need help, tell them! Even if you don't think you're worth it or deserving to be heard, you're worth it to them and to everyone here in the comments.
Glad you're doing better, and sorry about how your life's been going. I know you can't really control your anxiety and so saying this won't really do much, but don't feel useless. Don't think the world is against you because so many people, whether it be online or people you know irl, want to help. So let us help.
Enjoy the rest of your break. Hope we can see you again soon, even if it is just for another mental health update.
Thank you sweetie
I cant lie you got me worried as hell but its good to see that your life is going in the right direction, dont expect recovery to always be smooth because life just doesnt work like that we all have our ups and down. I used to heavily rely on the idea that antidepressants would save me but i discovered that really isnt the case and I fear that things such as the side affects will make me possibly spiral even further.
Its been about 2 years and my life has been going great, nobody is alone on this journey. And I honestly with the best to whoever is reading this. 🥳🎉
Its great to hear that you are doing better and that you can find happiness in doing stuff without over thinking about “how stupid you would look”. Really proud of you as anxiety is a hard thing to overcome.
On a sidenote I hope anyone else who is combatting anxiety watches this whole video. Its really good 🙏
Love yall
It's great that you feel better, we'll all support you in every way possible. Good lick my dear and i wish you all the best. ❤
Hope everything has gone well ❤
You made my night. Im glad you're feeling better now. Please know that we all support you.😊
Yea humans are social creatures deep down. Glad to hear that your parents were being supportive during this. I wish you luck on your continued healing journey.
Thanks very much :]
Happy to hear from you and that you are doing good. It’s important to put your own wellbeing first. I hope that your journey can successfully continue in the right direction and that you are proud of yourself! Thank you for giving the update.
Glad you're back. Keep strong and go on. You've got this.
This was a wonderful video to comfort me in place of the ASMR I was looking for tonight when finding this. Thank you for the update. (And your great ASMR.)
I'm really happy that you're doing better. i hope you keep us updated on how you're doing❤
I'm very happy to hear that you are feeling better. Sending lots of hugs. I hope things continue to be nice to you.
A new video! 😮, wasn't expecting that but definitely a nice surprise, Welcome back =)
Hi Vapid long time no see hope you been well
! I not back just updating :3 but thanks!
Not too bad thanks, just listing to the video now. Well even if it's not a return, thanks for the update and I'm glad to hear you are doing better ❤️
Wooooo glad to see any upload from you at all.
I'll listen to the rest of this video later, but I'm super happy to see you're doing better and are in a much better place. I hope you'll be uploading again soon, but I'm more than willing to wait for as long as it takes for you to feel ready for it
Hey you’re back!! I’m so happy! It’s nice to hear that you’re feeling better, this is legit the only status up date (the old video and this one) that I have watched completely through for any UA-camr or content creator in general. I’ve only discovered your channel relatively recently, like a few weeks before this post but you’ve quickly become my favorite channel. I’m sorry for all that stuff that’s happened to you, I’m happy that you’ve found a way to improve and heal, even if it’s not fully it’s going through the process!! You’re great, you’ve got this!!
Really glad to hear that you're doing better!
Remember to take all the time you need, we'll always be here when you're ready! :)
Wooooow can't believe Ur baaack 🥺😩
So happy to hear that you're doing better. Best wishes 😊.
I’m so.. So happy you’re doing better. After your last video I checked UA-cam like almost everyday for any updates for at least four months, I tried reaching out, but I didn’t know how… So seeing that you’re doing ok makes me feel so happy, so relieved.
I think I might have gotten too attached to you, haha.
I am okay please don't worry !
@@docilecreamsI wish you rambled a bit longer… But again, thanks for the update. Love you lots.
So glad to hear you are doing better docile! It has been awhile I hope you are here to stay for awhile!
Thank you Skull
Welcome back Docile! Missed you :)
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experience, it really helps as a little reminder even if we all go through different stuff.
But it's also kinda comforting, hearing other people's stories.
So thank you a lot ❤
Also, keep in mind that you're awesome and there'll be always someone thinking about you, wishing you all the best.
Thank you, I mean it!
YEAH DOCILE'S BACK! awesome stuff that you're doing better, keep on chuggin :D 👍
omg my heart when the noti popped up Glad to hear you're doing alright ♥
Thank you so much
Thank you for the update and sharing your story with us. 💜Can definitely relate to a lot of stuff you mentioned. But I'm happy to hear that you're doing better. ☺ Hell yeah to living life and doing things! 💪
Good to hear from you again! And glad to hear youre doing better!
I had my apartment right after graduating highschool hand to end my lease to go help my mom and i was happy being along ngl didn't feel that different just less problems
I am so unbelievably Proud of you, it can be so damn hard to push through our hard times, I can relate to that recently, so keep going, keep on stepping, hope your taking care of yourself out there no matter what~ 😊💚🫂
i pray for your wellbeing🙏
Awww I pray for your well being too
Omg HELLO!!!🤗(Virtual Hug is loading)
Virtually hugging you back!
Glad to know you're doing better ☺️
Oh my lord. She’s back and she’s experiencing new things, I’m proud!
nice to know you’re doing better hope everything goes well! ❤❤❤
I dunno if you’re still reading these comments, I hope you are, but something that I hope might help you is something I actually read on TikTok of all places. It’s basically this “10 likes is a lot, imagine if 10 people came up to you JUST to compliment you” now you have thousands of people coming up to you and complimenting you. So when you’re feeling down or relapsing, I hope this comes to mind and helps you get through it. I just watched your other video where you vented and related to everything you talked about. im glad to hear youre doing well now and hope you never have to deal with this shit ever again
OMGGGGG QUEENS BACK I HOPE LIFES BEEN GOOD RAAA
Hewwo, erm just finished listening to the whole vid, yeah, dunno what to say mostly except that I agree a lot with the points that you've made and even though I have different struggles compared to you I can still relate and understand them.
Tbh idk if you will even see this amongst all the other comments, but I'll be wishing for you and all of us here to be able to move through life with less struggles and trauma then we already have and to live life more fully! Only been subbed for a month but ye ur one of my fav asmr streamers :) Take Care!
IM LATE BUT THE QUEEN HAS RETURNEDDDDD ‼️‼️🤯🤯🗣️🗣️
Welcome back. 😊
very glad to see youre fine ❤
Yay, thank you! :)
WOAHHHHHHH UR BACK, WE MISSED YOU!
Wow look who is still alive!!!
Hm, about Love and realationship dont rush it, i tried to rush too and it hurt me so hard and i was still Never in a relationship BUT Today i dont rush that anymore and i Feel so much better
But i Hope you find soon what You want and what you need:3
I already found it! I'm glad it felt better for you for me I just go with what feels right for me and the other person. Rushing doesn't have to be a bad thing if it's not forced
@@docilecreams oh Really?😀 im so Happy for you!😭🔥
@@nl0ckes151 Thank you sweetheart!
NEW DOCILE so glad ur alive
Whoa a new episode just dropped 😯🛐🩷💜
Omg shes back boys
WE SHOULD ALL GROUP HUG
Gooosh 😢❤
Yeayyy 🤭 I miss you 😢😢
You lonely? Can I have your Instagram? We can chit chat. I need friend too 🥺. Not friends.. just friend. One friend like you it will be enough for me to keep me alive..
I just found you and I hope you’re doing better now
Thank you
NEW DOCILE CREAMS VIDEO LETS GOOOOOO AAAAAAAA
DAD WAKE UP DOCILE CREAMS POSTED 🎉🎉🎉
❤️❤️❤️🙌🏻
❤❤❤
yeAYYY!!!! :DDD
UR LTERALY THE SAMW AS ME except idk somehow i dont have social anxiety maybe bc i jsut hold up a persona.. uh but YEAH some of the stuff is relatab
lol legit was wondering when u gonna return
like a ghost from the past
2 comment damn haven't done this in ages lol I missed it
Hi. I know probably it is not going to help so much but if you are interested we can talk on discord. I want to be your friend and if I need help to you. And you not have cancer right?
It is so good to hear that you are better even tho I just found you. And with this video I think you are going to help to a lot of people (or atleast me).Much love!
06:20 Well, that's the beauty of online. We don't have to see all those stuff, and just focus on the aspects we like. I think this is probably why some Japanese males (maybe jokingly) say they prefer anime girls to real-life girls, because anime girls don't have all those stuff and have the pure essence of girls, sort of like table sugar and sugar cane.
In order to grow, we have to be uncomfortable... now we try everything to be comfy. To reject everything that feels bad but we will not be very well equipped with real life if all we do is avoid the discomfort. It's in the discomfort that we grow imo.
🫂
Tbh I’m less here for the asmr and more to make sure you’re ok at this point
Also damn girl you left us on hold for 8 months did I miss anything?
I WAS LITERALLY WONDERING IF YOU’RE ALRIGHT.
Wow. As long as you need! 🫶🏻
Eyyyyyyy welcome back