dropping out of college, but a mukbang

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  • @ericaa.8400
    @ericaa.8400 5 років тому +237

    Food taste better when you’re crying.

  • @adelegekonge985
    @adelegekonge985 5 років тому +1462

    Representing Sudan with the sweat shirt color💪🏿👏🏽❤️

    • @ayaashraf-wr8ki
      @ayaashraf-wr8ki 5 років тому +123

      I am very thankful that people are catching up with Sudan, it really helps and we Sudanis are very grateful.

    • @ykvarr3784
      @ykvarr3784 5 років тому +31

      Just because somebody wears the color blue doesn’t mean their supporting Sudan 😭💀.

    • @kaifoster
      @kaifoster  5 років тому +88

      Lavarr TM well in this case i was

    • @adelegekonge985
      @adelegekonge985 5 років тому +22

      H S Mohamed Matter was one of the victims of the massacre and was shot trying to protect two women and was a 26 year old engineer and his favorite color was blue.Blue also represents solidarity......

    • @dontleaveamessage
      @dontleaveamessage 5 років тому +1

      Adele Gekonge bless your soul

  • @kingjunior9206
    @kingjunior9206 5 років тому +1218

    My parents have always told me the only way you will succeed is college, but honestly college isn’t for everyone you have to do what makes you happy and what you love and if what you love is UA-cam then go for it boo 💯

    • @zanderhamilton7908
      @zanderhamilton7908 5 років тому +49

      Yeah, when I saw that title I thought, "Oh, damn. If I did that my parents would disown me!" Honestly, though, I think more people need to realize that, especially in this new evolving society, college isn't as necessary as you think. It may be for some people, and maybe for not. For some it may even be a complete waste of time.

    • @ayaashraf-wr8ki
      @ayaashraf-wr8ki 5 років тому +31

      Honestly! I believe that we are very lucky to live in this age were you can build a brand through social media and the internet. Sell jewellery on etsy,make clothes on instagram. The possibilities are endless.

    • @kyatri9496
      @kyatri9496 5 років тому +10

      king junior yeah that’s really such a toxic mindset parents put on their child . I can relate

    • @kingjunior9206
      @kingjunior9206 5 років тому +13

      AγA AγA yes we truly are lucky it’s just the old generation doesn’t want to see these new way in making it in life because it’s not the way they grew up and we’re taught and a kid which sucks cause there probably many young people that are in college think this isn’t for them but they’re doing it not for them but because their parents are making them

    • @xxmaarilyn
      @xxmaarilyn 5 років тому +14

      Actually, most people will need to go to college or some kind of trade school to be successful or reach certain socioeconomic levels. It’s not a coincidence that as a whole, those with only a high school diploma or not even that, occupy the lower socioeconomic levels. There’s nothing wrong with dropping out to focus more on UA-cam, unless you don’t have legitimate and realistic plans since every UA-camr’s views eventually drastically drop.

  • @MilesCarterNC
    @MilesCarterNC 5 років тому +184

    "I'm me, and I'm the only person who knows me best"

  • @liaholmes5468
    @liaholmes5468 5 років тому +701

    It sounded like she was choking up while talking and even if she wasn’t crying...I started to cry.

    • @mahaliac.5044
      @mahaliac.5044 5 років тому +1

      same

    • @vyarnier6425
      @vyarnier6425 4 роки тому +3

      Lia Holmes right ! i can tell she was just sooo sadddd ! 🥺🥺

    • @kimikokimi
      @kimikokimi 4 роки тому +1

      Same, but I kept telling myself it’s because she’s eating at the same time lol

  • @alias6001
    @alias6001 5 років тому +709

    Kai are you maybe putting too much pressure on yourself to figure this all out right this second. give yourself some space ma

  • @BadAxxBree
    @BadAxxBree 5 років тому +593

    I started at community college after being out of high school for a few years, I didn't attend college straight after. Not only was this a great decision economically, I learned how to enjoy being a student again. I think that the best thing that high school graduates can do is wait and figure out what they want to do first before jumping into the next step. I do not think that it is fair for people (adults/parents/guidance counselors) to force teenagers to make a major life decision (attending college). You all are still growing and the human brain is not fully developed until the age of 25. Gap years and discussions about other options than directly going to college right after high school should be discussed more.

    • @SLEEVEASMR
      @SLEEVEASMR 5 років тому +24

      YES!! go community colleges !! ❤️❤️❤️

    • @bhaddassbre
      @bhaddassbre 5 років тому +44

      I too went to a community college, but straight out of high school. I went to a middle college got a scholarship to continue on at the community college for 2 years, which was great for me bc I couldn’t afford to go off to school even after when the scholarships would cover. I now go to UNC on a full-ride and honestly have saved up so much money and know that I made the best choice.

    • @ldive
      @ldive 5 років тому +7

      Breyia’s Interlude can you tell me how it was like going that route? Was it tougher than the original college path? Please go into details because I’m thinking of doing the same route as u 😂

    • @ashleewoods9205
      @ashleewoods9205 5 років тому +20

      This! I have been telling kids at my church that you do not have to attend college if you're not ready or interested. College is a huge investment and if you don't want to go, you're wasting money. If you need a year, take a year (or however). Kids at my church have been forced into thinking that college is the only way to go when it's not. You can be successful without having to go to college.

    • @SLEEVEASMR
      @SLEEVEASMR 5 років тому +11

      @@ldive i can't speak for Breyia but for me it was easy for me, the only thing that was tough was probably my parents opposition because they hated cc and had so many misconceptions about it. My first year i saw cc as "okay only 2 years then i can transfer to my dream school" but things change, it was so much different than what i had imagined. Financially/Mentally cc is such a smart decision! You save a lot of money but you also knock out the general education requirements so that when you transfer to your 4 year, you can go straight into your major related class. I highly suggest going to a cc, don't look past it for sure!

  • @Caiti_Mackenzie
    @Caiti_Mackenzie 5 років тому +337

    i really understood and felt this video kai. please take all the time you need to do what you love. we all love and support you endlessly.

    • @leonnaharris4529
      @leonnaharris4529 5 років тому +2

      Caiti's Corner yeah exactly I was just telling a friend a few days ago that I’m all down for people taking time out for yourselves it’s honestly vital bcz you will go insane so I just pray she takes time out to breath and relax and when ever she’s ready then proceed on what she wants to do next 🙏🏾 prayers for her

  • @desireenorah_
    @desireenorah_ 5 років тому +361

    On the bright side, your skin looks great !😂

    • @mm5xo
      @mm5xo 5 років тому +13

      Desiree Norah we-

    • @gil5885
      @gil5885 5 років тому +17

      u aint lyin.

  • @giabradford5280
    @giabradford5280 5 років тому +224

    Mukbangs make everything more lighthearted because food makes everything more lighthearted

  • @1Jasmin2000
    @1Jasmin2000 5 років тому +78

    My dad is such a “that’s life” ass person like I’m trying to express to you that I am depressed and I’m not happy right now but “that’s life” no it’s sickening
    Edit: Kai this video is literally me all in one except I didn’t go to college. I know I am not happy and it’s not gonna make me happy until I get my mental stability right enough for me to function properly.

  • @DB-fc8xc
    @DB-fc8xc 5 років тому +33

    “College is a great insecure path If you can afford it “ -Kai
    I totally felt that....

  • @mckenziejackson4029
    @mckenziejackson4029 5 років тому +554

    you can do this Kai!!!You’re stronger than you know you are ❤️

  • @KennedyJ5776
    @KennedyJ5776 5 років тому +344

    Kai don’t get discouraged, keep doing what makes you happy and continue to take care of yourself.😕💕

  • @skyblue340
    @skyblue340 5 років тому +343

    40th like. Dang, I remember you graduating high school. Seeing you sad makes me sad :(

  • @brianal846
    @brianal846 4 роки тому +4

    College definitely made me depressed and my anxiety is to the roof. Some days me taking a shower is an accomplishment. It’s sad but I don’t wanna be there. I’m only there for my parents but I’m finna make a decision for myself soon. Hopefully with everything else I do, I do it with passion and I love it.

  • @micaiahsalau
    @micaiahsalau 5 років тому +102

    Dang. I felt this video. And me, having Nigerian parents, don't make it any better because they truly don't understand the concept of doing anything else but getting an education in a "promising" career field.

    • @alextroy9202
      @alextroy9202 5 років тому

      Micaiah Harris same

    • @Goonztz
      @Goonztz 4 роки тому +1

      I think they're just playing it safe. A lot of other careers that don't require college require luck and are rare to become successful in.

  • @kimberlyvega444
    @kimberlyvega444 5 років тому +68

    this video made me tear up because the part when you said parents telling you going to college is the only way hit me. i’m going into my senior year and still don’t know what i’m going to do and i feel so much pressure

    • @Svssy
      @Svssy 5 років тому +3

      Kimberly THIS!!! So true! I’m a senior too and everyone always ask me what I’m going to do afterwards and I literally have no clue

    • @daniellaamavi1518
      @daniellaamavi1518 5 років тому

      This is me no cap 😪

    • @destinyfleming4680
      @destinyfleming4680 5 років тому

      Sane I’m about to be a senior too and I don’t know wtf to do

    • @arianna7642
      @arianna7642 5 років тому

      i’m about to be a senior too and i feel the same way.

  • @adelegekonge985
    @adelegekonge985 5 років тому +195

    The most important thing is your mental health.....love you kai.....and keep taking care of yourself ❤️❤️

  • @kennedyjenkins2551
    @kennedyjenkins2551 5 років тому +124

    Wow, I can't tell you how much I needed to hear this right now

  • @giabradford5280
    @giabradford5280 5 років тому +92

    In all seriousness, thank you so much for this video. I took a gap year after graduating high school last year and now I still don't know if I want to go to university. Like you, my passion that I already make money from doesn't require a degree and is seen as impractical. I just don't want to waste years at university when I could've spent that time pursuing my dream and being mentally in a better place. There's a saying I think about a lot. "The graveyard is the richest place in the world because that's where dreams go to die, inventions that weren't created, books unwritten." I'm really struggling with this. Like you, if I don't go to college I'll have to find a place to live on my own etc. I also have the mentality "tomorrow isn't guaranteed". I don't want to wait to pursue my dreams and then by the time I'm done with college it's too late. It's hard, I understand. I also worry that I only want to go to college for the social aspects. Yes, I want to learn, etc but at the end of the day I really don't know if that's enough to justify me going. I said I would go this year and see if it's for me. Then again if I end up dropping out I'm still in a bunch of debt. But maybe I'll go and I'll really love it and learn. Just wish I could see the future and go down both roads simultaneously so I know which one is right for me 😂

  • @SimplyFaith97
    @SimplyFaith97 5 років тому +83

    You and I have the same issue. We want to enjoy every aspect of life whether it’s pursuing our passions or traveling the world but don’t have the freedom, monetary resources or the support system to back us up when we NEED it the most. I attend an HBCU as well and yes the social aspect is wonderful but if you’re depressed half the time, you can’t enjoy it and I’m a witness for that. One day we’ll have the life that we dream and pray for. For now, we just have to deal what we have, work towards what we want and try to look at things in a positive light. Keep up the great content girl 💕

  • @spoiledsag
    @spoiledsag 5 років тому +396

    i came way too early and checked the comments just to see if she was playing with us 😭

  • @brianal846
    @brianal846 4 роки тому +3

    I hide my depression well because I don’t want anyone in my business. But when someone noticed the other day, I completely broken down. Life is supposed to be happy and free while being stable. College isn’t that for me anymore. I’m on a new path. This is my last semester and from here on out... my goal is to be happy again. I miss the happy me.

  • @ivanah3046
    @ivanah3046 5 років тому +91

    the way i see it is, you get ~content~ for UA-cam from the college experience. It's an experience that everyone is interested in. Also once you get that degree in three years (which in less time than it may seem) you'll have something to fall back on. You can't predict the future and you never know if UA-cam could just be like "aight y'all we out" as many social media platforms do. But getting that your degree is just something that is so helpful to have under your wing ~just in case~ and if you even get to use the degree then that's a bonus! Why not do both? Get that degree AND slaughter the UA-cam game. You're potential is endless. Stay strong Kai. I love your ambition!! (i'm not saying this is the right way and i'm def not telling you what to do, it's just my opinion) sorry i'm a scorpio this might be a little agressive,, ily tho

    • @briannavaughn6772
      @briannavaughn6772 5 років тому +22

      ivanah lol I’m A Scorpio too and I understand where u coming from. Social media isn’t guaranteed. TBH college isn’t the only way to be successful and happy in life. Everyone has their view of college. I feel that if your trying to be a nurse, a doctor, business, teacher, anything of such than yeah you need a degree. But just being an artist, photographer... than no. That’s more of a talent.... but that’s just my opinion... Ik people who have a full ride to college and major in photography, music, dance or arts.

    • @mirasobad9799
      @mirasobad9799 4 роки тому +3

      Having a degree doesn’t mean you’ll get a job out the gate either I know people who still work minimum wage jobs with degrees because they haven’t gotten a interview or anything

    • @ivanah3046
      @ivanah3046 4 роки тому +6

      @@mirasobad9799 im not saying you're guaranteed a job, I'm just saying it's a good thing to have in your bag if you have the opportunity to get one. It definitely helps. Especially with learning the in and outs of whatever field she's interested in whether it be film or communications. BUT honestly YOLO, she has to do what's right for her. More power to her for being woke enough to see that college is not a MUST in order to be successful :))

    • @kasoniasmith3927
      @kasoniasmith3927 4 роки тому

      @@ivanah3046 so true

    • @chynawilson3223
      @chynawilson3223 3 роки тому

      That’s easy to say but when your done with college and in debt with a job that doesn’t pay your bills or your debt you think hey I could have put all my effort into my passion and still do online or community college later it’s never gonna go away

  • @TamiaMakay
    @TamiaMakay 5 років тому +62

    We are lowkey so alike it’s weird lol?? this past semester, I was just talking to my friend about dropping out bc I was so unhappy and I never feel like I have time for my craft (writing, and creating in general). my lack of financial stability is really what’s keeping me in college (going into my third year) and what’s holding me back from pursuing what I know of love doing and taking a leap, like creating videos, even if it means I won’t be happy for a while and that’s hella depressing. I literally hate college but because I need it as a clutch, I still go. I’m not doing it for anyone else but myself. I’ve literally wanted to be a UA-camr since I was like 12, but was always too scared, and I still am.
    I’m jealous of everyone who is able to take the leap and do what they love doing. I wish I was that brave, truly. I know it’s not too late for me, I’m literally only 20, but it’s scary 😪

    • @courtreezy
      @courtreezy 5 років тому +7

      Tamia Makay omg I’m in the same position. Literally hate college and I know UA-cam is what I should be doing but never have time. Definitely putting my all into UA-cam now and I hope you can too!!! Do what makes you happy and the success will come!! 💓💓

  • @khadijahslife8111
    @khadijahslife8111 5 років тому +92

    You’re legit the first UA-camr that I plan on buying merch from😭

  • @thebraelynkhire
    @thebraelynkhire 5 років тому +22

    This is very relatable. I’m 26 and still figuring my life out .

  • @EtherealNikki
    @EtherealNikki 5 років тому +42

    Glad I’m not the only one that feels this way after my freshman year in college. Lol I appreciate ur realness ❤️

  • @omolegho.a4845
    @omolegho.a4845 5 років тому +75

    THIS TITLE GOT ME TRIPPINGGG

  • @tervelageorgieva
    @tervelageorgieva 5 років тому +57

    Thank you so much for your honesty...I just got through my freshman year of college too and it's so nice to see someone recognize the complexity of the college/adulthood transition. 😊

  • @filmhashira
    @filmhashira 5 років тому +16

    This type of transparency is why I fw this channel so much 💯

    • @victoriav202
      @victoriav202 5 років тому

      Kontroversii Right ❤️
      If you could please check out my channel and if you could please subscribe.

  • @katrashire9719
    @katrashire9719 5 років тому +30

    Opening up must have been difficult. Props to you for being real asf with your audience sis‼️

  • @ilovealotofthings216
    @ilovealotofthings216 4 роки тому +3

    As someone who suffers from crippling depression this video helped me validate a lot of the emotions I was having. I had such a good cry after this video. Thank you so much Kai. 💜💜💜

  • @catherineyanke8025
    @catherineyanke8025 4 роки тому +1

    Living with depression and anxiety is a bitch. And when people say that’s life or people tell me to choose happiness. Uh.. yeah, I’m trying my fucking hardest. But thanks for reminding that I suck even more today.
    Keep fighting! And you will find that happiness! That we are all looking for.

  • @theythrive2521
    @theythrive2521 5 років тому +121

    I like the schooling aspect of school (im in a liberal arts college) but struggle with the social aspect :( and it makes me sooo sad

    • @deebestest100
      @deebestest100 5 років тому +8

      Marvelous Melanin same 😭 I just finished my first year of university and it was SO trash. I’m hoping my second year will be better.

    • @jackien404
      @jackien404 5 років тому +1

      Hi, I’m curious as to what liberal arts college you’re attending. Can you also tell about your experience, especially why you struggle socially.. I’m going to be an hs senior and I want to know as much as possible

    • @theythrive2521
      @theythrive2521 5 років тому +5

      ​@@jackien404 Im at Albion College, it's in MI. Actually, I've always just struggled socially because i never felt like i really fit in. I grew up in a predominately white school, so i guess u can say i adopted some of their culture (which made the few blacks that did go to my school think i was white/boujee/whatever) yet i was raised in a black household and many people at my hs were racist, because of that i didn't hardly any friends and as a result, a little socially awk. /shy. HEre at albion is a lot better than hs, but because i don't feel comfortable at social situations it deters me away from approaching people first and going to parties(which almost everyone goes to parties). I will say though, i have been approached a lot more here and had people try to talk to me and that's the only reason i have any friends lol (': so u might have a different experience. not to talk bad about my school but i gotta keep it real.... albion still has had a few racist incidences...last year someone at college kept putting a kkk sign outside of a freshmen black kids door(they eventually found them) and also, the school is expensive af' and they have loopholes to make u pay. If u want more questions/ info. i can make a video or u can snapchat/email/instagram me?

    • @jackien404
      @jackien404 5 років тому +1

      Island Gyal why not transfer instead of hope?

    • @Ringdingdong206
      @Ringdingdong206 4 роки тому

      Ughhhhh same

  • @soniaa2327
    @soniaa2327 5 років тому +12

    10:30-10:55 I relaaattteeee coz I'm going to college and I just want a college experience living in dorms since I've done it before when I was even younger. My family expects me to follow a law-path even if I loove music. It breaks my heart that my happiness is compared to "growing up too fast" or "acting independent" and "going astray" I don't wanna be stuck in the cycle of compromising to the point where I compromise my entire life. I respect my mother's advice but to a certain extent she only expects her wish and not my need. Despite the fact that we can learn so much on our own, they fear letting us go so much so that we lose ourselves in their protective arms. You resonate so much and I need to hear this TODAY coz I broke down more than twice today for this.

  • @anyasannicolas1408
    @anyasannicolas1408 5 років тому +8

    Honestly, I just finished my first year of college and this had me on the edge of tears with how much it resonated. You seem like you know yourself really well, and like your experience with stability versus happiness showed you what is best for yourself as a person. There is wisdom in that. Thank you so much for sharing, this was very brave. Your mental health is the most important thing, and you are capable of getting through this. Please take care of yourself.

  • @SoulSugarJoint
    @SoulSugarJoint 3 роки тому +1

    I relate to this SO. MUCH. It’s the social life for me and zoom university has left me so burnt out. Howard gave me what I needed and we’re not even going back so I’m good.

  • @heavenshorter-martin7114
    @heavenshorter-martin7114 5 років тому +101

    You could get a degree in business and that can help grow your brand 🤷🏽‍♀️

    • @lisas8080
      @lisas8080 3 роки тому

      The college experience is one of the most expansive and liberating experiences no matter what you do; meet a ton of people, study abroad, take classes you want to take with some of the leading minds of the day, the capacity to explore so much with so much support in so many dimensions is unparalleled. It's a limited window. Don't miss out on it. I haven't heard you say anything that you want that wouldn't be ENHANCED by college. What I do hear is depression and that can distort our perception of reality. I'd recommend taking 6 months off to seriously deal with that with intense cognitive behavioral therapy and maybe even meds. But I'd go back to college because it is fertile ground for developing what you say you want to build. And there are greats schools in Chicago you could attend.

  • @sharadeshae
    @sharadeshae 5 років тому +15

    Idk why but this video made me cry. I really do appreciate your vulnerability kai💪🏽

  • @hopeterrell6885
    @hopeterrell6885 5 років тому +10

    im glad you were able to release how you feel in this video... just know we support you throughout all your endeavors and we love you no matter what you do! you'll find your place and where you're meant to be eventually, i promise it'll come. even though i'm younger than you i know that you're at a crucial age where you're just trying to figure it all out. one day you will be so happy i'm claiming it for you!!!

  • @alysmith13
    @alysmith13 5 років тому +48

    Creating your own path is very brave and inspirational, thank you Kai ☺️

    • @rachealwashington5662
      @rachealwashington5662 5 років тому

      shes not going on her own path at the end of the video she said shes going back to school sadly

    • @alysmith13
      @alysmith13 5 років тому +2

      racheal washington I know that, but the whole video she was saying that college is not the only path to take, and I thought that was very inspirational.

  • @shebasow4869
    @shebasow4869 5 років тому +6

    This was extremely well said and articulated so clearly. I totally understand you even being someone pursuing a college degree next year in engineering. College is definitely not for everyone and there’s nothing wrong with that. Good luck girl

  • @rachel.angelica
    @rachel.angelica 5 років тому +6

    Kai..sweet Kai. I've followed your journey since high school and I've always been so amazed and proud of the young lady you were and the woman you were growing to be. Don't feel sad or discouraged. I think there's so much pressure for teenagers to immediately go to college right after HS and that sometimes is not the best option.
    In high school I was honestly a shitty student. I had no passion for learning, no goals, no motivation. I know you were a great student...but I'll get to my point in a second. Anyway.. I went 13 years after HS working job after job. I always said college wasn't for me. I went back to school two years ago and started off small at a community college where I got my first degree. I was an A student, graduated with honors, Dean's list etc... it took me yeaaaaaars before I was mentally mature and ready for school. I'm not saying you have to wait that long. But sometimes we just aren't ready and thats ok! I now have a passion for learning. I love school. I care about my grades and the work I produce. I know if I had done it as a teenager or even as an early adult, I probably would not have been able to make it. It's ok to take time off to grow and figure out the world and life.
    I'm now working on my second degree and then plan on attending law school next. Maybe college isn't right for you right now. Maybe later it will be. Maybe it won't be. Just do what makes you happy and proud of yourself. Only you truly know what's best for you. Keep your head up. You're so smart and strong. I wish I was half as strong and level headed as you at this age.
    Sending you love & encouragement. ♡

  • @kaylatysinger3672
    @kaylatysinger3672 5 років тому +53

    Im starting my freshman year this upcoming August, and this was therapeutic to me on so many different levels. Never related to anything more.

  • @TamiaMakay
    @TamiaMakay 5 років тому +21

    I loved everything you talked about in this. We gon figure out, eventually.

  • @mykhailhelm4294
    @mykhailhelm4294 5 років тому +1

    girl, i relate to this video soo much. i also, just finished my first year of college and i honestly have never been so lost, mentally, in my life. my mom would never agree for me to take any other routes (gap year, or community college). it’s so hard being in this weird stage in your life, where your parents still pay for your life... but your an “adult”.

  • @britjamison5944
    @britjamison5944 5 років тому +1

    This talk helped a lot. I'm sending you all my love & I'm so incredibly proud of you for taking the path that YOU want to take. You've been my escape for a long time now, even if it's just a 10 minute video. You WILL get through & be happy, it won't feel like this forever. I appreciate you more than you know.

  • @_StephOnTop
    @_StephOnTop 5 років тому +6

    THANK YOUUU!!! SAY IT LOUDER FOR THE BACK!! I’m sooo glad you posted this!

  • @denisewatkins4218
    @denisewatkins4218 5 років тому +8

    Girl I'm 51 and still feel like that...do you and be happy

  • @alihoffman3144
    @alihoffman3144 5 років тому +34

    Love you girl!! Keep up the great work you are an amazing person. Do what makes you happy!!❤️

  • @Taayooo
    @Taayooo 5 років тому +1

    I am at a loss for words. I applaud you for being the most authentic you have ever been on this channel and using your voice. I am a true supporter of you Kai, and I really want you to succeed in whatever you do. Love you 💛

  • @zoeyjones7496
    @zoeyjones7496 5 років тому +5

    Girll, thx for makin this. Left, right, up, down. Lifes crazy n finally someone said it. Ugh, thx

  • @shareckabyrd
    @shareckabyrd 5 років тому +1

    Every word you said throughout the ENTIRE video resonated with me. I legit was talking to myself about the exact same things you were speaking on. I appreciate every thing everyone has done for me but I want to be financially stable and not feel like I'm a burden. Love the video♥️

  • @tashana469
    @tashana469 5 років тому +6

    college is always gonna be here but your happiness may fade away so do what’s best for you kai

  • @creewilliams9997
    @creewilliams9997 5 років тому

    This is your breakthrough. Keep this energy because you’re saying things that most people want to say but can’t. Thank you for this.

  • @tn.wx3533
    @tn.wx3533 5 років тому +2

    Kai I just want to say I’m grateful to have you as someone to look up to, not to add any pressure, you talk about situations I have yet to encounter yet I can still relate to you. I also have situational depression and you make life make sense. I only have older brothers but I’m glad I have someone like you to receive influencing advice from, so thank you!💕🙏🏽

  • @beril6807
    @beril6807 5 років тому +5

    this was honestly so amazing and inspiring and i hope that in the future you can continue to do what makes you happy and not let the opinions of others jeopardize your happiness

  • @mikhaellockhart4925
    @mikhaellockhart4925 5 років тому

    Thank you for continuing to be so vulnerable. I encourage you to follow whatever makes you happy. Follow your heart and instincts. And I know that’s easier said than done. ❤️

  • @abi-yx5wl
    @abi-yx5wl 5 років тому +1

    Damn. You really struck a chord in me fam. It takes bravery to go down the road less traveled. Lately, I’ve been thinking about whether you need college for success and happiness, and I’m glad I’m not alone in this! I support you!! You got this shit!!!

  • @DDKDR1
    @DDKDR1 5 років тому

    you literally spoke on EVERYTHING im currently going through! we gone get through this tho. there is a light at the end of this tunnel

  • @Aceglib
    @Aceglib 5 років тому +1

    I love the open discussion and spotlight on what seems like a vast majority of other people have accepted or swept under the rug sis!!!!❤️😩😩😩 you’re definitely not alone

  • @lloganpeters
    @lloganpeters 5 років тому +14

    My freshman year at Howard was really rough. Even had to stay off campus at home that spring semester bc it was such a toll on my anxiety. I wish you the best of luck! Things always get worse before they get better and I can definitely tell you they do. 💛

    • @priscahermene9107
      @priscahermene9107 5 років тому +1

      Llogan Peters would it still be as difficult if I transfer there from a different college, like after my sophomore year at another college?

    • @lloganpeters
      @lloganpeters 5 років тому +2

      Prisca Hermene hello! I’ve learned in my almost 3 years at being at Howard that college itself really is what you make of it. Howard feels like home now for me and the environment is a very accepting and loving place. I’d definitely say give the campus a tour before you decide to fully transfer, but I believe that if you visit and you like the energy and can visualize yourself succeeding and thriving in that environment then it could be an excellent choice. There are also a lot of transfer students who come to Howard and love it. It’s honestly what you make of it. I’d say definitely give it a tour though, Howard could change your life for the best.

    • @priscahermene9107
      @priscahermene9107 5 років тому +1

      Llogan Peters thanks. I honestly plan on transferring anywhere Cz I just some distance and Howard is my people soo😂🤷🏾‍♀️

    • @lloganpeters
      @lloganpeters 5 років тому

      Prisca Hermene 😂 I wish you the best of luck!

  • @laurensmith8333
    @laurensmith8333 5 років тому +4

    I reaaaally needed this🙏🏽 thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

  • @deViianceTV
    @deViianceTV 5 років тому +1

    This is really the video I needed to see especially right now.
    For the past year my life has been shit. Technically the past 4 years of my life have been shit. I don't wanna come on here venting about my unimportant life story to you or anyone else, but I relate to you having situational depression.
    My goal for the next year or so is to be happy and secure in myself. I want to love myself. My passion is art and digital art/graphic design and in 10 years I want to make my own mark. But I constantly feel like I have baggage and waking up just feels like an accomplishment on its own.
    I just want you to know that you should make decisions based on what you want. Family and friends don't know what you want, keep motivating yourself and you'll be where you need to be. You got this girl 💪🏽💯❣️

  • @tylermize8730
    @tylermize8730 5 років тому +1

    you are wise beyond your years Kai...your perception of the world and life around you is amazing. you will get to where you want to be, and I wish the absolute best for you! Stay strong Kai

  • @ayannabronner
    @ayannabronner 5 років тому

    you resonate with me everytime you make a video. i totally feel the same way about college and mental health and parents. you’ll be in my heart

  • @em-xj8dk
    @em-xj8dk 5 років тому +1

    We will be here to support you through this kai!! we love and support your decisions entirely, you need to put your health and your happiness first 💓

  • @riyahhutchins6755
    @riyahhutchins6755 5 років тому

    i love the way she put everything on camera and allowed us to see how see feels i really respect that from her love u kai !!.

  • @danielleml
    @danielleml 5 років тому

    really really appreciated how honest this was - it takes a lot to come on here and unpack stuff that's not easy to talk about, esp on a personal level

  • @superblasthottie23
    @superblasthottie23 5 років тому +5

    “ya girl has experienced situational depression n is on this constant hunt to figure out what space she needs to be in to truly be content n happy.”
    sis. this. is. me. 🙃

  • @Ms.Thompsonsclassroom
    @Ms.Thompsonsclassroom 5 років тому +1

    This conversation is soooo important, college isn’t for everyone it truly isn’t and I feel so bad for kids whose parents didn’t tell them that. Do what YOU love, I feel like it’s triggering for older people because they wish they had the mentality this generation does to follow what we love in life no matter what the money is but for our own health. It’s an opposite world lol college = success no college = failure

  • @tayd8513
    @tayd8513 5 років тому +6

    Kai I would like you to know that mental health goes above everything so keep your mindset 💕 you are not alone sis

  • @ericajokay42
    @ericajokay42 5 років тому +1

    This was everything, I listened and agreed with every word. You should be so proud of yourself for having such a strong sense of self awareness, I wish you all the best. You’re gonna be great

  • @tonynguyen5631
    @tonynguyen5631 5 років тому +1

    I am currently in a tough position rn especially with college. I haven’t even gone to college yet but my parents have always been pressuring me to pursue their practical plans and dreams to be honest. It has ruined me however watching your videos really encourages me to do more and do better! You are truly an influencer. I love your work. Your words are so strong and impactful on people especially me😭 but as a whole you are truly a hero to me! Thank you for making your videos and sharing them to us! Your beloved friends! I will always support you in anything that you do!

  • @tocarrymyburdens
    @tocarrymyburdens 5 років тому +2

    I never comment on anything but I just came across your channel because this was in my recommended but I PROMISE you, I'm going through this exact situation right now. I was a senior in college when I decided to leave about 6 months ago and it was the hardest decision to make (along with dealing with my depression that only got worse because of the lack of financial stability/losing the routine of school/lack of support from family for wanting to do UA-cam.) So, THANK YOU for this. I've never resonated with a topic so hard, I thought I was the only one going through it, but thank you girl! keep doing you, your content is amazing, you got this!!! :)

  • @brookierosie9010
    @brookierosie9010 5 років тому +7

    This video helped me so much. Everybody always says that I need to go to college after high school and I’m going to go to community college but for the social part and for seeing people everyday. I want to go to cosmetology school but I have to wait till after college?? This video helped me remember to do what I want instead of trying to please everybody else. Thank you if you ready all of this long add paragraph lmao. Have a blessed day❤️

  • @iyaniahtmlx7755
    @iyaniahtmlx7755 5 років тому +3

    Keep your head up Kai, follow your dreams and what you want to do you can do it!🖤 keep pushing bby

  • @vashtihammett6495
    @vashtihammett6495 5 років тому

    Thank you for talking about this , I can not explain how much this resonates on every level of my life

  • @samantharascon2369
    @samantharascon2369 5 років тому

    Kai speaks facts and only facts. I love your rawness and your ability to reach me or any person in such a unique way maybe not physically, but definitely mentally. Sis you do what you feel is right for YOU. There's no rewind button. This is our only shot, don't waste it on anybody else. It's your life b. Much love wish you the best.

  • @carmenlord8149
    @carmenlord8149 5 років тому

    this gotta be ur greatest video yet. proly the greatest on youtube for ME personally. you were vulnerable and we connected with you. i know i did. understood every single word. you were right about everythin in my book...all i gotta say is be happy. its as simple as that mama. 🙏🏽💗

  • @jacobstein5545
    @jacobstein5545 5 років тому +1

    This was really empowering. Thank you for this. I hope you find your happy place wherever that may be ❤

  • @kioliv9348
    @kioliv9348 5 років тому

    I am currently at this point in my life. I’ve just graduated and this is EXACTLY how I been feeling. I feel better watching this and reading the comments knowing that I’m not crazy and left out. This is a feeling others are experiencing as well. Thank you for making this video. Also definitely a New subscriber ❤️keep up the videos please

  • @gabriellaeldridge190
    @gabriellaeldridge190 5 років тому +3

    You should also look into making a podcast or radio broadcasting!! Love the video, it’s so relatable.

  • @shadequeen7625
    @shadequeen7625 5 років тому

    i can’t express this enough but i respect her SOOOOOOO much more than i already do just for this video alone. allowing herself to be vulnerable made me realize that kai is seriously just like me bro. it’s CRAZY.

  • @mirandalaird
    @mirandalaird 5 років тому

    i share this mentality !! i jus have never been able to put it into words . you said this so beautifully & explained everything so well . you are not alone in this & you gon come out on top i know it . i love you .

  • @chloeprice6671
    @chloeprice6671 5 років тому

    I hope you’ll find every bit of strength to live your life as your most authentic self. I know how it feels to long for your mental stability and happiness, I’ve struggled with that in my first year of college. So, be encouraged and be courageous, live your life for you, Kai. Much love❤️

  • @ashtonthrasher4804
    @ashtonthrasher4804 5 років тому

    I really love listening to you speak. Especially since it resonates with me and so many other ppl. I really believe you got this 💙

  • @carissa6409
    @carissa6409 5 років тому

    thank you so much for this , i’ve been thinking this for the longest but i honestly felt so alone until now . thank you

  • @chloerose5159
    @chloerose5159 5 років тому

    being depressed sucks ass and ive been through it and im still going through it and im only a sophomore in high school but i just want you to know that youre loved by me and so many other people and do what makes you happy bc its your life and like you said “we dont get to do this shit over” 💀 but just know YOURE LOVED ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @thatgirlnamedd3505
    @thatgirlnamedd3505 4 роки тому +1

    I had to watch this video twice cause this was nothing but honest truth and I felt every word you said!

  • @janaya3590
    @janaya3590 4 роки тому

    Girl I am so happy I found this video 🙌🏾 because literally everything your talking about I’m dealing with right now especially depression and wanting to quit school (and the military because I honestly hate it ) because I’m honestly just not happy and I HATE to be confined. But, it’s great you found your purpose and you know what you want that’s make you happy. I’m still trying to find out what that is for me. But, thanks so much for the video I definitely needed this 🙏🏾

  • @Jada-777
    @Jada-777 5 років тому

    Kai you just perfectly worded my experience growing up and attending my first year of college. Like I related to everything you said (minus stuff about being a UA-camr, because I’m not). I’m dealing with pretty much losing my parents right now because they do not agree with me leaving my school and choosing the happiness I NEED right now.
    You aren’t alone girl! And we are all rooting for you. Do what you love, prioritize your mental health, things will fall into place. And if they don’t you can change them. Even if it doesn’t work out, it’s better to make mistakes while young because you’ll have more time to recover. You’re going to be okay. It gets better for people like all of us.

  • @chikachuku6289
    @chikachuku6289 5 років тому

    im so glad you said this. keep pushing and living in truth girl

  • @userj5623
    @userj5623 5 років тому

    This really got me thinking about what I really want in life and am I just doing this college thing for my family because rn I’m stressed out and just want to quit and I was really think that graduating and hopefully going to Howard would make me happy and solve something that needed to be fixed within myself. Thank you Kai fr this is really giving me something bro think about for my life and decision I need to make without my family pushing this college narrative at me
    I hope that you find your peace and get what you need to truly be happy

  • @JVL8A
    @JVL8A 5 років тому +3

    I needed to hear this and I'm glad to see that I'm not crazy and other people really do feel the exact same way. I couldn't put it in words but you did.👏🏽

  • @WWcrazypoophead
    @WWcrazypoophead 5 років тому

    thank u for making this video kai , i hope ur able to find and do what makes u happiest

  • @aliciachristine3169
    @aliciachristine3169 5 років тому

    wow! i didn’t know how much i needed this, you’re so relatable

  • @liviasundberg
    @liviasundberg 5 років тому

    This video really resonated with me I’m in a similar position... coming out of my freshman year, struggling with the most serious depression I’ve experienced, questioning my major, etc. I thought that once I got into the college I wanted and accomplished certain goals that I’ve been planning to reach that I’d find happiness, but it turned out to be the complete opposite. Thank you for this video.. it’s good to know that I’m not alone. You got this girl :)