Such a powerful video from such a talented artist. Everyone involved in this project should be so proud, you all knocked it out of the park. That scene before the final chorus had me tearing up. BRAVOOOO!!!! 🙌🏼💙
this came up on my recommended and I got good vibes from it so I clicked on it, saw you in the comments, and immediately yelled "JORGE RIVERA HERRANS???"
At 17, I was told I wouldn't have children because my ovaries were riddled with cysts and that I should be 'thankful' because I could enjoy life and be carefree. It wasn't until i was 25 struggling to get pregnant that I realized how inappropriate it was for HIM to say that. Finally, at 29, I was blessed with my miracle baby, but still 7 years later it hurts to not be able to have any more. This song is just so beautiful, especially listening to this on mothers day ❤
This really hit me in a way I did not expect. I am a 38 year old man and this had me absolutely ugly crying. Three years ago my wife got pregnant with our second child, my son. Early on in the pregnancy she was given a genetics test which, in short, said that my boy would not be compatible with life, and there was almost zero chance he would survive to full term, let alone be born, and this news was delivered in such a flippant, dismissive manner. They actually told us, "Hey, you can always try again, you're still young" as if the life of my son didn't matter at all. We were devastated and spent the next few months living in stress and grief, wondering when the day would come that we would lose him. But those bastards were wrong, my son was born perfect and healthy and he is a strong, intelligent three year old now. Fuck every medical professional out there who would dare to deliver such news in such a disregarding way, with no empathy or understanding.
The doctors told my mother that I would ruin the life of my whole family because I would be born seriously ill and totally incapable of being autonomous. They said that I would be a source of shame and exclusion from society. They told my mother that she could have another child, that it was better to give me birth and then kill me. My mother didn't want to and now I'm here, healthy. Compliments for your son! I'm prod of you both.
as a medical student, this song is extremely eye-opening. as you study more diseases and meet more patients, you become desensitized, and it’s easy to forget that those aren’t just diagnoses, but real people with their own dreams, and their own lives that might be ruined at your word. I hope that i, and all future doctors, never become like this. i will work to make sure i never lose empathy towards patients.
That final scene was so powerful. The way they dismiss the emotions by saying you don’t have to worry about burdens. That you’re still young and it’s fine. Then the way you try to keep yourself from breaking down.
I don't want children, I never have. I'm in my late 30s. However, this song reminds me of my friends that have struggled, fought and raged to have the children they DESERVE. Those friends now luckily are all very happy parents and I couldn't be more pleased for them.
As someone who is 23 who was told she probably can't have kids, after it being all I've wanted my whole life... This song spoke to me in ways i never thought a song could. I SOBBED! 💔💔 Words cannot explain how in awe i am of this song.
I was 18 when I was told there is a very strong chance I won’t be able to have kids. Female gyno then asked you aren’t going to cry are you? So I took a breath and waited till I was in the car. Thank you for putting it to words and music that shows exactly how I feel every day even four years later 🥺
Stories like this are exactly why I decided to release it. Your strength inspires me so much, but I am so, so sorry for what you went through to get that way. I walk with you, friend ❤
Oh my GODDDD. I’ve never been sure if I want kids or not, but to have the choice taken from you in either direction must feel so terrible. I cannot imagine how hard that is, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
Came over here right after rewatching yours and Mortius's Mother I reaction video. Words cannot express the visceral emotion this song raised inside me. As a woman, I never connected with the idea of motherhood myself, and yet the grief I felt listening to the song reached something so deep within me I didn't know existed. Even though the context is so different, the part when the doctor was so flippant in their diagnosis reminded me of how some of the adults and peers reacted around me when I was bullied and isolated in school. The sense of hopelessness and betrayal you feel when the people that should be helping you fail you, to feel so unseen, is so defeating and really can stay with someone forever. I write fanfiction as a way to escape from these memories, stories of found family and genuine friendship, but never truly choosing to process and resolve the experiences I had back then, nor really healing. Teagan, to see you choosing to share your story in such an impactful, POWERFUL, direct, and stunning way is absolutely awe-inspiring. This is a level of courage that I can never reach. And the soundscape, lyrics, the acting, the visuals (my god the train station scene....), THE VOCALS ( your belting is the most powerful thing I've ever heard!)... Just, WOW. Absolutely moved me in a way no song has ever done before. Listening to the whole EP and "Mother Deluxe" is such a unique experience, yet also feels so fundamentally human. Thank you so much for being so open in sharing your story and your art. I'm so sorry this was something you encountered, to have been failed by the professional/the system that was meant to help. 🫂 Thank you, thank you, thank you! And as promised in the live chat in Mortius's video, I have now purchased the "Mother EP" and "Mother Deluxe" on iTunes.
TEAGAN!! this song has been on repeat for days and this music video just made it a thousand times better. the scene where the doctor was leading the girl away from you was so subtle yet SO powerful. in fact this entire video was so powerful. this song is absolutely phenomenal. it’s so raw and full of emotion, you have done such a wonderful job at crafting it. as someone who was raised catholic the term “mother” has so many different meanings to me and really had me in the feels the entire time. i feel like longing to be a mother is such a universal experience during girlhood and this really helped bring all of those emotions back. i can’t imagine the heartbreak you had to go through to write this song, but i wanted you to know that you got this. you’re so strong and i believe in you!! this song is beautiful.
Gabby!! This is so beautiful. I am so, so glad that you made that connection with all the meanings of "mother". Thank you so much for reaching out - means the world ❤
I have never found such an accurate representation of this specific pain. From the visual representation of the potential child being ripped away to the cockiness of others stating "your still young." My god. I didn't know how much i needed this song.
Ok I’m 18 and don’t know the first thing about what it’s like to be pregnant or go through anything like this, but my goodness, this song had me ugly crying for anyone out there who does. I don’t know why this hit me so hard. My thoughts and prayers go to anyone dealing with this ❤
Wow…. Just wow… I’ve just found this song. I’m 37 and fought for 7 years for my first son through 6 miscarriages and one stillborn baby girl and after him another 3 years and 4 miscarriages to have his brother. Both were multiple rounds of ivf and extremely risky pregnancies and labours. And now I’m going through painful chemo and radiation with breast cancer. So I’m now fighting for my boys again.
God, I’m ugly crying 😭 Appreciation for my absolute favourite lyrics: “Guess my worst fear is just a chore” “Unless I’m not alone, and that is why I came. If someone made a home of me, then I believe I owe them a name” “On the outside, made me soft, a place for all to rest their head. But inside you made me empty, hard, my belly full of lead” “As if ‘mother’ weren’t the first word I ever learned to say” “So hey, God, if you’re up there, guess this proves that you’re a man” “I know I haven’t earned it, but they still deserve a shot” There’s so many more which stuck with me, but these are my Big ones. Hooooly. This song is my new Roman Empire. As I commented on the Mortius video, any kind of family based art really gets to me, especially if it’s from a parent’s POV. I do not have children myself, and don’t know if I want to or ever will, but I have the absolute best mother a daughter could possibly wish for. My mother had me rather late, I’m her only child, and she was also always pretty set on the fact that she wanted to have a child someday. She loves me so much, most likely more than anyone ever will. She is very vocal about her love for me, and her feelings in general, and always have been. So I know her feelings very well, and anything that reminds me of them easily hits me very close to home. Then there is also the somewhat more personal, far fetched bit. The theme of having to redirect the idea of who you are and what defines you and your future, and your whole personhood. An idea you had at a very young age, by all means maybe the first vision of yourself you ever had. To redirect and shift that idea, to realise your life isn’t and won’t be defined by the things you hoped it would. Partially because of a diagnosis. Of wanting to rip your body and brain apart and put it back together until you are what you thought you would be. So that you can still align with the ONE THING you have always defined yourself by, the one persistent plan. *That* hits VERY close to home. And having it be delivered to you in a casual way, as if it’s not life altering. Albeit not the part about fertility, but just that in general really struck me at my very core. This is SUCH a beautiful song, and a just as stunning video. And I adore the intro bit. I love when artists are experimental like that, as someone who loves to make experimental-ish art myself. It’s just tens out of tens across the board. Thank you so so much for sharing
TEAGAN???? WTF, this doesn't just show a song. Not just a clip ab love. Not just a little dance clip. It shows us a story, a process, Teagan this is beautiful! Ily so much
Not me sobbing 3am in the morning with my baby in a sling. Powerful song and such a fantastic delivery. Not surprised that this video won an award. Masterclass. Have me the same feelings as Blunt - Monsters but tone x2 Hope you get the recognition you deserve ❤
I'm 24 and like you said, being a mother is the only thing I am so sure of in my life. Even though noone told me that I can't have kids, for reasons I don't want to say here, I am so incredibly scared that one day, someone will say those words to me. It took me over to weeks to find the courage to listen to this song. I am so thankful that you share this story with the world.
I love this song so much because it brings to light such an underground topic that doesn’t deserve to be. And I’m so sorry to hear that this really happened to you. To any woman told this news who may be reading this. It’s a loss women shouldn’t have to feel since it’s so rooted in our biology. As an adoptee, I would also like to say there are scores of kids who would LOVE to have a loving mother who dreams of parent hood. And those children are singing the other side of this song. I don’t know what any of y’all’s plans are, but always know there’s kids, maybe not yours by blood, but kids out there that want to be yours.
I’ve never wanted kids but just imagine being someone such a small human trusts and loves wholeheartedly. Imagine being able to give someone so much love in their life. Imagine giving someone the comfort and love to help them through their life. That seems very wonderful to me
I'm 18yo, and I never wished to have kids, only adopt them, since I'm scared of pregnancy, yet these songs, this EP, brought me to tears. I really wish I had a way to give what I have to you and every woman who can't get pregnant. Sending you all so much love🥺♥️
Besides the fact that the song makes me cry every time, the shot at 5:00 really stands out to me even though it's barely a second. Staring into space on the subway trying to wrap your head around what you've just been told at the doctor's office. I remember just feeling hollow, pretending to be fine but at the same time thinking "That's not fair". You captured the experience so incredibly well and it's surprising how similar all our experiences are with this. Sending lots of love!
This was insane because you have so much range as a singer and as an actress. You really pulled off the emotions of the song and the video made the lyrics pop even more because you perfectly brought the song to life. I can't describe in words how powerful this song is. Keep up the great work.
I only just got around to listening to this song and I am in absolute full on tears… This was not just a song… it was a powerful and emotional story. You are amazing. I already had so much respect for you. After listening, my respect for you has only deepened💛 much love 💛
Holy crap this was one of the most beautiful music videos I’ve ever seen. It catapults the emotions in this song to another level. This whole album is incredible
I'm not a woman, so I've never had to experience this specific, horrible fear. However, some of my female friends have and I have tried to empathize and comfort them best I can, but as someone who has no female body parts and has never wanted children, I've understood the fear, but not fully. This song has partially unravelled it for me, and I showed it to my aforementioned friends. I speak for all of them when I say that this is incredible. Thank you, Teagan.
Here after the Mortius interview. I'm speechless and too stunned to articulate a better comment. It's a cliche for me to say that, but it's true. The entire EP hits hard. Thank you for making it.
I’m 21 and this song is so powerful and meaningful to me. I’ve been scared to go to the doctor cuz I don’t want to hear the words I know they’re gonna say. I got pregnant at 14 and wasn’t able to get any prenatal care, then went through a miscarriage alone. Ever since my body hasn’t been the same and I’ve been terrified because the only thing I’ve known since I was young was I wanted to have a kid of my own. A lot happened in my family and my mom and I didn’t see each other for years, and she was never able to have another kid. We are now reunited and I shared this song with her and she looked at me and said “that’s exactly how it feels”
A QUEEN! YOUR VOICE 🥲THE VIDEO IS SO LOVELY 🤍WOWWWWWWWW! I was paying attention to the lyrics. Whoaaa baby girl 🥺You are a superstar and a queen! Blessings baby girl! ❤
I have been worried to watch this video because I was worried how I would react. I had the chance to have a child, I was pregnant, just to find out that I couldn’t keep it because it wasn’t where it was supposed to be and would kill me if I kept it. Thank you so much Teagan for sharing your experience with us.
This is so absolutely stunning and it had me actually sobbing. Ive been suffering with infertility and this struck my core with every note and syllable.
Truly a magnificent piece. It was filled with so much raw emotion, and the film design was so strong from beginning to end. Thank you for sharing this with the world. You are such an amazing artist!
Teagan...Thank you for this, you've put into words what so many of us walk through in a daze without being to articulate. You are amazingly talented and I cannot wait to watch people find your music and have it help them grieve and heal
Teagan!!!! Oh. My. God. This is absolutely incredible and and heart wrenching!!! You are so so so talented and I'm so proud of you and all that you have done ❤
This pulled at a very deep rooted feeling within me. This song is beautiful, in a haunting and heart breaking way. Thank you for this song and for sharing it with us.
This was gut wrenching. You so beautifully showed the deep pain I felt when I was told I may not have children. I was able to have children eventually, and my beautiful son (MagicMason) showed this to me tonight. I’m so sorry for the pain you have endured. Thank you for sharing it with us and representing all women who know the pain as well.
TEAGAN MY HEART STRINGS!!! I'm 24 and FTM myself without a desire to have kids, but I have friends, family, family friends, and acquaintances who want kids and have struggled to have them for many reasons. I feel like this song is perfect to help those who can't look outside of themselves understand what you and so many others have been through. Even then, everyone needs to hear this song. It is so powerful for people. It highlights how gross the medical system can be for the people seeking answers. It highlights how flippant people handle infertility and miscarriages. It's such good lyricism and your director, Isaac, did a beautiful job capturing your words visually. Kudos to you and everyone on your team. Sidebar: I'm so glad Mortius was able to collab with you and share this to his audience. Hearing your story and lyrical choices over there was an amazing opportunity. Can't wait to hear about the rest of your EP over there, but I'm definitely adding your songs to my writing playlist in the meantime. Thank you for sharing your story and bringing this project to life.
Teagan, the emotion and power in this song and music video are INCREDIBLE. This is such an amazing and personal video. Props to you and the entire crew that worked on this!!
I will cry!!!!!! I'm falling apart, oh my God! If only the music made me cry with the mv now I'm crying even more Mds Teagan being amazing as always! ♡
This was a beautifully heart-wrenching experience, you can truly feel how much emotion was put into the making of this. Teagan, you had me tearing up from beginning to end.
Such a beitiful video!!. As a young person who doesn't know if they want children in their life, and doesn't know if I want to be a Mother this really made me think. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, and I could hear it, your sadness and sorrow, your...grief. This was loud, in a deep way, I'm moved for sure. All my love to everyone who has to go through something like this. You are beyond strong! ❤❤
Holy smokes! Super impressed from start to finish. Absolutely LOVED the cinematography, shot selection & editing/timing of this work. The lead was captivating, and has a terrific voice as well. Nearly brought me to tears at one point, as the lyrics really cut to the heart and are seated in a powerfully dynamic song/composition. Well done to the entire team on this. Simply WOW. Thank you for making this & sharing it!
Wow, I have no words. Watching this video and reading all the stories in the comments has brought me to tears. This is so, so beautiful, though the reality of it is so so hard. My heart breaks for you, Teagan, and for all the other girls and women who go through something like this. Thank you so much for sharing this song with the world. I came here at last after adoring your voice in Epic, and I am so glad I found you. You're strength and voice are inspiring to me in so many ways. Love you so much!🫂💜 +Anna
I want to say so much but I will never find enough words to tell how your voice , the video itself took me. You are amazing and the video just underlines the emotions. I can't stop crying ❤ this is all stunning and I wish every best thing for you ❤
Thank you for using your voice and making this amazing piece. Your voice is so powerful. It hits me in the gut and makes me cry every time I sit down to listen to it. I love both this film and the lyric video so much since I struggle so hard to encapsulate all my feelings about this topic into words. After an invasive surgery I was told that in just my 21 years of life, adenomyosis had wrecked my uterus so much so that it cannot hold itself up. When I asked what that meant for having children, I was dismissed and told that "we'd have that conversation when you get there." I have always dreamed of being a mother of maybe 2 or 3, 4 if we had the money. I was studying developmental psychology in college; I really love kids and want to be a mother so badly. I'm 23 now and I'm getting married in a year so there's been talks of children and my heart breaks every time because I know it'll be hard or impossible to have children. And because I'm young, no one around me understands or they want to tell me about how I can just try XYZ after the wedding - and my doctors still refuse to talk about it 2 years later. You give my pain a voice, and I love singing, so I've been singing "Hey God if you're up there guess this proves that you're a man" to myself whenever I'm reminded that this is the hand I've been dealt. I hope you are able to find healing, whether that be medical or emotional or both. And I hope you are blessed with a miracle one day - whether that be a child or something else to change your life for the better. ♥
I love this so much Teagan! This was so powerful! I had to come over after Mortius's video to listen to the whole thing. I love it you are so inspiration! I have this on repeat! Love you teagan!
So beautiful ❤️❤️❤️ i love your voice, your emotions portrayed in this song and everything about it. I teared up while listening the song, it's seriously so beautiful ❤️
Teagan, words can't explain how much I love this. I first heard your voice in epic and I instantly loved it. I admire you for your work, this movement. I teared up with your song and I just want to wish to you and all the women suffering all the best!! 💖 (P.S. I'm sorry if the text doesn't make sense, English is not my first language and I still learn)
Athena. Teagan. You are amazing. I sobbed through this song. I hope this was just a song and not what you're dealing with yourself. But if you are, I am sending you so many hugs.
Heartbreaking and raw, part of me doesn't feel like I should be seeing this. You captured everything so beautifully, it's devastating. Thank you so much for sharing!!
thank you for your courage to share your pain…..im not dealing with endo but I am unable to have children and I do get very depressed and feel like a failure as a woman and wife that I am unable,give my husband the daughter he wants. (He already raised 2 boys with his first wife)…everyone says “you can just adopt” and while they would be no less loved…the people that say that can’t understand that it’s just not that same as carrying your own baby.
I've never cried so much. This is such a beautiful song and the video is so emotional but in the most perfect way. I'm so proud of you teagan and I love watching you grow as a songwriter and artist 🩷 this is just the first step to bigger and even cooler projects. There is no limit to what you can do
That line where you say "so hey god if you're up there i guess this proves that you're a man, dont think that you would send this if you really understand" DEVASTATED me
teagan, words cannot describe how in awe i am of not only your vocals, but the visuals and the message you are delivering. and i think a great part of me understands in a way some may not be able to-i’m only 18 and for the past two years we’ve been doing tests. only to find out i have pcos and may never have kids. it’s bittersweet honestly-i’ve talked about all the traveling and the way i’d have to do it before having kids, but then i dream of taking mini versions of me to my favorite places and watching them grow up. natural motherhood, as shitty as it sounds, was a dream of mine. to be able to carry a smaller version of me and hold them after birth and watch their features slowly resemble mine as they get older. i’m sorry you have to go through this :( know i am always here (same handle on everything) from one to another, much love❤️
If I could find words to describe this, I would say them but no words could ever be ablr to describe how much this shook my core. To call this beautiful will be a criminal understatement. Not many things manage to bring me to tears and this has succeeded without doubt.
Im sobbing. Im a mother, but i was told at 17 i wasnt gonna have kids. Now im high risk, every time i get pregnant i risk so much. Seizures could cause a miscarriage, or i risk death just carry full term. My little one is named Phoenix because I was able to rise from everything i was told and they are here now 😢
This is my worst fear, i am only 21 i have never been to a gyno yet and im scared for the day i do. My mom used while pregnant with me which has cause all kinds of issues for my health growing up so im terrified to get that kind of news. My childhood wasnt the best and ive spent my whole life so far bettering myself to be a good mother to my child in a way mine never was and the thought of not being able to have that terrifies me.
Teagan, I'm really sorry. And thats all i could honestly think to say... Its not my fault, but I know at some point it's worth to hear... I guess (IM SO SORR-) I've never been able to see the point of pregnancy or the excitement of motherhood, infact I'm scared of it-But I think you just showed me how special it can actually be, even if I still dont plan on it. Virtual patpats and hugs:)
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Such a powerful video from such a talented artist. Everyone involved in this project should be so proud, you all knocked it out of the park. That scene before the final chorus had me tearing up. BRAVOOOO!!!! 🙌🏼💙
JAY YOU STAR thank you so much my friend that means the world ☺🙌
This is now on repeat on my playlist!!!!
I can’t believe I missed this for two months. It’s insane
@@DrakeDragonton It's so good 🙂💔
this came up on my recommended and I got good vibes from it so I clicked on it, saw you in the comments, and immediately yelled "JORGE RIVERA HERRANS???"
At 17, I was told I wouldn't have children because my ovaries were riddled with cysts and that I should be 'thankful' because I could enjoy life and be carefree. It wasn't until i was 25 struggling to get pregnant that I realized how inappropriate it was for HIM to say that. Finally, at 29, I was blessed with my miracle baby, but still 7 years later it hurts to not be able to have any more. This song is just so beautiful, especially listening to this on mothers day ❤
Oh my heart aches for you friend. I am so sorry for how the medical system failed you. Stay strong, I am sending you so much love
This really hit me in a way I did not expect. I am a 38 year old man and this had me absolutely ugly crying. Three years ago my wife got pregnant with our second child, my son. Early on in the pregnancy she was given a genetics test which, in short, said that my boy would not be compatible with life, and there was almost zero chance he would survive to full term, let alone be born, and this news was delivered in such a flippant, dismissive manner. They actually told us, "Hey, you can always try again, you're still young" as if the life of my son didn't matter at all. We were devastated and spent the next few months living in stress and grief, wondering when the day would come that we would lose him. But those bastards were wrong, my son was born perfect and healthy and he is a strong, intelligent three year old now. Fuck every medical professional out there who would dare to deliver such news in such a disregarding way, with no empathy or understanding.
The doctors told my mother that I would ruin the life of my whole family because I would be born seriously ill and totally incapable of being autonomous. They said that I would be a source of shame and exclusion from society.
They told my mother that she could have another child, that it was better to give me birth and then kill me. My mother didn't want to and now I'm here, healthy.
Compliments for your son! I'm prod of you both.
as a medical student, this song is extremely eye-opening.
as you study more diseases and meet more patients, you become desensitized, and it’s easy to forget that those aren’t just diagnoses, but real people with their own dreams, and their own lives that might be ruined at your word.
I hope that i, and all future doctors, never become like this. i will work to make sure i never lose empathy towards patients.
That final scene was so powerful. The way they dismiss the emotions by saying you don’t have to worry about burdens. That you’re still young and it’s fine. Then the way you try to keep yourself from breaking down.
That is unfortunately a true story 😬 but thank you so much 💞 that's why we tell it!
I don't want children, I never have. I'm in my late 30s. However, this song reminds me of my friends that have struggled, fought and raged to have the children they DESERVE. Those friends now luckily are all very happy parents and I couldn't be more pleased for them.
As someone who is 23 who was told she probably can't have kids, after it being all I've wanted my whole life... This song spoke to me in ways i never thought a song could. I SOBBED! 💔💔 Words cannot explain how in awe i am of this song.
We're in this journey together, friend. I am sending you so much love
Athena singing about Motherhood? This is gonna be an emotional rollercoaster.
I was 18 when I was told there is a very strong chance I won’t be able to have kids. Female gyno then asked you aren’t going to cry are you? So I took a breath and waited till I was in the car. Thank you for putting it to words and music that shows exactly how I feel every day even four years later 🥺
Stories like this are exactly why I decided to release it. Your strength inspires me so much, but I am so, so sorry for what you went through to get that way. I walk with you, friend ❤
No words for the OMG quality of this video (positive, so positive)
Oh my GODDDD. I’ve never been sure if I want kids or not, but to have the choice taken from you in either direction must feel so terrible. I cannot imagine how hard that is, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
Came over here right after rewatching yours and Mortius's Mother I reaction video. Words cannot express the visceral emotion this song raised inside me. As a woman, I never connected with the idea of motherhood myself, and yet the grief I felt listening to the song reached something so deep within me I didn't know existed. Even though the context is so different, the part when the doctor was so flippant in their diagnosis reminded me of how some of the adults and peers reacted around me when I was bullied and isolated in school. The sense of hopelessness and betrayal you feel when the people that should be helping you fail you, to feel so unseen, is so defeating and really can stay with someone forever.
I write fanfiction as a way to escape from these memories, stories of found family and genuine friendship, but never truly choosing to process and resolve the experiences I had back then, nor really healing. Teagan, to see you choosing to share your story in such an impactful, POWERFUL, direct, and stunning way is absolutely awe-inspiring. This is a level of courage that I can never reach. And the soundscape, lyrics, the acting, the visuals (my god the train station scene....), THE VOCALS ( your belting is the most powerful thing I've ever heard!)... Just, WOW. Absolutely moved me in a way no song has ever done before. Listening to the whole EP and "Mother Deluxe" is such a unique experience, yet also feels so fundamentally human.
Thank you so much for being so open in sharing your story and your art. I'm so sorry this was something you encountered, to have been failed by the professional/the system that was meant to help. 🫂
Thank you, thank you, thank you! And as promised in the live chat in Mortius's video, I have now purchased the "Mother EP" and "Mother Deluxe" on iTunes.
TIME TO ENTER THIS IN A FILM FESTIVAL! ✨🙌🏻✨
you KNOW IT!!
@@TE7MO …..annnnnnd… BOOM! 🥇
TEAGAN!! this song has been on repeat for days and this music video just made it a thousand times better. the scene where the doctor was leading the girl away from you was so subtle yet SO powerful. in fact this entire video was so powerful. this song is absolutely phenomenal. it’s so raw and full of emotion, you have done such a wonderful job at crafting it. as someone who was raised catholic the term “mother” has so many different meanings to me and really had me in the feels the entire time. i feel like longing to be a mother is such a universal experience during girlhood and this really helped bring all of those emotions back. i can’t imagine the heartbreak you had to go through to write this song, but i wanted you to know that you got this. you’re so strong and i believe in you!! this song is beautiful.
Gabby!! This is so beautiful. I am so, so glad that you made that connection with all the meanings of "mother". Thank you so much for reaching out - means the world ❤
im not crying im not crying im ... totally crying
I have never found such an accurate representation of this specific pain. From the visual representation of the potential child being ripped away to the cockiness of others stating "your still young."
My god. I didn't know how much i needed this song.
Ok I’m 18 and don’t know the first thing about what it’s like to be pregnant or go through anything like this, but my goodness, this song had me ugly crying for anyone out there who does.
I don’t know why this hit me so hard.
My thoughts and prayers go to anyone dealing with this ❤
Wow…. Just wow… I’ve just found this song. I’m 37 and fought for 7 years for my first son through 6 miscarriages and one stillborn baby girl and after him another 3 years and 4 miscarriages to have his brother. Both were multiple rounds of ivf and extremely risky pregnancies and labours. And now I’m going through painful chemo and radiation with breast cancer. So I’m now fighting for my boys again.
God, I’m ugly crying 😭 Appreciation for my absolute favourite lyrics:
“Guess my worst fear is just a chore”
“Unless I’m not alone, and that is why I came. If someone made a home of me, then I believe I owe them a name”
“On the outside, made me soft, a place for all to rest their head. But inside you made me empty, hard, my belly full of lead”
“As if ‘mother’ weren’t the first word I ever learned to say”
“So hey, God, if you’re up there, guess this proves that you’re a man”
“I know I haven’t earned it, but they still deserve a shot”
There’s so many more which stuck with me, but these are my Big ones. Hooooly. This song is my new Roman Empire.
As I commented on the Mortius video, any kind of family based art really gets to me, especially if it’s from a parent’s POV. I do not have children myself, and don’t know if I want to or ever will, but I have the absolute best mother a daughter could possibly wish for. My mother had me rather late, I’m her only child, and she was also always pretty set on the fact that she wanted to have a child someday. She loves me so much, most likely more than anyone ever will. She is very vocal about her love for me, and her feelings in general, and always have been. So I know her feelings very well, and anything that reminds me of them easily hits me very close to home.
Then there is also the somewhat more personal, far fetched bit. The theme of having to redirect the idea of who you are and what defines you and your future, and your whole personhood. An idea you had at a very young age, by all means maybe the first vision of yourself you ever had. To redirect and shift that idea, to realise your life isn’t and won’t be defined by the things you hoped it would. Partially because of a diagnosis. Of wanting to rip your body and brain apart and put it back together until you are what you thought you would be. So that you can still align with the ONE THING you have always defined yourself by, the one persistent plan. *That* hits VERY close to home. And having it be delivered to you in a casual way, as if it’s not life altering. Albeit not the part about fertility, but just that in general really struck me at my very core.
This is SUCH a beautiful song, and a just as stunning video. And I adore the intro bit. I love when artists are experimental like that, as someone who loves to make experimental-ish art myself. It’s just tens out of tens across the board. Thank you so so much for sharing
TEAGAN???? WTF, this doesn't just show a song. Not just a clip ab love. Not just a little dance clip. It shows us a story, a process, Teagan this is beautiful! Ily so much
Not me sobbing 3am in the morning with my baby in a sling.
Powerful song and such a fantastic delivery. Not surprised that this video won an award. Masterclass.
Have me the same feelings as Blunt - Monsters but tone x2
Hope you get the recognition you deserve ❤
I'm 24 and like you said, being a mother is the only thing I am so sure of in my life. Even though noone told me that I can't have kids, for reasons I don't want to say here, I am so incredibly scared that one day, someone will say those words to me.
It took me over to weeks to find the courage to listen to this song. I am so thankful that you share this story with the world.
I love this song so much because it brings to light such an underground topic that doesn’t deserve to be. And I’m so sorry to hear that this really happened to you. To any woman told this news who may be reading this. It’s a loss women shouldn’t have to feel since it’s so rooted in our biology.
As an adoptee, I would also like to say there are scores of kids who would LOVE to have a loving mother who dreams of parent hood. And those children are singing the other side of this song.
I don’t know what any of y’all’s plans are, but always know there’s kids, maybe not yours by blood, but kids out there that want to be yours.
I’ve never wanted kids but just imagine being someone such a small human trusts and loves wholeheartedly. Imagine being able to give someone so much love in their life. Imagine giving someone the comfort and love to help them through their life. That seems very wonderful to me
Teagan Earley you are so talented. This song is so powerful and I’m amazed by the production put into this video.
I'll love this song forever
I'm 18yo, and I never wished to have kids, only adopt them, since I'm scared of pregnancy, yet these songs, this EP, brought me to tears. I really wish I had a way to give what I have to you and every woman who can't get pregnant. Sending you all so much love🥺♥️
this is so beautiful i found your music throw Mortius but i wanted to come here before i see the react thank you for the amazing music
Besides the fact that the song makes me cry every time, the shot at 5:00 really stands out to me even though it's barely a second. Staring into space on the subway trying to wrap your head around what you've just been told at the doctor's office. I remember just feeling hollow, pretending to be fine but at the same time thinking "That's not fair". You captured the experience so incredibly well and it's surprising how similar all our experiences are with this. Sending lots of love!
I am so, so happy to hear that you felt it did that experience justice. Sending you love!
I'm happy I found TE/MO and was able to hear this song and watch this video. Wow, I'm truly impressed!
This was insane because you have so much range as a singer and as an actress. You really pulled off the emotions of the song and the video made the lyrics pop even more because you perfectly brought the song to life. I can't describe in words how powerful this song is. Keep up the great work.
i came here because of Mortius and Im so glad i did that was absolutely incredible and so moving just wow
Me too😭♥
From Epic but wow...
I only just got around to listening to this song and I am in absolute full on tears…
This was not just a song… it was a powerful and emotional story.
You are amazing. I already had so much respect for you. After listening, my respect for you has only deepened💛 much love 💛
Holy crap this was one of the most beautiful music videos I’ve ever seen. It catapults the emotions in this song to another level. This whole album is incredible
I am totally crying. I wanted a daughter named Brenna Teagan so badly.
This is just pure artwork! Emotion directly into amazing music!!!!!! 😭❤️❤️
I wasn’t planning to ugly cry today, but here I am. Everyone who worked on this did an amazing job.
I'm not a woman, so I've never had to experience this specific, horrible fear. However, some of my female friends have and I have tried to empathize and comfort them best I can, but as someone who has no female body parts and has never wanted children, I've understood the fear, but not fully. This song has partially unravelled it for me, and I showed it to my aforementioned friends. I speak for all of them when I say that this is incredible. Thank you, Teagan.
Here after the Mortius interview. I'm speechless and too stunned to articulate a better comment. It's a cliche for me to say that, but it's true. The entire EP hits hard. Thank you for making it.
ok but the doc slayed his lip syncing.
Dave Fript was ON IT!! He's a star
When I tell you that I have chills THE ENTIRE TIME
I’m 21 and this song is so powerful and meaningful to me. I’ve been scared to go to the doctor cuz I don’t want to hear the words I know they’re gonna say. I got pregnant at 14 and wasn’t able to get any prenatal care, then went through a miscarriage alone. Ever since my body hasn’t been the same and I’ve been terrified because the only thing I’ve known since I was young was I wanted to have a kid of my own.
A lot happened in my family and my mom and I didn’t see each other for years, and she was never able to have another kid. We are now reunited and I shared this song with her and she looked at me and said “that’s exactly how it feels”
A QUEEN! YOUR VOICE 🥲THE VIDEO IS SO LOVELY 🤍WOWWWWWWWW! I was paying attention to the lyrics. Whoaaa baby girl 🥺You are a superstar and a queen! Blessings baby girl! ❤
ABLAVI I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and I miss you so fiercely!! This means the world coming from you, you absolutely boss 💞 sending you so much love always!
Teagan shared a deep, emotional and truthful masterpiece. Endo is such an under discussed condition!
Truly amazing and soul shattering song Teagan, the range and emotion truly showed the story you wanted to tell
All the nature shots and the running scene was so amazing! So powerful 👏
I have been worried to watch this video because I was worried how I would react. I had the chance to have a child, I was pregnant, just to find out that I couldn’t keep it because it wasn’t where it was supposed to be and would kill me if I kept it. Thank you so much Teagan for sharing your experience with us.
I cannot describe how this song and this music video has impacted me so strongly - literal chills and tears nonstop… Teagan you are unbelievable
This is so absolutely stunning and it had me actually sobbing. Ive been suffering with infertility and this struck my core with every note and syllable.
This song really hit close to home
Truly a magnificent piece. It was filled with so much raw emotion, and the film design was so strong from beginning to end. Thank you for sharing this with the world. You are such an amazing artist!
Simply... Wow.
Teagan...Thank you for this, you've put into words what so many of us walk through in a daze without being to articulate. You are amazingly talented and I cannot wait to watch people find your music and have it help them grieve and heal
Teagan!!!! Oh. My. God. This is absolutely incredible and and heart wrenching!!! You are so so so talented and I'm so proud of you and all that you have done ❤
This pulled at a very deep rooted feeling within me. This song is beautiful, in a haunting and heart breaking way. Thank you for this song and for sharing it with us.
Truly stunning
that's you 💞
This was gut wrenching. You so beautifully showed the deep pain I felt when I was told I may not have children. I was able to have children eventually, and my beautiful son (MagicMason) showed this to me tonight. I’m so sorry for the pain you have endured. Thank you for sharing it with us and representing all women who know the pain as well.
TEAGAN MY HEART STRINGS!!!
I'm 24 and FTM myself without a desire to have kids, but I have friends, family, family friends, and acquaintances who want kids and have struggled to have them for many reasons. I feel like this song is perfect to help those who can't look outside of themselves understand what you and so many others have been through. Even then, everyone needs to hear this song. It is so powerful for people. It highlights how gross the medical system can be for the people seeking answers. It highlights how flippant people handle infertility and miscarriages. It's such good lyricism and your director, Isaac, did a beautiful job capturing your words visually. Kudos to you and everyone on your team.
Sidebar: I'm so glad Mortius was able to collab with you and share this to his audience. Hearing your story and lyrical choices over there was an amazing opportunity. Can't wait to hear about the rest of your EP over there, but I'm definitely adding your songs to my writing playlist in the meantime.
Thank you for sharing your story and bringing this project to life.
Ohhhhhh I am in TEARS
omg queen ily. WE DID IT JOE (literally hehe)
Teagan, the emotion and power in this song and music video are INCREDIBLE. This is such an amazing and personal video. Props to you and the entire crew that worked on this!!
I will cry!!!!!! I'm falling apart, oh my God! If only the music made me cry with the mv now I'm crying even more Mds
Teagan being amazing as always! ♡
This was a beautifully heart-wrenching experience, you can truly feel how much emotion was put into the making of this. Teagan, you had me tearing up from beginning to end.
Honey... my heart is with you all the way. you are so loved you will get your precious gift one day
Mine is with you too 💛
Such a beitiful video!!. As a young person who doesn't know if they want children in their life, and doesn't know if I want to be a Mother this really made me think. I'm so sorry you have to go through this, and I could hear it, your sadness and sorrow, your...grief.
This was loud, in a deep way, I'm moved for sure.
All my love to everyone who has to go through something like this. You are beyond strong! ❤❤
So so proud of you Teagan. Such beautiful work and so incredibly moving
Doing it for the fighters out there 💞 love you so so much Kaia ❤🤟
Holy smokes! Super impressed from start to finish. Absolutely LOVED the cinematography, shot selection & editing/timing of this work. The lead was captivating, and has a terrific voice as well. Nearly brought me to tears at one point, as the lyrics really cut to the heart and are seated in a powerfully dynamic song/composition. Well done to the entire team on this. Simply WOW. Thank you for making this & sharing it!
This video is incredible, I love it!!!
My gosh Teagan this hit hard
Wow, I have no words. Watching this video and reading all the stories in the comments has brought me to tears. This is so, so beautiful, though the reality of it is so so hard. My heart breaks for you, Teagan, and for all the other girls and women who go through something like this. Thank you so much for sharing this song with the world.
I came here at last after adoring your voice in Epic, and I am so glad I found you. You're strength and voice are inspiring to me in so many ways. Love you so much!🫂💜
+Anna
OH MY GOD. This is jaw dropping😭 It’s so raw and emotional
I don't even generally like music with lyrics (I pretty much only listen to instrumental music.) But this hits hard 😢
I want to say so much but I will never find enough words to tell how your voice , the video itself took me. You are amazing and the video just underlines the emotions. I can't stop crying ❤ this is all stunning and I wish every best thing for you ❤
SUCH a powerful video with SUCH a powerful song! I'm literally crying😭❤️🩹 Thank you for sharing this masterpiece to the world. You're incredible
Thank you for using your voice and making this amazing piece. Your voice is so powerful. It hits me in the gut and makes me cry every time I sit down to listen to it. I love both this film and the lyric video so much since I struggle so hard to encapsulate all my feelings about this topic into words.
After an invasive surgery I was told that in just my 21 years of life, adenomyosis had wrecked my uterus so much so that it cannot hold itself up. When I asked what that meant for having children, I was dismissed and told that "we'd have that conversation when you get there." I have always dreamed of being a mother of maybe 2 or 3, 4 if we had the money. I was studying developmental psychology in college; I really love kids and want to be a mother so badly. I'm 23 now and I'm getting married in a year so there's been talks of children and my heart breaks every time because I know it'll be hard or impossible to have children. And because I'm young, no one around me understands or they want to tell me about how I can just try XYZ after the wedding - and my doctors still refuse to talk about it 2 years later. You give my pain a voice, and I love singing, so I've been singing "Hey God if you're up there guess this proves that you're a man" to myself whenever I'm reminded that this is the hand I've been dealt.
I hope you are able to find healing, whether that be medical or emotional or both. And I hope you are blessed with a miracle one day - whether that be a child or something else to change your life for the better. ♥
I love this so much Teagan! This was so powerful! I had to come over after Mortius's video to listen to the whole thing. I love it you are so inspiration! I have this on repeat! Love you teagan!
Awesmazing raw story / song 🤟
So beautiful ❤️❤️❤️ i love your voice, your emotions portrayed in this song and everything about it. I teared up while listening the song, it's seriously so beautiful ❤️
Insane...
This is such an emotional song. Your voice is so powerful and so full of raw emotion that makes the already amazing lyrics hit even deeper 🥹💕
Just, wow ❤️
Teagan, words can't explain how much I love this. I first heard your voice in epic and I instantly loved it. I admire you for your work, this movement. I teared up with your song and I just want to wish to you and all the women suffering all the best!! 💖
(P.S. I'm sorry if the text doesn't make sense, English is not my first language and I still learn)
I love this and always will
Athena. Teagan. You are amazing. I sobbed through this song. I hope this was just a song and not what you're dealing with yourself. But if you are, I am sending you so many hugs.
Heartbreaking and raw, part of me doesn't feel like I should be seeing this. You captured everything so beautifully, it's devastating. Thank you so much for sharing!!
thank you for your courage to share your pain…..im not dealing with endo but I am unable to have children and I do get very depressed and feel like a failure as a woman and wife that I am unable,give my husband the daughter he wants. (He already raised 2 boys with his first wife)…everyone says “you can just adopt” and while they would be no less loved…the people that say that can’t understand that it’s just not that same as carrying your own baby.
I've never cried so much. This is such a beautiful song and the video is so emotional but in the most perfect way. I'm so proud of you teagan and I love watching you grow as a songwriter and artist 🩷 this is just the first step to bigger and even cooler projects. There is no limit to what you can do
this video is beautiful 💗 and the song even more omg
WOW this song is very visceral and emotional, I like it. Teagan, you are AMAZING!!
SO MUCH FEELS
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That line where you say "so hey god if you're up there i guess this proves that you're a man, dont think that you would send this if you really understand" DEVASTATED me
teagan, words cannot describe how in awe i am of not only your vocals, but the visuals and the message you are delivering. and i think a great part of me understands in a way some may not be able to-i’m only 18 and for the past two years we’ve been doing tests. only to find out i have pcos and may never have kids. it’s bittersweet honestly-i’ve talked about all the traveling and the way i’d have to do it before having kids, but then i dream of taking mini versions of me to my favorite places and watching them grow up. natural motherhood, as shitty as it sounds, was a dream of mine. to be able to carry a smaller version of me and hold them after birth and watch their features slowly resemble mine as they get older. i’m sorry you have to go through this :( know i am always here (same handle on everything) from one to another, much love❤️
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If I could find words to describe this, I would say them but no words could ever be ablr to describe how much this shook my core.
To call this beautiful will be a criminal understatement. Not many things manage to bring me to tears and this has succeeded without doubt.
Honestly i think this is the best music video you've made(though The Tower was also great)
Im sobbing. Im a mother, but i was told at 17 i wasnt gonna have kids. Now im high risk, every time i get pregnant i risk so much. Seizures could cause a miscarriage, or i risk death just carry full term. My little one is named Phoenix because I was able to rise from everything i was told and they are here now 😢
This is my worst fear, i am only 21 i have never been to a gyno yet and im scared for the day i do. My mom used while pregnant with me which has cause all kinds of issues for my health growing up so im terrified to get that kind of news. My childhood wasnt the best and ive spent my whole life so far bettering myself to be a good mother to my child in a way mine never was and the thought of not being able to have that terrifies me.
How... What on earth was the recording process for this...?
Teagan, I'm really sorry. And thats all i could honestly think to say... Its not my fault, but I know at some point it's worth to hear... I guess (IM SO SORR-)
I've never been able to see the point of pregnancy or the excitement of motherhood, infact I'm scared of it-But I think you just showed me how special it can actually be, even if I still dont plan on it.
Virtual patpats and hugs:)