How much was I drinking when my alcoholism was at its worst? the daily ritual of an addict.
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- Опубліковано 9 лют 2025
- I hope this video can serve as a lesson to someone. every single day hard liquor!!! Total madness. 1 liter a day…. Stay safe and stay sober.
I am approaching my tenth year sober and yet I still need to listen to pep talks like this one, eloquent and from the heart. You're slaying it, Slayer. Thank you for being you.
Thank you for being here and for the awesome words my friend 🙏, also congratulations on 10 years that’s pretty amazing.
Music to my ears…”I’m still sober.” Prayers from Idaho! 🙏❤️
Appreciate you my friend 🙏🖤
I've been there also, liquor is the devils venom. thanks for sharing - wishing you well
“The devils venom” 100% accurate my friend. Thank you brother!!! 🙏
Great video….being an alcoholic is exhausting and you get nothing good out of it. so glad you’re still sober! You help many with your stories and You look great!!! You got this!
🖤thanks so much cat lady :). Much love
I mean... everyday! When I was a drinking...back in the... something crazy would happen
Thank you for sharing. Very helpful to others.
Thank you for watching Charles!! I hope so brother 🙏
It is so good to see you Slayer!! Im so glad you're going strong. You never fail to send a meaningful message in your videos. Our addictions really can creep up on us. How our tolerance just builds and builds... and how the addiction feeds itself by stripping you of more and more over time and creating more chaos in your life... conditioning you to rely on it to manage everything that's going wrong.. or to just manage the symptoms of addiction. What are we missing out on by not drinking... hangovers, agitation, nausea, desperation, disappointment, grief, unnecessary added exhaustion and fatigue, headaches, guilt, avoidance... i could keep going! But you get the point. Thank you for being you, and thank you for the update!! All my love to you and the rest of our friends here in this community!! ❤😊❤😊❤
Hey Amanda as always thank you!! 🙏🖤, I was talking with micru not long ago and that meet up NEEDS to happen!!! I hope LD still have his and if not I hope we all do a meet up one day. Y’all are the best!!!! This community is the best. I hope one day we all get to make a giant video together. Much love 🖤
@Slayer-7373 oh my goodness, I can't tell you how excited I would be to meet my 2nd fam ❤️😁❤️ I'm sure we'll make it happen! And I'm sure it will be such a great time. Much love always! ❤️
Quit alcohol completely bout 3 weeks ago. Really not missing it. Was not a raging alcoholic. Could not do hard liquor often due to stomach issues. Mostly beer. At least a 12 pack 4-5 times a week for last 15 years. Only 3 weeks in and feelin better physically and mentally. Goodluck to you and thanks for sharing...
Congrats and keep it going; please continue to be kind to yourself I'm sick of the hangovers, procrastination, and using the liquor as a social crutch. It's not a treat it's actually a trick. As the saying goes, one is never enough And too many at the same time. I'm done with it and hope to keep it that way as well.
Thank you for sharing as well brother and congratulations on quitting. It really is nothing but poison and all of us are better off without it. I wish you nothing but luck as well my friend!! Keep us updated 🙏
Don’t ever apologizing for focusing on you big dog. I’m proud of you for focusing on you. It’s the thing I struggle with most. If I focus on me I have to face my own bull shit.. and as an addict there’s plenty.
💪💯thank you bro!! I’ve struggled with it for years man!! It’s not easy for me either. I’ve been running for years and focusing on everything but taking care of myself.
Everything you're describing is exactly what im going through right now. I was 1 month sober, but I'm back in hell right now. Ive been here before, but it seems like its more painful every time it happens. I love you Slayer, knowing that someone else has experienced this hell is comforting in some way.
You’re not alone man!! I’d advise to do anything you have to to pull yourself out of that darkness my friend!!! Millions of us suffer with that chaos, many are as we speak but there is help out there and I hope you seek the help man. If I can pull myself out of that chaos so can you!!! Please be safe, keep me updated and take the process slow!! You got this man!! Don’t ever give up! 🙏
Wow, what an intense thing you have lived through. I would have never guessed it got that brutal. You're such a cool and healthy looking dude!
Hey thank you king of the sofa 👑!!! Much love brotha!! 🙏
As always, thanks slayer! 🙏❤️
🙏🖤thank you Olivia for being here!!
“Fading away” you nailed the feeling.
One piece at a time brother, it’s no way for any of us to live. Be easy 🙏
Watching from the UK ❤ don't apologize for not posting everyday or other day 😊 Just keep on with your journey ❤
He is my favorite youtuber!
Thank you so much 🙏 🇬🇧 🖤
This is so awesome of you to say!! THANK YOU! 🙏
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You’re doing so well bro ..this is just the beginning. You can’t even imagine what’s coming . You’re blessed
:) thanks so much man. God bless you!! You are blessed my friend! 🙏
Thanks for checking in with us Slayer, and yes, keep working on you.....this is what we want and we appreciate you 🙏🙏
🖤🙏thank you hunnie b, I really do appreciate you guys too. This comment made me smile.
@@Slayer-7373I've been waiting for a video, glad you posted today!
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Exactly 👍🏻
Always in my thoughts Slay ❤
I’m so glad you found value in yourself so that you could get thru those horrible days of poisoning yourself almost to death. You would have died such a sad death, all alone, not thinking anyone even cared… as many alcoholics often do. But by the Grace and Mercy of God, you decided to pick yourself and fight to LIVE!! I’m so proud of you for how far you’ve come. I can see the life back in your eyes, compared to old videos of when you are in the hospital, and it warms my heart. Just think, if you had let that Evil win, you wouldn’t be here today on this channel, helping thousands of people who are currently where you once were. What a waste that would have been!
I’m just over 6 months sober, and I’m so overjoyed that we are doing this together💕
Never forget where you came from, and Never Question the Decision👊
You’re gonna make me cry melberg!!! 🙏🖤 this is a beautiful comment and TRUE!! Thank you!!
Keep it going Slayer! Remember, sobriety delivers all the things that alcohol promises!
This is an awesome saying man and so true!! Thank you Shane!! God bless brotha!
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And you look better than ever , x be proud of yourself , everyone here is, and i hope everyone in your daily life acknowledges it xx you deserve praise 👏
🖤🥲awe thanks seg.
Right on buddy! Much love 🙏🏽
Thank you brother!!!! Much love! 🙏
First off, congratulations on sticking to your sobriety. Let this be a reminder of what you don’t ever want to go back to! We are all rooting for you!
I remember towards the end of my drinking, it was terrifying! I was always sick, first thing I would do it throw up, then immediately start throwing those shots back. And if I didn’t have it, I would be the first at the liquor store. just like you, started drinking at work. The cycle was absolutely disgusting but it’s just another reminder of a dark place I never want to encounter again! 350 days sober over here🙏🏼 you got this!!
Anyone who is reading this and struggling, it is a struggle but it’s not impossible, please don’t give up hope 💖
🖤🙏thanks so much, god bless
You have so much energy and dedication. Extremely committed goal-directed behavior. Switch out the goal. Pray for a use for the drive that doesn't hurt yourself and loved ones. Great video!
This is not only great advice but also a great compliment, Thank you brother 🙏 i appreciate this and will put this into action!
youre a brave and honest man slayer mate!! stay sober bro - u dont need the booze
Thank you so much my friend!! 🙏
You’re doing great! Hang in there ❤️🙏
Hey thank you Louise!! God bless 🙏🖤
Thank you for another amazing video. So glad to hear you’re doing well. Thank you for sharing your life experience- it absolutely helps me on my own journey. Godspeed brother.
Thank you brother for always being here, you help me with my journey as well. God bless
Very relatable video once again. Thank you for putting these out. I really do get a lot out of them. I definitely relate to the full time job thing. Used to start my workday off with 3 Voodoo Ranger tallboys and just keep it going through the day. Would brush my teeth constantly after each time I drank so coworkers or customers didn't smell it. Drinking in the bathroom at work and hiding shooter bottles or Voodoo cans in the trash under paper towels. Drinking on both breaks and my lunch. Then I'd get off work drive home drunk and then it was game on. Get hammered on liquor, wake up the next day and do it all over again. It was exhausting. Drinking vodka or whiskey all day long on my days off. I am super glad you're still sober. Proud of you. What you asked about "what are you missing out on by not drinking, is one of the best things I think we can ask ourselves. It really puts it in perspective. One thing I've just started doing but haven't finished is making a list. One one side is all the positive things alcohol did for me. On the other side is all the negative things it caused. I can tell you, it's a very one-sided list so far.
Thank you for the comment as always my friend also for the love, support and honesty. Sharing your story helps me!! Your story sounds all too familiar because it’s so much like mine. Also asking ourselves that question really is helpful, like really what are we missing out on?? Nothing. It’s total insanity!! I’ve made a list as well in the past and it’s always very one sided! Much love brotha! 🙏
I’m proud of your progress keep up the good work your future self is so happy for the great life you have an amazing future ahead. Thanks for being here
Hey thank you brother for the support and for being here. You’ve been here for a long time and i appreciate that. God bless 🙏
Slayer just know one thing , you are love, you are supported, you are an inspiration . We love your vulnerability, we can relate strongly from your journey if not personally , it’s someone we love , for me it’s personally . Don’t apologize because you can’t give us update , as long as you’re trying to remain sober, that’s all that matter . Through this hard journey, you remain very handsome 🙏🏾🙏🏾🥰
This is so sweet of you to say Caribbean queen thank you so much 🙏🖤. God bless
Thank You, Don't worry about us, you look after yourself.
But Thank you because today I really needed to hear this ❤
Thank you Denise for the understanding and love :), I’m glad this video could be of some help. When I read comments like these it really helps me so thank you so much. 🙏🖤keep your head up!!
Please keep on going, and try to stay on track. In the U.K. here where alcohol is available 24/7.
Don’t let yourself get to the point that I reached.
I’m significantly older than you, and certainly had my ‘reasons’ for drinking, but you NEVER win.
One day at a time my friend I’m gonna keep pushing forward, much love 🙏
Loved this one man. Those last points about ‘what am i loosing out on not ever drinking again?’ are golden
Thank you brother!!! 🙏
Well, honestly we lose the 40 minutes a day of feeling a good buzz/reduced anxiety when starting drinking upon waking up. But we have to get to a point where we realize that 40 minutes good feeling is not worth all the bad after-effects. But that's how deceptive addiction is. We need to realize and accept why our brains remember the euphoria from drinking.
What a fantastic, honest video. You’re doing incredibly well. So, so proud of you. Keep going, Slayer xx
Thanks so much jean :) 🖤
Glad you checked in also. Kudos for staying sober.
🖤🙏thanks rons mom!! :)
Brother, much love be safe 🙏 always thinking about you
Much love back to you Anna!! 🙏 thank you!!
Hey man, lookin good! Glad to see you back on here helping others!
Thank you so much brother!!! Trying my best man, trying my best. Much love 💯!
Slayer !! What up mang .. hang in there big dawg !! we are all out here doing what we gotta do. Don’t apologize for that. Stay strong .
What’s up brother!!! Appreciate you Marcus!! I will do my best my friend! 🙏🙏
I’m glad you’re sober again and I appreciate you share all these things, I’m struggling with alcoholism and I’m trying my best to be out of it but it’s so damn hard
Just keep trying my friend, don’t give up. Thank you so much 🙏 you being here shows you want change.
What's up Slayer? My intake was weird at its worst. I think a "reverse tolerance" developed where I wasn't drinking super excessively but the withdrawal was horrendous. You do look a lot healthier. Keep up the good work!
Sounds like kindling
@@Smilephile That's exactly what it is.
What’s up shades!! Thank you brotha!! I’m glad you’re off that poison man.
Great share as per usual. Loved the observation that alcoholism is like a full-time job. I think part of me even got addicted to finding new ways to get and hide my liquor, like I was getting away with something other people can’t. Ridiculous stuff but that’s where our addiction takes us.
Yup I know exactly what you mean man. Ridiculous is an understatement it’s just pure craziness. I’m glad we are both sober today!!! God bless man 🙏
Hi, Slayer, So good to see you doing well. Greetings from South Africa. Peace!
Good to see you as well my friend 🙏:)
Good job staying sober, Slayer. God bless 🙏
Thank you :), God bless 🙏
Isn't it crazy how fast we build up a tolerance to a poison like alcohol?!? At my worst, I was putting away a handle (1.75 L) of brandy or whiskey pretty much every week, plus several bottles of wine and at least a couple 12-packs of beer or hard cider. Sometimes I would get vodka, rum, or gin, but whiskey and brandy were my go-to beverages! Honestly, I would drink what ever I could get my hands on later in my addiction. I never thought the day would come where I would be drinking so much booze. In total, I was easily doing well over 100 drinks per week!! Man, I'd walk out of the liquor store with a box filled with bottles of just straight liquor almost every trip! Needless to say, this ended up costing me a fortune! Never missed work/school somehow, but I always felt like crap! I'm glad it's all over though, and I'm glad you're still sober, my friend! Thanks for the update, keep doing your thing brother! 🙏❤
That’s some insane drinking brother!! Sounds all too familiar, but hearing that makes me even more happy that you’re sober today David. I was the same way I’d drink anything I could get my hands on it didn’t matter what. Definitely over 100 drinks a week which is scary!!!! God bless brother !! Keep taking it one day at a time 🙏
So glad you've broken away from that life, David!! We don't even realize how miserable we are until we've been sober for a while and get to appreciate what it's like to not feel sick all day!!
@ Yes, Amanda! It is so much better being sober! That nasty, hungover feeling is the absolute worst! So glad to not have to deal with that anymore! Hope you’re doing well, dear! ❤️🤗
@davidlafond8327 I'm doing great! Just riding the waves of life, but loving it, my friend. I hope that you're doing just as well!! ❤️😁
Damn brother thank you for sharing your experiences, its helped me see that i can do it as well. At my worst i was drinking a half gallon of bottom shelf vodka a day basically. Or if i start one by the next day I'll have a corner left. Enough to get me by until I hit the liquor store. Lost so many jobs by smelling like alcohol. Sleeping on the job, sneak drinking, you name it. Im not sober yet but i def have been trying to not be drinking on the job, because i have a lot to lose and don't want to wind up homeless because I'll REALLY start to spiral at that point. Again thank you for sharing it means alot.
Same here ,I wake up,search,just to stop the puking,shaking, anxiety.Im active.Im trying.
You've got this, Robbi! Keep trying! NEVER quit quitting. You have friends here who are rooting for you and who believe in you! ❤😊❤
A hellish cycle brother!! You are not alone as Amanda said!!! You have this whole community behind you. 🙏
Got a lot of respect for you brotha for talking about such personal issues publicly. I've thought about making videos similar to yours the stories I got are pretty wild but I dont wanna make videos while I'm in active addiction I cant fucking stand who I am its hard to even look in the mirror. When I'm in public Im wearing sunglasses and a hoodie so I dont get recognized. I do plan to make youtube videos in the future but I wanna do it when I'm in a better headspace and the video ideas I have require me to be sober so I can actually provide some wisdom to people to people who may be in a similar situation as me shit been brutal lately
Glad your doing well Man!
Thank you brother!! Doing the best I can man, doing the best I can.
Your storys are insane bro and in so glad your sober , love you slayer you legend , keep on keeping on mate your life will be blessed without the posien
Love you bro!!! Thank you as always my friend!!! I hope you’re doing well.
Glad to hear you're still sober!
:) thanks sumshine!! 🫶
I was a SoCo enthusiast out of the gate, many years ago. Biggest bummer is no way to be a moderator anymore - although I have certainly tried a million times to be!
Unfortunately we have that in common haha. Soco is so disgusting, only reason I drank it was because it was strong. Thank you my friend as always! 🙏
Let me start by saying how nice it is to see you on here. I appreciate you posting because I do wonder how you’re doing. It’s great that you’re staying busy and FOCUSED on your sobriety.
You know friend, your story serves as a testimony of how things progressively get worse when alcohol or any substance is consumed. No one starts drinking a half a gallon of hard liquor but once your tolerance goes up so does the amounts. My experience when I was drinking was that it would increase more and more but still kept it together. But that also can hinder your ability to see what’s happening. It creeps up, although I was never a daily drinker (thankfully) no amount of alcohol is good or healthy. You know what really hit me, when you said “What am I really missing?”, nothing. It’s wasted time and money…and with the health implications there’s no way of knowing where it will end. Bottom line, don’t ever look back. Don’t live in regret, everything in life is an experience and a lesson to be learned. You evolved as a person because of this awful poison but I agree 100% that your soul was never and is not defined by the person you became because of the poison. Whether it’s trauma, depression, anxiety, or just looking to enhance one’s personality….we are all better people without it. Perfectly imperfect. Much love always and peaceful thoughts.
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🖤🥲dang you micru for always making me want to tear up or go write in a journal lol!! Thank you beyond words. The compassion you’ve shown me since the beginning never stops blowing my mind. I think I could upload a video of me saying f you guys and you would still be there to support lol and that’s amazing/rare. Hope you’re doing well my friend, much love and thank you 🖤
@Slayer-7373 that’s how I feel when you get me crying, dannngggg slayer you did it again. I’m not crying, you are lol. But for real, I would support you no matter what, even if I don’t agree, I would come from a place of love and compassion. Don’t get me wrong I’ll say f you slayerrrrr (if you deserve it) but then we’ll be pals again lol. You’ve shown me the same compassion. All I want is for you to continue to shine. You deserve a beautiful life. Side not I’m sick with an eck respiratory infection but in the mends with some meds. My natural remedy just wasn’t doing it. Anyways, stay warm and peaceful thoughts.
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Love all of this here, micru!!! 😊❤ We are all really missing nothing by saying no to alcohol. And we all are perfectly imperfect. I hope you're feeling better today! The amount of illness going around is INSANE
@amandaflaherty7528 hiiii Amanda!! How are you doing?? Absolutely, like with most things that start as fun runs its course. Then one day you wake up and ask yourself why am I doing this? The why is the hardest part and painful to figure out. I am grateful to have found these communities to connect with likeminded people that are here to share experiences and encouragement. We are all under the same sky 🌌 😊. And yes we totally need to meet IRL. Much love and all the best juju. Give Squash some extra love and snuggles from your FL friend. 💜
Thanks slayer, great video
Hey thank you my friend 🙏!
self medicating just to feel normal. been there done that. quit at 29 now sober 43 years. i went through 10 day rehab. Thank GO🙏🙏D
Congratulations on your sobriety time brother that is amazing!!! It’s definitely a form of self medicating. God bless 💯
I never really got into liqour unless I was at a party or bar/club, but when this was at its worst for me I was drinking at least 4 beers a night after work and on my days off I was having 6 or more beers, doing nothing but drinking alone.
Eventually I quit my job due to depression and ended up doing nothing but drinking beer all day for about three months. A standout moment, I remember going to the grocery store at 11am to only buy four tallboy drinks. I was drinking by noon most days. Even when I had six beers in a day it wasn't enough. I'd walk to the gas station or drive, a stupid decision. I also remember driving to the gas station having already had four beers at home to get more. I am very fortunate nothing happened doing something as stupid as that.
I would go to parties with my friends and drink more than them, even if I had my 'normal' the day before. I went to a party two years ago and got black out drunk due to depression. I was scared to quit for so long because I learned about getting a seziure.
Like I've commented on your videos before, I started taking this seriously last summer. Had only drank about 17 days since August and it was never more than six beers. January of this year was the first time I've ever been sober for a full month since I wanted to quit, still going.
Thanks for making these videos Slayer. I feel like if I didn't discover how horrible this can get from your videos I don't think I would have quit the way I have.
That great man whole month keep going start exercising go on SR and youl find yourself on gods path good luck
You will get it brother just keep trying, try anything and everything. Exercise like my friend said is great but there is so much. I’ve talked with you several times now and I can tell you can do this!! I’m not just saying that either. You’re very intelligent and just the fact that you’re here and commenting shows me how bad ya want it. God bless you, pray and reach out. Keep me updated 🙏
Congratulations on over a month of sobriety!! You should be so proud of yourself!!! Keep at it, Richard!! Here's to a lifetime of freedom 🎊🎉❤️🎉🎊
"Find that hope"❤️🔥
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Stay awake brother. Great work 👊
Appreciate you brother!! Thank you! 🙏
Keep going so proud of you 🎉
🖤thanks seg!!! I will and it’s really good to hear from you. :)
So great to see your doing good 👍. Hang in there my man 💪
Thank you as always brother 🙏 💪!! Hope you are doing well yourself my friend. Always appreciate your comments.
Thank you and God bless!
Awesome love your content brother 👍🏻 I’m battling as we speak
Appreciate you bro, sending a prayer your way right now. Keep fighting man, don’t give up. You will prevail 🙏🙏
Thanks for posting and sharing. Ahh the good ol cap’n and coke for me..turned into straight chugging it from the bottle no chaser. Nice to hear from you ❤️🩹
🖤much love Tracy thank you!!! Once you start taking swigs straight from the bottle you know you got a problem!
Tomorrow is day 49 for me absolutely sober 🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡🫡‼️‼️
In a row absolutely nothing ‼️‼️‼️🫡
This is awesome bro!!! 💪💪💪 super proud of you and the progress you’ve shown.
I almost got to 1L hard liquor as well (usually from rum then to vodka eventually and just water as a chaser). I can now hold down almost that much without vomiting. But when I vomited a little blood for the first time in my last serious binge I saw that as a warning from God and instantly stopped in fear. I don't know what damage I did but at a blood test after 4 months sober my liver enzymes were all normal. But it's definitely health anxiety that makes me want/need to stay sober. I learned the hard way that I cannot be an alcoholic the rest of my life like some others can. I don't fear dying (in fact I honestly look forward to it) but I fear slowly and painfully dying from alcohol.
It catches up to all of us eventually brother. The health anxiety I have from my years of drinking is brutal…. It’s just no way to try and live day to day. I’m happy you had this realization my friend, like you said the fear of that painful way to go out tho is terrifying. God bless bro
Good video
Thank you red snapper my long time friend!!! 💯
hey slayer, I detoxed and dried out since my comments on your last video. Snapped out of the bender thankfully, never wanna do it again. Can't sleep much but thats okay
Super proud of you man!!! Stay the course, we are in this together. 💯
I feel this way with weed, it doesn’t stop me from working or anything, but I know if I tried to stop I would struggle with it so I just keep going.
Weed is one of the hardest dr*gs to quit at least it has been for me over the years. Right up there with booze, it’s so easy for me to fall into smoking. Luckily it does give me some anxiety nowadays lol so it kind of keeps it at bay. Best of luck my friend, you got this!
@@Slayer-7373 I feel the opposite 😅 when I don’t smoke I’m an emotional mess and I’m all moody and no fun. That’s when I realized I had a problem. Your video did give me some inspiration to try tho.
Great stuff slayer.
Thank you Jeff!! 🙏🙏
God Bless you 🙏
God bless you holio 🙏🙏
Holy crap the auditory stuff. I thought I was alone with that.
You’re not alone my friend. 🙏
Slayer!! Still going strong?? God bless it! 💪🙏✌️♥️
💪yes!! God bless
@@Slayer-7373 There is a calling on your life, brother. I tell you the truth. 🙏 God wants to use you for his glory and purposes..You can't even imagine how good, beautiful and blessed your life can get when you're finally sober for good. My heart fills with joy, seeing God's love and grace working in others lives like it did my own life! ✌️♥️💪
(1 Corinthians 2:9) Now ear has heard, no eye has seen, nor any mind conceive the things God has prepared for those who love him.
Thumbs Up 👍 and Shared Out.🎉 Gtsy! & MLL&R.🖤
Slayer You really said a mouthful about everyday being exactly like Groundhog Day over and over and over!! I’ve said that exact same thing before myself and I honestly thought that others were kinda slow because they couldn’t seem to understand that. Now sober, if I ever start feeling like that, I change it up quickly! It’s very nice to be able to do that. Take good care of you. You’re looking very happy and healthy!💯🫡
Hey Cindy as always thank you so much 🙏🖤, I’m glad you can relate. Know that you’re never alone you got me and this community reach out any time. You have LD as well and his community. Honestly it’s like we are just one giant community, you are an awesome person and deserve sobriety!
Hey, Cindy!!! It's so good to see you!! ❤😊 I'm so glad that you've been able to recognize those patterns and stop them in their tracks!! Im so proud of you for all of your hard work, i hope that you are too 😊❤🎉🎊
awesome to see you slayer
Awesome to see you big dog!!! 💯🙏
Congrats on continued sobriety! I hit 14 days today!
Congratulations yourself my friend!! That is awesome 👏
Thank you!!!❤️❤️❤️
Yaaayy!!! Congratulations on 14 days!!! ❤️🎉🎊😁 keep killin it!!
@amandaflaherty7528 - Thank you so much!!!
I drank three pints and then went to another bar and drank 11 peroni bottles. I have a problem. I also cause drama almost every time. Its awful. I also drove drunk repeatadly. I dont have a car now. Do you go to AA? Is it good?
It truly is awful man I’m sorry you’re going through that chaos. I’ve been to AA and some of the meetings have been great. You kind of have to “shop around” so to speak to Find a good meeting that you enjoy. It’s a great start in the right direction brother id give it a try if I was you, why not. Best of luck and be safe out there! 🙏
@Slayer-7373 Thanks for your comments, means a lot to me. Have a great week. Thanks
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Man...Can I relate to those days. Sucks.
They were the worst brother… I’m glad we are both out of that chaos!
@@Slayer-7373 Yes Sir 2 years Sober Back from the Dead... its possible!
How do you / others watching get over feeling like S when NOT drinking?
Feeling like S mentally or physically? Do you mean when you first come off alcohol or just in general without booze?
@@Slayer-7373 Hey man, no just mentally, after a few days it's like no energy, can't think, can't function above the bare minimum. I probably have low dopamine levels, drinking is a way to self medicate, but bad for health.
Hi Slayer, thanks for the new video. Cool topic. I liked to hide a bottle under my pillow so I could sneakily take a shot right after awakening. I also had a glass there I didn’t like to drink from a bottle for some reason. Such a stupid behavior. It’s really insanity. Anyway, have a couple of questions if you don’t mind. What was your longest binge and you mentioned a liter of a booze but I don’t know the brand you named is it as strong as vodka for example? Just curious. My drink of choice was vodka and sometimes whiskey around 0.7 of the liter a day. Also, I liked very strong beer don’t even imagine how I could drink that shit.
Hey my friend!! I’m glad you enjoyed the video and could relate! My longest binge believe it or not was like anywhere from 8 months to a year!! I drank pretty much every single day which is just crazy. Also yes the brand I drank was very strong! 100 proof, it was stronger than most vodkas, Jack Daniel’s all of that stuff it is stronger. Super nasty stuff but I always went for it because it messed you up. Total alcoholic brain thinking. Anyways much love brotha and thank you!
My beloved cat..red died in my lap.. literally..that broke my ass down...i spent a g(thousand dollars) trying to save him! Fliped out on vet staff
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Hey good message man, as you said the fear of getting a seizure or heart attack is the worst in the withdrawals. 1L hard liquor is madness man i always black out on 2nd bottle of wine no matter how long i drank for also i wanna know the type of stuff you heard, i always hear people calling me names aggresively also the music it madness, anyway take care and peace ✌
Thank you brotha!! It really is a horrible fear/dread, impending doom type feeling. Some people just don’t do liquor but as you know from first hand experience wine/beer can take us to those dark places too. Peace my friend!! ✌️
should add as well to my comment i was at a point of buying a 12 pack a day so i didnt have to leave the house and drinking it all day.
🙏god bless man.
It happens to most people when we’re drinking alone and especially if we’re depressed. Most of us are when we do that to ourselves. I’m very happy that you quit. I recently quit too. It’s nice to be able to change things and make things better now that I’m sober. Stay strong. You deserve to have a Beautiful Life. Never Surrender.💞
That quantity question is important, it's hard to find reliable information on that, I'd say your tolerance is not that high if you black out at 1000 ml of spirits (which is a good thing! ) some people can do much more. Myself I'd say I topped at 600 ml, rarely blacking out, but what's more concerning I'm up to 400-500 again now (equivalent in wine, about 2 bottles, I can't afford spirits anyway anymore) with quite a good tolerance which is not a good sign to be honest 🤔😕
It's good to do some maths because numbers don't lie, the addicts brain will try to rationalize/minimize/forget.
I don't remind how much I drank during many periods of my drinking career, if had kept track maybe I would understand better how/why things evolved... (there is a correlation with stress/life events etc. for sure...)
This is smart thinking brother thank you. 600ml of hard liquor you drank?? Keep me updated on your journey I’m worried for you my friend.
@Slayer-7373 I'm the historian of my addiction so to say, I remember I bought 750 ml bottles of vodka or rum but didn't entirely finish them... So yes but that rum is 40 degrees this stuff is really strong, in the end my intake was not far from yours I suspect it's my addict brain that wants to rationalize... Still now when watching videos from you and others, it tells me I'm better off... The truth... I'm not really...I wasn't in the hospital for now but this could easily happen...
And thanks for being concerned, without such support from the community it would be really hard.
The peeing the bed…no one talks about that one haha. I did it too. So gross. Glad you’re doing ok slayer.
I hate talking about that man I won’t lie lol, it’s hard for me to speak on that subject every time. Much love brotha thank you ! 💯
Idk if I’m weird, but I started on hard liquor after a brief party phase. Than malt liquor like Steele and mickeys. Then stronger beers like bud light platinum.
Now normal beer.
Not saying it’s ok and I’ll probably stop soon, but I guess we all take different paths. Towards the same goal.
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Know im back on bottle! Superbowl tomorrow!! I got a thousand on the eagles!!
Be safe bro, be safe.
People say ..ahhh .. I was hungover for 3 days...ohhh poor baby..cry me a river...I drank 30 days straight before..
Right?? Lol
Shit..my mom almost died the other night...had to rush her to Er(crazy high blood pressure..245 over 65..my beloved cat died..broke down in tears..my dad got colon cancer..fck!! I had to tip the bottle
Woah man I’m real sorry to hear this 🙏
Cravings for Chinese food at the moment
That does sound good
Did you ever do any hard drugs while you were drunk?
Nothing super hard no I usually steered clear of hard drugs because I know my addictive personality. I never wanted to take the chance of getting hooked to c0ke or something. I did do shro0ms tho, smoked the green and drank and dibble/dabbled with other stuff.
@Slayer-7373 thats smart tho. I've almost died quet a few times mixing drinking an drugs together. Had to get narcanned. Scaryyy stuff. By the grace of God im still alive. An it happened so fast one moment I was having fun next moment I'm waking up with my freind crying in my face telling I just overdosed. Stuff is no joke. Have a blessed day man.
Alcohol IS one of the hardest drugs. It's rated as more destructive by scientists above coke and heroin.
@eric-jr2nf absolutely an it's legal.
@dustygatrell-ru7tg Not in islamic countries. Prohibition works there.
Bought all this high dollar organic pet food to save em ...rip my nigga red😢
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My gosh..bar fights..lol.. cops took guns off me twice..I remember LD talking about never going to jail..being an alcoholic..cops knew me on a first name basis .shit..
I got body slammed multiple times by the 785 cops
All the shit could have been avoided if I didn't drink alcohol
Stu ..bat the realist!! That Guy..he been through hell and back
And that dude fight his ass off ..watch that video...Stu punching that heavy bag
And bat country has the best vocabulary I've ever heard in my damn life!!
Ever thought about being an RN? Just throwing it out there. It’s more noble than most realize if you do it well
I’ve never had this thought but this isn’t a bad idea Phil. 🙏
I jumped on my trunk one time shattered the window on accident
Damnnn!!
Got my ass whooped one night.... because Im too drunk box...dude shattered my eye socket
Fighting drunk bro always ends bad!
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I gotta track for you...bill withers..lovely day
🙏god bless J!!
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Niceeee 💯! Salute to you Eric thank you man!
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Point being...don't drink alcohol
Amen!
Well . technically..im 785.. Lawrence.. Kansas City my hood too
Shout out to y’all man!!
I use to smash fireball
Same here man same here.
Bro..I got a shit load of stories!!
I know you do J!! You’ve lived a crazy life brother.
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Finally got the log out my ass .. toilet overflow..flooded the half my house..ugh
Lol I shouldn’t laugh but damn bro
@Slayer-7373 yup
@Slayer-7373 it's all real
Is what it is lil bro
@Slayer-7373 I drank like 16 twisted teas one night...the devil came outta me