my immune system attacks itself & this is how i deal
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- Опубліковано 19 вер 2024
- we all have our stories, this is mine.
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camera: canon rebel t6i
mic: rode video mic go
editor: final cut pro
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october. - just big hills - / october
Viva La Vida (Coldplay) Cover - / viva-la-vida-cover
this was something i almost didn't upload, as it was not only personal, but something i don't really confront myself. DON'T feel bad for me, i'm just sharing my story. we all have ours, so feel free to share yours in the comments.
as an extra note, jra is chronic, it will never go away until a cure is found. basically my immune system attacks my joints, and it can attack other parts of my body too, like the lungs, heart, etc. gymnastics is something that I'll never be able to do again, but it taught me things I'll never forget and I'm grateful for that.
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-alexa
lexamazing omg that was a great vid!!!! pllzzzz keep up ⬆😂 u r so freakin good at this. like literally. SO FREAKIN GOOOOD
lexamazing I love this video. The rain makes it soo nice 👍.
This was actually so inspirational and I loved hearing your story. I know u don't wanna be felt sorry for but I just can't imagine like a 10 year old going through so many surgeries and shots and examines. I'm glad u grew from that experience. 💓💓
Lunadiviner yes the rain really added to the story
lexamazing I ❤️ u!!
i love how you put yourself out there and how you continue to inspire people, including me! i'm glad you uploaded this, your mindset is incredible for ur age and it's so exciting to watch you grow as a youtuber
thank you! :)
It’s refreshing seeing someone so young be so self aware who knows what they want in life. Most people never figure it out. You’re on the right track in life 👌
thank you!
this was filmed so beautifully alexa agh
thanks favvv
Hey alexa. Let me tell you my story. It started when i was seven. I sprained my right ankle going down the stairs. I went to the hospital and got it wrapped up. A year later, i sprained it again. And the year after that. And the next. And then i sprained both of my ankles at the same time. This year, i sat down on the floor, and standing up, i felt unbearable pain in my left ankle. So we went to a doctor. I got mri's, X-rays, ultrasounds, etc... To this day i still dont know what wrong with my ankles. But i started physiotherapy 5 months ago and im still at it. My physiotherapist told me i have severe muscle tightness. I wasn't shocked seeing as im not a very flexible person. Then we had another check up with my doctor, and he noticed that i didn't have much stability. And i had an upcoming swimming competition (swimming is my passion, i have been doing it for 7 intensive years) and he told me i couldn’t go. It was a national competition and my coach was feeling confident. Now im sitting at home, stretching my ankles, while someone else is taking the gold home. But i think that i will get back up on my feet someday, and i think you will too. Just not the way we expected. So stay strong, im here if you need anything alexa. You have given us so much and we love you for it❤❤
Amber B ohh i have missed competition because of injuries and its really bad. I was on very good form and just a week before it happened.
But we gotta keep trying. Good luck and be strong 💪🏻
I thought the rain was going to be annoying but it actually ended up being super satisfying to listen to XD also, this was an amazing video. thank you for posting it.
thanks!
Plz tell me y she doesn't have 1 million subs cause this is fricking amazing I just found her yesterday and omg my life changed faster than u can say popcorn. I love her so much even though she doesn't know me she is the hugest inspiration and is just in general a amazing human being ❤️💙💜💚
thank you so much!
You’re right. We all have our stories, if we are confident enough to share them, to let people into who we are and who were were in the past. We’ll continue to grow as time goes by, and hard work does pay off. Our stories are different and they may inspire people as we tell them. You’ve grown so much, not only with filming but with... living. You’re doing a great job and I’ve enjoyed listening to your story. I’ll share mine someday, maybe to inspire someone, maybe to get things off my chest. So thanks for making this amazing video. Keep growing and keep inspiring :)
This was actually really beautiful. I am captivated by the sound of rain, so I think it added to the beauty of your story. Good job :)
thank you!
A few years ago my mum took me into her bedroom and she told me that I was going to have a brother and she didn't want me to tell my dad because there was a possibility that the baby wouldn't make it. He was diagnosed with an incredibly rare disease but I can't remember what it was called, my mum said to me "just remember it's ok to cry, your dad has cried and so have I, he might make it but there's a possibility he won't" I was just nodding trying to hold back my tears. I left my mums room and I went to my own and I hid under my bed and started crying, I still remember how I banged my head on the wooden planks 😂. His name was Dylan and every year on his birthday I try so damn hard not to cry because I still know that I could've been a big sister and I could've taken care of him and I would be able to go to his graduation and his first day of school and meet his boyfriend of girlfriend but no. My world came crashing down, I think I was either 10 or 11 when my mum told me this so I understood everything and it still hurts knowing that I can't see his future and how it would end up. It's heartbreaking 😪
Thanks so much for posting!! In the sixth grade I was diagnosed with Juvenile Idiopathic Arthritis. It’s super cool to finally find someone my age that goes through similar things as I do.
I'm so glad that even though you were scared to put this video out there, u did. It is so inspirational! Your story is amazing and you will continue to do amazing things. I love how every one of your videos is so beautifully shot and has a storyline even if your just talking. I love your channel so much!
thank you!
Oh my word I can relate to the hospitals and surgeries happening all the time. I’ve had some rough experiences like that too but for other reasons. I’m so glad I found your channel! I just did today, and you are so inspiring, never stop doing what you’re doing! You make it easier to believe in things like fulfilling dreams, and just continuing even when it’s rough. You’re doing a wonderful thing here, and I know you’ll do even greater things in the future!❤️
Liz Drawz I myself haven't had any surgeries, but my little brother has. He has something called Down Syndrome, and when he was really little he went through some scary procedures. He'll have to have his second heart surgery when he's older because for a leaking heart valve. He's a strong little dude.
Alex Garner aww that sounds rough. I really hope the heart surgery goes well, he sounds like a strong kid!
Alexa, I'm literally 22 years old, and this video made me cry. I never thought a 15 year old would make me cry.
I LOVE THE RAIN! Ok but you are honestly my favorite UA-camr. I love that you are always trying to inspire others and I'm glad that you found filmmaking as a new passion. I'm happy that I (and all of your other subscribers) can help you with that passion.
Also, that sucks that you had to reshoot the footage from in your livestream. It does show how much you care about quality though.
Your raw honesty and authenticity is refreshing. You have a beautifully understated film style that’s both remarkably powerful and intimate. This is the first video of yours I’ve ever watched, and I feel like I know you more than most UA-camrs I’ve watched for ages - and it’s not just your touching personal story you shared.
The other day I had a full-on meltdown setting up an insanely contrived background for a video. I went completely bananas sobbing like a crazy person. I’d been trying to get everything ready to start filming for about 8 hours trying to and went off on a crazed rant about how girls on UA-cam are expected to have meticulously styled, themed, color-coordinated elaborate backdrops with perfect studio lighting, flawless makeup, and hair that took an hour to make it look “effortless”. I just wanted to produce quality content without feeling like I had to do it in a way oddly reminiscent of a 1950s commercial with a woman smiling neurotically doing household chores in a studio set kitchen.
Thank you for sharing your real, genuine point of view. It’s artistic, has real depth, and is so uniquely you. You spent time on production value to enhance the story and not to create a false sense of perfection. You are exactly what UA-cam needs right now. Please keep doing what you’re doing. You have incredible potential with your gift for storytelling and unique perspective. And I’m not talking just about silver, gold, or even platinum play buttons. I see you helping to redefine how people think of female creators and how we female creators view ourselves.
It's really brave of you to share your story. you did so much in your life and you learned so much and you sharing that with us is so inspiring. what an amazing, well worded, empowering video. great job.
thank you!
I feel so lucky to find your channel! You are just so positive and inspiring and beautiful and just.. i can't explain! Like every word of yours touched my heart! Really! I don't reallyy comment on UA-cam videos.. but i was so touched by your words and your inner beauty and positivity and just your personality! I genuinely feel happy for you! It isn't out of sympathy or something... rather the opposite! That you are just such a wonderful person! I am pretty sure nothing and I mean nothing is going to stop you from achieving what you want to! You are a 100000 times better than me and hundred thousands of people! Thank you soo muchh for impacting my and thousands of people's life in such a beautiful way! Thank you so much!! ❤️❤️
thank YOU
Wow this had to take a lot of guts to tell people this. This is a beautiful story. Let me tell you mine. I started gymnastics at the age of 2. I fell whenever I was about 11 or 12. It was on the vault. I fell and I landed too hard and I landed wrong on my left leg. I went to the hospital. And they told me that my kneecap was shattered. I sat in my room for days crying. I told my posters on my wall gymnastics I threw away all my trophies. But my mom knew how much gymnastics meant to me and she saved all of my trophies. And I was depressed since that day. Because gymnastics was my life. I never wanted to Give It Up. So nothing is impossible. I can still do the basic skills like a cartwheel a handstand and a Ariel. So I am still practicing today. I have a metal bar in my left leg. But you can still fight through it. We can do it together.
Dear Lex
I can't send a letter. I'm just one fan in a sea of people, praising you. Same old thing, YOUR AMAZING. But, you truly have inspired me so much. Your a lot like me. Every video makes me piece together more of my life. So, I'm not just one fan. You'll most likely never remember me. But, this comment is my mark on your life. Hopefully, you can get joy from this comment.
Truly, Marie
thank YOU. you all keep me going and the fact that i can inspire anyone makes it all worth it.
This is so inspiring Alexa it makes me want to comment my story i hope you don't get mad at me for this.When i was 7 i was put in piano lessons but i didn't have the patience for it so young so i quit and i had been helping my sister stretch and she was teaching me some gymnastics skills.So i decided i wanted to go into that well that was when i was 7 and i went to multiple competitions winning multiple titles and then i decided i wanted to do cheerleading so i quit gymnastics at age 10.Well i took tumbling waiting to see if i could get into the middle school cheerleading team.But when i was 11 i had been practicing constantly striving to be great. I started having a sharp pain in my left shoulder well i went to the doctor and he said that i would get better but i'd never be able to do tumbling or cheerleading ever again because that injury would come back.I just remember crying once i got home and telling my mom my future was ruined.But once i turned 12 i found a new passion which was singing and my mom searched for a voice teacher for me and lets just say i started with my voice teacher when i was 13 and ive been singing with her for 3 years and ive found another passion.
it's so inspiring how you open up to your audience like this. thank u for doing you. youre literally amazing and so inspiring
thank you!
Beautiful story and video Alexa! I know it takes a lot to share things like these. But if this is any sign of all the incredible stories you have inside you that you’ve yet to tell, the world is in for a great treat. That being an incredible story teller is on the rise!!! 😉
thank you!
this was probably the most realist deepest video I've seen in a while, you're so down to earth im 3 years older than you and and most of the people i know aren't even as mature as you, keep up the good work
thank you!
This was incredible! I can’t tell you how nice it was to hear this right now. I recently quit gymnastics and am deciding how much I still want to do it, as well as searching for possibly a new passion. It was sooo nice to hear your story and realize that we both have gymnastics in common. I can’t wait to see your channel grow in the future!💜
You’re really inspiring and brave. Our generation is really f*cked up, but we’ill make the world a better place. We all who are actually driven and motivated at such a young age 🙄
When one door closes another one opens. That applies to my life a LOT. I had always seen these people with amazing talents and I wanted to be just like them. Whenever I saw something cool, I always tried to do it. I did rubicks cubes, yoyos, painting, acting, magic, you name it. I also always found out that these weren't things that I wanted to do. Eventually I thought, "why am I trying to copy other people? Why can't I just be me?" So I started a little something called UA-cam and thought this would help me find who I am. After some content changes (and I'm still looking for a good genre), I'm here. And I'm not stopping now.
You are an amazing person, and I can honestly say this is one of the most beautiful videos I’ve viewed on UA-cam. Congratulations lex.
This made me cry. I always go back to this video when I want to give up. Thank you for making it
I remember when you went through surgeries, crutches, etc. I’m happy that you were confident enough to come out and share this to your channel ❤️ love you girlie 😍
I love your videos so much! They’re all filmed beautifully, and you’re so woke. Thank you for sharing your story. It’s very sad that you couldn’t continue gymnastics but this was very inspiring. I hope your channel grows so much because everyone needs to watch you :)
thank you!
I hope you stay with UA-cam,you are amazing and one day you are going to be a big UA-camr I can feel it
thanks! :)
So inspirational, you seriously do have a voice of hope for lots of people, I hope you pursue that 💕
ok im going through all my old comments i never responded to before i came back to youtube, so this response might seem random but this means a lot, thank you
Wow, just finished the video. Deep. Makes me think about everything I have and how lucky I am. Thanks you so much. You are really motivational. I know for sure one day you will become big. You won't become the NEXT Casey neistat, you will become you're own youtuber.
This is an absolutely amazing story. I have never been through what you have been through but now that I think about it, there is nothing that will make me stop softball. (I'm training to be on the National Team) Thank you so much for putting this up for people to see because you and your story totally told me something.
This inspires me. I was having a dull and sad day but this turned it around. Thank you.
thank YOU!
8:17 My feeling when I had a stroke in 2016 and had to be in rehab for a month, and continuously went to therapy when everyone else was "Having fun". Then I just put everything into UA-cam and I finally fell like I have something again. Everything happens for a reason. Great video...
thanks. i honestly feel the same way, and I'm glad you're in recovery now. :)
I actually love your videos and your sense of passion and inspiration for making them. It’s so down to Earth and real! Glad I stumbled upon you!
thanks! :)
stumbled across this video by accident and i'm so glad i did. last week i was told there was no surgery that could fix me and i've been struggling mentally since then. this is the first time i've looked at it from a new perspective. thank you
thank you!
I know the feeling of doctors telling me "theres nothing we can do" just keep pushing, something always comes. :)
Just got here through @dslrguide. A quote just ringed: “There isn’t anyone you couldn’t love, once you’ve heard their story” -Mary Lou Kownacki.
Love the sound of raindrops :)
This is cool. Feels good to see other young filmmakers doing so well.
Your stories are so inspiring, and I am not easily inspired. Great job.
13 year old filmmaker.
This video was amazing!!, I only just recently discovered your channel. and I love the way you think about things and how you film and edit!. Keep it up, you're an inspiration :)
Just started and I'm already hyped!!😂😘
Thank you for posting this. I have a broken wrist and I have for a while and Basketball is my passion, but with the gap in-between my practicing, I don't know if ill ever be as good as i was. This showed me that even if this isn't something that I love anymore, I will have a passion for something else. Thank you, Alexa.
I love your drive and focus. I know you will be successful at whatever you put your energy into.
thank you!
It is a great video,Alexa! I believe that sharing your story makes it more special because people can learn and be inspired from it. So...thank you! Keep doing and being your best!
Its really cool seeing someone who has gone through what im going thru, i love soccer, but everyone keeps telling me that im not good, im not the best one in my team, and i just wanna give up, thank you for this vlog, you made me so emotional i started crying.
I don’t have anything to say, but you’re amazing.
thank you
Hi, I know you probably won't see this but, you inspire me and many others but I think you can CHANGE THE WORLD!! You have such talent and you will go places. MARK MY WORDS!
thank you!
Glad you survived JRA. When he was a child, I watched my younger brother go through JRA. At the time, there was less treatment for this. Most painful thing I believe I've ever seen, was my brother curled up in a fetal position, from pain, sleeping. Sleeping was his only time of peace. Thank goodness for modern medical advances. I won't say what birthday he recently celebrated, but he's not a young kid anymore and his own son is grown. Yes, thankfully he survived. Life doesn't award Gold Medals, for many things, worthy of one. Surviving JRA, and many other health issues, is its own reward. One with no audience applause. Thanks for mentioning the unexpected. Hope VidCon went well for you. :-)
why are all these people I watch have done something good in their life? I'm literally nothing and never got any achievement in life
Saunterblugget Hampterfuppinshire just vecause you haven't done something up to this point doesnt mean you won't. If you expect to do something crazy incredible you might always wait. Sometimes the small things make the biggest difference that you won't ever see. :)
Maja Kaja thanks for the inspiration, you made my night ( and tomorrow's day)!
right now can be the moment you can change that :)
Saunterblugget Hampterfuppinshire yay! I am glad. Just keep at it and yah lexamazing kinda hit it with her point!
You have a great story. Please continue putting in hard work to make your videos! :)
I love the rain too
You are truly amazing, this took guts.
Loved this!! So inspirational 💕
Hey Alexa, really like your videos, kind of makes me want to get into vlogging! Just a suggestion though, if you’re gonna talk in a loud place (ex. rain), I would invest in a wired mic that you just wear, and sync the audio in post. Just a suggestion! Keep making cool videos.
im crying omffg this is so sad and inspirational *subbed*
Impressive camera and editing work, but even more impressive storytelling. Subbed 'cause I want to see how much further your filmmaking and story grows from here. And my best to you on fighting JRA.
Oh, yeah, found you through your comments on Sara Dietschy's channel.
thank you!
Just found your channel today and thought I love it! I’m new to UA-cam and just trying to find my style. Thanks for your inspiration!
My sister has arthritis as well and she is so strong. She is getting better and I understand that it’s hard. I used to hear her crying and feeling hurt and all I did was hope that she would get better. Stay strong.
I thought this was very inspiring and I chose to, like somebody else in this comment section, to share my story. It's not a long story since I am only 12 years young and have many more stories to share. I was 4 years old, my sister was 6. I can barely remember what happened but I remember she was dangling a DVD Player off a rope over our stair case. She told me to move because she was going to drop it and I ignorantly stood still. She ended up letting go, and I had a massive gash or hole in my head. My mom was out taking classes to finish college so she could get a better job (Unfortunately she's still working at the same place), and my dad called her to rush to his house. I soaked 3 paper towels with blood and I started getting light headed. I don't remember the car ride to the ER, probably because I passed out according to my mom. I was awoken in a hospital bed having stitches placed sealing my wound. Not much happened the following years, until I was 8 years old. End of 2nd grade which was a great yet horrible year, I met my favorite sub ever, and my 2nd most hated teacher. But back on subject, before 3rd grade i had to switch school since my original school was changing to a Spanish speaking school only. I moved to a small school, meeting many friends I don't have anymore today, but were fun while they lasted. My entire life up until this point I have been very nervous. After 3rd grade I was getting ready for 4th. It was scaring me because I don't really like getting used to new teachers, and this teacher scarred me for life. Pretty much for most of my childhood my parents fought and it sometimes got physical. My dad is an alcoholic and over drinks often. My new 4th grade teacher started asking me about my life at home. I don't understand why she asked me this, I can only assume I must have seem depressed. I told her everything and I felt guilty. I lasted that entire year somehow and the next two years of my life were the best. In 5th grade I finally emerged, showing all types of energy and making a ton of friends, and a lot of enemies. I had my favorite teacher ever and he pushed aside things I did wrong unless I really needed help. He was my teacher for 5th and 6th grade. Now this year. New to Middle School, 870 students packed into a two story school for 8 hours a day. 7 periods each lasting 1 hour, and a lunch and break time lasting about 45 minutes. In 6th period I had a strict teacher which was not new, but I got sick often and I have missed a lot of school this year. She gave me my missed assignments on a Wednesday and expected the work the next day. I obviously couldn't do that because she is known for giving loads of work and homework. I ended up getting pulled from my middle school erasing many of my friendships. Up until 3 weeks ago I went to a child psychologist because I was apparently having ADHD symptoms according to my parents and they were right. After I got back home from that horrid place and my parents went to sleep I found a knife and well, started slowly cutting my wrists and almost committed suicide. My parents know I am slightly depressed and suicidal but they don't think I'd actually attempt it. I don't even know why I am sharing this with people I don't know on the internet, this was just really inspiring and I felt like I should rant and release my feelings. Sorry if things don't match up I just don't have that great of a memory and obviously rant quite a bit. Anyways have a good day everyone.
thank you for sharing your story. always remember that you are so loved
Wow. You are much more mature than your age does you justice. Keep up the great work! I hope everything with the arthritis gets better or at least doesn't worsen. Good Luck!
thank you!
Amazing video as always! Very inspiring;)
It's a beautiful story and I broke my arm once so I had surgery and so yea I knew how the surgery feels
Same I absolutely love 💕 rain
I loved the sound of the rain on the umbrella, it was a nice touch. I've gone through something too but then overcame it (kind of) and now I'm trying to do what I love (film). Oh and Dang you are SOOO Mature😂😯😄
I saw your comment on Logan Paul’s video and I wasn’t expecting quality but wow you’re actually pretty talented
You said this so we'll stay strong❤❤
Love this video so much!
I love this!!!
Thank you for sharing this video with us. It was really inspiring like all ur videos!
Keep it up fr you’re great
You're so incredible!! I wish I could be as great as you. I'm going to start posting more videos because of you. Thank you for inspiring me.
thank YOU :)
lexamazing Of course! You deserve it!!❤
thank you so so much for this video❤
Aww..... Lexa.. such an amazing video! God Bless you!..
this was amazing
Great video, this was amazing and very inspiring. Great job.
I love your channel so muccchhh
Thanks for sharing your story.
What is my story? I am still working on that. You describe a this is it momemt and I am having that moment. I just started songwriting and it is TERRIFYING! I am surrounded by peopls that tell that they I can sing and that I am doing great, but I DON'T BELIEVE IT. I want to, but I cant. I cant believe that I am doing something right. I have depression and anxiety and it makes accepting compliments hard. Depression tells me that I they are lting and the anxiety tells me that posting a song is going to ruin my life. Listing my first song was terrifying. I dont know that anything will come of it, but I took a leap of faith and we will see whwre it leads. I will probably make a video on my story too now. If you wanna check out my song it is All I See.
I subbed I love how you edit your videos
FINALLY MONDAY!
That was a really nice video! We should really be grateful for what we have. : )
RED QUEEN AYEEEEE
Great Inspiration 💗
Omg your editing is on point! What do you use?
1:00 that rainbow was gas lol
Don't ever stop:)
*YASSSSSSS*
Great story.
good talk indeed!
and i am crying
Love your story, although it's sad you sometimes just have to let go and create space for something else, whatever that may be and whenever will come. Also, just a little side note: try to look into the camera lens instead of your camera's recording screen when talking to your viewers. Makes it so much more personal. Keep it up!
Your amazing.
New Subscriber!!! Love this video
Everything happens for a reason
you got my subscription
You are inspiring, I just became ur 5,415 sub😁
U just got a new subscriber
İ love your videos! Greetings from Turkey.