Phora - Sinner Pt.3 [Instrumental]

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  • Опубліковано 28 вер 2024
  • ● Re-Produced by NEON
    ● Produced by ANTHRO & Vicktor Taiwò
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 77

  • @Juan-vi6yd
    @Juan-vi6yd 3 роки тому +8

    I tripped for a good 4-5 hours with this on repeat a while back, the feels are forever ingrained in this beat. Much love ❤️

  • @theofficialteamswin2262
    @theofficialteamswin2262 5 років тому +17

    I'mma drown my sorrow into this instrumental.....I can't do this anymore .

    • @ruita8096
      @ruita8096 4 роки тому +2

      HOPE ALL IS NOW GOOD:)

    • @smokeyson436
      @smokeyson436 2 роки тому +1

      2 years later. Hope life has treated you well, traveler.

    • @mrbackwood5208
      @mrbackwood5208 Місяць тому

      4 years later I hope you overcame your sorrow, god bless brother

  • @innocentngwenya4503
    @innocentngwenya4503 3 роки тому +1

    On repeat for days damn 2021

  • @ElmsGlue
    @ElmsGlue 6 років тому +4

    always so good

  • @winter-wasteland
    @winter-wasteland 5 років тому +1

    Damnnnn fuckig once again killed the beat like a pro! You truly are gifted keep up this solid work

  • @randobrando2653
    @randobrando2653 5 років тому +1

    I love phora

  • @erkhuff327
    @erkhuff327 6 років тому +19

    Omg thank you sooo much for making this beat

  • @47buddhists97
    @47buddhists97 5 років тому +1

    wow.... amazing job dude

  • @Brenvers
    @Brenvers 6 років тому +2

    awesome

  • @cxki453
    @cxki453 5 років тому +7

    Why’s it so hard to forget about you
    When i look into the mirror
    and all i could think about is you
    Running past my memories
    I cant let this this get to me
    Cause you were the only one
    that knows me too
    Whats worth of trying
    when you don’t have feelings
    You are the only one i can define
    its true meanings
    When i was the only girl
    That was down for you
    Tried to make you happy
    I guesss you didnt have a clue
    Writing you paragraphs
    To show you that i care
    And never mean to hurt you
    Cause i was just too scared
    Would you act differently
    If i changed myself
    You tell me dont worry about it
    Just be yourself

  • @stevoking11
    @stevoking11 5 років тому +1

    Fire were could I download this

  • @YNKMJ
    @YNKMJ 4 роки тому +1

    Everyday I see
    Heart breaks,heart aches,big mistake,wrong takes
    This world is just like hell
    My heart will never fail
    At least that’s what I thought
    There’s no love that can be bought
    Money Corrupted the world
    I really want this girl
    Momma always told me
    Love will find me
    But when momma
    Where momma
    Is it behind me
    I can’t find it
    I feel hopeless
    Unfocused
    No motion
    You seem stressed out
    What is love really about

  • @musicrelated4307
    @musicrelated4307 5 років тому +1

    Love it !

  • @kidktkanetsomorojele5137
    @kidktkanetsomorojele5137 3 роки тому +1

    🔥🔥🔥

  • @Tony-cr4or
    @Tony-cr4or 4 роки тому +1

    Yeah I see the dark feeling like I lost my sight been torn apart feeling like I lost the fight looking for your heart but it’s hard to find compromise from the start but all I got is lies you the shawty that I’m trying to find but it’s like you don’t want me or you trying to hide trying to find something but all I find is lies didn’t want you to dump me cause you my ride or die

  • @princetherealest1
    @princetherealest1 6 років тому +3

    🔥

  • @tomohawkcloud
    @tomohawkcloud 2 роки тому

    Can you do sinner pt2 please

  • @Tony-cr4or
    @Tony-cr4or 4 роки тому +2

    I’m looking for the sun but all I got is rain I’m looking for god but I lost his faith I’ve been looking for love but all I got is hate you use to be the one till you got away I don’t want I don’t why

  • @amiahgalentine9860
    @amiahgalentine9860 4 роки тому +1

    Can I use this for my video?

  • @mase8403
    @mase8403 4 роки тому +1

    Yo can i use this for non profit?

  • @Btsbabe4life
    @Btsbabe4life 6 років тому +25

    Omg I’ve been looking everywhere for this🙌🏽 please could I use this for one of my videos I promise to give credit in the description & drop the link💜

  • @JC-or8ls
    @JC-or8ls 4 роки тому +5

    Yeah
    See it's been hard for me to be myself
    I look in the mirror and I can't see myself
    Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me
    Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you)
    My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving
    'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living
    What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel
    What happens when there's no more life in me for you to kill (I see you)
    I can't love now
    I can't trust now
    I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now
    I can't lose you
    I can't keep you
    I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you)
    Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you
    Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you
    But we ended up as the type of people that don't love
    'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you)
    But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me
    All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me
    And I don't know how much longer I can stay
    The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you)
    And it's like, having trouble finding myself
    I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself
    They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost
    Looking for ourselves in a place where we're all lost
    I see you running into the woods
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost
    Yeah, you look lost
    I see you running into the woods
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost
    Yeah, you look lost
    I see you
    Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through
    I'm empty now and it's been a while since I've spoke to you
    I run to you because I know your soul has been broken too
    But maybe that's the reason why I just couldn't get close to you (I see you)
    You're no good, your love is dressed in destruction
    I pushed away but without you I couldn't function
    I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real
    'Cause I just keep numbing the pain 'til I feel nothing in these (I see you)
    Nightmares haunt me still but I just keep dreaming
    If God exists tell me why I only see demons?
    Yeah I only see demons
    Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you)
    We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now
    So all the smiles we give to people are fake now
    And we just hide how we feel so we never break down
    And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you)
    I wish I didn't have to take these pills
    But I just needed something that can make me feel
    I just needed something that could take what's real
    And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you)
    I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces
    Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness?
    Fuck, who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness?
    I see you running into the woods
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost
    Yeah, you look lost
    I see you running into the woods
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost
    Yeah, you look lost
    I see you

  • @arturonanez9165
    @arturonanez9165 7 місяців тому +1

    See it's been hard for me to be myself
    I look in the mirror and I can't see myself
    Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me
    Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you)
    My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving
    'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living
    What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel?
    What happens when there's no more life in me for you to kill? (I see you)
    I can't love now
    I can't trust now
    I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now
    I can't lose you
    I can't keep you
    I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you)
    Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you
    Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you
    But we ended up as the type of people that don't love
    'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you)
    But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me
    All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me
    And I don't know how much longer I can stay
    The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you)
    And it's like, I'm having trouble finding myself
    I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself
    They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost
    Looking for ourselves in a place where we all lost
    I see you running into the woods
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost (you look lost)
    You look lost
    I see you running into the woods (running into the woods)
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost (you look lost)
    You look lost
    I see you
    Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through
    I'm empty now and it's been a while since I spoke to you
    I run to you 'cause I know your soul has been broken too
    But maybe that's the reason why I
    Just couldn't get close to you (I see you)
    You're no good, you're love is dressed in destruction
    I pushed away but without you I couldn't function
    I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real
    'Cause I just keep numbing the pain
    'Til I feel nothing in these (I see you)
    Nightmares haunt me still but I just keep dreaming
    If God exists tell me why I only see demons?
    Yeah, I only see demons
    Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke
    Like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you)
    We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now
    So all the smiles we give to people are fake now
    And we just hide how we feel so we never break down
    And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you)
    I wish I didn't have to take these pills
    But I just needed something that can make me feel
    I just needed something that could take what's real
    And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you)
    I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces
    Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness?
    Fuck, who would have thought loving you was my only weakness?
    I see you running into the woods (running into the woods)
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost (you look lost)
    You look lost
    I see you running into the woods (running into the woods)
    With your bright yellow jacket
    You look lost (you look lost)
    You look lost
    I see you
    And I see you

  • @micahsonlvl10
    @micahsonlvl10 2 роки тому +2

    Can you make sinner 1?

  • @jonathanwinik108
    @jonathanwinik108 6 років тому +8

    make the instrumental for “Her” pleaseeee

  • @JuneBabyBrown
    @JuneBabyBrown 5 років тому +31

    yeah
    see it’s been hard for me to be myself
    i look in the mirror and i can’t see myself
    feel like i’m screaming and no one’s hearing me
    trapped in my insecurities knowing i couldn’t free myself (i see you)
    my heart and my time are two things i stopped giving
    cause most of us are breathing but we not living
    what happens then when i’m too numb inside to even feel
    what happens when there’s no more life in me for you to kill (i see you)
    i can’t love now
    i can’t trust now
    i can’t help but drinking to feel the rush now
    i can’t lose you
    i can’t keep you
    i can’t stay but you know i’m too weak to leave you (i see you)
    know i’m too weak to love someone else cause you know i need you
    even though you lie to me i still try to believe you
    but we ended up as the type of people that don’t love
    cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (i see you)
    but if you see me now you wouldn’t recognize me
    all these feelings that i used to have are dead inside me
    and i don’t know how much longer i can stay
    the ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (i see you)
    and it’s like, having trouble finding myself
    i couldn’t say i’m still the same i couldn’t lie to myself
    they say love has a price we just can’t afford what it cost
    looking for ourselves in a place where we’re all lost
    i see you running into the woods
    with your bright yellow jacket
    you look lost
    yeah, you look lost
    i see you running into the woods
    with your bright yellow jacket
    you look lost
    yeah, you look lost
    i see you
    yeah, my family don’t know the shit i’ve been going through
    i’m empty now and it’s been a while since i spoke to you
    i run to you because i know your soul has been broken too
    but maybe that’s the reason why i just couldn’t get close to you (i see you)
    you’re no good, your love is dressed in destruction
    i pushed away but without you i couldn’t function
    i needed something to feel, i just needed something that’s real
    cause i just keep numbing the pain til i feel nothing in these (i see you)
    nightmares haunt me still but i just keep dreaming
    if god exists tell me why i only see demons
    trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke like how the fuck i keep breathing? (i see you)
    we live in a time where love is more painful than hate now
    so all the smiles we give to people are fake now
    and we just hide how we feel so we never break down
    and all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (i see you)
    i wish i didn’t have to take these pills
    but i just needed something that can make me feel
    i just needed something that could take what’s real
    and make me numb cause all this pain just can’t be killed
    i can’t be killed, my soul’s too real that’s when it broke to pieces
    who would’ve thought that loving you was my only weakness?
    fuck, who would’ve thought that loving you was my only weakness?
    i see you running into the woods
    with your bright yellow jacket
    you look lost
    yeah, you look lost
    i see you running into the woods
    with your bright yellow jacket
    you look lost
    yeah, you look lost
    i see you

  • @Madnapkidmusic
    @Madnapkidmusic 5 років тому +2

    I feel like these fucking demons are messing with me
    As if my pain isn’t enough that they have to toy with me
    I don’t put up a fight so they leave and get bored of me
    Then they come back once I start feeling the lord with me
    I feel like this pain is never going to end
    I deny everybody every friend but I love these demons embedded in me
    They’ve convinced me they’re bettering me
    Sometimes I just want this, all, to, end
    And no I’m not talking about the pain and the misery
    I’m talking, vanquishing the flame that god put into me
    And no I’m not talking about the pain and the misery
    I’m talking, vanquishing the flame that god put into me
    I had to say that twice because i feel like nobody hears a sound
    Like a tree in the forest doesn’t make noise when it hits the ground
    It starts off as if everybody would be better if I leave town
    turns into everybody would be better if I was never around

    • @collinspringer3106
      @collinspringer3106 3 роки тому +1

      Feel like everything would be better if i was in them clouds
      Like everything would be better if i drowned or choked and broke the rope,
      I dont even know , im just losing hope
      I pray and i pray but feel no change
      Wish i could fucking stop feeling this way
      I Must be delusional
      Everything went wrong when you left that day
      Where do i start
      What do i say?
      Since that day i havent been the same
      Like..
      Like apart of me was ripped out me
      Noone by my side to help me
      Atleast thats what it felt like to me

  • @miareyes3376
    @miareyes3376 5 років тому +3

    Plz make sinner pt 2 !!

  • @alejandrorosa8422
    @alejandrorosa8422 5 років тому +3

    Please do a her instrumental please

  • @DoubleDTwins21
    @DoubleDTwins21 5 років тому +2

    1:26 hook replay button

  • @maddenmobilevoid1983
    @maddenmobilevoid1983 6 років тому +3

    time to remix this, lets go, thank you :)

  • @candylopez294
    @candylopez294 4 роки тому +1

    Who is the background Singer?

    • @NEONgotthesauceboi
      @NEONgotthesauceboi  4 роки тому

      Candy Lopez Here’s the sample
      ua-cam.com/video/dioa5RpgPEk/v-deo.html

  • @jordanpettie
    @jordanpettie 5 років тому +2

    Bout to make some fire to this man Fr felt Phoras pain feel like I gotta let mine be known to!!

  • @graciousweasel1696
    @graciousweasel1696 6 років тому

    Man I feel like I’ve been losing it
    I hate to deal with all this stupid shit
    I got my heart broken to many times cuz I kept running back to this stupid bitch
    And I hate who I’ve become
    Cuz I just drink to get numb
    Like 10 isn’t enough so I go get more wake up drunk like what the fuck
    And I ain’t ever coming back now
    I won’t be who I am now
    I just wish I had the answer cuz truthfully I have no fucking idea how
    I’ll figure it out
    I’ve been going down this route
    And money isn’t a issue cuz I got all this clout in my fucking bank account
    But it doesn’t help me feel
    I just need something that’s real
    I wish I would talk to you cuz maybe your the one who could help me heal
    And maybe if we talked then we could feel love
    But I just wish I learnt how properly cuz it really fucked me up.

  • @ryadenero5768
    @ryadenero5768 3 роки тому +1

    Never knew how to love
    ever what you thought
    caught up in the dark and it make me fall apart
    Over and over it get worse
    with every start
    Know he blame cuz im dark
    I see i see
    That shit so fucking equal
    like a sequels
    Me who I don't get it is it cuzevery body wanna be you what the fuck did I teach yall I beat too
    Said i should act like my pops shit u need too
    Still expect me to be evil

  • @nicholasqueen5164
    @nicholasqueen5164 6 років тому +1

    Why every day it seem harder to try to be myself
    I take a look in the mirror and I dont see myself
    I just drown in the pain and it never fade away
    Suicides been trying to tempt me day to day
    The devil got me where he want me, feel him closing in
    Cause I dont see God, I'm used to feeling close to him
    Now these demons are trying to take control of me
    But even Lucifer could never take my soul from me
    I feel depression is creeping, I cant shake it
    Anxiety is stressing me, lately I cant take it
    I act like everything is okay when I know it isn't
    The family is changing, every one is so different
    People that I used to call my friends dont even speak to me
    Usually the ones you love are quick to switch up frequently
    It feels like I lost everything I was living for
    Making me question myself what I was in it for
    I need the Lord cause I'm headed for hell
    Cause my only future now is either dead or in jail
    I been a prisoner to addiction for like a life time
    Only concern was pills, dope, and white lines
    I was hostage to the drugs, than I got clean
    It was turning me to something that is not me
    I done lost some good friends to an overdose
    Face blue, no pulse, they was comatose

  • @NEONgotthesauceboi
    @NEONgotthesauceboi  4 роки тому

    Here’s the sample
    ua-cam.com/video/dioa5RpgPEk/v-deo.html

  • @Souls3rdEye
    @Souls3rdEye 6 років тому +3

    Been waiting thx

  • @drewolfe5898
    @drewolfe5898 Рік тому

    My life is not what it seems shooting dice and hanging with the thieves she still loves a broke nigga but I'm still begging on my knees asking for your hand when I need the flowers I threw at your feet are burning and turning ashes as you watch me bleed I guess we was never meant to be that hurts me eternally atleast I got to see what beauty truly means

  • @jonathanwinik108
    @jonathanwinik108 6 років тому +3

    yessss!!!!!!!!!

  • @hellzflame800
    @hellzflame800 4 роки тому +1

    Have you ever been in love
    Wanted to free yoself
    Stuck with somebody
    But you can't be yoself
    So every time that you look in mirror
    You get a notion to break it
    Kuz you can't stand to see yoself
    Makeup and tears staining the pillow cases
    Screenshots from a friend of some familiar faces
    Questions answered with lies
    Breakin yo family ties
    You have nobody to blame but you for the situation
    Make up sex can't stop nightmares
    Of being beaten
    and you thought that it would stop right there
    When he was cheatin
    No you're gone and this is not quite fair
    You're not right here
    I'm mad that I was not right there
    When she were screaming
    Why the fuck was taken away from me
    I guess she lied when she lied when she told me she would wait for me
    All the pain and the anger
    They keep askin me how do I feel
    Man I don't know so get away from me
    This ain't the time to let emotions get away from me
    I'm just asking for everybody pray for me
    I really wish you were here to take all the pain from me
    I guess I gotta find another fuckin way to breathe
    I guess I gotta find another fuckin way to grieve

    • @hellzflame800
      @hellzflame800 4 роки тому

      All this pain I have bottled up inside of me
      It makes sense why we try to hide it in bottles think
      Family obligations and Bill's got you stressed out
      Don't wanna ask for help cause your pride got yo chest out
      So now you think resorting to drugs can bring comfort
      But when it all falls down you back to the same number
      Back to the same woman knowing you don't love her
      Back to the same job that you can't stand a second of it
      Back to the reason in the a back of my mind
      Every time I get pulled over being black is the crime
      When my auntie died part of me too
      You ain't the only one that cried nigga I cried too
      The difference is I had nobody to talk to
      then music whispered in my ear and said I walk with you
      The keys sat me down said let me have have a talk with you
      From now on you will never be alone I'm here to walk you through

  • @jayfeels3784
    @jayfeels3784 3 роки тому +1

    Have you ever been in love or even been included in it
    Every move you make your this closer to loosen it
    And that’s just what the truth is
    I wish I had the blueprints
    A map laid out RELATIONSHIPS what not to do with them
    Damn!
    Love really got me feeling left out
    Wear my heart on my sleeve I’m careful with every step now
    I can’t let nobody in because they always seem leave me
    But come back when my pockets full, the only time they need me
    I don’t love love I hate it I’m still grieving over mistakes I made in that bad place when I was at my weakest
    Anxiety is steady trynna drag me to the deep end
    I try to swim and keep breathing but I just keep on sinking
    Thinking thoughts out loud what’s the fucking reason
    Got my head in the clouds suffering from overthinking
    Day dreaming thinking about those bullets I’m fucking dodging
    Trying hard to find an answer cuh I’m running out of options
    Pretty soon I’ll be in jail or inside a coffin
    Because this depression will kill me I’ll end up getting lost in it
    Trynna find the person I was knowing I’m the cause of it

    • @LuxiBeats
      @LuxiBeats 2 роки тому +1

      this is fire bro keep writing fr

  • @posoleaddict0042
    @posoleaddict0042 3 роки тому +1

    I did remix to this beat. Should I release it on yt?

  • @destinyydelarosa5843
    @destinyydelarosa5843 5 років тому +1

    Please please please pleaseee make one for the beauty inside , and in a perfect world , I’ll luv you forevaaa !

  • @tomohawkcloud
    @tomohawkcloud 2 роки тому

    DO SINNER PT2 RIGHT NOW

  • @sadmamig599
    @sadmamig599 2 роки тому +1

    I was ganna make my own verse to this. But I can't. Phora literally took how I feel and put it the right words. I cry Everytime I hear these lyrics because I feel the fucking same. Shit. This is fucking insane. When someone's else feels the same and on top of that he's famous? 😔 Money don't heal shit. But our appearance and that shit is fake

  • @GlockieP
    @GlockieP 5 років тому +1

    When you got broken and dunked on in irl

  • @Tony-cr4or
    @Tony-cr4or 4 роки тому

    Yeah I see the dark feeling like I lost my sight been torn apart feeling like I lost the fight looking for your heart but it’s hard to find compromise from the start but all I got is lies you the shawty that I’m trying to find but it’s like you don’t want me or you trying to hide trying to find something but all I find is lies didn’t want you to dump me cause you my ride or die I’m looking for the sun but all I got is rain Ive been looking for god but I guess I lost his faith I’ve been looking for love but all I got is hate you use to be the one till you got away and I don’t know the shit I’m getting wishing shit was different wish you would of listen then get upset with me I promise

  • @MultiUndertone
    @MultiUndertone 3 роки тому +1

    Writing a remix of this. Out soon.

  • @HR26Music
    @HR26Music 6 років тому

    Teri team jese thakur oh fuck hatho ki kmi khlegi😂
    Well done hommie♥️

  • @anissa8573
    @anissa8573 5 років тому

    So fucking amazing

  • @ttvkxprodigyxk7650
    @ttvkxprodigyxk7650 4 роки тому

    Can you do pt 2 pls

  • @colbyNQ
    @colbyNQ 5 років тому

    what sample is that vocal/hum from ?? it's gorgeous

    • @whyterhyno17
      @whyterhyno17 5 років тому +3

      Vicktor taiwo- digital kids is the song it comes from

  • @fyst6114
    @fyst6114 5 років тому

    Depression taking over I cannot hide
    You don't know the pain i feel inside
    Im so hurt that I don't even feel alive
    I lie and tell everyone im fine
    But you don't wats going through my mind
    Depression is like a knife that keeps going deeper
    Depression got me to another height that the fall is looking steeper
    (I don't know how should continue)

    • @jamesbugaiski3081
      @jamesbugaiski3081 5 років тому +1

      I'm waiting on a call from my keeper the one that lives above us and supposedly watches over us and then when shit gets tough everyone wonders why I cut
      It's cuz I don't give a fuck and Im stuck in a rut and I feel like I can't be touched cuz if you try to buck up and fuck me up I'm coming back for more like you didn't hurt me so you may as well dessert me cuz you are not worthy to try to hurt me and destroy my self worth g , you think you a g but you just a demon feeding on those you been decieving and it feels like the darkness is creeping in on me now and I feel like it's easier to click clack pow but I'm not going out now cuz I got too many people to worry about, you too scared to just come out and fight you hide in the night and keep me from taking flight, but always you stay out of sight until it's too late for me to relate to another human being it's obscene trying to be someone you feel like you can't be but how can I stop when that person is supposed to be me, I used to take this shit with easy say whatever I need to get up off of my knees but now it only creeps into my house when I turn the lights out and try to shut my mind out you remind me of how I failed to create a better way and I would keep myself up for days trying to find a new way to say I'm ok
      It isn't much and it ain't that great cuz I usually don't write but you're shit was good so I had to reply