You’re so fucking real for this and a breath of fresh air. I was in a similar position as you a few years ago where I was freelancing and basically making no money because I was too depressed to make myself work. I made the decision to get a 9-5 when I thought I’d never do it. Starting that job honestly saved me, I needed that stability! I did the 9-5 for about a year until I started getting the itch for a job with a bigger purpose and started selling my art at markets and teaching art at a local studio and as a travel art teacher in schools. I never would have gotten to this point if I didn’t get that job to get me back on stable ground. So hold on, keep doing what you’re doing and find your footing. There’s no rush. Your higher purpose is forming right in front of you and you are following each step exactly as intended 🤍🤍🤍 so proud of you!!!! I thought of you last week &, I checked your channel and hoped you were doing okay, so I am relieved to see this video.
I'm in such a similar position right now! I have a great 9-5 and supportive bosses as well as a crochet business that I bring to local markets. I feel so fulfilled and life finally is starting to feel stable. I'm so glad she posted this and gave us all a glimpse into a normal life.
Girl is the 25 brain kicking in! I swear something literally changes in your brain and you see your life a whole different way! Hope everything keeps getting better for you ❤✨️
I felt myself become a different person on my 27th birthday. I wonder if it's just me (and my brother I talked to about this) the older you get the more sure you are of who you are? I know it makes sense, but it was still surprising to me 😅
I experienced that too 😂 around 25 my mind kind of settled and I had a complete different view of my life - In a positive way. I wonder if there will be another change in the next years. 👉🏻👈🏻 still struggling with negativity and overthinking
I think it’s great that you got a full-time job! Working full time has been really good for my mental health and I hope that’s the same case for you! ☺️
Having a full time that forces you to do things is life saving. I know we glorify freelancing and working from home and not having a schedule. But it's so helpful to have structure in your day. To know that these hours are working hours so if i want to sulk and cry i have to do it before and after it. It forces you to work, get a schedule in sleep, gym, eat which are important and when you go through a depressive episode you tend to ignore them. Also..I love watching creators with an actual job. I just love it. It's so much closer to how people live and how we all deal with life.
i've been going through a depressive episode and if it weren't for my full time job, i would have absolutely crumbled. having that job and pay consistency and security sincerely saved me. congrats!
i love my 9-5. It has saved me in every possible way. It gets me out of bed, forces to take care of myself and be responsible. Ppl who hate on 9-5 just dont get it sometimes.
to be honest after dropping out of college i was stuck in a consistent 3 year long depressive episode, literally rotting away and getting a 9-5 literally saved my life and my mental health !! it seems counterintuitive, because i was used to having like a 3 month long periods of doing practically nothing but the structure, routine and real responsibility keeps my head above the ground. hopefully it helps you as well !! wishing the best for you and hopefully you will still make videos on here or tiktok too !!
This is actually really inspiring to me. I recently was told I wasn’t well enough to work but been unemployed makes me feel so awful & isolated. I want to be well enough so seeing you able to push yourself and hold down a steady job gives me hope that I can get there. Thank you and keep thriving lovely
one thing i always love about reese is how she talks about the fact that depressive episodes or Dark Days are reoccurring. they don't just happen once or twice, they keep happening if you have depression. makes me feel less alone for struggling so often
no pressure to post, i know you have so many other things going on in your life, but i just wanted to tell you how much i miss seing your content. it's so weird missing a stranger??? but i do. we're the same age and i have watched your videos since i was a teenager. i've never related to any other youtuber in the way i relate to you. i guess what i'm trying to say is: you matter to people you've never met. still: pls don't feel pressured by anyone to post anything. you do you, life's tough enough💖
I honestly feel this video so much. I struggle with depression and anxiety a lot and I personally feel like my 9-5 is such a good distraction most of the time and it forces me to keep a routine and it’s honestly keeping me above water most days. So your video is so real and relatable. I absolutely love that you have a job that you love with people that you like! ❤
Im so happy for you reese. I was scared that you were depressed or that something happend. But im happy you are working, that would help you a lot Sending you lots of love from Argentina ! I have been watching your videos since 2015 so i feel like i grew up with you !
i can honestly say that my 9-5 helps me so much. it gives me a set schedule and i can freely know how it’s going to go and when to play all my fun time. you’re such a fresh breath of air for being so raw and honest. i am so incredibly proud of you.
Love this for you!! I honestly LOVE the balance of doing content creation and working my 9-5. It's been great for my mental health to have routine for my depression/anxiety!!
I just got my first full-time job at 26 year old almost 2 months ago. It helps me so much when it comes to being better financially. I had just a small part-time job in retail that made it hard to know if my next paycheck was going to pay my bills. This new job is also the night shift which might suck for some people but in the way i live my life, it's actually perfect for me so i love it that way. I missed this video until now and i just wanted to say that i missed seeing your notifications but i understand where you are coming from. Congratulations on your full-time 9-5 job.
I'm so glad you're doing better! Congrats on the full-time job, that's super awesome! I've had a similar realization in the past that my job, for better or worse, is a really important structure for keeping me anchored to live the rest of my life. I'm proud of you for the steps you've taken and I hope things stay good for you!
Thank you for showing us the other side of influencing. I feel like a lot of us 9-5ers are being sold this “dream” of being your own boss, but it’s not necessarily for everyone. Especially those who struggle with mental health where structure is beneficial 😊
i have never felt so seen. i struggle with the same issues. from the body dysmorphia to the instability and identity issues. thank you for talking about this ❤️❤️❤️ thank you thank you thank you i feel so much less crazy knowing someone else goes through the same thing
This randomly popped up on my timeline and was so soothing to watch. Been struggling with the same shit and can relate to how getting a new job just put me right back where I needed to function in life without constantly failing at it on my own. Also, this is something I've been doing to become kinder to myself, is seeing my brain as a best friend who is looking out for me rather than an enemy trying to tear me down. If I feel tired after work and need a nap, I tell myself it's fine to just take a nap or drink coffee in peace without rushing to a hobby or chore right away. Try cutting yourself some slack on some of the things you're struggling with atm - you're already doing great as is :)
you're the most relatable person on youtube for me & i'm so sorry😭body dysmorphia (especially your experience) & constant depressive episodes are such horrible things to go through. so glad you're feeling better, keep doing what works for you and don't forget to treat yourself gently when you're going through it
I’m so happy for you!!! Now content creation can be your creative outlet and can be more of a fulfillment/relax thing instead of something you HAVE to do to survive. I feel like following trends and having to track views/revenue must be so exhausting for creators.
yeah i have a hard time following trends that i'm not interested in and it's hard to get videos out into the algorithm that aren't following what's popular - i love making videos, but my own style is not what's gonna bring in the full time income lol
Miss your videos soooo much. You've always been my favorite/comfort UA-camr so having you take bigger breaks has been so sad :( Please post more if you're able? I hope you're well ❤❤
I've missed your content but so glad you were able to take some time for yourself and are feeling a bit better! I'm a huge mental health advocate and I love how open and vulnerable you are (not that you owe anyone your story). I'm proud of you and happy for you that you are enjoying your job!
I do not think you are describing body dysmorphia rather dpdr- depersonalization derealiazation, it is a form of dissociation, am sending support your way, know how difficult it can all be, you totally got this!
reese, i've been watching your videos since about 2018 (i think) but i haven't always been consistent. I decided to watch this video just on a whim and i feel really inspired. I recently graduated from college about a month ago and it's been really frustrating applying to jobs bc it feels like i'm not good enough but you really inspired me to go for a job that's more in my range. thank you for being you.
I clicked on your page so quick, I feel your page is always genuine, realistic and good vibes. Always stay true to your self beautiful.💗 I know this world can be tough, do what you need to. Mental health is everything & self care ✨🥰🌷
Reese, I've been following you for years, I don't even know how many. But as always, I so appreciate your authenticity and rawness. I'm so glad to see you again and really look forward to what you create. Wishing you all the best!!
So glad to see a new video from you, I really missed you! Happy to hear you’re feeling better and finally getting some sleep (I have very similar sleep issues so I relate so much). I have a 9@5 and the structure of it is actually really helpful for my mental health. I don’t know why people always critique it. It can actually be a great type of work when you need the money and if your coworkers are nice and you like what you’re doing 💝
I have been subscribed to you for so many years, despite being my favourite comfort UA-camr you’re also nothing short of a complete breath of fresh air. You’re so real. So honest and you help more people than you know ❤
I’ve been watching your videos for so many years now, you are my comfort youtuber. Glad you are feeling better, missed you very much! So excited you’re posting again! 💜
congrats on your job!! i definitely agree with you i do't think i could do a fully remote job because it'd lose my mind being inside all the time. i think this is why it's important for influencers to go to college/ have a passion outside of content because as you get older your goals might change and creating content might not be what you want to do long term
Thanks for the life update! Honestly I was getting a bit worried. As a long time subscriber, I know you sometimes stopped posting due to mental health and this time was really long! And I do remember you talking about money struggles before then too and I was worried about you supporting yourself. You are literally one of my favorite UA-camrs so I was like if I had the ability, I would totally pay each month on patreon literally without extra content. So I was so happy to hear you got a job you really enjoy and is giving life to your life essentially! And working with people you actually enjoy is huge. As someone who has always wanted to work for myself, because I prefer being alone and the flexibility and struggle mental health myself, I have actually been thinking about whether I need to find a job with stable hours and income too. As I’ve gotten older and still struggling at 23 (almost 24!) to find something that I love enough that will get me out of bed and make me excited about life, I’ve been wondering if the stable income and the force to work specific hours might actually be the answer. Thank you for sharing that transition, as I always see the other way round. So happy to see you again!! ❤
i’ve been watching you since you were living at your parents and shipt shopping and i am so proud of you :) i also deal with depression and it’s so comforting to watch an “influencer” who is so real and deals with the same struggles ❤
just watched the whole video and i am here to give you a hug! i felt watching your last 2 - 3 videos that you were being harsh on yourself by doing content/youtube because you thought that's the only way out or that's what you want. by constantly revising your mood boards, manifesting more subscribers, you were wearing yourself think and i too have done that by using all of my creative juices without taking permission from my own soul. i am so happy to hear that you found a routine for yourself through this job and sometimes all we need is what ever is the most basic. it's okay to have our relationship with something someone transformed into a different state, i think. like you are still in a relationship with us and youtub but in a different way. and i too deal with endless paranoia and dysmorphia in the way you experience and even simply feeling an unknown relationship and closeness with my body that is always complicated and unknown. i have a tendency to look at my face in the mirror and feel like my skin color is of a lizard's or that i am so weird-looking. also, seeing how much you've grown over the years, what you said about making money off sitting in front of the camera to rant about your depressive episodes is so matured and genuine. i am a swiftie but sometimes i think, is taylor going through patchy relationships to write relatable songs! i hope you don't judge me for that thought but if you see, that's what the world has turned into. we live to make content, and not make content about fun, cool, travel, educational, entertaining or any other type of stuff in life. i will always want to watch you, i feel so emotional to see you back after a long time and about the things you said in the video. i did in fact think of you and thought that you took time off because you probably didn't feel like or were maybe getting back to your college that you dropped out of. i've been watching you for so long, since you were in school making routine videos and watched all of your old school lookbooks too! and since we are of the same age, i feel a sense of affection and amity towards you, reese! please take care of yourself. i am trying a lot to take care of myself here. we have to live to understand how much we can do and love and try despite anything. love to you! xx
As a full time creator who has only been leaving my house to walk my dog, I feel this to my core. Proud of you for making a change that’s best for you!
The mirror thing sounds like depersonalisation which I first started having during my first depressive episode. It is very uncomfortable but there are some rare but good resources out there that really helped me. Sending love 🧡
thank you for sharing this!! currently I’m going thru something similar. Been out of job since Jan this year and it’s been so hard staying positive in this horrible job market. I hope the routine with a full time job (that’s not content creation) will help you in some way ❤
Hey ! I’m 16 and i’ve been watching you for a few years. Your so relatable and comforting for me to watch im such a big fan, whenever i say the word basically at home my mom says reese because she knows how much i watch you 😭 You always make me feel like i want to post on youtube because of how much i appreciate you sharing your story. We will always watch anything you put out and will always be here when you post but i’m so glad your mental health is getting better and whenever you feel like posting i’m sure all of us will appreciate it ❤️❤️
I was just thinking that I hadn’t seen any of your videos for a long time. Glad you are doing well! Starting part time and going full time was so smart!
You are doing so well 🫶🏻 do what you need to do. Be gentle with yourself. Set small goals so you don’t hate yourself if you miss big goals. You got this ❤
Glad you're doing ok (i was worrying a bit). You're so strong sharing this! I go through episodes also but yes work is a constant structure i need (although i hate it sometimes). It gives me the incentives i need to sleep good. So i get you. You go girl! 💪✨🙏 You express it so good.
So very grateful to see you pop up on my 'suggested' videos today. Wishing you all the best- all the peace, friendship, stability, and financial prosperity as life continues to unwind and come into the light again.
oh boyyyyy. I am a mentally ill girly who suddenly blew up on social media as i was graduating collage and have never worked a regular job. this video spoke to my soul. this is the first video of yours that i have seen but wow i think we are the same person. thank you for making this video
I am mentally ill/part time failed creator 😂 UA-cam wasn’t doing it for me anymore and I’ve been having writers block. Online university is one of the only things keeping me going. Been in a slump lately
Happy to see your face! That’s great for you and hope it helps! I went from working full time to sahm and I can defintely say life without structure is really hard sending lots of love!
I'm so glad you're back I missed your videous so so much! I checked my UA-cam feed every week in hopes that you would post something. Welcome back, Reese! I hope you will rediscover you passion for filming videos and content creating🙌✨️
Literally so proud of you for getting through that depressive episode!!!! Idk if it’s what you’ve experienced but I think being depressed with inadequate support and also how dark depression can get (especially any close calls with unaliving) can be a bit traumatic. I really hope 9-5 gives you helpful structure but like you said, there’s no shame in going back to part time if it’s what’s best 💕 Tysm for taking the break you needed, we’re always happy to see you but it’s only worth it if it’s positive for you! Also what you said about dysmorphia sounded a lot like depersonalisation which is a type of dissociation (dissociation is generally associated with trauma). I’ve had both body dysmorphia and depersonalisation before so that’s why I say this. But please talk to a professional you trust if you can, I’m just some person on the internet lol
I can relate to what you're saying about things like depression and anxiety and the insomnia and the burnout from posting videos on a regular basis. I have taken a step back from posting videos for a little bit. But come September I will have been working at my job for a year and i also like my job and the people I work with. It does me good to get out of the house and break up the monotony of things. Anyway sorry for the long rant but I felt like sharing my thoughts and I'm glad that you have found something that helps you deal with everything and I'm glad you found something that makes you happy and keep up the good work 👍🙂.
Very relatable and all the best wishes❤ I got laid off in September last year and had intentions of trying to make a living off instagram, but reallly quickly realized that that life is not for me, i need a more humanitarian reason to make money and the stability of a job. It takes a certain kind of personality and grit that I am working on but just dont have at the moment.
I’ve been following along your journey since high school/college and I love how you always keep it real 🤍 I totally agree with everything you said about content creation! I think it’s best to have it as a creative outlet bc when it becomes full time it feels like so much pressure and drains the fun out of it! I’m so glad you’re enjoying your new full time job, and hope we see many more videos to come soon! 🫶🏼
Feels very good to see and hear you again! Always feel very understood because i‘ve gone through similar periods and i always feel like we are growing together
@basicallyreese holy shit how much our mental brains are the same fuckery! I either have days with optimism and stupidly smiling and happy, or literally bed rotting wondering what the point of anything is. Also the face dismorphia: i cant believe you also experience that, i tbought i was the only one! I literally look at my face sometimes and trip out that it's me, my face. Your videos have WORTH especially when you share so candidly. You make mental gals like me feel less alone. I appreciate you and know that you are contributing to the world in a positive way.
girl, we're literally in the same damn timeline. i felt like absolute shit in the months leading up to my 25th birthday in december and the last 6 months since then have probably been THE months in which my whole outlook on life just.. changed. i always just though "yah, right", whenever I heard people talk about the changes you go through mentally when you're around 25, but damn. it's so true.
hiiii i miss you reese !!!! it’s so good to hear your voice and see your face again i can’t wait to see more content from you!! i feel like im in one big rut as well but im working on getting myself out and you have helped me with this video ◡̈ thank you for posting and being here reese
Yayyyy!! Finally Finally After a Long Long time Reese is back with a another new vlog and I really really missed your vlogs so so much and I wish you have a blessed weekend🥹🥹💖
Congrats on the new job! miss you and your content, so glad that you found something you love and you’re getting back on the grind! So excited you’re posting again💕
I understand you so much! I was a freelancer and being always at home while being payed so little… was depressing. I felt that life didn’t move on. Was terrible. I’m glad that I find a job even though it’s not my area of expertise. ❤
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and updates! I feel similarly about UA-cam, I haven't posted for two months and I know it's mostly because of uni making me busy and then getting a part time job in May, but still. I filmed a bit this weekend and hope to post soon again once my last exam (tomorrow!) is over. Looking forward to the times you get inspired again to post as your videos is something I enjoy watching! Thanks for sharing your story.
Missed you so much Reese! Omg yes I’ve been feeling the ick from other UA-camrs recently lol. Im glad your back and how realistic you are and posting when you feel like it is perfect 👍 we’ll watch your vids when your ready to post!
In college when I was depressed for a few months, I called it my "depressemester" and I still call it that when I think back. It helps me give it a certain time frame of a few months! A depressemester is what you had! And now that semester is over and you got through it!😄
ILY Reese 🥺 I’ve watched you since we were both 16 and I feel like I’ve gotten to know you over the last few years . Idk if this means you’ll quit UA-cam but the thought makes me so sad . But I’ll always support no matter what makes you happy. I , too have gone through mental health issues, including a few attempts. The only thing that really has helped get me out of it was to follow the word of god. It felt soo freeing and I stopped feeling so alone . I’m not here to advocate for Christianity bc I myself am no where near perfect but suggesting what helped me and thousands others in the world. I know your beliefs are different but looking out for god never harmed anyone . It might be the peace of mind you’ve been looking for . Take care and ily ❤
Honestly getting a 9 to 5 pretty much saved me. It got me the daily structure my life desperately needed.
Working a 9-5 over the last several years is probably one of the few things that has kept. me from falling into a deep deep depression.
You’re so fucking real for this and a breath of fresh air. I was in a similar position as you a few years ago where I was freelancing and basically making no money because I was too depressed to make myself work. I made the decision to get a 9-5 when I thought I’d never do it. Starting that job honestly saved me, I needed that stability! I did the 9-5 for about a year until I started getting the itch for a job with a bigger purpose and started selling my art at markets and teaching art at a local studio and as a travel art teacher in schools.
I never would have gotten to this point if I didn’t get that job to get me back on stable ground. So hold on, keep doing what you’re doing and find your footing. There’s no rush. Your higher purpose is forming right in front of you and you are following each step exactly as intended 🤍🤍🤍 so proud of you!!!! I thought of you last week &,
I checked your channel and hoped you were doing okay, so I am relieved to see this video.
I'm in such a similar position right now! I have a great 9-5 and supportive bosses as well as a crochet business that I bring to local markets. I feel so fulfilled and life finally is starting to feel stable. I'm so glad she posted this and gave us all a glimpse into a normal life.
thank u 🥹💗
Curious are you still ina. 9-5 or back to being your own boss
Hi! Did you get something in your field or just find an opportunity?? I’m in the same boat and trying to figure out the next step!!
Girl is the 25 brain kicking in! I swear something literally changes in your brain and you see your life a whole different way! Hope everything keeps getting better for you ❤✨️
yeahh!! The pre frontal cortex is likely finished developing which explains the change :)
I’m still waiting for it to kick in😅. I’m turning 26 this September and I’ve been spiraling since I turned 25 last year. Send help lol
@@itssabrinaaaaaa 25 is the youngest age. But for some people, especially men, it won’t stop until age 30ish or something in between 25-30.
I felt myself become a different person on my 27th birthday. I wonder if it's just me (and my brother I talked to about this) the older you get the more sure you are of who you are? I know it makes sense, but it was still surprising to me 😅
I experienced that too 😂 around 25 my mind kind of settled and I had a complete different view of my life - In a positive way.
I wonder if there will be another change in the next years. 👉🏻👈🏻 still struggling with negativity and overthinking
I think it’s great that you got a full-time job! Working full time has been really good for my mental health and I hope that’s the same case for you! ☺️
Having a full time that forces you to do things is life saving. I know we glorify freelancing and working from home and not having a schedule. But it's so helpful to have structure in your day. To know that these hours are working hours so if i want to sulk and cry i have to do it before and after it. It forces you to work, get a schedule in sleep, gym, eat which are important and when you go through a depressive episode you tend to ignore them.
Also..I love watching creators with an actual job. I just love it. It's so much closer to how people live and how we all deal with life.
Also the income! You know if you go to work you're guaranteed to make money, and that's one less thing to worry about
Hi! Did you get something in your field or just find an opportunity?? I’m in the same boat and trying to figure out the next step!!
i've been going through a depressive episode and if it weren't for my full time job, i would have absolutely crumbled. having that job and pay consistency and security sincerely saved me. congrats!
we love you bestie! as a 33 year old, it DEFINITELY gets better after 25!!!
i love my 9-5. It has saved me in every possible way. It gets me out of bed, forces to take care of myself and be responsible. Ppl who hate on 9-5 just dont get it sometimes.
to be honest after dropping out of college i was stuck in a consistent 3 year long depressive episode, literally rotting away and getting a 9-5 literally saved my life and my mental health !! it seems counterintuitive, because i was used to having like a 3 month long periods of doing practically nothing but the structure, routine and real responsibility keeps my head above the ground.
hopefully it helps you as well !! wishing the best for you and hopefully you will still make videos on here or tiktok too !!
Hi! Did you get something in your field or just find an opportunity?? I’m in the same boat and trying to figure out the next step!!
This is actually really inspiring to me. I recently was told I wasn’t well enough to work but been unemployed makes me feel so awful & isolated. I want to be well enough so seeing you able to push yourself and hold down a steady job gives me hope that I can get there. Thank you and keep thriving lovely
wishing you lots of luck and love!
one thing i always love about reese is how she talks about the fact that depressive episodes or Dark Days are reoccurring. they don't just happen once or twice, they keep happening if you have depression. makes me feel less alone for struggling so often
Congrats Reese. Finding a job that you love with people you love, that is living the dream. 😊
no pressure to post, i know you have so many other things going on in your life, but i just wanted to tell you how much i miss seing your content. it's so weird missing a stranger??? but i do. we're the same age and i have watched your videos since i was a teenager. i've never related to any other youtuber in the way i relate to you. i guess what i'm trying to say is: you matter to people you've never met. still: pls don't feel pressured by anyone to post anything. you do you, life's tough enough💖
I honestly feel this video so much. I struggle with depression and anxiety a lot and I personally feel like my 9-5 is such a good distraction most of the time and it forces me to keep a routine and it’s honestly keeping me above water most days. So your video is so real and relatable. I absolutely love that you have a job that you love with people that you like! ❤
Im so happy for you reese. I was scared that you were depressed or that something happend. But im happy you are working, that would help you a lot
Sending you lots of love from Argentina ! I have been watching your videos since 2015 so i feel like i grew up with you !
i can honestly say that my 9-5 helps me so much. it gives me a set schedule and i can freely know how it’s going to go and when to play all my fun time.
you’re such a fresh breath of air for being so raw and honest. i am so incredibly proud of you.
Love this for you!! I honestly LOVE the balance of doing content creation and working my 9-5. It's been great for my mental health to have routine for my depression/anxiety!!
I just got my first full-time job at 26 year old almost 2 months ago. It helps me so much when it comes to being better financially. I had just a small part-time job in retail that made it hard to know if my next paycheck was going to pay my bills. This new job is also the night shift which might suck for some people but in the way i live my life, it's actually perfect for me so i love it that way. I missed this video until now and i just wanted to say that i missed seeing your notifications but i understand where you are coming from. Congratulations on your full-time 9-5 job.
Girl, good for you!!! I am proud of you for making this lifestyle change and being vulnerable enough to share. You’re doing great, friend!
I'm so glad you're doing better! Congrats on the full-time job, that's super awesome! I've had a similar realization in the past that my job, for better or worse, is a really important structure for keeping me anchored to live the rest of my life. I'm proud of you for the steps you've taken and I hope things stay good for you!
Thank you for showing us the other side of influencing. I feel like a lot of us 9-5ers are being sold this “dream” of being your own boss, but it’s not necessarily for everyone. Especially those who struggle with mental health where structure is beneficial 😊
i have never felt so seen. i struggle with the same issues. from the body dysmorphia to the instability and identity issues. thank you for talking about this ❤️❤️❤️ thank you thank you thank you i feel so much less crazy knowing someone else goes through the same thing
This randomly popped up on my timeline and was so soothing to watch. Been struggling with the same shit and can relate to how getting a new job just put me right back where I needed to function in life without constantly failing at it on my own. Also, this is something I've been doing to become kinder to myself, is seeing my brain as a best friend who is looking out for me rather than an enemy trying to tear me down. If I feel tired after work and need a nap, I tell myself it's fine to just take a nap or drink coffee in peace without rushing to a hobby or chore right away. Try cutting yourself some slack on some of the things you're struggling with atm - you're already doing great as is :)
you're the most relatable person on youtube for me & i'm so sorry😭body dysmorphia (especially your experience) & constant depressive episodes are such horrible things to go through. so glad you're feeling better, keep doing what works for you and don't forget to treat yourself gently when you're going through it
Just a mini check in to say hope you’re doing well and still finding joy in your daily life! You’re a great person much love ❤
I’m so happy for you!!! Now content creation can be your creative outlet and can be more of a fulfillment/relax thing instead of something you HAVE to do to survive. I feel like following trends and having to track views/revenue must be so exhausting for creators.
yeah i have a hard time following trends that i'm not interested in and it's hard to get videos out into the algorithm that aren't following what's popular - i love making videos, but my own style is not what's gonna bring in the full time income lol
Miss your videos soooo much. You've always been my favorite/comfort UA-camr so having you take bigger breaks has been so sad :( Please post more if you're able? I hope you're well ❤❤
girl, im soooooooo happyy at this point of yours, hoping you have a fantastic birthday ahead
Reese
So happy to hear this update! I’m glad things are looking up for you! Happy early birthday🎉.
I've missed your content but so glad you were able to take some time for yourself and are feeling a bit better! I'm a huge mental health advocate and I love how open and vulnerable you are (not that you owe anyone your story). I'm proud of you and happy for you that you are enjoying your job!
I do not think you are describing body dysmorphia rather dpdr- depersonalization derealiazation, it is a form of dissociation, am sending support your way, know how difficult it can all be, you totally got this!
reese, i've been watching your videos since about 2018 (i think) but i haven't always been consistent. I decided to watch this video just on a whim and i feel really inspired. I recently graduated from college about a month ago and it's been really frustrating applying to jobs bc it feels like i'm not good enough but you really inspired me to go for a job that's more in my range. thank you for being you.
I'm glad you're doing better right now and I hope it continues! I always come by and check so it's so nice to see you in my feed today.
I clicked on your page so quick, I feel your page is always genuine, realistic and good vibes. Always stay true to your self beautiful.💗 I know this world can be tough, do what you need to. Mental health is everything & self care ✨🥰🌷
Reese, I've been following you for years, I don't even know how many. But as always, I so appreciate your authenticity and rawness. I'm so glad to see you again and really look forward to what you create. Wishing you all the best!!
Omg Reese !!!! I MISSED YOUUU ❤ Always coming to ur channel to check whether a video is up 🥹❤
So glad to see a new video from you, I really missed you! Happy to hear you’re feeling better and finally getting some sleep (I have very similar sleep issues so I relate so much). I have a 9@5 and the structure of it is actually really helpful for my mental health. I don’t know why people always critique it. It can actually be a great type of work when you need the money and if your coworkers are nice and you like what you’re doing 💝
sleep issues are so hard I hope we find some answers girl 🤝🏻
I have been subscribed to you for so many years, despite being my favourite comfort UA-camr you’re also nothing short of a complete breath of fresh air. You’re so real. So honest and you help more people than you know ❤
I’ve been watching your videos for so many years now, you are my comfort youtuber. Glad you are feeling better, missed you very much! So excited you’re posting again! 💜
congrats on your job!! i definitely agree with you i do't think i could do a fully remote job because it'd lose my mind being inside all the time. i think this is why it's important for influencers to go to college/ have a passion outside of content because as you get older your goals might change and creating content might not be what you want to do long term
I got a 9-5 after going through a rough depression as well. The routine was needed!
oh girl there’s so much I wanna say! What a lovely surprise to see a new video! Thank you for sharing this
thank you for sharing your experience and being vulnerable on the internet. you cant believe how much it helps
Thanks for the life update! Honestly I was getting a bit worried. As a long time subscriber, I know you sometimes stopped posting due to mental health and this time was really long! And I do remember you talking about money struggles before then too and I was worried about you supporting yourself. You are literally one of my favorite UA-camrs so I was like if I had the ability, I would totally pay each month on patreon literally without extra content. So I was so happy to hear you got a job you really enjoy and is giving life to your life essentially! And working with people you actually enjoy is huge. As someone who has always wanted to work for myself, because I prefer being alone and the flexibility and struggle mental health myself, I have actually been thinking about whether I need to find a job with stable hours and income too. As I’ve gotten older and still struggling at 23 (almost 24!) to find something that I love enough that will get me out of bed and make me excited about life, I’ve been wondering if the stable income and the force to work specific hours might actually be the answer. Thank you for sharing that transition, as I always see the other way round. So happy to see you again!! ❤
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Feel better reese! Congrats on both getting through your depression and believing in yourself! Don’t feel too ashamed to seek help. We ❤ you
i’ve been watching you since you were living at your parents and shipt shopping and i am so proud of you :) i also deal with depression and it’s so comforting to watch an “influencer” who is so real and deals with the same struggles ❤
just watched the whole video and i am here to give you a hug! i felt watching your last 2 - 3 videos that you were being harsh on yourself by doing content/youtube because you thought that's the only way out or that's what you want. by constantly revising your mood boards, manifesting more subscribers, you were wearing yourself think and i too have done that by using all of my creative juices without taking permission from my own soul. i am so happy to hear that you found a routine for yourself through this job and sometimes all we need is what ever is the most basic. it's okay to have our relationship with something someone transformed into a different state, i think. like you are still in a relationship with us and youtub but in a different way.
and i too deal with endless paranoia and dysmorphia in the way you experience and even simply feeling an unknown relationship and closeness with my body that is always complicated and unknown. i have a tendency to look at my face in the mirror and feel like my skin color is of a lizard's or that i am so weird-looking.
also, seeing how much you've grown over the years, what you said about making money off sitting in front of the camera to rant about your depressive episodes is so matured and genuine. i am a swiftie but sometimes i think, is taylor going through patchy relationships to write relatable songs! i hope you don't judge me for that thought but if you see, that's what the world has turned into. we live to make content, and not make content about fun, cool, travel, educational, entertaining or any other type of stuff in life. i will always want to watch you, i feel so emotional to see you back after a long time and about the things you said in the video. i did in fact think of you and thought that you took time off because you probably didn't feel like or were maybe getting back to your college that you dropped out of. i've been watching you for so long, since you were in school making routine videos and watched all of your old school lookbooks too! and since we are of the same age, i feel a sense of affection and amity towards you, reese! please take care of yourself. i am trying a lot to take care of myself here. we have to live to understand how much we can do and love and try despite anything. love to you! xx
As a full time creator who has only been leaving my house to walk my dog, I feel this to my core. Proud of you for making a change that’s best for you!
The mirror thing sounds like depersonalisation which I first started having during my first depressive episode. It is very uncomfortable but there are some rare but good resources out there that really helped me. Sending love 🧡
So happy to hear that you’re doing well ❤ wishing you peace and calm in this new chapter! You deserve it.
Ahhhh it’s so nice to see you again! I’m glad you are doing better remember to always give yourself grace we’ll be cheering for you no matter what ❤
thank you for sharing this!! currently I’m going thru something similar. Been out of job since Jan this year and it’s been so hard staying positive in this horrible job market. I hope the routine with a full time job (that’s not content creation) will help you in some way ❤
i have been a silent viewer for years but i wanted to say that i am proud of you reese! so happy for u ♥ you got this
Hey ! I’m 16 and i’ve been watching you for a few years. Your so relatable and comforting for me to watch im such a big fan, whenever i say the word basically at home my mom says reese because she knows how much i watch you 😭
You always make me feel like i want to post on youtube because of how much i appreciate you sharing your story.
We will always watch anything you put out and will always be here when you post but i’m so glad your mental health is getting better and whenever you feel like posting i’m sure all of us will appreciate it ❤️❤️
its good to hear your voice again. i've been feeling pretty low in the past couple of months and you kinda cheered me up !! thanks
I was just thinking that I hadn’t seen any of your videos for a long time. Glad you are doing well! Starting part time and going full time was so smart!
You are doing so well 🫶🏻 do what you need to do. Be gentle with yourself. Set small goals so you don’t hate yourself if you miss big goals. You got this ❤
so happy to see you, and so happy to hear that you’re doing well 🫶💓 sending love always
super glad to see you doing well!!
Listening to u feels like listening to someone talking about myself. Keep going girl.
So happy for and proud of you! I’m sure now content creation (when you feel like it) will be more fun because it won’t be your main thing
Glad you're doing ok (i was worrying a bit). You're so strong sharing this! I go through episodes also but yes work is a constant structure i need (although i hate it sometimes). It gives me the incentives i need to sleep good. So i get you. You go girl! 💪✨🙏 You express it so good.
So very grateful to see you pop up on my 'suggested' videos today. Wishing you all the best- all the peace, friendship, stability, and financial prosperity as life continues to unwind and come into the light again.
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oh boyyyyy. I am a mentally ill girly who suddenly blew up on social media as i was graduating collage and have never worked a regular job. this video spoke to my soul. this is the first video of yours that i have seen but wow i think we are the same person. thank you for making this video
I am mentally ill/part time failed creator 😂 UA-cam wasn’t doing it for me anymore and I’ve been having writers block. Online university is one of the only things keeping me going. Been in a slump lately
Happy to see your face! That’s great for you and hope it helps! I went from working full time to sahm and I can defintely say life without structure is really hard sending lots of love!
As someone just coming out of a 8 month long depressive episode, thank you. I'm so proud of us
I'm so glad you're back I missed your videous so so much! I checked my UA-cam feed every week in hopes that you would post something. Welcome back, Reese! I hope you will rediscover you passion for filming videos and content creating🙌✨️
Literally so proud of you for getting through that depressive episode!!!! Idk if it’s what you’ve experienced but I think being depressed with inadequate support and also how dark depression can get (especially any close calls with unaliving) can be a bit traumatic. I really hope 9-5 gives you helpful structure but like you said, there’s no shame in going back to part time if it’s what’s best 💕 Tysm for taking the break you needed, we’re always happy to see you but it’s only worth it if it’s positive for you!
Also what you said about dysmorphia sounded a lot like depersonalisation which is a type of dissociation (dissociation is generally associated with trauma). I’ve had both body dysmorphia and depersonalisation before so that’s why I say this. But please talk to a professional you trust if you can, I’m just some person on the internet lol
I can relate to what you're saying about things like depression and anxiety and the insomnia and the burnout from posting videos on a regular basis. I have taken a step back from posting videos for a little bit. But come September I will have been working at my job for a year and i also like my job and the people I work with. It does me good to get out of the house and break up the monotony of things.
Anyway sorry for the long rant but I felt like sharing my thoughts and I'm glad that you have found something that helps you deal with everything and I'm glad you found something that makes you happy and keep up the good work 👍🙂.
Very relatable and all the best wishes❤
I got laid off in September last year and had intentions of trying to make a living off instagram, but reallly quickly realized that that life is not for me, i need a more humanitarian reason to make money and the stability of a job. It takes a certain kind of personality and grit that I am working on but just dont have at the moment.
I’ve been following along your journey since high school/college and I love how you always keep it real 🤍 I totally agree with everything you said about content creation! I think it’s best to have it as a creative outlet bc when it becomes full time it feels like so much pressure and drains the fun out of it! I’m so glad you’re enjoying your new full time job, and hope we see many more videos to come soon! 🫶🏼
Feels very good to see and hear you again! Always feel very understood because i‘ve gone through similar periods and i always feel like we are growing together
Sending you lots of love! Hope you're settling into your job nicely :)
@basicallyreese holy shit how much our mental brains are the same fuckery! I either have days with optimism and stupidly smiling and happy, or literally bed rotting wondering what the point of anything is.
Also the face dismorphia: i cant believe you also experience that, i tbought i was the only one! I literally look at my face sometimes and trip out that it's me, my face.
Your videos have WORTH especially when you share so candidly. You make mental gals like me feel less alone. I appreciate you and know that you are contributing to the world in a positive way.
I can imagine it being so worth it if you get a job you love! I hate my job so I hate the 9-5. 😅
girl, we're literally in the same damn timeline. i felt like absolute shit in the months leading up to my 25th birthday in december and the last 6 months since then have probably been THE months in which my whole outlook on life just.. changed. i always just though "yah, right", whenever I heard people talk about the changes you go through mentally when you're around 25, but damn. it's so true.
hiiii i miss you reese !!!! it’s so good to hear your voice and see your face again i can’t wait to see more content from you!! i feel like im in one big rut as well but im working on getting myself out and you have helped me with this video ◡̈ thank you for posting and being here reese
Yayyyy!! Finally Finally After a Long Long time Reese is back with a another new vlog and I really really missed your vlogs so so much and I wish you have a blessed weekend🥹🥹💖
you’re so funny and i don’t feel this way about people i see on the internet a lot
needing time to miss it is soooo realll
thank you so much for sharing and for taking the time you needed
lots of love from berlin
Congrats on the new job! miss you and your content, so glad that you found something you love and you’re getting back on the grind! So excited you’re posting again💕
People don’t understand when I say my brain runs too fast so my 9-5 gives me a sense of peace. The autopilot dulls my brain and it’s incredible.
we’ve all missed you,so glad you’re alive and doing better💗
I'm so glad you're doing a bit better, I missed you!❤🔥❤🔥🍀
Good for you Reese!!! I'm so proud of you
I AM SO GLAD YOU POSTED YOU GOT ME WORRYING!! so glad your okay and i can't wait to watch reese
So happy to see you’re doing well! I was just thinking about you recently and hoping everything was okay.
I understand you so much! I was a freelancer and being always at home while being payed so little… was depressing. I felt that life didn’t move on. Was terrible. I’m glad that I find a job even though it’s not my area of expertise. ❤
I am so proud of you and so happy you're back (whatever that looks like! keep doing what's best for you)
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and updates! I feel similarly about UA-cam, I haven't posted for two months and I know it's mostly because of uni making me busy and then getting a part time job in May, but still. I filmed a bit this weekend and hope to post soon again once my last exam (tomorrow!) is over. Looking forward to the times you get inspired again to post as your videos is something I enjoy watching! Thanks for sharing your story.
OH YOU'RE BACK OMG We missed you soooo much ❤
Missed you so much Reese! Omg yes I’ve been feeling the ick from other UA-camrs recently lol. Im glad your back and how realistic you are and posting when you feel like it is perfect 👍 we’ll watch your vids when your ready to post!
i love love listening to you talk! you should start a podcast!
Missed you glad you’re doing better. Love you California Joanna
thank you for being so real !! Good luck with your new role :)
In college when I was depressed for a few months, I called it my "depressemester" and I still call it that when I think back. It helps me give it a certain time frame of a few months! A depressemester is what you had! And now that semester is over and you got through it!😄
ILY Reese 🥺 I’ve watched you since we were both 16 and I feel like I’ve gotten to know you over the last few years . Idk if this means you’ll quit UA-cam but the thought makes me so sad . But I’ll always support no matter what makes you happy. I , too have gone through mental health issues, including a few attempts. The only thing that really has helped get me out of it was to follow the word of god. It felt soo freeing and I stopped feeling so alone . I’m not here to advocate for Christianity bc I myself am no where near perfect but suggesting what helped me and thousands others in the world. I know your beliefs are different but looking out for god never harmed anyone . It might be the peace of mind you’ve been looking for . Take care and ily ❤
You;re so naturally pretty, I love the dark hair and features
She's alive!