This is the story of my life- I have so many thoughts on this...I first wrote like a thousand word journal entry haha but i would never subject another audhder to that hahaha. but basically I’ve been trying to figuring this out for the past few years...and I think I’ve finally made some progress. A lot of it for me is figuring out when I’m not staying true to myself and somehow over time making myself hate the interest, usually by approaching it in a way that doesn’t work for me at all. Then as I've noticed these patterns I've been able to get out of the endless cycle of losing interest in my passions. For example, one way things go wrong is when “masking” with my approach to my interests if that makes any sense? Like by following knitting patterns I was pretending to be neurotypical (to myself haha) and masking the boredom and negative emotions I experienced. And masking here, just like masking socially, is so exhausting...and i burnout and decide I hate the activity. Then the opposite of that, when I decide to be serious about something it's like I have the capability to press my foot on the accelerator and hyperfixate on something and get into this dopamine cycle...that inevitably leads to burnout... And in both of these patterns, I've kinda just slowly become aware of what was happening and have shifted my behavior. I have a lot more thoughts hahaha but I'll stop for now.
I really hear you on this one ... I think for me, finding the balance between things being serious and challenging and being under-stimulating is where I have the most trouble. Because I do really thrive, as you were describing, when I'm working on new things and gaining experience and satisfaction as I go, but then it can sometimes shift to feeling like too much, I think. I really appreciate you sharing and talking through these thoughts and feelings!
I'm 58 this year. I've gone through endless phases of creative highs and lows. So, i can relate. One thing I know is, I'm NEVER grieving the creative part in me because it'll turn up when i least expect it. Grateful. Okay back to the video
This is the story of my life- I have so many thoughts on this...I first wrote like a thousand word journal entry haha but i would never subject another audhder to that hahaha.
but basically I’ve been trying to figuring this out for the past few years...and I think I’ve finally made some progress. A lot of it for me is figuring out when I’m not staying true to myself and somehow over time making myself hate the interest, usually by approaching it in a way that doesn’t work for me at all. Then as I've noticed these patterns I've been able to get out of the endless cycle of losing interest in my passions.
For example, one way things go wrong is when “masking” with my approach to my interests if that makes any sense? Like by following knitting patterns I was pretending to be neurotypical (to myself haha) and masking the boredom and negative emotions I experienced. And masking here, just like masking socially, is so exhausting...and i burnout and decide I hate the activity.
Then the opposite of that, when I decide to be serious about something it's like I have the capability to press my foot on the accelerator and hyperfixate on something and get into this dopamine cycle...that inevitably leads to burnout...
And in both of these patterns, I've kinda just slowly become aware of what was happening and have shifted my behavior.
I have a lot more thoughts hahaha but I'll stop for now.
I really hear you on this one ... I think for me, finding the balance between things being serious and challenging and being under-stimulating is where I have the most trouble. Because I do really thrive, as you were describing, when I'm working on new things and gaining experience and satisfaction as I go, but then it can sometimes shift to feeling like too much, I think. I really appreciate you sharing and talking through these thoughts and feelings!
I'm 58 this year. I've gone through endless phases of creative highs and lows. So, i can relate. One thing I know is, I'm NEVER grieving the creative part in me because it'll turn up when i least expect it. Grateful. Okay back to the video
I have never related to a video more
Hi, do you still freehand knit/crochet? That had been the first video I had ever seen by you and I loved it!! - Sarah
yes! more freehand process videos coming soon!! 🥰💗💗