Back in the early 90s I dated a woman that was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic. I can honestly say it was the most intense and sometimes terrifying relationship I've ever been in. When she was on her medication she was the most amazing person I'd ever known. Unfortunately, on those occasions when she would stop taking her meds it turned into a frightening roller-coaster of a ride. One day she just up and disappeared. Absolutely nobody had any clue as to what happened to her until a few years later when I was walking in a completely different city and I found her living on the streets. I took her to a restaurant and bought her a meal and we chatted for hours. Then she just got up and left. I never saw her again.
As a schizophrenic, I can say that hallucinations and delusions aren't by themselves terrifying, but over time losing grip on reality is absolutely debilitating.
I can imagine. I'm bipolar and I tend to have both visual and auditory hallucinations. Although they can be annoying and weird I always know what's going on. Sometimes it's even ridiculous to the point where they make me laugh. But some times when I'm very sick they can be really scary and leave me a terrified blubbering mess. But I'm always aware of what's going on and I can usually eventually talk and reason myself out of the panic, although it feels like I'm teetering at an edge at times. Knowing how much they can mess me up while I still have a hold on reality I can't imagine what it would be like if that hold started to slip....
@@trustmeimcool it depends on how delusional they are. Delusions can be a powerful thing. If they're delusional enough it doesn't matter how many professionals try to tell them, they will always think they're right and everyone is wrong no matter what in the entire world happens.
@@trustmeimcool Schizophrenics often split the world into good/bad which correspond to their delusions. So the problem many victims have is that the ones who say "You're crazy, this isn't normal, go get on meds, this behavior is not right" get lumped into the delusion (the devil, the government agents got them, etc). So one of the most effective things you can do when talking to someone who has delusions is to not invalidate them, and they will at least not outright reject you as being part of the conspiracy against them.
As a former schizophrenic, back in the 70’s & 80’s. Personally I have to disagree with you, my hallucinations were either fantastically beautiful or the worst nightmare you could ever imagine. It’s different for most people. After I went through therapy I decided to get a degree at UCLA and work in the field of psychology. And I did that for 10 years but I finally quit, because half of the people who are working in this care need to go through therapy themselves!
@@thomasfholland There is no such thing as former when dealing with schizophrenia, it can be managed/treated to a great deal, but you will never be rid of it.
my mother was schizophrenic, she took her life around 3 years ago- can honestly say all the stigma around people with psychosis and the stereotype that all of them are violent couldn’t be further from the truth. i couldn’t have asked for a more caring mom. miss her everyday :(
my mum is also schizophrenic, she is the most loving and caring person i’ve met however people automatically assume she wouldn’t be when they find out. i really feel for you and i hope you are doing okay.
i’m schizophrenic and the hallucinations don’t bother me too much since when i see them i feel so out of it i’m barely able to acknowledge their existence. i get very common delusions that my cats are demons trying to kill me and that’s way more scary than any hallucination i’ve ever had
Do you have any methods to counteract these delusions and maintain your grip on loving your animals? When I get stuff like this, I say that: "I'd rather die doing what I love than live in fear of what I love." Sometimes, I shiver and feel like the whole world's closing in, but saying: "I'll be okay no matter what happens" as a mantra, over and over again, saves Mme from terrible experiences. You just cannot let anything get you down, even if your heart and mind are assaulting you. You cannot control what happens, but you can control how you respond.
Yep. When someone else betrays you, you can act reactively. But when your mind changes, it alters you perception of reality and by proxy the world around you is turned against you completely.
I was diagnosed Schizophrenia in 2012. I can happily say that after all these years, trying different medications and other things, I am about 95% symptom free and on a medication that works really well. I'm working part time and also learning game development. I'm doing really great. Edit: Thank you all for the kind words. As for what medication I'm on, I've been on Risperdal 1mg for the last few years and it works great for me. However, schizophrenia is on a spectrum just like Autism. What works for me might not work for you, you just have to find a good doctor and experiment until you get it right. It's a combination of medication and many other things, such as a good support system (family and friends), a good sleep schedule, and eating right. I also self medicated with nicotine and alcohol, and sort of have a schedule for when I drink (never 2 days in a row, and I don't buy more when I run out). Alcohol is kind of a tightrope in that if I drink too much, my symptoms come back, but if I drink just the right amount it gets me out of my head and I can just be happy with no voices or delusions. I don't recommend trying to manage the disorder unmedicated. I've never seen anyone come out good who wasn't on meds. I'm in a support group on Facebook called Schizophrenia Unlimited, and the admin has been an absolute gem of a person. If you need people to talk to who know what you are going through, I recommend checking out that group.
Hi, my husband was diagnosed with schizophrenia and is really having a hard time finding the right medicine. 😢 May I ask what eventually worked for you?
My son was diagnosed with schizophrenia 6 years ago . Takes olanzapine daily without fail. Last year he graduated from Brighton university with a first in psychology and is thinking of doing a masters . His goal is to work and help people with MH issues.
@@steveowens7006 because the mental healthcare system is extremely broken. We don't have a mental health crisis in the 1st world, we have created a society that makes people crazy.
@@christiandam6803 my ex-wife has half her brain; she got hit by a car. She can barely leave the house... My mother was a guinea pig for all sorts of pills in the 1990's she wasn't that unstable, after years of them shoving concoctions of new and experimental drugs down her throat she could barely leave the house. When my son's mother decided to weaponize a "green warrant", by telling a magistrate a bunch of lies to get me committed since I informed her that I would be filing custody paperwork the following day... They tried to do the same to me, when the FBI wanted to know about my dad's criminal activity he got scared and took a page from her book, they tried even longer and harder to get me to take the meds. The system is doesn't see it's flaws, it just sees problems that it's science and money need to fix. If you show up in the clutches of their claws you are broken and their system is the only thing to fix you. You cannot condemn the pharmaceutical industrial complex and praise it simultaneously. Sure there will be casualties in ironing out what is altruistic and getting away from the greed, but the casualties will be immensely greater to society if the so called justice system is bought in part by the industry. Industrial complexes are very dangerous to society, they are the parasitic worm that cannot live without the host it is killing.
I had a friend who had schizophrenia and he never told anyone. Anyway, one day he got real quiet in gym class and whispered “do you see him?” Me and my friends all looked around confused. Apparently, one of his delusions was a man in a black trench coat that followed him around. He held one of my other friend’s hands until it went away. Till this day I think about him and hope he’s ok. He looked genuinely terrified.
Feds thought I was lying about an all black motor cycle driver following me around after doing some investigative journalism on Tesla. I ended up being institutionalized and later that month the guy did donuts in the intersections around my house that everyone in the neighborhood including the police can’t find the perp and I’m currently beating Tesla in court. SOMETIMES you really are a journalist that really is being stalked. Sometimes they use this disease as an excuse to discredit a witness testimony without needing anything but one crooked doctor.
The dude is not schizophrenic he is psychic sight, the man in the black trench coat, you have no idea how many people see the exact same thing. Many see him on during drug taking and sleep paralysis, what ever it is it is not friendly, it gives off negatives vibes. it has been caught on camera. There has been documentaries about the thing, some psychologist before the internet was a thing, they suss it was real, so many of their patients who not know each other describe in detail the same thing.
That’s not a schizophrenic hallucination. It could mean he has it but afflicted people do not have the capacity to appear normal when having an episode. Not by any measure. That was more likely from a lack of sleep.
@@rebelliousfineart8202 That is not true it dispends if the hallucination feels like a threat. But people are so dismissive they cannot comprehend what is going on. It is not an hallucination what they are seeing is really there, they are seeing another layer of reality that the average person has no awareness. The man in the trench coat has been seen by so many, there has been documentaries he has been caught camera and has been seen in many countries. It is not a man this thing is a life form it is inter-dimensional in nature the people who assumed they are smart and gate keepers. Don't have the intellect to unpack this so they put it aside and say hallucination.
I developed schizophrenia about 5 years ago and it tore my life apart. The scariest part about it is that no matter how much you tell yourself it's not real, when you hear the voices it seems as real as anything else you experience through your senses. I met other schizophrenics when I was in the hospital who wouldn't even consider the possibility that they weren't real, so I'm pretty lucky that I can at least compartmentalize my hallucinations and therefore not act on them, but it took alot of time and I still don't do it perfectly. I'm a really big fan of all of your videos Simon. They've really helped me get through when I'm struggling and need something to look forward too.
It is good that you can compartmentalize them. But I do hope you still have regular check ups. This can reduce the flare ups, when you have a safe place.
I had a friend with this, she would sometimes pause and look over, and ask us "is there a person there?" Or "is someone else talking?" To help herself know which was real and which was a hallucination. I'm glad she trusted our little group enough to feel fully comfortable with us like this. Ive lost contact with her just through time, I hope she's still managing well
I went to college with a woman who was schizophrenic. You’d never know unless she told you (as she’d told me). She was one of the nicest people I’ve met and she was super outgoing and friendly to pretty much everyone. She was the kind of person who tried to include you and helped break you out of your shell. I hope she’s still doing well wherever she is now.
Some people who are the most outwardly caring are so because of the damaging and horror show like life they have in their own minds. Understanding such pain/misery can cause (some not all) to be sympathetic and have a deep gratitude to just being able to genuinely smile. So help others as they understand the importance of just that fact.
My wife was diagnosed with paranoid schizopfreddie over 10 years ago and it's literally tearing our family apart and I really wanted to divorce her. I know people say its the disease not the person, but when all of the disruptions coming from 1 person it's hard. On top of that I have one son that's autistic not really bad, but he has a lot of social issues. And our youngest son is intellectually delayed. It's a really heavy load and my plate is full and my wife is not willing to take any medication.
You have to do what’s best for you and your kids. Don’t let anyone drag you down with them. It’s hard to be with someone who doesn’t want to better themselves and stay mentally healthy.
You gotta put yourself first man. You know that she would have most likely left you if the roles were reversed and everyone would tell her to find someone better. It’s YOUR life, not hers. You can find someone who is a good addition to your life instead of solely being a burden.
Divorce her. If they're refusing to take their medication they just get worse and worse. If they're the violent type, especially you need to get out of there.
My father and I were diagnosed with Schizophrenia when we were young. Unlike my dad, my diagnosis was described as mild. That doesn’t make life any less difficult, working, episodes, relationships and even basic skills can be so hard. I’m thankful that more people are trying to understand the disease and realize that not everyone with schizophrenia is an awful human beings.
my older brother's first psychotic episode happened when he was 14. He had to be hospitalized, and thats how we found out. I was 7 at the time. Apparently he had been hallucinating for *months* and didn't say anything because he was scared. I don't remember why he was scared, I was having my own issues. It's truly a sad disease. It hit him so young. He wanted to be a pilot when he grew up :(
I work in healthcare. It's absolutely heartbreaking to watch the way that the American Healthcare system treats people with mental illness, particularly people with schizophrenia. The symptoms are treated as behaviors that the person is choosing to do. Nurses and doctors alike often treat pts with schizophrenia as "difficult" and "obstinate." Rarely are pts with symptoms of schizophrenia treated with compassion or even human decency.
I can verify this. Being put in basically solitary for like I think 14 hours? It's hard to know exact time you lose track of it after awhile. Yeah it was misery. Jus me in a bright white room rubber walls, rubber chair, and a towel to be my "blanket." I was losing my head rapidly in there. Speedrunning madness one might say.
I experienced this when abusing psychedelics, was hell on earth… wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy. There’s one thing losing control of your body but when it’s your mind it’s torment
My ex is a psychedelic addict and he's got severe schizophrenia symptoms. It was like dating that crazy clown from them horror movies. So grateful it's over (for me... Probably not for him)
2:00 It's important to note that people suffering from mental illness, including schizophrenia are far more likely to be victims of crime or abuse than to commit it
Don't lie to yourself. As if you don't know that under delusions they would do anything they're convinced will make it go away. I'm constantly one bad day away from just giving in. Schizophrenics are absolutely capable of being dangerous
As a parent it feels like you are in a constant state of mourning. The child you knew slowly disappears along with the hopes and dreams of a life he will never have. My son has suffered for 10 years he is considered treatment resistant as they haven’t found a medication that takes away the delusions and hallucinations. As I write this he is currently hospitalized because of the command voices telling him to harm himself. He has enough insight to know when he needs to seek help. He has maintained his concern and empathy for others I am thankful for that.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2013. Since then, I've had nothing but social problems and have even gotten in trouble legally. It's a horrible condition, and I've been watching myself deteriorate year after year. I've had problems and symptoms of it since the early 1990s. It's horrible.
My uncle has schizophrenia. Medication works well for him, but a few times he's stopped taking it, and it's horrible to see all the delusions come rushing back. He's truly one of the strongest people I know. I can't imagine the struggles he faces every day.
I don't have schizophrenia, but I do have a pretty bad case of bipolar and I've had to be on anti-psychotics half of my life. Those medications suck the soul out of you, and cause countless awful side effects. It's awful that they are forced to choose between being zombified on one hand and living with schizophrenia on the other. It's all so sad.
@@noahtalbott6243 A lot of them don't get that choice and are forced to take the medication. I haven't had them for years, but it was a struggle to get that choice. I had to convince a judge to go against the advice of the psychiatrist, which is very unusual for a judge to do. They typically trust the expert. That meant I had to delve into studies myself, into the law, combine that with my own history, and make a persuasive argument. The judge ultimately ruled in my favor, but only because the psychiatrist wasn't really prepared to be debated on his expertise. In particular he was unable to explain how I had stayed psychotic for two years while being on antipsychotics all that time. The judge agreed it was extremely unlikely medicine would only start to work after two years, so the psychosis subsided naturally and the meds didn't work on me.
@@jbird4478 If that's true, all the respect and power to you. What a great story of success. Really awesome that you managed to outsmart and outdebate them.
@@bdarecords_ Thanks, but it's really a shame that it was needed. I'm not completely against forced medication, but patients should have their rights better protected. It should have been my lawyer. I was lucky enough that I had that court hearing in a time when I was doing very well, but in most cases patients aren't very capable of sticking up for themselves at such a moment. These types of cases are usually pretty much hammer pieces, as it was with me the first time I went through that.
My mother is a schizophrenic with multiple personalities. I remember her having us crouch down under a window because the Russians were invading our trailer. I think I was around four at the time. She married an ex Klansman who was a child predator. Obviously, he took advantage of her sickness. I’m gonna leave it at that as to how my childhood panned out. One personality, King Johavis, an angel sent from heaven with her “son” being the child she wanted. I am an only child… and her daughter. King Johavis hated me, unfortunately, he was the most prominent personality as a child. It’s made me different from my peers… I’m 50. I think my mentality is different from your typical 50-year-old. I’ve struggled with relationships in general to the point where I’m an extroverted loner. Extremely complicated to be this way, and have relationships that can understand the contradiction. Growing up I had to hide everything that was happening to me. And what was even worse, she allowed it. She would disappear for months and leave me with him. I left home at 15. if I would’ve stayed any longer, I don’t think I would’ve lived past 18. I just knew I was going to die. Thankfully, my cousin took me in or else I wouldn’t be here today. I don’t know where she is. And to be honest, I really don’t want to know where she is. I realize her sickness caused her to be the way she was. But it doesn’t make it easier to reconcile the terrible life I lived. So now I feel nothing for her. And my deadbeat dad, my real biological father, I couldn’t care less where he is either. I’ve tried to be the best person I can be considering the life I lead. And I have succeeded, to some extent in living a life without abuse. But being so different from everyone else, because my life growing up was not healthy, it’s made me a very complicated person to deal with. I don’t wish anyone to have to go through what I went through. Ever. I am a good person, who excepts people for who they are regardless of skin color, sexual orientation and race. And I hope that my stepfather is burning in hell with a bit of extra punishment added because he didn’t turn me into him. Anyway, this was my life, being raised by a mother with schizophrenia. This is a very dangerous mental illness that can negatively affect families as well as the individual going through the illness. And it’s up to the individual to be responsible enough to stay on treatment, considering there’s no cure. That’s the tricky part.
@kerryheath8215 you've had a shitty life so far but I hope the rest of your days are long and filled with happiness. i'm proud of you for not letting your horrible upbringing turn you into the creatures who raised you. good luck.
I remember I met a girl who is schizophrenic and she was crying and speaking very low to the person that was with her "Their talking to me again and I'm scared." I felt so f'ing bad because she's such a nice person and the way she was shaking in fear trying to hold back tears in fear that the voices would do something is sad.
I have Schizoaffective Disorder (Schizophrenia and a Mood Disorder). I was diagnosed in December of 2013. I finally got stabilized on Medication with in a year. I have been stable for 10 years. I take my medication every day because I am terrified of losing my mind, again. I put my meds together weekly ( I used to be an RN), with my husband’s help. I hope to God that I never experience psychosis, again.
The respectful disclaimer at the beginning is deeply appreciated. Mental illness is the butt of so many jokes - it’s a relief to see a respectful explainer about it
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, Asperger's and ADHD at a young age, I went through 6 years of heroin addiction (8 years clean) and now that I'm 28 I am still managing, I live a fairly normal life aside from almost being diabetic with the medication I'm on, but I am doing MUCH better than I was in my teens and early 20s, I have a steady job, a nice apartment and I manage my life okay, there are some things I still need to work on though, it is tough sometimes
Did the heroin alleviate some of your symptoms? I’ve heard of studies being done that show that opiates can help treat it. You obviously shouldn’t go back, but I’m curious about your anecdotal experience.
@@Sniperboy5551 It did mask my anxiety and made me forget about the delusions when I took it, but I don't think it should come as a surprise that when I was withdrawing my symptoms were exacerbated
My bf has schizophrenia. It’s debilitating for him. He has this hallucination in his mind he calls Francis, and for a bit he used to think he had DID, he didn’t. Francis is a violent voice, having a completely different personality from my bf. Despite how sometimes he’s violent, he can also be fatherly. I don’t really know how he works. He’s told me about it, and he’s told me about how he sometimes keeps waking up to hallucinations of Francis and another voice, screaming and arguing at eachother and telling him to hurt himself and other people. It’s already hard having to help him during his breakdowns, I can’t imagine how bad it is for him. I love him so much and I hate seeing him like this.
I had a schizophrenic friend. An architect. She unfortunately was taken advantage of by her married coworker, an engineer, ending up in a fling, under the assumption he loved her but then he left her and never spoke again with her afterwards. She became convinced he was stalking her and ruining her career, and she became more and more withdrawn, believing he was hiring hackers to interfere with any activity she joined. She eventually left her firm, and started to believe demons were also influencing her life, including the actions of the engineer. I was the one she turned to in order to verify if things were real or not. I never denied things she saw were real or not, but I always told her before we turn to her delusions, we look for likely explanations. And for the most part, this helped and pulled her down to earth. But while I'm a psychology graduate, and while I worked in guidance and counseling, I am not a psychologist, and all I could provide was the support and advice to see her therapist. And as much as I wanted to be there... it became frustrating carrying her whenever she was down. I once decided to not reply for 2 days just to take a breather. When I checked on her, she had blocked me. I am under the impression she started to suspect me as well. I don't know if I could have done more. I still worry about her sometimes.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you tried. This mental illness is a tough one and would have eventually worn you down. She made the choice not to take your advice.😔 An all around sad situation, you did your best.
Dont be harsh on yourself. My brother is trying to wife a schizophrenic girl, we all advised against. Not because schizo = bad but because she won't take meds or even go to therapy and its making his every second fucked up. She wont eat alone, she wont buy food, and shes deep into heavy drugs. Im no one to judge, Ive done horrible shit in my life, but schizophrenic people often cant help it and often it goes such way that you cant help them either. Prepare yourself and calm yourself, dont ever forget it or try to but just get slowly on with it. One day maybe shell reach back, maybe she wont, or maybe she will be dead. In all cases it wont be your fault and even if it was you cant do anything about it by thinking about it day in day out
A more likely scenario is that he DID have feelings for her, but her crazy ass schizophrenic behavior eventually caused him to (wisely) run the fuck away and never look back
I fell in love with a girl with schizophrenia when I was in my late teens. She was abused severely as a child and by several of her exes throughout her life, and watched her sister battle cancer when she was a very young child (but luckily lived). She was also a victim of child sexual assault. She was diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, anxiety, bipolar, Tourette’s syndrome, borderline personality disorder, ED, etc. She was an alcoholic from her late teens until she was about 22 or 23. She was and still is one of the most mentally unstable people I’ve ever met, but I think what kept me around for so long was her heart. Despite all she’d been through, she was honestly probably the most kind hearted person I’ve ever met- she just had problems letting people in. At that age, I had autism and struggled to make and keep friends, and I had a lot of trouble with romance. But I remember at the time when I looked into her eyes, I saw somebody who liked me for me and seemed genuinely happy to be with me. She believed in me. She motivated me. She made me feel the way nobody else did at the time. I remember taking her to the prom. The night went well for the most part. I was hoping that it would be the start of a serious relationship. I didn’t care if she wasn’t perfect, I loved her for who she was. Everything seemed to be going well that night, but after that she didn’t speak to me for a long time. Completely blanked me for almost a month. All the while, all I could think of was her. I drove myself crazy trying to figure out why the hell she was ignoring me. She later told me that some of the things I said to her that night had really hurt her feelings, and she just didn’t know how to tell me because she didn’t have good communication skills. I apologized and said I never meant to hurt her. I even said I would give anything to take it back which at the time I meant. She said she forgave me, but it was too late. The damage was already done. At this point she had already been ignoring me for a month and ended up getting with another guy. For context, this wasn’t the first time she had pulled something like this. The first time, I understood why she didn’t want to be with me at the time because she was 19 and I was 17. The relationship would have technically been illegal (Despite not being anywhere near pedophilia, my state just has stupid laws). So we stayed close friends, but deep down I always loved her. Needless to say, I was heartbroken. I didn’t know if I ever wanted to see her again. If she didn’t want to be with me, fine. But the way I saw it, if what I did was really that bad, and she actually gave a shit about me, I had every right to know what it was. Then it happened. About a month later, she posted a picture in the hospital- I messaged her and learned that she was there because she tried to kill herself. Despite how much she hurt me, the thought of her succeeding hurt 10x more. It made me realize that she really was just too mentally unstable to handle what was going on and wasn’t just using it as an excuse for selfish behavior. So I pushed my negative feelings aside and comforted her. We talked for about an hour. One of the things I remember her saying was she was a mess and just felt scared and lost and confused. I just told her she wouldn’t always be, she would get the help she needed and be the best she could be- and to the people who really cared about her, it would be enough. She thanked me, and fell asleep a short time later for the first time all night- at around 8 or 9 am. It was then that I realized all she wanted was to feel safe and for somebody to care for her despite her instability. We did try again about 7 months later to be together, but it didn’t work out. I said a lot of awful things to her, although the one thing I always tried to do was stick to insulting her actions instead of her as a person. I told her many times I felt like I was being taken advantage of or used. I told her if she got another partner and they broke up, she shouldn’t bother coming back to me because I’m tired of being treated like a rebound. How much I hated the fact that I had real feelings for her and she only ever showed her feelings for me after she broke up with someone, only to toss me aside when she found someone else. For the most part, we are no longer in contact. We speak maybe once or twice a year, if that. For almost three years I was really in love with her, and she was the only person I could see myself with. In our most recent interaction, she told me why she thought it didn’t work out. She said something along the lines of: “Honestly, I think you would have been an amazing boyfriend if I gave you the chance. But I pushed you away because I didn’t feel good enough. I was used to having to beg for affection, but with you I didn’t. You just gave it to me. You gave me unconditional care, and that was something I wasn’t used to.” I love somebody else now. I’m in a much more stable relationship. But honestly, I still to this day think about her. I don’t love her anymore, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t still care about her. To this day, I don’t know what hurts the most. Watching the person you love suffer so profoundly and knowing you are powerless to help, or having the person you want more than anyone, and want to give the world to, just toss you aside like trash. I guess the lesson here is that when somebody tells you they’re too unstable for you, you should probably believe them. So if you’re reading this, and you think it’s about you, then it probably is. And yes I meant every word of it.
Jesus Christ man, she didn’t feel worthy of your affection. People who hurt don’t want others to hurt because of them. So they push them away. Even if it has to come off as mean
When I was in the mental hospital a few years ago the two women with schizophrenia were two of the sweetest women I've ever met. I felt so bad for them and made sure to talk to them when they were okay with it, because nobody else would hang out with them. The one girl had hallucinations of demons and a sister who looked exactly like her who would constantly yell horrible things at her. The other one couldn't carry on a conversation but she was happy to answer questions like what movies do you like. Her husband had to have her committed to get her meds adjusted. She was sad because the new meds weren't helping enough to go home and she didn't feel like herself anymore.
As a schizophrenic myself this was a pretty good video. So far the worst time of my life wS when my schizophrenia was beginning to take hold of my mind and I had no idea it was happening. I started to hear voices wondering what I was going, they got meaner and meaner until one day a booming voice came from heaven talking about existence. I understood I had to die to save the universe. After I tried that I woke up at the hospital and subsequently got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder depressive type (basically schizophrenia and depression in one). I was painting a lot during this time, just for myself, but I uploaded it as I thought it was interesting to see how I changed during the development of schizophrenia.
I suffer from mood swings, anxiety attacks from time to time that can lead to fear and paranoia and OCD. Twice out of nowhere I heard a voice in my room whisper my name. Do you think this could be a beginning symptom of schizophrenia?
@@flossyraven I hope not. You're not alone in this... I'm here because just last night I random heard a male voice whisper "hey there" to me. I wasn't convinced it was real (even though I heard it) so it doesn't entirely line up with schizophrenia. I get the random few words once in a blue moon, and I often wake up seeing shadows of whatever I was dreaming about for like 30 seconds after waking up (for example: a shadow of a bee flying in front of my face). I've been diagnosed with generalized anxiety, panic disorder, paranoid disorder, and OCD. I personally like to think that its just a harmless aspect of whatever is different about my brain that causes me to be so "worked up" all the time, or some sort of side effect of fluoxetine (Prozac). Nothing you can do about it either way. Disclaimer: My paranoia is around my health (and mental health) and my OCD tends to be a compulsion to do heavy research on medical disorders I'm afraid I could develop/have (as seen by me clicking on this video). So yeah... if your worried ask your doctor.
@@flossyraven Simon did warn not to do any self diagnosis for a reason. Voices can also be a symptom of extreme anxiety or sleep deprivation. Definitely see a doctor.
@@cricticalthinking4098 I was also on Prozac for my OCD and anxiety/paranoia. I stopped taking it because I felt it gave me side effects but my doctor didn't want to switch me to something different. I have been forced to smoke weed and drink wine to chill me out some.
Great video .im schizoprenic and spent 2 years in a state hospital but with treatment im living on my own .prayers to others dealing with this living hell. Thanks simon for your awesome videos.
Ive had a very hard battle watching my father lose himself and having to say goodbye to the man I once knew, it took over 2 decades for him to receive proper help and that’s not through a lack of trying. I wish I could help him regain his sanity but there’s only so much that can be done. Thankyou for making this video and spreading awareness
This is so unfortunate, my grandmother had schizophrenia, which started a LONG line of issues among my siblings. My sister is bipolar and my brother shows a few mild signs of schizophrenia. I’m not sure how my mother was able to come out as strong as she did smh. A lot of this made wish I could’ve done more for them.
Same with my neighbor. Her grandmother had schizophrenia. As a result, her aunt also had it (she passed 2 years ago) and recently, she showed signs of it too. She is now taking medication and going to the psychiatrist regularly.
A good friend of mine developed this in his thirties. He has some underlying issues, and it was painful to watch a formerly intelligent, curious, and life-loving weirdo descend into paranoia, mental paralysis, and constant fear. I don't know what happened to him in the end, as he eventually withdrew from everyone and disappeared. Sometimes there's just nothing you can do.
My friend suddenly disappeared for a year then I get phone call from case officer from mental institution asking if she’s been in contact with me. Didn’t know she had checked herself in and have been getting help. Then she reaches out to me out of the blue with full blown psychosis with persecutory delusions.this was during the first lockdown in Australia. She would call me from street phones so I had no way to call her. After several talks, I managed to talk her into going back to the mental institution who clearly knew her mental state and would keep her safe until she was well again. Cut to 3 years later, she’s started & finished a real estate course and is working in new that career plus has a boyfriend. She’s more even keeled than me! Sometimes people have a blip but can recover.
My mother went about 40 years with a depression diagnosis. In her 60s she suddenly started hearing "demons" telling her to do strange and harmful things. My parents are both devoutly religious and her schizophrenia presented itself in a very religion centric way. She would go around the house and "anoint" things in the house with olive oil. She would throw away all the food in the house claiming that the demons had tainted it. But the worst of it (aside from the violent threats she would make towards me, her husband, and even our dog) was when she would deficate into the toilet and then proceed to drink and eat from the full toilet. We would stop her and ask her why she would do that to which she would always say "The demons told me I had to if I ever want to see Heaven". It was truly heartbreaking. Trying to convince a non schizophrenic religious person to evaluate their beliefs is hard enough, but add that condition to the problem and it's impossible. She began taking ECT (electro convulsive therapy aka shock therapy) and she began to be able to deal with the symptoms. However eventually this left her a hollow shell barely able to think or speak. Mental health is a serious issue so please please please seek PROFESSIONAL help if you or someone you know is having problems. DO NOT seek or accept help from anyone other than a trained and certified doctor. No amount of crystals, or acupuncture, or faith/prayer will cure anything. In fact they will most likely make the issue worse.
@@TomeRodrigo I couldn't agree more. Religion is itself a type of delusion imo. As long as it's a delusion you can control its acceptable I guess. But add religious zealotry to a mental illness and things become far more complicated.
Honestly I just watched this whole documentary, whilst I felt like this was a very informative and honest overview of the condition, I also can't help but feel like parts of this video could be guilty of verging on glamourizing or sensationalizing schizophrenia. I don't have it but the phrase that should generally be applied to every mental health condition, is "if you ever feel embarrassed/ashamed/marginalized/judged for having a friend, family member or colleague with a mental illness, whilst taking care not to trivilise your own uncomfortable emotions as a result of being in close connection with that person with the mental illness, imagine how shit it must feel for the person who actuàlly has the mental health condition"
I've seen this disorder create a vicious cycle of: person is paranoid/erratic -- people try to intervene -- person takes meds -- feels better -- stop meds -- get paranoid -- refuses help because those same people are "after them." It's one of the most difficult to manage medically and psychologically, and my heart goes out to both the patients AND the families/friends/caretakers who are trying to help.
There's this subreddit for crippling alcoholics and I was browsing it one day and came across a post that was written by someone VERY CLEARLY having a schizo episode. Checked his profile and sure enough, there are hundreds of posts over a few years about schizophrenia and alcoholism. The reason he is so well-known in the subreddit is this reason exactly; the deadly paranoia cycle. Despite this, everyone is rooting for him there. They encourage him to go to intake care, take his meds, and prod him gently about delusions. He seems like a good guy and I think about him from time to time and hope he is being taken care of
My partner was diagnosed with schizophrenia this year and she broke up with me after 13 years and 3 kids. One moment I was with the love of my life and the next she was unrecognisable. Now Im a single dad and I'm still trying to move on. The hardest thing I've ever done..
Oh no. I don't know your exact situation so I don't know if it's helpful at all but let me tell you an aspect of the impact a diagnosis of schizophrenia can have. This is at least a process I went through. When you get diagnosed with schizophrenia it scares the hell out of you. Doctors tell you they don't know how it will develop in the future. They do however tell you the statistics. They tell you you probably won't be able to support yourself financially - let alone other people. They tell you you might become violent at some point. They tell you it's unlikely you will ever go back to normal. This makes you wonder. Wouldn't the people you truly love be better off without you in their lives? Aren't you a threat to their lives and happiness? Even if not can you really look forward to a life where you are a financial burden to the people you love? So you start rationalizing it would be good for the people around you if you were just gone. You still long for their company and even if you don't cut the ties completely the relationship is still heavily disturbed because you have these thoughts daily. Were I a stranger this is the advice to my family that would have helped me the best: Be supportive. Don't push the sick one to get back together. But be there and make it clear that your door is always open. You're always there to help. It may be that the sick one seeks help for a period of time before withdrawing again. Rest assured though this behaviour has nothing to do with missing love. It's quite the opposite.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about two years ago, thank you for putting in a disclaimer that not all schizophrenics are dangerous. When one of my last managers found out I was schizophrenic he would make horrible comments and remarks, really feels alienating when people find out I’m schizophrenic.
I'm so sorry you had to experience that. People are scared and nasty for what they don't understand. My mum has the disease so I understand getting some of those reactions. I hope you told human resources about that fucker!
@@dylanbillion917 I’ve been on 4 different medications and 3 of them haven’t worked effectively for me. Now I’m on medication that requires weekly blood work. But I’ve been feeling so much better on it, felt like I lost two years of my life trying to find what works for me. Thanks for asking!
My uncle had schizophrenia. My entire life I've known and felt him as the most wholesome, loving and genuinely caring person I'll ever meet in life. And I still belive and feel that to this day. He looked EXACTLY like young Tom hanks (like in "big" kinda acted like the character too) He had sever schizophrenia, turned to hard drugs to make the voices and hallucinations go away, destroyed his life. Then got clean, found religion, and focused his life on it. He never talked about what he was expierenceing. But you could see him going through it. And because of the time he grew up in, and the little was known about his condition, he was definitely shamed, ostriches, and treated like he was crazy (by family as well as strangers) And despite all of the mistreatment, he was never violent or even mean. He would genuinely give you the shirt off his back no hesitateion. He did end up passing from cancer. A few years ago I realize this comment may be put of place But I'm leaving it for him. He deserves to be known and remembered.
im glad you included the information about cannabis because my ex said his psychosis was triggered by using marijuana. Since that day he is delusional that everyone is plotting against him, he hears voices and is apathetic. He is the friendliest man i have ever met i hope he one day can manage it. He has been diagnosed with on going psychosis but i was always pushing for him to see specialists so he gets a more specific diagnosis.
My friends mother, and older brother have problems, and I think that he shows some of the simptoms when take some smoke or uppers. He is really the good friend, and, I don't want to be a part of speeding up his possible illness, and, it is really hard for me to be in this situation, however, he is probably the one who will need medical help for that state and there are millions of exact and much worse examples as we heard in the video, terrifiying and sad. Love u all.
Well for some people the effects of smoking cannabis can be similiar to the symptons of scizofrenia. I'd strongly advise against smoking it if you have a tendency for mental issues in your genes. Despite all the praise on the internet, it is not a safe drug for everyone. And if you absolutely have to take something, then yes alcohol may be a better option for some. I'd say it's 50-50
Imagine being locked up in a mental hospital believing you are sane yet you are being forced to take medication and therapy. I hope all of these diagnoses are correct. Very informative!
I was in mental hospital in the UK for psychosis (similar to schizophrenia). And quite enjoyed it. Therapies usually include doing art or yoga and stuff. Although I would prefer not to be on medication, it doesn't really have any side effects for me.
I had a friend in high school who was diagnosed with schizophrenia. She used to have vivid hallucinations and confided to me that she was terrified of hurting her family. In my junior year, she just... disappeared. Our teacher told the entire class that she was getting help, but never explained anything else. Despite it all, she was one of the kindest people I've ever met. There's this pop culture stereotype of schizophrenics being violent and dangerous, but in reality, the people who suffer most from schizophrenia are the people who have it. I just hope my friend is doing alright now.
Thank you Ronald. As someone with schizophrenia, I actually. I actually really appreciate this. Thank you, it's so rare to find compassion for this sorta thing
As someone diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia + bipolar), I hate when people dismiss me as just having psychosis when I'm not. My upstairs neighbor was harassing me, following me and had a pinhole camera in my apartment. No one believed me and I was ignored everything I asked for help or told someone what was happening. In the end, I was able to obtain evidence and the guy was arrested and convicted and now I'm traumatized. Just because one of us is claiming that something is happening to us that you may dismiss as psychosis, the person could be completely in reality. Bad things happen to us too.
When in the process of getting assessed for ADHD, the doctor was asking a lot about things that showed up in this video that seemed out of left-field and unrelated/not applicable but hearing that schizophrenia might be caused by too much dopamine now makes a lot of sense why those questions were present to be safe and not to give dopamine enhancing medications to people who might suffer from too much dopamine.
Throughout my life, I've been close with many people that suffer from schizophrenia. The majority seemed to have the condition 'under control'. As we move forward, our knowledge Re/ Mental Illness and how to effectively treat it grows and grows. So, we ought to be thankful for that. I don't have schizophrenia. I do have OCD, however. While my condition is quite stable these days, I went through a period where I was suffering immensely. My condition got so bad that my 'intrusive thoughts' (which really is the hallmark of OCD) became audible. For a period of nearly two years, the incredibly disturbing mantras that I (seemingly) was forced to repeat Ad Naseum became loud and fast. My psyche was completely consumed by this. So... I think I can actually relate 'a bit' to schizophrenics. I was effectively hearing the same 'disturbing auditory narrative' in my mind, HOWEVER I always knew that the tormenting narrative was a product of my brain. Never, did I ever think that it was coming from an 'external source'. So, that's the key difference. The schizophrenic could very well be hearing the 'exact same' disturbing narrative, but they cannot identify the aforementioned as a product of their brain, and as such attribute it yo something external like a 'God' or a 'device that transmits audio frequencies into their brain, etc. etc. The differences between all of the 'more severe' psychological disorders really aren't all that profound. Anyway... I suffered immensely for a large portion of my life. I wouldn't wish such anguish upon my worst enemy. So, I wish wellness, serenity and peace of mind upon all of you.
@@PretendingToBeAHuman hey... I just wanted to sincerely thank you for your reply. It really takes a tremendous amount of courage to disclose matters of this sort, so I applaud you. I can 100% relate to the 'Satanic Obsession / Intrusive Thoughts'. I don't know if I mentioned that initially, but that was always the nature of my 'intrusive thoughts'. It was always about 'damnation' and 'selling my soul' which completely ran contrary to my 'will' (so to speak) but as a fellow OCD sufferer, you know just like I that should 'Libertarian Freewill Exist', we don't have it. I'm sure you can identify when I say that oftentimes the more effort you put into 'silencing your intrusive thoughts', the worse they get. So, you mentioned 'recovery'. Like you, my OCD symptoms these days are generally 'manageable'. My condition has improved substantially. I can't say for certain what contributed the most to my recovery. I sincerely think however, that the biggest factor was me deciding to start studying theology and philosophy. My perspective on everything has changed profoundly, and I came to realize that my crippling fear of 'Hell' and all of that stuff was really unwarranted. My Father once gave me a great acronym for the word 'fear'... 'False Evidence Appearing Real'. As a fellow OCD sufferer I'm sure that you can attest to the legitimacy of that acronym. So, I really appreciate the response, and I'm very happy that your condition improved. OCD can be abdolute torture. I wouldn't wish that shit upon my 'worst enemy'. Take Care. - Justin
As someone who's suffered from both psychosis and OCD I can tell you from first hand experience that they are incredibly similar. In both of them you fully believe a feared story/narrative or delusion. They both completely warp your reality and take over your life. I'm doing a hell of a lot better now though and urge anyone experiencing these things to get help.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2012. I'm unmedicated at the moment due to insurance issues and living alone so, I have to work a lot making it impossible for me to get any type of disability. My hallucinations are auditory and visual and I'm mostly used to them, but there's still several that will catch me off guard. I have delusions on occasion, but fortunately, I'm usually able to get out of it. I have had some people leave me due to my diagnosis, including my family, but recently I've been figuring something's out that have helped me. I workout everyday now and I walk to and from work 6 days a week and just being out of my home helps me a little. Anyone that deals with this shit as I do, I'm sorry you also have this going on, but just know, you're not alone and we will make it through this. I hope you get the help you need or want and I hope the best for you
Thank you Simon for scaring the shit out of me. I thought I was in the clear but apparently making it into my mid30s and not getting it isn't the 'I'm not getting Schizophrenia' thresh hold I thought it was.
I have been to psych wards off and on through out the years due to my mental illnesses. My last visit I had the opportunity to meet a gentleman who suffers from schizophrenia. He described to me his illness, and it left me with curiosity on how the brain works. Your approach to this topic was spot on and respectful. I thank you for making this video.
I’m schizoaffective which just means I have schizophrenia and major depression at the same time. They both affect each other and can get quite bad, but I’m one of the lucky ones that can typically function quite well, minus the anxiety and paranoia. We’re typically only dangerous when in a psychotic break, and even then we’re more of a threat to ourselves rather than others. There are fringe cases in the extremes, but most of us are just dealing with our demons in silent. Some delusions come and go, others are seemingly permanent and unshakable. If you meet someone with schizophrenia, just try and understand that we only want to exist without our thoughts tormenting us constantly; we just want to be normal like everyone else.
My nephew was schizophrenic. He had paranoid delusions nearly every day since returning from Afghanistan. He was in the army when diagnosed. 2 years ago he shot himself. He relayed that he wanted the voices to stop. We tried to get him help, but it wasn’t enough. Schizophrenia is horrible.
I've a friend who suffers, or suffered, from schizophrenia. Have no idea what happened to them or where they went. Fell off the radar, no way to contact them. I know he became aware of the diagnosis and was lucid for awhile. But to my understanding, they fell deep into the illness quickly. Dude, if you're still out there, I hope it's okay.
My best friend growing up had a serious and sudden onset of schizophrenic at the age 18. It came on strong, fast, and really messed him up. Last year, without any warning, he jumped off the roof of a local bar in my home town. He was only 22 years old. Miss that guy all the time. The world can be a very unfair and cruel place sometimes.
@@fumarate1 Yes. He smoked weed probably just about everyday from the time he was 16 or 17 till it hit him about two years later. He had also experimented with LSD a few times. I wasn’t there when it happened to him. The switch flipping I mean. But a buddy of mine was, and he said they were sitting there smoking. One minute he was talking to this friend and joking with him. The next he was looking at him like he didn’t know him. It hit him very fast and very hard. I think there were a lot of factors that brought it on so suddenly. The psychoactive drugs, a traumatic event when he was younger(burnt pretty badly), his house was always dark(all windows covered), his parents were recluses and only really talked to family, and his uncle also had the disorder, but not nearly on the same level.
Weed every day builds up a toxin that brings on paranoia, Slippery slope. Don't get me wrong it has loads of positives but I would say learn all you can before inbarking on trying class b drugs
Also I experienced sleep paralysis day's week's later àfter smoking weed and believed an alien was the culprit in my room/bedsit on my own paralysed helpless, and come to realise I'd done to much with stress and lack of sleep ece
My uncle had schizophrenia. I didn’t know too much about about it because my mom and grandma didn’t want us kids involved with that stuff but he was suffering so bad that when I was in forth grade he killed himself.
I used to know a guy who had a schizophrenia diagnosis. He was one of the lucky ones for whom medications worked well, and he was also expert at managing his symptoms. He told me once that every time he started to hallucinate (usually bugs crawling on the walls), he'd get on a bus and go somewhere to hang out in nature until his brain calmed down. He also exercised a lot as a way of combatting stress. He's a super nice guy, very intelligent, who used to make a living as a freelance copy-editor and proofreader. Unfortunately, one of the other drawbacks of many antipsychotics is that they make you much more likely to have a stroke. He had one at age 38. It wasn't bad as strokes go, but left him less verbally fluent, and unable to continue in that line of work. It didn't stop him from getting a PhD, though. One of the first symptoms of my anxiety disorder was that I felt like the normal voice in my head that narrates my thoughts (yes, I think in words, and it sounds like my own voice) had split into a dozen or so identical voices -- all of which sounded like my own normal internal voice -- who were hanging out in my head like my braincase was some dingy loft party somewhere, *and they were all talking trash about me*. I couldn't think straight, and the mental noise was deafening. I became convinced that I had done something in the past that had ruined my life, and I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop. (Narrator: Her life was not, in fact, ruined, and there were no metaphorical shoes.) Forty-five minutes after I took my first dose of anxiolytic, the voices stopped, like someone had kicked out a plug somewhere. I damn near collapsed from relief. I'm about 12 years out from that episode, still taking meds, have had them adjusted from time to time, and on average doing okay. I'm having a depressive episode right now, but within the span of a couple weeks recently, my best friend died suddenly, and I got laid off from this really awesome job, and I live where it's super expensive, so the stress of grief and unemployment are getting to me. But anyone would be depressed in my situation, so that's life.
My husband was diagnosed in 2015 after a catatonic episode. Since then he has had conversation with his father and best friend. Both deceased. Watching him suffer has been awful. Seeing him holding his head and begging me to make the voices shut up is heartbreaking. Thankfully he is on medication that has severely reduced his symptoms, though he is on permanent disability because of it.
not schizophrenic, but when I was younger, I did go through hallucinations sometimes. Just looking out the window and trees swaying in the wind would do so more violently until their crowns touched the ground left and right. It doesn’t sound like it, but it was absolutely horrifying to look at. The creaking noise as well. Stuff and people wouldn’t look or move right, and I was in a state of confusion and panic. That shit alone almost made me loose my shit. I can’t imagine seeing or hearing people that aren’t there and having no grip on reality. I haven’t had one of these episodes for 15 years now. We still don’t know what triggered them and what made them go away, but a doctor told me they might come back anytime.
As a schizophrenic meaning im betrayed by my own mind and having family members discarding the idea that I have mental illness even though I was diagnosed by doctors it's the worst illness with pills or with not. The worst part is that no one understands me brother grandfather mother aunt they don't understand that I don't have motivation or drive . That's the worst part.
Wow, I’ve always wondered what a schizophrenic person experiences. Sounds frightening especially if you don’t have a loving supportive person in your life.
I was once atacked by a lady with schizophrenia, she yelled something I couldent here at first, but soon it became clear she was trying to protect herself by huring me. But even two years earlyer I was at a park when that same lady was cussing at me, I dont know what she experienced but I wish her well. She had no family to keep her on her meds but after that, she was monidered by profectionals that took care of her.
I was diagnosed about 5 years ago with Schizophrenia, with a bit of support I was able to learn grounding techniques and embrace my condition as a gift, Due to my Neurological processes from the disorder, my pattern recognition and analysis is super human! Though that can trail off to delusional thought process. No visual hallucinations in a long while, very rarely auditory distortions. Catatonia comes in waves due to the dopamine and serotonin processes but it’s also rare and manageable with many different medications. It’s only truly horrifying for those with no support. If you are concerned about your mental health or that of a loved one, please reach out. There is support out there.
I'm 28 and schizophrenic. I believe I've shown symptoms since the time I was 11. I've heavily smoked weed (3 times a day) from the time I was 16. I was diagnosed at 22. I wish I knew that marijuana worsens my disorder sooner. I would've abandoned the habit in a heartbeat, I've been slowing down to 1 (2, at most) time(s) a day for the past few weeks. I have noticed a difference, thank you for this very useful information that I wish I've had my whole life. Your channel is great, keep up the good work, everybody who works in front and behind the screens
@kk12ie I'm a grown adult man. I can trust that I make good decisions. I do already take at least 9 days out of every month where I don't smoke. I understand your point, but I do have self control
@@Andazola92 You wouldn’t believe how many idiotic decisions adults make on a daily basis. So you being an adult doesn’t mean you know everything. If you wanna smoke weed 22 days a month, it’s a free country.
I’m glad I finally have a video that actually tells the negative effects. It’s hard to explain to my friends why I suddenly freeze and why I struggle with emotions.
my grandmother is schizophrenic. she’s a very sweet old lady when she’s on her medication, if a bit spacey, but the stress she’s put my mother through is something i’d be afraid to go through myself
As someone in this boat, it's never like it's seen on TV, and it can be lived with. Medication, trusted people, and a peaceful space can go a long way in staying stable. The things you see/hear after a while become manageable with time, experience, and effort. Know your triggers and avoid them at all cost. I truly feel deep sadness for those of us who close control. Stay strong, brothers and sisters
I'm so sorry bro, I think helps trying to focus on the inherent value that we have - even if you don't have people cheering for you all of the time. In a way, you are still there for yourself and that part of you can help. If you succeed, even a little bit, people do notice it alot (in a good way)
I have it, and it is a living hell. I’d been informed by professionals over the years about most of the things in the video, but I was able to learn a few new things too about it/about myself and I think they’ll actually help me understand things a bit more going forward. So thank you so much for posting this video
My life with a schizophrenic mom. My mother raised me at the time with my father and siblings, mom was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia, in the late 1940s to early 1950's. Mother was not medicated and not seeing a doctor (psychiatrist) during the entire time I, my father and my nine siblings were being raised in the home. Mom was living day to day, very sadly suffering with severe paranoid ideation, hallucinations, delusions, fear and rage. And sometimes physical altercations with other members, mostly with my father. I remember I was very young, (born-1952). I would hear my mother's screaming, in my crib, and later in my bed at night so terrified, I would get under the covers, trying to hide from my fear and sense of real terror, so confused at what and why my mom was screaming, what was so wrong that mom was hurting and screaming at night. There was always a sense of fear and anger, mom yelling about people in the house that we could not see, people coming in the house to poison her food that were unseen. People were using "listening devices" to spy on Mom's thoughts and actions on a daily basis. Later as mother's symptoms were worsing in frequency and severity, mom started talking to the television screaming that unseen people, (excluding us) her family inside the TV were saying terrible things about her,(she never mention specifics of what the people were saying) and yelling how people would come in the night to rape her, they came in through her bedroom window from the gutters of the roof, on the 2nd floor. Later, I remember when my father and mother were have a physical altercation, lots of yelling and screaming, when mom was able to land a hard punch to my fathers face. I think mom broke his nose. And then I recall when the police came to the door with my father answering the door with a fair amount of blood running down his face and on to his shirt. Then my father assured the police that everything was okay, When the officers asked him why his shirt was bloody, my father told them that he had run into a door. And that was as far as that particular episode concluded, where everything went back to the normal (for us), to our usual highly chaotic dysfunctional home, as i perceived, was a never ending, living hell for mom, dad and us children, and extended family. Apparently, one of neighbors called the police, perhaps the lady involved in getting my mom into the court system, years later., we were never sure who had called (not important),perhaps a missed opportunity to get mom the help she so desperately needed. But nothing came of the scene and we continued suffering under this cloud of schizophrenia for many more decades. Thus you see a sampling of my mothers symptoms, and actions as a result of her disease, she continued suffering greatly for many years and so too her children, (myself included), my father and both extended family's, from mother and father's side. The scene in our home went on as stated above with many more scenes of chaos, anger, physical fights with my father and us as children. I remember being directly having an altercation with my mom, after she was yelling about some delusion, can't remember exactly the details about what she was so upset about. I was about 12 or 13 years old at the time. All I remember is that it got to a point during one of mom's usual, screaming, raging episodes when we were in the kitchen during the week after coming home from school. I became very upset and yelled back at my mother to "shut up",and believe I never reacted that way to my mother before this incident. I then shouted at her, "I can't take this anymore", and then my mother reacted by picking up a large pitcher (half gallon) of very hot tea in my face, which quickly led to my breakdown crying with all my heart, on the floor of the kitchen. It was not until 1976, when my mother was arrested for assaulting the next door neighbor. My mother was outside in her yard, yelling at the next door neighbor who happened to be in her front yard. Mother was using a twig that she picked up in the yard, using the twig as a pointer, to emphasize in the neighbor's direction, with a warning to stop coming into her home (moms home) and poisoning her food. This was a watershed moment for all of us, when our neighbor started screaming back at my mother to leave her along, and then she proceeded to call the county police, and as a result the police came to the scene to arrest my mother, she was charged with simple assault. The family was called to the courtroom in the local town where she was to booked on the assault charge. I remember being in the courtroom fighting back tears as I watched my mom, who i loved dearly being escorted, handcuffed a brought before the judge. I knew, even as a child that my mother was plagued by this terrible disease, it was not her fault. I remember the judge asking my mother about her complaint about our next door neighbor, coming into her house and poisoning her food,. Then the judge asked my mother if she believes this complaint was true, and my mother replied with a simple, Yes. The judge then stated that he was going to send my mother to the State Mental Hospital for a 90 day assessment, medication (forced) and overall treatment. This incident was the first time my mother was forced to be in treatment. The 90 day hospitalization was intended to get mom on an medication regimen to control symptoms, and to have a psychiatrist be assigned to her during hospitalization and to follow up with regular visits
I express my sympathy and empathy to all those who suffer from this illness chronically. I have had psychotic episodes in my life and they were without a doubt the hardest times of my life. No outright hallucinations but a very altered reality and spiraling thought patterns and delusions. I feel so lucky that I managed to get cured through medicine, I can't imagine having to live with this every day.
Never took em in my life. And never will, especially because they can trigger it. Is that supposed to be funny? Id like to see you have a psychosis for 3 weeks and come out of it smiling.
As someone with schizophrenia for well over 3 decades, I've learned stress is the number one enemy and it isn't always a "monster ",..just a part of who you are
Mental illness runs on both sides of my family, mostly bipolar disorder and depression. I fight depression and anxiety. But, I have a schizophrenic uncle. As long as he takes medicine, he is relatively normal. Once he stops, he either gets religious or he gets into drugs and sketchy behavior. As a teen, I struggled with my own issues. Watching my uncle frightened the hell out of me. I was terrified of ending up like him. Thankfully, this didn't happen. Though I am in my 50s and I still battle depression and anxiety, I realize that it could have been much worse. Thank you for this insightful video.
As a psychiatrist once told me. Schizophrenia is a thought disorder while depression and anxiety, for example, are mood disorders. I think that sums it up simply and neatly. :)
@@MadScientist267 Yeah, but it’s still a mood disorder. It’s disregulated fear responses, and fear gives physical symptoms, which also present themselves in anxiety disorders. Schizophrenia messes up your mental faculties in such a significant way that it can maybe be compared to dementia on a cognitive level. I know it’s not the same, but it’s difficult to find anything you can compare it to, because it’s so unique.
My brother has paranoia schizophrenia. Before diagnosis people appeared as monkeys and his voices told him to kill his family. Before I put him in hospital he would ride his bike and see himself across the road. Although nearly 30 years later after treatment. He has relapse and cronic anxiety. Hes very aware about his illness and can manage it. Its a very bad mental illness to live with. Hes such a lovely person, and its devastating he has to live life with this.
When I was a teenager, I dated a boy who was older than me. I broke it off because I thought something was really off with him. The way he spoke was always violent. Many years later, as an adult, I found out he walked into someone's home and was found dead, and he stabbed (horrifically) two females in the house. I found out through a friend before seeing it on the news that night. Those poor families (on both sides) I felt so sad for them. 😢
My twin brother is schizophrenic and it really is a challenge to try and help someone that denies the truth of their illness I’ve seen it all and I’m very lucky to have saved his life a few times he’s come to reality and accepted and understands now , pretty much like he has recovered . On daily basis it is a challenge for him but with this illness it takes time and I hope everyone else that has a loved one that deals with schizophrenia you are their cure . never give up on them ❤
I have schizophrenia and thankfully it’s not as bad as many and so I can’t watch this video as it sets off a lot of stuff for me but I watch all your videos and I really appreciate you taking the time to cover this ❤
When I was a kid, pretty much thought I was in a Truman's World situation. The feeling would come and go and eventually stopped after about 19 or so. There have to be tons of people like that, especially since they made a movie about it!
Thank you for covering this topic in such a respectful manner. Very informative and kudos to the writer for covering nearly everything there is to know about this disorder 👍
Literally everything you speak about is 110% true. My ex boyfriend would always bring up the CIA, Jesus Christ, aliens, etc. It got so bad that he was convinced he got hacked and completely damaged both of his computers. He was also going through a manic episode due to his bipolar condition since last November. You're dead on with showing no emotion at all during a time you'd expect at least sadness. When his grandma's dog died, he didn't even shed a single tear. He was right there when his grandma decided to put Marley to sleep because of her painful tumors. I cried after I found out but my ex forgot within a day that she was gone for good. You also nailed it with the cannabis. He was smoking pot since he was 16 if not younger. He could live without food, but couldn't go to bed without his weed. I love your videos because you are spot on with EVERYTHING. It's truly sad because it can't be cured... at least for now. At least for a while.
Violence is rare in Schizophrenia. People with it are more likely to be victims of violence than to commit it and statistically are not any more violent than the general population. Videos like this only serve to perpetuate prejudice against them.
I’ve noticed that in my mid teens I’ve started to develop symptoms of schizophrenia over time and they are getting increasingly worse and sometimes they do get better. I hope that in the future it will turn out to be something else, this sounds like a terrible illness. I notice this voice in my head only when I’m dreaming. It screams at me and it’s unbelievably scary and demonic. I cannot comprehend it or explain it and I can’t describe it. It’s louder than 20 gunshots at the same time.
@@KKing55 Wait, I looked it up and I realized I have a lot of symptoms of poor methylation, should I talk to a doctor about it? If I should would I talk to my primary doctor?
@@averageuser3067 Well, Yes~! But they are not trained in Nutrition and there is no money for pharmacutical testing as it is nutrition and food that can help. A Funtional Medical doctor knows about it, but they don't take insurance. I was on my own, with the Internet, YT, books. I have two copys of the worst methylation gene, so methylate at 30 %. Pretty sick puppy. Was told by docs, "it's all in your head" . Looking back at family history...same thing. I found a methylated B vitamine with all the right things at Swanson's. Activated B-Complex. But there is Soooo Much more to it than just that. One of my keys I just found after 20 years of Pain. It's Dark Cherry Juice. It works for Gout, which I don't have. But I think my FirboMyalgia is a form of Gout all over my whole body. So it has helped sooooooo much. there are many good functional medical doctors on YT that I follow. It's a Journey and a Life Style change. They are now all over the country. What state are you in.
I’m not diagnosed, and don’t plan on self diagnosing, but damn. I always get emotional watching these videos because I used to have a ton of these symptoms (on and off and changing) 2018-2021, they didn’t stop until my mom died. It’s… weird. I’m not sure why my mom dying would be the thing that made them stop. Lately I’ve been worried about them coming back, but for now it’s mostly just on and off paranoia (thinking somebody is mad at me, thinking somebody is gonna kill me/somebody else/themself, thinking I’m able to speak telepathically) but I don’t have hallucinations atm which is good. I used to, mostly visual at night, but I had daytime ones too. Also the feeling ones that feel like spiders crawling all over 😖 I suspect I might also have olfactory ones, but it might just be normal scents??? It’s hard to tell, sometimes I feel like I could smell smoke but there isn’t anywhere it’s coming from. But yeah. I’m hoping to get therapy soon (I’ve never been) and hopefully get stuff sorted out but sadly I’m not sure if it’s an option for me yet, so for now im looking into it again to compare experiences. I don’t know why I felt the need to comment this but. Have it I guess 😅
You answered your own question in regards to your mom. And far as the scents sounds like you have some spiritual gifts you're not aware of such as clair-smelling......
Other than the hallucinations it's all bullcrap this guy is a liar. There's a billion snobs that believe they're chosen to he a prophet or leader and this is a disorder with less than 0.8% of the population, so this guy is spreading a load of misinformation
My entire family shares this illness to usually at least some small degree, it's not always bad, has ups and down like everything else, but it absolutely breaks you in horrifying ways over time without treatment.
For me, the scariest part is realizing that my friends and family aren’t aware that I’m experiencing these things. I live in the same house with them and they have no idea what’s going on. Sometimes I don’t realize that until it gets really bad, and then there’s the feeling of losing my grip and there being no one there to keep me from slipping. I’ve told them about it before, but they can’t tell when I’m not okay.
@@Silver01SonThat’s exactly the problem. I can’t speak to them when I experience whatever’s going on. Like I can’t find words. It feels like being paralyzed.
@@bunsenn5064 I'm just wondering, can't you just say something simple like, "I need help?" Honestly, I mean you no offense. Just wondering if the direct approach with as few words as possible might help.
@@jabberwocky8021I’ve told them things like “I need to leave” or “I need to be alone”, but they are legitimately dense and pushy people. Even when I try to signal to them that I need to be left alone, that’s not enough for them. They’ll ask what’s going on or why, but I don’t have an answer for them.
When I was younger, I abused psychedelics for a while... And oh boy did it slap me back, lol. It got so bad with delusions, tactile and auditory hallucinations, that a diagnosis of schizophrenia hung above my head (from doctors). It luckily never went that far and eventually reduced itself to hypnagogic hallucinations and eventually none. But that time humbled me.. I have never been the same and I never will. I cannot imagine never ending that nightmare, so all my loving respect goes to those who are unfortunate enough to suffer..
I had a psychosis which held on for 3 Years. I used a lot of different drugs. Now I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder and ptsd. Luckily the hallucinations aren’t to bad. The only problem is that it’s very exhausting. People should never do any kind of psychological drugs. It’s real fucked up.
In my early 20s, I had about 3 months of severe sleep deprivation. I was seeing things that looked like little demons or gargoyles that I knew weren't there. The most severe was when I stepped into my hallway and saw a man I didn't know standing at the other end of the hall clear as day. The only reason I knew it wasn't real is because my dog was beside me and she wasn't freaking out. I called in sick to work right away (a huge cause of the sleep deprivation) and called some friends to tell them what was going on and to check in on me and take me to a doctor if something worse happened. Thankfully, everything improved once I got a decent sleep in but that was absolutely terrifying. I can only imagine how much more terrifying it would be to be trapped in that state. I know that isn't the same as schizophrenia, but it's the closest that I have personally experienced. My heart goes out to people suffering with this horrible mental illness and their loved ones who have to watch the people they care about go through this.
My aunt got this illness. It's so unnerving to see her have an attack. And what's more terrifying is that it's partially genetic and it kinda freak me out when my mom which is her sister is showing mild symptoms.. I'm so scared that I also might have this illness so I always immediately go to a psychologist when I feel something wrong on my psyche..
im 14 years old and was diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder about a year ago. i would see horrifying monsters and animals and sometimes even other people. it all seemed so real to me. i tried drawing them, i tried doing anything i possibly could to get rid of them but they wouldn't go away. any time i would interact with somebody other than my parents i would go into a catatonic state and i would be almost paralyzed. it was a horrible and terrifying experience, but also a really beautiful one. it was like the world around me was beautiful one day and then terrifying the next.
When I was in my 20s, I dated a man with untreated schizophrenia. He had visual and auditory hallucinations daily. He had visitors, ancient beings who followed him around. He knew his diagnosis and knew others couldn't see the visitors, but his paranoia told him the doctors were lying about his hallucinations not being real. Often I had to ask him if he was talking to me or them. He was never violent and only afraid if he thought the doctors were going to get him since they wanted to implant chips in him. Sadly his family told him he didn't need any medication so he stopped. Unfortunately he was raised in a abusive cult. He was a friendly, happy chap, almost childlike in ways, too bad he couldn't get the help he so desperately needed.
Back in the early 90s I dated a woman that was diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic. I can honestly say it was the most intense and sometimes terrifying relationship I've ever been in. When she was on her medication she was the most amazing person I'd ever known. Unfortunately, on those occasions when she would stop taking her meds it turned into a frightening roller-coaster of a ride. One day she just up and disappeared. Absolutely nobody had any clue as to what happened to her until a few years later when I was walking in a completely different city and I found her living on the streets. I took her to a restaurant and bought her a meal and we chatted for hours. Then she just got up and left. I never saw her again.
Damn….that hurt.
That's... really sad. Was she still talking in coherent manner? What did she say about the reason of her leaving? What was her plan back then?
Crazy
Not true shutup
Crazyyy story
As a schizophrenic, I can say that hallucinations and delusions aren't by themselves terrifying, but over time losing grip on reality is absolutely debilitating.
I can imagine. I'm bipolar and I tend to have both visual and auditory hallucinations. Although they can be annoying and weird I always know what's going on. Sometimes it's even ridiculous to the point where they make me laugh. But some times when I'm very sick they can be really scary and leave me a terrified blubbering mess. But I'm always aware of what's going on and I can usually eventually talk and reason myself out of the panic, although it feels like I'm teetering at an edge at times. Knowing how much they can mess me up while I still have a hold on reality I can't imagine what it would be like if that hold started to slip....
@@trustmeimcool it depends on how delusional they are. Delusions can be a powerful thing. If they're delusional enough it doesn't matter how many professionals try to tell them, they will always think they're right and everyone is wrong no matter what in the entire world happens.
@@trustmeimcool Schizophrenics often split the world into good/bad which correspond to their delusions. So the problem many victims have is that the ones who say "You're crazy, this isn't normal, go get on meds, this behavior is not right" get lumped into the delusion (the devil, the government agents got them, etc). So one of the most effective things you can do when talking to someone who has delusions is to not invalidate them, and they will at least not outright reject you as being part of the conspiracy against them.
As a former schizophrenic, back in the 70’s & 80’s. Personally I have to disagree with you, my hallucinations were either fantastically beautiful or the worst nightmare you could ever imagine. It’s different for most people. After I went through therapy I decided to get a degree at UCLA and work in the field of psychology. And I did that for 10 years but I finally quit, because half of the people who are working in this care need to go through therapy themselves!
@@thomasfholland There is no such thing as former when dealing with schizophrenia, it can be managed/treated to a great deal, but you will never be rid of it.
my mother was schizophrenic, she took her life around 3 years ago- can honestly say all the stigma around people with psychosis and the stereotype that all of them are violent couldn’t be further from the truth. i couldn’t have asked for a more caring mom. miss her everyday :(
Hopefully she's in a better place now
my mum is also schizophrenic, she is the most loving and caring person i’ve met however people automatically assume she wouldn’t be when they find out. i really feel for you and i hope you are doing okay.
I’m very sorry for your loss, I know it’s not the same but I lost my brother to suicide last year and he had schizophrenia
certain people show a strong affinity towards schizophrenia, i wonder if it's responsible for the showy false altruism they have
That sucks brother I'm sorry for your loss I hope she's in a better place where her mind can no longer torment her
i’m schizophrenic and the hallucinations don’t bother me too much since when i see them i feel so out of it i’m barely able to acknowledge their existence. i get very common delusions that my cats are demons trying to kill me and that’s way more scary than any hallucination i’ve ever had
Probably should stay away from cats then 🤷♂️
The fact that some cats are jerks makes it harder. I am sure 😢
Do you have any methods to counteract these delusions and maintain your grip on loving your animals?
When I get stuff like this, I say that: "I'd rather die doing what I love than live in fear of what I love." Sometimes, I shiver and feel like the whole world's closing in, but saying: "I'll be okay no matter what happens" as a mantra, over and over again, saves Mme from terrible experiences.
You just cannot let anything get you down, even if your heart and mind are assaulting you. You cannot control what happens, but you can control how you respond.
You probably shouldn't have cats then
Unpopular opinion, i am not fond of cats. They carry toxiplasmosis, and toxiplasmosis can cause delusions. ❤
There’s nothing worse in life than being betrayed by your own mind
Oh there's a lot worse.
@@MadScientist267 thanks for sharing
yes there is!
Yep. When someone else betrays you, you can act reactively. But when your mind changes, it alters you perception of reality and by proxy the world around you is turned against you completely.
Not if I betray them first~!
I was diagnosed Schizophrenia in 2012. I can happily say that after all these years, trying different medications and other things, I am about 95% symptom free and on a medication that works really well. I'm working part time and also learning game development. I'm doing really great.
Edit: Thank you all for the kind words. As for what medication I'm on, I've been on Risperdal 1mg for the last few years and it works great for me. However, schizophrenia is on a spectrum just like Autism. What works for me might not work for you, you just have to find a good doctor and experiment until you get it right. It's a combination of medication and many other things, such as a good support system (family and friends), a good sleep schedule, and eating right. I also self medicated with nicotine and alcohol, and sort of have a schedule for when I drink (never 2 days in a row, and I don't buy more when I run out). Alcohol is kind of a tightrope in that if I drink too much, my symptoms come back, but if I drink just the right amount it gets me out of my head and I can just be happy with no voices or delusions. I don't recommend trying to manage the disorder unmedicated. I've never seen anyone come out good who wasn't on meds. I'm in a support group on Facebook called Schizophrenia Unlimited, and the admin has been an absolute gem of a person. If you need people to talk to who know what you are going through, I recommend checking out that group.
thats great to hear josh, I'm proud of you.
I'm really glad to hear that 😄
Hi, my husband was diagnosed with schizophrenia and is really having a hard time finding the right medicine. 😢 May I ask what eventually worked for you?
Hell yeahhhhh brother
It's all about making a choice, but also, not becoming so dependent on medication.
My son was diagnosed with schizophrenia 6 years ago . Takes olanzapine daily without fail. Last year he graduated from Brighton university with a first in psychology and is thinking of doing a masters . His goal is to work and help people with MH issues.
If you love humanity you should stop him from mental health work
@@BigGreen77 omg YES! WTH is wrong with people. That is terrible for him and terrible for his future patients.
@@86_Nix why?
@@steveowens7006 because the mental healthcare system is extremely broken. We don't have a mental health crisis in the 1st world, we have created a society that makes people crazy.
@@christiandam6803 my ex-wife has half her brain; she got hit by a car. She can barely leave the house... My mother was a guinea pig for all sorts of pills in the 1990's she wasn't that unstable, after years of them shoving concoctions of new and experimental drugs down her throat she could barely leave the house. When my son's mother decided to weaponize a "green warrant", by telling a magistrate a bunch of lies to get me committed since I informed her that I would be filing custody paperwork the following day... They tried to do the same to me, when the FBI wanted to know about my dad's criminal activity he got scared and took a page from her book, they tried even longer and harder to get me to take the meds. The system is doesn't see it's flaws, it just sees problems that it's science and money need to fix. If you show up in the clutches of their claws you are broken and their system is the only thing to fix you. You cannot condemn the pharmaceutical industrial complex and praise it simultaneously. Sure there will be casualties in ironing out what is altruistic and getting away from the greed, but the casualties will be immensely greater to society if the so called justice system is bought in part by the industry. Industrial complexes are very dangerous to society, they are the parasitic worm that cannot live without the host it is killing.
I had a friend who had schizophrenia and he never told anyone. Anyway, one day he got real quiet in gym class and whispered “do you see him?”
Me and my friends all looked around confused. Apparently, one of his delusions was a man in a black trench coat that followed him around. He held one of my other friend’s hands until it went away.
Till this day I think about him and hope he’s ok. He looked genuinely terrified.
Feds thought I was lying about an all black motor cycle driver following me around after doing some investigative journalism on Tesla. I ended up being institutionalized and later that month the guy did donuts in the intersections around my house that everyone in the neighborhood including the police can’t find the perp and I’m currently beating Tesla in court. SOMETIMES you really are a journalist that really is being stalked. Sometimes they use this disease as an excuse to discredit a witness testimony without needing anything but one crooked doctor.
The dude is not schizophrenic he is psychic sight, the man in the black trench coat, you have no idea how many people see the exact same thing.
Many see him on during drug taking and sleep paralysis, what ever it is it is not friendly, it gives off negatives vibes. it has been caught on camera.
There has been documentaries about the thing, some psychologist before the internet was a thing, they suss it was real, so many of their patients who not know each other describe in detail the same thing.
Hallucination, not a delusion.
That’s not a schizophrenic hallucination. It could mean he has it but afflicted people do not have the capacity to appear normal when having an episode. Not by any measure. That was more likely from a lack of sleep.
@@rebelliousfineart8202 That is not true it dispends if the hallucination feels like a threat. But people are so dismissive they cannot comprehend what is going on.
It is not an hallucination what they are seeing is really there, they are seeing another layer of reality that the average person has no awareness.
The man in the trench coat has been seen by so many, there has been documentaries he has been caught camera and has been seen in many countries.
It is not a man this thing is a life form it is inter-dimensional in nature the people who assumed they are smart and gate keepers.
Don't have the intellect to unpack this so they put it aside and say hallucination.
I developed schizophrenia about 5 years ago and it tore my life apart. The scariest part about it is that no matter how much you tell yourself it's not real, when you hear the voices it seems as real as anything else you experience through your senses. I met other schizophrenics when I was in the hospital who wouldn't even consider the possibility that they weren't real, so I'm pretty lucky that I can at least compartmentalize my hallucinations and therefore not act on them, but it took alot of time and I still don't do it perfectly. I'm a really big fan of all of your videos Simon. They've really helped me get through when I'm struggling and need something to look forward too.
The process of life is continuous. Keep the fight alive. Upkeep. You got this.
It is good that you can compartmentalize them. But I do hope you still have regular check ups. This can reduce the flare ups, when you have a safe place.
I had a friend with this, she would sometimes pause and look over, and ask us "is there a person there?" Or "is someone else talking?" To help herself know which was real and which was a hallucination. I'm glad she trusted our little group enough to feel fully comfortable with us like this. Ive lost contact with her just through time, I hope she's still managing well
This! I don't have voices, but I do have strong delusions, and even though I *know* they are delusions, I can't shake their grip in me.
@@counterproductivity seems like we have the same mechanic to dealing with the creepies. It helps me but yeah sometimes it's too real
I went to college with a woman who was schizophrenic. You’d never know unless she told you (as she’d told me). She was one of the nicest people I’ve met and she was super outgoing and friendly to pretty much everyone. She was the kind of person who tried to include you and helped break you out of your shell. I hope she’s still doing well wherever she is now.
Yeah everyones nice on the surface
@@sleepisthecousinofdeath7395 lmaoooo
WRONG
Some people who are the most outwardly caring are so because of the damaging and horror show like life they have in their own minds. Understanding such pain/misery can cause (some not all) to be sympathetic and have a deep gratitude to just being able to genuinely smile. So help others as they understand the importance of just that fact.
@@mr.makedonija2627 when it rains it poors
@@chrisjarmain everything has an opposite but equal force working against them
Schizophrenia honestly seems like a really debilitating, terrifying mental illness. Props to those who suffer from it, you guys are true warriors :(
Nice try fed
It's UNBEARABLE from what I UNDERSTAND. That's as, it seems that so many of them end up commit suicide.
@@Broad_88 xD
Doesn't feel like it.
thanks dawg
My wife was diagnosed with paranoid schizopfreddie over 10 years ago and it's literally tearing our family apart and I really wanted to divorce her. I know people say its the disease not the person, but when all of the disruptions coming from 1 person it's hard. On top of that I have one son that's autistic not really bad, but he has a lot of social issues. And our youngest son is intellectually delayed. It's a really heavy load and my plate is full and my wife is not willing to take any medication.
Am so sorry for this❤
I’m so sorry for what you’ve gone through. You seem to be a good husband and father. I wish you all the best.
You have to do what’s best for you and your kids. Don’t let anyone drag you down with them. It’s hard to be with someone who doesn’t want to better themselves and stay mentally healthy.
You gotta put yourself first man. You know that she would have most likely left you if the roles were reversed and everyone would tell her to find someone better. It’s YOUR life, not hers. You can find someone who is a good addition to your life instead of solely being a burden.
Divorce her. If they're refusing to take their medication they just get worse and worse. If they're the violent type, especially you need to get out of there.
My father and I were diagnosed with Schizophrenia when we were young. Unlike my dad, my diagnosis was described as mild. That doesn’t make life any less difficult, working, episodes, relationships and even basic skills can be so hard. I’m thankful that more people are trying to understand the disease and realize that not everyone with schizophrenia is an awful human beings.
thank you for sharing! Im so glad you're ok. My heart goes out to you and your father, best of wishes :)
It’s a conditioning by western society. More traditional cultures believe schizophrenia is a gift if dealt with in the right care.
You sound like a nice normal person. Who says there’s anything wrong w you 🤷🏻♂️
@@connectedconcsciousness7293 please explain! Please I think I'm not OK
@@SOLIDSNAKE. why you think that?
my older brother's first psychotic episode happened when he was 14. He had to be hospitalized, and thats how we found out. I was 7 at the time. Apparently he had been hallucinating for *months* and didn't say anything because he was scared. I don't remember why he was scared, I was having my own issues. It's truly a sad disease. It hit him so young. He wanted to be a pilot when he grew up :(
How is his life now?
Far too many people think its a sign of weakness to bring up mental issues.
I’m sorry to hear that love :(
@@garretth8224 Well stupid people and social media condemned metal illness so it's understandable actually
Many schizos are pilots... apparently he just wasn't intelligent enough
I work in healthcare. It's absolutely heartbreaking to watch the way that the American Healthcare system treats people with mental illness, particularly people with schizophrenia. The symptoms are treated as behaviors that the person is choosing to do. Nurses and doctors alike often treat pts with schizophrenia as "difficult" and "obstinate." Rarely are pts with symptoms of schizophrenia treated with compassion or even human decency.
Well coming from the evil people who profit off saying everyone died from COVID when they didn't.
May the Lord shake them a little bit😢😢
@@kja9881 Sounds like something a schizophrenic would say.
Not enough money to be made off them sadly..
I can verify this. Being put in basically solitary for like I think 14 hours? It's hard to know exact time you lose track of it after awhile. Yeah it was misery. Jus me in a bright white room rubber walls, rubber chair, and a towel to be my "blanket." I was losing my head rapidly in there. Speedrunning madness one might say.
I experienced this when abusing psychedelics, was hell on earth… wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy. There’s one thing losing control of your body but when it’s your mind it’s torment
My ex is a psychedelic addict and he's got severe schizophrenia symptoms. It was like dating that crazy clown from them horror movies. So grateful it's over (for me... Probably not for him)
2:00 It's important to note that people suffering from mental illness, including schizophrenia are far more likely to be victims of crime or abuse than to commit it
I'm assuming you didn't watch 24:12 where he mentions it
he did say that
So very very right…my son has this illness
Don't lie to yourself. As if you don't know that under delusions they would do anything they're convinced will make it go away. I'm constantly one bad day away from just giving in. Schizophrenics are absolutely capable of being dangerous
As a parent it feels like you are in a constant state of mourning. The child you knew slowly disappears along with the hopes and dreams of a life he will never have. My son has suffered for 10 years he is considered treatment resistant as they haven’t found a medication that takes away the delusions and hallucinations. As I write this he is currently hospitalized because of the command voices telling him to harm himself. He has enough insight to know when he needs to seek help. He has maintained his concern and empathy for others I am thankful for that.
❤
Jesus can help,
Its spiritual warfare
Research Methylated B vitamins.
@@SalmPalm-no8pg evangelicals try not to convert people at their lowest and perform scummy religious colonization challenge (instant fail)
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2013. Since then, I've had nothing but social problems and have even gotten in trouble legally. It's a horrible condition, and I've been watching myself deteriorate year after year. I've had problems and symptoms of it since the early 1990s. It's horrible.
Hang in there mate. Work with your doctors to find something that helps. Be kind to yourself.
I've seen that Methylated B vitamins Help Greatly. They can be life changing to some.
I am currently under remission, that is, symptom free at the moment. I am no longer naive, a relapse is due soon, since I am kind of stressed out.
That’s a really sad story “Tarzan king of mats” 🫡
My ex wife was schizophrenic
i should not have watched this when I’m this high
ong bruh same
My uncle has schizophrenia. Medication works well for him, but a few times he's stopped taking it, and it's horrible to see all the delusions come rushing back. He's truly one of the strongest people I know. I can't imagine the struggles he faces every day.
My uncle is this story... Except his big issues off meds are that he violently attacks people and he has been a large man since his early teens.
I don't have schizophrenia, but I do have a pretty bad case of bipolar and I've had to be on anti-psychotics half of my life. Those medications suck the soul out of you, and cause countless awful side effects. It's awful that they are forced to choose between being zombified on one hand and living with schizophrenia on the other. It's all so sad.
@@noahtalbott6243 A lot of them don't get that choice and are forced to take the medication. I haven't had them for years, but it was a struggle to get that choice. I had to convince a judge to go against the advice of the psychiatrist, which is very unusual for a judge to do. They typically trust the expert. That meant I had to delve into studies myself, into the law, combine that with my own history, and make a persuasive argument. The judge ultimately ruled in my favor, but only because the psychiatrist wasn't really prepared to be debated on his expertise. In particular he was unable to explain how I had stayed psychotic for two years while being on antipsychotics all that time. The judge agreed it was extremely unlikely medicine would only start to work after two years, so the psychosis subsided naturally and the meds didn't work on me.
@@jbird4478 If that's true, all the respect and power to you. What a great story of success. Really awesome that you managed to outsmart and outdebate them.
@@bdarecords_ Thanks, but it's really a shame that it was needed. I'm not completely against forced medication, but patients should have their rights better protected. It should have been my lawyer. I was lucky enough that I had that court hearing in a time when I was doing very well, but in most cases patients aren't very capable of sticking up for themselves at such a moment. These types of cases are usually pretty much hammer pieces, as it was with me the first time I went through that.
My mother is a schizophrenic with multiple personalities. I remember her having us crouch down under a window because the Russians were invading our trailer. I think I was around four at the time. She married an ex Klansman who was a child predator. Obviously, he took advantage of her sickness. I’m gonna leave it at that as to how my childhood panned out. One personality, King Johavis, an angel sent from heaven with her “son” being the child she wanted. I am an only child… and her daughter. King Johavis hated me, unfortunately, he was the most prominent personality as a child. It’s made me different from my peers… I’m 50. I think my mentality is different from your typical 50-year-old. I’ve struggled with relationships in general to the point where I’m an extroverted loner. Extremely complicated to be this way, and have relationships that can understand the contradiction. Growing up I had to hide everything that was happening to me. And what was even worse, she allowed it. She would disappear for months and leave me with him. I left home at 15. if I would’ve stayed any longer, I don’t think I would’ve lived past 18. I just knew I was going to die. Thankfully, my cousin took me in or else I wouldn’t be here today.
I don’t know where she is. And to be honest, I really don’t want to know where she is. I realize her sickness caused her to be the way she was. But it doesn’t make it easier to reconcile the terrible life I lived. So now I feel nothing for her. And my deadbeat dad, my real biological father, I couldn’t care less where he is either. I’ve tried to be the best person I can be considering the life I lead. And I have succeeded, to some extent in living a life without abuse. But being so different from everyone else, because my life growing up was not healthy, it’s made me a very complicated person to deal with. I don’t wish anyone to have to go through what I went through. Ever. I am a good person, who excepts people for who they are regardless of skin color, sexual orientation and race. And I hope that my stepfather is burning in hell with a bit of extra punishment added because he didn’t turn me into him.
Anyway, this was my life, being raised by a mother with schizophrenia. This is a very dangerous mental illness that can negatively affect families as well as the individual going through the illness. And it’s up to the individual to be responsible enough to stay on treatment, considering there’s no cure. That’s the tricky part.
sorry to hear this wish you the best
Dude this aint a diary move on bro
@@BradleyWellington3thshut up and be respectful or don't say anything at all
@@BradleyWellington3th 🤡
@kerryheath8215 you've had a shitty life so far but I hope the rest of your days are long and filled with happiness. i'm proud of you for not letting your horrible upbringing turn you into the creatures who raised you. good luck.
I remember I met a girl who is schizophrenic and she was crying and speaking very low to the person that was with her "Their talking to me again and I'm scared."
I felt so f'ing bad because she's such a nice person and the way she was shaking in fear trying to hold back tears in fear that the voices would do something is sad.
Did she improve
I have Schizoaffective Disorder (Schizophrenia and a Mood Disorder). I was diagnosed in December of 2013. I finally got stabilized on Medication with in a year. I have been stable for 10 years. I take my medication every day because I am terrified of losing my mind, again. I put my meds together weekly ( I used to be an RN), with my husband’s help. I hope to God that I never experience psychosis, again.
The respectful disclaimer at the beginning is deeply appreciated. Mental illness is the butt of so many jokes - it’s a relief to see a respectful explainer about it
This right here
well, yes..... but the disclaimers and filters are getting a bit much on youtube.
The details were exceptionally gruesome.The warning could of been stronger tbh.
@@k.d.kelley2830 Or Gen Z could. 🤔
@@TsjuunTze lol
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, Asperger's and ADHD at a young age, I went through 6 years of heroin addiction (8 years clean) and now that I'm 28 I am still managing, I live a fairly normal life aside from almost being diabetic with the medication I'm on, but I am doing MUCH better than I was in my teens and early 20s, I have a steady job, a nice apartment and I manage my life okay, there are some things I still need to work on though, it is tough sometimes
Did the heroin alleviate some of your symptoms? I’ve heard of studies being done that show that opiates can help treat it. You obviously shouldn’t go back, but I’m curious about your anecdotal experience.
We all have things we need to work on. It sounds like you're doing well for yourself, so that's good.
Hugs homie. I love you.
@@Sniperboy5551
Heroin is a very bad decision of a substance.
Don’t ever try to self medicate opioids.
I mean it as good advice.
@@Sniperboy5551 It did mask my anxiety and made me forget about the delusions when I took it, but I don't think it should come as a surprise that when I was withdrawing my symptoms were exacerbated
My bf has schizophrenia. It’s debilitating for him. He has this hallucination in his mind he calls Francis, and for a bit he used to think he had DID, he didn’t. Francis is a violent voice, having a completely different personality from my bf. Despite how sometimes he’s violent, he can also be fatherly. I don’t really know how he works. He’s told me about it, and he’s told me about how he sometimes keeps waking up to hallucinations of Francis and another voice, screaming and arguing at eachother and telling him to hurt himself and other people. It’s already hard having to help him during his breakdowns, I can’t imagine how bad it is for him. I love him so much and I hate seeing him like this.
I had a schizophrenic friend. An architect. She unfortunately was taken advantage of by her married coworker, an engineer, ending up in a fling, under the assumption he loved her but then he left her and never spoke again with her afterwards.
She became convinced he was stalking her and ruining her career, and she became more and more withdrawn, believing he was hiring hackers to interfere with any activity she joined. She eventually left her firm, and started to believe demons were also influencing her life, including the actions of the engineer. I was the one she turned to in order to verify if things were real or not. I never denied things she saw were real or not, but I always told her before we turn to her delusions, we look for likely explanations. And for the most part, this helped and pulled her down to earth.
But while I'm a psychology graduate, and while I worked in guidance and counseling, I am not a psychologist, and all I could provide was the support and advice to see her therapist. And as much as I wanted to be there... it became frustrating carrying her whenever she was down.
I once decided to not reply for 2 days just to take a breather. When I checked on her, she had blocked me. I am under the impression she started to suspect me as well. I don't know if I could have done more. I still worry about her sometimes.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you tried. This mental illness is a tough one and would have eventually worn you down. She made the choice not to take your advice.😔 An all around sad situation, you did your best.
Dont be harsh on yourself. My brother is trying to wife a schizophrenic girl, we all advised against. Not because schizo = bad but because she won't take meds or even go to therapy and its making his every second fucked up. She wont eat alone, she wont buy food, and shes deep into heavy drugs. Im no one to judge, Ive done horrible shit in my life, but schizophrenic people often cant help it and often it goes such way that you cant help them either. Prepare yourself and calm yourself, dont ever forget it or try to but just get slowly on with it. One day maybe shell reach back, maybe she wont, or maybe she will be dead. In all cases it wont be your fault and even if it was you cant do anything about it by thinking about it day in day out
A more likely scenario is that he DID have feelings for her, but her crazy ass schizophrenic behavior eventually caused him to (wisely) run the fuck away and never look back
@@badhoax5365Schizophrenia DOES equal bad. Schizophrenia IS bad. Nobody would ever WANT to be schizophrenic. There's literally nothing good about it
@@Superabound2 way to make it seem as if it's her fault, and imply that her circumstances were entirely and ultimately of her own choosing.
I fell in love with a girl with schizophrenia when I was in my late teens.
She was abused severely as a child and by several of her exes throughout her life, and watched her sister battle cancer when she was a very young child (but luckily lived). She was also a victim of child sexual assault. She was diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, anxiety, bipolar, Tourette’s syndrome, borderline personality disorder, ED, etc. She was an alcoholic from her late teens until she was about 22 or 23. She was and still is one of the most mentally unstable people I’ve ever met, but I think what kept me around for so long was her heart. Despite all she’d been through, she was honestly probably the most kind hearted person I’ve ever met- she just had problems letting people in. At that age, I had autism and struggled to make and keep friends, and I had a lot of trouble with romance. But I remember at the time when I looked into her eyes, I saw somebody who liked me for me and seemed genuinely happy to be with me. She believed in me. She motivated me. She made me feel the way nobody else did at the time.
I remember taking her to the prom. The night went well for the most part. I was hoping that it would be the start of a serious relationship. I didn’t care if she wasn’t perfect, I loved her for who she was. Everything seemed to be going well that night, but after that she didn’t speak to me for a long time. Completely blanked me for almost a month. All the while, all I could think of was her. I drove myself crazy trying to figure out why the hell she was ignoring me. She later told me that some of the things I said to her that night had really hurt her feelings, and she just didn’t know how to tell me because she didn’t have good communication skills. I apologized and said I never meant to hurt her. I even said I would give anything to take it back which at the time I meant. She said she forgave me, but it was too late. The damage was already done. At this point she had already been ignoring me for a month and ended up getting with another guy.
For context, this wasn’t the first time she had pulled something like this. The first time, I understood why she didn’t want to be with me at the time because she was 19 and I was 17. The relationship would have technically been illegal (Despite not being anywhere near pedophilia, my state just has stupid laws). So we stayed close friends, but deep down I always loved her.
Needless to say, I was heartbroken. I didn’t know if I ever wanted to see her again. If she didn’t want to be with me, fine. But the way I saw it, if what I did was really that bad, and she actually gave a shit about me, I had every right to know what it was.
Then it happened. About a month later, she posted a picture in the hospital- I messaged her and learned that she was there because she tried to kill herself. Despite how much she hurt me, the thought of her succeeding hurt 10x more. It made me realize that she really was just too mentally unstable to handle what was going on and wasn’t just using it as an excuse for selfish behavior.
So I pushed my negative feelings aside and comforted her. We talked for about an hour. One of the things I remember her saying was she was a mess and just felt scared and lost and confused. I just told her she wouldn’t always be, she would get the help she needed and be the best she could be- and to the people who really cared about her, it would be enough. She thanked me, and fell asleep a short time later for the first time all night- at around 8 or 9 am.
It was then that I realized all she wanted was to feel safe and for somebody to care for her despite her instability.
We did try again about 7 months later to be together, but it didn’t work out. I said a lot of awful things to her, although the one thing I always tried to do was stick to insulting her actions instead of her as a person. I told her many times I felt like I was being taken advantage of or used. I told her if she got another partner and they broke up, she shouldn’t bother coming back to me because I’m tired of being treated like a rebound. How much I hated the fact that I had real feelings for her and she only ever showed her feelings for me after she broke up with someone, only to toss me aside when she found someone else.
For the most part, we are no longer in contact. We speak maybe once or twice a year, if that. For almost three years I was really in love with her, and she was the only person I could see myself with. In our most recent interaction, she told me why she thought it didn’t work out. She said something along the lines of:
“Honestly, I think you would have been an amazing boyfriend if I gave you the chance. But I pushed you away because I didn’t feel good enough. I was used to having to beg for affection, but with you I didn’t. You just gave it to me. You gave me unconditional care, and that was something I wasn’t used to.”
I love somebody else now. I’m in a much more stable relationship. But honestly, I still to this day think about her. I don’t love her anymore, but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t still care about her.
To this day, I don’t know what hurts the most. Watching the person you love suffer so profoundly and knowing you are powerless to help, or having the person you want more than anyone, and want to give the world to, just toss you aside like trash. I guess the lesson here is that when somebody tells you they’re too unstable for you, you should probably believe them.
So if you’re reading this, and you think it’s about you, then it probably is. And yes I meant every word of it.
Bro u made me cry my eyes out
Literally read every single line and word and hope so she is in better place rn and u also are
Life is tough buddy
Jesus Christ man, she didn’t feel worthy of your affection.
People who hurt don’t want others to hurt because of them. So they push them away. Even if it has to come off as mean
You are a beautiful person.
❤️
Hey man you got a great heart
When I was in the mental hospital a few years ago the two women with schizophrenia were two of the sweetest women I've ever met. I felt so bad for them and made sure to talk to them when they were okay with it, because nobody else would hang out with them. The one girl had hallucinations of demons and a sister who looked exactly like her who would constantly yell horrible things at her. The other one couldn't carry on a conversation but she was happy to answer questions like what movies do you like. Her husband had to have her committed to get her meds adjusted. She was sad because the new meds weren't helping enough to go home and she didn't feel like herself anymore.
As a schizophrenic myself this was a pretty good video. So far the worst time of my life wS when my schizophrenia was beginning to take hold of my mind and I had no idea it was happening. I started to hear voices wondering what I was going, they got meaner and meaner until one day a booming voice came from heaven talking about existence. I understood I had to die to save the universe. After I tried that I woke up at the hospital and subsequently got diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder depressive type (basically schizophrenia and depression in one). I was painting a lot during this time, just for myself, but I uploaded it as I thought it was interesting to see how I changed during the development of schizophrenia.
I suffer from mood swings, anxiety attacks from time to time that can lead to fear and paranoia and OCD. Twice out of nowhere I heard a voice in my room whisper my name. Do you think this could be a beginning symptom of schizophrenia?
@@flossyraven I hope not. You're not alone in this... I'm here because just last night I random heard a male voice whisper "hey there" to me. I wasn't convinced it was real (even though I heard it) so it doesn't entirely line up with schizophrenia. I get the random few words once in a blue moon, and I often wake up seeing shadows of whatever I was dreaming about for like 30 seconds after waking up (for example: a shadow of a bee flying in front of my face). I've been diagnosed with generalized anxiety, panic disorder, paranoid disorder, and OCD. I personally like to think that its just a harmless aspect of whatever is different about my brain that causes me to be so "worked up" all the time, or some sort of side effect of fluoxetine (Prozac). Nothing you can do about it either way.
Disclaimer: My paranoia is around my health (and mental health) and my OCD tends to be a compulsion to do heavy research on medical disorders I'm afraid I could develop/have (as seen by me clicking on this video). So yeah... if your worried ask your doctor.
@@flossyraven Simon did warn not to do any self diagnosis for a reason. Voices can also be a symptom of extreme anxiety or sleep deprivation. Definitely see a doctor.
@@cricticalthinking4098 I was also on Prozac for my OCD and anxiety/paranoia. I stopped taking it because I felt it gave me side effects but my doctor didn't want to switch me to something different. I have been forced to smoke weed and drink wine to chill me out some.
@@erin5763 true. I guess because I had a doctor that wouldn't work with me I'm hesitant to go see another.
Great video .im schizoprenic and spent 2 years in a state hospital but with treatment im living on my own .prayers to others dealing with this living hell. Thanks simon for your awesome videos.
Proud of you. ❤️
Great to hear your doing better .
Are on Lithium? Coz it’s the worst!
So glad that you are out of the hospital.
Ive had a very hard battle watching my father lose himself and having to say goodbye to the man I once knew, it took over 2 decades for him to receive proper help and that’s not through a lack of trying. I wish I could help him regain his sanity but there’s only so much that can be done. Thankyou for making this video and spreading awareness
This is so unfortunate, my grandmother had schizophrenia, which started a LONG line of issues among my siblings. My sister is bipolar and my brother shows a few mild signs of schizophrenia. I’m not sure how my mother was able to come out as strong as she did smh. A lot of this made wish I could’ve done more for them.
The genes seem to skip generations
@@Chris-hb6jt why ?
It was not ur mums strength. She got lucky
Same with my neighbor. Her grandmother had schizophrenia. As a result, her aunt also had it (she passed 2 years ago) and recently, she showed signs of it too. She is now taking medication and going to the psychiatrist regularly.
You did what you could with the tools you had available at the time.
Hugs.
A good friend of mine developed this in his thirties. He has some underlying issues, and it was painful to watch a formerly intelligent, curious, and life-loving weirdo descend into paranoia, mental paralysis, and constant fear. I don't know what happened to him in the end, as he eventually withdrew from everyone and disappeared. Sometimes there's just nothing you can do.
Yeah I gave up too
He still only wants to smoke weed. He hates his medication and he is forced to take it which makes me sad.
My friend suddenly disappeared for a year then I get phone call from case officer from mental institution asking if she’s been in contact with me. Didn’t know she had checked herself in and have been getting help. Then she reaches out to me out of the blue with full blown psychosis with persecutory delusions.this was during the first lockdown in Australia. She would call me from street phones so I had no way to call her. After several talks, I managed to talk her into going back to the mental institution who clearly knew her mental state and would keep her safe until she was well again. Cut to 3 years later, she’s started & finished a real estate course and is working in new that career plus has a boyfriend. She’s more even keeled than me! Sometimes people have a blip but can recover.
They can recover if friends dont let them down. Forced meds is the most fkd up thing one can imagine. Creates epic zombies.
@@unktzor so recovery means that they are cured
My mother went about 40 years with a depression diagnosis. In her 60s she suddenly started hearing "demons" telling her to do strange and harmful things. My parents are both devoutly religious and her schizophrenia presented itself in a very religion centric way. She would go around the house and "anoint" things in the house with olive oil. She would throw away all the food in the house claiming that the demons had tainted it. But the worst of it (aside from the violent threats she would make towards me, her husband, and even our dog) was when she would deficate into the toilet and then proceed to drink and eat from the full toilet. We would stop her and ask her why she would do that to which she would always say "The demons told me I had to if I ever want to see Heaven". It was truly heartbreaking. Trying to convince a non schizophrenic religious person to evaluate their beliefs is hard enough, but add that condition to the problem and it's impossible. She began taking ECT (electro convulsive therapy aka shock therapy) and she began to be able to deal with the symptoms. However eventually this left her a hollow shell barely able to think or speak. Mental health is a serious issue so please please please seek PROFESSIONAL help if you or someone you know is having problems. DO NOT seek or accept help from anyone other than a trained and certified doctor. No amount of crystals, or acupuncture, or faith/prayer will cure anything. In fact they will most likely make the issue worse.
I would really hope that someone with a murderous disease like schizophrenia wouldn’t bet on crystals to fix the issue
@@Ssm19494 One would hope.
Also people need to avoid religion because then they come up with these religious demon stupidities. Sorry to hear about your mother.
@@TomeRodrigo I couldn't agree more. Religion is itself a type of delusion imo. As long as it's a delusion you can control its acceptable I guess. But add religious zealotry to a mental illness and things become far more complicated.
Religion and schizophrenia do NOT mix well.
Honestly I just watched this whole documentary, whilst I felt like this was a very informative and honest overview of the condition, I also can't help but feel like parts of this video could be guilty of verging on glamourizing or sensationalizing schizophrenia. I don't have it but the phrase that should generally be applied to every mental health condition, is "if you ever feel embarrassed/ashamed/marginalized/judged for having a friend, family member or colleague with a mental illness, whilst taking care not to trivilise your own uncomfortable emotions as a result of being in close connection with that person with the mental illness, imagine how shit it must feel for the person who actuàlly has the mental health condition"
good point!!!
I've seen this disorder create a vicious cycle of: person is paranoid/erratic -- people try to intervene -- person takes meds -- feels better -- stop meds -- get paranoid -- refuses help because those same people are "after them." It's one of the most difficult to manage medically and psychologically, and my heart goes out to both the patients AND the families/friends/caretakers who are trying to help.
There's this subreddit for crippling alcoholics and I was browsing it one day and came across a post that was written by someone VERY CLEARLY having a schizo episode. Checked his profile and sure enough, there are hundreds of posts over a few years about schizophrenia and alcoholism. The reason he is so well-known in the subreddit is this reason exactly; the deadly paranoia cycle. Despite this, everyone is rooting for him there. They encourage him to go to intake care, take his meds, and prod him gently about delusions. He seems like a good guy and I think about him from time to time and hope he is being taken care of
My partner was diagnosed with schizophrenia this year and she broke up with me after 13 years and 3 kids. One moment I was with the love of my life and the next she was unrecognisable. Now Im a single dad and I'm still trying to move on. The hardest thing I've ever done..
Tuff bro💙
Oh no. I don't know your exact situation so I don't know if it's helpful at all but let me tell you an aspect of the impact a diagnosis of schizophrenia can have. This is at least a process I went through.
When you get diagnosed with schizophrenia it scares the hell out of you. Doctors tell you they don't know how it will develop in the future. They do however tell you the statistics. They tell you you probably won't be able to support yourself financially - let alone other people. They tell you you might become violent at some point. They tell you it's unlikely you will ever go back to normal.
This makes you wonder. Wouldn't the people you truly love be better off without you in their lives? Aren't you a threat to their lives and happiness? Even if not can you really look forward to a life where you are a financial burden to the people you love?
So you start rationalizing it would be good for the people around you if you were just gone. You still long for their company and even if you don't cut the ties completely the relationship is still heavily disturbed because you have these thoughts daily.
Were I a stranger this is the advice to my family that would have helped me the best:
Be supportive. Don't push the sick one to get back together. But be there and make it clear that your door is always open. You're always there to help. It may be that the sick one seeks help for a period of time before withdrawing again. Rest assured though this behaviour has nothing to do with missing love. It's quite the opposite.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia about two years ago, thank you for putting in a disclaimer that not all schizophrenics are dangerous. When one of my last managers found out I was schizophrenic he would make horrible comments and remarks, really feels alienating when people find out I’m schizophrenic.
You should got him fired
I'm so sorry you had to experience that. People are scared and nasty for what they don't understand. My mum has the disease so I understand getting some of those reactions. I hope you told human resources about that fucker!
Does your medicine help you
@@dylanbillion917 I’ve been on 4 different medications and 3 of them haven’t worked effectively for me. Now I’m on medication that requires weekly blood work. But I’ve been feeling so much better on it, felt like I lost two years of my life trying to find what works for me. Thanks for asking!
@@drottle what drug if you don't mind me asking
My uncle had schizophrenia. My entire life I've known and felt him as the most wholesome, loving and genuinely caring person I'll ever meet in life. And I still belive and feel that to this day.
He looked EXACTLY like young Tom hanks (like in "big" kinda acted like the character too)
He had sever schizophrenia, turned to hard drugs to make the voices and hallucinations go away, destroyed his life. Then got clean, found religion, and focused his life on it.
He never talked about what he was expierenceing. But you could see him going through it.
And because of the time he grew up in, and the little was known about his condition, he was definitely shamed, ostriches, and treated like he was crazy (by family as well as strangers)
And despite all of the mistreatment, he was never violent or even mean. He would genuinely give you the shirt off his back no hesitateion.
He did end up passing from cancer. A few years ago
I realize this comment may be put of place
But I'm leaving it for him. He deserves to be known and remembered.
im glad you included the information about cannabis because my ex said his psychosis was triggered by using marijuana. Since that day he is delusional that everyone is plotting against him, he hears voices and is apathetic. He is the friendliest man i have ever met i hope he one day can manage it. He has been diagnosed with on going psychosis but i was always pushing for him to see specialists so he gets a more specific diagnosis.
He is right. I had a cannabis-induced psychosis last year and was diagnosed with schizophrenia. It is not an inoffensive drug.
My friends mother, and older brother have problems, and I think that he shows some of the simptoms when take some smoke or uppers. He is really the good friend, and, I don't want to be a part of speeding up his possible illness, and, it is really hard for me to be in this situation, however, he is probably the one who will need medical help for that state and there are millions of exact and much worse examples as we heard in the video, terrifiying and sad. Love u all.
Well for some people the effects of smoking cannabis can be similiar to the symptons of scizofrenia. I'd strongly advise against smoking it if you have a tendency for mental issues in your genes. Despite all the praise on the internet, it is not a safe drug for everyone. And if you absolutely have to take something, then yes alcohol may be a better option for some. I'd say it's 50-50
In England people still think cannabis is harmless like they really believe that even though they keep ending up in hospital
@@alundavies8402 just like alcohol, far more people in hospital after a drink in comparison to cannabis
Imagine being locked up in a mental hospital believing you are sane yet you are being forced to take medication and therapy. I hope all of these diagnoses are correct. Very informative!
Shutter island...
American horror story asylum is like that
@@awarness3938that movie is a trip
I was in mental hospital in the UK for psychosis (similar to schizophrenia). And quite enjoyed it. Therapies usually include doing art or yoga and stuff. Although I would prefer not to be on medication, it doesn't really have any side effects for me.
@@DragonJT-jp6xvschizophrenia is characterized by psychotic episodes and other symptoms so yeah
I had a friend in high school who was diagnosed with schizophrenia. She used to have vivid hallucinations and confided to me that she was terrified of hurting her family. In my junior year, she just... disappeared. Our teacher told the entire class that she was getting help, but never explained anything else.
Despite it all, she was one of the kindest people I've ever met. There's this pop culture stereotype of schizophrenics being violent and dangerous, but in reality, the people who suffer most from schizophrenia are the people who have it.
I just hope my friend is doing alright now.
Hi Simon and team. As someone who suffers from schizophrenia I appreciate your deep and thoughtful coverage of the subject. Cheers and happy holidays.
Not to be that guy but how did u finish the video in time haha
@@cipher9849 Temporal displacement.
@@cipher9849 you know he’s telling the truth too. He has to be
Stay motivated
@@bonk94 what do you mean "temporal displacement"?
My father was paranoid schizophrenic and committed suicide when I was 3. Thanks for covering this topic and treating it with respect
For every person with schizophrenia, I give you all my support to the battle you are fighting every single day.
And to their loved ones that try to help and support (my brother is schizophrenic age 26)
Thank you Ronald. As someone with schizophrenia, I actually. I actually really appreciate this. Thank you, it's so rare to find compassion for this sorta thing
Most of my battle is other people.
As someone diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia + bipolar), I hate when people dismiss me as just having psychosis when I'm not. My upstairs neighbor was harassing me, following me and had a pinhole camera in my apartment. No one believed me and I was ignored everything I asked for help or told someone what was happening. In the end, I was able to obtain evidence and the guy was arrested and convicted and now I'm traumatized. Just because one of us is claiming that something is happening to us that you may dismiss as psychosis, the person could be completely in reality. Bad things happen to us too.
When in the process of getting assessed for ADHD, the doctor was asking a lot about things that showed up in this video that seemed out of left-field and unrelated/not applicable but hearing that schizophrenia might be caused by too much dopamine now makes a lot of sense why those questions were present to be safe and not to give dopamine enhancing medications to people who might suffer from too much dopamine.
Throughout my life, I've been close with many people that suffer from schizophrenia.
The majority seemed to have the condition 'under control'.
As we move forward, our knowledge Re/ Mental Illness and how to effectively treat it grows and grows.
So, we ought to be thankful for that.
I don't have schizophrenia.
I do have OCD, however.
While my condition is quite stable these days, I went through a period where I was suffering immensely.
My condition got so bad that my 'intrusive thoughts' (which really is the hallmark of OCD) became audible.
For a period of nearly two years, the incredibly disturbing mantras that I (seemingly) was forced to repeat Ad Naseum became loud and fast.
My psyche was completely consumed by this.
So... I think I can actually relate 'a bit' to schizophrenics.
I was effectively hearing the same 'disturbing auditory narrative' in my mind, HOWEVER I always knew that the tormenting narrative was a product of my brain.
Never, did I ever think that it was coming from an 'external source'.
So, that's the key difference.
The schizophrenic could very well be hearing the 'exact same' disturbing narrative, but they cannot identify the aforementioned as a product of their brain, and as such attribute it yo something external like a 'God' or a 'device that transmits audio frequencies into their brain, etc. etc.
The differences between all of the 'more severe' psychological disorders really aren't all that profound.
Anyway... I suffered immensely for a large portion of my life.
I wouldn't wish such anguish upon my worst enemy.
So, I wish wellness, serenity and peace of mind upon all of you.
people with psychosis can be able to recognize delusional thoughts and see that they are not real, it’s not always black and white
@@PretendingToBeAHuman hey... I just wanted to sincerely thank you for your reply.
It really takes a tremendous amount of courage to disclose matters of this sort, so I applaud you.
I can 100% relate to the 'Satanic Obsession / Intrusive Thoughts'. I don't know if I mentioned that initially, but that was always the nature of my 'intrusive thoughts'.
It was always about 'damnation' and 'selling my soul' which completely ran contrary to my 'will' (so to speak) but as a fellow OCD sufferer, you know just like I that should 'Libertarian Freewill Exist', we don't have it.
I'm sure you can identify when I say that oftentimes the more effort you put into 'silencing your intrusive thoughts', the worse they get.
So, you mentioned 'recovery'.
Like you, my OCD symptoms these days are generally 'manageable'.
My condition has improved substantially.
I can't say for certain what contributed the most to my recovery.
I sincerely think however, that the biggest factor was me deciding to start studying theology and philosophy.
My perspective on everything has changed profoundly, and I came to realize that my crippling fear of 'Hell' and all of that stuff was really unwarranted.
My Father once gave me a great acronym for the word 'fear'... 'False Evidence Appearing Real'.
As a fellow OCD sufferer I'm sure that you can attest to the legitimacy of that acronym.
So, I really appreciate the response, and I'm very happy that your condition improved.
OCD can be abdolute torture.
I wouldn't wish that shit upon my 'worst enemy'.
Take Care.
- Justin
As someone who's suffered from both psychosis and OCD I can tell you from first hand experience that they are incredibly similar. In both of them you fully believe a feared story/narrative or delusion. They both completely warp your reality and take over your life. I'm doing a hell of a lot better now though and urge anyone experiencing these things to get help.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2012. I'm unmedicated at the moment due to insurance issues and living alone so, I have to work a lot making it impossible for me to get any type of disability. My hallucinations are auditory and visual and I'm mostly used to them, but there's still several that will catch me off guard. I have delusions on occasion, but fortunately, I'm usually able to get out of it. I have had some people leave me due to my diagnosis, including my family, but recently I've been figuring something's out that have helped me. I workout everyday now and I walk to and from work 6 days a week and just being out of my home helps me a little. Anyone that deals with this shit as I do, I'm sorry you also have this going on, but just know, you're not alone and we will make it through this. I hope you get the help you need or want and I hope the best for you
Thank you Simon for scaring the shit out of me. I thought I was in the clear but apparently making it into my mid30s and not getting it isn't the 'I'm not getting Schizophrenia' thresh hold I thought it was.
I have been to psych wards off and on through out the years due to my mental illnesses. My last visit I had the opportunity to meet a gentleman who suffers from schizophrenia. He described to me his illness, and it left me with curiosity on how the brain works.
Your approach to this topic was spot on and respectful. I thank you for making this video.
I’m schizoaffective which just means I have schizophrenia and major depression at the same time. They both affect each other and can get quite bad, but I’m one of the lucky ones that can typically function quite well, minus the anxiety and paranoia. We’re typically only dangerous when in a psychotic break, and even then we’re more of a threat to ourselves rather than others. There are fringe cases in the extremes, but most of us are just dealing with our demons in silent. Some delusions come and go, others are seemingly permanent and unshakable. If you meet someone with schizophrenia, just try and understand that we only want to exist without our thoughts tormenting us constantly; we just want to be normal like everyone else.
My nephew was schizophrenic. He had paranoid delusions nearly every day since returning from Afghanistan. He was in the army when diagnosed. 2 years ago he shot himself. He relayed that he wanted the voices to stop. We tried to get him help, but it wasn’t enough. Schizophrenia is horrible.
why does this illnes have a common thing, a speaking vocci/voices, often negative?
I've a friend who suffers, or suffered, from schizophrenia.
Have no idea what happened to them or where they went. Fell off the radar, no way to contact them.
I know he became aware of the diagnosis and was lucid for awhile. But to my understanding, they fell deep into the illness quickly.
Dude, if you're still out there, I hope it's okay.
They?
then try to find him man wtf
try harder
How tell me how you would@@maxaffe3195
My best friend growing up had a serious and sudden onset of schizophrenic at the age 18. It came on strong, fast, and really messed him up. Last year, without any warning, he jumped off the roof of a local bar in my home town. He was only 22 years old. Miss that guy all the time. The world can be a very unfair and cruel place sometimes.
So when he reached that age It just suddely hit him,was he doing drugs?
@@fumarate1 Yes. He smoked weed probably just about everyday from the time he was 16 or 17 till it hit him about two years later. He had also experimented with LSD a few times. I wasn’t there when it happened to him. The switch flipping I mean. But a buddy of mine was, and he said they were sitting there smoking. One minute he was talking to this friend and joking with him. The next he was looking at him like he didn’t know him. It hit him very fast and very hard. I think there were a lot of factors that brought it on so suddenly. The psychoactive drugs, a traumatic event when he was younger(burnt pretty badly), his house was always dark(all windows covered), his parents were recluses and only really talked to family, and his uncle also had the disorder, but not nearly on the same level.
Weed every day builds up a toxin that brings on paranoia, Slippery slope. Don't get me wrong it has loads of positives but I would say learn all you can before inbarking on trying class b drugs
Also I experienced sleep paralysis day's week's later àfter smoking weed and believed an alien was the culprit in my room/bedsit on my own paralysed helpless, and come to realise I'd done to much with stress and lack of sleep ece
@@rosehacksyoutube this is really sad but also really interesting
My uncle had schizophrenia. I didn’t know too much about about it because my mom and grandma didn’t want us kids involved with that stuff but he was suffering so bad that when I was in forth grade he killed himself.
1:15 - Chapter 1 - Disclaimer
2:30 - Chapter 2 - Positives symptoms
11:15 - Chapter 3 - Negative symptoms
15:55 - Chapter 4 - Causes & treatment
23:20 - Chapter 5 - Hope
Not done yet?
Oh, cool. I just witnessed you make a checkpoint thingy
Um... If he intended for the checkpoints he would include them in the discription.
@@mystikarain He thinks he works for Simon. This video was about him.
@@BonShula wow be mean to the guy trying to help people. Here’s your award 🥇🏆
@@natetherat2063 It is true, he type these things in every video. Stop destroy his delusions.
I used to know a guy who had a schizophrenia diagnosis. He was one of the lucky ones for whom medications worked well, and he was also expert at managing his symptoms. He told me once that every time he started to hallucinate (usually bugs crawling on the walls), he'd get on a bus and go somewhere to hang out in nature until his brain calmed down. He also exercised a lot as a way of combatting stress.
He's a super nice guy, very intelligent, who used to make a living as a freelance copy-editor and proofreader. Unfortunately, one of the other drawbacks of many antipsychotics is that they make you much more likely to have a stroke. He had one at age 38. It wasn't bad as strokes go, but left him less verbally fluent, and unable to continue in that line of work. It didn't stop him from getting a PhD, though.
One of the first symptoms of my anxiety disorder was that I felt like the normal voice in my head that narrates my thoughts (yes, I think in words, and it sounds like my own voice) had split into a dozen or so identical voices -- all of which sounded like my own normal internal voice -- who were hanging out in my head like my braincase was some dingy loft party somewhere, *and they were all talking trash about me*. I couldn't think straight, and the mental noise was deafening. I became convinced that I had done something in the past that had ruined my life, and I was just waiting for the other shoe to drop. (Narrator: Her life was not, in fact, ruined, and there were no metaphorical shoes.)
Forty-five minutes after I took my first dose of anxiolytic, the voices stopped, like someone had kicked out a plug somewhere. I damn near collapsed from relief.
I'm about 12 years out from that episode, still taking meds, have had them adjusted from time to time, and on average doing okay. I'm having a depressive episode right now, but within the span of a couple weeks recently, my best friend died suddenly, and I got laid off from this really awesome job, and I live where it's super expensive, so the stress of grief and unemployment are getting to me. But anyone would be depressed in my situation, so that's life.
Hope things are better now. Research Methylated B vitamins, they seem to Help Greatly.
question: if it is just one mind split into many, does it mean that splitminded arent likely to read any book at all?
My husband was diagnosed in 2015 after a catatonic episode. Since then he has had conversation with his father and best friend. Both deceased. Watching him suffer has been awful. Seeing him holding his head and begging me to make the voices shut up is heartbreaking. Thankfully he is on medication that has severely reduced his symptoms, though he is on permanent disability because of it.
not schizophrenic, but when I was younger, I did go through hallucinations sometimes. Just looking out the window and trees swaying in the wind would do so more violently until their crowns touched the ground left and right. It doesn’t sound like it, but it was absolutely horrifying to look at. The creaking noise as well. Stuff and people wouldn’t look or move right, and I was in a state of confusion and panic.
That shit alone almost made me loose my shit. I can’t imagine seeing or hearing people that aren’t there and having no grip on reality.
I haven’t had one of these episodes for 15 years now. We still don’t know what triggered them and what made them go away, but a doctor told me they might come back anytime.
As a schizophrenic meaning im betrayed by my own mind and having family members discarding the idea that I have mental illness even though I was diagnosed by doctors it's the worst illness with pills or with not.
The worst part is that no one understands me brother grandfather mother aunt they don't understand that I don't have motivation or drive . That's the worst part.
Wow, I’ve always wondered what a schizophrenic person experiences. Sounds frightening especially if you don’t have a loving supportive person in your life.
I was once atacked by a lady with schizophrenia, she yelled something I couldent here at first, but soon it became clear she was trying to protect herself by huring me. But even two years earlyer I was at a park when that same lady was cussing at me, I dont know what she experienced but I wish her well. She had no family to keep her on her meds but after that, she was monidered by profectionals that took care of her.
I was diagnosed about 5 years ago with Schizophrenia, with a bit of support I was able to learn grounding techniques and embrace my condition as a gift, Due to my Neurological processes from the disorder, my pattern recognition and analysis is super human! Though that can trail off to delusional thought process. No visual hallucinations in a long while, very rarely auditory distortions. Catatonia comes in waves due to the dopamine and serotonin processes but it’s also rare and manageable with many different medications. It’s only truly horrifying for those with no support. If you are concerned about your mental health or that of a loved one, please reach out. There is support out there.
I'm 28 and schizophrenic. I believe I've shown symptoms since the time I was 11. I've heavily smoked weed (3 times a day) from the time I was 16. I was diagnosed at 22. I wish I knew that marijuana worsens my disorder sooner. I would've abandoned the habit in a heartbeat, I've been slowing down to 1 (2, at most) time(s) a day for the past few weeks. I have noticed a difference, thank you for this very useful information that I wish I've had my whole life. Your channel is great, keep up the good work, everybody who works in front and behind the screens
dude stop smoking weed
Bro stop smoking weed completely
@@Fooliedafinnesser eh, I don't think I will, unless I have to
@kk12ie I'm a grown adult man. I can trust that I make good decisions. I do already take at least 9 days out of every month where I don't smoke. I understand your point, but I do have self control
@@Andazola92 You wouldn’t believe how many idiotic decisions adults make on a daily basis. So you being an adult doesn’t mean you know everything. If you wanna smoke weed 22 days a month, it’s a free country.
I’m glad I finally have a video that actually tells the negative effects. It’s hard to explain to my friends why I suddenly freeze and why I struggle with emotions.
my grandmother is schizophrenic. she’s a very sweet old lady when she’s on her medication, if a bit spacey, but the stress she’s put my mother through is something i’d be afraid to go through myself
As someone in this boat, it's never like it's seen on TV, and it can be lived with. Medication, trusted people, and a peaceful space can go a long way in staying stable. The things you see/hear after a while become manageable with time, experience, and effort. Know your triggers and avoid them at all cost. I truly feel deep sadness for those of us who close control. Stay strong, brothers and sisters
living with Schizophrenia is a nightmare for me
I hope it gets better for you bro
I'm so sorry bro, I think helps trying to focus on the inherent value that we have - even if you don't have people cheering for you all of the time. In a way, you are still there for yourself and that part of you can help. If you succeed, even a little bit, people do notice it alot (in a good way)
It is indeed
I have it, and it is a living hell. I’d been informed by professionals over the years about most of the things in the video, but I was able to learn a few new things too about it/about myself and I think they’ll actually help me understand things a bit more going forward. So thank you so much for posting this video
Look up Jerry Marzinsky - his channel is called "Engineering mental sanity".
I appreciate the compassion and sensitivity with which you dealt with this subject.
My life with a schizophrenic mom.
My mother raised me at the time with my father and siblings, mom was diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia, in the late 1940s to early 1950's. Mother was not medicated and not seeing a doctor (psychiatrist) during the entire time I, my father and my nine siblings were being raised in the home. Mom was living day to day, very sadly suffering with severe paranoid ideation, hallucinations, delusions, fear and rage. And sometimes physical altercations with other members, mostly with my father. I remember I was very young, (born-1952). I would hear my mother's screaming, in my crib, and later in my bed at night so terrified, I would get under the covers, trying to hide from my fear and sense of real terror, so confused at what and why my mom was screaming, what was so wrong that mom was hurting and screaming at night. There was always a sense of fear and anger, mom yelling about people in the house that we could not see, people coming in the house to poison her food that were unseen. People were using "listening devices" to spy on Mom's thoughts and actions on a daily basis. Later as mother's symptoms were worsing in frequency and severity, mom started talking to the television screaming that unseen people, (excluding us) her family inside the TV were saying terrible things about her,(she never mention specifics of what the people were saying) and yelling how people would come in the night to rape her, they came in through her bedroom window from the gutters of the roof, on the 2nd floor. Later, I remember when my father and mother were have a physical altercation, lots of yelling and screaming, when mom was able to land a hard punch to my fathers face. I think mom broke his nose. And then I recall when the police came to the door with my father answering the door with a fair amount of blood running down his face and on to his shirt. Then my father assured the police that everything was okay, When the officers asked him why his shirt was bloody, my father told them that he had run into a door. And that was as far as that particular episode concluded, where everything went back to the normal (for us), to our usual highly chaotic dysfunctional home, as i perceived, was a never ending, living hell for mom, dad and us children, and extended family.
Apparently, one of neighbors called the police, perhaps the lady involved in getting my mom into the court system, years later., we were never sure who had called (not important),perhaps a missed opportunity to get mom the help she so desperately needed. But nothing came of the scene and we continued suffering under this cloud of schizophrenia for many more decades. Thus you see a sampling of my mothers symptoms, and actions as a result of her disease, she continued suffering greatly for many years and so too her children, (myself included), my father and both extended family's, from mother and father's side. The scene in our home went on as stated above with many more scenes of chaos, anger, physical fights with my father and us as children. I remember being directly having an altercation with my mom, after she was yelling about some delusion, can't remember exactly the details about what she was so upset about. I was about 12 or 13 years old at the time. All I remember is that it got to a point during one of mom's usual, screaming, raging episodes when we were in the kitchen during the week after coming home from school. I became very upset and yelled back at my mother to "shut up",and believe I never reacted that way to my mother before this incident. I then shouted at her, "I can't take this anymore", and then my mother reacted by picking up a large pitcher (half gallon) of very hot tea in my face, which quickly led to my breakdown crying with all my heart, on the floor of the kitchen.
It was not until 1976, when my mother was arrested for assaulting the next door neighbor. My mother was outside in her yard, yelling at the next door neighbor who happened to be in her front yard. Mother was using a twig that she picked up in the yard, using the twig as a pointer, to emphasize in the neighbor's direction, with a warning to stop coming into her home (moms home) and poisoning her food. This was a watershed moment for all of us, when our neighbor started screaming back at my mother to leave her along, and then she proceeded to call the county police, and as a result the police came to the scene to arrest my mother, she was charged with simple assault. The family was called to the courtroom in the local town where she was to booked on the assault charge. I remember being in the courtroom fighting back tears as I watched my mom, who i loved dearly being escorted, handcuffed a brought before the judge. I knew, even as a child that my mother was plagued by this terrible disease, it was not her fault. I remember the judge asking my mother about her complaint about our next door neighbor, coming into her house and poisoning her food,. Then the judge asked my mother if she believes this complaint was true, and my mother replied with a simple, Yes. The judge then stated that he was going to send my mother to the State Mental Hospital for a 90 day assessment, medication (forced) and overall treatment. This incident was the first time my mother was forced to be in treatment. The 90 day hospitalization was intended to get mom on an medication regimen to control symptoms, and to have a psychiatrist be assigned to her during hospitalization and to follow up with regular visits
I express my sympathy and empathy to all those who suffer from this illness chronically. I have had psychotic episodes in my life and they were without a doubt the hardest times of my life. No outright hallucinations but a very altered reality and spiraling thought patterns and delusions. I feel so lucky that I managed to get cured through medicine, I can't imagine having to live with this every day.
Never took em in my life. And never will, especially because they can trigger it. Is that supposed to be funny? Id like to see you have a psychosis for 3 weeks and come out of it smiling.
As someone with schizophrenia for well over 3 decades, I've learned stress is the number one enemy and it isn't always a "monster ",..just a part of who you are
Mental illness runs on both sides of my family, mostly bipolar disorder and depression. I fight depression and anxiety. But, I have a schizophrenic uncle. As long as he takes medicine, he is relatively normal. Once he stops, he either gets religious or he gets into drugs and sketchy behavior. As a teen, I struggled with my own issues. Watching my uncle frightened the hell out of me. I was terrified of ending up like him. Thankfully, this didn't happen. Though I am in my 50s and I still battle depression and anxiety, I realize that it could have been much worse. Thank you for this insightful video.
As a psychiatrist once told me. Schizophrenia is a thought disorder while depression and anxiety, for example, are mood disorders. I think that sums it up simply and neatly. :)
Anxiety is hardly a "mood disorder". It affects *everything* in some cases.
@@MadScientist267 Yeah, but it’s still a mood disorder. It’s disregulated fear responses, and fear gives physical symptoms, which also present themselves in anxiety disorders.
Schizophrenia messes up your mental faculties in such a significant way that it can maybe be compared to dementia on a cognitive level. I know it’s not the same, but it’s difficult to find anything you can compare it to, because it’s so unique.
And then we have schizoaffective disorder that combines the two.
Erm if that is the case then I have everything.
@@Neellohit Yes, of course. It’s only a simple “rule of thumb.” Reality is rarely so black and white. :)
There are different levels of schizophrenia... I suffer less and have more control of mine than quite a few others I've run across in my life.
My brother has paranoia schizophrenia. Before diagnosis people appeared as monkeys and his voices told him to kill his family. Before I put him in hospital he would ride his bike and see himself across the road.
Although nearly 30 years later after treatment. He has relapse and cronic anxiety. Hes very aware about his illness and can manage it. Its a very bad mental illness to live with. Hes such a lovely person, and its devastating he has to live life with this.
Paranoid schizophrenia is outdated term. It's just schizophrenia. But I'm sorry to hear that.
When I was a teenager, I dated a boy who was older than me. I broke it off because I thought something was really off with him. The way he spoke was always violent.
Many years later, as an adult, I found out he walked into someone's home and was found dead, and he stabbed (horrifically) two females in the house.
I found out through a friend before seeing it on the news that night.
Those poor families (on both sides) I felt so sad for them.
😢
My twin brother is schizophrenic and it really is a challenge to try and help someone that denies the truth of their illness I’ve seen it all and I’m very lucky to have saved his life a few times he’s come to reality and accepted and understands now , pretty much like he has recovered . On daily basis it is a challenge for him but with this illness it takes time and I hope everyone else that has a loved one that deals with schizophrenia you are their cure . never give up on them ❤
I have schizophrenia and thankfully it’s not as bad as many and so I can’t watch this video as it sets off a lot of stuff for me but I watch all your videos and I really appreciate you taking the time to cover this ❤
Look up Jerry Marzinsky - his channel is called "Engineering mental sanity".
When I was a kid, pretty much thought I was in a Truman's World situation. The feeling would come and go and eventually stopped after about 19 or so.
There have to be tons of people like that, especially since they made a movie about it!
Thank you for covering this topic in such a respectful manner. Very informative and kudos to the writer for covering nearly everything there is to know about this disorder 👍
Never forget those words of wisdom: "Just because you're paranoid, it doesn't mean they're NOT trying to get you!"
well of course they are, The IRS exists for that reason alone
cornpop was a bad dude
@@realtalunkarku And he ran a bunch of bad boys.
Literally everything you speak about is 110% true. My ex boyfriend would always bring up the CIA, Jesus Christ, aliens, etc. It got so bad that he was convinced he got hacked and completely damaged both of his computers. He was also going through a manic episode due to his bipolar condition since last November. You're dead on with showing no emotion at all during a time you'd expect at least sadness. When his grandma's dog died, he didn't even shed a single tear. He was right there when his grandma decided to put Marley to sleep because of her painful tumors. I cried after I found out but my ex forgot within a day that she was gone for good. You also nailed it with the cannabis. He was smoking pot since he was 16 if not younger. He could live without food, but couldn't go to bed without his weed. I love your videos because you are spot on with EVERYTHING. It's truly sad because it can't be cured... at least for now. At least for a while.
Look up Jerry Marzinsky - his channel is called "Engineering mental sanity".
Violence is rare in Schizophrenia. People with it are more likely to be victims of violence than to commit it and statistically are not any more violent than the general population. Videos like this only serve to perpetuate prejudice against them.
I’ve noticed that in my mid teens I’ve started to develop symptoms of schizophrenia over time and they are getting increasingly worse and sometimes they do get better. I hope that in the future it will turn out to be something else, this sounds like a terrible illness. I notice this voice in my head only when I’m dreaming. It screams at me and it’s unbelievably scary and demonic. I cannot comprehend it or explain it and I can’t describe it. It’s louder than 20 gunshots at the same time.
Research Methylated B vitamins
@@KKing55 Wait, I looked it up and I realized I have a lot of symptoms of poor methylation, should I talk to a doctor about it? If I should would I talk to my primary doctor?
@@averageuser3067 Well, Yes~! But they are not trained in Nutrition and there is no money for pharmacutical testing as it is nutrition and food that can help. A Funtional Medical doctor knows about it, but they don't take insurance. I was on my own, with the Internet, YT, books. I have two copys of the worst methylation gene, so methylate at 30 %. Pretty sick puppy. Was told by docs, "it's all in your head" . Looking back at family history...same thing. I found a methylated B vitamine with all the right things at Swanson's. Activated B-Complex.
But there is Soooo Much more to it than just that. One of my keys I just found after 20 years of Pain. It's Dark Cherry Juice. It works for Gout, which I don't have. But I think my FirboMyalgia is a form of Gout all over my whole body. So it has helped sooooooo much. there are many good functional medical doctors on YT that I follow. It's a Journey and a Life Style change. They are now all over the country. What state are you in.
Prayers to anyone who has dealt with this in any type of way
Kill your son ??
All lies voices biblical ?.right?
I pray for their suffering, it breaks my heart.
My son has been suffering from schizophrenia for 4 years. It's horrendous and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. 😢💔
I’m not diagnosed, and don’t plan on self diagnosing, but damn. I always get emotional watching these videos because I used to have a ton of these symptoms (on and off and changing) 2018-2021, they didn’t stop until my mom died. It’s… weird. I’m not sure why my mom dying would be the thing that made them stop.
Lately I’ve been worried about them coming back, but for now it’s mostly just on and off paranoia (thinking somebody is mad at me, thinking somebody is gonna kill me/somebody else/themself, thinking I’m able to speak telepathically) but I don’t have hallucinations atm which is good. I used to, mostly visual at night, but I had daytime ones too. Also the feeling ones that feel like spiders crawling all over 😖
I suspect I might also have olfactory ones, but it might just be normal scents??? It’s hard to tell, sometimes I feel like I could smell smoke but there isn’t anywhere it’s coming from.
But yeah. I’m hoping to get therapy soon (I’ve never been) and hopefully get stuff sorted out but sadly I’m not sure if it’s an option for me yet, so for now im looking into it again to compare experiences. I don’t know why I felt the need to comment this but. Have it I guess 😅
You answered your own question in regards to your mom. And far as the scents sounds like you have some spiritual gifts you're not aware of such as clair-smelling......
Disregard this universal love clown, go for a diagnosis asap and stay far away from substances, especially psychoactives/psychedelics. Take care
Other than the hallucinations it's all bullcrap this guy is a liar. There's a billion snobs that believe they're chosen to he a prophet or leader and this is a disorder with less than 0.8% of the population, so this guy is spreading a load of misinformation
My entire family shares this illness to usually at least some small degree, it's not always bad, has ups and down like everything else, but it absolutely breaks you in horrifying ways over time without treatment.
If it's not sudden onset, and just the slow creepy uppy type, how are you supposed to know?
Had this for over 4 years between 2009 and 2013. Horrible debilitating illness.
For me, the scariest part is realizing that my friends and family aren’t aware that I’m experiencing these things. I live in the same house with them and they have no idea what’s going on. Sometimes I don’t realize that until it gets really bad, and then there’s the feeling of losing my grip and there being no one there to keep me from slipping. I’ve told them about it before, but they can’t tell when I’m not okay.
Maybe you should tell them how you feel, so they know that you need their help?
@@Silver01SonThat’s exactly the problem. I can’t speak to them when I experience whatever’s going on. Like I can’t find words. It feels like being paralyzed.
@@bunsenn5064 I'm just wondering, can't you just say something simple like, "I need help?" Honestly, I mean you no offense. Just wondering if the direct approach with as few words as possible might help.
@@jabberwocky8021I’ve told them things like “I need to leave” or “I need to be alone”, but they are legitimately dense and pushy people. Even when I try to signal to them that I need to be left alone, that’s not enough for them. They’ll ask what’s going on or why, but I don’t have an answer for them.
When I was younger, I abused psychedelics for a while... And oh boy did it slap me back, lol. It got so bad with delusions, tactile and auditory hallucinations, that a diagnosis of schizophrenia hung above my head (from doctors). It luckily never went that far and eventually reduced itself to hypnagogic hallucinations and eventually none. But that time humbled me.. I have never been the same and I never will. I cannot imagine never ending that nightmare, so all my loving respect goes to those who are unfortunate enough to suffer..
yes. I think only those of us who have had really bad trips have any real clue what they go through
I had a psychosis which held on for 3 Years. I used a lot of different drugs. Now I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder and ptsd. Luckily the hallucinations aren’t to bad. The only problem is that it’s very exhausting. People should never do any kind of psychological drugs. It’s real fucked up.
In my early 20s, I had about 3 months of severe sleep deprivation. I was seeing things that looked like little demons or gargoyles that I knew weren't there. The most severe was when I stepped into my hallway and saw a man I didn't know standing at the other end of the hall clear as day. The only reason I knew it wasn't real is because my dog was beside me and she wasn't freaking out. I called in sick to work right away (a huge cause of the sleep deprivation) and called some friends to tell them what was going on and to check in on me and take me to a doctor if something worse happened. Thankfully, everything improved once I got a decent sleep in but that was absolutely terrifying. I can only imagine how much more terrifying it would be to be trapped in that state. I know that isn't the same as schizophrenia, but it's the closest that I have personally experienced. My heart goes out to people suffering with this horrible mental illness and their loved ones who have to watch the people they care about go through this.
My aunt got this illness. It's so unnerving to see her have an attack. And what's more terrifying is that it's partially genetic and it kinda freak me out when my mom which is her sister is showing mild symptoms.. I'm so scared that I also might have this illness so I always immediately go to a psychologist when I feel something wrong on my psyche..
im 14 years old and was diagnosed with schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder about a year ago. i would see horrifying monsters and animals and sometimes even other people. it all seemed so real to me. i tried drawing them, i tried doing anything i possibly could to get rid of them but they wouldn't go away. any time i would interact with somebody other than my parents i would go into a catatonic state and i would be almost paralyzed. it was a horrible and terrifying experience, but also a really beautiful one. it was like the world around me was beautiful one day and then terrifying the next.
When I was in my 20s, I dated a man with untreated schizophrenia. He had visual and auditory hallucinations daily. He had visitors, ancient beings who followed him around. He knew his diagnosis and knew others couldn't see the visitors, but his paranoia told him the doctors were lying about his hallucinations not being real.
Often I had to ask him if he was talking to me or them. He was never violent and only afraid if he thought the doctors were going to get him since they wanted to implant chips in him.
Sadly his family told him he didn't need any medication so he stopped. Unfortunately he was raised in a abusive cult. He was a friendly, happy chap, almost childlike in ways, too bad he couldn't get the help he so desperately needed.