Amazing video, takes a lot to lay yourself bare in front of such a big audience. I'm sure we can all relate to shitty things we've done to people in the past, there's certain things I still think about and regret but that's what helps us grow and learn to be better human beings.
I actually wanted to thank you, from the bottom of my heart. this is comming from someone that has been fighting against OCD and axiety for many years, and finding that people understands you even tho is so far away makes you realize your not alone, these kind of illnesses make you feel so isolated and tired. and finding this kind of video is really an oasis in the middle of the desert. lots of love from chile Ashley, keep fighting!
You are an angel who has already earned her wings. To not only share your journey with anxiety issues but to look up all of the contact information for virtually everyone who follows you is amazing. You are such a loving, caring person and all of us are so lucky be a part of those you care about.
I love your transparency and everything you stand for. You remind me that it's ok to not be ok. And you start every video by thanking us for coming to spend time with you, but it's our treat. Most of what you said/struggle with I was able to relate to and resonated within me. I'm so grateful for you, your life, and pushing yourself to create the existence of this video. So, Tinglebelle, thank you for coming and giving your time to us.
Conor Riches I second that, I can't keep friends for shit only able to though school and if someone leaves that's it I can't stay in contact with people online either I'm horrible at it, literally "social.exe not found"
You’re amazing! First video I’ve seen of yours! Mental health is a huge part of my life after multiple traumas. Diagnosed with several different things but as you have said it’s not about that. Helping others is my only survival. Not a night without reliving one of them but finding you and some of you’re other ASMR sisters have helped so much in the middle of the night when all I’ve wanted to do was give up. No one truly understands nor is awake to try to help in the middle of the night. So thank you for being one of the ones keeping me here
Tinglebelle please understand that everyone makes mistakes. When you spit in his direction you were somebody different then you are now. Every moment in time you are a different person. Everything in the world has a purpose. When you did that, it taught you to never do it again. If you hadn't done it, it may have been a worse situation if you did it later on, you never know. Ashley and Belle, names aren't anything. Everyone is different in the world so why should names matter more than personalities? A name is something that can be said, heard, written, read, but it can not be felt in the heart--(sort of a reference of a Hellen Keller quote). You are put against challenges because you are strong enough to face them I know this message was very random and I kind of went all over the place, but I love you because what you do as an asmrtist is you help people. Helping people is a wonderful thing. Thank you so much for being who you are ❤️❤️❤️
it takes a lot of courage to open up to complete strangers. I admire your strength and I hope this video reaches many who are struggling. I am not currently struggling with mental health issues but it has inspired me to do my best to help others. Thank You.
It’s 6 years later and I’m still coming back to your channel ❤️ You are still the #1 ASMRTist on this platform. What I miss the most is your openness. The fact that you still thought of that story every single day of your life, that many years later, and that it’s your biggest regret is such a deeply grown individual. I must admit I was shocked to hear you say you think about wanting to look like someone else basically everyday. Ever since I discovered your channel, I’ve always thought that you are one of the most perfect looking people, I’ve ever seen. Just goes to show that self-judgments can be different or warped compared to others Hope you are doing well 💓 I’ll never forget the good times of your channel’s heyday. Id give a lot to go back to the feeling of seeing you had posted a new ASMR video. It brought me so much happiness, and gave us something so real, something to look forward to each week as we all get through the hard days of life 😃
I love you all the more for being so real. Thank you for making this a safe place and for bringing awareness to an issue most of us just want to sweep under the rug. It is my hope that as you bring peace to us that you will speak peace, love, and forgiveness to that part of you that still hurts from the regret made in a single moment. You are not your past. You are a wonderful woman and I feel blessed to be able to get to know you through this format.
You are truly a remarkable woman. Thank you for sharing this, it took some real courage. kudos to you. thank you for making my sleep wonderful everynight.
Omg I think I love you. Not the nudity, but the YOU... behind the blue hair. You are NOT defined by what another "diagnoses" you to be. If I diagnose you to be a tiger, would you go around thinking you're a tiger? What defines us are the things we do in this world for others. And what you did for me, and I'm SURE many others, is... well, you saved me one night. So thank you
thank you for your honesty. i am a carer for my mum who has dementia and alzheimers, my stress levels hence go off the scale as her behaviours are hard tondeal with as i have ocd .your ASMR videos when you do whispers help me enormously to relax. thank you x
you would not believe this, but I have a bump in my nose just like yours! I'm 16, and SUPER insecure about it because people keep pointing it out, but then I watched your videos and noticed you had the same nose as me! And you're GORGEOUS so I was glad that I had a bump in my nose and it's not that bad. So THANK YOU because now I feel so much better!
Thank you Ashley/TingleBelle for sharing these stories with us. I too have an insecurity of my nose as I'm sure many people in the world do and this helped me so much. I also have made mistakes where at the time I didn't have a decent character, but all we can do is grow as humans and you're living proof that life goes on even after our regretful wrong doings.
Thank you so much for this. Last week my brother committed suicide. He was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and chronic panic disorder. If you met him, you would never know the demons he battled. It goes to show that you never know what people are going through. Thank you so much for bringing awareness to this topic
Girl I feel you!! anxiety sucks. it's like feeling like the sky is falling and everything is wrong when the sun is shining and everything should be right. I have generalized anxiety disorder along with some sort of panic disorder and depression. so fun...add in some ADD and I'm not sure which one to feel when, because it always changes.
Awww, you're such a lovely and sweet person. Please don't beat yourself up too much, we all make mistakes and it shows the type of person that you are that you can admit it and you're very sorry. I really think you are such a genuine, kind person and I love to watch you grow. You're wonderful x
Beautiful soul. It takes a lot of courage and maturity to be as open and honest as you've been in this video. The beauty is that you've helped others and yourself, by sharing. What I took away is that we are all human. Nobody is truly "better than" or "worse than" anyone else. We are all in this (life experience) together. And that beneath all mental conditioning and the things that we may do to each other, we are all good people. We do the best we can.
Awe Tinglebell, I love this video. You have shared a very deep and sensual part of yourself which was vulnerability. Everyone who is human goes thru a point in their lives where they sometimes would like to reject or even erase misconduct from their journey. The fact that you mentioned how you would often look at other people and desire to be them. Whilst they'd do the same to you. Oh my God, I was doing that even when watching your videos! You are a very beautiful woman, who is truly intelligent. Your voice is amazing and your empathy for your peers is a natural reaction, that lets us know you are humble. God has blessed you with many talents and I hope you stay strong for your family. Because you are a invincible soul! Thank you for sharing your testimony! Keep us updated and much respect to you!🤗😇❤️❤️❤️❤️✌🏾️
that bit at the end "you're okay" I'm crying. there has been so many times I've needed someone to be there and say that sort of thing to me and I never knew until now xox
TingleBelleASMR , whatever you do, don't bring your children into your ASMR/UA-cam world. You are their mother and you owe it to them to keep them safe from all the cranks out there. I have no doubt that you are extremely proud of them and want to show them off, but please save that for your friends/relatives in the real world - people you know and trust. Thank you for making this video as it gives us an insight into the real you, and please carry on making your wonderful ASMR videos as you have a very soothing whisper voice xx
I personally don't know what to say to this comment or whether to like or dislike. I mean yea you should protect you children from the online world and protecting them from the horrors of the internet but you should also let them at least acknowledge the issue as to create an immunity to this world they live in. treat it like the immune system an shots, with shots you get injected with small amounts of the disease so your immune can learn and adapt to this new change. What I am basically saying is show them this kind of stuff but on a very controlled level.
Your videos are very soothing and you seem like a genuinely warm and thoughtful person. We all have things we have done that we regret but they do not define us. I believe that all should be evaluated on the entirety (or at least a large sample) of their life not a single moment. Please take care of yourself and know that you provide comfort for your many UA-cam followers.
Thank you so much for exposing yourself in such a beautifully raw way. I was an awful person for a [longer] moment in my life too. I hurt someone I loved with all my heart. Years after I still think about it every day too. So thank you for taking the time to tell your story to say "me too." Guilt is one of the hardest emotions to deal with.
This really helped me. I don't suffer from anything, but I am definitely insecure. Your story about your insecurities really hit home. Thank you for opening up, it just proves no matter how happy you look, people go through a lot of the same problems as everyone.
I've just come across this video from you and wanted to say thank you and that I respect you so much for sharing all that. It helps so many people to hear that someone that they watch on a public platform goes through difficulties like this on the inside. Lots of love to you!
I've watched asmr videos for a few years now but never commented on a video. ASMR has helped me deal with anxiety and /or depression issues in the past and present. But I really wanted to say thanks for being so real with us. Coming from someone who's been in a hard place lately, you really made me feel better. And, normal. Understood, even. I just feel like it's so so important that we as a society need to start normalizing mental health disorders. Everyone goes through shit. We all need someone to talk to sometimes. Emotions and stress and anxiety are normal things that all humans experience. So thanks again for taking a moment to be honest and vulnerable with us, because I know that personally, I needed to know that there are others out there every day that feel just as insecure as I do sometimes. ❤️
Please remember how good of a person you are, bringing joy to millions through this channel. You are beautiful and have a great character. Remember this, when you feel down.
Thank you for another wonderful video. It was nice getting to know you just a little more and also just hearing your soothing voice at a time when I really needed it. Anxiety has been getting the best of me lately, so I needed some reminding that I'm going to be alright in the end. I really hope your old friend is watching this so they know how it has affected you even today. At the same time I'm sorry that you still have that stuck in the back of your mind. Try to remind yourself that in the end it's the lessons you learn that make you a better person, Ashley. And I hope you know that you are going to be okay, too. We will always be here to watch your videos and appreciate your company.
Good Day Ashley.. No doubt you sharing what you have took great courage so well done girl. i hope it brings you more ease, confidence and joy into your life just as you hope it will allow others who are struggling to know they can overcome their pain, in whatever form it takes. From my own exp being hard on yourself is the biggest struggle, every step forward can so easily be overturned with a simple thought.. such as i cant or i never will/be etc. I think you will grow immensely having shared this and the goodness from your intent of the message is all that is, and so i feel it will be recoginsed by many of those who need it. Much gratitude to you! ☺
I totally believe that you think about the spitting thing every day. I have one moment from years ago that i too, think of every single day. We have to make ammends for these actions, if not directly, then by living a kinder life everyday. What you did with this video is part of healing, and by sharing your story, you help others heal. By saying that you did this, you made me feel like im not just a horrible person, that we all make mistakes we would like to take back. Thank you!
We don't care whats wrong with you, we love u for who u are. Don't be afraid to show your true self. Btw your the only reason I sleep at night. Thank You!!!!
You are incredibly courageous and amazing to share yourself and be so vulnerable with your viewers. I am in awe. I just wanted to give you a hug and thank you for sharing, for being so honest and caring and encouraging us all with warmth and love. Thank you Belle and know that your love is returned upon you, truly.
I too suffered with anxiety on a level that put me into deep depression. I have been going through a divorce and knew I had a choice to change my life. Meditation has changed my life. I have very little anxiety if at all now and in the midst of a divorce I am the happiest person I have ever been and know it will always be this way. Medication is the healthcare systems answer to treat the symptoms instead of the cause all for the greed of money. My anxiety was so bad I couldn't leave the house or even talk to people I didn't know. Now I am changing careers and actually talking to strangers for a living. Meditation not medication!! Wish you the best!
I'm hugging you virtually! Takes some serious balls to do what you did, thank you ever so much. You've really made me think and reflect and I hope you got something positive from this as well.
I think that you are a real, honest, good person. God bless you, you seem like an extremely authentic human being. You have courage and I admire that. Thank you for sharing, I really respect you.
I suffered from depression for 5 years now... Sometimes it's worse and sometimes it's better. Over the years I grew an anxiety up to were it's started to be bad for my physical health which is already effected by my depression coz im already chronically ill. Also this year effed up everything and I started purging coz u keep losing control. Im very stressed coz I work in the hospital as a nurse. So yeah... I'm. Not. Good. Pls stay healthy guys and care for each other. This pandemic is quite the challenge.. Physically and mentally
I've been having a rough few months in terms of mental health, and it's felt like the depression and hopelessness have been building and building in such an overwhelming way that I've just felt like I'm suffocating. This video helped me feel less alone. I don't know how to properly thank you for that, or if it's even appropriate to thank an internet personality, but I want you to know that you helped me a lot. Keep doing what you do.
I normally just listen to your videos to relax and help me sleep, but I sat here and watched the whole thing because I thought it was important to. I just want to say thank you for being so open and I thought it was really courageous putting yourself out there like that.
I admire your bravery, honesty, and openness to share so much of yourself. I could never have done this, not that anyone would be the least bit interested. Bravo!
I never comment in your videos because I know I'll me ignored but this time I'll do it. I just want you to say thank you for sharing your story and letting us see who the real TingleBelleASMR is, without using a mask in front of the camera. You told us that someone will always be there to listen to us and it's good to let you know that you can count on the people who follow you to find support whenever you need it. Thank you for everything and helping me to deal with my anxiety with your videos. (sorry for my English. I'm not even an english-speaker)
Thank you for being willing to share your story. So many related thoughts are running around in my head now. I'll pick this to share with you... Let yourself off the hook for the social mistake you made in HS. We all do/have done things we later reflect upon and link to the bottom of our barrel. Usually, we don't even understand the nuances of why we behaved the way we did, or did the thing we did. Thinking about it every day is actually good (and can even be grounding in a way) if you can let the regret and embarrassment parts go. Making mistakes, even horrifying ones, is how we give ourselves the ability to learn and grow. I'm sure you've been a nicer, more tolerant, more respectful person every day since that day, exactly because you realized you didn't want to be that person you saw in yourself that day so long ago. Fail falling forward instead of backward -> Live, learn, grow, love. I respect you for sharing this video with us all. 🙂
You are a wonderful person. Ignore those people. You are brave for opening yourself up. Your children are very lucky to have a wonderful Mom. I enjoy what you do so I hope you continue.
I relate to this video a lot, wow you actually put this into words. I have A LOT... A LOT of mental disorders and I get this. Like you said, family members/friends always say u can talk to them but they aren't really listening because they don't understand... it's a lot to go through...
I want to sincerely thank you for sharing. I can't seem to find the words but I just really appreciate knowing that other people have gone through the same issues as me & have gotten through it. I don't know, but really, thanks, man
I just found these asmr videos for relaxing and sleeping and omgoshhhh I love these videos it instantly relaxes me and makes me sleepy! I'm so putting your channel on when I go to sleep!
I'm just a stranger but listening to your struggle in this video, I feel your pain. I went thru a similar struggle and took medications in the past. Switching to a keytogenic diet has removed/helped with all my ills. I no longer need medications. It worked for me, and it's free!
I love this ✨ thank you for opening up and showing us your inner soul. I think it's really powerful that you've made this, I loved it. It's really inspiring to know that other people also feel the same things I do sometimes. Keep doing what you're doing girl. You're beautiful! Thank you for this vid xx
We've all done things we regret. Important part is You apologized and you guys continued to be friends. The past is a funny thing but we gotta keep it moving. Vid was so real. Thanks belle, we love you.
the more people have these open discussions, as hard as they are to have, the more it reduces stigma and allows people to feel less alone. so thank you. sending love
I really love this video thankyou. I had some really ordinary life experiences some of my own fruition and others from being bullied. From my early thirties onwards I have lived with the daily mantra its far easier to be kind than it is to be nasty. Its so true and I try and do an act of kindness for a stranger atleast three times a week. Ive instilled these qualities into my three gorgeous children too. Be proud of the good things you do too and try not to dwell on your mistakes. Im quite certain he has long forgotten your spitting and the moment you apologised shows your true love and empathy towards him as your friend. Those who are never unaccountable for their evil ways are the ones who should carry guilt. Sending you love from Australia. Melanie. Xoxo 😊
I wish there was more awareness of ODC, people know roughly what it is but it's sooo much more. I suffer from it and when I tell people I have the disorder, they think it means I like to keep things clean/neat.
It's amazing to learn what lies beneath. You are a very beautiful woman - physically and emotionally. And you seem to have a great life too. It is very courageous to open yourself up as you have - and it is helping other people to realise that no one has a perfect life and when we compare ourselves to other people and desire what they have - we only feel bereft of our own sense of self and worthiness. I believe you were forgiven long ago for your 'out of body experience' and that the person who was there must have realised that was not truly you in that moment.
Love love this video!! Everything was so well said and I think it is so important that someone uses this platform for spreading awareness for mental health
Thanks so much for sharing this. It was brave, and I think it could definitely make a difference. I was, just this week, ironically, diagnosed with PPD. I have four kids and never experienced this with my first three, so this is all very new and scary to me. But I'm trying to push on and feeling like people care, like you, really helps. You're a kind soul.
I know that feel... Well... Almost. When i camed to high school, i thought that i have to lie about me, 'cause nobody liked me when i was young... Even my family, and i thought that if i will lie to them, they maybe accept me... But after year, they found out the truth, and they all left me... So i said that if i tell them the truth, i will not make it whorse and when i get balls to told them everything... They comed back... And i dont understand... Why would someone want a broken liar in his life? Its about 2 months ago when i confess to them, and they looking like they forgiven all... But i dont know how... So, to people who ever done this... Dont lie... It will hurt you and everybody you lied to... Every one of you is special... Noone need to be perfect... People will still love you... Just, like Ashley (Hope i didnt screw up name cuz my english is bad) but anyway like she said, be a good person... Always... Its a good feeling.
You are beautiful without your makeup and thank you for sharing your story. We've all had things we're not proud of but it shapes and molds who we become and while it was a truly undesirable thing that happened with your friend, positives came from it. It was really nice for you to talk as you did with the confidence you had.
💚💜❤️💙💛 Thank you for sharing YOUR story. It took so much bravery & honesty to open ALL the way up the way you did. I have loved you and your videos and this does NOTHING but make me love, honor & respect you that much more. I wish for you all the BLESSINGS God has for you!! Have a wonderful Mother's Day & again... THANK YOU! 😉
I have been living with depression and anxiety for 12 years now,I think?and I never told anyone about it. It accompanied me through junior high,senior high and college.. I think I have accept it,and addicted to the loneliness it brought me,willing to let it destroy me.
Jaime Lannister See the best solution is to not tell people over the internet tell your family and friends how your feeling otherwise you’ll get people like me saying fuck off
This was so kind of you to share and I know you don't need anyone's opinion but I think you deserve to forgive yourself for your one mistake from high school. you deserve to feel okay about the situation and it's not fair to yourself or your well being to be so upset about it. Things have gone amazing for him and you deserve to feel amazing as well
I have been a fan of your asmr videos for a long time. It was bold of you to put up this video although it was not necessary. I was troubled to see that coloured hair, but after a while I said thank God she still has her original hair. I love you as you are and your awesome videos. Keep doing the great work for all the people out there like me. May God help you in your difficult times.
Belle, I just wanted to add that in Australia, a national hotline for support/someone to talk to is Lifeline 13 11 14. The number you quoted I believe is just for one state here...although I would expect that if you called it from anywhere in Australia you would still be able to talk to someone. Just thought I'd chuck this though for good measure. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable for those who need to know they are not alone. Remember there are always people out there who may not necessarily have 'problems' themselves but who still care, who want to help, and who have the training to provide that help. Sending lots of love to everyone out there x
Hi Ashley! I'm so proud of you for making this video. I also have anxiety. I hope that one day you forgive yourself, wholly, because grace is a beautiful thing. Not one person in this world hasn't fallen and we need grace. I hope that one day you can truly let go and love that piece of you again... to know that your old friend would probably feel the same. Xoxo
Arg now i have to comment. You probably wont know what these kinds of vids can do for people. It can make this little beautiful speck of hope and even a sence of peace. I have struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. Its silent and invisible. But there is hope and there are people who care so much. I know your not perfect or even close to it...but i can see the good in you. Thank you for this video. Humanity is at its best stripped down bare. When all the bullshit is set aside. This world would be a better place with a lot more of that. Oh and keep the nose. Its a fucking awesome nose dude.
The phone numbers were so thoughtful and thank you for reaching out and providing understanding with your experience. This was such a brave idea for a video and you completely nailed it ❤️
We all have done things we aren't proud of. You have the courage to admit you did something bad and that shows that what you did wasn't something that defines you as a person. We daily forgive other people's actions and we have to do that for ourselves. You have to forgive you in order to move on.
You do not have a weird nose. My wife had the same issue and I loved it because it is uniquely her. She had it removed but I miss it now. You are beautiful.
You are okay too ❤️ Sometimes the hardest person to forgive is ourself. Remember that we all have been doing shitty stuff, and hurt the people we love. We are humans. You are a really brave person. The world would be so much bettet if people where more vulnerable. Thank you so much! Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
I have the same diagnosis as tons of others, your not alone and doing well, keep your head up. I love your nose, so pretty. Its what makes you so beautiful.
Thanx for making this video. I liked what you did with the stripping down, it's very symbolic. Love your nose too! Your story is interesting, I can relate to some of it. What I don't like about this format is I couldn't help but want to actually talk to you! So weird and yet, I think that is natural as you are sharing something really raw and personal! Very thought provoking. Cheers from Australia!
What a beautiful soul you have and your beautiful on the outside as well. Your nose is part of what makes you...you and there's NOTHING wrong with it. We are our own worst critics, always remember that. We see flaws in ourselves that others don't see or maybe they see but don't see as the huge deal we make them out to be. I commented on another one of your videos a while back.....I think it was the "mean tweets" video......I said I had not even noticed your tooth and I'm being 100% honest I had not even noticed it nor have I noticed the bump in your nose until you pointed it out. All I saw in you was a very beautiful women with a big heart, a kind soul and a willingness to make others feel good. Your amazing Ashley :) and I bet there are 2 mini me that think the exact same thing. They see the real you everyday and they love you unconditionally. Thank you for this video. I thought you were great before this video but now I think even more of you :)
I never comment on youtube but I'm bowled over by your courage, your honesty, your vulnerability, your beautiful face both with and without make-up. You're my hero right now and I really understand what is behind this video. Those who feel uncomfortable with it - that is their problem. Thanks so much for sharing
What I understood is sometimes you gotta be fake to get what you want for example keeping your job and going home with your dignity at the same time isn't common.
Thanks for sharing some honest self criticism and personal factors, but I would suggest that you are taking a significant risk, as you have alluded. Sadly, there are folks watching YT channels that are so insecure in themselves that they are compelled to impose themselves in a negative fashion upon others, and your exposing personal details about yourself aids them in this effort. Each of us as humans has personality and/or physical traits that we would rather not have, and they can be a source of emotional pain. Most of us [ sadly not everyone ] learns that there are people in our lives that love us and respect us in spite of these things, and we learn to love them as well. In our emotional growth we learn that there are more important things that define us. You have a kind heart, and a wonderful family. None of us can change that which has occurred, we can only commit ourselves to improve ourselves, through understanding our faults. Take care of yourself and your family, continue to do well by others, these things will come back to you. God Bless.
Amazing video, takes a lot to lay yourself bare in front of such a big audience. I'm sure we can all relate to shitty things we've done to people in the past, there's certain things I still think about and regret but that's what helps us grow and learn to be better human beings.
I actually wanted to thank you, from the bottom of my heart. this is comming from someone that has been fighting against OCD and axiety for many years, and finding that people understands you even tho is so far away makes you realize your not alone, these kind of illnesses make you feel so isolated and tired. and finding this kind of video is really an oasis in the middle of the desert. lots of love from chile Ashley, keep fighting!
You are an angel who has already earned her wings. To not only share your journey with anxiety issues but to look up all of the contact information for virtually everyone who follows you is amazing. You are such a loving, caring person and all of us are so lucky be a part of those you care about.
I love your transparency and everything you stand for. You remind me that it's ok to not be ok. And you start every video by thanking us for coming to spend time with you, but it's our treat. Most of what you said/struggle with I was able to relate to and resonated within me. I'm so grateful for you, your life, and pushing yourself to create the existence of this video. So, Tinglebelle, thank you for coming and giving your time to us.
I have Autism and everyday can be a struggle especially reading and communicating with others but I always stay strong and carry on
Conor Riches I second that, I can't keep friends for shit only able to though school and if someone leaves that's it I can't stay in contact with people online either I'm horrible at it,
literally "social.exe not found"
QuebeC VR I feel ya bro it's shite
Conor Riches my brother has autism. Stay strong! :)
I got autism too sucks bro when you tryina be a kool person and come off cringy for some reason
I have ass burgers
Wow queen
You’re amazing! First video I’ve seen of yours! Mental health is a huge part of my life after multiple traumas. Diagnosed with several different things but as you have said it’s not about that. Helping others is my only survival. Not a night without reliving one of them but finding you and some of you’re other ASMR sisters have helped so much in the middle of the night when all I’ve wanted to do was give up. No one truly understands nor is awake to try to help in the middle of the night. So thank you for being one of the ones keeping me here
Tinglebelle please understand that everyone makes mistakes. When you spit in his direction you were somebody different then you are now. Every moment in time you are a different person. Everything in the world has a purpose. When you did that, it taught you to never do it again. If you hadn't done it, it may have been a worse situation if you did it later on, you never know. Ashley and Belle, names aren't anything. Everyone is different in the world so why should names matter more than personalities? A name is something that can be said, heard, written, read, but it can not be felt in the heart--(sort of a reference of a Hellen Keller quote). You are put against challenges because you are strong enough to face them
I know this message was very random and I kind of went all over the place, but I love you because what you do as an asmrtist is you help people. Helping people is a wonderful thing. Thank you so much for being who you are ❤️❤️❤️
Happ P. Lay Dee
Aw, that's a sweet comment for Tinglebelle / Ashley. I hope she's doing well and enjoying life a little more.
Happ P. Lay Dee I'm not sure I could have stated it better. thank you for your kindness.
Rachel Parker I thought her name was Belle
F*ck the people who hate on your life, you do you tinglebelle and don't let anybody tell you otherwise!
DOGE™ *says doge*
it takes a lot of courage to open up to complete strangers. I admire your strength and I hope this video reaches many who are struggling. I am not currently struggling with mental health issues but it has inspired me to do my best to help others. Thank You.
It’s 6 years later and I’m still coming back to your channel ❤️ You are still the #1 ASMRTist on this platform.
What I miss the most is your openness. The fact that you still thought of that story every single day of your life, that many years later, and that it’s your biggest regret is such a deeply grown individual.
I must admit I was shocked to hear you say you think about wanting to look like someone else basically everyday. Ever since I discovered your channel, I’ve always thought that you are one of the most perfect looking people, I’ve ever seen. Just goes to show that self-judgments can be different or warped compared to others
Hope you are doing well 💓 I’ll never forget the good times of your channel’s heyday.
Id give a lot to go back to the feeling of seeing you had posted a new ASMR video. It brought me so much happiness, and gave us something so real, something to look forward to each week as we all get through the hard days of life 😃
I love you all the more for being so real. Thank you for making this a safe place and for bringing awareness to an issue most of us just want to sweep under the rug. It is my hope that as you bring peace to us that you will speak peace, love, and forgiveness to that part of you that still hurts from the regret made in a single moment. You are not your past. You are a wonderful woman and I feel blessed to be able to get to know you through this format.
You are truly a remarkable woman. Thank you for sharing this, it took some real courage. kudos to you. thank you for making my sleep wonderful everynight.
Omg I think I love you. Not the nudity, but the YOU... behind the blue hair. You are NOT defined by what another "diagnoses" you to be. If I diagnose you to be a tiger, would you go around thinking you're a tiger? What defines us are the things we do in this world for others. And what you did for me, and I'm SURE many others, is... well, you saved me one night. So thank you
thank you for your honesty. i am a carer for my mum who has dementia and alzheimers, my stress levels hence go off the scale as her behaviours are hard tondeal with as i have ocd .your ASMR videos when you do whispers help me enormously to relax. thank you x
you would not believe this, but I have a bump in my nose just like yours! I'm 16, and SUPER insecure about it because people keep pointing it out, but then I watched your videos and noticed you had the same nose as me! And you're GORGEOUS so I was glad that I had a bump in my nose and it's not that bad. So THANK YOU because now I feel so much better!
Megan Hammelman my nose looks like a fucking hockey ouch hit the bridge but it’s aight cause it works 😂
Thank you Ashley/TingleBelle for sharing these stories with us. I too have an insecurity of my nose as I'm sure many people in the world do and this helped me so much. I also have made mistakes where at the time I didn't have a decent character, but all we can do is grow as humans and you're living proof that life goes on even after our regretful wrong doings.
Thank you so much for this. Last week my brother committed suicide. He was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and chronic panic disorder. If you met him, you would never know the demons he battled. It goes to show that you never know what people are going through. Thank you so much for bringing awareness to this topic
James LaLone man that sucks
I'm so sorry for your loss... stay strong....
Demons? Sounds stressing and depressing
Girl I feel you!! anxiety sucks. it's like feeling like the sky is falling and everything is wrong when the sun is shining and everything should be right. I have generalized anxiety disorder along with some sort of panic disorder and depression. so fun...add in some ADD and I'm not sure which one to feel when, because it always changes.
Awww, you're such a lovely and sweet person. Please don't beat yourself up too much, we all make mistakes and it shows the type of person that you are that you can admit it and you're very sorry. I really think you are such a genuine, kind person and I love to watch you grow. You're wonderful x
Beautiful soul. It takes a lot of courage and maturity to be as open and honest as you've been in this video.
The beauty is that you've helped others and yourself, by sharing.
What I took away is that we are all human. Nobody is truly "better than" or "worse than" anyone else. We are all in this (life experience) together. And that beneath all mental conditioning and the things that we may do to each other, we are all good people. We do the best we can.
Awe Tinglebell, I love this video. You have shared a very deep and sensual part of yourself which was vulnerability. Everyone who is human goes thru a point in their lives where they sometimes would like to reject or even erase misconduct from their journey. The fact that you mentioned how you would often look at other people and desire to be them. Whilst they'd do the same to you. Oh my God, I was doing that even when watching your videos! You are a very beautiful woman, who is truly intelligent. Your voice is amazing and your empathy for your peers is a natural reaction, that lets us know you are humble. God has blessed you with many talents and I hope you stay strong for your family. Because you are a invincible soul! Thank you for sharing your testimony! Keep us updated and much respect to you!🤗😇❤️❤️❤️❤️✌🏾️
that bit at the end "you're okay" I'm crying. there has been so many times I've needed someone to be there and say that sort of thing to me and I never knew until now xox
TingleBelleASMR , whatever you do, don't bring your children into your ASMR/UA-cam world. You are their mother and you owe it to them to keep them safe from all the cranks out there. I have no doubt that you are extremely proud of them and want to show them off, but please save that for your friends/relatives in the real world - people you know and trust. Thank you for making this video as it gives us an insight into the real you, and please carry on making your wonderful ASMR videos as you have a very soothing whisper voice xx
I personally don't know what to say to this comment or whether to like or dislike. I mean yea you should protect you children from the online world and protecting them from the horrors of the internet but you should also let them at least acknowledge the issue as to create an immunity to this world they live in. treat it like the immune system an shots, with shots you get injected with small amounts of the disease so your immune can learn and adapt to this new change. What I am basically saying is show them this kind of stuff but on a very controlled level.
but I will like it for the support of the idea although unrefined.
This comment now just reading it is such an amazing point
Your videos are very soothing and you seem like a genuinely warm and thoughtful person. We all have things we have done that we regret but they do not define us. I believe that all should be evaluated on the entirety (or at least a large sample) of their life not a single moment. Please take care of yourself and know that you provide comfort for your many UA-cam followers.
Thank you so much for exposing yourself in such a beautifully raw way. I was an awful person for a [longer] moment in my life too. I hurt someone I loved with all my heart. Years after I still think about it every day too. So thank you for taking the time to tell your story to say "me too." Guilt is one of the hardest emotions to deal with.
This really helped me. I don't suffer from anything, but I am definitely insecure. Your story about your insecurities really hit home. Thank you for opening up, it just proves no matter how happy you look, people go through a lot of the same problems as everyone.
I've just come across this video from you and wanted to say thank you and that I respect you so much for sharing all that. It helps so many people to hear that someone that they watch on a public platform goes through difficulties like this on the inside. Lots of love to you!
I've watched asmr videos for a few years now but never commented on a video. ASMR has helped me deal with anxiety and /or depression issues in the past and present. But I really wanted to say thanks for being so real with us. Coming from someone who's been in a hard place lately, you really made me feel better. And, normal. Understood, even. I just feel like it's so so important that we as a society need to start normalizing mental health disorders. Everyone goes through shit. We all need someone to talk to sometimes. Emotions and stress and anxiety are normal things that all humans experience. So thanks again for taking a moment to be honest and vulnerable with us, because I know that personally, I needed to know that there are others out there every day that feel just as insecure as I do sometimes. ❤️
Please remember how good of a person you are, bringing joy to millions through this channel. You are beautiful and have a great character. Remember this, when you feel down.
Thank you for another wonderful video. It was nice getting to know you just a little more and also just hearing your soothing voice at a time when I really needed it. Anxiety has been getting the best of me lately, so I needed some reminding that I'm going to be alright in the end. I really hope your old friend is watching this so they know how it has affected you even today. At the same time I'm sorry that you still have that stuck in the back of your mind. Try to remind yourself that in the end it's the lessons you learn that make you a better person, Ashley. And I hope you know that you are going to be okay, too. We will always be here to watch your videos and appreciate your company.
Good Day Ashley.. No doubt you sharing what you have took great courage so well done girl. i hope it brings you more ease, confidence and joy into your life just as you hope it will allow others who are struggling to know they can overcome their pain, in whatever form it takes. From my own exp being hard on yourself is the biggest struggle, every step forward can so easily be overturned with a simple thought.. such as i cant or i never will/be etc. I think you will grow immensely having shared this and the goodness from your intent of the message is all that is, and so i feel it will be recoginsed by many of those who need it. Much gratitude to you! ☺
I totally believe that you think about the spitting thing every day. I have one moment from years ago that i too, think of every single day. We have to make ammends for these actions, if not directly, then by living a kinder life everyday. What you did with this video is part of healing, and by sharing your story, you help others heal. By saying that you did this, you made me feel like im not just a horrible person, that we all make mistakes we would like to take back. Thank you!
We don't care whats wrong with you, we love u for who u are. Don't be afraid to show your true self. Btw your the only reason I sleep at night. Thank You!!!!
You are incredibly courageous and amazing to share yourself and be so vulnerable with your viewers. I am in awe. I just wanted to give you a hug and thank you for sharing, for being so honest and caring and encouraging us all with warmth and love. Thank you Belle and know that your love is returned upon you, truly.
This resonated with me... Incredibly and sincerely profound. For those of us going through a difficult time especially.. Ty😪
I too suffered with anxiety on a level that put me into deep depression. I have been going through a divorce and knew I had a choice to change my life. Meditation has changed my life. I have very little anxiety if at all now and in the midst of a divorce I am the happiest person I have ever been and know it will always be this way. Medication is the healthcare systems answer to treat the symptoms instead of the cause all for the greed of money. My anxiety was so bad I couldn't leave the house or even talk to people I didn't know. Now I am changing careers and actually talking to strangers for a living. Meditation not medication!! Wish you the best!
This must have took lots of courage to talk about. Honestly it is so inspiring, you should really be proud of yourself - all of us viewers are!
I'm hugging you virtually! Takes some serious balls to do what you did, thank you ever so much. You've really made me think and reflect and I hope you got something positive from this as well.
I think that you are a real, honest, good person. God bless you, you seem like an extremely authentic human being. You have courage and I admire that. Thank you for sharing, I really respect you.
I suffered from depression for 5 years now... Sometimes it's worse and sometimes it's better.
Over the years I grew an anxiety up to were it's started to be bad for my physical health which is already effected by my depression coz im already chronically ill.
Also this year effed up everything and I started purging coz u keep losing control. Im very stressed coz I work in the hospital as a nurse. So yeah... I'm. Not. Good.
Pls stay healthy guys and care for each other.
This pandemic is quite the challenge.. Physically and mentally
It's a pleasure to meet you Ashley. Thank you for sharing this with us, I know how hard this can be. Stay strong :)
Ive never been able to watch a asmr video for all 30+mins, but omg ur voice and whispering is so soothing i wanna keep watching and listining
I've been having a rough few months in terms of mental health, and it's felt like the depression and hopelessness have been building and building in such an overwhelming way that I've just felt like I'm suffocating. This video helped me feel less alone. I don't know how to properly thank you for that, or if it's even appropriate to thank an internet personality, but I want you to know that you helped me a lot. Keep doing what you do.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with the way you appear. Everything about you is beautiful. This is a very courageous video. God bless you.
I normally just listen to your videos to relax and help me sleep, but I sat here and watched the whole thing because I thought it was important to. I just want to say thank you for being so open and I thought it was really courageous putting yourself out there like that.
I admire your bravery, honesty, and openness to share so much of yourself. I could never have done this, not that anyone would be the least bit interested. Bravo!
I never comment in your videos because I know I'll me ignored but this time I'll do it.
I just want you to say thank you for sharing your story and letting us see who the real TingleBelleASMR is, without using a mask in front of the camera. You told us that someone will always be there to listen to us and it's good to let you know that you can count on the people who follow you to find support whenever you need it. Thank you for everything and helping me to deal with my anxiety with your videos.
(sorry for my English. I'm not even an english-speaker)
Got a little deep.. i like it when people are real.. good job and thank you
Thank you for being willing to share your story. So many related thoughts are running around in my head now. I'll pick this to share with you... Let yourself off the hook for the social mistake you made in HS. We all do/have done things we later reflect upon and link to the bottom of our barrel. Usually, we don't even understand the nuances of why we behaved the way we did, or did the thing we did. Thinking about it every day is actually good (and can even be grounding in a way) if you can let the regret and embarrassment parts go. Making mistakes, even horrifying ones, is how we give ourselves the ability to learn and grow. I'm sure you've been a nicer, more tolerant, more respectful person every day since that day, exactly because you realized you didn't want to be that person you saw in yourself that day so long ago. Fail falling forward instead of backward -> Live, learn, grow, love. I respect you for sharing this video with us all. 🙂
This is why I love you. Thank you so much for everything you've done and are doing.
You are a wonderful person. Ignore those people. You are brave for opening yourself up. Your children are very lucky to have a wonderful Mom. I enjoy what you do so I hope you continue.
I relate to this video a lot, wow you actually put this into words. I have A LOT... A LOT of mental disorders and I get this. Like you said, family members/friends always say u can talk to them but they aren't really listening because they don't understand... it's a lot to go through...
I want to sincerely thank you for sharing. I can't seem to find the words but I just really appreciate knowing that other people have gone through the same issues as me & have gotten through it. I don't know, but really, thanks, man
This video is one of the most touching and gorgeous things i've ever watched. I was literally crying in the end. Thank you so much💕
I just found these asmr videos for relaxing and sleeping and omgoshhhh I love these videos it instantly relaxes me and makes me sleepy! I'm so putting your channel on when I go to sleep!
I'm just a stranger but listening to your struggle in this video, I feel your pain. I went thru a similar struggle and took medications in the past. Switching to a keytogenic diet has removed/helped with all my ills. I no longer need medications. It worked for me, and it's free!
I love this ✨ thank you for opening up and showing us your inner soul. I think it's really powerful that you've made this, I loved it. It's really inspiring to know that other people also feel the same things I do sometimes. Keep doing what you're doing girl. You're beautiful! Thank you for this vid xx
We've all done things we regret. Important part is You apologized and you guys continued to be friends. The past is a funny thing but we gotta keep it moving. Vid was so real. Thanks belle, we love you.
I am ok. You are ok. We are all okay. Thank you so much for making this. I'm certain you have helped many, including myself.
the more people have these open discussions, as hard as they are to have, the more it reduces stigma and allows people to feel less alone. so thank you. sending love
I really love this video thankyou. I had some really ordinary life experiences some of my own fruition and others from being bullied. From my early thirties onwards I have lived with the daily mantra its far easier to be kind than it is to be nasty. Its so true and I try and do an act of kindness for a stranger atleast three times a week. Ive instilled these qualities into my three gorgeous children too. Be proud of the good things you do too and try not to dwell on your mistakes. Im quite certain he has long forgotten your spitting and the moment you apologised shows your true love and empathy towards him as your friend. Those who are never unaccountable for their evil ways are the ones who should carry guilt. Sending you love from Australia. Melanie. Xoxo 😊
I wish there was more awareness of ODC, people know roughly what it is but it's sooo much more. I suffer from it and when I tell people I have the disorder, they think it means I like to keep things clean/neat.
+GameWare I agree. There's a lot of misconception that comes with OCD. It is a very tough thing to live with. 💕 love to you
It's amazing to learn what lies beneath. You are a very beautiful woman - physically and emotionally. And you seem to have a great life too. It is very courageous to open yourself up as you have - and it is helping other people to realise that no one has a perfect life and when we compare ourselves to other people and desire what they have - we only feel bereft of our own sense of self and worthiness. I believe you were forgiven long ago for your 'out of body experience' and that the person who was there must have realised that was not truly you in that moment.
You are beautiful and innocent. Please don't let any of this affect your uploads because you are so strong. ❤️❤️
Love love this video!! Everything was so well said and I think it is so important that someone uses this platform for spreading awareness for mental health
Thanks so much for sharing this. It was brave, and I think it could definitely make a difference. I was, just this week, ironically, diagnosed with PPD. I have four kids and never experienced this with my first three, so this is all very new and scary to me. But I'm trying to push on and feeling like people care, like you, really helps. You're a kind soul.
Huge respect. Your videos mean a world to some of us. Please keep doing what you do. Thankyou.
I know that feel... Well... Almost.
When i camed to high school, i thought that i have to lie about me, 'cause nobody liked me when i was young... Even my family, and i thought that if i will lie to them, they maybe accept me... But after year, they found out the truth, and they all left me... So i said that if i tell them the truth, i will not make it whorse and when i get balls to told them everything... They comed back... And i dont understand... Why would someone want a broken liar in his life? Its about 2 months ago when i confess to them, and they looking like they forgiven all... But i dont know how...
So, to people who ever done this... Dont lie... It will hurt you and everybody you lied to... Every one of you is special... Noone need to be perfect... People will still love you... Just, like Ashley (Hope i didnt screw up name cuz my english is bad) but anyway like she said, be a good person... Always... Its a good feeling.
You are beautiful without your makeup and thank you for sharing your story. We've all had things we're not proud of but it shapes and molds who we become and while it was a truly undesirable thing that happened with your friend, positives came from it. It was really nice for you to talk as you did with the confidence you had.
stuff like this is why you're my fav ASMR channel.
💚💜❤️💙💛 Thank you for sharing YOUR story. It took so much bravery & honesty to open ALL the way up the way you did. I have loved you and your videos and this does NOTHING but make me love, honor & respect you that much more. I wish for you all the BLESSINGS God has for you!! Have a wonderful Mother's Day & again... THANK YOU! 😉
I have been living with depression and anxiety for 12 years now,I think?and I never told anyone about it.
It accompanied me through junior high,senior high and college..
I think I have accept it,and addicted to the loneliness it brought me,willing to let it destroy me.
Jaime Lannister See the best solution is to not tell people over the internet tell your family and friends how your feeling otherwise you’ll get people like me saying fuck off
This was so kind of you to share and I know you don't need anyone's opinion but I think you deserve to forgive yourself for your one mistake from high school. you deserve to feel okay about the situation and it's not fair to yourself or your well being to be so upset about it. Things have gone amazing for him and you deserve to feel amazing as well
When you said argentina's number, I started crying. Didn't expect that, thank you.
I have been a fan of your asmr videos for a long time. It was bold of you to put up this video although it was not necessary. I was troubled to see that coloured hair, but after a while I said thank God she still has her original hair. I love you as you are and your awesome videos. Keep doing the great work for all the people out there like me. May God help you in your difficult times.
Belle, I just wanted to add that in Australia, a national hotline for support/someone to talk to is Lifeline 13 11 14. The number you quoted I believe is just for one state here...although I would expect that if you called it from anywhere in Australia you would still be able to talk to someone. Just thought I'd chuck this though for good measure. Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable for those who need to know they are not alone. Remember there are always people out there who may not necessarily have 'problems' themselves but who still care, who want to help, and who have the training to provide that help. Sending lots of love to everyone out there x
Hi Ashley! I'm so proud of you for making this video. I also have anxiety. I hope that one day you forgive yourself, wholly, because grace is a beautiful thing. Not one person in this world hasn't fallen and we need grace. I hope that one day you can truly let go and love that piece of you again... to know that your old friend would probably feel the same. Xoxo
You know what i find really relaxing? Soneone sharing depressing stories about anxiety and mental health disorders when these fears apply to myself.
This literally gave me so much inspiration. You keep doing it what you do!! Btw your really pretty without any makeup on!!
Arg now i have to comment. You probably wont know what these kinds of vids can do for people. It can make this little beautiful speck of hope and even a sence of peace. I have struggled with anxiety and depression my whole life. Its silent and invisible. But there is hope and there are people who care so much. I know your not perfect or even close to it...but i can see the good in you. Thank you for this video. Humanity is at its best stripped down bare. When all the bullshit is set aside. This world would be a better place with a lot more of that. Oh and keep the nose. Its a fucking awesome nose dude.
The phone numbers were so thoughtful and thank you for reaching out and providing understanding with your experience. This was such a brave idea for a video and you completely nailed it ❤️
We all have done things we aren't proud of. You have the courage to admit you did something bad and that shows that what you did wasn't something that defines you as a person. We daily forgive other people's actions and we have to do that for ourselves. You have to forgive you in order to move on.
You do not have a weird nose. My wife had the same issue and I loved it because it is uniquely her. She had it removed but I miss it now. You are beautiful.
This is actually helpful thank you especially as I suffer from depression and anxiety and I've been struggling recently
You are okay too ❤️ Sometimes the hardest person to forgive is ourself. Remember that we all have been doing shitty stuff, and hurt the people we love. We are humans. You are a really brave person. The world would be so much bettet if people where more vulnerable. Thank you so much! Lots of love ❤️❤️❤️
I have the same diagnosis as tons of others, your not alone and doing well, keep your head up. I love your nose, so pretty. Its what makes you so beautiful.
You are an inspiration. Thank you for being so brave and vulnerable sharing your story!
Thanx for making this video. I liked what you did with the stripping down, it's very symbolic. Love your nose too! Your story is interesting, I can relate to some of it. What I don't like about this format is I couldn't help but want to actually talk to you! So weird and yet, I think that is natural as you are sharing something really raw and personal! Very thought provoking. Cheers from Australia!
So sincere. By far the most honest video and it's my favourite. Thank you for this. ❤
Tinglebelle, you're amazing! By the way, I use your panic assistance ASMR a lot and it really helps me out.
What a beautiful soul you have and your beautiful on the outside as well. Your nose is part of what makes you...you and there's NOTHING wrong with it. We are our own worst critics, always remember that. We see flaws in ourselves that others don't see or maybe they see but don't see as the huge deal we make them out to be. I commented on another one of your videos a while back.....I think it was the "mean tweets" video......I said I had not even noticed your tooth and I'm being 100% honest I had not even noticed it nor have I noticed the bump in your nose until you pointed it out. All I saw in you was a very beautiful women with a big heart, a kind soul and a willingness to make others feel good. Your amazing Ashley :) and I bet there are 2 mini me that think the exact same thing. They see the real you everyday and they love you unconditionally. Thank you for this video. I thought you were great before this video but now I think even more of you :)
This is absolutely the best. I don't have another response other than thank you- this was important and kind.
I never comment on youtube but I'm bowled over by your courage, your honesty, your vulnerability, your beautiful face both with and without make-up. You're my hero right now and I really understand what is behind this video. Those who feel uncomfortable with it - that is their problem. Thanks so much for sharing
+Stephanie Corker thank you so much for commenting! I'm glad you understand the meaning behind the video 💕
What I understood is sometimes you gotta be fake to get what you want for example keeping your job and going home with your dignity at the same time isn't common.
I know, it'S hard to tell a story like this, but I'm so proud and glad you did it, cause it helps me. So; thank you
Beautiful voice and whispering, makes me sleep much better while listening this
Thanks for sharing some honest self criticism and personal factors, but I would suggest that you are taking a significant risk, as you have alluded. Sadly, there are folks watching YT channels that are so insecure in themselves that they are compelled to impose themselves in a negative fashion upon others, and your exposing personal details about yourself aids them in this effort.
Each of us as humans has personality and/or physical traits that we would rather not have, and they can be a source of emotional pain. Most of us [ sadly not everyone ] learns that there are people in our lives that love us and respect us in spite of these things, and we learn to love them as well. In our emotional growth we learn that there are more important things that define us.
You have a kind heart, and a wonderful family. None of us can change that which has occurred, we can only commit ourselves to improve ourselves, through understanding our faults. Take care of yourself and your family, continue to do well by others, these things will come back to you. God Bless.
I have OCD as well, I feel you. What you did here is awesome, thank you.
This is officially my new favorite asmr video
TingleBelleASMR /Ashley, thank you for sharing yourself. I am with you, and listening. Thank you for making your wonderful videos.
All the love and respect for this video. So raw and honest.