I’m reading everyone’s comments and dms and i’m so overwhelmed and emotional seeing the AMOUNT of love and support you guys give me. I’m genuinely so grateful for all of you, thank you for always making me feel safe ❤️
Hi. I am not even your fan but I thought of just hearing you in the background when I was working on my dissertation for my masters. I started your video because I felt something is wrong when I saw your sad face with dark circles and puffy eyes on the thumbnail. I do not have the companion of various stars/celebrities/famous people around me, but I totally understand why you are feeling what you must be feeling. I was always a meritorious student and I wanted to see myself on the top of everything, but one fine day I found myself to be the biggest failure I knew. I was going in this deep dark hole and found no one to save me. You do not need to be as famous as everyone else is, or to fit into their idea of 'success'. I am telling you from this other side of your world, where I find people to be billion times happy doing what they do, what they love, and be incredibly happy. There is no 'top' actually. The actors that are on the top of their careers are nobody when they go to other country. I might be in the top around my lot, but I am nobody in front of you. We just try to feel relatively happy but that should not be. We should be truly happy. I applaud your decision of taking a gap year and you are really a star to me if you spoke it out loud here. I started following you, because you seemed real to me. You don't need to be loved by everyone, you need to be loved by YOURSELF. You have to live with YOURSELF everyday and that is why try seeing things outside of that celebrity box that you are in. Whenever you go to a dark place, please tell yourself this (it helped me a lot!) during my phase with depression- COMEBACKS ARE POWERFUL AND THAT IS WHAT WILL DEFINE YOU. Congratulations, on facing depression so early in life, now you will learn how to keep it at bay for the rest of your life. :)
I know I am depressed but its so suffocating and sad that normal indian middle class people can't afford councelling or even visiting a doctor. So let's hope we all find happiness someday and survive. All the best. ❤️
Hey. I have severe mental health issues as well, there are many online counselors and some do it for free or minimal price as well, you could maybe check that out? I've been talking to a therapist online esp since 2nd wave hit cuz I couldn't deal with stuff at all. Im just waiting for my college to reopen so I can get a psychiatric diagnosis and get my medications as suggested to me but hey please please take care I hope everything turns out for the best
i litterally feel like someone is describing my current life story ....i am soo happy to know people like me exist ...i love u and especially after this video i can connect with you on a different level
@@Ghastlyedits3 basically u are somewhere right ...but I don't think so that someone make fun or joke of anxiety and depression ...I know leaving school and taking gap is not what I like the idea too ..but she is not faking her mental health
I had the same experience during last two years of my school life . I think it doesnt matter what your financial situation is ,which part of the world you love in ,how is your parents n lots of other things .it just your mind how it thinks n how your heart made you feel .you are meant to go through all these n suffer in this particular manner .one thing I hv learnt from my owm experience this too shall pass . Things will change n during all these times you will gather some strengh .some courage .
I think it's very important to emphasize on our parents' support throughout our struggles. As Indians, I understand that a basic thing like parental support is a luxury and inaccessible to most of us. However, I consider myself a lucky one because at my lowest when my body had given up doing assignments and readings for college, I asked my parents to step in and talk to my professors. Hopefully I've been a good student throughout my college and my professors understood the gravity of my situation. If they hadn't agreed to help me, I would've collapsed or cried in front of the entire class while giving presentations (ironically, I was a national debate champion at one point). I'm glad that I got this basic help from them and it pushed me through to graduate college. I gave my best and I graduated with first division with distinction. To anyone reading this, always remember that nothing comes above your well being and trust the process. Things will fall into place and you'll figure out what makes you happy. ❤️
So true. Being a part of Indian culture, its really not easy for our parents and professors (specially) to understand us. But eventually when they choose to understand us and support on whatever decision we take for ourselves, thats the best feeling ever. ❤️
Thank you for talking about this, I have been feeling like this since the start of the Pendemic, I stay away from my family and have been away for the last 10 years for studies and then work. I have recently resigned from work to focus on my health and it is the best decision ever. I even moved back home which really helps
I'd suggest moving into a different house. A different area. Like you said, you're constantly looking for a change in the environment and a new house could give you that. Also, I beleive the place you call home should resonate with you spiritually. And if you feel you're lacking that, JUST MOVE! Trust me, it's gonna make things so much better.
I relate to each and every single word in this video like at a spiritual level. And seeing my friends having everything sorted in their heads and having a balanced social life and academic life I feel so useless. I've been thinking of a gap year too but I was ridiculed by my parents when I spoke to them about this and they agreed on me taking a gap year after graduating (2023). Its seriously so hard like getting up and brushing my teeth and taking a bath takes up all my energy. I love my major but I just can't sit and study cuz I get so so overwhelmed 😕 and end up doing nothing cuz my anxiety shoots up randomly and being a queer person in a super orthodox family just adds on to it and I just want to get out of this situation, maybe shift places amd be away from the ppl who are here with me but its hard to let go of someone who has been with you since your childhood. Like picking up a pen seems like such a task and one assignment I finish and I just crash, especially after trauma of 2nd wave and seeing the live scenes of the horrors of a collapsing Healthcare system and dealing with loss and grief which hits you in the most random moments ( like I need to remind myself that some ppl don't exist anymore :( , like I just want to do things without feeling burnt out and exhausted and unmotivated, having two parents scream at you when you dont do one minor thing to add to your cv is just as im getting checkmate from all sides:/. Please take care and im so glad you decided to take this step im very proud of you for prioritizing yourself
Hey Srividya! Wishing you all happiness of the world. This comment of yours made me so emotional because i'm going through the exact same things. Life is so unfair sometimes. :(
Aaliyah, I'm much older to you but let me tell you, watching this made me empathise. and relate so much. I was nodding in agreement while you were talking. I'm clinically depressed for the last 9 months. I just lay in bed and eat and watch youtube 15 hours of the day. Its like I've blocked my mind from thinking anything. I have severe anxiety and my heart rate is also 130 and above sometimes. Suicidal thoughts come in a way that, I don't care if I die at any moment. Self care is 0. Brushing and showering don't come easy or often. Thanks for sharing and making me not feel like the only one wondering and googling about my symptoms. Lots of all, I hope it gets better for the both of us. ❤️
Hi Malvi and Aaliyah. I have spent the last 7 years in a similar place . I got a diagnosed only 2.5 years ago (GAD, Clinical Depression and Panic Disorder) . No motivation to take a bath or even get up from the bed, got back on medication as well. But I would like to tell you that it does get better. There hasn't be a single day since March'21 when I have not taken a bath. I am finally capable of maintaining schedules. I am on Day 62 of Daily meditations and Day 30 of daily workouts. It took me a lot of time and work to get here, but I am sure if I could do it, anyone can. I do have some rough days in between, but let me assure you there will soon be a day when you will be able to manage yourself better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. You have got this. So much love, light and healing to you both ❤️
If you feel good and anytime you feel like sharing anything just pick up the camera start filming and upload it. It's okay if you don't edit it just upload it raw. We feel you , understand you and can relate with you girl. You go girl ❤️
You're so strong to be talking about it also those who've been through the same would not feel alone. I am glad to be a subscriber to you I get to know that my problems are not mine alone your videos are comforting!!💜
I was in your position 2 years ago. I think taking care of your mental health is the best decision, you will sort everything else out but give yourself time and don't feel guilty or regretful about it at all. I feel you and I wish that you feel better and healthier! Sending you love and hugs!
I just love how you are so real and share all your emotions like this. It really helps people who also feel the same things.thank you so much for this!
Aaliyah this is best decision ever. I can relate to you so hard because even I was suffering from major anxiety and depression. I took some time alone I did what I love like trying different things, be around people I love and my mind got so clearly. I changed my major studies and now I m pursuing what I love 💕 more Power to you and take a gap as long as you want until you feel yourself 🙂
I've been in a rut for the past few days and as I was watching your video, I realised how often I have these phases. I have so much stuff to get done but I have so little motivation to even get off of my bed. It just leads to a never-ending loop of self-loathing and frustration. I hope this suffocating nightmare ends soon and we all can find some inner peace.
I took admission in my college but it was horrible , I used to cry every evening hugging my father, it was really affecting my health , so he decided that I am going to take a gap year and from next year gonna start a fresh journey. I hope it goes on my favor and more power to you girl.
I have been feeling lost from the past month as well. I turned 24 in August and I’m doing a job but since my birthday I’m having so many thoughts, may be it was growing up or the job that I do which I’m not at all excited about or that my friends life is moving forward but I look at my self and standing at the same place don’t exactly know what but so many thought and it made me feel really bad and miserable too. So, few days back I finally resign from my job and right now I just want to focus on myself and what I like. I can understand what you are going through. Stay strong , sending you so much love 🤍
Hi Aaliyah, thank you for trusting us through UA-cam. I wish I could hug you and assure you that you did a good thing by being around family and taking it slow. Praying for you ❤️
Aaliyah your content is just amazing and so calming and soothing at the same time , but to know that you have been going through a lot of things lately that could put your well being at risk so seems to be a great step because a person's health is over everything else . Take Care and stay strong !!
It's like someone is narrating my story, I just had tears. I am preparing for RAS since last two years , the only dream I have had in my school was to become an RAS officer. But I don't know how things went wrong in middle of the preparation I had severe anxiety issues and felt very abnormal, Herat beat was 110+ and severe breathing issues. I tried everything thing I could but nothing got better, slowly I became normal but I felt that my mind is blocked, I am not able to think. And then RAS vacancies aayi and there were some other exams also I gave them, but my RAS prelims was on 27th of October and 10-12 days before the exam I was feeling like my mind is just blocked but I ignored this state and gave the exam and it terribly went bad, and I was like how can I do so , in mock tests I was scoring decent marks bun in main exam I don't know what happened. My condition is now like I am not feeling anything any happiness any sorrow, as I gave one more exam also and result came out I govt very good marks probably would get a job. But my mental condition is not good I don't feel like waking up in the morning , I am not able to think. I don't know how and when it will be okay but I will definitely try to get out of this situation. But I will try again , I will rise again Sorry for poor English as I have always been an hindi medium student and preparing for exams in hindi also.
When you said UA-cam makes you genuinely happy..I don't know why but it felt like a warm hug..you made me feel wanted..thank you for trusting us..you are super brave loads of love..
I can resonate so much to this, it's exactly what's been happening to me. Looking around I see everyone having it all together and sorted in terms of career and future plans whereas I feel absolutely lost which made me feel more and more sad and as if something's wrong with me. Just wanna let you know you aren't alone Aaliyah! I wish I could take a gap year like you too because I too didn't enjoy my major, sadly living in India it's not a very easy thing to convince those around you for it. Wish and hope for the best! Good luck to you!
Definitely try internships, that's the key try marketing, social media related . What about a health related or mental health, social work major?? You have to remember maybe your friends are at home with a plan only because they have no other option due to pandemic and also not much income flow, it's hit alot of people. I have also suffered during studies with depression/suicidal thoughts. The issue had been got me is the choice of which course you study. That leaves you with no direction or too many opportunities that you get confused what to pick. Hugs 🤗
Dude the main reason of mental health issue is comparing yourself w others. I face the same issue. And I am learning to stop doing that shit. If anyone is reading this I wannna tell u guys “ YOU HAVE PURPOSE IN LIFE AND SO GOD GIFTED U W THIS BEAUTIFUL LIFE! DONOT EVER BE HARD ON YOURSELF!! “ Donot let your one bad day one messy phase in life spoil your whole life! Pandemic is so messy as we feel more lonely more miserable in these days. But still do try to reach out to people around you. STAY STRONG ❤️❤️❤️
Good decision! A big salute for your clarity of thought n honesty. Wish I had taken time off all those decades ago, but back then it was a no no. Yes, and I like your hair. These days I open the newspaper only in the evenings...plus that focus thing keeps changing , I wouldn't worry too much about it
I just completed my 12th, and I have been experiencing anxiety and depression throughout my whole 12th year and its very miserable to not to talk about mental health issues with friends and family. Once I have tried to discuss about my mental state and my parents have taken it in a funny way that you can't have and mental issues because you haven't seen any real life problems in your life and may be you are over thinking stuff like that. I felt horrible and helpless at that moment and decided that I'll never open up about my mental health in front of anyone.
really proud of you girl, I completely understand what you are going through, sometimes it feels it's me talking, only difference is the countries, feel lost too, hope you find the spark and you get back to the right state of mind, lot of love, harleen
Iam having anxiety I came to know during lockdown iam losing interest in things that I enjoy doing. My chest hurts, I wake up tired with body aches, Constant thoughts of losing my loved ones. But still managing to holding myself despite its being tough.
You've made the right decision w this, I felt the same way with the 'passion situation' & not knowing what truly excites me a few months ago but i did a lot of research etc and finally found what I'm really into, hopefully you're able to find your own passion aswell. Good luck and take care
It's good to see that you are opening about your mental health and the things you are dealing with. Even I'm in a state in which idk what to do next. I completed my graduation this year but yet not decided what I wanna do next. Lemme tell you are not the only one even I'm going through a lot but I don't know what. I can totally relate with you Aaliyah. Just more power and strength to you and hope that you get out of this soon. As you said you were in a good state when you were in India with your parents do come back and spend a good quality time with them. Everything will be fine. Lots of lovee ❤️
THANK YOU. For sharing this❤️ I’m feeling the exact same way and dropped out of uni the second time this year and feeling super super lost. Sending love your way but nice to know I’m not the only one that feels like this x
And for me the best way to deal with my depression is moving out of my house and be independent and go to therapy cause toxic parents never understand anything neither they seem like they give a shit
I am 3/4 years older than you but I empathise and completely understand what you're going through. Although I somehow managed to graduated last year, but if I had the option I would have definitely taken a gap year and changed my major. It's amazing you have the courage to do that, finding new interests would do you good. Please don't think about being productive and competent, caring about your health will do you better in the long run. I wish I would have realised it sooner because my anxiety and depression has worsened due to the pandemic. I haven't been able to work after college but am gradually feeling much better.
I've literally been feeling like this for years now. And all i need is therapy which I've been delaying for the longest time that i can think of mainly because my parents aren't that much supportive and i can't bare with the cost. It's tragic how I can do nothing about it but just hope to not wake up the next day. You're lucky because you can at least communicate with your parents and also take therapy!! I hope you get back on track soon and this gap year helps you know what you want in life. Love luck and power to you aaliyah!!!
My education time was very depressing ..I got failed in 10 th class once, twelfth twice, was doing IGNOU also got failed, then did MBA got first year back..I did pay money, so that the college cleared my paper.... ...
I live in Ireland far from my family and friends. I’ve been going through something same mentally. Just this week i also decided to take a career break and go back home for sometime to focus on my mental health. Sending you love, positivity and hugs
While travelling to uttrakhand I met a guy in his late 50s who used to be a scientist at the Baba atomic research center in mumbai and was now running a tea stall just a few miles from his home town. Hours of talking to him made me realise he was one of the happiest guys I had ever met. One advice he insisted on me taking back was that life is too unpredictable to have a rigorous plan about. It only leads to disappoint and self pity. I hope you have a great time back in India. And it's certainly a life changing decision that you're going to be proud of.
I am sorry to hear this, I know how it feelS like coz I am also a mental health warrior like you. I know it won't help you anyway but STOP THINKING YOU'RE WASTING MONEY OR YOUR TIME. You have so many talents that i can see. For an example : YOU'RE a GREAT INFLUENCER, UA-camR, FASHIONSITA & your editing skill is topnotch. see, so many doors are open 4 you. I know social media is tough, I don't use ig anymore (TOXIC AF) but you know what if you think youtube is safe space. Girl, I am here for you and so many people like me. YOU'RE MY A1 SINCE DAY1 Love you A♥️♥️♥️
I am going from the same trauma. I got selected in my dream University and I don't like the course at all now I don't have backup plan, but to wait for another year so that I can opt my desired course. But the worst part is I hate being junior with my school batchmates who will be senior after a year. This is the toughest time of my life or may be it will gonna effect my future. I am feeling hopeless. I don't know what to do :(
I graduated from design school a couple of months back and there were countless times I felt the way you described. Perhaps it’s the perils of working in a creative field, the beating yourself up feeling and the constant misery of doing something novel every single time. I too felt miserable, especially when I was a bachelor’s design student and could relate to getting panic attacks and used to the run to the restroom back in uni. You’re really brave to take control of yourself and recognise the need to pause and reflect. I’ve graduated now and life seems a little more peaceful. All I gotta say is with time, the pressures of college life did get lesser. Take very good care of yourself and your mental health. You’re wiser beyond your years! Sending so many hugs!!! ❤️❤️❤️
YOU'RE SO FREAKIN STRONG & you've got GREAT parents to support SO don't worry IT'S totally fine to take a gap & figure out things rather than being miserable doing u don't even like..YOUR LIFE GONNA TAKE POSITIVE TURN...CONSUME POSITIVE THINGS..SENDING SO MUCH OF LOVE & STRENGTH❤❤❤❤
Almost 10 years ago when I decided to take a gap year after high school bc of my clinical depression people around me thought I either got shit grades or my parents couldn't afford sending me to college. I did not blame them either, I myself wasn't really able to accept why I was doing what I did, but I needed it and I did it and never regretted it. I also did not go back to college after my recovery, idk I just did not see the point after I started my own business. I'm so proud for you and your courage Aaliyah, 16 year old me 10 years ago says Thank you and Good luck :))
Also more power to your parents for standing by you! From experience, your friends and family will be your superpower through your recovery. Always remind yourself that on the "bad days".
I felt exactly the same. And i prioritised my mental health over my studies for the very first time. I skipped my exams. And took some time off. It helped me. I hope you feel better ❤️
Girl I really thought it was some kind of apology video from that thumbnail. But you go girl, don’t let these thoughts bother you, every one heals in a different way and pace and you can take all the time in the world. Fighting 💜
More power to you ! Hope you genuinely feel better and get the strength to work towards mental well-being. I also wish to empathise with those who cannot afford to take a gap year or explore interests because of resource constraints. Even they deserve a chance to address their mental health. But lady fate works in mysterious ways.
Your Mental health always comes first, never forget that. Whoever is watching this, please guys if you ever feel low or have anxiety issues, make sure to talk about this with someone you trust. It's very important to share what is going on with someone whether it is your family, friends or if you feel like you can't do that then please visit a therapist. Mental health issues are very serious and suck the soul out of you. And also, never stop taking your medication (prescribed by your therapist) even if you start feeling a little better, the anxiety can start creeping in again.
This video literally got me crying. Ik taking a gap out of school is not a small thing it's harddd, I also lost one year of my school bc of some health issues, my mental health was literally fucked up but now I'm just used to it. Don't worry about school cause at this point of time what only matters is your health. what you are going through now is not easyy but gradually everything's gonna be fine. Also is Be strong and be happy ily sweetie
Hey, firstly I am SO SO SO PROUD that you put yourself out there because I know how hard it is. Whatever you said in this video, I have been through it all and I know how hard it is to say it to so many people because I have done that and people whom I trusted have criticized me about it. Whatever you have said was my life till last year so I know how hard it can get. But as I been through that I know it gets better and it will get better. Just keep going girl. One day at a time. I'm 22 year old and my weight was 37kgs because I couldn't eat anything. There was not one day that doesn't felt like shit, I never wanted to wake up. But it is so much better now. I'm happy and healthy and I know you will be too. Just try to eat healthy, try to get out of your house, do anything that makes you feel a bit stable and happy. More power to you girl. Sending all the love and positivity to you. I hope you get well soon. 🤍🌻
Im 23 and i have the very same issues.. been having anxiety and I was suicidal since i was in the 6th grade.. even work gives me so much anxiety that i get nightmares. Everything seems so fkd up, sometimes I scream.. Just have faith that everything turns out okay.. keeping hopes about how I ll be fine one day is what keeps me going! And good thing you spoke about this.
Omg I'm so sorry you guys are going through this but same i am 18 years old gonna be 19 next month and i chose the wrong course in college and I'm going to change my course and start all over again and I'm so depressed crying every day that i wasted my years It feels so miserable
Aaliyah, sometimes people doesn’t even recognize that they are suffering from anxiety, depression and bad mental health. At least you have figured that out. I would do meditation on “Chakras” everyday. I have been through a lot in the past few months and meditation has helped me a lot. Try to connect with nature, acknowledge things that’s going on in your life. Try to jot down things that triggers your anxiety, and work on that. I have tried these things and it worked well for me. Also, I am your big fan, I hear you and always feel more connected with you after every youtube video I see of your. Love from Chicago, IL
Aaliyah, lots and lots of love and strength to you! i have been in your place for almost like a year and what helped me the most is yoga as a community and meditation. I recently joined the classes and it helps me heal and gives a calm state of mind although I do have anxiety attacks once in a while. But yes, this helps so i just wanted to share this with you and others who are going through similar things.
I had the same thing which you are having right now... Even I break down for like nothing.. I don't even know why... But I'm fine right now.. And I found my way! You'll find it do... Everyone does...! All you have to do is just hang on!..
You shed more light on mental health by sharing your own personal experience, which takes a lot of courage. More respect and strength to you. take care.
I relate to this video so much. Currently, I am doing my masters from a university that I just want to get out of but the only way out of here would be if I could find a paid job/internship worth leaving this university. My anxiety escalated today as I can't seem to find any good-paying job and if I don't within the next few months I'll be stuck with this university. Just like you even I am not sure about my career and I am figuring my things out as well. We all will get through this together. Don't worry!! LOVE MAX
Hey, this is SO brave of you to share!! You’re absolutely right, mental health matters ALOT. You do you, girl! Life’s too short and precious to be spent miserably. You’re so genuine to yourself and that’s your biggest strength! Gap year or no gap year, you’re the Aaliyah I adore. Love your content and your candidness, I hope you get through this and come out even stronger! All my love x
I could just relate to you in another level. Because it’s a lived experience and the toll it takes on the health is something I cannot comprehend. Whatever decision you take, it will work out if it’s meant to be. Don’t lose heart. Aaliyah be strong, and courageous Cus trust me that’s what i tried to be during the toughest time of my life with Anxiety Neurosis. Sending love from India 💚
I want to send out love and compassion your way. Every word you said felt like my own story but the difference is that I just endured the pain because I never had balls to talk to my parents or go to a therapist. I am definitely in a better place now though I keep getting these bouts of anxiety sometimes. You didn't deserve to hear another sad story but I hope you get better soon and come back to India. Family and friends will heal you. Love you
I’m a graduate student here in USA and have been feeling extremely lost and directionless in life these past couple months. Thank you so much for making this and being so honest. More love and power to you! ❤️💪
every normal middle class child goes through all that u r going through but sad part is that we have to continue with life and cant even talk about a gap year u r lucky
I was in the same headspace last year this time and im very grateful that I got out of it. taking a gap year is going to be healthy for you! also, I know it’s hard to not compare your life to others but you are where you are for a reason and so are they. you should totally surround yourself with family and friends because that will always feel like home! take care Aaliyah. if I can do it, you can do it too❤️
Even though I regularly wait for your videos on UA-cam, this is the first time I can't help putting a comment. I have also recently been diagnosed with GAD after a painful episode of panic attacks and anxiety disorder. It was also around the same time you started sharing your struggles with anxiety here. Your openness about these topics gave me a lot of courage and hope at a time when I felt absolutely lost. After watching this video my admiration for you have increased manifold 🥺🥺 it takes real courage to be vulnerable in front a random crowd out here. Thank you for existing 😭
You are such a sharp 20 year old, you already figured out what all paths you are gonna explore. It’s amazing to hear you already pan out that journey, pretty soon all this will be history foe you darling. Leaving behind a path for those who are still confused and in similar space Lots of love and healing light to guide you on the forward journey! You will shine
Dear Aaliyah I am so happy for you to have not needed to be strong and push through. I am so happy that you can take time off and figure things out. At your age the world shouldn't feel so heavy. I am 28 and I have been feeling all these things for the past 4-5years but I have had to push through , I have had to pay bills,take jobs and continue in jobs for various reasons. Past few months have been hard for me. I have been to the dark place you mentioned. I am still there. But it will get better. I read a quote recently it helped me , I hope it will help you too- there will be happiness after you but there was happiness because of you. Also , mental health being taboo is one of the few reasons along with the feeling that noone will understand, care or be bothered. Wishing you the best of everything for every single day. ❤️ Much love.
Your strugles are valid 💗and i just want you to know ive been feeling lost too...and seeing you talk about it makes me feel less alone..so thankyou and i hope you feel less alone in your struggle knowing we all are struggling and we all see you and relate to you ❤❤hope you feel better and like yourself soonn
Lucky u got the supportive parent because some parent just force u to be normal rather than understanding ur situation… Go luck with ur mental health… stay strong ☺️
Aliyah, please take care of yourself. Everything else comes secondary. Get the treatment, do what all taht is required inorder to nourish you, come back to a healthier state. Also, I have had no experience of mental health issues, but still I cried when I saw this. Cant even imagine what you are going through. But I am sure this is only a transient phase. This gap year will be good for you. You will figure out everything and you will be at a better place after this. Only love and well wishes.
Aaliyah, I'm going through this right now. I even transferred from Chapman as well, but my relationship with school has remained the same even at my new school. I'm struggling as well, and I don't know what to do. I'm really happy you've been able to find some peace for yourself. You and your mental health deserve peace and happiness. Here's to having a quarter life crisis! I know we'll both come out stronger on the other end. Miss you beautiful sweet girl
Just amazing how a genuine conversation can help us understand those things that has been bothering us too,but couldn't articulate it or acknowledge it properly .More Power to u ❤️
Things will get better mate ..trust in yourself ...u have got this....have good positive company ...try to stay positive ...God bless u..it takes a strong person to say this ....
You are strong 💪 don’t worry things will fall in place…. Everyone has bad days.. I’m also going through the same stage like abt future plans , i also break down….just take your time.. n god will heal everything trust him. You motivate me❤️
I have your back girl. Been diagnosed with exactly the same things and feel the same. Do what's best for you. Hold tight, its a crazy world out there but there us night but is will come a morning. So chill and try not taking yourself so seriously, Thats what has been helping me at least . Passing away all the good wishes towards you and dm me anytime you want to just talk or blabber. I'm here. Love you loads muah
I’m reading everyone’s comments and dms and i’m so overwhelmed and emotional seeing the AMOUNT of love and support you guys give me. I’m genuinely so grateful for all of you, thank you for always making me feel safe ❤️
I love you so much QUEEN❤❤❤❤ We are always here for you ❤
Hi. I am not even your fan but I thought of just hearing you in the background when I was working on my dissertation for my masters. I started your video because I felt something is wrong when I saw your sad face with dark circles and puffy eyes on the thumbnail. I do not have the companion of various stars/celebrities/famous people around me, but I totally understand why you are feeling what you must be feeling. I was always a meritorious student and I wanted to see myself on the top of everything, but one fine day I found myself to be the biggest failure I knew. I was going in this deep dark hole and found no one to save me. You do not need to be as famous as everyone else is, or to fit into their idea of 'success'. I am telling you from this other side of your world, where I find people to be billion times happy doing what they do, what they love, and be incredibly happy. There is no 'top' actually. The actors that are on the top of their careers are nobody when they go to other country. I might be in the top around my lot, but I am nobody in front of you. We just try to feel relatively happy but that should not be. We should be truly happy. I applaud your decision of taking a gap year and you are really a star to me if you spoke it out loud here. I started following you, because you seemed real to me. You don't need to be loved by everyone, you need to be loved by YOURSELF. You have to live with YOURSELF everyday and that is why try seeing things outside of that celebrity box that you are in.
Whenever you go to a dark place, please tell yourself this (it helped me a lot!) during my phase with depression-
COMEBACKS ARE POWERFUL AND THAT IS WHAT WILL DEFINE YOU.
Congratulations, on facing depression so early in life, now you will learn how to keep it at bay for the rest of your life. :)
I don’t even know where to begin with…
Luv & hug to you from Bali - Indonesia ❤🤗
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I know I am depressed but its so suffocating and sad that normal indian middle class people can't afford councelling or even visiting a doctor. So let's hope we all find happiness someday and survive. All the best. ❤️
So true
@@impalanotaming no one can believe us not even are parents they can't afford doctor she is lucky we have go through this alone it's sad
Hey. I have severe mental health issues as well, there are many online counselors and some do it for free or minimal price as well, you could maybe check that out? I've been talking to a therapist online esp since 2nd wave hit cuz I couldn't deal with stuff at all. Im just waiting for my college to reopen so I can get a psychiatric diagnosis and get my medications as suggested to me but hey please please take care I hope everything turns out for the best
@@srivihihihi can you help me with tha plzz
@@sandhya6862 do you have insta ? I can dm you some pages and links to resources I found
i litterally feel like someone is describing my current life story ....i am soo happy to know people like me exist ...i love u and especially after this video i can connect with you on a different level
Damn same. She's lucky to be from an understanding family. Most of us are from middle class families and our parents don't understand:)
@@sudeshna2909 yaa I am also from middle class family...but my mom is so understanding ..she is the only one who handles my panic attack 🥺💗
@@ishikabansal8559 more power to you!
@@sudeshna2909 thanks 🥺
@@Ghastlyedits3 basically u are somewhere right ...but I don't think so that someone make fun or joke of anxiety and depression ...I know leaving school and taking gap is not what I like the idea too ..but she is not faking her mental health
I’ve been feeling really lost lately too. I’m so glad you’re taking this step, wish you all the very best. Love you so much!!! ❤️
I had the same experience during last two years of my school life . I think it doesnt matter what your financial situation is ,which part of the world you love in ,how is your parents n lots of other things .it just your mind how it thinks n how your heart made you feel .you are meant to go through all these n suffer in this particular manner .one thing I hv learnt from my owm experience this too shall pass . Things will change n during all these times you will gather some strengh .some courage .
I think it's very important to emphasize on our parents' support throughout our struggles. As Indians, I understand that a basic thing like parental support is a luxury and inaccessible to most of us. However, I consider myself a lucky one because at my lowest when my body had given up doing assignments and readings for college, I asked my parents to step in and talk to my professors. Hopefully I've been a good student throughout my college and my professors understood the gravity of my situation. If they hadn't agreed to help me, I would've collapsed or cried in front of the entire class while giving presentations (ironically, I was a national debate champion at one point). I'm glad that I got this basic help from them and it pushed me through to graduate college. I gave my best and I graduated with first division with distinction. To anyone reading this, always remember that nothing comes above your well being and trust the process. Things will fall into place and you'll figure out what makes you happy. ❤️
So true. Being a part of Indian culture, its really not easy for our parents and professors (specially) to understand us. But eventually when they choose to understand us and support on whatever decision we take for ourselves, thats the best feeling ever. ❤️
It takes a lot of guts to come out and speak about this.. and it's really nice that you did. You should do what you feel like and take care!
Thank you for talking about this, I have been feeling like this since the start of the Pendemic, I stay away from my family and have been away for the last 10 years for studies and then work. I have recently resigned from work to focus on my health and it is the best decision ever. I even moved back home which really helps
I'd suggest moving into a different house. A different area. Like you said, you're constantly looking for a change in the environment and a new house could give you that. Also, I beleive the place you call home should resonate with you spiritually. And if you feel you're lacking that, JUST MOVE! Trust me, it's gonna make things so much better.
I relate to each and every single word in this video like at a spiritual level. And seeing my friends having everything sorted in their heads and having a balanced social life and academic life I feel so useless. I've been thinking of a gap year too but I was ridiculed by my parents when I spoke to them about this and they agreed on me taking a gap year after graduating (2023). Its seriously so hard like getting up and brushing my teeth and taking a bath takes up all my energy. I love my major but I just can't sit and study cuz I get so so overwhelmed 😕 and end up doing nothing cuz my anxiety shoots up randomly and being a queer person in a super orthodox family just adds on to it and I just want to get out of this situation, maybe shift places amd be away from the ppl who are here with me but its hard to let go of someone who has been with you since your childhood. Like picking up a pen seems like such a task and one assignment I finish and I just crash, especially after trauma of 2nd wave and seeing the live scenes of the horrors of a collapsing Healthcare system and dealing with loss and grief which hits you in the most random moments ( like I need to remind myself that some ppl don't exist anymore :( , like I just want to do things without feeling burnt out and exhausted and unmotivated, having two parents scream at you when you dont do one minor thing to add to your cv is just as im getting checkmate from all sides:/. Please take care and im so glad you decided to take this step im very proud of you for prioritizing yourself
Hey Srividya! Wishing you all happiness of the world. This comment of yours made me so emotional because i'm going through the exact same things. Life is so unfair sometimes. :(
@@jayatimalhotra1474 I'm so sorry I hope we get out of this take much care
take care,i am feeling the same these days
thanks for sharing!
@@suditisingh5032 pls take care
Everything would be fine, n we believe that u will be back with 200% of energy.
Do what u feel but never leave UA-cam ❤❤
Love u so so much queennn ❤❤
I felt every word you say Alia. I even cried twice. Do things that makes you happy. You sound so sweet n calm. Lots of love babe❤️
Aaliyah, I'm much older to you but let me tell you, watching this made me empathise. and relate so much. I was nodding in agreement while you were talking. I'm clinically depressed for the last 9 months. I just lay in bed and eat and watch youtube 15 hours of the day. Its like I've blocked my mind from thinking anything. I have severe anxiety and my heart rate is also 130 and above sometimes. Suicidal thoughts come in a way that, I don't care if I die at any moment. Self care is 0. Brushing and showering don't come easy or often. Thanks for sharing and making me not feel like the only one wondering and googling about my symptoms. Lots of all, I hope it gets better for the both of us. ❤️
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Feeling the same
hang in there it will get better, sending you love
Hi Malvi and Aaliyah.
I have spent the last 7 years in a similar place . I got a diagnosed only 2.5 years ago (GAD, Clinical Depression and Panic Disorder) . No motivation to take a bath or even get up from the bed, got back on medication as well. But I would like to tell you that it does get better.
There hasn't be a single day since March'21 when I have not taken a bath. I am finally capable of maintaining schedules. I am on Day 62 of Daily meditations and Day 30 of daily workouts. It took me a lot of time and work to get here, but I am sure if I could do it, anyone can. I do have some rough days in between, but let me assure you there will soon be a day when you will be able to manage yourself better. There is a light at the end of the tunnel.
You have got this. So much love, light and healing to you both ❤️
@@mohiikarastogi7313 ❤️🙏🏽
If you feel good and anytime you feel like sharing anything just pick up the camera start filming and upload it. It's okay if you don't edit it just upload it raw. We feel you , understand you and can relate with you girl. You go girl ❤️
You're so strong to be talking about it also those who've been through the same would not feel alone. I am glad to be a subscriber to you I get to know that my problems are not mine alone your videos are comforting!!💜
I was in your position 2 years ago. I think taking care of your mental health is the best decision, you will sort everything else out but give yourself time and don't feel guilty or regretful about it at all. I feel you and I wish that you feel better and healthier! Sending you love and hugs!
I just love how you are so real and share all your emotions like this. It really helps people who also feel the same things.thank you so much for this!
Aaliyah this is best decision ever. I can relate to you so hard because even I was suffering from major anxiety and depression. I took some time alone I did what I love like trying different things, be around people I love and my mind got so clearly. I changed my major studies and now I m pursuing what I love 💕 more Power to you and take a gap as long as you want until you feel yourself 🙂
I've been in a rut for the past few days and as I was watching your video, I realised how often I have these phases. I have so much stuff to get done but I have so little motivation to even get off of my bed. It just leads to a never-ending loop of self-loathing and frustration. I hope this suffocating nightmare ends soon and we all can find some inner peace.
I took admission in my college but it was horrible , I used to cry every evening hugging my father, it was really affecting my health , so he decided that I am going to take a gap year and from next year gonna start a fresh journey. I hope it goes on my favor and more power to you girl.
Hey! Do you know how can we take a gap year?
I have been feeling lost from the past month as well. I turned 24 in August and I’m doing a job but since my birthday I’m having so many thoughts, may be it was growing up or the job that I do which I’m not at all excited about or that my friends life is moving forward but I look at my self and standing at the same place don’t exactly know what but so many thought and it made me feel really bad and miserable too. So, few days back I finally resign from my job and right now I just want to focus on myself and what I like. I can understand what you are going through. Stay strong , sending you so much love 🤍
I’m so happy that you are opening about your thoughts💘
Sending so much love and power to you. You're so strong for putting everything out here. ❤️
Hi Aaliyah, thank you for trusting us through UA-cam. I wish I could hug you and assure you that you did a good thing by being around family and taking it slow. Praying for you ❤️
Aaliyah your content is just amazing and so calming and soothing at the same time , but to know that you have been going through a lot of things lately that could put your well being at risk so seems to be a great step because a person's health is over everything else . Take Care and stay strong !!
It's like someone is narrating my story, I just had tears.
I am preparing for RAS since last two years , the only dream I have had in my school was to become an RAS officer. But I don't know how things went wrong in middle of the preparation I had severe anxiety issues and felt very abnormal, Herat beat was 110+ and severe breathing issues. I tried everything thing I could but nothing got better, slowly I became normal but I felt that my mind is blocked, I am not able to think.
And then RAS vacancies aayi and there were some other exams also I gave them, but my RAS prelims was on 27th of October and 10-12 days before the exam I was feeling like my mind is just blocked but I ignored this state and gave the exam and it terribly went bad, and I was like how can I do so , in mock tests I was scoring decent marks bun in main exam I don't know what happened. My condition is now like I am not feeling anything any happiness any sorrow, as I gave one more exam also and result came out I govt very good marks probably would get a job.
But my mental condition is not good I don't feel like waking up in the morning , I am not able to think. I don't know how and when it will be okay but I will definitely try to get out of this situation.
But I will try again , I will rise again
Sorry for poor English as I have always been an hindi medium student and preparing for exams in hindi also.
I resonate with your situation. I've taken a gap year, too. I'm so proud of you as your viewer. ❤️❤️❤️
When you said UA-cam makes you genuinely happy..I don't know why but it felt like a warm hug..you made me feel wanted..thank you for trusting us..you are super brave loads of love..
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I can resonate so much to this, it's exactly what's been happening to me. Looking around I see everyone having it all together and sorted in terms of career and future plans whereas I feel absolutely lost which made me feel more and more sad and as if something's wrong with me. Just wanna let you know you aren't alone Aaliyah! I wish I could take a gap year like you too because I too didn't enjoy my major, sadly living in India it's not a very easy thing to convince those around you for it. Wish and hope for the best! Good luck to you!
Definitely try internships, that's the key try marketing, social media related . What about a health related or mental health, social work major??
You have to remember maybe your friends are at home with a plan only because they have no other option due to pandemic and also not much income flow, it's hit alot of people.
I have also suffered during studies with depression/suicidal thoughts. The issue had been got me is the choice of which course you study. That leaves you with no direction or too many opportunities that you get confused what to pick.
Hugs 🤗
sometimes you gotta talk to yourself and let yourself know that everything will get better with time.
Dude the main reason of mental health issue is comparing yourself w others. I face the same issue. And I am learning to stop doing that shit. If anyone is reading this I wannna tell u guys “ YOU HAVE PURPOSE IN LIFE AND SO GOD GIFTED U W THIS BEAUTIFUL LIFE! DONOT EVER BE HARD ON YOURSELF!! “ Donot let your one bad day one messy phase in life spoil your whole life! Pandemic is so messy as we feel more lonely more miserable in these days. But still do try to reach out to people around you. STAY STRONG ❤️❤️❤️
Good decision! A big salute for your clarity of thought n honesty. Wish I had taken time off all those decades ago, but back then it was a no no. Yes, and I like your hair. These days I open the newspaper only in the evenings...plus that focus thing keeps changing , I wouldn't worry too much about it
I just completed my 12th, and I have been experiencing anxiety and depression throughout my whole 12th year and its very miserable to not to talk about mental health issues with friends and family. Once I have tried to discuss about my mental state and my parents have taken it in a funny way that you can't have and mental issues because you haven't seen any real life problems in your life and may be you are over thinking stuff like that. I felt horrible and helpless at that moment and decided that I'll never open up about my mental health in front of anyone.
really proud of you girl, I completely understand what you are going through, sometimes it feels it's me talking, only difference is the countries, feel lost too, hope you find the spark and you get back to the right state of mind, lot of love, harleen
Iam having anxiety I came to know during lockdown iam losing interest in things that I enjoy doing. My chest hurts, I wake up tired with body aches, Constant thoughts of losing my loved ones. But still managing to holding myself despite its being tough.
All of your feelings are valid... sometimes I go through that too......I hope you find yourself ❤️
You've made the right decision w this, I felt the same way with the 'passion situation' & not knowing what truly excites me a few months ago but i did a lot of research etc and finally found what I'm really into, hopefully you're able to find your own passion aswell. Good luck and take care
It's good to see that you are opening about your mental health and the things you are dealing with. Even I'm in a state in which idk what to do next. I completed my graduation this year but yet not decided what I wanna do next. Lemme tell you are not the only one even I'm going through a lot but I don't know what. I can totally relate with you Aaliyah. Just more power and strength to you and hope that you get out of this soon. As you said you were in a good state when you were in India with your parents do come back and spend a good quality time with them. Everything will be fine. Lots of lovee ❤️
THANK YOU. For sharing this❤️ I’m feeling the exact same way and dropped out of uni the second time this year and feeling super super lost. Sending love your way but nice to know I’m not the only one that feels like this x
And for me the best way to deal with my depression is moving out of my house and be independent and go to therapy cause toxic parents never understand anything neither they seem like they give a shit
I am 3/4 years older than you but I empathise and completely understand what you're going through. Although I somehow managed to graduated last year, but if I had the option I would have definitely taken a gap year and changed my major. It's amazing you have the courage to do that, finding new interests would do you good. Please don't think about being productive and competent, caring about your health will do you better in the long run. I wish I would have realised it sooner because my anxiety and depression has worsened due to the pandemic. I haven't been able to work after college but am gradually feeling much better.
I've literally been feeling like this for years now. And all i need is therapy which I've been delaying for the longest time that i can think of mainly because my parents aren't that much supportive and i can't bare with the cost. It's tragic how I can do nothing about it but just hope to not wake up the next day. You're lucky because you can at least communicate with your parents and also take therapy!! I hope you get back on track soon and this gap year helps you know what you want in life. Love luck and power to you aaliyah!!!
YOU GO GIRL. DO WHAT YOU FEEL LIKE. YOU GOT THIS. WE ARE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU WITH ALL YOUR DESICIONS
My education time was very depressing ..I got failed in 10 th class once, twelfth twice, was doing IGNOU also got failed, then did MBA got first year back..I did pay money, so that the college cleared my paper.... ...
I live in Ireland far from my family and friends. I’ve been going through something same mentally. Just this week i also decided to take a career break and go back home for sometime to focus on my mental health.
Sending you love, positivity and hugs
While travelling to uttrakhand I met a guy in his late 50s who used to be a scientist at the Baba atomic research center in mumbai and was now running a tea stall just a few miles from his home town. Hours of talking to him made me realise he was one of the happiest guys I had ever met. One advice he insisted on me taking back was that life is too unpredictable to have a rigorous plan about. It only leads to disappoint and self pity. I hope you have a great time back in India. And it's certainly a life changing decision that you're going to be proud of.
I am sorry to hear this, I know how it feelS like coz I am also a mental health warrior like you. I know it won't help you anyway but STOP THINKING YOU'RE WASTING MONEY OR YOUR TIME.
You have so many talents that i can see. For an example : YOU'RE a GREAT INFLUENCER, UA-camR, FASHIONSITA & your editing skill is topnotch.
see, so many doors are open 4 you.
I know social media is tough, I don't use ig anymore (TOXIC AF) but you know what if you think youtube is safe space. Girl, I am here for you and so many people like me.
YOU'RE MY A1 SINCE DAY1
Love you A♥️♥️♥️
I am going from the same trauma. I got selected in my dream University and I don't like the course at all now I don't have backup plan, but to wait for another year so that I can opt my desired course. But the worst part is I hate being junior with my school batchmates who will be senior after a year. This is the toughest time of my life or may be it will gonna effect my future. I am feeling hopeless. I don't know what to do :(
I graduated from design school a couple of months back and there were countless times I felt the way you described. Perhaps it’s the perils of working in a creative field, the beating yourself up feeling and the constant misery of doing something novel every single time. I too felt miserable, especially when I was a bachelor’s design student and could relate to getting panic attacks and used to the run to the restroom back in uni. You’re really brave to take control of yourself and recognise the need to pause and reflect. I’ve graduated now and life seems a little more peaceful. All I gotta say is with time, the pressures of college life did get lesser. Take very good care of yourself and your mental health. You’re wiser beyond your years! Sending so many hugs!!! ❤️❤️❤️
YOU'RE SO FREAKIN STRONG & you've got GREAT parents to support SO don't worry IT'S totally fine to take a gap & figure out things rather than being miserable doing u don't even like..YOUR LIFE GONNA TAKE POSITIVE TURN...CONSUME POSITIVE THINGS..SENDING SO MUCH OF LOVE & STRENGTH❤❤❤❤
Almost 10 years ago when I decided to take a gap year after high school bc of my clinical depression people around me thought I either got shit grades or my parents couldn't afford sending me to college. I did not blame them either, I myself wasn't really able to accept why I was doing what I did, but I needed it and I did it and never regretted it. I also did not go back to college after my recovery, idk I just did not see the point after I started my own business. I'm so proud for you and your courage Aaliyah, 16 year old me 10 years ago says Thank you and Good luck :))
Also more power to your parents for standing by you! From experience, your friends and family will be your superpower through your recovery. Always remind yourself that on the "bad days".
I feel you. Stay strong, this too shall pass.
I felt exactly the same.
And i prioritised my mental health over my studies for the very first time.
I skipped my exams.
And took some time off.
It helped me.
I hope you feel better ❤️
Girl I really thought it was some kind of apology video from that thumbnail. But you go girl, don’t let these thoughts bother you, every one heals in a different way and pace and you can take all the time in the world. Fighting 💜
More power to you ! Hope you genuinely feel better and get the strength to work towards mental well-being.
I also wish to empathise with those who cannot afford to take a gap year or explore interests because of resource constraints.
Even they deserve a chance to address their mental health. But lady fate works in mysterious ways.
For the next several months, put yourself first Aaliyah.
Your Mental health always comes first, never forget that. Whoever is watching this, please guys if you ever feel low or have anxiety issues, make sure to talk about this with someone you trust. It's very important to share what is going on with someone whether it is your family, friends or if you feel like you can't do that then please visit a therapist. Mental health issues are very serious and suck the soul out of you. And also, never stop taking your medication (prescribed by your therapist) even if you start feeling a little better, the anxiety can start creeping in again.
Even I'm feeling miserable lately but this decision of yours makes me happy!! Gotta introspect my life too!!
This video literally got me crying. Ik taking a gap out of school is not a small thing it's harddd, I also lost one year of my school bc of some health issues, my mental health was literally fucked up but now I'm just used to it. Don't worry about school cause at this point of time what only matters is your health. what you are going through now is not easyy but gradually everything's gonna be fine. Also is Be strong and be happy ily sweetie
such an important message you're so brave for sharing this
Hey, firstly I am SO SO SO PROUD that you put yourself out there because I know how hard it is. Whatever you said in this video, I have been through it all and I know how hard it is to say it to so many people because I have done that and people whom I trusted have criticized me about it.
Whatever you have said was my life till last year so I know how hard it can get. But as I been through that I know it gets better and it will get better. Just keep going girl. One day at a time.
I'm 22 year old and my weight was 37kgs because I couldn't eat anything. There was not one day that doesn't felt like shit, I never wanted to wake up.
But it is so much better now. I'm happy and healthy and I know you will be too.
Just try to eat healthy, try to get out of your house, do anything that makes you feel a bit stable and happy.
More power to you girl. Sending all the love and positivity to you. I hope you get well soon. 🤍🌻
Im 23 and i have the very same issues.. been having anxiety and I was suicidal since i was in the 6th grade.. even work gives me so much anxiety that i get nightmares. Everything seems so fkd up, sometimes I scream.. Just have faith that everything turns out okay.. keeping hopes about how I ll be fine one day is what keeps me going! And good thing you spoke about this.
Same hear👍😌
Omg I'm so sorry you guys are going through this but same i am 18 years old gonna be 19 next month and i chose the wrong course in college and I'm going to change my course and start all over again and I'm so depressed crying every day that i wasted my years It feels so miserable
I love you for not breaking down in the mid. It's hard I feel you. You will be in the best place soon.
Aaliyah, sometimes people doesn’t even recognize that they are suffering from anxiety, depression and bad mental health. At least you have figured that out. I would do meditation on “Chakras” everyday. I have been through a lot in the past few months and meditation has helped me a lot. Try to connect with nature, acknowledge things that’s going on in your life. Try to jot down things that triggers your anxiety, and work on that. I have tried these things and it worked well for me. Also, I am your big fan, I hear you and always feel more connected with you after every youtube video I see of your.
Love from Chicago, IL
Choose any sport and live with it!! It gives you everything and heals anything🙂
Dealing with almost same things for a couple of months now and I can totally feel you girl.❤️
Aaliyah, lots and lots of love and strength to you! i have been in your place for almost like a year and what helped me the most is yoga as a community and meditation. I recently joined the classes and it helps me heal and gives a calm state of mind although I do have anxiety attacks once in a while. But yes, this helps so i just wanted to share this with you and others who are going through similar things.
I had the same thing which you are having right now... Even I break down for like nothing.. I don't even know why... But I'm fine right now.. And I found my way! You'll find it do... Everyone does...! All you have to do is just hang on!..
Love you Aaliyah. You are a strong strong girl.
You shed more light on mental health by sharing your own personal experience, which takes a lot of courage. More respect and strength to you. take care.
I relate to this video so much. Currently, I am doing my masters from a university that I just want to get out of but the only way out of here would be if I could find a paid job/internship worth leaving this university. My anxiety escalated today as I can't seem to find any good-paying job and if I don't within the next few months I'll be stuck with this university. Just like you even I am not sure about my career and I am figuring my things out as well. We all will get through this together. Don't worry!! LOVE MAX
Hey, this is SO brave of you to share!! You’re absolutely right, mental health matters ALOT. You do you, girl! Life’s too short and precious to be spent miserably. You’re so genuine to yourself and that’s your biggest strength! Gap year or no gap year, you’re the Aaliyah I adore. Love your content and your candidness, I hope you get through this and come out even stronger! All my love x
I could just relate to you in another level.
Because it’s a lived experience and the toll it takes on the health is something I cannot comprehend. Whatever decision you take, it will work out if it’s meant to be. Don’t lose heart.
Aaliyah be strong, and courageous Cus trust me that’s what i tried to be during the toughest time of my life with Anxiety Neurosis.
Sending love from India 💚
I want to send out love and compassion your way. Every word you said felt like my own story but the difference is that I just endured the pain because I never had balls to talk to my parents or go to a therapist. I am definitely in a better place now though I keep getting these bouts of anxiety sometimes. You didn't deserve to hear another sad story but I hope you get better soon and come back to India. Family and friends will heal you. Love you
I’m a graduate student here in USA and have been feeling extremely lost and directionless in life these past couple months. Thank you so much for making this and being so honest. More love and power to you! ❤️💪
every normal middle class child goes through all that u r going through but sad part is that we have to continue with life and cant even talk about a gap year u r lucky
Ikr
You are better than you think you are, everything will fall in place you are the best💯❤
I was in the same headspace last year this time and im very grateful that I got out of it. taking a gap year is going to be healthy for you! also, I know it’s hard to not compare your life to others but you are where you are for a reason and so are they. you should totally surround yourself with family and friends because that will always feel like home! take care Aaliyah. if I can do it, you can do it too❤️
Even though I regularly wait for your videos on UA-cam, this is the first time I can't help putting a comment. I have also recently been diagnosed with GAD after a painful episode of panic attacks and anxiety disorder. It was also around the same time you started sharing your struggles with anxiety here. Your openness about these topics gave me a lot of courage and hope at a time when I felt absolutely lost. After watching this video my admiration for you have increased manifold 🥺🥺 it takes real courage to be vulnerable in front a random crowd out here. Thank you for existing 😭
I am glad doing UA-cam makes you happy feel free to take breaks whenever you want we support and love you ❤️🩹💕
You are such a sharp 20 year old, you already figured out what all paths you are gonna explore. It’s amazing to hear you already pan out that journey, pretty soon all this will be history foe you darling. Leaving behind a path for those who are still confused and in similar space
Lots of love and healing light to guide you on the forward journey! You will shine
Dear Aaliyah
I am so happy for you to have not needed to be strong and push through. I am so happy that you can take time off and figure things out. At your age the world shouldn't feel so heavy. I am 28 and I have been feeling all these things for the past 4-5years but I have had to push through , I have had to pay bills,take jobs and continue in jobs for various reasons. Past few months have been hard for me. I have been to the dark place you mentioned. I am still there. But it will get better. I read a quote recently it helped me , I hope it will help you too- there will be happiness after you but there was happiness because of you. Also , mental health being taboo is one of the few reasons along with the feeling that noone will understand, care or be bothered. Wishing you the best of everything for every single day. ❤️ Much love.
I am going through the same situation. Some days are so fucking hard that I want to die. So glad to see you talking about it on a social media.
dude same taking a year off from college cause of mental health and not knowing what exactly to do in life like feels like it sucks
Your strugles are valid 💗and i just want you to know ive been feeling lost too...and seeing you talk about it makes me feel less alone..so thankyou and i hope you feel less alone in your struggle knowing we all are struggling and we all see you and relate to you ❤❤hope you feel better and like yourself soonn
Lucky u got the supportive parent because some parent just force u to be normal rather than understanding ur situation… Go luck with ur mental health… stay strong ☺️
Aliyah, please take care of yourself. Everything else comes secondary. Get the treatment, do what all taht is required inorder to nourish you, come back to a healthier state.
Also, I have had no experience of mental health issues, but still I cried when I saw this. Cant even imagine what you are going through. But I am sure this is only a transient phase. This gap year will be good for you. You will figure out everything and you will be at a better place after this.
Only love and well wishes.
Aaliyah just remember that you’ll be just fine it’s just a phase and don’t lose hope i know you can go through it
Lots of love to you❤️
We are always with you Aaliyah, never feel low or anything wrong, you're our queen ❤
I hear you
You're not alone ❤
stay strong!!!dear one, Im really proud of you!!!
It is so okay to open up and you are strong to do this remember that❤
i honestly just want to give her a big fat HUG!!
YOU ARE SO STRONG AALIYAH !
IK YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS!! WE ARE ALL THERE FOR YOU !!ALWAYS !!
Aaliyah, I'm going through this right now. I even transferred from Chapman as well, but my relationship with school has remained the same even at my new school. I'm struggling as well, and I don't know what to do. I'm really happy you've been able to find some peace for yourself. You and your mental health deserve peace and happiness. Here's to having a quarter life crisis! I know we'll both come out stronger on the other end. Miss you beautiful sweet girl
Just amazing how a genuine conversation can help us understand those things that has been bothering us too,but couldn't articulate it or acknowledge it properly .More Power to u ❤️
I wanna cry ..sis please be strong stay healthy..i wanna see you happy .❤❤
Things will get better mate ..trust in yourself ...u have got this....have good positive company ...try to stay positive ...God bless u..it takes a strong person to say this ....
You are strong 💪 don’t worry things will fall in place…. Everyone has bad days.. I’m also going through the same stage like abt future plans , i also break down….just take your time.. n god will heal everything trust him. You motivate me❤️
I have your back girl. Been diagnosed with exactly the same things and feel the same. Do what's best for you. Hold tight, its a crazy world out there but there us night but is will come a morning. So chill and try not taking yourself so seriously, Thats what has been helping me at least . Passing away all the good wishes towards you and dm me anytime you want to just talk or blabber. I'm here. Love you loads muah
I am so much excited since I have started my school. You get to know people and talk to people.