I can't take it no more. I just simply can't. I have nobody, I'm all alone, and the suffering is immense and intense. He - the man I called my best friend - gave me PTSD. Severe PTSD. He left me in February. Discarded me like garbage. The grief is unbearable. He left me. Replaced me. My "best friend". The only friend I had. The ultimate betrayal. Complete abandonment. I wake up every morning: breathless and panicked: praying desperately just to die... How the actual fuck could he do this to me? We went from speaking every single day about every damn thing, and now we're strangers! My heart and mind cannot process nor comprehend: how this is even possible!! He replaced me for another. The pain is unbearable.
I am sorry to hear your suffering and pain. When we do not realize our True Self, we look for others to make us feel "more complete", as if our True Self was not always 100% complete. We often become dependent upon them. Our True Self is not found in others or with the help of others, not even awakened teachers. It is found in silence where not even a thought can intrude. You are now experiencing the suffering that comes from looking for love where it cannot be found. Our society tells us that love is found in another person. This is a common illusion. Often this illusion ends up in the type of pain that you are experiencing now. Love is found in the realization of our True Nature, which is love. Another person can distract us from this love that is always here, but they cannot give it to us, nor is there any need if they could. Our True Self is love. It is true love. And it is always present. Perhaps this painful experience is encouraging you to look within instead of without.
i remember this very same experience. It's been a year since this post and i hope you have managed to nurture your own self love. For me, i learnt that the one who craved love, could also be the giver of love. And I filled up all the feelings of lack with love. i seeked inwardly for my own love and attention, and let myself receive what should always have been. i learnt to be deserving of my own love and bonded deeply with my innerself. Eventually I realised that i had not lost anything and that i have always been and will always be. Thank you for helping me back then Peter. :)
Nothing is wrong with you. When you expect something to happen and have an expectation for what is supposed to happen, this gets in the way of an open, receptive mind that is simply aware of what is happening without any expectations for what is supposed to happen. The more open and receptive your mind is the more you will be able to feel the subtle changes that your mind is unaware of. In other words, the mind gets in the way of reality. That's all. Absolutely nothing is wrong with you. That is just a thought. Let go of your expectations and thoughts, and simply be aware of what is happening in the moment without thinking that you know. That should help.
Yes, Rohan. I also offer a silent transmission every Monday at 3:30 Pacific Time. You can find out about that and other things on my website n-lightenment.com
I love silence, but today something unpleasant happened. After 16 minutes something strongly pulled my hand. I got afraid. What does that mean? Could you explain it, Peter?
I don't know. It's probably a mental neurological effect. The fear is resistance to whatever is. My suggestion is to simply be with whatever is. If you feel as if something is pulling your hand, just allow that to happen. if fear comes, simply allow fear to be here. Whatever comes allow it. Don't imagine you know what it is. Just allow it to be. There is a great wisdom in you that does understand. By not interfering, it allows this wisdom to be experienced. Even when I said mental neurological effect this explanation is extremely limited. Allow it and let that inner wisdom arise. That is your only true answer. Nobody else can give it to you.
I can't take it no more. I just simply can't.
I have nobody, I'm all alone,
and the suffering is immense and intense.
He - the man I called my best friend - gave me PTSD.
Severe PTSD.
He left me in February.
Discarded me like garbage.
The grief is unbearable.
He left me. Replaced me.
My "best friend".
The only friend I had.
The ultimate betrayal.
Complete abandonment.
I wake up every morning:
breathless and panicked:
praying desperately just to die...
How the actual fuck could he do this to me?
We went from speaking every single day
about every damn thing,
and now we're strangers!
My heart and mind cannot process
nor comprehend: how this is even possible!!
He replaced me for another.
The pain is unbearable.
I am sorry to hear your suffering and pain. When we do not realize our True Self, we look for others to make us feel "more complete", as if our True Self was not always 100% complete. We often become dependent upon them. Our True Self is not found in others or with the help of others, not even awakened teachers. It is found in silence where not even a thought can intrude. You are now experiencing the suffering that comes from looking for love where it cannot be found. Our society tells us that love is found in another person. This is a common illusion. Often this illusion ends up in the type of pain that you are experiencing now. Love is found in the realization of our True Nature, which is love. Another person can distract us from this love that is always here, but they cannot give it to us, nor is there any need if they could. Our True Self is love. It is true love. And it is always present. Perhaps this painful experience is encouraging you to look within instead of without.
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i remember this very same experience. It's been a year since this post and i hope you have managed to nurture your own self love. For me, i learnt that the one who craved love, could also be the giver of love. And I filled up all the feelings of lack with love. i seeked inwardly for my own love and attention, and let myself receive what should always have been. i learnt to be deserving of my own love and bonded deeply with my innerself. Eventually I realised that i had not lost anything and that i have always been and will always be.
Thank you for helping me back then Peter. :)
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Thank You very much for being Peace Here, Peter.
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Strong energy. Thank you for the transmission 💜
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My wordless teacher...
Good morning my dear
I feel nothing. What is wrong with me...
Nothing is wrong with you. When you expect something to happen and have an expectation for what is supposed to happen, this gets in the way of an open, receptive mind that is simply aware of what is happening without any expectations for what is supposed to happen. The more open and receptive your mind is the more you will be able to feel the subtle changes that your mind is unaware of. In other words, the mind gets in the way of reality. That's all. Absolutely nothing is wrong with you. That is just a thought. Let go of your expectations and thoughts, and simply be aware of what is happening in the moment without thinking that you know. That should help.
can anyone use these videos...if not i just discovered your channel is this the right way to start?
Yes, Rohan. I also offer a silent transmission every Monday at 3:30 Pacific Time. You can find out about that and other things on my website n-lightenment.com
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Thank u
Beautiful, thank you 🙏💕
I love silence, but today something unpleasant happened. After 16 minutes something strongly pulled my hand. I got afraid. What does that mean? Could you explain it, Peter?
I don't know. It's probably a mental neurological effect. The fear is resistance to whatever is. My suggestion is to simply be with whatever is. If you feel as if something is pulling your hand, just allow that to happen. if fear comes, simply allow fear to be here. Whatever comes allow it. Don't imagine you know what it is. Just allow it to be. There is a great wisdom in you that does understand. By not interfering, it allows this wisdom to be experienced. Even when I said mental neurological effect this explanation is extremely limited. Allow it and let that inner wisdom arise. That is your only true answer. Nobody else can give it to you.
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Thank you