My entire life is a health scare... people have been poisoning and attacking me for ages, but I can't trust the local doctors- I'm disabled and need help, but there is no one I can ask- I could got to Rochester, but I have no one to watch my dogs, and they're the only family I have left. Apparently, I can't even date because If I'm not fucking Batman, I'm "co-dependent" and can't take care of myself- there are apparently no real human beings left here anymore. She is blocked- she robbed me, ghosted me, slandered me and left me to die. I doubt it has anything to do with my heart- a fall is more likely. Both of my hips were broken in a car accident nine years ago, and now I have degenerative arthritis. My stepdaughter was supposed to help me after my wife died, and I was even paying her, but she stole a bunch of money and ghosted me instead, so now I'm trying to take care of a whole house and two dogs myself- it's exhausting and my right hip keeps falling out of the socket. My wife kept me pretty isolated since 2017, so I don't even really know anyone else I could ask- I just need a roommate or something who can hear if I fall down the stairs trying to do laundry or something.... and I really don't know what I'm going to do after the snow falls- my shoulder is in the same condition as my hips, it's not like I can shovel the sidewalk- I may have to abandon everything I own but what I can fit in my truck and head south. There's no "changing the dynamic" when know one even cares if you live or die, you know...
damn, this sounds a lot like the counseling session I had today lol realizations I've come to and trying to figure out how to work through rn I have been coming to realization that over giving not only can hurt me but enable others to stay stuck the way they are too. (I was raised by a narc mother and still healing from it) there are a few weird tangled situation working out lol [I'm the masculine energy here] It's nothing sexual or monetary either it's of my time and energy and yes labor (I think it's about burn out) {healing from neglected avoidance attachment stuff} I am learning to find my power better, to identify my proper healthy position, reciprocation, placing boundaries, and self-care, etc...
Dammit, you keep talking about me... I picked the wrong day to quit sniffing model glue.
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😂🤣😂 now that's funny 😂😂
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My entire life is a health scare... people have been poisoning and attacking me for ages, but I can't trust the local doctors- I'm disabled and need help, but there is no one I can ask- I could got to Rochester, but I have no one to watch my dogs, and they're the only family I have left. Apparently, I can't even date because If I'm not fucking Batman, I'm "co-dependent" and can't take care of myself- there are apparently no real human beings left here anymore.
She is blocked- she robbed me, ghosted me, slandered me and left me to die.
I doubt it has anything to do with my heart- a fall is more likely. Both of my hips were broken in a car accident nine years ago, and now I have degenerative arthritis. My stepdaughter was supposed to help me after my wife died, and I was even paying her, but she stole a bunch of money and ghosted me instead, so now I'm trying to take care of a whole house and two dogs myself- it's exhausting and my right hip keeps falling out of the socket. My wife kept me pretty isolated since 2017, so I don't even really know anyone else I could ask- I just need a roommate or something who can hear if I fall down the stairs trying to do laundry or something.... and I really don't know what I'm going to do after the snow falls- my shoulder is in the same condition as my hips, it's not like I can shovel the sidewalk- I may have to abandon everything I own but what I can fit in my truck and head south.
There's no "changing the dynamic" when know one even cares if you live or die, you know...
damn, this sounds a lot like the counseling session I had today lol
realizations I've come to and trying to figure out how to work through rn
I have been coming to realization that over giving not only can hurt me but enable others to stay stuck the way they are too. (I was raised by a narc mother and still healing from it) there are a few weird tangled situation working out lol [I'm the masculine energy here] It's nothing sexual or monetary either it's of my time and energy and yes labor (I think it's about burn out)
{healing from neglected avoidance attachment stuff}
I am learning to find my power better, to identify my proper healthy position, reciprocation, placing boundaries, and self-care, etc...
lol I do kinda miss being a traumatized baby/mentally ill Barbie
I was literally thinking this today
I love you omg 🤣 you made me laugh at myself so much 😭 😂
It happened 10 years ago I'm over it
I like Pillow Talk... in the 3d... now...:)
vampires?... maybe... :)
take the Lost... move out The way... Disappear... maybe... :)
I'm the King of me...only... :)
They have a pacemaker, so a health scare wouldn't surprise me since they live so independently
not my problem... maybe... :)
I love you thank you
I like playing in The 2d... :)
Yay, first! ❤
Health Scare❓❓❓❓❓😭😭😭💯
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my god what a title 😔 thanks ali