Understanding Alcoholism, Addiction and Recovery
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- Опубліковано 21 лис 2023
- Please enjoy this episode of The Courage to Change Podcast that I was recently a guest on!
Hospice Nurse Julie McFadden grew up in a normal 80s childhood, but obsessive thoughts plagued her from a young age. The people around her constantly asked “why can’t you relax?” And she immediately internalized the idea that there was something wrong with her. At 13, she found alcohol and the thoughts would go away. It became her first tool to manage her obsessive compulsive anxiety. Now she knew how to keep things together, but she needed alcohol.
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I stopped going to meetings little over a year ago, shortly after my daughter was left a voiceless quadriplegic from a DUI driver. After watching your entire video, I'm going back tomorrow. It's been a miserable, dry year. Realized will care for her much better if I care for myself first. So thank you, dear Julie. Your video made me see the light again. A million thanks!
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😭😭😭😭- This seriously brings tears to my eyes. Thank you for being here, and there! We will go together in spirit!! 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
I am so sorry to hear about the horrible tragedy that your dear daughter and you have experienced, but I am glad that Julie has been a positive assistance to you. I thank God for your daughters life and know that she still has so much life to live, give and share together with many others! 🙏
Praying for you and your daughter 🙏💝
Oh so beautiful to know u need to go back. Terrible to hear about your dear dear daughter❤
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My biological father died of esophageal cancer brought about by alcoholism.
He was 49.
I was adopted by a woman who never drank.
Oddly, I’m allergic to alcohol so I can’t drink any amount.
I consider this a blessing.
I’m so happy you are free of alcohol Julie.
My mom was a nurse and also an alcoholic, and sadly was never able to get sober until her life was seriously compromised past the point of no return. She passed away 18 years ago. I know how hard it is. You have my total respect for taking control of your life.
Congratulations! Lord willing and the creek don’t rise, I will celebrate 20 years of being alcohol free on February 13. It is certainly a journey, and one I wouldn’t trade. God is so good!
I can relate to Julie, I lived for doing drugs period. I o.d. like 3 times and still didn't stop. Drugs ran my life. I would go to meetings and go to the bathroom and do what drug I was doing. Now I'm sober did it on my own. I will never go back using ever. I have been clean for Many many years. Thank you Julie for sharing your stories and all your videos.❤
Finally! I’ve been trying to piece together what happened with my son. He passed away 8 months ago from alcoholism having been estranged from us for 2+ years. He lived in isolation with his wife - we didn’t know why. We’ve learned he had quit drinking 42 days before he died and had gone to a dr who informed him he’d need a liver transplant. We were allowed by his wife to see him for one hour - he was already intubated and his eyes were taped closed - was awful for us but I think he knew we were there - I cannot thank you enough for this . He must have been in such pain - as his mother I weep because he had no help. He didn’t want us to know but this has been tremendously helpful ❤
That is exactly how Paramedicine is. We are worked to death and 12 hours turn to 14 hours. We have no breaks and we are extremely busy all the time. I have to put my foot down a lot bc leadership will push you to the limit and take advantage of you. If you don’t take care and stick your for yourself, then no one will bc they care about the bodies to do the job and not about me as an individual. I am a Paramedic and have been in the EMS field for 10 years. It’s extremely stressful and we see a lot. Emotional and mental exhaustion, but absolutely loving what you do.
Please let me be the first here to say that you are a HERO! I live in a mid-sized city and after so many emergencies I know many of the paramedics by name/site. They join you in being ultimate, yet absolutely caring and devoted professionals. I can't tell you how deeply I love them and respect what they do.
I truly hope that soon you will receive the best and finest respect and treatment that and your brethren deserve. We can't make it without you ❤
6 years sober here. I am a nurse also and alcohol was a way to keep my anxiety in check. Slowly around 60 yrs old , Alcohol did not work anymore for me anymore. I was always functoning , being a wife , mother and nurse , I functioned until my panik attacts gut out of controll.
I finally ask God to help me , and a week later my church opened a recovery program
I was the first woman there.
The 12 steps helped my me to identify why I drank.
Now in my 70th I am free and live my best life every.
Julie , thank you for your transparency . Your addiction / recovery make you a better nurse. Understanding the powerlessness toward substances , enable you to understand powerlessness in illness. Sending hugs.❤
Thank you for sharing your story. My brother died in June of 2023 he was 59 years old. He died because he was an alcoholic and was in and out of rehab and he couldn't do it. I wish my family and I could have helped more. I am thankful that I can see into your journey to being sober. Thank you again for sharing it has help me.
Those of us who now physically adjusted to an alcohol free status still have the emotions which may have added to the excuses to drink. So, once we have agreed not to drink alcohol and have truly eliminated this in our lives; the problems might remain. Most certainly we are more capable to handle these issues when not affected by drink, but be sure; they still remain and must be answered in some way. We can rationalize, avoid and blame but until you clear your baggage your happiness will be restricted.
I have a loved one with a 20 year habit. I have been trying to help them understand exactly what you just put into words. Thank you
Congratulations Julie! I’m going through my brother living with me and being on hospice… Twice in last 2 weeks my daughter has been hospitalized to detox… she is 36… been doing this for 15 years and it’s so hard. She is trashing her life… watching you gives me hope! You are amazing… helping in both situations. Omg it’s exhausting!
Congratulations on your sobriety. Something was missing, and I think you have found it, helping others. I was a functioning alcoholic for 30 years. Fights, jail, divorces, blackouts, and endless regret did not stop me. Job forced my rehab, and it took me a week to discover what everyone else knew. The Big book listed 2 signs #1 when I started, I could not stop, and #2 I tried to quit hundreds of times, and I swore by everything that I meant it. Yet I went back. In time I could not feel good emotions unless I drank. I actually have had the moment searching like a maniac, like Jack Lemon in Days of Wine and Roses. Mine was in the attic.
Thank you so much and I'm so glad you're here
OCD, metal health issues of all manner, and their relationship to addiction are so, SO very misunderstood. I have frequent conversations with someone very important to me that go something like this: “Spend every cent you can on a qualified therapist, and NOT on drugs or alcohol”.
Bless you, and all those who struggle and are misunderstood.
Amen!
Wow Julie! As a disabled RN, I always watch your show and admire your work. I have a few years of home health under my belt, but I always wanted to try Hospice work. My admiration for you, your work and content has just reached a whole new level. The fact that you shared this with the world is just so brave, and a wonderful thing to do! Your story hits so close to home for me. I was the wife of an alcoholic and drug addicted man. I left him in 2011, but it wasn’t soon enough. Everything you said, he said to me as well. He stole money, jewelry and so much more from our family. He moved out of state a year after I left him. Sadly, he died 3 years ago from sepsis (IV use) and pneumonia. Our daughters are still grieving over him. So my point is that alcohol and drugs touch so many other lives, not just the addicts. Congratulations on your sobriety Julie! I’m so very proud of you. Please continue talking about it too. I know it will touch so many hearts! 💕💕💕
I related to Julie so much. I was so young when I started excessively worrying about my mother’s health. I was alao extremely shy to the point of panic if I had to do so much as order food, God forbid speak in front of the class. I found alcohol at 13 also and it changed my in to an extroverted wild child. Drugs soon followed and there was no stopping me at that point. Decades later with more horror stories than I care to count I am a licensed therapist. I spent over 10 years as the therapist for mental health court and drug court trying to use my education and experience to help people identify they really can change their life….. with a lot of hard work on themselves. I’m a trauma specialist at this point in my career and my history continues to be a driving force to help people find their peace. Julie is so correct you have to care for yourself to care for others. Caring for my mental health, setting firm boundaries with employers, coworkers, friends/family and, most importantly, myself, is paramount in maintaining my recovery and my sanity!
Great testimony Julie congratulations on being sober and living life and for being a hospice nurse
I’m going to be hospice chaplain. I’m a hospital chaplain now at 29 years sober
It’s good to here you and your struggles but the joy in the change of your life through aa
Yes, take care of yourself first. My mother died at age 42 from alcoholism and left 3 young children. I was 71/2 years old. It was never going to happen to me. But yes. I have learned so much about myself. I love myself now. Liz from Anderson, IN 37 years
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37 years in A.A. Myself. I’ve been watching your hospice film and finding you’re in the program makes my heart happy. Liz from Anderson, I N ❤
Five years sober myself. No alcohol, no drugs, and I even managed to stop smoking ciggs. We are from the same area too! I'm from Elwood.
37 must be a magic number for fellow commenters of this video. How wonderful is that!
Timing is serendipitous. I got a DWI this week, and am going to my first AA meeting today. I've wanted to stop for so long. This experience might have saved my life. Just not looking forward to the legal repercussions. But I have so much to be thankful for. ❤️
Hope today is a good day for you.
Jesus can stop anyone from Alcohol, Smoking or drugs. Just give your life to him and he will help you throw it.
Wow Julie! You have have an incredible sobriety journey. I am so proud of you! I had some trouble hearing that so many Nurses have struggles with substance abuse and the horrible way so many are treated. I consider you all Earth Angels, especially hospice nurses. Thank you for being you and reaching out to educate us. I am terminal (not in hospice yet) and your videos have eased so many of my fears. Now on to educate my family! Many blessings dear one and keep your eyes open for those beautiful spiritual moments that you are seeing ❤
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Thank you for sharing your story. I related to EVERY detail (except perhaps for the teeth mishap). The pursuit of oblivion, to quiet the mind and ease the anxiety, on a mission for blackout. It was the solution (that became the problem). Today I'm twelve days sober (well....dry) and feeling so much better already. I can almost feel my brain healing, let alone my liver. I'm optimistic and hearing others share honestly means the world. Knowing I'm not the only one plagued with those destructive thoughts of 'I'm not enough' and 'I'm innately defective' and 'why can't I drink normally like those people' etc etc. Thats what gives me strength....and hope.
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Wow, great video! Congratulations on your sobriety!! Just lost my Mom to Alzheimer’s in Oct 2023. It was a difficult journey seeing a completely independent woman lose it all. The last 3 days of her life was horrific watching her and when she passed I had tears of relief. She was on Hospice and everyone was supportive and telling us this was all normal but actually watching your videos made me realize her body was doing what it was supposed to do. Thank-you Julie for that! I am a retired L&D nurse and yes, that feeling you get when life enters this world is amazing!!
3 years sober, and work as an addiction counselor. The link between anxiety and substance use disorders is just finally being understood - it's so important!!!!!!! Your story is so similar to mine and to so many!!!!! Totally going to show this video to my outpatient group!
Love your videos ❤
I relate to this so much and it really helped me put my alcoholism into perspective. I was very anxious myself. I had severe social anxiety as a child where I would have panic attacks if someone even approached me. I got into drugs and alcohol when I was in high school and used it as a crutch to socialize and be liked. Now my son who’s in middle school is just like I was, very anxious. We’re going to therapy so he doesn’t go down the same path I did.
I have been clean and sober for 37 years
Hi from another 37yr old timer. Recovery rocks 😊.
Hi Julie!!! Thank you so much for sharing this part of your story!!!
I have seventeen years sober now, all credit due to AA and the Higher Power. The tools I have now from meetings are priceless, as is my sobriety. Keep up the good work, and thank you.xo
There is something so refreshing about human beings who are authentic and real. Julie, I don’t know you, but I absolutely adore you! You are an exceptional human, I love your hospice work and videos so much… late last year I had a deep knowing I am supposed to be a hospice nurse… at 48😂. Just got accepted into nursing school and I am SO grateful for you and your awesome work and how much energy and light you bring to this world. 🦋
I got my 18 month sobriety anniversary yesterday, with 6.5 years of trying. Our stories are pretty parallel. I’m so grateful to hear your story because we’re now a part of a club that I didn’t want to be a part of, and once I let go of the craving for the alcohol, I’m feeling so much happier and blessed. Now I know I’m not alone and the darkest times I felt so isolated and dangerously depressed. It’s so nice listening for the similarities and this is a family disease. Congratulations! One day at a time, I’m hoping to be of service with my story, as well. ❤🎉
Oh wow!!! So happy for you! I'm glad you're here 💗💗💗
You Are Not Alone. I understand what you mean about being a part of a club you didn't want to be a part of. Yet that club has saved millions of us. Congratulations on your sobriety and keep coming back!❤
I'm happy for you however I personally never could get into AA or NA! I don't know why, but I didn't like them.
@@denisescruggs2157 Perhaps a different group? I went to many until finding my "home" group with ppl I could connect with & happiness. Wishing you Joy and a Happy Thanksgiving💕🦃💕
Thank you for candidly sharing your story ❤
I celebrated 20 years in September. After watching your channel, I decided to put my name in for hospice volunteer. Thanks.
That's so wonderful ❤️
Thank you, Julie, for being so real and truthful. Respect is given because you have earned it. Thank you for speaking forth this truth that so many need to hear.
Thank you Julie for your video. So many people deal with the pain of grief by drinking and drugs. Sometimes those things that numb the grief end up causing the disease that causes their own death. You stopped that from happening to yourself by getting help. Hospice helped me see that death is a transition to an eternity of life. I also know that life continues in heaven. My own son told me he died, went to heaven and Jesus told him it was not his time. He came back immediately. That was 30 yrs. ago.
Nurse Julie, I have more love and respect for you than ever before. Thank You for being such a brutally honest person. I’m amazed . You have inspired me to quit my life long addiction. (I’m not an alcoholic either) . I’m really high functioning also . I am going to retire next year. Sober. ❤U. Happy Thanksgiving 🦃.
Congratulations lovely lady. You have used your past experiences in such an amaaaazingly worthy worthwhile way. I thank you for that 🥰
Thank you so much!
3805 Days Clean and Sober 🙏💝 I’m Super Proud of you lady Thank you for sharing your story Truth 🌻 I Always Wanted to be a Hospice Nurse There is Something So Special About it! Love and Many Years Of Sobriety to you.
Julie you are one of the most amazing people on the planet. I absolutely love end of life but I'm going through it with my husband now. You sharing the story of how you're just a real person made you even more amazing.
I was with my sister when she was dying of cancer. I'd been with her that whole day, watching people come and go to see her. At the end of the night she had this raspy-gurgle breathing. I laid down on the couch next to her and fell asleep. I woke up to her son and his friend coming to say good bye ❤️❤️❤️around midnight or a little later and she had passed away. I couldn't have been asleep very long and then she was gone. Maybe she waited for me to go to sleep...
I miss her so much.
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l julie l wach your videos and yòur are such amazing person that talks about dying whiçh is a scary thing for and my familay my name is eddie from scotland l have been ill for 4 yeaŕ and been througe so many scans and getting answers to why l fell ill it felt like l.was chasing my illnesd for the last couple years calling gps one doctor had the cheek and asked what do you thing.is wrong wìth you my reply was try living in my body for one day it feels like been turn.away from hospitals when l was aking for help just took ill one day with gallblader stones with sweat and pain then developed liver disease now l have a small grade of prostate cancer thats treated tablets .for my prostate cancer
Hugs glad that you were by her side. ❤❤❤❤
Nurse Julie is such a baddie. So cool she spoke of her experience, I could totally relate. Continue doing what you do❤❤✨🙏🏾
Fascinating share of so many subjects. I bet you helped thousands of people by sharing your experiences. We do need to normalize life and death and discuss all our feelings surrounded by them. Boundaries are a must. We can help others by enforcing ours and in return respect the boundaries of others. As a retired nurse I wish all states have a good union especially for nurse to patient ratios and ones who consider acuity of care within these ratios. I commend you. You are doing a great job informing others. May you always strive for personal inner peace.
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Congratulations on your sobriety! Thank you for this discussion. Provides a lot of insight.
Julie- I’ve been watching your content for a while now and I love your outlook and spirit. You’re so sincerely loving what you do and I feel privileged when I get little pieces of your wisdom about death and dying. I’m on the second half of my years and appreciate what you give us all in your messages. If I should end up on hospice, I hope my nurse(s) are as much of a spitfire as you are. You are candid and frank with your sharing and when you say how your families respond to your explanations about their fading family member’s passing that they appreciate you for that, it speaks of your deep compassion and concern that the transition coming is eased some. Knowledge is power and when you add your humanity to a such a sad time, I know you are doing next level work. Dang you’re good girl and I totally agree about good unions! Your are a special person filling this world with your light. ❤🎉❤🎉
When I was growing up, both my parents were alcoholics. I also had a sleep disorder & my mother would give me one of her Valiums to help me sleep. I became addicted to them at 5 yrs old & couldn’t sleep w/out them. By the time I was 13 years old, I started drinking (there was always alcohol in our house). My older brother & sister would also drink & sneak out at night. Very long story short, I joined the Navy at 17 years old.
I’m retired now & no longer drink or take Valium. I was also functioning every day, but now I realize I function better w/out it. Thank you for sharing your story. We are both sober now, & feeling healthy! Love ❤️ your videos, I watch them all and the time.
I’ve been watching you for about 3 years. After watching this video, I love you even more. Thank you for sharing your story and your experiences. 🤗
Wow! I so enjoyed this honest conversation. I am so lucky I do not have an issue with alcohol but was curious what it is really like. The spirituality and end of life topic have always fascinated me. Thank you for putting this out there!
Julie, I just love you. When you started talking about the anxiety as a child, that was huge part of my story! I just celebrated 2 years. I love your recovery story and I love the work you do as a hospice nurse. You are truly an inspiration!
Julie thank you for being so transparent. This is one of the best open dialogs about addiction I've ever seen or heard. I come from a long line of alcohols. Hell I married one. I was extremely fortunate that the gene passed me, but I have to say I did try my best to become an addict. Your talking about your youth and how young you were when you started to partying could have been a recounting of my story. Fortunately for me, I'm actually allergic to alcohol. However, that didn't stop me from partying, hard. But, when I did, I always paid a very high price for my drinking. I'd vomit the entire next day, sometimes starting that night. I was never the one that could endlessly drink, I also never blacked out, however sometimes I wish I had. Lol. I often wonder if my allergy to alcohol was a very deep inner form of self protection. I'll never know, but growing up around my father and his brothers when they were drinking was terrifying. They were mean and violent. Never to me, but if scared me non the less. Needed to say I never wanted to end up like them.
Julie, congratulations on your 7 (almost 8) years of sobriety. That's a huge accomplishment and I know how much work and faith it requires. My husband was sober for 10 years. It destroyed me when he started drinking again. He continued to try, but was only successful for short periods of time. He was such an incredible man and I loved his dearly. It broke my heart that he could never see it himself. My father never did either. The saying that a daughter marries her father was so true for me. My husband was so like my dad. When they were sober, they were such loving, strong, supportive, brilliant men. When drunk, just the opposite. They are both gone now and I hope that they have both found peace and are together.
The lack of true understanding of this disease never ceases to amaze me. Even my best friend (of 65 yrs) has often said, "they just need to be strong enough and quit. I just don't get it.". I always say back to her, with love, you're right you don't get it. I've never met a single soul, who's life's desire is to become an addict. God bless you both and again thank you for making such an important video. ❤❤❤❤🤗🤗🤗🤗🙏🙏🙏🙏
I love the second last sentence of your comment, so very true
I completely get what you’re saying about being a nurse. I’m not a nurse but a tech in the emergency room. I know how I feel when I’m at work when I get out. Yes the nurse is responsible for the meds and seeing the patient but we as techs work one on one with the patients. I worked straight through Covid and held many patients hands through their last breaths. It’s a very hard thing to go through.
Also had to wash there bodies and prepare them for the Morgue or the undertaker to come and get them. I can not get it out of my head washing and brushing hair and dressing them and the putting a toe tag on them and placing them in a body bag. That last zip is the worst.
So so so hard. Thank you for alllllll the work you DO and have DONE. Thank
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Thank you. I can’t imagine what you went through. Thank you!
Thank you VERY MUCH! I am a nurse in Canada and have been off for a year now while I care for my husband who has Glioblastoma now since Dec 02 2022. I am also a person who struggles with alcohil and rhe feelings you shared about your childhood all make sense to me. I so far mught get to one meeting a month and this is a horrible disease and I will loose him soon. Right frontal lobe!!! Hospice at home now. I moved him feom Victoria BC back to Ontario where we have family. They don't understand how hard this is. The struggle of loosing my husband and best friend bit by bit and the struggle of alcoholism at the same time. Online meetings dont really help me. But Im coping with the help of the resources here for palliative care. Good nurses once a week so far for assessment and respite care for 8 hrs a week so far. But this is very hard. Your videos really help me. I really wanted to go your workshop a couple of months ago maybe next time. Ciao for now from Carla. Thank you.
Sending you love Carla
Thinking of you, dear Carla ❤️ Sending love your way
I'm glad you got it together, Julie. ❤
Julie, you are telling my story. Wow. Addict nurse here. Now sober. Drank my way through the last semester of nursing school. Thank you for your honesty. Pee the bed, go work Monday. Waiting to buy alcohol at 8 am with the other alcoholics hitting withdrawals, after working 12 hour night shifts. Nursing was so stressful and depressing that I needed substances to wind down enough to get some sleep, and get up for another night shift. I lost my nursing license after multiple DUIs, all related to pandemic. Now in school to be a mental health counselor and hopefully therapist.
Congrats on your new found sobriety. It gets better every day, one at a time. Meeting makers make it, so go find one and attend regularly. I still attend my home group every week and have 37 yrs clean and sober. If I can do it, you can too.
Julie thank you for the courage to share something so personal. As I am in recovery as well, hearing others share their experiences keep me on the path of continued recovery. ❤
Thank you Julie you are a great human being. Happy Thanksgiving!
Omgosh Julie.. you described my ocd and anxiety to a T!! The sleep thing started with me when it came to my first job.. I worked in nursing home on 1st shift.. I had to be there by 6:30am.. love your channel and I could listen to you for hours …
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Thank you ladies for this compelling convo. I found your Julie b/c my mom is on hospice. I wanted to be proactive in learning how to cope w/out wine. I saw your Matthew Perry post and mention of addiction. Searched for more and voila. Thanks Peter for making this connection with these amazing women in recovery. ❤❤❤❤❤😊😊
THE Most important and incredibly truthful video on this topic. Thank you!
Your profound video was amazing. Thank you for sharing and congratulations!🎉🌷💞
Thank you so much!
Thank you so much for sharing this part of your story. So important to share! 14yrs 🎉 ODAT!!!!
I used drugs 45 yrs to cope , blessings to you Julie
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Wow thank you for your transparency!!! Hit me in the gut but needed this!! Your vulnerability is a gift!!
This was great. As someone in recovery, it's always interesting to hear other people's experiences.
3 1/2 minutes in, and I absolutely relate. And, yes, I am an alcoholic too. Been sober 12 years. God bless you.
“Fine” is an acronym for “Fucked-up, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional”. Decades ago, in 12 Step circles (AA especially), I heard “fine” as an acronym for “Fucked-up, Insecure, Neurotic, and Egotistical”.
Damn girl … such a great video love your videos about being a hospice nurse but this video was so interesting about Julie : So glad you’re sober;)
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone 🦃
My 69 Birthday is tomorrow. ..heard there's going to be a Parade 😂🤣
Enjoy the Holiday & Stay Safe ✌️
Happy Birthday
You too!!
It is amazing how parallel our stories are! Even down to fixing the front teeth in the morning and the “blackout escape rooms”. We even got sober around the same time. I got sober at 35 and I will have 8 years in September. I’m am now a Palliative Care program administrator.
Thank you for your story. I learn alot from you and appreciate it.
My Grandfather was from PA….coal miner. He would pick up my little brother’s up from nursery school…when he opened their car door at school, dozens of empty beer cans fell out. In front of nuns no less! I would get calls from police that he was blacked out in the park (back in the day)…..I would pick him up in his car, crapped himself…,NONE of us grandkidddos or my parents drank alcohol. Being embarrassed and never wants be like him. Guess it was a blessing?
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This was such an honest transparent description of being a nurse in 2024. And I am a hospice nurse. Ex ICU Nurse and full time nursing instructor. I tell my future nurses exactly what you share
Hi from the second time I drunk alcohol I was highly addicted it got rid ov ov 17 years ov fear it made me feel brave and gave me confidence
Thank you. You are amazing to explain this part of your life. This does help in understanding. Such an insightful conversation. Thank you again for being so brave and sharing.
I can totally relate to the anxiety in childhood. I worried about everything and still do.
Thank you both so so much. Your amazing...both of you. I needed to hear this. ❤xxx
Wow, what a beautiful and authentic discussion about Julie's journey. Thanks to both of you, it was really inspiring!
Thank you, thank you, thank you! You rock, as tears flow down my eyes❣️
What a great episode thank u ladies ❤❤
Congratulations Julie. I have 14 years of soberiety. You’re doing a great job. 😊
Thank you so much!
I have ocd and bi polar it's to hard to quit
@@annbet3684 I suspect that it's important to get the OCD and Bipolar under control first. Do you have a therapist who can help you? Wishing you well today.
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Praying for you!!! Life is soooo challenging!! Plz get help!! 💜💜🙏💕
Great Vid/message Julie. Ditto, ditto, yes, yes! Yes, it takes big balls & the bullying that comes w sticking up for what is right takes some BFball's.....I love your tenacity & your honesty. We love you sooo much. Happy Thanksgiving.
Julie
You and I have so much in common that it blows
My mind. School, uncle's, anxiety the works. It amazes me ,
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You’re sober?! ROCK ON!
My father was an alcoholic, my brother, my husband, my father-in law as well. Thank God, I was never inclined to drink. I saw enough misery around me to know enough not to go there. I have a lot of empathy and compassion for anyone going through addiction of any kind. Especially the family members who are indirectly affected as well. It is a recovery process for all. Thank you for your honestly Julie. 💖🌷
Thank you for candidly sharing your story
Just found your channel, I commented on the 1st video, and now this: I'm in recovery as well, I like you even more! 10 1/2 years! Also I was the same when I was younger, very similar!(alcohol)
My baby sister is now suffering from LSLD-waiting for a liver transplant hopefully. It took that diagnosis sadly to quit drinking. 9 months sober as of now, still looking at an uncertain future😢
Sending love 💗💗💗💗
I can relate to Julie so much. I’m a retired RN and I worked in the field of haematology/oncology. I’ve never ever been able to relax, ever. I still don’t know to. I’m pretty sure I have an addictive personality. I never tried cocaine or any other drugs apart from weed because I know I’d have loved them. Alcohol relaxed me but dear god, the hangovers even after 2 glasses of wine were crippling. My late mum put it down to me having hepatitis A when I was a child.
There but for the grace of God go I
...beautiful powerless story...
Well heck! I love you even more!❤
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Not sure if you’ll see this since this video is pretty old… but boy howdy it hit me hard. I’m an alcoholic in active addiction, and this video made me consider going to AA. Not that I haven’t before, and I do want to quit, but man it’s hard and the addiction demon in me doesn’t want to stop. But this video gave me new hope and new eyes on quitting. My story kind of sounds like yours. I’m functional; I work, I’ve been getting promotion after promotion, but once I’m home all I want to do is drink and relax. Up until recently, I hadn’t had a day of not drinking for years. Every day. Not all day thankfully, but I’ve had vodka every day for2 to 3 years- and not just a shot or two. 4 to 6 to 8 to even 12 shots a day. Before the hard stuff I’d get plastered on beer, wine & ciders as often as possible. I know it’s bad and it’ll kill me if I don’t change, but the relief I get from alcohol is so, so big. No anxiety, I’m happy, everything is better (ik it’s the substance talking there). But I remember how my first drink ever (underage in HS) made me feel and it was life changing. “This is how people feel normally? At a gathering, you can just talk with strangers and not be in your head and anxious? Not overanalyze my every move?? Dang, this is awesome!!”. Time passed, I got older, and then all the loss and trauma happened; alcohol was my best friend. It made all my grief, sadness, pain just float away with a swig or two. I want to stop, but I’m scared. What life will be like sober. I don’t remember what it felt like being absolutely substance free- no booze and no weed, amongst other things I dabbled in. One of the reasons I’ve been hesitant to go to AA even the previous times I’ve been cut off by family/loved ones and gone sober, I never went to AA. I’m worried about the “higher power” part of the program. I’m not religious. I’m agnostic if anything. I know something bigger is probably out there, I’m spiritual too, but it feels wrong to subscribe to one sole religion for me. What if it’s wrong? What if another religion is more accurate? What if they’re all correct in a way? It’s overwhelming. And at least I’ve heard AA urges you to find a higher power to keep sober… and that’s where I get lost. Idk, I’m sorry for babbling. The main point is when I watched this, yes I was drunk, but it hit me hard. It made me consider sobriety again, and sincerely! Not feeling forced into it, a natural desire for clarity and being clean. Thank you for your channel and videos ❤ I only stumbled across you this last week and your channel is a new favorite. Thank you for all that you do ❤️🙏
Congratulation on your sobriety,,Happy Happy Holidays 🦃🦃🦃🦃🎄🎄🎄🎄🎄🎄
Same to you!
Great conversation. Thank you for sharing.They should start kids in support groups based on need as part of school to bring up a society of connection and community support and learning to help others...It is so lost especially today...Maybe someone like Matthew Perry would be alive today😢
Yep and it never ends.
That’s awesome Julie
❤❤❤love nurse Julie she’s such an amazing person
58 YRS of age. 5 month sober but fell of the wagon again a few month ago. Just found this chanel tonight. ...
Thank you!
Amazing story. I have never understood alcoholism. Not sure i do yet. Was always trying to figure is it low self esteem, a habit or really the effects of how it makes a person feel.
Confusing to me though. I never liked my head spinning or wobbilying around. That’s just me
It must be so hard so hard to realize to quit so hard
Julie, your description of life when you lived with your sister resonates with me, only with food instead of alcohol. That seems so weird
Thank you both so much, for covering this topic.
It was an hour and twenty minutes well spent.
I congratulate you on your ability to stay sober nursing seems like a very very difficult job especially when having to deal with families when a loved one passes it has to affect the nurses we are all human and have feelings so what you went through is completely normal. I love watching your channel I’m in palliative care myself and I do fear death but I have to learn to accept we are all gonna die it seems like my health is declining as I age it started In 2018 and now I have a blockage in my heart on top of osteogenesis imperfecta and Ehlers Danlos syndrome and advanced stage osteoporosis and polycythemia
December 22, 2021 My beautiful, amazing daughter passed away from liver failure due to alcoholism. She was 38 y/o. 😢
Hi from PA!
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