Depression for no reason is the absolute worst. It can make you feel so guilty. It’s part of my mental health I find the hardest to deal with. It’s nice to know other people go through something too ❤
Please don’t do TikTok. It is the worst. Also after following you from the Essie Button days, I don’t think we’ve ever heard you say out loud that you want to be a mom, SO EXCITING. XO Please don’t stop being open, as a viewer for so many years that’s one thing I’ve always really appreciated is that you let us into your life, even during the rough days. Just keep being you. Hugs for Effie :)
Been watching you for YEARS! And I just wanted to remind you that no matter how you are feeling at any given moment, you are loved, you matter, and what you do matters to me as I can’t speak for others but I’m sure the sentiment is shared by many.
Your videos are literally like a warm comfort blanket for my depressed anxious soul. This video was such a vibe. Thank you for being you and sharing when you feel like sharing. Been here for YEARSSSS and will be here always. No matter how often you post, I’m just happy you do. Love from Nova Scotia!
it's so weird and beautiful how happy you're making so many people, including me, specially when we've been following since the beginning, just by talking to us and being happy (we love you also when you're not well and we love you for showing it), being you, in all your forms and seasons, basically, it's an honour 💜 lots of love from Spain. PS: stay true to yourself and what you want, fuck trends #30s #relatable
When I was dating my now husband I was and am so in love and happy with him and our life, but also I was the most depressed I had ever been. So I really feel that duality of happiness and depression. I absolutely LOVE your vlogs, but I fully support you taking care of yourself. So do what you need to do to have a cup to pour from. Sending absolutely all the love your way! ❤️
I just wanted to say I love how open you are about your depression. I still live in a community where their is a lot of shame surrounding depression and it is looked on as a weakness- so thank you for helping to “normalize” depression! It helps me feel not so alone in it!
As someone who’s been watching from the beginning, at this point it feels like we’re old friends and there’s no need to talk about anything you don’t feel like talking about. Here for the chill vibes and healing sandwiches ✨
The life you have built for yourself and the things you have achieved are amazing, all the while dealing with depression and exhaustion. I think you're pretty amazing. xx
Estee you could literally make tea for all of your tik-toks and I would watch every damn one. Don’t overthink it too much - we just want you - nothing fancy is needed at all. Also, totally okay if it’s not for you. Don’t force it if it doesn’t feel right.
I’ve been on anti depressants for the past 6 years or so, and I always felt like they didn’t do enough even on the highest dose. Turned out I have B12 and Vitamin D deficiencies. Since I’ve started taking B12 and D, it’s kind of like the sun finally came out lol I feel pretty good, although it was a bumpy road for the first week or 2. I’d recommend getting your vitamin levels looked at.
Absolutely dying over how fast you said you aren’t pregnant 😂😂😂😂 so happy for you! It’s just nice to hear that nice things are happening for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I think your videos don’t have to be all that it’s just nice to see you pop up on YT 🥰 xxxxx
Loved reading the comments on this vlog haha, we really are a tribe “we’re depressed, we SO tired, we love dogs, we hate lots of people” 😂 I feel like this is a community and we can moan, share and love each other for who we are. Love you Estee, and of course Angel Effie too ❤
Aghhh man! I am SO happy that you’re so happy! ❤️ Totally respect you having those boundaries (ps: over the moon to hear you say things are going well ☺️😉) … feel you on that though like I don’t really share my son even though he’s the best thing in my entire world and makes me beyond happy. Hearing you say you want babies turned me to GOO
Been watching you for like a decade! So happy for you and proud of you. I love that you have strong boundaries, it's like a form of self care and in this world of constant over-sharing it's a breath of fresh air. Sending you all the love from a fellow Canadian ❤️
Oh hell yeah girl! I’m so happy for you! ❤️ Also don’t pressure yourself, if tiktok isn’t for you that’s okay too. Not everyone has to hop on this train 🤷🏼♀️We’ll still be here on YT!
I’ve always adored your vlogs because they literally feel like hanging out with a friend!! Like even the ones where you’re feeling down, nine times out of ten I’m watching it like “SAME GIRL” and I just bask in my emotions with you hahah. Just love how real you are and how you’re just yourself in every video, while keeping healthy online boundaries 💛
I have PMDD! I was diagnosed last year after years of thinking I had bipolar depression. It's pretty miserable and impacts all facets of my life. Half of the month I'm jolly and full of energy and the other half I'm SO SO fatigued and want to quit my job, abandon everything, lay face down on the floor 24/7, etc. I'm still trying to figure out how to manage it-it can be so debilitating. So far I'm finding that REALLY prioritizing my nutrition helps, but it's so hard to maintain when I'm in the throes of the luteal phase. I wish you the best of luck and please keep us updated! Loved the vlog as always🙂⭐
Omg Sarah ❤️💕 I also been diagnosed with PMDD 2 years ago after many years suffering... At the moment I don’t have any symptoms because I’m breastfeeding and let me tell you… life is something else! Can’t believe I’m not wanting to die half of the month. I hope you are doing well, send you a big hug and Wish you all the best 🤗 Pa. Bach flowers and yoga “really” helped me 🌸
Fellow PMDDer! It took 20 years to get any kind of diagnosis or treatment and I really thought i was just crazy for not being able to handle the mood swings, cramping and pain. We’re here, we see you, and we’re not fucking giving up!
I really liked that video, it was the right timing for me. I don't have depression and i'm not able to say "i feel the same" but you reminded me of me, having that sandwich and just a little spa day for yourself. sometimes life can be troubling and a little too much, we're living in a stressful time. so there i was sitting with my cup of black tea and brioche with butter and watching your cozy video. I'm happy that you're doing well concerning your private life. Sending a big hug
We love your videos because you’re so relatable! In this world of online and introverts nothing is more comforting than knowing there’s someone going through it just like us ❤️
Oh Estée! Your sandwich made me laugh so hard. A healing, CANUCK sandwich!!! I do the same thing and can literally feel the healing with each bite. I suffer from depression (and I mean suffer!) and you are doing great and really helping those of us who have times when life and living are just hard. If you ever doubt, know that making these videos means a lot. Take care and keep eating those sandwiches 💕
Every single thing about this vlog just explained why Glastonbury wasn't your thing 😂😂 I just love you and your vlogs so much. I'm happy you're happy, you deserve it. I've been having a really low day today, I started anti-depression medication a few months ago and I've been feeling better, but I still have these low days and I'm figuring out what's normal and not (and if I should up my dosage). My point is, woke up really low. Going to bed feeling a lot better after watching your vlog. xx
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Haha, what gave it away? 🥴 Sending good vibes your way x
I've followed you for few years now, and for the last week or two i kept checking if you uploaded a video. Glad you did. I'm not diagnosed, but i too struggle with somekind of depression and, it is only when i'm really willing to except myself as i am, never mind how much weight i gained, and more so never mind what happened in the past relationships with family and friends, and the real issue where those left me feeling not worthie or deserve to be happy and content with my very own being AND this is the real deal - when someone really loves me or good things happens to me. - i'm been throwing off from reality into those big much big of feellings of not being worthie just because i may have dealt with past issues and people badly and now i don't deserve having good stuff/people again in my like. I struggled a lot to make the real sense out of situations and stuff that are really not my fault, feeling i'm not enought for other, let alone for myself - MANAGING EXPECTATIONS from people and people out of me, me from myself and except that i'm the only one who can help myself with being kind and easy to my own soul. No matter how many people in our life will support us with this, doctors and proffessional help is very much needed but to an extent. Find the will within you and be true to yourself, it is not self excentric or been full with an ego, it is healing and being your own true best friend. I keep editing and adding more, but i have to, it is important. Once i studied hebrew literature in uni, and i came to know a term that has left with me and through the years it became my light in the dark. In Hebrew it is called "Shalvat Zetzachim" which means The peace of eternities. Finding the calm the serenity, quietude and act as much as carefree in regard of what has been and what is to be come. Because besides those Expectations i mentioned, the past and the future our lives in the present, isn't it sad when it comes to depression? To aknoledge that is EVERYTHING! I wish you all the very best.
Been watching you since your Essie button days. You're still one of my constants ❤️ you just feel so genuine and I love that about you. Happy to hear that things are going good in your life. May God bless you ❤️
One thing I always feel like I can relate to is that you're are going home when everyone is still partying ^^ Haha I'm the same way. I feel like every one of my friends are like Amelia and loves to party and after about 3-4 hours I'm more than ready to go home, make a cup of tea and just watch tv under a blanket ^^ Granny vibes all the way! :D
11:40 to 11:45 was the best moment 😂 "A Healing Sandwich" needs to be the name of a sandwich food truck 😂Honestly I totally feel you, you have no idea!! Everything you said about the festival and coming back home, like ... I feel that so much!! Seriously love your vlogs and how real you are, I respect your privacy and completely understand you wanting to keep personal things on the DL.🧚🏼 Please never stop making vlogs even if on occasion.💕 We love you Estée! And OMG that painting of you and Effie made me emotional too! I want one of me and my kitty haha.
I been diagnosed with PMDD a couple of years ago. Honestly, hell on earth 💔 being suicidal 2 weeks per month. I’m glad you are doing better! Love you, Estee ❤️ (watching you since the Essie button days)
I have never felt more seen. 😂 My boyfriend said “that’s you when we go camping.” I died when I saw the pile of wipes hahahaha you are amazing for giving it a go!
Thank you for your honesty about your depression, I really relayed to this feeling of having things in life being good but I feel so incredibly tired and enjoying my down time. I just am so thankful for you sharing this ❤️❤️❤️
This was amazing! Maybe you are not sharing a lot of personal things but you are showing you which is so much more meaningful! And you are funny as hell. So good to hear you are in a good place in your life 😀
I love your vlogs so much, they are my absolute favourite out of everyone on UA-cam! Just you pottering around your flat and doing your skincare etc is the best haha x x
I know this will sound bad but I purposely not watch your vlogs as you release them so it stacks up. Then, I watch them back to back to back. So now I am sad as I am done with this one. I could honestly watch your vlogs every damn day as you crack me up so much.
Yesterday I watched ' the worst person in the world" and I rembembered your reaction to the movie 😭♥️ so many topics and feelings in this one. Loved it
So appreciate your sharing. Totally relate to your depression journey as I have experienced this on and off for many years and it also is not situational. Fortunately we worked out a great treatment plan which works and I know to act early if i feel it creeping up on me! Happily married with 2 great kids and rewarding job.
I remember watching one of your fist videos and if you haven't realized you've got thru so much growing mentally and professionally that makes me proud and to be honest I really look up to you because you make things happen even though sometimes its rough out there grl!! Im trying to do stuff and make things work with my anxiety and dep. that I don't know how you do it! I'm truly inspired by your brands and your good taste of everything!!! cause I love the way you show yourself as being you! xoxo
You're my favourite person on UA-cam, LOVE your vlogs so so much. Also, with TikTok, would love to see you do more, and you absolutely don't have to jump on trends, do it your way xx
So happy you're happy in your personal life 💓 😊 you deserve someone who will treat you like the diamond you are. I don't blame you re Glastonbury - I love to watch it from the sofa, which is much more me!!!
I have a feeling many young people go to the Glastonbury mess because of the pressure, like they want to be cool and fit into the group or something but in reality they actually don't enjoy it that much. Festivals are definitely not for me either and it's fine - they don't need to be! I prefer a drink at a nice bar or dinner with friends at the restaurant, nice holiday, weekend trip to the beach but getting drunk on the wet field is definitely not my idea of fun either!
I love how much you lit up when you started running your bath and talking about Mirror Water. ❤️ So glad that things are going well for you in your personal life. Also wishing you luck with your mental health journey and hoping you find answers that really help. 💜
Even when I was younger and going to those 3 day concert scourges...on day 3 couldn't wait to get in the car and go home! Ohh I love those ketchup and pickle chips...I put them on my sandwiches, too, it gives it a nice crunchy texture. Such a cute portrait!
I would feel the EXACT same way after something like that lol the way you describe what brings you joy is 100% how I feel lol "a healing sandwhich"..."at home cleaning your flat"...laundry, etc. Love love your vlogs. So glad you're doing well and happy!!! ;)
I’m a person that does not get enough endorphins from exercise to make a mental difference. I have been this way my entire life and I HATE when people just say oh, work out, you’ll feel better. I don’t from straight exercise. I also have chronic fatigue which makes exercise actually very difficult sometimes. There are some studies that have shown proof that introverts have less dopamine receptors, and our brains react more to things like music, reading, etc. I try to focus on activities I like that also incorporate physical activity - like exploring a city or town, going to see a band, shopping where I’d be walking a lot, etc. Mentally this is engaging and I get physical activity, but I’m gaining a different mental response.
Never have I related to you more than the Canadian care package roster. My dad recently visited me in London from Canada and brought virtually the same flavour chips, coffee crisps, plus twizzlers and dill pickle smartfood (a wild new adventure). Also American cheese slices for life. The food trifecta would be complete if only Tim Horton's wasn't opening its first London location so far west.
As a fellow Canadian with British roots, I find it funny that your favourite chocolate is nestle chocolate when you live in England. The land of the holy grail Cadbury and galaxy chocolate is the best!
Love your content! Love you! Totally get the boundaries we all need them. So glad things are going well for you, you deserve the best. The 15 eggs made me giggle for some reason, we have 6,12 or 18 here in the US.
I LOVE your videos. Feels like hanging with a good friend. I feel like I’ve been through break ups with you-I’ll never forget that living alone vid you did with Amelia. It saved me. My baby’s in the other room while I watch this vlog lol!! Anyway, estee, you’re one of the few real ones on the internet. Thank you for being you and I’m so happy to see you happy❤️💙❤️ Ps I’ve never felt more seen in regards to Glastonbury. I could NEVER. books and home and tea-that’s my wild night 4 eva
I love you and I just hope that you will continue to respect your own boundaries and take each day and thing as it comes ❤️ and remember baby Effie whenever you’re feeling awful, the beautiful crunchy breakfast girl sunshine that she is and start again.
Fellow thirty something here - I’m going to my FIRST (and probably only) Coachella next year (camping ain’t for me either) and I have hope now that I can survive since Estée survived Glasto. 😂
Thank you for sharing your coping methods, Estée. I’ve learned more from you than I have in the last year of therapy. Also, that probably means I need a new therapist LOL 😂
Hahaha! I love that you gave it a go, bless you. I did hardcore glasto back in 2007 and I’m pretty certain that my 30-something body absolutely wouldn’t cope with it now 🤣🙈
Loved catching up with you and hearing how things are going for you! I always enjoy your vlogs plus I also felt like I had a wonderful bath and mask after seeing you enjoy yours.
Honestly Estée, I LOVE your vlogs. I can’t pinpoint exactly what it is, but they’re just so chilled and calm and just genuine. Always my fave x
Ugh love you both!!!
Love your vlogs, lily 💘
Feel the same way about yours, Lily. You and Estee both make such good Vlogs, always a highlight to see a new upload. ❤️
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Two original London vlogger legends.
I’ve been a viewer for probably 8 years now! Been with you through everything. I can take a hint. 😉 Super happy for you.. I still love your content!
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Depression for no reason is the absolute worst. It can make you feel so guilty. It’s part of my mental health I find the hardest to deal with. It’s nice to know other people go through something too ❤
Please don’t do TikTok. It is the worst. Also after following you from the Essie Button days, I don’t think we’ve ever heard you say out loud that you want to be a mom, SO EXCITING. XO Please don’t stop being open, as a viewer for so many years that’s one thing I’ve always really appreciated is that you let us into your life, even during the rough days. Just keep being you. Hugs for Effie :)
Really!? oh wow I have always wanted lil babies!
Been watching you for YEARS! And I just wanted to remind you that no matter how you are feeling at any given moment, you are loved, you matter, and what you do matters to me as I can’t speak for others but I’m sure the sentiment is shared by many.
Your videos are literally like a warm comfort blanket for my depressed anxious soul. This video was such a vibe. Thank you for being you and sharing when you feel like sharing. Been here for YEARSSSS and will be here always. No matter how often you post, I’m just happy you do. Love from Nova Scotia!
I loved this vlog, Estee, thank you for always being so generous with your personal sharing while respecting your boundaries!
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it's so weird and beautiful how happy you're making so many people, including me, specially when we've been following since the beginning, just by talking to us and being happy (we love you also when you're not well and we love you for showing it), being you, in all your forms and seasons, basically, it's an honour 💜 lots of love from Spain. PS: stay true to yourself and what you want, fuck trends #30s #relatable
Love this comment :)
thank you for the all-around love and acceptance! Happy you're here. 💘
When I was dating my now husband I was and am so in love and happy with him and our life, but also I was the most depressed I had ever been. So I really feel that duality of happiness and depression. I absolutely LOVE your vlogs, but I fully support you taking care of yourself. So do what you need to do to have a cup to pour from. Sending absolutely all the love your way! ❤️
I just wanted to say I love how open you are about your depression. I still live in a community where their is a lot of shame surrounding depression and it is looked on as a weakness- so thank you for helping to “normalize” depression! It helps me feel not so alone in it!
As someone who’s been watching from the beginning, at this point it feels like we’re old friends and there’s no need to talk about anything you don’t feel like talking about. Here for the chill vibes and healing sandwiches ✨
The life you have built for yourself and the things you have achieved are amazing, all the while dealing with depression and exhaustion. I think you're pretty amazing. xx
Estee you could literally make tea for all of your tik-toks and I would watch every damn one. Don’t overthink it too much - we just want you - nothing fancy is needed at all. Also, totally okay if it’s not for you. Don’t force it if it doesn’t feel right.
I’m proud of you for trying Glastonbury, and equally proud of you for peacing out when you needed to. 😁
I’ve been on anti depressants for the past 6 years or so, and I always felt like they didn’t do enough even on the highest dose. Turned out I have B12 and Vitamin D deficiencies. Since I’ve started taking B12 and D, it’s kind of like the sun finally came out lol I feel pretty good, although it was a bumpy road for the first week or 2. I’d recommend getting your vitamin levels looked at.
Thank you so much for speaking so openly about mental health issues. It helps a lot
Absolutely dying over how fast you said you aren’t pregnant 😂😂😂😂 so happy for you! It’s just nice to hear that nice things are happening for you ❤️❤️❤️❤️ I think your videos don’t have to be all that it’s just nice to see you pop up on YT 🥰 xxxxx
Being your unapologetic self is such a vibe. It suits you! And you made me smile :)
Loved reading the comments on this vlog haha, we really are a tribe “we’re depressed, we SO tired, we love dogs, we hate lots of people” 😂 I feel like this is a community and we can moan, share and love each other for who we are. Love you Estee, and of course Angel Effie too ❤
😂 I'm glad you all feel safe here!
As the years go by you make me feel more and more seen ❤️ I love your honesty!
Aghhh man! I am SO happy that you’re so happy! ❤️ Totally respect you having those boundaries (ps: over the moon to hear you say things are going well ☺️😉) … feel you on that though like I don’t really share my son even though he’s the best thing in my entire world and makes me beyond happy. Hearing you say you want babies turned me to GOO
Thank you! So happy you're happy too ♥
Been watching you for like a decade! So happy for you and proud of you. I love that you have strong boundaries, it's like a form of self care and in this world of constant over-sharing it's a breath of fresh air. Sending you all the love from a fellow Canadian ❤️
Oh hell yeah girl! I’m so happy for you! ❤️ Also don’t pressure yourself, if tiktok isn’t for you that’s okay too. Not everyone has to hop on this train 🤷🏼♀️We’ll still be here on YT!
"don't @ me, I don't care" is a whole mood
I’ve always adored your vlogs because they literally feel like hanging out with a friend!! Like even the ones where you’re feeling down, nine times out of ten I’m watching it like “SAME GIRL” and I just bask in my emotions with you hahah. Just love how real you are and how you’re just yourself in every video, while keeping healthy online boundaries 💛
I have PMDD! I was diagnosed last year after years of thinking I had bipolar depression. It's pretty miserable and impacts all facets of my life. Half of the month I'm jolly and full of energy and the other half I'm SO SO fatigued and want to quit my job, abandon everything, lay face down on the floor 24/7, etc. I'm still trying to figure out how to manage it-it can be so debilitating. So far I'm finding that REALLY prioritizing my nutrition helps, but it's so hard to maintain when I'm in the throes of the luteal phase. I wish you the best of luck and please keep us updated! Loved the vlog as always🙂⭐
Omg Sarah ❤️💕 I also been diagnosed with PMDD 2 years ago after many years suffering... At the moment I don’t have any symptoms because I’m breastfeeding and let me tell you… life is something else! Can’t believe I’m not wanting to die half of the month.
I hope you are doing well, send you a big hug and Wish you all the best 🤗
Pa. Bach flowers and yoga “really” helped me 🌸
Fellow PMDDer! It took 20 years to get any kind of diagnosis or treatment and I really thought i was just crazy for not being able to handle the mood swings, cramping and pain. We’re here, we see you, and we’re not fucking giving up!
I really liked that video, it was the right timing for me. I don't have depression and i'm not able to say "i feel the same" but you reminded me of me, having that sandwich and just a little spa day for yourself. sometimes life can be troubling and a little too much, we're living in a stressful time. so there i was sitting with my cup of black tea and brioche with butter and watching your cozy video. I'm happy that you're doing well concerning your private life. Sending a big hug
Thank god for a new vlog. I was about to rewatch old ones due to withdrawal.
We love your videos because you’re so relatable! In this world of online and introverts nothing is more comforting than knowing there’s someone going through it just like us ❤️
Estée, thank you for all that you do share. The angel portrait is amazing and I always look forward to watching your videos during my downtime.
Oh Estée! Your sandwich made me laugh so hard. A healing, CANUCK sandwich!!! I do the same thing and can literally feel the healing with each bite. I suffer from depression (and I mean suffer!) and you are doing great and really helping those of us who have times when life and living are just hard. If you ever doubt, know that making these videos means a lot. Take care and keep eating those sandwiches 💕
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I love your Vlogs so much. I just enjoy your „company“ so much. You’re like a comfort food.
Estée I think tik toks of things like your little trips to the country would be amazing! Just be you ! We love you !
Every single thing about this vlog just explained why Glastonbury wasn't your thing 😂😂 I just love you and your vlogs so much. I'm happy you're happy, you deserve it. I've been having a really low day today, I started anti-depression medication a few months ago and I've been feeling better, but I still have these low days and I'm figuring out what's normal and not (and if I should up my dosage). My point is, woke up really low. Going to bed feeling a lot better after watching your vlog. xx
Haha, what gave it away? 🥴 Sending good vibes your way x
I honestly just LOVE your vlogs and all of your content, it makes me super happy and calm at the same time! ❤️
Awww yay!! I'm so happy that you have found that person to spend your future with. 💗
Estee you look so relaxed confident and happy. So happy for you.
I'm glad you're happy with whatever is going in your personal life 😉 💜
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I've followed you for few years now, and for the last week or two i kept checking if you uploaded a video. Glad you did.
I'm not diagnosed, but i too struggle with somekind of depression and, it is only when i'm really willing to except myself as i am, never mind how much weight i gained, and more so never mind what happened in the past relationships with family and friends, and the real issue where those left me feeling not worthie or deserve to be happy and content with my very own being AND this is the real deal - when someone really loves me or good things happens to me. - i'm been throwing off from reality into those big much big of feellings of not being worthie just because i may have dealt with past issues and people badly and now i don't deserve having good stuff/people again in my like. I struggled a lot to make the real sense out of situations and stuff that are really not my fault, feeling i'm not enought for other, let alone for myself - MANAGING EXPECTATIONS from people and people out of me, me from myself and except that i'm the only one who can help myself with being kind and easy to my own soul. No matter how many people in our life will support us with this, doctors and proffessional help is very much needed but to an extent. Find the will within you and be true to yourself, it is not self excentric or been full with an ego, it is healing and being your own true best friend.
I keep editing and adding more, but i have to, it is important.
Once i studied hebrew literature in uni, and i came to know a term that has left with me and through the years it became my light in the dark. In Hebrew it is called "Shalvat Zetzachim" which means The peace of eternities. Finding the calm the serenity, quietude and act as much as carefree in regard of what has been and what is to be come. Because besides those Expectations i mentioned, the past and the future our lives in the present, isn't it sad when it comes to depression? To aknoledge that is EVERYTHING!
I wish you all the very best.
I also do a bunch of self care on the weekends + then watch Love Island ✨ It's my ritual as a cozy Taurus. Love that we both share that!!!
Been watching you since your Essie button days. You're still one of my constants ❤️ you just feel so genuine and I love that about you. Happy to hear that things are going good in your life. May God bless you ❤️
One thing I always feel like I can relate to is that you're are going home when everyone is still partying ^^ Haha
I'm the same way. I feel like every one of my friends are like Amelia and loves to party and after about 3-4 hours I'm more than ready to go home, make a cup of tea and just watch tv under a blanket ^^ Granny vibes all the way! :D
11:40 to 11:45 was the best moment 😂 "A Healing Sandwich" needs to be the name of a sandwich food truck 😂Honestly I totally feel you, you have no idea!! Everything you said about the festival and coming back home, like ... I feel that so much!! Seriously love your vlogs and how real you are, I respect your privacy and completely understand you wanting to keep personal things on the DL.🧚🏼 Please never stop making vlogs even if on occasion.💕 We love you Estée! And OMG that painting of you and Effie made me emotional too! I want one of me and my kitty haha.
I been diagnosed with PMDD a couple of years ago. Honestly, hell on earth 💔 being suicidal 2 weeks per month.
I’m glad you are doing better!
Love you, Estee ❤️ (watching you since the Essie button days)
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THANK GOD it’s not just me
Thank you for the honesty x
I have never felt more seen. 😂 My boyfriend said “that’s you when we go camping.” I died when I saw the pile of wipes hahahaha you are amazing for giving it a go!
Thank you for your honesty about your depression, I really relayed to this feeling of having things in life being good but I feel so incredibly tired and enjoying my down time. I just am so thankful for you sharing this ❤️❤️❤️
This was amazing! Maybe you are not sharing a lot of personal things but you are showing you which is so much more meaningful! And you are funny as hell. So good to hear you are in a good place in your life 😀
I love your vlogs so much, they are my absolute favourite out of everyone on UA-cam! Just you pottering around your flat and doing your skincare etc is the best haha x x
I know this will sound bad but I purposely not watch your vlogs as you release them so it stacks up. Then, I watch them back to back to back. So now I am sad as I am done with this one. I could honestly watch your vlogs every damn day as you crack me up so much.
Yesterday I watched ' the worst person in the world" and I rembembered your reaction to the movie 😭♥️ so many topics and feelings in this one. Loved it
omggg that film!
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I totally felt that joy of yours for coming back to home from a crowded uncomfortable youngster festival! Sometimes suffering is kinda good 😁
awe you’re truly such a gem estee, you’re doing great.
I completely relate to this ENTIRE video. I'm tired but in the best place of my life ❤️ quite the dichotomy
We want THIS. Just hanging out with you. No tik toks etc. Just be around you. Much Love!
Yeah, It’s always good to be home! Love your relaxation and homebody-ness!
Thank god for your honesty, I’ve always admired you so much for that.
I love your vlogs! They make me happy and motivated, and now even happier 'cause you're happy :)
The most I love about your personality is you are actually a really funny person ❤️😊 🥰
Yay, I got chills seeing that twinkle in your eyes! Ps Duality allowed: low mood & joy x
so cute Effie eating in the background...🥰🥰 Always looking at you.
more content with Effie ,please!
So appreciate your sharing. Totally relate to your depression journey as I have experienced this on and off for many years and it also is not situational. Fortunately we worked out a great treatment plan which works and I know to act early if i feel it creeping up on me! Happily married with 2 great kids and rewarding job.
I remember watching one of your fist videos and if you haven't realized you've got thru so much growing mentally and professionally that makes me proud and to be honest I really look up to you because you make things happen even though sometimes its rough out there grl!! Im trying to do stuff and make things work with my anxiety and dep. that I don't know how you do it! I'm truly inspired by your brands and your good taste of everything!!! cause I love the way you show yourself as being you! xoxo
You're my favourite person on UA-cam, LOVE your vlogs so so much. Also, with TikTok, would love to see you do more, and you absolutely don't have to jump on trends, do it your way xx
I love you on UA-cam! I will pretty much any vlog you put out lol. Even the mundane stuff!
I’ve been doing zen/ spa playlists with my sunset lampwhen I’m in the bath. Soooo relaxing.
So happy you're happy in your personal life 💓 😊 you deserve someone who will treat you like the diamond you are. I don't blame you re Glastonbury - I love to watch it from the sofa, which is much more me!!!
I’m obsessed with Luca! Such a sucker for a cheeky chap
Yesss babies the world needs more Lalondes!!
I have a feeling many young people go to the Glastonbury mess because of the pressure, like they want to be cool and fit into the group or something but in reality they actually don't enjoy it that much. Festivals are definitely not for me either and it's fine - they don't need to be! I prefer a drink at a nice bar or dinner with friends at the restaurant, nice holiday, weekend trip to the beach but getting drunk on the wet field is definitely not my idea of fun either!
I love how much you lit up when you started running your bath and talking about Mirror Water. ❤️ So glad that things are going well for you in your personal life. Also wishing you luck with your mental health journey and hoping you find answers that really help. 💜
this video makes me love you more! love your honesty and rawness xx
I'm glad you is doing well and is happy 🥰 Your dog is so cute 🐶🐕
Even when I was younger and going to those 3 day concert scourges...on day 3 couldn't wait to get in the car and go home! Ohh I love those ketchup and pickle chips...I put them on my sandwiches, too, it gives it a nice crunchy texture. Such a cute portrait!
I would feel the EXACT same way after something like that lol the way you describe what brings you joy is 100% how I feel lol "a healing sandwhich"..."at home cleaning your flat"...laundry, etc. Love love your vlogs. So glad you're doing well and happy!!! ;)
I’m a person that does not get enough endorphins from exercise to make a mental difference. I have been this way my entire life and I HATE when people just say oh, work out, you’ll feel better. I don’t from straight exercise. I also have chronic fatigue which makes exercise actually very difficult sometimes. There are some studies that have shown proof that introverts have less dopamine receptors, and our brains react more to things like music, reading, etc.
I try to focus on activities I like that also incorporate physical activity - like exploring a city or town, going to see a band, shopping where I’d be walking a lot, etc. Mentally this is engaging and I get physical activity, but I’m gaining a different mental response.
Your passion for the sandwhich is SO
INSPIRING!!! I might go to Glasto just for an excuse to have a post festival pamper next year x
As much as I love your content this is by far my favourite vlog! Thanks for uploading!!❤
Never have I related to you more than the Canadian care package roster. My dad recently visited me in London from Canada and brought virtually the same flavour chips, coffee crisps, plus twizzlers and dill pickle smartfood (a wild new adventure). Also American cheese slices for life. The food trifecta would be complete if only Tim Horton's wasn't opening its first London location so far west.
Aw i'm so happy you are happy in your relationship
As a fellow Canadian with British roots, I find it funny that your favourite chocolate is nestle chocolate when you live in England. The land of the holy grail Cadbury and galaxy chocolate is the best!
Love your content! Love you! Totally get the boundaries we all need them. So glad things are going well for you, you deserve the best. The 15 eggs made me giggle for some reason, we have 6,12 or 18 here in the US.
I LOVE your videos. Feels like hanging with a good friend. I feel like I’ve been through break ups with you-I’ll never forget that living alone vid you did with Amelia. It saved me. My baby’s in the other room while
I watch this vlog lol!! Anyway, estee, you’re one of the few real ones on the internet. Thank you for being you and I’m so happy to see you happy❤️💙❤️ Ps I’ve never felt more seen in regards to Glastonbury. I could NEVER. books and home and tea-that’s my wild night 4 eva
I see my school friends go still (I’m almost 32) and I’m like I simply know I would not survive that 😂 very impressed with your two days!
I genuinely do not have the stamina
I love you and I just hope that you will continue to respect your own boundaries and take each day and thing as it comes ❤️ and remember baby Effie whenever you’re feeling awful, the beautiful crunchy breakfast girl sunshine that she is and start again.
Again such a good vlog, I always feel so inspired ! Thank you for charing ❤️
Estée I would never have lasted as long as you at Glastonbury!!!! Well done 😂
I salute you for trying 🥰🥰🥰
I gave it a good go!
Estee I love your vlogs well done for getting out of your comfort zone going to Glastonbury
Keep vlogging Estee.
I love your vlogs, especially this one with the sandwich, its so relatable with what im feeling🤣
Fellow thirty something here - I’m going to my FIRST (and probably only) Coachella next year (camping ain’t for me either) and I have hope now that I can survive since Estée survived Glasto. 😂
As a Brit living in the US, the small glimpse of M&S food was 😍❤️🤩
You’ve inspired me to take care of myself so for that I am thankful.
Estee's vlog never fails me.
Thank you for sharing your coping methods, Estée. I’ve learned more from you than I have in the last year of therapy. Also, that probably means I need a new therapist LOL 😂
Hahaha! I love that you gave it a go, bless you. I did hardcore glasto back in 2007 and I’m pretty certain that my 30-something body absolutely wouldn’t cope with it now 🤣🙈
The thumbnail on this is everything 😂 I’m with you on Glastonbury. I really wish I was a festival/camping person but I just can’t handle it 😂
Loved catching up with you and hearing how things are going for you! I always enjoy your vlogs plus I also felt like I had a wonderful bath and mask after seeing you enjoy yours.
I wish you could share more. I relate to you so much.
I have been waiting for this vlog Estée! 🤍 🇨🇦 🇬🇧👸🏼