Absoloutely! I had to find this out for myself. As a recovering addict everything was all about me and my feelings until there was a time I couldn't even see my children at that point I totally changed my thinking then my life, its been almost 9 yrs since they've been home❤
I agree. I had my daughter young partying, drinking fresh out of college.. She's two now couldn't imagine doing the things I did at 22 before i had her. We can make or break them by our decisions.. Much love to you ❤.
Hey! Blessings to you from Alabama. She is my daughters aunt by her half brother in Alabama. Can you please tell her im rooting for her and believe in her?❤ I see an angel around her. I have no way to reach her but if u can please tell her she has an 8 yr old niece who looks like her and that I believe in her!!! Thank you so much! Blessings to her!
She’s right... Moms do get jealous. Especially when you do things and elevate in life and they couldn’t. A lot of moms out here are trash. Period. End the cycle with you ❤️
@@reddwarrior2249 and it’s pathetic and sad at the same time the amount of women out here that have no relationship with their moms.... Well they have to deal with the decisions they made. Mine knows why I have no dealings with her. I wouldn’t want this for me and my daughter. 👌🏾♥️
Yes, she's really struggling internally as well. I'm not understanding why her mom would have her child being she was a bad role model and alcoholic to her. Unfortunately, the cycle repeats itself. She has so much to give if only she would trust someone to help her.
@@jeep19 meth is a drug, a chemical. Tf do you mean "drug chemicals in the meth", smh. Yes, meth can make you r3tarded/kill brain cells, but she's clearly still about as intelligent as before starting meth probably. She's pausing because of trauma, not that dude
Sorry for saying the forbidden r-word😱, but I mean the medical definition. "Stupid" or "dumb" doesn't describe it as well imo. Also, it's not only the meth that's killing brain cells, it's the staying for days and malnutrition. She looks like she still manages to sleep and eat a somewhat healthy amount, so that's why she sounds normal and has normal intelligence. Last point, when you quit meth, your brain is amazing at repairing itself within a year or half a year, maybe even less
Gross. You're gross. The person in this vid is gross. At no point in her life was she ever considered to be "cute". Why is the world so gross. Can people not tell the difference between nobility and slum-dwelling? Daily reminder that the average black person consumes a million dollars over the course of their lifetime, in welfare alone, not even counting court/jail costs, and many other gov services.
When she was beginning to tell her story, it looked like she was reliving it all in her mind. I hope she seeks out help for the trauma she’s dealt with, so she can move on to better things in life. She definitely seems capable of it. Stay safe Anaya ❤️❤️❤️ - Id like to see an update of her.
Yes, her shit isn't crusted over and calloused like a lot of interviewees. Telling the surface of her stories, it all seems raw and fresh and ready for a good cleansing and healing. She just need to talk it out and hopefully get some trauma counseling.
@Phil Lashio if you don’t like black women and you have a 1 inch D , that’s your thing. Stop questioning every person that thinks that she’s beautiful. She is
I fought my daughters mother tooth and nail for custody of my daughter. She is 25 now I was granted full custody when she was 7. I literally fought for her life to give her a chance in life. Looking back I can’t tell you how I did it. I just did it. Single mothers do it every day, I just did it as a single dad. It was worth it to literally save her life from what it could have been and give her a fighting chance to be all she can be. Thank you for sharing your story.
This made me smile. Love to hear some of the untold stories of men giving their all to be the fathers their children deserve....especially single dads. My father did it to. God bless. ♥️
@Phil Lashio lol I don’t care of you think I’m beautiful or not. I AM BEAUTIFUL because GOD made me. Who made you? Satan? Where’s your picture, you faceless troll. Grow up
@Phil Lashio and guess what... I wear my natural hair.. I wear other people.. I’ll wear your mama hair. If I can afford to switch up because my pockets allow it... hey, why not 🤪
Agreed. I teach high school kiddos and she seems closer to them in age than her actual 23 years too. I just want to reach out to her, look her in the eyes, and tell her that she is so valuable.
She’s still talking from a child’s point of view.. if she gets therapy, her life could change drastically. It definitely changed for me. She can definitely change her life around. She has a beautiful soul.
Yes she does..I felt it through the screen. She just sounds like she was not given the chance, childhood taken away from her and is stuck in that cycle hence the meth addiction
I was thinking the same. She’s chasing what she deserved in the past. She will be stuck with memories and loathing the present until she gets good therapy.
As blk women we need to love are daughter's. I was molested at 6. My mom walked in on it . She stopped it but did nothing. She beat me for weeks because I wouldn't verbally say what happened. I have so many issues as a adult. I wish I had someone to talk to. Someone to just hug me. I can't even make friends much less function in normal settings.
I'm so sorry you had to experience that. I know it really affect all aspects of your life. I wish I could hug you and love you. I pray you get the support and therapy you need. I'm here if you wanted to reach out to me. You're beautiful angel
I wish I could give you a hug and hold you for a few minutes and let you know that you are loved and that you matter. Love and blessings and healing to you. All positive vibes.
What a beautiful gentle soul. How I wish I could be there for her. She's so innocent . My heart weeps for her. Anaya if you read this please remember each day how beautiful you are.
This comment warms my heart, I feel the same way. Bless you Matthew for your empathy and feeling for others. I hope you're well and safe in this scary time.
She's beautiful! Heavenly Father, I petition you to touch this young woman. I ask that you magnify her self worth, give her favor, supernatural healing and an abundance of love and support. ❤
She needs to know how captivating and elegant she really is. She’s aware of what was wrong with her childhood, she WILL overcome this and figure it out. I love who she is! ❤️
Coming from a very similar background as she to hear you say that about her is so greatly appreciated... Life is so unfair to most us us.. it's pain that never goes away no matter what you do... The pain is too deep.
@@tashs758 it’s so important that we all keep an eye out for these kids, in passing, at the store, schools, anywhere you see them, take a moment to observe, if a red flag shows itself get involved! If there are people victimizing children it’s our responsibility to pay attention and do the right thing. ❤️
Thank you @jennifer j this is my sister and there’s so much more to this story. Her story. She is doing well and we’re helping her get the help she needs. It’s just a challenge because she has her days but my family is supporting her and doing all we can
@@ambermcclendon6114 I put my family through it, I literally had to sleep for 6 months to get well they didn’t understand that but that’s what it took for me., sleep, eat, sleep. I really hope the best for her, she can do it, I know it’s hard on everyone but it will get better.
I see a lot of myself in her. I’m 24, I’m not on the streets or on drugs but I have an eating disorder, OCD and PTSD and persistent major depression. I have very little self worth due to my childhood. It’s hard to find your way when you don’t know who you are. When you’re told at a young age that you’re not good enough, or treated like a lesser by those who are supposed to love you. You feel like you don’t deserve life, and you have to reparent yourself into realizing that you do, in fact have purpose, and worth. Until then you just bumble around, waking up for no reason.
I am praying 4 you n her ..... Just know u are special ..u are loved .... I have love and compassion for u ... U are so much stronger than u think just to be able to express yourself like u just did. .... 1 you are beautiful inside n out look how u show love n compassion for her .... I love you n you strength u on the way to better trust in God n the hell with the people n spirits that make u feel less than because u are more than better than most ❤🖤💚🦋👍🏾
Parents stop belittling and disrespecting your children by calling them bitches and hoes that's a scar so many children don't get over you are beautiful Anaya and you will overcome it all love keep praying and keep your faith if know one has said they love you today just know someone does and that's me I love you beautiful
It seems as though this is the first time she’s actually sat and thought about all this stuff and her life and I hope she realizes her worth and how beautiful she is. It’s truly heartbreaking
OMG! my daughter is 23 years old! I came from a very dysfunctional household & I made a promise to myself, I would never live the life my mom had& I would never leave my child with her either. I kept that promise. I am 54 years old & although I had only one child, she looks back at her childhood & told me I gave her the best childhood living in The Beautiful Bronx, NYC. Not all parts of the Bronx is bad. I hold my head high & my heart elated. Not everyone is so lucky. I feel so bad looking at Anaya's solutions to her problems. I wish I lived nearby to help her because its never too late!
I see a girl who’s a victim of narcissistic parenting. She’s very sweet but has the low self esteem.. as if she thinks she doesn’t deserve to have a joyful life.
@@marnethiabell3009 Hang in there, honey. My mom was jealous of me because my dad would praise me while verbally abusing her. It had nothing to do with me. Remember that it has nothing to do with anything you did or didn't do. When I finally accepted that I couldn't please her or get the love I wanted from her, I was free from her cruelty. And then I could see, just as she wanted me to be a different person, I wanted her to be different. Staying a safe distance from her greatly improved my life and I became much happier.❤
Mark I just want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! Because of you I can finally say what happened to me. I cam finally get the balls to say who and how i got molested by. Because of you I got the courage to speak up. I thank you so much for your work. This shit has taken me years to even give a hint that something was going on with me. It's been really hard 😥 no one ever understood why i acted the way i use to but little did they know that i was getting sexually abused. It's been so hard keeping these secrets inside.
I pray GOD continues to be with you June Bug! On your journey of facing trauma and allowing your mind and soul to be healed. While striving to be ✨"whole"👑
23 😔 this is so sad !! I pray you get better Anaya. I pray you get that apartment and a good Job . I’m praying for you ! I have a strong feeling your life is about to change !
I pray that addiction turns this girl loose. She looks so young and helpless. Like I’m sure if she got the opportunity to really breakthrough and change her life she would. ✨praying for her.
Anaya, when I look at you I see a truly beautiful, compassionate and worthy young woman who still has the reins in her hands to steer towards a better life. You're incredibly smart and seem like you can do anything you put your mind to. I wish you peace of mind and the courage to answer the call of the unfamiliar.
Her intelligence adds depth and profoundness to her life experiences, allowing her to conceptualize them in a way that those around her aren't. This, I believe, has a great deal to do with her deep pain, and how she is coping. Sending her all of the light and love tonight and always 💖💖💖
I’ve seen someone mention before on here but with this interview specifically from how she was answering Marks questions, Mark must become more trauma informed as a person not being a professional like a licensed therapist or psychologist who have the tools to have these tough conversations and open these wounds with people who have dealt/experienced adverse childhood experiences (ACES) all of their life, as someone myself who works with people who have substance use disorders and/or co-occurring mental health disorders it is important to not open these wounds if you don’t know how to serve or continually ask these questions as you can see how difficult it is for many of these people to discuss their own personal issues.
The part about the teacher embarrassed her in front of the class (especially all white students) hit home hard for me. Teachers should be punished for stuff like this. I really don’t understand the logic behind this of calling a kid to come up the board when they clearly knows the child doesn’t know the answer. There are many ways you can help a child without making them look stupid.
So much racial bias in schools. I grew up in an area not far from her and experienced the same. I remember raising my hand in my all white class because I knew the answer and the teacher called on everyone but me. I felt that on a deep level and never forgot it. I am a teacher now and even when I have to reprimand my students, I make sure to give them positive compliments and encouragement. It's amazing how that fuels even the most insecure child.
The teacher couldn't control the students from laughing at her, but the teacher should have defended her. It would not have left such a huge scar. There are so many things the teacher could have done to support her. She could have worked with her individually. She could have paired her with another student who was doing well in the class. The trauma with this young woman is that she has never really felt fully supported by the people around her.
She's so hurt and so traumatized. I hope one of her siblings sees this and can find her. She needs someone to love her enough to help her understand what love is and how to love herself. She has potential. She's been through things and you can tell that when she spoke about it, it was killing her inside. Sending her all the love and hope that she can make a better life for herself.
When she said, “I know I’m going to make it” that made Me smile because deep down she does want better for herself. She just gotta believe and have faith that she can do it.
I read this somewhere and it's so true, childhood trauma is the real gateway drug. These people did not deserve these effed up parents, so much pain in her eyes. I wanna give her a hug !
What a natural beauty. All the things you've been through may have been hard to take but use them to allow them to shape you. You are clearly strong. Dont give up hope. You can go far believe it
She's physically holding her lips together like she's holding back from saying things. She's not lying and she's not obligated to give us her life story. I would like for her to get the help she needs. ❤️
She's holding back so much. She has trauma and abuse in her history and I think this has kept her almost childlike. I hope the adults who failed her will one day move forward and sustain her. It's the very least they can do...
First, never would have thought she was a meth user. Secondly, It saddens me to see her drinking herself... and third she is absolutely beautiful. Her flame isn’t completely out. She needs to have faith in herself. If she can survive all her trauma she can create a life worth living now that she’s in control of her path.
This is so sad, breaks my heart to watch this. She is traumatized and she needs help. I commend her for sharing her story and it’s great this platform is available to provide insight and understanding. May God keep her and help her to turn her life around.
So so sad. I can tell she’s a smart young lady with a broken heart: Praying for this young lady. She just needs help and love. She can get thru this and she will 🙏🏽
Anaya spoke to me more than perhaps anyone I've seen on this platform. Her depression is so evident... it's in her voice, it's in her body language, it's in her story. So much pain. So much trauma from her mother's neglect, verbal abuse, and emotional abandonment. She strikes me as so smart, self-possessed, insightful, and mature... it's easy to envision her reclaiming her life. Anaya, if you ever read this, I'm rooting for you. And if you're still in L.A. and open to it, I'll meet you at an NA/AA meeting any day of the week (I've been clean & sober for a bunch of years now, and in my experience, the more support -- church, 12-step fellowships, therapy, whatever -- the better.) Sending love.
Just because someone does drugs doesn't mean they will fit the typical addict model, I know plenty of "functioning" addicts that you would never guess do drugs.... Plus alcohol is a depressant and counter acts meths high effect, normally it's the lack of sleep that causes the tics and movement not so much the drugs, I hope she can find a support system and turn her life around she's still so young!!
@@sweetsuzie9346 I didn't take it as an insult I was just saying in my experience there is no typical addict, a lot of people don't get help because they hide their addiction so we'll from their family and friends. People who don't have experience with addiction wouldn't know that, just trying to spread some education/information I don't think you are insulting her 🙂
You can sense her disassociating as she’s talking. She’s a sensitive person who has built an armor of steel. When light shines in, she doesn’t know how to react. I hope she finds help to get her life turned around and finds the help she needs mentally as well.
@@adams8830 but if her answer wasn’t actually Inglewood, why did he try to make her say Inglewood? she was trying to say that’s not where she was raised & he kept telling her to say it was.
She seems so held back. Like she is soo careful with what she says 🥺 I feel so bad cause she needs to open up to the right people to get better and feel safe 💔
it’s crazy to think about the similarities between my childhood and some of the people that mark interviews. im happy my mom got her shit together. im happy that she motivated and encouraged me and my sister to make a better life for ourselves. forever fucking thankful. wishing the best for this beautiful woman ❤️
I see myself in her and my heart wants to hug her so bad. My mom told me on more than one occasion I would end up on skid row when I was a very little girl and I never knew what it was until I was an older teen........ why any parent would say that to their child after years of abuse is beyond me but I’m thankful to have made it this far. I never thought I would make it this far and it’s hard. My heart goes out to her. I want to hug her so bad for a long time and tell her I love her and it’s going to be alright. She’s beautiful
@@nruss9912 lol no it’s just Atlanta is a melting pot meaning a lot of ppl from other places move there ... so when ppl are born and raised in atl they quick to say imma Grady baby
I believe these interviews are A great lesson for me, I’m entering the clinical mental health field, and I really have to face the truth, it’s so difficult for me to digest a lot of these confessionals, however I will continue to listen because it’s preparing me for my service to the community
What a wise beautiful young woman. She's so strong, I can feel her pain. She's held herself accountable for just needing to be a child and be loved. Everyone needs to have support in their life especially when they crying for help
Traumatized as a child is something that stays with you, it can ruin your life. It’s sad when you can more love from others before you can get it from home. Prayers for you Tameka continue to brake the stigma from not wanting to do what you seen an went through as a child. Thanks again Mark for all you do.❤️💕🙏🏿🙏🏿
I loved watching this, she's so hurt from her childhood with such a beautiful spirit. You're loved baby girl. I pray you connect with the right person to take you to as many heights as you desire.
I feel her pain 😔 watching the look on her face when she’s trying to explain herself you can see the hurt and the pain she feels. I know how that is because I’m the same way only difference is I don’t use hard drugs. Sending lots of prayers and hugs her way ❤️ i hope she gets herself together and gets her baby girl back
This poor woman! The sadness that encompasses her is so heart breaking! Especially when she said as a child she would try to sleep but her alcoholic mom would always blast music so loud that she couldn't sleep! May God bless her for all the suffering she's gone through!!
I was a crystal meth addict. And all I know is, the things she's speaking about, she's trying to overcome those traumas with meth. And whatever other addictions she has. Poor girl. ❤❤ But I believe and pray that she finds her way!! 🙏🏻❤
I can relate when she said she fought her mom, and how her mom was jealous of her. She is so broken, you can see the pain in her eyes, she held back so much, and you can see how she wanted to cry many of times but held it in. I ask that God heals her, like he healed me, dealing with trauma growing up can either make you or break you.
I was expecting a crazy one. She’s really likeable. Every addict is worthy of course but this woman really touched my heart. She isn’t at the point of permanent damage that I can see. I hope she wants to live an easier better life which is to be clean & that she gets all the support she needs.
Its hard watching these video seeing what life does to people. And how invisable they become to. Mainstream society. Its the devastating effects. Of addiction. A spiraling fall to death
It may also be that she's ashamed, if she holds her dad in high esteem and feels like he's always been there for for her she might be especially embarrassed about her addiction and letting him see it. She might not wanna resemble her mom to him in that regard. Not that she should be embarrassed or anything but she might think about it that way.
The way she talks about her dad makes it seem like there’s more to the story. The father may have issues of his own like legal issues or was involved in street life but was still there to care for her.
I takes a lot for a man to get the child I mean a helluva lot I've seen so many stories of the mother and usually stepdad or boyfriend seriously injuring or killing a child even after numerous calls to CPS about the welfare of the child and all that jazz that comes out after the kids dead or incapacitated
I absolutely love her. There are moments that you can tell, although she's not speaking in detail, her mind is envisioning exactly what happened to her. In those moments I want to hug her hard. Speak it.. with each word you will shed so much inner pain. You will feel so much lighter... I promise. I have so much faith in you!! I send you nothing but the most happiest and most positive of vibes xoxoxo
You can tell she has a hard time talking about her past. I feel for this young lady. I pray that she can find her way out of this life and truly see her value to society and to herself. 🙏
This is very emotional to watch, I can see and hear the hurt and pain in her voice. She was fighting for her mother's love and affection, and now it's affected her way of life. Praying for this young woman
I feel bad for her she"s such an intelligent young lady and deserves so much more. I"m pretty sure her mom was jealous of her, she has a nice figure and she"s beautiful! She talks alot like the UA-camr Cindyrella OG and kinda favor her as well.
That’s why as parents we have to totally strip ourselves of selfishness. When we have children it’s not about us anymore it’s about our kids.
Absoloutely! I had to find this out for myself. As a recovering addict everything was all about me and my feelings until there was a time I couldn't even see my children at that point I totally changed my thinking then my life, its been almost 9 yrs since they've been home❤
This so very This.
Absolutely
Deidra Hall ❤️
I agree. I had my daughter young partying, drinking fresh out of college.. She's two now couldn't imagine doing the things I did at 22 before i had her. We can make or break them by our decisions.. Much love to you ❤.
I know her and she's sober and trying to get back on her feet, she goes to my church...luv you Anaya God bless you sister in Christ ✝️🛐😄
Hey! Blessings to you from Alabama. She is my daughters aunt by her half brother in Alabama. Can you please tell her im rooting for her and believe in her?❤ I see an angel around her. I have no way to reach her but if u can please tell her she has an 8 yr old niece who looks like her and that I believe in her!!! Thank you so much! Blessings to her!
@@goddesstai1766 I definitely will let her know when I see her😁
Thank you so much❤
How is she doing lately I'm praying for her 🙏🏾👑
Can you tell her we are all thinking about her and want to help in any way we can? Thank you for commenting and letting us know you see her!
You can tell she was verbally abused, she's a pro at holding back her emotions.
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couldn't agree more, I recognize it because I do it myself.
I was thinking emotionally abused too.
She’s right... Moms do get jealous. Especially when you do things and elevate in life and they couldn’t. A lot of moms out here are trash. Period. End the cycle with you ❤️
You’re right it’s usually the fathers who are on trial but some of these mothers need to be on trial too
@@TheCritic9196 true
My mother was jealous and wanted me to fail....just like she did.
She was an alcoholic too.
@@reddwarrior2249 and it’s pathetic and sad at the same time the amount of women out here that have no relationship with their moms.... Well they have to deal with the decisions they made. Mine knows why I have no dealings with her. I wouldn’t want this for me and my daughter. 👌🏾♥️
Agreed
There was something about this one was so hard to watch. It’s like she’s here but not. Such a young woman. Sending her so much love.
Yes, she's really struggling internally as well. I'm not understanding why her mom would have her child being she was a bad role model and alcoholic to her. Unfortunately, the cycle repeats itself. She has so much to give if only she would trust someone to help her.
Yeah, she definitely was not ready to share her story
Drug chemicals in the meth kills brain cells...
@@jeep19 meth is a drug, a chemical. Tf do you mean "drug chemicals in the meth", smh. Yes, meth can make you r3tarded/kill brain cells, but she's clearly still about as intelligent as before starting meth probably. She's pausing because of trauma, not that dude
Sorry for saying the forbidden r-word😱, but I mean the medical definition. "Stupid" or "dumb" doesn't describe it as well imo. Also, it's not only the meth that's killing brain cells, it's the staying for days and malnutrition. She looks like she still manages to sleep and eat a somewhat healthy amount, so that's why she sounds normal and has normal intelligence. Last point, when you quit meth, your brain is amazing at repairing itself within a year or half a year, maybe even less
This is my old friend we went to school together and I actually ran into her a while back I’m praying for you beauty! I love you ❤️🙏🏽
I wish you could find her and show her that she has friends. She could really use you right now!
@@klwthe3rd I wish I can run into her again as well
I thought she said her friends name is Beauty.
She is so pretty 🥺. I’m claiming victory on her behalf! Her potential is so evident.
Amen 🙏🏾
Amen
me too
Amen 🙏🏽🙏🏽
Gross. You're gross. The person in this vid is gross. At no point in her life was she ever considered to be "cute".
Why is the world so gross. Can people not tell the difference between nobility and slum-dwelling?
Daily reminder that the average black person consumes a million dollars over the course of their lifetime, in welfare alone, not even counting court/jail costs, and many other gov services.
When she was beginning to tell her story, it looked like she was reliving it all in her mind. I hope she seeks out help for the trauma she’s dealt with, so she can move on to better things in life. She definitely seems capable of it. Stay safe Anaya ❤️❤️❤️ - Id like to see an update of her.
You can tell she has never spoken about it. Hopefully she can get help working things out. She still has alot of pain.
Carefully pensive. I felt that.
Yes, her shit isn't crusted over and calloused like a lot of interviewees. Telling the surface of her stories, it all seems raw and fresh and ready for a good cleansing and healing. She just need to talk it out and hopefully get some trauma counseling.
Right, it looks like she was a having flashbacks and wanting to cry.
Yup!
She is a deep thinker and quite cerebral. This woman has the fortitude to turn her world around. She’s bright 🌟 and beautiful. 🌸🌺
Only yet 23 🤞🍀💜
Agreed!
I totally agree.💖
Definitely🌻
@Phil Lashio if you don’t like black women and you have a 1 inch D , that’s your thing. Stop questioning every person that thinks that she’s beautiful. She is
I fought my daughters mother tooth and nail for custody of my daughter. She is 25 now I was granted full custody when she was 7. I literally fought for her life to give her a chance in life. Looking back I can’t tell you how I did it. I just did it. Single mothers do it every day, I just did it as a single dad. It was worth it to literally save her life from what it could have been and give her a fighting chance to be all she can be. Thank you for sharing your story.
This made me smile. Love to hear some of the untold stories of men giving their all to be the fathers their children deserve....especially single dads. My father did it to. God bless. ♥️
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God is Amazing!
She's a beautiful girl, I hope she finds her worth.
I was thinking the same thing
@Phil Lashio go to hell why don’t you
@Phil Lashio thanks for speaking facts
@Phil Lashio lol I don’t care of you think I’m beautiful or not. I AM BEAUTIFUL because GOD made me. Who made you? Satan? Where’s your picture, you faceless troll. Grow up
@Phil Lashio and guess what... I wear my natural hair.. I wear other people.. I’ll wear your mama hair. If I can afford to switch up because my pockets allow it... hey, why not 🤪
It's something about her that's so deep!! She has a beautiful spirit!!
My exact words
Agreed. I teach high school kiddos and she seems closer to them in age than her actual 23 years too. I just want to reach out to her, look her in the eyes, and tell her that she is so valuable.
I agree. That is exactly what I thought when I looked at her
I agree
She’s still talking from a child’s point of view.. if she gets therapy, her life could change drastically. It definitely changed for me. She can definitely change her life around. She has a beautiful soul.
Yes she does..I felt it through the screen. She just sounds like she was not given the chance, childhood taken away from her and is stuck in that cycle hence the meth addiction
I was thinking the same. She’s chasing what she deserved in the past. She will be stuck with memories and loathing the present until she gets good therapy.
Who are you to JUDGE? delete yo comment at this point.
@@reddoll1223 baby. Can you read??
Therapy only helps with so much but it’s a start and therapy helps everyone differently.
As blk women we need to love are daughter's. I was molested at 6. My mom walked in on it . She stopped it but did nothing. She beat me for weeks because I wouldn't verbally say what happened. I have so many issues as a adult. I wish I had someone to talk to. Someone to just hug me. I can't even make friends much less function in normal settings.
Hi meka. I will be your friend. I specialize in motivation and affirmation.
Hi Meka. I will be ur friend. I've been through what uve been through. I'm praying God gives u peace.
I'm so sorry you had to experience that. I know it really affect all aspects of your life. I wish I could hug you and love you. I pray you get the support and therapy you need. I'm here if you wanted to reach out to me. You're beautiful angel
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I wish I could give you a hug and hold you for a few minutes and let you know that you are loved and that you matter. Love and blessings and healing to you. All positive vibes.
What a beautiful gentle soul. How I wish I could be there for her. She's so innocent . My heart weeps for her. Anaya if you read this please remember each day how beautiful you are.
This comment warms my heart, I feel the same way. Bless you Matthew for your empathy and feeling for others. I hope you're well and safe in this scary time.
You are so sweet.
She's beautiful! Heavenly Father, I petition you to touch this young woman. I ask that you magnify her self worth, give her favor, supernatural healing and an abundance of love and support. ❤
In Jesus's name Amen 🙏
Amen ,for your glory Lord..
Praise God the Almighty Amen 🙏
🙏 🙏 🙏
In Jesus Name, Amen 🙏🏽
I got my GED at 25 and dropped out of school in the 8th grade it's never to later
Never! I earned mine at 30, and now I’m just finished up my bachelors to head to law school! Never too late.
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God bless both of your!! Keep grinding I’m praying for you all!
It’s never to late . I pray one day this is a distant memory anything that doesn’t kill you makes you stronger🙏
You’re amazing. ❤️🙌
She needs to know how captivating and elegant she really is. She’s aware of what was wrong with her childhood, she WILL overcome this and figure it out. I love who she is! ❤️
Coming from a very similar background as she to hear you say that about her is so greatly appreciated... Life is so unfair to most us us.. it's pain that never goes away no matter what you do... The pain is too deep.
@@tashs758 it’s so important that we all keep an eye out for these kids, in passing, at the store, schools, anywhere you see them, take a moment to observe, if a red flag shows itself get involved! If there are people victimizing children it’s our responsibility to pay attention and do the right thing. ❤️
@@Jennifer_J_D You're so right
Thank you @jennifer j this is my sister and there’s so much more to this story. Her story. She is doing well and we’re helping her get the help she needs. It’s just a challenge because she has her days but my family is supporting her and doing all we can
@@ambermcclendon6114 I put my family through it, I literally had to sleep for 6 months to get well they didn’t understand that but that’s what it took for me., sleep, eat, sleep. I really hope the best for her, she can do it, I know it’s hard on everyone but it will get better.
I'm sending a mother's hug her way.... I hate that her mom hurt her the most and that's who she needed the most
@impatience1
I do too.. especially to hear that her mom is jealous of her
Me too!
She has so much pain in her eyes .
I pray she makes it out of this .
Traumatized people often say “ It is what it is”. It’s defeat. It’s self abandonment...
It also means.,
It's done , can't change it
So fuck it.
I see a lot of myself in her. I’m 24, I’m not on the streets or on drugs but I have an eating disorder, OCD and PTSD and persistent major depression. I have very little self worth due to my childhood. It’s hard to find your way when you don’t know who you are. When you’re told at a young age that you’re not good enough, or treated like a lesser by those who are supposed to love you. You feel like you don’t deserve life, and you have to reparent yourself into realizing that you do, in fact have purpose, and worth. Until then you just bumble around, waking up for no reason.
I am praying 4 you n her ..... Just know u are special ..u are loved .... I have love and compassion for u ... U are so much stronger than u think just to be able to express yourself like u just did. .... 1 you are beautiful inside n out look how u show love n compassion for her .... I love you n you strength u on the way to better trust in God n the hell with the people n spirits that make u feel less than because u are more than better than most ❤🖤💚🦋👍🏾
@@casandralocokittyholmes3134 thank you, this really made my day.
your more than good enough im telling youu
I feel your pain
God will give you strength no matter the circumstances, god flood her life, she needs you now, god loves you, 🛐🙏
Parents stop belittling and disrespecting your children by calling them bitches and hoes that's a scar so many children don't get over you are beautiful Anaya and you will overcome it all love keep praying and keep your faith if know one has said they love you today just know someone does and that's me I love you beautiful
Words do hurt. Im sorry people hurt you. I pray for a breakthrough for you. This all is to make you strong.
It seems as though this is the first time she’s actually sat and thought about all this stuff and her life and I hope she realizes her worth and how beautiful she is. It’s truly heartbreaking
She's worth so much more than what she got in her life, I hope she goes back to school and gets back her child. Wish my best for her.
This baby is hurting!
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OMG! my daughter is 23 years old! I came from a very dysfunctional household & I made a promise to myself, I would never live the life my mom had& I would never leave my child with her either. I kept that promise. I am 54 years old & although I had only one child, she looks back at her childhood & told me I gave her the best childhood living in The Beautiful Bronx, NYC. Not all parts of the Bronx is bad. I hold my head high & my heart elated. Not everyone is so lucky.
I feel so bad looking at Anaya's solutions to her problems. I wish I lived nearby to help her because its never too late!
I see a girl who’s a victim of narcissistic parenting. She’s very sweet but has the low self esteem.. as if she thinks she doesn’t deserve to have a joyful life.
I can relate to the pain of your mom not liking you and being jealous
Me too.. I just cut her off right before Thanksgiving.. I've been so tired and been done !!!!
@@marnethiabell3009 Hang in there, honey. My mom was jealous of me because my dad would praise me while verbally abusing her. It had nothing to do with me. Remember that it has nothing to do with anything you did or didn't do. When I finally accepted that I couldn't please her or get the love I wanted from her, I was free from her cruelty. And then I could see, just as she wanted me to be a different person, I wanted her to be different. Staying a safe distance from her greatly improved my life and I became much happier.❤
Yup same 🙋🏼♀️
@@MH-ds8cb Sorry, honey.
Me too 😭
Mark I just want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! Because of you I can finally say what happened to me. I cam finally get the balls to say who and how i got molested by. Because of you I got the courage to speak up. I thank you so much for your work. This shit has taken me years to even give a hint that something was going on with me. It's been really hard 😥 no one ever understood why i acted the way i use to but little did they know that i was getting sexually abused. It's been so hard keeping these secrets inside.
I pray GOD continues to be with you June Bug! On your journey of facing trauma and allowing your mind and soul to be healed. While striving to be ✨"whole"👑
So horrific I pray she can find support and real help. She can’t get over this without support. Of every kind
23 😔 this is so sad !!
I pray you get better Anaya.
I pray you get that apartment and a good Job .
I’m praying for you ! I have a strong feeling your life is about to change !
The sadness is palpable. Breaks my heart.
I pray that addiction turns this girl loose. She looks so young and helpless. Like I’m sure if she got the opportunity to really breakthrough and change her life she would. ✨praying for her.
I love this girl. She’s so special. Her face told the whole story. She didn’t need to say anything.
Damn, I so understand the part about Algebra & being humiliated in a “suburban” school. What a horrible memory
I don’t understand why her daughter is with the woman who traumatized her. Cycle continues. Sad
that's what I said
Maybe she turned her life around...but she is on drugs 💉 and the baby will have it harder than in the streets with her
@@rhondabooker7652 let’s hope for the sake of the child
Can you imagine that her abuser is the most stable person in the child 's world? Such a sad story
She said she calls her aunt mom so when she says her daughter is with her mom she means the woman that raised her
I wanna hug her Aw everyone needs a mom .
Alexandra J yeah
I’ve two dads ......nope I don’t need a mom
She has a mom.
She can't be that bad if she left her child with her. 😕 Right?
Anaya, when I look at you I see a truly beautiful, compassionate and worthy young woman who still has the reins in her hands to steer towards a better life. You're incredibly smart and seem like you can do anything you put your mind to. I wish you peace of mind and the courage to answer the call of the unfamiliar.
Her intelligence adds depth and profoundness to her life experiences, allowing her to conceptualize them in a way that those around her aren't. This, I believe, has a great deal to do with her deep pain, and how she is coping. Sending her all of the light and love tonight and always 💖💖💖
I’ve seen someone mention before on here but with this interview specifically from how she was answering Marks questions, Mark must become more trauma informed as a person not being a professional like a licensed therapist or psychologist who have the tools to have these tough conversations and open these wounds with people who have dealt/experienced adverse childhood experiences (ACES) all of their life, as someone myself who works with people who have substance use disorders and/or co-occurring mental health disorders it is important to not open these wounds if you don’t know how to serve or continually ask these questions as you can see how difficult it is for many of these people to discuss their own personal issues.
Poor baby , she just needs love. Someone who can get her on a healthy path!
The part about the teacher embarrassed her in front of the class (especially all white students) hit home hard for me. Teachers should be punished for stuff like this. I really don’t understand the logic behind this of calling a kid to come up the board when they clearly knows the child doesn’t know the answer. There are many ways you can help a child without making them look stupid.
So much racial bias in schools. I grew up in an area not far from her and experienced the same. I remember raising my hand in my all white class because I knew the answer and the teacher called on everyone but me. I felt that on a deep level and never forgot it. I am a teacher now and even when I have to reprimand my students, I make sure to give them positive compliments and encouragement. It's amazing how that fuels even the most insecure child.
@@ms.chellylumpkins1143 😊💖
The teacher couldn't control the students from laughing at her, but the teacher should have defended her. It would not have left such a huge scar. There are so many things the teacher could have done to support her. She could have worked with her individually. She could have paired her with another student who was doing well in the class. The trauma with this young woman is that she has never really felt fully supported by the people around her.
That happened to me too.
@@marywalkermusic Yes. The teacher could have turned the whole situation around.
I suck at math too, darling. You are strong, smart and beautiful. I wish for you healing and happiness - you are so deserving of it!
She's so hurt and so traumatized. I hope one of her siblings sees this and can find her. She needs someone to love her enough to help her understand what love is and how to love herself. She has potential. She's been through things and you can tell that when she spoke about it, it was killing her inside. Sending her all the love and hope that she can make a better life for herself.
When she said, “I know I’m going to make it” that made Me smile because deep down she does want better for herself. She just gotta believe and have faith that she can do it.
I read this somewhere and it's so true, childhood trauma is the real gateway drug. These people did not deserve these effed up parents, so much pain in her eyes. I wanna give her a hug !
You can see the sadness in her eyes. She's a smart woman that has a bright future ahead of her. She's just traumatized 💔😔
I haven't seen such sadness in someone like this for a long time. I wish her lots of happiness in her future though. Xx
I hope her siblings find her. Seems like she got left behind. The only girl; unprotected.
She said her mom has 2 daughters
She has 2 sisters
What a natural beauty. All the things you've been through may have been hard to take but use them to allow them to shape you. You are clearly strong. Dont give up hope. You can go far believe it
She's physically holding her lips together like she's holding back from saying things. She's not lying and she's not obligated to give us her life story. I would like for her to get the help she needs. ❤️
She's holding back so much. She has trauma and abuse in her history and I think this has kept her almost childlike. I hope the adults who failed her will one day move forward and sustain her. It's the very least they can do...
Because she needs their forgiveness. And let karma decide the rest...
First, never would have thought she was a meth user. Secondly, It saddens me to see her drinking herself... and third she is absolutely beautiful. Her flame isn’t completely out. She needs to have faith in herself. If she can survive all her trauma she can create a life worth living now that she’s in control of her path.
You can tell she has had so much trauma in her life. This is so painful for her to talk about.
This is so sad, breaks my heart to watch this.
She is traumatized and she needs help.
I commend her for sharing her story and it’s great this platform is available to provide insight and understanding. May God keep her and help her to turn her life around.
Some things she just doesn’t want to talk about that’s very understandable. She has a wall build up poor girl has been hurt so much
So so sad. I can tell she’s a smart young lady with a broken heart: Praying for this young lady. She just needs help and love. She can get thru this and she will 🙏🏽
Praying for healing, deliverance, recovery and happiness ❤
Anaya spoke to me more than perhaps anyone I've seen on this platform. Her depression is so evident... it's in her voice, it's in her body language, it's in her story. So much pain. So much trauma from her mother's neglect, verbal abuse, and emotional abandonment. She strikes me as so smart, self-possessed, insightful, and mature... it's easy to envision her reclaiming her life. Anaya, if you ever read this, I'm rooting for you. And if you're still in L.A. and open to it, I'll meet you at an NA/AA meeting any day of the week (I've been clean & sober for a bunch of years now, and in my experience, the more support -- church, 12-step fellowships, therapy, whatever -- the better.) Sending love.
the most quiet and still meth addict ever...
She doesn’t even look addicted to anything that’s the crazy thing
Just because someone does drugs doesn't mean they will fit the typical addict model, I know plenty of "functioning" addicts that you would never guess do drugs.... Plus alcohol is a depressant and counter acts meths high effect, normally it's the lack of sleep that causes the tics and movement not so much the drugs, I hope she can find a support system and turn her life around she's still so young!!
@@bonniebrae6726 I was a meth addict for 25 years- clean for 16. it was more of a compliment than an insult.
@@sweetsuzie9346 I didn't take it as an insult I was just saying in my experience there is no typical addict, a lot of people don't get help because they hide their addiction so we'll from their family and friends. People who don't have experience with addiction wouldn't know that, just trying to spread some education/information I don't think you are insulting her 🙂
@@sweetsuzie9346 congratulations to you i hope you have many more years of being sober
You can sense her disassociating as she’s talking. She’s a sensitive person who has built an armor of steel. When light shines in, she doesn’t know how to react. I hope she finds help to get her life turned around and finds the help she needs mentally as well.
Why was he so focused on her saying Inglewood & redoing it?
I wondered too but maybe he wanted to give us, and her, a proper start (edited) in not doing so it was more effective I think.....
Most people living outside of LA don't know what or where Inglewood is.
@@adams8830 but if her answer wasn’t actually Inglewood, why did he try to make her say Inglewood? she was trying to say that’s not where she was raised & he kept telling her to say it was.
Yes i didn't understand that. Like she not there to talk about the place sooooo...I mean 🤦
I think he did that for editing purposes. So when he edits he can keep the part where she clearly states where she’s from.
She seems so held back. Like she is soo careful with what she says 🥺 I feel so bad cause she needs to open up to the right people to get better and feel safe 💔
it’s crazy to think about the similarities between my childhood and some of the people that mark interviews. im happy my mom got her shit together. im happy that she motivated and encouraged me and my sister to make a better life for ourselves. forever fucking thankful. wishing the best for this beautiful woman ❤️
Yes!!! Always treat people how you want to be treated💯💯💯
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The pauses and the shaking of the head trying to forget the horrible things she’s gone through XX much love beautiful
the pain is palpable - really hard to watch. Such a beautiful and intelligent woman. I hope she makes a better life for her and her daughter.
I see myself in her and my heart wants to hug her so bad. My mom told me on more than one occasion I would end up on skid row when I was a very little girl and I never knew what it was until I was an older teen........ why any parent would say that to their child after years of abuse is beyond me but I’m thankful to have made it this far. I never thought I would make it this far and it’s hard. My heart goes out to her. I want to hug her so bad for a long time and tell her I love her and it’s going to be alright. She’s beautiful
I feel her pain on personal level. 🙏🏽❤
She has the right attitude. Wish her some fortune.
I never heard someone start with the hospital of “where they’re from”
They do in Atlanta; people will say "Grady".....Grady hospital.
@@asmrdate right ppl in atl quick to say they a Grady baby
I've seen it a lot but only in these videos.
@@jejourneclark5870 is that a hardcore place to be born or something? Lol
@@nruss9912 lol no it’s just Atlanta is a melting pot meaning a lot of ppl from other places move there ... so when ppl are born and raised in atl they quick to say imma Grady baby
Her story really touched me. She is only two years younger than me and I’m praying that she find a way out of that lifestyle. 🙏🏽🙏🏽 I have faith
I believe these interviews are A great lesson for me, I’m entering the clinical mental health field, and I really have to face the truth, it’s so difficult for me to digest a lot of these confessionals, however I will continue to listen because it’s preparing me for my service to the community
Our stories are so very similar . I have an alcoholic mother but my dad was never in the picture. I’m going on four years of continuous sobriety now.
I support you girl, sorry you went through all of this.
I hope she gets the help she needs. She has potential and she will get clean. She’s so bold to share her story and I appreciate it. 💚
What a wise beautiful young woman. She's so strong, I can feel her pain. She's held herself accountable for just needing to be a child and be loved. Everyone needs to have support in their life especially when they crying for help
When they showed her full body picture , I instantly thought model . Her story is being told without even having to open her mouth ! Wow 🥺
Traumatized as a child is something that stays with you, it can ruin your life. It’s sad when you can more love from others before you can get it from home. Prayers for you Tameka continue to brake the stigma from not wanting to do what you seen an went through as a child. Thanks again Mark for all you do.❤️💕🙏🏿🙏🏿
I loved watching this, she's so hurt from her childhood with such a beautiful spirit. You're loved baby girl. I pray you connect with the right person to take you to as many heights as you desire.
I feel her pain 😔 watching the look on her face when she’s trying to explain herself you can see the hurt and the pain she feels. I know how that is because I’m the same way only difference is I don’t use hard drugs. Sending lots of prayers and hugs her way ❤️ i hope she gets herself together and gets her baby girl back
@Deshaun Hairston ummmm ok ??
My mother was an alcoholic & I'm crying right now because this is so real. What I went through too. Crazy.
@Deshaun Hairston Yeah we don’t relate sorry .
@@trademarktm2222 🧡😘
@@trademarktm2222 Both my parents were alcoholics and drug addicts. I feel her pain as well.
The pause in the beginning when you asked her 1st question said everything. Poor baby. Please universe protect this baby
“You can’t change anything that’s meant to stay the same.” 💡..that’s some deep shit right there.
This poor woman! The sadness that encompasses her is so heart breaking! Especially when she said as a child she would try to sleep but her alcoholic mom would always blast music so loud that she couldn't sleep! May God bless her for all the suffering she's gone through!!
I was a crystal meth addict. And all I know is, the things she's speaking about, she's trying to overcome those traumas with meth. And whatever other addictions she has. Poor girl. ❤❤ But I believe and pray that she finds her way!! 🙏🏻❤
She's still young and seems very intelligent I'm hoping her Mom see this and give her another chance I'm wondering if the Dad is still around
I can relate when she said she fought her mom, and how her mom was jealous of her. She is so broken, you can see the pain in her eyes, she held back so much, and you can see how she wanted to cry many of times but held it in. I ask that God heals her, like he healed me, dealing with trauma growing up can either make you or break you.
I was expecting a crazy one. She’s really likeable. Every addict is worthy of course but this woman really touched my heart. She isn’t at the point of permanent damage that I can see. I hope she wants to live an easier better life which is to be clean & that she gets all the support she needs.
I couldn't go to sleep because I always knew my mom wasn't doing something she was supposed to be doing. 😭
*knew
Saddest part for me.
It was just as hard to watch this interview as it was for her to do this interview. That’s all I’m going to say.
Its hard watching these video seeing what life does to people. And how invisable they become to. Mainstream society. Its the devastating effects. Of addiction. A spiraling fall to death
I wonder why she doesn’t stay with her dad now if he’s so supportive..
There’s probably more to it she just doesn’t want to talk about it since she’s on camera or just in general
Just because he's been good to her throughout her life doesn't mean he's a stable person capable of taking care of her.
It may also be that she's ashamed, if she holds her dad in high esteem and feels like he's always been there for for her she might be especially embarrassed about her addiction and letting him see it. She might not wanna resemble her mom to him in that regard. Not that she should be embarrassed or anything but she might think about it that way.
The way she talks about her dad makes it seem like there’s more to the story. The father may have issues of his own like legal issues or was involved in street life but was still there to care for her.
I takes a lot for a man to get the child I mean a helluva lot I've seen so many stories of the mother and usually stepdad or boyfriend seriously injuring or killing a child even after numerous calls to CPS about the welfare of the child and all that jazz that comes out after the kids dead or incapacitated
I absolutely love her. There are moments that you can tell, although she's not speaking in detail, her mind is envisioning exactly what happened to her. In those moments I want to hug her hard. Speak it.. with each word you will shed so much inner pain. You will feel so much lighter... I promise. I have so much faith in you!! I send you nothing but the most happiest and most positive of vibes xoxoxo
I really hope she can make it out of her situation. She seems like she's still strong enough to make it happen.
She talks like that maybe because she's remembering as she goes. Meth addict myself and forget alot of words or how to form sentences at times.
She talks like that cause shes lying
I kind of figured it had alot to do with the drug's she chooses to take
@@wolfofrhodeislandx7462 how do you know are you God I don't think so 🤔 you got some nerve
So true 💔
Sending love ❤
Ayana if your listening 👂 you are so bright & your voice is angelic. I hope you get back into school and live your best life.
You can tell she has a hard time talking about her past. I feel for this young lady. I pray that she can find her way out of this life and truly see her value to society and to herself. 🙏
This is very emotional to watch, I can see and hear the hurt and pain in her voice. She was fighting for her mother's love and affection, and now it's affected her way of life. Praying for this young woman
Feeling for this kid. She deserves love and support I hope she finds it
This baby is harboring so much pain inside. Lift your head up and never give up baby girl...you’re worth it and your daughter needs you...completely.
I feel bad for her she"s such an intelligent young lady and deserves so much more. I"m pretty sure her mom was jealous of her, she has a nice figure and she"s beautiful! She talks alot like the UA-camr Cindyrella OG and kinda favor her as well.