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  • Опубліковано 1 гру 2019
  • Was lost in darkness when I lost my son Jace but Jacia was the light I needed to find my way....A story I was afraid to talk about, the death of my son...RIP baby boy, I will always love you

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  • @sophiafranklin7394
    @sophiafranklin7394 2 роки тому +26

    It’s okay to show your emotions because you’re human, no shame in that.

  • @pumpkinpie897
    @pumpkinpie897 3 роки тому +29

    Oh this is heartbreaking, I am a year late, but you all still have my deepest condolences. I am so happy you have your baby girl.

  • @dainewalters5270
    @dainewalters5270 Рік тому +6

    I did lost a son too,but God is a and time God,but he bless me with two more son and I am so greatful.

  • @devond2083
    @devond2083 3 роки тому +27

    The many people you have helped with your story .......cannot be measured........but it's like a rebirth and a reconnection with God.... Sometimes we have to be afflicted to feel his presence and his power....Now that you have living proof.....Watch your family grow and your blessing flow.

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +4

      That's what I've found out Devon, that's the truth right there. Thanks for ur word bro

    • @stanforddavis820
      @stanforddavis820 5 місяців тому +1

      Words of wisdom 🙌 👏 🙏..

  • @loispotter2097
    @loispotter2097 3 роки тому +48

    This was so heart wrenching. Remember #7 is God's number. Your little boy will always be a part of you. Your story is a testimony that will inspire others. Congratulations on your baby girl. God Bless your family. Keep the faith brother. 🙏. Gracefully broken

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +3

      Thank u

    • @wendypaulbristolgoodnighta9164
      @wendypaulbristolgoodnighta9164 3 роки тому +6

      You will have a son you got to be strong i had a baby before my daughter and he was a boy also he also die i did not see him and 10 years after i had my son he is 21 now my daughter is 30 keep trying you will get a boy all the best

    • @leonadean6703
      @leonadean6703 3 роки тому

      00pp

    • @roseabasi9190
      @roseabasi9190 2 роки тому +4

      Your story is so touching. God knows everything. You and your wife are strong people.

    • @claudettelloyd2243
      @claudettelloyd2243 2 роки тому +2

      T&

  • @judithcameron7534
    @judithcameron7534 3 роки тому +35

    Colaz it's been a while since all of this , I'm relatively new to the channel but I feel as if I travelled this journey step by step with you. Man!!!!!! The loss of a child can be raw, real and gut wrenching but God stepped on the midst and theres your beautiful daughter. He shun His light in the middle of your darkness. He allows you to PROVE that HE hears.

  • @user-gm4di2dc4r
    @user-gm4di2dc4r 5 місяців тому +3

    I feel your pain I gave birth to a dead baby son too you will never forget him he is your guiding angel now my prayers are with you both much love from Ghana 🇬🇭 jamaican born ❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @namkebanyanklariti
    @namkebanyanklariti 2 роки тому +12

    Thank you for sharing this very difficult experience with us. It is gut wrenching and heart felt. Women world over take note that we have feelings too even when we don't show it.

  • @lisasmith7003
    @lisasmith7003 3 роки тому +22

    My God!!...This story broke my heart..Same happened to me many years ago so I completely understand!!.....God is still God....Sending you and your wife love and light!!

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +3

      Thank u...it's been hard but God is able

    • @eltheahodgson3472
      @eltheahodgson3472 3 роки тому

      This is so heart wrenching. I feel your pain. This too shall pass

    • @carolynbaker7700
      @carolynbaker7700 2 роки тому

      U make me a bawl like a baby I v lost two miscarriages I saw my early pregnancy baby it affects me for years but now am blessed with a son thank be to God is able

  • @anc8213
    @anc8213 3 роки тому +26

    God know my brother, I just started watching your videos, so going through some of them and saw this one, it’s very touching, the world need more men like you, who’s got a passion for Christ and such love ❤️ for your wife and your child, trust me, God will give you a son just continue to trust him. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💕😭😭😭🇯🇲🇬🇧🇯🇲

    • @kazee3661
      @kazee3661 3 роки тому +1

      I was just thinking the same thing. His next baby will be a boy. So heartbreaking but God is awesome.

    • @alitapearce5627
      @alitapearce5627 2 роки тому +2

      I. Have listened. To. Your. Video about the lost of your. Son but you have. Overcome. The. Pain. And is doing. Fine

    • @mavisfortune1745
      @mavisfortune1745 2 роки тому +2

      Hi

    • @NoveletteDaley-kf8yz
      @NoveletteDaley-kf8yz 26 днів тому

      Something they didn't do right,u should of went to the university of the west indies

  • @paulinebutler4204
    @paulinebutler4204 2 роки тому +8

    I just happen to click on this. Oh boy she and u went through a lot. It hurts more especially when full term and had to do a c section and get that news. U both were strong and still are. I feel for u guys. Pease.

  • @leonietaylor7054
    @leonietaylor7054 3 роки тому +6

    It's the worst feeling'a parent could ever have to loose their beloved baby 🙏

  • @twelvetribe0871
    @twelvetribe0871 9 місяців тому +4

    Colazzz!!! Not mi watching... crying along with yuh ... shared experience!! Thanks fi sharing bredda!!!

  • @joanwalford1959
    @joanwalford1959 3 роки тому +14

    It's good to talk about it. Talking about things that hurt after having it bottled up is very releasing.

  • @julieangus5043
    @julieangus5043 3 роки тому +19

    This testimony really touched me, my nephew has just lost his newborn baby. It is hard to give comfort in situations like this. But God gave us His Holy Spirit, His Comforter for us in times like these. He will send someone with the right words who has gone through similar situation, a bible verse/scripture or in your case, a song that you can hold on to. We weep for our children and Satan will take many more. Let’s continue to hold on to the one thing that he cannot take...God’s love for us.

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +7

      God is able 🙏, let ur nephew know that God is in control and he shall be blessed with the love of the lord. He will smile again. God will deliver 🙏, he always does...just trust in him

    • @joygolding7038
      @joygolding7038 2 роки тому +1

      🙏👼🙏🤗❤

    • @joygolding7038
      @joygolding7038 2 роки тому +1

      Thanks for your encouragement 🤗❤🙏🙏

  • @henrickgordon1786
    @henrickgordon1786 3 роки тому +17

    Bro, my prayers and condolences. Thanks for letting us be a part of this experience. Blessings bro

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +2

      Thank u, God is great through it all

  • @jennylady6945
    @jennylady6945 3 роки тому +19

    Sorry for the loss of your firstborn . He was a beautiful baby and looked so perfect. May the birth of your daughter bring you both healing and joy💕

  • @morganpitter4386
    @morganpitter4386 3 роки тому +7

    Your ability to share is a sign of your healing.
    May God continue bless you and your family.

  • @swilson1876
    @swilson1876 2 роки тому +11

    This is heartbreaking 💔 😢 So sorry for your loss. I felt your pain, I cried with u and for you🙏🏾❤

  • @SwabyMuziqq
    @SwabyMuziqq 4 роки тому +11

    Yow bredda. Man can’t finish watch this yute!!! Too much sadness. Mi heart can’t manage nuh more me don. But what is needed to hear will be heard. God is the only thing the man can turn too. Hold up bro gad

  • @apawma0499
    @apawma0499 3 роки тому +9

    Colaz,.I am so sorry for your lost, no parents want to lost their child and my condolence to you and your wife . You will always remember your son and although he is gone your love is still there for him..very happy you were able to reach out to God,. He didn't bring him back but he gave you the strength to go your journey in faith. He knows all things best,. You now have a precious beautiful daughter and most likely some day you will have a son again. God is good and He never give us more that we can bear. We.all have unanswered questions and yes sometime we wonder if God is for us.but...He promise He will never leave us or forsake us, we will never know why somethings happened but only God knows. I know with time and your beautiful wife and daughter it will get better
    God knows the future and with Him It will be well. Love, Peace and nuff Blessings. God answers prayers. Praise God!!!.

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +2

      Thanks for this beautiful comment, I try not to come back to this video or its comments , but...anyway, I agree with you 100 I know the lord will be the strength for us till the end... thanks again

  • @shellyann6574
    @shellyann6574 2 роки тому +7

    Everyday I watch more and more of your older videos and then this popped up. I would have never had imagined you went thru this. You and shameka are so strong...bless u guys and jacia and jaciann ❤️❤️❤️

  • @niaralewis1066
    @niaralewis1066 3 роки тому +7

    Yes something went wrong after they delivered him that he didn't get the proper life support.that's why the partner should be in the room with your partner and keep a eye on what the nures are doing with the baby..

  • @jackiemorgan4511
    @jackiemorgan4511 3 роки тому +4

    Colaz thank you for sharing your story. It touched me and gives me strength in my own situation with my son. He is 29 and suffering from mental illness. I don’t even know where he is right now. I have not heard from him for weeks now. He had a promising future as he was going to University and left deciding to live in his car. So when you said you cannot describe the pain you felt over the loss of your son. Trus me I could relate. So pain, guilt, anger and grief are all the emotions I have struggled with. As you said keep something to hang on to ...my song is GOD WILL MAKE A WAY ... I do see his hand ... so please pray for me and my son Matthew-Lee that the Lord will restore and heal. Thanks again for sharing and God bless you and your family.

  • @alisiamerchant-perry9785
    @alisiamerchant-perry9785 4 місяці тому +1

    Thank you so much for sharing your testimony. I didn't loss a child but i loss my husband tragically on December 15th 2023 in a vehicle accident. Grief is hard work,I'm going through rough time because we were only married for 5 years and have a 4 years old son together. I'm so encouraged by your testimony, and i will hold on to that one thing to help me move forward because we can never move on when we lose someone we love ,they're with us everyday in our hearts. May God continue to strengthen you and Sham. Much love and God bless ❤

  • @mariawright5139
    @mariawright5139 3 роки тому +3

    Here I am, with arms wide open. Pouring out, gracefully broken. The battle is not yours, it's The Lord's

  • @lucygayle9052
    @lucygayle9052 3 роки тому +7

    Your story of loseing baby Jace was sooo sooo moving and heartfelt...I had to cry as I felt it myself. It reminded me of a hymn that the hymn writer Fanny Crosbie wrote many many years ago after the death of her newborn baby, "safe in the arms of Jesus". Your beautiful baby boy went straight to be in the arms of the Lord Jesus. The Lord blessed you and your lovely wife with a lovely baby girl and I believe the Lord will bless you again with a baby boy. God knows it all. You have a beautiful testimony and will bless many people with it. God bless you and your family. 🙏💯

  • @almareeflowers2795
    @almareeflowers2795 2 роки тому +5

    is is such a bitter sweet experience and I feel your pain. I list my son tragically in 2017 and it still feels like yesterday. People told me to get over him and move on. If it wasn't for God I would have gone mad. There will be pain in the night but joy cometh in the morning. You are a living testimony...thanks forvyour inspirational words, thanks for sharing.🥰😥

    • @dabiz4272
      @dabiz4272 2 роки тому +1

      Those people who told you to get over it and move are not good people. I'm sorry but that's not something you say to some who lost a child

  • @marciasassi8551
    @marciasassi8551 3 роки тому +5

    My darling Colaz, I discover you by watching your video cooking outside in the woods....Eee sah, tek yuh time joyful moment with the crew🥰🥰 so I subcribed to this natural food cooking🥂🥰😋

  • @lesleyk2920
    @lesleyk2920 3 роки тому +4

    Heart breaking. Stay blessed. Love from uk

  • @spitters1251
    @spitters1251 3 роки тому +14

    These are some of the challenges that some couples go through, and from there we go through different stages of of human emotions, but you know, time is a beautiful thing, and with time comes the different stages of life, the healing stages, and with the healing stages, comes A New Beginning.
    You'll get your boy as well. Father God knows what he's doing. 💌💌

  • @Miracles77798
    @Miracles77798 4 роки тому +6

    God knows best. Remember David lost his first son, but then God gave him Solom who he blessed with enormous, wisdom, knowledge and understanding. God has now blessed you with a daughter and in due time he will bless you with a Solomon, Joseph, Joshua or Moses.
    I feel your pain. I had three miscarriages, but I have to stay strong. Jason is now an angel watching over his little sister.

  • @dawnclarke8482
    @dawnclarke8482 11 місяців тому +2

    I recently subscribed to your channel and decided to look at some of your previous vlogs. Wow! This one has touched every part of my soul. It's a real tearjerker. Trust me, Jace knew you before he came into this world and his little arms are always wrapped around your neck even, thou you cannot see him. Only God know why he wanted this precious angel, but you have the best angel looking over you, his mother and his sisters. Blessings to you and your family.

  • @arielbuchanan3370
    @arielbuchanan3370 3 роки тому +24

    Colaz, I came across your channel yesterday. I fell in love with your cooking and the dynamics of your crew and started binge-watching. It’s one of two channels I subscribe to. My heart breaks for you and your wife’s loss but I am also moved by your courage. Thanks for sharing. I know this was tough but know you are touching many hearts. May God continue to comfort you and your family.

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +3

      Blessings 🙌thank you for subscribing, I appreciate it 🙏God is a good God in our up and down moments even if we don't see it at the time he is always there for us 🙏

    • @annmarieofori-shaw162
      @annmarieofori-shaw162 3 роки тому +1

      No sound !God will send u a son !

  • @ebonysweetnesssweetness5153
    @ebonysweetnesssweetness5153 3 роки тому +5

    So sorry for your loss ... Bereavement is one of the most difficult things to deal with and can affect you for a long time. I do hope both you and your wife continue to support each other. And now ... happy for you both to be gifted with a little lady to help make your family complete.

  • @AriAnnaMommyWorld
    @AriAnnaMommyWorld 2 роки тому +3

    This is extremely hard to watch. I had friends and family who went through this and there are no words to describe the pain. Thanks for sharing and I pray pray your continued healing.

  • @joyf7788
    @joyf7788 3 роки тому +17

    So sad and heartbroken, the lord knows best. I empathize with you and hearing you speak from your heart so painful.

    • @joyf7788
      @joyf7788 3 роки тому +1

      That wasn’t you speaking about you didn’t believe there was no god, or you didn’t want to hear anything about god, that was the anger and pain talking

  • @Binga7686
    @Binga7686 3 роки тому +6

    I am bawling. This is so sad but i am glad you shared it. Its rare we get a chance to hear a fathers side of losing a newborn. This emotional journey will help a lot of us heal from similar losses. We never forget but we find hope and courage to go on. God is with you all snd have Blessed you with more kids. .

  • @kerranwrightbryan42
    @kerranwrightbryan42 4 роки тому +6

    Very touching, he is a way maker

  • @jasonforsythe9851
    @jasonforsythe9851 2 роки тому +5

    My sister lost her second son shortly after was born as well. it was very painful. I still remember hearing her anguish when she called me from the hospital. She has another son. The baby she lost would have been called Jaden. You should have gotten grief counseling even though you felt nothing could soothe the pain you felt.

  • @arethajames3682
    @arethajames3682 3 роки тому +4

    Keep the FAITH God His in CONTROL. It was good to tell your story. God bless you with a beautiful girl. To God be the Glory great things He Has Done.👧🏽❤️🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿

  • @yvonne237
    @yvonne237 3 роки тому +12

    I just found your channel last week. I've been binge watching. Thank God for your testimony, you will help more people, especially men than you realize. God has brought you through one of the most difficult situations a parent can experience. May He continue to keep His hedge of protection around you and your family. Stay blessed.

    • @sabrina_services1568
      @sabrina_services1568 3 роки тому +1

      Same here.

    • @lindaallder3662
      @lindaallder3662 Рік тому

      I've been binging your videos and got to this one. Learning more about your family and shows who you are. Sorry for this tragedy but you are such an excellent dad to your daughters and To Clima now. You are very strong

  • @hillaryokonkwo2901
    @hillaryokonkwo2901 7 місяців тому +2

    Wow this is so touching! Your words of inspiration.

  • @ivetmiller4842
    @ivetmiller4842 3 роки тому +7

    The most heartbreaking, inspiring, thoughtful, thought provoking, refreshing video. Glory to God. Thank you, thank you. I don't have the death of a child but I have been going through things that cause me to question God. Thank you for bringing me back. Blessings to you, your wife and daughter 💙❤💙❤🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +4

      In all things God is still God. Sometimes we forget how good he is because of certain situations but trust me, he is the same God that was with Daniel in the lions den and with David when he bottled the giant and the three Hebrew boys locked in the fire...I lost my way like many others and lost hope for a time, but God was still there every step of the was guiding me back to him...blessings

    • @ivetmiller4842
      @ivetmiller4842 3 роки тому

      @@Colazsmithtv thanks for your kind words 🙏🏿

  • @itzjenjen2189
    @itzjenjen2189 3 роки тому +5

    Watching this vedio is so heartbeat,dem careless bad down a jubilee and me nah take bk ma words... thank God this bby arrived ok

  • @vinnielliw6927
    @vinnielliw6927 3 роки тому +5

    So sorry😢😢. Dung a dah place deh is di worst!!! Dem negligent bad..smh

  • @maxinegilman2010
    @maxinegilman2010 2 роки тому +3

    God is truly faithful and perfect in all His ways. He knows how to reach us, even in our darkness hour. Blessings guys as God continues the healing process in your hearts. ❤

  • @carolpenn8455
    @carolpenn8455 3 роки тому +3

    Did the hospital give you an explanation as to why the baby died ?
    That is so heartwrenching !!!
    Probably due to negligence on their part . So sorry for your loss . 🙏

    • @vinnielliw6927
      @vinnielliw6927 3 роки тому +1

      Agreed..something happened during the process and they had to perform emergency c section to try to cover up their negligence. That place is the worst!!

    • @allisonhill7743
      @allisonhill7743 2 роки тому

      Brother you will be bless the lord has used you to give this testmony to minister to show who he is Lord god almighty

  • @florencechin6509
    @florencechin6509 2 роки тому +2

    Colaz, I've been watching your vlogs for weeks now and resisted subscribing because I have so many subscriptions, even though I found your vlogs entertaining and full of Heart, but after seeing you so humbly reliving your worst nightmare, and detailing your relationship with God during this time, I am honored to press my golden buzzer and subscribe to one of the best Channel on Utube❗️❤️🙏🏽🕊❤️ You are One of a Kind❗️💥💥💥

    • @marvamorgan2339
      @marvamorgan2339 Рік тому

      Colaz I am 72 years old and I watch vlogs but this one was so so sad to watch but God know everything best

  • @WayneMarshallja
    @WayneMarshallja 3 роки тому +8

    Powerful testimony my friend. Glad you found strength through Glory to God 💯

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому +3

      Blessings, that song kept me through the dark time, God gave u that song and it has blessed so many and I was one 🙏glory to God

  • @rosemariejackson9428
    @rosemariejackson9428 3 роки тому +3

    I never thought i would even shed a tear drop at the beginning of your story... but i am happy that i watched it..( a bawl😭😭😭😭😭).. knowing that God is always in control of our lives...no matter what we have passed through/ going through..he is the author and finisher of our faith..God is too wise to be mistaken💝💝🙏🙏

  • @veronwatkis2501
    @veronwatkis2501 2 роки тому +2

    I felt your Pain, COLAZ being their twice, however GOD see me ,us through....I even hear the babies crying and then I remember, reality take over...I would Love to hear how your Wife manage the LOSS, THANK YOU...🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽💞💃👏👍🥳🥳🥳

  • @donnellmitchell4603
    @donnellmitchell4603 6 місяців тому +3

    Mi General, I'm so sorry for your loss, wow‼️ Jah know star , Blessings to you and your family. p.S. Climber is your son, Spiritually mentally and emotionally, DAT TIZ IT

  • @ABenjamiteSis
    @ABenjamiteSis 2 роки тому +4

    I know this was a while back but my condolences to you and your wife. I lost my son in 2018 and it’s like it just happened. This loss is great and will definitely keep a place in your mind and heart forever. Although I just started watching y’all about two days now, my heart is hurting for y’all. The Most High is a great comfort to me. His will be done in this Earth as it is in Heaven.

  • @joygolding7038
    @joygolding7038 2 роки тому +2

    Thank God he has given you the strength to carry on. Thanks for sharing your story it's helping me right now as you know I just loss a Son and seeing your strength gives me the strength to go on too. 🙏👼🤗❤👼

  • @joanjackson7065
    @joanjackson7065 6 місяців тому +2

    ME NEVER TAKE NO COUNCILING ME REFUSE I CAME TO UK STUDY TO BE A NURSE THANK GOD MUSIC KEPTS ME UNTIL THIS DAY WORK AMONGST PEOPLE FROM ALL OVER THE GLOBE NOW IM A ON MEDICAL PENSION DISABILITIES BECAUSE OF ORTHEORITHIS IN MY LEFT KNEE THANK GOD HE IS ABLE MY HEALER I DID HAVE ALL BERV3S PROBLEM GOD RELEASE ME FROM ALL THOSE

  • @almareeflowers2795
    @almareeflowers2795 2 роки тому +2

    Thank God for blessing with an adorable baby girl. God bless your beautiful family 🥰

  • @carolpenn8455
    @carolpenn8455 3 роки тому +6

    Way maker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness my God that is who you are 🎶🎵🪕.....
    Such a beautiful song indeed !

    • @annsmith7356
      @annsmith7356 2 роки тому +1

      So so so sorry can I just let you and your wonderful family know that your son is alive and he is with our wonderful Lord Jesus Christ you guys will see him when we all get to heaven God love you Amen 🙏

  • @angelinebhoorasingh8244
    @angelinebhoorasingh8244 6 місяців тому +1

    This is so heartbreaking! Watching this years later. Just finished watching the on about your wedding then this one.
    I cried with you my brother and I am so happy that you started worshiping him after your disappointment. He is such a faithful God. Jayce will always be your baby boy!
    Look at you now? You and Sham have 2 beautiful babies and he is blessing you both so abundantly! Isn’t he an amazing God? I love you guys ❤❤

  • @abijahneumann2468
    @abijahneumann2468 2 роки тому +2

    Thank you for sharing this, I just came across it and it touch my heart, it is an inspiration, and your faith has made you whole. This message will help so many people heal including myself. God bless you and may you always find peace in the midst of any storm. Stay blessed and thanks again for sharing. 🙏💯. God is a miracle working God.

  • @avagalehemmings787
    @avagalehemmings787 4 роки тому +9

    😢😢 this is so heartbreaking to watch but behind every dark cloud is a silver lining and your beautiful baby girl is the prove......

  • @donnettjackson6681
    @donnettjackson6681 2 роки тому +2

    It was so beautiful coming from the males point of view. Nice that you are this expressive as a man. God bless you and family. Sorry for your loss but God is in control everytime.

  • @user-ix1im3qn4v
    @user-ix1im3qn4v 5 місяців тому +2

    God is good u will get a son who God bless no man cuse I love yoù,re family and the whole team . From ST Croix US VIRGIN ISLANDS.🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉❤❤❤❤❤.

  • @charmainepicart-mcmahon2736
    @charmainepicart-mcmahon2736 3 роки тому +3

    So painful, so sorry for your loss, thank God you kept your faith, that’s devastating. I have two children of my own and had a very near death experience with my pre-mature daughter. It was devastating, but could never compare to your situation. Keep trusting.

  • @paulinehenry1020
    @paulinehenry1020 15 днів тому

    Such an encouragement Colaz. Thank you.
    God be glorified. Amen. ❤️

  • @tanajames8613
    @tanajames8613 11 місяців тому +2

    Wow, this comment is 3 years later but I am truly touched by your story and testimony. I can’t imagine what you and your wife went through but am happy god heard your prayers and gave you your desire. 🙏🏽❤️

  • @julietsew9973
    @julietsew9973 2 роки тому +2

    That's a testimony. Blessings to you and family

  • @aldagrant6306
    @aldagrant6306 6 місяців тому +1

    So touching and real. Thanks for sharing!

  • @v.pb.4049
    @v.pb.4049 3 роки тому +2

    I am so happy that you are in the light. Missing your son is okay too. Having and honouring your beautiful daughter is commendable too. Stay strong both of you.

  • @shavelpanton3156
    @shavelpanton3156 4 роки тому +9

    Glad to know you are strong enough to come on here and talk about it

  • @claudettdavy2697
    @claudettdavy2697 3 роки тому +1

    My brother thanks 😊for sharing! Beautiful god loves you, keep trusting in god

  • @caribbeanraised6084
    @caribbeanraised6084 3 роки тому +9

    I'm a nurse in NYC and I volunteered in KPH for 2 weeks and they need to be re-trained!!! Sorry for your lost

    • @sanoconnor76
      @sanoconnor76 3 роки тому +2

      Exactly, i had a terrible experience there

    • @patriciaburgess2122
      @patriciaburgess2122 2 роки тому

      They are not professional in the public hospitals in Jamaica, a lot of people die in those hospitals because they do not care, they are only working for the money.

    • @maxineprince7391
      @maxineprince7391 4 місяці тому

      ​@sanoconnor76 Me too I never have another baby in 🇯🇲 and I keep my promises

  • @princessbee9020
    @princessbee9020 5 місяців тому +1

    Omg Colaz and Sham is my first time seeing this Video And is just pure Tears running down my face what a touching experience what a heartbreaking time 😭😭but thank God for his presence and his Mercy and the joy he bring in ur Life after a storm there comes ur blessings😂😂😂😂😂🙏🙏🙏🙏 u are a great Father and these are the thing cause u to be so good to other people children u are here for a purpose and u are fulfilling ur purpose God is awesome ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

  • @denisegrant7440
    @denisegrant7440 2 роки тому

    Bwoy what a testimonial Colaz's when I tell you I've been where you was as a mother lose of my first daughter, a nuff years later and likewise I was broken... for me is your voice say hold on to one thing and restore your faith in God mi love dat.. thank you Colaz's ... May God Almighty continue enhancing yours and your family's lives also keep on counciling your subscribers fi do di right thing and, wait on God fi bless dem right threw 🙏🏽

  • @roxanevans4949
    @roxanevans4949 2 роки тому +2

    I love your content but this video has given me a new found appreciation for your channel. I am happy for you and your wife and I prophesy that you will have your son. Your family is beautiful and your content is a breath of fresh air . Always been a silent viewer but had to comment on this one.

  • @aulithroyalgmailroyal3915
    @aulithroyalgmailroyal3915 3 роки тому +1

    I love your honesty. Many people is afraid of someone going through grief. Thank God you made it. Your baby girl is such a joy, so full of life and a cutie. Much blessings to you and your beautiful wife.

  • @melodyleach6528
    @melodyleach6528 2 роки тому +2

    So sorry for your lost 😞 RIP, very sad.

  • @sydneyb2140
    @sydneyb2140 3 роки тому +2

    Oh this is sad. My heart is hurting
    God bless you my brother.
    🙏🙏🙏

  • @MsSturdybird
    @MsSturdybird Рік тому +1

    This is a very moving story. I love the way you showed you’re vulnerability. Having watched your Jacia’s World challenge, you are an absolutely great dad and husband the way you’ve supported your wife while she was in hospital. There are so many men that could learn from you. I really hope that Wayne Marshall see this video. I think he would be happy to know that his song has helped you in a difficult time.

  • @goldtooth_6795
    @goldtooth_6795 2 роки тому +1

    This was so, so sad to watch cause i went through it twice. So I know the feelings you went through. Only God knows why.
    Congrats to your baby girl. Keep God close and turn to him in everything that you do. Bless.

  • @angelinaward5549
    @angelinaward5549 5 місяців тому

    This was powerful testimony Colaz that has really helped me. I didn’t lose a child but I lost my mother unexpectedly. My heart was ripped out of my chest but God. I listen to He made away by Travis Greene it’s an anoint song that brought me out of a dark dark dark place. Thanks so much for being transparent. Blessing!!!!🙏🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾

  • @patricklyn8698
    @patricklyn8698 3 роки тому +2

    As a Father I have nothing but respect for your grief ...May God bring comfort to you and your wife and be assured that Babyboy is in the arms of Jesus Christ...you guys will meet again!
    RIP BABYBOY...MUCH LOVE LITTLE ONE😍😍

    • @patricklyn8698
      @patricklyn8698 3 роки тому +2

      Colas my brother...listen my mother died at childbirth having me....my family gave me away because every time they saw me they saw my mom dying.. my mom before she died me held me and smiled when she found out she had a boy.
      They never forgave me and I was never able to reconcile with the family..I am now 70 years old and my ONLY REAL PEACE IS THE ONE I FOUND IN JESUS CHRIST! I HAVE FOUND REAL PEACE IN JESUS CHRIST YOUNG MAN,NO BITTERNESS TOWARDS MY UNFORGIVING FAMILY, I HAVE FORGIVEN THEM BUT I PRAISE GOD THAT HE IS MY HEAVENLY DAD...MY MOTHER WENT AGAINST DOCTOR' S ADVICE TO ABORT ME...SHE CHOSE NOT TO ABORT ME,I AM SO PROUD OF MY MOTHER FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO MEET JESUS CHRIST..
      REMINDS ME WHEN JOSEPH WAS GIVEN AWAY BY HIS BROTHERS AND IN THE END JOSEPH SAID TO HIS BROTHERS..WHAT YOU MEANT FOR EVIL GID MEANT FOR GOOD!
      YOUNG MAN YOU LOST A SON I LOST MY MOM SO I UNDERSTAND FULLY YOUR PAIN BUT WHAT SATAN MEANT FOR EVIL GOD ALLOWED FOR GOOD BECAUSE I AM ALIVE IN GOOD HEALTH AND A SERVANT OF THE MOST HIGH GOD!
      I EMBRACE BOTH YOUR BELOVED WIFE AND YOURSELF DEAR TO MY HEART AND I WANT TO ENCOURAGE YOU TO KNOW THAT JESUS CHRIST WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU GUYS OR FORSAKE YOU GUYS! BOTH YOUR SON AND MY MOTHER ARE BOTH IN THE ARMS OF JESUS CHRIST!
      GLORY TO GOD🙏🙏

  • @Leslynjj67
    @Leslynjj67 3 місяці тому

    So sorry for your loss. Your Son will always be a part of your lives.
    My Son and his partner also lost their first child, a Boy, Marlon Jr. and we always celebrate his EarthStrong. He would have been 8 years old this year. I have his ashes in a chain around my neck, like his Mum and his Dad has a ring with his ashes. God Bless x.

  • @nicoleellis5310
    @nicoleellis5310 3 роки тому +11

    I feel ur pain... same thing happened to me at the same hospital in 1991 with my son but they never showed me him or gave me no death certificate or nothing....I end up having a daughter the following year but this time at the University hospital and .... ever time April 24th comes i get sad ... don’t know if he really died or stolen.. they r really horrible at that hospital 😔

    • @HigherSelf-xe3df
      @HigherSelf-xe3df 3 роки тому +3

      Wow!!! That's awful. Sorry that was your experience.

    • @chachab9239
      @chachab9239 2 роки тому

      😟

    • @christinaallen7320
      @christinaallen7320 26 днів тому

      So they didn’t give you a birth certificate that means the baby undocumented no records really

  • @user-yg4rg5bc4l
    @user-yg4rg5bc4l 2 місяці тому

    I went through the same thing ( 8.5 months) still birth‼️it happened many, many years ago and yet still : I cannot forget ! The emotional pain is ( Real ) God compensating by giving you two beautiful daughters and your adaptive son ( Climer ) ! You cannot replace: Jason , you will get another ( son) ! Time is the master of all things! ❤

  • @lolog.9322
    @lolog.9322 2 роки тому

    Thank You For Sharing My Beautiful Young Man.
    I Am So Proud Of You. Words Cannot Express How Blessed I Feel For Coming Across This Video.
    May GOD Continue To Bless And Keep You And Your Beautiful In Love And Unity.
    May You Continue To Be Fruitful And Multiple In JESUS Precious Name. Amen And Amen.
    One Love, One ❤.

  • @kazee3661
    @kazee3661 3 роки тому +1

    I just found your channel a week ago and I have been watching your cooking. This video was heartbreaking. Seeing you holding your baby boy made me cry. I am so sorry for your loss, but look what God has done, he has blessed you and your wife with a precious beautiful baby girl. Never forget your son, grieve for as long as it takes, just always remember God is in control. Your testimony will help so many people. Thank you for sharing such a difficult part of your life. May God continue to bless you and your family.🙏

  • @YawdieGirlLifestyleTv
    @YawdieGirlLifestyleTv 4 місяці тому

    I also lost 2 babies, and this tearing me up inside. Thank you for sharing your story, Colaz. You will never forget your son, and neither will I forget mine 😢

  • @jenniferstanley4216
    @jenniferstanley4216 4 місяці тому +1

    I feel your pain Colaz. I had a still birth at 36 weeks. A beautiful baby girl. It was gut wrenching so I know exactly what you were feeling.

  • @jamminwithmexijam5710
    @jamminwithmexijam5710 3 роки тому +10

    This is deep. Never question Gods will for our lives. I’m a mother, God has blessed me with two sons. I know within my heart he is going to bless you with another son in due time. This is also a great testimony. Keep the faith and remain strong in the Lord. He gave his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers. Thanks for sharing too. You are in my prayers

  • @NoniBeckham
    @NoniBeckham 3 роки тому +3

    Praying God will give you & Shameka another little boy. Even though he won’t take the place of this one. 🙏🏼❤️

    • @Colazsmithtv
      @Colazsmithtv  3 роки тому

      Thanks

    • @sebastianefreeman2795
      @sebastianefreeman2795 3 роки тому

      @@Colazsmithtv WAS IT COT DEATH.IT IS DEVASTATING FOR PARENTS TO LOSE A CHILD DISSOLVE YOUR PAIN INTO CREATIVITY.OUR PAIN CAN BE OUR CURE TOO

  • @sophiafranklin7394
    @sophiafranklin7394 2 роки тому +1

    I just started watching your channel and I subscribe because you have God in the centre of your life

  • @7736Julio
    @7736Julio 3 роки тому +2

    What a testimony!!! Thank you❤️👍🏽. Thanks for sharing your life experiences. Sorry for the loss your baby boy, but thanking God for blessings you both with your little girl. Praises be to God👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽. Thank God for bringing you both through such a difficult time. Blessings always to your family,over and over again❤️💪🏼🙏🏽👍🏽👏🏽💯

  • @emunatikvah6714
    @emunatikvah6714 3 роки тому

    My Son was on life support for nine days. I sat by his bed side n prayed to God for a miracle to let my Son live, but the doctors injected something to stop his heart, they didn't revived him! 😭My son was 26 yrs He passed away four days before his 27th Earthstrong!❤ I too didn't believe in God anymore for awhile! Luv n light!💚🤗

  • @abigailgordon4250
    @abigailgordon4250 3 роки тому +5

    I feel your pain my son God knows best 🙏🙏

  • @countrylife44south75
    @countrylife44south75 3 роки тому +5

    Very sad and heartbreaking 😢😢😢

  • @judithfamily9807
    @judithfamily9807 2 роки тому +1

    You make me cry Colza God bless u and your family

  • @almareeflowers2795
    @almareeflowers2795 2 роки тому +2

    Colaz, my sincere condolences goes out to you and Cham with the loss of your son...my heart goes out to you...I feel your pain but the joy of the Lord is your strength. Thanks for sharing 😥😥

  • @aliciasimpson5887
    @aliciasimpson5887 2 роки тому

    I can't find d words to tell how this inspired me to not give up. God gave u that experience for u to give me strength. God bless u n ur family.

  • @euphemabudd1569
    @euphemabudd1569 Рік тому +1

    I just saw this story and glory to god
    You had me enthralled and motionless for the duration of the episode I didn’t blink I didn’t move from the dining table after dinner
    My heart and my soul to you and your wife
    I am so glad you found something to hold on to
    Jesus Christ
    And didn’t loose your mind at that time
    God is good
    All the time
    A well documented story