Dealing With Depression, Mental Health
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- Опубліковано 22 сер 2024
- Hey guys!
This video was REALLY hard to make, and even harder to edit. I’m really scared to share it, but with the holidays coming up I know a lot of people who deal with or have dealt with depression are triggered. I’ve never openly talked about or shared my experience with depression, but I’ve been feeling lately that I should share with you guys my experience in the hopes that I can help someone out there dealing with it.
I really hope this video helps someone! If you have or know any helpful sites or sources for people dealing with mental illnesses please leave them in the comments and remember to be kind.
I love you xx CYD
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Shout out to that nurse for doing her job. Im proud of my profession and this video is amazing for black women struggle with mental health issues.
Why you gotta be black? alot of people get depressed of all colors..
Margaret Leal perhaps the person who posted that comment was a black woman herself and the ability to see another black women speaking on the topic makes it more relatable to her. It’s really not common to see other women who look like us, or who can relate to us culturally open up so transparently about this subject. BUT your actual question was “why you gotta be black?” Followed by a statement of how people of all colors get depressed. My question would be why does it matter to you what color she is? And to why is it a problem for you if one black Women comments to another how proud she is of her? Do you also have a problem with St. Patrick’s day when people take pride in a specific culture? And yes you are correct people of all races get depressed. However speaking for myself if this video was made by any other UA-camr it probably would not have come across my feed. But it just so happened that this beautiful woman who is someone that I totally relate to made the video. So I too am so thankful and proud of her for having the courage to tell her truth, and yes I am even more proud of the fact that she is someone that I can relate to. Get over yourself! What if the person who posted that comment could have been in a bad mental state, and because of the advice given here by someone she could relate to, she found the courage to get help? Which the awareness is the entire point of the whole video, but instead you are commenting and making it about race, because apparently you have a problem with one black women showing appreciation for another. Why are you so fragile? What are you offended by from her comment? Why can’t you just be kind towards another human being?
@@FrenchCocoa369 girl you get over it ..it wasnt that deep..and no I dont care what color she is I'm not racist...but I do get tired of people always playing some kind of card..get over it alot of us have problems but I dont go saying us Mexicans..everyone of every color should lift up and encourage every other race to love thier self and others....so you get over it since you got offended...
Margaret Leal please just go the fuck away. I rarely ever comment on anything but damn, just go away
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Can I just say, I'm so glad you're in this world.
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I know this sentence wasn't meant for me but I am glad I saw it. I needed to see this
@@dudeitsrave I'm glad you're in this world too raven!!!!! Love you
You're all so friggin beautiful souls ❤️🥰 feel the loooove 😘
Amen.
1 year later and this video you’ve created still has an impact. Thank you for sharing, this doesn’t make me feel so alone.
As a therapist myself you have some natural qualities of a therapist/counsellor. Perhaps you can consider becoming one.
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@@Hakoona hey RM! Srry to bugg but i found your comment and i see you are asking for help and you werent getting it help so i just wanted to say i hope you are doing amazing and im not a therapist but if you need someone to talk to im here to listen (or in this case read lol)
Absolutely. I heard a minister once say, the field that has caused you the biggest problem, that is the field you should work in. It's hallowed ground.
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I remember 10 years ago, I kept hearing people talking in my head, afterwards I got sick and I wanted to spend all my time in bed and I was like that for months, but I knew there was something wrong and I kept telling myself, I want to get better, but yet I was still wanted to stay in bed. Walking over bridges was very traumatic for me, I would see myself throwing myself in the river, so I avoided bridges, my heart would beat very fast and I would get panic attacks, what helped me was someone talking about the colour green,. Green is for healing and if you want healing, look for green spaces, so I spent every day, visiting parks, then I was able to get well. Writing what I am happy about has greatly helped me, I very rarely watch the news, listen to a lot of classical music, don't watch horror films at all and read psalms 23, 91 and Psalm 103:1-6, repeating affirmations.
Valerie Smith, you just spiritually awoken. It’s the process. God bless you and your beautiful soul!
@@ednao471 Thank you
You have a beautiful soul!!! Your story is so inspirational and positive..I went the similar things!! I love you and thank you for choosing to be a positive reflection of your pain!
I’m so sorry about that. Were the voices you heard the onset of a mental illness?? I feel so sorry for anyone going through that.
@@LoveNaisa I'm not sure. I had been suffering from a lot of desperation for a long time. Surround myself with positive people and things now. I am much better, thank you for your kind words.
Mental health is so important especially within the black community ❤️
People are so quick to not validate what we’re going through. They tell us to just prey about it or go to church and just apply this band aid like fix. When it’s so much deeper than that, there’s real trauma that we don’t heal through, there’s real issues that we don’t face as a community and we close up and keep going.
Shanai Codner real trauma that is unfortunately passed on through our genes. Though my mother was never diagnosed I’m sure she was manic depressive. I’m sure my father had some issues due to his history of violence. Definitely me and my siblings absorbed all of it. Growing up in churches, everyone talks about praying but never about seeking out mental help from mental health professionals.
Kiki Dejean generational trauma is so real. I’ve been healing for about a year now and through genetic alchemy, it’s not only touching my two year old sun but his children and their children as well. It’s tough but it’s dealing with your shit and really facing your shit. I’ve grown within such a new light with this new found love for spiritually and womanhood, along with motherhood.
I wish you nothing but love and light along your own journey Queen ✨
@@soumazyn3795 Asides from the fact that raising children is expensive, mental illness is one of the main reasons why I am hesitant to have my own children at this point. A lot of millennials are very aware of that risk when deciding to have kids or not.
Kiki Dejean I think that, that fear alone has a lot to do with ego. You’re blessed with children when they choose you, and you choose them. In terms of being “expensive” it’s how you choose to view parenthood. The journey is different for everyone. Once you know you’re always provided for, things have a way of falling in place.
Everything is rooted from DNA and childhood, once we begin to really heal and do the work not only are we healing ourselves but we’re healing our children, through genetic alchemy. They won’t have to “struggle” and heal through certain aspects.
Merry's Apple Tree it’s a study that you have to dive into. It’s a lot of internal work that takes place and facing a lot of your fears, suppressed thoughts/feelings
It’s healing deeply rooted trauma so your children can be healed and their children and so forth.
Hello Cyndee. My name is Yolanda. I’m 70 years old and have had biological depression for 34 years and ADD my whole life. I have been taking medication for both. I tell you this because you are not alone. I am so happy to see a young woman discuss this condition. I didn’t realize there were others dealing with this until I was 62 years. I had a hysterectomy which made both worse. It is okay to cry because that is a way to release the stress. I’m proud of you and thankful for you sharing your experience. You are stronger than you realize.
Love Yolanda
I have suffered from depression for as long as I can remember, and I have never once considered loving that part of myself. I have always thought that my depression is something to be ashamed of, but acknowledging it and embracing it is truly the best way to get through it. If you didn’t speak on this, I may have never considered it. Thank you so much for being vulnerable and making this video.
I have suffered from depression since I was a child. I am 54 yrs old now. I have an abuse background and I'm chemically imbalanced. I take an antidepressant daily. I am doing very good and live a blessed life! THERE IS HELP AND HOPE! I send you much love!!!!
How do you know you are chemically imbalanced? Do they check hormone levels?
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There is help and hope. THIS!
A dearly beloved friend of mine told me once: “you’re not going to feel like this forever. This will pass”. His words struck something inside me and whenever I feel down I remember this.
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I don’t usually comment but I’d like to thank you for your courage in sharing your story. As someone who suffers from depression myself you’re describing things that I’ve felt almost to a tee. I was hesitant to take medication but I finally did and it’s starting to help. I hope one day I can come off of it but for now I’m treating my depression like the disease that it is and I’m trying to manage it better. It’s also nice to hear this coming from a black woman because we’re often forgotten when it comes to mental health issues, even though we’re affected the most. I’m glad that more black women are sharing our journey and how we’re navigating through these issues. I promise you you’re touching and helping more people than you know. Also I love the cut, it’s amazing on you! ❤️🖤
U said thr words I can't.
same here thanks.
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I know I can't really put myself in your shoes but I've been depressed at some points in my life and I'm so happy you came on here to talk to us about it. God will see you through darling! We are your family and we really appreciate your voice.❤️
Hang in there gorgeous girl. Keep on fighting, keep on living. The world needs people like you.
Thank you so much for sharing these close and personal feelings. I have been suffering from depression for over 30 years. I tried to take my life 3 times. I was recently diagnosed with ADHD. My anxiety was so high I thought I was having heart attacks. What some people don’t realize is you don’t choose to be depressed. The kind of depression we have can’t just be prayed away. You have to do other things to help you cope. I’m not saying that having a healthy relationship with God is not important but that alone is not going to stop you from being depressed. It really bothers me that here in 2018 people do not understand that suffering from depression is a real diagnosis just like diabetes. Cyd you did a wonderful job and for those that can’t relate, that’s okay but please don’t say insensitive and hurtful things. Just wish her well and keep it moving. That’s one reason why it’s so hard to talk about depression. Everyone has a cure and can tell you what to do, yet they have no degree and if all the stuff they were saying really worked, no one would be suffering from depression. I love your channel lil lady!! You continue to push through and keep your head up. We are all very proud of you.
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@transformation all I can say is to please do research on Clinical Depression. There is a difference in being sad or being in funk and being clinically depressed. The scriptures at 1 Thessalonians 5:14 Paul told the Thessalonians to speak consolingly to those that are depressed and to support the weak. Why didn’t he tell them to pray and fast and repent from sins if that’s all that’s needed. So because i suffer from clinical depression and ADHD are you saying that God is somehow displeased with me and so he’s not removing my depression? I read God’s word almost everyday, I am a foot step follower of Jesus Christ. I apply the things I read in the Bible into my life. I apply Philippians 4:6-7 by supplicating and pouring my heart out to my Heavenly Father in prayer. So you’re saying that God has chosen to not free me from my depression because?????
I mean no disrespect and I’m not trying to be rude, but please please please..... research clinical depression. We are imperfect humans who are over 6000 years from perfection when Adam and Eve sinned and mankind started to die. Paul told Timothy to drink some red wine when he was having problems with his stomach. Why didn’t Timothy just pray to be healed if that’s all that was needed. Paul did ask for his thorn in the flesh to be removed at 2 Corinthians 12:1-9 but it was not removed. And I know he was pleasing to God, because his son Jesus spoke to him directly. Yes, prayer and having a relationship with God is important and I’m not knocking that. I love my Heavenly Father and work daily to do his will, but that has nothing to do with my clinical depression. Having that relationship helps me so that I am not hopeless. I have faith in his promises found at Revelation 21:4, and I am patiently waiting for the fulfillment of that. But today..... I still suffer from ADHD and Clinical Depression. So please, Transformation, please..... do some research on clinical depression before you tell someone to pray, repent from your sins!! Because if they really don’t know about how God works, that could really cause a person to lose faith or not want a relationship with him because he didn’t remove their depression. I’m very happy your depression went away. My prayer is soon none of us will say I’m sick or depressed as found at Isaiah 33:24. But to tell a person to put everything into that would setting that person up for failure. I would never want the weight of knowing that I told a person to go to God and he would take away the issue that they have, and it not happen.
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You just NEVER know what ppl are going through. Youre so beautiful i didnt think u had these problems. Praying for you and im so proud of your courage. You inspire me ❤
I used to feel like everyone else was happy but me but now I see that Im not the only one who isnt perfect.
@@jasminepearls1047 there is no such thing as a perfect human or life. We all just trying to make the best of our lives. I use to think that way too that other people lives were perfect, especially the older I get.
I make no sense just because someone is beautiful don't mean they can't get depressed idiot
@Victoria Cartine A lot of people assume people who are beautiful, fit, well off ext aren’t struggling mentally.
Thank you so much for sharing this Cydnee ❤️
Never a burden to talk about it. Yes don’t hide it. I bet you just saved a life doing this video. I went through depression in my early 20s. I never got professional help. It was triggered by a breakup. I had a friend who listened when I ranted. Now when I start to feel that darkness, sorrow or feeling sorry for myself I get dressed and go workout. Hike, gym, bike whatever. I love the beach , sun, nature I get out of the house. I get out of my way. This really helps me. The body has natural endorphins to make you feel good. I stay away from pills. Unfortunately sometimes they have the reverse effect or create more problems. Good luck. You are special.
My mental health issues, undiagnosed ADD/ADHD, and and all in a nutshell. You nailed it Cyd. The CPTSD and anxiety are the icing and cherry on top. A suicide prevention person called me in the nick of time last night. Her timing was impeccable. I have an appointment with a therapist this weekend. The struggle is real.
Hope you feel better !
God be with you.
i reallllllly felt when you said “a lot of people don’t recognize their hurt”. that is so true. it’s so hard to be in tune with yourself and your emotions. it can be so hard to recognize when you’re depressed- that’s almost the hardest part
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I am a therapist and I used your video for a group with the women in our facility. Your experience helped them deal with their own depression. Thanks for being you!!!!!!
You’re a rare beauty, inside and out. I’m glad you’re here 💗
I have depression also and I think my only thing that helps me threw my thoughts and struggles are my kids I always think to stay strong for them they deserve a strong happy mommy stay strong cydnee
kareem Kareem praying for you and your family
It's actually helpful to hear someone else talk about their depression, so don't feel as if you're burdening people with it. I've been really depressed for the last few weeks and I've been having suicidal thoughts probably for the last weeks but esp today for some reason, and honestly you have no idea how much this video is making me a bit better. Thanks for uploading.
I’m so happy to hear this. I know it’s tiring to keep trying to be strong, but keep going
@@CydBee it is, and I'm sincerely trying.
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I know exactly how u feel. Every time I feel myself sinking, I try to pull myself back out by thinking of the good things and people in my life. Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing this Cyd. You look gorgeous as always. I really love when you just talk to us! Also, mental health is really important. I recently had a friend who passed due to suicide so I think influencers like you speaking about their experiences is incredible. Also, don't feel bad about taking your medications. If it works for you then it great. Big hugs to you. Love you always.❤❤
Really sorry for your loss.
You are very brave. Thank you for sharing your story. You cant even imagine how many people you are helping. Stay strong beautiful....and if you do have weak moments , thats ok too!
With Respect!!!
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I’m literally crying right now watching this simply because I truly admire you you always seem so perfect it’s so crazy because I have all of these thoughts & and it’s hard to hear the truth sometime you really never know what someone is going through I literally just want to hug you right now no one can truly understand what depression feels like unless you suffer from it I hate feeling like this sometimes it really sucks sometimes life just seems so overwhelming and It seems like no one understands I can’t believe you truly understand I want to pray for you and I hope you pray for me as well I want to thank you so much for being so transparent
Never felt this related to a video. Know that you did help someone with it. Love you, Cyd!
Girl. We've been there. I had three major depressions in my life so far, all coming with the lovely, lovely suicidal thoughts. The closest I ever got was two years ago when for just one second the ideation became "I'm gonna do it. Might was well." Thankfully only lasted a couple seconds, but I remember how the raindrops looked on my windshield as I sat in my car thinking it. Depression is a real illness and does not discriminate based on your gender, race, sexual orientation, or social class. Take care of yourself girl, we got your back.
For me school has gotten harder and harder.. the simple things I do on a everyday basis has gotten harder for me. And I don't understand.. but I know exactly what you mean cydnee. I think seeing a professional (for me personally) would be the best option.. but I'm so happy you talked about this subject, I appreciate it ❤️
Jackie Huizar I have the same problem things that I was able to do before I can’t anymore 😑well I can but it feels harder
Could also be that your dopamine "standard" level are to high so all activities that would normally be fun or stimulating or at least wouldn't be that hard suddenly seems to be exhausting or boring. I don't know if thats your case, I just started looking into dopamine detox so I guess I might be biased :)
Hey cyd! I really appreciate you talking about your mental health it’s important for Black women that suffer from mental health to seek help and therapy , it’s often looked down in the black community and black women are always thought to be “strong” and carry burdens but it shouldn’t be that way at all.
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It's a sign of strength to seek help.
I usually don’t leave comments, but this video spoke volumes. It’s so great to understand I’m not alone in this world. I appreciate you sharing your story. I really love you so much for this.
Thank you ❤️
You are so amazing!!!!! For doing this job and using your platform you really make a difference !!!
Thank you, Cydnee. Watching this has helped me admit to myself that I am in one of those episodes right now. I've been dealing with depression since I was very young but it's almost always been a silent, solitary battle. I have been thinking about going to therapy or going back on medication (I also have ADD!) as it has been over three years since I've done either, but I keep making excuses for why I shouldn't make the appointments with a therapist or psychiatrist. I keep putting it off and I've realized now that I can't keep doing that. Thank you!
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Thank you so much for this video. This was extremely relatable and I'm so grateful for you opening up to your audience about this. ❤️
It's hurtful to see people go through that, specially the people that is so empathic and kind. This video make me feel proud of following someone so brave and honest talking about this topic. I really love you and I hope you'll do great. You are an amazing human being.
I could never thank you enough for this video, you have actually changed my life, like for real you made me look at my “behavior” through a completely different perspective. That whole suicide process that you have talked about just made me realize I was a depressed kid, not through my whole childhood but for sure for a whole year. I have always thought that that was just a phase. 2019 will be my first year in college and I will be more careful with my mental state because of this so thank you so much.
(Excuse my grammar I’m not American)
Cyd girl I love how real you are! Each and every time I see you at events, you're such a pleasure! Thanks so much for sharing your heart. Love you so much and sending you positive vibes and thoughts!
THANK YOU for exposing such personal parts of your life. People don't disclose how they're feeling because of how other people react & the stigma attached to "mental illness". The reaction of the nurse & therapist you talked about would have caused me to run in the other direction.
Every friend that I was honest with stopped calling, texting, communicating period. This just added to my depression. Some people pull away because they don't know what to say or how to handle it. Some were just narcissistic. Neither reaction should have had any affect on me but it did.
My prayers & hopes are with you. A better understanding & acceptance of yourself will help along with your meds & therapy. Most importantly, GIVE CYD A BREAK & LET HER HEALING PROCESS TAKE ITS COURSE.
Hang on Cyd! You have worth! You have value! You have helped Me today. Again, THANK YOU!
(btw I'm an older Black female who was raised in a time in our culture that dictated NOT to share your feelings. In fact you swallowed them)
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I'm not sure what you're doing with your hair but please keep it like this, it's sooo cute. It makes your features really stans out in a gorgeous way.
I have a cousin who is depressed and have high anxiety. Everything you said reminded me of her. And I'll say to you what I always tell her when she is in a stage--its ok that you have these feelings, thank you so much for sharing them with us. Your feelings are validated. It's ok to take medicine, speak about your thoughts without the pressure that you should immediately feel better. Good job doe pairing sad thoughts with a fun passion (filming and makeup) because that helps, and this world is 100% benefiting by you being here. Love love 💕
Thank you. I cried watching this.i just so happened to see your video during a desperate fight to get out of an episode of depression and it feels so good to feel like theres hope in getting better. I really needed this. I connected with your story and will continue to push to have a healthier mindset. You have no idea how grateful I am to you right now. You may never see this but I hope you continue to walk others like me to a happier place.
before i watch the vid i can't help but think how interesting it is that we seem to be going through the same issues around the same time... i recently cut all my hair off (august) and have been struggling with my mental health for half the year... I don't speak to anyone about so I'm really grateful to have someone that i can relate to without having to force myself to speak.... love you Cydnee
spot on Cyd... everything you said was spot on ! This helps, and you're doing amazing !! hopefully one day i'll get to the point you're at.
I hope that one day you’ll feel comfortable enough to reach out and talk to someone, it really does help! Until then I’ll be here. And I’m going to continue making content that supports the mental health of my viewers! I love you ❤️
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Jheanelle Blagrove I cut my hair recently tho 😫 I’m so grateful to see people feeling those things tho
I LOVE HIPPIE CYD! I know it was a pretty big deal for you to overcome your emotions just filming, editing and posting this video but THANK YOU! ThisDEFINITELY helped me today, and based off so many other comments, it helped them too so...mission accomplished! You have the power to help people just by sharing your story! God bless!
3 yrs later & you're still standing! I'm so happy for you. It takes courage to talk about depression and battle it🙏🏾
I just got diagnosed with depression Cydnee and really needed this video. Thank you
Wow, wow, wow. I learned something from your video. I didn't know that when I feel suicidal, and want to kill myself, and I have came up with my plan, that it is basically a waiting game. I am in therapy and have been for several years and take medication, I still feel people don't understand it. Thank you so much for sharing this. At least I know for sure right now, I am not Alone.
Here, most people don't understand suicide because, they ignore and overlook their own mental health. Meaning, they'd rather see their suicide thoughts as mere nightmares that lapses and decreases overtime without, them facing it.
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You are so brave for this. Depression is truly a thing that you dont realize you're in until someone else points it out. That is the scariest part about it. Thanks for this WE ALL NEEDED THIS! Be kind to yourselves yall!
I have also dealt with depression almost my entire life and coming out of an extremely deep depressive episode that lasted (for me) years is such an indescribable feeling. And how you explained what it feels like to be in an episode, coming out of it, and how it changes you as a person and how you see the world is exactly the same as I feel, and I'd assume other who deal with extreme depression feel the same.
This is such a relatable topic for me. I suffer from depression also and it does get to be so hard And it really is battle. I've been out of work for the last three months due to depression I really just felt so down and low and I was considering suicide so I went to seek help. I realized that growing up in my environment of being adopted and molested and just not experiencing love early on it really shut me down. I found that helping people fills a hole temporarily but it helps but I'm getting help. You touched so many topics and I really don't want to overflow here but you have my love and support .I love watching your videos and your energy and don't feel bad for taking mental health time. You have to take care of yourself. I'm sure this video helped plenty of others who feel similarly but also don't have an outlet. Wish we could talk irl
Cydnee, this is one of the most beautiful videos I have ever seen on your channel. I don’t personally suffer from depression, but I do have adult ADD, and I have never EVER heard anyone speak about it or their symptoms, and literally having you speak about it briefly even made me feel like I wasn’t alone. I literally related to everything you said about it. So thank you❤️thank you so much.
Thank you for sharing Cydnee! Never feel embarrassed for being depressed or for coming online to talk about ! You never know who you are helping by being open about it 💙
Thank you so much for being so open with us. It's awful how much our minds can be against us. Even worse people are still downplaying it and not understanding it is an actual sickness. I honestly don't know how to deal with any thing because growing up I was drilled to never talk about myself, we don't talk about our problems and you have nothing wrong with you. It really messed me up something awful .
The past few years have been a struggle but we always have to keep going and hope for better days. I hope for many warm days your way. And yes being nice is so easy to do and I sure wish more would practice it.
This video just helped me so much. I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and add when I was 15. I haven’t been on my meds for years or talked to anyone because I haven’t had health insurance. I finally just started going to a therapist and got back on my meds. This video really helped me because I’ve been beating myself up for letting my mental health get so bad for so many years and you were literally taking words out of my mouth and explain things that I have been feeling that I haven’t been able to put into words. Thank you so much for sharing your story, it truly makes me feel less lonely.
Cydnee I sympathize with you so much, as I have suffered from depression too. Just know that it does get better...God bless you!
I have never commented on your posts but this video touched me because I’ve been there and I still experience depression from time to time although, it’s not as bad as it has been in the past. The key though is to get counseling and use the tools that you acquired in therapy. I feel like my bouts of depression have enabled me to be more understanding and kind just as you said. Thank you for sharing this video.
Your eyes resemble that of a doll I had many decades ago. Absolutely stunning.
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Cydnee girl.. I completely HEAR you, SEE you and FEEL everything you've been feeling. Thank you for sharing your story. Reassuring to know I'm not crazy alone and keeping this smile om my face to satisfy everyone. I haven't been aware of how I've feeling the past 4yrs honestly and i have those sad thoughts time to time, but I think I want to get help as well. God bless Cydnee. Hope it gets better for the both of us.
Glad ur feeling better. I’ve dealt with anxiety & depression. I’ve taken a lot of time to get to know me & why I’m me. I’ve noticed that many people don’t stop to get to know themselves & these people tend to be judgmental & see things only from their perspective. Because I’ve worked on me, I understand people better whether they’re good or bad. Environments create character. I believe that our people are always in survival mode & this is why substance abuse runs rampant in our communities. How would our lives be if equality was historically given to our ancestors? Let’s keep fighting & know that trouble doesn’t last always. Awesome share ! Sending hugs 🤗
thank you so much for this video, sometimes depression makes us feel as if we are alone and no one cares for us when really we are never alone and theres always someone who can relate to your story x
Everything you said in this video about depression, I feel and have felt the same things you feel, thank you for sharing!
I’ve been medicated for depression, anxiety, and ptsd for three years but you talking about your adult add has me really reflecting on a huge part of me. I never thought about add possibly being an issue for me but I think I need to go talk with a doctor about it and see what they think. Thank you so much for sharing, it’s really helping people (like me). You’re an amazing person Cydnee
Hey Cyd! I too have ADHD and Depression, and I understand how hard it can be. There's a channel on UA-cam that I love called How To ADHD that's been helpful. I am having a hard time with the idea of taking medication for the ADHD and feel so guilty about it. Hang in there, girl! You're not alone.
Kitty I love that channel. I love her enthusiasm. She’s great.
Chrislande Any update? Did you eventually take the medication? Is it working for you? I don’t have ADHD, but I have depression and I too don’t like the idea of taking medication.
I hate your going through this i have been battling Suicidal thoughts and depression for about a year now and about three months ago I finally broke down and got me a therapist and it has really changed my outlook I wish you the best on this dark journey and I’m hoping you find peace let us pray
Deja tutorials hey it took me years to go but I have a condition which I will be in therapy possibly the rest of my life. With all that I will say it changed my
Life. Be proud of yourself! This is sunshine at the end of the storm 💪🏽
I struggle with bipolar disorder and have for most of my life so when i say I FELT this, I mean I FELT this. Every single part of it but I’m so scared to talk to people about how I feel. I feel like a burden or people are gonna look at me differently. That’s why I just stick to myself and try to bring myself out of my depressive episodes. I’m so grateful that you made this video and were so open and honest with us. It definitely helped me feel a little bit less alone.
Wow girl the struggle is REAL! Thanks so much for sharing! What a way to sit through a tough personal subject while beautifully doing your makeup. This is my 4th video of yours. You're adorable!
I love that you spoke out and opened up about your experience with Depression and AHDH(ADD). I work in the mental health field with adolescents and I think it's extremely important for people to know how serious Depression is. (As well as mental health in general). I know it couldn't have been easy to talk about this, but I guarantee you helped someone either talk to their family, doctor or therapist! You are very strong and I hope you continue to find joy in living life!!!!! Stay strong!!!!!
Wow thank you. I never really comment but I faithfully watch your videos. I think u are beautiful and hilarious and u give me so much inspiration to learn and do my own makeup. I suffer from acne and hyperpigmentation so I feel down about my appearance daily. And that sometimes leads me into a depressive state and I’m the type of person to just “ deal with it”. I also deal with a lot of health issues but again I would just deal with it until I actually talked to someone about it and OMG the feeling after was amazing. I had to get it out and I didn’t even realize that I needed that. I didn’t wanna look or feel weak but after my talk I felt stronger like I can get back to me ya know. So thank you for this video and being real because we are ALL human.
Thank you so much for sharing this. And thank you for watching my videos ❤️
I love how you explained the progression. I have had clinical depression since my teens and I never heard it explained like that. Thank you for all you do, who you are, your authentic self. Take good care.
You've been so low, and have risen so high, and are a natural empathy-- protect your soul. Delete toxic people. The world needs you. God Bless You, Cyd
I cannot tell you how much this video means to me, and how much I relate to every single thing you said. I've been having a really really rough year and have been depressed for most of it. I don't know why but just hearing you talk about your experiences and thoughts and have them be so similar to mine is both comforting and scary because it's as if I'm finally hearing my thoughts to out loud and how sick I've been thinking. Thank you so much for sharing this thank you.
Being aware is the most important part! I’m so happy I could help
Thank you for sharing this part of your life. You make me feel beautiful. I'm on depression medication because of losing my mom on the Easter that pass. My psych just told me I needed a (jump) because it was hard for me to understand how people just keep moving in their everyday lives even though my mom is gone. By the way I'm and African American woman, 43 going to be 44 next month and it's just hard to believe that she just GONE. Wow!! You are not alone because you a dear an positive person to me. I don't have close friends but you and other youtubers have help build my confidence and made me laugh more. Especially your cooking challenge so AWESOME!! I appreciate you because you have saved me and don't even know it. Much love and you will do well in LIFE.
Mary McKelvin I also loss my Mom this year in February .I’m a 48 year old African American woman also and I feel your pain my sister and I were very close to our Mom and it’s so hard to believe she’s gone..
My mom was very ill and we took care of her for the past three years and she truly did not want to suffer and live her life like that.. You are not alone and I pray that God gives peace that surpasses all understanding .. Through prayer he has given me peace that she is in a much better place and is no longer suffering..
I had to come to grips with the fact that as much as I prayed for her healing she may have been praying to God to take her home so she would not have to suffer anymore..
I know I will see my Mom again and you will see your Mom too. Jesus is our Lord and Saviour and he makes no mistakes we belong to him.. God Bless you. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I pray for your comfort and strength.
@@nicoleglover3313 Thank you so much
I know this is a year old video, but I UNDERSTAND so well. I have a mood disorder with depressive episodes and was diagnosed with ADHD in adulthood when I decided to go back to college. The racing thoughts, exasperated loved ones, feeling like you have a virus, and how to balance independence and self care....it's all quite a trip. I think of medications like eating salad and taking insulin - because I would never think less of a diabetic taking insulin, and vegetables are just good for you. I also now understand why I love your videos so much and the way you talk. You speak and think in the same style. We're troopers, you're doing what you need to. Thank you for sharing with us all.
hello there, I’m a new subscriber and can I just say, you are STUNNING! I love how honest you were about therapists and how it might not be the best option. I also love how vulnerable you were in this video, thank you for showing the reality of having a mental illness. I needed this, I’m a new UA-camr and I found that doing videos and staying busy helps me deal with my depression but recently it’s been getting worse and this video helped me a lot, just hearing you talk makes me feel like I’m not alone. You are such a beautiful person and thank you so much again for allowing us to see this side of you 🖤
Cydnee just know you are so amazing, so beautiful, sooooooo funny, and just so genuinely relatable. I love how you make your videos and you are a beautiful dark skin black woman like me you’ve made my life a whole lot better with your makeup tutorials. I’m so thankful for you 💕
Thank you so much for sharing! Certain things trigger my depression but, I struggle with anxiety the most. "This too shall pass. "
Nisha J. Im the same way and im glad theres a huge community of people that struggle with similar things and it makes me feel not alone in the world
I am truly blessed to have found you through “makeup & history”. I have been binge watching you for days. I love your message of “spreading kindness!” Thank you for making this wonderful video. I have lived with bi-polar depression for over 35 years and you have truly made me feel so much better today. You REALLY ROCK YOUR OWN LIFE WITH JOY! And BEAUTY!!!❤️🙏👱♀️🦋🤗
Thank you so much for talking. I feel like you are my future and opening my mind to a time when I won’t fear my depression. You make such an amazing point that my depressions makes me a more caring/compassionate person. Thank you for helping me on my journey. Learn, expand and love your mind💗
Cydnee...you have a calling and this is it. I’m 9minutes in and have learned VALUABLE INFORMATION I don’t think I would have gotten unless I went to a therapist. So many ppl need this jump start to better mental health. I BEG YOU PLEASE KEEP TALKING AND MAKING SIMILAR VIDEOS TO THIS!! ❤️❤️❤️
Cyd!!!! Out of all the videos you have done, this is truly my fave, I want to thank you for being so brave to open up to the world about your daily struggles with your mental health. I suffer from depression for years and I am going to find a therapist to talk to. Thank you again! xoxo
I’m so happy you’re going to talk to someone. It truly helps
Never, EVER apologize for speaking your truth. You are strength personified. Thank you for sharing this.
You are an amazing person in every way!! Your beauty on the inside matches the beauty on your outside!! That is a rare thing these days!! My oldest daughter who is almost 19yrs old now suffers from bi-polar depression and severe anxiety! You are an inspiration to me as well as her! To be so open and honest about yourself your life and situation is very inspiring! Most influencers only show the good stuff like their lives are always fun, glamorous, and their always happy, which is very detrimental to their younger audiences in my opinion! So thank from the bottom of my heart!
Its so hard to talk about depression especially with how people are starting to diagnose themselves with it. Its almost becoming mainstream to have depression or anxiety.
It is pretty mainstream. Kiddos pick up anxiety by middle school.
Cyd, you are such a wonderful person. Thank you for sharing your life with the world. I hope your perfect imperfections have healed and helped somebody in some way. Remember, diamonds are made under pressure.
Girl... I tried so hard to hold my tears back with you while watching this video because I feel this on such a deep level. Thanks for sharing it definitely helped me and I hope I'll be able to share so openly like you have, it takes so much courage 💛
I felt some kind of a way when watching it, made me feel a little depressed but the reality is that we all go through things in life which aren't always cheerful. Glad your doing something about it and speaking up so woman know they are not alone with this issue. A very delicate subject.
i thank you so much for the video.!!! my girlfriend suffer from depression && anxiety && its only gotten worse since her dad passed. you breaking down how you felt going through your depressive state helped me understand hers a little better because she can never articulate how she feels when shes going through a depressive episode or she tries to keep it internal && dont wanna talk to me about it cuz she feels like she's complaining. you are just the bees knees in cats pajamas && btw your makeup was gorgeous(as usual)
Cyd..you are a real one lil sis. Si much love...thanks for sharing and being completely transparent...many will identify with your testimony and realize they need to seek out support.
I love this video because it’s so real and honest! And I love you for be braving enough to talk about it! And beating you’re face at the same time! Keep going! We love you! 😊😊
i had no clue that the thought, how you’d do it, and the plan would all be a line up... i’ve been lying to my therapist for years because i was terrified they’d just lock me away. thank u so much hun💛💛this definitely helped me😭😭
This video is so wonderful and touching. I went through an experience in college that I feel really made me into the person I am today. And even though it was awful I think God made me go through it for a reason! Thanks so much for the video and keep them coming!
The way you articulated how it feels is spot on. I feel like my depression is a virus too. 💗 thank you for sharing your story. You’re doing great with listening to your needs and being okay with seeking help. Inspires me to do the same. Thank you.
I suffer from depression. It has always been incredibly hard for me to share with people, because I like you think I would be a burden to others. I am getting help. Thank you for being brave. We will get through this. Sending you many hugs.
This video was so needed. I knew I had depression and I’m very aware of it... sometimes in the middle or after coming out. But seeing this video makes me think I have ADD as well. I have never seen a therapist but I do want to. We are so similar it’s kind of scary. Thank you for this.❤️
I would get the add checked! It’s a life changer becoming aware of that. Thank you for watching ❤️
oh my God. Cydnee thanks so much for this video. First of all, this is an amazing truthful video about depression and ADD. I've had situational depression so I understand what you mean about situational depression versus FULL ON depression. I hope you are feeling better these days in 2021 and thanks for all these awesome Makeup and History Videos! They make my day!
I've been trying to understand my adult ADD ( I was diagnosed in University and I'm 32 now) and it is so well explained, the way you explained it! I keep getting exhausted and having anxiety about the house being messy. I also have a 3-year-old who is so active and constantly wants attention while I'm also trying to get the dishes done and cleaning the house, etc. I keep thinking, how do other people get things done and why am i so exhausted after a little bit of effort exerted. I thought I was just lazy or something. Like I knew I was diagnosed in University but I wasn't absolutely sure if the diagnosis was correct and I"ve been trying to deal with it without pills for a long time.
This confirms how I feel. I kept ignoring how I felt but now I can explain it better to my therapist. And I can work on it more or maybe get medicated.
Lots of Love, from Toronto, Canada.
Girl yes. I was on meds for my depression (I was diagnosed with depression and then I decided that I wanted to deal with it in a natural way and took myself off without talking to my doctor and omg I regretted it. Thats when the suicidal thoughts started happening and I turned to God thank goodness and it wasn't a cure all. I also talk to my friends who actually understand and wont judge me for feeling what I feel and I changed my circle which was a big help as well. I went to counseling and I had to...learn how to deal. From time to time if I feel down I talk to 2 of my really good friends and I allow myself to feel what I feel without wallowing. But thank you girl! Your story will help others. Thank you
No one knows what a person is truly feeling or going through. I commend you on your bravery to speak out on such an important topic. Just know that you’re never alone. ♥️ Prayer has helped me power through many of my episodes. I hope you’re able to have more good days than bad! 💕
Good afternoon miss black. Having listened to you in this video. I want to say how impressed I am. I have two beautiful daughters who are always talking about you. It's so humble and generally human of you to show this side of yourself. As you mentioned, friends and family are so important when trying to find your way through the confusion of anxiety, self doubt and unexplainable depression. Young and impressionable girls today are under so much pressure to fit in that they sometimes forget or are blinded to their natural beauty. I want to thank you for making my job as dad a little easier.
In my 50’s and I enjoy and I appreciate you and what you share. Praying for you for us 🙏🏾🙏🏾💕💕
Such a beautiful soul.
So transparent, honest and genuine
I love love love you Cydnee ❤️
Thank you for this video. I relate to the depression, suicide, and ADHD
Dear Cindy, this was just such a good and important video. Thank you for being so vulnerable and genuine and ready to open up and help others who relate to you with telling your story. I cried along with you. what you said about being empathetic and thankful and discovering that by depression was so beautiful. Crying along with you was not burdening me at all but made me able to feel connected even in these darker parts of life, in suffering. I dont know you but i love you because you are so loving and kind!!!
This is me OMG, everything you said sounds like my life and its affecting my relationships. I am not suicidal I want to live for my children I often feel if I am not around who would my children have because I'm the only parent they have. I dont have a close relationship with my other family members. Thank you for sharing your experience because this has opened my eyes immensely. I have been seeing a therapist but mainly for my daughter because she was acting out in school but mainly because our family went through a few issues that was mentally draining I know it affected me but I believe it has affected me more mentally than I thought. I'm going to watch this video again this has definitely helped me a lot. God bless you!!