We're happy that YOU'RE happy, Becky! This video was a lovely surprise! No matter what, we're proud of you and just want to see you smile :) We understand there's no straight line when it comes to "living with a mental illness" - we just want you to *thrive* no matter what it takes! Sending love and support!
God bless you and thank you for sharing your journey. I’ll be 67 tomorrow and have had trich since I was probably about 18. I hate it but I have been blessed that I still have hair although it is thin. I will keep you in my prayers.🙏🏻
I feel the same about my nails! I have nails for the first time in years, and they're pretty strong, too. But I don't know how long it's gonna last! So I try and enjoy it while it lasts and not put pressure on myself.
Same, I have strong long nails for the first time in legit like 20 years, the pandemic/quarantine started and I just stopped, for no discernable reason... I hope it doesn't come back
Wear dark colors on your nails, this will stop you from biting them. It work for me . I have strong and long nails since i found this out. It was the girl that used to do my waxing, ahe also did nails and she told me to do that.
I am very happy for you Beckie! I've been struggling with this problem every day for 37 years. Luckily I am a balding man so it doesn't stand out ;) Thanks to your vlogs, I know that I'm not the only one struggling with this. Thank you!
Same, but it's my facial hair that I pull. In fact my avatar picture is me with a beard and I'm using it to inspire myself to grow another one atm. Its tough because I'm eating the inside of my mouth instead. Caffeine, High Sugar & Junk food definitely make me worse! I also wear cotton gloves while watching t.v which helps
Ive been dealing with trich myself since middleschool. I havent seen your videos in years, and its honestly beautiful to see how we were both able to manage trich in the past few years and live healthy hair lives.
I've had trich since 2011, since I was 11 years old. My hair used to be down to the middle of my back and extremely thick and wavy. Over the years it got thinner and shorter until it just wasn't passable anymore and not a soul saw me without a hat for over a year due to the entire crown being bald. In 2017 I did the big shave for the first time. Since then I have been in the desperate cycle of getting a few inches of length, pulling a big spot and shaving it again. 2020 has been the worst year of my life for many reasons, but for some reason, somehow, my hair is the longest it has been since 2017. It is just a little shorter than yours. I am in a very similar space, I still pull, but I am appreciating the small things. Washing it, drying it. Brushing it. It's there. It's uneven, thin in spots, but it's there. It's there and I go to work every day without a hat on, which even a year ago seemed an impossible task. I couldn't hold a job because of how consumed I was with my hair. But now, I'm doing it. I know this is long, and I doubt you've read this, but Becky, when I was a 12 year old girl desperately trying to understand and come to terms with what I was doing to myself and why I couldn't stop, you were my everything. I have watched you since all those years ago. I was a scared, lost young girl with nobody to talk to who couldn't understand why I couldnt "just stop". You made me feel less alone. For that, I can't thank you enough. I am so proud of your progress, I am sending you a big virtual pandemic hug. We've got this. Thank you so much for the update.
i am in a similar boat. my hair is the longest it’s been in about 6 years. i’m still pulling, i still have thin patches, but my pulling in the pandemic has been much better than i expected. it looks mostly even now, and as much as i’m excited, i’m keeping my expectations reasonable.
I'm 43, i first read about trich when i was... 16 or 17. I started pulling at 12 I felt so alone and strange and weird and you made me realize that i was never that alone in that battle It's nice to see that yourger people suffering from this don't have to feel like me, like "the only one in the world", growing up with trich Nice to see you again
Is it possible that being away from social pressures reduces anxitety in an unexpected way and some trigger has been removed that was there previously?
Omg she's back! And I adore your hair, no matter the length! You're stunning, always ♡ good on you, you've done so well, enjoy the joy!! I managed to beat trich which is awesome, I still have anxiety and ocd, but occasionally an urge pops up but I push it away. I love my eyebrows too much now that they're back! i do also follow your main channel but have been here basically since you started it, but was on your main first.
I have trich and a chronic illness - and honestly I think the experiences are so so similar. You spend the bad times wishing for the good times, and you spend the good times waiting for the bad times to come back. Other people don't seem to understand that it exists even when the symptoms aren't visible. The sheer exhaustion of having to maintain any notion of normalcy and the grief when you have some kind of episode. I'm so happy you're in a good time!
I watched you're video, like 7 years ago I think, explaining trich. I sobbed because I finally had something to described what I had. You gave me the confidence to shave my hair. I am literally crying watching this, I'm so happy for you!
I relate to so many aspects of this video. That kind of hesitant optimism. Please enjoy and cherish these moments, and the hair annoyances 😊 you’ve earned them.
Before i congratulate you on your hair Beckie, I have to say: Wow! I‘ve missed you and your videos so much! I‘d forgotten how calming and welcoming you make these, i always feel safe and at peace when i‘m watching your videos. Such a contrast to some of the content out there, which can be quite aggressive and loud. We appreciate you, even more so considering that creating content doesn’t always pay you back the same way. It is horrible how hostile people can be out there... I think it‘s good to remind people that putting all kinds of expectations and pressure on you isn‘t fair... Long hair or short, you look beautiful, you are strong and you are worthy! Mad respect for growing out your hair during this very challenging and stressful time💜.
I’ve been watching you for at least 12 years and I remember watching you go to uni, like 4 years before I went and now I’ve graduated and I really feel like I’ve been able to see your whole journey, and it’s really been a privilege because of this moment right here, it’s not about the hair, it’s been about feeling nice, your new feeling of frustration because it’s all in your face and that it actually makes you happy, that warms my heart, you are so appreciative and you are so realistic, no plan, you have your goals but you know you just have to roll with it, your videos always makes sense, and you articulate how you feel so well, I envy your ability to express yourself, bless this moment in time and bless you, I wish you all the love and happiness!!!
I have a very similar confusion. I've had trich for about 11, and you were the first person that talked about it so I knew what it was (23 now) and last year for the first time I became completely bald but not through shaving (through trich) and this is the longest time I've not pulled and I got so confused cause I tried pulling once or twice and didn't actually enjoy it. Im happy too, but COMPLETELY confused. Its been such a inspiration watching you over the years. And I hope you find the happiness you deserve in everything💕💕
Bonjour Rebecca, a french silent follower of yours here to tell you that you are the smartest, most delicate, most subtle and also ironic and funny advocate of trichotillomania I came across on YT.(we are about the same age, and I'm at the same step as you now, after 10 years of trich) You helped me a hell lot and I'll be forever grateful.My heart would burst if ever I came across you irl. MERCI BEAUCOUP, you beautiful human being.
Becky I’m so happy for you! I started following your trich journal a few years after my own diagnosis and your videos encouraged me immensely. I pulled most of my eyelashes last night and woke up with the shame, so seeing your video this morning has been so encouraging once again. Thank you for sharing. ♥️
I am happy for you Beckie! I have trich for more than a decade now and I am one of your earliest followers. This quarantine I have suffered so much hair loss that I might need to shave it, it sucks. But I am like a friend because I am so happy for you! Try to focus on other things and keep your hair away from your face so you won’t get irritated by it. :)
Im in a similar boat right now. I was put on a new medication and since then, haven't pulled head hair nearly as much. I feel the same excitement and yet also apprehensive about growing my hair as I have been in the "shaving trap" for the last almost 3 years. Thank you for sharing your story! It makes me feel less weird and alone.
One thing that finally helped in my 10-years-long journey with Trich is getting weave on very very short hair (couple months after shaving bald). The weave, much like a wig or scarf, prevents the pulling as it blocks access. I had to do this or I couldn't get married lol! Anyway, happy to see you're doing well. Much love and support 💕💞💖
I'm so happy for you. Seeing you is a reminder of a long story of a battle a lot of us have been fighting. I knew I had trichotillomania because of your video. I'm so happy to see you grown and accepting andlearning how to live with this, and having hope and at the same struggle about what will happen. I'm so happy to see you. I wish all the best for you.
This really brightened my day!! I'm so happy for you, Becky, you've gown so much. I remember watching your videos 8 years ago and feeling calmed by your voice and presence and it feels the same today! We are always here for you, and remember: not all growth is linear.
Dude with it here. It's mostly my beard I go for and I had to shave off the remnant of it not too long ago, which wasn't a good feeling. Like you Beckie, I am under no illusion I am cured, but this vid helped me in reminding me I am not alone.
I am so happy for you right now! I understand that you can't help what stresses you, but know that lots of us just want to see you happy. Those who doubt someone for having mental health issues are always going to think that way.
I'm so happy for you! 😊🤗 I love the way you ended the video with that smile and I can relate to the feeling of being so so happy about the small things. And for me even better is to be able to share that happiness with someone who Totally Gets it. ❤️
Lockdown helped me go from shaved to shoulder length hair too! We both go through the same horrible condition. For me I realised it was such a help as I wasn't seeing other people I hardly had to look in a mirror and other people wouldn't see my hair, I didn't have the stress of going to work, so many factors really but overall I'm so pleased with my progress and hope that with the longer and thicker hair I have now I can finally have some more control over this condition and maybe I can actually break the cycle! I wonder if by keeping it in a good condition and keep seeing stylists between regrowth I can avoid the trigger and avoid a relapse! I've been dealing with this for about 10 years and haven't had anything past shoulder length hair since I was 15 despite never ever wanting to have short hair. I still struggle like you with pulling especially on other areas of my body, I hope to one day be free of this but trying to manage my expectations and realise this may be a lifelong issue, but any progress at all is amazing, even if it just prepares me for future relapses. I wish you the best and hope we can both get through this and learn to manage this better over time and may even one day look back on this as a distant memory. I hope more awareness and understanding comes around regarding this condition as the stigma is certainly triggering, hopefully doctors receive more education on this topic and more study goes into it as a whole. Good luck to anyone out there who is dealing with this it is a tough battle no matter what anyone says. It's a medical issue and you deserve understanding and care! ❤️💕❤️
As a tricher dealing with failure and success if regrowing my hair I appreciate you explaining that the emotions we deal with after a relapse are hard and to go easier on ourselves.
My daughter's hair has also grown out, too, during Covid-19. It's curly and gorgeous and looks like the biggest best white-girl afro you ever saw, brown with golden glittery highlights. She's also deadling with all the heair issues as you. The other day, she asked about why there was hair in her brush-she was worried--but I assured her that hair naturally falls out every day. I think the stress of peer pressure? Maybe a social anxiety. The stress related to appearing "normal'? We are long-time fans as well (more than 6 years). Keep up the good work, Becky! So proud of you and my daughter Rocky (Roxanne). Greetings from America, where no one wants to be right now. Sending good thoughts and love.
Havent watched this channel in a few years but came back to check in. Im so proud and happy for you!!!! Smiling at your success, I hope you continue to do well :)
Wonderful to see this beckie! I like what you said about hair growth not squalling being cured. I think a misconception a lot of people have is that one day you’ll get to a point where it’s stopped, it’s over and gone. When in my experience it doesn’t seem to be a thing that will ever really go away. I’ve been a pretty good place with my trich for quite a few years now, maybe 4; it doesn’t feel like it’s all consuming any more, I don’t have any more bald spots, I’m able to grow my hair if I want and colour and style it however I want without worrying. But I still have trich. I still have urges to pull and will sometimes still pull out hairs and fall back into my old trichophagia rituals. Even just thinking and writing about it now is giving me urges. I think it’s something that will always be a part of me, and even though it’s mostly dormant for now it could flare up again in the future
Congrats on your progress! You radiate happiness ✨ I just made a post tonight regarding my trich after not acknowledging it for 20 years. My confidence is boosted and then I see this video. It must be divine timing. All good vibes to you and I wish you well.
Becky, long time no see! I've been following for the past 6 years I think, and it's always good to see you happy. Even if it's not forever, enjoy your hair, you deserve it. It is a great achievement!
So genuinely happy for you Beckie. 💕 As you said, hair growth doesn't define your strength or achievements. I'm less happy about your hair and more happy about your happiness in this video, and in your recent Instagram stories.
hi beckie! i know u felt this video was all over the place, but as someone who also struggles with trich, i understood everything! i actually looked up ur channel again tonight since i’m about 2 days away from being (almost) pull free for 3 whole years! although i have a full head of hair that is healthy, i still pull every single day in other places and my dermatillomania and nail biting also makes itself present. however, i’m super proud of my progress and i’m gonna enjoy it! during the past three years, i’ve been able to stop tying my hair up to hide the bald spots and i got to fulfill my dream of wearing my hair down at my senior prom which i thought was something that would never happen. who knows when the next time i’ll pull my hair is, but i have the similar mindset that somewhere in the future it will most likely reoccur. my trichotillomania is not gone and i still get urges, but i’m super glad that i’ve somehow managed to get it under control for the most part. congrats on ur success and i hope u keep having those messy hair days and having to wait for the conditioner to sit in ur hair during ur shower! thanks so much for the update and thank u for being someone i could look up to for the past five years or so. when i was younger, i was definitely a lot more self conscious about trich, but now that i’m nearly 20, i’m a lot more comfortable with myself and that’s partly because of u! hope everything is well and that you’re staying safe during this pandemic❤️
oh that's great! I'm so happy for you!! I started subscribing long time ago because I have a skin-picking habit and although that's different from trich, I saw many many parallels between your struggle and mine that I found myself coming back to your videos from time to time. I'm so so glad you are at a good point right now, I do understand the uncertainty of "how long will this last" and the fight every day, having to be responible every day. I wish you all the best, sending lots of love from germany
i just wanted to say how grateful i am for you to have started putting out content about trichotillomania because that is how i learned what i had and i found some sort of strength from your videos. you were the first person that i saw shave their head and grow and do it again and again and even though you probably had very hard and upsetting times you didn’t give up. i know i’m a person who gives up easily and this is no shape or form to put any pressure on you to help people but you did help me. in 2018 my trich was so bad and i was trying to hide it with bandanas and so many things but it just was not working anymore. until my trich started i had thick long curly hair (that i never learned how to take care of and sadly people made me hate it) and by 2018 it was as thick as my middle finger and that was it so i decided to shave it. i did it in January 2019. well i have been thinking about that for maybe a year and a half since i saw your vids but i never had the courage to but i did it and i think it was one of the best decisions i have made. it grew for 5 months but it was patchy and not the same length, then i cut it down more again, then i shaved it all of on May 31st 2019. i somehow tricked my brain to stop using my hands as a way to pull (on my hair because i do pull my eyebrows and eyelashes too) and i kinda made a deal with my brain to maybe only use tweezers if i need to pull that bad. it was so hard at first but since i didn’t hve any hair when i tried to pull on my nonxistent hair i told it no! stop trying! every time. and i think late june - mid november 2019 being a good timeline for me, me trying to trick my brain worked! i grew my hair without cutting until june this year. it was almost the same length as yours but since it is curly it was probably a bit longer if i looked at it while it was straight. i decided to cut it shorter again but i did not shave it. i still have thinner spots because a few times my trich got the best of me but they are just thinner and not bald like it used it to be. i do struggle day to day, like right now i have lesser eyelashes but it is okay. our fight keeps going everyday and i know you don’t know me but i am proud of you for doing what you do and again very thankful to have found you because you helped me through my darkest times without knowing. 💙
Oh Becky, you have no idea how happy it makes me to see you so happy!! Your hair is gorgeous and you are gorgeous and I’m so proud of how far you’ve come in your journey 🥰❤️
I've watched you grow up on youtube from a young girl to a confident woman, wonderful to see this, you give me hope! iIve missed you and your many talents:-) hugs
I love you Becky🥺❤️ I hope I reach my hair goal one day like you did😔 Wishing you all the best, you are so brave..! I’ve been with you since 2018 on both your channels 🥰
Beckiee ❤️❤️Congrats on your progress, but also on a healthy mindset! I've watched you for years, I'm a skin picker myself, and your videos were the only content that made me feel less isolated when I first started understanding my disorder. My picking has gotten heaps better since lockdown as well! It's the first time I've felt comfortable going out with no foundation for years. Seeing lots of comments here with similar stories. Makes me happy that we might soon understand these behaviors better!
One of the best things that happened to me this year was being able to find your channel and knowing that you are trying hard makes me feel very happy for you. I am also in this battle, I have a lot of difficulty with that but knowing that I am not alone in this makes me feel a lot of peace. Sorry for my bad english. Greetings from Mexico
I thought the pandemic was gonna make me lose all my hair, but for the first time in forever, I can put my hair in a ponytail and it's not a thin ponytail!! I've been playing with my hair to practice braiding. However, my crown has been pretty damaged the hair is growing back very slowly, but I believe soon enough I can just push my hair back with ease, without thinking people would look at my bald spots first. I completely understand your joy with hair. There are still days I feel weird and exposed to walk outside without my hair piece, but I get to remind myself I don't need it anymore. It's simply an awesome feeling :)
Hi from spain! So proud of you, really! Love your hair now. I was following from the moment you make a compilation of all the pictures you take (one per day) and i really dont know what to say or how to xplain myself. Ive got anxiety problems so i can imagine why would someone pull out his own hair. For xample, i bitte my nails or my skin so i can get relaxed. But i dont really really know how hard can be not to have hair. Just tell you that you are a warrior and send you aaaaall my blessed to u. Good luck growing up your hair, xoxo❤
Everything in this video resonates so much! Shaved my head for the second time last summer and it’s finally getting long and thick (with help from wigs ) but still very uneven in many places gaaaah we’ll get there eventually, I’m so happy to see you ❤️ your hair is gorgeous and floofy and shiny! I too have lots of anxiety when things go well with my trich because like you said who knows what will happen, it’s so darn hard to predict and see patterns. Anyways you rock , ride the waves, thank you for helping me see myself and my struggles reflected , it really is so important to have this kind of representation and transparency (I discovered you in middle school and have now graduated high school ) again, thanks and happy for you ! :)
I’m so excited to just have a moment with you and to catch up a bit on your present situation. You were a part of my world for quite a long time, and it’s wonderful to see you! Watching your excitement and happiness and honesty is refreshing and I’m smiling watching you filming you so happy and adorable. Yes, your hair is gorgeous. (But you always were beautiful, hair or none at all.) ~rebecca~
Wow you're back! My trich of 5 years has also lessened to my surprise, although I don't think for me it'll completely ever go, but it's a huge improvement, we got this!! ❤️❤️
We're happy that YOU'RE happy, Becky! This video was a lovely surprise!
No matter what, we're proud of you and just want to see you smile :) We understand there's no straight line when it comes to "living with a mental illness" - we just want you to *thrive* no matter what it takes! Sending love and support!
God bless you and thank you for sharing your journey. I’ll be 67 tomorrow and have had trich since I was probably about 18. I hate it but I have been blessed that I still have hair although it is thin. I will keep you in my prayers.🙏🏻
I feel the same about my nails! I have nails for the first time in years, and they're pretty strong, too. But I don't know how long it's gonna last! So I try and enjoy it while it lasts and not put pressure on myself.
Well done.i have issues with bitting or tear my nails good for u
Same, I have strong long nails for the first time in legit like 20 years, the pandemic/quarantine started and I just stopped, for no discernable reason... I hope it doesn't come back
I'm a nail biter; I'd love to stop. Somehow it's about being about to feel the skin where it meets my nails at the ends
Wear dark colors on your nails, this will stop you from biting them. It work for me . I have strong and long nails since i found this out. It was the girl that used to do my waxing, ahe also did nails and she told me to do that.
I am very happy for you Beckie!
I've been struggling with this problem every day for 37 years. Luckily I am a balding man so it doesn't stand out ;) Thanks to your vlogs, I know that I'm not the only one struggling with this. Thank you!
Same, but it's my facial hair that I pull. In fact my avatar picture is me with a beard and I'm using it to inspire myself to grow another one atm. Its tough because I'm eating the inside of my mouth instead. Caffeine, High Sugar & Junk food definitely make me worse! I also wear cotton gloves while watching t.v which helps
Ive been dealing with trich myself since middleschool. I havent seen your videos in years, and its honestly beautiful to see how we were both able to manage trich in the past few years and live healthy hair lives.
I've had trich since 2011, since I was 11 years old. My hair used to be down to the middle of my back and extremely thick and wavy. Over the years it got thinner and shorter until it just wasn't passable anymore and not a soul saw me without a hat for over a year due to the entire crown being bald. In 2017 I did the big shave for the first time. Since then I have been in the desperate cycle of getting a few inches of length, pulling a big spot and shaving it again. 2020 has been the worst year of my life for many reasons, but for some reason, somehow, my hair is the longest it has been since 2017. It is just a little shorter than yours. I am in a very similar space, I still pull, but I am appreciating the small things. Washing it, drying it. Brushing it. It's there. It's uneven, thin in spots, but it's there. It's there and I go to work every day without a hat on, which even a year ago seemed an impossible task. I couldn't hold a job because of how consumed I was with my hair. But now, I'm doing it.
I know this is long, and I doubt you've read this, but Becky, when I was a 12 year old girl desperately trying to understand and come to terms with what I was doing to myself and why I couldn't stop, you were my everything. I have watched you since all those years ago. I was a scared, lost young girl with nobody to talk to who couldn't understand why I couldnt "just stop". You made me feel less alone. For that, I can't thank you enough. I am so proud of your progress, I am sending you a big virtual pandemic hug. We've got this. Thank you so much for the update.
My hair is short but I love it 🥰
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i am in a similar boat. my hair is the longest it’s been in about 6 years. i’m still pulling, i still have thin patches, but my pulling in the pandemic has been much better than i expected. it looks mostly even now, and as much as i’m excited, i’m keeping my expectations reasonable.
proud of u!
I'm very very very happy for you! You are so great! You are an example that we have hope. Thank you.
I'm 43, i first read about trich when i was... 16 or 17. I started pulling at 12
I felt so alone and strange and weird and you made me realize that i was never that alone in that battle
It's nice to see that yourger people suffering from this don't have to feel like me, like "the only one in the world", growing up with trich
Nice to see you again
Fighting with trich since 2007. Loving dreads since 2015.
Accepting dreads as MY hairstyle ( and spiritual journey) few months ago. :)
Is it possible that being away from social pressures reduces anxitety in an unexpected way and some trigger has been removed that was there previously?
Omg she's back! And I adore your hair, no matter the length! You're stunning, always ♡ good on you, you've done so well, enjoy the joy!! I managed to beat trich which is awesome, I still have anxiety and ocd, but occasionally an urge pops up but I push it away. I love my eyebrows too much now that they're back!
i do also follow your main channel but have been here basically since you started it, but was on your main first.
Congratulations! You look amazing. Praying for you.
I understand. And I am so proud of you!
I watched your videos for years and I’m glad you made an update! I wish you all the best
I have trich and a chronic illness - and honestly I think the experiences are so so similar. You spend the bad times wishing for the good times, and you spend the good times waiting for the bad times to come back. Other people don't seem to understand that it exists even when the symptoms aren't visible. The sheer exhaustion of having to maintain any notion of normalcy and the grief when you have some kind of episode.
I'm so happy you're in a good time!
I watched you're video, like 7 years ago I think, explaining trich. I sobbed because I finally had something to described what I had. You gave me the confidence to shave my hair. I am literally crying watching this, I'm so happy for you!
I relate to so many aspects of this video. That kind of hesitant optimism. Please enjoy and cherish these moments, and the hair annoyances 😊 you’ve earned them.
Seeing you happy warms my heart.. thank you!
Before i congratulate you on your hair Beckie, I have to say: Wow! I‘ve missed you and your videos so much! I‘d forgotten how calming and welcoming you make these, i always feel safe and at peace when i‘m watching your videos. Such a contrast to some of the content out there, which can be quite aggressive and loud.
We appreciate you, even more so considering that creating content doesn’t always pay you back the same way. It is horrible how hostile people can be out there... I think it‘s good to remind people that putting all kinds of expectations and pressure on you isn‘t fair... Long hair or short, you look beautiful, you are strong and you are worthy! Mad respect for growing out your hair during this very challenging and stressful time💜.
Good to hear from you! Always so articulate
I remember seeing your video on your issue years back. I am glad you are doing so well 💪🏼
I’ve been watching you for at least 12 years and I remember watching you go to uni, like 4 years before I went and now I’ve graduated and I really feel like I’ve been able to see your whole journey, and it’s really been a privilege because of this moment right here, it’s not about the hair, it’s been about feeling nice, your new feeling of frustration because it’s all in your face and that it actually makes you happy, that warms my heart, you are so appreciative and you are so realistic, no plan, you have your goals but you know you just have to roll with it, your videos always makes sense, and you articulate how you feel so well, I envy your ability to express yourself, bless this moment in time and bless you, I wish you all the love and happiness!!!
I have a very similar confusion. I've had trich for about 11, and you were the first person that talked about it so I knew what it was (23 now) and last year for the first time I became completely bald but not through shaving (through trich) and this is the longest time I've not pulled and I got so confused cause I tried pulling once or twice and didn't actually enjoy it. Im happy too, but COMPLETELY confused. Its been such a inspiration watching you over the years. And I hope you find the happiness you deserve in everything💕💕
i am so happy you posted! needed that today,after watching you for few years as a tricher myself. Thank you Beckie, be happy
Bonjour Rebecca, a french silent follower of yours here to tell you that you are the smartest, most delicate, most subtle and also ironic and funny advocate of trichotillomania I came across on YT.(we are about the same age, and I'm at the same step as you now, after 10 years of trich) You helped me a hell lot and I'll be forever grateful.My heart would burst if ever I came across you irl. MERCI BEAUCOUP, you beautiful human being.
Hope you are ok and wish you all the best!
P.S.: And you have EPIC voice! Perfect for Audiobooks!!!
Jenna Coleman vibes! Their voices give me peace.
Becky I’m so happy for you! I started following your trich journal a few years after my own diagnosis and your videos encouraged me immensely. I pulled most of my eyelashes last night and woke up with the shame, so seeing your video this morning has been so encouraging once again. Thank you for sharing. ♥️
I am happy for you Beckie! I have trich for more than a decade now and I am one of your earliest followers. This quarantine I have suffered so much hair loss that I might need to shave it, it sucks. But I am like a friend because I am so happy for you! Try to focus on other things and keep your hair away from your face so you won’t get irritated by it. :)
Im in a similar boat right now. I was put on a new medication and since then, haven't pulled head hair nearly as much. I feel the same excitement and yet also apprehensive about growing my hair as I have been in the "shaving trap" for the last almost 3 years. Thank you for sharing your story! It makes me feel less weird and alone.
One thing that finally helped in my 10-years-long journey with Trich is getting weave on very very short hair (couple months after shaving bald). The weave, much like a wig or scarf, prevents the pulling as it blocks access. I had to do this or I couldn't get married lol! Anyway, happy to see you're doing well. Much love and support 💕💞💖
I'm so happy for you. Seeing you is a reminder of a long story of a battle a lot of us have been fighting. I knew I had trichotillomania because of your video. I'm so happy to see you grown and accepting andlearning how to live with this, and having hope and at the same struggle about what will happen. I'm so happy to see you. I wish all the best for you.
This really brightened my day!! I'm so happy for you, Becky, you've gown so much. I remember watching your videos 8 years ago and feeling calmed by your voice and presence and it feels the same today! We are always here for you, and remember: not all growth is linear.
Dude with it here. It's mostly my beard I go for and I had to shave off the remnant of it not too long ago, which wasn't a good feeling. Like you Beckie, I am under no illusion I am cured, but this vid helped me in reminding me I am not alone.
So happy for you Beckie. I’ve been suffering since 2003 and I haven’t been able to work on this yet..
I am so happy for you right now! I understand that you can't help what stresses you, but know that lots of us just want to see you happy. Those who doubt someone for having mental health issues are always going to think that way.
I'm so happy to see you, regardless of your hair length, but to see you so happy on top of it, is, as you say, bliss!
I'm so happy for you! 😊🤗 I love the way you ended the video with that smile and I can relate to the feeling of being so so happy about the small things. And for me even better is to be able to share that happiness with someone who Totally Gets it. ❤️
Becky I am so happy to see this! You’re amazing! ✨🙌🏻
Long-time fan here. So happy you get to experience long-thick hair. 💕
Lockdown helped me go from shaved to shoulder length hair too! We both go through the same horrible condition. For me I realised it was such a help as I wasn't seeing other people I hardly had to look in a mirror and other people wouldn't see my hair, I didn't have the stress of going to work, so many factors really but overall I'm so pleased with my progress and hope that with the longer and thicker hair I have now I can finally have some more control over this condition and maybe I can actually break the cycle! I wonder if by keeping it in a good condition and keep seeing stylists between regrowth I can avoid the trigger and avoid a relapse! I've been dealing with this for about 10 years and haven't had anything past shoulder length hair since I was 15 despite never ever wanting to have short hair. I still struggle like you with pulling especially on other areas of my body, I hope to one day be free of this but trying to manage my expectations and realise this may be a lifelong issue, but any progress at all is amazing, even if it just prepares me for future relapses. I wish you the best and hope we can both get through this and learn to manage this better over time and may even one day look back on this as a distant memory. I hope more awareness and understanding comes around regarding this condition as the stigma is certainly triggering, hopefully doctors receive more education on this topic and more study goes into it as a whole. Good luck to anyone out there who is dealing with this it is a tough battle no matter what anyone says. It's a medical issue and you deserve understanding and care! ❤️💕❤️
I am so happy for you. I personally have been taking medications that does not trigger the feeling that I want to pull which is great finally!
As a tricher dealing with failure and success if regrowing my hair I appreciate you explaining that the emotions we deal with after a relapse are hard and to go easier on ourselves.
Good for you! Long may your present happiness continue, whether that is hair-related or not!
My daughter's hair has also grown out, too, during Covid-19. It's curly and gorgeous and looks like the biggest best white-girl afro you ever saw, brown with golden glittery highlights. She's also deadling with all the heair issues as you. The other day, she asked about why there was hair in her brush-she was worried--but I assured her that hair naturally falls out every day. I think the stress of peer pressure? Maybe a social anxiety. The stress related to appearing "normal'? We are long-time fans as well (more than 6 years). Keep up the good work, Becky! So proud of you and my daughter Rocky (Roxanne). Greetings from America, where no one wants to be right now. Sending good thoughts and love.
Havent watched this channel in a few years but came back to check in. Im so proud and happy for you!!!! Smiling at your success, I hope you continue to do well :)
Wonderful to see this beckie! I like what you said about hair growth not squalling being cured. I think a misconception a lot of people have is that one day you’ll get to a point where it’s stopped, it’s over and gone. When in my experience it doesn’t seem to be a thing that will ever really go away. I’ve been a pretty good place with my trich for quite a few years now, maybe 4; it doesn’t feel like it’s all consuming any more, I don’t have any more bald spots, I’m able to grow my hair if I want and colour and style it however I want without worrying. But I still have trich. I still have urges to pull and will sometimes still pull out hairs and fall back into my old trichophagia rituals. Even just thinking and writing about it now is giving me urges. I think it’s something that will always be a part of me, and even though it’s mostly dormant for now it could flare up again in the future
You look great, well done - it's lovely to see you smiling and happy...
Good luck to you...
Congrats on your progress! You radiate happiness ✨ I just made a post tonight regarding my trich after not acknowledging it for 20 years. My confidence is boosted and then I see this video. It must be divine timing.
All good vibes to you and I wish you well.
Proud of you girl! Stay the course.
Becky, long time no see!
I've been following for the past 6 years I think, and it's always good to see you happy. Even if it's not forever, enjoy your hair, you deserve it. It is a great achievement!
So genuinely happy for you Beckie. 💕
As you said, hair growth doesn't define your strength or achievements. I'm less happy about your hair and more happy about your happiness in this video, and in your recent Instagram stories.
hi beckie! i know u felt this video was all over the place, but as someone who also struggles with trich, i understood everything! i actually looked up ur channel again tonight since i’m about 2 days away from being (almost) pull free for 3 whole years! although i have a full head of hair that is healthy, i still pull every single day in other places and my dermatillomania and nail biting also makes itself present. however, i’m super proud of my progress and i’m gonna enjoy it! during the past three years, i’ve been able to stop tying my hair up to hide the bald spots and i got to fulfill my dream of wearing my hair down at my senior prom which i thought was something that would never happen. who knows when the next time i’ll pull my hair is, but i have the similar mindset that somewhere in the future it will most likely reoccur. my trichotillomania is not gone and i still get urges, but i’m super glad that i’ve somehow managed to get it under control for the most part. congrats on ur success and i hope u keep having those messy hair days and having to wait for the conditioner to sit in ur hair during ur shower! thanks so much for the update and thank u for being someone i could look up to for the past five years or so. when i was younger, i was definitely a lot more self conscious about trich, but now that i’m nearly 20, i’m a lot more comfortable with myself and that’s partly because of u! hope everything is well and that you’re staying safe during this pandemic❤️
oh that's great! I'm so happy for you!!
I started subscribing long time ago because I have a skin-picking habit and although that's different from trich, I saw many many parallels between your struggle and mine that I found myself coming back to your videos from time to time. I'm so so glad you are at a good point right now, I do understand the uncertainty of "how long will this last" and the fight every day, having to be responible every day. I wish you all the best, sending lots of love from germany
i just wanted to say how grateful i am for you to have started putting out content about trichotillomania because that is how i learned what i had and i found some sort of strength from your videos. you were the first person that i saw shave their head and grow and do it again and again and even though you probably had very hard and upsetting times you didn’t give up. i know i’m a person who gives up easily and this is no shape or form to put any pressure on you to help people but you did help me.
in 2018 my trich was so bad and i was trying to hide it with bandanas and so many things but it just was not working anymore. until my trich started i had thick long curly hair (that i never learned how to take care of and sadly people made me hate it) and by 2018 it was as thick as my middle finger and that was it so i decided to shave it. i did it in January 2019. well i have been thinking about that for maybe a year and a half since i saw your vids but i never had the courage to but i did it and i think it was one of the best decisions i have made. it grew for 5 months but it was patchy and not the same length, then i cut it down more again, then i shaved it all of on May 31st 2019. i somehow tricked my brain to stop using my hands as a way to pull (on my hair because i do pull my eyebrows and eyelashes too) and i kinda made a deal with my brain to maybe only use tweezers if i need to pull that bad. it was so hard at first but since i didn’t hve any hair when i tried to pull on my nonxistent hair i told it no! stop trying! every time. and i think late june - mid november 2019 being a good timeline for me, me trying to trick my brain worked! i grew my hair without cutting until june this year. it was almost the same length as yours but since it is curly it was probably a bit longer if i looked at it while it was straight. i decided to cut it shorter again but i did not shave it. i still have thinner spots because a few times my trich got the best of me but they are just thinner and not bald like it used it to be. i do struggle day to day, like right now i have lesser eyelashes but it is okay. our fight keeps going everyday and i know you don’t know me but i am proud of you for doing what you do and again very thankful to have found you because you helped me through my darkest times without knowing. 💙
You are a complete human being with or without hair, but I'm proud of you for achieving this!
Oh Becky, you have no idea how happy it makes me to see you so happy!! Your hair is gorgeous and you are gorgeous and I’m so proud of how far you’ve come in your journey 🥰❤️
Am I the first here? I watch everything you post Beckie, you look great, very proud of you.. I've watched you for at least 8 years xx
I've watched you grow up on youtube from a young girl to a confident woman, wonderful to see this, you give me hope! iIve missed you and your many talents:-) hugs
I love you Becky🥺❤️ I hope I reach my hair goal one day like you did😔 Wishing you all the best, you are so brave..! I’ve been with you since 2018 on both your channels 🥰
U will get there i have no doubt
I am so happy for you! 😄
Beckiee ❤️❤️Congrats on your progress, but also on a healthy mindset!
I've watched you for years, I'm a skin picker myself, and your videos were the only content that made me feel less isolated when I first started understanding my disorder.
My picking has gotten heaps better since lockdown as well! It's the first time I've felt comfortable going out with no foundation for years. Seeing lots of comments here with similar stories. Makes me happy that we might soon understand these behaviors better!
This is raw & beautiful
Congratulations! I'm so happy for you! It looks amazing!
BIG CONGRATS!!! I had the opposite effect in the pandemic and did my first shave. Wishing you the best ❤️
I am very happy for you. Congrats.
It looks great!
I’m so happy you are back.
Omg I had completely forgotten your account! So happy for you!
I'm so very happy for you!
You go girl!!! That is awesome and you look beautiful 💖
One of the best things that happened to me this year was being able to find your channel and knowing that you are trying hard makes me feel very happy for you. I am also in this battle, I have a lot of difficulty with that but knowing that I am not alone in this makes me feel a lot of peace.
Sorry for my bad english.
Greetings from Mexico
Hello to Mexico and do not worry, your english is great! :D
So happy to see you back
You are the reason I wasn't (super) embarrassed about admitting my disorder to friends. Thank you.
I'm so happy to see you happy❤️😊
I thought the pandemic was gonna make me lose all my hair, but for the first time in forever, I can put my hair in a ponytail and it's not a thin ponytail!! I've been playing with my hair to practice braiding. However, my crown has been pretty damaged the hair is growing back very slowly, but I believe soon enough I can just push my hair back with ease, without thinking people would look at my bald spots first. I completely understand your joy with hair. There are still days I feel weird and exposed to walk outside without my hair piece, but I get to remind myself I don't need it anymore. It's simply an awesome feeling :)
Hi from spain! So proud of you, really! Love your hair now. I was following from the moment you make a compilation of all the pictures you take (one per day) and i really dont know what to say or how to xplain myself. Ive got anxiety problems so i can imagine why would someone pull out his own hair. For xample, i bitte my nails or my skin so i can get relaxed. But i dont really really know how hard can be not to have hair. Just tell you that you are a warrior and send you aaaaall my blessed to u. Good luck growing up your hair, xoxo❤
Happy for you....was happy to see this video pop up on my feed!!!! You seem like your in a good place at moment. Positive vibes
Beeeeeeckie!
I’ve been following you for a decade and never commented 😂 now, oh my goodness I can’t express how happy I am for you! Congratulations!
Love this! So happy for you!
Just before watching the video i’m going to say YES GIRL! YOU GO GIRL!! 💕💕💕💕💕
Congrats love, you're absolutely glowing!!
omg this and dodie posting a throwback video today what year is it!! proud of u beckie
You cross my mind time to time and this was a lovely video to have found! So glad to see you’re doing well, all the best to you 💛
Everything in this video resonates so much! Shaved my head for the second time last summer and it’s finally getting long and thick (with help from wigs ) but still very uneven in many places gaaaah we’ll get there eventually, I’m so happy to see you ❤️ your hair is gorgeous and floofy and shiny! I too have lots of anxiety when things go well with my trich because like you said who knows what will happen, it’s so darn hard to predict and see patterns. Anyways you rock , ride the waves, thank you for helping me see myself and my struggles reflected , it really is so important to have this kind of representation and transparency (I discovered you in middle school and have now graduated high school ) again, thanks and happy for you ! :)
So happy for you! 💘
After your last video in which you were very unhappy, but I'm glad to see that in this video you have something to be happy about!
Been watching you for 12 years, this is so wonderful to see I'm so proud of you!
I'm so happy to see you today,hope you are well and happy,you've made my day xx
Aaaah really happy for you!!!
I was so happy to see this video pop up this morning. Your hair looks gorgeous. Good luck going forward! ❤
I’m so excited to just have a moment with you and to catch up a bit on your present situation. You were a part of my world for quite a long time, and it’s wonderful to see you! Watching your excitement and happiness and honesty is refreshing and I’m smiling watching you filming you so happy and adorable.
Yes, your hair is gorgeous. (But you always were beautiful, hair or none at all.)
~rebecca~
you were right! thats the first video of you that ive seen since 2015! you have a spot in my heart! so happy for you :)
Congratulations!
Just so happy to see you pop up today! Congratulations! Keeping working at it! You are inspiring with your candid experience.
I’m so happy for you! You’re doing amazing sweetie 🥰❤️
proud of you becky!!! ive been watching you since i was in high school 🥺
If you can do it I can too 💪💪
She specifically asked that people not put that pressure on her.
thats litterally the exact thing she asked people not to say
I’m very happy for you ❤️
Wow you're back! My trich of 5 years has also lessened to my surprise, although I don't think for me it'll completely ever go, but it's a huge improvement, we got this!! ❤️❤️
Well done
I'm really happy for you!