I pray that God sends me amazing God fearing friends and people who will love me for me and vice Versa. Friendship is so important and I’m in a season where I do not have a village, but I KNOW GOD is working and I will have one.
@@queenmo5073 he did an interview with those two girls who admitted that they didn’t even know the word of God, showing flesh , talking about oral sex, smacking it at the kitchen sink (his words), never gave a scripture. Never came out and said the fornication was wrong. Yeah, not feeling them, but not feeling him either.
My husband found Pastor Philip and 2819 on TikTok a year ago, then shown me. And we were like yes! We need this Biblical teaching. We moved from Indiana with our family after being a digital disciple and in squads for a year just to be in the room! Listen, packed up our children, sold everything but suitcases and drawstring bags and moved! Now, my family attends the gatherings at 2819 in person and I have grown in my relationship with Jesus Christ over this past year than being in a religious and legalistic church for 35 years! I love God’s Word and truly study and apply now. Pastor Philip and Lady Lena are amazing leaders and I love being part of an amazing move of God!
I’ve really been contemplating moving there for the past 2 weeks. It’s that serious. We have a hunger for HOLINESS!!! The churches in my area don’t offer this type of authenticity. But I feel your testimony is definitely from God as an answer to my question. Thank you. I pray to be in the room by this time next year.
🤣🤣😂😂 girl the way he said “Megan you were so far away from God at 18, this poor girl” lol 😂 all can think about is meeeeeeeee lol 😆 LOOK AT WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE!
I am that girl that was diagnosed with Depression and Bipolar. I was admitted to a mental hospital. I have hope ! I don’t take medication anymore praise god too.
I am an American Japanese. I just recently came back to Japan to take care of my mother after i was living in US for 20years and also came here to do kingdom business. As God told me to minster my mom then my mother accepted Jesus right away once i came back here. Japan is also particular country that place is very unique and very much traditional way living country. How God put all of us chosen one to take the assignments from God and trust him and trust uncertainty is so amazing. I enjoyed this podcast and pray for your channel to reach more people, and spread the gospel. Bless both of you guys. I watch and listen and what i learn I address in my life on Sunday midnight here in Japan. Thank you Jesus for that.
Sister I pray for you on your journey in Japan! Stand boldly for Christ! He will never leave not forsake you even when you feel like you are surrounded by darkness, by tradition, by everything that is not of Him! Pray pray pray and I will be praying for you in the USA
Mr.Phillip Anthony is my virtual pastor. I’m currently not committed to a church home yet in my area. They don’t preach like him. He preach in a way i understand and just keep encouraging me to getting closer to God ! 🥹❤️🙏🏾
Feel the same way!! I am not a part of a church either but I tune in whenever HE preaches! I have learned so much from listening to him preach! I am grateful!
Wow! I received a new revelation during their breakdown of what it means to be hot or cold. So good, and encouraging for believers who fall into the “refreshing” category♥️
I’ve becoming to this church for almost 2 years it changed my life & I’ve also met my wife here ❤I remember meeting pastor Phillip , my wife who I was Courting at the Time who had been with the service with the church for 8 years & he told me “In order to get to her you Gotta Go through God” & He was Right 😂 thankful 🙏🏾
THAT WOMAN WAS MEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭 Listening to Megan’s story has lifted the mask that I have been clearly wearing all my life! Always burying my pain in drinking, smoking, and getting under something I learned how not to feel. Which made me lie to myself! Lying so much to myself that I started to believe it! I was always smiling, laughing, having fun, helping that never thought of myself as depressed! Then I had kids 4, 2, & 1 my son also diagnosed with Autism! At that point I had to decide. I couldn't get drunk and high and fully function as a parent! I refused to have random men around my kids. All they knew was there dad! At that point everything that I suppressed hit me like a ton of bricks! I thought of taking my life so many times because of it, BUT GOD! I needed this from both Megan and Pastor Philip!
"When your secret place becomes your vice" Whew...that just hit me like a ton of bricks. He who dwells in the secret place of the most high, shall abide under the shadow of the almighty. Pastor you are definitely covered.
Pastor Phil, there are those of us who can see and feel what’s coming. Thank you for preparing as many people as you can in the mean time. Those who see, we see. You, Meg, the Perrys…y’all are so needed.
Can you talk more about this please? I had a dream about fire from the sky many years ago and keep feeling like something is off. Just want to know what you are seeing and feeling.
I am that woman that NEEDED this level of vulnerability. Depression and suicidal ideation has been apart of my life for quite some time. I was formerly an atheist, today I live for and because of Jesus Christ. The timing of this message is none other than God Himself. I am working on my UA-cam channel now in my obedience to God. I have a story to tell. THANK YOU BOTH for your transparency, humility, and the breaking down of the text. Calling out prosperity gospel, the arrogance in leadership, lack of authenticity and educating us on the biblical meaning of hot, cold, and lukewarm has all BLESSED ME! For you and your wife to intercede and pray for God’s daughter to be sent to your church home just to pray over her is HUGE!! One plants, one waters and God has and will continue to bring the increase. Hallelujah!! 😭😭😭 I ask God to cancel every demonic attack of the enemy against your ministries, yourselves and your families. This is Kingdom work at its finest, the enemy doesn’t like this-BUT GOD!!!! 🙌🏾✨
I would love for you, JHP, and Pastor Mitchell to create a series on how to study the Bible using the tools and resources you rely on. I really admire the way you all explain Scripture with such clarity and depth, always keeping the context in view. I've been in church for over 30 years, but I've never heard the hot vs. cold vs. lukewarm passage explained the way he did. 🤯 After nearly 20 years of being saved, Pastor Mitchell's explanation makes so much more sense than the common interpretation of "worldly" vs. "on fire for God."
I was just diagnosed with PDD Persistent Depression Disorder and was filled with so much hopelessness but God used your testimonies to restore my hope in his plan for my life. I thank you sister and brother for your surrendering to God.
That’s me! I’m that woman!!! Even with my adhd brain and all the ways I’ve struggled, you sharing yourself made the lightbulb go off. I can fully do this, but not in my power, in God’s. 😭😭😭
And no, the world needs Jesus. And then after this he does an interview with those two girls who admitted that they didn’t even know the word of God, showing flesh , talking about oral sex, smacking it at the kitchen sink (his words), never gave a scripture. Never came out and said the fornication was wrong. Yeah, not feeling them, but not feeling him either.
When I got saved from the new age I lost literally everyone and everything. One day I was sat in my car crying and I heard a voice as clear as anything say "How much more did I suffer for you?" I knew it was Jesus speaking directly to me. Can't argue with that and I'll never forget that word.
Not enough people show appreciation to their pastors (the good ones) like Megan shows here. It wasn’t pastoral worship, just pure appreciation. Some pastors really need that ♥️
Megan and Pastor Phillip… The woman you said watching this that needed to hear it is me. I’ve been saved and the Lord delivered me from my depression and suicidal ideation a year ago and around this time I’ve been so depressed and heart broken, being a single mom with no help and going through another break up with no one to lean on and barely any money, while failing my college classes. I’ve been crying every night asking God why me BEGGING Him to take this pain away because I CANT handle it. And AS I am watching this, and she shared her story about her also dealing with this and struggling with her child, (as I’ve been dealing with my toddlers difficult behavior and him not having a father) I am driving this morning and thinking how God can have good plans for me just like He did Megan. And as I’m thinking that, Pastor Phillip starts to say “I have a revelation, There’s a woman who’s listening to this RIGHT NOW who needed to hear this.” And I started crying and immediately went to write you this. (I’ve never watched this channel before, this is the first video I’ve scene and it spoke directly to me and spoke on exactly what I’ve been dealing with)
I'm feeling truly and deeply convicted. This happens a lot when I see people passionate about Jesus Christ. I want to have this type of commitment, this type of respect and honor to Our Lord, this type of fear and love for him that's displayed during this podcast. I can and I will. AMEN
I’ve never experienced genuine love and compassion from a pastor either. That’s why it’s hard for me to fully embrace a church. Lord lead me to the right Pastor and leadership who is truly a man of God! Amen 🙏🏾
15:17 This just gave me an entirely new perspective on this verse. I always assumed the “cold” portion of the verse had to do with people who don’t have any relationship with Christ. Thank you God for opening my eyes to new perspectives of your word!
That fact that she said Joaxkie taught her how to discern according to the Bible...🗣 TOP TIER FRIENDSHIP. Lord please give me friends like this and teach me how to steward them well ❤
They way I just jumped out of my seat at work once I saw Pastor Philip Mitchell on here. Megan, I am loving your circle and this platform more and more every day. God is doing wonderful things in your life. Praise God!
Mannnn the part where Megan came to the church just brought tears to my eyes. When we are in the mist of devastation GOD already knows the plans HE has for us. Hearing how deeply the loss was for her and seeing her now is a testaments to how we can be held hostage by our circumstance but if we only trust who GOD has always showed us who HE is….nothing is wasted. It will all be used for HIS glory.
Ashley, thank you for your transparency. I'm only 22, but almost 6 months ago I attempted suicide. I was over this life, and I didn't care what came next. However, through that God used me, and ever since then I've leaned on Him. I still struggle with mood swings here and there, as well as anxiety and depression (and take medication). Seeing your testimony and authenticity about suffering, and the beauty that God brings through suffering has truly inspired me, and has encouraged me to keep fighting and spreading His word!
Guard your eye and ear gates, too. There is so much information available now that it takes discipline to control what you let into your eyes, ears, mind, and eventually the heart. It’s spiritual warfare everyday to stay sane. Gods word does a mighty work to lift those burdens and at least make them lighter as you learn to lean and depend on him. If you call on God, he promises to help you, guide you, and direct you…with every temptation, he will make a way of escape.
Please dont give up again. I’ve been where you are and it does get better no matter how dark and lonely it feels. Please stay close to the Lord. He will bring you through.
I am that woman! Thank you Father God for using her to share this message to me. I’ve never heard of Megan Ashley until my sister shared this podcast with me. I’ve been suffering spiritual for a while now. I felt like giving up. It’s 1:18 am right now I can’t sleep I decided to finally listen to this. God is so good. I’ve recently started seeing Pastor Phillip show up on my TikTok feed his message hits me and I can’t help but be drawn to the bluntness of his message. I’m tired of pastors watering down Gods words. Thank you Father God for blessing me with this message.
If feels so precious to know there are children of God that get the “you are to intense and cry a lot.” I needed to hear this to be able to know you are not alone in your intensity and how you cry a lot. This alone encourages me. Thank you Lord Jesus
My mom recently send my brothers and I a sermon by Pastor Mitchell- The sign of Jonah 🔥🔥 I recently stumbled across Megan Ashley and to see that God is soo strategic is just mind blowing. May we all be caught up in the air when Jesus returns ❤
I love how God knows the right people to send and the right time to send them. His timing and provision is so perfect. Praying that God will send the right community to those who need it!
Greetings saints. I love listening to pastor Philip Mitchell. I in love his passion when he preach. Imma be start listening to him regularly. I don't have a pastor right now. And I'm a young 33 year old prophet. But I feel alone outside of the LORD being with me
I have NEVER felt so seen! When Philip just said “maybe that’s normal, maybe HE wants us to shed tears” I CANT WAIT FOR ACTS 242🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽 this weekend i know God is about to do something amazing
Shout out to all the criers out there. I feel seen. Had to pause several times and talk with the Lord. Then I started crying. I kept saying, “here I go again” God is so good!
@ lol. I’ve always been a cry baby. But it’s different now. It can be the smallest thing, I’m like, “😭Lord, I see what you did there.” Then the whoo, Lord, tears. Lord you’re too good. lol. Thanks for giving me language. It’s the deeper we go in God. Love that.
I love that we got to witness a full circle moment with Megan and Pastor Phillip. It’s encouraging to see what it looks like when you get to the other side of the wilderness season. Shine on Megan! ❤️
The amount of tears I cried when Pastor Philip spoke about the suffering he experiences with tinnitus and the hope he has in spending eternity with Jesus. Those who endure until the end will be saved. ❤❤❤
I love Ms Lena I don’t even know her. They show me what true fellowship is. Thank you Jesus for using this podcast these people to show me what love looks like in Christ.
I literally want to burst out in tears at work, right now! This is the gospel we need to hear! When he spoke on receiving our healing either here on this earth or when we leave, I thought about my Father! He always says this, it’s the Lord choice how and when he chooses to heal us. A lot of people my not agree but this is so true! I thank God for sound teaching, we desperately need it. 💜🙏🏾 Bless you both!
I treat patients daily at a Wellness Center in FL for tinnitus. We use microcurrent neurofeedback technology (IASIS) to heal tinnitus. I get to witness to people leave healed! During the process I’m able to give my testimony, and share Gods peace love joy and growth through suffering with people from all walks of life. To anyone who needs it I’m here to help. I love you both and keep sharing the REAL GOSPEL! ❤
Unions like this are rejoiced when we simply read the word of GOD. A true refreshing point of what our father said instead of taking things out of context or ignoring parts for our own self righteousness. So grateful that the father is enough by hisself thank you Megan & Pastor Philip for embodying that 🥰 ❤
The conversation about suicide and depression was so hard-hitting for me! I so much appreciate the openness and honesty about dealing with mental health issues while walking with the Lord Jesus. Megan said "I dont get to choose" that is true humility and fear of the Lord. WOW. Thank you Jesus
The power of our testimonies!!!! I am so grateful to Megan Ashley and Phillip for their transparency and vulnerability, because it helps to break down this idea/ perception that they are these perfect people walking in their divine calling or purpose (which I can admit at one season triggered a level of insecurity and even covetous in my heart, which I have prayed and repented for). This level of honesty about their pain and suffering, their spiritual growth and development, their journey and walk with Christ helps to bring the focus, honor, and glory to GOD whose spirit is working through them both in ministry. I am so grateful to have found grounded people who truly love God and proclaim the raw truth of the gospel! I pray God continues to use them, and for the rest of us watching or anyone who reads this, may we also be empowered by the Holy Spirit to be contenders of the faith and that we can surrender ourselves to God to be used for his glory in unique and beautiful ways. May God bless all who read this message. Ephesians 3:16-21, 1 Peter 5:6-11, 2 Timothy 3: 14-16 TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOR HIS UNFAILING LOVE AND FAITHFULNESS.
This podcast is refreshing. I went to church every Sunday up until age 16-17 when my grandfather passed away. This episode in particular reminded me of old school gospel teaching. My grandfather was definitely “Hot” like Philip. Ima give it to you straight. And real. Not dressed it up and make it pretty. My grandfather always spoke the truth no matter how uncomfortable it made people.
I'm in tears watching the uplifting of true tears and an example of how a man of God truly pastors /shepard his sheep in a Christ like manner! I would be attending 2819 Church if I lived in Atlanta!
I considered moving to ATL years ago. I went to Lenox mall with my son who was 5-6 yrs old at the time. What I saw instantly changed my mind. I did not want to raise my son around what we saw. I wish the lord had sent him to Philly. It’s needed here.
i am that woman who was hopeful because of your words, megan. i knew the testimony but never to that degree. i was just talking to my aunt today that these preachers make it seem like if you’re not perfect, God will love you but He will never use you or bless you or call you. i love God with my whole heart, but feeling like i can’t live a sin-free life has been keeping me feeling distant from His presence. it’s almost like what’s the point. megan talking about her struggles, even to last year, gives me so much hope to just keep trying and i hope it encourages someone else. don’t throw it all away because you’re imperfect. keep talking to Him, keep reading your word, keep listening to sound teaching like this. let Him do His work. thank God for this. it is freeing ❤
Crying already and the video hasn’t even started. Lol! I pray for Pastor Phillip. He is truly anointed and is being used in many ways. May God bless his humbleness. Glory to Jesus!
51:42 Hey Megan! From one parent with a diagnosis to the next, I agree that we still have to have joy in the midst of suffering. But 2. Keep in mind that nothing is impossible for god. The doctors may say that these diagnoses are incurable but contend in faith that you’ll see a miracle for them one day. I admire your strength in the lords word and your passion! I’m an advocate for crazy faith. My son was non verbal at one point, and we just went through a crazy school year of meltdowns and fights. But if I could post a clip and show you how far he’s come by my husband and I working our faith, it would light a supper smile in you. So again, I love the show keep it up and I’m praying for you ❤
Yes, God is able and faithful. My grandson was nonverbal for 3 years. We did therapy, and got beside my daughter with support for her and him while I prayed without ceasing for change. He’s graduated 2023 from high school and is now in college, finishing 1st year Dec. it took 16 months, but for him to feel successful, the school limit his credits to 9 maximum each semester, and he and I agree with that plan. So, yes God can. Praying for you because getting them through life is a tough journey.
I've suffered and suffer from time to time with depression, suicidal thoughts, self hatred, jealously, fear of failure and insecurity, and I too am a very needy person. I can't make it without Jesus. Lord help me to make prayer my vice no matter what I face, in your mighty, majestic and matchless name Jesus, Amen. "Lets see prayer as access" thank you Pastor Philip this is truly helpful. My family and I started watching 2819 live on UA-cam and we were able to visit for the first time in March of this year. We live 47 minutes away from the gathering so we've been attending when we can and it has been truly a blessing because we left the church we use to attend do to the need of a better delivery of the Word of God. Each gathering has been exactly what we needed to hear and help in our walk with Christ.
Pastor Phillip anthony Mitchell. Such a refreshing blessed man this guy is. I really look up to this man. He’s an example of what a a real vessel of Christ looks like to me. I pray God continues to use him
This conversation is exactly what is needed for the Body of Christ. We all need to hear and understand this message. Thank you Jesus for these real people of God 🙌🏾
Hearing Megan and Pastor Mitchell speak about depression in the way that they did and having moments of just not wanting to be here, but suffering through…. That really did something for me because I completely understand those feelings and that struggle. I feel like something has broken that needed to be broke. Thank God for transparency.
It was my first time ever hearing my feelings validated by people who understand. I pray that God allows me to encounter true community and love before I leave this world.
This podcast was so so good. The most freeing part was when they opened up about their struggles with suicidal ideation and depression. I’ve been feeling the same way and felt that I was failing as a Christian because I was serving the Lord but still struggled with the will to live while knowing that I cannot make the decision to take my life because God is in full control of our lives. Thank you for this. I felt like I was going crazy fr.
Man God is using these 2 to move so many believers closer to him, seeing the ways God moves makes my head spin because he is just so good through everything, God took this broken man and washed him clean to change the hearts of this entire nation, I never hear a message from Phillip where I don’t feel conviction from the Holy Spirit and that’s a blessing
God is so amazing and he is speaking so direct. So strongly . He is speaking directly to those who are hungry for him!!! The vessels he is using he chose carefully. This man was chosen ❤
I cried everytime they cried. I cried when they gave each other their flowers. I cried at how the first lady and pastor are so insync they prayed the same prayer over her and even asked God to send her to them. I cried hearing how they reminded me that broken Crayons still works. I cried for my deceased sister who I wish could have seen this and for my older sister who I pray is healed and uplifted after watching this(I sent it to her asap) . I loved all of this and am so appreciative for their "yes" to the Most High.❤❤
I thank God Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell said YES!!! I am 55 years old & I have been in church a long time, but when I came across 2819 Church, it has transformed how I believe now... I introduced my 34 year old son to 2819 he loves it... he was suicidal & deals with depression...
1:04:42 this right here gave me chills. I’ve struggled with depression since around the age of 11 and for a long time it wasn’t validated and I was made to feel as if it was my own doing. I’ve struggled with self harming. Diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety in 2022 and even attempted to take my life spring of 2023. But hearing what Megan just mentioned about Paul and her own experiences with depression is so real. Every time i come out on the other side of a depressive episode I see God clearer, i draw closer to him than before and I know that it’s only through his power that I haven’t been ruled by mental illness and i haven’t succumbed to the darkness that creeps in. I pray for Megan on a regular because I look up to her, and I feel like there’s so much of her testimony that I relate to. 🙏🏾🙏🏾
Im from the northeast and I almost choked when on air when he said aint nobody thinking about God in the northeast. I am, but this is a true statement I agree with. I'm want to make my way back down south if those are God's plans
When Pastor Phillip said that his preaching is not his strongest part of his life that its his prayer life, I felt that, through his preaching we see his devotion to the Lord, but we also see the Lord speaking thru him and getting thru to his children, I know I cant speak for others, but their is a major shift happening and Im so grateful to be a part of it! Glory be to God!
This episode is so encouraging and has me desiring more of God! To serve God in true stewardship is very admirable!!! I love both testimonials of keeping it real!!! Far too many want to look as though they’ve arrived but in doing this, they allow themselves to veer off The True Christ Centered Life and they become Self Centered! Big Ups to you both!❤😊
I'm so glad to hear that it's not just me that doesn’t want to be here but I will stay and do God's work until He calls me home. But I CAN'T wait to be with my heavenly Father and my Savior
Yes this is exactly how I feel this is a conversation that I’ve had with The Lord several times. I love him so much that him and my child is the only thing that bring me joy and give me a reason to want to live.
I pray that God sends me amazing God fearing friends and people who will love me for me and vice Versa. Friendship is so important and I’m in a season where I do not have a village, but I KNOW GOD is working and I will have one.
Me too! Praying for your village to come 🙂🙏🏽
I pray you receive it sis, I’m praying for mine as well!!!
Amennnnn!!! ❤
Me too sis!
@@aliciamarie5781 amen!!! And I’m praying for your village 🫶🏾🫶🏾 thanks sis
I hope his wife Lena is the next guest on the pod. The way they both spoke of her made me want to know her.
Ikr I wanna know her too lol. Beside a good man is a good woman
Where’s his wedding band? Perhaps I’m blind.
On his heart @@queenmo5073
@@queenmo5073 it’s tattooed on his finger.
@@queenmo5073 he did an interview with those two girls who admitted that they didn’t even know the word of God, showing flesh , talking about oral sex, smacking it at the kitchen sink (his words), never gave a scripture. Never came out and said the fornication was wrong. Yeah, not feeling them, but not feeling him either.
It's one of those episodes where after listening, you want to fall on your knees and pray... because..... nothing else matters
Exactly how I’ve been feeling from the beginning of this episode !!! And that’s exactly what I’m gone do when it’s over
Yes and Amen !!
YES🔥🔥
Amen 🙌🏾
Amen. That's what *I'm about to do, read The Word and pray. God deserves all of my attention and intention🙏🏾
My husband found Pastor Philip and 2819 on TikTok a year ago, then shown me. And we were like yes! We need this Biblical teaching. We moved from Indiana with our family after being a digital disciple and in squads for a year just to be in the room! Listen, packed up our children, sold everything but suitcases and drawstring bags and moved! Now, my family attends the gatherings at 2819 in person and I have grown in my relationship with Jesus Christ over this past year than being in a religious and legalistic church for 35 years! I love God’s Word and truly study and apply now. Pastor Philip and Lady Lena are amazing leaders and I love being part of an amazing move of God!
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Sometimes it takes a physical move to be in the spiritual place we need to be🙏🏾
This was a beautiful comment❤ thanks for sharing!
Amen! 🙏🫶🙌✝️
I’ve really been contemplating moving there for the past 2 weeks. It’s that serious. We have a hunger for HOLINESS!!! The churches in my area don’t offer this type of authenticity. But I feel your testimony is definitely from God as an answer to my question. Thank you. I pray to be in the room by this time next year.
The guest we've all been waiting for!! 🎉❤
That part....
Right!
Yep! 🇨🇦
Yesss
“The more truth you know, the easier it is to discern a lie”
🤣🤣😂😂 girl the way he said “Megan you were so far away from God at 18, this poor girl” lol 😂 all can think about is meeeeeeeee lol 😆 LOOK AT WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE!
When he said “Megan you were a mess”, I bout lost it because that was me toooo 😂😂😂
@@just_shaeee 😂😂😂🤣😂 yo that sent me lol man too real lol
I see what you did there‼️🩸🔥👀🔥🩸
@@just_shaeeesame! 🙋🏾♀️😂
Same! I know I was because I had a teen pregnancy. Jesus Christ was nowhere on my mind, but now I wake up thanking him for giving me breath 🥺🙏🏾
I am that girl that was diagnosed with Depression and Bipolar. I was admitted to a mental hospital. I have hope ! I don’t take medication anymore praise god too.
This whole podcast has genuinely changed my heart
Me too ..
What a gorgeous comment. Yup, gorgeous. GOD-JUST 🔥
Like…
Same.
I’ve been listening throughout work today and shouting. Man God is so good.
I am an American Japanese. I just recently came back to Japan to take care of my mother after i was living in US for 20years and also came here to do kingdom business. As God told me to minster my mom then my mother accepted Jesus right away once i came back here. Japan is also particular country that place is very unique and very much traditional way living country. How God put all of us chosen one to take the assignments from God and trust him and trust uncertainty is so amazing. I enjoyed this podcast and pray for your channel to reach more people, and spread the gospel. Bless both of you guys. I watch and listen and what i learn I address in my life on Sunday midnight here in Japan. Thank you Jesus for that.
Amen!!
Sister I pray for you on your journey in Japan! Stand boldly for Christ! He will never leave not forsake you even when you feel like you are surrounded by darkness, by tradition, by everything that is not of Him! Pray pray pray and I will be praying for you in the USA
Was anyone else tearing up with Megan poured out her heart to her pastor? I wasn't crying I'm just checking if anyone else was crying.
@who26 Balling with Love 😂
Yesssss
Maybe some people eyes are filled with water? I mean not mine but some people.
Yessss I did
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Mr.Phillip Anthony is my virtual pastor. I’m currently not committed to a church home yet in my area. They don’t preach like him. He preach in a way i understand and just keep encouraging me to getting closer to God ! 🥹❤️🙏🏾
Feel the same way!! I am not a part of a church either but I tune in whenever HE preaches! I have learned so much from listening to him preach! I am grateful!
Wow! I received a new revelation during their breakdown of what it means to be hot or cold. So good, and encouraging for believers who fall into the “refreshing” category♥️
Exactly same here 🫶
same here. I always thought the word "cold" meant not worshipping God or not having a desire to have a relationship with him in that context
this really shifted my brain chemistry 😭
Me too
Two broken vessels, one perfect Saviour!! What an awesome conversation… both refreshing AND healing! ❤
I’ve becoming to this church for almost 2 years it changed my life & I’ve also met my wife here ❤I remember meeting pastor Phillip , my wife who I was Courting at the Time who had been with the service with the church for 8 years & he told me “In order to get to her you Gotta Go through God” & He was Right 😂 thankful 🙏🏾
Congratulations 💞
What a blessing 🙌🏾
Awww...Praise God!! 🥰🎉🎉
@@NM-cz5sj thanks 🙏🏾
This comment gives me hope frfr❤
THAT WOMAN WAS MEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭 Listening to Megan’s story has lifted the mask that I have been clearly wearing all my life! Always burying my pain in drinking, smoking, and getting under something I learned how not to feel. Which made me lie to myself! Lying so much to myself that I started to believe it! I was always smiling, laughing, having fun, helping that never thought of myself as depressed! Then I had kids 4, 2, & 1 my son also diagnosed with Autism! At that point I had to decide. I couldn't get drunk and high and fully function as a parent! I refused to have random men around my kids. All they knew was there dad! At that point everything that I suppressed hit me like a ton of bricks! I thought of taking my life so many times because of it, BUT GOD! I needed this from both Megan and Pastor Philip!
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"When your secret place becomes your vice" Whew...that just hit me like a ton of bricks.
He who dwells in the secret place of the most high, shall abide under the shadow of the almighty. Pastor you are definitely covered.
😩 listennnnnnn😮💨🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽
Man that was so good wasn’t it???
🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾
That wrecked me
This podcast shifted my perspective on suffering! I was always taught the “negative” of sufferings. WOW!!!
Pastor Phil, there are those of us who can see and feel what’s coming. Thank you for preparing as many people as you can in the mean time. Those who see, we see. You, Meg, the Perrys…y’all are so needed.
Can you talk more about this please? I had a dream about fire from the sky many years ago and keep feeling like something is off. Just want to know what you are seeing and feeling.
I am that woman that NEEDED this level of vulnerability. Depression and suicidal ideation has been apart of my life for quite some time. I was formerly an atheist, today I live for and because of Jesus Christ. The timing of this message is none other than God Himself. I am working on my UA-cam channel now in my obedience to God. I have a story to tell. THANK YOU BOTH for your transparency, humility, and the breaking down of the text. Calling out prosperity gospel, the arrogance in leadership, lack of authenticity and educating us on the biblical meaning of hot, cold, and lukewarm has all BLESSED ME! For you and your wife to intercede and pray for God’s daughter to be sent to your church home just to pray over her is HUGE!! One plants, one waters and God has and will continue to bring the increase. Hallelujah!! 😭😭😭 I ask God to cancel every demonic attack of the enemy against your ministries, yourselves and your families. This is Kingdom work at its finest, the enemy doesn’t like this-BUT GOD!!!! 🙌🏾✨
I would love for you, JHP, and Pastor Mitchell to create a series on how to study the Bible using the tools and resources you rely on. I really admire the way you all explain Scripture with such clarity and depth, always keeping the context in view. I've been in church for over 30 years, but I've never heard the hot vs. cold vs. lukewarm passage explained the way he did. 🤯 After nearly 20 years of being saved, Pastor Mitchell's explanation makes so much more sense than the common interpretation of "worldly" vs. "on fire for God."
Agreed
Same❤
Same 💜💜
I was just diagnosed with PDD Persistent Depression Disorder and was filled with so much hopelessness but God used your testimonies to restore my hope in his plan for my life. I thank you sister and brother for your surrendering to God.
Glad I wasn’t the only one who cried when hearing the story of Ms. Lena hugging Megan God is so awesome 🙌🏽
That’s me! I’m that woman!!! Even with my adhd brain and all the ways I’ve struggled, you sharing yourself made the lightbulb go off. I can fully do this, but not in my power, in God’s. 😭😭😭
Pastor Mitchell is what this world needs!!!!!!!! Timeout for all of the running and dancing!!!! These are perilous times!!!
THIS!!!! I've grown up in the "black church " and I'm so over the running and shouting and fancy suits and praise breaks ....I just want Jesus!!!!
I get what you’re saying but let’s be clear, praise is a command in the Bible. Both the seriousness in the word and praise can and must coexist
@@much2lovely there are churches with 45-60min praise breaks and no solid teaching to go with it. That’s what I meant by timeout.
@@much2lovelypeople are running and dancing their way to hell sweety
And no, the world needs Jesus. And then after this he does an interview with those two girls who admitted that they didn’t even know the word of God, showing flesh , talking about oral sex, smacking it at the kitchen sink (his words), never gave a scripture. Never came out and said the fornication was wrong. Yeah, not feeling them, but not feeling him either.
When I got saved from the new age I lost literally everyone and everything. One day I was sat in my car crying and I heard a voice as clear as anything say "How much more did I suffer for you?"
I knew it was Jesus speaking directly to me. Can't argue with that and I'll never forget that word.
Not enough people show appreciation to their pastors (the good ones) like Megan shows here. It wasn’t pastoral worship, just pure appreciation. Some pastors really need that ♥️
Megan and Pastor Phillip… The woman you said watching this that needed to hear it is me. I’ve been saved and the Lord delivered me from my depression and suicidal ideation a year ago and around this time I’ve been so depressed and heart broken, being a single mom with no help and going through another break up with no one to lean on and barely any money, while failing my college classes. I’ve been crying every night asking God why me BEGGING Him to take this pain away because I CANT handle it. And AS I am watching this, and she shared her story about her also dealing with this and struggling with her child, (as I’ve been dealing with my toddlers difficult behavior and him not having a father) I am driving this morning and thinking how God can have good plans for me just like He did Megan. And as I’m thinking that, Pastor Phillip starts to say “I have a revelation, There’s a woman who’s listening to this RIGHT NOW who needed to hear this.” And I started crying and immediately went to write you this. (I’ve never watched this channel before, this is the first video I’ve scene and it spoke directly to me and spoke on exactly what I’ve been dealing with)
I'm feeling truly and deeply convicted. This happens a lot when I see people passionate about Jesus Christ. I want to have this type of commitment, this type of respect and honor to Our Lord, this type of fear and love for him that's displayed during this podcast. I can and I will. AMEN
I’ve never experienced genuine love and compassion from a pastor either. That’s why it’s hard for me to fully embrace a church. Lord lead me to the right Pastor and leadership who is truly a man of God! Amen 🙏🏾
Y’all just don’t know how bad I wish the conference was going to be offered virtually.
Same!!!!!
Yes!!!!
I’m catching all the recaps and reels and taking notes from there lol
Maybe they will record it and release it at a later date
Same!
15:17 This just gave me an entirely new perspective on this verse. I always assumed the “cold” portion of the verse had to do with people who don’t have any relationship with Christ. Thank you God for opening my eyes to new perspectives of your word!
Me too!
Same!
same here
“He will be like this for a little while but in eternity he will be perfect “!!! Megan that just preached to me ❤
I Am that Woman who needed to hear about what God can do with a Totaled Surrendered Life Thank you for this message🙏🏾
Same sister! 💜🙌
Man 🥹😭😭😭, we came, we cried and we were equipped, bless you both ❤. Also, love Pst Mitchell, all the way in South Africa.
Yesssss!!!!
My favorite pastor, this man is allowing God to use him to change live!!!
That fact that she said Joaxkie taught her how to discern according to the Bible...🗣 TOP TIER FRIENDSHIP. Lord please give me friends like this and teach me how to steward them well ❤
Sin is so highly destructive! We don’t talk about that enough!!!
They way I just jumped out of my seat at work once I saw Pastor Philip Mitchell on here. Megan, I am loving your circle and this platform more and more every day. God is doing wonderful things in your life. Praise God!
That hot & cold breakdown oh 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ omg that was so good!!!🔥🔥
Pastor Phillip is a humble Pastor preaching holiness and repentance so needed in the KINGDOM TODAY.
Mannnn the part where Megan came to the church just brought tears to my eyes. When we are in the mist of devastation GOD already knows the plans HE has for us. Hearing how deeply the loss was for her and seeing her now is a testaments to how we can be held hostage by our circumstance but if we only trust who GOD has always showed us who HE is….nothing is wasted. It will all be used for HIS glory.
Real ones embrace suffering!!! Real ones rooted in Christ!!
Ashley, thank you for your transparency. I'm only 22, but almost 6 months ago I attempted suicide. I was over this life, and I didn't care what came next. However, through that God used me, and ever since then I've leaned on Him. I still struggle with mood swings here and there, as well as anxiety and depression (and take medication). Seeing your testimony and authenticity about suffering, and the beauty that God brings through suffering has truly inspired me, and has encouraged me to keep fighting and spreading His word!
You should listen to Pastor Jerry Flower's message yesterday "I can't take this anymore".
Bless you❤🤍🤍So happy God is your strength.
Guard your eye and ear gates, too. There is so much information available now that it takes discipline to control what you let into your eyes, ears, mind, and eventually the heart. It’s spiritual warfare everyday to stay sane. Gods word does a mighty work to lift those burdens and at least make them lighter as you learn to lean and depend on him. If you call on God, he promises to help you, guide you, and direct you…with every temptation, he will make a way of escape.
Please dont give up again. I’ve been where you are and it does get better no matter how dark and lonely it feels. Please stay close to the Lord. He will bring you through.
I am that woman! Thank you Father God for using her to share this message to me. I’ve never heard of Megan Ashley until my sister shared this podcast with me. I’ve been suffering spiritual for a while now. I felt like giving up. It’s 1:18 am right now I can’t sleep I decided to finally listen to this. God is so good. I’ve recently started seeing Pastor Phillip show up on my TikTok feed his message hits me and I can’t help but be drawn to the bluntness of his message. I’m tired of pastors watering down Gods words. Thank you Father God for blessing me with this message.
🙋🏽♀️✝️🙋🏽♀️....THIS!!.......I can't stomach to listen to certain people I used to listen to.....I'm in this season and I'm glad I'm not alone..❤
If feels so precious to know there are children of God that get the “you are to intense and cry a lot.” I needed to hear this to be able to know you are not alone in your intensity and how you cry a lot. This alone encourages me. Thank you Lord Jesus
Phillip Anthony Mitchell has become my virtual pastor and it has been the best decision of my life. ❤ Thank you Jesus for this servant!
My mom recently send my brothers and I a sermon by Pastor Mitchell- The sign of Jonah 🔥🔥 I recently stumbled across Megan Ashley and to see that God is soo strategic is just mind blowing. May we all be caught up in the air when Jesus returns ❤
Who says we’re not going to love you P.Mitch!!! I loooove you 😭 and I thank God for your life 🙇♀️
I love this talk about suffering it is not had enough. Just to be able to surrender I ❤❤❤❤❤ this episode
I love how God knows the right people to send and the right time to send them. His timing and provision is so perfect. Praying that God will send the right community to those who need it!
This to me was the best Philip Mitchell interview I’ve seen.
This is the episode I've been waiting for. I can listen to Pastor Phillip preach and teach all day.
Me too
Greetings saints. I love listening to pastor Philip Mitchell. I in love his passion when he preach. Imma be start listening to him regularly. I don't have a pastor right now. And I'm a young 33 year old prophet. But I feel alone outside of the LORD being with me
I have NEVER felt so seen! When Philip just said “maybe that’s normal, maybe HE wants us to shed tears” I CANT WAIT FOR ACTS 242🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽 this weekend i know God is about to do something amazing
Shout out to all the criers out there. I feel seen. Had to pause several times and talk with the Lord. Then I started crying. I kept saying, “here I go again” God is so good!
The deeper I go in God, the more I become a cry baby and I'm not a crier lol I also weeped watching this.
@ lol. I’ve always been a cry baby. But it’s different now. It can be the smallest thing, I’m like, “😭Lord, I see what you did there.” Then the whoo, Lord, tears. Lord you’re too good. lol. Thanks for giving me language. It’s the deeper we go in God. Love that.
I love that we got to witness a full circle moment with Megan and Pastor Phillip. It’s encouraging to see what it looks like when you get to the other side of the wilderness season. Shine on Megan! ❤️
The amount of tears I cried when Pastor Philip spoke about the suffering he experiences with tinnitus and the hope he has in spending eternity with Jesus. Those who endure until the end will be saved. ❤❤❤
I love Ms Lena I don’t even know her. They show me what true fellowship is. Thank you Jesus for using this podcast these people to show me what love looks like in Christ.
Amen
Needed this episode more than they even know. Lean into your suffering, find the right community, and stay on your knees praying!!!!!!
I literally want to burst out in tears at work, right now! This is the gospel we need to hear! When he spoke on receiving our healing either here on this earth or when we leave, I thought about my Father! He always says this, it’s the Lord choice how and when he chooses to heal
us. A lot of people my not agree but this is so true! I thank God for sound teaching, we desperately need it. 💜🙏🏾 Bless you both!
I treat patients daily at a Wellness Center in FL for tinnitus. We use microcurrent neurofeedback technology (IASIS) to heal tinnitus. I get to witness to people leave healed! During the process I’m able to give my testimony, and share Gods peace love joy and growth through suffering with people from all walks of life. To anyone who needs it I’m here to help. I love you both and keep sharing the REAL GOSPEL! ❤
Soo cool. My Dad got treatment at Lifeworks. Great to know that there's staff there that are believers.
@@Thatgirlg4412How is your dad doing now? Is he free from tinnitus?
Don’t put where you were on the internet girl, just looking out for your safety
@@gayanngodfrey2824 thank you 🙏🏽
@@Thatgirlg4412 I’m hoping he is well
Unions like this are rejoiced when we simply read the word of GOD. A true refreshing point of what our father said instead of taking things out of context or ignoring parts for our own self righteousness. So grateful that the father is enough by hisself thank you Megan & Pastor Philip for embodying that 🥰 ❤
This whole episode was necessary. 🔥🔥🔥Thank you Meghan and Pastor Phillip Mitchell for being so bold and transparent in your faith.
Did anybody else tear up 🥹 God has truly surrounded Meg with nothing but love. I love that so much for her ❤
The conversation about suicide and depression was so hard-hitting for me! I so much appreciate the openness and honesty about dealing with mental health issues while walking with the Lord Jesus. Megan said "I dont get to choose" that is true humility and fear of the Lord. WOW. Thank you Jesus
This has to be one of my fave episodes.
The power of our testimonies!!!! I am so grateful to Megan Ashley and Phillip for their transparency and vulnerability, because it helps to break down this idea/ perception that they are these perfect people walking in their divine calling or purpose (which I can admit at one season triggered a level of insecurity and even covetous in my heart, which I have prayed and repented for). This level of honesty about their pain and suffering, their spiritual growth and development, their journey and walk with Christ helps to bring the focus, honor, and glory to GOD whose spirit is working through them both in ministry. I am so grateful to have found grounded people who truly love God and proclaim the raw truth of the gospel! I pray God continues to use them, and for the rest of us watching or anyone who reads this, may we also be empowered by the Holy Spirit to be contenders of the faith and that we can surrender ourselves to God to be used for his glory in unique and beautiful ways. May God bless all who read this message. Ephesians 3:16-21, 1 Peter 5:6-11, 2 Timothy 3: 14-16
TO GOD BE THE GLORY FOR HIS UNFAILING LOVE AND FAITHFULNESS.
This podcast is refreshing. I went to church every Sunday up until age 16-17 when my grandfather passed away. This episode in particular reminded me of old school gospel teaching. My grandfather was definitely “Hot” like Philip. Ima give it to you straight. And real. Not dressed it up and make it pretty. My grandfather always spoke the truth no matter how uncomfortable it made people.
The Holy Spirit has been ministering to me about hope all day. I asked am I’m receiving.
I love y’all so much! And I pray for your divine protection as you live the great commission! 💪🏾🙏🏾
Amen! I agree in jesus' name!
I'm in tears watching the uplifting of true tears and an example of how a man of God truly pastors /shepard his sheep in a Christ like manner! I would be attending 2819 Church if I lived in Atlanta!
This is the most I've seen Pastor Phillip smile. This interview BLESSED me. ❤❤❤
"Be fruitful and multiply", God is doing great things at 2819 Church!!! Thank you Jesus 🙌
Megan Ashley and Philip Anthony, thank you. This was beautiful.
I considered moving to ATL years ago. I went to Lenox mall with my son who was 5-6 yrs old at the time. What I saw instantly changed my mind. I did not want to raise my son around what we saw.
I wish the lord had sent him to Philly. It’s needed here.
What happens at Lenox Mall? Ive heard him say this in a couple podcasts but didnt know.
This episode was so deep, vulnerable, transparent and touching. God bless you both and your family. I pray God will work even deeper in you IJN.❤️🙏🏿
Megan I thank God for what He’s doing in your life. Your transparency about suffering really spoke to my heart & spirit. It truly blessed me!
i am that woman who was hopeful because of your words, megan. i knew the testimony but never to that degree. i was just talking to my aunt today that these preachers make it seem like if you’re not perfect, God will love you but He will never use you or bless you or call you. i love God with my whole heart, but feeling like i can’t live a sin-free life has been keeping me feeling distant from His presence. it’s almost like what’s the point. megan talking about her struggles, even to last year, gives me so much hope to just keep trying and i hope it encourages someone else. don’t throw it all away because you’re imperfect. keep talking to Him, keep reading your word, keep listening to sound teaching like this. let Him do His work. thank God for this. it is freeing ❤
Sameee🥺
Crying already and the video hasn’t even started. Lol! I pray for Pastor Phillip. He is truly anointed and is being used in many ways. May God bless his humbleness. Glory to Jesus!
51:42
Hey Megan! From one parent with a diagnosis to the next, I agree that we still have to have joy in the midst of suffering. But 2. Keep in mind that nothing is impossible for god. The doctors may say that these diagnoses are incurable but contend in faith that you’ll see a miracle for them one day. I admire your strength in the lords word and your passion! I’m an advocate for crazy faith. My son was non verbal at one point, and we just went through a crazy school year of meltdowns and fights. But if I could post a clip and show you how far he’s come by my husband and I working our faith, it would light a supper smile in you. So again, I love the show keep it up and I’m praying for you ❤
Praying for you and your family
Yes, God is able and faithful. My grandson was nonverbal for 3 years. We did therapy, and got beside my daughter with support for her and him while I prayed without ceasing for change. He’s graduated 2023 from high school and is now in college, finishing 1st year Dec. it took 16 months, but for him to feel successful, the school limit his credits to 9 maximum each semester, and he and I agree with that plan. So, yes God can. Praying for you because getting them through life is a tough journey.
I've suffered and suffer from time to time with depression, suicidal thoughts, self hatred, jealously, fear of failure and insecurity, and I too am a very needy person. I can't make it without Jesus. Lord help me to make prayer my vice no matter what I face, in your mighty, majestic and matchless name Jesus, Amen. "Lets see prayer as access" thank you Pastor Philip this is truly helpful. My family and I started watching 2819 live on UA-cam and we were able to visit for the first time in March of this year. We live 47 minutes away from the gathering so we've been attending when we can and it has been truly a blessing because we left the church we use to attend do to the need of a better delivery of the Word of God. Each gathering has been exactly what we needed to hear and help in our walk with Christ.
Pastor Phillip anthony Mitchell. Such a refreshing blessed man this guy is. I really look up to this man. He’s an example of what a a real vessel of Christ looks like to me. I pray God continues to use him
Only 40 mins in and crying like a baby already…pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell is truly anointed 🙏🏽
This conversation is exactly what is needed for the Body of Christ. We all need to hear and understand this message. Thank you Jesus for these real people of God 🙌🏾
Hearing Megan and Pastor Mitchell speak about depression in the way that they did and having moments of just not wanting to be here, but suffering through…. That really did something for me because I completely understand those feelings and that struggle. I feel like something has broken that needed to be broke. Thank God for transparency.
It was my first time ever hearing my feelings validated by people who understand. I pray that God allows me to encounter true community and love before I leave this world.
This podcast was so so good. The most freeing part was when they opened up about their struggles with suicidal ideation and depression.
I’ve been feeling the same way and felt that I was failing as a Christian because I was serving the Lord but still struggled with the will to live while knowing that I cannot make the decision to take my life because God is in full control of our lives.
Thank you for this. I felt like I was going crazy fr.
Jesus learned obedience through the things he suffered and said if we suffer with Him we will also reign with Him
Man God is using these 2 to move so many believers closer to him, seeing the ways God moves makes my head spin because he is just so good through everything, God took this broken man and washed him clean to change the hearts of this entire nation, I never hear a message from Phillip where I don’t feel conviction from the Holy Spirit and that’s a blessing
God is so amazing and he is speaking so direct. So strongly . He is speaking directly to those who are hungry for him!!! The vessels he is using he chose carefully. This man was chosen ❤
This is a message that people need to hear. Megan introduced me to Romans 8:18. God is so powerful. Just stay prayerful and faithful. ❤
Took me a while to finish the video but every time I tuned back in I got another blessing.
I cried everytime they cried. I cried when they gave each other their flowers. I cried at how the first lady and pastor are so insync they prayed the same prayer over her and even asked God to send her to them. I cried hearing how they reminded me that broken Crayons still works. I cried for my deceased sister who I wish could have seen this and for my older sister who I pray is healed and uplifted after watching this(I sent it to her asap) . I loved all of this and am so appreciative for their "yes" to the Most High.❤❤
I thank God Pastor Philip Anthony Mitchell said YES!!! I am 55 years old & I have been in church a long time, but when I came across 2819 Church, it has transformed how I believe now... I introduced my 34 year old son to 2819 he loves it... he was suicidal & deals with depression...
1:04:42 this right here gave me chills. I’ve struggled with depression since around the age of 11 and for a long time it wasn’t validated and I was made to feel as if it was my own doing. I’ve struggled with self harming. Diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety in 2022 and even attempted to take my life spring of 2023. But hearing what Megan just mentioned about Paul and her own experiences with depression is so real. Every time i come out on the other side of a depressive episode I see God clearer, i draw closer to him than before and I know that it’s only through his power that I haven’t been ruled by mental illness and i haven’t succumbed to the darkness that creeps in. I pray for Megan on a regular because I look up to her, and I feel like there’s so much of her testimony that I relate to. 🙏🏾🙏🏾
Im from the northeast and I almost choked when on air when he said aint nobody thinking about God in the northeast. I am, but this is a true statement I agree with. I'm want to make my way back down south if those are God's plans
When Pastor Phillip said that his preaching is not his strongest part of his life that its his prayer life, I felt that, through his preaching we see his devotion to the Lord, but we also see the Lord speaking thru him and getting thru to his children, I know I cant speak for others, but their is a major shift happening and Im so grateful to be a part of it! Glory be to God!
This episode is so encouraging and has me desiring more of God! To serve God in true stewardship is very admirable!!! I love both testimonials of keeping it real!!! Far too many want to look as though they’ve arrived but in doing this, they allow themselves to veer off The True Christ Centered Life and they become Self Centered! Big Ups to you both!❤😊
I'm so glad to hear that it's not just me that doesn’t want to be here but I will stay and do God's work until He calls me home. But I CAN'T wait to be with my heavenly Father and my Savior
Yes this is exactly how I feel this is a conversation that I’ve had with The Lord several times. I love him so much that him and my child is the only thing that bring me joy and give me a reason to want to live.
@DimplezDior I can relate.