TRYING THE VIRAL TIKTOK PICKLE DRINK!
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Colleen- no matter what wonderful things you have in the present, if the nervous system is stuck and disregulated from a past trauma, things like the lingering nightmares you're describing will occur. It's a form of PTSD. The traumatic energy is trapped in the body and the nervous system is running the show. Please consider looking into a trauma healing modality.
What's worked best for me has been Somatic Experiencing. I've spent decades in talk therapies, workshops, seminars, and various trauma-informed therapies addressing my lifelong battle with c-PTSD from horrifically abusive childhood events. It is all finally beginning to resolve, thanks to this approach (and the incredible SE facilitator I work with). Please check it out.
If I had a dollar for every time I've said out loud, "Yep, that's me." in 10 years of watching you, I'd be inviting you to my huge, private beach to look for rocks. 😘
Hi Colleen! Just listened to you describing how you experience anxiety. I’ve recently seen “Inside out 2” and that movie exactly shows anxiety as you’ve described it. I strongly reccomend watching it especially for adults with anxiety. It has really helped me to visualise how my brain works while anxious. Hope that helps ❤
yes there are solution me too a lot of medicated anxietety crisis
You’re a human being. No matter how “easy” or “blessed” you have it, you have emotions and traumas. We all have things that are hard, no matter where we are in life. Because we are human. Comparative suffering doesn’t work. You are allowed to feel that way and express it.
I love Flynn and Colleen always matching each others energy
Night terrors and sleep paralysis is so hard to deal with and then wake up and be your best as a mama. Taking that time for yourself to regulate is teaching your kids to care for themselves and making sure you are your best for them. You're an amazing mama and care so deeply about them. You are enough! You are doing enough and more!
My mom passed away very unexpectedly last year and every time I see a butterfly 🦋 I think of her. I love seeing butterflies. ❤
Thanks for being so vulnerable. This is something that a lot of people (especially women) struggle with! You are not alone ❤
Colleen, I stay overstimulated all the time, I'm a mom of 1 and a wife, I look at my house and I know I need to do things, but I can't, I try though and I just feel defeated, and yet it makes me depressed when my house isn't in shape, I completely get it.
It's ok to feel those things. We are just human and just b/c you have a beautiful family, house, car, ect. it doesn't mean you can't feel sad, anxious, or scared. I understand where you are coming from and it's ok to feel and talk about! xoxo I have very vivid dreams and it's scary!!!
Put the pickle juice in the Dr Pepper!
Dr Pepper best 100% not tne same thing
Yes Colleen put the pickle juice in it! My husband & I love a good pickled DR. Pepper!! 😋🥒 Also, you can go to “Sonic Drive Through” & ask for a pickled Dr. Pepper & they’ll give you one. It’s so good!! 🤩
Flynn is so self aware, intelligent, and polite! You and Erik have done a phenomenal job raising him to be the five year old he is today. He has every opportunity to use slang terms or to cut words short, especially for yes, but he doesn't. My grandmother would always remind us grandkids to stop saying yeah instead of yes. To this day I pay attention to Grammer so I notice how well spoken Flynn is. Great job, momma!! ❤😊
Biggest lesson I’ve learned in life is just because someone has it worse than you, doesn’t mean your feelings aren’t valid.
Nightmares like the ones you are having can be down to an iron deficiency and also a b12 deficiency. You might want to get checked out Colleen. It can not only give you nightmares, but can cause stress levels and cortisol to be high.
tortilla talk question: what is the most romantic thing you've ever experienced?
Our sweet Colleen, you have every right to to express your feelings without fear of condemnation for not being grateful enough. I feel like you have just described motherhood perfectly. We are supposed to feel so lucky, and we are, but it’s also difficult, boring, frustrating, repetitive, exhausting and you lose yourself doing everything for everyone else. Some days it’s all consuming. We are either exhausted in pursuit of perfection, or we’re labelled as ungrateful and whiny complainers. Please vent your feelings to us and include the good, bad and everything in between. You are letting others out here know they are not alone. You have no idea how powerful that is. A great mom/wife/friend is a hot mess who knows when to vent in a healthy, productive way. Keep doing you, you are doing just perfectly ❤❤❤❤
I’ve also really been struggling with my anxiety, and hearing that someone else is feeling what I’m feeling makes it a little bit less horrible. So thank you for sharing with us and being so vulnerable.❤️❤️
TTQ: I absolutely love your garden! Would you be willing to do a full tour of your garden in a first-person perspective so we can see everything? It's a dream garden/yard and I would love to see it fully to have ideas for my future home. Love you, Colleen! You are doing great and all of your feelings are valid even if that voice in your head are saying they aren't.
To anyone wondering what the song is it's Butterfly by Deb Talan
Once I understood my adhd symptoms, all of those things you are stressing about are indeed as real as anything. That said, once I got onto some meds, it made all the difference in seeing the symptoms of mud and depression as the disregulation of my brain chemistry will fool anyone into thinking the way you are. You have every right to feel what you feel. It’s not something you can turn on and off. The guilt about feeling depressed in the face of good things in your life is the rancid cherry your brain puts on top. Meds and your support teams are indeed important. Sending anti ADHD symptom vibes your way! ❤
Feeling in a funk lately too. Stuck is such a good word.
I congratulate myself for doing a load of dishes and feeding animals. 😢. I have been feeling so alone. Then your video came up and I got a ping of not feeling alone. I need therapy and to get back on anti-anxiety med.
I was recently diagnosed with Premenstrual dysphoric disorder (PMDD). For about 2 weeks out of the month I would be in the darkest place imaginable, the thoughts in my head scared me. I would go from my normal, happy self to a twisted ball of rage and agony overnight, with no hope of ever getting out alive.
While I’m taking steps to improve the condition and it’s not working yet, it’s somewhat a relief to know the cause and that the thoughts are not ‘me’
flynn has grown so much 🥺🥹
Can we appreciate how perfect Fylnn’s eyebrows are
Hey colleen just wanted to tell u that it’s ok when u cry on the vlogs it’s ok for to just dump ur emotions on us we are here for u and u shouldn’t that u don’t want us to pitty you but I genuinely love when u cry to us and I just want u to be able to cry to us with out thinking the worse we love you so muchhhhg 🩵🩵🩵🩵 hope ur doing better !!
tortilla talk question: where do you see yourself in five years?
Was this an original song ? You should start a Spotify list of you playing purely like this
I found it! It's Butterfly by Deb Talan
If your therapist gave you any tips to get over those awful nightmares, please shareeeee. It happens to me and it sets my whole day out awful and it’s so hard to get past it. I get what you mean 100% , like I feel myself panicking about what “happened” to me and it was just a dream. Not many people get what I mean
I think you would love popping bubble wrap.
I thought for sure you were going to start singing "come my lady, come come my lady. You're my butterfly, sugar baby." 😂
So deep! 😜
I have also been having really intense and scary dreams lately. Also very overwhelmed and can't keep up with the things I NEED to be doing. I understand that feeling and its so frustrating. Sending you love. Sending you happiness and piece of mind. I love you to the moon and back. Its hard to focus on all we do - even if its just getting up that day and remembering to eat a meal. You are doing amazing. Even when you feel like you aren't. I love you lady!
I don't know If your ever read this, but you never ever have to explain yourself, this is about mental health and you being open and talking about it. I wanted to say that I understand this intense dreams/nightmares, I have them alot and I would have intense anxiety all day, even for a few days, then I would dream it again as I'd be so anxious and your have to tell yourself it isn't real but it feels it and u can't shake off that intense anxiety feeling and emotion. I totally understand this seriously it is horrible. I wish you wouldnt have to explain yourself first all the time, we all understand you and are here and i enjoy watching you every morning ☺️ Also I've been watching you for years and can relate to you alot 💗
I get really bad sleep paralysis and crazy dreams like that too and I'm sorry you have to deal with that. Maybe looking into a therapist that specializes in these issues would help? Or talking to your doctor. The feelings definitely stick with me during the day and sometimes for days. Something I've thought about trying is to control my dreams as I fall asleep. I haven't read too much about it, but I've read enough to think it could help. When I wake up crying or sweating, I want to try to focus on something happy or settling and be able to lucid dream myself back to sleep. I think it's a cool concept anyways, but I'm hoping it could actually help.
Anxiety is a chemical imbalance, it’s not like you are purposefully causing it. In some cases, it can be bad enough that medication is needed. I suffer from this, but with my medication, I am able to live. Don’t blame yourself for this.
Someone has clearly been training Flynn to say "yes." I notice this because I was also trained to say "yes." And I feel like the vast majority of Americans (even adults) tend to say "yeah" or "uh huh."
U describe the way I see my world . How to function Yes ! It keeps coming back.
That GIANT pickle jar with those MASSIVE pickles is littery the most American thing I've ever seen😂😂
I’m feeling the same way. It feels like every day has been bad lately for me. I hate anxiety! I’m praying it gets better. ❤ That song killed me!!
i just wanna give you the biggest hug, i love you and im here for you 🥺❤️
Butterfly by lily meola is an amazing song!
Awwwwwww the piano is so soothing
Hey Colleen, I'm going through the same thing right now. Not that I'm thinking your trauma any less important as mine, but I'm seriously overwhelmed in my head, even though I know my life is so good with a wife, children and a home and warm meals every day. I have dreams that I'm battling people on the street and getting stabbed, though can't feel it, I'm still aware that I'm dying.
My queer ass, looking at the pink purple and blue slime LOLOL😂
Nightmare advice:::
Try this->
Don’t eat before bed and keep the room very cool while sleeping. I have the same issue. Truly simple body chemistry that you can control.
I rethink about something that happened 9 years ago that i had control of(duckings at a gas station that i tried to save then mom crossed a busy road and 1 got hit)
Wesley saying POOP is Collen saying PINK 😂😂
whenever I feel like this I always check my health app to see if my period is coming and it always 7-10 days out lol like ohhhhh im pmsing
Hi Colleen, I’m not sure If you’ve read “The Body Keeps Score”, but it’s a great read to understand how our body stores trauma physically after the trauma has occurred. It may help!
tortilla talk question: does erik like olivia rodrigo? is he going to the concert with you?
QUESTION: 1. When you bought that house did you know how big and beautiful and how much produce you would have? 2. Have you or Eric considered putting in bee hives and selling honey?
Hi Colleen! I also get really bad night terrors and sleep paralysis. Learned it was due the anxiety. I don’t know if this will help you, but something I do when I have night terrors or any dream that might put me in a mood, as soon as I wake up I try to make up a new ending for the dream in my head that ends up positive. I basically try to make the end as dumb as possible, and then either wake up or go back to sleep and it makes me feel better. Took me a while to master it, but it def at least helped me not be in a mood for the rest of the day.
Colleen your feelings are valid. Sending lots of love and positive vibes.
One minute ago. Thank you. Having such a crappy evening and was honestly just hoping for this.
Oh, regarding butterflies 🦋🦋🦋: Shifty Shellshock, the singer of Crazy Town just passed away aged 49. By far their most successful single was „Butterfly“.
I’m Pickle 🥒 OBSESSED!! 😍💚
Mental illness is not something we can control, but what we can control is giving ourselves self-compassion and be kind to yourself too. This too shall pass ❤ Try to shift your focus, don't let yourself stay in those spiraling thoughts for too long. It's normal that they come when you live with an anxiety disorder, but it can get better if you don't feed it with your attention too much.
Do you spread the whole can of sweetened condensed milk on top. What temp and how long do you cook them
Butterflies are signs from heaven, someone you loved and lost is trying to tell you it’s going to be okay. I always find when I’m stressing out without fail a butterfly flies by.
Sometimes, you just need to cry and get it out. There's nothing wrong with that. Eric has the kids, give yourself a good cry, hon. Sending love your way.
“Here it takes all the running you can do to keep in the same place” The Red Queen, Alice Through the Looking Glass
Just want to say I was watching on my tv and felt drawn to pull my phone out to comment. Just because you have a beautiful life and family and are privileged does not mean you can’t feel sad or panicked or mad or whatever the heck you want! You are human and it is so valid to feel whatever you need to feel whenever you need to feel it. Could it be worse for you yes of course but are you allowed to feel your feelings also yes of course. Hang in there ❤️
lol at Wesley’s pronunciation of poop!! My toddler says noise exactly like something with a thick australian accent saying “no” it cracks me up!!
Colleen. Being a parent IS HARD. Being a parent of a 5-year-old and toddler twins is even harder. Being a neurodivergent parent of 3 kids and exposing your parenting to an internet that has already proven itself unfriendly? Whoo, girl. I don't know how you have any moments without anxiety and overwhelm. You're doing just fine. And your house doesn't have to be spotless, love. Those kids won't remember piles of laundry. They're gonna remember dance parties and galaxy baths.
Butterflies have a lot of meanings depending on the culture. But I think in your case, it's your ancestors knowing you need a little extra strength right now. You got this, babe.
TTQ : have you ever tried crocheting?? I feel like you’d really be good at it 💗 if you do ever try it I think you should make a positive potato 🥔 I’ve been really into making them lately and I think you would love them to 😂 anyways love you so much ❤️
the singing part made me emotional idk why i love when you sing colleen💜
TTQ - have you had anymore ghost activity in your house? How often does something weird happen like sounds of drums or something you can’t explain?
I definitely believe in ghosts I visited a haunted museum in Nottingham and I was looking around for about half an hour completely fine then I looked at this one doll and felt so panicked and dizzy I had to step out for a bit, the museum staff said it happens sometimes very spooky. My dog also passed away and I have felt movement of her walking on my bed at home.
The way you explained your anxiety is exactly how I have been feeling as well. The last few months have probably been some of my best, and here I am feeling this terrible anxiety. I have every reason to feel my best ever, it is so frustrating.
TTQ @colleen do you have plans for Flynn to start Kindergarten in the Fall? He's looking so mature! I've been watching old vlogs and Wesley's resemblance to him is uncanny!
7:15 a therapist a few years ago once shared with me, while I was also feeling the same way like a brat looking for pity, and I still do sometimes but anyways, she said "someone can have a broken leg and you could have a broken finger but that doesn't mean that it didn't hurt when you broke your finger" and then another therapist broke it down like maybe your friend has broken that same leg a lot so they don't even feel it anymore, and maybe breaking your finger was your first broken bone. or maybe your friend broke their leg doing something silly and stupid but you broke your finger rescuing someone from a burning building....like obviously I would never run into a burning building but the point is....everyone has their own battles happening and feeling guilty for being in pain will nit make the pain go away
TTQ: Nick Jonas was recently cast in The Last Five Years and I NEED you to do a deep dive into that musical, would love to hear your thoughts :)
tortilla talk question: are you planning to go to lions games this year?
😴Yes, dreams are the 4th dimension the "real world', 3d is this world -our "waking life" to feel, and sometimes we purge in our dreams all the emotions & baggage from our history in order to live a new life...purging is a way your 🌌higher self let's go of what NO Longer is serving your Greatest good! 💚🌈🔥🌠🌱👣Luv u Colleen😇👌🏽🙏🏽8;)
Trauma can cause the fright or flight response, so don't feel bad for how you're feeling. Cranial Sacral Therapy can help past traumas
Bro, scary dreams every night? I would be crying and feeling wiiiiilllllld. Kudos for hanging in there. ❤
Colleen, everyone has the right to feel like that sometimes! Life isn't perfect and you can never fully avoid hard/uncomfortable things. I am so sorry you have to go through that, I've had traumatic dreams a few times and I definitely understand what you said about not being able to convince your brain that they didn't actually happen. You are so strong and beautiful and thank you for being vulnerable enough to share this with us because it helped me and I'm sure it'll help others as well :)
Flynn still calls them "spider wubs". So cute!
Hi Colleen. Listening to you during your anxiety made me think, try writing your nightmares in a dream journal even if it is in your phone. I keep a diary on my phone and it helps keep me “grounded” and sane right now. If I have a crazy day, I write about how my day was. If I’ve had a bad day, I vent that through to my virtual diary. It has helped me with my overall emotions, and mood. I try my best to be positive, but I know that with my current life status, it is difficult. So keeping a diary and writing in it every night before I go to bed is so helpful and beneficial to me. I hope you try this out. Love your videos. You are amazing! Stay positive.
I love the videos where you try food and drinks!!!
WHERE did you get that ICONIC CHAPPELL SHIRT OMGGGGG. your favorite artists favorite artists wearing your favorite artists shirt!
Not me watching the video still realizing you wore TWO ICONIC CHAPPELLL SHIRTS!
I had those same feelings as you, like you know you have no reason to be upset yet you feel so terrible. I saw my gyno and she recommended Flo Gummies or supplements. I tried it and was shocked it worked I guess my body was missing the vitamin b 12 I think it was...any way, hope this helps! Worth the shot
Love the slime sound effects 😂 I jumped up to make your Hello Dolly bars, started them and realized I didn’t have coconut. I made them without, we’ll see how they turn out 🤞🤞🤞
BIG HUGE 🤗HUG❤THINK WE NEED SOME GLITTER✨️ STAIRS AND WRAPPED TOLIET PAPER🧻 CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS IN JULY NOW! ✨️FA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LA LAAAAAAAAA🎄❤LUV YA BUNCHES OF OATS
❤LOVE THAT SONG🦋😢
Being a mom and a human is really really hard and overwhelming.
Colleen you have every right to be upset and anxious, as much as anyone else. Just because your external circumstances are great doesn’t mean you can’t feel internal discomfort and anxiety. You are valid always and regardless. Sending so much love to you!
*Dr. Pepper and pickle tip!* The actual pickle is a garnish. Add a teaspoon or 2 (or more - to taste) of pickle juice. That's where the magic is. You're going to love it!
Thats freaking anxiety.. I have that too. The stupid crap I worry about. I literally ruined my vacation on irradic behavior thinking.i hade an annoying neighbor. But literally he isn't even that bad. It's just me worrying cause my husband hates him
I'm from South Texas, that's the main pickle brand I see at grocery stores. I didn't know they were only in Texas. They even sell that brands pickle beer and spicy pickle beer.
Beautiful Colleen, That was NOT a pity party, you are NOT a spoiled brat!! Colleen, you are HUMAN!! You se allowed to express your feelings, you are allowed to be true to your feelings!Please know your feelings are absolutely valid. I’m in complete tears hearing you speak, I relate so much. I literally cried with with you im still crying!! 🥹😭 I struggle myself with very bad countless nightmares, anxiety etc. I Love you so much Colleen, I love you so freaking much Beautiful, Brave, Strong, WORTHY QUEEN, NEVER forget your WORTH!! You are NEVER alone!! 🥹
Again, That was NOT a pity party, you are NOT a spoiled brat, YOU ARE HUMAN COLLEEN!! YOU are allowed to express your feelings!! You have every right to feel your feelings!! Your feelings are valid!! You are NOT alone!! Sending you ((((BIG, yet gentle virtual HUGS)))) Did I mention how much I LOVE YOU Beautiful, Brave, Strong, & absolutely LOVED WARRIOR Colleen? I’m emotional with you!! Still crying, but We got this!! You are NEVER alone!! 🥹💜💜
Colleen, try to remind yourself that you are conditioned to apologize for your feelings, you do NOT have to explain yourself for having human emotions and you have every right to pour into your videos because they are YOURS we are all here to watch you and be with you in every state no matter what it is! A lot of us have been here since the beginning and we are not going anywhere, even if you cry in every video we love you so much we are family 🤍 you are loved, you are seen, you are understood, you are not alone, you are perfectly you! Don’t be so hard on the little girl inside of you!
A light hearted TTQ: Wesley reminds me so much of my toddler, Patrick. Is Wes much cheekier than you show us? He looks like he's got a very funny/sneaky/cheeky side to him.
Ps my son was born in September '21, it was fun being pregnant at the same time as you.
He also said Opatus for a short period of time 🐙
Pps. While I've got your attention - you explaining your feelings of overwhelm at the end of your days is literally just being the parent of young kids.
Be kind to yourself.. as long as they're breathing/fed/watered and you and Erik can high five at the end of the day, you're doin the best you can. You've absolutely got this.
TTQ: I know they are still very young but have you been able to tell yet if any of your kiddos are musically inclined? ❤🎶
Call Rachel
Tortilla Talk Question! Have any of the kiddos shown an interest in sports (either watching or playing) and if so which ones?- with the Olympics that was the event that really got me into trying out almost EVERY single sport that the youth leagues in our area offered (during the Atlanta games- we even had the torch pass through my hometown which was beyond exciting!).
Colleen ,i feel you when you talked about running on a treadmill and you cant stop even though its going so fast
I see it more as swimming in the biggest ocean ever and you are in the middle of it , gotta swim otherwise you drown but when you almost reach land, the waves can make it soo difficult and push you away again .
We gotta keep on swimming and eventually we will find more and more things or humans that helps us afloat❤
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I relate so much when it comes to the dreams.Even as a child I had dreams that were so vivid that I would wake up in a panic Things that helped me were stop eating anything an hour before bed.There's a study that says the While your body is digesting it creates a same kind of chemical reaction to during nightmares do you have a dream journal my daughter finds writing about her dreams and then writing what she wish she would have done
Hi Colleen, your feelings are valid. It doesn't matter how many good things you have in your life, you are a human being with thoughts and emotions. It's okay ❤
TTQ Speaking of dreams, do you have any funny stories about waking up from dreams?
I was having a bad dream once, and realized I was dreaming, but couldnt wake up to stop dreaming. I actually said out loud, "Help! Wake me up!" and my then boyfriend, now husband, heard me and woke me up.
Around the same time period, he had a dream, and he was talking in his sleep, and said something about having to get back and sit on my eggs to keep them warm, so they'll hatch." 😂
I Love you guys so much!!
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Your feeling matter! It’s doesn’t make you a bad person for expressing your feelings! I pray those dreams stop and you take each day one at a time. You are an amazing person ,mother, and wife! You are strong to express how you feel that’s is called strength and I hope it gave you a relief to talk about it! Will continue to pray for you! Blessings to you beautiful! And hope family !
I have a suggestion! Could you hire a housekeeper? Or even someone to do laundry! You have a large family and a large house! Maybe someone could help with a couple of the chores and you would have more time to do things you live!
Your butterfly song was so beautiful!!!
Sending you a big virtual hug, relating , and validating how you feel Colleen.
Anxiety is hard some days, just know that with time, these thought and feelings will be more manageable.
Be kind to yourself, your doing better than you feel you are ❤❤❤❤
Awww Colleen I have never related to something so much as how you described what you’re feeling. I think it’s a neurodivergent thing especially when you feel so overwhelmed but you’re not sure exactly why. Feeling like you don’t have enough time to do things or you’re lacking in certain things that you could or should be doing is honestly one of the worst feelings. If you succeed at certain tasks you feel like you can’t be proud or content because then you think about how you lacked in the other things that haven’t been done because there wasn’t enough time in the day. But as long as you’re trying and still making time for yourself to relax and take breaks and have fun that’s all anyone can ask of you. Anxiety is one of the worst things in the world and I’m so glad that you do speak openly about it, it means a lot because so many other people struggle your not alone! I myself have literally been sat in bed a few times and I felt so anxious my stomach was doing summersalts for over an hour and I couldn’t get it to stop, there was absolutely no trigger no reason I could think of it just happenes and it’s so hard. With the anxiety dreams too, it may not have been real but your experience was real and it’s terrifying. I have woken up before and have felt some kind of anxiety that I can not explain. It’s more rare for me but it literally feels like an attack and it feels like the presents of evil. That’s the only words I can’t think of to describe it’s like a pit in my stomach. I wish I could take your anxiety away! I guess the only thing we can do is try to learn different coping methods and try and plant our day, week and month. It’s never going to be exactly how we went it planned but life is hard and that’s okay! Life is so hard and scary it’s insane, it’s alright not to feel happy and good all the time, no one does they just hide it better. Doing what you did coming outside for fresh air and walking when you’re feeling overwhelmed is exactly the right thing to do. I know you can get through this, your very loved and appreciated by me and so many other people, and I promise your struggles are valid and your not alone in this ❤