“I don’t wanna die, just wanna get relief” I feel like this a lot. I don’t have suicidal thoughts, I don’t wanna hurt myself, but there are days where I just don’t wanna be here. Didn’t even know I was depressed until I talked to a therapist, explained how I feel inside and he told me I was depressed. It’s crazy how I could have a decent paying job, a beautiful girlfriend of almost 9 years and a beautiful 4 year old son, and still be unhappy. Coming to terms with that and understanding it’s ok to no be ok is really hard and I struggle with that everyday. Thank you for what you do
Every song on this album is top tier, im beyond hyped for a new NF album, he's gonna elevate to a new level (its getting close i can feel it). Great reaction as usual, I hate that YT trying to suppress you
Yo I couldn't have said it any better though that album hell every album he releases is amazing but I feel the same way about his new album it's getting close and it's gonna be so amazing he's been working on the album since before clouds the mixtape it's coming
I would have NF playing non stop when I was deep in depression. Knowing there was someone else that I could relate to going through the same mental issues was a huge help to me to not lose my shit and cause more harm to myself or worse. Luckily I’m doing a lot better now and still enjoy listening to the message NF brings in his music. Appreciate the reactions, keep up the hard work
Same here, this album dropped when I was at one of my lowest points in life. And every song felt like he was talking to me, especially in Nate. NF deserves so much more notoriety
NF is a hard listen man. Those days when you're struggling to keep up the act of being fine, and UA-cam chucks an NF song at you, it just breaks you down but there is also something comforting about his songs too. If you haven't already and get a chance check out Paralysed, it's hard to get through but it relates so much.
Take a listen to Interlude on your own-it explains his headspace when he wrote Hate Myself. It’s always a hard song for me to listen to-reminds me that I need to have myself straightened out before I can help others.
It’s heartwarming that u encourage people to reach out if they’re struggling. That same love & support is also for u. Your audience knows of your struggle with UA-cam. So why don’t u take the opportunity to go live so we can all discuss & hopefully give you the support/love u give us. Who knows, maybe somebody out there can give you the help u need to figure the issues out with your channel♥️🇨🇦♥️
I was never an NF fan because all the songs I heard are all so dark BUT this song is amazingly well written and I'm not saying the others are not good . Listening to this makes me want to take those pills and I agree that it does take courage to put this out but man I'm already down. Hope he is better. He probably wrote this during a very deep low. I just hope he doesn't always feel this way bc like I said his songs are depressing. Must admit I haven't heard them all but also must admit he is very talented. Thank you for sharing. Appreciate your reactions. 🙏🏼✌🏼
Same, he talented af and is getting better, but I definitely lean towards his hype songs where he is cocky and happy. He has some songs I can’t even touch cuz its a hard listen, but then there are a few dark ones I don’t mind and it sounds really good
I will say this every time I hear this song, the last few seconds of this song *ABSOLUTELY* breaks my heart 💔 You can just feel how low he was when he wrote this song in those last few seconds, which is so heartbreaking to hear how someone that’s helped *SOOOOO MANY* people get through some of their hardest moments, was going through a low moment himself. But knowing that ‟ *The Search* ˮ was him finding his happiness in life, ६ hearing how low he was throughout that album to hearing how much happier ६ confidant he sounds during his ‟ *Clouds* ˮ mixtape, makes me feel so happy for him. It seems that since his wife’s pregnancy ६ the birth of their son, has brought him so much more happiness ६ love to his life.
‘Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, I don’t wanna die, I just want relief’ … sometimes Nate hits deep. He puts into words things that some of us could never admit with our own voices. I share his name and am also a writer, his songs really resonate on a whole other level for me at times, it’s like my mind speaking to me, another version of me that beat his demons, the version that had the strength to push on past the trauma.
This album helped me get through a tough time in my life a couple years ago. I really hope you do a reaction to every single song on this album and then when you're done you need to listen to this album from start to finish on your own, it will probably make you cry because when you hear the whole project come together the way it was meant to be heard it is incredibly powerful and moving. Much love dude your reactions are the best.
Very great reaction to such a powerful song I have struggled with the topic of this song got years now unfortunately but it's the pain you know you'll cause others if you follow through. It's like an old saying I remember "all suicides are suicide bombs, just depends on if the ripple is sent through the emotions of those who are left behind or not"
I've never heard of NF before but this one hits hard. Going through my own battle at the moment and I have learnt that I have to take things day by day or the fight becomes very real an hard. Keep strong people ❤
What's messed up is I've been trying so hard to envision a future where I don't hate myself, and I literally can't see it. I have now been sitting here for half an hour trying to come up with a single thing I like about myself. Nothing.
Sometimes like tonight all I can do is listen to NF on loop over and over. My mental health is utter shit and has been for a long long time. It’s not as simple as when people say “you’re not alone” it’s insulting cause some of us are.
Love your reactions! Started watching you at the beginning of the week and I've watched dozens of your vids, keep up the grind bro, really helps make my day alittle better
@@CliffBeatsOfficial I'm Swedish and It's time for me to start off the weekend at the gym listening to your reactions! I'm so glad I found your channel, It's so much feeling into it! Thank you! 💙🎶😊
I love this song so much. It is one of my favorite right now because it describes how I feel. It describes it so well I used it to help my parents understand how I felt.
This is one of those songs that saved my life in the past and continues to save my life to this day. Watching your reaction has me in tears again, and I can still relate so much to "I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief" As someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, this song hits home on so many levels. Being in one of those states again, it's nice to see that there are so many people who relate to how this mindset.
Beautiful reaction man. I’ve been listening to NF for years now but it wasn’t until this last year that I fully understood and related to his lyrics the way others did. I lost some family to cancer and the love of my life told me over the phone that she didn’t want me anymore and I never saw her again. I tried to work on myself, got more tattoos, went to the gym and tried to see more friends but the grief and anxiety still came in waves and it’s like NF said. I don’t want to die I just want to get relief.
You seem like such a loving and caring person, Cliff. I love watching your NF videos especially. I am such a HUGE NF fan and found his music around the same time that my 30 year old daughter died unexpectedly in Jan. 2020. I have been so lost. I have such a huge hole in my heart. This song and "Paralyzed" describe exactly how I've been feeling since she died. Great reaction once again...❤👍
I’m so sorry for your loss and the only thing I can say is I will pray for you! Te only way I saw a few people get through a similar situation is their faith in God and regardless of what religion they were, it is what helped them! I pray one day you find peace! God bless you!
Definitely felt 2 bars to my soul, suicide bar, and digging through the trash for drugs, i definitely dug in some couches ,purses i would swear I HAD TO DROP ATLEAST 1 PILL. 13yrs sober and im good mentally.
I’ve played this song so much lately. I’ve lost my mother, little sister and grandmother all within the last year and a half and I constantly think about it which makes it hard to want to do anything. Both my mom and sister were addicts so I’ll find myself turning to alcohol when it gets too hard then hating myself cause I don’t want to leave my own daughter feeling the way I did watching my mom and sister slowly killing themselves
i feel so bad for you. i really do. i hope you can go thru this without alcohol and drugs. i hope your dougther goes thu this to. all love to you. if you need help then you can always talk to someone.
@@simenosli1105 Thank you ❤️ As soon as I notice myself drinking on a daily basis I do what I can to stop. I avoid drugs completely since addiction seems to run in my family
If there are any restrictions on Cliff please have them lifted. This reaction is a better quality than I have seen in the past. Fix the algorithm in UA-cam if possible. See if any videos UA-cam has copyright blocked need rights unblocked and that Cliff is back on the list.
This tune is legend man. It is so REAL. If you want another legendary tune in another vein, check out Paolo Nutini's Abbey Road Live Session of "Iron Sky". If you don't, you're cheating yourself and nobody else.
Damn, Cliff... This song hits me hard every. Single. Time. Then you had to bring Jordan Peterson into it and I couldn't help, but cry. I know which lecture you're referring to... People hate on him, but he's so much more than his political views.
This song is brutal and comforting all at the same time. I’m trying to overcome a drinking problem, and I use it to numb myself from all my past mistakes. But so many parts of this song hit a chord. My life isn’t bad. I have a beautiful wife, 3 beautiful kids and yet I’m mentally fucked up. I’m “wealthy” in so many aspects of my life. I want peace again in my life, and I could reach out and take it but I just numb myself and keep spiraling out of control instead. Not a fun place to be in. I appreciate your words of encouragement big time dude. I can tell it’s coming from your heart and it’s sincere. Take care!
“I don’t wanna die, just wanna get relief”
I feel like this a lot. I don’t have suicidal thoughts, I don’t wanna hurt myself, but there are days where I just don’t wanna be here. Didn’t even know I was depressed until I talked to a therapist, explained how I feel inside and he told me I was depressed. It’s crazy how I could have a decent paying job, a beautiful girlfriend of almost 9 years and a beautiful 4 year old son, and still be unhappy. Coming to terms with that and understanding it’s ok to no be ok is really hard and I struggle with that everyday. Thank you for what you do
This is the MOST relatable NF song to me. I hate that it is, but love that it exists.
Every song on this album is top tier, im beyond hyped for a new NF album, he's gonna elevate to a new level (its getting close i can feel it). Great reaction as usual, I hate that YT trying to suppress you
Yep they are normally around summer time
Yo I couldn't have said it any better though that album hell every album he releases is amazing but I feel the same way about his new album it's getting close and it's gonna be so amazing he's been working on the album since before clouds the mixtape it's coming
I would have NF playing non stop when I was deep in depression. Knowing there was someone else that I could relate to going through the same mental issues was a huge help to me to not lose my shit and cause more harm to myself or worse. Luckily I’m doing a lot better now and still enjoy listening to the message NF brings in his music. Appreciate the reactions, keep up the hard work
Same here, this album dropped when I was at one of my lowest points in life. And every song felt like he was talking to me, especially in Nate. NF deserves so much more notoriety
NF is a hard listen man. Those days when you're struggling to keep up the act of being fine, and UA-cam chucks an NF song at you, it just breaks you down but there is also something comforting about his songs too.
If you haven't already and get a chance check out Paralysed, it's hard to get through but it relates so much.
Take a listen to Interlude on your own-it explains his headspace when he wrote Hate Myself. It’s always a hard song for me to listen to-reminds me that I need to have myself straightened out before I can help others.
the line i dont want to die i just want relive hits so hard. its exactly how i feel when those thoughts creep back in.
this is the first and only nf song ive listened to. i really need to listen to more haha
It’s heartwarming that u encourage people to reach out if they’re struggling. That same love & support is also for u. Your audience knows of your struggle with UA-cam. So why don’t u take the opportunity to go live so we can all discuss & hopefully give you the support/love u give us. Who knows, maybe somebody out there can give you the help u need to figure the issues out with your channel♥️🇨🇦♥️
NF is the goat to me!!!! gets me threw my hard times!!!
You're a real one Cliff
Love NF HE Always make me think so deep.😁
Much respect to you, Sir. Thank you.
I was never an NF fan because all the songs I heard are all so dark BUT this song is amazingly well written and I'm not saying the others are not good . Listening to this makes me want to take those pills and I agree that it does take courage to put this out but man I'm already down. Hope he is better. He probably wrote this during a very deep low. I just hope he doesn't always feel this way bc like I said his songs are depressing. Must admit I haven't heard them all but also must admit he is very talented. Thank you for sharing. Appreciate your reactions. 🙏🏼✌🏼
Same, he talented af and is getting better, but I definitely lean towards his hype songs where he is cocky and happy. He has some songs I can’t even touch cuz its a hard listen, but then there are a few dark ones I don’t mind and it sounds really good
I will say this every time I hear this song, the last few seconds of this song *ABSOLUTELY* breaks my heart 💔
You can just feel how low he was when he wrote this song in those last few seconds, which is so heartbreaking to hear how someone that’s helped *SOOOOO MANY* people get through some of their hardest moments, was going through a low moment himself.
But knowing that ‟ *The Search* ˮ
was him finding his happiness in life, ६ hearing how low he was throughout that album to hearing how much happier ६ confidant he sounds during his ‟ *Clouds* ˮ mixtape, makes me feel so happy for him.
It seems that since his wife’s pregnancy ६ the birth of their son, has brought him so much more happiness ६ love to his life.
I am thankful, and he literally means to reach out because he will be there for you. Thank you @Cliff Beats for talking to me
Another great reaction! This connects to interlude.
This album pulled me out of a dark place
Thnx bruv, great reaction
‘Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, I don’t wanna die, I just want relief’ … sometimes Nate hits deep. He puts into words things that some of us could never admit with our own voices.
I share his name and am also a writer, his songs really resonate on a whole other level for me at times, it’s like my mind speaking to me, another version of me that beat his demons, the version that had the strength to push on past the trauma.
When he preformed this live, you could hear it in his voice on the last bridge for sure
This album helped me get through a tough time in my life a couple years ago. I really hope you do a reaction to every single song on this album and then when you're done you need to listen to this album from start to finish on your own, it will probably make you cry because when you hear the whole project come together the way it was meant to be heard it is incredibly powerful and moving. Much love dude your reactions are the best.
i love this song its one of the many NF songs id listen to help me through my roughest times, loved the reaction !
First, finally. Please stay on the NF journey..
Dude you are so underrated man! Great reaction! ❤️
thanks for doing this
You are Truly AMAZING!! Keep reaching' UP! You MAKE a difference, EVERYDAY!!! Thank YOU!
Very great reaction to such a powerful song
I have struggled with the topic of this song got years now unfortunately but it's the pain you know you'll cause others if you follow through.
It's like an old saying I remember "all suicides are suicide bombs, just depends on if the ripple is sent through the emotions of those who are left behind or not"
I've never heard of NF before but this one hits hard. Going through my own battle at the moment and I have learnt that I have to take things day by day or the fight becomes very real an hard. Keep strong people ❤
I cannot wait for you to get to "Know" it's my favorite NF song and I think very underrated.
What's messed up is I've been trying so hard to envision a future where I don't hate myself, and I literally can't see it.
I have now been sitting here for half an hour trying to come up with a single thing I like about myself. Nothing.
Sometimes like tonight all I can do is listen to NF on loop over and over. My mental health is utter shit and has been for a long long time. It’s not as simple as when people say “you’re not alone” it’s insulting cause some of us are.
i am 👏👏👏’ing with you cliff 🙏ty for this
I'm so rich everyone loves me but I'm still crying about nothing
Love your reactions! Started watching you at the beginning of the week and I've watched dozens of your vids, keep up the grind bro, really helps make my day alittle better
omg i cryed to this song i relate to this song so much
Thank you! I really needed to hear these words this morning! 💙
Well good morning to you! It’s 1:17 am by me. Have a wonderful weekend ❤️
@@CliffBeatsOfficial I'm Swedish and It's time for me to start off the weekend at the gym listening to your reactions! I'm so glad I found your channel, It's so much feeling into it! Thank you! 💙🎶😊
you're such a great guy ❤
This song is AWSOME
We're here for you as well my friend.
tnx for such great reaction...
I love this song so much. It is one of my favorite right now because it describes how I feel. It describes it so well I used it to help my parents understand how I felt.
This is one of those songs that saved my life in the past and continues to save my life to this day. Watching your reaction has me in tears again, and I can still relate so much to "I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief" As someone who has attempted suicide multiple times, this song hits home on so many levels. Being in one of those states again, it's nice to see that there are so many people who relate to how this mindset.
Great Job man
Beautiful reaction man.
I’ve been listening to NF for years now but it wasn’t until this last year that I fully understood and related to his lyrics the way others did.
I lost some family to cancer and the love of my life told me over the phone that she didn’t want me anymore and I never saw her again.
I tried to work on myself, got more tattoos, went to the gym and tried to see more friends but the grief and anxiety still came in waves and it’s like NF said. I don’t want to die I just want to get relief.
How he is running this beat makes me think of him running with it both him and the beat running its so nice
Excellent 👌
bro i just wanted to say you got my full support i love your channel and intentions, every video you post gets a like from me💯
THANK YOU
You seem like such a loving and caring person, Cliff. I love watching your NF videos especially. I am such a HUGE NF fan and found his music around the same time that my 30 year old daughter died unexpectedly in Jan. 2020. I have been so lost. I have such a huge hole in my heart. This song and "Paralyzed" describe exactly how I've been feeling since she died. Great reaction once again...❤👍
I’m so sorry for your loss and the only thing I can say is I will pray for you! Te only way I saw a few people get through a similar situation is their faith in God and regardless of what religion they were, it is what helped them! I pray one day you find peace! God bless you!
@@chrisk9911 thank you. My faith is how I've been making it through. I am so happy that I serve a loving God!
Love your reactions! It always makes my day when your notification comes up! Please react to Like This! It’s one of my favorites from the search
Going to be playing this with 7/18/23 in Milwaukee!
💯💯💯🎼🎼🎼🔥🔥🔥 my guy cliff
Definitely felt 2 bars to my soul, suicide bar, and digging through the trash for drugs, i definitely dug in some couches ,purses i would swear I HAD TO DROP ATLEAST 1 PILL. 13yrs sober and im good mentally.
sweet you my dear will never be JUST anything!!!
I don't like wrap but for s some reason I decided to listen and I couldn't stop listening. Am amazing relatable song!
And this song......is how I feel......
This was sooo deep...
I’ve played this song so much lately. I’ve lost my mother, little sister and grandmother all within the last year and a half and I constantly think about it which makes it hard to want to do anything. Both my mom and sister were addicts so I’ll find myself turning to alcohol when it gets too hard then hating myself cause I don’t want to leave my own daughter feeling the way I did watching my mom and sister slowly killing themselves
i feel so bad for you. i really do. i hope you can go thru this without alcohol and drugs. i hope your dougther goes thu this to. all love to you. if you need help then you can always talk to someone.
@@simenosli1105 Thank you ❤️ As soon as I notice myself drinking on a daily basis I do what I can to stop. I avoid drugs completely since addiction seems to run in my family
Aww I love NF but it gets me all up in my feelings too much so can't listen on repeat xx wish I could xx ♥️🐢♥️ xx
Wow 😥. This one hit me a little too hard 😭
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thanks for this, Please react to LET ME GO by NF
@Cliff..I can see it hurts you too... but Yes I feel that way too😢💔✌️💯😭
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@10:20 This portion gave me very old school hops and vibes like ill mind 5 era
NF RealMusic
I always think of Rorschach’s joke from Watchmen
“But doctor, I am Pagliacci”
Bro pay attention to what a man named Richard Heart builds. Be blessed
I"m 41 years old and doing alright but i doubt there is a day that goes by that I don't think about killing myself
If there are any restrictions on Cliff please have them lifted. This reaction is a better quality than I have seen in the past. Fix the algorithm in UA-cam if possible. See if any videos UA-cam has copyright blocked need rights unblocked and that Cliff is back on the list.
Please do I’ll keep on by nf
Will never do it, because I don't have the balls to do it but man I'm over it
You should react to d-low 1 beatboxer 30 basses
U should do some rock reactions like Shinedown, Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, Chevelle, and Seether
CLIFF, PLEASE REACT TO CAL SCRUBY “My Anxiety” “Donny Darko” and “Captain America”
Idt I can do this one today Cliff😔🥺😢😭💀💔
Luv ya❤
BUT I CAN'T HAVE IT !!!!!🫣🤫
This tune is legend man. It is so REAL. If you want another legendary tune in another vein, check out Paolo Nutini's Abbey Road Live Session of "Iron Sky". If you don't, you're cheating yourself and nobody else.
Money makes you comfortable, but it does not bring happiness. Mia
i hate myself.ive hated myself.i used to cut.i didnt wanna die i just wanted relief.....
Check out Dio Holy diver
how have you not reacted to bery = tagteam of RYTHMIND and BEATNESS it is the best tagteam round 2021 tagteam loopstation please react to it !!!
Go Cubbies!
Hey cliff can u react harry Mack New video
Life just sucks
Check out the interlude before the song, it provides perspective as to what his mind state was writing this song. Great Reaction BTW.
I'm not really into 2nf can anybody answer this question is this the kid that lost his mother from pain medication and was in foster homes?
Damn, Cliff... This song hits me hard every. Single. Time. Then you had to bring Jordan Peterson into it and I couldn't help, but cry.
I know which lecture you're referring to... People hate on him, but he's so much more than his political views.
Nf just a cry baby
This song is brutal and comforting all at the same time. I’m trying to overcome a drinking problem, and I use it to numb myself from all my past mistakes. But so many parts of this song hit a chord. My life isn’t bad. I have a beautiful wife, 3 beautiful kids and yet I’m mentally fucked up. I’m “wealthy” in so many aspects of my life. I want peace again in my life, and I could reach out and take it but I just numb myself and keep spiraling out of control instead. Not a fun place to be in. I appreciate your words of encouragement big time dude. I can tell it’s coming from your heart and it’s sincere. Take care!