I hope this maybe provides a little insight into why I am so inconsistent on here and my other platforms. It may not be a big deal but since this is my full time work and I do overpromise I did think I owed those who care the explanation at least. Hoping that by being transparent it might take some pressure off and sometimes I can just show up anyway even if I’m not feeling 100%. Hope it made sense, I’m not the best at explaining things and feel like I’ve missed out some important parts lol but I just wanted to bite the bullet and put this out here. Thanks for listening I hope it hasn’t triggered/upset anyone. Hugs 🤎
Shade, you do not need to apologise for the way that you are feeling! I absolutely love your videos, and you are so inspiring. You are a DIY/gardening queeeen🥰❤️
Hi Shade, literally one of the very first videos I have watched of yours. As someone who is about 6 months post a very strange period very similar to what you are describing… All I can say is it gets better with time, try by all means not to label yourself and try everyday if it doesnt work, it doesnt mean you failed. Lay in and try again. Sometimes the fog lifts in the middle of the night, wake up shower and start again then and one day you realise you managed to be consistent with a routine for 50 days. You will have slow days and fast days its the cycle of living. Dont mean to sound preachy. Be kind to yourself. Everything is working in your favour to succeed.
Hello my dear friend it’s okay to take time for yourself off of social media. I know that I will always wait and watch your channel, life is life and it’s short. You don’t need to explain we all human and have the same emotions at some point in time. I just lost my oldest sister and my only sister and yet life goes on. GOD BLESS and much LOVE.🙏🏾🥰💖💯💫
I love it when I see you new vids in my notifications. Your honesty is wonderful and you don’t have to explain anything. Thank you for showing your vulnerability and being beautifully human! Much love x
I love how you checked in with yourself “do I feel better for saying that”. Do that more. We don’t give ourselves enough grace to be emotional beings. I certainly wouldn’t want you adding pressure on yourself to show up contrary to how you’re feeling, and I feel many of your watchers would feel the same. It’s okay to show up as you are or not at all if you need the time. Take care ❤
Thank you so much. I really should ask that more often and it does feel like a weight off my chest in a way. Really appreciate this message and I’ll try to remember in those times that I have the support from you ❤️❤️
@@ShadeShannon 🙏🙏🙏😪😪😪 I watch your video. I love you so much. My mother's condition is very bad. I need a lot of money for his treatment, I am a poor man. Father dead Please help me pass on. I live in Bangladesh😪😪😪🙏🙏
I just wanted to remind you of a wonderful verse from Jeremiah 29:11: 'For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' No matter what challenges you're facing right now, remember that there's a bigger picture and a bright future ahead. Keep holding onto hope and trust that God has incredible plans in store for you. You've got this!
Hello, Shade I'm one of your silent watchers. Although I haven't subscribed to your channel, I've shown interest, towards the end of 2021. And have indeed watched all uploads todate. I thoroughly enjoy your contents you've inspired and educated me. As a semi mature female I feel slightly out of touch with social media and you've given me an insight to, what i would like to have done in my younger years. I resonated with this video, I also feel some what the same. I can easily stay home Friday-Sunday without getting fresh air or showering, I love it! Your human and your explanation will probably be valued by others. Keep being you unapologetically, your doing great!
Nice to see you back, I've missed you and your wonderful content. You are allowed to relax. This is your life, and no matter where you are on your journey keep talking. I love this type if content. We're all human. So put you first, x 😊
love your videos and content. thank you for sharing, a lot of us go through days like this and it's horrible and lonely but we have to remember we aren't alone and should share our feelings and reach out when we need to. Sending you a hug x
Be kind to yourself , I have exactly the same issue , I honestly thought I had some kind of bipolar disorder, it’s very common , anti depressants, healthy living, plenty of rest and a supportive husband are required , you will come through the other side , xx
Don't apologize for your feelings. So many times people put up fronts for others. I work in the mental field and this is a challenge for so many. We should learn how to be in tuned to our thoughts n feelings and stop focusing on what we think people think about us.
For those of us who love you for what we have learned about you through your platform, we will be here for you no matter how many times you show up. I am generally a silent watcher, but that doesn't take away from your value. I look forward to seeing you always. What matters is that you are well for yourself. Take care of you and will be praying. Love you much!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤
Sade l really appreciate your transparency and vulnerability. Take your time to feel how you feel. Please don't feel the need to rush to get back. Take care of yourself.
Hi Shade, we are humans there are good days and bad days. I am glad you know what's going on with your mind and body. That's the way to take care of yourself. To me, you bring me joy and laughter when I see your project. God bless you and keep you strong. 💖
Can I start by saying WELL DONE! This must have been extremely hard for you. You are struggling and have just laid bare your emotions. What an amazing person you are. ❤ Just a suggestion, but have you tried setting a reminder on your phone to remind you to keep track of your feelings and maybe record them on audio rather than write them down. Then, when you know your patterns you will be able to work a schedule around them. You take care of your Shade.❤
Thank you so much for that lovely comment. It was scary lol! But I know how much not being transparent was affecting me more so I’m crossing my fingers that this is a turning point. I love the idea of voice noting how I’m feeling. I will start doing that because I really need to try to go back for a diagnosis and see what further options I have. Thanks for that ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing x would watch your content even if u uploaded twice a year - it’s fab x I agree with all the comments above - show up when u can and don’t over do it when you’re feeling better ❤ sending love and light x
Sending hugs your way Shade! Praying for you to find practical solutions on the road to wellness and wholeness. Don’t cave into the pressure to perform. Ensure you’re taking care of yourself. Always happy to see a post from you and will continue to watch.
I never comment on UA-cam but just want to say that you’re so so so amazing Shade. Sorry to hear you’ve been feeling this way. I’m always super excited when I see you content pop up! Praying for you and as others have said please don’t give up. God loves you ❤
Aw I’m so sorry that you feel this way 😢please do what makes you happy and is best for you we’ll be here for you, I wish I could give you a virtual hug for now please take care yourself 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤️
I'm so glad you shared this and I hope you get all that you need so you can have more of the happy energetic days.. God has got you and hopefully your doc as well
Your vulnerability is so bloody inspiring, Shade. Thank you for making this - it might not feel like it, this conversation was important and I can already see light bulbs switching on for other people in your comments who go through a similar thing. Thank you, thank you, thank you 🫶
Bless you Shade. Just concentrate on yourself. Your content is worth waiting for, don't put too much pressure on yourself. It's clear to see from the comments how much you are adored. Look after yourself 🥰 x
That won’t have been easy for you, it’s hard to admit when we are struggling and feel we have to put on a brave face. Sometimes you just have to take a step back and look out for yourself in order to move forward. I’m in a similar situation going through the menopause, which is affecting my mental health but I’ve had to take a step back and do what’s right for me to get and feel better. So don’t feel bad cause it’s ok to take time out and look after yourself. Take care Shade and look forward to the next video whenever you are ready. Xx
Shade so proud of you taking the plunge to share your personal struggles and this gives the perspective of why your vlogs have not been consistent. Don’t ever apologise and I would like to wish you well and we are here to support you.
You are so brave for sharing your heart with us! I pray that you get the help you need to feel better soon. You are such a light and I have enjoyed your content. I’m not a DIY girlie but watching you use your gift brings me joy. I’ll be here whenever you’re ready to come back ❤
I have very similar feelings and low times similar to you sweet lady. I’ll share what I’ve been trying to do to help my body: explore alternative therapies and health providers, natural therapies -magnesium, like you said, and eliminate chemicals like chemical hormones in birth control, and avoid foods with GMO’s. I take some natural supplements like vitamins D3 and C for my immune system, B Complex, Vitamin B12 for energy. It is hard to figure it out and I’m finding it takes a while to find the missing pieces especially for us women. And I just cry out to God for help when I can’t take it anymore. He’s always there. He loves you dearly even when you/we feel like He’s not there. You are loved🙂
Thank you for sharing ❤ so sorry to hear you have been going through this! I hope you are able to get something sorted with the doctors to help relieve some of you symptoms 🤞xx
Shade... I just wanna say thank you. I go through the same ups and downs and like you I have a great support system of family and friends and wish I could be more consistent in showing up for them. When I'm going through a low I feel worthless, stay in bed, cant bring myself to answer anyones calls, I have no desire to do anything for days on end and then one day I wake up and I actually want to shower and wash my hair and I know I've come out of it! Its emotionally draining, please be gentle with yourself, we're all just doing the best we can and I'm super proud of you for using your platform so openly and honestly ❤☺
What a lovely, vulnerable , beautiful video. Thank you for sharing. 🤗Whatever and whenever you are here on you tube is always enough!! We got YOU girl!! 🥰
shade, honestly you are incredible, you've managed to achieve so much despite struggling with something that knocks you flat half of the month. please try to give yourself some grace, you are doing your best and your best is good enough. continue to meet yourself where you're at, with kindness and compassion. carrying around the guilt that youre letting us down is totally unnecessary as it's not the case at all! you're so inspiring and i always look forward to watching your videos (also might i add, as an inconsistent youtube watcher, the amount you post is just right!) ❤❤❤
Shade, thank you for the for being so open and honest. You definitely did not need to apologize for anything as we all are dealing with many things in our lives. It really sounds like me often times and I appreciate your willingness to be transparent, I don' think I could do the same. Please take care of yourself as need be. I love your videos and learn so much from them, so I am definitely willing to wait as I never feel let down when they are not there "every week". Sending prayers for your continued awareness into yourself.
Love how open and honest you've been here. Being able to share something of this scale is huge and I am sure I speak for most followers - we love your videos no matter how often they are posted. For your tracking, I highly recommend the app Flo - there is a paid version but the free version is just as good. It tracks cycles, moods, trends etc and it sends you a notification to remind you daily to log which I find so helpful. I wish you the best on your journey to finding answers x
🙏🙏🙏😪😪😪 I watch your video. I love you so much. My mother's condition is very bad. I need a lot of money for his treatment, I am a poor man. Father dead Please help me pass on. I live in Bangladesh😪😪😪🙏🙏
I’m always a late watcher because I’m so behind on my UA-cam, but when one of your videos comes up next in my list I’m always so excited as they’re always just a good watch. Inspiring, chilled, aesthetically pleasing and you’re just lovely! Hope you’re feeling ok at the moment ❤
Thank you for being so open and sharing this with everyone, it’s so personal and I appreciate how difficult it must have been to open up like this. I have suffered with hormone imbalances for years, for me it was fibroids which impacted my daily life in such a negative way. As you said, your doctor was not the best, and I find in the U.K. many doctors are not very clued up on alternative, natural or holistic treatments for anything relating to female hormones. I saw a female gynaecologist and left the consultation in tears when she basic said just stay on the birth control, which I knew was just masking symptoms and not curing anything. Please know there is light on the other side, you can find a way to feel better little by little, it may just take you being your own advocate and doctor for a little while to find what works best for you. Your channel is amazing and your content does not need to prescribe to certain things to be interesting. Sending lots of love.
I’m glad you shared this, you are not the only one I’ve literally just came to the same conclusion about my own body. As Women we go through a lot 😢 it can be soo exhausting if only it’s talked about more.
Hi shade, I've been a long time silent watcher but thought I'd comment just to say I love your videos they're always one of my favourite to pop up and sit down with a cup of tea and chill out with, you're doing so well try not to put too much pressure on yourself the audience will always be here to welcome you back! xx
At least you are looking into it and trying to solve it . I am so sorry you are feeling this way . I pray you will feel much better soon . Don’t worry about us when you are ready we will be here. Just make sure you are ok . There is so much pressure in life now that it does take a bit of a tole on us some where down the line . Feel better soon take care and look after you put you first no guilt . ❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
Im a silent viewer, I came across you a little over 2 years ago. I love your videos! I love you’ve put your parents and friends in videos, you show us everything that makes you You! I love your courage to try things and even though you may have to jump over some hills you achieve your goals (projects). You are not afraid to pick up tools and go for it and thats what I love about you. You’re honest, I love the way you chat to us and ramble on as if we are friends thats very genuine ❤️. I love diy and have done since i was a child and will try my hand at anything. Seeing you with a nail gun made me invest in one 😂 and ive enjoyed it ever since. Ive suffered with depression all my life due to ill health but I try not to let it beat me but I do get burnout often weather its physical or social burnout. I jump into things thats a little too much for me physically sometimes mentally but after the job is done 😁 I have a good couple of weeks of burnout. You disappearing for a bit will not make me unfollow you no explanation needed, I will always watch your videos when they pop up. I love like minded women that will pick up a nail gun ;)
Oh my, this sounds as if you are describing me to a T! I completely understand how you feel. So so brave of you to talk so open and honestly. You have been a pure inspiration to me in my MOOD phases. I too am a crier, and I don’t see it as a bad thing, it’s great to let it out. I am sending you the biggest hug ever and much love 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
Shade please don't apologise, we are all unique, and you are a beautiful soul inside and out.. I genuinely love watching your videos and seeing the lovely things you are doing to your home. I recently lost my beautiful mom, and believe me watching your videos takes my mind off things and inspires me to get up and do things around the house. Take care gorgeous lady, just be you xxxxx
I hope you continue to search for a diagnosis Shade! Once you get to the bottom of your problems then you can start to get better and enjoy a more fulfilling life. I love your channel and content xx
Shade your honesty is so humbling. You’re not the only one who feels this way and you should be proud of yourself for feeling able to share this with us. Keep being you and searching for further info and treatments. I’ll be watching regardless of when you upload. Keep up the good work!!
We talk about showing kindness to others, but how about we show that same kindness to ourselves sometimes. Full-time YT/Tik Tok etc is a higly pressurised, sometimes solitary endeavour and can lead to burnout; babe it's so hard to be positive and up, even when it's your nature to, so please don't put so much pressure on yourself to just produce 'happy, smiley' content. This talk was a real and positive thing - I felt for you hearing that hugely negative internal voice telling youself you should be more consistent and productive or not deserving of the rewards your hard work reaps. I wanted to give you a huge hug and commend you for recognising something is going on and you're actively looking for change - whether it's PMDD or sympotmatic of something else, you're doing something about it and perhaps helping others by talking about it. Sending you good vibes and lots of love xx
Thank you for your transparency, you do not need to apologise or explain. Please do not feel pressured to get content out if you are not feeling up to it. You have created a good body of work that we can revisit. Thank you for keeping it real and please look after yourself first and foremost 🤗❤
Firstly, thank you for a very honest explanation that you most definitely do not owe anyone. As someone who works in mental health, it's nice to see people having the courage to be open about these topics, as truth is so many of us ride these ups and downs with our emotions, even me who works as a therapist for a career! I never judge your inconsistency, never would. I just simply get happy when I see u upload a video as I think you have a real warm & genuine energy & it shines that you're a lovely person and your content is authentic and true to yourself, you should never change that. Post when you can, have a break when you need it. And focus on looking after yourself during those bad days, I hope you have less of them some day. Big hugs x x x
We love you, we love your content. Whether it's 2 videos a week or 1 video every other month, we will be here. Some things are just out of our control, and we can only do our best. Our best will look different each day and that's okay. Keep saying yes to yourself and your mental health and taking the time you need when you need it. Like I said, we WILL be here. Theres's absolutely no pressure.
I'm probably one of your older subscibers but I love your content, no matter how frequently or infrequently you post. As a lifetime sufferer from depression, I'm very familiar with some of the feelings/behaviours you describe and can empathise. Carry on doing what you're doing, in any way that works for you - you bring joy to so many of us
Take care of you. I pray God will open up a way quickly for you to get the help you need. As for me and your posting schedule, whenever you put them up I'm watching😊. God bless you Shade.
Hi Shade, I want to say thank you for being open and honest. You are just human and we are all emotional beings, as someone nicely pointed out. I think it's good you can be transparent and say how you feel. I don't want you to feel any pressure at all. Your content is great and you are great too!! Sorry to hear how you have been feeling and hope you feel better soon. Sounds like it's just a short period of time you go through this and have these feelings. So, take the time you need and take care of yourself. Big hugs xx
Wow! It was like you were talking about me... Thank you so much for this video. I have been feeling exactly the same for the past 9 months or so, and trying to understand why. Your videos are something I always look forward to, you're doing such a wonderful thing providing joy to all of us. You inspired me to have the confidence to DIY and I have followed your channel ever since❤. I get how exhausting it can be and so we should listen to our bodies and rest when we need to. Look after yourself, and hope you feel better xx
Hi! Silent watcher here, just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I thought it was pretty funny that I decided to watch this video today when I'm having one of those random sad days (you know random cry, paralyzing sadness). Of course, I'm sorry that you have to deal with the drastic ups and downs, but it also sort of comforting to hear some relatable content. I'm sure everyone on here would agree (and has probably already said) that you don't owe the viewers every second of everyday and you are allowed to take time to yourself. We just appreciation that your thinking of us and share your art with us whenever you feel comfortable and able. Very excited to see what you do with the kitchen and I'm still soooo in love with the color of your livingroom.
Wow this is so relatable! I absolutely love your content and you have been such an inspiration for me with starting DIY projects on my first home but I also get so overwhelmed and can’t complete the jobs I know I need and want to do for similar reasons you have explained here. Also Thankyou so much for sharing your experience with this because I have often compared myself to you asking myself ‘god I wish I could just smash out a project like Shade does!’ but it’s so refreshing to hear that just because a project is finished in a 15 minute video doesn’t mean there hasn’t been stress, anxiety, procrastination etc behind it! *im still currently renovating my kitchen after 18 months living here 😂*
I get you Shade! I’m on that 2 year wait for an ADHD diagnosis. 2 of my kids are diagnosed. I call bad days an ADHD melt down day. My hygiene is rubbish. I get out of bed and look through facebook or watch UA-cam all day. I’m not consistent either and it drives me mad! Sending hugs xx
Bless you I really hope you can get seen soon. It can be debilitating living with some of the conditions and there’s no way of pulling yourself out of the funk. Sending you strength especially considering you have to show up as mum! You’re amazing keep going xxxx
I was just thinking of you this afternoon as it’s been a while. Thank you for sharing your struggles… A lot of people go through this. Please never give up…God loves you so much and He is waiting for you to put your trust in Him. All the best 🙏🏿
First of all, so so proud of you for sharing Shade. And as everyone has said, we totally understand that you post when you post. No rush and no pressure. Take each day as it comes, feel all the feels that you need to and outside of posting and all that stuff, do what you need to do for you. Genuinely and completely for you, for your health and for your peace. I'll say a prayer a you lovely.
I'm Going Thru Something Similar And It's Tough..Thankyou For Sharing Your Story..U Will Get Thru This There Is A Light At The End Of The Tunnel..I Will Pray For You Also..Your Amazing .Spreading Love To You❤
Hi Shade Shannon , I admire you for talking it's always good to get it off our chest and it helps us all in many ways , God Bless Always and thank you for making this video ❤ ....much love from Toronto Canada
Although I love watching ur videos because u have such a great personality and a beautiful smile I totally understand that u can’t always be bubbly. 🙂 I hope u feel better very soon.
Thank you shade. For sharing yourself with us, I love everything you do. When i watch your videos i can tell that you are being yourself and not acting like some other youtubers. We all love ❤️ you . Remember think of yourself first always. We just have to patient for your videos.😊.please get the help that you need God bless you always ❤️ 🙏
I want you to know that your feelings are valid, you are not alone and you are more than ENOUGH. I have suffered from mental health issues for 30yrs and have been going through the same monthly hormone imbalance. You are doing the best you can. Life is hard and it feels impossible to motivate yourself when your cup I empty. I have so many unfinished projects around my home but I do what I can on the days I have energy. Know that we love your content no matter what ❤.
I've just sent you a message on Instagram but wanted to pop on here too to say that we appreciate you sharing your struggles. It's very easy sometimes to think that you're letting people down but I am sure your followers just enjoy seeing the snippets of your life that you share with us. You're always so genuine in your content and that is one of the reasons I watch you. I love picking up tips from you and just seeing how you transform spaces and the way that it lights up your face when it turns out just the way you pictured it. Just keep being you, when you can manage it and we'll take whatever we can get from you and support you in any way that we can. Take care of yourself first, always! x
Hi Shade, everybody seems to have said everything I would like to say. I Love what you do, I love what you say, I love your openess, I love who you are XXXX
Hi Shade, thankyou for being so honest, you don’t have to explain yourself but it does let us know why you haven’t been on as much, take the time you need and it will make your videos more exciting when they do come xxx
Thank you so much for bringing awareness to this Shade. 🤍🤍🤍🤍 I believe I’ve been suffering with PMDD for a while now, but have never been diagnosed. I feel like it’s gotten worse in the last few years. It’s so horrible and wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Sending you so much love and strength. Please, please don’t put too much pressure on yourself, we understand and we’ll ALWAYS support you and be here when you have the strength to create content. Just take each day as it comes. ☀️
Hello darling, thank you for this video which probably feels like you're baring your soul. Your humility is humbling, but you are not alone, remember that, when you're feeling your worst. Those of us who follow you will continue to do so because your content IS interesting and we know that you're not superhuman, you're a positive girl who sometimes isn't, who among us hasn't been there! So don't worry, if some people don't want to follow you anymore, then you, we, can do without them. I love watching your videos, they make me smile and I learn things too, so keep doing what you do 'cos there are loads of us looking forward to the next one! Much love ❤
The first thing I would like to say, You are not alone. God made us so that we come together love, nurture and care for each other. I am sure this is helpful to a lot of individuals. Self awareness and the fact that Social media is not individuals whom always have things put together We know the world doesn't work that way. Make God first, stay in pray and everything else will fall into place You have a beautiful Soul. My God bless you
Love watching your vlogs Shade wow it just goes to show you never know what’s going on in someone’s life. You have always come across as life of the party, full of fun always think she’d be a great fun friend to have but nobody knows how people feel inside. A lot of the time people have FOMO but yet the person they are envious off is really not always having that great a time. Thanks for sharing it could help a lot of other people who aren’t sure why they feel like they do at certain times. Just keep being you we are always here when you’re ready x
A silent watcher here. I am sorry you are going through that, and I pray you find peace. I for one don't mind your disappearance at all. Content creators have been sharing similar notions, and it is ok to disappear when you need to. we will be here when you come back no explanation needed.💞
I rarely leave comments but I was compelled to do so. Shade it’s okay to NOT be okay, we are our own biggest critic. We support you no matter what. Get the help you need and as usual we will be here when you return. We love you now love yourself and grant yourself a bit of grace.❤
I appreciate your transparency on your emotions and feelings during your down periods - that isn't something ease to talk about, let alone a film and video and post it! ❤
It is making sense Shade, and I do believe that talking about it helps so much. As far as your daily recording is concerned, try recording voice notes instead of writing them down. You will be ok, believe it!
Pmdd is referred to as estrogen dominance in the holistic community. Sis get full blood works done by your GP checking your levels of estrogen and progesterone.. Usually estrogen is high and progesterone is low in pmdd. That needs to be balanced. If you're not already taking vitamins maybe look into it for example I would say vitamin B, vitamin D & k2, calcium, and magnesium are essential for neurotransmitter synthesis and hormonal balance. Hope you feel better sis x
Shade, as someone who has dealt with chronic mental health conditions all my life, I can appreciate your thoughts and feelings. Depression can be a chemical imbalance -- it's okay to class yourself as someone who deals with that. I think progress with our mental health is first acceptance. On my bad days I've learned to just lean into them and remove the guilt. Being kind to ourselves is so important, especially when our minds are telling us we're a piece of sh!t -- our minds lie to us when we're in those cycles. Your honesty here is part of giving yourself self-care, well done on that (not trying to sound patronising), it can be hard to do when we're trying to understand ourselves. Consistency for me has also been a real issue, I think it's important to have people around you that learn to accept that and support you. I had a black dog, by Mathew Johnstone and endorsed by Stephen Fry is a nice and gentle short book on depression it also has a companion book called Living with a black dog, for partner's of sufferers. Hang in there, Gurl. Lots of healing love and hugs. ❤
Pray to God, everything is going to okay. You are awesome stay blessed. Me and my husband love your videos. Do videos whenever you like. You work so hard.❤❤🎉
Dearest Shade, I love you channel and I find your content appealing. I'd never want you to chuck it content because you feel under pressure to meet some kind of quota! There are enough content creators who do that and it becomes unappealing. Girl, own your truth and reality, and never apologise for being authentically you. I watched yesterday but didn't have a chance to submit a comment, but felt it was important to do so to show my support, even a day later. You didn't say as much but I take it that your family and loved ones also support you immensely. I think you were brave and I'm proud of you for putting your cards on the table. We're all here for you and your continued success ❤
It’s lovely to see that you can have this conversations with your fans, don’t worry dear you are human and we all go through things every now and then ….we love you here❤❤❤
Always wishing you the best! I appreciate you for you! I love your videos and I just quietly wait for a new one. yes, I do miss you when you don’t post in a while, but I always get excited when you post…Stay strong ❤️❤️❤️
I hope that you find a way to navigate those weeks when life gets too much. You are my favourite UA-camr and I’m happy to wait for your content as it’s worth waiting for. You are enough for me and I’m sure there are so many people who think the same. Sending love and a massive hug. Ps I’m a cryer too! I just think if you are you are xxx
Oh Shade. You are such a beautiful soul ❤❤. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I have PTSD, which is something totally different than what you’re describing- but I have moments of inconsistency and feeling down. And all I can say is have grace for yourself. It is so hard to be a human. So many of us go through different things and we don’t always have the help or understanding that we should in our societies. I hope for you to get more answers and to feel better. You’ve got this sis 💕💕
Thanks for sharing that Shade. A lot of us are fighting a battle that others cannot see and it's really clever to design your life around it like you have because a 9-5 can be impossible to hold down. Congratulations on acheiving that now just go with the flow and you might find the less pressure you put on yourself the better you will feel. Just make sure you enjoy your life and always 'reach for the happiest thought' (Ester Hicks).
I love your channel and I'm happy to see your content when you are able to put it out. Hang on in there and try and keep a daily log of your feelings, it will really help a you get diagnoses and hopefully some treatment. X
In case you didn't get it the first time around, I just wanted to let you know that you are very much loved and appreciated. Your audience knows how much time and care you put into your content, but we don't want you doing this at the expense of your health. So don't put any pressure on yourself. We'll wait ❤ By the way it was my birthday on the 2nd Sept. I remember saying that you are a Virgo perfectionist too. So I feel your pain girl! Love ya like curry goat and hard food! 😊
I hope this maybe provides a little insight into why I am so inconsistent on here and my other platforms. It may not be a big deal but since this is my full time work and I do overpromise I did think I owed those who care the explanation at least. Hoping that by being transparent it might take some pressure off and sometimes I can just show up anyway even if I’m not feeling 100%. Hope it made sense, I’m not the best at explaining things and feel like I’ve missed out some important parts lol but I just wanted to bite the bullet and put this out here. Thanks for listening I hope it hasn’t triggered/upset anyone. Hugs 🤎
Shade, you do not need to apologise for the way that you are feeling! I absolutely love your videos, and you are so inspiring. You are a DIY/gardening queeeen🥰❤️
Thank you so much my lovely. Hoping that being transparent will mean it’s only up from here! 🙏🏾❤️
Hi Shade, literally one of the very first videos I have watched of yours. As someone who is about 6 months post a very strange period very similar to what you are describing… All I can say is it gets better with time, try by all means not to label yourself and try everyday if it doesnt work, it doesnt mean you failed. Lay in and try again. Sometimes the fog lifts in the middle of the night, wake up shower and start again then and one day you realise you managed to be consistent with a routine for 50 days. You will have slow days and fast days its the cycle of living. Dont mean to sound preachy. Be kind to yourself. Everything is working in your favour to succeed.
Hello my dear friend it’s okay to take time for yourself off of social media. I know that I will always wait and watch your channel, life is life and it’s short. You don’t need to explain we all human and have the same emotions at some point in time. I just lost my oldest sister and my only sister and yet life goes on. GOD BLESS and much LOVE.🙏🏾🥰💖💯💫
Thank you so much for sharing. Remember, we all love you and will always be there for you xxx.
I love it when I see you new vids in my notifications. Your honesty is wonderful and you don’t have to explain anything. Thank you for showing your vulnerability and being beautifully human! Much love x
I love how you checked in with yourself “do I feel better for saying that”. Do that more. We don’t give ourselves enough grace to be emotional beings. I certainly wouldn’t want you adding pressure on yourself to show up contrary to how you’re feeling, and I feel many of your watchers would feel the same. It’s okay to show up as you are or not at all if you need the time. Take care ❤
Thank you so much. I really should ask that more often and it does feel like a weight off my chest in a way. Really appreciate this message and I’ll try to remember in those times that I have the support from you ❤️❤️
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🙏🙏🙏😪😪😪 I watch your video. I love you so much. My mother's condition is very bad. I need a lot of money for his treatment, I am a poor man. Father dead Please help me pass on. I live in Bangladesh😪😪😪🙏🙏
I just wanted to remind you of a wonderful verse from Jeremiah 29:11: 'For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.' No matter what challenges you're facing right now, remember that there's a bigger picture and a bright future ahead. Keep holding onto hope and trust that God has incredible plans in store for you. You've got this!
Thank you so much. This is beautiful I will try to remember this 🤍🤍
Amen 🙌🏾❤️
Hello, Shade I'm one of your silent watchers. Although I haven't subscribed to your channel, I've shown interest, towards the end of 2021. And have indeed watched all uploads todate. I thoroughly enjoy your contents you've inspired and educated me. As a semi mature female I feel slightly out of touch with social media and you've given me an insight to, what i would like to have done in my younger years.
I resonated with this video, I also feel some what the same. I can easily stay home Friday-Sunday without getting fresh air or showering, I love it! Your human and your explanation will probably be valued by others. Keep being you unapologetically, your doing great!
Nice to see you back, I've missed you and your wonderful content. You are allowed to relax. This is your life, and no matter where you are on your journey keep talking. I love this type if content. We're all human. So put you first, x 😊
I genuinely love your content, Shade. Will watch whenever you post it, whether it’s a vlog, a reno project, shopping, or even chatty vibes like this ❤
Appreciate you so much. This means a lot. I will try my hardest to remember this next time I’m doubting myself! Xxx
Happy to have you anyway you show up, you don’t have to be bubbly vibes, we love you no matter what 🫶
love your videos and content. thank you for sharing, a lot of us go through days like this and it's horrible and lonely but we have to remember we aren't alone and should share our feelings and reach out when we need to. Sending you a hug x
Be kind to yourself , I have exactly the same issue , I honestly thought I had some kind of bipolar disorder, it’s very common , anti depressants, healthy living, plenty of rest and a supportive husband are required , you will come through the other side , xx
Don't apologize for your feelings. So many times people put up fronts for others. I work in the mental field and this is a challenge for so many. We should learn how to be in tuned to our thoughts n feelings and stop focusing on what we think people think about us.
For those of us who love you for what we have learned about you through your platform, we will be here for you no matter how many times you show up. I am generally a silent watcher, but that doesn't take away from your value. I look forward to seeing you always. What matters is that you are well for yourself. Take care of you and will be praying. Love you much!!!❤❤❤❤❤❤
Sade l really appreciate your transparency and vulnerability. Take your time to feel how you feel. Please don't feel the need to rush to get back. Take care of yourself.
Hi Shade, we are humans there are good days and bad days. I am glad you know what's going on with your mind and body. That's the way to take care of yourself. To me, you bring me joy and laughter when I see your project. God bless you and keep you strong. 💖
Can I start by saying WELL DONE! This must have been extremely hard for you. You are struggling and have just laid bare your emotions. What an amazing person you are. ❤
Just a suggestion, but have you tried setting a reminder on your phone to remind you to keep track of your feelings and maybe record them on audio rather than write them down. Then, when you know your patterns you will be able to work a schedule around them.
You take care of your Shade.❤
Thank you so much for that lovely comment. It was scary lol! But I know how much not being transparent was affecting me more so I’m crossing my fingers that this is a turning point.
I love the idea of voice noting how I’m feeling. I will start doing that because I really need to try to go back for a diagnosis and see what further options I have. Thanks for that ❤️❤️❤️
@@ShadeShannon you're welcome. I hope they get this under control for you, it's not easy, I can relate. x
Shade. I love every video u put up regardless of the content. You are always brilliant. Take care of yourself
Thank you for sharing x would watch your content even if u uploaded twice a year - it’s fab x
I agree with all the comments above - show up when u can and don’t over do it when you’re feeling better ❤ sending love and light x
Sending hugs your way Shade!
Praying for you to find practical solutions on the road to wellness and wholeness. Don’t cave into the pressure to perform. Ensure you’re taking care of yourself.
Always happy to see a post from you and will continue to watch.
I never comment on UA-cam but just want to say that you’re so so so amazing Shade. Sorry to hear you’ve been feeling this way. I’m always super excited when I see you content pop up! Praying for you and as others have said please don’t give up. God loves you ❤
Aw I’m so sorry that you feel this way 😢please do what makes you happy and is best for you we’ll be here for you, I wish I could give you a virtual hug for now please take care yourself 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗❤️
Feel better, you’re a lovely person😊❤️
I'm so glad you shared this and I hope you get all that you need so you can have more of the happy energetic days.. God has got you and hopefully your doc as well
Your vulnerability is so bloody inspiring, Shade. Thank you for making this - it might not feel like it, this conversation was important and I can already see light bulbs switching on for other people in your comments who go through a similar thing. Thank you, thank you, thank you 🫶
Shade I love watching your videos and thank you so much for sharing this! I hope you find some answers on how to support how you’re feeling! ❤
Bless you Shade. Just concentrate on yourself. Your content is worth waiting for, don't put too much pressure on yourself. It's clear to see from the comments how much you are adored. Look after yourself 🥰 x
That won’t have been easy for you, it’s hard to admit when we are struggling and feel we have to put on a brave face. Sometimes you just have to take a step back and look out for yourself in order to move forward. I’m in a similar situation going through the menopause, which is affecting my mental health but I’ve had to take a step back and do what’s right for me to get and feel better. So don’t feel bad cause it’s ok to take time out and look after yourself. Take care Shade and look forward to the next video whenever you are ready. Xx
Shade so proud of you taking the plunge to share your personal struggles and this gives the perspective of why your vlogs have not been consistent. Don’t ever apologise and I would like to wish you well and we are here to support you.
You are so brave for sharing your heart with us! I pray that you get the help you need to feel better soon. You are such a light and I have enjoyed your content. I’m not a DIY girlie but watching you use your gift brings me joy. I’ll be here whenever you’re ready to come back ❤
I have very similar feelings and low times similar to you sweet lady. I’ll share what I’ve been trying to do to help my body: explore alternative therapies and health providers, natural therapies -magnesium, like you said, and eliminate chemicals like chemical hormones in birth control, and avoid foods with GMO’s. I take some natural supplements like vitamins D3 and C for my immune system, B Complex, Vitamin B12 for energy. It is hard to figure it out and I’m finding it takes a while to find the missing pieces especially for us women. And I just cry out to God for help when I can’t take it anymore. He’s always there. He loves you dearly even when you/we feel like He’s not there. You are loved🙂
Thank you for sharing ❤ so sorry to hear you have been going through this! I hope you are able to get something sorted with the doctors to help relieve some of you symptoms 🤞xx
That's me right now, watching crying, there are so many people like us at the moment, wish could hug you ❤❤
Shade... I just wanna say thank you. I go through the same ups and downs and like you I have a great support system of family and friends and wish I could be more consistent in showing up for them. When I'm going through a low I feel worthless, stay in bed, cant bring myself to answer anyones calls, I have no desire to do anything for days on end and then one day I wake up and I actually want to shower and wash my hair and I know I've come out of it! Its emotionally draining, please be gentle with yourself, we're all just doing the best we can and I'm super proud of you for using your platform so openly and honestly ❤☺
What a lovely, vulnerable , beautiful video. Thank you for sharing. 🤗Whatever and whenever you are here on you tube is always enough!!
We got YOU girl!! 🥰
Absolutely amazing channel/ Shade!
shade, honestly you are incredible, you've managed to achieve so much despite struggling with something that knocks you flat half of the month. please try to give yourself some grace, you are doing your best and your best is good enough. continue to meet yourself where you're at, with kindness and compassion. carrying around the guilt that youre letting us down is totally unnecessary as it's not the case at all! you're so inspiring and i always look forward to watching your videos (also might i add, as an inconsistent youtube watcher, the amount you post is just right!) ❤❤❤
Shade, thank you for the for being so open and honest. You definitely did not need to apologize for anything as we all are dealing with many things in our lives. It really sounds like me often times and I appreciate your willingness to be transparent, I don' think I could do the same. Please take care of yourself as need be. I love your videos and learn so much from them, so I am definitely willing to wait as I never feel let down when they are not there "every week". Sending prayers for your continued awareness into yourself.
Love how open and honest you've been here. Being able to share something of this scale is huge and I am sure I speak for most followers - we love your videos no matter how often they are posted. For your tracking, I highly recommend the app Flo - there is a paid version but the free version is just as good. It tracks cycles, moods, trends etc and it sends you a notification to remind you daily to log which I find so helpful. I wish you the best on your journey to finding answers x
🙏🙏🙏😪😪😪 I watch your video. I love you so much. My mother's condition is very bad. I need a lot of money for his treatment, I am a poor man. Father dead Please help me pass on. I live in Bangladesh😪😪😪🙏🙏
I’m always a late watcher because I’m so behind on my UA-cam, but when one of your videos comes up next in my list I’m always so excited as they’re always just a good watch. Inspiring, chilled, aesthetically pleasing and you’re just lovely! Hope you’re feeling ok at the moment ❤
Thank you for being so open and sharing this with everyone, it’s so personal and I appreciate how difficult it must have been to open up like this. I have suffered with hormone imbalances for years, for me it was fibroids which impacted my daily life in such a negative way. As you said, your doctor was not the best, and I find in the U.K. many doctors are not very clued up on alternative, natural or holistic treatments for anything relating to female hormones. I saw a female gynaecologist and left the consultation in tears when she basic said just stay on the birth control, which I knew was just masking symptoms and not curing anything. Please know there is light on the other side, you can find a way to feel better little by little, it may just take you being your own advocate and doctor for a little while to find what works best for you. Your channel is amazing and your content does not need to prescribe to certain things to be interesting. Sending lots of love.
I’m glad you shared this, you are not the only one I’ve literally just came to the same conclusion about my own body. As Women we go through a lot 😢 it can be soo exhausting if only it’s talked about more.
Also just film more on the days you feel good schedule them and take care of yourself it’s all that matters that you are okay.
Hi shade, I've been a long time silent watcher but thought I'd comment just to say I love your videos they're always one of my favourite to pop up and sit down with a cup of tea and chill out with, you're doing so well try not to put too much pressure on yourself the audience will always be here to welcome you back! xx
At least you are looking into it and trying to solve it . I am so sorry you are feeling this way . I pray you will feel much better soon . Don’t worry about us when you are ready we will be here. Just make sure you are ok . There is so much pressure in life now that it does take a bit of a tole on us some where down the line . Feel better soon take care and look after you put you first no guilt . ❤️❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
Im a silent viewer, I came across you a little over 2 years ago. I love your videos! I love you’ve put your parents and friends in videos, you show us everything that makes you You! I love your courage to try things and even though you may have to jump over some hills you achieve your goals (projects). You are not afraid to pick up tools and go for it and thats what I love about you. You’re honest, I love the way you chat to us and ramble on as if we are friends thats very genuine ❤️. I love diy and have done since i was a child and will try my hand at anything. Seeing you with a nail gun made me invest in one 😂 and ive enjoyed it ever since.
Ive suffered with depression all my life due to ill health but I try not to let it beat me but I do get burnout often weather its physical or social burnout. I jump into things thats a little too much for me physically sometimes mentally but after the job is done 😁 I have a good couple of weeks of burnout. You disappearing for a bit will not make me unfollow you no explanation needed, I will always watch your videos when they pop up. I love like minded women that will pick up a nail gun ;)
Oh my, this sounds as if you are describing me to a T! I completely understand how you feel. So so brave of you to talk so open and honestly. You have been a pure inspiration to me in my MOOD phases. I too am a crier, and I don’t see it as a bad thing, it’s great to let it out. I am sending you the biggest hug ever and much love 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
Shade please don't apologise, we are all unique, and you are a beautiful soul inside and out.. I genuinely love watching your videos and seeing the lovely things you are doing to your home. I recently lost my beautiful mom, and believe me watching your videos takes my mind off things and inspires me to get up and do things around the house. Take care gorgeous lady, just be you xxxxx
I hope you continue to search for a diagnosis Shade! Once you get to the bottom of your problems then you can start to get better and enjoy a more fulfilling life. I love your channel and content xx
Shade your honesty is so humbling. You’re not the only one who feels this way and you should be proud of yourself for feeling able to share this with us. Keep being you and searching for further info and treatments. I’ll be watching regardless of when you upload. Keep up the good work!!
We talk about showing kindness to others, but how about we show that same kindness to ourselves sometimes.
Full-time YT/Tik Tok etc is a higly pressurised, sometimes solitary endeavour and can lead to burnout; babe it's so hard to be positive and up, even when it's your nature to, so please don't put so much pressure on yourself to just produce 'happy, smiley' content.
This talk was a real and positive thing - I felt for you hearing that hugely negative internal voice telling youself you should be more consistent and productive or not deserving of the rewards your hard work reaps. I wanted to give you a huge hug and commend you for recognising something is going on and you're actively looking for change - whether it's PMDD or sympotmatic of something else, you're doing something about it and perhaps helping others by talking about it. Sending you good vibes and lots of love xx
Thank you for your transparency, you do not need to apologise or explain. Please do not feel pressured to get content out if you are not feeling up to it. You have created a good body of work that we can revisit. Thank you for keeping it real and please look after yourself first and foremost 🤗❤
Thank you for sharing your experience and for keeping it real x
Firstly, thank you for a very honest explanation that you most definitely do not owe anyone. As someone who works in mental health, it's nice to see people having the courage to be open about these topics, as truth is so many of us ride these ups and downs with our emotions, even me who works as a therapist for a career! I never judge your inconsistency, never would. I just simply get happy when I see u upload a video as I think you have a real warm & genuine energy & it shines that you're a lovely person and your content is authentic and true to yourself, you should never change that. Post when you can, have a break when you need it. And focus on looking after yourself during those bad days, I hope you have less of them some day. Big hugs x x x
We love you, we love your content. Whether it's 2 videos a week or 1 video every other month, we will be here.
Some things are just out of our control, and we can only do our best. Our best will look different each day and that's okay.
Keep saying yes to yourself and your mental health and taking the time you need when you need it.
Like I said, we WILL be here. Theres's absolutely no pressure.
I'm probably one of your older subscibers but I love your content, no matter how frequently or infrequently you post. As a lifetime sufferer from depression, I'm very familiar with some of the feelings/behaviours you describe and can empathise. Carry on doing what you're doing, in any way that works for you - you bring joy to so many of us
Take care of you. I pray God will open up a way quickly for you to get the help you need. As for me and your posting schedule, whenever you put them up I'm watching😊. God bless you Shade.
Hi Shade, I want to say thank you for being open and honest. You are just human and we are all emotional beings, as someone nicely pointed out. I think it's good you can be transparent and say how you feel. I don't want you to feel any pressure at all. Your content is great and you are great too!! Sorry to hear how you have been feeling and hope you feel better soon. Sounds like it's just a short period of time you go through this and have these feelings. So, take the time you need and take care of yourself. Big hugs xx
Wow! It was like you were talking about me... Thank you so much for this video. I have been feeling exactly the same for the past 9 months or so, and trying to understand why. Your videos are something I always look forward to, you're doing such a wonderful thing providing joy to all of us. You inspired me to have the confidence to DIY and I have followed your channel ever since❤. I get how exhausting it can be and so we should listen to our bodies and rest when we need to. Look after yourself, and hope you feel better xx
Hi! Silent watcher here, just wanted to say thank you for sharing. I thought it was pretty funny that I decided to watch this video today when I'm having one of those random sad days (you know random cry, paralyzing sadness). Of course, I'm sorry that you have to deal with the drastic ups and downs, but it also sort of comforting to hear some relatable content. I'm sure everyone on here would agree (and has probably already said) that you don't owe the viewers every second of everyday and you are allowed to take time to yourself. We just appreciation that your thinking of us and share your art with us whenever you feel comfortable and able. Very excited to see what you do with the kitchen and I'm still soooo in love with the color of your livingroom.
Wow this is so relatable! I absolutely love your content and you have been such an inspiration for me with starting DIY projects on my first home but I also get so overwhelmed and can’t complete the jobs I know I need and want to do for similar reasons you have explained here. Also Thankyou so much for sharing your experience with this because I have often compared myself to you asking myself ‘god I wish I could just smash out a project like Shade does!’ but it’s so refreshing to hear that just because a project is finished in a 15 minute video doesn’t mean there hasn’t been stress, anxiety, procrastination etc behind it! *im still currently renovating my kitchen after 18 months living here 😂*
I get you Shade! I’m on that 2 year wait for an ADHD diagnosis. 2 of my kids are diagnosed. I call bad days an ADHD melt down day. My hygiene is rubbish. I get out of bed and look through facebook or watch UA-cam all day. I’m not consistent either and it drives me mad! Sending hugs xx
Bless you I really hope you can get seen soon. It can be debilitating living with some of the conditions and there’s no way of pulling yourself out of the funk. Sending you strength especially considering you have to show up as mum! You’re amazing keep going xxxx
That was very brave of you ❤ women struggle so much with hormone related issues. We can all relate in some way. Sending a hug 🤗 x
I was just thinking of you this afternoon as it’s been a while. Thank you for sharing your struggles… A lot of people go through this.
Please never give up…God loves you so much and He is waiting for you to put your trust in Him. All the best 🙏🏿
First of all, so so proud of you for sharing Shade. And as everyone has said, we totally understand that you post when you post. No rush and no pressure. Take each day as it comes, feel all the feels that you need to and outside of posting and all that stuff, do what you need to do for you. Genuinely and completely for you, for your health and for your peace. I'll say a prayer a you lovely.
I'm Going Thru Something Similar And It's Tough..Thankyou For Sharing Your Story..U Will Get Thru This There Is A Light At The End Of The Tunnel..I Will Pray For You Also..Your Amazing .Spreading Love To You❤
Sorry you’re experiencing similar too. Thank you for the kind words and I hope you get through what you’re struggling with too lovely. Big hugs 🤍
@@ShadeShannon Thankyou So Much Hun x
Hi Shade Shannon , I admire you for talking it's always good to get it off our chest and it helps us all in many ways , God Bless Always and thank you for making this video ❤ ....much love from Toronto Canada
Although I love watching ur videos because u have such a great personality and a beautiful smile I totally understand that u can’t always be bubbly. 🙂 I hope u feel better very soon.
Thank you so much ❤️❤️
Thank you shade. For sharing yourself with us, I love everything you do. When i watch your videos i can tell that you are being yourself and not acting like some other youtubers. We all love ❤️ you . Remember think of yourself first always. We just have to patient for your videos.😊.please get the help that you need God bless you always ❤️ 🙏
Thanks
We love you! Just keep going, one day at a time and we’ll be here whenever you can share! ❤
I want you to know that your feelings are valid, you are not alone and you are more than ENOUGH. I have suffered from mental health issues for 30yrs and have been going through the same monthly hormone imbalance.
You are doing the best you can. Life is hard and it feels impossible to motivate yourself when your cup I empty. I have so many unfinished projects around my home but I do what I can on the days I have energy.
Know that we love your content no matter what ❤.
Look after yourself girlie, that the most important thing. I enjoy your content and will keep watching whenever you upload ❤
I've just sent you a message on Instagram but wanted to pop on here too to say that we appreciate you sharing your struggles. It's very easy sometimes to think that you're letting people down but I am sure your followers just enjoy seeing the snippets of your life that you share with us. You're always so genuine in your content and that is one of the reasons I watch you. I love picking up tips from you and just seeing how you transform spaces and the way that it lights up your face when it turns out just the way you pictured it. Just keep being you, when you can manage it and we'll take whatever we can get from you and support you in any way that we can. Take care of yourself first, always! x
Hi Shade, everybody seems to have said everything I would like to say. I Love what you do, I love what you say, I love your openess, I love who you are XXXX
Hi Shade, thankyou for being so honest, you don’t have to explain yourself but it does let us know why you haven’t been on as much, take the time you need and it will make your videos more exciting when they do come xxx
Thank you so much for bringing awareness to this Shade. 🤍🤍🤍🤍
I believe I’ve been suffering with PMDD for a while now, but have never been diagnosed. I feel like it’s gotten worse in the last few years. It’s so horrible and wouldn’t wish it on anyone.
Sending you so much love and strength. Please, please don’t put too much pressure on yourself, we understand and we’ll ALWAYS support you and be here when you have the strength to create content. Just take each day as it comes. ☀️
Hello darling, thank you for this video which probably feels like you're baring your soul. Your humility is humbling, but you are not alone, remember that, when you're feeling your worst. Those of us who follow you will continue to do so because your content IS interesting and we know that you're not superhuman, you're a positive girl who sometimes isn't, who among us hasn't been there! So don't worry, if some people don't want to follow you anymore, then you, we, can do without them. I love watching your videos, they make me smile and I learn things too, so keep doing what you do 'cos there are loads of us looking forward to the next one! Much love ❤
The first thing I would like to say, You are not alone. God made us so that we come together love, nurture and care for each other.
I am sure this is helpful to a lot of individuals.
Self awareness and the fact that Social media is not individuals whom always have things put together
We know the world doesn't work that way.
Make God first, stay in pray and everything else will fall into place
You have a beautiful Soul.
My God bless you
Love watching your vlogs Shade wow it just goes to show you never know what’s going on in someone’s life. You have always come across as life of the party, full of fun always think she’d be a great fun friend to have but nobody knows how people feel inside. A lot of the time people have FOMO but yet the person they are envious off is really not always having that great a time. Thanks for sharing it could help a lot of other people who aren’t sure why they feel like they do at certain times. Just keep being you we are always here when you’re ready x
A silent watcher here. I am sorry you are going through that, and I pray you find peace. I for one don't mind your disappearance at all. Content creators have been sharing similar notions, and it is ok to disappear when you need to. we will be here when you come back no explanation needed.💞
Love you!!! ❤ so excited for this new format.
Thank you love! 🥹❤️
Thank you for sharing your feelings and getting that out of you system my friend, I pray you feel better soon , we all love you ❤ 🙏🏽
I appreciate that a lot. Thank you! ❤️❤️❤️
I rarely leave comments but I was compelled to do so. Shade it’s okay to NOT be okay, we are our own biggest critic. We support you no matter what. Get the help you need and as usual we will be here when you return. We love you now love yourself and grant yourself a bit of grace.❤
I appreciate your transparency on your emotions and feelings during your down periods - that isn't something ease to talk about, let alone a film and video and post it!
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It is making sense Shade, and I do believe that talking about it helps so much. As far as your daily recording is concerned, try recording voice notes instead of writing them down. You will be ok, believe it!
Hi Shade, you are doing so well don't worry about anything take your time and post when you are ready, we will always be here for you 💕
Pmdd is referred to as estrogen dominance in the holistic community. Sis get full blood works done by your GP checking your levels of estrogen and progesterone.. Usually estrogen is high and progesterone is low in pmdd. That needs to be balanced. If you're not already taking vitamins maybe look into it for example I would say vitamin B, vitamin D & k2, calcium, and magnesium are essential for neurotransmitter synthesis and hormonal balance.
Hope you feel better sis x
I totally love your channel!!!
Shade, as someone who has dealt with chronic mental health conditions all my life, I can appreciate your thoughts and feelings. Depression can be a chemical imbalance -- it's okay to class yourself as someone who deals with that. I think progress with our mental health is first acceptance. On my bad days I've learned to just lean into them and remove the guilt. Being kind to ourselves is so important, especially when our minds are telling us we're a piece of sh!t -- our minds lie to us when we're in those cycles. Your honesty here is part of giving yourself self-care, well done on that (not trying to sound patronising), it can be hard to do when we're trying to understand ourselves. Consistency for me has also been a real issue, I think it's important to have people around you that learn to accept that and support you. I had a black dog, by Mathew Johnstone and endorsed by Stephen Fry is a nice and gentle short book on depression it also has a companion book called Living with a black dog, for partner's of sufferers. Hang in there, Gurl. Lots of healing love and hugs. ❤
Pray to God, everything is going to okay. You are awesome stay blessed. Me and my husband love your videos. Do videos whenever you like. You work so hard.❤❤🎉
Thank you for sharing this with us, i wish you all the best and pray you get whatever help and support you need. Stay strong there's always tomorrow ❤
Dearest Shade, I love you channel and I find your content appealing. I'd never want you to chuck it content because you feel under pressure to meet some kind of quota! There are enough content creators who do that and it becomes unappealing. Girl, own your truth and reality, and never apologise for being authentically you. I watched yesterday but didn't have a chance to submit a comment, but felt it was important to do so to show my support, even a day later. You didn't say as much but I take it that your family and loved ones also support you immensely. I think you were brave and I'm proud of you for putting your cards on the table. We're all here for you and your continued success ❤
It’s lovely to see that you can have this conversations with your fans, don’t worry dear you are human and we all go through things every now and then ….we love you here❤❤❤
I had this, I was put on a different pill which has a different level of hormones. Not the greatest solution long term but it’s really helped xx
Always wishing you the best! I appreciate you for you! I love your videos and I just quietly wait for a new one. yes, I do miss you when you don’t post in a while, but I always get excited when you post…Stay strong ❤️❤️❤️
I hope that you find a way to navigate those weeks when life gets too much. You are my favourite UA-camr and I’m happy to wait for your content as it’s worth waiting for. You are enough for me and I’m sure there are so many people who think the same. Sending love and a massive hug. Ps I’m a cryer too! I just think if you are you are xxx
Oh Shade. You are such a beautiful soul ❤❤. I’m sorry you’re going through this. I have PTSD, which is something totally different than what you’re describing- but I have moments of inconsistency and feeling down. And all I can say is have grace for yourself. It is so hard to be a human. So many of us go through different things and we don’t always have the help or understanding that we should in our societies. I hope for you to get more answers and to feel better. You’ve got this sis 💕💕
Thanks for sharing that Shade. A lot of us are fighting a battle that others cannot see and it's really clever to design your life around it like you have because a 9-5 can be impossible to hold down. Congratulations on acheiving that now just go with the flow and you might find the less pressure you put on yourself the better you will feel. Just make sure you enjoy your life and always 'reach for the happiest thought' (Ester Hicks).
We need this reminders sometimes dear as we are only but humans, we love you dear.❤
I love your channel and I'm happy to see your content when you are able to put it out. Hang on in there and try and keep a daily log of your feelings, it will really help a you get diagnoses and hopefully some treatment. X
In case you didn't get it the first time around, I just wanted to let you know that you are very much loved and appreciated. Your audience knows how much time and care you put into your content, but we don't want you doing this at the expense of your health. So don't put any pressure on yourself. We'll wait ❤
By the way it was my birthday on the 2nd Sept. I remember saying that you are a Virgo perfectionist too. So I feel your pain girl! Love ya like curry goat and hard food! 😊