Yeah but it's hard to have those type of friends you mostly get the ones that say what do you have to be depressed about or just don't think about it and especially if you wanted tondo it you would of already done it there for stop complaining so i no longer say anything just stay away now sucks but yeah 🙁
@@ShadowTheGhozt That’s true! Some people just aren’t good friends . And it’s disheartening to know ( and to experience it) , just don’t let it fester. This isn’t everyone ; there’s people in our world who make better friends than a family member would. Stay positive-- you’ll get through this!
I dont think she was smoke and mirrors. I followed her for a few years & people were constantly criticizing & blaming her when her & her bf broke up. People were saying awful things about her & even making mean videos about her. I know we shouldn't pay attention to that stuff but it's easier said than done when you're in the limelight.
Sad to see this. She traveled the world seen the most beautiful places and still was not happy with life. Pretty sad. We never know what others go through in life. We definitely need the love and support of others to make it through.
If you deepen your thought, you could also ask: Why did she travelled all over the world in the most beautiful places? Maybe because of her depression? She thought she would get rid of her depression by taking extraordinary trips in the most beautiful places on earth. Except it doesn't work this way. Depression is a very complex illness that is difficult for us to understand.
@@davhos3408 Yes, but at least she had this opportunity. She had the freedom and means to fill her days with something beautiful. Many suffer the same and have to spend their time alone in the flat or doing the job they hate.
This is beyond tragic and heartbreaking but please please please do not jump in front of trains. My grandfather conducted a train that hit a young man commiting suicide and he never got over it. It is really traumatizing.
it's a selfish way to go bc it involves other people yet the person is so consumed with self that they don't consider those consequences.. if you want to go, do it in a way that doesn't involve others at all.. this is just so sad all around ♥️
Depression is real. Please know you are loved more than you will ever know. Depression lies to you. Happiness is the truth. Never give up my friends. You make this world brighter and happier with you in it. Just take one step at a time,one progress at a time. Help is there . Please talk to someone you trust. ❤️.
If anyone is struggling and reading this, sweetheart, you are beautiful, you're not a burden. Your life matters, whatever it is will get better. I'm so glad you're here, and I want you to stay 💕
I am a depressed single mum who recently lost my job. I look at women like this and think they have it all. It really goes to show we have no idea very sad. Sleep tight beautiful girl ❤️ no more suffering now 💗
Right?? Like she looked like she had it all. I’m depressed too and would never think someone like this could be worse off than me. She had a partner a successful career and a beautiful face and body, you would never think she would do something so violent toward herself
Hang in there mama your boys are beautiful and it seems you're a really good mother I just subscribed to your channel. Don't look up to influencers and celebrities because their life is no didn't than ours other than they have more money. Money is not going to buy you peace, health, happiness or the love that your children have for you. ❤️
Hope you are okay, take small steps to take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to problem solve each day, no matter how small,it will build up and build your motivation
Here’s what I have learned after living with major depression and then anxiety in combo. It took a long time . And when Use suicide as a way out , you have ended your chance of it changing even conquering it. If you are a perfectionist as I was you learn to say no. And if someone makes you feel quilty about that I hope you have someone who loves you so much that they will stand up to those that shame you and take away that quilt. My first episode I was 15 . If any of you are parents, just think about the immense pain and confusion you will leave your children with . Even if they are not the one who finds you. It’s the cruelest. So if you keep having thoughts, keep getting help . Be strong for yourself and them . I am so sorry for everyone’s loss. You are not alone . Peace&Love
It's all pointless in the end anyways. Your not going to be rewarded for being brave and facing your fears, you will grow old then die like everything else. If you want to keep fighting this pointless battle then that's great, more power to you, not everyone wants to though.
@@TheFracturedfuture We can end the battle whenever we want. Do what you like and stop hiding depression. Let people see how depressed you are. Who cares, i don't care anymore what people think
@@fritzfromswitzerland Depression and anxiety are nothing, I have been fighting them for ten years. But now as a reward I have a chronic illness and that's where I draw the line. It's one thing to battle your mind but add a physical ailment and it's to much for me to bear.
@@TheFracturedfuture I don't want to give wrong advices but, in that case my salvation would be nature. If you love nature it's a big plus. There is soo much to explore and enjoy 😉
@@fritzfromswitzerland I have chronic fatigue syndrome I get tired by any little thing I do, no amount of nature can take that away, I can't explore because I'm always so tired. Every single day is a fucking nightmare.
I struggle with severe depression, anorexia and G.A.D and when you're in such dark hole its so hard to see the way out. Im glad I was able to see the other side on time but so many people dont get the chance to do so. Please dont judge what you can't understand. Sending love and light to anyone struggling. You are not alone.
So sorry Rashonne that you are experiencing Anxiety and Depression. Sorry that you are suffering. Yes the love and support of good friends is important. Highly recommend 'The Medical Medium Anthony William'. He has protocols that are life changing and life saving for Anxiety and Depression. And so much more. That actually work!!! The Medical Medium Anthony William has books, podcasts, UA-cam channel etc. And one of the podcasts is on Anxiety. Remember also to be kind and compassionate with yourself and take good care of yourself. In Peace, 💚🕊️🕉️ 🙏
Get all the help you can if you feel suicidal, this past year of restrictions difficult for many people, this has ripple effect on many, train crew, family, friends, lovers etc. condolences to all, you are not to blame.
Prayers go out to you. I pray against all depression, anxiety, suicide etc in the name of Jesus! Know that your life matters and no matter how hard life may seem, there isn't a problem that is a problem for God! God can & he will fix it! Trust in the Lord!! God bless you ❤
My guess is that you've never been really depressed. It's not a choice so thinking about happy moment doesn't do anything. What does is realizing that you can't do it yourself and get some professional help.
As someone who was born with chronique depression....someone who don't know what being happy is...i found this selfish....im 29 years old and i think of not death in praticular but ending my pain every day since my young age ....i refuse to break my mother heart i refuse to be burried by my mother i refuse to let her down....i don't give a fuck about happiness and good times and love and dreams i dont give a fuck about neither my past or my future....im fighting and i will fight making my self believe that there is no other option.....this iS LIFE its just how it meant to be ....how it chose to be....and im gonna ride this muthafuckinng waves knowing there is no brigther tomorrow....who ever thinking about killing him self its not worth it .....think of those who loved you when you refused to love your self.....they should matter to you
If you knew anything about her, you would know that Lee loved with a heart so big, that everyone thought that Lee was their best friend. She cared deeply for those around her. She loved so big that when I found out the news my heart burst in sadness, and I didn't even know her. Mental illness doesn't always allow you to see the bigger picture. To know that there are brighter days ahead. She fought, and fought and made sure not to hold in this sadness. She was vocal about it and doing everything she was told to do. She went on a beautiful swim with her boyfriend right before this and was all full of smiles. Its hard to say what went through her head as she chose to end it all,, but mental illness skews ones thoughts. I send you lots of love and light.
Jennifer Nigure. I agree. I quit social media years ago. I hate it. Too much me me me. YT...that’s it now. Some of these so called influencers are ego driven. Maybe she wasn’t doing what she wanted for herself...maybe she was doing what she thought her millions of “friends” wanted to watch and live vicariously. 🤷♀️ I don’t know. It’s sad. Jesus is probably sad too. 😢💔🙏
I agree with you. People put too much stock in their followers and ratings. Even on Facebook I know people struggle with that when they don’t get a large following or someone says something that isn’t nice. Those relationships are not real relationships and I think it makes it harder to deal with genuine relationships when there is real trouble brewing emotionally. We lose our skills, as a people, when they aren’t used as much. Deep and personal in person relationships require totally different skills and energy levels than online relationships. We all tend to present the better part of ourselves. I know people online that are totally different than the real individual I know. It is almost a human trait to put that best person or super woman image forward from the normal everyday person that you know and deal with.
So sad. My heart goes out to all who considered her a friend. Having struggled with depression for decades, I understand her despair and am sad that she was alone when it was the darkest. RIP, Lee
This is so sad, this is truly breaking my heart how this young woman killed herself because of being in depression. Please if there is anyone who has depression, please go to the hospital and check your thyroid. A dysfunctional thyroid leads to depression in which I suffered for 26 years of my life. I don’t believe that anyone who is in depression should ever commit suicide at any age. I fought for years in depression and I found the problem in which was me having low thyroidism and having the friends and family that was bringing there drama and there problems into my life. From 1986 to 2012 I suffered severely with depression and I hung in there. The first thing I did was I got rid of all the people who were contributing to my depression was I stopped arguing with them, bought 2 new suit cases and packed up my things and left the rest behind. Then I went and got a furnished room, I decorated it with pictures of nature, like boats, trees, animals. I threw out all of my family and friends pictures in the garbage. I then change my full name. Then in the year 2000 my father manipulated me into him moving in with me into our own apartment. then he was mentally abusing me by yelling at me, he wasn’t giving me his share of the rent, so I packed up and left again and moved into a small furnished room. Soon after that my father passed away in 2002. Then 4 years later I fell in love got married in 2006. Then 6 years later after experiencing chest pains, I went to the hospital and got some blood work done and found out that I have low thyroidism. From there once I was given Levothyroxine, that one tiny pill took me out of 26 years of depression and it not only took away my depression, but also it took away all of my anxiety and the chest pains that I was having. I found out that my late mother also had low thyroidism in which is hereditary. If your parents are still alive ask them what illnesses they have so you can get yourselves checked earlier by a doctor, the better.
"They ask you how you are and you just have to say that you're fine, but you're not really fine, you just can't get into it because they would never understand" LITERALLY ME EVERY WAKING MOMENT
I support her choice. I’m happy she got to make the autonomous decision. For many of us, there is no hope or light at the end of the tunnel. Rest In Peace girly
@@murtithinker7660 who said she got a lot of money ..she was decent not poor not rich.. She didnt even make her dream to have a million subs...she left her boyfriend ...she didnt find her purpose in life .. and she got tired from fixing her van and doing handsjobs..and a lot of problems that we may not know.
There are times I want to sleep forever. My anxiety and depression is awful..stems from childhood trauma and unresolved dreams on what my life should be. I self harm by biting my nails deep, there’s insomnia and low self esteem. I don’t particularly fit in, I was told that I was in my own world as a child because I’d get lost in books and caring for pets. This was a result of us 4 girls father being a very violent drunk who regularly beat up our loving, gentle mother from when she carried us all in the womb. Navigating life is hard for an average educated black woman so I decided I would marry and only have one child to raise in this tumultuous world. I’ve had very ugly times in life and equally special, tender, peaceful moments...but childhood trauma has done it’s damage in my adult life. I try my best to persevere but it’s HARD.
1982. Chico, California. I drove past a suicide just a few seconds after a teenage boy jumped in front of a logging truck. Very little remained of the child. . The truck driver was laying on the side of the road, curled-up and sobbing... other drivers kneeling by him while trying to comfort him. . I think involving innocent others in your suicide is the worst kind of self-centeredness.
Its tragic but suicide is a symptom of mental illness not a choice or selfish. Depression changes the way your brain works and constricts your perspective into only seeing one way out. The individual is not thinking clearly, they are not at fault. The disease is. The more people understand that it’s one more step towards erasing the stigma of mental illness and suicide.
Very sad. I tried to commit suicide 30 years ago. but for the grace of God I was found in my car at 6am in the morning with a hose running out of the exhaust of my car into through the window by two guys out exercising their horses. I was rushed to hospital and my life was saved. Thirty years later I have a beautiful wife and three great children. I feel so bad for Lee and her family. If only she could have been saved I'm sure she would have had so much to offer this world.
Not every living being that died on this planet can live another life. There would be too many. It just makes no sense. Religions are an invention that help us to think positive
When I watched her video on the breakup and the van sale and the dog location and leaving Australia to back in canadas winter during a plandemic. I had chills. Lee had clinical depression as well as situational. Was there no doctor care? Was it a reaction to medication because it can give ppl suicidal ideology. Any med needs monitoring and supervision. My sincerest condolences to her family and all her friends. She is at peace with God in paradise. It is the world that will always miss her.
"Storms never last" Too bad there will always be storms, it would be cool if you overcame a storm and then it was all sunshine and rainbows. There will always be another storm to take the place of the one you conquered.
@@ms.congeniality3976 I'm at a point where I don't even care if the storm clears or not. I've overcome many storms in my life both mental and physical. I have just grown tired of these storms, yes I know they will pass but what's the point if another storm will just take it's place. Besides we don't get shit in the end, no matter how many storms we overcome at the end of the day our only reward will be to grow old and die.
@@TheFracturedfuture I know it’s hard -- you have to remain positive! Trust me, I know the feeling of wanting to give up , just don’t! I’ve gone through a lot myself , I’m still here though. It’s sooo much this world has to offer and I’d hate for anybody to miss out on that. I suggest counseling their has to be someone who can understand your pain and heal you.
@@ms.congeniality3976 I'm already 30 and despite all my efforts I can never get what I want. I struggled with anxiety and depression for so many years and just as I was beginning to see the light I got struck with a debilitating chronic illness. If that is life's way of a joke it's not funny and the only way of saying go fuck yourself to life is to kill myself.
I have felt so affected by Lee MacMillan's passing ... I followed her (their) UA-cam channel re "Max & Lee + Occy" and thought what an idyllic life they had painstakingly carved out for themselves and their beloved dog. Thus, I was so surprised when they broke up - and - crestfallen when I heard of the reason that took her life in Santa Barbara ... she had so many attributes and marvelous things going for her + youth, beauty, wanderlust & a warm heart --- it's really a tragedy ... Soar on beautiful Lee - your spirit has been set free ~ 💖
You heard of the reason that she took life in Santa Barbara? They didn't mention anything here, do you mean her depression? If you mean her mental illness because she always looked so happy, that's exactly something to watch out for, they fight with it mostly on their own and keep it to themselves, that's why they often selfharm, the pain is unbearable ...so so sad ...RIP LEE
Mental Illness does not discriminate. You can be any age, gender, race, you can be rich, poor, have a good childhood or bad, trauma or no trauma, it doesn't matter.
God bless her family. I'm 45 and been battling depression and anxiety since I was 19. It's been hell and I'm not getting better. I know how she feels but hate that she is gone. I know the pain from depression, it's like living in the dark all the time. Soo sad!
@SARA I'm soo sorry, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. I want to get better soo bad but been through tramatic events in my life and it won't get out of my head, even with medication. I hope you get better with yours, I been trying for yrs and trying to get stronger.
Hope someone investigates the cyberbullying she experienced. She was open and honest about her mental and physical health and asked the person to stop the harassment, but he escalated judged her, blamed her for the wrong steps she had taken in her life - all for the love of money and views. Cyber bullying is never ok, get a talent, learn a skill instead of being a vampire making your money off of trashing others.
just a question....what if she DID do it for money, and DID take some wrong steps.....what if she was NOT totally honest about some aspects of her youtube life. Is someone who points this out guilth of CYBERBULLYING.....or just setting the record straight for those interested?
first of all, its her channel and her life. she can make money off it and she can tell her stories true or false, it's her voice. what is upsetting is someone who makes money only off of others pain, being negatively judgmental, putting them down when you know the other person is hurting and telling you to stop it. appears that is the only way he can get more views and make money is by roasting others. i hope he has learned his lesson. i am on the outside looking in, i dont know the whole story, but her loss hurts. she was liked, she seemed so young, capable and full of light and i enjoyed her channels. peace to her and her loved ones.
He should be charged. Wasn't even 2 weeks ago I made comments about his damn channel. But he has many followers who act, and agree, make comments in the same regard on his videos. They are also to blame n she isn't the only one he does it too. How many ppl do we not know about offine that he does this too.
My brother committed suicide by jumping off a building. It was devastating to me that l had to write a book about suicide as it is totally contrary or opposite to the human spirit of survival. We are designed to survive, to be resilient, survival of the fittest type of thing so when someone intentionally takes his own life, it is difficult to comprehend. But one thing l discovered in my research which l can guarantee would also be applicable in this case as to the cause of suicide, which is the following. She like my brother most probably came from a very unhappy and indeed very stressful childhood where she lacked the love and care and affection a child needs to grow up into a normal happy adult. People who travel around alot is indicative of someone searching or looking for happiness and love. In fact they don't even know what they are looking for because they have never experienced it before but nevertheless keep searching, travelling the world in search of something to take away the pain and emptiness. And finally they become so tired and exhausted of running that they finally snap to just end the pain by taking their own lives. For many years l blamed myself for not doing enough to have noticed my brother's depression and to do more and l would have done anything on earth just to have him back, even sweeping the streets for the rest of my life, l would gladly do it. But the older l get l realise that my brother is in a far better place with God in His eternal resting place. I look forward to see him again.
So important, it’s been a tough year for many, get help if you feel depressed, therapy and/or medication may be just what you need to survive the bad feeling times, till you come out the other side to looking forward to each day.
no she did not. Her brains saratonin levels dropped to record holes. The mood part of the brain was going into solitary containment mode. Imagine being in a prison cell with no light and no contact with the outside world.
i cannot cannot cannot believe it. She was so beautiful and she always seemed to be so happy in her videos. I feel so so bad for her and for her family. My God what a waste. Such a kind, compassionate soul. May her pain now be gone and may heaven really exist because she deserves to be happy.
Chemical imbalance is the term they used in 80's and 90's, and thank god, they don't anymore. It didn't make sense then, and still doesn't, as in no one can measure "chemicals" in your brain, to see if they're balanced or not. No one really knows why some people who seemly have everything are depressed. Nevertheless this's so sad, she was so young.
I was in a car accident and my girlfriend died from her injuries I’ve been thinking of taking my life everyday…. Life is amazing and such a beautiful thing but after losing my mom now Shannon…. It’s become such a dark and lonely experience….. it’s starts to seem pointless….. I just wish the pain could stop….
Depression hurts EVERYWHERE. Mentally, physically emotionally. I've had several suicide attempts. If I can push a button (like so many) I would. Dark hole is lonely scary and at points endless. RIP to her and everyone else struggling with modern day crown of thorns.
@@BangersTheBraeds it is expected when more and more people are being told to "pursue personal happiness". They leave their families, friends and all other personal relationships to pursue personal happiness. You cannot pursue happiness!
kap849 I agree. Happiness is fleeting - comes and goes, as does traveling and any other adrenaline rushes. They are only temporary solutions. Lee spoke in her video on depression about going to different places and developing different relationships. It it always came back - the depression - because it was part of her. I thought it sounded chronic and had been a part of her for longer than people think. Running and trying to get away from things or changing scenery (traveling) does not take care of problems like that. Taking the bull by the horns and jumping into it to deal with it and work through it is the only way. Sometimes we have to do that journey with a lot of help and inpatient if we feel we will hurt ourselves. I did that years ago and it helped me tremendously. Tremendously.
This is truly sad for her love ones to deal with and the train conductor for having to witness and live with the anguish of what transpired. May she RIP.
Oh, baby girl!! You had so much more to live for. Depression sucks and some days it's hard, but life is beautiful and it is so worth to live. My heart goes out to her family. This is tragic!!
This is so sad. She appeared to have what many could only dream of having. I sometimes wonder how different my life would be if I choose to pursue an acting career. I knew in my heart, I just couldn't handle the constant rejection and criticism that comes with working in the limelight. It's a shame that people can't pursue their dream career without having others constantly judging them and putting them down constantly. I hope she RIP and people just stop saying nasty stuff to people they don't even know.
@Tom Johanson your right I don't know why she did what she did, but I know many people are severely bullied on social media. I have had friends quit because they couldn't t handle the constant bullying.
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This REALLLLY changes my perspective on depression and kinda scares me. You look at people who have it all and not sure how much they’re hurting inside...
I think Lee's death shocked so very many people. Lee was an amazing person. She was so open about her battles with depression and trying to educate and help those with similar feelings. She was also open about the vicious cyberbullying she received. She will be so very badly missed. My heart is with her friends and family. If anyone is thinking they have nothing to live for - there are people who will be so very devastated to lose you. Please hold on for them as long as it takes.
When ppl say they are battling depression and feel like ending their life, whoever they are, dont tell them they are lying. Anyone can feel depressed no matter how rich or poor, famous or not, married to a prince or a pauper.
this is so sad .. I didn't know her but I can only imagine how bad it must have gotten for her to take it this far .. and as I was going through her content I was very surprised to see that she was very open about her journey and yet she was still falling deeper into the darkness .. it's painful to see - to be quite honest .. to think that someone can be in a good environment, surrounded with people who care for them and still feel alone and worthless .. and regardless of the help she was getting, there was still something missing in her life that she couldn't reach her place of peace in this world .. I am very sorry to hear of her passing and I really hope that if anyone else out there is in the same position .. you take the time to heal - to find that true healing and realise that if you were not necessary, you wouldn't even be in this world to begin with .. it's absolutely heartbreaking to think that someone can believe that .. the ONE REASON you are in this world is because you were absolutely necessary to bring healing and peace in this world and if you are not in it .. that function in life will be missing along with you - stay strong and don't let anyone stand in the way of your strength and keep on fighting the good fight of faith .. you are not alone love and you will overcome 💙✨ MAY THE LORD BE WITH US ALL
The only reason we are in this world is to fuck and reproduce, there is no other purpose. If you aren't fit to reproduce nature will just get rid of your genes Nature doesn't give a shit about your purpose. Go out into the wild and see how fast nature will kill you, our only purpose is to survive and reproduce, everything else is just made by man so they wouldn't feel so shitty.
@@TheFracturedfuture Reproduction is definitely a part of life, but is truly only a fraction of our true purpose...We were given bodies, aka meat puppets to house our soulful spirits...The true purpose of our lives is for our spiritual evolution...Sorry you seem to be so stuck in the physical realm, and are not feeling connected or experiencing the spiritual journey...btw, I chose not to reproduce, and still know that I have a purpose !
@@susansimmons5702 The supposed spiritual path is subjective, that's why there are so many religions. It's really hard to say if there's even a spirit, it's all based on theories at this point. On the contrary reproduction is not shrouded in mystery, people feel horny, they have sex and then a baby is born, that simple. Nobody teaches people that they need to reproduce it's an instinct while spirituality is taught. If you grew up in the jungle you wouldn't believe what you do now but I bet your body would still want to reproduce.
@@TheFracturedfuture I can appreciate your stance, though through my own experiences, i.e. near death, and spiritual, and mystical phenomenon, etc. I have had too many numerous experiences, which have only validated the existence of spirit, aka as our light body, soul, spirit...as for me, there is no doubt that we all have light bodies, etc. whether some are aware of the presence of their ethereal form or not, I feel, depends on how tapped in one is to the "God" source...just my view from my own experiences...Also, most tribal societies, many of whom still live in the "jungle" are very connected to their spiritual lives, can you say, Ayahuasca ?
@@susansimmons5702 I can say the same about my experiences. Nothing points to there being anything other than our brains trying to interpret what it can't comprehend. I don't think taking drugs and seeing weird shit qualifies as there being a spiritual realm. My question is, why is it always so hard to prove the existence of gods, spirits, ghosts and all other supernatural phenomenon? If such things existed wouldn't they be more apparent and easier to prove. It always seems like things of that nature are always conveniently shrouded in mystery and the only evidence is a persons testimony.
I still get shocked when I see those who commit suicide but appear to have it all but they still can't help it. She's at the ultimate peace now. It scares me because I have been this way all my life but I'm still here and doing better then I ever thought but I always wonder when will it stop. Hopefully I can go to Belgium or Switzerland for a painless end when the time comes. She didn't have to go like that.
I went through depression and suicide for 10 years, after realizing my true operant power and flowing into my spiritual journey I am finally at a place of complete harmony peace and love. I really want to help others get out of this mindset as well, you are much needed on this earth and I really want to shine the light on anybody’s situation if you are going through anything. You are loved and your presence makes a difference here. Stay strong 💗
RIP beautiful girl, I cant even imagine the darkness and helplessness you must've felt in that moment to bring you to that decision. Does anyone know if she was on any anti-depression Meds? This is from personal experience, some of these so called anti-depression meds and companies make things even worse, and they know it, and they need to be held accountable.
Yeah Lee recently stated in an interview on the Eamon and Bec podcast that she was on anti-depressants. Thank you for bringing this up. So many people are glazing over the fact that suicidal thougts are actually a side effect of anti-depressants. They cause the brain to go haywire and send chaotic signals to neurons and the body. Their damaging effects have to be talked about more and taken seriously. I hear of many people that either became suicidal or chronically ill from anti-depressants. Pharmaceuticals can be super hamrful because of their intense chemical compositions. While it's important to speak up for Lee as this is so devasting. It is also important to bring awareness to how manu lives have been ruined from pharmaceuticals. True holisitic natural healing of the body, mind and soul is key to wellness and happiness
@@abstractswirls Does it depend on the anti-depressant medication? I've had bouts of depression since 2008 that lasted about 10 yrs. I was prescribed meds & only took it for 2 weeks because I had side effects so I stopped taking it. I would cry a lot and it's mostly mind over matter. I personally had depression due to a past relationship. Someone with depression shouldn't be left alone with their own thoughts. Take care, everyone. I send my love & healing thoughts to her family and friends.
I thought about this too. I’ve read they can actually make you more suicidal. She had gotten off her antidepressants that she was taking last year. She did start taking new antidepressants 1 week before she ended her life.
I'm so numb i loved it when I got the notification she was going live she would always help me when I was feeling so depressed I hated life and I still wouldn't care if I died tomorrow im not having suicide thoughts but just don't care about life she cheered me up she always kepted me smiling now that's gunna be over for me
My heart truly breaks for this bright young woman. What a gorgeous soul, and such a tragic end to a beautiful story. I'm deeply saddened and affected by her suicide. A reminder that we never know what battles other people are fighting internally.
This is tragic. I never saw any of her videos before, but it is always tragic to hear that someone felt hopeless enough to take their own life. Just heartbreaking
@@dantecastalano8088 don't be such a coward Dante. There are better ways to conceal your weakness and cowardice than writing comments like that to show you're a tough guy, because you come off as another annoying child. How many slaps would it take to put you back into shape so you behave yourself like a man rather than a scared little edgy wimp nerd?
Lee apparently only started to experience depression in 2018....it seemed to come out of nowhere, as it often does... she had periods of feeling better but despite therapy, medication and lots of love and support, she lost her battle 😔 I believe there was some fairly ugly cyber bullying happening as well. Please be kind.... please 🙏
@@lorrainea.285 The term is contrived by the cabal. People are content creators and NO, it's not ridiculous. Maybe when people try to present a false image. I don't know about her or her channel but there are many channels that are positive and constructive, including my main channel.
These companies that sponsor them are also part of this problem/culture their bottom line is it's a potential for them to make money so they perpetuate these "Influencers" to live this always on in your face recording everything lifestyle 🤦🏾♀️.
So sad, we are losing way to many people that still have suo much more life to live. Wish the best for her family and may she for ever rest in paradise.
So sad, what a beautiful, young, influential girl. I’m sending my thoughts and prayers to her family and loved ones. May God be with you all! #RIPLEE #MENTALHEALTH #YOURNOTALONE
People don’t understand how People who have Manic Depressive Disorder feel. I myself live with it everyday on top of chronic pain syndrome, 2 sever back and neck injuries. Doctors think giving us medication will help. It’s just a bandage, may she sleep in heaven, free from her pain. She was a beautiful person inside out!
@@scoobymc3375 Jesus saved me and took away my depression. He can do the same for you. We are spirit beings, that have a soul and live in a body. Once your spirit is healed, your soul can be healed to. Please give Jesus a try, ask Him to help you.
Omg. I am so shocked to learn of her death. I met @maxandlee at their first ever social meet-up in California. Both of them were so cool and down to earth. Lee was beautiful inside and out. She had the nicest vibe...so humble and sweet. I can't believe it. This is so sad.
@@akimcrump6827 we are all sinners. Do u not sin? We are designed to sin. The only human being(on earth) who is infallible is Jesus. Are you Jesus? Chances are, u are not him. So that means you are a sinner like the rest of us. So may I ask why u point out the speck in her eye when u have a log in yours? (Bible quote). Question is, why do sinners point out other peoples sins when they have their own sins to worry about?
Stories like this can exacerbate depression bc you realize you can be open and seek treatment .. have amazing experiences in pockets of the world some of us can't even imagine, have money and loved ones but you will never escape the grip of this ugly thing that will never let you enjoy any of it .. makes me think of Anthony Bourdain
In the name of Jesus we have to pray for the lord to break these chains of depression and the grip this spirit of death and suicide has on so many young people. The power of God is more powerful than the power of the lies of the enemy I believe and declare that God will cause healing and a breaking of chains in the hearts of all suffering through depression and anxiety. He liberated me from years of depression and suicidal thoughts and I know he will do the same for everyone who believes in his power 🙏 God bless
Omg! This is awful I am saddened to hear that she took her life. She was beautiful, my God, my God, my God! Wow! So many words and feelings going thru me about this. My deepest condolence
Most people in poverty don’t think this way because they are to focused on just trying to survive the next day with work and bills and taking care of their families. Being rich and Privileged sometimes doesn’t mean happiness I guess
She was also plagued by cyberbullying on her youtube channel. That facilitated her worsening depression. There is a gofundme in Lee's honor to STOP CYBERBULLYING.
@@JasonHauser125 My guess is that you are correct, beautiful and had abetter life. I don't really know. I have a friend who has a channel, she is middle aged and talks about being a mom and being frugal. She gets bullied. Some people are just mean. But the truth of the matter is my friend is a happy, uplifting person and it still hurts her when she gets bullied on her channel. I tell her to let it roll off her back, easier said than done.
3 young girls I know around this age or in their 30's, one of which was a good friend, committed suicide in the last month. All of them bright, beautiful, smart just like Lee.
You really would have to be suicidal to jump in front of a train. Nasty, selfish way to go..not caring about the feelings of the person driving that train and not caring about how your body will end up.
@Campervan Beethoven I've been taking it for about 8 weeks and haven't noticed any changes.. it took a while to start feeling the benefits.. I might take a break from it eventually in order to cycle it if I get scared it will start to plateau..
@Campervan Beethoven I do understand.. it definitely gets burdensome at times bc I take a lot of supplements and it gets to be a bit much.. but I look at it in a positive light bc it could be worse.. I was once on a lot of prescription drugs and the side effects were killer.. so at least what I take now is natural.. we are bombarded with toxins daily (air, water, food, etc), so at least there is something available to take the edge off.. bonus is I don't have to beg doctors for it..
@Campervan Beethoven outside of supplements, my anxiety took a nosedive once I eliminated foods and drinks that aggravated it.. do you notice any triggers from your diet? I got allergy tested years ago and that helped SO MUCH.. my stomach used to literally jitter ALL THE TIME 😩 but it's finally calm now.. the Ashwagandha just adds to the calm.. especially helps calm my mind from going into overdrive.. just sharing..
@Campervan Beethoven yes, I am similar.. I was always in and out of GI doctors offices years ago.. my stomach was a wreck! reflux can absolutely cause the worse anxiety symptoms.. I always thought I was on the verge of dying at such a young age.. gluten can trigger, as well as acidic foods like citrus and tomato products, or raw onions and garlic.. I also try to stay away from caffeinated drinks.. or if I do indulge, I just know to be prepared for the racing heart and jitters.. I'm glad the herbs do help! at least it's not harmful to take while doing more research to get to the bottom of things.. hopefully someday nothing extra will be needed.. but that's unlikely considering we don't get full nourishment from our foods anymore.. speaking of, vitamin D3 levels make a difference in mental health.. I do take high dosage and sit in sunlight for at least 30 mins daily.. have you had your levels tested lately? definitely can make a huge difference..
How does a girl like that take her life in such a violent way. It makes no sense. Were there witnesses? Why would they feel she might have been suicidal? Just because someone says they are doesn't mean they would just wander off, leaving their keys and all behind, and step in front of train without writing a note or leaving something behind for her loved ones. It just doesn't make sense.
if your friends say they're not okay, take it seriously
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Please , take it seriously...... before it’s too late 😞.
Yeah but it's hard to have those type of friends you mostly get the ones that say what do you have to be depressed about or just don't think about it and especially if you wanted tondo it you would of already done it there for stop complaining so i no longer say anything just stay away now sucks but yeah 🙁
@@ShadowTheGhozt That’s true! Some people just aren’t good friends . And it’s disheartening to know ( and to experience it) , just don’t let it fester. This isn’t everyone ; there’s people in our world who make better friends than a family member would. Stay positive-- you’ll get through this!
You should, but 8/10 they don't :(
Social media is so depressing man, all smoke and mirrors. everyone putting on a mask.
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Absolutely agreed!!!
Very well said !
I dont think she was smoke and mirrors. I followed her for a few years & people were constantly criticizing & blaming her when her & her bf broke up. People were saying awful things about her & even making mean videos about her. I know we shouldn't pay attention to that stuff but it's easier said than done when you're in the limelight.
Sad to see this. She traveled the world seen the most beautiful places and still was not happy with life. Pretty sad. We never know what others go through in life. We definitely need the love and support of others to make it through.
If you deepen your thought, you could also ask: Why did she travelled all over the world in the most beautiful places? Maybe because of her depression? She thought she would get rid of her depression by taking extraordinary trips in the most beautiful places on earth. Except it doesn't work this way. Depression is a very complex illness that is difficult for us to understand.
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@@davhos3408 Yes, but at least she had this opportunity. She had the freedom and means to fill her days with something beautiful. Many suffer the same and have to spend their time alone in the flat or doing the job they hate.
Sad many are deceasing young and old never know what people deal with everyday
@@davhos3408 Depression is very difficult to understand maybe traveling to beautiful places was an escape from her depression still hurts though.
“It’s not that I wanted to die just being awake was harder” that hits hard.
Hits home for me
@@agceh hope you're ok 👍
Stay strong ❤ 🤍 💙
@@agceh hey if you need someone to talk to or just listen to you, i am here. Take care!
*I know what she mean by that!!*
This is beyond tragic and heartbreaking but please please please do not jump in front of trains. My grandfather conducted a train that hit a young man commiting suicide and he never got over it. It is really traumatizing.
it's a selfish way to go bc it involves other people yet the person is so consumed with self that they don't consider those consequences.. if you want to go, do it in a way that doesn't involve others at all.. this is just so sad all around ♥️
Unfortunately my cousin did the same thing in 2001 in Southern California ✝️
@@victoriarose1315 I'm so very sorry ❤️
@@victoriarose1315 I'm so sorry to hear! I hope your family is coping well and you have all the support you need ♥️
I work at a union pacific train yard in southern california... every few months it happens 😐
You never know when someone's on their last attempt at living. Be kind to people. It's not difficult.
Depression is real. Please know you are loved more than you will ever know. Depression lies to you. Happiness is the truth. Never give up my friends. You make this world brighter and happier with you in it. Just take one step at a time,one progress at a time. Help is there . Please talk to someone you trust. ❤️.
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Yesssss depression lies to you! Well said!
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@@ahill4642 Thank you 🙏🏽
Thanks I needed this.
If anyone is struggling and reading this, sweetheart, you are beautiful, you're not a burden. Your life matters, whatever it is will get better. I'm so glad you're here, and I want you to stay 💕
You are very kind
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I am a depressed single mum who recently lost my job. I look at women like this and think they have it all. It really goes to show we have no idea very sad. Sleep tight beautiful girl ❤️ no more suffering now 💗
Right?? Like she looked like she had it all. I’m depressed too and would never think someone like this could be worse off than me. She had a partner a successful career and a beautiful face and body, you would never think she would do something so violent toward herself
Hang in there mama your boys are beautiful and it seems you're a really good mother I just subscribed to your channel. Don't look up to influencers and celebrities because their life is no didn't than ours other than they have more money. Money is not going to buy you peace, health, happiness or the love that your children have for you. ❤️
@@naz1472 Very Well Said ...
Hope you are okay, take small steps to take care of yourself and do the things you need to do to problem solve each day, no matter how small,it will build up and build your motivation
Praying for you. I hope you get the help you need
Here’s what I have learned after living with major depression and then anxiety in combo. It took a long time . And when
Use suicide as a way out , you have ended your chance of it changing even conquering it. If you are a perfectionist as I was you learn to say no. And if someone makes you feel quilty about that I hope you have someone who loves you so much that they will stand up to those that shame you and take away that quilt. My first episode I was 15 . If any of you are parents, just think about the immense pain and confusion you will leave your children with . Even if they are not the one who finds you. It’s the cruelest. So if you keep having thoughts,
keep getting help . Be strong for yourself and them . I am so sorry for everyone’s loss. You are not alone . Peace&Love
It's all pointless in the end anyways. Your not going to be rewarded for being brave and facing your fears, you will grow old then die like everything else.
If you want to keep fighting this pointless battle then that's great, more power to you, not everyone wants to though.
@@TheFracturedfuture We can end the battle whenever we want. Do what you like and stop hiding depression. Let people see how depressed you are. Who cares, i don't care anymore what people think
@@fritzfromswitzerland Depression and anxiety are nothing, I have been fighting them for ten years. But now as a reward I have a chronic illness and that's where I draw the line.
It's one thing to battle your mind but add a physical ailment and it's to much for me to bear.
@@TheFracturedfuture I don't want to give wrong advices but, in that case my salvation would be nature. If you love nature it's a big plus. There is soo much to explore and enjoy 😉
@@fritzfromswitzerland I have chronic fatigue syndrome I get tired by any little thing I do, no amount of nature can take that away, I can't explore because I'm always so tired. Every single day is a fucking nightmare.
I struggle with severe depression, anorexia and G.A.D and when you're in such dark hole its so hard to see the way out. Im glad I was able to see the other side on time but so many people dont get the chance to do so.
Please dont judge what you can't understand.
Sending love and light to anyone struggling. You are not alone.
Its so sad she took her life depression and anxiety is no joke im going through the same thing .everybody need good supportive friends in their lifes
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So sorry Rashonne that you are experiencing Anxiety and Depression. Sorry that you are suffering.
Yes the love and support of good friends is important.
Highly recommend 'The Medical Medium Anthony William'. He has protocols that are life changing and life saving for Anxiety and Depression. And so much more. That actually work!!!
The Medical Medium Anthony William has books, podcasts, UA-cam channel etc.
And one of the podcasts is on Anxiety.
Remember also to be kind and compassionate with yourself and take good care of yourself.
In Peace,
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Get all the help you can if you feel suicidal, this past year of restrictions difficult for many people, this has ripple effect on many, train crew, family, friends, lovers etc. condolences to all, you are not to blame.
Prayers go out to you. I pray against all depression, anxiety, suicide etc in the name of Jesus! Know that your life matters and no matter how hard life may seem, there isn't a problem that is a problem for God! God can & he will fix it! Trust in the Lord!! God bless you ❤
This is so sad what a beautiful woman. I praying for everyone with depression. God loves you
If your feeling depressed And/or suicidal just remember we Spend a lot more time dead then we do alive so lets make the best of it
somebody loves you
My guess is that you've never been really depressed. It's not a choice so thinking about happy moment doesn't do anything. What does is realizing that you can't do it yourself and get some professional help.
When people say "You are not alone," they're lying. This person had to die alone. She probably couldn't find anyone to be supportive of her decision.
RIP to Lee and condolences to her family, thoughts to the train driver 😞
Yes, we often forget that, the PSTD that may cause the driver & crew, even though they are not at fault
Prayers for all of them. I would imagine that poor train driver will never lose that image of her through his window...terrible. 😭
As someone who was born with chronique depression....someone who don't know what being happy is...i found this selfish....im 29 years old and i think of not death in praticular but ending my pain every day since my young age ....i refuse to break my mother heart i refuse to be burried by my mother i refuse to let her down....i don't give a fuck about happiness and good times and love and dreams i dont give a fuck about neither my past or my future....im fighting and i will fight making my self believe that there is no other option.....this iS LIFE its just how it meant to be ....how it chose to be....and im gonna ride this muthafuckinng waves knowing there is no brigther tomorrow....who ever thinking about killing him self its not worth it .....think of those who loved you when you refused to love your self.....they should matter to you
Well said. This life aint easy. We all have to struggle through it. Faith, relationship and prayer to God really helps.
@Tom Johanson Anger is part of grief. Just know that no judgement offers you peace and serenity.
If you knew anything about her, you would know that Lee loved with a heart so big, that everyone thought that Lee was their best friend. She cared deeply for those around her. She loved so big that when I found out the news my heart burst in sadness, and I didn't even know her. Mental illness doesn't always allow you to see the bigger picture. To know that there are brighter days ahead. She fought, and fought and made sure not to hold in this sadness. She was vocal about it and doing everything she was told to do. She went on a beautiful swim with her boyfriend right before this and was all full of smiles. Its hard to say what went through her head as she chose to end it all,, but mental illness skews ones thoughts. I send you lots of love and light.
Depression can Hide within Anybody, this is Truly Sad and Heartbreaking!
Personally I think we need to start spending less time in our "online world" and get back to more regular face to face interaction.
Jennifer Nigure. I agree. I quit social media years ago. I hate it. Too much me me me. YT...that’s it now. Some of these so called influencers are ego driven. Maybe she wasn’t doing what she wanted for herself...maybe she was doing what she thought her millions of “friends” wanted to watch and live vicariously. 🤷♀️ I don’t know. It’s sad. Jesus is probably sad too. 😢💔🙏
I agree with you. People put too much stock in their followers and ratings. Even on Facebook I know people struggle with that when they don’t get a large following or someone says something that isn’t nice. Those relationships are not real relationships and I think it makes it harder to deal with genuine relationships when there is real trouble brewing emotionally. We lose our skills, as a people, when they aren’t used as much. Deep and personal in person relationships require totally different skills and energy levels than online relationships. We all tend to present the better part of ourselves. I know people online that are totally different than the real individual I know. It is almost a human trait to put that best person or super woman image forward from the normal everyday person that you know and deal with.
Social media is make believe world. Better to keep oneself in the real world.
and get regular jobs... and quit scamming the simps of the world.
So sad. My heart goes out to all who considered her a friend. Having struggled with depression for decades, I understand her despair and am sad that she was alone when it was the darkest. RIP, Lee
This is so sad, this is truly breaking my heart how this young woman killed herself because of being in depression. Please if there is anyone who has depression, please go to the hospital and check your thyroid. A dysfunctional thyroid leads to depression in which I suffered for 26 years of my life. I don’t believe that anyone who is in depression should ever commit suicide at any age. I fought for years in depression and I found the problem in which was me having low thyroidism and having the friends and family that was bringing there drama and there problems into my life. From 1986 to 2012 I suffered severely with depression and I hung in there. The first thing I did was I got rid of all the people who were contributing to my depression was I stopped arguing with them, bought 2 new suit cases and packed up my things and left the rest behind. Then I went and got a furnished room, I decorated it with pictures of nature, like boats, trees, animals. I threw out all of my family and friends pictures in the garbage. I then change my full name. Then in the year 2000 my father manipulated me into him moving in with me into our own apartment. then he was mentally abusing me by yelling at me, he wasn’t giving me his share of the rent, so I packed up and left again and moved into a small furnished room. Soon after that my father passed away in 2002. Then 4 years later I fell in love got married in 2006. Then 6 years later after experiencing chest pains, I went to the hospital and got some blood work done and found out that I have low thyroidism. From there once I was given Levothyroxine, that one tiny pill took me out of 26 years of depression and it not only took away my depression, but also it took away all of my anxiety and the chest pains that I was having. I found out that my late mother also had low thyroidism in which is hereditary. If your parents are still alive ask them what illnesses they have so you can get yourselves checked earlier by a doctor, the better.
"They ask you how you are and you just have to say that you're fine, but you're not really fine, you just can't get into it because they would never understand"
LITERALLY ME EVERY WAKING MOMENT
you're not alone.. just keep holding on ♥️
Hang in there.
Read the Bible . New Testament.
Start with Luke and so on...
a rainbow never comes before a storm
Yeah that's a katy perry quote and it has become a meme
I support her choice. I’m happy she got to make the autonomous decision. For many of us, there is no hope or light at the end of the tunnel. Rest In Peace girly
Just goes to show that money and living in luxury doesn't always make you happy. Rest easy girl. I feel your pain.
It was fake just like most "influencers" are. You can glamorize dumpster diving on video.
What makes one happy? Don't say kids and spouses, because many who have those have also committed suicide.
@@murtithinker7660 who said she got a lot of money ..she was decent not poor not rich.. She didnt even make her dream to have a million subs...she left her boyfriend ...she didnt find her purpose in life .. and she got tired from fixing her van and doing handsjobs..and a lot of problems that we may not know.
There are times I want to sleep forever. My anxiety and depression is awful..stems from childhood trauma and unresolved dreams on what my life should be. I self harm by biting my nails deep, there’s insomnia and low self esteem. I don’t particularly fit in, I was told that I was in my own world as a child because I’d get lost in books and caring for pets. This was a result of us 4 girls father being a very violent drunk who regularly beat up our loving, gentle mother from when she carried us all in the womb. Navigating life is hard for an average educated black woman so I decided I would marry and only have one child to raise in this tumultuous world. I’ve had very ugly times in life and equally special, tender, peaceful moments...but childhood trauma has done it’s damage in my adult life. I try my best to persevere but it’s HARD.
Keep staying strong Cheron❤
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Chico, California.
I drove past a suicide just a few seconds after a teenage boy jumped in front of a logging truck.
Very little remained of the child.
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The truck driver was laying on the side of the road, curled-up and sobbing... other drivers kneeling by him while trying to comfort him.
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I think involving innocent others in your suicide is the worst kind of self-centeredness.
Its tragic but suicide is a symptom of mental illness not a choice or selfish. Depression changes the way your brain works and constricts your perspective into only seeing one way out. The individual is not thinking clearly, they are not at fault. The disease is. The more people understand that it’s one more step towards erasing the stigma of mental illness and suicide.
Very sad. I tried to commit suicide 30 years ago. but for the grace of God I was found in my car at 6am in the morning with a hose running out of the exhaust of my car into through the window by two guys out exercising their horses. I was rushed to hospital and my life was saved.
Thirty years later I have a beautiful wife and three great children. I feel so bad for Lee and her family. If only she could have been saved I'm sure she would have had so much to offer this world.
I hope she finds peace in the next life
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There is no such thing.
Not every living being that died on this planet can live another life. There would be too many. It just makes no sense. Religions are an invention that help us to think positive
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@@TheFracturedfuture to you
When I watched her video on the breakup and the van sale and the dog location and leaving Australia to back in canadas winter during a plandemic. I had chills. Lee had clinical depression as well as situational. Was there no doctor care? Was it a reaction to medication because it can give ppl suicidal ideology. Any med needs monitoring and supervision. My sincerest condolences to her family and all her friends. She is at peace with God in paradise. It is the world that will always miss her.
To all depressed people, please remember that storms never last. Please never give up. ❤️
"Storms never last"
Too bad there will always be storms, it would be cool if you overcame a storm and then it was all sunshine and rainbows. There will always be another storm to take the place of the one you conquered.
Yes! Life can feel discombobulated at times , but don’t give! Every storm is different, but when it clears you’ll be thankful you made it through 🥲.
@@ms.congeniality3976 I'm at a point where I don't even care if the storm clears or not. I've overcome many storms in my life both mental and physical. I have just grown tired of these storms, yes I know they will pass but what's the point if another storm will just take it's place.
Besides we don't get shit in the end, no matter how many storms we overcome at the end of the day our only reward will be to grow old and die.
@@TheFracturedfuture I know it’s hard -- you have to remain positive! Trust me, I know the feeling of wanting to give up , just don’t! I’ve gone through a lot myself , I’m still here though. It’s sooo much this world has to offer and I’d hate for anybody to miss out on that. I suggest counseling their has to be someone who can understand your pain and heal you.
@@ms.congeniality3976 I'm already 30 and despite all my efforts I can never get what I want. I struggled with anxiety and depression for so many years and just as I was beginning to see the light I got struck with a debilitating chronic illness.
If that is life's way of a joke it's not funny and the only way of saying go fuck yourself to life is to kill myself.
I have felt so affected by Lee MacMillan's passing ... I followed her (their) UA-cam channel re "Max & Lee + Occy" and thought what an idyllic life they had painstakingly carved out for themselves and their beloved dog. Thus, I was so surprised when they broke up - and - crestfallen when I heard of the reason that took her life in Santa Barbara ... she had so many attributes and marvelous things going for her + youth, beauty, wanderlust & a warm heart --- it's really a tragedy ... Soar on beautiful Lee - your spirit has been set free ~ 💖
What happend in Santa Barbara? 😣
You heard of the reason that she took life in Santa Barbara? They didn't mention anything here, do you mean her depression? If you mean her mental illness because she always looked so happy, that's exactly something to watch out for, they fight with it mostly on their own and keep it to themselves, that's why they often selfharm, the pain is unbearable ...so so sad ...RIP LEE
Mental Illness does not discriminate. You can be any age, gender, race, you can be rich, poor, have a good childhood or bad, trauma or no trauma, it doesn't matter.
I think mental illness particularly picks on the mentally ill people.
I just got out of hospital for SA and I really felt the way she described how she felt. RIP
God bless her family. I'm 45 and been battling depression and anxiety since I was 19. It's been hell and I'm not getting better. I know how she feels but hate that she is gone. I know the pain from depression, it's like living in the dark all the time. Soo sad!
@SARA I'm soo sorry, I wouldn't wish it upon anyone. I want to get better soo bad but been through tramatic events in my life and it won't get out of my head, even with medication. I hope you get better with yours, I been trying for yrs and trying to get stronger.
@SARA Thanks! I got to learn to deal with my issues, it's hard for me to get over things.
Hope someone investigates the cyberbullying she experienced. She was open and honest about her mental and physical health and asked the person to stop the harassment, but he escalated judged her, blamed her for the wrong steps she had taken in her life - all for the love of money and views. Cyber bullying is never ok, get a talent, learn a skill instead of being a vampire making your money off of trashing others.
just a question....what if she DID do it for money, and DID take some wrong steps.....what if she was NOT totally honest about some aspects of her youtube life. Is someone who points this out guilth of CYBERBULLYING.....or just setting the record straight for those interested?
first of all, its her channel and her life. she can make money off it and she can tell her stories true or false, it's her voice. what is upsetting is someone who makes money only off of others pain, being negatively judgmental, putting them down when you know the other person is hurting and telling you to stop it. appears that is the only way he can get more views and make money is by roasting others. i hope he has learned his lesson.
i am on the outside looking in, i dont know the whole story, but her loss hurts. she was liked, she seemed so young, capable and full of light and i enjoyed her channels. peace to her and her loved ones.
He should be charged. Wasn't even 2 weeks ago I made comments about his damn channel. But he has many followers who act, and agree, make comments in the same regard on his videos. They are also to blame n she isn't the only one he does it too. How many ppl do we not know about offine that he does this too.
My brother committed suicide by jumping off a building. It was devastating to me that l had to write a book about suicide as it is totally contrary or opposite to the human spirit of survival. We are designed to survive, to be resilient, survival of the fittest type of thing so when someone intentionally takes his own life, it is difficult to comprehend.
But one thing l discovered in my research which l can guarantee would also be applicable in this case as to the cause of suicide, which is the following.
She like my brother most probably came from a very unhappy and indeed very stressful childhood where she lacked the love and care and affection a child needs to grow up into a normal happy adult.
People who travel around alot is indicative of someone searching or looking for happiness and love.
In fact they don't even know what they are looking for because they have never experienced it before but nevertheless keep searching, travelling the world in search of something to take away the pain and emptiness.
And finally they become so tired and exhausted of running that they finally snap to just end the pain by taking their own lives.
For many years l blamed myself for not doing enough to have noticed my brother's depression and to do more and l would have done anything on earth just to have him back, even sweeping the streets for the rest of my life, l would gladly do it.
But the older l get l realise that my brother is in a far better place with God in His eternal resting place.
I look forward to see him again.
She went down deep in the rabbit hole and couldn't see the light to get back out. RIP Lee.
What do you mean?
So important, it’s been a tough year for many, get help if you feel depressed, therapy and/or medication may be just what you need to survive the bad feeling times, till you come out the other side to looking forward to each day.
no she did not. Her brains saratonin levels dropped to record holes. The mood part of the brain was going into solitary containment mode. Imagine being in a prison cell with no light and no contact with the outside world.
i cannot cannot cannot believe it. She was so beautiful and she always seemed to be so happy in her videos. I feel so so bad for her and for her family. My God what a waste. Such a kind, compassionate soul. May her pain now be gone and may heaven really exist because she deserves to be happy.
Depression isn't laying around going...whoa im sad. Its a real chemical imbalance that makes you sleepy, emotional, frustrated beyond your control.
It can also be caused by your life situation and be corrected
@@annecaulder9495 yes! High stress levels can throw you out of whack. I always heard slogans like, you can't pour from an empty cup but I GET IT now.
Chemical imbalance is the term they used in 80's and 90's, and thank god, they don't anymore. It didn't make sense then, and still doesn't, as in no one can measure "chemicals" in your brain, to see if they're balanced or not. No one really knows why some people who seemly have everything are depressed. Nevertheless this's so sad, she was so young.
I was in a car accident and my girlfriend died from her injuries I’ve been thinking of taking my life everyday…. Life is amazing and such a beautiful thing but after losing my mom now Shannon…. It’s become such a dark and lonely experience….. it’s starts to seem pointless….. I just wish the pain could stop….
The real "envy" shouldn't be the riches of the world (health) but the envy of those resting in a peaceful afterlife.
@@antdx316 AGREE TO YOU, I HOPE TO DIE SOON TOO I'M SICK OF THIS WORLD.
Depression hurts EVERYWHERE.
Mentally, physically emotionally.
I've had several suicide attempts.
If I can push a button (like so many) I would.
Dark hole is lonely scary and at points endless.
RIP to her and everyone else struggling with modern day crown of thorns.
Everyone is fighting bro ❤ ❤ 🤍
She was speaking in the past tense. But, the thoughts don't just go away. We are losing too many people to this disease. RIP.
The suicide rates are getting higher globally... keeps accelerating
@@BangersTheBraeds it is expected when more and more people are being told to "pursue personal happiness". They leave their families, friends and all other personal relationships to pursue personal happiness.
You cannot pursue happiness!
kap849 I agree. Happiness is fleeting - comes and goes, as does traveling and any other adrenaline rushes. They are only temporary solutions. Lee spoke in her video on depression about going to different places and developing different relationships. It it always came back - the depression - because it was part of her. I thought it sounded chronic and had been a part of her for longer than people think. Running and trying to get away from things or changing scenery (traveling) does not take care of problems like that. Taking the bull by the horns and jumping into it to deal with it and work through it is the only way. Sometimes we have to do that journey with a lot of help and inpatient if we feel we will hurt ourselves. I did that years ago and it helped me tremendously. Tremendously.
@@cheriedewald5282 Thanks a lot for sharing this!
This is truly sad for her love ones to deal with and the train conductor for having to witness and live with the anguish of what transpired. May she RIP.
Oh, baby girl!! You had so much more to live for. Depression sucks and some days it's hard, but life is beautiful and it is so worth to live. My heart goes out to her family. This is tragic!!
Well I think she might not be able to read that message now that her eyesight is completely gone.
This is so sad. She appeared to have what many could only dream of having. I sometimes wonder how different my life would be if I choose to pursue an acting career. I knew in my heart, I just couldn't handle the constant rejection and criticism that comes with working in the limelight. It's a shame that people can't pursue their dream career without having others constantly judging them and putting them down constantly. I hope she RIP and people just stop saying nasty stuff to people they don't even know.
@Tom Johanson your right I don't know why she did what she did, but I know many people are severely bullied on social media. I have had friends quit because they couldn't t handle the constant bullying.
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This REALLLLY changes my perspective on depression and kinda scares me. You look at people who have it all and not sure how much they’re hurting inside...
What a beautiful soul" my heart breaks for her love ones. May her soul rest in peace.
I think Lee's death shocked so very many people. Lee was an amazing person. She was so open about her battles with depression and trying to educate and help those with similar feelings. She was also open about the vicious cyberbullying she received. She will be so very badly missed. My heart is with her friends and family. If anyone is thinking they have nothing to live for - there are people who will be so very devastated to lose you. Please hold on for them as long as it takes.
When ppl say they are battling depression and feel like ending their life, whoever they are, dont tell them they are lying. Anyone can feel depressed no matter how rich or poor, famous or not, married to a prince or a pauper.
THIS IS JUST AWFUL! PRAYERS GO OUT TO HER FRIENDS AND FAMILY!
this is so sad .. I didn't know her but I can only imagine how bad it must have gotten for her to take it this far .. and as I was going through her content I was very surprised to see that she was very open about her journey and yet she was still falling deeper into the darkness .. it's painful to see - to be quite honest .. to think that someone can be in a good environment, surrounded with people who care for them and still feel alone and worthless .. and regardless of the help she was getting, there was still something missing in her life that she couldn't reach her place of peace in this world .. I am very sorry to hear of her passing and I really hope that if anyone else out there is in the same position .. you take the time to heal - to find that true healing and realise that if you were not necessary, you wouldn't even be in this world to begin with .. it's absolutely heartbreaking to think that someone can believe that .. the ONE REASON you are in this world is because you were absolutely necessary to bring healing and peace in this world and if you are not in it .. that function in life will be missing along with you - stay strong and don't let anyone stand in the way of your strength and keep on fighting the good fight of faith .. you are not alone love and you will overcome 💙✨ MAY THE LORD BE WITH US ALL
The only reason we are in this world is to fuck and reproduce, there is no other purpose. If you aren't fit to reproduce nature will just get rid of your genes
Nature doesn't give a shit about your purpose. Go out into the wild and see how fast nature will kill you, our only purpose is to survive and reproduce, everything else is just made by man so they wouldn't feel so shitty.
@@TheFracturedfuture Reproduction is definitely a part of life, but is truly only a fraction of our true purpose...We were given bodies, aka meat puppets to house our soulful spirits...The true purpose of our lives is for our spiritual evolution...Sorry you seem to be so stuck in the physical realm, and are not feeling connected or experiencing the spiritual journey...btw, I chose not to reproduce, and still know that I have a purpose !
@@susansimmons5702 The supposed spiritual path is subjective, that's why there are so many religions. It's really hard to say if there's even a spirit, it's all based on theories at this point.
On the contrary reproduction is not shrouded in mystery, people feel horny, they have sex and then a baby is born, that simple.
Nobody teaches people that they need to reproduce it's an instinct while spirituality is taught. If you grew up in the jungle you wouldn't believe what you do now but I bet your body would still want to reproduce.
@@TheFracturedfuture I can appreciate your stance, though through my own experiences, i.e. near death, and spiritual, and mystical phenomenon, etc. I have had too many numerous experiences, which have only validated the existence of spirit, aka as our light body, soul, spirit...as for me, there is no doubt that we all have light bodies, etc. whether some are aware of the presence of their ethereal form or not, I feel, depends on how tapped in one is to the "God" source...just my view from my own experiences...Also, most tribal societies, many of whom still live in the "jungle" are very connected to their spiritual lives, can you say, Ayahuasca ?
@@susansimmons5702 I can say the same about my experiences. Nothing points to there being anything other than our brains trying to interpret what it can't comprehend.
I don't think taking drugs and seeing weird shit qualifies as there being a spiritual realm. My question is, why is it always so hard to prove the existence of gods, spirits, ghosts and all other supernatural phenomenon? If such things existed wouldn't they be more apparent and easier to prove.
It always seems like things of that nature are always conveniently shrouded in mystery and the only evidence is a persons testimony.
I still get shocked when I see those who commit suicide but appear to have it all but they still can't help it. She's at the ultimate peace now. It scares me because I have been this way all my life but I'm still here and doing better then I ever thought but I always wonder when will it stop. Hopefully I can go to Belgium or Switzerland for a painless end when the time comes. She didn't have to go like that.
Very sad. We need to do better with how we treat mental health and how we recognize when someone is in crisis.
I went through depression and suicide for 10 years, after realizing my true operant power and flowing into my spiritual journey I am finally at a place of complete harmony peace and love. I really want to help others get out of this mindset as well, you are much needed on this earth and I really want to shine the light on anybody’s situation if you are going through anything. You are loved and your presence makes a difference here. Stay strong 💗
Tell me all the things you believe and how you came to believe such.
RIP beautiful girl, I cant even imagine the darkness and helplessness you must've felt in that moment to bring you to that decision. Does anyone know if she was on any anti-depression Meds? This is from personal experience, some of these so called anti-depression meds and companies make things even worse, and they know it, and they need to be held accountable.
Yeah Lee recently stated in an interview on the Eamon and Bec podcast that she was on anti-depressants. Thank you for bringing this up. So many people are glazing over the fact that suicidal thougts are actually a side effect of anti-depressants. They cause the brain to go haywire and send chaotic signals to neurons and the body. Their damaging effects have to be talked about more and taken seriously. I hear of many people that either became suicidal or chronically ill from anti-depressants. Pharmaceuticals can be super hamrful because of their intense chemical compositions. While it's important to speak up for Lee as this is so devasting. It is also important to bring awareness to how manu lives have been ruined from pharmaceuticals. True holisitic natural healing of the body, mind and soul is key to wellness and happiness
@@abstractswirls wow! thank you for your response!
@@abstractswirls Does it depend on the anti-depressant medication?
I've had bouts of depression since 2008 that lasted about 10 yrs. I was prescribed meds & only took it for 2 weeks because I had side effects so I stopped taking it. I would cry a lot and it's mostly mind over matter. I personally had depression due to a past relationship. Someone with depression shouldn't be left alone with their own thoughts. Take care, everyone. I send my love & healing thoughts to her family and friends.
I thought about this too. I’ve read they can actually make you more suicidal. She had gotten off her antidepressants that she was taking last year. She did start taking new antidepressants 1 week before she ended her life.
Lee will always, always have one of the more engaging "smiles under a hat" I'll ever encounter. Rest in peace, young lady.
I'm so numb i loved it when I got the notification she was going live she would always help me when I was feeling so depressed I hated life and I still wouldn't care if I died tomorrow im not having suicide thoughts but just don't care about life she cheered me up she always kepted me smiling now that's gunna be over for me
Sooo sad. But imagine how the people on that train feel. As well as the driver. Devestation for family friends and Lee. Fly high honey. 🙏🙏🙏
My heart truly breaks for this bright young woman. What a gorgeous soul, and such a tragic end to a beautiful story. I'm deeply saddened and affected by her suicide. A reminder that we never know what battles other people are fighting internally.
This is just awful. I just can’t believe it. Prayers go to her loved ones ❤️
Prayers don't help at all
This is tragic. I never saw any of her videos before, but it is always tragic to hear that someone felt hopeless enough to take their own life. Just heartbreaking
Boo fucking hoo😆😆😆😆
@@dantecastalano8088 don't be such a coward Dante. There are better ways to conceal your weakness and cowardice than writing comments like that to show you're a tough guy, because you come off as another annoying child. How many slaps would it take to put you back into shape so you behave yourself like a man rather than a scared little edgy wimp nerd?
And yet in those videos, she seemed so happy.
The people with the brightest smiles are the people who are filled with darkness.
Smoke 💨 and mirrors .
Like with any illness there are times when you can rally and put on a happy face, doesn't mean that every thing is fine 2 hrs later.
Lee apparently only started to experience depression in 2018....it seemed to come out of nowhere, as it often does... she had periods of feeling better but despite therapy, medication and lots of love and support, she lost her battle 😔 I believe there was some fairly ugly cyber bullying happening as well. Please be kind.... please 🙏
Being an "influencer" is an empty existence.
EXACTLY!!!!!!!! The most ridiculous thing in out modern world!!!!!
She was never an influencer per say. She just traveled the world & shared her experiences.
@@lorrainea.285 The term is contrived by the cabal. People are content creators and NO, it's not ridiculous. Maybe when people try to present a false image. I don't know about her or her channel but there are many channels that are positive and constructive, including my main channel.
These companies that sponsor them are also part of this problem/culture their bottom line is it's a potential for them to make money so they perpetuate these "Influencers" to live this always on in your face recording everything lifestyle 🤦🏾♀️.
@@JNante Someone's jelly...
The traveling was a coping mechanism to escape the pain.... i can relate... praying for your soul, beautiful friend...
This breaks my heart. I wish she could have received the proper help she needed.
Poor soul. Beautiful young lady, she was really hurting. Such a shame.
So sad, we are losing way to many people that still have suo much more life to live. Wish the best for her family and may she for ever rest in paradise.
i can't imagine the trauma the train driver and passengers will have to live with. it's not fair to involve innocent people.
This is too sad 😭 i have been following them for years. Poor Max, i hope everyone around her have someone to talk to. Rest in peace dear Lee 🙏❤️
Proof that NOBODY is truly happy, just distracted.
Man 😭😭😭😭 I didn’t even know her and this broke my heart 💔💔💔 RIP Life is so painful
So sad, what a beautiful, young, influential girl. I’m sending my thoughts and prayers to her family and loved ones. May God be with you all! #RIPLEE #MENTALHEALTH #YOURNOTALONE
People don’t understand how People who have Manic Depressive Disorder feel. I myself live with it everyday on top of chronic pain syndrome, 2 sever back and neck injuries. Doctors think giving us medication will help. It’s just a bandage, may she sleep in heaven, free from her pain. She was a beautiful person inside out!
Exactly! If others never went through depression would never understand the pain, darkness, and sickness that goes with it.
I don't understand how more people don't follow their footsteps if people honestly believe heaven is made after, free from pain.
@@antdx316 Religion is everyone’s own opinion. But there’s only 1 heaven and one GOD. Where do you think your spirit goes when you pass away?
I lost one of my friends , she committed suicide two months ago and I can’t believe it, this is so sad
The mind could be the most important individual thing to work with while alive forever. It can get twisted, wrecked, confused, lost if left unmanaged.
we need Jesus. the enemy will take anyone he can get. RIP God bless you and have mercy on all the lost and unsaved souls
Blessed is HE WHO comes in the name of the lord.
Too late for me, I'm damaged too bad from depression. Even Jesus can't help me. Sometimes it stays with people forever no matter what.
@@scoobymc3375 Jesus saved me and took away my depression. He can do the same for you. We are spirit beings, that have a soul and live in a body. Once your spirit is healed, your soul can be healed to. Please give Jesus a try, ask Him to help you.
@@scoobymc3375 It was not too late for the man on the cross beside Jesus. Jesus said to the man, " Today you will be with me in Paradise."
Save it for Sundays sweetie.
Omg. I am so shocked to learn of her death. I met @maxandlee at their first ever social meet-up in California. Both of them were so cool and down to earth. Lee was beautiful inside and out. She had the nicest vibe...so humble and sweet. I can't believe it. This is so sad.
I was a huge fan of Max and Lee and Occy. I still watch Max. This really hurts my heart. My prayers are with her family and Max at this sad time.
incredibly sad... hope is so valuable...
she was an angel on earth. RIP Lee, the heavens got back one of their own.
She was an Angel. But Suicide is sin
@@akimcrump6827 how insensitive
yes :(
That's not how it works👎
@@akimcrump6827 we are all sinners. Do u not sin? We are designed to sin. The only human being(on earth) who is infallible is Jesus. Are you Jesus? Chances are, u are not him. So that means you are a sinner like the rest of us. So may I ask why u point out the speck in her eye when u have a log in yours? (Bible quote). Question is, why do sinners point out other peoples sins when they have their own sins to worry about?
Depression kills you slowly from the inside...out. Lee, I pray you are resting in peace. You will be missed!! 😢
Stories like this can exacerbate depression bc you realize you can be open and seek treatment .. have amazing experiences in pockets of the world some of us can't even imagine, have money and loved ones but you will never escape the grip of this ugly thing that will never let you enjoy any of it .. makes me think of Anthony Bourdain
Jesus is the only true joy in this life nothing here can fill
the void like Jesus. So very sad another life lost to the enemies lies.
In the name of Jesus we have to pray for the lord to break these chains of depression and the grip this spirit of death and suicide has on so many young people. The power of God is more powerful than the power of the lies of the enemy I believe and declare that God will cause healing and a breaking of chains in the hearts of all suffering through depression and anxiety. He liberated me from years of depression and suicidal thoughts and I know he will do the same for everyone who believes in his power 🙏 God bless
If Jesus exists and are so great this wouldn't have happened to her and millions of others (myself included) battling depression.
Omg! This is awful I am saddened to hear that she took her life. She was beautiful, my God, my God, my God! Wow! So many words and feelings going thru me about this. My deepest condolence
R.I.P. no more suffering. My I prayers go out to her family and friends. YOU WILL BE REMEMBERED.
So sad 😞. My thoughts are with her family during this difficult time ❤️
Thank you for doing this story. Lee was such a beautiful soak and will truly be missed😢
Most people in poverty don’t think this way because they are to focused on just trying to survive the next day with work and bills and taking care of their families. Being rich and Privileged sometimes doesn’t mean happiness I guess
She was also plagued by cyberbullying on her youtube channel. That facilitated her worsening depression. There is a gofundme in Lee's honor to STOP CYBERBULLYING.
Why did people bully her? Because she was more attractive than them?
@@JasonHauser125 My guess is that you are correct, beautiful and had abetter life. I don't really know. I have a friend who has a channel, she is middle aged and talks about being a mom and being frugal. She gets bullied. Some people are just mean. But the truth of the matter is my friend is a happy, uplifting person and it still hurts her when she gets bullied on her channel. I tell her to let it roll off her back, easier said than done.
@@tamara8908 Yes, the internet is filled to the brim with callous trolls of all ages. I'm sorry she is dead, she seemed like a beautiful person.
Wow, not long ago I was watching her get her new van, and working on it. After I seen her video talking about her depression, it worried me.
OMG...she literally stood in front of an oncoming train? Let that shit sink in...
3 young girls I know around this age or in their 30's, one of which was a good friend, committed suicide in the last month. All of them bright, beautiful, smart just like Lee.
@Tropical Breeze2000 you are not wrong.
R.I P. Lee. May you travel that super highway in the Heavens beautiful soul. 💞💞
Depression is a hard and difficult journey... my heart breaks for anyone dealing with this monster (depression)..
You are right, it truly is a monster.
You really would have to be suicidal to jump in front of a train. Nasty, selfish way to go..not caring about the feelings of the person driving that train and not caring about how your body will end up.
I’ve suffered with anxiety & depression off and on my entire life!!! Rip Lee!!
@Campervan Beethoven Ashwagandha is the best! really works well at calming nerves.. I will look into holy basil as well, thanks..♥️
@Campervan Beethoven I've been taking it for about 8 weeks and haven't noticed any changes.. it took a while to start feeling the benefits.. I might take a break from it eventually in order to cycle it if I get scared it will start to plateau..
@Campervan Beethoven I do understand.. it definitely gets burdensome at times bc I take a lot of supplements and it gets to be a bit much.. but I look at it in a positive light bc it could be worse.. I was once on a lot of prescription drugs and the side effects were killer.. so at least what I take now is natural.. we are bombarded with toxins daily (air, water, food, etc), so at least there is something available to take the edge off.. bonus is I don't have to beg doctors for it..
@Campervan Beethoven outside of supplements, my anxiety took a nosedive once I eliminated foods and drinks that aggravated it.. do you notice any triggers from your diet? I got allergy tested years ago and that helped SO MUCH.. my stomach used to literally jitter ALL THE TIME 😩 but it's finally calm now.. the Ashwagandha just adds to the calm.. especially helps calm my mind from going into overdrive.. just sharing..
@Campervan Beethoven yes, I am similar.. I was always in and out of GI doctors offices years ago.. my stomach was a wreck! reflux can absolutely cause the worse anxiety symptoms.. I always thought I was on the verge of dying at such a young age.. gluten can trigger, as well as acidic foods like citrus and tomato products, or raw onions and garlic.. I also try to stay away from caffeinated drinks.. or if I do indulge, I just know to be prepared for the racing heart and jitters.. I'm glad the herbs do help! at least it's not harmful to take while doing more research to get to the bottom of things.. hopefully someday nothing extra will be needed.. but that's unlikely considering we don't get full nourishment from our foods anymore.. speaking of, vitamin D3 levels make a difference in mental health.. I do take high dosage and sit in sunlight for at least 30 mins daily.. have you had your levels tested lately? definitely can make a huge difference..
poor baby girl...rest in paradise sweet young lady. 🙏🏽🙌🏽
R.I.P to her. I never knew her but many people did, and my condolences go out to her friends, lover, and family
How does a girl like that take her life in such a violent way. It makes no sense. Were there witnesses? Why would they feel she might have been suicidal? Just because someone says they are doesn't mean they would just wander off, leaving their keys and all behind, and step in front of train without writing a note or leaving something behind for her loved ones. It just doesn't make sense.
The train crew that hit her were the witnesses.
My deepest condolences to her family, friends ,and fans. She will b deeply missed.
This is so sad.
I hope that she is now at peace.
Please be kind everybody…you never know what struggles people are going through 🙏