Day 75 off opiates after a 10 year addiction.. You and your videos saved my life.. I feel like a different person my goodness.. Life is absolutely beautiful
JAGG KOUT me too I'm sick of using and pharmacies are on my case it's so bad 7 years now I'm fro. United kingdom and its so easy to obtain pills and its the very first thing in my mind I taperd down to a very low dosage but for some reason without knowing I'm worse than ever again I used to play my acoustic guitar and write songs and go to open mics but it's all just taken a back seat I'm so numb I forgot how to smile I've been reading on life after death and I just wanna close my eyes and wake up in the afterlife / spirit world now all though I'm not suicidal I'm doing a very good job of getting there, I can't turn to my doctor again I've done 2 tapering off courses which lasted 20 weeks and was doing well but I couldn't see it though I've gone from 10 and half stone to 7 stone sick of these pills I hide away from the world only going out to get bills and I just want it to stop and if anyone could see into my soul they would see feel that I genuinely do wanna stop I think they will take me to my grave now I really do,, anyway could look with finding a way to recovery I hope you find peace I genuinely do.. I've tried praying from my heart n soul but I guess the lines busy take care and once again I genuinely hope you find peace I'll mention you in my prayers..
Man I'm so sorry your going thru this. I was taking 7 10 Norco's a day, now I'm down to 5 than 4 than back to dr to get more sadly I get 120 a month ,but run out 4 days early, its my birthday on the 26 and will have no pills ,so in house on my chair and on computer that's it..Ive payed my bills go walk every day with my dogs still enjoy life, but I have no pills Im not motivated to do much.I don't eat much. And also isolated myself to .now im 63 so life isn't real bad. Can I ask how much were you on and what were you on...and just listen to this. Few years ago I went off them for 6 months got all my happy feelings back didn't think about the pills which is the bad part ofw/d and the mornings for me were bad anxiety ,,omg. Anyway you will get the happy feelings back and your motivation will come back. Its just time, which is why you think you wont make it...you can and will .I promise there is lite. But being in the box of darkness its hard to take the top off and see anything but a big fat pill.ok hang in there.
Style_Surge, exactly! I'm 28 days off opiates after a 6 year addiction and while I'm proud of how far I've come, I'm still working on my new "normal." I feel like an imposter. It's difficult doing normal, everyday things without this looming anxiety. One day at a time and when that's too much, one hour at a time 💚 You're not alone.
clcee ibeen on Norco for 4 years- 28 days is great... congrats. I’m in the taper stage. Tired of being caught in this tangled web. Need to find something else for pain management so I don’t go back this time.
This is me. I don't listen to music anymore, I don't find anything funny, I almost feel like I don't have an opinion. Soulless. The only emotion I have is fear of getting sick.
you might not have an urge to listen to music, but please just listen to under the bridge by red hot chili peppers❤️ i’m on day 7 no subs.. that song helps
Omg, you hit the nail on the head! Lived it active addiction from Sept 11- to March-2018.. entered MAT treatment, and was on buprenorphine from 3/18-11/22. Made the jump off at 2mgs.. WDs still hit, felt like flu, and RLS for about 10-14 days.. being FREE from it ALL now.. I got hit with ALL the emotions I had numbed.. it was a bit overwhelming.. but I've never felt MORE ALIVE!!
Jumped off 16 mg suboxone 2 years and 2 months ago. Was on for close to 9 years. I’m just now feeling back to “normal” ie. enjoying movies, television shows, getting high from exercise etc. It’s worth every single bit of the struggle. Thanks Ryan.
i love your videos and you have helped me personally as well as thousands of others, everything you say makes perfect sense to an addict, and even ex addicts, a lot of us owe you our lives! i wish you would have published some of my stories i think i would have resonated with a lot of people
over 100 days off 5 years of oxycodone use and 5 yrs of suboxone use, it took 90 days of battling fatigue and depression to get my mind right! i tell you what i really thought id never overcome it but here im am feeling great!! dont give up ppl it is the hardest battle ever but you can do it!
thank you for taking the time to upload your old videos. I just recently discovered your channel and it has been so helpful to me. i really appreciate all the material you keep putting up
Thanks for posting these videos. I just found your channel today. I'm in S/E Asia and I don't have anyone to talk to, these videos are a good support system.
It's funny, not a lot of people talk about the side effects to the sex drive. I understand why, it's embarrassing. For me, I found after getting clean that sexually, I was 15 again. After going through this life changing event of getting clean, it can be emasculating when all of a sudden you can't last more than a minute of two sexually. But! If you have an understanding partner (and if they have stuck with you through your addiction, they typically are) this can be one of the aspects of recovery where getting back to normal isn't such a chore. If anyone finds themselves in this situation, like Ryan said, don't be embarrassed or nervous, it's completely normal. Look at is as an opportunity to catch back up physically and emotionally with that person who more than likely took a back seat to your addiction.
U we're spot on with this one Ryan.ive been watching your vids for couple years now.i have a request for u to talk about how long does it take to feel normal after suboxone.long story short I was on lortabs for tearing my rotator cuff.i never got to Roxy's or oxys or patches but took 5 to 10 tabs a day for a few years.was scared withdrawals working 2 jobs and raising a family so I went on the out patient program.now find myself addicted to suboxone and been on the strips 3 times as long as I was ever on tabs.i get motivated to cold turkey it then fail time after time.i ween down sometimes but I end up back upping my doses.im not gona give up though just a lot of scary crap on the web and UA-cam saying up to a year to feel normal so it kills my desire to even try.anyway your videos do help and I'm gona keep trying!! Thanks man from Milledgeville Georgia
I no what you mean Ive been on 4 10mg Norco for 17 years sometimes I take a little more. But stay at my doze prescribed..when I do run out for 3 days or less I feel down I do get up shower ,but than lay around and think of the next script I will get living for the pills ,,sad
Is low dose methadone considered a feeling of normal? Some people strive to be opiate free and their chronic pain makes it nearly impossible so the only option is 10mg methadone every morning.
Being serious. Why would there be any problems with any of his videos? When they have all kinds of videos about porn things, breast feeding, dirty sex talk, ect.??
Day 75 off opiates after a 10 year addiction.. You and your videos saved my life.. I feel like a different person my goodness.. Life is absolutely beautiful
could you explain how you felt ?I need help I feel so lost?
JAGG KOUT me too I'm sick of using and pharmacies are on my case it's so bad 7 years now I'm fro. United kingdom and its so easy to obtain pills and its the very first thing in my mind I taperd down to a very low dosage but for some reason without knowing I'm worse than ever again I used to play my acoustic guitar and write songs and go to open mics but it's all just taken a back seat I'm so numb I forgot how to smile I've been reading on life after death and I just wanna close my eyes and wake up in the afterlife / spirit world now all though I'm not suicidal I'm doing a very good job of getting there, I can't turn to my doctor again I've done 2 tapering off courses which lasted 20 weeks and was doing well but I couldn't see it though I've gone from 10 and half stone to 7 stone sick of these pills I hide away from the world only going out to get bills and I just want it to stop and if anyone could see into my soul they would see feel that I genuinely do wanna stop I think they will take me to my grave now I really do,, anyway could look with finding a way to recovery I hope you find peace I genuinely do.. I've tried praying from my heart n soul but I guess the lines busy take care and once again I genuinely hope you find peace I'll mention you in my prayers..
Man I'm so sorry your going thru this. I was taking 7 10 Norco's a day, now I'm down to 5 than 4 than back to dr to get more sadly I get 120 a month ,but run out 4 days early, its my birthday on the 26 and will have no pills ,so in house on my chair and on computer that's it..Ive payed my bills go walk every day with my dogs still enjoy life, but I have no pills Im not motivated to do much.I don't eat much. And also isolated myself to .now im 63 so life isn't real bad. Can I ask how much were you on and what were you on...and just listen to this. Few years ago I went off them for 6 months got all my happy feelings back didn't think about the pills which is the bad part ofw/d and the mornings for me were bad anxiety ,,omg. Anyway you will get the happy feelings back and your motivation will come back. Its just time, which is why you think you wont make it...you can and will .I promise there is lite. But being in the box of darkness its hard to take the top off and see anything but a big fat pill.ok hang in there.
so it gets better for real??!? i’m on day 7 of no subs.. need my energy back
How’s the recovery going so far ? By the way good job man !
Missing you today!:) 🙏💛🙏💛🙏💛
The worst is feeling like u lost yourself. The old you goes away and your jus existing.
Style_Surge, exactly! I'm 28 days off opiates after a 6 year addiction and while I'm proud of how far I've come, I'm still working on my new "normal." I feel like an imposter. It's difficult doing normal, everyday things without this looming anxiety. One day at a time and when that's too much, one hour at a time 💚 You're not alone.
clcee ibeen on Norco for 4 years- 28 days is great... congrats. I’m in the taper stage. Tired of being caught in this tangled web. Need to find something else for pain management so I don’t go back this time.
clcee I did opiates heavy for 11 years over 2 years clean and still struggle with depression and anxiety.
clcee Keep pushing much love
This is me. I don't listen to music anymore, I don't find anything funny, I almost feel like I don't have an opinion. Soulless. The only emotion I have is fear of getting sick.
you might not have an urge to listen to music, but please just listen to under the bridge by red hot chili peppers❤️
i’m on day 7 no subs.. that song helps
You literally described me. I don't listen to music, I don't laugh at anything, I don't talk to anyone, all I do is think about that next dose.
Omg, you hit the nail on the head! Lived it active addiction from Sept 11- to March-2018.. entered MAT treatment, and was on buprenorphine from 3/18-11/22. Made the jump off at 2mgs.. WDs still hit, felt like flu, and RLS for about 10-14 days.. being FREE from it ALL now.. I got hit with ALL the emotions I had numbed.. it was a bit overwhelming.. but I've never felt MORE ALIVE!!
Jumped off 16 mg suboxone 2 years and 2 months ago. Was on for close to 9 years. I’m just now feeling back to “normal” ie. enjoying movies, television shows, getting high from exercise etc. It’s worth every single bit of the struggle. Thanks Ryan.
It takes your personality away. So I agree your not “normal”
i love your videos and you have helped me personally as well as thousands of others, everything you say makes perfect sense to an addict, and even ex addicts, a lot of us owe you our lives! i wish you would have published some of my stories i think i would have resonated with a lot of people
over 100 days off 5 years of oxycodone use and 5 yrs of suboxone use, it took 90 days of battling fatigue and depression to get my mind right! i tell you what i really thought id never overcome it but here im am feeling great!! dont give up ppl it is the hardest battle ever but you can do it!
I have a similar story to yours. But 5 and 8.
I'm 4 months clean and I'm just now starting to feel better. Thanks for sharing.
Good job, man!
thank you for taking the time to upload your old videos. I just recently discovered your channel and it has been so helpful to me. i really appreciate all the material you keep putting up
Thanks for posting these videos. I just found your channel today. I'm in S/E Asia and I don't have anyone to talk to, these videos are a good support system.
Well said Ryan thank you for the upload much respect have a great day
dude you got perfect teeth. after 7 years of doing heroin some of my teeth r messed up. your videos are awesome I can relate so much to what you say.
You made me laugh today my friend thank you needed that “ your so numb you could get hit with a BAT and you wouldn’t feel it) 😆
Omg you always hit everything right on the head! Certain things you say gives me goosebumps...your just awesome
Good video sad he passed away he helped a lot of people.
Armon Adibi oh no, how did he pass?
Omg!! I used to say the same things...yes!! Thanks
It's funny, not a lot of people talk about the side effects to the sex drive. I understand why, it's embarrassing. For me, I found after getting clean that sexually, I was 15 again. After going through this life changing event of getting clean, it can be emasculating when all of a sudden you can't last more than a minute of two sexually. But! If you have an understanding partner (and if they have stuck with you through your addiction, they typically are) this can be one of the aspects of recovery where getting back to normal isn't such a chore. If anyone finds themselves in this situation, like Ryan said, don't be embarrassed or nervous, it's completely normal. Look at is as an opportunity to catch back up physically and emotionally with that person who more than likely took a back seat to your addiction.
Thank you so much Ryan!
This was a good one. Well said. Hope your doing well
feeling very slow rn, like 5 days in guys.......
U we're spot on with this one Ryan.ive been watching your vids for couple years now.i have a request for u to talk about how long does it take to feel normal after suboxone.long story short I was on lortabs for tearing my rotator cuff.i never got to Roxy's or oxys or patches but took 5 to 10 tabs a day for a few years.was scared withdrawals working 2 jobs and raising a family so I went on the out patient program.now find myself addicted to suboxone and been on the strips 3 times as long as I was ever on tabs.i get motivated to cold turkey it then fail time after time.i ween down sometimes but I end up back upping my doses.im not gona give up though just a lot of scary crap on the web and UA-cam saying up to a year to feel normal so it kills my desire to even try.anyway your videos do help and I'm gona keep trying!! Thanks man from Milledgeville Georgia
I no what you mean Ive been on 4 10mg Norco for 17 years sometimes I take a little more. But stay at my doze prescribed..when I do run out for 3 days or less I feel down I do get up shower ,but than lay around and think of the next script I will get living for the pills ,,sad
I listened to music WAYYY more when I was using haha.
Jacob Brill fr. Now I don't wanna do anything I did when I was
Great video...
Is low dose methadone considered a feeling of normal? Some people strive to be opiate free and their chronic pain makes it nearly impossible so the only option is 10mg methadone every morning.
I just cant get my energy back. Been clean a month, i just crash after work..i cant even cook or clean. Uhh
you will get there it takes more time for some people and you might have a mental issure.
It just takes time, hang in there. I am 60 days clean and still feel the fatigue.
It will come back brotha trust me. A months a nice bit of time stay with it. Watch how much better u feel with another month under ur belt. Trust me.
mineonlyhooves how are you now?? i’m on day 7 no subs
I'm approaching 4 months clean. Finally starting to feel a little better. Don't give up.
Thank you
Being serious. Why would there be any problems with any of his videos? When they have all kinds of videos about porn things, breast feeding, dirty sex talk, ect.??
I REALLY ENJOYED YOUR VIODES AM IN MY RECOVERY AND AM REALLYTN WANTINGES THIS THANYOU
DENNEAAGUIRRE
When i was on opiate prescription pills ,i could last long in bed..
It fucks your sex drive that's why