Me too. My BFF was the reason I went to rehab. Years later, I helped her get on a MAT program and we are both clean now. For me it’s been almost 20 years clean. 🎉🎉❤❤ There are MAT programs all over the country. Google it. You don’t have to suffer needlessly. MAT saved my life. It’s easier now a days to find a good program that works for you. When I started, it was back in the early 2000’s and it was nearly impossible to get into a good, long term MAT program. I am thankful for my doctors now. At first I had to deal with shady doctors who would charge $300+ an hour. Nowadays, it’s better regulated. Give it a shot.
i hope i can do this w my ex eventually. he was my first serious bf at like 15 years old so its so sad to see the stark contrast in innocence his life has become :(
My first husband passed away in his addiction when he was 30. He missed seeing our kids and now grandkids. Addiction is such a terrible thing and I am so happy you fought your way through it!! I love watching your videos and seeing you so full of life. You are definitely an inspiration!! ❤
I’m sorry for your loss. My husband died in his addiction 5/11/22. We had been separated for years & he had not seen our girls in quite sometime due to his addiction. That didn’t make it any easier to tell my girls (they were 20 & 14 at the time) or easier to deal with. His funeral was absolutely heartbreaking & my worst fear come true. He missed so much while he was still here but missed the birth & first year of my only grandchild’s life. The only peace I have is knowing he is no longer sick. Big hugs to you from GA ❤
@@brandyfreeman4098 love to you and your girls. That is so hard to see them lose such a huge part of their lives. I hope you all are doing ok ❤️❤️❤️. For me and my kids, it will be 20 years since his passing 10/23. My kids were young, 9, 4, and 2. It’s sad because the youngest doesn’t even have any memories of him. My advice to anyone who loses someone to addiction is to find good therapy. It will help you deal with all the crazy feelings you are left with. Love and hugs 💓💓💓💓💓💓
My dad died from his addiction when I was 11, the last time we saw him he came to our house really high and askes to stay, mum said no and he died not long after. I got the same addiction as him (crack) years later and i now understand why mum didn't let him in. I'm sorry for both your losses ❤
Years ago, I woke up shackled to a hospital bed, in jail.. I had no idea how I got there. It was beyond terrifying! 😳 I'm so glad I'm not that person anymore! Thank you so much for your content, Tina! 😘
@@user-bm6ex5zj6n I passed out while driving. I crashed into a parked car that hit another parked car. Luckly no one was hurt and thankfully I was wearing my seatbelt! 😬
You know what helped me stay clean during early recovery? Getting a puppy! A small dog. A cute little mutt. Having the responsibility of taking care of my pet taught me so much and prepared me for motherhood. My pup needed me to be present and responsible and in return she gave me unconditional love. She was my only friend for years! I was ok with that. A dog won’t judge you, won’t lure you back into that life. If you’re struggling, and you have a stable roof over your head, get a cat or a dog or a fish or a hamster. Only do this if your life is somewhat stable because caring for an animal is a huge responsibility. However, it’s an even bigger reward. She was my sidekick and I took her with me everywhere. She lived a long life (14 years). My dog passed away in 2016. I waited about six months. Then I was ready. I adopted a similar breed and she’s so loving. She makes me so happy. I became a mom in 2008 and I am BLESSED with a healthy son who is now in high school. I married my sons father two years ago. Sometimes things don’t happen in the order that society makes us think. I’m so grateful for my first dog. Having her really kept me from being around the wrong people. I had companionship and love. That’s what helped me stay clean during those first few years. I hope this helps someone in early recovery. It’s so rewarding. ❤
Your sons my age! I’m so glad you’re clean and happy/proud of you. My daddy was an addict. He’s in his 60’s now and unfortunately has dementia due to him using back in the day. He once got arrested for having a lab in a hotel room by a school! I’m so proud that he quit but I wish I could get those years back with him as a little girl. I sure was a daddy’s girl and I’d go everywhere with him. He lives in a different state now with my 2 step brothers but I still call and miss him. Addiction is hard but you need to find the right reasons to stay clean. ❤❤❤
I just had a lame slip up in my recovery, going through a bad break up. Watching your videos really help me lately realizing I need to knock this off because being back on this side of addiction is so F’ing lame! It’s only been a month but it has gone by so fast because I am high. Thankyou for your honesty and support
Good luck, I know it must be hard but you can do it. You deserve love and kindness, also from yourself for yourself. Hopefully you have other friends or family that can distract you through the worst pain.
I found you randomly on my shorts recommendations and I’ve been watching everything you upload ever since, even if i have never dealt with any of the things you talk about. But there’s something about you that is so likeable and comforting. Sending you all my best wishes from Spain ❤
Being vulnerable and real is the bravest thing you can do. You are an immensely strong woman. As a young woman myself even though I have not had the same struggles, I have had my own unique troubles, I still see you as a role model. An example of staying true to doing what you know is best for you even if it gets tough. To keep pushing and doing your best. You are amazing, and I love your videos! ❤
Thx for talking the talk n walking the walk. I’ve also had a crazy life. Now my addiction is low level one step away from clean. I just gotta take the plunge BUT like u, so afraid of being sick. I need to believe sobriety can happen to ME. Signed, Exhausted
I just hit my 11th year this past July of being clean and it feels amazing, still feels unreal but amazing at the same time. So so proud of any of you addicts who have and are trying to beat this demon of a disease. Y'all are some super strong people! 💕👏
I take My hat off to anyone who can get clean off there own back... I've been drug free for 10 years now.. And I'm ashamed to say that the only reason I got clean was because of a night of madness. Resulting in me receiving a 14 year prison sentence.
you are really good at speaking and story telling! i hope you get lots of opportunities to speak to people cause alot of people could benefit and learn from you
This video was amazing. You are such an inspiring person. Telling your story is so important to helping others who are struggling with addiction but also for others who aren’t to understand what people struggling with addiction go through.
I have lost many family members to addiction and your story brings me hope for the future. Bless you Tina and I'm praying for your on your road to recovery ❤
Girl you make wanna cry the things you say are just so true💯 I’ve lived a rough life and and I am not perfect, but we always gotta pick our selves us and be different by the grace of god
in 2020 I had been clean for 2 years and had a massive heart attack at 41 yrs old, had to be brought back to life the works I remember when the surgeon was gonna put the stint in my leg he said morphine, I yelled no no none of that I am in recovery!! he said what I am abt to do to your is painful you will be fine and gave me morphine and fentanyl, in ICU I had some morphine that night and no more the rest of the time I did not relapse bc of the medicine and now been clean 5.5 yrs. I could have spiraled very easy luckily I didnt.
i don't know wtf is with some of those doctors that will just pump that stuff into you with no regard for anything, if i were them i'd be tryna figure out how to load you up with as much safe non-narcotic shit as possible. they do the same to my dad, he's not an addict nor recovering but i honestly think he avoided it all bc he fought a lot against dosage increases when they were hard pushing them in the mid 2000s and got lucky with how he reacted to the meds. i'm glad you were able to avoid spiraling and remain clean despite them doing that to you ❤️🩹
I'm pretty sure doctors don't know any other way to do it, at least when it comes to surgery. They give all their patients the same opiates, benzos, and hypnotics, whatever cocktail it is. Whoever they learned from in residence did it the same way. A guy who relapses later, the doctor won't be blamed, but a bad reaction during or immediately after surgery will be his problem, so he's afraid to change the protocol. As a person who is too much a fan of opiates and benzos, I can't imagine having the willpower to turn the meds down when you're going through something stressful and painful like that. Hell, if you're at a place where you can do that, I don't think you'll relapse anyway.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and encouragement. I’m still struggling but whenever I come across a video you remind me not to give up, and I won’t. I’m glad you’re here.
I absolutely LOVE YOUR STORYYYYY❤❤❤❤❤❤ there’s so much addiction in my family and inter generational addiction…. I’ve dealt with my own demons….. but hearing and seeing stories like this this is why I love social media!!!!!!!!!
This made me cry. I have never dealt with addiction. But I have an eating disorder called avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID) because of my severe ADHD. A lot of foods have smells and textures that freak me out. Simply chewing is so uncomfortable for me. I relate to being so sick of living like this. I’m in a constant cycle of spending money and starving and going into debt because eating is such a chore for me, and it’s so much easier to buy food I know I like. It’s really hard and takes over everything. All I think about is what im going to eat next and which of my friends is going to be willing to buy me a meal that day. I am always so hungry and tired and weak because it’s so hard to fuel myself. Thank you for the kind and encouraging words at the end of your video, Tina. They helped me gain a lot of confidence and hope. I love your channel. It is so inspiring and informative. You are living proof things can get better. I look up to you. 💜
Tina, I just wanna say Thank You. For everything you do for us and the recovery community and also those still in active addiction. There are no words that properly convey how grateful we all are for you. You’re a light in a dark dark room. Thank you 🙏🏽 💜🥹
your videos motivate me so muchhh, you show me how falling down is not the end of the world. I just failed and had many bad grades on my exams this semester, and although to fighters like you it seems small, but to me it was like the end of the world, I had mental breakdowns for a whole week. And picking myself up and continuing seems a bit late, but when I hear you saying keep going you are motivating me to keep on going, it's never too late. I am going to pass my exams inshallah and as you said at the end if I WANT IT , I will get it thank you soooo much.
I am struggling with my sobriety atm and watching your videos really helps me alot. I know I want to be clean now but it's the environment I'm in that just won't allow me to do it completely. I'm praying everyday.
Keep fighting to be sober you are worth it. What is keeping you from getting sober if you want to? What is your drug of choice? You don't have to awnser im just a random person on the internet but maybe I can help with a little advice. Have you ever tried kratom or heard of it?
I can relate to you I am currently having problems and seeing you overcome it and become the person you are today gives me hope.Keep doing what you do you are helping a lot of people
10:51 as someone who went through addiction, and relapsed many times - this part is true... it slowly happens! Then you hit rock bottom, sober up and reflect and you also wonder whats going through your head at the time!!
I’m glad you’re doing bette these days and that you didn’t die in the hospital. Addiction is such a nightmare for everyone involved and I’m glad people like you are making these videos to help others. Unfortunately my mother passed when I was a baby from H but my dad has been clean from H since 2008 and clean from any substances for a month now. I’m proud of him, and when me and him are together i show him these videos to help us start a conversation about his problems (and my own as well)
Tina!! Thank you for being so transparent and for sharing your story. Your words are absolute truth - you clearly have a destiny here and I can see how much you will help others, including myself. I’ve been in recovery for over a decade and the message of “don’t give up” can’t be projected more because that IS the answer. And when we come thru to the other side (sobriety), the strength one now possess is unmatchable. And I can see that in you, I see that in myself and in many many more: don’t give up, recovery is absolutely possible. I’ve never heard anyone regret the work they put in for their sobriety. In fact, most who recover CHOOSE to do MORE work, whether it be helping other addicts with counseling, nursing, advocacy etc!! If that doesn’t speak volumes, I don’t know what does. Addiction is not a death sentence; we all struggle with addictions in our daily lives, whether to a thing, a routine, a substance… food…. We can ALL relate to some sort of dependency one way or another. You are amazing, lady - keep sharing and sending out this msg ❤ PS - one day at a time. Addicts, don’t look at recovery as a whole - just look at and see the first step. Once you’ve taken it, do your second step. You will gain more and more clarity and courage as you get healthy and you will SEE your sobriety unfold before you. Just keep going, keep showing up and doing your steps, one at a time. Be good to yourself, be patient with yourself…and honestly? Pray. You can get clean! You CAN be healthy and happy… the cleaner you get, the more you will crave it.
I remember being in NA and people DECADES older than me were there and talking about how they still think about using and it blew my mind!! Addiction definitely stays with you forever. The used to be habits just stick with you- it’s crazy
I honestly can’t tell you how I never got arrested or caught doing any of the stupid 💩 I used to do. I was very very lucky that I never hurt myself or anyone else. I was a mess and for many years. I lost my younger brother to addiction, and I will forever blame myself for his loss, I’ve lost many friends too. I am truly happy you were able to get clean and turn the past into financial gain! I could never get in front of the camera
Great story sorry you had to go through that but it’s made you the person you are today. I truly believe you’re helping people envision a life without addiction.
It’s so amazing that you overcame such immense challenges. I don’t doubt you’ve helped many people. Thank you for coming forward and sharing your struggles 😊❤
Tina, you mention in a video (and now I can't find that video) but you say something really powerful about not feeling like you owe everyone, or be focused on your shame. You have to focus on your recovery - hard core. Well, you don't say hard core :) but I just thought it was an amazing life lesson because shame and giving up will only cause us regrets. Love, prayers and thanks for your videos!
thank you so much for sharing your story. Addiction is such a horrible situation. the addicts in my life struggle with relapse and just the self hate and the judgement from others; it's really just something we can all improve on, changing the negative aspects that we can control and really being there in a helpful real way for an addict.
These stories help me understand that my dad is sick and that he still loves me but the addiction has taken his whole being over. Prayers for his recovery
tina, i always love hearing your stories and i'm glad you are still here with us! i don't struggle with addiction, but i struggled mental health wise after leaving an abusive relationship. i can empathize with your feeling of wanting to be better for ourselves and feeling sick of the life we had. thank you for sharing your story with us! your stuff's been very encouraging for me to have faith things will get better! ❤
I can't believe i missed this video! I come on daily just to watch your videos. This video hits hard for me. I put myself in crazy situations while I was using. Im so thankful to be here and when I think back to what I used to do, im so very lucky I don't have any illnesses and didn't end up in jail. And the people i was hanging out with were not people you mess around with. Very grateful to be alive.
Your videos are so sad, yet so comforting to me. I haven’t been through addiction, but I’ve been through the legal system because of my ex-husband, and it’s hard to find people who relate and can sum up things like what being arrested and in jail is like. It makes me feel so much less alone seeing someone else talk about this stuff! Thank you for making videos!
You got blessed when you got arrested because if you hadn’t, and you had gone home after taking all of those you might have died. You getting arrested and then getting sent to medical was definitely a blessing in disguise!
Seeing you get cleaned is wonderful Tina! Those who have never been in addiction is so easy to say well don’t do it and stop. But in those moments you’re in a different mind set fighting with your mental health, the reason I say this it’s not for me but for a relative of mine who is currently fighting with his addiction. Your videos have helped so much to try and understand him.❤
You are amazing ,love your struggle....I've been clean since 2005 ,18 years so I know what you are dealing with ....for me I just got tired of the life and what I was living for ,so I quit cold turkey and moved out of my home , our apt that i lived in for almost 30 years the place I grew up NYC, queens to be exact, moved to upstate NY, 6 hours away to my family and started a new clean life ,keep up the great work one day at time we will be addicts but we don't have to use ,please keep sharing your story
same . my doctor told me yesterday, you don’t completely recover from addiction. it’s still always in the back of your head, you just learn to deal with it . that kinda made me upset bc i thought you could always completely recover from addiction and habits .. but i needed to hear this in order to understand
I understand how weird and crazy life can be. Growing up, my best friend and I were in active addiction without knowing about each other’s addiction until I caught her red handed and finally confessed that I was on H too 😅 so we ended up moving in together and were so toxicly supporting each other’s addiction before we both sadly had to decide to go no contact since it was an unhealthy relationship. I still miss her so much but as far as I know, we’re both doing a lot better and I’ve been clean for a year this January
So glad you made it thur. I lived in active addiction for 20 years. My whole family was in active addiction. I lived a crazy life. But I have been clean since 2012. But you do truly have to want it more than anything in your life!!!!!
I've had family and friends struggle with addiction and some who are still, and it's so hard but I feel like your videos help me understand it better. It makes me realize I can set my own boundaries while also being compassionate and helping them through it.
I am SO proud of how far you have come. Don't ever give up, don't ever surrender. You are an inspiration for those in need. I have never been on drugs, or an addict, but I have family that was and had unfortunately succumbed to it. Thank you for sharing your story(ies).
You help me to make sense of the craziness my family member is going through. I hope she can make the changes in her life that you have someday. Your videos showed me ways to support her without enabling dangerous behavior.
Keep sharing your story Tina. Im not in addiction and I never have been, but ive got some mental health issues and your story has helped me SO MUCH. I cant even put it in words. Thank you and keep your head up girl! ❤❤❤❤
i lost my dad to addiction and sadly found him when i got home from work in 2021. he was addicted my whole life. it is not easy he tried time and time again… i am so proud of you ❤
Tina, you are such a freakin rockstar!!! I enjoy watching your skits & vids, they help me a great deal to stay clean & sober. I'm so very grateful for you!
I'm not totally sober right now but I'm not happy either...you actually gave me a glimmer of hopefulness like I used to have when I abstained from everything.
Thank god you survived taking all of those!!! When I was in high school towards the end of the “xandemic” I saw too many kids get way too messed up from taking just one
I have a lot of mental disorders depression, bipolar 1, skitzophrenia and ect. I've always been susceptible to anything becoming an addiction. I finally left my biggest abuser in life of 30 years 3 years ago. I thought I would release real bad, i did with credit card debit, but 3 years later I'm still paying for my mistakes. What really kept me clean was getting a cat. Getting a cat helped me adopt better self care because if i wasn't well my feline child would not be fine.
I am so proud of you! I’ve been in recovery for 12 years and have a daughter in active addiction right now. I wish so bad that she wanted to get help!!
I really appreciate you sharing your story here. I have a lot of family in active addiction and learning about addiction has drawn me closer to them in love and compassion. I learned from a counselor that withdrawal in addiction causes the same part of the brain to light up as when a person is drowning. The reason and morality parts of the brain turn off and it takes about 45 days for them JUST to turn on again, let alone be fully recovered. Anyways, I'm so grateful you're here and I feel excited about the impact you're making!
Tina I just wanted to let you know how much your videos have helped open my eyes to addiction. I am more understanding and compassionate (I hope) to others from learning about your struggles. Thank you.
I lost my uncle back in 2016 when I was a sophomore in high school cause of an overdose. Your videos have helped me understand what it was like for him when he was trying to get clean. I miss him so much but am happy you are sober. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy to go through this.
I found those what you found all over my house for probably a year I just would randomly find them in the back of my closet underneath my dresser. Finally one day I just tore through my entire place and flipped it upside down made sure I tried to find everything so I wouldn’t keep finding them. About three years later, I found a couple more things Levi’s on, I was kind of passed them triggering me, but I was definitely surprised and it did not bring back. Pleasant memories.
I’d love to see a video where you explained some harsh truths you’ve learned about life through & after recovering from addiction. Your honesty, your drive & your appreciation for life is so inspiring ❤
I love the skits you do bc my husband and I can relate to a freaking T !! Like for real I thought we were the only ones that would do stuff like sleeping in the woods!! Or the car if we had one at the time, we even slept in our storage unit omg 🤦🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️ not knowing where you're going to sleep at night was awful and I'm so thankful we have a house and aren't doing any of that stuff anymore
It takes a lot to admit your wrongdoings. Boy, do I know. I have given all my family and friends access to my weekly UA’s to help hold me accountable. Sounds weird but it really helps me❤❤❤❤❤❤
just helped my friend go to rehab, everything has come full circle for me and now i’m able to help those who helped me. we really do recover ❤
Your a good person ❤
That's amazing to hear❤❤❤ proud of u guys
Yahoo!! You probably saved a life. My prayers are with you and your friend💖
Me too. My BFF was the reason I went to rehab. Years later, I helped her get on a MAT program and we are both clean now. For me it’s been almost 20 years clean. 🎉🎉❤❤
There are MAT programs all over the country. Google it. You don’t have to suffer needlessly. MAT saved my life. It’s easier now a days to find a good program that works for you. When I started, it was back in the early 2000’s and it was nearly impossible to get into a good, long term MAT program. I am thankful for my doctors now. At first I had to deal with shady doctors who would charge $300+ an hour. Nowadays, it’s better regulated. Give it a shot.
i hope i can do this w my ex eventually. he was my first serious bf at like 15 years old so its so sad to see the stark contrast in innocence his life has become :(
My first husband passed away in his addiction when he was 30. He missed seeing our kids and now grandkids. Addiction is such a terrible thing and I am so happy you fought your way through it!! I love watching your videos and seeing you so full of life. You are definitely an inspiration!! ❤
I’m sorry for your loss. My husband died in his addiction 5/11/22. We had been separated for years & he had not seen our girls in quite sometime due to his addiction. That didn’t make it any easier to tell my girls (they were 20 & 14 at the time) or easier to deal with. His funeral was absolutely heartbreaking & my worst fear come true. He missed so much while he was still here but missed the birth & first year of my only grandchild’s life. The only peace I have is knowing he is no longer sick. Big hugs to you from GA ❤
@@brandyfreeman4098 love to you and your girls. That is so hard to see them lose such a huge part of their lives. I hope you all are doing ok ❤️❤️❤️. For me and my kids, it will be 20 years since his passing 10/23. My kids were young, 9, 4, and 2. It’s sad because the youngest doesn’t even have any memories of him. My advice to anyone who loses someone to addiction is to find good therapy. It will help you deal with all the crazy feelings you are left with. Love and hugs 💓💓💓💓💓💓
So sorry for your loss
this is horrible so sorry you lost him to such a terrible thing as drugs
My dad died from his addiction when I was 11, the last time we saw him he came to our house really high and askes to stay, mum said no and he died not long after.
I got the same addiction as him (crack) years later and i now understand why mum didn't let him in. I'm sorry for both your losses ❤
Thank goodness you are still here with us to tell us these stories ❤
Years ago, I woke up shackled to a hospital bed, in jail.. I had no idea how I got there. It was beyond terrifying! 😳 I'm so glad I'm not that person anymore! Thank you so much for your content, Tina! 😘
@@user-bm6ex5zj6n I passed out while driving. I crashed into a parked car that hit another parked car. Luckly no one was hurt and thankfully I was wearing my seatbelt! 😬
Wait what happened? Why?
You know what helped me stay clean during early recovery? Getting a puppy!
A small dog. A cute little mutt.
Having the responsibility of taking care of my pet taught me so much and prepared me for motherhood. My pup needed me to be present and responsible and in return she gave me unconditional love. She was my only friend for years! I was ok with that. A dog won’t judge you, won’t lure you back into that life.
If you’re struggling, and you have a stable roof over your head, get a cat or a dog or a fish or a hamster. Only do this if your life is somewhat stable because caring for an animal is a huge responsibility. However, it’s an even bigger reward. She was my sidekick and I took her with me everywhere. She lived a long life (14 years). My dog passed away in 2016. I waited about six months. Then I was ready. I adopted a similar breed and she’s so loving. She makes me so happy.
I became a mom in 2008 and I am BLESSED with a healthy son who is now in high school. I married my sons father two years ago.
Sometimes things don’t happen in the order that society makes us think. I’m so grateful for my first dog. Having her really kept me from being around the wrong people. I had companionship and love. That’s what helped me stay clean during those first few years.
I hope this helps someone in early recovery. It’s so rewarding. ❤
Your sons my age! I’m so glad you’re clean and happy/proud of you. My daddy was an addict. He’s in his 60’s now and unfortunately has dementia due to him using back in the day. He once got arrested for having a lab in a hotel room by a school! I’m so proud that he quit but I wish I could get those years back with him as a little girl. I sure was a daddy’s girl and I’d go everywhere with him. He lives in a different state now with my 2 step brothers but I still call and miss him. Addiction is hard but you need to find the right reasons to stay clean. ❤❤❤
Thanks for sharing. Your skin is looking really great!
Thank u sm ❤❤❤
I just had a lame slip up in my recovery, going through a bad break up. Watching your videos really help me lately realizing I need to knock this off because being back on this side of addiction is so F’ing lame!
It’s only been a month but it has gone by so fast because I am high. Thankyou for your honesty and support
you got this. We can do it. I believe in you.
Good luck, I know it must be hard but you can do it. You deserve love and kindness, also from yourself for yourself. Hopefully you have other friends or family that can distract you through the worst pain.
You got this girl. Tmrw is a new day. Tmrw is another chance to try
Love your channel! I am a recovering addict for over a decade now. We need more people like you in this world girl@ ❤
I found you randomly on my shorts recommendations and I’ve been watching everything you upload ever since, even if i have never dealt with any of the things you talk about. But there’s something about you that is so likeable and comforting. Sending you all my best wishes from Spain ❤
Your explanation of your addiction breaks my heart. My mother tried for years to get clean and she just couldn't. I'm so proud of you. ❤
Being vulnerable and real is the bravest thing you can do. You are an immensely strong woman. As a young woman myself even though I have not had the same struggles, I have had my own unique troubles, I still see you as a role model. An example of staying true to doing what you know is best for you even if it gets tough. To keep pushing and doing your best. You are amazing, and I love your videos! ❤
Thx for talking the talk n walking the walk. I’ve also had a crazy life. Now my addiction is low level one step away from clean. I just gotta take the plunge BUT like u, so afraid of being sick. I need to believe sobriety can happen to ME. Signed, Exhausted
I just hit my 11th year this past July of being clean and it feels amazing, still feels unreal but amazing at the same time. So so proud of any of you addicts who have and are trying to beat this demon of a disease. Y'all are some super strong people! 💕👏
I take My hat off to anyone who can get clean off there own back... I've been drug free for 10 years now.. And I'm ashamed to say that the only reason I got clean was because of a night of madness. Resulting in me receiving a 14 year prison sentence.
you are really good at speaking and story telling! i hope you get lots of opportunities to speak to people cause alot of people could benefit and learn from you
This video was amazing. You are such an inspiring person. Telling your story is so important to helping others who are struggling with addiction but also for others who aren’t to understand what people struggling with addiction go through.
I have lost many family members to addiction and your story brings me hope for the future. Bless you Tina and I'm praying for your on your road to recovery ❤
Because of your videos im in recovery thank you so much,as i recover i watch your videos to help get me threw the hard times,thank you ❤
I'm so proud of u ❤❤
@@tinassee thank you ❤️
Girl you make wanna cry the things you say are just so true💯 I’ve lived a rough life and and I am not perfect, but we always gotta pick our selves us and be different by the grace of god
in 2020 I had been clean for 2 years and had a massive heart attack at 41 yrs old, had to be brought back to life the works I remember when the surgeon was gonna put the stint in my leg he said morphine, I yelled no no none of that I am in recovery!! he said what I am abt to do to your is painful you will be fine and gave me morphine and fentanyl, in ICU I had some morphine that night and no more the rest of the time I did not relapse bc of the medicine and now been clean 5.5 yrs. I could have spiraled very easy luckily I didnt.
i don't know wtf is with some of those doctors that will just pump that stuff into you with no regard for anything, if i were them i'd be tryna figure out how to load you up with as much safe non-narcotic shit as possible. they do the same to my dad, he's not an addict nor recovering but i honestly think he avoided it all bc he fought a lot against dosage increases when they were hard pushing them in the mid 2000s and got lucky with how he reacted to the meds. i'm glad you were able to avoid spiraling and remain clean despite them doing that to you ❤️🩹
I'm pretty sure doctors don't know any other way to do it, at least when it comes to surgery. They give all their patients the same opiates, benzos, and hypnotics, whatever cocktail it is. Whoever they learned from in residence did it the same way. A guy who relapses later, the doctor won't be blamed, but a bad reaction during or immediately after surgery will be his problem, so he's afraid to change the protocol.
As a person who is too much a fan of opiates and benzos, I can't imagine having the willpower to turn the meds down when you're going through something stressful and painful like that. Hell, if you're at a place where you can do that, I don't think you'll relapse anyway.
Thank you so much for sharing your experiences and encouragement. I’m still struggling but whenever I come across a video you remind me not to give up, and I won’t. I’m glad you’re here.
I’m so gald you recovered it’s very heart warming to see 🖤!!
Thank you so much for sharing your stories and being transparent. You are very inspring and have touched my spirit. Never give up!!
I am so proud of you. You have come so far! I’m so sorry that all of that had to happen to you. We are all here to support you whenever you.Need ❤😊
I absolutely LOVE YOUR STORYYYYY❤❤❤❤❤❤ there’s so much addiction in my family and inter generational addiction…. I’ve dealt with my own demons….. but hearing and seeing stories like this this is why I love social media!!!!!!!!!
This made me cry. I have never dealt with addiction. But I have an eating disorder called avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID) because of my severe ADHD. A lot of foods have smells and textures that freak me out. Simply chewing is so uncomfortable for me. I relate to being so sick of living like this. I’m in a constant cycle of spending money and starving and going into debt because eating is such a chore for me, and it’s so much easier to buy food I know I like. It’s really hard and takes over everything. All I think about is what im going to eat next and which of my friends is going to be willing to buy me a meal that day. I am always so hungry and tired and weak because it’s so hard to fuel myself.
Thank you for the kind and encouraging words at the end of your video, Tina. They helped me gain a lot of confidence and hope. I love your channel. It is so inspiring and informative. You are living proof things can get better. I look up to you. 💜
Hey you are doing your best and thats great
I hope everything works out for you
It’s awesome to see addicts recover and regain control of there lives I find her stories so interesting keep up the good work your on a great path
Tina, I just wanna say Thank You. For everything you do for us and the recovery community and also those still in active addiction. There are no words that properly convey how grateful we all are for you. You’re a light in a dark dark room. Thank you 🙏🏽 💜🥹
I love hearing your stories that you tell. So glad that you are still here and nothing bad happened to you girl.
Your guardian angels were definitely screaming for you, that ibuprofen was a divine intervention of sorts…had moments like that in my past too!
Amen 🙏🏻
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your videos motivate me so muchhh, you show me how falling down is not the end of the world.
I just failed and had many bad grades on my exams this semester, and although to fighters like you it seems small, but to me it was like the end of the world, I had mental breakdowns for a whole week. And picking myself up and continuing seems a bit late, but when I hear you saying keep going you are motivating me to keep on going, it's never too late.
I am going to pass my exams inshallah and as you said at the end if I WANT IT , I will get it
thank you soooo much.
I am struggling with my sobriety atm and watching your videos really helps me alot. I know I want to be clean now but it's the environment I'm in that just won't allow me to do it completely. I'm praying everyday.
Keep fighting to be sober you are worth it. What is keeping you from getting sober if you want to? What is your drug of choice? You don't have to awnser im just a random person on the internet but maybe I can help with a little advice. Have you ever tried kratom or heard of it?
I can relate to you I am currently having problems and seeing you overcome it and become the person you are today gives me hope.Keep doing what you do you are helping a lot of people
10:51 as someone who went through addiction, and relapsed many times - this part is true... it slowly happens! Then you hit rock bottom, sober up and reflect and you also wonder whats going through your head at the time!!
I’m glad you’re doing bette these days and that you didn’t die in the hospital. Addiction is such a nightmare for everyone involved and I’m glad people like you are making these videos to help others. Unfortunately my mother passed when I was a baby from H but my dad has been clean from H since 2008 and clean from any substances for a month now. I’m proud of him, and when me and him are together i show him these videos to help us start a conversation about his problems (and my own as well)
Tina!! Thank you for being so transparent and for sharing your story. Your words are absolute truth - you clearly have a destiny here and I can see how much you will help others, including myself. I’ve been in recovery for over a decade and the message of “don’t give up” can’t be projected more because that IS the answer. And when we come thru to the other side (sobriety), the strength one now possess is unmatchable. And I can see that in you, I see that in myself and in many many more: don’t give up, recovery is absolutely possible. I’ve never heard anyone regret the work they put in for their sobriety. In fact, most who recover CHOOSE to do MORE work, whether it be helping other addicts with counseling, nursing, advocacy etc!! If that doesn’t speak volumes, I don’t know what does. Addiction is not a death sentence; we all struggle with addictions in our daily lives, whether to a thing, a routine, a substance… food…. We can ALL relate to some sort of dependency one way or another.
You are amazing, lady - keep sharing and sending out this msg ❤
PS - one day at a time. Addicts, don’t look at recovery as a whole - just look at and see the first step. Once you’ve taken it, do your second step. You will gain more and more clarity and courage as you get healthy and you will SEE your sobriety unfold before you. Just keep going, keep showing up and doing your steps, one at a time. Be good to yourself, be patient with yourself…and honestly? Pray.
You can get clean! You CAN be healthy and happy… the cleaner you get, the more you will crave it.
I remember being in NA and people DECADES older than me were there and talking about how they still think about using and it blew my mind!! Addiction definitely stays with you forever. The used to be habits just stick with you- it’s crazy
Omg yay! Perfect timing . Almost bed time for my son ! I have something to watch tonight . THANK YOU
I honestly can’t tell you how I never got arrested or caught doing any of the stupid 💩 I used to do. I was very very lucky that I never hurt myself or anyone else. I was a mess and for many years. I lost my younger brother to addiction, and I will forever blame myself for his loss, I’ve lost many friends too. I am truly happy you were able to get clean and turn the past into financial gain! I could never get in front of the camera
I love your story times, they are so relatable! Listening totally digs up some of my crazy stories that i had compmetely forgotten about
Great story sorry you had to go through that but it’s made you the person you are today. I truly believe you’re helping people envision a life without addiction.
It’s so amazing that you overcame such immense challenges. I don’t doubt you’ve helped many people. Thank you for coming forward and sharing your struggles 😊❤
Tina, you mention in a video (and now I can't find that video) but you say something really powerful about not feeling like you owe everyone, or be focused on your shame. You have to focus on your recovery - hard core. Well, you don't say hard core :) but I just thought it was an amazing life lesson because shame and giving up will only cause us regrets. Love, prayers and thanks for your videos!
thank you so much for sharing your story. Addiction is such a horrible situation. the addicts in my life struggle with relapse and just the self hate and the judgement from others; it's really just something we can all improve on, changing the negative aspects that we can control and really being there in a helpful real way for an addict.
Well done Tina. You are an inspiration to people. Thanks. From Scotland U.K..👍
you always makes me feel so welcomed idk why but i love you smm ❤
I am glad you never gave up. It is hard to say no to an addiction but we have to for ourselves ❤
These stories help me understand that my dad is sick and that he still loves me but the addiction has taken his whole being over. Prayers for his recovery
tina, i always love hearing your stories and i'm glad you are still here with us! i don't struggle with addiction, but i struggled mental health wise after leaving an abusive relationship. i can empathize with your feeling of wanting to be better for ourselves and feeling sick of the life we had. thank you for sharing your story with us! your stuff's been very encouraging for me to have faith things will get better! ❤
I can't believe i missed this video! I come on daily just to watch your videos. This video hits hard for me. I put myself in crazy situations while I was using. Im so thankful to be here and when I think back to what I used to do, im so very lucky I don't have any illnesses and didn't end up in jail. And the people i was hanging out with were not people you mess around with. Very grateful to be alive.
Your videos are so sad, yet so comforting to me. I haven’t been through addiction, but I’ve been through the legal system because of my ex-husband, and it’s hard to find people who relate and can sum up things like what being arrested and in jail is like. It makes me feel so much less alone seeing someone else talk about this stuff! Thank you for making videos!
You got blessed when you got arrested because if you hadn’t, and you had gone home after taking all of those you might have died. You getting arrested and then getting sent to medical was definitely a blessing in disguise!
You are so encouraging. Thank you for being brave enough to be real in your videos. You are helping me (and I'm sure many others) recover. ❤
You really entertain us, keep up the good work.❤
You are such a treasure. To have your voice here to help anyone, what a blessing you are ❤
Seeing you get cleaned is wonderful Tina! Those who have never been in addiction is so easy to say well don’t do it and stop. But in those moments you’re in a different mind set fighting with your mental health, the reason I say this it’s not for me but for a relative of mine who is currently fighting with his addiction. Your videos have helped so much to try and understand him.❤
You are amazing ,love your struggle....I've been clean since 2005 ,18 years so I know what you are dealing with ....for me I just got tired of the life and what I was living for ,so I quit cold turkey and moved out of my home , our apt that i lived in for almost 30 years the place I grew up NYC, queens to be exact, moved to upstate NY, 6 hours away to my family and started a new clean life ,keep up the great work one day at time we will be addicts but we don't have to use ,please keep sharing your story
Something about your energy nd voice is so gentle nd comforting i love your videos u are so realll!! 💞💞
11:11 i really needed to hear this thank you❤
same . my doctor told me yesterday, you don’t completely recover from addiction. it’s still always in the back of your head, you just learn to deal with it . that kinda made me upset bc i thought you could always completely recover from addiction and habits .. but i needed to hear this in order to understand
I understand how weird and crazy life can be. Growing up, my best friend and I were in active addiction without knowing about each other’s addiction until I caught her red handed and finally confessed that I was on H too 😅 so we ended up moving in together and were so toxicly supporting each other’s addiction before we both sadly had to decide to go no contact since it was an unhealthy relationship. I still miss her so much but as far as I know, we’re both doing a lot better and I’ve been clean for a year this January
So glad you made it thur. I lived in active addiction for 20 years. My whole family was in active addiction. I lived a crazy life. But I have been clean since 2012. But you do truly have to want it more than anything in your life!!!!!
I love how real you are. Your content is so helpful, seeing other women with heavy issues enjoying the simple things. Congrats on your success ❤
I've had family and friends struggle with addiction and some who are still, and it's so hard but I feel like your videos help me understand it better. It makes me realize I can set my own boundaries while also being compassionate and helping them through it.
I am SO proud of how far you have come. Don't ever give up, don't ever surrender. You are an inspiration for those in need. I have never been on drugs, or an addict, but I have family that was and had unfortunately succumbed to it. Thank you for sharing your story(ies).
Your so inspiring! AND IM SO HAPPY you recovered i bet it must be hard so your a very inspirational.
You help me to make sense of the craziness my family member is going through. I hope she can make the changes in her life that you have someday. Your videos showed me ways to support her without enabling dangerous behavior.
Keep sharing your story Tina. Im not in addiction and I never have been, but ive got some mental health issues and your story has helped me SO MUCH. I cant even put it in words. Thank you and keep your head up girl! ❤❤❤❤
i lost my dad to addiction and sadly found him when i got home from work in 2021. he was addicted my whole life. it is not easy he tried time and time again… i am so proud of you ❤
Tina, you are such a freakin rockstar!!! I enjoy watching your skits & vids, they help me a great deal to stay clean & sober. I'm so very grateful for you!
Good job getting clean! 👏👏👏👏👏 don't fall into that trap of seeing old friends. They really aren't your friends.
Don’t give up! It will stick with you when you WANT it!!
I'm not totally sober right now but I'm not happy either...you actually gave me a glimmer of hopefulness like I used to have when I abstained from everything.
Thank god you survived taking all of those!!! When I was in high school towards the end of the “xandemic” I saw too many kids get way too messed up from taking just one
I have a lot of mental disorders depression, bipolar 1, skitzophrenia and ect. I've always been susceptible to anything becoming an addiction. I finally left my biggest abuser in life of 30 years 3 years ago. I thought I would release real bad, i did with credit card debit, but 3 years later I'm still paying for my mistakes. What really kept me clean was getting a cat. Getting a cat helped me adopt better self care because if i wasn't well my feline child would not be fine.
I am so proud of you! I’ve been in recovery for 12 years and have a daughter in active addiction right now. I wish so bad that she wanted to get help!!
Thank you for sharing. I'm crying rn and thinking of only a year ago the stuff I was getting into. 😢.
I really appreciate you sharing your story here. I have a lot of family in active addiction and learning about addiction has drawn me closer to them in love and compassion. I learned from a counselor that withdrawal in addiction causes the same part of the brain to light up as when a person is drowning. The reason and morality parts of the brain turn off and it takes about 45 days for them JUST to turn on again, let alone be fully recovered. Anyways, I'm so grateful you're here and I feel excited about the impact you're making!
Thank you so much for sharing and encouraging ❤
Thank you for sharing Tina. Brave beautiful
Tina I just wanted to let you know how much your videos have helped open my eyes to addiction. I am more understanding and compassionate (I hope) to others from learning about your struggles. Thank you.
Gods kept you alive. Keep helping other recover.
I lost my uncle back in 2016 when I was a sophomore in high school cause of an overdose. Your videos have helped me understand what it was like for him when he was trying to get clean. I miss him so much but am happy you are sober. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy to go through this.
I found those what you found all over my house for probably a year I just would randomly find them in the back of my closet underneath my dresser. Finally one day I just tore through my entire place and flipped it upside down made sure I tried to find everything so I wouldn’t keep finding them. About three years later, I found a couple more things Levi’s on, I was kind of passed them triggering me, but I was definitely surprised and it did not bring back. Pleasant memories.
Thank you for sharing your stories and experiences. So proud of you for recovery era and making difference for evergone ❤
I want you to be so successful in life financially as you are spiritually. You’re an amazing beautiful soul. ❤
I’d love to see a video where you explained some harsh truths you’ve learned about life through & after recovering from addiction. Your honesty, your drive & your appreciation for life is so inspiring ❤
Thank you for your videos! It is inspiring to others. ❤
Thanks for sharing! Love your videos. Got 5 years in July but it's a struggle at times but I could never live that life again.
God bless you. It’s definitely not easy and you’re killing it. Good job
Thank you for sharing your story. It helps so much to hear it’s possible to change ourselves for the better.
God bless you 🙂
I am grateful for you. God has blessed you. You amaze me. ❤❤❤
Do you know it yet Teena.??? You’re a winner. ❤
You should do more storytimes 💜
Im trying to think of some but I will ❤
I love the skits you do bc my husband and I can relate to a freaking T !! Like for real I thought we were the only ones that would do stuff like sleeping in the woods!! Or the car if we had one at the time, we even slept in our storage unit omg 🤦🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️ not knowing where you're going to sleep at night was awful and I'm so thankful we have a house and aren't doing any of that stuff anymore
It takes a lot to admit your wrongdoings. Boy, do I know. I have given all my family and friends access to my weekly UA’s to help hold me accountable. Sounds weird but it really helps me❤❤❤❤❤❤
“Appreciate the little things”, is my motto! Thnx for sharing your stories. 🩷
I'm so happy that you have a comfortable happy life now, I want you to keep spreading your message so we can bring some more people into that life.
That was excellent advice closer to the end. I’m proud of you ❤
Thank you for sharing your stories! You are building a beautiful community and it’s only going to continue to get bigger - I’m so proud of you ❤❤❤
It's one of my favorite videos yet!!❤
i love watching your videos!!