• His parents divorced • His father neglected him and his mom became a drug addicted • He was physically abused by his mom's boyfriend, he is traumatized • His mom died from an overdose when he was 18 • His sister started drinking (taking drugs?) • He deals with anger/trust issues, severe depression, anxiety and was diagnosed with OCD THIS MAN WENT TROUGH A LOT !
Oh, god. I didn't know this. I'm so unbelievably sorry for him and everybody else who experienced even just one of these things. Sadly I can relate to this a lot 💔
@@miua0558 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
@@ale_shorty16 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
Dear Mum, I need you, i need you now, i need you to hear me But you dont, you dont hear me crying You dont hear me screaming in pain whilst i rip my hair out to pieces You dont hear me try and breathe calmly I need you to see me See my numb face that shows im not okay I need you to see how i truly feel But i feel nothing I feel alone I feel scared Im scared to die Im scared to live Im scared to smile Im scared to express how i feel But i hear you I heard u say theres nothing wrong with me I heard you say u would send me to a hospital or a phycotic ward and leave me You would leave me? But i think u did ages ago Im sorry im not enough, im sorry i dont make u smile anymore Im sorry i annoy you Im sorry Why cant u hear me Why cant u see me Why cant u help me. I need you I need you to wipe my tears and say its okay I need you to hug me until all my tears are let out I need you to hold me in your arms and say i love you But you dont But i love you Mum 🥺 ~Harleigh
you shouldn't don't be fool like the ones who lost you you deserve better life then this so make it happen be strong and don't cry cause you are not worthless you are beautiful you are smart you are wise now you have to handle shit cause if you give up on yourself don't wait for others to stick with you please don't do this to yourself you can still help yourself .I love 💚
@@MGLAkia That's the problem, Certain generations dont love themselves anymore, Like me I'm 11 and I'm already going through depression like nothing is happening in my life. We lock ourselves in boxes to isolate ourselves from other's hate and try to lock out our thoughts.
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
I feel you, it gets more scarier, more depressive, more hopeless I just hope one day that dark tunnel shines a little and let light bright it a bit, but until then, id pray for you too I love you even if i dont know you because we are the same
quotes that hit me the hardest "when did i become so numb? when did i lose myself?" "im paralyzed, where are my feelings? i no longer feel things. i know i should. im paralyzed. where is the real me? im lost and it kills me, inside." "when did i become so cold? when did i become ashamed? wheres the person that i know? they must have left, they must have left, with all my faith." "im scared to live, but im scared to die." "im lost and it kills me." "i wanna feel something, im numb inside, but i dont feel nothing, i wonder why?" "im under water, but i feel like im on top of it. im in a box but im the one that locked me in." "im just so paralyzed." *"where is the real me?"*
@@blobblob4174 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
@@irie-ahnatanaka1645 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
When did I become so numb? When did I lose myself? All the words that leave my tongue Feel like they came from someone else I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I’m lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed When did I become so cold? When did I become ashamed? (oh) Where's the person that I know? They must have left They must have left With all my faith I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I’m lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed I'm paralyzed I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago But it's still alive And it's taking over me where am I? I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside But I feel nothing, I wonder why And on the race of life time passes by Look I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em I just watch 'em I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it I'm at the bottom and I don’t know what the problem is I'm in a box But I’m the one who locked me in Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I’m lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed) Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed) I no longer feel things (I have no feelings) I know I should (oh how come I’m not moving why aren’t I moving ay yeah) I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?) I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed) I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)
Lyrics: When did I become so numb? When did I lose myself? All the words that leave my tongue Feel like they came from someone else I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed When did I become so cold? When did I become ashamed? (oh) Where's the person that I know? They must have left They must have left With all my faith I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed I'm paralyzed I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago But it's still alive And it's taking over me where am I? I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why I'm in the race of life and time passed by Look, I sit back and I watch it Hands in my pockets Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em I just watch 'em I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is I'm in a box But I'm the one who locked me in Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen I'm paralyzed Where are my feelings? I no longer feel things I know I should I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? I'm lost and it kills me inside I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed) Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed) I no longer feel things (I have no feelings) I know I should (oh how come I'm not moving why aren't I moving ay yeah) I'm paralyzed Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?) I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed) I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)
Hey big brother You would've been 21 this year,I'm wondering if you can see me from up there, What would life be like if you were still here? I know I've never met you before,but I hope you are doing well. Mom and Dad must've felt horrible after you passed, are you still a baby? Or have you grown,im curious. It would be amazing if you were here,me,you and big sis would have great memories. I just want to say I miss you and hopefully you are watching us. I love you❤️ ~Laurene
Dear mom. I’m paralysed.. you maybe don’t know but ur slowly killing me. Where are my feelings? Nothing is good what I do I try everyday. I smile everyday for you I always ask how you been why don’t u do the same? I’ve been hurting myself so bad just because ur never here .. but you don’t know. So . (From me to my mom)
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
I love to sleep cuz u have no wire there. U have no drama you just feel great but than you wake up and feel depressed,tired. Sad . Angry at the time you put a fake smile on and go to school You go back home no one is home youll go to you’re room and cry till 3 am than you go to sleep while ur hoping you’ll don’t wake up.. Srry for the spam I needed to say it to peeps who I didn’t know cuz I’ve been holding this to long for myself (greets from 13 year old girl with a depression off 4 years)
@@theonewhodidofficial But your not the only one. There are loads out there. I nearly cutted myself but I realised that it wasn't worth it. And If I stopped myself from cutting, I can stop others as well
@@rhysedwards415 I've been there. Ive tried countless times to take my life away. last summer I took pills 17 times. I figured out im immune to most medications now. Then.... I hung myself. My mom cut my rope right before I passed out. She had to let our dogs out, so... yeah... life is shit, but, you gotta keep fighting... your reward will come eventually.
i remember when i was dealing with suicidal thoughts NF always had my back. "i'm scared to live but i'm scared to die" really hits me to this day, because that was exactly how i used to feel. i'm doing much better now, though
this song has so many emotions packed in it i've read some comments of ppl dealing with depression you aren't alone there's someone out there that loves you don't take your life away it just means you gave up you have to fight it make ppl realize you aren't invisible you are also human you have feelings don't let others get to you
@@annie-plzcomeback7910 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
I remember listening to this when I was 10, this song is so comforting and idk why. Just know your loved and I’m so proud of you, you’ve been through stuff I bet and no matter how much you’ve been through whether it’s only a bit or through out your entire life your still here, alive. I love you so much and I’m so proud of you, have a good day. 💗
hey grandpa, its been two years since you left us and it kills me more and more everyday. I miss you like crazy and your picture on my wall makes it feel like you're always watching over me but it feels like im still stuck in the moment you left us, talking about you hurts and hearing about you hurts. I wanna go visit you and talk. to you so badly but im too scared to go in case you see how much I've changed. I know you'd hate it if you saw me cry like this. I love you so much and I miss you like crazy... I can't wait to see you again.
At least your lucky you saw him in your life mine passed away before I was born I never got a chance to spend time with Him he got shot when he was buying a gift for my mom cuz she was pregnant of me but he never got the chance to see me
I listened so much to this song and everytime it gets me I’m dealing with my depression for to long now and I kinda start to lose my feelings.. I mean I always help the sad peeps but they never help me cuz they don’t see it cuz I am “happy” in class I always make. The jokes.. I’m still alive outside but on the inside I’m dead.. ik I’m not alone cuz I’m always reading yall comments.. and it. Hurts me so bad
im not usually a depressed person, but when i heard, "where's the person that i know" i lost it. i just started crying out of nowhere and i dont know why.
“Where is the real me?” “I’m lost and it kills me..” “I’m scared to live but I’m scared to die” -thinking about my life and didn’t noticed that I was crying while listening to this.
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
All the loud voices in my house, all the noise in my class, all the thoughts in my head all goes away when I put in my other headphone and just allows me to melt into my music, you're not alone
The fact is you think you're alone, everywhere you go you don't fit it, you're scared no one's got your back, but you will never have to worry about that because you're not alone, everything will get better so just keep holding on to whatever's left.
anyone else just crying in silence. u don’t know what happened but something happened. even though u have people who love u. u feel like they don’t care. u overthink everything. u get anxiety over everything. u freeze when ur upset. ur go silent when ur with people because u don’t wanna talk cus u feel like it’s annoying them. u feel like everyone around u is just using u. u love someone so much and they say they love u too. but u feel like they are faking it. u sit alone while ur family laughs together downstairs. u don’t get invited to things even that involve ur family. is almost like everyone hates u. so u sit alone in the dark. listening to sad music just staring at the ceiling as the tears just fall. no one even comes up to check on u
To the person who read this, It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here. I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world. You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend. “Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you. In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here. I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay? Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one. If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :) have a good day and great years. I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
Deep words cuz. A lot to read. But I love when you said to not give up & sometimes wonder in your own world because you refuse to let anyone write your story. I relate to that so much because I refuse anyone writing my story, I like to write my own story, I want to be the author and illustrator of my own world. Those who want to be apart of my story can help in the process, nevertheless I’ve also been stuck & caught up in my mind & emotions, when I can’t handle the mental pain no more I start to use my heart & pump into my heart (which is bad :( ) My mind can handle all this I can go up up up up up & then finally just come down but my heart can’t handle this anymore, which is f&@king crazy mate. Then when you finally have enough from harming your insides you start to harm yourself on the outside to not feel the inwardly & internal pain. How can one have a soul when they don’t have a soulmate???
Have you ever been so heartbroken that you've gotten physically sick? This is what that kinda feels like. With whatever you're going through, stay strong, you will survive it ♥
This is the song that plays when I'm looking out my window into the rain, looking back at the good memories I once had, how fun life used to be, looking to this day of how cold the world is now, then falling on to the floor with the window open as I feel the wind upon my face, emotionlessly staring at the feeling as if I've got nothing left to lose, feeling only emptiness as I can feel my heart beat slow down, then closing my eyes and laying down to the floor to cry silently to myself as no one could hear my cries for help, slowly my pain growing into sadness, then anger, then nothing..
Damn 2 years ago i used to listen to this alot and cry I was very emotional and depressed but now I'm very good im not sad or depressed anymore....I need you guys that are here to believe me when I say everything will be okay all I needed to do was to get the toxic people out of my life and not care anymore...I joined Kpop and learned to love myself I advise you to do the same but first you need to stop crying and pick yourself up and do NOT rely on ANYONE EVER! you'll be fine I promise 💕🥺
"I'll always be your friend!" "Promise?" "Pinky" A month later "I love you" "Oh. I don't feel the same" "Oh haha it's fine. It was a joke anyways" When she got home. She cried her eyes out over a girl she thought would love her back. Pretending to smile or laugh around the girl. Only to get home and loose all feeling of faith in her body. "Are you okay?" "Yeah. I'm fine. Just hoping" "For what?" "Love..." "There's always other people out there that will love you" And in her mind all she could think of was "but I want you. Your touch. Your smile. Your eyes. But you never loved me the way I loved you. It hurt knowing you were seeing someone else when I have you all of me"
POV: You are running in a green meadow with your family and friends on a sunny day. It smells like fresh grass. You are running so fast it feels like you are flying. It continues like that for hours untill you are all exhausted. You sit next to a cherry blossom tree and lay down next to your loved ones to stargaze. You can see the pink and orange color from the sunset fade, a new moon as light as a feather. You close your eyes and feel the breeze through your hair. "I see you're finally awake" says a nurse. "I'll call the doctor" *Doctor walks in* "How are you feeling?" he asks. "Numb... Am I ok?" "I'm sorry. You will never be able to walk again."
I listen to this and cry myself to sleep some nights....I cry of the painful memories that I experienced....but hell I’m almost done with school so there’s that....
Holding back my tears has never been as easy as it has lately. I can't hide, I can't cry, I can hardly even feel. What's anger? What's it like to yell? What's it like to speak up and tell people how you feel? How do you feel if you're broken? What's next? What can I do to feel? To live..?
I actually love this. It's nice and peaceful. It is so beautiful I can't stop listening to it. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!!!!! I really wanna continue listening to this because it helps. Thanks for this. I really appreciate it.
Is anyone else failing school right now? I wished this Corona didn’t happen and I could actually go to school instead of online school. Online school is stressing me out and now I’m guilty for not doing anything and getting myself into trouble. I’m sorry Mom and Dad I’ll try my best again, I’m sorry. :(
After years of depression and anxiety, I finally feel like I've made it out, but relapse keeps grabbing hold of me as if I'm not meant to leave the prison yet. I keep trying though and trusting in the process that yes, it will get better... Anyone out there stuck, keep trying even when others don't see the effort you put in. Anyone who's made it out, let us know there's hope...
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know Don’t give up
Sophie English trust me as a faithful Premium subscriber I’d LOVE to put my slowed music on Spotify but I don’t know how and it’s probably not legal. Tbh I’m surprised I’m able to upload anything without it getting taken down. But yes I agree !
Love is a mix of feelings and actions that shows a deep liking for someone or something. Romantic love can lead to things such as dating, marriage and sex, but a person can also feel for friends, such as platonic love, or family.
When you are still here cures you are sad or depressed. Nobody hurt you here...tell what's wrong or you want to say. When everyone shows so love it will work. You are save here.❤
“When did i become so numb… when did I loose myself 😭😖 I no longer feel things, where is the real me, I’m lost an it kills me. 😔 When did I become ashamed, where’s the person that I kno… they must of left” 🖤🌙
Mom, dad if you ever see this let me tell you something. Making me go to a therapist isn't going to help, making me stop contact with all my friends isn't going to help, making me move schools isn't going to help, making me brake up with my girlfriend isn't going to help and the only reason why you did this is because you don't like the thought of your daughter marrying to a girl one day but I still love you. To anyone who's going through this as well you have all my love and support 💕
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I can’t believe the feeedback on this video 😭😭 thank you guys !!!
Slowed Nation pin your comment🤙🏿
Yourwelcome❤
I like it the slowed music awesome
😭😭 congratulations! 🥺
I don't even know you but i love you man
- NF
• His parents divorced
• His father neglected him and his
mom became a drug addicted
• He was physically abused by his
mom's boyfriend, he is traumatized
• His mom died from an overdose when he was 18
• His sister started drinking (taking drugs?)
• He deals with anger/trust issues, severe depression, anxiety and was diagnosed with OCD
THIS MAN WENT TROUGH A LOT !
Is it NF?
@@hannahajenifuja9428 Yes.
Oh, god. I didn't know this. I'm so unbelievably sorry for him and everybody else who experienced even just one of these things. Sadly I can relate to this a lot 💔
@@noranora9944 Stay strong, I love you x🙏🏼💕
Ma¡a j 100th like
“I’m lost and it kills me inside” 💔
Maya Het bijtje yes ....is true 🥺💔💔💔
I've been feeling like I was dying
Same I'm alone , I have nobody
@@miua0558 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
@@ale_shorty16 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
"they must've left
they must've left, with all my faith"
that hits.
Dear Mum,
I need you,
i need you now,
i need you to hear me
But you dont,
you dont hear me crying
You dont hear me screaming in pain whilst i rip my hair out to pieces
You dont hear me try and breathe calmly
I need you to see me
See my numb face that shows im not okay
I need you to see how i truly feel
But i feel nothing
I feel alone
I feel scared
Im scared to die
Im scared to live
Im scared to smile
Im scared to express how i feel
But i hear you
I heard u say theres nothing wrong with me
I heard you say u would send me to a hospital or a phycotic ward and leave me
You would leave me?
But i think u did ages ago
Im sorry im not enough, im sorry i dont make u smile anymore
Im sorry i annoy you
Im sorry
Why cant u hear me
Why cant u see me
Why cant u help me.
I need you
I need you to wipe my tears and say its okay
I need you to hug me until all my tears are let out
I need you to hold me in your arms and say i love you
But you dont
But i love you Mum 🥺
~Harleigh
I - I - I'm so sorry you made realize all the heavy promblems that we have, im sorry😖 if u have insta tell your nickname to follow you!
That whole thing just made me cry
Wow.. just wow you are amazing.. i feel you dont give up
oh my god..
That actually got me,
“I’m scared to live but I’m scared to die”
But it’s still alive!
Me too
Jordan Sanchez same
same...
@@rhysedwards415 what does it matter? if "alive" doesnt consist any meaning anymore?
We are just depressive people who tell other depressive people that suicide is not the answer
felt this😔
Yeah that's pretty true
but the thing is
it isnt the answer.
its a choice. just not an answer.
I feel it 😔💔
I have done that so many times with other people when I just want to die but I’m scared and I don’t want to leave my family
*When did I loose myself...*
This hits different!!........ 😢
lose*
TaZzY Smith 💀😂
I lost myself a long time ago... I don't even remember when
you shouldn't don't be fool like the ones who lost you you deserve better life then this so make it happen be strong and don't cry cause you are not worthless you are beautiful you are smart you are wise now you have to handle shit cause if you give up on yourself don't wait for others to stick with you please don't do this to yourself you can still help yourself .I love 💚
This is real crying music
Truth 6-6 :/
The same I’m crying now💔😭
I hold my tears so that no one noticed my distress and all my scars ^^ !!
@@shoko6556 What? Where is the sense
I can't cry anymore
I'm actually mad this doesn't have over a million views...
fr
@@izzy22332 thank you both :D
@@slowednation999 you legit deserve so much better than a simple few hundred views
Thundrrr thank you 🙌💯
Should have a billion views!!!!! Oh, the tears flow from this song!
I'm in a box, but I'm the one who locked me in...
Caroline Tindle and you are the only one who can get yourself out, the key of loving yourself is the way out take care honey..
@@MGLAkia Dang Tae u hit me in inspiration. I hope u have a very bright life
Suffocating and running out of oxygen...
TaeTae_ Agust that may be the reason as to why one can be locked in a box
@@MGLAkia That's the problem, Certain generations dont love themselves anymore, Like me I'm 11 and I'm already going through depression like nothing is happening in my life. We lock ourselves in boxes to isolate ourselves from other's hate and try to lock out our thoughts.
*as if it couldn't get any deeper...*
*edit: why is it age-restricted?*
@Alyissa Carter *yeah, I'm so confused.*
idk i can’t even listen to it..
Probably cause it triggers depression
Mya Caitlynn that’s messed up and I have no clue why
Yeah I’m wondering the same thing. Can I change that ? Maybe a re-upload ?
People say that life goes on. But to me that's the saddest part.
Life goes On In it's saddest momments...
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
Life goes on...That's the most beautiful thing about life.
I feel you, it gets more scarier, more depressive, more hopeless
I just hope one day that dark tunnel shines a little and let light bright it a bit, but until then, id pray for you too
I love you even if i dont know you because we are the same
quotes that hit me the hardest
"when did i become so numb? when did i lose myself?"
"im paralyzed, where are my feelings? i no longer feel things. i know i should. im paralyzed. where is the real me? im lost and it kills me, inside."
"when did i become so cold? when did i become ashamed? wheres the person that i know? they must have left, they must have left, with all my faith."
"im scared to live, but im scared to die."
"im lost and it kills me."
"i wanna feel something, im numb inside, but i dont feel nothing, i wonder why?"
"im under water, but i feel like im on top of it. im in a box but im the one that locked me in."
"im just so paralyzed."
*"where is the real me?"*
Damn this song is age restricted this really does hit hard
This seems the type of song you listen to while laying on your rooftop and watching the starts at night.
Thanks for the comment
I might actually do that😊
I can’t get on my roof. I live in england
I want to do this but its too cold sadly
@@HelloWorld-cz8mwme too I wish I could sit on the roof tho
Or when you jump..
You ever just cry so hard you can't breathe?..
right now...
I do and it hurts
I cry so hard I get a headache
@@blobblob4174 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
@@irie-ahnatanaka1645 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I’m lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed
When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (oh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I’m lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
But it's still alive
And it's taking over me where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I feel nothing, I wonder why
And on the race of life time passes by
Look
I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don’t know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I’m the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I’m lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed)
Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (oh how come I’m not moving why aren’t I moving ay yeah)
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)
Goodbye everone
Could you send this me on ig plz ors fuckyoumarket69 my ig
@@randyfiles3909 nah dont go
@@randyfiles3909 Don't leave keep fighting I hope you're still with us. You are loved!!
@@jorja9758 nope no you can't so please stay
Lyrics:
When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed
When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (oh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed
I'm paralyzed
I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
But it's still alive
And it's taking over me where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I don't feel nothing, I wonder why
I'm in the race of life and time passed by
Look, I sit back and I watch it
Hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm underwater but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen
I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed)
Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (oh how come I'm not moving why aren't I moving ay yeah)
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed)
Thank uu
gets u deep in the feels when its slowed down... damn
Hey big brother
You would've been 21 this year,I'm wondering if you can see me from up there, What would life be like if you were still here? I know I've never met you before,but I hope you are doing well. Mom and Dad must've felt horrible after you passed, are you still a baby? Or have you grown,im curious. It would be amazing if you were here,me,you and big sis would have great memories. I just want to say I miss you and hopefully you are watching us. I love you❤️ ~Laurene
Yeontan Sonyeondan oh im sorry i hope he rest in peace🖤
eslipxx21 i completely agree.
Rest in Love ❤ He keeps his eyes on you. You're safe with him ....
🥺 I’m so sorry
Damn that's my brothers age
After a shitty day, where not even people can calm you down, this music does.✨
True
Dear mom.
I’m paralysed.. you maybe don’t know but ur slowly killing me. Where are my feelings? Nothing is good what I do I try everyday. I smile everyday for you I always ask how you been why don’t u do the same? I’ve been hurting myself so bad just because ur never here .. but you don’t know. So .
(From me to my mom)
Don’t worry……your not alone :):
Isabella Gacha glad to know that 🥺
Maya _xd_cx I’m here for you!!
Isabella Gacha thx for Being here for me.💞 you’re the only one who knows and cares rn
Maya _xd_cx no problem I know how it feels my dad left me when I was 3
Where are my feelings..? I no longer feel things... I know I should...😢💔
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
@@Haramglizzy lmao. Thank you. But I don't believe in bullshit.
This is so beautiful 😪♥️
SunnyJim thank you
I love to sleep cuz u have no wire there. U have no drama you just feel great but than you wake up and feel depressed,tired. Sad . Angry at the time you put a fake smile on and go to school
You go back home no one is home youll go to you’re room and cry till 3 am than you go to sleep while ur hoping you’ll don’t wake up..
Srry for the spam I needed to say it to peeps who I didn’t know cuz I’ve been holding this to long for myself (greets from 13 year old girl with a depression off 4 years)
Maya _xd_cx this couldn’t be any more real 💔
You haven't been told to kill urself 15.. 20.. it's hard to count. But you get what I'm saying. ... Right?
@@theonewhodidofficial But your not the only one. There are loads out there. I nearly cutted myself but I realised that it wasn't worth it. And If I stopped myself from cutting, I can stop others as well
Zo voel ik me...
@@rhysedwards415 I've been there. Ive tried countless times to take my life away. last summer I took pills 17 times. I figured out im immune to most medications now. Then.... I hung myself. My mom cut my rope right before I passed out. She had to let our dogs out, so... yeah... life is shit, but, you gotta keep fighting... your reward will come eventually.
i remember when i was dealing with suicidal thoughts NF always had my back. "i'm scared to live but i'm scared to die" really hits me to this day, because that was exactly how i used to feel. i'm doing much better now, though
this song has so many emotions packed in it
i've read some comments of ppl dealing with depression
you aren't alone
there's someone out there that loves you
don't take your life away
it just means you gave up
you have to fight it
make ppl realize you aren't invisible
you are also human
you have feelings
don't let others get to you
Hes a broken hearted singer, but at least he has the talent to help us all feel connected with our issues Thank you NF❤🔥
This actually makes me sad...
Same😔💔
@@annie-plzcomeback7910 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
"Where is the person I used to know" "They must have They must have left" I felt that 2:03
I remember listening to this when I was 10, this song is so comforting and idk why.
Just know your loved and I’m so proud of you, you’ve been through stuff I bet and no matter how much you’ve been through whether it’s only a bit or through out your entire life your still here, alive. I love you so much and I’m so proud of you, have a good day. 💗
hey grandpa, its been two years since you left us and it kills me more and more everyday. I miss you like crazy and your picture on my wall makes it feel like you're always watching over me but it feels like im still stuck in the moment you left us, talking about you hurts and hearing about you hurts. I wanna go visit you and talk. to you so badly but im too scared to go in case you see how much I've changed. I know you'd hate it if you saw me cry like this. I love you so much and I miss you like crazy... I can't wait to see you again.
Are you okay? This made me cry..
And my dear grandmother i miss you so bad please talk to me
At least your lucky you saw him in your life mine passed away before I was born I never got a chance to spend time with Him he got shot when he was buying a gift for my mom cuz she was pregnant of me but he never got the chance to see me
I haven’t cried so hard in a very long time. Depression is a battle
I listened so much to this song and everytime it gets me I’m dealing with my depression for to long now and I kinda start to lose my feelings.. I mean I always help the sad peeps but they never help me cuz they don’t see it cuz I am “happy” in class I always make. The jokes.. I’m still alive outside but on the inside I’m dead.. ik I’m not alone cuz I’m always reading yall comments.. and it. Hurts me so bad
Maya _xd_cx I know how you feel.. I’m sorry. I’m suffering too
Slowed Nation i hope we can be happy Alain tho..
@@jacksonkolijn same
🌈The sun will shine again i promise☀️💖❄🌸🦋☁️💜💗🎶💙❤💕🖤❣💘
Same..
"where are my feelings, I no longer feel things." And that's what it feels like when you cry everyday and then you just become numb..
This song makes my entire life flash before my eyes. The nostalgia and memories, bad and good moments. How much we’ve changed over the years.
im not usually a depressed person, but when i heard, "where's the person that i know" i lost it. i just started crying out of nowhere and i dont know why.
“Where is the real me?”
“I’m lost and it kills me..”
“I’m scared to live but I’m scared to die”
-thinking about my life and didn’t noticed that I was crying while listening to this.
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
All the loud voices in my house, all the noise in my class, all the thoughts in my head all goes away when I put in my other headphone and just allows me to melt into my music, you're not alone
The fact is you think you're alone, everywhere you go you don't fit it, you're scared no one's got your back, but you will never have to worry about that because you're not alone, everything will get better so just keep holding on to whatever's left.
This song makes me think of my crush and him not having a clue that I exist...
I feel you :,)
I feel you babe. My crush told me, that he don't give a fuc* about me..
Anna Fűllová I love you.
Anna Fűllová he doesn’t deserve you
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anyone else just crying in silence. u don’t know what happened but something happened. even though u have people who love u. u feel like they don’t care. u overthink everything. u get anxiety over everything. u freeze when ur upset. ur go silent when ur with people because u don’t wanna talk cus u feel like it’s annoying them. u feel like everyone around u is just using u. u love someone so much and they say they love u too. but u feel like they are faking it. u sit alone while ur family laughs together downstairs. u don’t get invited to things even that involve ur family. is almost like everyone hates u. so u sit alone in the dark. listening to sad music just staring at the ceiling as the tears just fall. no one even comes up to check on u
“I’m paralyzed, where are my feelings💔?”
as much as this song makes me cry it also calms me down its just so pecful like the song understands me but no one else dose
To the person who read this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years.
I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
im crying im genuinely crying rn cuz ur sweet words they bring me comfort and thank u so much
Deep words cuz. A lot to read. But I love when you said to not give up & sometimes wonder in your own world because you refuse to let anyone write your story. I relate to that so much because I refuse anyone writing my story, I like to write my own story, I want to be the author and illustrator of my own world. Those who want to be apart of my story can help in the process, nevertheless I’ve also been stuck & caught up in my mind & emotions, when I can’t handle the mental pain no more I start to use my heart & pump into my heart (which is bad :( )
My mind can handle all this I can go up up up up up & then finally just come down but my heart can’t handle this anymore, which is f&@king crazy mate.
Then when you finally have enough from harming your insides you start to harm yourself on the outside to not feel the inwardly & internal pain.
How can one have a soul when they don’t have a soulmate???
why is this song so perfect?
Have you ever been so heartbroken that you've gotten physically sick? This is what that kinda feels like. With whatever you're going through, stay strong, you will survive it ♥
2020 and it's almost 2021 and yet I can still relate to each of these lyrics on a whole different level.
This is the song that plays when I'm looking out my window into the rain, looking back at the good memories I once had, how fun life used to be, looking to this day of how cold the world is now, then falling on to the floor with the window open as I feel the wind upon my face, emotionlessly staring at the feeling as if I've got nothing left to lose, feeling only emptiness as I can feel my heart beat slow down, then closing my eyes and laying down to the floor to cry silently to myself as no one could hear my cries for help, slowly my pain growing into sadness, then anger, then nothing..
Damn 2 years ago i used to listen to this alot and cry I was very emotional and depressed but now I'm very good im not sad or depressed anymore....I need you guys that are here to believe me when I say everything will be okay all I needed to do was to get the toxic people out of my life and not care anymore...I joined Kpop and learned to love myself I advise you to do the same but first you need to stop crying and pick yourself up and do NOT rely on ANYONE EVER! you'll be fine I promise 💕🥺
I can't actually express how much I love NF with words
Thank you for everything NF thank you and everyone in the comments never lose hope ily all
"I'll always be your friend!"
"Promise?"
"Pinky"
A month later
"I love you"
"Oh. I don't feel the same"
"Oh haha it's fine. It was a joke anyways"
When she got home. She cried her eyes out over a girl she thought would love her back. Pretending to smile or laugh around the girl. Only to get home and loose all feeling of faith in her body.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. Just hoping"
"For what?"
"Love..."
"There's always other people out there that will love you"
And in her mind all she could think of was "but I want you. Your touch. Your smile. Your eyes. But you never loved me the way I loved you. It hurt knowing you were seeing someone else when I have you all of me"
POV: You are running in a green meadow with your family and friends on a sunny day. It smells like fresh grass. You are running so fast it feels like you are flying. It continues like that for hours untill you are all exhausted. You sit next to a cherry blossom tree and lay down next to your loved ones to stargaze. You can see the pink and orange color from the sunset fade, a new moon as light as a feather. You close your eyes and feel the breeze through your hair.
"I see you're finally awake" says a nurse. "I'll call the doctor"
*Doctor walks in*
"How are you feeling?" he asks.
"Numb... Am I ok?"
"I'm sorry. You will never be able to walk again."
Thank you for this comment
@soha javed Thank you 💙
....y/n enters the chat
HAh, I'm green-- Sorry i'll go
2:53-3:25 is the best thing I've ever heard
NF is possibly the most broken person I know. He deserves so much love❤️
By the way, AMAZING job at this!
I love this version so much oml, it's so good! 😍😭❤
BTS Trash Lord. ARMY!!
This song always reminds me that as a Man You have to live and accept that one day you may not come back home🕊️💙
This is probably the 1000th time I listen to this beautiful masterpiece and it still gives me goosebumps, and hits so hard.
Thanks so much for this touching piece 🎗
omg this sounds so good
i need more nf songs
This songs puts me in a mood....This is the best song I've listened ever
These lyrics hit different when you know how it actually feels
I listen to this and cry myself to sleep some nights....I cry of the painful memories that I experienced....but hell I’m almost done with school so there’s that....
That piano piece at the end hits hard...💯
First song of NF's that I heard, and i never knew it what his until now. Still hits just as hard.
the last bit of serotonin in my brain watching me listen to this- “well i guess we’re out of here. hope she has fun”
Holding back my tears has never been as easy as it has lately. I can't hide, I can't cry, I can hardly even feel. What's anger? What's it like to yell? What's it like to speak up and tell people how you feel? How do you feel if you're broken?
What's next? What can I do to feel? To live..?
I actually love this. It's nice and peaceful. It is so beautiful I can't stop listening to it. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!!!!! I really wanna continue listening to this because it helps. Thanks for this. I really appreciate it.
you're very welcome
Is anyone else failing school right now? I wished this Corona didn’t happen and I could actually go to school instead of online school. Online school is stressing me out and now I’m guilty for not doing anything and getting myself into trouble. I’m sorry Mom and Dad I’ll try my best again, I’m sorry. :(
Same here.
After years of depression and anxiety, I finally feel like I've made it out, but relapse keeps grabbing hold of me as if I'm not meant to leave the prison yet. I keep trying though and trusting in the process that yes, it will get better...
Anyone out there stuck, keep trying even when others don't see the effort you put in.
Anyone who's made it out, let us know there's hope...
Even if the slowed version of this song is 2 years old im glad i found the version to suit my soul....thank you for making it 💓
"Mabye it's not the fear that measures our pain..
But the fake smiles I put on everyday..
I try my best to hide my depression"..
But I cant..
Omg this song is so perfect I love it!!!
This song helps me know I'm not alone in the world that has split perants and a broken family and life
This hits hard 💔😭
In a weird way this song makes me happy. I've listened to it like 5 times in a row...
do you ever just stare at yourself whilst shaking and crying and wonder, "when did it get like this?". Because, same...
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up
@@Haramglizzy thank you ilyt
Omg! This needs to go on spotify! Please 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼😍😍😍
Sophie English trust me as a faithful Premium subscriber I’d LOVE to put my slowed music on Spotify but I don’t know how and it’s probably not legal. Tbh I’m surprised I’m able to upload anything without it getting taken down. But yes I agree !
Oh my god this hit me hard
Ikr
🥺🥺🥺
NF songs are the best when it comes to emotional
this song hits different when it’s slowed down🥺🥺
Almost all his songs sound better like this
Damn, this cuts deeper and deeper ❤️😩
Just when I thought this song couldn't get any better
damn bro that's crazy
A sad song thats not about fucking breakup finally
Damn I’m in love with this song 🤞🏻
Love is a mix of feelings and actions that shows a deep liking for someone or something. Romantic love can lead to things such as dating, marriage and sex, but a person can also feel for friends, such as platonic love, or family.
Omg heard this slowed down version first time after hearing this song many times and it's like wow 😐❤❤❤❤ no caption needed 🥀🔥
When you are still here cures you are sad or depressed.
Nobody hurt you here...tell what's wrong or you want to say.
When everyone shows so love it will work.
You are save here.❤
I used to listen to this song on an endless loop back in 11th grade, this just brings back so many memories and nostalgia man
You should definitely do more songs like this especially with the way the vibes are it has my heart keep up the good work.
You can literally feel his crying in this song.. like losing your state of mind, staring at blank, thinking it's the end..
Love this version💕💕
“When did i become so numb… when did I loose myself 😭😖 I no longer feel things, where is the real me, I’m lost an it kills me.
😔 When did I become ashamed, where’s the person that I kno… they must of left” 🖤🌙
You are broken until it reaches a point u can't be fixed
We are not crying. The song is crying.
I don't think I've cried so much to a slowed down song in my life
The best song! Great job👏❤
Just listened to this on two separate phones on two separate portable speakers to get that 3D effect, and this sounds FUCKING AMAZING.
David O’Connell that’s awesome 😂
this song just speaks all the unexplainable negative emotions that i feel and it's beautiful
Mom, dad if you ever see this let me tell you something. Making me go to a therapist isn't going to help, making me stop contact with all my friends isn't going to help, making me move schools isn't going to help, making me brake up with my girlfriend isn't going to help and the only reason why you did this is because you don't like the thought of your daughter marrying to a girl one day but I still love you.
To anyone who's going through this as well you have all my love and support 💕