Tomorrow, my brother would have been 43 years old. We lost him when he was 23 years old. He will be gone 20 years this August. I miss him as much today as I did the day we lost him.
This song was written about my Brother, Todd Wooton (10th Mountain) I miss him every day. He took his life while sitting next to a River he used to fish on. lindacreater7465, some days are better than other days, I am sorry for your loss. I know it is tough, we just fight for the next day.
@@5150azI’m 10th Mount and I know a lot of Brothers and Sisters have you in their hands. Some are confused about losing a Brother or Sister. I am not! Your Brother is a hero in my eyes. I’m near that point seriously,trying to reach out, but I’m not getting anyone. I’m here for you all. You don’t know how much to hear about someone else that was my Brother I wish I was there for him. I will never forget him, I’m not going anywhere and he will help me help more. My kids don’t believe me and my so called friends are not answering
Man. I’m 23 and everyday is a constant struggle I’m so behind my peers. I’ve had my share of legal troubles and never been a good family member despite wanting to be. Everyday I just think about how me leaving would affect them. Think about trying to convince them I’m moving to a new country to start over and just disappear but really end it all. Idk why but seeing this comment. That’s 20 years later. After everything else that’s happened in those 20 years you haven’t moved on or gotten past it and it makes me wanna keep going so I don’t have to put my family through that. Im very sorry for your loss but grateful you shared your story it may have saved me life. Thank you
Its not just loneliness. Its emptiness that cant be explained. No matter how many people love you no matter how many people support you you can still feel empty and alone
It's the despair. You feel like you've been fighting your whole life to be the person that everyone expects you to be, but eventually the chronic stress, sleep-deprivation, and general cruelty of those around you, and the apathy of those you try to talk to about what you're going through, just wear you down; and you feel many many years older than you really are. 'Till finally you just can't take any more; and you reach for that bottle of sleeping pills, or that razor, or that gun. Even the void of non-existence, is preferable to a living hell with no end in sight.
@@spctwitchy I am sorry. That was what my life was like every day, in high school. I eventually made it through; but I still have PTSD from those years. I suppose that I'll always carry those scars with me. Is school the source of your depression, too?
@@spctwitchy I'm so sorry. My uncle's time in the military drove him to become an alcoholic. It took years for him to beat his addiction. Did you apply to have get a PTSD service dog? I hear that the military pays for all of your medical needs, for life, as long as you were honorably discharged.
As a former marine who's wife left him in the middle of combat deployment i get how a man would do this bc I think about it everyday more than I honestly care to admit
You know, even years later this song still gets to me. My buddy in the Marines lost his fight.. no one saw it coming, I almost lost mine after that. I'm here today because of my wife. It's a struggle, not everyone manages to work through it sadly.
I get you my son lost his fight I was also there for a whole year afterwards. It's not loneliest it's not even 5hat people are there as I was for my son. He just obviously thought he couldn't go on anymore 😢
One thing is certain; no one gives a damn, until a person is dead. Then, all the sudden, everyone cares, write songs, cry, even cook good food, and eat. Even though, just a few hours before, nobody looked your way, nobody listened to music with you, nobody talked to you, or said anything about God, nobody offered any food, nothing. In another few hours, everyone will go right back to not giving a damn, and in less than six months no one will remember your name. That's how you get that lonely
God cares Walter, and God knows your name, knows you and will never forget you. He loves you and is with you even if you can't feel Him. His love is unconditional and will hold you even when others hurt and let you down. Please turn to Him. He knows the pain and He has the tender healing....it may come slowly. May God bless you.
Wrong so fucking wrong I was always there for my son 5 years later I'm still suffering with my loss of his life so what you ar3 saying is so fuking pish. It's the feeling off thinking that you are no good for anybody. That you are a failure to everybody to every part off your life and that every1 will be better off without you as I have felt so many times since the loss of my 1st born my son that I loved all my life and was there for all of his
@@amandaa.6545I don't know for the only light in my life (my love and unborn twins). Where taken from me 12 years 9 months 22 days 18 hours ago and I still have the hurt. Everyone at my former church were you should of died insted of them (her parents always hated me. Wanted her to be a house wife. But I just told her fallow her heart for she wanted to be an er doc). When she passed her parents lied to everyone to where they dammed me to hell for years till they got blue in the face and I showed them a copy of the police report of. I tried to avoid the drunk driver I ignored my broken bones cuts burns just to get her to safety my refusal to be treated till she was out of the woods. There face realization of we were bad mouthing him and he was putting her 100% first just made them double down since it's im right your wrong. But this is from God fearing holyer the holy people
Sometimes it feels like it would be so much easier to just slip away. No more pressure to be an adult. No more worry about taking care of everyone around u and finances. Just peace.
Not the answer we have to believe that it will get better. This world has a way of breaking us down we just can’t let it win. There is a plan and it seems distant but he will get you through just talk to god he can heal. I know cause I tried that dark path and he showed me the light. My friend tried the other night but I called on him and he saved his life.
I wish people understood that it isn’t about being lonely. You can have a room full of people around you who say they love you but when you’re depressed it doesn’t matter.
So right. When the chemicals in your brain are not right, you don't get the expected results. Things that would normally make you feel good just can't. The right Seratonin and Dopamine levels.
People who suffer to the point of contemplating suicide … usually have experienced so much trauma in their lives (childhood or as an adult). Untreated it can destroy lives and/or take them away
@robertkemp185 I don't know the statistics on that. I can only say it is true in my case. I was lucky because my gun misfired, and I got the help I needed. Finally got the right diagnosis and medicine so that I can get back to living again. As a nation, our record and approach to mental health has been appalling. But it looks to be turning a corner. There is still a lot to do removing the stigma attached to mental health problems.
I don't think a lot of people understand this song isn't about the loneliness but more about how do the ones around us not see the pain until it's too late ❤
Because mental illness has no time period or specific actions they have to do, most likely the family members had heard it other times and most people do just blow off steam and never follow through with it because that's right down the strike lane. It is the easiest way out of, long suffering as it said to do
For sure! Our grandaon didn't. He was a gamer and his last message said he was lonely. I just heard this song roday. Too many young are taking their lives.
@jbrown4137 completely agree! However, I think our loved ones are left questioning all they didn't see. "Was there something I could've done?" "Maybe I didn't say or show how much I loved them." ❤️ it's a sad cycle and honestly no one knows how bad a person is hurting because most times it's amazingly hidden
There are many reasons why we feel empty and alone.. no one will ever understand our reasons why.. this song makes me cry but also drives me to push forward
It's the worst feeling in the world. Loneliness is a pain that forms a hole to the point you're numb. You don't feel wanted, loved, or appreciated... and worst yet... you don't feel like you exist... you feel completely invisible, especially when you cry out for help. It's like no one hears you.... it's painful...beyond words.
It's the fact that you feel invisible. That your just gonna ge judged for opening up about your hurt. Your confusion. Abiut how you don't know how to get rid of the feeling.
@erinking5013 it's even worse yet when those you do say something to about how you're feeling just ignore it and pretend that what you say doesn't matter.
My cousin took his life at 16. This song came out literally the next day. He struggled with mental illness for years and when his girlfriend broke up with him it was the last straw. I wished she'd have told his parents they broke up so someone could have been watching out for him.
Most people (Thank GOD!) don't understand the darkness.That inner voice that reminds you you are worthless, helpless, a burden to you and those you love. Most people don't understand the stuggle to get out of bed in the morning and do your best even though you know it won't be anywhere near enough. Suicide doesn't seem like just an end to your own pain but a way to ease the pain of those around you because they will no longer have to deal with you. Please pray for those with depression they are fighting battles eveyday
According to my son's note he left, this is absolutely true. He said he didn't want to be a burden anymore and was tired of the temptations of alcohol and wanted me to know it wasn't my fault in any way and wanted me to have a happy life. I miss him with my every breath and will until I take my last.💔😢💔
I lost son to suicide, 5 years ago.. since than I lost my marriage, n good paying job, n I think about not living everyday... But I know my other 4 kids need me.. but I feel useless n helpless bc I'm stuck in a world that I don't want to be in.. I know that battle everyday n struggle to get out of bed everyday
@@jays3330 my sister also struggles daily as a result from her son's suicide . I feel her pain as well as my own . plz don't give up ! Your other children need you more than you could ever imagine . try to stay strong ! My sister and I do fundraisers and walk for life annually , just to try and bring awareness to the world . its hard , but make the life you lost bring good things to others in need . he will always be w you ! My sister also , finally after 5 years joined a support group that has helped her deal w some of hwr pain . God bless you always !
Haven't heard this in years. Still think of it from time to time. To my fellow depression & anxiety & ptsd & ocd & adhd & many more mental health issue SOLDIERS ❤ -- KEEP FIGHTING . 🫂
@@gailwilson7577seek help though the othe ppl that love him. You gain power as a collective, and also will maginify a group of people that appreciate him. Even if he had no family, he has ppl he encou ters day to day that "see" his place and impact on the world. Don't hesitate, your time could be well running out.
That's actually pretty dang true especially for my "family". I prefer the term blood relatives. No one gives a shit about anyone and when they die they put on an act. I'm the last of my bloodline that seems to care about anyone but themselves. I was abused and abused and abused by so called family. It hurts. No one knows how broken I am. I always put on a face that doesn't look broken. I tried being more open about it but no one cares to hear it. I cant trust anyone now. Not anymore. A guy who was like a brother to me turned on me all because of lies his ex told. Before that, we were like brothers. That ol boy saved my life from a suicide attempt. He sat me down afterwards, and told me he was once in my shoes. He showed me this song. Every time I get upset I listen to this song. Helps me realize I'm not actually alone. I just really wish I hadn't have lost him. I feel so alone now. He was the only friend I had. I got a last name that no one likes. All my other friends left me for either drugs or they just didnt wanna be around me for various reasons none of which were in my control. I guarentee that when ever I do die that every single one will show up. You are absolutely right.
I live it. I'm tired of bipolar disorder . I'm tired of being controlled why should I live? I wanna go home and be with Jesus. It is not always a selfish act to commit suicide.
+Evan White I understand what you're going through, but at the same time, how could you or I take our own lives and, in doing so, tell Jesus that the life He gave us wasn't worth living. Life never gets easier, but the Lord makes us stronger, and guides us through life, and when we have grown in our faith fully, Then Jesus will call us home again. You will get stringer, you will make it friend
I understand, and i apologize if i criticized your pain. From my experience, God's agenda has never been to make our lives easier, and He never meant for us to feel this way. I fully believe that what we do with the crap in life we've been handed is what God is looking at. Times of depression are a completely natural part of life, but to live in that day after day is not what was intended for us. It may take years to get out of depression as it did for me, but when the day comes that the good things start happening it will be because we stop looking at everything wrong in our lives and begin looking at everything good, no matter how small the good is. and those small thoughts make all the difference in the world for me.
+Evan White son I dont know about bi polarism but I know this son. I lost my son to an I.E.D. in Afghanastan. I have lost about 16 buddies I served with to suicide caused by PTSD. Trust me young man suicide is no answer. You will leave behind more hurt and sorry than your problem can ever cause. No my son didnt kill himself, but I have to wake up everyday and know he wont call so we can talk sports and I will never hear "I love you old man". you ever need someone to talk to Im here
It's been 15yrs since I've tried committing suicide and now I work in a mental hospital helping people through their suicide attempts. I listen to the song when it first came out and I'm still listening to it today because it really hits home for me not only because of the attempt but it helps me save lives at my job. Thank you Blaine Larson.
I know the loneliness depression causes. Growing up with careless parents, being the shy girl whos always judged and put down, wondering why you're here, feeling like dieing, cutting not for show but to take pain off your heart, pretending you arent hurting yet crying every night im alone. It took a lot of fighting within myself to over look horrible, angry, selfish people and make myself happy and push past feeling empty. Still some part of me, when thinking about the past, can make my heart hurt a bit but now its more of a disappointment that it happened but I can look up now and be able to smile a real smile. That battle takes time, even a few kind words from even one stranger can make the world of difference. I try to be that person now who will lift another person with a smile and kind words ❤
Its hard to keep going when you're facing depression. Its like a constant voice telling you youre better dead. When youre depressed you tell ypurself no one knows. You hide it because you feel like a burden
I BROKE DOWN WHEN I HEARD THIS SONG..... BECAUSE IT IS AS IF IT WAS WRITTEN FOR ME...I DON'T THINK IT CAN EVER BE SAID ANY BETTER THAN THIS...... AMAZING INSIGHT!!!!!!!!
I grew up in a meth head home, alone in the two kids from my husband who is beaten by his dad with two kids. We are a family of sex and I will fight for them no matter what or who! ❤ We've been together ten years
I am a child of this scenario. My mom was the partner of a suicide victim. I appreciated this song more than anyone could know. I am glad it helped someone else too. Please reach out if you need help.
Each day we constantly war. We ask this to ourselves. Are we going to win this time or are we finally going to just give up. The constant emptiness and the ups and downs make us wonder if anyone can see the war is a constant battle field that we're sometimes not sure if we have much left at the end of our day.
Been there. Song describes every feeling when you are at your lowest. Life. Realizes depression it’s like hibernation while reminiscing about the beautiful things in life.
It is very easy to hide a broken heart and a damaged spirit with a smile you can be hurting and still let everyone think everything is okay I know this from experience I suffer from depression I can fool people all around me but I can't lie to myself
@@vincentbowman9884 you are not worthless. Nobody in this world ever and I mean ever is worthless. You are loved and special to those around you. I believe in you Vincent.
I’m a 47 year old man dealing with depression and anxiety for the first time in my life and I know it’s hard to ask for help but remember you have plenty of people who love and want to care for you so please don’t give up and remember if you’re having the worst day of your life then tomorrow will be better ❤
The friendliest face is the one that is hurting the most. To make others feel good and happy. To make them feel better. Why? Because you, yourself don’t feel like you’re the best. You feel alone. Scared. Tired. Irritated. Quiet. Shy. You just want to hide and act like the present is real. You want to relive the beautiful past that you thought was beautiful. I’m still struggling. And it hurts me to see others feeling what I have felt, what I am feeling, what will happen. Being alone is sometimes a curable yet a fatal choice.
People think about ending it it's when they lost everything the pain that life causes it's too much to hold onto they cannot stand living one more day for one more minute I think nothing's going to help it's never going to get better nobody cares
We try to make others happy. So we justify our purpose to live. Eventually that fails us to and we get further lost in the thoughts of death and loneliness. Their is no escape in our mind
All ive known is pain i suffered to make others happy. Now i hide alone feeling the pain. Its sad to watch others be so happy. But at least they are. Life is painful and we indure
@rotweilerdc it's not I have met this artist multiple times and have heard him sing right in front of me no microphone! He is so incredible! This was years ago you should hear him now
@@rotweilerdc no you should hear him talk. The kid that killed himself is from my hometown went to my school. His grandmother lived next-door to my ex-wife. It was all over a girl The guy that wrote the song is Joey of the Joey and Rory, duo husband and wife and she passed away from cancer a few years ago. He lives a few miles away from me, but he’s wrote several songs like some beach somewhere and many more.
With his voice I'll never know why he didn't make it bigger than he did. Cause I love to hear him sing and listen to the story he tells with so much emotion.
You probably will not understand this. So he probably would not join the free masons. Or the illuminati. Yes he must join one. Tim McGraw, Faith Hill etc.. Reba.. Pop rap country, it's scary behind the scenes. But I bet he choose not to sell his soul for fame and wealth.
@@freemangriffin4953....He was writing, recording, performing in videos and switching labels. But the musical life dramatically took a turn. Larsen now works with Search Nashville, a nonprofit, interdenominational organization. Larsen had attended a Search small-group session and, in 2012, he had transitioned into full-time ministry.
@BrandonDickenson35 I honestly don't know. I have no one to talk to but my kids. Atleast I have them though. Thank you for asking I really appreciate it.
Me too. I think with me though, it's because I've been there. Knew how I was going to end it, everything. But then I looked at my girls' pictures on the wall and realized that no matter what I was going through, I could not do that to them, take away their mama, and I couldn't do that to my parents or siblings.
You get lonely when no one understands, you don't get "empty " you're filled with emotions that no one understands. I ended my life 2 yrs ago for some reason I was saved and still wish today. I was never here... a child with cancer or something was way more important. Than I've ever been.. you get that lonely because people are to busy to hear you or think they think that thay do no wrong.. even when you try to fix something it's always wrong.. that's how it's easier to go than stay.
every time I hear this song I get tears in my eyes...because I know how easy it is to feel lonely, even when surrounded by a room full of people...and trust me, nobody notices.
See even u three that replied it's a simple one j know how u feel like if u fucking knew how we felt or this person felt u would say more clearly u have no fucking idea how it feels
I know how this feels i work every day 6 days from 730am to sometimes past 530pm every night i come home to being by myself all the time loneliness kicks me in the butt my faith in finding someone is starting to faulted
u get that lonely when everyone turns their backs on you, when everything u do ain't enough, when after trying ur hardest you just give up & yet everyone who says they're there for you ain't really there....
that is so tru you think the person you love loves u the same but when. u get in a situation thats when. they turn there backs on you you get critised for everything you do and all your trying to do Is gain acceptance and love from them you get really Lonely and depressed
I had a real good friend might as well been family. He took his life about a month ago and left behind a son. He was only 45 years old. I wish he was still here. And I know his son wishes he was still here.
As a twin myself I’d like to say I’m so sorry for you loss. I’m sure the pain is unbearable at times. Your brother would want you to find happiness and live your best life. You will meet him again with lots of amazing stories to share. I wish I could take my own advice sometimes. Some days are much harder than others.
Society will tell you that you should just move on, not reach out to them anymore but you just keep reaching and they just keep ignoring you. Then society says, reach out and smile and brighten someone's day or help them through a tough time (because you never know what someone else is going through). So you keep doing that and no one does it back to you or if someone (usually a stranger) does, it does not feel quite the same as having someone who you love reach back to you.
It is a constant battle..Even when you know so many love you and admire you..there can still be an emptiness that you cannot explain. The darkness and lonliness can overshadow everything else. My wife of 8+ years walked out because she could not deal with my cancer. Days with my students are amazing but as soon as I get home..the darkness settles in. It sucks.
It's not just feeling lonely. You feel isolated. You feel like you're just watching life go by and you're not part of life anymore. It's a fight that you fight and one you know you may not win. It's a demon inside you know could win at anytime. You feel attacked. You feel like you're always on the edge. One bad day could send you over the edge. It's when you look in the mirror and try to convince yourself that you can live today. Then you tell yourself the same the next day and the next day and the next day and you pray today isn't the day when you can't tell yourself that anymore.
Yes thats the mindset you are in when suicidal and depressed I feel this exact way. I have to fight it just to get through another day until I cant take it anymore.
I've never replied to anything on UA-cam because why but you described it perfectly. Which means you're going through it too.god bless and I hope you're still out there. Lord knows with our depression we could be gone any day. I hope you won your fight I still don't know if I'll win mine.
I suffer from depression and ptsd even with the meds some days the pain is so great.i cant get out of bed i found a poor kitten. Who needed a lot of help.i don’t know who saved who.but with him by my side. I see some hope.he is my guardian angel.
The video makes this so much sadder. Seeing everyone going to the funeral, people who knew him, but didn't really know how he was feeling. Showing the people they pass who are obviously lonely too
That's true sometimes... I do my best to be real in front of my loved ones... We know when one another is hurting... Sometimes it's them hurting , then it's my day ... That's just part of life... When we love , we pay attention to, it's part of love... There are times that we hurt and we hide it and keep it inside and now our loved ones can't see it... Not healthy... Then sometimes we hurt and it's just for us and we know that it want do any good to burden our loved ones, something's we must work out on our own... That's just life... Life is short, shorter for some than others.... Don't be fake stay real and don't miss any moments! God bless yall
You deserve help to you deserve happiness, and peace and so much more. You are smart and talented and amazing and lovable you are important. What you feel what you think whats in your mind and heart is important. You are not trash or a waste. You are lovable.
24 years ago January 07, I tried ending my life. It was the voices in my head and my heart hurt that no pill could fix. I am a born again Christian and it still hit me. This type of depression hits all people. I found a relationship not religion in God that healed me. I reach out to certain people now to talk to when the depression tries to creep in. Prayers for those who suffer.
That was Blaine Larsen in the pickup. He wrote this song while still in high school after a friend took his own life. Both his voice and wisdom were beyond his years; his music touches the soul.
The song was written by Rory Lee Feek and Jamie Teachenor as a tribute of and dedication to the memory of Lance Emmitt, of Mount Pleasant, Tennessee, the son of Mack Emmitt and Gloria Renee Thomason Mash. Lance Emmitt had committed suicide on Nov. 11, 2003. He was just 19.[2] The song opens with reference to a small news item about the suicide of a young man.
I was in A horrific car accident which killed my fiance in August 1991 an left me in A chair this song means so much to me it touches my soul I die 3 times so there is A reason why I hear. So I couldn't make the call when I fought to live..
At the end of the day, the fact is that as low as you've ever felt, as depressed as you've ever been, as hopeless as you've been... they're much more low, depressed and hopeless. We can't rationalize it, because we've never been there.
“ Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today: You matter. You’re important. You’re loved. And your presence on this earth makes a difference, whether you see it or not.“
@Truth Decentralization Sadly no one can bring me back. God left me, took my twin sister. I can't anymore. I need her so. I WISH I was suicidal. I wish I had that in me ... instead I'm weak and continue on without her. I cry daily and drink. How TF am I supposed to go on without her !!!!!
Stop lying to ppl . I'm disabled in a wheelchair and can't even get to a grocery store for food so I'm starving ppl don't give a shit aboitvme so why should I
@Truth Decentralization if God was alpha and omega then why did he allow the things to be done to me as a child and why did he let my child be killed the only reason I even exist was my son and your God let him be murdered . So if he's alpha and omega then he just doesn't care or else he's not all powerful
Me too. I used to have a whole playlist to help me and to help me explain to people. I still listen to it to help when it’s hard to get out of bed in the mornings.
Wow. Here it is 2020, 11 years after this video was published, and I am hearing this song for the very first time. It really hits home for me. I’ve now been on antidepressant drugs for 30 years. It’s still a fight every day just to keep going. Whoever said “Depression is not a sign of weakness, but a sign of trying to stay strong for too long” really hit the nail on the head.
I always made everyone laugh and everyone always thought I was the happiest so nobody asked if I was ok.. I used it as a defense mechanism because I was broken inside.. I was taught not to show weakness so I turned everything into a joke. It wasn't until Robbin Williams died that I realized what he said was true. "I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that"
@@irabull9611 I had a low self esteem and it was easy to make friends if you were funny.. also if you can make a girl laugh then your more likely to win their heart. Maybe you need some counseling to figure out your inner demons. It helped me
I have battled depression for many years due to chronic pain, and have faced many dark nights where I did not want to see the next morning. This song helped me more than I could ever say. Thank you, Blaine
perhaps the reason they disliked it is because they don't understand. They are still human. Just because someone doesn't understand, doesn't mean they're heartless. They're human still.
My cousin took his life 8 years ago... depression is a terrible thing to handle... he is missed every day... 11-2-12 will always be a sad day for my family..
It's so sad, people can feel this way and people that are the closest to them have no idea 💔 I thank God he sent me my husband and kids when he did 💖 it definitely saved my life!
I lost my husband & daughter when suddenly your life is snuffed out gone lost & forgotten after everyone goes home from the funeral you are forgotten too painful to remember so they just morn you because your heart died with them, but no one cares they leave the grief on you
@@Alethiometer so sorry to hear that!! If you need to talk I'm available anytime. God is always there for you He is the best friend one ask for. And he is a good listener!
Us people that feel empty and alone really don't talk about it. Just like suffering from depression right now I don't talk to anyone I take my pain out on me 🔪
You might feel that way but you do matter and you are no less important than anybody. I understand because I've been there. I care my friend even though I don't know you my heart goes out to you because we are human and we feel the pain of others. Peace
It's not just loneliness, it's a hopeless that consumes you while leaving you feeling empty and crippled with a pain that's indescribable. It's not wanting to die so much as wanting this pain to stop
It’s also the feeling of I just don’t want to exist anymore it’s to much. It can be like drowning and you feel like the world keeps tying weights to you
@@ronniegatling2013 yeah I'm ok... Thanks!! It just that everyone I have ever said I love you to has in return said I hate you... Loneliness always welcomes us sure does appreciate my company it seems..
@@tkvimsavage1886 it doesn't make a difference but r u saying a girl p Or simply everyone r u being specific ? Damn bro I'm sorry to hear that the world is sad I just wish we could all love each other as brother's an sisters of course we got major stepping Stones to come even 1percent closer unless a group stand up together idk I Invision a much different world like still diff but I prefer a slower paced world it's just too fast for its own good ya know bro anyways may godbless u an have a great day stay up hommie not literally just keep ya head up bro all I know stay strong.
After abuse and being alone for so long I thought this was a way to escape. But when I thought I couldn't take it anymore, I met my now fiancé . He saved me and I'm so glad I met him.
Tomorrow, my brother would have been 43 years old. We lost him when he was 23 years old. He will be gone 20 years this August. I miss him as much today as I did the day we lost him.
This song was written about my Brother, Todd Wooton (10th Mountain) I miss him every day. He took his life while sitting next to a River he used to fish on. lindacreater7465, some days are better than other days, I am sorry for your loss. I know it is tough, we just fight for the next day.
@@5150azI’m 10th Mount and I know a lot of Brothers and Sisters have you in their hands. Some are confused about losing a Brother or Sister. I am not! Your Brother is a hero in my eyes. I’m near that point seriously,trying to reach out, but I’m not getting anyone. I’m here for you all. You don’t know how much to hear about someone else that was my Brother I wish I was there for him. I will never forget him, I’m not going anywhere and he will help me help more. My kids don’t believe me and my so called friends are not answering
Rest easy 🕊️
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Man. I’m 23 and everyday is a constant struggle I’m so behind my peers. I’ve had my share of legal troubles and never been a good family member despite wanting to be. Everyday I just think about how me leaving would affect them. Think about trying to convince them I’m moving to a new country to start over and just disappear but really end it all. Idk why but seeing this comment. That’s 20 years later. After everything else that’s happened in those 20 years you haven’t moved on or gotten past it and it makes me wanna keep going so I don’t have to put my family through that. Im very sorry for your loss but grateful you shared your story it may have saved me life. Thank you
Its not just loneliness. Its emptiness that cant be explained. No matter how many people love you no matter how many people support you you can still feel empty and alone
It's the despair.
You feel like you've been fighting your whole life to be the person that everyone expects you to be, but eventually the chronic stress, sleep-deprivation, and general cruelty of those around you, and the apathy of those you try to talk to about what you're going through, just wear you down; and you feel many many years older than you really are.
'Till finally you just can't take any more; and you reach for that bottle of sleeping pills, or that razor, or that gun.
Even the void of non-existence, is preferable to a living hell with no end in sight.
I feel that everyday..
@@spctwitchy
I am sorry.
That was what my life was like every day, in high school.
I eventually made it through; but I still have PTSD from those years.
I suppose that I'll always carry those scars with me.
Is school the source of your depression, too?
@@cheshirekat3050 I'm 28 medically retired from the army because of my suicidal ideations. Medication only does so much
@@spctwitchy
I'm so sorry.
My uncle's time in the military drove him to become an alcoholic.
It took years for him to beat his addiction.
Did you apply to have get a PTSD service dog?
I hear that the military pays for all of your medical needs, for life, as long as you were honorably discharged.
As a former marine who's wife left him in the middle of combat deployment i get how a man would do this bc I think about it everyday more than I honestly care to admit
Depression is like drowning, but there's no water and no way to come up.
Me.daily
Exactly 😔
Yes it is it sucks
Yes and loving someone who doesn't feel the same way doesn't help
@@anthonycurrens2651 I'm so sorry. Yeah, that does hurt
You know, even years later this song still gets to me. My buddy in the Marines lost his fight.. no one saw it coming, I almost lost mine after that. I'm here today because of my wife. It's a struggle, not everyone manages to work through it sadly.
I feel you brother I lost a 2 good friends and a nephew to their own self deletion and only reason I'm still alive is my wife and kids
I get you my son lost his fight I was also there for a whole year afterwards. It's not loneliest it's not even 5hat people are there as I was for my son. He just obviously thought he couldn't go on anymore 😢
Keep fighting you’re needed
Fell you brother I'm a veteran and I survived my attempt.
I don't know how to get out of the hole i'm in. So I go to sleep and never wake up
One thing is certain; no one gives a damn, until a person is dead. Then, all the sudden, everyone cares, write songs, cry, even cook good food, and eat. Even though, just a few hours before, nobody looked your way, nobody listened to music with you, nobody talked to you, or said anything about God, nobody offered any food, nothing. In another few hours, everyone will go right back to not giving a damn, and in less than six months no one will remember your name. That's how you get that lonely
God cares Walter, and God knows your name, knows you and will never forget you. He loves you and is with you even if you can't feel Him. His love is unconditional and will hold you even when others hurt and let you down. Please turn to Him. He knows the pain and He has the tender healing....it may come slowly. May God bless you.
Wrong so fucking wrong I was always there for my son 5 years later I'm still suffering with my loss of his life so what you ar3 saying is so fuking pish. It's the feeling off thinking that you are no good for anybody. That you are a failure to everybody to every part off your life and that every1 will be better off without you as I have felt so many times since the loss of my 1st born my son that I loved all my life and was there for all of his
@@amandaa.6545I don't know for the only light in my life (my love and unborn twins). Where taken from me 12 years 9 months 22 days 18 hours ago and I still have the hurt. Everyone at my former church were you should of died insted of them (her parents always hated me. Wanted her to be a house wife. But I just told her fallow her heart for she wanted to be an er doc). When she passed her parents lied to everyone to where they dammed me to hell for years till they got blue in the face and I showed them a copy of the police report of. I tried to avoid the drunk driver I ignored my broken bones cuts burns just to get her to safety my refusal to be treated till she was out of the woods. There face realization of we were bad mouthing him and he was putting her 100% first just made them double down since it's im right your wrong. But this is from God fearing holyer the holy people
It never goes back to normal. I lost my brother in 2020.
So true!!!
Sometimes it feels like it would be so much easier to just slip away. No more pressure to be an adult. No more worry about taking care of everyone around u and finances. Just peace.
Yes exactly it hurts so bad
@@nattressjohn how are you doing today? What makes you smile?
It's not peaceful, it's absent of life. All things good and bad, ying and yang.
Look for good even if it's just in today.
Not the answer we have to believe that it will get better. This world has a way of breaking us down we just can’t let it win. There is a plan and it seems distant but he will get you through just talk to god he can heal. I know cause I tried that dark path and he showed me the light. My friend tried the other night but I called on him and he saved his life.
Exactly how I've felt many times in my life. Life is just too hard sometimes.
This song destroys me every time. No matter how many times I hear it. I ball every time.
I wish people understood that it isn’t about being lonely. You can have a room full of people around you who say they love you but when you’re depressed it doesn’t matter.
So right. When the chemicals in your brain are not right, you don't get the expected results. Things that would normally make you feel good just can't. The right Seratonin and Dopamine levels.
Just because the say the love doesn’t mean they do. People I know from online and school care about me more than my family
People who suffer to the point of contemplating suicide … usually have experienced so much trauma in their lives (childhood or as an adult). Untreated it can destroy lives and/or take them away
@robertkemp185 I don't know the statistics on that. I can only say it is true in my case. I was lucky because my gun misfired, and I got the help I needed. Finally got the right diagnosis and medicine so that I can get back to living again. As a nation, our record and approach to mental health has been appalling. But it looks to be turning a corner. There is still a lot to do removing the stigma attached to mental health problems.
You can be in a relationship and still feel lonely! It depends on whether you're important to the one you love.
I don't think a lot of people understand this song isn't about the loneliness but more about how do the ones around us not see the pain until it's too late ❤
Because mental illness has no time period or specific actions they have to do, most likely the family members had heard it other times and most people do just blow off steam and never follow through with it because that's right down the strike lane. It is the easiest way out of, long suffering as it said to do
For sure! Our grandaon didn't. He was a gamer and his last message said he was lonely. I just heard this song roday. Too many young are taking their lives.
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@jbrown4137 completely agree! However, I think our loved ones are left questioning all they didn't see. "Was there something I could've done?" "Maybe I didn't say or show how much I loved them." ❤️ it's a sad cycle and honestly no one knows how bad a person is hurting because most times it's amazingly hidden
They don't want to die, they just want the pain to finally stop.
That sad AF...
I just want the pain to stop also. I wish i could stop screwing everything up. I wish i was never born.
@@thatBroErick 💜
Jiu Jitsu Dragon, do you have a way I can contact you?
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Yes I get that toally I have been feeling that way my whole life
There are many reasons why we feel empty and alone.. no one will ever understand our reasons why.. this song makes me cry but also drives me to push forward
It's the worst feeling in the world. Loneliness is a pain that forms a hole to the point you're numb. You don't feel wanted, loved, or appreciated... and worst yet... you don't feel like you exist... you feel completely invisible, especially when you cry out for help. It's like no one hears you.... it's painful...beyond words.
Ya that's os true when you have a man that says he loves you and doesn't show
Exactly Right
So true
It's the fact that you feel invisible. That your just gonna ge judged for opening up about your hurt. Your confusion. Abiut how you don't know how to get rid of the feeling.
@erinking5013 it's even worse yet when those you do say something to about how you're feeling just ignore it and pretend that what you say doesn't matter.
This song should be dedicated to the VERY talented Robin Williams. He will forever be missed.
My cousin took his life at 16. This song came out literally the next day. He struggled with mental illness for years and when his girlfriend broke up with him it was the last straw. I wished she'd have told his parents they broke up so someone could have been watching out for him.
Most people (Thank GOD!) don't understand the darkness.That inner voice that reminds you you are worthless, helpless, a burden to you and those you love. Most people don't understand the stuggle to get out of bed in the morning and do your best even though you know it won't be anywhere near enough. Suicide doesn't seem like just an end to your own pain but a way to ease the pain of those around you because they will no longer have to deal with you. Please pray for those with depression they are fighting battles eveyday
According to my son's note he left, this is absolutely true. He said he didn't want to be a burden anymore and was tired of the temptations of alcohol and wanted me to know it wasn't my fault in any way and wanted me to have a happy life. I miss him with my every breath and will until I take my last.💔😢💔
@@donnapulliam4477 I'm so sorry for your loss ! I had a nephew , may they be at peace now !+
I lost son to suicide, 5 years ago.. since than I lost my marriage, n good paying job, n I think about not living everyday... But I know my other 4 kids need me.. but I feel useless n helpless bc I'm stuck in a world that I don't want to be in.. I know that battle everyday n struggle to get out of bed everyday
@@jays3330 my sister also struggles daily as a result from her son's suicide . I feel her pain as well as my own . plz don't give up ! Your other children need you more than you could ever imagine . try to stay strong ! My sister and I do fundraisers and walk for life annually , just to try and bring awareness to the world . its hard , but make the life you lost bring good things to others in need . he will always be w you ! My sister also , finally after 5 years joined a support group that has helped her deal w some of hwr pain . God bless you always !
Amen
It's a lonely place to live inside yourself, I live it everyday
Haven't heard this in years. Still think of it from time to time.
To my fellow depression & anxiety & ptsd & ocd & adhd & many more mental health issue SOLDIERS ❤ -- KEEP FIGHTING .
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It's a fight some don't win. It's hard to explain what you feel in your head. I've been there and still fight every day.
Exactly
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Glad you're still here ❤
Same
Very true.... getting that lonely and nobody knows happens more then you know.
Unfortunately there are too many people that feel that lonely. Let's try to cut that down by being kind and helpful to each other.
My man feels that way everyday 😢he's very secluded dnt want noone around him talks all the time about leaving this life
@@gailwilson7577I’m with it I’m getting close to it too ain’t got too much longer
@@gailwilson7577seek help though the othe ppl that love him. You gain power as a collective, and also will maginify a group of people that appreciate him. Even if he had no family, he has ppl he encou ters day to day that "see" his place and impact on the world. Don't hesitate, your time could be well running out.
@@gailwilson7577mine is the same way so sad😢
Good 👍idea the world would be a better place if we're just kind to one another❤
2023 still listening. bawling my eyes out 😢
This song hit so differently, it speaks directly to my heart ❤️ and I can't help it so it's on repeat all day lol. Where are you from beautiful?
I don’t understand but know all too well. I appreciate your song and it’s true and beautiful.
When you're hurting and dying nobody cares.
When you're dead everyone shows
People care but if they dont know becouse u dont tell them I would have done anything to stop my boyfriend from killing himself but I never new
That's actually pretty dang true especially for my "family". I prefer the term blood relatives. No one gives a shit about anyone and when they die they put on an act. I'm the last of my bloodline that seems to care about anyone but themselves. I was abused and abused and abused by so called family. It hurts. No one knows how broken I am. I always put on a face that doesn't look broken. I tried being more open about it but no one cares to hear it. I cant trust anyone now. Not anymore. A guy who was like a brother to me turned on me all because of lies his ex told. Before that, we were like brothers. That ol boy saved my life from a suicide attempt. He sat me down afterwards, and told me he was once in my shoes. He showed me this song. Every time I get upset I listen to this song. Helps me realize I'm not actually alone. I just really wish I hadn't have lost him. I feel so alone now. He was the only friend I had. I got a last name that no one likes. All my other friends left me for either drugs or they just didnt wanna be around me for various reasons none of which were in my control. I guarentee that when ever I do die that every single one will show up. You are absolutely right.
Ben Barclay yup, and they like to pretend like they never knew you’re hurting.
Do true!
Sometimes it feels like that's. I am a child of GOD. God is always in the battle with you.
unless you have been there, you will never understand. it isn't selfishness. it is absolute hopelessness and despair.
I live it. I'm tired of bipolar disorder . I'm tired of being controlled why should I live? I wanna go home and be with Jesus. It is not always a selfish act to commit suicide.
+Evan White I understand what you're going through, but at the same time, how could you or I take our own lives and, in doing so, tell Jesus that the life He gave us wasn't worth living. Life never gets easier, but the Lord makes us stronger, and guides us through life, and when we have grown in our faith fully, Then Jesus will call us home again. You will get stringer, you will make it friend
+Jessica Piszczek ;)
I understand, and i apologize if i criticized your pain. From my experience, God's agenda has never been to make our lives easier, and He never meant for us to feel this way. I fully believe that what we do with the crap in life we've been handed is what God is looking at. Times of depression are a completely natural part of life, but to live in that day after day is not what was intended for us. It may take years to get out of depression as it did for me, but when the day comes that the good things start happening it will be because we stop looking at everything wrong in our lives and begin looking at everything good, no matter how small the good is. and those small thoughts make all the difference in the world for me.
+Evan White son I dont know about bi polarism but I know this son. I lost my son to an I.E.D. in Afghanastan. I have lost about 16 buddies I served with to suicide caused by PTSD. Trust me young man suicide is no answer. You will leave behind more hurt and sorry than your problem can ever cause. No my son didnt kill himself, but I have to wake up everyday and know he wont call so we can talk sports and I will never hear "I love you old man". you ever need someone to talk to Im here
I can never forget how many times this has spoken so deeply to me and so many people. It breaks my heart...
My daughter has been fighting mental illness for 22 years and I just lost her to it. Why doesn't anyone pay attention. ANYMORE??
This song hit so differently, it speaks directly to my heart ❤️ and I can't help it so it's on repeat all day lol. Where are you from beautiful?
I agree with you,I am so sorry for your painful loss,Google Project Semicolon,my niece got that tattoo.
It's been 15yrs since I've tried committing suicide and now I work in a mental hospital helping people through their suicide attempts. I listen to the song when it first came out and I'm still listening to it today because it really hits home for me not only because of the attempt but it helps me save lives at my job. Thank you Blaine Larson.
your story gives hope! God bless you!
You are awesome! Keep it up
Blessed be
I love you ! Thank you for the love you put into life. I wish you happiness
I know the loneliness depression causes. Growing up with careless parents, being the shy girl whos always judged and put down, wondering why you're here, feeling like dieing, cutting not for show but to take pain off your heart, pretending you arent hurting yet crying every night im alone. It took a lot of fighting within myself to over look horrible, angry, selfish people and make myself happy and push past feeling empty. Still some part of me, when thinking about the past, can make my heart hurt a bit but now its more of a disappointment that it happened but I can look up now and be able to smile a real smile. That battle takes time, even a few kind words from even one stranger can make the world of difference. I try to be that person now who will lift another person with a smile and kind words ❤
Its hard to keep going when you're facing depression. Its like a constant voice telling you youre better dead. When youre depressed you tell ypurself no one knows. You hide it because you feel like a burden
You hide it because you feel like a burden
Amen
I relate
Keith Mercer so true
feel broken no one cares of your feelings.
I called depression the a silent killer because most don’t really see when someone is this depressed.
I can't help not crying 😭😭😭😭. This is a song that needs to be told.
I BROKE DOWN WHEN I HEARD THIS SONG..... BECAUSE IT IS AS IF IT WAS WRITTEN FOR ME...I DON'T THINK IT CAN EVER BE SAID ANY BETTER THAN THIS...... AMAZING INSIGHT!!!!!!!!
I grew up in a meth head home, alone in the two kids from my husband who is beaten by his dad with two kids. We are a family of sex and I will fight for them no matter what or who! ❤ We've been together ten years
I am a child of this scenario. My mom was the partner of a suicide victim. I appreciated this song more than anyone could know. I am glad it helped someone else too. Please reach out if you need help.
Remember. Check on your friends who seem happy. The ones making everyone laugh are usually in a lot of pain themselves.
Exactly. I have been told that I am the happiest and nicest girl but I am struggling. And suicide has become part of my life.
@@isabelg7085 clowns are the saddest ppl of all
@@isabelg7085 hope you're good now
Very well said
had a tear in my eye, this is what i do
Those who aren't in constant war with them selves will never know.
Exactly
Right.
I am all the tine
Ur absolutely correct I fight every day,and there's so many more of us out there
Each day we constantly war. We ask this to ourselves. Are we going to win this time or are we finally going to just give up.
The constant emptiness and the ups and downs make us wonder if anyone can see the war is a constant battle field that we're sometimes not sure if we have much left at the end of our day.
Been there. Song describes every feeling when you are at your lowest. Life. Realizes depression it’s like hibernation while reminiscing about the beautiful things in life.
I wish this type of Country would come back
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It is very easy to hide a broken heart and a damaged spirit with a smile you can be hurting and still let everyone think everything is okay I know this from experience I suffer from depression I can fool people all around me but I can't lie to myself
So true
I hide mine everyday I'm worthless
I be just another story in the paper
@@vincentbowman9884 you are not worthless. Nobody in this world ever and I mean ever is worthless. You are loved and special to those around you. I believe in you Vincent.
Me too. It's so easy to hide.
You know Robin Williams said it best "It's funny how you can be in a room full of people and you can still feel all alone".
I’m a 47 year old man dealing with depression and anxiety for the first time in my life and I know it’s hard to ask for help but remember you have plenty of people who love and want to care for you so please don’t give up and remember if you’re having the worst day of your life then tomorrow will be better ❤
Time will never scratch the emotions you feel in your heart when you listen to this beautiful song.
The friendliest face is the one that is hurting the most. To make others feel good and happy. To make them feel better.
Why? Because you, yourself don’t feel like you’re the best. You feel alone. Scared. Tired. Irritated. Quiet. Shy. You just want to hide and act like the present is real. You want to relive the beautiful past that you thought was beautiful.
I’m still struggling. And it hurts me to see others feeling what I have felt, what I am feeling, what will happen.
Being alone is sometimes a curable yet a fatal choice.
Are you okay now?
I read what you said and I cried cause I feel like this 24/7
People think about ending it it's when they lost everything the pain that life causes it's too much to hold onto they cannot stand living one more day for one more minute I think nothing's going to help it's never going to get better nobody cares
We try to make others happy. So we justify our purpose to live. Eventually that fails us to and we get further lost in the thoughts of death and loneliness. Their is no escape in our mind
All ive known is pain i suffered to make others happy. Now i hide alone feeling the pain. Its sad to watch others be so happy. But at least they are. Life is painful and we indure
This young fella doesn't look old enough for the voice he has. Well done young man.
I was saying the same thing. Such a baby face with a powerful voice. Beautiful song
Auto tune obviously
dude you are soon right. l thought it was faked and I did a double take amazing voice on this baby face kid.
@rotweilerdc it's not I have met this artist multiple times and have heard him sing right in front of me no microphone! He is so incredible! This was years ago you should hear him now
@@rotweilerdc no you should hear him talk. The kid that killed himself is from my hometown went to my school. His grandmother lived next-door to my ex-wife. It was all over a girl
The guy that wrote the song is Joey of the Joey and Rory, duo husband and wife and she passed away from cancer a few years ago.
He lives a few miles away from me, but he’s wrote several songs like some beach somewhere and many more.
Great and also sad song. Life is hard but like that bon Jovi song "Have a nice day" comes to mind.
People that have never been truly lonely, will never understand, how do You get that lonely...
Vanesssa
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Very true
Being lonely is the worst feeling ever. No comparison.
I know lonely cause Ive been it my hole life
This song is about how those close didnt see it.
One of those songs you cannot forget. Love this young man for giving us this song. Timeless.
Hi rendalee where are you from?
"And nobody knows" The lyrics that got me because nobody really does know until it's too late.
Missing my son April of 23 Gaige Joshua Newman 15 years old. I only hope to catch a glimpse of him in every sunset I drive my semi into.
Is someone still listening to this song? 2019?
Yep me and boyfriend Brendon Morris
Yep
This song has gotten me though some tough times
Yep
yep i am right now makes me think of my friend i lost in 07 to suicide he never got to graduate from high school
With his voice I'll never know why he didn't make it bigger than he did. Cause I love to hear him sing and listen to the story he tells with so much emotion.
You probably will not understand this. So he probably would not join the free masons. Or the illuminati. Yes he must join one. Tim McGraw, Faith Hill etc.. Reba.. Pop rap country, it's scary behind the scenes. But I bet he choose not to sell his soul for fame and wealth.
I wonder what he is doing with the rest of his life? 2 chart hits only, really surprising. very talented....
@@freemangriffin4953....He was writing, recording, performing in videos and switching labels. But the musical life dramatically took a turn. Larsen now works with Search Nashville, a nonprofit, interdenominational organization. Larsen had attended a Search small-group session and, in 2012, he had transitioned into full-time ministry.
What would happen to my children when I'm gone is the only reason I'm still here 🥺😢
How ya doing nowadays?
@BrandonDickenson35 I honestly don't know. I have no one to talk to but my kids. Atleast I have them though. Thank you for asking I really appreciate it.
Believe that you are loved. I don’t know you but I’ll hurt if you decide that life isn’t worth living.
I have the exact thought 😢
I get that. The only reason I'm still here is my kids
Remember you are not alone. There are people who you have never met that care. The national line is 988. You are loved and matter.
This video is just as moving and touching as the song itself. It's a shame Blaine never got the recognition he so deserves.
Hell yeah,Just came across this Song not so long ago,Never heard of him Bfor,Love this Song,💓
Love you
Thats true, great song and great voice but where is the recognition,
its really sad to listen to a song like this, because its actually very easy to get that lonely, and its all too often that nobody knows...
I just broke down crying to this song....straight out of nowhere (i think). God this is still a powerful song 😢😢😢😢
Me too. I think with me though, it's because I've been there. Knew how I was going to end it, everything. But then I looked at my girls' pictures on the wall and realized that no matter what I was going through, I could not do that to them, take away their mama, and I couldn't do that to my parents or siblings.
Yes very powerful song. I cry every time I listen to it.
Your not the only cried over this song
At this point an time I'm starting to think there is no GOD
It has always made me cry
You get lonely when no one understands, you don't get "empty " you're filled with emotions that no one understands. I ended my life 2 yrs ago for some reason I was saved and still wish today. I was never here... a child with cancer or something was way more important. Than I've ever been.. you get that lonely because people are to busy to hear you or think they think that thay do no wrong.. even when you try to fix something it's always wrong.. that's how it's easier to go than stay.
this hits me in my soul. because i know what it feel like
Me to its not fun at all..
Me to I lost my Nana to suicide and baby brother to a car fire both gust 10 months ago
Me too..
I'm here for any and everyone who needs to talk I've been there recently with an attempt suicide but still here with alcohol related thoughts
In loving memory of Chris, 13 is way too young to make this kind of call. Miss you everyday, RIP baby.
every time I hear this song I get tears in my eyes...because I know how easy it is to feel lonely, even when surrounded by a room full of people...and trust me, nobody notices.
i always feel that way.
I know how you feel.
Amen
See even u three that replied it's a simple one j know how u feel like if u fucking knew how we felt or this person felt u would say more clearly u have no fucking idea how it feels
@@tiffybear7 no u don't
I know how this feels i work every day 6 days from 730am to sometimes past 530pm every night i come home to being by myself all the time loneliness kicks me in the butt my faith in finding someone is starting to faulted
u get that lonely when everyone turns their backs on you, when everything u do ain't enough, when after trying ur hardest you just give up & yet everyone who says they're there for you ain't really there....
Tony H.
contact alisha melcher brown on Facebook. I'm not on my profile atm..but I've got an ear, and definitely the time to listen..
Tony H. im here!! reach out....wendy.l.arbuckle@gmail.com
my son took his life at 18, wish he had someone to help...
that is so tru you think the person you love loves u the same but when. u get in a situation thats when. they turn there backs on you you get critised for everything you do and all your trying to do Is gain acceptance and love from them you get really Lonely and depressed
Tony H. yeah, it's the worst feeling ever
When you've spent your life feeling unwanted, unloved and that no one cares it's really easy to think life just isn't worth it.
A smile is the easiest lie of all.
"I'm fine" and "I'm just tired" are close behind
It is true. I fake every Christmas for my nephews
Sure is
So true
stivin hilliwuy I can cry in front of people and still no one will care about me. Many people don’t have any support system.
I had a real good friend might as well been family. He took his life about a month ago and left behind a son. He was only 45 years old. I wish he was still here. And I know his son wishes he was still here.
I cry everyday the feeling never goes away the tears fall as I write this one day I will meet my twin brother in heaven
As a twin myself I’d like to say I’m so sorry for you loss. I’m sure the pain is unbearable at times. Your brother would want you to find happiness and live your best life. You will meet him again with lots of amazing stories to share.
I wish I could take my own advice sometimes. Some days are much harder than others.
It's easy when no one talks or checks on you even when you reach out to them. It hurts so much
Sorry you feel that way... I live alone and it does hurt too....
they look at there ph never reply back.
and when you cover up anything someone might pick up on, as far as i see it, its my business, no-one elses
Society will tell you that you should just move on, not reach out to them anymore but you just keep reaching and they just keep ignoring you. Then society says, reach out and smile and brighten someone's day or help them through a tough time (because you never know what someone else is going through). So you keep doing that and no one does it back to you or if someone (usually a stranger) does, it does not feel quite the same as having someone who you love reach back to you.
Yes. You are right. I stopped reaching.
It is a constant battle..Even when you know so many love you and admire you..there can still be an emptiness that you cannot explain. The darkness and lonliness can overshadow everything else. My wife of 8+ years walked out because she could not deal with my cancer. Days with my students are amazing but as soon as I get home..the darkness settles in. It sucks.
Hello friend.. are you ok?
RIP Matt! I miss you so much!
If you dont know what its like to get that lonely, then you never will understand truly..
I am like this everyday since I lost my mom. Its been a real struggle for me
From one to a nother I truely do know what it is like walk i n my shoes for aday an you'll see
Ain't that the truth
It's not just feeling lonely. You feel isolated. You feel like you're just watching life go by and you're not part of life anymore. It's a fight that you fight and one you know you may not win. It's a demon inside you know could win at anytime. You feel attacked. You feel like you're always on the edge. One bad day could send you over the edge. It's when you look in the mirror and try to convince yourself that you can live today. Then you tell yourself the same the next day and the next day and the next day and you pray today isn't the day when you can't tell yourself that anymore.
Yes thats the mindset you are in when suicidal and depressed I feel this exact way. I have to fight it just to get through another day until I cant take it anymore.
I've never replied to anything on UA-cam because why but you described it perfectly. Which means you're going through it too.god bless and I hope you're still out there. Lord knows with our depression we could be gone any day. I hope you won your fight I still don't know if I'll win mine.
I'm at this point now. Why do things never change.
I suffer from depression and ptsd even with the meds some days the pain is so great.i cant get out of bed i found a poor kitten. Who needed a lot of help.i don’t know who saved who.but with him by my side. I see some hope.he is my guardian angel.
I can completely relate.
The video makes this so much sadder.
Seeing everyone going to the funeral, people who knew him, but didn't really know how he was feeling. Showing the people they pass who are obviously lonely too
This song hit so differently, it speaks directly to my heart ❤️ and I can't help it so it's on repeat all day lol. Where are you from beautiful?
It's crazy strangers can tell something is wrong but not your "close friends" or your loved ones....
IPA Alliance so true!!
I’m pretty sure my dad can tell but I just tell him I’m tired and that usually works
That's true sometimes... I do my best to be real in front of my loved ones... We know when one another is hurting... Sometimes it's them hurting , then it's my day ... That's just part of life... When we love , we pay attention to, it's part of love... There are times that we hurt and we hide it and keep it inside and now our loved ones can't see it... Not healthy... Then sometimes we hurt and it's just for us and we know that it want do any good to burden our loved ones, something's we must work out on our own... That's just life... Life is short, shorter for some than others.... Don't be fake stay real and don't miss any moments! God bless yall
13 years later and I find this song. Describes everything I've ever experienced for the last 10 years.
Don't be me. Go get help. You're all worth it ❤
Songs 20 years old next year
Get help buddy there has to be something for you. I need it to
You deserve help to you deserve happiness, and peace and so much more. You are smart and talented and amazing and lovable you are important. What you feel what you think whats in your mind and heart is important. You are not trash or a waste. You are lovable.
Thank you for this song
5 years ... still relatable as hell ...
Its not lonely. Its feeling of burden to everyone you love and the fear that the pain will never stop. ❤
You got that right. That dark hole you can't crawl out of!!!
24 years ago January 07, I tried ending my life. It was the voices in my head and my heart hurt that no pill could fix. I am a born again Christian and it still hit me. This type of depression hits all people. I found a relationship not religion in God that healed me. I reach out to certain people now to talk to when the depression tries to creep in. Prayers for those who suffer.
This song hit so differently, it speaks directly to my heart ❤️ and I can't help it so it's on repeat all day lol. Where are you from beautiful?
That was Blaine Larsen in the pickup. He wrote this song while still in high school after a friend took his own life. Both his voice and wisdom were beyond his years; his music touches the soul.
The song was written by Rory Lee Feek and Jamie Teachenor as a tribute of and dedication to the memory of Lance Emmitt, of Mount Pleasant, Tennessee, the son of Mack Emmitt and Gloria Renee Thomason Mash. Lance Emmitt had committed suicide on Nov. 11, 2003. He was just 19.[2] The song opens with reference to a small news item about the suicide of a young man.
I was in A horrific car accident which killed my fiance in August 1991 an left me in A chair this song means so much to me it touches my soul I die 3 times so there is A reason why I hear. So I couldn't make the call when I fought to live..
Sorry sweetie but wrong Rory Feek wrote that song
At the end of the day, the fact is that as low as you've ever felt, as depressed as you've ever been, as hopeless as you've been... they're much more low, depressed and hopeless. We can't rationalize it, because we've never been there.
“ Just a reminder in case your mind is playing tricks on you today: You matter. You’re important. You’re loved. And your presence on this earth makes a difference, whether you see it or not.“
It doesn't feel like it
@Truth Decentralization Sadly no one can bring me back. God left me, took my twin sister. I can't anymore. I need her so. I WISH I was suicidal. I wish I had that in me ... instead I'm weak and continue on without her. I cry daily and drink. How TF am I supposed to go on without her !!!!!
My mind is winning and I don't know how to stop.it
Stop lying to ppl . I'm disabled in a wheelchair and can't even get to a grocery store for food so I'm starving ppl don't give a shit aboitvme so why should I
@Truth Decentralization if God was alpha and omega then why did he allow the things to be done to me as a child and why did he let my child be killed the only reason I even exist was my son and your God let him be murdered . So if he's alpha and omega then he just doesn't care or else he's not all powerful
Been listening to this song since sophomore year of high school and it still hits just as hard 6 years later. Such an underrated masterpiece
Me too. I used to have a whole playlist to help me and to help me explain to people. I still listen to it to help when it’s hard to get out of bed in the mornings.
Wow. Here it is 2020, 11 years after this video was published, and I am hearing this song for the very first time. It really hits home for me. I’ve now been on antidepressant drugs for 30 years. It’s still a fight every day just to keep going. Whoever said “Depression is not a sign of weakness, but a sign of trying to stay strong for too long” really hit the nail on the head.
Suicide hands the pain to all those left behind and it never leaves. I pray you find the courage to find your joy in life. Sending love to you ❤️
its a sick sad ruthless bloody brutal world, how can anyone not be depressed
I always made everyone laugh and everyone always thought I was the happiest so nobody asked if I was ok.. I used it as a defense mechanism because I was broken inside.. I was taught not to show weakness so I turned everything into a joke. It wasn't until Robbin Williams died that I realized what he said was true. "I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that"
Dustin I'm so sorry baby
@@patriciabuttram5545 I'm ok now. But thank you ❤ I just had to switch my lifestyle up 😂
Dustin 💜 I know your story too well..
I'm in the same boat. But just haven't realized y I am like this.
@@irabull9611 I had a low self esteem and it was easy to make friends if you were funny.. also if you can make a girl laugh then your more likely to win their heart. Maybe you need some counseling to figure out your inner demons. It helped me
I have battled depression for many years due to chronic pain, and have faced many dark nights where I did not want to see the next morning. This song helped me more than I could ever say. Thank you, Blaine
To everyone that disliked this song, "you are a heartless monster and have probably never had someone you care about threaten to take their own life"
perhaps the reason they disliked it is because they don't understand. They are still human. Just because someone doesn't understand, doesn't mean they're heartless. They're human still.
Honestly it's usually someone facing it
My cousin took his life 8 years ago... depression is a terrible thing to handle... he is missed every day... 11-2-12 will always be a sad day for my family..
What about the people who liked it? Can you also give them the time and attention you're giving the haters?
@Avery Langridge doesn't make sense 🤷🏿♂️ you can't encourage someone by disliking his work!!
I am a grown man and this song still beings me into tears
It's so sad, people can feel this way and people that are the closest to them have no idea 💔 I thank God he sent me my husband and kids when he did 💖 it definitely saved my life!
I lost my husband & daughter when suddenly your life is snuffed out gone lost & forgotten after everyone goes home from the funeral you are forgotten too painful to remember so they just morn you because your heart died with them, but no one cares they leave the grief on you
@@Alethiometer so sorry to hear that!! If you need to talk I'm available anytime. God is always there for you He is the best friend one ask for. And he is a good listener!
Us people that feel empty and alone really don't talk about it. Just like suffering from depression right now I don't talk to anyone I take my pain out on me 🔪
2020 still listening anyone💗
Still listening, 2-18'2020. So sad!
Still listening.
2-22-20 and just hearing this. It's so heart breaking.
Strong message for all
3-3-20 😥
Lost my 12 yo son on 9-21-16. This song hits me hard. If not for my other 3 boys, I would prolly follow him. It’s hard being left behind by a child.
Sorry for your loss and you have my condolences
This song hit so differently, it speaks directly to my heart ❤️ and I can't help it so it's on repeat all day lol. Where are you from beautiful?
As Someone who has struggled with suicidal thoughts for the past couple of years this song really touches my heart.
I was feeling just empty but this song honestly feels like a tight warm hug from someone who loves you. Thank you.
My man said its not hard to be that way that the song speaks, may be it was the way he was treated never know!
You might feel that way but you do matter and you are no less important than anybody. I understand because I've been there. I care my friend even though I don't know you my heart goes out to you because we are human and we feel the pain of others. Peace
It's not just loneliness, it's a hopeless that consumes you while leaving you feeling empty and crippled with a pain that's indescribable. It's not wanting to die so much as wanting this pain to stop
It’s also the feeling of I just don’t want to exist anymore it’s to much. It can be like drowning and you feel like the world keeps tying weights to you
I’m a disabled us army veteran and I suffer so badly. This statement couldn’t have been said better
Exactly this.
Heartbreak, depression, anxiety, sadness ... what is there left to live for this Christmas?
Nothing
@@jonathanstarnes1666 everything!
This is for my friends that I lost I miss them everyday
its been 28 years since my BFF took his life in front of me. I can't hear this song with out tears
This hits me on so many levels. I know that loneliness like an old friend. I fight with it almost every day.
I think that loneliness is my only true friend... In a room filled with loved ones I am alone....
@@tkvimsavage1886 wow sometimes that's true you alright ?
True hey u alright ? May godbless u
@@ronniegatling2013 yeah I'm ok... Thanks!! It just that everyone I have ever said I love you to has in return said I hate you... Loneliness always welcomes us sure does appreciate my company it seems..
@@tkvimsavage1886 it doesn't make a difference but r u saying a girl p
Or simply everyone r u being specific ? Damn bro I'm sorry to hear that the world is sad I just wish we could all love each other as brother's an sisters of course we got major stepping Stones to come even 1percent closer unless a group stand up together idk I Invision a much different world like still diff but I prefer a slower paced world it's just too fast for its own good ya know bro anyways may godbless u an have a great day stay up hommie not literally just keep ya head up bro all I know stay strong.
After abuse and being alone for so long I thought this was a way to escape. But when I thought I couldn't take it anymore, I met my now fiancé . He saved me and I'm so glad I met him.
Wow...It was my best friend...she kept me from killing myself after losing so many people...
Thank you to all of you who stick with us. I'm sorry it's rough here, but this is the only life we've got. Make it count, whatever that means to you.