|| The Day I Wanted to Die || Internal Decapitation Story || Part 2
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- Опубліковано 16 лис 2022
- In this video, my husband and I talk about the next worst day we had after my motorcycle accident. I apologize for the abrupt ending- my camera overheated and shut off, but the story had already been told so I'm posting as is. I saw your comments from part 1 about the music being too loud, so I hope this video is a better audio experience for you.
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Part 1 here: • || The day of my accid...
This video coincides with my blog post I wrote here: littletraumamama.com/2022/05/..., but with the added perspective from my husband's point of view.
Thank you for your continued support of my channel! I hope you'll stick around and watch me stumble through my uncertain future. Coming soon is another knee surgery and more rehab, but I will be sure to check in and try to document as best I can.
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I am so happy that your husband is in the medical field because he knew to take charge in that moment.
It’s difficult sometimes to be that person, but your gut kicks in and you do what you know out of concern and love, damned the consequences, to protect the person you’re caring for. Hopefully you don’t have too much confrontation with the medical staff. You become a protective sheepdog.
You were so brave and determined. Can't imagine what you went through. You had an angels on you every step of the way. Your husband is a dodsend. Please take care of yourself, you look amazing
I came here expecting a survival story and found a love story too. Both of you are amazing! Thank you for sharing.
That's so sweet! Thank you!
You can see the love this man had for you!
simple kind correction, not being mean in any sense but correction to has from had. past tense to present tense ♥
has
Both ways, it's lovely!
I'm glad you left in the part about the vomit, it's important everyone knows even the worst details about stuff like this so they can be prepared if they're in your situation :)
Plus, it was part of what y'all went through. I'm glad you're telling us the whole story, not excerpts.
Agreed, the families get baptized into the worst of it, too!
I apologize for this video’s abrupt ending - my camera overheated and shut off, but the story had already been told so I’ve posted it as is. Thanks for watching!
Too bad your other links appeared at the top of the screen as you were pointing out your shunt and they covered up your face. 😟
@@jw6504 I’m sorry! I’m still learning how to edit videos, but hopefully with each video I will improve 🥹
It just left us with even more anticipation of watching part 3.
@@littletraumamama just about every single video I watch does that, I don’t know if it’s even something you can control. Btw, I’ve left a couple of other comments but I just want to give a shout out to your amazing husband, he was a rockstar through this and I know you know that. I am sure he is part of the reason your story is such a success story.
❤ thank you for sharing your story! I think what your husband said about lifting you up to avoid getting vomit inside the halo is very touching, it seems like he really wanted to help you stay dignified and keep your pride and cleanliness. Glad you didn’t cut out him talking about that part. He took care of you in such a compassionate and committed way. You can tell he really loves you.
He was very diligent about that!
Icu RN here... puke- everyone's worst enemy..🤭
I'm not entirely sure that vomiting down into the halo vest is the worst part. Sure it smells, but not the worst. With my understanding about halos- a person can't bend their head forward and typically can't move their body forward so that the upcoming vomit can clear their mouth and worse-> the airway. This essentially means that vomit would get down the airway and cause either aspiration pneumonia or the person drowns from the vomit in the lungs.
So with her husband "throwing" her forward when she vomited allowed the vomit to clear her mouth and not go down the airway.
Being awake during surgery can destroy a life. It is amazing you are here in spite of all the physical and emotional trauma you endured.
I’ve gone through a similar experience having a tubal ligation. Though I had an out of body experience. I had died in my operation I was above my body I saw the Dr paddle me I could hear and see everything and saw they couldn’t find the needle with ephedrine near by, I literally fought myself to find it on a table on the opposite side of the theatre, it was behind a Kleenex box on a table. Surgery was stopped and they woke me up, they kept laying me down and each time my blood pressure would go to 20, I had to fight to tell them to sit me up that they were killing me. After I came to properly surgeons told me I created a lot of chaos in that surgery room, I told them everything that happened in surgery they tried to send me home and i made them keep me in. Turns out I died for 5 minutes I remember my body rising and everything felt beautiful light and very white but all I could think of was I had to stay alive for my kids. I fought for my own life. Your story makes me remember how I felt thinking I was going to die because they didn’t do their job correctly and I remember how hard it was to communicate and get them to sit me up… I screamed the words sit me up I’m gonna die with the loudest I’ve ever spoken . Every surgery I’ve had after that I tell them about this and tell them to be prepared and keep me alive. You’re so brave I understand the fear surgeries must have on you thank you so much for sharing your story
That sounds terrifying!
@@littletraumamama it very much was, yet dying felt magical but I knew I needed to stay here for my kids so fighting for my life was the only option. I had to have another surgery to have my tubes tied the next week cause my ex would not have a vasectomy and I had spinal issues meaning I couldn’t get pregnant again and I died for three minutes lucky I didn’t have another out of body experience and spine surgeries later on didn’t do the same thing. Doctors called this episode vaso vagal a kind of fainting episode in surgery due to an overactive uterus. Ladies be careful when opting for this type of surgery. All I can say is death seemed like a beautiful experience but at the same time I didn’t want to die. I am inspired by what happened to you, that sounds terrifying to me. My ex brother in law had a brain injury from being ejected from a height speed crash your experience sounds very similar. I’m so amazed at what the body and mind can do and I’m so glad you live to speak your experience I really hope that you have a loving caring supportive unit of people working with you and that you don’t live with pain and can enjoy and overcome whatever issues you’ve been left with. You are an inspiration to us all xxxx
Yeah probs not true
@@mustlovedogs5569 no u
Goddamn. I can semi relate. I had collapsed lungs and laying down literally suffocated me. I had to fight to be upright til they realized I only had a third of a lung left after over a mm month of sepsis eating at my hip and heart and lungs. Fucked me up trying to sleep and not being able to breathe and having to sit in a certain way just to get to 70% oxygen. It was fucking hell and a half
It’s me. Hi! I’m the problem. It’s me, guh!🙋🏻♀️
I am literally laughing out loud and talking to y’all telling these stories like you can even hear me!🤭
I remember texting sweet Lee and Brittany that day! Gah it was all I could do to not come to work to just stand there with my arms crossed making sure everyone was running around knees-to-chest working on you! (Which would seem so out of character for me!)
I love y’all so much and love being a tiny part of this amazing journey you’ve ever so violently crashed into!❤️
We love you! I can't wait to get you involved!
I would like to request a video regarding all your injuries. Also, maybe one with Stacy as to her POV. She has probably seen a lot that would shock most of us. I AM LOVING “Storytime”! ❤
@@crissycattuzzo1460 I can't wait to properly show everyone what Stacey and some other amazing nurses/respiratory therapists did for me!
@@littletraumamama I'd enjoy that as well Again, thank you for sharing your story 🥲
🥹😂such a sweet bit with the legs wiggling omg
You're so lucky you had your husband there to advocate for you.
I got chills when he talked about telling those doctors and nurses what was what.
UA-cam's algorithm had suggested part 1 to me. I've been patiently waiting for this part. You are so strong to have gone through all of the trauma that you have and be as positive as you are. Your husband is so amazing with his recall, love and support. I obviously don't know you, but I thank God that you're still alive!
During my last surgery I woke up, not fully, but enough to be aware of what was happening and being in so much pain. I couldn’t talk, but I was able to cry. Instead of pushing more meds, the anesthesiologist held my hand and said they were almost done. I’m having another surgery in a couple weeks, and I am freaking out a bit.
That is honestly my worst nightmare after dying on the table.
I'm so sorry you had to go through that. Good luck during your next surgery. Big virtual hugs ❤️
What!? Oh my gosh I’m so sorry that happened to you. That anesthesiologist should be reprimanded somehow but it seems like hospitals are only concerned with making $.
My worst nightmare too I’m so sorry that happened and wishing you the best on your next one
You're a walking, talking miracle. I've been an EMT for 26 years, with 22 of those years as a paramedic. When you and your husband started describing the gradual worsening of the headache, along with the nausea, vomiting, and dizziness, I immediately thought CSF. My first thought was that you had a CSF leak, which could also cause these symptoms. It is amazing that your spinal cord held on and created essentially a Chiari. I am so sorry that you have been through this. You have a very supportive group surrounding you. I'm so glad your husband was there to step in on your behalf. I wish you the best with your continued recovery.
Very glad to hear EMT's are so familiar with CM, and I hope Syringomyelia, too. We often have a range of issues that can complicate immediate treatment, and a surprising number of medical personnel are uninformed! THANK YOU for helping us all at our most vulnerable! ❤️🙏💞
I had extensive open heart surgery when I was 24, and when I regained consciousness after everything was done, I was still affected by the paralytic medication for over an hour. Obviously not even close to as terrifying as it happening during surgery, but even just that experience of hearing my family around me and the nurses talk about giving me pain meds when I woke up, and being on the ventilator and poked and prodded while I was shouting in my head that I was awake and I very much wanted that medication, was so traumatic that it’s now one of my biggest fears to be stuck like that. I know it’s just a small taste of your experience, but I think I can understand your feelings in the moment, and the strength you have to get through it all is incredible.
That would have been terrifying for you. I had this happen to me,just after an operation. I still to this day wonder if I was just dreaming. Just thinking about it,gives me chills. I hope you are well now 💕
What nightmares for you both how awful. I hope you never suffer anything like it again.
Oh man I’m so sorry. I happy for you it is over and just a memory. May you always have health and happiness forward.
I wouldn't be surprised if your husband has PTSD from this. I can't imagine how it felt to see the warning signs of a neurological issue, and then to be ignored like that. Thankyou for sharing your story.
I know 😥. It’s definitely hard for him to talk about and something I wish he’d of never had to see. I give him lots of love and affection, though to make up for it as best I can!
You two are such a loving, sincere, whole, treasuring couple.
While you were talking about being aware during your surgery I could hear the breathing changes in your husband and understand very clearly how much it distresses him that you had to go through this. You also have my sympathy!
I have had many difficult, painful and distressing experiences in hospitals over my life time being in and out of hospitals so much! I have had many interactions with doctors and nurses that were very stressful and have stayed with me. I swear that anybody who has spent long amounts time in hospitals and clinics etc has a level of trauma.
It almost feels like everybody who leaves hospital after an inpatient should be offered some level of therapy to deal with what has happened to them whether it be a short-term problem, an injury or a long term condition.
It is a shame that mental healthcare is not prioritised alongside the physical I think it would help a lot of people from developing PTSD or depression etc. I think this is an issue that’s become my pet project in a way to try and raise awareness of the need for availability and affordability of mental health care alongside the medical doctors.
Sounds to me like far too many people have these stories but never any accountability or hospitals addressing the matter, naturally. Beyond frightening to think might ever happen to me or anyone ever.
@@tiasara5967 You're absolutely right. Doctors have become "untouchable".
I just wanted to hug your husband, when he was telling the story with teary eyes. Suffering emotionally from being unable to help you. What a guy! ♡ Your story and how you both told it was so fascinating. I'm glad I came across your channel by chance. Hope your life will be a smooth sailing from now on x
You're lucky to not only have survived but to have such a great hubby who advocated for you and a great family
Thank you guys for being so open 💜
I'm sorry you and your family had to go through this. It just shows how resilient the body can be. I was a Paramedic for 35 years. Listening to your husband describe the events, I could feel the frustration, concern, helplessness etc. Brother, I'm glad the medic in kicked in to take charge when things went south with the O2 sats. Peace and prayers.
I rarely finish a whole video on UA-cam without fast-forwarding. But your story and your presence is just so real, kind, honest and inspiring. I am a Registered Nurse and worked many years in a neuro ICU. Lots of halos and EVD's in that unit. It is just such a bizarre and kind of barbaric treatment although necessary of course! I will say, providers in a neuro ICU should never dismiss complaints of headache and nausea and your story is exactly why. The love between you both is palpable. Trauma can create problems in a less than stable marriage-you 2 exemplify "in sickness and in health." I am excited to witness your physical and emotional healing journey. Subscribed!
Remember each day that you have an amazingly important job :) (Im not a nurse, but you guys are amazing)
As a Neuro nurse for over 20 years , many of the things you went through are common~ especially not being yourself to the staff and not saying things that made sense. We take them with a grain of salt and don’t take them personal. You have no reason to apologize, nurses understand brain trauma changes personalities while being hospitalized. So happy you pulled through this and thank you for sharing your story. 😊. PS you have such beautiful skin and a wonderful smile.
You are one tough cookie. I can sense your husband’s anguish knowing that your vomiting probably meant increased icp & trying to get someone to call a neurosurgeon. They should’ve listened. You both are amazing, resilient people. Thank you for sharing your journey.
I was just wondering if your dad could do an interview to tell us his perspective of the day of the accident? Thank you for sharing. My dad was in a very similar accident. I feel for you and your family. Your doing amazing! My dad still doesn't know who I am and it has been 10 years
I'm so sorry for ur dad, you, and ur whole family. 💔🙏
I can't imagine why they didn't check for brain swelling before you lost your ability to breathe. Thank God for your husband knowing what was going on.
My wife has instructions from me (respiratory therapist) that if I end up in the trauma unit the trauma docs are to stabilize me and then get the hell away and let each specialist manage my care. I’ve watched them screw so much up because they won’t give up control. The only physicians that won’t stay in their lane. I’m glad you’re able to share your story with us.
Is this something you ask for in the DNR/advance directive?
Brave lady and her wonderful husband. God bless them both.
I was awake but paralyzed during an emergency c section....felt everything...they gave me the paralytic but not the night night drugs fast enough and it was the most terrifying thing....I've had several surgeries since and they have all gone smoothly but it's in my mind every single time so I cannot imagine what you went through....my heart goes out to you ❤️
I’m hoping for part 3 because I feel like there’s more to the story. When did you get out of the hospital? How about rehab? When did the halo come off? How was it determined it could come off? How long did it take for you to fully recover?
Same
I suggest reporting the anesthesia incident to the hospital even now. They can go back and review records. No one should be given a paralytic without pain meds or sedation. Ever. Your story is amazing. Keep going.❤
Your story is incredible. Thank you for sharing it with all of us! Also, how amazing it is to be totally and completely loved. Your husband is awesome and you both are so strong!
Thank you so much!
Such a hard, awful journey to recovery but so glad you made it and that have a great husband who has your back and is there for you!
I appreciate the fact that you both share such raw stories...your camera shutting off and all. I am so glad he advocated for you. Don't change, you are inspirational. Blessings.
Wow you have touched me in more ways than one. You see my first husband was killed in a motorcycle accident in 2006 I remarried in 2009 and in August of 2023 my husband had a horrific truck accident he broke his neck C4-C6 and he now has plates screws and can no longer work or help on the farm. The Good Lord is not done with you yet girl!!
Man alive, the love your husband has for you is so so beautiful. You are such a lovely couple ❤
You and your husband are awe inspiring. I’m sitting here crying, amazed at your strength, the things you went through and your will to live.
My exhusband ran under a semi truck in 1987 and survived with major head, neck and face injuries. I went off his doctors in the hospital for prescribing more pain meds instead of finding the problem, had I not he would have died. Thank God your husband was there! Never be afraid to challenge a doctor if you feel something is not right!
This would’ve been an absolutely horrific experience for any loved one to witness, but I imagine even more so for someone in the medical field who knows all too well what exactly is happening.
I can’t begin to say I can fathom what y’all have and are going through. I can say that with four different loved ones in my life I’ve experienced brain related issues. Until I did, I had zero understanding of the mysteries of the human brain. It’s just not something that you can read or see on tv. Your story is beyond miraculous and I wish continued healing and a wonderful life.
In June of 2022, as my husband was attempting to turn left on his way home from work, a semi driver behind him crossed a yellow line to pass and hit my husband. The car rolled; emergency workers had to cut him out. In the ambulance on the way to the hospital, his heart stopped. CPR was used to restart his heart, then he spent the next 100 days in the hospital. He didn’t have the traumatic injuries you describe, but I identify with so many steps of your journey. Six intubations left my husband unable to talk above a whisper, and the anxiety you described that comes with working to breathe is real. The year before his accident, my husband attempted to run an ultra marathon. He “only” completed 40 miles before he had to stop, but I think the strong heart and will that he exhibited in running were preparing him for the trial that was ahead. Recovery from trauma seems to be two steps forward, one step back. We are both strong believers in God and His sovereignty, and we know we are part of a bigger plan. Thanks for sharing your story. I’m writing my husband’s story out as a narrative. It’s very cathartic, but also painful as I relive each crisis.
OMG!! I would love to follow that story! That's incredible! As a paramedic myself, I've never gotten back a trauma arrest in the field and can't think of anyone I know of who has, and SIX intubations.... oh wow. He is very lucky to have you ❤️
@@littletraumamama I’m very grateful to still have him. When I finish writing, I will send it to you.
@@littletraumamama Your “vomit” story hit home for me because when Jim was extubated one of the times, he transitioned to a BiPAP. I was sitting with him in ICU when he suddenly tore off his mask, choking and gasping. I panicked, wrestling to get the mask back on him. Our daughter saw his nurse down the hall and yelled for help. The nurse came running, assessing the situation. He tossed me the suction device and told me to suction him out while he (the nurse) put the bed down. Just then my husband’s eyes rolled back in his head and he collapsed on the bed. I thought he’d died. The nurse realized his heart rate was slowing fast, so he coded him. My daughter and I left, seriously shaken, but John the nurse did CPR and got his heart working again. Turns out, he’d vomited into the mask and aspirated. He is now home recovering, but that was one big dip in the roller coaster ride that is ICU.
re: the surgery and waking up... I have a friend who has had 2 caesarian births, and both times she felt it all, and the surgical staff didn't believe her on either occasion. I always found that a terrifying story, and at least she was awake and lucid, and trying to make them understand. Being paralysed and semi-conscious, I cannot even imagine what you went through to wiggle that finger and then face the disappointment of them ignoring it. Much love to you, you seem like lovely people. x
It's part of crisis response for survivors to help them process trauma (skillfully) as soon after the event as possible for most rapid resolution and healing. Your body and mind knew what you needed, and I'm so sorry you couldn't help yourself better at the time. My recovery experience has had aspects of that and it is something I still work on today. I have enormous respect and gratitude for both your transparency and details!!! Bless you in your continued healing. ❤️🙏💞🌈
You’re not alone in being awake under general anesthesia. I woke up during my tonsillectomy when I was 17. Oh my word it was the most horrifying thing. I could hear everything, smelled the burning flesh, at the same time I experienced the searing pain from the tonsil being removed. It was horrific. I can’t even imagine what it would be like to be awake during brain surgery. Oh my God. I’d probably will my death then and there as well.
I’m so sorry. ❤ You’re not alone. Your husband is a saint. What an amazing couple!
My niece has had 2 brain surgeries to remove cancerous tumors and was awake for both of them. Due to where they were doing the surgery they had to have her awake so they could continue to communicate with her. My brother also had a growth removed from his chest while awake. You have to be brave to face that.
Okay, so I had to read the vlog as well. But LISTENING to you and your husband tell the story, for me, is so powerful. I think i said it last video, but thank you. Thank for you sharing your vulnerability and courage and strength with us. My husband was an EMT when he was firefighting and he was blown away by your story (he's a man of few words). I'm off to explore more of the vlog! 💕
My Mom had spinal surgery and was awake for part of the surgery, but also paralyzed and unable to speak or let them know she was in pain. So horrific. When I had surgery, I told my surgeon about that. He said yes, it happens, but my anesthesiologist watched to make sure it didn’t happen to me. I can’t imagine. So grateful for the way God has worked in your life. He obviously has plans for you. You’re not finished yet! ❤🙏🏻 Jane
I did not expect for part 2 but you guys are GREAT storytellers! Do you learn something new every time y’all have a conversation about it? I can’t even imagine how terrifying it would be! I am so in love with your husband but in the most innocent way! You guys are precious! ❤❤❤
So excited for part 2!
Thank you for continuing to find the time and energy to share more of your journey. Much love
I’m so glad you made it. Your story is amazing and terrifying to hear. You’re a miracle, and I hope the rest of your life is far less eventful than your trauma. You’re amazing at conveying your story and I’m glad I got to hear it 💕
UA-cam suggested part 1 last week and loved it and I had been trying to patiently wait for more. Thank you for sharing!! I love story times ❤️
Wow. Thank you for the part 2. So happy you lived through this ! Your Husband is remarkable !
Just to say that the way you two look at each other is the sweetest thing! Sending loads of love x
You are so brave and a survivor I really hope you’re able to get through the trauma and heal well
What you went through is stuff that many of us have nightmares about. You have to have experienced PTSD. What an amazing husband and family ❤
You both are such strong people! I really appreciate you sharing this amazing journey with us❤!
I stumbled upon your UA-cam channel and your website. I am without words, thank you for sharing your journey.
I’m thankful to be apart of the audience you have chosen to share this impactful story with. Thank you and I felt every moment of it. You are a Queen
Just wow! Listened to part one already. Your story is truly amazing. God bless you and your husband. Miracles happen.
You are hilarious and have the greatest attitude! Thank you for sharing your story with us! I love the way you and your husband discuss the experience so candidly, gross details and all. Much love to the two of you, your family, and all your loved ones!
Thank you for sharing your story, Christy. I cannot imagine everything you’ve went through. ❤
Hi Christy, I had read your blog after watching some of your videos. This event really hurts my heart for you. I hope each day you find something wonderful in it 💮
Thank you for sharing every single part of the story with us. You both tell it amazingly and its so inspiring to hear it from you as a survivor
Thank you for telling such a raw story can’t imagine how hard this was and still is for you and your husband wishing you all the best
I'm glad this is finally up. You and your family have been through soo much. You can tell how much love that man has for you! It's so sweet! I love that he's your biggest advocate. I can't imagine how frightening it was to have woken up mid surgery. I paused and read the list of injuries and girl you had and have every angel looking out for you. I'm excited to continue to hear your story and follow your journey! ❤
Oh wow! I got your first video on my UA-cam feed and wanted to tell you how amazing and courageous you are. Your husband is so loving towards you when he's telling his side of the story. You are truly a strong woman to go through so much and then to relive it on camera. Love and best wishes from the UK xx
Hearing this raw story alongside seeing the messages you wrote while having difficulty communicating makes me so emotional. I appreciate you sharing so much about what you went through. Your husband reminds me of my dad because my sister and mom have been through similar (to some degree) health emergencies. Thankfully everyone has pulled through this far. The strength it must take to recover from medical trauma like you've been through is unimaginable. I'm so glad you and your husband are here to share your story. Every day is such a gift from God; listening to both of you talk puts things into perspective for not only me but I'm sure so many other people watching your videos.
Your husband is amazing, and thank God you have him with his medical expertise!
Your story is so moving. Thank you both for sharing it. I'm glad you had so many people advocating for you to get the care you needed.
You are a miracle! You survived so much. Thank you for sharing your story.
Had to pause mid-way through the video because was such a powerful story, then came to finish. Thanks for sharing your story. -- I think will try to knit a winter hat too. -- Your supportive family is awesome.
This video touched my heart. You are so kind to each other. You are so strong, and I'm so glad your husband was there. As a medic myself, it's inspiring how calm he was in being an advocate for you.
I’m so sorry you had to go through that torture on top of your near-death accident. Anesthesia awareness is one of my fears, especially when I’ve had anesthesiologists tell me I’m “tough to knock out”.
what a story! thank goodness your husband has the experience and knowledge to be such an advocate for you. ❤
The candidness the both of you share is amazing!!
You both clearly love each other very much and seem to have great people around you in terms of family and friends. I love how much your husband loves you and how little comments he makes shows this even more. Like when he references in part 1 about your 'beautiful blue eyes,' and then how you shaking your legs when you were frustrated was adorable to him is so heart warming. I'm so fed up of nasty people and so called 'trolls,' just saying horrible, untrue and nasty things because that's what gets them excited. They are sad little creatures. You both seem like amazing, strong and loving people. I think you are beautiful, even more so for everything you have been through just by yourself and together.
I just started following your journey and getting caught up on your videos and what an journey it is!
I worked as an OR nurse for the majority of my RN career. The story you share on this video is exactly why the anesthesia department is every bit as important as your surgeon! Unfortunately, your tragic intraoperative event is one I’ve heard before. 😢 Thank you for sharing your story. ❤
Thank you for sharing your story, sorry you had to go through this, sending love to you and your husband from the UK x ❤️🇬🇧
You are so strong! What an experience and you being fully aware and capable to tell the story yourself. You are truly an inspiration and your husband is so in love with you. Best wishes to both of you into the future.
Oh my God. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your husband’s love for you is so beautiful to see, thank God you have him and other loved ones by your side! You are so strong and sharing this will help so many others. I am beyond impressed with you and your positive outlook even after going through all this, that no one should have to experience. I wish you both all the best 🙏🏻💕
I have so much respect for your husband, the calmest person in the room!! It is quite a Blessing to have someone who has great self control in the most difficult moments God Bless you both
Holy shit.. After all you went through you ALSO had anesthesia awareness?? I cannot imagine. I’ve heard a few horror stories from other people & it’s one of my biggest fears.
You’re so strong. ❤
I guess that’s what it was? I’m not really sure since I went into respiratory arrest and then a temporary coma. I just know I woke up in an OR with people trying to save my life. I’ll probably never really know the exact details.
@@littletraumamama I’m thinking that’s what happened. If you search “anesthesia awareness” you’ll see videos of other people talking about their experiences & it’s exactly what you described; being aware of what’s going on, feeling everything but not being able to move. It’s so scary. I think it’s caused by not having enough anesthesia, but having enough of the paralyzing medication.. I could be slightly wrong about that, but I know forrsure people call it “anesthesia awareness”. I’m so sorry you went through all of that but so glad you’re okay & that you have an amazing support system.❤️🩹
Thank you for sharing your story with us, this should be required viewing for anyone seeking a motorcycle permit. Congratulations on your continued survival and love to your supportive husband. May you have happy holidays!
I am just amazed at BOTH of you! Truly . . . Holy Moly . . . . I am sending you all much love, and
healing energy with some peace thrown in for good measure 💚😀💗🙏🏻
Omg 😮 I was so happy to see this pop up. Part 1 was something I’ve been thinking about ever since I saw it about a week ago. This is by far THE most horrible story of sudden trauma I have ever heard. And might I add… you and your husband are such a strong and loving couple! ❤️ ok.. back to the story. 😳
You are absolutely incredible! I literally cannot even imagine!! You both were so brave and I’m in shock!!!! God BLESS you!!!
Thank you for being so brave in sharing your incredible story, you are both so strong and have so much love for each other, you are both amazing and an inspiration. ❤️
I’m only at the part of the headache/vomiting but I already would like to say Thank you…for leaving in the “ugly” details bc they are truths. Hearing ugly truths and hard realities helps people assess things properly. You are a strong woman! You made it through something none of us can imagine. And to your husband- Thank You for being the man she needed you to be, and for being the husband who stayed. You stayed through the worst of times, you’ve loved her when she needed it most…and now you both can smile through better times. 🙏🏻💜
I’m so sorry you suffered such terrible injuries. I’m sure it took many weeks for your recovery. Thank you for sharing your story. My heart and prayers are for you and your family.
Found your blog. Your story inspires so many!
Your story is so beautiful ❤ you have such an amazing and supportive husband by your side. I’m pregnant rn and can’t help but to cry everytime I hear any part of your story. You’re such an inspiration to many who have traumatic injuries like this . I’m so proud of you for being so brave and sharing your story ❤️ I hope you nothing but the best for the rest of your time here, stay strong stay beautiful ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am so glad you have someone in your life that cares about you and loves you with all of his heart.
This whole thing is mind blowing. I’m so glad that you are here to tell your story and that you have the most wonderful man by your side.
Just watching this video gave me a panic attack and I was hyperventilating listening to all of it. God bless the both of you and the rest of your family.
My son had a shunt put in at 4 months old. And thank you God, it was removed earlier this year. And I couldn't imagine that experience. For you or your husband. I am so sorry. And to know something so traumatic was also something that saved your life. Thank you so much for telling y'all's story. Inspirational is an understatement. ❤️
Unfortunately, I 've read people talking about experiences like that in the O .R. I can't imagine. I pray there will be advances, and no one will ever have to experience that sort of thing again! So sorry you went through all that ❤️
Very interesting to hear the story from both perspectives. You must have one hell of a strong body to have survived all of that! You guys are very soothing to listen to so I will subscribe and hope you start a regular posting schedule. Maybe a podcast?
Hi, It's very early in the morning and your video came into my UA-cam feed. I have listened to the first video. My heart is beating fast and my whole being feels consumed with compassion, respect, and gratitude to the two of you for deciding to share your experience/s individually and as a family. I have wanted to write for the past 25 years for a series of medical crises my father, my mother, and myself experienced. Your efforts to share your experiences is so so very important, for your own selves, for my family, and more. I did not sleep all last night, yesterday I physically exerted myself beyond my capacity for too long and am only now settled enough to be able to sleep. I'm only mentioning this as a way to explain, while apologizing for not writing to you all that is in my heart and mind to say. Please know you will both be in my prayers daily and I will be following your progress. It is obvious to me that Heavenly Father is with you. You are a living miracle just to have survived, at all, and also the healing process is part of another miracle unfolding. Please know my whole self, more than I can express at this time, is with you. 💖💖💐🌈 Sincerely, Anita Jonsson Calgary, Alberta, Canada
My God! So sorry for that horrible experience. Makes me so mad. As if things weren't bad enough. I can't imagine. I admire your strength, truly. Remarkable story. Glad you're here with us..... seeing the crazy world go out of control 😜
Wow! What an amazing miracle you are. And the love shared between you and your husband is so incredible. Thank you for sharing your story.
Holy moly I paused the video and read all of your injuries. You definitely had a guardian angel watching over you that day and the days after during your healing process.
You sharing this very personal story is so brave and real in my opinion. There’s no telling how many people see these videos and it touches their hearts like it did mine! I’m wishing you all the best and thank you again for opening your heart and sharing this.❤
I'm glad you are sharing your story and also allowing your husband to contribute as well. It shows both sides and how both can feel so much pain and suffer even if it's in different ways. It also gives me hope. I deal with back pain and other chronic pain not from an accident, but your story helps me remember that there will be rough spot where everything can seems hopeless that it can change and can get better. ❣️ Love to you and your family ❣️