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КОМЕНТАРІ • 327

  • @gillwyatt8103
    @gillwyatt8103 Рік тому +9

    Wow, those French spiders are great at building!!! 🕷️🕷️🕸️🕸️🕸️

  • @juliemachooper2636
    @juliemachooper2636 Рік тому +5

    Sorry to hear of your loss. The memories you have will last a lifetime,even though our loved ones are no longer with us. Each passing day will slowly get better. I lost both parents within 8 months of each other nearly 2 years ago and the pain is slowly turning into beautiful memories, as they will with you. Just keep doing what you do best. She will be proud of you still in the afterlife. Take care xxx

  • @susanlennard8495
    @susanlennard8495 Рік тому +3

    Aww Dave,I have just heard about your darling Nan,I send my love to you and your family,and your Nan will always be with you all.This is a stunning house Dave,set in such a beautiful setting with that gorgeous stream below.I bet the furniture in there was all beautiful in the day,shame about all those photographs there and no one to save them,especially the wedding photos.Thankyou Dave for showing us this beautiful house,stay safe.❤️❤️❤️

  • @maxine-charliemaxcaulfield
    @maxine-charliemaxcaulfield Рік тому +5

    What a beautiful place that has been in its day! I loved that river view, and those old photographs I could spend all day looking at. So sad that no relatives took them and that eventually they will be gone forever! I wonder was it trashed? Such a shame! A great explore Dave, as always you are so respectful of the place and it's belongings. Keep up the great work Dave and stay safe 🙂☘️

  • @simonfea2
    @simonfea2 Місяць тому

    What a beautiful house! Another one I would love to make new again. Im loving the French homes, so much warmth in the design and full of beautiful furniture.

  • @muaythaimags
    @muaythaimags Рік тому +2

    Love practically everything about this house! There is so much to love the furniture, all the fires, spiral staicase and the ultimate the river out the back garden. What a glorious find 😍 thank you!
    Oh, not forgetting the stoves as well! 🥰 bizarrely the kitchen sink up on the next floor?? Would be wonderful to restore this.

  • @mandyw1688
    @mandyw1688 Рік тому +1

    What a lovely place, and I could sit listening to that water all day! So lovely to see Marky at the end of your video❤ hope he's ok....miss Country Roads!👍

  • @staceyhay1355
    @staceyhay1355 Рік тому +4

    What an amazing explore. Love your narrative and how caring and respectful you are!

    • @AWE83
      @AWE83  Рік тому +1

      Glad you enjoyed it

  • @randycarson2949
    @randycarson2949 Рік тому +4

    Videos like this make me think of my own mortality
    You can’t take your stuff with you
    And you soon will be forgotten
    Especially this generation today
    They have no attachments
    I’m 60 just being real about life

  • @oskarsmom7552
    @oskarsmom7552 Рік тому +1

    Beautiful home. Thank you so much. You do a wonderful job taking us through your explores. And the throwback clips were great to see. I remember laughing so hard when you walked in on Mark vacuuming. That was so funny! Miss seeing him.

  • @msc8663
    @msc8663 Рік тому +5

    It's sad over in Europe family members fight about the house and stuff so the government let's it rot away. Shameful. Good to see you all be safe. Hi Mark.💕

    • @Felicia790
      @Felicia790 Рік тому +1

      Over here in Europe exists an inheritance tax which not always the relatives can afford. Not only have I seen this happen in Europe I too have seen mansion and properties in the USA left to rot even if they don’t have inheritance taxes. People move away from their childhood homes to make their own. Sadly in this house there weren’t any children as the couple didn’t have any.

  • @JimScott-vu4mx
    @JimScott-vu4mx Місяць тому

    Beautiful! All of it, minus the clutter of course but that river is amazing!

  • @sheliadavid9933
    @sheliadavid9933 Рік тому +1

    Morning Team, Just love exploring these older homes... So much life, yet, so much left behind to piece together from its last tenants. Antique paradise, left only to the spiders and critters to enjoy! The staircases is beautiful, maybe at one point it served has servants quarters, can't really see elderly couples struggling up and down them.

  • @r4976
    @r4976 Рік тому +2

    Been looking forward to this all week 👍 Great , time for a looky 👀 Rich 🇬🇧

  • @w33lal
    @w33lal Рік тому +1

    My sincere condolences, Dave. I have just caught up with you. I have only just learned about your nan's passing. Greatvto see you with the gang again. I think this is an older video. I have seen this one before, but it is a good one, and it's good seeing it again 😀. Take care, love blessings, Alex xx

  • @rob2669
    @rob2669 Рік тому +27

    Just catching up on your videos, only now to hear of your loss. My condolences and heart goes out to you. I lost my mom in 2022 of February and there isn't a day that doesn't go by where I don't think about her. Lots of love from Ontario Canada ❤️🥰

    • @paulahartley7129
      @paulahartley7129 Рік тому +2

      So sorry 😞 to hear that I lost mum on Thanksgiving day 🙏 😢 I. Miss her dearly 😢 💔...

    • @rob2669
      @rob2669 Рік тому +1

      @@paulahartley7129 thank you Paula, my condolences go out to you for your loss, it's one of the toughest things in life to face ❤️❤️

    • @rhondapina1653
      @rhondapina1653 Рік тому

      I'm so sorry for your loss I know it is the hardest thing to go thru and you never seem to get over such a loss I lost my mom a couple of years ago and it still seems like it happened today. I'm so sorry my prayers go out to you

    • @rob2669
      @rob2669 Рік тому +1

      @@rhondapina1653 ❤️ thank you

    • @rhondapina1653
      @rhondapina1653 Рік тому

      @@rob2669 your welcome please take care

  • @virginiadiaz870
    @virginiadiaz870 Рік тому +2

    Es increíble ver cuantos recuerdos de esa familia quedaron congelados en el tiempo. Da para hacer volar la imaginación y revivir los momentos que vivieron entre esas paredes atreves de fotos, libros, muebles, etc. Un valor incalculable en historias de vida atrapadas. Gracias chicos!! Cuídense! 💙🇺🇾

  • @daleleeder3534
    @daleleeder3534 Рік тому

    Such a wonderful place in a stunning location, so much beautiful stuff that along with the house needs to be saved. 😐
    I'm currently trying to catch up on your video's, I have only just realised the sad loss of your nan😔 , from the bottom of my heart , I am very sorry, grandparents are special, I lived with mine most of growing up. Just hold dear the good memories you have, for as long as you remember them , they will live on

  • @denisemeehan688
    @denisemeehan688 Рік тому

    Great explore really eerie house.

  • @terri9261
    @terri9261 Рік тому

    Sorry for the lost of your gran. Saw the photos on IG. It is heartbreaking to lose someone you love. Lost my son in February so get it. Love your videos and just catching up. And hey to Dan🇺🇸

  • @ceedavies
    @ceedavies Рік тому +1

    What a great place! I'd love to tidy and clean this place up and lie in bed at night listening to the river. But I would probably instal less labour intensive heating though!!!

  • @normanfletcher8332
    @normanfletcher8332 Рік тому +1

    Wow, Thank you. You guys sure are brave using those stairs, they are steep. Heard the term, 'frozen in time, you sure hit the winner here, so much to see... Note: am Subscribed..

  • @berylcroft5325
    @berylcroft5325 Рік тому

    So sorry for your loss.great video lovely house way back in time.stay safe xx.

  • @sherryhunt8049
    @sherryhunt8049 Рік тому +1

    Nice explore, beautiful property

  • @barbkeil-burton6894
    @barbkeil-burton6894 Рік тому +1

    Hi Dave & the other Guys, Wow the Mansion would of been Gorgeous IF you got their first, & Not the Vandalism First!
    Love the French Wine, Fireplaces & Stoves, & Especially the Beautiful Bed Frames!! Now since you said the Mansion has sat for
    a Long Time, then someone set up the little glasses with wine in it, wine would be dried in glasses!
    Not Hoarders, Vandalism did this! As for the Spider Webs draping across the room...was a Spider Web..that a Spider left &
    then Dust Particles got in the web, & caused it to hang more because of heavy dust particles & now they are Cobwebs!
    As for that little stroller, that the sitting part is missing was for a child!
    Love seeing the River so close to the Mansion, would be Lovely to see in Springtime with flowers growing!
    Thanks so much for sharing this Abandoned Mansion, that once was Lovely!! Looks like someone is cutting the Grass!
    Take care All of You & have a Wonderful Saturday!! Love from Central Illinois America 🥰😎💯❤

  • @ChristofferAndersson1988
    @ChristofferAndersson1988 Рік тому

    Sorry for the loss lots of love from Sweden

  • @ricanhavoc9965
    @ricanhavoc9965 Рік тому

    This home touched my heart..so beautiful and lost in time.

  • @lindaneff7245
    @lindaneff7245 11 місяців тому +1

    Yes enjoyed

  • @glenyshanlon5112
    @glenyshanlon5112 Рік тому

    You crack me up boys 😂 great fun ending to another great house definitely had a problem with hording i think years and years of stuff left behind and them cobwebs i haven't seen anything like them they were like nett curtains across the rooms really enjoyed it thanks boys keep up the good work.

  • @nanapatsullivan2344
    @nanapatsullivan2344 Рік тому

    I'm sorry for the loss of your Gran, may God give you strength, guidance and courage, may he send his Angels to wrap their protective loving wings around you and your family.❤❤🙏🙏🙏

  • @scruffy281
    @scruffy281 Рік тому

    Wild Baguettes!!😂😂😂 I laughed for 10 minutes off and on. In fact I am laughing as I am writing this. Another fab video...Lots of love from Texas!!❤

  • @scruffy281
    @scruffy281 Рік тому

    I am so sorry about your Nana.❤

  • @lilleyjones2765
    @lilleyjones2765 Рік тому

    So sorry for your loss

  • @americanwoman9342
    @americanwoman9342 Рік тому

    How has that house not burned down even with occupants? Storing all that wood inside is so dangerous!!
    The sounds of the river are fabulous..

  • @Wistful77
    @Wistful77 Рік тому

    All I can think is Wow!

  • @Munchkin71
    @Munchkin71 Рік тому

    Those heaters and the cooker are so gorgeous,I would love them in my place.What great house that would have been at one time. I hate to see them left to rot.

  • @amybannister4021
    @amybannister4021 Рік тому

    What a beautiful yet eerie place. It looks like it once held alot of love until they got the sad news that she couldn't conceive, making life sad and hard for the lady. I feel that the old man is still there and not a very nice person, sorry to speak ill of the dead. The photos of the lady have very nice vibes to them. Tho sad, I feel she was a kindred spirit. Love the furniture. It's a shame the place has been trashed and the contents can't be saved. Great video. Hope your knee is OK. Much love ❤️

  • @deboliver3090
    @deboliver3090 Рік тому

    Thank you for the wonderful video I really enjoyed it God bless you and be safe

  • @barbaraheinze9406
    @barbaraheinze9406 Рік тому

    beautiful pieces of glass ware and some furniture just to be wasted. Someone spent a lot of time and money to build it but more is the furnishings costly to fill the rooms

  • @KrystynaKaczynski
    @KrystynaKaczynski 5 місяців тому

    Very nice

  • @ClotEastwood
    @ClotEastwood Рік тому

    The camera work was ok mate. . great vid
    RE Cobwebs. . . The Left Hand Drive Spiders are like that. . . . GED OVER IT
    26:05 . . When I was Little I was given a bag of Marbles. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . YEP . . . . . . YA LOST EM

  • @davidboyd4137
    @davidboyd4137 5 місяців тому

    Normally you have to go to France for wild baguettes 😅 love the explores, be strong David, stay safe lads😊

    • @AWE83
      @AWE83  5 місяців тому

      Haha true. Thanks David

  • @pommydiva1
    @pommydiva1 Рік тому

    your post title says... mansion fell into the water. im guessing you mean the lower rooms got flooded? which is probably why so many chairs and stuff are strewn across the floor. im surprised theres not much more water damage. take care on your travels

  • @mrskernowexp8807
    @mrskernowexp8807 Рік тому

    Brilliant video great find bit of a hoarder s place

  • @frentbow
    @frentbow Рік тому

    What a beautiful house. I love the blue ceramic heaters and wooden furniture, the tiling. All fantastic. The setting too with the river. Not a fan of the cobwebs though.

  • @Wereontoyouss
    @Wereontoyouss Рік тому +5

    Love your videos but its making me feel sick zooming your camera around.

  • @monicahyland8641
    @monicahyland8641 Рік тому

    The craftsmanship and detail that is in these old homes you can’t get in modern homes today. It’s exquisite. I’m telling you all, lol 😂, if I could I would be there in a heartbeat and become a squatter and clean up and live in one of those homes.. I would say so and so left it to me 😂

  • @MikesSealcoating
    @MikesSealcoating Рік тому

    thanks

  • @marleneguerta9705
    @marleneguerta9705 Рік тому

    ❤están interesantes los videos,esas casas no tienen dueños?no estan mal ubicadas,parece embrujada, gracias por los videos 😺

  • @KrystynaKaczynski
    @KrystynaKaczynski 5 місяців тому

    Wow

  • @cowgirlvillarreal
    @cowgirlvillarreal Рік тому

    Beautiful ❤️ if walls could talk

  • @silviabeatrizbaldauf215
    @silviabeatrizbaldauf215 Рік тому

    Me encantan sus vídeos, pongan subtítulos en Español , así entiendo tú relato, saludo desde Argentina 🇦🇷

  • @myrescuecats3028
    @myrescuecats3028 Рік тому +1

    Dave the cabinet beside the bed is for a piss pot.

  • @KrystynaKaczynski
    @KrystynaKaczynski 5 місяців тому

    Awwweee

  • @wendystjean4678
    @wendystjean4678 Рік тому

    I love your voice. You sound like Jude Law.

  • @schomestead2591
    @schomestead2591 Рік тому

    That cabinet next to the bed is not a cooler, it would have held a chamber pot.

  • @zacharyt5645
    @zacharyt5645 Рік тому

    Hi,Dave,!and Friend,Explorers!!
    Wow huge spider webbs!? Ewww!
    😘Luv the Video!! Awesome!
    Stay Safe!💜LOTS OF LOVEXOXO
    From JULIE n Zachary!!Ontario Canada!❤🙏🙏

  • @carasmith7993
    @carasmith7993 Рік тому

    So pretty. If I went in and saw that first cob web I would have ran out lol

  • @gillwyatt8103
    @gillwyatt8103 Рік тому +2

    AWE, your videos are great and your enthusiasm is infectious but you really need to slow your camera work down!!!!

  • @m.a.tchorahi8650
    @m.a.tchorahi8650 11 місяців тому

    Love you from Pakistan 🇵🇰❤

  • @coracao7308
    @coracao7308 Рік тому

    I am sorry for your loss Dave. Int he video... who can confirm it was her couldn't have a child..maybe it was him.. back days people used to put all the blame from everything on woman's back... so..maybe.... who knows....

  • @moniquelevering6558
    @moniquelevering6558 Рік тому

    This house must be vandalisme and people must have been looking for valuables. Never seen such a mess in such and old pdoperty

  • @aliciaenriquez6430
    @aliciaenriquez6430 Рік тому +1

    👍👍👍👍👍👍❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @maxine-charliemaxcaulfield
    @maxine-charliemaxcaulfield Рік тому

    OMG! I would"ve been outta there faster that Roadrunner if I had walked in n saw that massive spiders web😱

  • @cecoya
    @cecoya Рік тому +1

    You need to slow down I am getting dizzy trying to focus on anything except the spider webs and that must be one HUGE spider.

  • @beachgypsy13
    @beachgypsy13 Рік тому

    y'all should invest in waders!!

  • @Wereontoyouss
    @Wereontoyouss Рік тому

    The cupboard at the 12.48 mark was for storing there piss pot in.

  • @martywithceleste4444
    @martywithceleste4444 Рік тому +2

    I haven't watched your videos in quite a while, because of your bad camera work. I suffer from vertigo and I can barely make it 5 minutes into a video of yours and it's time to cut it off. I hate that, because you do go to some awesome places! But, your filming hasn't improved and I can't handle trying to watch. I'm sure there are many others that are affected the same way. Oh well, I guess I'll try again in another year or two.

    • @deborahgoodwin3426
      @deborahgoodwin3426 Рік тому +2

      I wholeheartedly agree Marty. I was beginning to suffer a nauseous headache no matter how much I wanted to continue watching.

  • @tinarusso467
    @tinarusso467 Рік тому

    The real story always lyes behind the viewers.
    What a sin to see all this. It breaks your heart to see especially the photos abandoned. Relatives just don't care. That's so sad.

  • @michellerafferty3222
    @michellerafferty3222 Рік тому

    Looks like cobweb hammocks

  • @KrystynaKaczynski
    @KrystynaKaczynski 5 місяців тому

    Was it a mansion? Or house.

  • @MT_20_24
    @MT_20_24 Рік тому

    What camera you using ?

    • @AWE83
      @AWE83  Рік тому +2

      It's a sony a500 but not all my latest stuff is sony a7iii
      This is a old video from my collection

    • @MT_20_24
      @MT_20_24 Рік тому

      @@AWE83 👍

  • @thePrussian
    @thePrussian Рік тому

    My house was built in 1939. My family has been in the house for over 50 years. I plan on keeping it as long as I can.
    Those spiders are called “Holy Shite” spiders cuz when you walk into their webs you say, “Holy Shite!”
    The old man prolly pushed his wife into the river cuz no he was jealous that she was French but could still say “hamburger” and he couldn’t.

  • @1M005E1
    @1M005E1 Рік тому +18

    All these once beautiful homes, I can not believe there is NO family that wants to stake claim on anything. Thank you for sharing these video's with the world, it's like we are there with you. Thank you for showing respect & not taking things that are not yours. Stay safe.

    • @stephjezo6470
      @stephjezo6470 Рік тому +2

      Not always about not wanting to. Often these get tied up in courts, inheritance taxes can be insane and unaffordable, then fixing up/updating, maintaining and taxes.

    • @Jason-rn4jk
      @Jason-rn4jk Рік тому

      These are located in the middle of no where, more times than not the attorneys don’t try locating any distant family so they hope the property can lay claim to them.

    • @debbiegarvick1728
      @debbiegarvick1728 Рік тому

      Word's Well Spoken 🎯

  • @AWE83
    @AWE83  Рік тому +5

    Sorry wasn't a great edit been so down losing my nanny xx

    • @susanbennett6809
      @susanbennett6809 Рік тому +1

      Sorry for your lost🙏

    • @dianaboyd7415
      @dianaboyd7415 Рік тому +1

      Your videos are awesome & in time you’ll remember your nan with a big smile on your face. Make sure to pass on stories and photos to your little one. Never forget your nan is always with you ❤😔🕸️

  • @bonniekaye
    @bonniekaye Рік тому +7

    One of the greatest abandoned homes I have seen!
    Such a shame that all of the beautiful furniture was left to ruins. 😭

  • @okiesoko
    @okiesoko Рік тому +6

    Sorry for your loss dear. I lost my mom in 2000 and it still feels like yesterday. ❤ your explores and ❤ the group you’re with! God bless all of y’all and stay safe!

  • @jimkozminski7693
    @jimkozminski7693 Рік тому +5

    Sorry for your loss, brother. My Grandmother passed away a few years ago, and we just lost my Grandfather this year. Even if they had long full lives, it never feels like enough time. Just remember them. Stay safe, stay blessed.

    • @AWE83
      @AWE83  Рік тому +2

      Na I agree its never lokg enough d

  • @r4976
    @r4976 Рік тому +3

    Excellent explore Dave 👏 Such a shame so many nice houses are abandoned 😨 This was like they only just popped out 😮 Such a shame also to see someone's life/history trashed with the detritus. So sad. Rich 🇬🇧

  • @dianaboyd7415
    @dianaboyd7415 Рік тому +3

    What a fabulous find. I never got a notification that you posted something new, just watched something else & checked. Lovely, creepy home with hammock sized webs hanging with dust. I wish people wouldn’t ransack & leave places in such disarray. Thank you for sharing & thanks for you 2 silly lads at the end. Stay safe ❤

  • @kathleenlawton
    @kathleenlawton Рік тому +2

    The camera is moving around so fast and crooked...all over. It's making me dizzy not focusing on anything.

  • @user-LiZ62
    @user-LiZ62 Рік тому +3

    Beautiful home , such a shame it’s been ransacked and left to decay , great explore Dave ❤

  • @joannewaterhouse183
    @joannewaterhouse183 Рік тому +2

    Thank you for the walk down memories lane just love the old time capsules although i am wondering how much would left standing today or has mother nature took it all back
    Hope you and your family are all doing well under circumstances hugs to you all ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ x

  • @maryannpietryka2561
    @maryannpietryka2561 Рік тому +3

    So many memories left behind.Would love to live near a river to hear the water rushing away. The spiral stair case was a bit sketchy for me.Absolutely Love the memories of you and Mark exploring together . I wish they weren`t memories I wish to see you both exploring back together again very soon and back to having your lives back alsoTake Care and Stay Safe.❤

  • @tammywebb7849
    @tammywebb7849 Рік тому +5

    I lost my mom as well much love Dave I love watching your videos my condolences for your loss 😌 stay safe and be strong

  • @TheBluemoon1949
    @TheBluemoon1949 Рік тому +2

    Hi David, so sorry for your loss, God bless and take care.❤️🇨🇦

  • @kathygarner1383
    @kathygarner1383 Рік тому +4

    I’m sorry for your loss, David, blessings to you and your family💞

  • @beverleystone1102
    @beverleystone1102 Рік тому +2

    Oh it was rushed sadly. Often when a few explore together it seems to get to the next room without taking so much more on the camera. I love your explores especially with markey. But thank you for keeping me an older woman entertained best wishes beverley . UK

  • @carmelreed6569
    @carmelreed6569 Рік тому +2

    I love your videos but you move the camera to fast at times and it gives me a 🤕

  • @MikesSealcoating
    @MikesSealcoating Рік тому +2

    Please slow down camera hard to see every thing

  • @msc8663
    @msc8663 Рік тому +3

    Oh Dave I'm so sorry for you loss of Nana.

  • @LisaSmith-cf5wk
    @LisaSmith-cf5wk Рік тому +2

    Another great video Dave. Love the old stoves.

  • @annsmith4739
    @annsmith4739 Рік тому +1

    My condolences Dave I rang bell an subscribe even before I watch your vidio great as always much love Ann uk ❤️❤️❤️🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧

  • @denisebuchalski9104
    @denisebuchalski9104 Рік тому +1

    Men and spiders. What is it with you guys? Next time you see those soft billowy webs, the ones that look dirty and dusty. They don't contain spiders. They've been abandoned and are deteriorating like the house they are in. Active spider webs are tight and sticky to catch bugs for the spiders to eat. Those are the ones to avoid. You're welcome. I'm so very sorry that you lost your Nana. Just remember that as great as your pain is having lost her, those waiting for her on the other side are experiencing great joy.

  • @Weeeewriter
    @Weeeewriter 8 місяців тому +1

    So sorry about your Nan. I miss both of mine, they were wonderful women xx

  • @clivericmond5889
    @clivericmond5889 Рік тому +2

    Another fantastic explore dave 👍 👏 👌 SMASH THAT LIKE BUTTON PEOPLE

  • @fordmad1973
    @fordmad1973 Рік тому +1

    Hey Dave
    Why this video, isn't it from 2018 or 2019 ?
    Cool to see the old crew together back in the day.
    And for all the others on here saying to Dave slow down his camera work, well Dave did this video years ago and his camera work now is 💯% better now than back then

  • @Claire-be4gd
    @Claire-be4gd Рік тому +2

    ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @KK-tt8cm
    @KK-tt8cm Рік тому +1

    You need a face mask for your health.when filming.

  • @lisaarmstrong4156
    @lisaarmstrong4156 Рік тому +1

    You move soon fast I get dizzy. Love to watch but it messes with my eyes n brain