it took depression for me to understand that my compalsiveness to be an excellent student was so very unhealty. if you reading this , please stop before it's too late. i know it's hard, but you are worth so much more than your grades, love.
Your comment honestly made me cry. Nobody’s ever told me that before and this song just hits too close to home. Everything I’ve ever been proud of has been put down and told that it was okay and mediocre. I also have no one to vent to because I’ve been told many times that I should be glad that I was born ‘smart’ and that I shouldn’t complain because I have good grades, so I always end up venting to random people who I relate to on the internet. I constantly have pressure from my parents on my grades and told daily how much every assignment can affect my school life and future. Because of all of this, I fear disappointing people around me very much and I feel like crying every time somebody says they’re disappointed in me and that I could do better. I’ve never really failed anyone before, but I’m really scared of what would happen and I’m constantly disappointed in myself for not getting a good grade or getting beaten at something. I never get a break and I’m just glad that I’m not the only one who understands what it’s like to be in this situation, so thank you for writing this comment.
@@uhhi8813 Hello, lovely and beautiful human being. ❤️ I can relate to your position- grew up a gifted kid with incredibly harsh standards, and to this day my intense perfectionism stops me from chasing the hobbies and dreams I love. (It’s a work in progress). I want to tell you that like the original commenter said, you are SO much more than a number on a sheet of paper. Your life means so, so much more. Your work doesn’t define you; you are beautiful and capable no matter what. And I encourage you to keep saying it to your mirror reflection until it feels true, and until you no longer feel like a fraud when the words leave your mouth. 💞 I want to also give you a bit of advice from my journey. And it’s hard advice when you’re in the position you being a gifted kid, but it’s so, so valuable. Everything you’ve ever learned about failure? Trash it. Failure is NOT the enemy. Failure means SO MUCH; it is essential to growth, and the experience of failing helps you to learn and get better. If you try any new thing, whether it be playing an instrument or trying to start a company, failure is inevitable. And that is OKAY- even when school gets on your back and tells you it isn’t. Don’t be afraid when things get messy; embrace it and work with what you have to make the situation better. Don’t be mad at yourself for failure, either- that’s the fastest way to ruin the learning opportunity that comes from it! Be proud of success, yes, and work towards it, but understand that failure is a key component to that success. So many of the best, most successful people have encountered failure and overcame it, so I encourage you to develop a growth mindset and learn how to prioritize lifelong learning over a thirst for perfection. The latter is unhealthy, and it puts you in a box. I’m also not an adult yet, so take this next part with a grain of salt. But I will say that something I’ve heard from so many adults is that the aversion to failure can only work so long. You can get through middle school, high school, maybe even college with perfect marks, and it’ll work out for you. But as you begin to work in the adult world, there is no “studying”- there are only tests thrown at you from every side. And you’re unprepared for a lot of them. School trains us to identify only with our successes, but the experiences of the real world crush the people who do that. I would say it’s not only healthy, but also very beneficial to learn to love yourself now throughout failure and success. And once you learn to view failure not as a trap or a degrading label, but instead as a disguised learning experience, I promise you your life will get so much easier... and a lot of burdens may slip off of your shoulders. And also, it’ll get easier to get things done and to experiment with new areas/hobbies that aren’t already in your element. I’d recommend to learn have fun with that last part, too :)) I hope for the best for you, you legendary human being. ❤️ I love you. You’re so worth it. And I’m honored to share a world with you. 😌
I give my support to all of you! I was also put into the "smart kid" box, except no one was really pressuring me lol. I started putting very high expectations on myself and was brought to tears every time I didn't do an assignment properly or something. But I agree that failure is very valuable and it can teach us so much! I hope all of you are doing well and that you can find worth in yourself beyond an A :] Stay safe and have a fantastic day!
Being a Filipino is really hard. Sometimes the pressure is breaking my sanity, and if I fail it would seem I let them down. Why can't parents just be proud of who their children are and support them.
Sometimes people say it's because our parents had to grow up and study so hard for their own future (and their future family's). I feel like that was my situation. My parents weren't very poor but they have told us that sometimes they struggled for food. My mom graduated elementary with flying colors, while my Dad had the pressure and graduated valedictorian during highschool. It just sucks that it feels like they don't appreciate us anymore just because it's necessary for our future. It feels like it's generational trauma.
@@yourlocaldemon2195 I wasn't able to look at my notifications because I'm busy with my E-Portfolios. 😭 I like invalidating myself so that's why I used 'feel like' 😌😌😌 Just kidding, that's a bad trait. 😭
Today I got back my ACT scores. Studying for it was the most stressful thing I’d ever done, and my parents spent a thousand dollars on a tutor. I did all that work just to raise my score by 2 points. This hit different
You are worth more than your accomplishments or "productivity." You don't need to succeed according to some external standard to be a worthwhile person. You deserve to spend your life doing what makes you happy, and you have no obligation to use all that "potential" people keep telling you you have on anything other than your own dreams. May I suggest watching the anime "Silver Spoon" by Hiromu Arakawa? It's on CrunchyRoll; I found it helped me get a perspective on my fears of failure and the internalized pressure I'd inherited from my parents.
Hey, just want to say it’s okay that you only improved your score by 2 points. I was in a similar boat. Despite getting a score only 2 points above my original I self studied and was able to improve my ACT score by 7 points and get into the top school in my state. Work hard, learn how to study smart, and go after it. Your limit is only what you set for yourself, and even if you don’t get into that dream school you have the wisdom & knowledge to make college better.
I trained for an hour each day and five hours on the weekend to try to raise my SAT score. I had a math teacher teaching me. I was just a few points short of the second level of scholarships. It really sucks. We might not have the highest score, but that isn't what gets the A. Not in college at least. It's the hard work that gets the A. And you know you can do that. A lot of people who didn't need to study in highschool, because they were so smart, have trouble in college where it is needed. You can do it. It isn't the smartest that win, but those who are willing to fight for it.
Hey I didnt even take the ACT or SAT (Long story, I was sick and out of school) and im about to start training to become a respiratory therapist! You can get to your goals regardless of standardized tests!
im not really the top of my school, but gosh, why does it feel so relatable? im nothing in this song. i procrastinate, i am lazy, i am no school prodigy, but why is it relatable to me? I have never aced a test since the start of my highschool life. i feel so stressed and anxious of myself, i dont even study, yet i cry whenever i see my scores on a test. it sucks being a perfectionist, and it sucks even more that i cant even be good at being a perfectionist.
My mom tells me that it’s okay as long as i try and succeed but I also have that huge desire and feeling that deep down she wants me to be great being her oldest daughter. She is a hard working and powerful women that has sacrificed her life for her children and I wanna show her that her sacrifice and hard work will not go unnoticed
My situation is similar to you, My father and mother sacrificed a lot of things for us and my brothers and I am the oldest daughter, so I have the desire to rise up to their expectations although I have some problems with studying this year and I have this guilt I can’t get rid of whatever I do (T-T)
I also feel similarly too, my parents both agree that it’s okay as long as I try my best but i can’t get over the thought that they want a gifted and smart eldest child. So right now im powered by the intense fear of scoring less than a B+, still going at it 😅
I also get a lot of validation from my parents and relatives. But in the end when I actually failed an important exam it turned into taunts and pity. The support is still there, just it seems like everything I've achieved until now is meaningless infront of one failure 😔
This song just perfectly portrayed what it feels like to actually be top of your class. I was always praised for being smart at private school in a small class of 22 people which wasn’t under or overwhelming, but I’ve had to go to public school for hs. I’m into the second semester of freshman year and already people only acknowledge me because I’m smart or top of our class. Like if I was anything else nobody would like me, which sounds bad but it’s the harsh reality. The sad fact is my parents aren’t even putting pressure on me and that I’m the culprit of putting pressure on myself. This song hits really close to home. Edit: it’s reassuring that people in the replies have the same struggles that I do- it really does show that you’re never alone (thanks for all the caring replies
I literally got a 106% on a test for one of my AP classes which was the highest in the class and my parents didn’t even care. I told them and they were like ok… 😐. They literally expect me to be the best and don’t even say they are proud of me when I do the best.
What makes this even worse is my brother nearly failed out of high school and they were so proud of him when he got a C in a class and didn’t have to retake it
Honestly, as an Asian, I really relate to this sooo much. It’s literally my vent music. I once got an A and my parents screamed at me so much and beat me up because I didn’t get a A+. This really hits home.
@@MarcaronipastaIt's unfortunately not uncommon in Asia, they see it as discipline. My mom slaps me but she still says she's better because she doesn't use a stick or a belt
Tbh I hardly think they could've done better than you. An A is fantastic, and if your parents are going to be that cruel to you for not being perfect all the time, then they're not good parents. I understand they've probably been raised in an environment where that kind of "discipline" is normalized, but this is borderline abuse. I really hope you manage to talk to somebody who can help you, and I hope your parents will understand that this type of reaction is not okay. Wish I could help you, but I can only wish you good luck moving forward. You're not alone
I think it's her vocals and the lyrics. I mean the lyrics are literally about being perfect to be honorable. If that doesn't scream Azula idk what does
I rarely see songs that have this topic. In my younger years I got so blinded by the drive of making everyone proud. One time we got a quiz in 4th grade and I got a 72 percent and cried in the bathroom for hours. In my school years I accomplished many things, so people started expecting me to automatically be the best at everything. So in return I needed to try and be the best at everything just to make sure I didn’t let them down. I regret that I skipped my prom, hanging out with my friends, etc. Looking back I never had an actual fun childhood because I was so driven to be the best that I ignored everything that wasn’t necessary. At the end of my college graduation I had an existential crisis. I didn’t know who I was. What my hobbies were. I didn’t know what to do with my life. It’s been years and I’ve gotten therapy. I’m finding myself and I’ve learned that even though it’s good to be driven and ambitious, don’t go too far. Remember, don’t try to grow up to fast. We have the majority of our lives to be adults, but we can only experience our childhood once. Have a outstanding day ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Oh and Katherine AMAZING song! You have a great future ahead of you 💕
It’s kinda funny of how a lot of us relate to this song. Personally for me, I’ve always been top of everything and “everyone”. Skills, grades, talents. I’m seen as a calm and chill. I can “handle” hard situations, etc. Being top of my class was my main priority, Also, getting into Harvard or Yale. Pressuring myself is the one thing I’m “good” at. I try my hardest to Stan out from others as “talented” But mostly I do this for my parents approval and my own selfish satisfaction. Now lately my grades have been dropping. I’ve been more lazy and forget about homework. I’ve been losing friends and interest in any of the previous things. I’m just tired of everything. I’m tired of everyone.
We are experiencing the same phenomenon right now. Well... I have two regional contests to prepare for these weeks, yet I am in an online game slacking & helping other players instead. Maybe I had drained my brain cells from my previous brilliant ideas to reach those regionals, or maybe because I and my family had been eating nothing but rice for a month now. I am also losing my friends and were more anxious than before. But not now! I have kindaaaa self-reflected on my actions. I have a 'strategy book' that went missing a month ago, so I thought that when I found it again, I may go back on track. All of my values are there, and what I really need to pursue... but I can't remember. Anyways, when you don't have any energy left, and the world falls into a haze, even apples lose their sweet flavors. So take time and rest mate.
Yeah I always felt like I wasn't good enough, I couldn't pay attention in school and I thought I was stupid. Turns out it was undiagnosed adhd, so that's fun
Give yourself a rest, you deserve it. I'm proud of you whoever who you are or what you turn out to be. And hey, look everyone in The youtube comments here are also proud of you, sure life may be tough but hey. I'm proud of you just being alive. Do your best but don't pressure yourself to much okay? We may be strangers but we care, don't we?
1:43 hits really hard, being a student and your parents seeing you achieve something. They'll expect you to achieve it over and over again. Until you'll be pressured by them, my parents used to tell me ''Kahit man matalino ka, pero hindi ka naka-pasa sa board exam. Wala 'rin lang'' Hey Dear Person, if you're reading this. I know you can do it, despite the pressure and efforts. It'll be worth it, I swear.
Its really unfair thar this happens to a lot of people. Luckily my parent never forced me to get good grades as long as I passed.... Everyone, including you don't deserve this.
I feel this on a personal level. When I was still an elementary kiddo, I was the 'star' student from first grade to the last, everyone praised me for my achievements. But that only planted in my mind that if I don't reach their expectations, there will be nothing left for me, they won't love me. Being so called gifted sucks.
[Verse 1] Some people live the life that was given Some people just get by Some people never learned how to be driven Some people don’t even try [Pre Chorus] But some people know what their heart desires Some people lead with a passionate fire And some people know that they’rе destined to fly [Chorus] I’ll go all out, ace еvery test No doubt, outdo all the rest Don’t pout, or settle for second best So I won’t stop, and won’t lose my cool Don’t flop, cause Harvard’s no fool And who’ll love me If I’m not the top of my school? [Post Chorus] She’s the top (She’s the top) She’s the top (She’s the top) She’s the top (She’s the) Top of our, top of our school [Verse 2] Maybe my friends will say I’m overzealous Maybe I try too hard (Maybe she tries too hard) Maybe they’ll just have to learn to be jealous Watching me shine like a star [Pre Chorus] Cause maybe I know what my heart desires Maybe I’ll lead with a passionate fire Cause baby I know that I’m destined to fly [Bridge] But if I hadn’t earned a dollar What would you think of your dear daughter? Would it be pity or dishonor To ensue? And if I failed to earn blue ribbon How could I ever be forgiven? Tell me what love would still be given From you [Chorus] I’ll go all out, ace every test No doubt outdo all the rest Don’t pout or settle for second best So I won’t stop, and won’t lose my cool Don’t flop, cause Harvard’s no fool And who’ll love me If I’m not the top of my school?
I feel in the last chorus line could’ve been a build up where they are gonna do what the person wants to do instead of doing what others want but then again I feel the song by itself is amazing
This is my favorite song. The weird thing is I am not an over-achiever, I am the farthest from it. I do the bare minimum, my grades are good, but not exceptional. Yet, I relate to this song spiritually. Maybe not because of the whole “try-hard” thing, but maybe because I fear disappointing my parents… most especially myself. Honestly sometimes, I feel guilty of feeling that way, since I do not try. LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH THOUGH!! 💖
Some people live the life that was given Some people just get by Some people never learned how to be driven Some people don't even try But some people know what their heart desires Some people lead with a passionate fire And some people know that they're destined To fly I'll go all out, ace every test No doubt, outdo all the rest Don't pout or settle for second best So I won't stop, and won't lose my cool Don't flop 'cause Harvard's no fool And who'll love me If I'm not the top of my school She's the top (She's the top) She's the top (She's the top) She's the top (She's the) Top of our top of our school Maybe my friends will say I'm overzealous Maybe I try too hard (Maybe she tries too hard) Maybe they'll just have to learn to be jealous Watching me shine like a star 'Cause maybe I know what my heart desires Maybe I'll lead with a passionate fire 'Cause baby I know that I'm destined To fly But if I hadn't earned a dollar What would you think of your dear daughter Would it be pity or dishonour To ensue And if I failed to earn blue ribbon How could I ever be forgiven Tell me what love would still be given From you I'll go all out, ace every test No doubt, outdo all the rest Don't pout or settle for second best So I won't stop, and won't lose my cool Don't flop 'cause Harvard's no fool And who'll love me If I'm not the top of my school
The bridge really resonates with me, even though I’m one of those ‘lucky’ Asian kids who wasn’t pressured by their parents to succeed in a stereotypical Asian career. I’m so proud of your work. You came to my fyp on TikTok and was so impressed by your voice. It’s so clean and sounds flawless! You’re going to do great things!
the line that gets me is "maybe I know what my heart desires, maybe I'll lead with a passionate fire" because I'm constantly told to be realistic about my future, while also being encouraged to basically be the perfect student at the same time
This hit's so hard because I was always considered the 'smart' kid, I was always praised for my grades and other saying they wish they we're me.. I never even have any childhood. I was forced to only focus on academics when I was younger, but then, I felt free when my mother finally let me be when I started high school. I always want my parents to tell me that they're proud of me, I was always expected to be a role model to my two younger sibling, and so I did. I have high grades and my general average us 93-94 hoping that my parents will like it. I was waiting for my parents validation that I got tired thinking that, "Are they actually paying attention to me?" They always told to; be like him, be like her because they are better. So, I guess I they never saw how hard I try to please them. They keep switching me schools not knowing that it was quite difficult to adjust to new learning environments, then I felt burn out. It started when me and my mother then started fighting frequently, I felt so alone, like, no one believes in me so why do I keep on trying? My grades plummeted and I felt helpless, I disappoint them and myself.. I'm a senior high school at the moment, new school and my grades worsen. I was told that they( my parents) are very disappointed at me. I 'm trying to get myself back on what I used to be but I don't know anymore, I never had a subject grade of 79 it's always 89 and above.. I totaled my score and I only got the general average of 83, it's not much but I'm slowly starting to accept it. At least now I have a friend who tells me that I shouldn't give up and that I did my best. IMPORTANT!! So, what I want to tell you guys is that, learn to accept yourself and not to push yourself to the point that you might end up like me :)) You still have a chance, so, please do listen to me and do your very best! to achieve it. Even if they say you fail, it means nothing cause at least you did your best and you weren't afraid to try. I'm very proud of you :)) no need to be too hard on yourself, let's achieve this together so don't leave me okay? -stranger :))
"Who'll love me if I'm not the top of my school?" The "pity or dishonor" hit home having just broken my 11-year streak at the top and falling to be the 2nd...both pity and dishonor were felt. But not from others so much as from me. Coming from a very loving and supportive family: You're all worth more than your medals, sweeties, and the people who truly love you always will love you 🥇🥈🥉
I followed you for your avatar music and THEN learned you are an amazingly cute and funny person and THEN realized that you make even more music that is SUCH A BANGER love you!
The "who'll love me if I'm not the top of my school" had me... I had companions because of my grades, my parents are proud of me because of my achievements, as well as my teachers. But if I hadn't had those, will they still show me those kind of affection? I doubt it.
Honestly, this hit way to hard. As someone who always valued themselves based off of school. Someone who lost all love for themselves. Someone who was grieving for the death of who they thought they were. Someone who fell into a bad depression streak. Someone who couldn’t have a healthy connection with people. Someone who forgot that you don’t have to date someone to think their cool. I know how hard it is to see yourself as more that a letter with a symbol next to it. But you are not an A or an B-. You are amazing and beautiful and special in every single way. I am working every day to undo almost 15 years of people telling me how to see myself. Working to undo everything little thing my parents (specifically my mom) taught me about what “self worth” is. I’m in sophomore year now and hell, I’m still scarred that if I get anything lower than a B I’ve completely failed. But now I have healthier relationships in my life. I broke off things off with a bad “relationship.” Things haven’t changed but they have gotten easier. Never forget that your worth is never, will never, and has never been based off a number or even a letter. It’s based of who you are and choose to be.
The funny thing is that I'm writing a fanfic rn in the AtLA universe, and it's about Katara being one of the top students in her classes. This song kinda feels like her anthem in the story now lol. Great job! I love how the song progresses from stating a position and owning it to suddenly feeling as if it's drowning us by the end.
I really love that girl's sass with the headband. Idk she gives off the vibes of that character who's left with 2nd best because of this song's "girl" being the top 1 per usual and i just love how she played that role so well (at least like from a plot perspective or sumn)
I mean, this hits hard. I am a student in Korea and after all these efforts put on me and all the money spent on my education, I can't help but feel like I'll never be enough. My mom expects me to be perfect, too. Once in elementary school, she was so mad at me for getting 95 out of 100. That's just so harsh. Also, to excel in high school, we have to compete with each other. Only the highest 4% would get that 1 mark on the grade. That's just so insane. I wake up late at night, panicking about my future. This anxiety is growing so rapidly and yet I can't reach out for help, knowing how my mother would react to these 'minor' issues. This is so stressful.
As a Korean middle schooler too, I really, really think that our education system is incredibly shucked. Having to 'win' each other, all the pressure going on, and endless, endless academies... even if it's for our 'future', it shouldn't be done this way. +P. S, I truly hope that your future is all about freedom, stability of mind, and bliss. I know how this feels, and I know that you deserve so much more than this. Wherever you are right now, please remember that there's someone that doesn't expect you to be good at stuff, but rooting for you to accept yourself and help. Nobody is perfect. We are all different and deserve to try different ways of life. If you haven't figured out your way yet, that's alright, I haven't, too. So just, I want you to know that you're already doing great, despite the problems.
The Korean education system is truly fucked up. This explains why so many Koreans nowadays refuse getting children, since the education fee necessitated in order to make some sort of footing, however pathetic, for your child to stand on in order to compete with others is ridiculously high. I wish Korea would see that we can lower those crazy standards and therefore lessen the stress inflicted onto so many students. What’s more baffling is that even if a student was to get into a prestigious university, after graduating, really, what’re they left with? Sure, small advantages here and there, but getting a job and fitting into society, into adulthood, is equally as grueling, if not more. It’s competition after competition in Korea. In the end every Korean citizen will be worn out with the entitlement of a loser, since people will continue to clash against each other in order to determine a clear winner. If only a handful are meant to survive within Korea, what will be made of the others? Korea is resilient and fabulous and I have pride in my country. Don’t get me wrong. But things need to change for the better.
There's certainly a bitter-sweetness when being top of your class, and I love how you express it in your song. Knowing that you're the best and thinking that you have the talent and skills to make it, then realizing that the harder you work and the harder you try the expectations will become higher and higher. And you begin to wonder if that's the only reason people talk to you or are you friend. Needless to say I love this song.
As someone who relates to these types of struggles it takes a lot out of me to try and be "perfect" I have strict parents so it's not like I really have a choice. When I listen to this song it brings me to tears it's very well put together and beautifully sung. I came here from an Amity Animatic.
Not only does the singing feel emotionally driven, but the facial expressions! I swear at some point it looked like she was going to cry. Rhis song is beautiful and the attention to detail makes it incredible. I will have this song in my head for weeks! I love it!
lol i love the one ensemble member in the bottom left corner at 1:38 doing air quotes and rolling their eyes, love that extra bit of personality that adds! edit because i also wanted to mention this moment: i LOVE the moment at 1:05 where she slams the locker. it really shows the range of Bree's emotions, how she can be cocky towards her accomplishments (as she acts in the beginning), saddened at the high expectations she and others set for herself (as she acts at the end), but also angry at the world for deciding that her value lies in being academically successful. it's just such a great moment that reveals so much character!
Omg!!! You're right!! I didn't think of her, but now that you said it I absolutely see it! Maybe a bit of Catra too? Because of how much she needs to be validated by Shadow Weaver? But definitely a lot of Adora vibes
@@danielalala Yeah! Adora's personality is really based on needing to prove herself to others. She believes that fundamentally, she doesn't deserve love unless she earns it. So when she's in the horde, she dedicates herself to being the very best cadet, and when she's in brightmoon, she throws herself into her role as she-ra, making sure that every single thing goes off perfectly. Her overplanning is played off as a joke, but it's actually a part of her character: She needs everything to go perfectly, because if she fails, then she doesn't deserve love (or that's what she thinks)
@@adamzheng4362 Yesss, she was so so stressed so much of the time, it was so sad to watch in a way. Like, yeah it was sort of amusing but the fact that she felt the need to push herself like that was just kind of sad to me. This song really does portray that character trait well.
I’m in an alternate learning school and I managed to do things that I could never do in an average high school but now I have so much pressure on myself to be the best I can be. I’m on a dance team, I’m ASB president, I go to a technical school, and I have a part time job yet I still manage to help support others and it’s breaking me slowly. My mom doesn’t put pressure on me but now that I’ve been in the spotlight after not having anyone notice me for years I don’t want to lose this attention. I know that this gifted era will not last forever but it feels so great to be wanted for once. I know this is all over the place but this song really keeps me going forward because why not listen to a song about being the pains of being the top of your school
At 2:00 when you said, "Tell me, would love still be given?," I almost started crying - but then stopped [I guess I'm not ready to let that pain up to the surface just yet, though I feel it coming lol]. I wasn't top of my school or even my class. I wasn't in any honors or AP classes, but I'm only now slowly discovering I'm smarter than I was ever led to believe. You have a beautiful voice and I love the courage you showed in writing and putting this song out. Topics like this aren't easy to talk about, because we - as children - want to do everything we can to protect and honor our parents, as well as be good enough in their eyes. Also, I've never really heard any songs about performing for a parent's love before - not to say they don't exist, but they're probably rare. Most songs are about love and romance, though there are a fair amount of songs about pursuing your dreams. These lyrics are relatable and very creative. (Btw, the song sounds like it belongs on Broadway and your voice in Disney films... and Broadway lol 💕🦋🌸🌈) Thank you for putting this song out for people to hear. I really believe it can help change people's lives 😊 Also, the song reminds me of the plot of Turning Red [I love that movie 😊], which is really cool because it takes place in Canada - and I'm guessing from all the maple leaves that you're also from Canada lol. I relate to that movie in the sense that I was always performing for my parents' love, doing everything they told me to, I love calculus-type math (like Meilin), and my dad is from Canada so I have some connection there 💕
This song has been on my playlist for about two years now and I remember hearing it for the first time and getting so many chills. The lyrics and voices were beautiful!
Please. The amount I RELATE TO THIS. I always get emotional with the part " if I hadnt earned a dollar, what would you think of your dear daughter" wow. Amazing song. I LOVE IT
Started listening to this song 3 years ago, I think it was 4-6 months after its release. After listening to this song, I got inspired and tried doing my best to be top of my school, but I always failed to do so. Finally, after 3 years, I managed to be the top of my school, having an average of 99.6, I finally accomplished my goal. Thank you❤
this used to be me and when i got my first 'c' i thought it was the end of world, but life went on. i still have a big fear about disappointing my parents.
This is almost a year old??? Damn, this occupied my whole fyp for the almost a month now. I need to see a live version of this cuz it'll definitely be phenomenal
The feeling of being the "Top of the Class" into "The Second Best" literally hurts so much like all the people that have high expectations from you become disappointed. And the fact that you don't have anyone to vent into, and even the person that you cherish the most even stops acknowledging you like literally ignoring you to the point that you can only vent by listening to this song. Because if you told anyone that you feel that way you will eventually become their "Charity Case" and call you "Hungry for Grades".. If only I wasn't like this what if I'm the actual problem? I don't know but ever since I was born my family always expected high of me. There is just this thing that I feel that like its WRONG Idk it just hurts for no reason. Like I'm just a human being too. (Please don't mind me I just really want to vent out my feelings)
1:43 I relate to this so much, my parents keep telling me "you should have good grades so you can earn a lot in the future" and it just bothers me so much and stresses me out. what if I don't earn enough? what if I'm not your dear little daughter who shines? this is a lovely song and you made such great lyrics! love the vocals
You, YOU, Katherine, you are SO TALENTED. I mean... wow. I’ve always been a big theatre fan and this would be incredible on stage!! I can practically see it being performed on broadway. This is on par with Little Miss Perfect. Incredible job. I’m obsessed.
This song is NOT long enough. I wanted it at least TWICE as long because I just couldn't get enough! It's just that good. This is my fourth time listening. Seriously, you're incredible.
My choir class listened to this for our listening warmup on Friday! Everybody loved it and there were so many hands up on its musical elements. Everybody was surprised that it was an original song
2:31 "and who'll love me, if i'm not the top of the school?" oof this hits hard, i totally haven't had breakdowns until 3am about that haha but seriously try to take of yourselves. even in the smallest of ways. (like letting yourself drink water, or putting a candy in ur pocket for later :) modern education systems aren't the best right now in general but we can get thru it i promise
mhm!! in case you nd to hear it right now, you r worth more than your grades! like, a _lot_ more. you have worth outside of what you can do for other people, and no one has any right to treat you like shit. you're trying your hardest, and y'know what? i wanna congratulate you for that. good job. genuinely, _good job._ i'm proud of you. now go be proud of yourself o7
I love how the first time she sings the chorus, she sounds pretentious and snobby, but the second time it’s obvious how much she’s hurting. Same words, completely different tone. Incredible.
I FINALLY GAVE IN TO YT AFTER RECOMMENDING THIS TO ME LIKE CRAZY AND I AM DROWNED IN REGRET FOR NOT LISTENING TO THIS SOONER . THIS IS SOOOOO GOOD I WANT TO EAT THIS THIS IS SO GOOD
I stg I just heard this song coming from the living room randomly and I DIED OMG! LITERALLY WA SSHAKING, ADRENALINE RUSH, ALL OF IT! U did so good on CGT! I can’t wait to see where u go next
When u have always been the top in everything it hurts way too much when u slip up. Once back in 5th grade i placed second in a quiz and was crying my eyes out. I became so used to perfection that i linked my self worth with how i perform at school. Then the burnout hit and now i don't even care. I stopped doing homework and studying. I still got good grades cuz " i am naturally smart" . Now in 11th grade i am slowly getting back on track. I cant afford to waste my last 2 years of highschool. Now i am preparing for college entrance exams to get into my dream college (engeneering major). Hope it goes well 😀
Stream "Top of My School" on Spotify and Apple Music: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/katherinelynnrose/top-of-my-school-feat-joshua-turchin
Amazing song!!!
Already on my playlist
I play it on Spotify everyday☺
Nice!!
Did you take inspiration from Freddie Mercury for this song? It sounds very Queen-esque.
"Maybe they’ll just have to learn to be jealous" ASJDKJLDJ
Bree do be petty
My favorite line
Lol me too
Why do you laugh in Spanish? 😂 ¿Por qué te reís en español?
"What if I hadn't earned a dollar? What would you think of your dear daughter? Would it be pity or dishonor?" HITS HARD
WAY TOO HARD
Asian parents in a nutshell
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-
EXACTLY
True-
Top of My School, Little Miss Perfect, and Alyssa Greene, the holy trinity of Gifted Kid Burnout Songs™
YES
.....
@@amityblight4990 I knew you'd be here 😌
@@xxgenericedgytitlexx2483 how'd you know?!?! :0 does humans have the ability to predict that?!
@@amityblight4990 no I just felt it in my bones lol
Fun fact: I heard this song on Spotify two days ago and was both shocked and impressed that it was an original song and not a song from a musical.
Yesssss
I showed this song to my mom and once ot was done she asked what it was from
it’s an original song and a song for a musical
@@moth5737 What's the name of the musical?
SAME
This isn't about being the best in school its about gaining validation from parents and other people, the fear of being a disappointment
personally, its a combo of the 3. (for me.)
True
DON'T CALL ME OUT LIKE THE FAILURE I AM
This feels like a classic Disney movie in the best way possible
Screw Disney, this is way better! ¡A quién le importa Disney, esto es mil veces mejor!
Yes yes yes! Agreed!
this feels like disney n pixar's newest movie turning red, i feel like it really represents the main character from that movie
Funnily enough, a Disney show fandom uses this song for Amity Blight from the owl house a lot so you're not wrong!
it took depression for me to understand that my compalsiveness to be an excellent student was so very unhealty. if you reading this , please stop before it's too late. i know it's hard, but you are worth so much more than your grades, love.
Your comment honestly made me cry. Nobody’s ever told me that before and this song just hits too close to home. Everything I’ve ever been proud of has been put down and told that it was okay and mediocre. I also have no one to vent to because I’ve been told many times that I should be glad that I was born ‘smart’ and that I shouldn’t complain because I have good grades, so I always end up venting to random people who I relate to on the internet. I constantly have pressure from my parents on my grades and told daily how much every assignment can affect my school life and future. Because of all of this, I fear disappointing people around me very much and I feel like crying every time somebody says they’re disappointed in me and that I could do better. I’ve never really failed anyone before, but I’m really scared of what would happen and I’m constantly disappointed in myself for not getting a good grade or getting beaten at something. I never get a break and I’m just glad that I’m not the only one who understands what it’s like to be in this situation, so thank you for writing this comment.
@@uhhi8813 Hello, lovely and beautiful human being. ❤️ I can relate to your position- grew up a gifted kid with incredibly harsh standards, and to this day my intense perfectionism stops me from chasing the hobbies and dreams I love. (It’s a work in progress).
I want to tell you that like the original commenter said, you are SO much more than a number on a sheet of paper. Your life means so, so much more. Your work doesn’t define you; you are beautiful and capable no matter what. And I encourage you to keep saying it to your mirror reflection until it feels true, and until you no longer feel like a fraud when the words leave your mouth. 💞
I want to also give you a bit of advice from my journey. And it’s hard advice when you’re in the position you being a gifted kid, but it’s so, so valuable.
Everything you’ve ever learned about failure? Trash it. Failure is NOT the enemy. Failure means SO MUCH; it is essential to growth, and the experience of failing helps you to learn and get better. If you try any new thing, whether it be playing an instrument or trying to start a company, failure is inevitable. And that is OKAY- even when school gets on your back and tells you it isn’t. Don’t be afraid when things get messy; embrace it and work with what you have to make the situation better. Don’t be mad at yourself for failure, either- that’s the fastest way to ruin the learning opportunity that comes from it! Be proud of success, yes, and work towards it, but understand that failure is a key component to that success. So many of the best, most successful people have encountered failure and overcame it, so I encourage you to develop a growth mindset and learn how to prioritize lifelong learning over a thirst for perfection. The latter is unhealthy, and it puts you in a box.
I’m also not an adult yet, so take this next part with a grain of salt. But I will say that something I’ve heard from so many adults is that the aversion to failure can only work so long. You can get through middle school, high school, maybe even college with perfect marks, and it’ll work out for you. But as you begin to work in the adult world, there is no “studying”- there are only tests thrown at you from every side. And you’re unprepared for a lot of them. School trains us to identify only with our successes, but the experiences of the real world crush the people who do that.
I would say it’s not only healthy, but also very beneficial to learn to love yourself now throughout failure and success. And once you learn to view failure not as a trap or a degrading label, but instead as a disguised learning experience, I promise you your life will get so much easier... and a lot of burdens may slip off of your shoulders. And also, it’ll get easier to get things done and to experiment with new areas/hobbies that aren’t already in your element. I’d recommend to learn have fun with that last part, too :))
I hope for the best for you, you legendary human being. ❤️ I love you. You’re so worth it. And I’m honored to share a world with you. 😌
I give my support to all of you! I was also put into the "smart kid" box, except no one was really pressuring me lol. I started putting very high expectations on myself and was brought to tears every time I didn't do an assignment properly or something. But I agree that failure is very valuable and it can teach us so much! I hope all of you are doing well and that you can find worth in yourself beyond an A :] Stay safe and have a fantastic day!
fine then, I’ll skip school
I know what you mean, it's taking it step by step and making sure to take care of yourself along the way
Oof this hits different as a a "gifted kid" mid-burn out
Same lol
relate
same
#relatable
Internet is where you can relate to a digestive biscuit and it's amazing
the sad part is when you are no longer the best even if try your hardest, this song is just so relatable, i love it
ikr and ur parents will be mad instead
It's like all you can do now is miss who you used to be
hi!
😢😢😢
Can we please shout out the backup singers? Like- they gave me so many chills.
IKR!!
I WAS SO CONFUSED BC I THOUGHT THIS SAID "Can you please shout AT the backup singers?" AND I WAS LIKE "Why they do it so well"
This song is perfect for little miss perfect (amity blight)
for. real. literal chills.
It's in the description??
Little miss perfect: *Ah, a worthy opponent. Our battle will be legendary.*
I LOVE LITTLE MISS PERFECT
@@katherinelynnrose Make a cover queen! :D
OH DAMN
AN ANIMATIC OF AMITY WITH THIS SONG
Not gay enough.
YESSS KATHERINE CAN I MAKE A CROSSOVER OF BOTH AND CAN U LOOK AT IT AND MAYBE SHARE IT???? IM BEGGGGGGGGGING
Being a Filipino is really hard. Sometimes the pressure is breaking my sanity, and if I fail it would seem I let them down. Why can't parents just be proud of who their children are and support them.
Sometimes people say it's because our parents had to grow up and study so hard for their own future (and their future family's). I feel like that was my situation. My parents weren't very poor but they have told us that sometimes they struggled for food. My mom graduated elementary with flying colors, while my Dad had the pressure and graduated valedictorian during highschool. It just sucks that it feels like they don't appreciate us anymore just because it's necessary for our future. It feels like it's generational trauma.
@@Free-dt8iv Feels like? It is.
Filipino students has it hard I tell ya 😭
@@yourlocaldemon2195 I wasn't able to look at my notifications because I'm busy with my E-Portfolios. 😭
I like invalidating myself so that's why I used 'feel like' 😌😌😌
Just kidding, that's a bad trait. 😭
Because putang ina ginamit na tayong pang ahon sa hirap priii
Today I got back my ACT scores. Studying for it was the most stressful thing I’d ever done, and my parents spent a thousand dollars on a tutor. I did all that work just to raise my score by 2 points. This hit different
You are worth more than your accomplishments or "productivity." You don't need to succeed according to some external standard to be a worthwhile person. You deserve to spend your life doing what makes you happy, and you have no obligation to use all that "potential" people keep telling you you have on anything other than your own dreams.
May I suggest watching the anime "Silver Spoon" by Hiromu Arakawa? It's on CrunchyRoll; I found it helped me get a perspective on my fears of failure and the internalized pressure I'd inherited from my parents.
Hey, just want to say it’s okay that you only improved your score by 2 points. I was in a similar boat. Despite getting a score only 2 points above my original I self studied and was able to improve my ACT score by 7 points and get into the top school in my state. Work hard, learn how to study smart, and go after it. Your limit is only what you set for yourself, and even if you don’t get into that dream school you have the wisdom & knowledge to make college better.
I trained for an hour each day and five hours on the weekend to try to raise my SAT score. I had a math teacher teaching me. I was just a few points short of the second level of scholarships. It really sucks. We might not have the highest score, but that isn't what gets the A. Not in college at least. It's the hard work that gets the A. And you know you can do that. A lot of people who didn't need to study in highschool, because they were so smart, have trouble in college where it is needed. You can do it. It isn't the smartest that win, but those who are willing to fight for it.
Hey I didnt even take the ACT or SAT (Long story, I was sick and out of school) and im about to start training to become a respiratory therapist! You can get to your goals regardless of standardized tests!
im not really the top of my school, but gosh, why does it feel so relatable?
im nothing in this song. i procrastinate, i am lazy, i am no school prodigy, but why is it relatable to me? I have never aced a test since the start of my highschool life. i feel so stressed and anxious of myself, i dont even study, yet i cry whenever i see my scores on a test. it sucks being a perfectionist, and it sucks even more that i cant even be good at being a perfectionist.
Same , we are same , u r not alone , it's okay to feel like this as long as u don't give up and decide to keep going u haven't failed ❤
" who'll love me if im not the top of my school " hits hard
I want this to become viral because it deserves it. Tiktok, do your thing
YASSS
Nuu this is too good for tiktok
@@ebirds6760 yes
GREAT NEWS! IT'S NOW TRENDING ON TIKTOK!
This is not even tictok💀
YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND, IVE BEEN WAITING A MONTH FOR THIS AND SINGING THAT CLIP IN THE SHOWER
OMG SAMEEE😌
I heard this song for like three seconds on TikTok and I’ve listened to it at least 20 times today
MA’AM. MA’AM DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW TALENTED YOU ARE
MISS GIRL SAYS YOU
C,zzZzDddDZdzz**@@katherinelynnrose
My mom tells me that it’s okay as long as i try and succeed but I also have that huge desire and feeling that deep down she wants me to be great being her oldest daughter. She is a hard working and powerful women that has sacrificed her life for her children and I wanna show her that her sacrifice and hard work will not go unnoticed
My situation is similar to you, My father and mother sacrificed a lot of things for us and my brothers and I am the oldest daughter, so I have the desire to rise up to their expectations although I have some problems with studying this year and I have this guilt I can’t get rid of whatever I do (T-T)
I also feel similarly too, my parents both agree that it’s okay as long as I try my best but i can’t get over the thought that they want a gifted and smart eldest child. So right now im powered by the intense fear of scoring less than a B+, still going at it 😅
I also get a lot of validation from my parents and relatives. But in the end when I actually failed an important exam it turned into taunts and pity. The support is still there, just it seems like everything I've achieved until now is meaningless infront of one failure 😔
"If I fail to earn blue ribbon. How could I ever be FORGIVEN? Tell me what love would still be given from YOU?" that hits so hard.
This song just perfectly portrayed what it feels like to actually be top of your class. I was always praised for being smart at private school in a small class of 22 people which wasn’t under or overwhelming, but I’ve had to go to public school for hs. I’m into the second semester of freshman year and already people only acknowledge me because I’m smart or top of our class. Like if I was anything else nobody would like me, which sounds bad but it’s the harsh reality. The sad fact is my parents aren’t even putting pressure on me and that I’m the culprit of putting pressure on myself. This song hits really close to home.
Edit: it’s reassuring that people in the replies have the same struggles that I do- it really does show that you’re never alone (thanks for all the caring replies
Are we the same person?
Same, I thought i was alone, it feels oddly comforting to know that, there is more people that are going through this
I relate sooooooooo much
Couldn't have said it any better
Welcome to the club, we hope you can relieve the pressure from your shoulders soon.
I literally got a 106% on a test for one of my AP classes which was the highest in the class and my parents didn’t even care. I told them and they were like ok… 😐. They literally expect me to be the best and don’t even say they are proud of me when I do the best.
What makes this even worse is my brother nearly failed out of high school and they were so proud of him when he got a C in a class and didn’t have to retake it
Dude that's hard..sorry for you
darn that's messed up... good job for the 106 tho lol
I'm proud of you for getting such an excellent mark ❤️
@@iambored5585 I totally understand giving a child award with a lower grade because it was harder for them, but holy shit that just bullshit
Honestly, as an Asian, I really relate to this sooo much. It’s literally my vent music. I once got an A and my parents screamed at me so much and beat me up because I didn’t get a A+. This really hits home.
Beat you up? I'm honestly concerned. How hard?!
@@Marcaronipasta beating child is common in Asian countries
@@MarcaronipastaIt's unfortunately not uncommon in Asia, they see it as discipline. My mom slaps me but she still says she's better because she doesn't use a stick or a belt
Tbh I hardly think they could've done better than you. An A is fantastic, and if your parents are going to be that cruel to you for not being perfect all the time, then they're not good parents. I understand they've probably been raised in an environment where that kind of "discipline" is normalized, but this is borderline abuse.
I really hope you manage to talk to somebody who can help you, and I hope your parents will understand that this type of reaction is not okay. Wish I could help you, but I can only wish you good luck moving forward. You're not alone
“But some people know what their heart desires” and “What if i hadn’t earned a dollar?” THOSE HIT HOME MAN
hear me out guys, this gives off azula vibes
EDIT:
I WAS THINKING THE EXACT SAME THING!!
And yes the vocals are absolutely off the charts!
I think it's her vocals and the lyrics. I mean the lyrics are literally about being perfect to be honorable. If that doesn't scream Azula idk what does
Adora vibes tho
"Who'll love me if I'm not the top of my school?"
btw im making an animatic on this and im gonna post it on my main which is [procrastinator] kyra
RIGHT!?!?!
I rarely see songs that have this topic. In my younger years I got so blinded by the drive of making everyone proud. One time we got a quiz in 4th grade and I got a 72 percent and cried in the bathroom for hours. In my school years I accomplished many things, so people started expecting me to automatically be the best at everything. So in return I needed to try and be the best at everything just to make sure I didn’t let them down. I regret that I skipped my prom, hanging out with my friends, etc. Looking back I never had an actual fun childhood because I was so driven to be the best that I ignored everything that wasn’t necessary. At the end of my college graduation I had an existential crisis. I didn’t know who I was. What my hobbies were. I didn’t know what to do with my life. It’s been years and I’ve gotten therapy. I’m finding myself and I’ve learned that even though it’s good to be driven and ambitious, don’t go too far. Remember, don’t try to grow up to fast. We have the majority of our lives to be adults, but we can only experience our childhood once. Have a outstanding day ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh and Katherine AMAZING song! You have a great future ahead of you 💕
@Baka Yunih I'm glad I'm not alone :)
Seeing this it It just brings me nostalgia and knowing I am not alone
oh god we had the exact same school experience its actually kinda scary.. also im glad you got help and are improving i hope you have a lovely day!!
I feel you, I cried alone for a while because I had to tell my mom that I got a high C on a test
Try hard “gifted” kids rise up🙌🏽
ayyy
Here 😅
hi
*cries in being called a try hard*
Yep this is where I belong
I'm a Filipino honor student and this song just hits so hard I relate to it so much
"And who'll love me if I'm not the top of my school" hits hard
And those backup singers are so good
11 MONTHS AGO??? TIKTOK LITERALLY HAD ME THINKING THIS WAS NEW, HOW DOES THIS NOT HAVE OVER 1 MILLION VIEWS YET?! THIS IS LITERALLY A MASTERPIECE
It’s kinda funny of how a lot of us relate to this song. Personally for me, I’ve always been top of everything and “everyone”. Skills, grades, talents. I’m seen as a calm and chill. I can “handle” hard situations, etc. Being top of my class was my main priority, Also, getting into Harvard or Yale. Pressuring myself is the one thing I’m “good” at. I try my hardest to Stan out from others as “talented” But mostly I do this for my parents approval and my own selfish satisfaction. Now lately my grades have been dropping. I’ve been more lazy and forget about homework. I’ve been losing friends and interest in any of the previous things. I’m just tired of everything. I’m tired of everyone.
We are experiencing the same phenomenon right now. Well... I have two regional contests to prepare for these weeks, yet I am in an online game slacking & helping other players instead. Maybe I had drained my brain cells from my previous brilliant ideas to reach those regionals, or maybe because I and my family had been eating nothing but rice for a month now. I am also losing my friends and were more anxious than before.
But not now! I have kindaaaa self-reflected on my actions. I have a 'strategy book' that went missing a month ago, so I thought that when I found it again, I may go back on track. All of my values are there, and what I really need to pursue... but I can't remember.
Anyways, when you don't have any energy left, and the world falls into a haze, even apples lose their sweet flavors. So take time and rest mate.
As a former “honor roll” kid, it reminded me of when everyone else liked me. Now, everyone thinks I’m weird. It’s sad but it’s the truth.
Yeah I always felt like I wasn't good enough, I couldn't pay attention in school and I thought I was stupid. Turns out it was undiagnosed adhd, so that's fun
Give yourself a rest, you deserve it. I'm proud of you whoever who you are or what you turn out to be. And hey, look everyone in The youtube comments here are also proud of you, sure life may be tough but hey. I'm proud of you just being alive. Do your best but don't pressure yourself to much okay? We may be strangers but we care, don't we?
Burnout maybe🤨
I love that the people at 1:43 surrounding Bree are acting as different school personas such as the bratty, the sweet, the teachers pet, etc.
This hits hard for Filipino and Indian/Sri Lankan kids, along with anyone with strict parents.
1:43 hits really hard, being a student and your parents seeing you achieve something. They'll expect you to achieve it over and over again. Until you'll be pressured by them, my parents used to tell me
''Kahit man matalino ka, pero hindi ka naka-pasa sa board exam. Wala 'rin lang''
Hey Dear Person, if you're reading this. I know you can do it, despite the pressure and efforts. It'll be worth it, I swear.
Its really unfair thar this happens to a lot of people. Luckily my parent never forced me to get good grades as long as I passed.... Everyone, including you don't deserve this.
I feel this on a personal level. When I was still an elementary kiddo, I was the 'star' student from first grade to the last, everyone praised me for my achievements. But that only planted in my mind that if I don't reach their expectations, there will be nothing left for me, they won't love me.
Being so called gifted sucks.
That sucks sorry for that I hope you feel better soon
Everybody is talking about Amity but this song is also really fitting for Adora
And Diana Cavendish
OH YESS!
YESSS
Or maybe Nina Rosario from In The Heights
@@tylertheemancipator YES
[Verse 1]
Some people live the life that was given
Some people just get by
Some people never learned how to be driven
Some people don’t even try
[Pre Chorus]
But some people know what their heart desires
Some people lead with a passionate fire
And some people know that they’rе destined to fly
[Chorus]
I’ll go all out, ace еvery test
No doubt, outdo all the rest
Don’t pout, or settle for second best
So I won’t stop, and won’t lose my cool
Don’t flop, cause Harvard’s no fool
And who’ll love me
If I’m not the top of my school?
[Post Chorus]
She’s the top (She’s the top)
She’s the top (She’s the top)
She’s the top (She’s the)
Top of our, top of our school
[Verse 2]
Maybe my friends will say I’m overzealous
Maybe I try too hard (Maybe she tries too hard)
Maybe they’ll just have to learn to be jealous
Watching me shine like a star
[Pre Chorus]
Cause maybe I know what my heart desires
Maybe I’ll lead with a passionate fire
Cause baby I know that I’m destined to fly
[Bridge]
But if I hadn’t earned a dollar
What would you think of your dear daughter?
Would it be pity or dishonor
To ensue?
And if I failed to earn blue ribbon
How could I ever be forgiven?
Tell me what love would still be given
From you
[Chorus]
I’ll go all out, ace every test
No doubt outdo all the rest
Don’t pout or settle for second best
So I won’t stop, and won’t lose my cool
Don’t flop, cause Harvard’s no fool
And who’ll love me
If I’m not the top of my school?
Ty yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!!
im so sorry to say this but this is all in the description
I feel in the last chorus line could’ve been a build up where they are gonna do what the person wants to do instead of doing what others want but then again I feel the song by itself is amazing
This is my favorite song. The weird thing is I am not an over-achiever, I am the farthest from it. I do the bare minimum, my grades are good, but not exceptional. Yet, I relate to this song spiritually. Maybe not because of the whole “try-hard” thing, but maybe because I fear disappointing my parents… most especially myself. Honestly sometimes, I feel guilty of feeling that way, since I do not try. LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH THOUGH!! 💖
you just explained me. this is exactly how i feel!
@@dopesickammo I'm really happy someone feels the same way! :D
@@steamedbuunn me too :] i genuinely thought i was the only one but you exist hehe
Same story. Thank you for this.
Some people live the life that was given
Some people just get by
Some people never learned how to be driven
Some people don't even try
But some people know what their heart desires
Some people lead with a passionate fire
And some people know that they're destined
To fly
I'll go all out, ace every test
No doubt, outdo all the rest
Don't pout or settle for second best
So I won't stop, and won't lose my cool
Don't flop 'cause Harvard's no fool
And who'll love me
If I'm not the top of my school
She's the top (She's the top)
She's the top (She's the top)
She's the top (She's the)
Top of our top of our school
Maybe my friends will say I'm overzealous
Maybe I try too hard (Maybe she tries too hard)
Maybe they'll just have to learn to be jealous
Watching me shine like a star
'Cause maybe I know what my heart desires
Maybe I'll lead with a passionate fire
'Cause baby I know that I'm destined
To fly
But if I hadn't earned a dollar
What would you think of your dear daughter
Would it be pity or dishonour
To ensue
And if I failed to earn blue ribbon
How could I ever be forgiven
Tell me what love would still be given
From you
I'll go all out, ace every test
No doubt, outdo all the rest
Don't pout or settle for second best
So I won't stop, and won't lose my cool
Don't flop 'cause Harvard's no fool
And who'll love me
If I'm not the top of my school
say it with me everyone, *amity blight vibes*
*AMITY BLIGHT VIBES*
I got my brother into people like Joriah Kwame and Katherine because of some of their ties to the owl house.
Amity blight vibes!
*I NOW NEED AN AMITY BLIGHT ANIMATIC OF THIS SONG OMG*
i rlly want someone to make an animatic to this
THIS IS SO STELLAR! Listening on REPEAT, you are INCREDIBLE!
LOVE YOU TORYYYY
OMG YOUR PFP
@@Aiden-gb9yz OMG YES!!! HANNAH NEEDS TO
@@Aiden-gb9yz Ahhh I would love it if she did!! I think she does comment requests?
The bridge really resonates with me, even though I’m one of those ‘lucky’ Asian kids who wasn’t pressured by their parents to succeed in a stereotypical Asian career.
I’m so proud of your work. You came to my fyp on TikTok and was so impressed by your voice. It’s so clean and sounds flawless! You’re going to do great things!
Tf you mean you didnt have stereotypical strict asian family?? Impossible.
@@TitaniumTronic i have white parents?
the line that gets me is "maybe I know what my heart desires, maybe I'll lead with a passionate fire" because I'm constantly told to be realistic about my future, while also being encouraged to basically be the perfect student at the same time
NO WAY I GENUINELY THOUGHT THIS WAS A BROADWAY PRODUCTION OR MUSICAL SONG OMG UR SO TALENTED
0:59 “and who’d love me, if im not the top of my school?” hit harder then my mom frfr
My dad core
I’m listening to this again for the 100th time and I just realized the lyrics go well with Meilin Lee from Turning Red
SAME
Omg I just realized
also amity from the owl house
@@sunny-ql9llFr
I did just cry really hard at this because its such a relatable song
This hit's so hard because I was always considered the 'smart' kid, I was always praised for my grades and other saying they wish they we're me.. I never even have any childhood. I was forced to only focus on academics when I was younger, but then, I felt free when my mother finally let me be when I started high school.
I always want my parents to tell me that they're proud of me, I was always expected to be a role model to my two younger sibling, and so I did. I have high grades and my general average us 93-94 hoping that my parents will like it.
I was waiting for my parents validation that I got tired thinking that, "Are they actually paying attention to me?" They always told to; be like him, be like her because they are better. So, I guess I they never saw how hard I try to please them.
They keep switching me schools not knowing that it was quite difficult to adjust to new learning environments, then I felt burn out. It started when me and my mother then started fighting frequently, I felt so alone, like, no one believes in me so why do I keep on trying?
My grades plummeted and I felt helpless, I disappoint them and myself.. I'm a senior high school at the moment, new school and my grades worsen. I was told that they( my parents) are very disappointed at me.
I 'm trying to get myself back on what I used to be but I don't know anymore, I never had a subject grade of 79 it's always 89 and above..
I totaled my score and I only got the general average of 83, it's not much but I'm slowly starting to accept it. At least now I have a friend who tells me that I shouldn't give up and that I did my best.
IMPORTANT!!
So, what I want to tell you guys is that, learn to accept yourself and not to push yourself to the point that you might end up like me :)) You still have a chance, so, please do listen to me and do your very best! to achieve it. Even if they say you fail, it means nothing cause at least you did your best and you weren't afraid to try. I'm very proud of you :)) no need to be too hard on yourself, let's achieve this together so don't leave me okay?
-stranger :))
"Who'll love me if I'm not the top of my school?"
The "pity or dishonor" hit home having just broken my 11-year streak at the top and falling to be the 2nd...both pity and dishonor were felt. But not from others so much as from me. Coming from a very loving and supportive family: You're all worth more than your medals, sweeties, and the people who truly love you always will love you 🥇🥈🥉
omg same🥲
Me loving that she fixed the pencil at 0:10
I followed you for your avatar music and THEN learned you are an amazingly cute and funny person and THEN realized that you make even more music that is SUCH A BANGER
love you!
AHHH thank you so much!!!
THERES AVATAR MUSIC?!?!?!?! hold up brb I have to bingelisten real quick
Sameee, and in the same order too
When youre not a topper but a driven, average kid chasing the top and STILL feel this pain to the core, let us breathe pLEASE
The "who'll love me if I'm not the top of my school" had me... I had companions because of my grades, my parents are proud of me because of my achievements, as well as my teachers. But if I hadn't had those, will they still show me those kind of affection? I doubt it.
"and i fail to earn blue ribbon, how could i ever be forgiven tell me what love would still be given" MAN. THIS LINE HIT SO HARD
FR
As the eldest of an Asian family, this song speaks to me on a whole new level.
I CAN'T WAIT THIS SONG HAS BEEN EVERYTHING TO ME FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF WEEKS. IT'S BEEN ENGRAVED IN MY HEAD >:)
Wait until u hear lil miss perfect
Honestly, this hit way to hard. As someone who always valued themselves based off of school. Someone who lost all love for themselves. Someone who was grieving for the death of who they thought they were. Someone who fell into a bad depression streak. Someone who couldn’t have a healthy connection with people. Someone who forgot that you don’t have to date someone to think their cool. I know how hard it is to see yourself as more that a letter with a symbol next to it. But you are not an A or an B-. You are amazing and beautiful and special in every single way. I am working every day to undo almost 15 years of people telling me how to see myself. Working to undo everything little thing my parents (specifically my mom) taught me about what “self worth” is. I’m in sophomore year now and hell, I’m still scarred that if I get anything lower than a B I’ve completely failed. But now I have healthier relationships in my life. I broke off things off with a bad “relationship.” Things haven’t changed but they have gotten easier. Never forget that your worth is never, will never, and has never been based off a number or even a letter. It’s based of who you are and choose to be.
Literally crying for this song, love this fr😭😭😭
WHY WAS I NOT INFORMED THE ATLA SONG LADY MAKES ORIGINALS???? THIS IS A BOP WTF
stole my words
The funny thing is that I'm writing a fanfic rn in the AtLA universe, and it's about Katara being one of the top students in her classes. This song kinda feels like her anthem in the story now lol. Great job! I love how the song progresses from stating a position and owning it to suddenly feeling as if it's drowning us by the end.
Oh really? That sounds super cool!
I really love that girl's sass with the headband. Idk she gives off the vibes of that character who's left with 2nd best because of this song's "girl" being the top 1 per usual and i just love how she played that role so well (at least like from a plot perspective or sumn)
I mean, this hits hard. I am a student in Korea and after all these efforts put on me and all the money spent on my education, I can't help but feel like I'll never be enough. My mom expects me to be perfect, too. Once in elementary school, she was so mad at me for getting 95 out of 100. That's just so harsh.
Also, to excel in high school, we have to compete with each other. Only the highest 4% would get that 1 mark on the grade. That's just so insane. I wake up late at night, panicking about my future. This anxiety is growing so rapidly and yet I can't reach out for help, knowing how my mother would react to these 'minor' issues. This is so stressful.
As a Korean middle schooler too, I really, really think that our education system is incredibly shucked.
Having to 'win' each other, all the pressure going on, and endless, endless academies... even if it's for our
'future', it shouldn't be done this way.
+P. S, I truly hope that your future is all about freedom, stability of mind, and bliss.
I know how this feels, and I know that you deserve so much more than this.
Wherever you are right now, please remember that there's someone that doesn't expect you to be good at stuff,
but rooting for you to accept yourself and help.
Nobody is perfect. We are all different and deserve to try different ways of life.
If you haven't figured out your way yet, that's alright, I haven't, too.
So just, I want you to know that you're already doing great, despite the problems.
The Korean education system is truly fucked up. This explains why so many Koreans nowadays refuse getting children, since the education fee necessitated in order to make some sort of footing, however pathetic, for your child to stand on in order to compete with others is ridiculously high. I wish Korea would see that we can lower those crazy standards and therefore lessen the stress inflicted onto so many students. What’s more baffling is that even if a student was to get into a prestigious university, after graduating, really, what’re they left with? Sure, small advantages here and there, but getting a job and fitting into society, into adulthood, is equally as grueling, if not more. It’s competition after competition in Korea. In the end every Korean citizen will be worn out with the entitlement of a loser, since people will continue to clash against each other in order to determine a clear winner. If only a handful are meant to survive within Korea, what will be made of the others? Korea is resilient and fabulous and I have pride in my country. Don’t get me wrong. But things need to change for the better.
There's certainly a bitter-sweetness when being top of your class, and I love how you express it in your song. Knowing that you're the best and thinking that you have the talent and skills to make it, then realizing that the harder you work and the harder you try the expectations will become higher and higher. And you begin to wonder if that's the only reason people talk to you or are you friend. Needless to say I love this song.
YESSSS ITS COMING TRUE
As someone who relates to these types of struggles it takes a lot out of me to try and be "perfect" I have strict parents so it's not like I really have a choice. When I listen to this song it brings me to tears it's very well put together and beautifully sung. I came here from an Amity Animatic.
I CAN’T WAIT, AHHHHH
after 1 year,I'm still here,listening to this masterpiece.
wish you best
Not only does the singing feel emotionally driven, but the facial expressions! I swear at some point it looked like she was going to cry. Rhis song is beautiful and the attention to detail makes it incredible. I will have this song in my head for weeks! I love it!
lol i love the one ensemble member in the bottom left corner at 1:38 doing air quotes and rolling their eyes, love that extra bit of personality that adds!
edit because i also wanted to mention this moment: i LOVE the moment at 1:05 where she slams the locker. it really shows the range of Bree's emotions, how she can be cocky towards her accomplishments (as she acts in the beginning), saddened at the high expectations she and others set for herself (as she acts at the end), but also angry at the world for deciding that her value lies in being academically successful. it's just such a great moment that reveals so much character!
No because I’m actually sitting in my room sobbing when she says “what love would still be given?” Hits so god damn hard.
*adora vibes*
Omg!!! You're right!! I didn't think of her, but now that you said it I absolutely see it! Maybe a bit of Catra too? Because of how much she needs to be validated by Shadow Weaver? But definitely a lot of Adora vibes
@@danielalala Yeah! Adora's personality is really based on needing to prove herself to others. She believes that fundamentally, she doesn't deserve love unless she earns it. So when she's in the horde, she dedicates herself to being the very best cadet, and when she's in brightmoon, she throws herself into her role as she-ra, making sure that every single thing goes off perfectly.
Her overplanning is played off as a joke, but it's actually a part of her character: She needs everything to go perfectly, because if she fails, then she doesn't deserve love (or that's what she thinks)
@@adamzheng4362 Yesss, she was so so stressed so much of the time, it was so sad to watch in a way. Like, yeah it was sort of amusing but the fact that she felt the need to push herself like that was just kind of sad to me. This song really does portray that character trait well.
I’m in an alternate learning school and I managed to do things that I could never do in an average high school but now I have so much pressure on myself to be the best I can be. I’m on a dance team, I’m ASB president, I go to a technical school, and I have a part time job yet I still manage to help support others and it’s breaking me slowly. My mom doesn’t put pressure on me but now that I’ve been in the spotlight after not having anyone notice me for years I don’t want to lose this attention. I know that this gifted era will not last forever but it feels so great to be wanted for once. I know this is all over the place but this song really keeps me going forward because why not listen to a song about being the pains of being the top of your school
The beginning part was me all of elementary and 6th grade, but then , now in 7th grade, 1:42 I just feel that, like, yk?
legitimately mad that this got recommended to me almost a year later, I got goosebumps throughout the whole song! keep this up Katherine
*I can't recount how many times I've rewatched this masterpiece*
i’m so sad that this will come out while i’m in class
At least you'll be the top of your school
*ba dum tiss*
At 2:00 when you said, "Tell me, would love still be given?," I almost started crying - but then stopped [I guess I'm not ready to let that pain up to the surface just yet, though I feel it coming lol]. I wasn't top of my school or even my class. I wasn't in any honors or AP classes, but I'm only now slowly discovering I'm smarter than I was ever led to believe.
You have a beautiful voice and I love the courage you showed in writing and putting this song out. Topics like this aren't easy to talk about, because we - as children - want to do everything we can to protect and honor our parents, as well as be good enough in their eyes. Also, I've never really heard any songs about performing for a parent's love before - not to say they don't exist, but they're probably rare. Most songs are about love and romance, though there are a fair amount of songs about pursuing your dreams. These lyrics are relatable and very creative. (Btw, the song sounds like it belongs on Broadway and your voice in Disney films... and Broadway lol 💕🦋🌸🌈)
Thank you for putting this song out for people to hear. I really believe it can help change people's lives 😊
Also, the song reminds me of the plot of Turning Red [I love that movie 😊], which is really cool because it takes place in Canada - and I'm guessing from all the maple leaves that you're also from Canada lol. I relate to that movie in the sense that I was always performing for my parents' love, doing everything they told me to, I love calculus-type math (like Meilin), and my dad is from Canada so I have some connection there 💕
You made a lomg commemt
This song has been on my playlist for about two years now and I remember hearing it for the first time and getting so many chills. The lyrics and voices were beautiful!
IM SO READY YOU DONT UNDERSTAND IVE BEEN WAITING FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE YEARS
Edit: holy shit this song is amazing-
I think I can speak for the entire Owl House Fandom when I say:
*mine.*
Please. The amount I RELATE TO THIS. I always get emotional with the part " if I hadnt earned a dollar, what would you think of your dear daughter" wow. Amazing song. I LOVE IT
Started listening to this song 3 years ago, I think it was 4-6 months after its release. After listening to this song, I got inspired and tried doing my best to be top of my school, but I always failed to do so. Finally, after 3 years, I managed to be the top of my school, having an average of 99.6, I finally accomplished my goal. Thank you❤
this came up automatically on autoplay and when i say i thought this was from a broadway musical sajsask WHAT AN AMAZINGLY POLISHED SONG!!!!
she sure knows how to summon a fandom.
this used to be me and when i got my first 'c' i thought it was the end of world, but life went on. i still have a big fear about disappointing my parents.
This is almost a year old??? Damn, this occupied my whole fyp for the almost a month now. I need to see a live version of this cuz it'll definitely be phenomenal
The feeling of being the "Top of the Class" into "The Second Best" literally hurts so much like all the people that have high expectations from you become disappointed. And the fact that you don't have anyone to vent into, and even the person that you cherish the most even stops acknowledging you like literally ignoring you to the point that you can only vent by listening to this song. Because if you told anyone that you feel that way you will eventually become their "Charity Case" and call you "Hungry for Grades".. If only I wasn't like this what if I'm the actual problem? I don't know but ever since I was born my family always expected high of me. There is just this thing that I feel that like its WRONG Idk it just hurts for no reason. Like I'm just a human being too. (Please don't mind me I just really want to vent out my feelings)
Serious gifted kid vibes coming from this absolute bop of a song. Good job!
UR PFP IS FROM HELLUVA BOSS RIGHT??
@@misosoup244 yep.
1:43 I relate to this so much, my parents keep telling me "you should have good grades so you can earn a lot in the future" and it just bothers me so much and stresses me out. what if I don't earn enough? what if I'm not your dear little daughter who shines? this is a lovely song and you made such great lyrics! love the vocals
You, YOU, Katherine, you are SO TALENTED. I mean... wow. I’ve always been a big theatre fan and this would be incredible on stage!! I can practically see it being performed on broadway. This is on par with Little Miss Perfect. Incredible job. I’m obsessed.
This song is NOT long enough. I wanted it at least TWICE as long because I just couldn't get enough! It's just that good. This is my fourth time listening. Seriously, you're incredible.
My choir class listened to this for our listening warmup on Friday! Everybody loved it and there were so many hands up on its musical elements. Everybody was surprised that it was an original song
This song is painfully relatable
2:31 "and who'll love me, if i'm not the top of the school?"
oof this hits hard, i totally haven't had breakdowns until 3am about that haha
but seriously try to take of yourselves. even in the smallest of ways. (like letting yourself drink water, or putting a candy in ur pocket for later :) modern education systems aren't the best right now in general but we can get thru it i promise
mhm!! in case you nd to hear it right now, you r worth more than your grades! like, a _lot_ more. you have worth outside of what you can do for other people, and no one has any right to treat you like shit. you're trying your hardest, and y'know what? i wanna congratulate you for that. good job. genuinely, _good job._ i'm proud of you. now go be proud of yourself o7
I love how the first time she sings the chorus, she sounds pretentious and snobby, but the second time it’s obvious how much she’s hurting. Same words, completely different tone. Incredible.
I FINALLY GAVE IN TO YT AFTER RECOMMENDING THIS TO ME LIKE CRAZY AND I AM DROWNED IN REGRET FOR NOT LISTENING TO THIS SOONER . THIS IS SOOOOO GOOD I WANT TO EAT THIS THIS IS SO GOOD
I stg I just heard this song coming from the living room randomly and I DIED OMG! LITERALLY WA SSHAKING, ADRENALINE RUSH, ALL OF IT! U did so good on CGT! I can’t wait to see where u go next
I love the immediate switch from confident "I'm destined to fly" to "what if I hadn't done this" over thinking it honestly is so relatable
When u have always been the top in everything it hurts way too much when u slip up.
Once back in 5th grade i placed second in a quiz and was crying my eyes out. I became so used to perfection that i linked my self worth with how i perform at school.
Then the burnout hit and now i don't even care. I stopped doing homework and studying. I still got good grades cuz " i am naturally smart" .
Now in 11th grade i am slowly getting back on track. I cant afford to waste my last 2 years of highschool. Now i am preparing for college entrance exams to get into my dream college (engeneering major). Hope it goes well 😀