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Oink Oink.. No matter How much I been waiting.. it seems like YOU never Come.. Am I suppose to be waiting.. sometimes I would wonder.. if I am doing the right thing.. because NO matter How much I ask.. is asking you wrong on my part.. I have been looking for answers.. But No matter How much I ask.. YOU never answer.. So I would sit.. pulling the chair and I am looking at the desk.. looking at the clean white piece of Paper.. there is Nothing written.. just a blank sheet of paper.. I would be looking at the Mail box.. I would open the Mail Box.. wondering if YOU would read the Letters I wrote to YOU.. I would walk.. opening the front door.. after I would sit.. for hours I would sit still.. picking up the pencil and I would have an eraser next to Me.. Just in case I make an Mistake after writing on the Piece of Paper.. some words are Not written right.. in is incorrect.. picking UP an eraser.. I would rub on the Pencil Mark and it disappear.. blowing the Dust off which it remains.. as I would sit on the chair.. looking at the desk.. I would see Your Picture.. I have to always have a picture of YOU.. I needs to take with me where ever I go.. I would pull the Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I can even rub my eyes many times.. blinking my eyes fast and I would take a LOOK at you in the Picture.. whenever I miss YOU.. I would look at you through the Picture.. when ever I want to love YOU.. I would pull out the picture.. staring at YOU in this Picture I have.. I would say to the Picture of YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why can't I see YOU in person.. why can't I say this IN person of YOU.. I would hold YOUR hand.. asking YOU first.. would YOU Please let me hold Your hand Please.. can I tell YOU that YOU are so Lovely.. YOU are so Beautiful to Me.. I want to tell YOU this in person.. but I know that I can't.. I wish that I can see you in person to say to YOU.. to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. how much I missed YOU over the years.. years go by so fast.. and I know that I am getting older just like YOU.. what if YOU will never be here with Me.. as time goes by so fast.. and I am aging as well.. what if YOU never want to show UP to see me in person.. I would wonder many times.. asking this question.. there are times I would doubt and question.. but I would also say.. WHO can Love YOU.. I know that deep inside.. I know I can't be with YOU.. but.. at least I can tell YOU through these letters how much I adore YOU.. How much YOU inspire Me.. admire by Your Beauty and Grace.. that YOU look so wonderful tonight.. as Long as I can transfer.. what is in my Heart.. to type and write to YOU.. I am still here.. I have Not lost the touch.. I have Not lost the counting of the stars.. If you can look UP and count the stars up in the sky.. in the dark night.. I want to be the One to tell YOU this.. I love YOU.. many times More to tell YOU this that I love YOU.. as long as I know that in my heart.. I can transfer what is deep within me.. to express and share to YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. I would sit on the chair.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. just enjoying Your great Beauty.. the Joy that is set in my Heart because I am able to tell YOU.. Looking at the Clean piece of Paper.. I am holding the pencil.. with me is the eraser next to the paper.. as I am writing on the paper.. to able to tell YOU.. IS it okay if I can love YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU.. there is Nothing else I can do or say to YOU but just to tell you the three letter Words.. I love YOU.. Looking at your Picture of YOU.. makes me smile.. I am always smiling when I get to look at the Picture.. I smile because I would say.. I get the chance to tell YOU this.. to tell YOU that YOU are the Most Beautiful.. YOUR beauty.. why are YOU so beautiful to Me.. and as the Pencil write on the Piece of paper.. I would keep on pressing with the tip of the Pencil.. telling YOU when Can I see YOU.. would you please allow me to visit YOU once.. all I need is few Hours from YOU.. and I will not bother YOU much with Your Time.. will you let me see YOU just for One day.. I want to show YOU in Person.. How much I been waiting for YOU.. waiting for the Answer from YOU.. I would grab the envelope and I would fold the Piece of Paper on Half.. putting the Letter inside this envelope and I would stick it together.. and I would look at the envelope wondering.. will this Letter get to You.. did you give me the right address so that this Letter can get to YOU.. I would stand UP from sitting on the chair.. I would walk to the front door.. opening the door.. I am looking at the mail Box.. and I would walk to the mail box and put the envelope into the Mail Box.. as I am waiting outside.. I see the mail man driving his little truck.. and I would smile at the man.. and He looks at me.. the timing is perfect because he comes when I would put the Letter.. this envelope inside.. and I would open the mail Box.. pulling out the envelope inside.. and I would give it to HIM.. and I would smile.. this is for the One who I love.. I have written a Love Letter.. Please give it to YOU.. and the mail man smiles as He leaves driving the little truck.. I would be waiting.. as I would sit in the room.. looking out the window.. I would be waiting for Your answer.. I would see the little truck that the mail man drives.. He puts something inside the Mail Box.. I am waiting and wishing that It is YOU who read the Letter.. I even asked in that letter.. can YOU please write me back.. and I be waiting to see.. I am so happy that the Mail man came to drop something and putting into the Mail Box.. I would stand UP.. walking out the front door.. and I would walk to the mail box.. for some reason this mail man came pretty late dropping off something.. so it was Night when I went to the Mail Box.. I walked to the Mail Box.. wondering if YOU read the Letter.. wondering if YOU wrote me back.. wondering is it the letter from YOU.. as my Heart starts to beat faster.. I open the Mail Box.. I pulled Out.. there was NO letter from YOU.. I would just stand there.. Maybe tomorrow night.. I will have to wait for another night.. so I would be holding other letters.. But I wanted Your Letter.. bunch of paying for bills.. as I would wait.. I don't want to wait for another day to Come.. but I know that I had to wait.. there is nothing else I can do but just wait for YOU.. I would be waiting for few days.. about four days went by.. and there was NO Letter from YOU.. and I started to feel like maybe the Letter I wrote to YOU did Not get to your address.. How Long must I wait.. if there is NO answer on the Other side.. How long must I wait for an answer.. are you ever going to tell Me or am I suppose to just guess by Now that YOU are Not going to write me anything.. every night I would Open the front Door.. the MAIL man has been coming pretty Late.. so I would walk to the mail Box.. another Letter I wrote.. putting into the envelope.. just waiting for him to come as I wanted to give YOU another letter.. the mail man comes.. and I am standing by the Mail Box giving him the envelope with the Letter inside.. he smiles and tells me that He saw YOU.. and he gave the Letter to YOU.. and Another Letter will be given to YOU again.. so I would smile.. knowing that this is the answer I wanted to hear.. that I wanted to hear that YOU are truly receiving these letters.. it is Not easy to write YOU a Letter.. takes me a lot of hours to write just to show YOU.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and How much I miss YOU too.. the mail man tells me.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I would pulled the Picture and show the mail Man the Picture of YOU.. and He looks at It.. looks at the picture.. looks at YOU.. tells me it is YOU.. the woman who received the first letter.. it is the same person in that picture but tells me.. YOU are so much more beautiful in person.. picture is nothing compared to YOU when looking at you in person.. I wanted to see.. I wanted to go with the mail man.. to see How beautiful YOU look.. what does this Mail man means.. but of course.. I know that I have to just wait for YOU.. I don't want to go yet.. as I hand him the envelope.. with the Letter written inside for YOU.. He takes it with HIM.. I am smiling.. I am in such a great joy because as long as YOU receive the Letter.. it means everything to Me.. all I want to hear.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. all I want to know.. How much I need YOU and how much I miss YOU.. that YOU are doing just fine and that YOU know who is the person behind the ONE who is writing you these Love Letters.. all I want to hear.. YOU know it is Me who be loving YOU all along and never stopped loving YOU till this very day and that I will Not stop loving YOU.. as I would turn around.. LOOKING at the house.. I would walk to the front door.. open the door.. as long as I get this chance to write to YOU by telling YOU.. that I will keep on telling YOU that I love YOU.. I have not lose any hope but will continue to always love YOU.. and I would open the front door.. closing behind the door.. I would walk into the room.. looking at the chair.. looking at the desk.. I would sit on this chair.. pulling out the piece of paper.. with the pencil and eraser next to the paper.. and I would pull out your picture.. looking at YOU through this Picture.. I would say.. I can't stop.. because the More I see YOU.. the More I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I stop loving YOU.. why can't I just stop.. but when I see your picture.. YOU touch my Heart and my soul to death.. that I needs to tell YOU what is in my heart and in my soul.. in my mind.. that I needs to be with YOU.. when can I see YOU.. I heard from the Mail Man.. YOU are so much beautiful in person.. so amazingly Beautiful that it takes Your Breathe away and leaves
I am waiting for you.. How long has it been since I saw you last time.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding in my hands.. by the table.. I am waiting for YOU.. you told me that YOU are going to come.. I just received a message.. sending me a text message.. and I have been waiting but now it is getting later in the Night.. I would walk to the side where I would sit.. I would sit on the chair.. putting two plates.. I was in the kitchen.. cooking for few hours because I received your message.. My Heart.. I have never felt this Heart Beat hitting.. and for a long time I could not even hear from YOU.. I called you many many many times.. for more than weeks went by.. I even left you my voice on the message at the end.. asking YOU and begging YOU please to answer.. asking YOU that I wanted to hear you on the Other side.. I would call.. hearing the ringing.. and even typed a message on the Phone.. but for a long time now.. I have not received.. I even took pictures of the Plates.. different nights and I would send it to your Number.. and I know that YOU received it.. I been waiting for the answer.. just been waiting for YOU.. it seems like it has been years on my part of waiting.. asking YOU to come Home.. but YOU never answered and Finally I got Your Message.. and YOU even texted message me back telling me you are coming Home.. I even fell off the chair I was sitting on because I just could not believe.. I wondered if this was a Joke.. maybe a prank.. but I knew that It was YOU because it came from Your Number.. garlic Bread.. green beans with Corn and a Steak.. placing the Plate On your side of the table.. and I was so happy.. I would go across my side of the table and I sat down.. of course YOU never told me the hours when YOU would come Home.. I sat down just waiting.. as I pulled out your Picture.. I would be staring.. looking at Your Beautiful Face.. your Smile so Gorgeous and it lights My Heart on fire.. I would watch the Clock on the wall.. as it went from 30 minutes and it hits to about a hour.. I watch the time.. the clock keeps on ticking.. AS I sit on this Chair waiting for YOU.. but I do not hear anything from YOU.. I would lift UP the Phone.. I am dialing up your Number ON my phone.. but I decided to stop calling YOU.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would have to face another day.. another night comes.. I sit here alone without YOU.. I been waiting and waiting for YOU.. why don't you want to come Home.. why did YOU leave me a message telling me YOU were coming Home.. I even took the Picture of the Plate.. the Dinner I made for YOU so that we can eat together.. I send the picture to YOU.. I know that YOU received it.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. are you playing games with my Heart.. do you want to hurt Me because I know that I am hurt so Bad.. without YOU.. my days goes so Long.. it drags and the Clock stops ticking in front of Me.. YOU know that I been missing YOU.. I been needing YOU.. is it because YOU know How much I miss YOU.. that you are causing this Heart ache.. is it because YOU know How much I love YOU.. you are causing my Heart to cry inside.. I want to run in the rain.. I want to be washed UP by the waters of the cold.. soaking me to be wet.. my eyes would weep as I would stare into the night.. LOOKING at the walls asking for YOU.. begging for YOU to come Home.. why don't you want to see me.. why don't you want me to love YOU any more.. YOU know that I will love YOU.. you know how much I love YOU.. but why don't you come closer.. please tell me.. help me to understand why YOU want to put this distance between Us.. if YOU know.. I am like a lone wolf.. by myself I am howling loud for YOU.. wailing in my Heart.. screaming from my Lungs.. I need YOU.. I miss YOU.. I love YOU.. why don't you want me to Love YOU.. please tell me.. please help me to understand.. I been waiting for YOU.. YOU told me you were coming Home.. now four hours has gone by.. and my hour.. the time has pass by for me to sleep.. but I am still sitting here.. I am looking across.. looking at the Plate.. looking at the Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. I feel so Bad because Now I am only looking at the chair.. that chair once that gave me the JOY.. the true happiness.. the smiles.. of course I did not know how much NOW I miss you.. and Now I see how much I love YOU because I am only looking at the Chair.. the empty chair where YOU sat down Once.. I do remember my friend came Over.. He looks at me and I was crumbling inside.. holding UP the Hard liquor and taking Shots from the Shot glass.. and He looks at me asking what is wrong.. and I would turn my Head.. and I would be looking at Your Chair.. which He saw me and He knew what I meant.. what My Heart was missing is YOU.. and He did come around when YOU were there.. knowing How much I am torn into pieces.. and I am crying in front of HIM because this Heart.. I was aching inside.. this Pain.. it felt like something sharp plunging into my stomach.. it hurts so bad.. I just couldn't breathe well and He knew.. My Pain.. and losing YOU how it affected everything I had.. and I saw the Chair.. now that chair is empty.. It hurts.. WHY does it hurts so bad.. it hurts me because I now know how much I love YOU.. and the Friend told me He can introduce me but I told that friend.. I don't need another.. I wanted YOU.. it does not matter how many sits on that chair.. it does not feel the same because I want YOU.. only YOU can sit on that chair and I would look and say to You.. I love YOU.. Now I am sitting here alone.. watching the Clock as it keeps on ticking slowly and waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I would say looking at your Picture.. did YOU just lied to Me.. were you not serious about coming Home.. why did YOU tell me through the text message that YOU are coming Home.. asking me to make Your Favorite Dish.. I even wrote back the message that I am going to the kitchen so that I can cook for YOU.. and I even took the picture of the Plate.. your favorite Dish and YOU also send two thumbs UP saying it is YOUR Favorite dish.. what you did not see is that I smiled when I received the two thumbs UP.. my Heart beat so fast because it is from YOU.. and I just could not believe that YOU send me text message.. it has been a while since I heard anything.. and after I took the picture and send.. I sat on my side of the table.. and kept on looking at the clock.. as the clock kept on ticking.. I wanted to ask when are YOU coming Home.. but I told myself just to be patient and just to wait.. Now I am looking at the Clock.. it has been five hours since the last message.. the text message I received.. I wonder if YOU are going to come Home tonight.. feels Like I needs to go to my Room and sleep through the Night.. will I see you tomorrow if I wait UP.. will you be here when I get UP to a new day or do I have to wait all over again.. it repeats over and over.. of course this time is a little different since I did received a Text Message.. a lot better than previous days.. weeks.. NO answer was such a Harsh reality to wake UP too.. but I do feel a little better because I know that it was YOU who sent me the message.. I guess I just needs to wait for More.. just give YOU more time.. and I believe the Time is the Only way it can heal what is going On.. because NO matter where YOU at.. I am always here waiting for YOU.. looking at your Picture.. telling You in the Picture How much I love YOU.. that I will always love YOU.. as I would get UP from the Chair.. I would look across.. the Plate.. and I see two Chairs.. I am wondering where did that Other Chair come from.. and I do remember that YOU brought another Chair.. Next to Your Chair.. YOU would sit the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I do remember you be playing with that Giant Teddy Bear.. telling me that YOU are her Friend.. and I would watch you holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. as YOU were sitting ON your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear had her own Chair too.. and I am smiling.. I do remember YOU telling me.. bring the Camera.. the Picture I am holding.. there was another Picture behind It.. I never knew that there were two pictures I was holding.. when I looked at the second Picture.. It was YOU smiling.. and YOU were sitting on your Chair.. and Next to YOU.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. How you asking me to bring the Camera and to take picture of Both.. YOU and Your Friend.. I never knew that This was the last picture I would take before YOU would be gone.. I stood there.. looking at the two empty chairs.. I can feel my tears.. filling UP my eyes and two lines of tears streaming down.. only if I could go back to this time.. to be more careful with my Words.. Not to tell YOU anything that would Hurt YOU.. why did I say those words to YOU when YOU treated me with kindness and How much YOU put a smile ON my face.. why did I say those ugly words to Hurt you when NOW it is destroying me for Hurting YOU which made you walk Out the front DOOR.. as I am holding the Camera.. I would look through the Lens.. I am only seeing two empty Chairs.. DID YOU not ask me to bring you the Camera.. I would zoom in to get closer Look.. but ALL I see is two chairs.. both are empty.. and I start to cry.. as my tears would flood out from my eyes.. I just can't believe it.. and My hand lets go and the camera goes off my hand and lands On the floor.. if YOU are here.. I know that I would Not drop this Camera.. what good is this Camera Now if I can't even take YOUR picture any more.. why do you have to leave me like THIS.. I feel like my whole body is rotting.. it is decaying slowly
AS I would Open my Mouth.. last night I could Not sleep.. I was struggling so much trying to get some rest.. I don't know why but I was toss and turning around.. I would close my eyes.. my eyes would open.. both eyes looking up at the ceiling.. I am wondering.. I am so tired.. but why couldn't I fall asleep.. there is my Pillow.. I would grab and hold unto the pillow.. thinking that it be YOU.. and try to fall asleep.. my Heart was telling me.. There is One Picture that catches My eyes.. and I would stop.. taking a Look.. it is YOU.. but.. it is the first Picture of YOU.. before I ever met YOU.. and it is a Picture which my Friend would show Me.. as I am walking out of the Room.. after Looking at the Giant Teddy Bear and I stand by the Door.. looking at the empty Chair.. I have in my hand the first Picture.. which I had to travel far.. my friend wanted to introduce YOU to me.. and as I am looking at this Picture.. WHY did I let YOU go.. I remember that My friend told Me.. YOU are so Dear to HIM.. I was not thinking.. I did Not know what He meant by YOU were so Dear.. until the day YOU are gone.. When YOU left.. I only saw the Bag and YOU looked at me.. and only told me that YOU were leaving.. and told me.. it is going to be only few days YOU were gone.. I am thinking.. Maybe YOU went to My friend.. is this the reason WHY you have Not answered My call.. I just could not believe what I am dealing at this Point.. WHY would you tell me you will be Back.. that it would only take few days and Now.. weeks went By.. and now it is going on a month since YOU are gone.. I call YOU on the Phone.. I only hear the Phone ringing.. that means YOU are receiving.. knowing that It is Me who is calling YOU.. but.. why don't you pick UP.. why can't you tell me that YOU are doing just fine.. that YOU are doing alright.. I am still wondering.. and I am standing by the door.. LOOKING at the Chair.. the empty chair you sat.. WHY are you hurting Me.. why are YOU breaking my Heart.. can't you be honest with Me.. Please answer the Phone.. Please answer when I call YOU.. but every time I call YOU.. I only can leave YOU the voice Message.. if YOU know and YOU are able to hear me on the Other side.. WOULD YOU please call Back.. if NOT.. Please answer.. I am beginning to worry more about YOU.. because I am not sure what is going On.. Help me to Know that YOU are doing well.. that YOU are doing good.. WHY do you have to hurt me this way.. WHY are you punishing me because It truly Hurts YOU know.. Please tell me something.. as I am looking at the Old Picture.. the first Picture I ever saw.. It just drives Me crazy because I know that it was my fault.. I should of held Back.. should of been patient with YOU.. and just cool off before I speak to YOU.. I never thought that it would end up this way.. I really thought YOU are going to come back after few days.. Now it has been a Month of waiting.. I don't even know where YOU are so How can I do the search for YOU.. YOU don't pick UP the Phone.. NO answer.. don't even message me back.. I am asking YOU How you are doing.. I even leave my voice on the message.. But it is now killing Me.. killing me because YOU do not know how I am feeling right NOW.. what I am dealing with.. YOU know that I love YOU.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much time of waiting.. I am waiting for YOU.. but the time keeps ON going.. and I don't see you.. I need YOU here.. I want YOU close.. Where are YOU.. tell me please.. where are YOU because I am missing YOU right Now.. I take a look at the Old Picture.. the first Picture.. my Both eyes closes and Now.. A Phone rings.. and I pick up the Phone on the Other side.. My friend told Me that He knows another and.. It is YOU who he wanted to introduce.. I remember I would ask HIM if He knew someone because I was ready to Love.. I wanted to meet someone.. and He called Me.. telling me that He has a Picture.. and wanted to show me WHO YOU were.. I remember I was ready.. I would look at the Mirror and I smiled.. Meeting YOU for the first time.. I wanted to see who My friend was talking about.. and this excitement.. this rush in my body came.. I wanted to Love.. to Love YOU.. as I got ready.. I had the Train ticket in my hand.. and with a Bag I left the House.. I do remember I am standing by the train station.. I just couldn't believe It.. finally something is going to happen.. I been waiting for a long time.. Just that the situation of my life would Not lead me anywhere.. as I would go into the train.. giving the ticket.. the Man takes it and it shows me the NUMBER to seat.. I would walk to the seat.. with my bag I would sit by the window.. I just could Not stop smiling.. WHY am I smiling so Much.. but I would be thinking.. WHY smile Now if YOU would reject me.. if YOU don't like me at all.. But.. I do remember to shake it Off.. as I am looking through the Window.. I see a Beautiful woman.. and I see this WOMAN boarding into the train.. which caught my eyes quick.. but of course.. what am I going to do because I am meeting someone else.. I hear the foot steps and stops next the the seat I was sitting.. and I see YOU.. and I see you sit right next to me.. I am wondering.. WHY do my Heart.. WHY do I feel like I am getting a Heart attack.. WOULD my Heart stop attacking me from the Inside.. Please Stop jumping.. My Heart feels Like It is Jumping UP and DOWN so fast.. I wanted to hit my chest.. But.. A Beautiful woman Like you.. if YOU turn your Head and looks at me.. I think you would say I am Crazy.. like something is wrong with my Head.. so I would sit still.. and my Head turns to LOOK at YOU.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. so Amazingly Beautiful.. so Lovely INDEED.. as the train starts to Go.. I feel so Happy.. Happy that I get to see YOU.. even though I have Not met you yet.. as the train starts to pick up the speed.. the ride is bumpy and I am moving side to side.. I would bump on the side.. I see your Head turning.. Keeps on looking at me that I needs to stop.. I needs to control myself.. and I am trying.. but this Ride.. this Train.. it is going pretty fast and I think lots of small rocks.. because I would be moving side to side.. and the train would slow down its speed and I see that the BUMPY road stops.. I would turn my head.. I just can't stop looking at YOU.. I wanted to ask.. where are YOU going.. because I wanted to tell YOU.. I am going to meet someone so Special and that I am so excited to meet.. my friend is going to introduce me to my Love.. of course I did Not care what if it did Not work Out because I believe that it is going to be good.. it will work Out because I want Love.. I want to share my love.. speak of Love and tell about How I feel when I am in love.. as long as I am able to love YOU.. it did not matter if it is NO.. I am ready to Love YOU know.. but.. I see that YOU would be looking straight.. did NOT even turn aside.. did NOT even turn to look at me.. I am wondering Are you a sad Person.. must be a tragedy what YOU are going through.. I would turn my head towards the window.. and looking through.. and it would be hours of riding on this train.. but I did not care.. I am so happy anyways.. it can go for days and still I be happy to see YOU.. and for some reason I turn my Head to look.. I see something.. YOUR hand was holding something.. I am wondering.. what is that In your hand.. can I please take a Look.. It is a Picture.. But ALL I see is the Back.. the front.. I just can't tell.. as the train keeps on going.. and it would be about three hours of train ride and I see that the train would stop.. Now.. my two eyes would open.. and I am looking at the empty Chair.. WHY am I going back.. if I know that YOU are not coming.. YOU have been gone for about a Month.. what am I going to do if I go back to those beautiful Days.. and LOOK.. I am hurting so bad.. I feel like I should Not go back.. all it does is give me More pains.. I would be holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would be crying TOP of it.. because I would miss YOU.. I would be sobbing.. just raining down my tears as I am holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. getting everything out.. but still I have more tears to rain down because Now.. I feel so Sad that YOU are gone.. why can't you come back.. is it really that Hard for YOU to come back.. YOU know that my arms are open wide.. YOU know that I will open the door for YOU.. and I will tell YOU how much I am so sorry.. that I am Not going to yell at YOU anymore.. of course YOU gave me so much chances.. I know How I screw up.. telling YOU that I am not going to yell.. telling YOU that I am going to change.. but the words.. I know YOU don't believe me Now.. waiting for YOU for weeks.. days goes By I would look out the window from the inside of this House.. I would also be walking out side.. waiting for YOU.. but.. I do not see YOU at all.. Only thing is that I can go back.. going back to the memories where YOU are living in my Heart.. I just can't wash YOU away.. that is why it
Hurts Me so Much.. all I do is think of YOU.. I am so tired of only thinking of YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. be with YOU by your side and to tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. AS I close both eyes.. I am going back to the train.. I am sitting down.. the train has stopped and I am waiting.. as I see YOU get UP.. I turn to LOOK out the window of the train.. I see my friend waiting.. of course I would smile so big.. I know that he has a Picture to show Me.. I am waiting for the Line of people to go down.. some How.. You are able to pass through the Lines of people standing.. I see you walking Out.. as I am watching YOU leave.. I see you stop.. and YOU are next to my friend.. I am wondering.. what does this Means.. and I am thinking.. NO.. it just can't be.. is my friend who knows YOU.. is it YOU who has the Picture.. I am thinking.. it just can't be.. and I am able to stand UP.. I see the People leaving.. and I get behind.. with my bag.. I am able to get off the train.. as I am getting closer to my friend.. I see you turn around and I see YOU.. YOU are surprised because we have already met in the train ride.. and My friend looks at me and Looks at YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am able to focus on your Plate.. I am not sure if I am dreaming right Now
Because I know that right Now.. I am talking some Shots from the Shot Glass as I am pouring the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. I am hurting so Much.. this Pain does not leave me because I need YOU here.. I need you close to Me.. I am missing YOU.. and I can feel the tears running down my cheeks looking at YOU on the screen.. I been waiting for YOU.. day by day goes By.. it does Not feel the same because YOU are the love of my Life.. do you know how it feels to sit on this side of Chair.. every night.. I am making something to eat.. I am thinking of YOU too.. and I am wondering.. will YOU come Home.. will you eat from this Plate.. what if YOU don't show UP.. it breaks my Heart each time I come Out of the room in the morning.. looking at the table.. looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. it feels like something shot inside of me because I need to see YOU.. I need you so Close.. I want to hold YOU once More and tell YOU how much I need to be with YOU and to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. as my both eyes opens.. I would lift UP my Head from the Table.. I know that the Chair is going to be empty again.. the Chair YOU sat down.. and I look across to see.. I just can't believe it.. Is it really YOU.. is this a Dream or am I seeing what I am seeing in reality.. I see YOU sitting on Your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your lap.. the Plate.. the Dish I made for YOU.. YOU have ate the food.. and I am wiping my tears.. I just can't.. I can't believe that this is you.. it is really YOU.. YOU know that I sat many nights.. just dreaming for YOU to be here.. but ALL I saw on the Other side is the Chair.. it be empty and lonely just like my Heart felt when YOU were not there.. I missed YOU and I love YOU too.. Now that MOON has become My friend and times like this.. this pain and aching in my Heart.. when I feel like I want to die from the Inside.. and How much I missed YOU.. I just had to tell that MOON like a friend.. How much I missed YOU.. Yes.. I made Dinner for few days straight.. and for those past few days.. YOU have not shown UP.. I only saw the Chair.. Your Chair which has been empty.. I would sat the Plate with the Food on the side Of Your table.. but ALL I can see is Your Chair is empty.. I would just look across.. I wanted to reach Out my hand.. I wanted to touch YOU.. but How can I when I see the Chair.. I don't see YOU but only the Empty Chair.. I wanted to call Out your name.. But what can that do.. YOU would not hear me anyways because the Chair YOU sat when we ate together.. It was empty.. I would to say Your name.. call Out and reach to touch YOU.. my arms wanted to hold YOU still.. wrap around YOU but all I see is the Empty Chair.. I see the Food and Your Plate but I don't see YOU.. do you know how it feels to be sitting on the other side of the Chair.. I have my Plate and food.. and try to sit there alone.. eating by myself and all I could do is look across.. I see the Empty Chair.. I would have your Picture.. Put it on the TOP of the table and I would LOOK at it.. I would LOOK at YOU through this Picture.. it is not the same as I am looking at YOU right Now Face to face.. it does not feel right.. I would be asking Your Picture.. DO you even Love me.. if YOU love me why Hurt me like this.. if YOU Know how much I love YOU.. why keep on hurting me like this.. YOU know that I love YOU.. if YOU know that I love you a lot.. it is Not fair to hurt me in a way I should feel like this.. WHY hurt me knowing I love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU right Now.. do YOU love Me.. if YOU love me.. Please don't hurt me because I am not here to be hurt BY you.. I also need to be loved as much as YOU do.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU know that my Heart felt like burning.. and it would shattered into pieces.. because I love YOU.. as I look at YOU.. YOU still looks so beautiful.. is.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the
Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down.. when I watch YOU in the kitchen.. I see YOU smile when YOU are making a meal.. but.. YOU would also call out to me.. asking if I can be by your side to help YOU in cooking.. I don't like to cook at all.. but.. I know that I love YOU.. I would join in just to be by Your side and to help you to finish.. I would be washing the dishes when we would finish eating.. putting the dishes and cups.. utensils back to its place.. wiping the table to make it clean.. wiping down the counter top when It is wet.. I do love the washing part because I am able to do something that I know I can be a part to help YOU.. but On this very night.. I saw YOU packing UP a Bag.. and I saw YOU out the front door.. YOU did not say a word to me.. Not even said Good Bye or Good Night.. I was shocked.. because I never thought YOU had this in your Mind and Heart.. I think it was a build up on your Part.. and Now.. YOU are gone.. I am looking across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. But what good is it when YOU just had to hold back but only showing tears in the eyes.. it is hard when you just can't say a word and just hold back.. Kills you from the inside.. SO I had to close my eyes.. counting the stars for the chance to come.. asking the Moon.. How long does it take.. How long must I had back the years showing tears to YOU.. so.. if you look at my shoes.. it is not easy of waiting and waiting for the TIME to come.. it is hard but.. I am looking at Your Heart.. I just could not believe.. I see Your Picture too.. looking at YOU and looking at Your Big Heart is like a Dreams come true.. but in reality.. I know that I am not dreaming any more.. Now.. I know that I want to say some much to This Heart of Yours.. what is holding YOUR HEART back of receiving.. I want to give.. I just want to pour out and give YOU all of my Heart and my Love to YOU.. and to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for this very day.. that is why I am Not going to hold anything back.. I want to tell Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. then I loved YOU.. Now.. I love YOU.. still I love YOU.. and More I love you every day.. it is Not going to stop me to keep on loving YOU more every day.. because I have been waiting for YOU.. for Your Big Heart.. for this Heart.. I miss YOU and I love YOU still.. because YOU are my everything.. my forever and ever love in my Heart.. I waited.. Now.. I know I can love you more because I love you.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across.. Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this
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언니 존예........ㅜㅜ
이거저거 추천해주시는거 너무 좋아요 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 💗💗💗
언니 ... 알렉산더왕 가방 요즘 어디서 구해야하는지 아시는가요..?! 😢
요즘 매물 많이 없어서 ㅠ 당근에서 찾아보는거 추천..🤦🏼♀️😭
@@seoyeonsu 맞죠 .... 언니가 메신거 보고 한참 고민하다 사려니 매물이 쏙 빠졌네요.. 😂
점점더예뻐져요ㅠㅠ연수언니ㅠㅠ 처음영상에서 입은 상의정보 궁금해요!!!🤍🤍
오늘도 존예탱 울언니…❤️
연뚜언니..! 가니 데님 버킷햇 사이즈가 궁금해요오 🥺🥺🥺
알왕탑 개이쁜데 가격 시롸냐.. 무슨 삼십마넌.. 전 언니보고 만족할게요.. 탄탄한 배부터 미친 어깨라인에 다시 한 번 감탄하구 가요오.. 태생부터 모델이싱둣,,🔥❤️🔥
화이트스웨이드 10미리는 어디서 구매하셨어용 연수언니? 🧸♥️
점점 더 예뻐진다구...🤍🖤
썸넬 너무 예쁘셔서 홀려서 들어왔습니다.
가니 모자 구매처 궁금해용 ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ
찾아봐도 잘 안파는것 같아용 알려주실수 있을까요??
5:36 역시 언니 귀여워요 핏도 보여주고..🥺
언니가 친언니 였으면 하루도 빠짐없이 언니 뒤를 총총 따라다닐거 같다..💜
이 댓글을 제 친동생이 보면 엄청 웃겠죠?ㅎㅎㅎㅎ 서현님이 더 귀여워요!!!!! 오구오구
혹시 헤어컬러 정보좀 알수잇을까용??
🤭끼얏 믿고 보는 언니의 하울템~~
연수언니 혹시 조금만 정면 봐주실 수 있나요!🙏🏻🙏🏻매번 왼쪽으로 많이 치우친 화면각이다 보니…제 목이 돌아가는 듯한 너끰…😭🙏🏻
저 정면 많이 봐요 ㅠ.ㅠ..
일부러 한쪽만 치우친 화면각을 고집하진않아요!
그래도 앞으로 더 노력해볼게요 불편을 느끼게해드려서 죄송해요🙏🏼
정면만 보는게 누구한테는 힘들 수도 있어요 스스로 측면이 더 예쁘게 느껴지고 실제로 측면이 더 이쁜 사람들도 많구요 측면이 자신감도 생기구요 저는 전혀 불편하게 안 느껴졌네용
@@stranger-j8p 습관적이였던것같아요ㅎㅎ
정면도 보고 측면도 보고 요리조리 다양한 모습으로 보일게요 감사합니다 좋은하루보내세요🌽🤧🌽
@rucia hyeon 정면도 많이 보려고하고있어요 앞으로 더 많이 보도록할게요:)
관리의 날 영상도 올려주세용 넘나 궁금함>.
언니 살이 더 빠진거가타요 ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ 오늘 영상 미모 쵝오다.. 얼굴 보느라 뭐 샀는지 하나도 안 봐서 두번 봐야겠어요🥺🖤🖤
Love your videos!💓
(English subtitles please😭)
솔직히 젠몬 선글라스는 진짜 존예다
아니야 샤넬백도 솔직히 존예고
청버킷도 존예다
언니 프라다 머리핀 정보 좀 알려주세요 ㅎㅎㅎ히 !!
피부 베이스 뭘로 하신건지 너무너무 궁금해요~~~❤️ 뽀얗고 너무 예뻐요!!
사랑해요 언니 엉엉ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ
사람이 아니야 요정이야
오늘도 역시나 예뽀댜용..❤️🔥❤️🔥 사아랑해여
아랍 너클을 넣을 수 있습니까
Can you put an Arab knuckle Love you from Morocco 🇲🇦
가니모자 사이즈가 어떻게 될까요..??
XS/S , M/L 이렇게 두가지 있던데…
꼭 답변 부탁드려요!!!
10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉 10 만 축하드려요 🎉
코 자연이신가요??? 넘이뻐요❤️
화질 안깨지게 포토샵 뭘로 하는지 궁금해오 ㅠㅠ🥺💕
와~ 연수님 10만구독자 축하드려요😚! 오늘도 잘보고가용❣❣❣
와 언니 진짜 너무 예뻐요,, 오늘 영상도 잘 보구 가요❤️🔥
알렉산더왕 가방 너무 이뿌다....!
딱 달라붙는 생머리가 저리 잘 어울리수가 있는거냐공;;;
언빌리버블한 이쁨을 가진 연수님
White suede도좋고rose prick도
추천요
둘다너무좋음ㆍㅎ
아놔 .. 진짜 언니 구독한지 이틀? 지났는데 너무 이뻐요 너무이뻐서 계속 보는중 .. 하 왤케이쁘지 얼굴도 이쁜데 성격도 러블리
선글라스 모델 명 궁금해요 !!!!
10만명 축하드려요❤️🔥항상 건강하세요 해피한 모습이 젤 이뻐요💕
감사합니다 항상 건강하고 행복하세요❤️
Hello 👋 can you add eng sub for the next videos please 🙏 💚
으앙 오늘 분위기가 다르네요 ❤️❤️ 넘이쁩니당
이 날은 머리를 쭉쭉 펴봤어요!!!!데헷 알아주시네요🤫💕
Oink Oink.. No matter How much I been waiting.. it seems like YOU never Come.. Am I suppose to be waiting.. sometimes I would wonder.. if I am doing the right thing.. because NO matter How much I ask.. is asking you wrong on my part.. I have been looking for answers.. But No matter How much I ask.. YOU never answer.. So I would sit.. pulling the chair and I am looking at the desk.. looking at the clean white piece of Paper.. there is Nothing written.. just a blank sheet of paper.. I would be looking at the Mail box.. I would open the Mail Box.. wondering if YOU would read the Letters I wrote to YOU.. I would walk.. opening the front door.. after I would sit.. for hours I would sit still.. picking up the pencil and I would have an eraser next to Me.. Just in case I make an Mistake after writing on the Piece of Paper.. some words are Not written right.. in is incorrect.. picking UP an eraser.. I would rub on the Pencil Mark and it disappear.. blowing the Dust off which it remains.. as I would sit on the chair.. looking at the desk.. I would see Your Picture.. I have to always have a picture of YOU.. I needs to take with me where ever I go.. I would pull the Picture.. looking at YOU.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I can even rub my eyes many times.. blinking my eyes fast and I would take a LOOK at you in the Picture.. whenever I miss YOU.. I would look at you through the Picture.. when ever I want to love YOU.. I would pull out the picture.. staring at YOU in this Picture I have.. I would say to the Picture of YOU.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why can't I see YOU in person.. why can't I say this IN person of YOU.. I would hold YOUR hand.. asking YOU first.. would YOU Please let me hold Your hand Please.. can I tell YOU that YOU are so Lovely.. YOU are so Beautiful to Me.. I want to tell YOU this in person.. but I know that I can't.. I wish that I can see you in person to say to YOU.. to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. how much I missed YOU over the years.. years go by so fast.. and I know that I am getting older just like YOU.. what if YOU will never be here with Me.. as time goes by so fast.. and I am aging as well.. what if YOU never want to show UP to see me in person.. I would wonder many times.. asking this question.. there are times I would doubt and question.. but I would also say.. WHO can Love YOU.. I know that deep inside.. I know I can't be with YOU.. but.. at least I can tell YOU through these letters how much I adore YOU.. How much YOU inspire Me.. admire by Your Beauty and Grace.. that YOU look so wonderful tonight.. as Long as I can transfer.. what is in my Heart.. to type and write to YOU.. I am still here.. I have Not lost the touch.. I have Not lost the counting of the stars.. If you can look UP and count the stars up in the sky.. in the dark night.. I want to be the One to tell YOU this.. I love YOU.. many times More to tell YOU this that I love YOU.. as long as I know that in my heart.. I can transfer what is deep within me.. to express and share to YOU.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. I would sit on the chair.. looking at the Picture of YOU.. just enjoying Your great Beauty.. the Joy that is set in my Heart because I am able to tell YOU.. Looking at the Clean piece of Paper.. I am holding the pencil.. with me is the eraser next to the paper.. as I am writing on the paper.. to able to tell YOU.. IS it okay if I can love YOU.. will you please let me Love YOU.. there is Nothing else I can do or say to YOU but just to tell you the three letter Words.. I love YOU.. Looking at your Picture of YOU.. makes me smile.. I am always smiling when I get to look at the Picture.. I smile because I would say.. I get the chance to tell YOU this.. to tell YOU that YOU are the Most Beautiful.. YOUR beauty.. why are YOU so beautiful to Me.. and as the Pencil write on the Piece of paper.. I would keep on pressing with the tip of the Pencil.. telling YOU when Can I see YOU.. would you please allow me to visit YOU once.. all I need is few Hours from YOU.. and I will not bother YOU much with Your Time.. will you let me see YOU just for One day.. I want to show YOU in Person.. How much I been waiting for YOU.. waiting for the Answer from YOU.. I would grab the envelope and I would fold the Piece of Paper on Half.. putting the Letter inside this envelope and I would stick it together.. and I would look at the envelope wondering.. will this Letter get to You.. did you give me the right address so that this Letter can get to YOU.. I would stand UP from sitting on the chair.. I would walk to the front door.. opening the door.. I am looking at the mail Box.. and I would walk to the mail box and put the envelope into the Mail Box.. as I am waiting outside.. I see the mail man driving his little truck.. and I would smile at the man.. and He looks at me.. the timing is perfect because he comes when I would put the Letter.. this envelope inside.. and I would open the mail Box.. pulling out the envelope inside.. and I would give it to HIM.. and I would smile.. this is for the One who I love.. I have written a Love Letter.. Please give it to YOU.. and the mail man smiles as He leaves driving the little truck.. I would be waiting.. as I would sit in the room.. looking out the window.. I would be waiting for Your answer.. I would see the little truck that the mail man drives.. He puts something inside the Mail Box.. I am waiting and wishing that It is YOU who read the Letter.. I even asked in that letter.. can YOU please write me back.. and I be waiting to see.. I am so happy that the Mail man came to drop something and putting into the Mail Box.. I would stand UP.. walking out the front door.. and I would walk to the mail box.. for some reason this mail man came pretty late dropping off something.. so it was Night when I went to the Mail Box.. I walked to the Mail Box.. wondering if YOU read the Letter.. wondering if YOU wrote me back.. wondering is it the letter from YOU.. as my Heart starts to beat faster.. I open the Mail Box.. I pulled Out.. there was NO letter from YOU.. I would just stand there.. Maybe tomorrow night.. I will have to wait for another night.. so I would be holding other letters.. But I wanted Your Letter.. bunch of paying for bills.. as I would wait.. I don't want to wait for another day to Come.. but I know that I had to wait.. there is nothing else I can do but just wait for YOU.. I would be waiting for few days.. about four days went by.. and there was NO Letter from YOU.. and I started to feel like maybe the Letter I wrote to YOU did Not get to your address.. How Long must I wait.. if there is NO answer on the Other side.. How long must I wait for an answer.. are you ever going to tell Me or am I suppose to just guess by Now that YOU are Not going to write me anything.. every night I would Open the front Door.. the MAIL man has been coming pretty Late.. so I would walk to the mail Box.. another Letter I wrote.. putting into the envelope.. just waiting for him to come as I wanted to give YOU another letter.. the mail man comes.. and I am standing by the Mail Box giving him the envelope with the Letter inside.. he smiles and tells me that He saw YOU.. and he gave the Letter to YOU.. and Another Letter will be given to YOU again.. so I would smile.. knowing that this is the answer I wanted to hear.. that I wanted to hear that YOU are truly receiving these letters.. it is Not easy to write YOU a Letter.. takes me a lot of hours to write just to show YOU.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and How much I miss YOU too.. the mail man tells me.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I would pulled the Picture and show the mail Man the Picture of YOU.. and He looks at It.. looks at the picture.. looks at YOU.. tells me it is YOU.. the woman who received the first letter.. it is the same person in that picture but tells me.. YOU are so much more beautiful in person.. picture is nothing compared to YOU when looking at you in person.. I wanted to see.. I wanted to go with the mail man.. to see How beautiful YOU look.. what does this Mail man means.. but of course.. I know that I have to just wait for YOU.. I don't want to go yet.. as I hand him the envelope.. with the Letter written inside for YOU.. He takes it with HIM.. I am smiling.. I am in such a great joy because as long as YOU receive the Letter.. it means everything to Me.. all I want to hear.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. all I want to know.. How much I need YOU and how much I miss YOU.. that YOU are doing just fine and that YOU know who is the person behind the ONE who is writing you these Love Letters.. all I want to hear.. YOU know it is Me who be loving YOU all along and never stopped loving YOU till this very day and that I will Not stop loving YOU.. as I would turn around.. LOOKING at the house.. I would walk to the front door.. open the door.. as long as I get this chance to write to YOU by telling YOU.. that I will keep on telling YOU that I love YOU.. I have not lose any hope but will continue to always love YOU.. and I would open the front door.. closing behind the door.. I would walk into the room.. looking at the chair.. looking at the desk.. I would sit on this chair.. pulling out the piece of paper.. with the pencil and eraser next to the paper.. and I would pull out your picture.. looking at YOU through this Picture.. I would say.. I can't stop.. because the More I see YOU.. the More I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't I stop loving YOU.. why can't I just stop.. but when I see your picture.. YOU touch my Heart and my soul to death.. that I needs to tell YOU what is in my heart and in my soul.. in my mind.. that I needs to be with YOU.. when can I see YOU.. I heard from the Mail Man.. YOU are so much beautiful in person.. so amazingly Beautiful that it takes Your Breathe away and leaves
I am waiting for you.. How long has it been since I saw you last time.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding in my hands.. by the table.. I am waiting for YOU.. you told me that YOU are going to come.. I just received a message.. sending me a text message.. and I have been waiting but now it is getting later in the Night.. I would walk to the side where I would sit.. I would sit on the chair.. putting two plates.. I was in the kitchen.. cooking for few hours because I received your message.. My Heart.. I have never felt this Heart Beat hitting.. and for a long time I could not even hear from YOU.. I called you many many many times.. for more than weeks went by.. I even left you my voice on the message at the end.. asking YOU and begging YOU please to answer.. asking YOU that I wanted to hear you on the Other side.. I would call.. hearing the ringing.. and even typed a message on the Phone.. but for a long time now.. I have not received.. I even took pictures of the Plates.. different nights and I would send it to your Number.. and I know that YOU received it.. I been waiting for the answer.. just been waiting for YOU.. it seems like it has been years on my part of waiting.. asking YOU to come Home.. but YOU never answered and Finally I got Your Message.. and YOU even texted message me back telling me you are coming Home.. I even fell off the chair I was sitting on because I just could not believe.. I wondered if this was a Joke.. maybe a prank.. but I knew that It was YOU because it came from Your Number.. garlic Bread.. green beans with Corn and a Steak.. placing the Plate On your side of the table.. and I was so happy.. I would go across my side of the table and I sat down.. of course YOU never told me the hours when YOU would come Home.. I sat down just waiting.. as I pulled out your Picture.. I would be staring.. looking at Your Beautiful Face.. your Smile so Gorgeous and it lights My Heart on fire.. I would watch the Clock on the wall.. as it went from 30 minutes and it hits to about a hour.. I watch the time.. the clock keeps on ticking.. AS I sit on this Chair waiting for YOU.. but I do not hear anything from YOU.. I would lift UP the Phone.. I am dialing up your Number ON my phone.. but I decided to stop calling YOU.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would have to face another day.. another night comes.. I sit here alone without YOU.. I been waiting and waiting for YOU.. why don't you want to come Home.. why did YOU leave me a message telling me YOU were coming Home.. I even took the Picture of the Plate.. the Dinner I made for YOU so that we can eat together.. I send the picture to YOU.. I know that YOU received it.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. are you playing games with my Heart.. do you want to hurt Me because I know that I am hurt so Bad.. without YOU.. my days goes so Long.. it drags and the Clock stops ticking in front of Me.. YOU know that I been missing YOU.. I been needing YOU.. is it because YOU know How much I miss YOU.. that you are causing this Heart ache.. is it because YOU know How much I love YOU.. you are causing my Heart to cry inside.. I want to run in the rain.. I want to be washed UP by the waters of the cold.. soaking me to be wet.. my eyes would weep as I would stare into the night.. LOOKING at the walls asking for YOU.. begging for YOU to come Home.. why don't you want to see me.. why don't you want me to love YOU any more.. YOU know that I will love YOU.. you know how much I love YOU.. but why don't you come closer.. please tell me.. help me to understand why YOU want to put this distance between Us.. if YOU know.. I am like a lone wolf.. by myself I am howling loud for YOU.. wailing in my Heart.. screaming from my Lungs.. I need YOU.. I miss YOU.. I love YOU.. why don't you want me to Love YOU.. please tell me.. please help me to understand.. I been waiting for YOU.. YOU told me you were coming Home.. now four hours has gone by.. and my hour.. the time has pass by for me to sleep.. but I am still sitting here.. I am looking across.. looking at the Plate.. looking at the Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. I feel so Bad because Now I am only looking at the chair.. that chair once that gave me the JOY.. the true happiness.. the smiles.. of course I did not know how much NOW I miss you.. and Now I see how much I love YOU because I am only looking at the Chair.. the empty chair where YOU sat down Once.. I do remember my friend came Over.. He looks at me and I was crumbling inside.. holding UP the Hard liquor and taking Shots from the Shot glass.. and He looks at me asking what is wrong.. and I would turn my Head.. and I would be looking at Your Chair.. which He saw me and He knew what I meant.. what My Heart was missing is YOU.. and He did come around when YOU were there.. knowing How much I am torn into pieces.. and I am crying in front of HIM because this Heart.. I was aching inside.. this Pain.. it felt like something sharp plunging into my stomach.. it hurts so bad.. I just couldn't breathe well and He knew.. My Pain.. and losing YOU how it affected everything I had.. and I saw the Chair.. now that chair is empty.. It hurts.. WHY does it hurts so bad.. it hurts me because I now know how much I love YOU.. and the Friend told me He can introduce me but I told that friend.. I don't need another.. I wanted YOU.. it does not matter how many sits on that chair.. it does not feel the same because I want YOU.. only YOU can sit on that chair and I would look and say to You.. I love YOU.. Now I am sitting here alone.. watching the Clock as it keeps on ticking slowly and waiting for YOU to come Home.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I would say looking at your Picture.. did YOU just lied to Me.. were you not serious about coming Home.. why did YOU tell me through the text message that YOU are coming Home.. asking me to make Your Favorite Dish.. I even wrote back the message that I am going to the kitchen so that I can cook for YOU.. and I even took the picture of the Plate.. your favorite Dish and YOU also send two thumbs UP saying it is YOUR Favorite dish.. what you did not see is that I smiled when I received the two thumbs UP.. my Heart beat so fast because it is from YOU.. and I just could not believe that YOU send me text message.. it has been a while since I heard anything.. and after I took the picture and send.. I sat on my side of the table.. and kept on looking at the clock.. as the clock kept on ticking.. I wanted to ask when are YOU coming Home.. but I told myself just to be patient and just to wait.. Now I am looking at the Clock.. it has been five hours since the last message.. the text message I received.. I wonder if YOU are going to come Home tonight.. feels Like I needs to go to my Room and sleep through the Night.. will I see you tomorrow if I wait UP.. will you be here when I get UP to a new day or do I have to wait all over again.. it repeats over and over.. of course this time is a little different since I did received a Text Message.. a lot better than previous days.. weeks.. NO answer was such a Harsh reality to wake UP too.. but I do feel a little better because I know that it was YOU who sent me the message.. I guess I just needs to wait for More.. just give YOU more time.. and I believe the Time is the Only way it can heal what is going On.. because NO matter where YOU at.. I am always here waiting for YOU.. looking at your Picture.. telling You in the Picture How much I love YOU.. that I will always love YOU.. as I would get UP from the Chair.. I would look across.. the Plate.. and I see two Chairs.. I am wondering where did that Other Chair come from.. and I do remember that YOU brought another Chair.. Next to Your Chair.. YOU would sit the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I do remember you be playing with that Giant Teddy Bear.. telling me that YOU are her Friend.. and I would watch you holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. as YOU were sitting ON your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear had her own Chair too.. and I am smiling.. I do remember YOU telling me.. bring the Camera.. the Picture I am holding.. there was another Picture behind It.. I never knew that there were two pictures I was holding.. when I looked at the second Picture.. It was YOU smiling.. and YOU were sitting on your Chair.. and Next to YOU.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. How you asking me to bring the Camera and to take picture of Both.. YOU and Your Friend.. I never knew that This was the last picture I would take before YOU would be gone.. I stood there.. looking at the two empty chairs.. I can feel my tears.. filling UP my eyes and two lines of tears streaming down.. only if I could go back to this time.. to be more careful with my Words.. Not to tell YOU anything that would Hurt YOU.. why did I say those words to YOU when YOU treated me with kindness and How much YOU put a smile ON my face.. why did I say those ugly words to Hurt you when NOW it is destroying me for Hurting YOU which made you walk Out the front DOOR.. as I am holding the Camera.. I would look through the Lens.. I am only seeing two empty Chairs.. DID YOU not ask me to bring you the Camera.. I would zoom in to get closer Look.. but ALL I see is two chairs.. both are empty.. and I start to cry.. as my tears would flood out from my eyes.. I just can't believe it.. and My hand lets go and the camera goes off my hand and lands On the floor.. if YOU are here.. I know that I would Not drop this Camera.. what good is this Camera Now if I can't even take YOUR picture any more.. why do you have to leave me like THIS.. I feel like my whole body is rotting.. it is decaying slowly
AS I would Open my Mouth.. last night I could Not sleep.. I was struggling so much trying to get some rest.. I don't know why but I was toss and turning around.. I would close my eyes.. my eyes would open.. both eyes looking up at the ceiling.. I am wondering.. I am so tired.. but why couldn't I fall asleep.. there is my Pillow.. I would grab and hold unto the pillow.. thinking that it be YOU.. and try to fall asleep.. my Heart was telling me.. There is One Picture that catches My eyes.. and I would stop.. taking a Look.. it is YOU.. but.. it is the first Picture of YOU.. before I ever met YOU.. and it is a Picture which my Friend would show Me.. as I am walking out of the Room.. after Looking at the Giant Teddy Bear and I stand by the Door.. looking at the empty Chair.. I have in my hand the first Picture.. which I had to travel far.. my friend wanted to introduce YOU to me.. and as I am looking at this Picture.. WHY did I let YOU go.. I remember that My friend told Me.. YOU are so Dear to HIM.. I was not thinking.. I did Not know what He meant by YOU were so Dear.. until the day YOU are gone.. When YOU left.. I only saw the Bag and YOU looked at me.. and only told me that YOU were leaving.. and told me.. it is going to be only few days YOU were gone.. I am thinking.. Maybe YOU went to My friend.. is this the reason WHY you have Not answered My call.. I just could not believe what I am dealing at this Point.. WHY would you tell me you will be Back.. that it would only take few days and Now.. weeks went By.. and now it is going on a month since YOU are gone.. I call YOU on the Phone.. I only hear the Phone ringing.. that means YOU are receiving.. knowing that It is Me who is calling YOU.. but.. why don't you pick UP.. why can't you tell me that YOU are doing just fine.. that YOU are doing alright.. I am still wondering.. and I am standing by the door.. LOOKING at the Chair.. the empty chair you sat.. WHY are you hurting Me.. why are YOU breaking my Heart.. can't you be honest with Me.. Please answer the Phone.. Please answer when I call YOU.. but every time I call YOU.. I only can leave YOU the voice Message.. if YOU know and YOU are able to hear me on the Other side.. WOULD YOU please call Back.. if NOT.. Please answer.. I am beginning to worry more about YOU.. because I am not sure what is going On.. Help me to Know that YOU are doing well.. that YOU are doing good.. WHY do you have to hurt me this way.. WHY are you punishing me because It truly Hurts YOU know.. Please tell me something.. as I am looking at the Old Picture.. the first Picture I ever saw.. It just drives Me crazy because I know that it was my fault.. I should of held Back.. should of been patient with YOU.. and just cool off before I speak to YOU.. I never thought that it would end up this way.. I really thought YOU are going to come back after few days.. Now it has been a Month of waiting.. I don't even know where YOU are so How can I do the search for YOU.. YOU don't pick UP the Phone.. NO answer.. don't even message me back.. I am asking YOU How you are doing.. I even leave my voice on the message.. But it is now killing Me.. killing me because YOU do not know how I am feeling right NOW.. what I am dealing with.. YOU know that I love YOU.. YOU know that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much time of waiting.. I am waiting for YOU.. but the time keeps ON going.. and I don't see you.. I need YOU here.. I want YOU close.. Where are YOU.. tell me please.. where are YOU because I am missing YOU right Now.. I take a look at the Old Picture.. the first Picture.. my Both eyes closes and Now.. A Phone rings.. and I pick up the Phone on the Other side.. My friend told Me that He knows another and.. It is YOU who he wanted to introduce.. I remember I would ask HIM if He knew someone because I was ready to Love.. I wanted to meet someone.. and He called Me.. telling me that He has a Picture.. and wanted to show me WHO YOU were.. I remember I was ready.. I would look at the Mirror and I smiled.. Meeting YOU for the first time.. I wanted to see who My friend was talking about.. and this excitement.. this rush in my body came.. I wanted to Love.. to Love YOU.. as I got ready.. I had the Train ticket in my hand.. and with a Bag I left the House.. I do remember I am standing by the train station.. I just couldn't believe It.. finally something is going to happen.. I been waiting for a long time.. Just that the situation of my life would Not lead me anywhere.. as I would go into the train.. giving the ticket.. the Man takes it and it shows me the NUMBER to seat.. I would walk to the seat.. with my bag I would sit by the window.. I just could Not stop smiling.. WHY am I smiling so Much.. but I would be thinking.. WHY smile Now if YOU would reject me.. if YOU don't like me at all.. But.. I do remember to shake it Off.. as I am looking through the Window.. I see a Beautiful woman.. and I see this WOMAN boarding into the train.. which caught my eyes quick.. but of course.. what am I going to do because I am meeting someone else.. I hear the foot steps and stops next the the seat I was sitting.. and I see YOU.. and I see you sit right next to me.. I am wondering.. WHY do my Heart.. WHY do I feel like I am getting a Heart attack.. WOULD my Heart stop attacking me from the Inside.. Please Stop jumping.. My Heart feels Like It is Jumping UP and DOWN so fast.. I wanted to hit my chest.. But.. A Beautiful woman Like you.. if YOU turn your Head and looks at me.. I think you would say I am Crazy.. like something is wrong with my Head.. so I would sit still.. and my Head turns to LOOK at YOU.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. so Amazingly Beautiful.. so Lovely INDEED.. as the train starts to Go.. I feel so Happy.. Happy that I get to see YOU.. even though I have Not met you yet.. as the train starts to pick up the speed.. the ride is bumpy and I am moving side to side.. I would bump on the side.. I see your Head turning.. Keeps on looking at me that I needs to stop.. I needs to control myself.. and I am trying.. but this Ride.. this Train.. it is going pretty fast and I think lots of small rocks.. because I would be moving side to side.. and the train would slow down its speed and I see that the BUMPY road stops.. I would turn my head.. I just can't stop looking at YOU.. I wanted to ask.. where are YOU going.. because I wanted to tell YOU.. I am going to meet someone so Special and that I am so excited to meet.. my friend is going to introduce me to my Love.. of course I did Not care what if it did Not work Out because I believe that it is going to be good.. it will work Out because I want Love.. I want to share my love.. speak of Love and tell about How I feel when I am in love.. as long as I am able to love YOU.. it did not matter if it is NO.. I am ready to Love YOU know.. but.. I see that YOU would be looking straight.. did NOT even turn aside.. did NOT even turn to look at me.. I am wondering Are you a sad Person.. must be a tragedy what YOU are going through.. I would turn my head towards the window.. and looking through.. and it would be hours of riding on this train.. but I did not care.. I am so happy anyways.. it can go for days and still I be happy to see YOU.. and for some reason I turn my Head to look.. I see something.. YOUR hand was holding something.. I am wondering.. what is that In your hand.. can I please take a Look.. It is a Picture.. But ALL I see is the Back.. the front.. I just can't tell.. as the train keeps on going.. and it would be about three hours of train ride and I see that the train would stop.. Now.. my two eyes would open.. and I am looking at the empty Chair.. WHY am I going back.. if I know that YOU are not coming.. YOU have been gone for about a Month.. what am I going to do if I go back to those beautiful Days.. and LOOK.. I am hurting so bad.. I feel like I should Not go back.. all it does is give me More pains.. I would be holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would be crying TOP of it.. because I would miss YOU.. I would be sobbing.. just raining down my tears as I am holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. getting everything out.. but still I have more tears to rain down because Now.. I feel so Sad that YOU are gone.. why can't you come back.. is it really that Hard for YOU to come back.. YOU know that my arms are open wide.. YOU know that I will open the door for YOU.. and I will tell YOU how much I am so sorry.. that I am Not going to yell at YOU anymore.. of course YOU gave me so much chances.. I know How I screw up.. telling YOU that I am not going to yell.. telling YOU that I am going to change.. but the words.. I know YOU don't believe me Now.. waiting for YOU for weeks.. days goes By I would look out the window from the inside of this House.. I would also be walking out side.. waiting for YOU.. but.. I do not see YOU at all.. Only thing is that I can go back.. going back to the memories where YOU are living in my Heart.. I just can't wash YOU away.. that is why it
Hurts Me so Much.. all I do is think of YOU.. I am so tired of only thinking of YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. be with YOU by your side and to tell YOU HOW much I love YOU.. AS I close both eyes.. I am going back to the train.. I am sitting down.. the train has stopped and I am waiting.. as I see YOU get UP.. I turn to LOOK out the window of the train.. I see my friend waiting.. of course I would smile so big.. I know that he has a Picture to show Me.. I am waiting for the Line of people to go down.. some How.. You are able to pass through the Lines of people standing.. I see you walking Out.. as I am watching YOU leave.. I see you stop.. and YOU are next to my friend.. I am wondering.. what does this Means.. and I am thinking.. NO.. it just can't be.. is my friend who knows YOU.. is it YOU who has the Picture.. I am thinking.. it just can't be.. and I am able to stand UP.. I see the People leaving.. and I get behind.. with my bag.. I am able to get off the train.. as I am getting closer to my friend.. I see you turn around and I see YOU.. YOU are surprised because we have already met in the train ride.. and My friend looks at me and Looks at YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU sitting on the Chair.. I want YOU home.. I want you here next to Me.. sitting on this chair which right Now I don't see you here.. as I am looking at the table.. I want to sit but I can't.. because I know that I am going to miss YOU if I don't see you across the table.. with YOUR beautiful smile.. I just keeps on missing YOU.. Please come Home.. Please come Home to me because I am missing YOU so bad.. will you please come back.. and I walk over.. I am standing by the Chair.. Your Chair.. the empty chair.. I am asking myself.. when will I see you again.. My hand.. holding your picture.. I lift up my hand.. holding Your picture in my hand.. YOU are holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. YOU are sitting on this chair.. the empty chair which right Now I am standing by.. on your lap is the Giant Teddy Bear sitting.. I can't believe YOU are not here.. I still can't believe YOU are Not here.. I been waiting for YOU more than a Month.. where are YOU now.. I been asking for YOU.. even begging YOU to come home.. I am taking pictures on the Phone.. sending you Plates.. your most favorite dishes I would make for dinner.. and Yes.. YOU are receiving the pictures.. because it goes direct to Your Number and yes.. I see that YOU are able to see the Pictures I would take.. looking at the Plates.. the dishes every Night so that I want YOU to come Home.. there are Nights I be waiting.. sitting on my side of the chair.. I am eating alone.. looking across is the empty Chair.. I feel so hurt.. I feel so Bad.. I feel like I have messed UP so bad this time.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do next.. But I need YOU here because I have called you several times.. I would tell YOU with the Voice Message How much I have messed UP and that I am so sorry.. so tell me this.. are you with some one new.. are you with another guy because I truly want to know.. if YOU are leaving me Now for another guy.. please tell me so that I can let YOU go.. I would even write text messages asking you about this many times.. But YOU would Not answer me.. it breaks my Heart because I would call.. Phone number dials.. my ear listening to the ringing on the Phone.. and I am asking Please.. pick UP the phone.. Pretty Please answer so that I can at least hear YOU say that YOU are alright.. But I would call. I would not hear any answers.. and I am speaking to YOU through the Phone asking YOU Please come back to me because it does not matter if YOU are with another guy.. as long as I am still in your Heart.. just please come home.. as I am standing by next to Your Chair.. which is an Empty Chair.. I just want YOU HOME.. I want YOU close to me and I am missing YOU.. why can't you tell me that YOU miss me too.. tell me what is in your Heart so that I know how you are doing.. I am looking at the Chair.. the Empty Chair.. I just want to cry.. I want to just pour out my eyes out.. just pour out my tears because I want to see YOU.. it is so hard not seeing YOU for Month.. I need to see YOU.. at least say that YOU do know my Heart.. as I am looking at the Phone.. I have made another Dinner dish.. a steam fish with veggies and I would look at the camera and I would be looking as I would click and I am looking at the picture of Dish I made for YOU this very night and I would look for YOUR Number and I would send it to YOU.. I would be look at my chair.. I would walk and sit on the chair.. and I would start to eat late into the night.. I would be looking across.. looking at Your chair.. the Empty Chair.. I can feel the Heavy in my Heart.. I would look across looking at the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat when we would eat dinner together.. I would open my mouth and say.. I really miss YOU.. why do you have to be the one to Break my Heart.. shattering my Brains and my thought into pieces.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. you know that by NOW.. I am truly sorry and yes I can feel the suffering and pain in my Heart.. I am in so much ache because I need YOU here.. I am missing YOU so much.. why do you have to do this to me when YOU know that I love YOU.. Please come home.. I am looking at your Picture.. YOU are sitting on the Chair.. smiling with the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your Lap with the Plate.. as I have the Bottle on the top of the Table.. I also placed the Shot Glass.. I just hate feeling this Pain.. Out side I can hear the wind blowing.. and it is lightly raining out side.. I just came from the Out side waiting for YOU.. wondering if I would stand out there.. I would see YOU coming Home.. still having that ray of Hope that YOU would come Home.. knowing at least YOU are receiving all of the Pictures of the dishes I made each night I send.. asking YOU I made this and that.. if YOU come home.. I would be in my room sleeping.. but YOUR Plate.. dinner is set by the Chair.. on top of the table waiting for YOU.. I would wake up each morning.. Hoping that YOU came late last night and had that dinner.. each Night and every morning I walk out of the room.. I would look at the top of the table.. LOOK at the plate and looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. I be heart broken because Nothing has been touched.. the food still be on that Plate.. never been touched.. and I would grab the Plate.. the Food goes into the trash and my Heart be broken because I am hoping that YOU came because I made it just for YOU.. but each night.. I would make it.. and after I am done eating.. I go into the room to sleep.. expecting you to finish the Plate when I wake UP the new next day.. its been a month now.. and I am still wondering.. are you going to come.. because I am waiting for YOU.. but I know that I have to still make the Favorite dinner dish.. the Plate just in case YOU come home and I don't want to see YOU hungry.. I want to see YOU.. I been missing YOU and My Heart is crying inside me.. I just came from Out side.. that is How my Heart feels inside this Home.. like it wants to rain down.. I am looking across.. sitting on my chair.. but my eyes keeps on looking across.. asking for YOU.. I want YOU close.. I want you in my arms so that I can love YOU.. but all my eyes can see right now is Your Chair.. the Chair is empty.. and I feel empty inside like that chair which is empty because YOU are not here.. But I need you here so that I can say it to you how much I am so sorry.. I want to say it to you so that YOU know my real Heart.. that I am missing YOU.. I want you here.. but Now.. I see that I can't see YOU.. as I open the top of the Bottle.. and I would pour into the shot glass.. and I put the bottle Down.. I raise UP the shot glass.. with liquor inside.. I open my mouth and take a Shot.. I hear something ringing.. and I am not sure if it is the Liquor getting to me.. and I would turn too look at my phone.. I see that someone is calling me.. I raise up the Phone to look. I just can't believe it.. and I am wondering.. it must be the Shot glass playing tricks on me.. it must be my eyes seeing things.. and I would pick UP the Phone.. and I hear YOUR voice.. it has been about a Month.. and I have not heard anything from YOU.. and I hear you saying something and only thing I can say is that I am so sorry and that I miss YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU and how much I love YOU because Now I know what YOU really means to me.. YOU means everything to me.. You always been everything but I just couldn't express it how.. but now I am able to tell YOU.. How much I missed YOU because I am looking across.. I have seen that the Chair has been empty.. its been missing.. missing YOU.. and I would hear YOU.. that YOU wanted to come Home.. and I am telling YOU to come home.. because in this house I am waiting for YOU Only.. I am looking at the Phone.. able to look at the screen.. I see your Beautiful Face.. I just can't believe YOU have finally answered.. but why did it take this long for YOU to tell me How you are doing.. why can't you tell me sooner.. I have brought the Giant Teddy Bear.. I wanted to show YOU something.. and Placed the Giant Teddy Bear on your Chair.. able to switch it where YOU are able to see it as I am showing you How much this Giant Teddy Bear been missing YOU.. I am sure more than Me.. usually YOU would sleep with this Giant Teddy Bear and I know without Your Presence.. it does Not feel the same.. and I am showing YOU.. LOOK.. who is waiting for YOU.. as much as Me.. and I see you smile looking at the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on Your Chair.. and I am able to focus on your Plate.. I am not sure if I am dreaming right Now
Because I know that right Now.. I am talking some Shots from the Shot Glass as I am pouring the Bottle on the Shot Glass.. I am hurting so Much.. this Pain does not leave me because I need YOU here.. I need you close to Me.. I am missing YOU.. and I can feel the tears running down my cheeks looking at YOU on the screen.. I been waiting for YOU.. day by day goes By.. it does Not feel the same because YOU are the love of my Life.. do you know how it feels to sit on this side of Chair.. every night.. I am making something to eat.. I am thinking of YOU too.. and I am wondering.. will YOU come Home.. will you eat from this Plate.. what if YOU don't show UP.. it breaks my Heart each time I come Out of the room in the morning.. looking at the table.. looking at the Empty Chair.. I am always looking at the past memories.. YOU be laughing.. telling me too salty.. or too dry.. some times a meat ball flies and hits my face and YOU smile.. just these little things.. I would be laughing too because I am at the most happiest when YOU are smiling.. able to smile back.. grab a meat ball and throw back at YOU.. of course I would of missed YOU.. I just can't help it any more.. I was really thinking maybe it should be the last Dinner plate I should make because may be YOU are Not going to ever come Home and just forget me for good.. as I am looking at YOU through my Phone Screen.. I have missed YOU so much.. I would grab the Shot Glass.. filled with the whiskey and Open my mouth to take another Shot.. I know that My Head is about to fall off.. I can see everything circling around Me.. I know that I can't stand UP straight.. and I know that when I wake UP the next morning.. My Head is going to kill me.. rather this is a dream or Not.. I am smiling looking at YOU through the screen of my Phone.. My Heart been aching for a Long time.. just missing YOU.. why I keep on missing YOU.. I now know how much I love YOU.. because of looking across is the Empty Chair.. the Chair YOU sat.. I am looking across.. the Giant Teddy Bear is sitting there who is waiting for YOU to come back to Her.. all I can say is that I am so Sorry.. and that I love YOU.. as the Phone shuts off.. I would put my head on top of the table and I would sleep.. My Heart hurts.. it feels like something shot inside of me because I need to see YOU.. I need you so Close.. I want to hold YOU once More and tell YOU how much I need to be with YOU and to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. as my both eyes opens.. I would lift UP my Head from the Table.. I know that the Chair is going to be empty again.. the Chair YOU sat down.. and I look across to see.. I just can't believe it.. Is it really YOU.. is this a Dream or am I seeing what I am seeing in reality.. I see YOU sitting on Your Chair.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on your lap.. the Plate.. the Dish I made for YOU.. YOU have ate the food.. and I am wiping my tears.. I just can't.. I can't believe that this is you.. it is really YOU.. YOU know that I sat many nights.. just dreaming for YOU to be here.. but ALL I saw on the Other side is the Chair.. it be empty and lonely just like my Heart felt when YOU were not there.. I missed YOU and I love YOU too.. Now that MOON has become My friend and times like this.. this pain and aching in my Heart.. when I feel like I want to die from the Inside.. and How much I missed YOU.. I just had to tell that MOON like a friend.. How much I missed YOU.. Yes.. I made Dinner for few days straight.. and for those past few days.. YOU have not shown UP.. I only saw the Chair.. Your Chair which has been empty.. I would sat the Plate with the Food on the side Of Your table.. but ALL I can see is Your Chair is empty.. I would just look across.. I wanted to reach Out my hand.. I wanted to touch YOU.. but How can I when I see the Chair.. I don't see YOU but only the Empty Chair.. I wanted to call Out your name.. But what can that do.. YOU would not hear me anyways because the Chair YOU sat when we ate together.. It was empty.. I would to say Your name.. call Out and reach to touch YOU.. my arms wanted to hold YOU still.. wrap around YOU but all I see is the Empty Chair.. I see the Food and Your Plate but I don't see YOU.. do you know how it feels to be sitting on the other side of the Chair.. I have my Plate and food.. and try to sit there alone.. eating by myself and all I could do is look across.. I see the Empty Chair.. I would have your Picture.. Put it on the TOP of the table and I would LOOK at it.. I would LOOK at YOU through this Picture.. it is not the same as I am looking at YOU right Now Face to face.. it does not feel right.. I would be asking Your Picture.. DO you even Love me.. if YOU love me why Hurt me like this.. if YOU Know how much I love YOU.. why keep on hurting me like this.. YOU know that I love YOU.. if YOU know that I love you a lot.. it is Not fair to hurt me in a way I should feel like this.. WHY hurt me knowing I love YOU.. that is why I am asking YOU right Now.. do YOU love Me.. if YOU love me.. Please don't hurt me because I am not here to be hurt BY you.. I also need to be loved as much as YOU do.. as I am looking at YOU.. YOU know that my Heart felt like burning.. and it would shattered into pieces.. because I love YOU.. as I look at YOU.. YOU still looks so beautiful.. is.. I even took a picture of YOU sitting with that Huge Bear.. I am over here just missing YOU.. WHY did you have to do this to me when YOU don't love me.. I told you that I love YOU.. I told you my heart and my soul.. that I wanted you to be the one who join in forever with me.. As I sat there on the Chair.. looking at the Watch.. Looking at the clock on the wall.. as it was getting late into the Night.. I get Up from the Chair.. my tears just flowing down.. I would walk out of the front door.. as I stand late into the Night.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am wondering.. WHAT DO I must do to earn YOUR LOVE.. Help me to understand.. If I love YOU.. and I am asking you to stay with Me.. why is it so hard for YOU to know that My Heart and what I say is true.. I am Not lying to YOU at all.. I am only expressing of How Much I love YOU.. why don't you trust My Heart.. WHY don't you know that It is me who Loves YOU the most.. I know that I can love you more.. I can love you where you know I can.. as I am looking at that Moon.. I want YOU to be close.. I want to tell YOU that it is Me who YOU need.. it is me who loves YOU the best.. all you got is to trust me in this.. YOU do not know how long of a flight I had to fly.. the years of coming.. Now.. I am here.. please.. just give me Your Hand.. and I will show YOU HOW MUCH I love YOU.. as long as YOU can trust me and understand.. when YOU give me Your Hand.. once I hold the grip of your Hand.. I will never let Your Hand to go because I love YOU.. and as I turn to walk into the House and I come over to sit on the Chair.. I looked UP.. wiping my Tears.. I see YOU.. I see you sitting there on the Chair.. Holding the Huge Bear.. with red ribbon.. smiling.. WHY are you doing this to Me.. One minute YOU are gone.. Next minute I see YOU.. then YOU are gone.. I cry and Now.. I see you again.. as I sat there.. Putting down the Camera.. I see YOU.. I smile.. even though YOU are NOT THERE.. YOU Live in My Heart.. even though YOU may be so Far.. I see the Chair empty.. but also.. I can close my both eyes.. when I open and LOOK.. I see you sitting on that Chair.. it is because I love YOU.. NO matter How far YOU are.. IN MY HEART.. I know YOU live in.. all I do is say.. I see YOU.. I love YOU.. I am looking at the Empty Chair.. it is Your Chair.. the chair YOU sat down when we would eat together.. I did not know why YOU left.. I am so sorry for letting YOU down.. but I saw YOU angry at Me.. I know that I am Not perfect.. I make a lot of Mistakes.. of course I do because I am also imperfect Human Being.. But there are times I know I just can't say the right Words to YOU.. making YOU angry and frustrated with situations I am not use to with.. When YOU get mad.. or Angry.. I see the Great storms coming.. it hits my Heart like a Hurricane.. and it blows me to the Floor.. But.. I want the best for Us.. I want us to win in this Life.. YOU know How hard and tough Life can be.. it is Not easy for Me.. But YOU know that NO matter the wrong words I would say to YOU.. I know I should Not say.. which It makes YOU to storm Off the room.. it is because I know that I am Not perfect.. But.. YOU know that I love YOU.. I have Never stopped Loving YOU.. it only grows with Time because I know YOU are the One for Me.. and YOU are wondering.. WHY do I choose the wrong Words to say and tell YOU.. because also I go through a lot myself.. I deal with such Hardship.. sometimes It is Not easy to say when I feel unappreciated.. I get hurt Too.. I feel Hurt inside as much as YOU do.. and Yes.. I do regret when YOU walk off the room.. Leaving me just standing here.. I can't explain it sometimes but.. I know that deep inside my Heart.. I do truly love YOU.. I am so sorry for Hurting YOU.. I am so sorry that YOU got Up and left because I could Not say the right words but has chosen to say the wrong words to Hurt YOU.. Now.. I am here all alone.. I been looking at the
Clock.. only thing I see is the Clock ticking.. and I am just waiting for YOU to come back Home.. Now I feel so Lost.. I feel so Hurt.. I feel like I know I have wronged YOU but it is because I wanted to say I love YOU.. YOU are wondering.. If I love YOU.. why choose words to say what Hurts YOU the most right.. WHY choose those makes YOU angry and bring frustrations right.. It is because I know I can't make it right.. because I know it is my fault.. I am the One who made the mistake.. so sometimes I would try to say something so that YOU would not respond in a defense.. I know that when YOU fire back.. it hurts Me.. It makes me want to cry but In front of YOU.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. I have already shown YOU enough tears but wants to show YOU smile.. bring a smile to your face.. that is why.. I am waiting for YOU.. I even left a message.. I am not sure if YOU got the Message because I am thinking.. right Now is Not the time.. YOU are truly angry at me.. but.. why did YOU leave without saying a Word to me.. when are YOU coming back.. How far are YOU going.. Are you going to be leaving Me behind.. Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. did YOU go out for some fresh of air.. I am over here.. only wondering where YOU are.. wondering if YOU went Out for a walk.. so Am I suppose to wait for YOU.. I am sitting on the chair on the Other side.. the Chair I been sitting when we would eat together.. But.. it seems like it has been awhile.. I would turn a side to look at the Clock.. the Time has been dragging.. sitting here and just waiting.. the Time seems like it is going by so Slow.. and looking across.. I see the Chair.. Your Chair which YOU sat down.. when I watch YOU in the kitchen.. I see YOU smile when YOU are making a meal.. but.. YOU would also call out to me.. asking if I can be by your side to help YOU in cooking.. I don't like to cook at all.. but.. I know that I love YOU.. I would join in just to be by Your side and to help you to finish.. I would be washing the dishes when we would finish eating.. putting the dishes and cups.. utensils back to its place.. wiping the table to make it clean.. wiping down the counter top when It is wet.. I do love the washing part because I am able to do something that I know I can be a part to help YOU.. but On this very night.. I saw YOU packing UP a Bag.. and I saw YOU out the front door.. YOU did not say a word to me.. Not even said Good Bye or Good Night.. I was shocked.. because I never thought YOU had this in your Mind and Heart.. I think it was a build up on your Part.. and Now.. YOU are gone.. I am looking across.. only thing I see is the Chair.. the Chair is empty.. I don't see YOU across this table.. I am thinking.. is this a Dream.. or is this really happening to me.. WHY is it has to end this way.. why tell me that YOU love me and Now.. YOU are Gone with the Wind.. I can't help myself but my eyes are looking at this Chair.. But what good is it when YOU just had to hold back but only showing tears in the eyes.. it is hard when you just can't say a word and just hold back.. Kills you from the inside.. SO I had to close my eyes.. counting the stars for the chance to come.. asking the Moon.. How long does it take.. How long must I had back the years showing tears to YOU.. so.. if you look at my shoes.. it is not easy of waiting and waiting for the TIME to come.. it is hard but.. I am looking at Your Heart.. I just could not believe.. I see Your Picture too.. looking at YOU and looking at Your Big Heart is like a Dreams come true.. but in reality.. I know that I am not dreaming any more.. Now.. I know that I want to say some much to This Heart of Yours.. what is holding YOUR HEART back of receiving.. I want to give.. I just want to pour out and give YOU all of my Heart and my Love to YOU.. and to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for this very day.. that is why I am Not going to hold anything back.. I want to tell Your Heart.. How much I love YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. then I loved YOU.. Now.. I love YOU.. still I love YOU.. and More I love you every day.. it is Not going to stop me to keep on loving YOU more every day.. because I have been waiting for YOU.. for Your Big Heart.. for this Heart.. I miss YOU and I love YOU still.. because YOU are my everything.. my forever and ever love in my Heart.. I waited.. Now.. I know I can love you more because I love you.. I am standing Outside.. I just could Not stay Inside because I started to Miss YOU.. sitting on the Chair.. I am looking across and I still see the Empty Chair.. I am waiting for YOU.. looking at the two Plates.. after making Dinner for us.. I just could not stay inside any longer.. I want you Close.. I want YOU near.. I walked Out the Door.. and I am staring out.. Looking at the Moon.. I am asking myself.. Where are YOU.. WHY don't you want to Come home.. is it because what I said to YOU.. but YOU know that sometimes I would say things I should not say.. but also YOU would tell me things that WOULD hurt me as well.. I am waiting for YOU.. Please Come HOME.. I think the Food on the Plate is getting cold.. I have waited and waited.. Looking at the watch.. Looking at the clock.. I see that YOU are Not here yet.. It is pretty cold Outside.. pretty Chilly this very day and I am still waiting for YOU.. WHY don't you want to come Home.. YOU know How much I love YOU.. Please Come Home.. as I am standing there.. I have your picture in my hand.. and I take a LOOK at your Picture.. What have I done.. WHAT did I say those words to YOU.. I am so sorry.. Please forgive me.. because I am Now sorry for the Words I say to YOU.. DID NOT mean to say it in a way to cause YOU to cry.. I know that the damage is already Done but.. I am hurt too.. YOU know that I am not feeling right.. so Please.. Pretty Please come Home to me.. and tell me.. tell me that YOU are coming Home.. as I stand here IN the Night.. it is getting colder outside.. can feel the blowing of the Wind.. as I stand there.. I look UP to the Moon.. and I just can't take this Pain any more.. I can't take this ache in my Heart.. because I am missing YOU.. YOU know that I have not seen you all day.. did not even see YOU last Night or before that Night.. it has been few days that it went By.. and Yes.. I called YOU on the Phone.. but I see that YOU just don't want to talk to me.. I can hear the ringing on the other side.. but.. I only can leave a Voice message.. I am wondering now.. DID YOU get my Message.. I told YOU on the Phone.. left YOU a Message that I am so Sorry.. that I am not going to do that again.. and Now.. days passes by.. still No answer.. YOU have Not left me any messages.. I am wondering about YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and it drives me crazy because I am not sure what is going through Your Mind and heart.. Please tell me.. so that I don't have to worry about YOU.. I am Looking UP at the Moon.. Can you Hear me.. even though I called Your Phone.. even today this Morning I left a message on Your Phone.. did YOU get the message.. did YOU hear my Voice on the other side.. and yes.. every Night.. for the past few days.. I would clean UP the food ON your Plate and make a New Dinner.. Just in case YOU show up this Very day.. Do you know what Hurts me the Most.. that I would have to get UP from the Chair.. and I have to look across and I see Your Chair.. that chair has been empty for few days Now.. I would sit by myself.. I ache in my Heart as I am eating alone.. just for one meal.. I wanted to take my time to share with YOU.. and I would be looking across.. as Your Picture is laying next to the Plate.. I would take a Look at the Picture of YOU and I would touch my Chest.. telling Your Picture.. while looking.. I would stop eating and say TO your Picture.. How sorry I am and that I love YOU.. you would Not answer me and it hurts because I am missing YOU not wondering what YOU are doing.. I be eating.. Looking across.. Looking at Your Chair.. the empty Chair.. how YOU sat down and we would look at each other.. smile and eat.. just for that One night.. for that Dinner.. I would cook so that YOU know this is what I can give YOU to tell YOU.. I may not be able to give YOU much.. but.. I want to give YOU something from my Heart.. it is a meal for two of us.. But Now.. I sit there alone.. and I hear nothing.. so quiet.. and just silence in that ROOM.. I would get UP after I finish eating alone.. my Plate would be done.. as I walk across.. I would grab Your Plate.. still has Food on the table.. and I would go into the kitchen.. and it goes into the trash.. I would stand and I would wash the Plates and put back into the cabinet.. as I turn around.. I would look at Your Chair.. the empty Chair where YOU sat once.. and Now I am just missing Your presence.. and I would ask looking at Your Empty Chair.. where are YOU.. DO you know that I am missing YOU.. I just can't believe YOU are gone and has not come home yet.. what If YOU never come Home.. what is going to happen to this Chair.. I don't want this
언니머리 매직한거예요??
알왕다예뻐요😍ㅎㅎ
아 !!!!!!!!! 썸네일부터 대존잼 (존예) 연수언니 ... ♡
언니 십만명 축하해요❣️❣️ 실버버튼 오픈 영상 가주아
초창기때부터 지금까지 쭈욱 함께해줬던 옥수수다!!!!
당신과 아름다운 당신의 스타일을 사랑합니다 ❤️
연수님 어느덧 구독자가10만명이 되었네요👐
나만 알고 싶은 플레이스트처럼 저만 알고 싶은 연수님이였는데 뭔가?아쉽지만 그건 1%고 99% 행복합니다!!연수님의 매력을 10만명이 느낄 수 있다는거니깐요 제가 꼭 마주치고 싶습니다!!!!아니 마주칠거에요!!화이팅이에요 앞으로두😊
우리 옥수수들은 왜이렇게 말을 하나같이 다 예쁘게 할까..? 나만 알고 싶은 플레이리스트라니! 너무 고맙고 마주치면 꼭 플레이리스트라고 말해줄래요? 제가 꼭 기억해볼게요 너무 감사합니다>ㅁ
TRANDING TOP YEAR'S💗
💬👉 45.76.207.246/305? reina-Love
UA-cam: this is fine
Someon: says "heck"
UA-cam: BE GONE
однако я люблю таких рыбаков
구독자 10만 축하드려요👸🏻🖤
언니 ~~!!!!!!
악세사리 소개해줬으면 좋겠어요🥺🥺❤️🔥
언니 저번에 무물에서 어떤분이 언니 가방 영상 찍어달라 했는데 많이 없어서 못 찍는다난거 보고 되게 멋있었어요💎 남들은 과시할려고 무리하게 사고 자랑 하고 그러는데 소신?ˀ 있고 멋져 보였어요! 언니 제주도편 영상보고 우왕 언니 가방 샀네 이쁘다 생각했는데 하울영상에 뙇 !!올라왔네요 ❤️ 하울영상 너무 반갑네용 ㅠ.ㅠ 오늘도 얼굴이 다했네요 ღ그리고 10만 너무 축하해용 ㅠㅠ 구독자1000명 부터 꾸준히 지켜본 옥수수 예용💚 100만 가자 나도 우연히 가다가 언니 만나고싶다
요즘애는 무슨촬영하고 있어요?? 궁굼해요
언니 당근 구경할래요ㅠㅠ아이디
언니이이이이ㅠㅠ 영상기다렸다구요!!!!ㅠㅠ드디어 ㅠㅠㅠ 흐아 언니 오늘도 존예에요 너어무 ㅠㅠㅎㅎ그리구 10만된거 축하드랴용 ㅎㅎ❤️❤️언니 영상 많이 많이 올려듀세용 ㅎㅎ 항상 웅원해요 언니❤️❤️
오오 10만명 축하드려요 연수님! 항상 잘보고있습니다! (특히 브이로그요 ㅎ)
축하해주셔서 고마워요>ㅁ
수수연수처럼 화장 수수할 때가 훨씬 더 아름다우세요😚😚 언니만 나오는 24시간 브이로그도 보고 싶어용
항상 행복길만 걸어요 연수님❤️ 10만 너무 축하해요 그중에 한사람이라 너무 행복해!!!
아구아구 기여어라!! 축하해줘서 너무 고마워요 내 옥수수중 한명이 밍밈민밀님이라서 저도 행복해요!!
1분 전은 못참지~
Please add subtitles
오늘도 외모 열일중!! 너무이뻐용❤️
브이로그는 언제 올라오나여?
아니 프라다삔 찰떡🥰 내가본 사람중에 제일 잘어울려요 💓
잘보고 가요 하나같이 너무 이쁘네요 ㅠㅠ!
일본에서 응원하고 있습니다❕
동영상, 화려하고 귀여워서 잘 보고 있습니다 😆
언젠가 만나고 싶습니다 💞
음??? 언니 점점 하예지네에 하고보고잇엇는데
야외쵤영으로 많이 탓다고 해서 당황… 어디어디가탓써요!!!
언니 영상 보면서 힐링 해여 ㅎㅎ너무 이뻐요 진짜!!!!!!
별거없는 제 영상 보면서 힐링까지 하다니 너무 감사해요 헤헤..부끄럽군!!
We need an English subtitle pwease
고향이 어디세용?
서울 토박입니다만🤫
우엥,,, 그 옥수수분 부럽다,, 저두 나중에 꼭 연수언니 만나고 싶어효,,
우리 예쁜 언니 GRWM 주세용
Unnie please add english subtitles
언니 넘 이뻐요ㅠㅠㅠ 언니의 영상을 잘 보고 있음니돠☺️ 건강 잘 챙기고 행복하세욤~ 사랑합니다💛
우리 소라님도 건강 잘 챙기시구 항상 행복하세요 나두 사랑해요!!❣️
당신은 정말 최고입니다 당신을 너무 사랑합니다🤍
어쩜 어깨도 이뻐요 언니..
언니가 산건 다 사고시포요❤️❤️❤️
이전에두 영상 좋았는데 점점 더 좋아지는 성장과정을 함께하는 기분이라 넘넘 죠아용,,❤️
언니 십만 축하드립니됴~~
저도 점점 더 함께해가는 옥수수분들이 늘어갈때마다 행복해요 진심으로,하트!!!!❤️
Какая же ты милая:)
연수언니짱짱
언니! 나왔어💗
예쁘다예쁘다💗💗
언니 영상은 다 너무 재밌고 유익해요 ㅎㅎ 옷들 소개도 디테일하게 사이즈까지 알려주시는 배려와 센스에 늘 감동이예요~~진짜 유튜브 맛집 수수연수님❤️나중에 기회가 되신다면 수수연수의 사진 보정법, 자주 쓰는 사진 어플, 나만 알고 싶은 인스타 사진 찍는 꿀팁 등 연수 언니가 사진찍는 팁과 방법들만 쏙쏙 모은 영상도 재밌을 것 같아요!!인스타 사진들도 대박이라구요😍여신여신😆사진 영상도 기다릴게용~수수연수 흥해라~~🥳
축하축하❣️ 얼른 실버버튼 받는영상 보구싶어요🥳🥳
we love yuoo😭💓💓💓✨
역시 너무 이쁘다 ㅜ 목소리도 이쁘고 매력도 많구 끼도 많아 ..😍
최고의 칭찬들만 모아서 해주시다니 너무너무 감사해요>ㅁ
Suuu plz now add english subtitles 😡 really I can't handle anymore plz
All right, I'm sorry I kept you waiting so long. Relax.😭🙏🏼💜
어떤 스타일도 어울리는 언니🥺❤️❤️그리고 구독자 수 10만 명 축하합니다!!!!!!🎉 앞으로도 계속 응원하고 있어요~;)))) 사랑해요 언니!!!!💓💓
축하해주셔서 너무 고마워요 앞으로도 함께하길 바래요 헤헤
당신은 영어 자막을 추가 할 수 있습니다하시기 바랍니다 ....??
全然なに言ってるかわからないけど顔面が強すぎて観れる！日本にはいないタイプだから好き！
can you put subtitles MALAY/ENG 🖤❤️
언니 그냥 진짜 너무 예뻐요 선글라스 완전 찰떡 그자체 오늘도 영상 너무 잘봤고 브이로그도 보고싶어용 !!
10만 세상에서 제일 축하드려요 ㅜㅜ 💖 큐엔에이 기다리고 있었는데 드디어 볼수있는건가용 !!!! 10만 근접했을때부터 매일 영상보면서 몇만인가 확인했는데 저번에 된거 보고 제가 다 행복했어요 😆 오늘 같은 언박싱 영상 자주 찍어주세오 ㅜㅜ 너무 재밌고 손민수 하고싶고 유익해서 좋아요 😍 다시 한번 10만 너무너무 축하드립니닷 🥳💛
아 너무 이뻐 ❤️
알렉산더왕 브라탑 넘예부다 ...
언니 나이 궁그매요~~~💕💕💕큐앤에이 너무 기다립니당 ㅠㅠㅠ💫
Ur so pretty alwaysss
Love from Indonesian :bbb
큐엔에이 기대합니당
다이뿌당...ㅠㅠ
룸투어 영상 보구시퍼여 ㅠㅠ
언닝ㅠㅠㅠㅠ보고싶었어여ㅠㅠ 오늘 특히 샤넬 가방 너무 이쁜거 아닌가염 🤭🤭 저도 지나가면서라도 언니 만나보고 싶네여ㅠㅠ
진짜 다예뽀요~~!
brazilll watching u
언니왜 이렇게 귀여워요?💋