I’ve avoided your channel for 3 years now because it felt so terribly familiar. When you got together with Ty, my boyfriend of 2,5 years broke up with me. We were just about to get engaged and he took the last exit out before getting „stuck“ with me, I suppose. I kept watching you and seeing you go through all the milestones I’d had with him in your relationship. I had to click off when you guys moved in together and adopted a cat. It was just too close to my own life and what I’d lost. It’s been a good while now and though it still hurts sometimes, I’ll admit that, I can see why that relationship had to end, even though we loved and wanted the best for each other. What I’m trying to say is: I took that time to work on myself and learn to be my own person. And in that time I moved abroad, traveled the world and got my dream job. Losing love is always sad. But starting over is filled with so many possibilities and so much opportunity to learn that the only love you should never, ever lose is the love for yourself. All the best!
Awww proud of you for taking the next leap forward!! Also selfishly excited that you’ll be closer to my neck of the woods😈 would love to hangout when all this is over💗
A few things: You speak with such kind words and I have been watching you ever since we both started uni, so even if we will likely never meet, I can just relate to you as a person and feel calm watching your videos and watching your grow. I am sorry you guys broke up, but it seems incredibly mature to realize and prioritize what you expect of life - happiness and finding yourself - so I wish you the best of luck in finding yourself and living by yourself in the big city for the first time. Then, I know you are oriented towards sustainability and being eco-conscious and that you do not accept sponsorships very frequently, but considering a move is expensive and you want this to be your career for now, by ALL MEANS try to find sponsorships! Maybe an eco mattress or furniture company or an ethical food-delivery company etc etc etc
i lost my glasses today and this comment gave me a lil heart attack because I thought I had either made this comment and forgot about it or someone had hacked me lmao
I came to a very similar realization myself; living to make others happy instead of yourself will only leave you feeling exhausted and resentful. In order to be the best person you can be, you have to put yourself first. Kind of counterintuitive.
seriously, this whole speech feels like a wake up to my own mental health, i constantly feel that i have to live up to people’s expectations or perceptions? and it stresses me out, i have dreams but my dreams are always influenced by other people thank you catcreature for being so brave
just broke up with my partner of nearly 3 years yesterday, i understand what you’re going through right now because I’m there too. i wish you luck on this new chapter of yours.
I feel you so much... when I first graduated I had the same mindset, it was definitely one of the most challenging times of my life. I had to make big decisions career wise, I left a long term relationship, and I had no idea of what to do. Trust me, you learn and grow so so so much from this experience. Wishing you the best, take your time to heal and don’t force yourself too much. Always here for you!
Although your break up must be really difficult, I’m so happy that you are investing more efforts into yourself. Your growth will be uninhibited and I’m excited for you, as well as ty, to experience this.
Although this held a different tone than your other videos, this is a very real and needed video on this platform. When you said you had to do the difficult thing to make yourself happy, I really felt that and know other resonate with that too. Often times, humans make their identity through others and will often do what’s easier than harder. Sometimes the move you don’t want to make is the one you need to make. Many blessings on your new life and I hope you find happiness in yourself
I'm 25 and I've just now started to understand what finding/loving/thinking of yourself means. I've always been a people pleaser, and I thought spending time and money on myself was a selfish act. It's absolutely not. Self care looks different for everyone, and only you can find out what that entails for you. Sometimes its enjoying a warm cup of tea wrapped in blankets, and sometimes its crying in therapy because you're finally letting go of the stress and hurt and trauma. I've learned to be gracious for all my accomplishments and my struggles, because they are all important parts of my story as a human being. Good luck on the move to NY. Sending love and good energy!!
i see a lot of myself in you, i too can be very insecure and unfortunately i thrive off of the validation of others. this is something that i am making efforts to fix but it’s proving to be more difficult than i was expecting. i am excited about your move to new york and your opportunity to experience living alone. i wish you the absolute best on your new endeavors, you have a very beautiful soul annabelle and i’m glad to be able to witness it. ❤️ best of luck
I literally never comment on UA-cam but I felt like I needed to. I've been watching your channel for years now and being the same age, I always felt like I was growing up with you alongside. Especially 2020 when I also graduated from an art degree and have been struggling with finding myself after university, your channel has really been a healing place for me. This video made me tear up because, from what you have shared with us, I understand. You were able to put into words so many of my emotions and thoughts and it was so lovely to hear. Sending you so much strength and I absolutely believe you will make it! Good luck with your new journey!
Whoever said you seemed a bit 'jaded' honestly I think they were spot on. Perhaps if you'd been able to get out and about, and be with friends over the last year that would have helped, but you never seemed fully confident in yourself since you left the East Coast (in what very limited capacity we see you here!). I hope this new adventure works out for you and that you're able to reconnect with yourself and your joy in life again. Also selfishly looking forward to more Prairie content as and when you feel comfortable sharing your new journey with us
You didn't have to share this, but I'm thankful you did. Lately I've been feeling lost, so this helped me understand I should take a step back and see where I'm going, and what I'm doing for myself. It's okay for my life to be about my peace.
Sometimes I forget that we are the same age because you always seem so put together and I admire you to bits (for that and many more things)...so thank you for really trying to show all of you, Annabelle, it makes me admire you even more and rest assured that we are still here and we will remain here to witness all of those aspects and changes that make you you...I can't wait to keep on growing along your side, we can do this, I believe in you♥ =)
Oh my god i relate to this so so badly. I broke up with my boyfriend of 7 years back last February. We both still talk but I just realized that I was never able to sit with myself and love who I was without relying on someone else to tell me I was loveable. I always forced all my problems on school, my family problems, and my relationship. And now post graduating and without this relationship I’m just in this void not knowing who I am! YOURE NOT ALONE! i send you all the love on this journey and know that someone else can relate so deeply. 💕
I’m in a similar situation as you right now - the end of my first relationship.What you said about validating your identity through relationships, school, or career goals really resonated with me. Here’s to a new chapter of learning to be comfortable with ourselves.
Wow I'm so early. I never comment but I have been watching your content for around 2 years now. Thank you for being so unapologetically vulnerable...that's magic.
I cant believe I've been following you for almost 4 years now. I'm very happy for you for the time you had with Tyler having someone on your side like him, I'm also happy you get to rediscover yourselves without each other and grow. I have so much empathy for you guys both, my heart goes to you. Also very excited for your career 💕
the fact that you recognized these things within yourself is truly something, it took me a long time to realize some of these things that you're going through and I honestly needed my therapist to tell them to me over and over and over again. You're doing amazing sweetie
i haven't been keeping up with your videos for a while, not for any reason in particular, could just be the algorhythm not putting your videos on my recommended. this video, however, appeared in my feed and i just had to watch it. it really answered a lot of questions i had about your content. i have never questioned your talents or capabilities as an artist, student, videomaker etc but i always wondered how you manage to pull it all off. turns out, being seemingly effortless takes a lot of effort. you, as well as your viewers and any single person out there can spread ourselves only so thin before it becomes unsustainable. seems like you're looking out for number 1, which is a safe bet in these times. best wishes&stay safe!
I’m so sorry about your break up, I just went through my first this weekend. It’s very therapeutic to hear someone say that they broke up for the same reason. It’s very painful to make the decision to choose your personal growth over everything and I wish you healing and prosperity in your new journey ❤️
For the past three years I’ve followed your channel, it has been a place of love, beauty and almost protection for me in my insane world. A safe space to come to with a cup of tea to catch up with you. I hope you are able to create a similar space for yourself in NYC. Be gentle on yourself and have fun, all of the love xx
This might sound a little harsh but this feels like seeing the real you again, I've been following you since your RISD days and I think it was in your second? third? year (basically from when you had red hair up to when you had blue hair) it seemed like there was a major shift in your personality, kinda like a character? I'm glad you are doing better now tho best wishes✨💖
Anabelle, you are one of my top 3 favorite UA-camrs and storytellers of all of the UA-cam creators I know. The way you present parts of your life to us is so real, soothing, and refreshing. Thank you. Wish you the best in this new chapter of your life. Give yourself all the grace you need to learn and grow and more. Sending lots of love.
Seeing all the comments make me so happy. This is why I love this platform so much, we are not scared of showing our vulnerabilities and struggles. We are all in this together, moving forward, figuring ourselves out. I am so happy and excited for ur new adventure annabelle. love u and ur channel as always ❤️
its so hard to unlearn seeking external validation, i'm going through that journey myself. I hope you find nothing but love and joy from this journey, i'm so excited for you!
this kind of shadow work and deep self-reflection is never easy and there will always be ups and downs along the way, some days better than others, but what matters is that you've started - that counts for a lot more than you might think it does. sending you love and light, wishing you well.
I can relate so much to the whole feeling of waking up and being disappointed that I'm me. I've been watching you since your very first university vlog and I remember falling in love with your content and how your videos inspired me and comforted me in so many different ways. I've been watching you for forever and now as I have started university myself this year, again your videos have helped me hold myself together in the most tumultuous, lonely and difficult time of my life, and watching you figuring out who you are and what you want your life to be so bravely helps me push myself in the same way and reminds me not to give up. So from a very old catcreature fan, thank you from the bottom of my heart and I wish you all the best in this new chapter of your life!
thank you for giving us so much peace and happiness through your videos. you deserve the same peace and happiness for yourself and more. i wish you luck for your life in new york
This really resonated with me. I have been going through something very similar in the last few months. For me it feels both terrifying and reasuring at the same time, because its like jumping in the ocean without a lifesaver, but at the same time deep down it feels like its the right thing to do. You took the right path Anabelle, because you did what your heart believed was what you needed to do. It may take a little while to get where we need to, but I believe that we will :)
when you said ‘as if that’s my responsibility’ when talking about the opinion of others, that really struck me. i’ve battled with this a lot too in the past and until recently i thought i had overcome it because regardless, i’m definitely of the opinion that if you are doing the best you can to be a good person, no one can ask any more of you than that. but hearing you say it isn’t your responsibility to win people over like that really hit deep because it made me realise that even my current opinion shows my need to prove myself and be doing as much as i can so that there’s no room for more! and i’m so surprised at myself for that! honestly i just wanted to thank you for being so open and raw about your current personal situation because it’s definitely something i’m sure many of us can empathise with in different ways and i really feel like watching this today has helped some much needed change in my perspective on things. thank you and good luck with the move❤️
In the years I've watched your channel, I have never interacted your videos, but after watching this one I feel compelled. I find the reason I still come back to your videos is that you always seem to articulate my feelings in a way I can't. I have frequented your videos in so many chapters of my life. Each time I heard you not only verbalize my fears, but face them and move forward.... it helped me heal and move forward myself. I guess I just wanted to thank you for sharing your struggles, because it's helped me find the strength to face mine
I've been subscribed to you for maybe around 5 or 6 years. It's been so refreshing watching you grow and change as a person through this time. I wish you the best on your journey moving forward.
Annabelle: I've been watching you for years and always felt - and i know i know i don't *know* you - so connected to your lifepath. I live in Europe, i believe i am just a little younger than you, and have a totally different background compared to yours. Even so, your journey has always aligned to mine in a way: entering sustainability, art school, moving and, now, this new start for yourself where the main focus is you. I wanted to really thank you, because watching you go has sometimes motivated, others reassured me but always given me a new perspective. Your way of sharing your life and your art feels like a safety blanket to me. Right now, I know that somebody out there, someone who i respect and cherish, has chosen herself too. And it gives me strength. These new online connections between people that are deeply assymetrical are so bizarre yet can be so amazing and touching. Once again, thank you so so much. I believe in growth, and i'm sure that you will make the very best of this new beginning!!!!
I distinctly remember you saying how you wanted to stay in New York after graduating. Though life is sometimes unexpected, I'm glad you are continuing on with your journey. Wishing you the best of luck to this new chapter of your life🧡
I have been watching for several years, and honestly you seem so much lighter and refreshed in this video! I’m so sorry about you and Tyler, but I really hope you can find joy in experiencing life just as you are. It’s hard to let go of the expectations of others, something I work on everyday, but it is your life and you deserve the very best for yourself. You made the right decision! wishing you all the best on your new journey! X
Annabelle.. I just can't describe how much you've impacted me, I know I've only 'known you' from your videos... but I truly can't describe how much you've been like an older sister to me. Thank you very very much for sharing this journey with me and other viewers..
sometimes to just have to put yourself on the first place and there is nothing wrong with it, finding, loving and accepting ourselves is so an important journey. we are with you!
You are so special Annabelle. These are growing pains, both exciting & aching. But the hard parts will be woven with good parts too. You have so many people rooting for you & loving you--because you deserve to be supported & to feel peace within yourself. Cheers to growth & new beginnings!
I've been watching you since my freshman year of high school, when you were a freshman at RISD. I really enjoyed going through those four years with your videos. Thank you for always making such great videos and I look forward to and am sending love for the next step of your journey in New York.
your videos have helped me heal so much, gave me hope and faith in real life people. i have faith in your healing, in your journey, and i have faith in your life.
I’m so truly happy for you Annabelle!! I have been watching you since i was in high school and now I’m studying arts in university and a lot of that is thanks to you showing me and giving me hope that i can do it! Just wanted you to know that your videos inspire me and watching your journey gives me hope for mine✨ i actually can’t imagine my life without your videos, they’ve become so integral to my being. I really hope this new start will be the start of something great for you ! Keep going girl you’ve got this ☺️💕love from South Africa 🇿🇦
The VOID is the place from which you can design your whole life. Sit and walk and dance with yourself. You’ll connect and be able to hear your intuition. Go with your gut 🌈 I know it feels scary! This is such an exciting time of life to dig into yourself!!
I dont usually comment but ive been watching your channel since your risd room tour. I felt somewhere in the middle between then and now u were transitioning mentally and as a viewer I’m so proud and glad that you’ve made this step, it is so nice to see you candid and so open. Much love!
You've always been a huge inspiration for me ever since I've found your channel years ago. I was a graphic design student in uni (and still am) and all the things you shared , ups and downs, your way of creating art .. they all kept me going when things got harder and I'd always find myself thinking "what would Annabelle do or think and how would she overcome this ?" and thats how I overcame things thanks to you.. And now I hope this new start in place and mind would help you go forward and grow. I can only hope to motivate and encourage you the same way you did to me but all the things you want to be and the person you want to grow into I'm more than sure you've already started evolving into that person. I only wish the best for you !!
This has been so inspiring and relatable to everyone. This season of our lives makes us more questionable of our future and our plans. It is normal to find peace for yourself even it takes so much sacrifices like letting go relationships, certain people, grudges or maybe our past. I'm so happy that you are moving forward so we can find happiness for yourself. You got this, Annabelle. I believe in you 🤍
most of the comments are abt their journey with u here in youtube and here's mine. i've been watching you for more than 5yrs now. i look up to you as an individual and as a creative. you never cease to make me feel calm with your videos and even tear up sometimes and this one is no exception. i resonate strongly with that part wherein u constantly feel like living up to peoples expectation, i say i'm not like that but deep down i guess i am unconsciously and it's hard to unlearn but we're all trying. you're doing great, annabelle. sending all my love from u, take care as always 💛 - ally
i've said this before, but i always genuinely appreciate your honesty. we're the same age, and i started watching you when we both started university, so watching this makes me realize how much we have both grown up. lots of thoughts about centering identity around certain goals (like graduating) n then having to deal with those being gone; this made me put a lot of my own life into perspective too. weird to say from an outsider perspective, i know, but it has always been somewhat comforting to see someone my age share some of the same struggles. it makes me feel less alone, and i hope you feel less alone too, knowing that other people struggle with these things too. it doesn't make your pain any less real or personal, but i hope you can be kind to yourself and remember that you never have to struggle alone. i wish you all the best, now and always. i'm excited to see where this road takes you, annabelle!
I moved to New York by myself five years ago for similar reasons, and I can say it was the best decision I've made in my life thus far. I'm happy you have found a place and I'm happy to see you taking steps on behalf of yourself. Excited to see where this time in the city takes you. :)
Ahhh I love this casual sit-down talk, kinda like the life update for your final year in uni. I'm just fond of listening to vloggers kinda like telling me a story irl. Good luck, Annabelle! Have fun! ❤️
dear annabelle, the only thing in my mind says “i want to hug annabelle” and it’s true bc i think it’s such a brave thing to do. it’s not easy to look into yourself and take action, so you’re incredibly so brave and so strong to start this journey. i’m sending you love and light. us on the internet, we’re clearly unsure what you’re going through and obv we dk how tough it is, but i hope that you know we’re all here for you. i hope that you’ll continue to heal and hv a healthy relationship with yourself. you got this. sending you all my love. love, somi
I’ve watched your videos for years, the first one was your risd portfolio and this video felt so real almost like I was seeing you for the first time. Appreciated it and so glad you exist
i needed this so much. i’m sure others will too because we’re all experiencing similar emotions at the moment. thank you for sharing!! sending lots of love and light your way
I really admire how you're able to share your experiences with us. I'm going through similar changes in my life, and its really comforting to know that I'm not alone. You will get though this time and you will become the stronger and more of the person you're aiming to be!
hope we can see each other at one point whenever you feel more comfortable and open to! always have loved your videos and i'm happy for your new chapter.
I have been watching you since your freshman year at RISD. Watching your growth and journey for the past few years have helped me a lot. Wishing you all the best!
I sit here at 5:54 a.m after watching this and realize that I am now not alone in my thoughts. Isolation has one made me realize the things that I use to love or made me feel whole are unattainable or I have let go of, and two that I don’t feel as though I am myself anymore. Annabelle I have watched you now for over 5 years and the ups and downs of our so distant relationship online has been something constant in it all. I just want you to know you are loved, and that loving yourself and taking the steps to cut ties and chase after new ones is so inspiring and telling of how you have grown already. I am a very unhappy college student, artist, and friend if you ever need anything... let me know. The next steps you don’t walk alone even though you are taking them yourself.
hiya anabelle! so... i saw this when it came out in february--loved it, cried to it. recently, my 3.5 year relationship ended and i found myself looking for comfort and remembered this video. thank you for sharing your soul. i cant thank you enough for the peace you've helped me start to work towards. all the best to you ❤️
this video made me teary eyed, not necessarily bc of sadness. I’m excited for you, a lot of us I feel can probably relate to linking our identities or happiness with other things besides ourselves. feeling this weird void feeling with you. sending u love and hope for your new pathway and new beginnings 💜
Oh Annabelle! I want to say that I am incredibly proud of you! It's not easy to start over in a way or really start live and speak it out so openly! I think it is important to be on your own and realize who you are, and work out the kink we have. I married young and had a child young, while I love my family over the moon to the end of the observable universe, I am in the position now where I am not fully sure who I am and I am turning 32 this year. I wish I had lived on my own and experienced the world a little differently before I became a mother, now all I feel that I am is a mother and wife. I am slowly working on my art and finding what brings me joy. I digress but I think you are doing the right and brave thing! Find yourself, find peace, find the balance within you! Life will bring a whole new bucket of sunshine ones you are comfortable with yourself and ones you fully love yourself, the kinks and quirks including! Thank you for letting me be part of that journey! I am rooting for you! Good Luck! Deep Breaths! You will be alright!
Girl! We are all rooting for you in your self discovery. We are all here for you. Beautiful things will start happening to you as you start to love and embrace yourself. We got your back girl!
I’m so glad you’re focusing on yourself. It’s hard when you develop a certain comfort level with someone and you have to let them go because you know it’s whats best for you both. I think you’ll thrive in nyc and you’ll always have our support in everything you do!
ive got no words besides wishing u love and happiness on this new journey! i felt really emotional throughout your dust bunny speech, its worth realizing that moving and moving forward is something incredibly brave to do! ❤️ take care and find the inner peace
Sending you lots of love, I remember finding your channel from your videos where you moved to study at RISD and I followed your vlogs there religiously. Your journey encouraged me to change my educational decisions and pursue a degree in a creative subject that I’ve been studying for 2 years now and I’m so truly passionate about. You’re a warm presence on UA-cam, there’s a unique comfort in your videos and I hope only the best for your future. ❤️
Dear Annabelle, thank you for sharing such intimate details of your self reflection journey. Your words resonated with me a lot as I find myself in a seemingly similar situation. Your ability to verbalize your feelings and thought process is something I strive for. Looking forward to moving forward!
your vlogs and videos in general brought a lot of joy to me since i subscribed to you around the end of senior year in high school, especially when there wasn't necessarily a lot that made me happy. it's heartbreaking to see you struggling but you've always bounced back in the past and i'm just hoping for the best for you. feel better annabelle!
I have been following you for years, and hope you can find peace, love, and joy. You are so amazing -- I wish you all the best this year! I think you will LOVE NYC; you belong there.
girl I feel you when you said you feel like you have to live your life a certain way because of how it affects those around you, I struggle with the same thing. always remember it's ultimately your life, and you need to make it what you want and don't ever feel bad for doing so
its crazy how i have witnessed partly of your life and i feel so proud of you for taking this huge step for yourself. you truly inspire me annabelle. just keep doing you. *HUGGGSSSS*
Thank you for arriving to this moment as you are! This is the kind of conversation that I feel people need to have during these times. Thank you for being a light for others:)))
I am so proud of you, Annabelle. None of these decisions are by any means easy, especially dealing with relationships and life in general. I am struggling with the same thing right now. Love to see your update and enjoy the new life!!!
the wound is the place where the light enters you - rumi
youve got this annabelle
love to see u here, amy 🤍
QUEEN
I kinda realised that her name is annabelle....not catcreature:D
welcome to NYC babyyy! I wish you all the love and strength in this new journey
As soon as NYC was mentioned I thought of you collaborating hahaha 🤭💖 Sister Fran showing Cat around, the good shit, etc.
Watched your studio vlog earlier in my night shift....slept a bit and now I see your comment here :P didn't know you're watching Annabelles Videos :)
Omg, you two. 💞
we're waiting here for you!!!
You and Annabelle on an art date. This is the post-plague content we want to see!
excited to see ur new journey
ahhhhh Dustin hi!!! I love you're videos too!
omg dustin your literally everywhere and i literally love your videos!!!
love both of you guys!
Omg I love both your vids so much
I’ve avoided your channel for 3 years now because it felt so terribly familiar. When you got together with Ty, my boyfriend of 2,5 years broke up with me. We were just about to get engaged and he took the last exit out before getting „stuck“ with me, I suppose. I kept watching you and seeing you go through all the milestones I’d had with him in your relationship. I had to click off when you guys moved in together and adopted a cat. It was just too close to my own life and what I’d lost. It’s been a good while now and though it still hurts sometimes, I’ll admit that, I can see why that relationship had to end, even though we loved and wanted the best for each other. What I’m trying to say is: I took that time to work on myself and learn to be my own person. And in that time I moved abroad, traveled the world and got my dream job. Losing love is always sad. But starting over is filled with so many possibilities and so much opportunity to learn that the only love you should never, ever lose is the love for yourself. All the best!
Awww proud of you for taking the next leap forward!! Also selfishly excited that you’ll be closer to my neck of the woods😈 would love to hangout when all this is over💗
LEAH!
can we just appreciate how lovely this comment section / community is?
it such a fresh breath of air to see so many supporting comments and people sharing their experiences and opening up!
right??? so much love and kindness, thank you all 💛
I'm so sorry about you and Ty. I hope you're okay and able to find some solace and discover new things on the east coast.
Nooooo did they break up?? I just started the video
@@larisaterd892 yes they did :(
She dumped him bruh. Now that she's graduated n doesnt need to use him anymore. Shes fine. That poor guy is prolly not.
@@TheAbyss..andyou Hey, this is just what you're assuming. Let's not make assumptions about their relationship we don't know anything in detail
@@TheAbyss..andyou this is a strange and unpleasant assumption to make about two people you truly do not know.
A few things: You speak with such kind words and I have been watching you ever since we both started uni, so even if we will likely never meet, I can just relate to you as a person and feel calm watching your videos and watching your grow. I am sorry you guys broke up, but it seems incredibly mature to realize and prioritize what you expect of life - happiness and finding yourself - so I wish you the best of luck in finding yourself and living by yourself in the big city for the first time. Then, I know you are oriented towards sustainability and being eco-conscious and that you do not accept sponsorships very frequently, but considering a move is expensive and you want this to be your career for now, by ALL MEANS try to find sponsorships! Maybe an eco mattress or furniture company or an ethical food-delivery company etc etc etc
There comes a time when we all must find ourselves. And probably more than once in one lifetime
sending you all the love!! ❤️ can’t wait to see this new chapter for you
Amanda!!! Ilysm
It feels like you’ve been my lowkey internet friend for years. Wishing you the best of success and love in your new journey 🤍
i lost my glasses today and this comment gave me a lil heart attack because I thought I had either made this comment and forgot about it or someone had hacked me lmao
@@davidrodriguez185 :DDD
I came to a very similar realization myself; living to make others happy instead of yourself will only leave you feeling exhausted and resentful. In order to be the best person you can be, you have to put yourself first. Kind of counterintuitive.
i needed this... i’m going through the same thing and it’s a little comforting to know someone out there feels the same
Sending you love
Me too
Yeah exactly
sending you all the love xx
seriously, this whole speech feels like a wake up to my own mental health, i constantly feel that i have to live up to people’s expectations or perceptions? and it stresses me out, i have dreams but my dreams are always influenced by other people
thank you catcreature for being so brave
just broke up with my partner of nearly 3 years yesterday, i understand what you’re going through right now because I’m there too. i wish you luck on this new chapter of yours.
I feel you so much... when I first graduated I had the same mindset, it was definitely one of the most challenging times of my life. I had to make big decisions career wise, I left a long term relationship, and I had no idea of what to do. Trust me, you learn and grow so so so much from this experience. Wishing you the best, take your time to heal and don’t force yourself too much. Always here for you!
Although your break up must be really difficult, I’m so happy that you are investing more efforts into yourself. Your growth will be uninhibited and I’m excited for you, as well as ty, to experience this.
I just love your outlook on life so much! You truly are an inspiration. ❤️ Sending lots of love!
Loving seeing other yts I watch watch each other lol
it's really scary to make big changes and, even though we don't know each other, i'm so proud of you
Although this held a different tone than your other videos, this is a very real and needed video on this platform. When you said you had to do the difficult thing to make yourself happy, I really felt that and know other resonate with that too. Often times, humans make their identity through others and will often do what’s easier than harder. Sometimes the move you don’t want to make is the one you need to make. Many blessings on your new life and I hope you find happiness in yourself
I'm 25 and I've just now started to understand what finding/loving/thinking of yourself means. I've always been a people pleaser, and I thought spending time and money on myself was a selfish act. It's absolutely not. Self care looks different for everyone, and only you can find out what that entails for you. Sometimes its enjoying a warm cup of tea wrapped in blankets, and sometimes its crying in therapy because you're finally letting go of the stress and hurt and trauma. I've learned to be gracious for all my accomplishments and my struggles, because they are all important parts of my story as a human being. Good luck on the move to NY. Sending love and good energy!!
i see a lot of myself in you, i too can be very insecure and unfortunately i thrive off of the validation of others. this is something that i am making efforts to fix but it’s proving to be more difficult than i was expecting. i am excited about your move to new york and your opportunity to experience living alone. i wish you the absolute best on your new endeavors, you have a very beautiful soul annabelle and i’m glad to be able to witness it. ❤️ best of luck
I literally never comment on UA-cam but I felt like I needed to. I've been watching your channel for years now and being the same age, I always felt like I was growing up with you alongside. Especially 2020 when I also graduated from an art degree and have been struggling with finding myself after university, your channel has really been a healing place for me. This video made me tear up because, from what you have shared with us, I understand. You were able to put into words so many of my emotions and thoughts and it was so lovely to hear. Sending you so much strength and I absolutely believe you will make it! Good luck with your new journey!
Whoever said you seemed a bit 'jaded' honestly I think they were spot on. Perhaps if you'd been able to get out and about, and be with friends over the last year that would have helped, but you never seemed fully confident in yourself since you left the East Coast (in what very limited capacity we see you here!). I hope this new adventure works out for you and that you're able to reconnect with yourself and your joy in life again. Also selfishly looking forward to more Prairie content as and when you feel comfortable sharing your new journey with us
You didn't have to share this, but I'm thankful you did. Lately I've been feeling lost, so this helped me understand I should take a step back and see where I'm going, and what I'm doing for myself. It's okay for my life to be about my peace.
You’re so strong annabelle, we’ll be here for you every step of the way
Sometimes I forget that we are the same age because you always seem so put together and I admire you to bits (for that and many more things)...so thank you for really trying to show all of you, Annabelle, it makes me admire you even more and rest assured that we are still here and we will remain here to witness all of those aspects and changes that make you you...I can't wait to keep on growing along your side, we can do this, I believe in you♥ =)
Oh my god i relate to this so so badly. I broke up with my boyfriend of 7 years back last February. We both still talk but I just realized that I was never able to sit with myself and love who I was without relying on someone else to tell me I was loveable. I always forced all my problems on school, my family problems, and my relationship. And now post graduating and without this relationship I’m just in this void not knowing who I am! YOURE NOT ALONE! i send you all the love on this journey and know that someone else can relate so deeply. 💕
I’m in a similar situation as you right now - the end of my first relationship.What you said about validating your identity through relationships, school, or career goals really resonated with me. Here’s to a new chapter of learning to be comfortable with ourselves.
Wow I'm so early. I never comment but I have been watching your content for around 2 years now. Thank you for being so unapologetically vulnerable...that's magic.
that’s MAGIC ^^ indeed
I cant believe I've been following you for almost 4 years now. I'm very happy for you for the time you had with Tyler having someone on your side like him, I'm also happy you get to rediscover yourselves without each other and grow. I have so much empathy for you guys both, my heart goes to you. Also very excited for your career 💕
the fact that you recognized these things within yourself is truly something, it took me a long time to realize some of these things that you're going through and I honestly needed my therapist to tell them to me over and over and over again. You're doing amazing sweetie
i haven't been keeping up with your videos for a while, not for any reason in particular, could just be the algorhythm not putting your videos on my recommended. this video, however, appeared in my feed and i just had to watch it. it really answered a lot of questions i had about your content. i have never questioned your talents or capabilities as an artist, student, videomaker etc but i always wondered how you manage to pull it all off. turns out, being seemingly effortless takes a lot of effort. you, as well as your viewers and any single person out there can spread ourselves only so thin before it becomes unsustainable. seems like you're looking out for number 1, which is a safe bet in these times.
best wishes&stay safe!
I’m so sorry about your break up, I just went through my first this weekend. It’s very therapeutic to hear someone say that they broke up for the same reason. It’s very painful to make the decision to choose your personal growth over everything and I wish you healing and prosperity in your new journey ❤️
Wishing you the best in this new chapter Annabelle 💕
For the past three years I’ve followed your channel, it has been a place of love, beauty and almost protection for me in my insane world. A safe space to come to with a cup of tea to catch up with you.
I hope you are able to create a similar space for yourself in NYC. Be gentle on yourself and have fun, all of the love xx
I can’t but feel like this is the first time we’re really seeing her raw and real. All the love and support tower your new future ❤️
your authenticity and vulnerability inspires me. it takes great courage. i wish you all the best in the unfolding of your new journey.
This might sound a little harsh but this feels like seeing the real you again, I've been following you since your RISD days and I think it was in your second? third? year (basically from when you had red hair up to when you had blue hair) it seemed like there was a major shift in your personality, kinda like a character? I'm glad you are doing better now tho best wishes✨💖
Anabelle, you are one of my top 3 favorite UA-camrs and storytellers of all of the UA-cam creators I know. The way you present parts of your life to us is so real, soothing, and refreshing. Thank you. Wish you the best in this new chapter of your life. Give yourself all the grace you need to learn and grow and more. Sending lots of love.
Seeing all the comments make me so happy. This is why I love this platform so much, we are not scared of showing our vulnerabilities and struggles. We are all in this together, moving forward, figuring ourselves out. I am so happy and excited for ur new adventure annabelle. love u and ur channel as always ❤️
its so hard to unlearn seeking external validation, i'm going through that journey myself. I hope you find nothing but love and joy from this journey, i'm so excited for you!
thank you for continuing to share your life with us. i only wish you the best in this new chapter 🧡
this kind of shadow work and deep self-reflection is never easy and there will always be ups and downs along the way, some days better than others, but what matters is that you've started - that counts for a lot more than you might think it does. sending you love and light, wishing you well.
I can relate so much to the whole feeling of waking up and being disappointed that I'm me. I've been watching you since your very first university vlog and I remember falling in love with your content and how your videos inspired me and comforted me in so many different ways. I've been watching you for forever and now as I have started university myself this year, again your videos have helped me hold myself together in the most tumultuous, lonely and difficult time of my life, and watching you figuring out who you are and what you want your life to be so bravely helps me push myself in the same way and reminds me not to give up. So from a very old catcreature fan, thank you from the bottom of my heart and I wish you all the best in this new chapter of your life!
thank you for giving us so much peace and happiness through your videos. you deserve the same peace and happiness for yourself and more. i wish you luck for your life in new york
This really resonated with me. I have been going through something very similar in the last few months. For me it feels both terrifying and reasuring at the same time, because its like jumping in the ocean without a lifesaver, but at the same time deep down it feels like its the right thing to do. You took the right path Anabelle, because you did what your heart believed was what you needed to do. It may take a little while to get where we need to, but I believe that we will :)
when you said ‘as if that’s my responsibility’ when talking about the opinion of others, that really struck me. i’ve battled with this a lot too in the past and until recently i thought i had overcome it because regardless, i’m definitely of the opinion that if you are doing the best you can to be a good person, no one can ask any more of you than that. but hearing you say it isn’t your responsibility to win people over like that really hit deep because it made me realise that even my current opinion shows my need to prove myself and be doing as much as i can so that there’s no room for more! and i’m so surprised at myself for that! honestly i just wanted to thank you for being so open and raw about your current personal situation because it’s definitely something i’m sure many of us can empathise with in different ways and i really feel like watching this today has helped some much needed change in my perspective on things. thank you and good luck with the move❤️
In the years I've watched your channel, I have never interacted your videos, but after watching this one I feel compelled. I find the reason I still come back to your videos is that you always seem to articulate my feelings in a way I can't. I have frequented your videos in so many chapters of my life. Each time I heard you not only verbalize my fears, but face them and move forward.... it helped me heal and move forward myself. I guess I just wanted to thank you for sharing your struggles, because it's helped me find the strength to face mine
I've been subscribed to you for maybe around 5 or 6 years. It's been so refreshing watching you grow and change as a person through this time. I wish you the best on your journey moving forward.
Annabelle: I've been watching you for years and always felt - and i know i know i don't *know* you - so connected to your lifepath. I live in Europe, i believe i am just a little younger than you, and have a totally different background compared to yours. Even so, your journey has always aligned to mine in a way: entering sustainability, art school, moving and, now, this new start for yourself where the main focus is you.
I wanted to really thank you, because watching you go has sometimes motivated, others reassured me but always given me a new perspective. Your way of sharing your life and your art feels like a safety blanket to me. Right now, I know that somebody out there, someone who i respect and cherish, has chosen herself too. And it gives me strength.
These new online connections between people that are deeply assymetrical are so bizarre yet can be so amazing and touching. Once again, thank you so so much. I believe in growth, and i'm sure that you will make the very best of this new beginning!!!!
Especially because you are an artist you have to listen to your inner dialogue. You have so much potential ! Great to hear.
the scenes with william and your sister were so sweet
I distinctly remember you saying how you wanted to stay in New York after graduating. Though life is sometimes unexpected, I'm glad you are continuing on with your journey. Wishing you the best of luck to this new chapter of your life🧡
I have been watching for several years, and honestly you seem so much lighter and refreshed in this video! I’m so sorry about you and Tyler, but I really hope you can find joy in experiencing life just as you are. It’s hard to let go of the expectations of others, something I work on everyday, but it is your life and you deserve the very best for yourself. You made the right decision! wishing you all the best on your new journey! X
Annabelle.. I just can't describe how much you've impacted me, I know I've only 'known you' from your videos... but I truly can't describe how much you've been like an older sister to me. Thank you very very much for sharing this journey with me and other viewers..
thank you for sharing your dust bunny with us ❤️ sending you love!
Oh, hi 🦈
sometimes to just have to put yourself on the first place and there is nothing wrong with it, finding, loving and accepting ourselves is so an important journey. we are with you!
Good luck for your move. New beginnings are exciting! All the best 🍀
You are so special Annabelle. These are growing pains, both exciting & aching. But the hard parts will be woven with good parts too. You have so many people rooting for you & loving you--because you deserve to be supported & to feel peace within yourself. Cheers to growth & new beginnings!
I've been watching you since my freshman year of high school, when you were a freshman at RISD. I really enjoyed going through those four years with your videos. Thank you for always making such great videos and I look forward to and am sending love for the next step of your journey in New York.
your videos have helped me heal so much, gave me hope and faith in real life people. i have faith in your healing, in your journey, and i have faith in your life.
I’m so truly happy for you Annabelle!! I have been watching you since i was in high school and now I’m studying arts in university and a lot of that is thanks to you showing me and giving me hope that i can do it! Just wanted you to know that your videos inspire me and watching your journey gives me hope for mine✨ i actually can’t imagine my life without your videos, they’ve become so integral to my being. I really hope this new start will be the start of something great for you ! Keep going girl you’ve got this ☺️💕love from South Africa 🇿🇦
The VOID is the place from which you can design your whole life. Sit and walk and dance with yourself. You’ll connect and be able to hear your intuition. Go with your gut 🌈
I know it feels scary! This is such an exciting time of life to dig into yourself!!
While new chapters can be difficult to navigate, I'm so excited for you to have this opportunity to share and cultivate in a new space c: Much love
I dont usually comment but ive been watching your channel since your risd room tour. I felt somewhere in the middle between then and now u were transitioning mentally and as a viewer I’m so proud and glad that you’ve made this step, it is so nice to see you candid and so open. Much love!
You've always been a huge inspiration for me ever since I've found your channel years ago. I was a graphic design student in uni (and still am) and all the things you shared , ups and downs, your way of creating art .. they all kept me going when things got harder and I'd always find myself thinking "what would Annabelle do or think and how would she overcome this ?" and thats how I overcame things thanks to you.. And now I hope this new start in place and mind would help you go forward and grow. I can only hope to motivate and encourage you the same way you did to me but all the things you want to be and the person you want to grow into I'm more than sure you've already started evolving into that person. I only wish the best for you !!
This has been so inspiring and relatable to everyone. This season of our lives makes us more questionable of our future and our plans. It is normal to find peace for yourself even it takes so much sacrifices like letting go relationships, certain people, grudges or maybe our past. I'm so happy that you are moving forward so we can find happiness for yourself. You got this, Annabelle. I believe in you 🤍
most of the comments are abt their journey with u here in youtube and here's mine.
i've been watching you for more than 5yrs now. i look up to you as an individual and as a creative. you never cease to make me feel calm with your videos and even tear up sometimes and this one is no exception. i resonate strongly with that part wherein u constantly feel like living up to peoples expectation, i say i'm not like that but deep down i guess i am unconsciously and it's hard to unlearn but we're all trying. you're doing great, annabelle. sending all my love from u, take care as always 💛 - ally
i've said this before, but i always genuinely appreciate your honesty. we're the same age, and i started watching you when we both started university, so watching this makes me realize how much we have both grown up. lots of thoughts about centering identity around certain goals (like graduating) n then having to deal with those being gone; this made me put a lot of my own life into perspective too. weird to say from an outsider perspective, i know, but it has always been somewhat comforting to see someone my age share some of the same struggles. it makes me feel less alone, and i hope you feel less alone too, knowing that other people struggle with these things too. it doesn't make your pain any less real or personal, but i hope you can be kind to yourself and remember that you never have to struggle alone. i wish you all the best, now and always. i'm excited to see where this road takes you, annabelle!
I moved to New York by myself five years ago for similar reasons, and I can say it was the best decision I've made in my life thus far. I'm happy you have found a place and I'm happy to see you taking steps on behalf of yourself. Excited to see where this time in the city takes you. :)
I'm so happy for you! Hearing people find hapiness after a storm makes me feel that everything is going to be okay in the end (for all of us)
Ahhh I love this casual sit-down talk, kinda like the life update for your final year in uni. I'm just fond of listening to vloggers kinda like telling me a story irl. Good luck, Annabelle! Have fun! ❤️
dear annabelle,
the only thing in my mind says “i want to hug annabelle” and it’s true bc i think it’s such a brave thing to do. it’s not easy to look into yourself and take action, so you’re incredibly so brave and so strong to start this journey. i’m sending you love and light. us on the internet, we’re clearly unsure what you’re going through and obv we dk how tough it is, but i hope that you know we’re all here for you. i hope that you’ll continue to heal and hv a healthy relationship with yourself. you got this. sending you all my love.
love, somi
I’ve watched your videos for years, the first one was your risd portfolio and this video felt so real almost like I was seeing you for the first time. Appreciated it and so glad you exist
i needed this so much. i’m sure others will too because we’re all experiencing similar emotions at the moment. thank you for sharing!! sending lots of love and light your way
I really admire how you're able to share your experiences with us. I'm going through similar changes in my life, and its really comforting to know that I'm not alone. You will get though this time and you will become the stronger and more of the person you're aiming to be!
hope we can see each other at one point whenever you feel more comfortable and open to! always have loved your videos and i'm happy for your new chapter.
I have been watching you since your freshman year at RISD. Watching your growth and journey for the past few years have helped me a lot. Wishing you all the best!
not a void! a blank canvas it’ll be incredible to see you learn who you really are
I sit here at 5:54 a.m after watching this and realize that I am now not alone in my thoughts. Isolation has one made me realize the things that I use to love or made me feel whole are unattainable or I have let go of, and two that I don’t feel as though I am myself anymore. Annabelle I have watched you now for over 5 years and the ups and downs of our so distant relationship online has been something constant in it all. I just want you to know you are loved, and that loving yourself and taking the steps to cut ties and chase after new ones is so inspiring and telling of how you have grown already. I am a very unhappy college student, artist, and friend if you ever need anything... let me know. The next steps you don’t walk alone even though you are taking them yourself.
hiya anabelle! so... i saw this when it came out in february--loved it, cried to it. recently, my 3.5 year relationship ended and i found myself looking for comfort and remembered this video. thank you for sharing your soul. i cant thank you enough for the peace you've helped me start to work towards. all the best to you ❤️
Annabelle I am so so proud of you
this video made me teary eyed, not necessarily bc of sadness. I’m excited for you, a lot of us I feel can probably relate to linking our identities or happiness with other things besides ourselves. feeling this weird void feeling with you. sending u love and hope for your new pathway and new beginnings 💜
i was also very teary eyed when watching this. she is very inspirational, the hopeful way she talks about the future is comforting
@@krystle8090 right? it makes me think abt how precious time is. it makes me wanna get up and do what I actually wanna do
Oh Annabelle! I want to say that I am incredibly proud of you! It's not easy to start over in a way or really start live and speak it out so openly! I think it is important to be on your own and realize who you are, and work out the kink we have. I married young and had a child young, while I love my family over the moon to the end of the observable universe, I am in the position now where I am not fully sure who I am and I am turning 32 this year. I wish I had lived on my own and experienced the world a little differently before I became a mother, now all I feel that I am is a mother and wife. I am slowly working on my art and finding what brings me joy. I digress but I think you are doing the right and brave thing! Find yourself, find peace, find the balance within you! Life will bring a whole new bucket of sunshine ones you are comfortable with yourself and ones you fully love yourself, the kinks and quirks including! Thank you for letting me be part of that journey! I am rooting for you! Good Luck! Deep Breaths! You will be alright!
I'm right there with you, Annabelle; feeling like it's about time I be at peace with myself. Cheers to new beginnings, cheers to growth♡
Girl! We are all rooting for you in your self discovery. We are all here for you. Beautiful things will start happening to you as you start to love and embrace yourself. We got your back girl!
I’m so glad you’re focusing on yourself. It’s hard when you develop a certain comfort level with someone and you have to let them go because you know it’s whats best for you both. I think you’ll thrive in nyc and you’ll always have our support in everything you do!
ive got no words besides wishing u love and happiness on this new journey! i felt really emotional throughout your dust bunny speech, its worth realizing that moving and moving forward is something incredibly brave to do! ❤️ take care and find the inner peace
You’re such a special person. We are all so excited for the next step of your journey and support you endlessly!
Sending you lots of love, I remember finding your channel from your videos where you moved to study at RISD and I followed your vlogs there religiously. Your journey encouraged me to change my educational decisions and pursue a degree in a creative subject that I’ve been studying for 2 years now and I’m so truly passionate about. You’re a warm presence on UA-cam, there’s a unique comfort in your videos and I hope only the best for your future. ❤️
Dear Annabelle, thank you for sharing such intimate details of your self reflection journey. Your words resonated with me a lot as I find myself in a seemingly similar situation. Your ability to verbalize your feelings and thought process is something I strive for. Looking forward to moving forward!
your vlogs and videos in general brought a lot of joy to me since i subscribed to you around the end of senior year in high school, especially when there wasn't necessarily a lot that made me happy. it's heartbreaking to see you struggling but you've always bounced back in the past and i'm just hoping for the best for you. feel better annabelle!
Always supporting you dear...
Always sending love to you
and always praying for the best of you
I have been following you for years, and hope you can find peace, love, and joy. You are so amazing -- I wish you all the best this year! I think you will LOVE NYC; you belong there.
Hang in there. ❤️
i've been watching this journey since your application to RISD and i'm so proud and excited for what you have to come
girl I feel you when you said you feel like you have to live your life a certain way because of how it affects those around you, I struggle with the same thing. always remember it's ultimately your life, and you need to make it what you want and don't ever feel bad for doing so
Also I'm very happy and excited for you to start this new chapter in your life! Change brings good things we couldve never anticipated
its crazy how i have witnessed partly of your life and i feel so proud of you for taking this huge step for yourself. you truly inspire me annabelle. just keep doing you. *HUGGGSSSS*
Thank you for arriving to this moment as you are! This is the kind of conversation that I feel people need to have during these times. Thank you for being a light for others:)))
I am so proud of you, Annabelle. None of these decisions are by any means easy, especially dealing with relationships and life in general. I am struggling with the same thing right now. Love to see your update and enjoy the new life!!!