My brother sent me this song during a very difficult time in my life, that was the first time I ever felt truly close with him. Even now this song never fails to bring me to tears. Thank you Bryant.
I've been feeling suicidal And if I need remind you It's not the coming of my heart and my brain I was thinking about how great It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away It's been a while since I've seen God And I'm not trying to lead him on But he's always trying to fuck me To the tune of my favorite song And they're playing the '59 Sound in heaven While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes It's hard to freeze your anxieties When your best friends' torching your coat Your coat Drop that phone drink a glass of water And call me when you get in your bed I've seen inside your head And I'm doing the surgery on the parts That still wish you were dead 'Cause I've lost too many friends So I'll say it again and again And again and again And again and again And again and again 'Cause I've lost too many friends So I'll say it again and again And again and again And again and again And again and again I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine I've still got your demons And they're not gonna be leaving any time Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine Since I was thirteen I [?] and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand
I'm like 90% sure the line is "I've been feeling suicidal and if I need remind you it's not _becoming_ of my heart and my brain." The line then becomes a criticism of the romance of mental illness in the scene, which is very on-theme for Sorority Noise.
I had never heard this band before. I am older in truth, halfway through 41 years old at this point But then I heard Blonde Hair, Black Lungs randomly And I was blown away, more than I felt about a song in several years for sure And then I heard this song, and it started out just as great And then the ending hit, and I found myself weeping uncontrollably Also in a way I have not in years Idk what more I can say in all honesty. I am simply very grateful this band exists and that I found it
I showed this song to my friend because I knew he could appreciate every word of the song. I was right, he listened and was very moved. We can both relate to this. I love and appreciate him a lot.
They make me cry, Like I love the fact that I've found a band that can make me do that but the lyrics are just so fucking real that it reminds me of my life and the troubles I'm going through. Thank you so much for making music that means so much to not just me but to everyone else. I love you guys so fucking much.
rockingreject Its cathartic to know others struggle with the same issues you do. It's important to recognize the problems you have with yourself in order to accept yourself and learn to overcome them. Easier said than done in practice though.
This band has helped me get through my hardest time in life 4 years ago I call them my ‘healing band’ because I listened to them whilst I was healing from my toxic thoughts and growing into the person I am today They were the only band that I felt a connection to And many people on their videos feel the exact same way There’s a deep connection between all of us Now they’re my happy band despite their lyrics and meaning, even their most suicidal songs bring joy to me because they literally are part of my history now And I just wanted to say that if you’re going though a hard time, that it won’t last. It will not last even if it takes 2 or 10 years A happy day is waiting for you
This song is littered with references to other artists. The part you mentioned, the reference to The Gaslight Anthem (the 59 sound playing in heaven), and I'm almost certain that the outro is a reference to Attaboy by Say Anything.
Me and my girl of 3 years just ended shit. The outro as sad as it is helps me with the pain. The past couple mornings been real rough tryna stand. Wish these demons would just leave 😔
+Meg Gregory So I have been looking online and finally found this. It is missing just one spot of the lyrics, but finally, we have most of it! Since I was thirteen I [?] and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand.
great song I was wondering how great it would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away.... ....my kids are still are still so young and I feel so old and tired....I can't....do it....can I.... I'm not trying to say it's hard...but I'm pretty done with it all. Peace and progress all!
I never burned your property, but I've felt as much as the subject. "Since I was thirteen I’ve dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand" We find ourselves here. Who is left?! Stand for them! I know it's hard when loss plagues you. What is your morning? If you lack love, you stand on two to find it! If it's yourself, you stand brave in representation of solidarity! It's fucking hard. But hold fast and strong! Remember your breath. It was there all along. Hold fast and steady. The world will see and envelope you. From that point, forward, experience love. Live and be. I know it's hard. But give yourself to the truth, and count those with you. People love the truth. I hope your family is at your side. Your friends and your girl/guy. Because "Here we go!' In to tomorrow. Who is it, there, that gives YOU purpose?! Who is YOUR muse?! May they carry you. And those they lack, never fret. Your muse is YOUR life. Never die! Always try! People see it and wonder why.
My girlfriend made me learn this song on guitar for our best friend that OD on fen. 3 years later she OD with her sister I'n my car. This song chews me up guys.
I've been feeling suicidal And if I need remind you It's not the coming of my heart and my brain I was thinking about how great It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away It's been a while since I've seen God And I'm not trying to lead him on But he's always trying to fuck me To the tune of my favorite song And they're playing "The '59 Sound" in heaven While the angels were drinking up whiskey and Cokes It's hard to freeze your anxieties When your best friends' torching your coat Your coat Drop that phone, drink a glass of water And call me when you get in your bed I've seen inside your head And I'm doing the surgery on the parts That still wish you were dead 'Cause I've lost too many friends So I'll say it again and again And again and again And again and again And again and again I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine I've still got your demons And they're not gonna be leaving any time Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine [Spoken word outro] Since I was thirteen I’ve dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand
I've been feeling suicidal And if I need remind you It's not the coming of my heart and my brain I was thinking about how great It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away It's been a while since I've seen God And I'm not trying to lead him on But he's always trying to fuck me To the tune of my favorite song And they're playing "The '59 Sound" in heaven While the angels were drinking up whiskey and Cokes It's hard to freeze your anxieties When your best friends' torching your coat Your coat Drop that phone, drink a glass of water And call me when you get in your bed I've seen inside your head And I'm doing the surgery on the parts That still wish you were dead 'Cause I've lost too many friends So I'll say it again and again And again and again And again and again And again and again I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine I've still got your demons And they're not gonna be leaving any time Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine [Since I was thirteen I’ve dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand]
I've been feeling suicidal And if I need remind you It's not the coming of my heart and my brain I was thinking about how great it would be If I could make the tightness in my chest go away It's been a while since I've seen God And I'm not trying to lead him on But he's always trying to fuck me To the tune of my favorite song And they're playing the '59 Sound in heaven While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes It's hard to freeze your anxieties When your best friends' torching your coat Your coat Drop that phone drink a glass of water And call me when you get in your bed I've seen inside your head and I'm doing the surgery On the parts that still wish you were dead 'Cause I've lost too many friends So I'll say it again and again and again and again And again and again and again and again I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine I've still got your demons And their not gonna be leaving any time Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon Any time soon I'm not trying to say it's easy But I'm trying to say it's fine Since I was thirteen I've dealt with manic depression And I had a difficult time comprehending the things That I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life And I was turning eighteen And I was doing everything I could To try to make myself feel better But I felt an absence I felt like I needed to die I felt like nothing existed And I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing The same air as the ones I loveda nd my family And then it came to the point Where I started losing friends Who had the same fucking ideas as myself But I have to be strong and I have to live my life As a continuation of theirs lost And I have to do everything in my fucking power To be the person that I can be And live my life the best way I fucking can And some days it's so hard to fucking stand And fucking stand And fucking stand And fucking stand
My brother sent me this song during a very difficult time in my life, that was the first time I ever felt truly close with him. Even now this song never fails to bring me to tears. Thank you Bryant.
I've been feeling suicidal
And if I need remind you
It's not the coming of my heart and my brain
I was thinking about how great
It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away
It's been a while since I've seen God
And I'm not trying to lead him on
But he's always trying to fuck me
To the tune of my favorite song
And they're playing the '59 Sound in heaven
While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes
It's hard to freeze your anxieties
When your best friends' torching your coat
Your coat
Drop that phone drink a glass of water
And call me when you get in your bed
I've seen inside your head
And I'm doing the surgery on the parts
That still wish you were dead
'Cause I've lost too many friends
So I'll say it again and again
And again and again
And again and again
And again and again
'Cause I've lost too many friends
So I'll say it again and again
And again and again
And again and again
And again and again
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
I've still got your demons
And they're not gonna be leaving any time
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
Since I was thirteen I [?] and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand
I'm pretty sure it's something like "I've dealt with manic depression", I can at least hear the phrase "manic depression" for sure.
Thank
Good people exist
When ur 13 yourself this song just hurts too bad
I'm like 90% sure the line is "I've been feeling suicidal and if I need remind you it's not _becoming_ of my heart and my brain." The line then becomes a criticism of the romance of mental illness in the scene, which is very on-theme for Sorority Noise.
I had never heard this band before.
I am older in truth, halfway through 41 years old at this point
But then I heard Blonde Hair, Black Lungs randomly
And I was blown away, more than I felt about a song in several years for sure
And then I heard this song, and it started out just as great
And then the ending hit, and I found myself weeping uncontrollably
Also in a way I have not in years
Idk what more I can say in all honesty.
I am simply very grateful this band exists and that I found it
Literally me right now at 43 pulled over, crying, wondering why I feel like this and why I can’t stop crying ….
you are a king, keep that damn head up or youll keep dropping this 👑
I showed this song to my friend because I knew he could appreciate every word of the song. I was right, he listened and was very moved. We can both relate to this. I love and appreciate him a lot.
They make me cry, Like I love the fact that I've found a band that can make me do that but the lyrics are just so fucking real that it reminds me of my life and the troubles I'm going through. Thank you so much for making music that means so much to not just me but to everyone else. I love you guys so fucking much.
Same
rockingreject Its cathartic to know others struggle with the same issues you do. It's important to recognize the problems you have with yourself in order to accept yourself and learn to overcome them. Easier said than done in practice though.
I can’t be open enough with this song let alone this comment.
I love em too man, like I get so depressed and just jam out to them until I fall asleep.
I haven't had more suicidal provention hotlines come up trying to find a song.
I felt that so hard
😂😂😂
The suicide prevention hotlines are a joke in this country
@@rachelroth2150💯
@@rachelroth2150 they are in most of the countries
Don’t kno why it took me so long to find theses guys but holy hell I haven’t stopped listening since I found them. Specially no halo that one hits me
same
this song saved my life and continues to save my life. i can't thank this band enough for what they've done to help me and so many other people
This band has helped me get through my hardest time in life 4 years ago
I call them my ‘healing band’ because I listened to them whilst I was healing from my toxic thoughts and growing into the person I am today
They were the only band that I felt a connection to
And many people on their videos feel the exact same way
There’s a deep connection between all of us
Now they’re my happy band despite their lyrics and meaning, even their most suicidal songs bring joy to me because they literally are part of my history now
And I just wanted to say that if you’re going though a hard time, that it won’t last. It will not last even if it takes 2 or 10 years
A happy day is waiting for you
I'm happy to read this! :)
cheers man!
Just discovered this band thanks to Spotify and OMG that last part hit me so hard, I wasn't expecting it at all. Cheers
same man. i cried to it so many times, but, it also seriously helps me feel better.
Dealing some tought times and silent battles thanks to this music as always sorority noise 🖤
i fucking love sorority noise
jim bogart same
Depressed Introvert same
good night moon same
Are you the Jim Bogart from TFB?
Maybe a Band yeah
the background vocals during the chorus sound EXACTLY like the background vocals in jude law and the semester abroad
This song is littered with references to other artists. The part you mentioned, the reference to The Gaslight Anthem (the 59 sound playing in heaven), and I'm almost certain that the outro is a reference to Attaboy by Say Anything.
They also sound EXACTLY like the voices in my head
Playing with citizen and Oso Oso was the best day of my life and the best concert I'll ever be at.
This band is seriously underrated
Truth is more to be discovered by an individual, not by a whole country.
SO TRUE AND THEYRE LEGIT SOOO GOOD 😩🥺
Life is so hard right now, but this band makes it a little better, i hope to get this level of insite into myself one day
Me and my girl of 3 years just ended shit. The outro as sad as it is helps me with the pain. The past couple mornings been real rough tryna stand. Wish these demons would just leave 😔
Hope you're doing better 🖤
THIS ALBUM IS EVERYTHING! I LOVE EVERY SONG.
Definitely hear the Brand New influence in their sound. Maybe that's why they're growing on me
jstncn3 exactly my thoughts!
Yeah, same! This is my second Sorority Noise song, and all I can think is Brand New.
Brand new and gaslight anthem love child
this song is so powerful
this song makes me cry every single time
This is one one of my favorites off the new album.
the last minute of this song is SO good. it literally sounds exactly like my thoughts when i’m upset.
Sorority Noise IS as AWESOME as I think
this needs million viewwwws
Good lord this song hits so incredibly hard right now
love them
I love this band.
Love this song still, so much. 🖤
i think this song is going to save my life
I always seem to listen to these guys the most when I'm all strung out on shit..
Bailey J I feel that tho, hope u good homie
This album is so fucking great.
it hits harder when you haven't lost them yet but you know you will.
Idk how I ended up here but wow I’m happy
ultimate love for this fucking song
Holy fuck that's amazing.
Shoutout to my bipolar friends, you can do this
This song reminds me of late night drives
new fav
Can anyone make out what he's saying at 2:21 on? I can make out bits and pieces, but not the whole thing.
Thanks for uploading, btw!
Omg someone tell this person so I can also know.
+Meg Gregory So I have been looking online and finally found this. It is missing just one spot of the lyrics, but finally, we have most of it!
Since I was thirteen I [?] and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand.
Dude thank you so much!
I'm pretty sure it's something like "I've dealt with manic depression", I can at least hear the phrase "manic depression" for sure.
Brandon Phipps ah, I thought it was mad depression, haha but manic depression makes much more sense
this song describes my life to a T, so happy i found this.
fuuuuuuck so good
holyfuck
The end reminded me of sleep by mcr
How tho
"I haven't seen God in a while,
I don't wanna lead him on,
But he's always trying to fuck me to the tune of my favorite song"
That hit waaaay too hard
heartbreaking outro
new dope
I miss you so much. :'(
For some reason I thought the lyrics were "It's hard to hide your anxiety when your best friend's torching your coke
Negative Creep the ones definition of anxiety lol
Same
i thought it was "its hard to freeze your anxieties when your best friends torching your coach"
great song
I was wondering how great it would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away....
....my kids are still are still so young and I feel so old and tired....I can't....do it....can I....
I'm not trying to say it's hard...but I'm pretty done with it all.
Peace and progress all!
This song is saying goodbye to your friends in middle school on the last day of school.
very underrated lol
Wow
Who's here from bar2? Rxqe da goat
This song is fucking powerful
rest easy tyler.
I heard Old Gray in that last line.
That rawness can’t be anyone else.
I love cam so fucking much
Some days it's so hard to fucking stand.
kinda wild i found this song because a coffee shop i went to years ago was playing it on the speakers
I never burned your property, but I've felt as much as the subject.
"Since I was thirteen I’ve dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand"
We find ourselves here. Who is left?! Stand for them! I know it's hard when loss plagues you. What is your morning? If you lack love, you stand on two to find it! If it's yourself, you stand brave in representation of solidarity! It's fucking hard. But hold fast and strong! Remember your breath. It was there all along. Hold fast and steady. The world will see and envelope you. From that point, forward, experience love. Live and be. I know it's hard. But give yourself to the truth, and count those with you. People love the truth. I hope your family is at your side. Your friends and your girl/guy. Because "Here we go!' In to tomorrow. Who is it, there, that gives YOU purpose?! Who is YOUR muse?! May they carry you. And those they lack, never fret. Your muse is YOUR life. Never die! Always try! People see it and wonder why.
Christian Perez where is this all from?
Thank you
😭
My girlfriend made me learn this song on guitar for our best friend that OD on fen. 3 years later she OD with her sister I'n my car. This song chews me up guys.
59 sound by gaslight anthem, huh?
I miss sorority noise
I've been feeling suicidal
And if I need remind you
It's not the coming of my heart and my brain
I was thinking about how great
It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away
It's been a while since I've seen God
And I'm not trying to lead him on
But he's always trying to fuck me
To the tune of my favorite song
And they're playing "The '59 Sound" in heaven
While the angels were drinking up whiskey and Cokes
It's hard to freeze your anxieties
When your best friends' torching your coat
Your coat
Drop that phone, drink a glass of water
And call me when you get in your bed
I've seen inside your head
And I'm doing the surgery on the parts
That still wish you were dead
'Cause I've lost too many friends
So I'll say it again and again
And again and again
And again and again
And again and again
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
I've still got your demons
And they're not gonna be leaving any time
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
[Spoken word outro]
Since I was thirteen I’ve dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand
Loren brought me here
I've been feeling suicidal
And if I need remind you
It's not the coming of my heart and my brain
I was thinking about how great
It would be if I could make the tightness in my chest go away
It's been a while since I've seen God
And I'm not trying to lead him on
But he's always trying to fuck me
To the tune of my favorite song
And they're playing "The '59 Sound" in heaven
While the angels were drinking up whiskey and Cokes
It's hard to freeze your anxieties
When your best friends' torching your coat
Your coat
Drop that phone, drink a glass of water
And call me when you get in your bed
I've seen inside your head
And I'm doing the surgery on the parts
That still wish you were dead
'Cause I've lost too many friends
So I'll say it again and again
And again and again
And again and again
And again and again
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
I've still got your demons
And they're not gonna be leaving any time
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
[Since I was thirteen I’ve dealt with manic depression and I had a difficult time comprehending the things that I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life and I was turning eighteen and I was doing everything I could to try to make myself feel better but I felt an absence, I felt like I needed to die, I felt like nothing existed and I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing the same air as the ones I loved and my family, and then it came to the point where I started losing friends who had the same fucking ideas as myself but I have to be strong and I have to live my life as a continuation of theirs lost and I have to do everything in my fucking power to be the person that I can be and live my life the best way I fucking can and some days it's so hard to fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand and fucking stand]
I've been feeling suicidal
And if I need remind you
It's not the coming of my heart and my brain
I was thinking about how great it would be
If I could make the tightness in my chest go away
It's been a while since I've seen God
And I'm not trying to lead him on
But he's always trying to fuck me
To the tune of my favorite song
And they're playing the '59 Sound in heaven
While the angels were drinking up whiskey and cokes
It's hard to freeze your anxieties
When your best friends' torching your coat
Your coat
Drop that phone drink a glass of water
And call me when you get in your bed
I've seen inside your head and I'm doing the surgery
On the parts that still wish you were dead
'Cause I've lost too many friends
So I'll say it again and again and again and again
And again and again and again and again
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
I've still got your demons
And their not gonna be leaving any time
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
Any time soon
I'm not trying to say it's easy
But I'm trying to say it's fine
Since I was thirteen I've dealt with manic depression
And I had a difficult time comprehending the things
That I wanted to be and I lived a very happy life
And I was turning eighteen
And I was doing everything I could
To try to make myself feel better
But I felt an absence
I felt like I needed to die
I felt like nothing existed
And I felt that I wasn't worthwhile breathing
The same air as the ones I loveda nd my family
And then it came to the point
Where I started losing friends
Who had the same fucking ideas as myself
But I have to be strong and I have to live my life
As a continuation of theirs lost
And I have to do everything in my fucking power
To be the person that I can be
And live my life the best way I fucking can
And some days it's so hard to fucking stand
And fucking stand
And fucking stand
And fucking stand