I've recently lost my baby at 19 weeks due to missed miscarriage, I've never felt pain like this before in my life. My first baby. I pray to God I'll feel better soon. I feel like I've matured 10 years over the last 2 weeks and I just want my little family. Thank you for this video x
Emptiness, sadness, anxiety, grief is what I feel now, 6 weeks after misscarriage and only the hope, that one day it all be over helps me go through the day.
I love this video. I lost my baby 1 month ago. And I cant talk with no one because I am young (20) and people on college are usually more interested about other things. It has really changed me and my perception about life... I really wanted to have this baby with my man and I feel really sad and lost, especially now when my routine has come back after summer vacation. And thank you so much for this video. And to the other women out there, you are not alone. Lots of love ❤️
Up until I had my miscarriage, losing my father to cancer was the worst thing I have ever been through... suffering pregnancy loss was a grief on an entirely different level. I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks earlier this year and it completely shattered me. I definitely felt a lot of the ways you discuss in this video; I was angry at my body, and scared that it couldn't do what it was supposed to do. But I also spent a long time just feeling numb, or feeling so indescribably sad. I also felt SO alone. It was the loneliest I have ever felt in my life, and it didn't help that I shut myself out from all my friends and basically spent all my time alone. All around me people were having babies or getting pregnant, and it just crushed me. I couldn't be happy for them, and I felt horrible about myself for feeling bitter and resentful. It has been several months and a few counseling sessions later and I finally feel more like myself again, but I'm still so scared. We are back to trying, and every month that goes by I feel myself slipping back towards anger and sadness and fear, and it's awful. I end up hating my body and feeling like I will never get my rainbow baby, and like you said, I am hyper aware of my body. Every little twinge I assume is something else in my body that is failing me. If I had not miscarried, my baby would have been born in the next few weeks. My due date was December 18th, and the closer I get to that date, the more dread I feel. The more I feel like my dream of having a baby will never come true... and the more I feel all that sadness coming back. This has been the hardest year of my entire life. So thank you for posting this, and for sharing your story. It really does help to hear other people's stories and to know that I am not alone. It also helps to see women who have gone on to have their rainbow babies, especially as I creep towards my would-be due date. Pregnancy and infant loss is something that we really need to talk about more, and now that I am more comfortable sharing my story, I want to use it to support other women like you have. It may be painful for me to talk about, but I want to do it anyway because the thought of another woman experiencing that kind of pain and not having a support network to fall back on just breaks my heart. They say it takes a village to raise a child, but I believe that starts from the moment a couple decides to have a baby, because the journey is not always easy.
That was so brave of you to share your story, Kitty. Your feelings are so raw and so understandable by most women who have gone through a pregnancy loss. The reality in our minds is not always as black an white as 'it wasn't meant to be'. You are absolutely right when you say that the support needs to start from the moment a couple starts trying to conceive. That still seems to be a part that no many people want to share. There's a lot of uncertainty, fear and somewhat embarrassment associated with discussing trying for a baby. I myself find it difficult to talk about trying for a baby, but you have motivated me to share more about that part of our lives, share my feelings and hopefully that will touch someone's heart in a way that makes them feel less alone. Thank you! Wishing you all the best and hope that your rainbow baby is on its way to you soon. Sending lots of strength for you on the lead up to your due date. ❤️
I didn’t know. This must be very hard to go through and I like how you explain this so clearly. It’s ok to feel what you felt. It’s definitely great to be so aware and simply feel whatever it is that you feel and honor it. Talking about this is so important especially for other moms going through this!
Wow! You took the words out of my mouth. I felt exactly the same way as you did. I've lost 3 babies and it's hard every time. You never get over that pain, you just learn to live with it. I too feel forever changed. I have so many fears because of it. It also robbed me of the joy I should have had once I conceived my daughter. I also take each due date or what was to be the due date and allow myself to feel for the baby, myself and just cry as long as I need to. Thankfully now I have a 3 year old daughter and a 3 month baby boy. I'm blessed and grateful. A big hug to you Ysis. ✨
Sending so much love. I totally get this feeling. Last December, I lost a baby at 7 weeks after seeing a healthy heartbeat due to a ruptured ovarian cyst. It still crushes me and I long for more babies. But, we have decided that we won't grow our family anymore due to the physical and emotional toll our baby loss took on us both. Thank you for sharing this.
I had a successful pregnancy 4 years ago. That pregnancy was blissful and looking back, a little naive. Then I had 4 pregnancy losses before having my son 7 months ago. I identify very very strongly with every one of your points. I have lost faith in pregnancy, not just mine but everyone’s. I never feel safe until the baby is out. And I absolutely feel paralyzing fear at ever tempting fate again for a third baby. Both myself and my husband are not prepared to walk that path again. It was so difficult. We feel so blessed to have our 2 healthy, happy babies. Much love.
This helped me so much I have one child. But I've been pregnant four times and just had my 3rd miscarriage and my first d&c on friday. I'm so heartbroken. Thank you Ysis for making this video.
I lost my baby a month ago. I went through step 1: the denial and acceptance, now I am going through step 2: the grief, the guilt and the anger this is definitely difficult to get through. I'm going through crying spells, anger of what did I do wrong? I should've meditated more to release more stress and be more relaxed. To lashing out toward my boyfriend and I'm trying to understand how he feels. It is very difficult 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. I talk to others that have gone through what I am going through. I'm now starting to write in a journal.
It's been a month since I had my D+C and I have had a difficult time articulating what I'm feeling about the miscarriage (a rarity for me). My rational brain battles with my hormones which battle with the loss of what could've been. Your video helped me tap into what I'm actually feeling. Thank you so much.
Good for you and hope you can enjoy this two kids. Is complicated and have experience something similar, very sad but other kids keep you busy and you forget the pain of loss unless you get remainders around you.
I miscarried twins in July. Before I smoked alot of weed, and after i just went balls deep. Now I quit everything to clean up and be healthy to try again. I think smoking helped because now I'm like up all night. It sucks. My husband is ok but he could be better. Also 2 weeks ago after waiting for my period my period started and all at once. I was in the taco shop bathroom and I swear it all came out and once, I thought I was dying. No lie a blood clot the size of my fist came out ;( it was the scariest thing I've ever seen. God bless all us women. He has our babies and that's all that makes it ok
I recently just lost my first born in the womb i was almost 2 months pregnant and never really knew in my mind due to being on CBD for my Anxiety and ptsd but my body was going through it all even the miscarriage til my doctor finally told me I lost my son and what caused my miscarriage was the birth control switch which my doctor did without testing me to see if I was pregnant I soon felt a sharp pain in my stomach when i got the new birth control than came that heavy bleeding and the feeling of wanting to throw upand nausea and I just thought it was a period til this past Wednesday which was the doctor appointment was his error that killed my child and will hold him accountable for this should have tested me to see if i'm pregnant which he never did he just gave me the birth control and sent me on my way
Thanks for sharing this video. I did not know that there is a baby loss awareness week. And now I do and I'm grateful because it will remind me of what had happened to me. It is still very fresh. It just happened a week ago that I had a miscarriage. It sounds strange talking about it now but I'm just grateful that I saw this video. I was 5 weeks pregnant and it was supposed to be our second baby and me and my husband were really excited about it. So excited that it didn't even enter our mind that anything could happen. It was a normal miscarriage, they told us in the hospital, that happens to 50% of expectant mothers. It was so bizarre how the gynecologist talked to us about it because to me she was insensitive and just drop all the words lightly that it seemed like we were just talking about a wounded knee but then again maybe I was too sensitive because of what had happened and maybe she wasn't insensitive at all. Anyhow, in the end of the conversation, she became more mellow and said a helpful phrase at least to us, that nature has its own way of stopping some things that could go wrong sooner or later. Could be that the "baby" didn't continue to grow because something's wrong with it and it would be best to stop now than later. All I could think about when they told me that I lost the pregnancy was what did I do wrong, was I walking around a lot, was I lifting heavy stuff, was I very stressed. It just made me feel not worthy enough for a second pregnancy. I'm still coping with it but I'm really glad that I have other mothers to share this with. Thanks again..
It’s been three months since my miscarriage but I’ve felt so alone in this process. Thank you for this video. ❤️
@Hailey Emery It is a dark time. Mine loss happened over 6 weeks ago and it is very raw and painful.
I've recently lost my baby at 19 weeks due to missed miscarriage, I've never felt pain like this before in my life. My first baby. I pray to God I'll feel better soon. I feel like I've matured 10 years over the last 2 weeks and I just want my little family. Thank you for this video x
Emptiness, sadness, anxiety, grief is what I feel now, 6 weeks after misscarriage and only the hope, that one day it all be over helps me go through the day.
I love this video. I lost my baby 1 month ago. And I cant talk with no one because I am young (20) and people on college are usually more interested about other things. It has really changed me and my perception about life... I really wanted to have this baby with my man and I feel really sad and lost, especially now when my routine has come back after summer vacation. And thank you so much for this video. And to the other women out there, you are not alone. Lots of love ❤️
Up until I had my miscarriage, losing my father to cancer was the worst thing I have ever been through... suffering pregnancy loss was a grief on an entirely different level. I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks earlier this year and it completely shattered me. I definitely felt a lot of the ways you discuss in this video; I was angry at my body, and scared that it couldn't do what it was supposed to do. But I also spent a long time just feeling numb, or feeling so indescribably sad. I also felt SO alone. It was the loneliest I have ever felt in my life, and it didn't help that I shut myself out from all my friends and basically spent all my time alone. All around me people were having babies or getting pregnant, and it just crushed me. I couldn't be happy for them, and I felt horrible about myself for feeling bitter and resentful.
It has been several months and a few counseling sessions later and I finally feel more like myself again, but I'm still so scared. We are back to trying, and every month that goes by I feel myself slipping back towards anger and sadness and fear, and it's awful. I end up hating my body and feeling like I will never get my rainbow baby, and like you said, I am hyper aware of my body. Every little twinge I assume is something else in my body that is failing me. If I had not miscarried, my baby would have been born in the next few weeks. My due date was December 18th, and the closer I get to that date, the more dread I feel. The more I feel like my dream of having a baby will never come true... and the more I feel all that sadness coming back. This has been the hardest year of my entire life.
So thank you for posting this, and for sharing your story. It really does help to hear other people's stories and to know that I am not alone. It also helps to see women who have gone on to have their rainbow babies, especially as I creep towards my would-be due date. Pregnancy and infant loss is something that we really need to talk about more, and now that I am more comfortable sharing my story, I want to use it to support other women like you have. It may be painful for me to talk about, but I want to do it anyway because the thought of another woman experiencing that kind of pain and not having a support network to fall back on just breaks my heart. They say it takes a village to raise a child, but I believe that starts from the moment a couple decides to have a baby, because the journey is not always easy.
That was so brave of you to share your story, Kitty. Your feelings are so raw and so understandable by most women who have gone through a pregnancy loss. The reality in our minds is not always as black an white as 'it wasn't meant to be'. You are absolutely right when you say that the support needs to start from the moment a couple starts trying to conceive. That still seems to be a part that no many people want to share. There's a lot of uncertainty, fear and somewhat embarrassment associated with discussing trying for a baby. I myself find it difficult to talk about trying for a baby, but you have motivated me to share more about that part of our lives, share my feelings and hopefully that will touch someone's heart in a way that makes them feel less alone. Thank you! Wishing you all the best and hope that your rainbow baby is on its way to you soon. Sending lots of strength for you on the lead up to your due date. ❤️
@@YsisLorenna Thank you! I really appreciate the reply and the support ❤️ I'm really glad I found your channel!
I didn’t know. This must be very hard to go through and I like how you explain this so clearly. It’s ok to feel what you felt. It’s definitely great to be so aware and simply feel whatever it is that you feel and honor it. Talking about this is so important especially for other moms going through this!
Wow! You took the words out of my mouth. I felt exactly the same way as you did. I've lost 3 babies and it's hard every time. You never get over that pain, you just learn to live with it. I too feel forever changed. I have so many fears because of it. It also robbed me of the joy I should have had once I conceived my daughter. I also take each due date or what was to be the due date and allow myself to feel for the baby, myself and just cry as long as I need to. Thankfully now I have a 3 year old daughter and a 3 month baby boy. I'm blessed and grateful. A big hug to you Ysis. ✨
Sending so much love. I totally get this feeling. Last December, I lost a baby at 7 weeks after seeing a healthy heartbeat due to a ruptured ovarian cyst. It still crushes me and I long for more babies. But, we have decided that we won't grow our family anymore due to the physical and emotional toll our baby loss took on us both. Thank you for sharing this.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It sounds like you made the best decision for your family. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
I had a successful pregnancy 4 years ago. That pregnancy was blissful and looking back, a little naive. Then I had 4 pregnancy losses before having my son 7 months ago. I identify very very strongly with every one of your points. I have lost faith in pregnancy, not just mine but everyone’s. I never feel safe until the baby is out. And I absolutely feel paralyzing fear at ever tempting fate again for a third baby. Both myself and my husband are not prepared to walk that path again. It was so difficult. We feel so blessed to have our 2 healthy, happy babies. Much love.
This helped me so much I have one child. But I've been pregnant four times and just had my 3rd miscarriage and my first d&c on friday. I'm so heartbroken. Thank you Ysis for making this video.
I lost my baby a month ago. I went through step 1: the denial and acceptance, now I am going through step 2: the grief, the guilt and the anger this is definitely difficult to get through. I'm going through crying spells, anger of what did I do wrong? I should've meditated more to release more stress and be more relaxed. To lashing out toward my boyfriend and I'm trying to understand how he feels. It is very difficult 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. I talk to others that have gone through what I am going through. I'm now starting to write in a journal.
What an absolutely fantastic and true to life video 💓 xx
It's been a month since I had my D+C and I have had a difficult time articulating what I'm feeling about the miscarriage (a rarity for me). My rational brain battles with my hormones which battle with the loss of what could've been. Your video helped me tap into what I'm actually feeling. Thank you so much.
Good for you and hope you can enjoy this two kids. Is complicated and have experience something similar, very sad but other kids keep you busy and you forget the pain of loss unless you get remainders around you.
I miscarried twins in July. Before I smoked alot of weed, and after i just went balls deep. Now I quit everything to clean up and be healthy to try again. I think smoking helped because now I'm like up all night. It sucks. My husband is ok but he could be better. Also 2 weeks ago after waiting for my period my period started and all at once. I was in the taco shop bathroom and I swear it all came out and once, I thought I was dying. No lie a blood clot the size of my fist came out ;( it was the scariest thing I've ever seen. God bless all us women. He has our babies and that's all that makes it ok
Sending lots of love as usual ❤
Thank you Christine ❤️
Thank you for this video 💓
I recently just lost my first born in the womb i was almost 2 months pregnant and never really knew in my mind due to being on CBD for my Anxiety and ptsd but my body was going through it all even the miscarriage til my doctor finally told me I lost my son and what caused my miscarriage was the birth control switch which my doctor did without testing me to see if I was pregnant I soon felt a sharp pain in my stomach when i got the new birth control than came that heavy bleeding and the feeling of wanting to throw upand nausea and I just thought it was a period til this past Wednesday which was the doctor appointment was his error that killed my child and will hold him accountable for this should have tested me to see if i'm pregnant which he never did he just gave me the birth control and sent me on my way
Thank you
I just had a miscarriage last Friday. And I'm really lost and heartbroken.
I'm so sorry to hear about it.
Thanks for sharing this video. I did not know that there is a baby loss awareness week. And now I do and I'm grateful because it will remind me of what had happened to me. It is still very fresh. It just happened a week ago that I had a miscarriage. It sounds strange talking about it now but I'm just grateful that I saw this video. I was 5 weeks pregnant and it was supposed to be our second baby and me and my husband were really excited about it. So excited that it didn't even enter our mind that anything could happen. It was a normal miscarriage, they told us in the hospital, that happens to 50% of expectant mothers. It was so bizarre how the gynecologist talked to us about it because to me she was insensitive and just drop all the words lightly that it seemed like we were just talking about a wounded knee but then again maybe I was too sensitive because of what had happened and maybe she wasn't insensitive at all. Anyhow, in the end of the conversation, she became more mellow and said a helpful phrase at least to us, that nature has its own way of stopping some things that could go wrong sooner or later. Could be that the "baby" didn't continue to grow because something's wrong with it and it would be best to stop now than later. All I could think about when they told me that I lost the pregnancy was what did I do wrong, was I walking around a lot, was I lifting heavy stuff, was I very stressed. It just made me feel not worthy enough for a second pregnancy. I'm still coping with it but I'm really glad that I have other mothers to share this with. Thanks again..
Dont worry so much, if god wants you will have many children which can replace that one🙏🙏🙏