Hi Nicole, I can relate to you so much. I am going through a depressive state for already 3 months. Loosing hope it will ever end. Before that I was manic and started to work und study. Now I cannot study at all. Amazing how you mange that. I love seeing you smile and laugh. A big hug from Austria
Good to hear from you. Glad you're still making videos! There was an anxiety podcast that two lovely aussie ladies were making, then they stopped making it soon after I started listening. Around that time I discovered your videos and I was like "whoooaaaaaa! She's kinda like me", and then your videos stopped for a while and I was like "noooooo!!! Everything I touch withers and dies!" but that's not true. Glad you're still going strong despite the never-ending struggle
It's great to hear an update from you. I thought my life was stressful until you shared all the stuff you've been dealing with. You're dealing with SO much, it's crazy. How do you manage? I'm back living with my parents as well and like you, I'm grateful, but it's also really not ideal. I've admired you for years for your courage and perseverance and for being a good mom through very trying times. I'm frustrated that your ex is being so difficult and compounding your problems. You don't deserve that at all. I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself. You're a lovely person. And good luck in school! I just know you're going to do great. You're so smart and dedicated.
Thanks so much! It's good to see you as well! I've always thought your vlogs were really helpful too, and you always seem like a sweet person. Thanks also for the good wishes in school...I hope I can manage and stay sane! Take care, til next time!
Yay! Nicole! I'm so glad you're back. Your videos save me. I commiserate with you. I've been checking your channel every day to see if you've posted anything new. Thank you for updating us. We care about you a lot. You brighten everyone's day.
Aww thank you so much, that was such a sweet comment! I'm glad that my rambling (or what I feel like is rambling) isn't completely boring people to tears. :D (Hey, I guess I still managed to keep a sense of humor through all this!)
Boring? No way. You're well spoken, you have a cool personality, and your content is thought provoking and insightful. Even when you're just making an update video about your life, I think you're entertaining to watch and listen to. I also like what you're doing to reduce stigma surrounding mental illness, a subject which is widely misunderstood. Sometimes I will put my headphones in and listen to you talk, like a podcast, while I walk or drive or ride my bike. It's very soothing. It instantly makes me feel better. I feel less alone. I feel like I'm not a bad berson because of my mental illness, I'm not crazy, other people experience this, I'm not alone, I can't necessarily help it, it's okay not to be okay, and I am not weak for being mental unwell at times. Your channel is aptly named; you definitely keep it "real" and I appreciate that about you. I don't like fake people, and there are many on this site. You're doing great work, even if you don't feel like you're making a big difference. Your videos help me so much. I know I am not the only one howled by your videos. Thank you for sharing; it's really brave. I wish you the best in life in everything that you do. A bright mind like yours met with such beauty and a kind personality is a breath of fresh air. Keep up the good work. You're awesome!
Thank you so very much. It is because of people like you that I continue to do this!!! To know that I have somehow helped (even if sometimes I feel like I'm just complaining about life) makes this worthwhile and meaningful to me. So thank you very much, again!
Considering all the crazy stuff you've been going through, it's no wonder your anxiety has been so overwhelming. Glad things are getting better for you and I hope that they continue to do so. Hopefully life will take you to a place where you can finally be completely anxiety free. :)
Sorry to hear about everything. I'm glad your back was getting curious to why there's been any uploads. But glad to see you again and sorry to hear of everything hope you stay strong.
hi how you doing? I am one of your subscriber from many years and later I lost you now I find you again I like about your videos is that you share everything about your personal life and how that effecting your bipolar.you have helped me in many ways I am sure there are many other who are also getting helped from your videos.I am very thankful to you.🙏keep posting your videos .I wish you and your family a very happy and healthy life always.Take care..👍
That's great that a support group has begun in your area. You will be a valuable addition no doubt. One piece of advice, don't date anyone in the group, bipolars tend to be drawn to one another so it can happen. I made the mistake a long time ago and became ostracized from the group when things didn't work out, I lost a very valuable tool for recovery. Glad to see you in such an upbeat state and back on meds, its not a setback but an inevitability with us. Here's to brighter pastures, solid foundations and positive progressions along this strange trip called life. Take care Nicole.
I hope it picks up a little bit and does get sustained...if the interest doesn't pick up I think the organizers may decide it isn't worth the effort. I live in a small community so that could be part of the problem.
yeah you are back! even thou i dont have bipolar (i have adhd thou),i like hearing from you! my life is just so boring and depressing right now,i have to start sophomore year of high school (and i have to go to some dumb school cause i got expelled,and im really bored in it,i kind wish i could just drop out and do some else,but i dont know)
Good to hear from you. Barb and I were wondering where you were at. I do remember when Barb had one of those bipolar moments, however that was some 18 years ago when she was 20. I'll never forget it, but hey, that's bipolar, not the person. :)
And, look, you didn't bolt, so you must be worth your weight in gold! :) Hehe, it's good to hear that some people can manage a bipolar S/O. I'm wondering if I will ever find a person that can handle my "stuff"? I surely hope so.
Your not crazy.. you are one of us.. you had your breakthrough several years ago. We are a small group of advanced beings.. you are highly intelligent and see the world for what it is .. we have a natural enemy and they are trying to suppress you.. the enemy has you drugged up and it is keeping you blind.. that's is exactly how they want you.. contact me immediately so I can explain to you what's really going on
hey nicole, I'm sorry you're going thru so much right now. hey thanks for reaching out. I'm bp too... and I feel for what you. you do so much for so many by posting your journey - if you ever want to connect please reach out...
Hi nicole, what dosage of zyprexa can you take that doesn't push you into depression. I am home 2 months from last manic delusional episode and wondering why I feel so depressed. I don't ever want to take antidepressants again because they push me into mania. My son is supposedly to live with his dad for 6 mths until I get a mental health case manager but there is a two year waiting list that I am trying all angles to speed up. CCAS refers to me as being severely mentally ill and my son will get a children's lawyer so I don't know if he will choose to come home or stay with his dad...maybe that is why |I feel like my heart is melting literally...everything is so boring and I don't even want to wake up everyday so I don't know if when the weather picks up in the spring my moods will improve. I am going of valproate and on 5mg of zyprexa and look like a bloated fish...which doesn't help. How much longer do you think it will be before I can adjust. I miss my son so much. I am glad you are so functional as usual. I got really badly delusional and called 911 and of course the police called ccas instead of just taking me to hospital. They really roughed me up also. Ok done but happy to see we are on the same med.
Haven't heard from you in ages. O.O thought something went awry... you never mentioned your age, I'm 34 as well heh. It sounds like you've hit some bumps in the road but you appear no worse for wear. I'm in the same boat far as medication goes, but for different reasons. Olanzapine is what I'm stuck on.. glad to hear from you again.
Oh Wow Nicole sounds like you've made some great steps to improve your life making things better for you and your darling kids. That's to bad that your ex husband is being such a dumbass jerk to you being ignorant. Congratulations to you on your graduation I'm so excited and happy for you sweetie so many things are positive. Nothing wrong with taking your bipolar meds again hopefully your group well pan out. I'm so happy that your dating someone who loves you and respect you and cherish you and treats you right making you smile and laugh being happy again. Much love and respect to you sweetie 👍👍 up in the air for you
Hi Nicole, I can relate to you so much. I am going through a depressive state for already 3 months. Loosing hope it will ever end. Before that I was manic and started to work und study. Now I cannot study at all. Amazing how you mange that. I love seeing you smile and laugh. A big hug from Austria
Good to hear from you. Glad you're still making videos! There was an anxiety podcast that two lovely aussie ladies were making, then they stopped making it soon after I started listening. Around that time I discovered your videos and I was like "whoooaaaaaa! She's kinda like me", and then your videos stopped for a while and I was like "noooooo!!! Everything I touch withers and dies!"
but that's not true. Glad you're still going strong despite the never-ending struggle
LOL no fear, you didn't kill me off! Haha..I'm still around and kickin! Just BUSY! Hanging in day by day! Good to hear from you!
It's great to hear an update from you. I thought my life was stressful until you shared all the stuff you've been dealing with. You're dealing with SO much, it's crazy. How do you manage? I'm back living with my parents as well and like you, I'm grateful, but it's also really not ideal. I've admired you for years for your courage and perseverance and for being a good mom through very trying times. I'm frustrated that your ex is being so difficult and compounding your problems. You don't deserve that at all. I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself. You're a lovely person. And good luck in school! I just know you're going to do great. You're so smart and dedicated.
Thanks so much! It's good to see you as well! I've always thought your vlogs were really helpful too, and you always seem like a sweet person. Thanks also for the good wishes in school...I hope I can manage and stay sane! Take care, til next time!
Yay! Nicole! I'm so glad you're back. Your videos save me. I commiserate with you. I've been checking your channel every day to see if you've posted anything new. Thank you for updating us. We care about you a lot. You brighten everyone's day.
Aww thank you so much, that was such a sweet comment! I'm glad that my rambling (or what I feel like is rambling) isn't completely boring people to tears. :D (Hey, I guess I still managed to keep a sense of humor through all this!)
Boring? No way. You're well spoken, you have a cool personality, and your content is thought provoking and insightful. Even when you're just making an update video about your life, I think you're entertaining to watch and listen to. I also like what you're doing to reduce stigma surrounding mental illness, a subject which is widely misunderstood. Sometimes I will put my headphones in and listen to you talk, like a podcast, while I walk or drive or ride my bike. It's very soothing. It instantly makes me feel better. I feel less alone. I feel like I'm not a bad berson because of my mental illness, I'm not crazy, other people experience this, I'm not alone, I can't necessarily help it, it's okay not to be okay, and I am not weak for being mental unwell at times. Your channel is aptly named; you definitely keep it "real" and I appreciate that about you. I don't like fake people, and there are many on this site. You're doing great work, even if you don't feel like you're making a big difference. Your videos help me so much. I know I am not the only one howled by your videos. Thank you for sharing; it's really brave. I wish you the best in life in everything that you do. A bright mind like yours met with such beauty and a kind personality is a breath of fresh air. Keep up the good work. You're awesome!
helped* not howled
Thank you so very much. It is because of people like you that I continue to do this!!! To know that I have somehow helped (even if sometimes I feel like I'm just complaining about life) makes this worthwhile and meaningful to me. So thank you very much, again!
Considering all the crazy stuff you've been going through, it's no wonder your anxiety has been so overwhelming. Glad things are getting better for you and I hope that they continue to do so. Hopefully life will take you to a place where you can finally be completely anxiety free. :)
It's my ultimate wish!!!
Sorry to hear about everything. I'm glad your back was getting curious to why there's been any uploads. But glad to see you again and sorry to hear of everything hope you stay strong.
great to see u back! wish u and ur kids all the love and luck in the world:)
Hi, its great to see you again too! Thanks so much for your well wishes! You've always been such a great supporter of mine, and I really thank you!
hi how you doing? I am one of your subscriber from many years and later I lost you now I find you again I like about your videos is that you share everything about your personal life and how that effecting your bipolar.you have helped me in many ways I am sure there are many other who are also getting helped from your videos.I am very thankful to you.🙏keep posting your videos .I wish you and your family a very happy and healthy life always.Take care..👍
Glad you are back and doing alright!
Thank you!
That's great that a support group has begun in your area. You will be a valuable addition no doubt. One piece of advice, don't date anyone in the group, bipolars tend to be drawn to one another so it can happen. I made the mistake a long time ago and became ostracized from the group when things didn't work out, I lost a very valuable tool for recovery. Glad to see you in such an upbeat state and back on meds, its not a setback but an inevitability with us. Here's to brighter pastures, solid foundations and positive progressions along this strange trip called life. Take care Nicole.
I hope it picks up a little bit and does get sustained...if the interest doesn't pick up I think the organizers may decide it isn't worth the effort. I live in a small community so that could be part of the problem.
Nice to see you back on YT!!! Just a pity the Atlantic Ocean separates us, I'd date ya!
yeah you are back! even thou i dont have bipolar (i have adhd thou),i like hearing from you! my life is just so boring and depressing right now,i have to start sophomore year of high school (and i have to go to some dumb school cause i got expelled,and im really bored in it,i kind wish i could just drop out and do some else,but i dont know)
I'm sorry! :(
Yeah it's hard :(
just stopping by to say hi😉. I know your busy but I do miss when you do weekly vids.
Good to hear from you. Barb and I were wondering where you were at. I do remember when Barb had one of those bipolar moments, however that was some 18 years ago when she was 20. I'll never forget it, but hey, that's bipolar, not the person. :)
And, look, you didn't bolt, so you must be worth your weight in gold! :) Hehe, it's good to hear that some people can manage a bipolar S/O. I'm wondering if I will ever find a person that can handle my "stuff"? I surely hope so.
+NicoleForReal Yes, hope you do too :)
Your not crazy.. you are one of us.. you had your breakthrough several years ago. We are a small group of advanced beings.. you are highly intelligent and see the world for what it is .. we have a natural enemy and they are trying to suppress you.. the enemy has you drugged up and it is keeping you blind.. that's is exactly how they want you.. contact me immediately so I can explain to you what's really going on
hey nicole, I'm sorry you're going thru so much right now. hey thanks for reaching out. I'm bp too... and I feel for what you. you do so much for so many by posting your journey - if you ever want to connect please reach out...
Thank you!
I was wondering about you the other day... And.... THAT. Is your hair color!
Hi nicole, what dosage of zyprexa can you take that doesn't push you into depression. I am home 2 months from last manic delusional episode and wondering why I feel so depressed. I don't ever want to take antidepressants again because they push me into mania. My son is supposedly to live with his dad for 6 mths until I get a mental health case manager but there is a two year waiting list that I am trying all angles to speed up. CCAS refers to me as being severely mentally ill and my son will get a children's lawyer so I don't know if he will choose to come home or stay with his dad...maybe that is why |I feel like my heart is melting literally...everything is so boring and I don't even want to wake up everyday so I don't know if when the weather picks up in the spring my moods will improve. I am going of valproate and on 5mg of zyprexa and look like a bloated fish...which doesn't help. How much longer do you think it will be before I can adjust. I miss my son so much. I am glad you are so functional as usual. I got really badly delusional and called 911 and of course the police called ccas instead of just taking me to hospital. They really roughed me up also. Ok done but happy to see we are on the same med.
I started on olanzapine week ago need someone to relate to so thank you for that.
Haven't heard from you in ages. O.O thought something went awry... you never mentioned your age, I'm 34 as well heh. It sounds like you've hit some bumps in the road but you appear no worse for wear. I'm in the same boat far as medication goes, but for different reasons. Olanzapine is what I'm stuck on.. glad to hear from you again.
Hello! Yep I'm plugging along still...slowly but surely??? Yes olanzapine...I have a love/hate relationship with it. Good to get your comment!
NicoleForReal hi Nicole - can you do another video regarding zyprexa? And how it's affecting you (possitively and negatively).
we missed you so much
Thank you! It's good to be back! I need to catch up on my vlogging!
Nice luv
I missed you make long videos
Oh Wow Nicole sounds like you've made some great steps to improve your life making things better for you and your darling kids. That's to bad that your ex husband is being such a dumbass jerk to you being ignorant. Congratulations to you on your graduation I'm so excited and happy for you sweetie so many things are positive. Nothing wrong with taking your bipolar meds again hopefully your group well pan out. I'm so happy that your dating someone who loves you and respect you and cherish you and treats you right making you smile and laugh being happy again. Much love and respect to you sweetie 👍👍 up in the air for you
Thank you so much and really good to hear from you!!
we miss you
she got out of the heavy phase then
make a new video please
pretty please
Hi Nice! do you exercise ? your have a Great Body!!!!
Thank you, actually no, I do not work out although I probably should!