"I just feel like I'm loosin myself" "They won't ever know my pain" "We ended up as the typa people that dont love... but if you seen me now you wouldn't recognize, all the feelins i used to have are dead inside me....The ones I hold close are just the ones that push away"
Part 1 [Intro] So much shit goin' on right now Way too much [Verse 1] When I speak it's like ya'll don't hear Why I feel like God don't care Why I feel like I ain't good as no one else I'm searching but my pride ain't there I just feel like life ain't fair My boy got shot, died right there But me, I died twice and came back to life So tell me how can I be scared Why do I gotta doubt myself All I ever do is doubt myself Drink liquor till the head gets consumed by the pint, like I don't care about my health Really I'm just trying to numb the pain Love and hate it all just feels the same Won't say I'm affected by the fame But even my momma know I changed So I get drunk till I can't feel The love fake, the pains real Got so many scars it ain't heal But I gotta soul bullets can't kill Why I feel like cops just want to pop me Pop's never had a pot to piss in Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me Pray to God there's no triple six inside me No I can't let the devil in my mind Same time the church will turn you blind Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon All I heard him say was sinner's going to die And they will never get to see a Heaven With all due respect fuck the reverend Cause I know life is doing 25 Praying for early death like it's a blessing This for my people going through depression This for the kids who never felt affection This for the kids whose parents don't accept them Saying they love everyone else except them I know what it's like to feel alone I know what it's like to need a home I know what it's like to not know what it's like To have a love you can call your own [Hook] See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf Trust me man it don't help I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself [Verse 2] Why I feel like love don't last Things change when you move so fast I was trying to focus on us in the future You was focused on my past If you left I would lose my soul Promise me that you won't let go See I just need love it's funny I've got all this money but my heart still broke So many times I said I'ma change Just to turn around and do the same Same shit that's been putting you in pain I know I'm the only one to blame So I get drunk, till I can't see I love you, but I hate me Trying to be someone I can't be And I ain't been myself lately Why I feel like I'm the only one that got me You could take the same 45 that shot me Pop the clip in, cock it back and put that motherfucker to my head, you'll never stop me Yeah I be living life on the edge Suicide all in my head Why the world don't care about no one else's life till they already dead I just wish my pops was back to how he was Cause he ain't been the same since the drugs And I ain't been the same since he said the worst form of pain is not being loved So we use the drugs they gave to us To replace the love the world takes from us Lately I don't even know who to trust They saying even Satan was an angel once So I can't feel shit, so numb that I can't feel shit Living just to die, we dying just to live this life it doesn't make no sense [Hook:] See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf Trust me man it don't help I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like i'm losing myself Part 2 [Intro] Yeah, I just can't take this pressure no more [Verse 1] Why I feel like I've been in this place before I just can't take no more I just can't smile like I'm still me, I just can't fake no more I try to be all I can but that wasn't enough for them We can't find love so we replace it with these drugs again I drink from this bottle dog it's my only friend I'm so scared to be alone again Fake smile on my face I just can't keep pretending like I don't pretend And my little homie’s doing twenty five If God exists why he never try To show us that this life is more than pain Cause is hard to live when you’re dead inside And they say I’m worthless cause I ain’t a Christian Like turn a church into a fucking business They killed Jehovah, didn't leave a witness And these preachers crooked as these politicians Politics, religion, I don’t see the difference They crucify me cause I’m speaking different Who the fuck are they to judge? Tell me who are you to criticize the way I’m living 40 ounces for the pain I ain’t been the same since I’ve seen my pops cry I might be light skin to you But I’m still a nigga in the cops eyes They ain't stopping til' we all die Mama I just hope you understand I just couldn’t take the pressure Mama, see I tried my best to be a better man And you might know my story dawg But you won't ever know my pain And she was all I needed Now this bottle is my Novocaine Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane [Hook] They say lately I ain't been the same But they won't ever know my pain And I know lately I ain't been the same I just never really show my pain, my pain [Verse 2] Yeah, man I can't feel nothing no more Fake love don't cut it no more Homie, I've been drinking so much Nothing staying in my stomach no more I can't even feel the pain inside I can't keep living in a lie Yeah, I might be breathing just like everybody else But I still don't feel alive Every night man, I hear a pistol poppin' Make me feel like God ain't really watching Watch out for the snakes, they steady plottin' They wanna put you in a cage or in a coffin'Now a days, these cops just wanna kill No love in the streets, don't wanna feel What I felt when I heard my lil' brother passed I'll never get him back But yo I still, know his soul is still roamin' on the streets Now I just hope he's watching over me Now I just keep on praying I've been trynna' talk to God but these demons never leave I know I lost myself along the way I was just too scared to fade away Now they all keep begging me to stay But I can't be here another day So I drink from this bottle til' I feel numb again I've been tempted by these drugs again I know I ain't been the same Momma told me she just wanna see her son again I just wanna see her smile again I don't ever wanna see her cry So I lie and say that I'm okay But, I've been plottin' on my suicide And you might know my story dawg But you won't ever know my pain And she was all I needed Now this bottle is my novacaine Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane now Trying not to go insane [Hook] They say lately I ain't been the same But they won't ever know my pain And I know lately I ain't been the same But I just never really show my pain, my pain I just don't show my pain Part 3 [Verse 1: Phora & Vicktor Taiwò] Yeah See it's been hard for me to be myself I look in the mirror and I can't see myself Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you) My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving 'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel What happens when there's no more life in me for you to kill (I see you) I can't love now I can't trust now I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now I can't lose you I can't keep you I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you) Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you But we ended up as the type of people that don't love 'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you) But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me And I don't know how much longer I can stay The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you) And it's like, having trouble finding myself I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost Looking for ourselves in a place where we're all lost [Chorus: Vicktor Taiwò] I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you [Verse 2: Phora & Vicktor Taiwò] Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through I'm empty now and it's been a while since I've spoke to you I run to you because I know your soul has been broken too But maybe that's the reason why I just couldn't get close to you (I see you) You're no good, your love is dressed in destruction I pushed away but without you I couldn't function I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real 'Cause I just keep numbing the pain 'til I feel nothing in these (I see you) Nightmares haunt me still but I just keep dreaming If God exists tell me why I only see demons? Yeah I only see demons Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you) We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now So all the smiles we give to people are fake now And we just hide how we feel so we never break down And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you) I wish I didn't have to take these pills But I just needed something that can make me feel I just needed something that could take what's real And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you) I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness? Fuck, who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness? [Chorus: Vicktor Taiwò] I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you running into the woods With your bright yellow jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you
Going through depression right now and this is all I’ve been listening to. Thank you so much for making this. This helps a lot because it’s so relatable.
Yeah See it's been hard for me to be myself I look in the mirror and I can't see myself Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you) My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving 'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel What happens when there's no more life in me for you to kill (I see you) I can't love now I can't trust now I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now I can't lose you I can't keep you I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you) Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you But we ended up as the type of people that don't love 'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you) But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me And I don't know how much longer I can stay The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you) And it's like, having trouble finding myself I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost Looking for ourselves in a place where we all lost I see you running into the woods Trying to find your little jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you running into the woods Trying to find your little jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through I'm empty now and it's been a while since I spoke to you I run to you because I know your soul has been broken too But maybe that's the reason why I just couldn't get close to you (I see you) You're no good, you're love is dressed in destruction I pushed away but without you I couldn't function I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real 'Cause I just keep numbing the pain 'til I feel nothing in these (I see you) Nightmares on me still but I just keep dreaming If God exists tell me why I only see demons? Yeah I only see demons Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you) We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now So all the smiles we give to people are fake now And we just hide how we feel so we never break down And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you) I wish I didn't have to take these pills But I just needed something that can make me feel I just needed something that could take what's real And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you) I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness? Fuck, who would have thought loving you was my only weakness? I see you running into the woods Trying to find your little jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you running into the woods Trying to find your little jacket You look lost Yeah, you look lost I see you
So much shit goin' on right now Way too much When I speak it's like ya'll don't hear Why I feel like God don't care Why I feel like I ain't good as no one else I'm searching but my pride ain't there I just feel like life ain't fair My boy got shot, died right there But me, I died twice and came back to life So tell me how can I be scared Why do I gotta doubt myself All I ever do is doubt myself Drink liquor till the head gets consumed by the pint, like I don't care about my health Really I'm just trying to numb the pain Love and hate it all just feels the same Won't say I'm affected by the fame But even my momma know I changed So I get drunk till I can't feel The love fake, the pain real Got so many scars it ain't heal But I gotta soul bullets can't kill Why I feel like cops just want to pop me Pop's never had a pot to piss in Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me Pray to God there's no triple six inside me No I can't let the devil in my mind Same time the church will turn you blind Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon All I heard him say was sinner's going to die And they will never get to see a Heaven With all due respect fuck the reverend Cause I know life is doing 25 Praying for early death like it's a blessing This for my people going through depression This for the kids who never felt affection This for the kids whose parents don't accept them Saying they love everyone else except them I know what it's like to feel alone I know what it's like to need a home I know what it's like to not know what it's like To have a love you can call your own See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf Trust me man it don't help I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself Why I feel like love don't last Things change when you move so fast I was trying to focus on us in the future You was focused on my past If you left I would lose my soul Promise me that you won't let go See I just need love it's funny I got all money but my heart still broke So many times I said I'ma change Just to turn around and do the same Same shit that's been putting you in pain I know I'm the only one to blame So I get drunk, till I can't see I love you, but I hate me Trying to be someone I can't be And I ain't been myself lately Why I feel like I'm the only one that got me You could take the same 45 that shot me Pop the clip in, cock it back and put that motherfucker to my head, you'll never stop me Yeah I be living life on the edge Suicide all in my head Why the world don't care about no one else's life till they already dead I just wish pops was back to how he was Cause he ain't been the same since the drugs And I ain't been the same since he said the worst form of pain is not being loved So we use the drugs they gave to us To replace the love the world takes from us Lately I don't even know who to trust They saying even Satan was an angel once So I can't feel shit, so numb that I can't feel shit Living just to die, we dying just to live this life it doesn't make no sense See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf Trust me man it don't help I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like I'm losing myself I just feel like i'm losing myself
God sends an amazing message threw you there's a lot of asleep sheple still. Ourt side the box thinkers is what this world needs more of! How many religions? How many people are on earth ? God lives threw each of our experiences we are source.
I miss my ex I truly wish I knew what happened between us. I wish I could sit down and talk to god already I have so many questions I wanna ask him face to face. I feel like satan broken, angry, depressed, happy the only emotion that has been feeling good lately is depression and anger I even cry and smile when I think about suicide now.
I maybe light skinned but im still a nigga in a cops eye " and my friends that are black be switching up when they other ppl be around, or ppl treat me like ima cop like damn cop, I peep shit all the time I've been called a baby blue face, which to me, he was staying a rookie cop trying to play idfk j just know the shits annoy
![Phora - Sinner Pt. 2 [Official Music Video]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/AO-9QKSqk7o/mqdefault.jpg)
--- Track List ---
0:00 - Sinner Pt. 1
4:29 - Sinner Pt. 2
9:00 - Sinner Pt. 3
RappyTracks thanks this help
Why the timestamps? All of them are worth listening to
Try it in reverse order. Real shit
Real shit seriously .... but try listening to them 3-1 instead of 1-3
god i love phora hes so slept on. you can hear the pain in his voice
Amen
"I just feel like I'm loosin myself"
"They won't ever know my pain"
"We ended up as the typa people that dont love... but if you seen me now you wouldn't recognize, all the feelins i used to have are dead inside me....The ones I hold close are just the ones that push away"
Part 1
[Intro]
So much shit goin' on right now
Way too much
[Verse 1]
When I speak it's like ya'll don't hear
Why I feel like God don't care
Why I feel like I ain't good as no one else
I'm searching but my pride ain't there
I just feel like life ain't fair
My boy got shot, died right there
But me, I died twice and came back to life
So tell me how can I be scared
Why do I gotta doubt myself
All I ever do is doubt myself
Drink liquor till the head gets consumed by the pint, like
I don't care about my health
Really I'm just trying to numb the pain
Love and hate it all just feels the same
Won't say I'm affected by the fame But even my momma know I changed
So I get drunk till I can't feel
The love fake, the pains real
Got so many scars it ain't heal
But I gotta soul bullets can't kill
Why I feel like cops just want to pop me
Pop's never had a pot to piss in
Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me
Pray to God there's no triple six inside me
No I can't let the devil in my mind
Same time the church will turn you blind
Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon
All I heard him say was sinner's going to die
And they will never get to see a Heaven
With all due respect fuck the reverend
Cause I know life is doing 25 Praying for early death like it's a blessing
This for my people going through depression
This for the kids who never felt affection
This for the kids whose parents don't accept them
Saying they love everyone else except them
I know what it's like to feel alone
I know what it's like to need a home
I know what it's like to not know what it's like
To have a love you can call your own
[Hook]
See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf
Trust me man it don't help
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
[Verse 2]
Why I feel like love don't last
Things change when you move so fast
I was trying to focus on us in the future
You was focused on my past
If you left I would lose my soul
Promise me that you won't let go
See I just need love it's funny I've got all this money but my heart still broke So many times I said I'ma change
Just to turn around and do the same
Same shit that's been putting you in pain
I know I'm the only one to blame
So I get drunk, till I can't see
I love you, but I hate me
Trying to be someone I can't be
And I ain't been myself lately
Why I feel like I'm the only one that got me
You could take the same 45 that shot me
Pop the clip in, cock it back and put that motherfucker to my head, you'll never stop me
Yeah I be living life on the edge
Suicide all in my head
Why the world don't care about no one else's life till they already dead
I just wish my pops was back to how he was
Cause he ain't been the same since the drugs
And I ain't been the same since he said the worst form of pain is not being loved
So we use the drugs they gave to us
To replace the love the world takes from us
Lately I don't even know who to trust
They saying even Satan was an angel once
So I can't feel shit, so numb that I can't feel shit
Living just to die, we dying just to live this life it doesn't make no sense
[Hook:]
See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf
Trust me man it don't help
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like i'm losing myself
Part 2
[Intro]
Yeah, I just can't take this pressure no more
[Verse 1]
Why I feel like I've been in this place before
I just can't take no more
I just can't smile like I'm still me, I just can't fake no more
I try to be all I can but that wasn't enough for them
We can't find love so we replace it with these drugs again
I drink from this bottle dog it's my only friend
I'm so scared to be alone again
Fake smile on my face
I just can't keep pretending like I don't pretend
And my little homie’s doing twenty five
If God exists why he never try
To show us that this life is more than pain Cause is hard to live when you’re dead inside
And they say I’m worthless cause I ain’t a Christian
Like turn a church into a fucking business
They killed Jehovah, didn't leave a witness
And these preachers crooked as these politicians
Politics, religion, I don’t see the difference
They crucify me cause I’m speaking different
Who the fuck are they to judge?
Tell me who are you to criticize the way I’m living
40 ounces for the pain
I ain’t been the same since I’ve seen my pops cry
I might be light skin to you
But I’m still a nigga in the cops eyes
They ain't stopping til' we all die
Mama I just hope you understand
I just couldn’t take the pressure
Mama, see I tried my best to be a better man And you might know my story dawg
But you won't ever know my pain
And she was all I needed
Now this bottle is my Novocaine
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane
[Hook]
They say lately I ain't been the same
But they won't ever know my pain
And I know lately I ain't been the same
I just never really show my pain, my pain
[Verse 2]
Yeah, man I can't feel nothing no more
Fake love don't cut it no more
Homie, I've been drinking so much
Nothing staying in my stomach no more
I can't even feel the pain inside
I can't keep living in a lie
Yeah, I might be breathing just like everybody else
But I still don't feel alive
Every night man, I hear a pistol poppin'
Make me feel like God ain't really watching
Watch out for the snakes, they steady plottin'
They wanna put you in a cage or in a coffin'Now a days, these cops just wanna kill
No love in the streets, don't wanna feel
What I felt when I heard my lil' brother passed
I'll never get him back
But yo I still, know his soul is still roamin' on the streets
Now I just hope he's watching over me
Now I just keep on praying
I've been trynna' talk to God but these demons never leave
I know I lost myself along the way
I was just too scared to fade away
Now they all keep begging me to stay
But I can't be here another day
So I drink from this bottle til' I feel numb again
I've been tempted by these drugs again
I know I ain't been the same
Momma told me she just wanna see her son again
I just wanna see her smile again I don't ever wanna see her cry
So I lie and say that I'm okay
But, I've been plottin' on my suicide
And you might know my story dawg
But you won't ever know my pain
And she was all I needed
Now this bottle is my novacaine
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane now
Trying not to go insane
[Hook]
They say lately I ain't been the same
But they won't ever know my pain
And I know lately I ain't been the same
But I just never really show my pain, my pain
I just don't show my pain
Part 3
[Verse 1: Phora & Vicktor Taiwò]
Yeah
See it's been hard for me to be myself
I look in the mirror and I can't see myself
Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me
Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you)
My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving
'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living
What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel
What happens when there's no more life in me for you to kill (I see you)
I can't love now
I can't trust now
I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now I can't lose you
I can't keep you
I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you)
Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you
Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you
But we ended up as the type of people that don't love
'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you)
But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me
All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me
And I don't know how much longer I can stay
The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you)
And it's like, having trouble finding myself
I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself
They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost
Looking for ourselves in a place where we're all lost
[Chorus: Vicktor Taiwò]
I see you running into the woods
With your bright yellow jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you running into the woods
With your bright yellow jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you
[Verse 2: Phora & Vicktor Taiwò]
Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through
I'm empty now and it's been a while since I've spoke to you
I run to you because I know your soul has been broken too
But maybe that's the reason why I just couldn't get close to you (I see you) You're no good, your love is dressed in destruction
I pushed away but without you I couldn't function
I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real
'Cause I just keep numbing the pain 'til I feel nothing in these (I see you)
Nightmares haunt me still but I just keep dreaming
If God exists tell me why I only see demons?
Yeah I only see demons
Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with smoke like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you)
We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now
So all the smiles we give to people are fake now
And we just hide how we feel so we never break down
And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you)
I wish I didn't have to take these pills
But I just needed something that can make me feel
I just needed something that could take what's real
And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you)
I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces
Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness?
Fuck, who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness?
[Chorus: Vicktor Taiwò]
I see you running into the woods
With your bright yellow jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you running into the woods
With your bright yellow jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you
Going through depression right now and this is all I’ve been listening to. Thank you so much for making this. This helps a lot because it’s so relatable.
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Thank u a lot man I was hoping someone would do this
You're the real MVP for uploading this ❤
Lionel Messi thank you!!
Best trilogy series
Im Soo happy this popped up thanks
Always before I go to sleep I hear this 😴
I love this i love this i lovveeee thissssss
Yeah
See it's been hard for me to be myself
I look in the mirror and I can't see myself
Feel like I'm screaming and no one's hearing me
Trapped in my insecurities knowing I couldn't free myself (I see you)
My heart and my time are two things I stopped giving
'Cause most of us are breathing but we not living
What happens then when I'm too numb inside to even feel
What happens when there's no more
life in me for you to kill (I see you)
I can't love now
I can't trust now
I can't help but drinking to feel the rush now
I can't lose you
I can't keep you
I can't stay but you know I'm too weak to leave you (I see you)
Know I'm too weak to love someone else 'cause you know I need you
Even though you lie to me I still try to believe you
But we ended up as the type of people that don't love
'Cause we grew up in a world that just never showed love (I see you)
But if you see me now you wouldn't recognize me
All these feelings that I used to have are dead inside me
And I don't know how much longer I can stay
The ones that hold close are the ones that just push away (I see you)
And it's like, having trouble finding myself
I couldn't say I'm still the same I couldn't lie to myself
They say love has a price we just can't afford what it cost
Looking for ourselves in a place where we all lost
I see you running into the woods
Trying to find your little jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you running into the woods
Trying to find your little jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you
Yeah, my family don't know the shit I've been going through
I'm empty now and it's been a while since I spoke to you
I run to you because I know your soul has been broken too
But maybe that's the reason why I
just couldn't get close to you (I see you)
You're no good, you're love is dressed in destruction
I pushed away but without you I couldn't function
I needed something to feel, I just needed something that's real
'Cause I just keep numbing the pain
'til I feel nothing in these (I see you)
Nightmares on me still but I just keep dreaming
If God exists tell me why I only see demons?
Yeah I only see demons
Trying not to choke and my lungs fill with
smoke like how the fuck I keep breathing? (I see you)
We live in a time where love is more painful than hate now
So all the smiles we give to people are fake now
And we just hide how we feel so we never break down
And all these doubts got me feeling like a mistake now (I see you)
I wish I didn't have to take these pills
But I just needed something that can make me feel
I just needed something that could take what's real
And make me numb 'cause all this pain just can't be killed (I see you)
I can't be killed, my soul's too real that's when it broke to pieces
Who would have thought that loving you was my only weakness?
Fuck, who would have thought loving you was my only weakness?
I see you running into the woods
Trying to find your little jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you running into the woods
Trying to find your little jacket
You look lost
Yeah, you look lost
I see you
Can you make a new video but add pt.4 (:?
Came to listen to all the parts but I've just been restarting the "trying not to go insane"
This was needed
Thank you! 🔥🔥
This shit real af I understand this 😣
This video would be way better if it had the lyrics as well.
Nothing seems to cut it anymore I’m no longer happy in life
Thank you ur amazing
Never Heard If Him .... But I Got My Ears Open Cause He’s 👍🏾 NICE
Ur a god
So much shit goin' on right now
Way too much
When I speak it's like ya'll don't hear
Why I feel like God don't care
Why I feel like I ain't good as no one else
I'm searching but my pride ain't there
I just feel like life ain't fair
My boy got shot, died right there
But me, I died twice and came back to life
So tell me how can I be scared
Why do I gotta doubt myself
All I ever do is doubt myself
Drink liquor till the head gets consumed by the pint, like
I don't care about my health
Really I'm just trying to numb the pain
Love and hate it all just feels the same
Won't say I'm affected by the fame
But even my momma know I changed
So I get drunk till I can't feel
The love fake, the pain real
Got so many scars it ain't heal
But I gotta soul bullets can't kill
Why I feel like cops just want to pop me
Pop's never had a pot to piss in
Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me
Pray to God there's no triple six inside me
No I can't let the devil in my mind
Same time the church will turn you blind
Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon
All I heard him say was sinner's going to die
And they will never get to see a Heaven
With all due respect fuck the reverend
Cause I know life is doing 25
Praying for early death like it's a blessing
This for my people going through depression
This for the kids who never felt affection
This for the kids whose parents don't accept them
Saying they love everyone else except them
I know what it's like to feel alone
I know what it's like to need a home
I know what it's like to not know what it's like
To have a love you can call your own
See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf
Trust me man it don't help
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
Why I feel like love don't last
Things change when you move so fast
I was trying to focus on us in the future
You was focused on my past
If you left I would lose my soul
Promise me that you won't let go
See I just need love it's funny I got all money but my heart still broke
So many times I said I'ma change
Just to turn around and do the same
Same shit that's been putting you in pain
I know I'm the only one to blame
So I get drunk, till I can't see
I love you, but I hate me
Trying to be someone I can't be
And I ain't been myself lately
Why I feel like I'm the only one that got me
You could take the same 45 that shot me
Pop the clip in, cock it back and put that motherfucker to my head, you'll never stop me
Yeah I be living life on the edge
Suicide all in my head
Why the world don't care about no one else's life till they already dead
I just wish pops was back to how he was
Cause he ain't been the same since the drugs
And I ain't been the same since he said the worst form of pain is not being loved
So we use the drugs they gave to us
To replace the love the world takes from us
Lately I don't even know who to trust
They saying even Satan was an angel once
So I can't feel shit, so numb that I can't feel shit
Living just to die, we dying just to live this life it doesn't make no sense
See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf
Trust me man it don't help
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like I'm losing myself
I just feel like i'm losing myself
Thanks
Your songs speak to my heart and soul ❤️😭💔
Big facts
God sends an amazing message threw you there's a lot of asleep sheple still. Ourt side the box thinkers is what this world needs more of! How many religions? How many people are on earth ? God lives threw each of our experiences we are source.
Ayee ty
Need to add the 4th or made a new video with the 4th on it
I miss my ex I truly wish I knew what happened between us. I wish I could sit down and talk to god already I have so many questions I wanna ask him face to face. I feel like satan broken, angry, depressed, happy the only emotion that has been feeling good lately is depression and anger I even cry and smile when I think about suicide now.
Im Charles Charley Totus Jr Yakama nation Washington state Yakima Washington 98903 ❤
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I maybe light skinned but im still a nigga in a cops eye " and my friends that are black be switching up when they other ppl be around, or ppl treat me like ima cop like damn cop, I peep shit all the time I've been called a baby blue face, which to me, he was staying a rookie cop trying to play idfk j just know the shits annoy
Im Charles Charley Totus Jr Yakama nation Washington state Yakima Washington 98903 ❤