Mitski Live: "I Bet on Losing Dogs" - The AEA Sessions | Aearibbonmics.com
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- Dive into the world of Mitski, the New York-based singer-songwriter, in this AEA session where she performs songs from her acclaimed album "Puberty 2". Visit my website for more: aearibbonmics.com/
With her guitar and a warm, enveloping atmosphere, Mitski offers a performance full of textures and nuances. Discover the intensity of "My Body Is Made Of Crushed Little Stars" and the delicacy of "I Bet On Losing Dogs", masterfully captured by the N22 microphone and R88 stereo. These sessions will take you on an unforgettable emotional journey through Mitski's voice and guitar.
Performed by Mitski (www.mitski.com)
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Mitski I am so stoned and crying
hannah bjorkman I literally felt this in my soul
god i hope she reads this
wow actually same
I am so gay and crying
What the fuck
miss bjorkman do you know youre tumblr famous..
mistki i literally cannot do this tonight
i think ab this comment a lot LMAO
No. You definitely can. Listen to it again man
@@clo7135 same
nice profile picture
I know it’s been 6 months, but I hope your doing ok
"Mom, why my cousins named Diamond" "Cause your aunt likes Diamond" "And what about me?" "Enough question, Mitski | I Bet on Losing Dogs | AEA Sessions"
no replies? I’m fixing that because of how much I love this comment.
You made me smile while crying maaan
🤣🤣🤣🤣
LMAOOO😭
I was deadass sobbing to this song and this made me cheer up tysm 😭
this version feels like wanting to cry but your body not letting you, watching everyone around you fall in love while your alone, having a bunch of friends but not having a best friend, waking up the morning after crying yourself to sleep, and all the emotions in your heart being blocked out by your brain’s numbness
This comment hits way too close to home 💔
how'd u know me this is exactly how I feel always
ouch
i can't cry myself to sleep because i trained myself, and i do have a partner but i'm too emotionally numb for a relaitonship and it destroys me more everyday. other then that, i relate to this so much
why am i at this stage of life this is so jflsjfiowjflkdjfk
This feels like bursting into tears after someone sincerely asks " _Are you okay?_ "
Damn, I’ve been afraid this might happen to me lately. You’re so right
oh god oh fuck
happened to me one time at a checkup lmao
NOW IM TERAING UP
I MEANT TEARING UP-
she seems so numb, yet so emotional. this song captures every emotion but also the feeling of nothingness at the same time. I'm obsessed.
Oh you just described me lol
please I thought this said she seems so dumb
@@jeanclaudevandamage I know you meant numb but your comment took me out 😂
@@katchike they meant to say that ‘cause they’re saying they misread it.
It's emotional, but in a very controlled way I think
“I always want you when I’m finally fine”that always gets me:(
Fr😢
What does it mean?
@@denade6343 In my personal opinion it’s someone who keeps coming back to the same peron who hurt them when they are finally okay again and getting out of that bad mental state they were in. Which causes them to go in a vicious cycle of healing only to be hurt again.
I think it is about when you are in a relationship but you hurt the person you loved since you are in a bad mental head such as depression. Then you broke up with your partner, but you loved to be with them after you healed and not hurt them again. From my perpective, it is about falling in love with someone, or even being on the edge of a relationship but being in depression etc. Since you do not want to hurt the person you love, you just hold yourself back. If you feel well one day, you just think about that person again and yearning the possible relationship you could have with them but not having it since your mental health
I know this is old, but the full line is “I always want you when I’m finally fine how you’d be over me looking in my eyes when I come.”
It’s an expression of being witnessed by someone in your most vulnerable state. The front half of your brain momentarily stops working during an orgasm (which is what “come” refers to in this lyric), and that is when you’re in the least amount of control over yourself and your reactions. It’s likely why we truly enjoy sex with people that appreciate us in our entirety. Mitski is professing that she only wants her partner when she feels comfortable enough with herself to be so erratic and carefree and vulnerable.
My grandma just died and she sounds just like mitski, she was the only person to ever show me respect and love I feel so lonely now
I think you would like Miya Folick.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
i know you commented this awhile ago, but i hope you are okay
❤️ I hope you’re okay
i hope you’re doing better now.
so we’re all crying over the “my baby, my baby” bit aren’t we
yes lol
Yesss we r we r crying
Y e p
Yes 😳
Yes full on sobbing
This song feels like sobbing in a hug from someone you dont wanna be hugged by but theres nobody else to hug or anyone else that will let you cry into their chest. That was weird and wordy but I guess you get what I mean lmao
oh my god you put it into the perfect words
Oh my god
This is so scary accurate
THATS IT!!! THATS WHAT THE FEELING IS!!! (story ahead sorry in advance) my mom used to be a very abusive alcoholic, and one night I was having a breakdown at her house and she walked in tipsy. Not fully drunk, she asked me what was wrong, I couldn't speak. She grabbed my wrist and pulled me out of my room, into the hallway and hugged me. My stepmom(drunk) came up and hugged me as well, I was scared. I was so scared. So I just cried into her, for like 10 minutes. It was the most horrifyingly comforting thing she had done for me at the time. (I was probably about 15-16)
I started crying out “mom” since I haven’t hugged my mom in a few years and I haven’t talked with her because of conflicts , I just want to cry in her arms as she ruffles my hair again. Please.
The concept of this song is so heartbreaking. Investing in a relationship that's doomed from the start, but you do it just to have someone ("paying for your place by the ring") maybe just to not be alone, or to fit in.
When she sings "my baby, my baby" it feels like a warm hug after going through a really bad day
really? it reminds me how much I want to feel loved and it makes me sad lmao, I envy you
@@joemamacool nah, it also makes me feel like that too😃
sounds incredibly wanting, like a pleading to someone to hear you to believe you
This song is so, defeated. It’s like the haze after crying for hours.
your not wrong.
THIS
YES OMG
i have been crying all day , this comment makes me feel better
Mannnn it's not related to what u said but I had an online friend named haze he was dying from cancer, last time we heard a word from him was back in december. Your commented reminded me of him and out good memories so thank you :(
"I wanna feel it"
"I always want you when I'm *finally* fine"
"Someone to watch me die"
I can't think of a single song that shift moments as sharply as this.
Sex and dying. Each one by his hand.
That is completely leaving out the first three lines. It's completely hopeless from birth to life. A conveyor belt of failure and helplessness.
It's moving and beautiful and completely untrue. Acknowledge that certain moments feel intractable. But try. Then try. Try again. Things will be unstuck. The world is hard but magical moments await. Persevere.
@@rvh9876 on genius the folks there actually think that "someone to watch me die" refers to her lover watching her org@sm -- org@sms are referred to as "la petite morte" ("little death") in french.
me tooooo ur a mood
Awh no :( bubba you okay?
I love you I hope you’re doing better
I remember crying my eyes out one night to this song while laying in bed, five months ago.
I cried for my past self, a traumatised child who was lonely, depressed and suicidal. I cried for all the times I didn’t allow myself to, I cried for all the times where I sucked in my tears to appear “strong” in front of the faces of my past abusers and bully’s. I cried for all the days where I felt I wasn’t supposed to be alive or that no one loved me.
I cried for myself and the pain and trauma I went through- but now I don’t need to cry anymore, I happy. Finally truely happy
i’m so happy for you and i hope you’re doing good ❤️
I really feel you, I remember crying to this song in the middle of 6th grade thinking I was going to end up no where in life. I'm SO proud of you, I am proud you made it through and did NOT give up, I am so proud of you because you got the courage to stand up. I am so happy for you and I feel like you deserve the world.
W
Hooray!
Glad you made it out :)
I'm so happy you held on and kept going, and I'm so happy your happy now💗💗💗
Her voice sounds like a mother singing to her child but also like she's going through a lot of pain. I love her voice. She sounds so comforting yet so sad.
Her vocal control is... immaculate. Her playing is so so good. This song is understated and absolutely gripping. I love Mitski so much
She's slowly strumming 8th downnotes. What are you talking about? She has her guitar tuned open, so she's not even making chord shapes. The playing is almost nonexistent here.
Sean Johnson shut the fuck up mate. it’s a beautiful song so let him enjoy it or kindly clear off.
Sean Johnson It’s impressive she doesn’t need autotune and is completely in-tune with astonishing phrasing! Not only that, this is only with a the open/basic notes and not even chords. Maybe it’s not playing, but she performs even with the bare pieces.
She deserves all followers of billie ellish
@@anshuuu9708 YESIR- she’s so underrated and her music is A M A Z I N G≈ her lyrics and voice are so full of emotion and it kills me every time
i feel like she's singing about the state of knowing that you're making a wrong choice yet still chose it. like picking up a poisonous flower even though you know it can kill you. like in an relationship. where you know it's not healthy and gonna end up badly but you're stuck in how much you love them too deep, and let yourself get hurt. like you can't let go even though it's ruining you.
does it make sense ?
Perfect explanation
hey bestie!! i cant do this today!!
@@erinmairead4460 god me too 💀
Makes a little too much sense 😭😭
yeah me and him cus I was the toxic one and he still wanted more and I was trying to fix myself more, he was so desperate to keep this even though this was toxic and he would end up getting hurt and I had to let him go to make sure he doesn’t get hurt anymore
Her songs sound like what my depression feels like. The comfort of the numbness. Mitskis talent is unmatched
this song is like someone begging for the affection they know they wont recieve, the most unsatisfying feeling, heart wrenching yet bottomless and empty
It sounds like hugging someone you’ve pushed away when you shouldn’t have
Literally what i was thinking about
This
EXACTLY
Man it sounds to me like hugging someone even though you shouldn't
I didn’t know how to explain it but that’s so right
this song feels like when you're done crying for hours and you realize that the things that hurt you have not gone away, you are still grieving just with a wet face now
false I'm absolutely still crying
too accurate
Do you have cameras in my house
this explains it so well
sobbing at this
I miss being small. I miss the way my mom would treat me like her only baby, all I want is a hug from her. A hug that actually means something a hug that I can tell she’s showing emotion
i feel that, sorry to hear it
real
I get the feeling of a mother holding her dead child and finally being able to accept that their gone
having to hold a dead child is so rough for a mother, they will never get a life the mother wanted them to grow up to.
My baby doesn’t even sound sexual, it sounds like how a mother is humming to a newborn baby. I wish that my mom could do that I wish I could cry into her arms and tell her how I actually feel but no.
I hope you find a love that lets you cry into its arms xoxo
.
i wish my mom helps me when i struggle she never does, all she does is complain about how she has it worse and says that i’m the one that has to get better at that thing, not even advice..
@@lyan749 i know exactly how you feel :( mine does the same thing and its awful. i hope things get better for you mentally
@@watabikis thank you so much!
the normal version doenst make me that sad BUT THIS SPECIFIC VERSION OF THE SONG MAKES ME WANNA CURL UP AND CRY
i think its the subtle pain in her voice
Dude, same!!
same i always watch this whenever i needed to cry
literally
i’m curled up and crying literally right now nice
i would do horrendous things for this to be put on spotify
Link @fyp_4_uuuu
I can't listen to this without crying my eyes out. Everyone's talking about how comforting the first verse is and how it reminds them of their parents, but for me that moment is in 1:10. It feels like Mitski is personally comforting me in my parents' stead, because they don't even know or care about how severely unhappy I am.
Why am I remembering the rare moments my mother would be a mom
samee this is manifesting my mommy issues
my mother still sometimes acts like a mom, but its never the same anymore.. i miss being little
My mom acts like a mom too late now, it's already ruined...
@@abbypfau8898 I feel this exact same way and it has me crying so hard
same. i wish she didn’t leave.
Am I the only person who doesn’t feel comforted by the “my baby” verse? That part sounds like loving someone who could never love you back.
same
right
That is exactly what I felt it meant. Although, it makes it all the more real because sometimes we purposely love someone that can't love us back. That or we don't choose to love them but we do and they never will reciprocate it. That line gives that "feeling" an odd acceptance.
Exactlyyyy it just sounds like ur imploring them to love you, like ur just running but it doesn't matter cuz they'll never love u back, and it hurts
frrr
this song really does feel like putting all your hope into something fully knowing its going to backfire.
this song feels like a hug from a parent that I’ve never had
i wish i had parent that helped me in my tough times and struggles
My baby, my baby
You're my baby, say it to me
Baby, my baby
Tell your baby that I'm your baby
I bet on losing dogs
I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place
By the ring
Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down
I'll be there on their side
I'm losing by their side
Will you let me, baby, lose
On losing dogs
I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place
By the ring
Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down
I wanna feel it
I bet on losing dogs
I always want you when I'm finally fine
How you kneel over me looking in my eyes when I come
Someone to watch me die
Someone to watch me die
I bet on losing dogs
can you explain me the meaning of ''I bet on losing dogs'' phrase? my english is not that good:)
@@senmaria. It’s a very broad phrase and hasn’t got one specific meaning, however it could be interpreted as gambling on a losing side on purpose as a metaphor for going into a toxic relationship!
@@senmaria. For me I see it as being a huge people pleaser and feeling bad for standing up to people that treat me crappy
@@senmaria. For some background info, she is referencing dog fights that are common among the world.
During these fights, dogs are put up against each other in a pit, and onlookers can “bet”(or put your money towards) which dog will win during the fight.
If that specific dog wins, you get extra money.
In mitski’s sense, she is using this as a symbol! “Betting on losing dogs” is her way of saying that she’s giving in to a lost cause. She sees the “dog”(again, the dog is a symbol) is failing, and stays with it.
I hope this helps! ❤️ Sorry if the way I worded this was confusing
@@luise3334 thank you
maybe i'm the losing dog.
me too.
i bet you are
No.
@@copper1206 shut it, don’t tear them down
@@pastelpepe ??? i waa just making a joke... because she bets on losing dogs...
dear future me, if you're here again watching this: i hope that you're doing better and that you finally got over her. it hurts so much to watch her fall out of love with you, i hope someday you heal from that pain.
yea. me, too xxxx
how are you doinf now?
Hope you’re better ❤️
This feels like watching yourself fail at everything in third person
This has me in shambles
Time to use this song as a coping method for my mommy and daddy issues
Same here 😌
😔✌
yup
im using this to cope with my crush rejecting me on valentines day
Mhm 😔
This song genuinely feels like it's being sung by someone who's at the end of their road, there's nothing waiting in front of them anymore
THIS.
that’s me right now, i’m hanging on by a thread.
Don’t lose hope. These feelings are real, but don’t let them become your reality. You just keep moving forward, don’t look back. No matter what, you move forward.
@@kawaiigirl6281 thank you. i needed to hear that
meeeee
it’s actually kinda sad how often i come back here
This song reminds me of my mom watching me while I'd sleep in the hospital, when I had cancer.
It was exactly what I thought of when I listened to it ❤️
So glad you're better
god i’m so empty
oh. relating hard
same here
matching! 😜✌️
Its okay to feel like this. Things will be better.
@@BK-nd7ky thank you
I can't explain it but this song sounds like how a hug feels
for me a hug you’ve long since accepted you won’t receive but, still yearn for desperately
A hug shared by two who are comfortable with each other and don’t mind the silence. They just want to comfort each other
to me this song sounds like the kind of hug my closeted girlfriend would give me when we were finally alone, so enveloping and safe but so, so bittersweet because it was the only time i wasn’t alone. it was a very unhealthy relationship because i needed her so much, and those hugs were our only moments of closeness
LITERALLY
@@meowzer2375 how you know I need a hug...
I just wanna know how it feels to be loved by someone that won't go away
i wanna feel that too lovely.
I listen to this almost daily like a therapy to try and deal with my mommy issues
The “I WANNA FEEL IT” part is so visceral it makes me tear up and gives me chills every time I hear it.
YESSS it gets me every time
my fucking baby ur my fucking baby i bet on losing fucking dogs
NO SERIOUSLYYYY
me. too. chills every. time.
same
hits diff when u have mommy issues
tbh :'D
listen to this and then class of 2013 for a great time
@@jayleencaban976 already did 🤩
And daddy issues
yeah
the line “i always want you when im finally fine” is absolutely heartbreaking. i was in a toxic/abusive friendship for YEARS and i couldn’t bring myself to cut her of completely until a few months ago. it was a cycle of arguing, cutting each other off, id feel happier because i wasn’t constantly walking on eggshells anymore, id start feeling empty because i missed the feeling of being needed even though she only wanted me there to manipulate, and id come running back to her. it was exhausting and lasted for like 3 years. though she got better and stopped doing things to me she started never talking to me instead. i still miss her and care about her but i know that cutting her off was for the better
i come back to this every once and while to just cry my eyes out
literally me
mitski is quite possibly the most beautiful person in the world i'm crying..... what i would give to meet her once
the things i would do to get over my trauma
i miss when i was happy. i miss not worrying about grades. i miss being smart. i miss how easy everything was.i miss the way my mom would hug me. i miss my mom, but i know that if i came out, she would hate me.
Sweetheart, I get you. I’ve been struggling with my grades this year and it getting progressively worse and I’ve struggled opening up to my mom a lot, she even confronted me today that we got into a heated argument. Trust me, it’ll all be over soon, stay for a little longer for me and others. I love you so much and I’m so proud of you.
Felt this one
Hun,imma be real with u. Nothings the same anymore and we should learn to grow with it. Think about where you are rn and about your struggles . Also why do you want peoples affection if they never loved you anyway
i feel u this is exactly the why im feeling ik she doesnt love me nor anyone ik. they'll never will.
Hey, I feel you, especially on the if I came out she would hate me part, it’s such a specific and sad and scary situation knowing that you want your parents’ validation and you just want to be loved for who you are but you can never fully be yourself and be cherished for it anyway? I’m so sorry it’s like this. And you have all my love and support, I’m not in a great place about it myself but I guess we’ll just find friends to love us for who we are and fill that hole somehow? Some people eventually reach like a place of compromise w their parents after years where it’s not full acceptance but it’s better than before? I don’t know, man.
The grades thing and feeling smart and being able to manage life too, you’ve got a friend in me (and several others) and like. We’ll feel better some days I guess. Not every day will be this bad. Hope you’re doing okay stranger ツ
ill never forgive mitski for this 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
1:38 so hauntingly beautiful, this is my favourite part of the song
i just think that mitski
i agree that mitski
especially when mitski
I adore that mitski
I love when mitski
me too, i also really like when mitski
“I always want you when I’m finally fine” HITS HARD LIKE A BRICK
oh lord
The part that makes me cry is the line “I’m losing by their side” idk why but it makes me cry EVERY TIME
my bird died yesterday she would fall asleep whenever i played this song i miss her so much
i'm sooo sorry for your loss 💙💙💙
I'm so sorry. I know how our furry and feathered friends are an indispensable part of us. Your little birb will always be with you.
this version just hurts so much more than the original
fr
ongg and i keep coming back to it
I am crying to this on a school night
@@bulletsolar_samesies 🤪
i am so mesmerized by her. she sounds so angelic but her voice and lyrics pierce through me like a knife while somehow also comfort me. she's subdued yet explosive, vulnerable yet full strength, beautiful yet haunting. it's a punch and a hug. what a wonderful woman full of dazzling contradictions.
this was lovely to read, thank you
"a punch and a hug" that's it, this is her!
this song feels too much like the comfort of my own mental illness, there’s nowhere left to go other than another usual mental breakdown.
every time someone tries to help me, it just doesn’t work out because being depressed and unlovable is my comfort zone.
being not okay is how i’ve felt for so long so the warmth of my own clothes is better than my parents since they don’t understand.
ok enough being poetic
its weird how depression sometimes saves me from my worst moments. Its like my body says, "okay guy, it's time for you to take a depression nap," I feel like if this wasn't my natural reaction to upsetting stimuli than i would have far more breakdowns than i have had currently
There’s something in the tone of her voice in her songs that makes me get chills and want to put everything down and give into my depression.
If you like this song, you might like Portishead.
But you actually haven't done that have you? giving into your depression?
This song reminds me of when i used to crawl in bed with my mom even after she wasn't ever home but out with her friends all week drinking. Even though i resented her i would sleep next to her like nothing ever happened. Wish i could cry into her arms one more time.
This is like a hug my mom never gave me but i still got it through this song
This is exactly how my mom was she never took care of me and my bro
Oh to be the losing dog that finally has someone to watch me die
THIS
I listen to this every day just for that “I wanna *feel* it…”
I remember having this song on repeat after I put down my cat. I couldn’t stop crying😀 this song is so beautiful yes so sad same time
Omgg I’m so sorry, as a pet owner it’s my worse fear :(
this song feels like a hug from someone who doesn’t exist. it’s a defeat, it’s the calming moment after you gave up after trying so hard. “someone too watch me die” the feeling that you just need someone, no matter who, no matter where. it’s the feeling of tiredness. “i wanna feel it” i want to feel, not just anger, just feel i want to feel but i’m so tired
I was hugging my sister while listening to this now it shade me more tears..
Mitsuki has an uncanny ability to make me cry anywhere at any time.
true
I just lost my cat, and the whole time I was holding his little body I had this song in my head on repeat. Harrowing beauty.
This song feels like staring at the wall, numb and tired of crying for hours
this song feels like finding someone when you're in such a bad spot. such a low place and you find that one person thats a beacon of hope. they do whatever they can to comfort you.
i really hope im that person to him. hes said that i have some sort of effect on him and when hes around me he feels relieved. hes getting bad again, everything is stressful for him, and i have been trying to do all i can to help. i dont want him to have to go through this again, i hate seeing him upset. this is the first time ive truly loved someone in two years and i wish i could help more. sorry for ranting in your replys, i just feel like i needed to tell someone. we r both named abby btw
@@abbypfau8898 in the same boat -- just realized he has untreated borderline personality disorder (i have it too, but i learned how to manage it by myself) and that throughout everything, i was his favorite person.
i’m that beacon of hope for everyone, especially my boyfriend, he never asks if i’m ok or how my day was, and he never gives me attention, he is always playing fortnite with his friends and ik he doesn’t want to talk to me. i give everyone hope even tho i’m at my lowest point.
sorry just needed to let it out
also feels like after they leave u
I found my girlfriend like that I was on the verge of committing suicide on the freeway before doing so I wrote a post on Instagram as a goodbye in my own words and as I was near the freeway something had told me to look at my notifications and there I seen her empathetic words filled with nothing but love I thought to myself why would a stranger like her care ever since then we’ve been together.
This song hits harder when you have a narcissist parent and absolutely hate them for all the things they’ve done to you but you also want to keep lying to yourself and be held by them and be loved by them, even if it’s a lie, even if it’s a fantasy, you want something, anything, from them.
yo bro ok i didnt ask to cry rn howd u know
i just want them to love me
hey;; i just want to let all of you know that you deserve love. you deserve all of the love in the world. you deserved to have a parent to love you and hold you and care for you, to value you, to make you feel safe and happy and at home. and that hurting, it doesn't ever really go away, and sometimes you might feel like that's all there is. but it's not. it's not.
and it'll get better, i promise. there are people in the world who will do that for you. they'll hold you, and love you, and you won't have to feel so alone again. i promise. one day you'll feel like you have a home. the hurting never ever really goes away, but i promise it gets better. i promise. okay?
and: you deserve *love* because you are *alive*
you *deserve* food because you are *alive*
you deserve to be held because you are *alive*
you don't have to do anything to be enough, because you already are, i promise you. you don't have to pay anything for love or affection. cause it's their fault, not yours, that they aren't there for you. you didn't do anything wrong, ever, to deserve that.
and;; no love will ever really replace theirs that wasn't there. i know that.
i'm so so sorry that you have to go through that, and i do, too, actually. but i'm always here if you need anything at all.okay? *much hugs*
i feel guilty for thinking mine is narcissistic, but i feel like i'm living their dream and not my own. growing up they told me i was a genius and there was gonna be a lot of amazing things in store. now i'm an adult and the opposite has happened. now there's nothing to show that i am in their eyes anymore. i was nurtured to adopt their views, that arrogant outlook, so much to the point where i've had to vomit it from my system. now i'm constantly switching between an extremely low self-esteem and overly inflated & delusional ego. it sucks being this unstable and i don't want to blame it on someone else but it feels like they're a huge reason why i'm struggling so much with life. and the moment i try to bring this up to them, they won't listen. the one time i tried to critique them they yelled my face off and i got scared, so scared. i don't know... but maybe one day i will know. one day it'll come to me and i'll be free at last
thanks for reading a random stranger's vent. and thank you for inspiring me to write out some much-needed words of truth
Oh, same here. You're not alone (sending a hug to u)
yeah. the “my baby, my baby, my baby, you’re my baby say it to me.” part is sad. but i’m crying over the “i bet on losing dogs, i know they’re losing and i’d pay for my place by the ring to look in their eyes when they’re down.”
My mom took her life just roughly 2 years ago. Our relationship was very turbulent. Just as someone above mentioned this gives off the vibe of rooting for a relationship that was destined to fail. I tried to help her but she didn't want help. I couldn't save her from herself and now im saving myself from her echos. Everytime I hear the intro, I associate it with feeling like I was the parent and just wishing she was mine.
i’m so sorry, dear stranger
So sorry to hear that she is in a much better place
Are the comments okay? Like seriously.. Im so sorry. Im sorry we are all hurt. But i promise it gets better. It may not look like it will but it will. You may struggle but thats okay. I love you and i know youre trying.
Edit: omg thank you for 500+ likes i love you guys
Edit 2: 800+?! OMG ILY
i needed this, thank you, i’m really f*ing trying
Thank you so much..
thank you sm, i really needed to hear this rn
it never gets better but thank you love.
thank you
“My baby, my baby. You’re my baby” oh what I would give to genuinely feel that way again
this song hurts more than any song ever could, it perfectly encapsulates the pain that comes with the human experience
I was listening to this version when it was first out ,and 6 years later I still feel the same way
This song is just 50x sadder in this version ;n:
i’m crying because this reminds me so much of how my mom doesn’t even know how to give me a good childhood because she didn’t have a good one either
:(
This song makes me question my existence.
this makes me feel like watching myself in a mirror, seeing my mental health deteriorate and not feeling as though i am able to do anything about it
all i wanted was for my parents to be proud of me and tell me they love me. i hate being the oldest and i hate having to carry the world on my shoulders i’m so tired i just want to die i really just want to give up they never loved me it was always fake. anyways it’s my birthday in 11 days so happy early birthday to me
happy early birthday. i know im not your parents, but i am proud of you and i love you. keep on fighting. you've got this
a week till your birthday :) ill be sure to come back on the day of it
happy early birthday you sweetheart. you’re doing so well and I’m so, so proud of you dear :)
being the eldest sibling is literally a curse, i hope things are getting better and happy late birthday!!
Being the eldest sibling can be so tough I'm proud of you for trying ur absolute hardest. Happy late birthday!
fun fact, mitski created every song ever everywhere
This song makes me feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest
this is oddly comforting,, it especially hits hard when you just got back from a mental breakdown or you're still having it and just needed to be comforted by the queen mitski.
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shutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutup stop asssumign sbit please just stop i cant deal with this today pease stop already stop stop stop stop shutupshutupshutupshutupshutupshutup i dont feel like speaking up today or ever pleaee just sotp pelase you're making the pain worse, i love you but plrase just stkp olease i csnt tske it
pleasepleaseplease i dont even know whsy i did srong yesterday why did you get mad at me why are you mad at me plese
where did i go wrong.
“My baby, my baby. You’re my baby” insert sobbing
IK! I have had so many mental breakdown with this song
Maman,
Je sais que je n’ai pas été toujours correct avec toi même dans les temps les plus difficiles. Cette musique me rappelle la bonne époque où tu étais encore toute souriante. Cette musique me rappelle ton parfum, ce parfum si réconfortant à chaque fois que je te faisais un câlin . Tu as vécu tellement de choses que je ne t’en veux pas aujourd’hui. J’ai dû t’abandonner car il le fallait pour moi, pour nous deux. Tu me manques mais il est temps d’arrêter cela. L’alcool à détruit notre famille, je suis épuisé et je suis sûr que tu l’es aussi. Tu me manques mais on se retrouvera un jour dans une nouvelle vie qui sait. J’aurais tellement voulu changé le cours des choses, je me sens coupable de ton sors. Je pense à toi chaque jour et encore plus quand il m’arrive d’écouter cette musique. Je t’aime et je t’aimerai toujours malgré que nos chemins se soient séparés.
Je t’aime.
Ton fils.
this made me cry..... I’m so sorry. I understand what it’s like to have an alcoholic mother, to longing to feel loved again...
ive always read the song as watching your relationship fail and desperately trying to save it, blaming yourself for not doing enough. mitski is for those who have felt emotions so deeply that the feeling can’t be erased. those who cry loud and ugly, those scream and those who yell, those who feel violently,
mitskis songs make you a masochist for heartbreak. do anything for these depths !
New Year’s Eve 2020, just before the clock struck midnight this song came on as I cried in my bedroom in the dark. I remember looking up through tears and as mitski sang “I want to feel it” a firework misfired and shot out sideways in direct view of my bedroom window, it was a big, expensive firework too. So I spent the first minute of 2021 crying out the stress of the year before, listening to mitski and watching gold sparkles rain from the sky over my back garden. If I can ever upload memories to the internet in a video format, that will be the first one I would want to share.
bro thats so beautiful i'm so glad u experienced that
you need to make a youtube video about that and talk about your story!
I wish to see this, it sounds...perfect for this song.
DUDE SOMEONE SHOULD ANIMATE THIS
@@izzie2171 please!! anyone!!
Why she is so fuking perfect.I cry in my heart when i listen her.
I wanna go to mitski’s concert so bad but im afraid im gonna hang myself after it
seeing all the other people there is actually really comforting knowing that they all appreciate her at least enough to buy a ticket means you have something in common id highly recommend it stay safe though
“My baby, my baby..” it hits different when you’ve never had a mother/parent figure to be there for you when you needed it the most.
THIS IS WHAT I FEEL OMG
"someone to watch me die" i can't-
she is so insanely beautiful
I love mitski 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
her saying “baby” is the most comforting thing ever
"I had a dream my mother bought me a dress,
It was cheap and more of a costume then a pretty ballroom gown
with yellow folds and vibrant packaging,
it was belle's dress.
I felt honored for a moment, how she thought id look pretty in it.
I always loved Belle, I always thought me and her were most alike.
But I realized this dress wasn't just a dress to make me look pretty,
it was a symbol of her love and her wanting
a mothers wanting to make her child happy
the sincerity and meaning behind the fabric
the promise that dress held.
and as tears pull from my eyes and fall like strings and soak the wrapping
I cry and refuse to look at her, smiling from the stairs
I am happy to finally be graced with her promise, her love
I cannot look at her in fear she may take this promise away
and as I sob in both joy and utter gratefulness
as my breath looses control and I turn to look at her,
I wake up."
where is this from?
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@@koobyn oh i wrote it haha
this is incredible
@@julietojedaa thank you so much!❤️
Everybody says they cry when the "my baby" verse comes but It's always the losing dogs part for me. Even though it's a felony, dog fights still happen out there. Just imagining a poor, sad dog hurt with their little eyes being down on a ring and someone watching them, knowing they were losing but still betting on them and being on their side breaks me. Anything that has to do with dogs, man.
when she says “baby” it feels like a hug. like a genuine, warm, and satisfying hug.
Listening to this whilst sitting across from two “parental” figures who ruined my mental state of mind for 18 years. It’s so comforting yet devastating, how two people can become strangers after you’ve known them for all your life. I sit and silently mourn the child who lacked parental figures, support and care. For so long I needed someone to tell me “ I’m proud of you” for any task I’ve completed. It’s so solemn to hear that in my house, as if success is an expectation whilst I’m not perfect. I rely on drugs and alcohol to help push my mood up and gain some sense of freedom. It’s so sad to see your childhood crumble.
I resent my relatives, I wish I could drain my blood from my wicked veins, I’m not related to them, I’ll never be related to them.
Edit: Life currently is a shitshow, it’s been so fucking rough but seeing these comments makes it a little bit better... thank you.
Edit 2: Honestly, life has been a bit of a rocky road with relapse, and to see such kind people on here and coming back to this really warms up my heart. I thank you precious souls, I love you.
im so so so proud of how far you've come.
I’m note sure if this would help you out a bit but I’m so proud of you and all your accomplishments and I’m sorry this is happening to you.
@@rvbcca8561 thank you so much... with such a rough week coming to an end, it’s nice to see this message.
@@FrankieeGP np! I’m just happy to see I made someone feel better
i love you so so much and i'm incredibly proud of you and how far you've come, 18 years is a lot and i'm so happy you made it through even though it can be tough a lot of times, know you are so loved and strong and worthy and you're never alone.
the background of this video looks like its from one of those realistic minecraft mods
i think this is the only positive comment i’ve seen in this comment section
haha funny minecraft!!!!!!!!!!!!!!