I started to cry when he started talking about the Disney channel. A part of his childhood that was likely missed. Please don’t be ashamed that you cannot read or write. It’s okay, you’ve had a long hard road. Be strong.
I'm sitting here crying like a baby. This one hurts to watch. He's got such a soft and damaged soul. He reminds me of my own dad who is an addict. I wish he recognized his strength and wisdom.
I know what it's like bro, my heart breaks for you. Be good to yourself, it's really not too late. I checked into detox after losing everything and I've been clean a year now, it flew by like nothing. You CAN rebuild your life! Blues are the devil. Don't be a slave to the blues, you can be the master of your future! Wishing you the strength and courage to get out while you can ❤️
He has self-awareness and is still very hopeful that he can get clean. He has the drive that it takes to recover from the addiction, I really hope he gets into the program that he needs and makes something better of himself.
David seems like a very sensitive and aware individual. I can't help but be amazed at how much and for how long the human body can tolerate such abuse - both physical and emotional. The "will to live" is relentless and unstoppable regardless of the individual's suffering.
SBSK (special books for special kids), SWU, and Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan- The holy Trinity of sincere interviews. Just let them speak for themselves 🙏
Imagine if everyone had the same compassion, patience and sympathy for regular people they see outside like they do for regular people they see online.
Whoa dude you hit a nail there mate real fucking talk.all love my pre digital thinker,if you are not born before this revolution?People did give a fuck Once.
The compassion online is an easy and shallow version of real compassion. It doesn’t require any effort at all. These comments are full of people who watch these videos to feel better about their own lives and then don’t help anyone in reality.
He is very self aware- which I find to be common amongst addicts. But he seems genuine. Please help this man get the help that he needs🙏 He could definitely lead alot of addicts in the right direction, he's a good speaker& isn't afraid of the reality of things
self awareness happens to people when you hit rock bottom. Severe addicts are most def at rock bottom. Its about the actual psychological dependency and insecurities that remain, which fuels the addiction. Until that is healed, the cycle continues.
@@joejakubec9708 always has to be that one smart-ass huh I myself am a recovering addict, so my family& myself come first. And that "someone" could probably be the guy interviewing him. Since he is face to face with dude and I would imagine probably has connections. Ewh, idk why I even explained myself to you. I imagine people like you have an extremely boring ass life come on here& comment just to be a d*ck. Good day!
I wonder if people who are naturally self-aware are more sensitive to trauma than the average person, that their emotional pain is so severe, they turn to drugs for its numbing effects?
Thankyou for uploading these at the time you do. Its always around 8pm on the dot in Australia when you do...i really enjoy watching these each night. Sending love and strength to everyone who is struggling xx
Nice message. It's 7 am in Buenos Aires. Usually don't watch things in the morning but i watch while feeding cats, oil pulling, brushing teeth and making my yerba mate.
He’s so sweet. He needs rest.raw. honest. When he said “I’m emotional these days” I felt that.🕊may god grant the desires of all those suffering, alone and broken.
David seems like a genuine man. He is a manly man is strong, honest, sensitive and shows love. A protector and honorable. If only he had a different better path in life some of these traits wouldn’t of been used in a negative way. I hope he finds help, happiness, love and peace. ❤️
This is my uncle. He was married to my aunt for years and they had 2 adopted daughters. He didn’t say one word about them throughout the whole video though 😢 For many years, my family didn’t want to invite him to holidays and stuff because of his addiction and I defended him every single time because he was family and deserved a place to eat on a holiday no matter what he was going thru. Unfortunately, after him and my aunt divorced due to his addiction, i haven’t seen him in years. I seen him in court a few years back, but the officers wouldn’t let us speak to each other because he was an inmate at that time. I truly hope he will get clean one day. He was a pretty big part of my childhood, and I do miss him. He is a great guy, and no matter how messed up he was, he was always great to me and was there for me to talk to when I was pregnant and in an abusive relationship at 16. He defended me many times. It’s hard to watch this video and know his addiction has escalated this bad. It’s heartbreaking. He looks like a totally different person. When I knew him he was at-least 250 lbs and a big guy. Praying so hard for him to find his way and beat this addiction. I love you Uncle David and would love to catch up with you if you ever make it back out this way! ❤️
He seems like a very good dude and it sucks to be caught up in addiction I'm 6 years sober off alcohol and 7 years clean up drugs but I just want to say thanks for your kind-hearted words towards somebody like this because a lot of people don't care❤❤❤
David- You are strong, you can succeed. look at all the bullshit you've been through and survived so far. You have been self medicating for so long to hide and mask your internal and external pain, now it's time to actually take control of your life and take care of yourself. Please find a detox and rehab with a positive group of supporters around you and you will succeed. I hope and pray we get a update that you became clean, sober and healthy. I know you can do it David!!
The pictures of all these persons are so beautiful ...their looks , their authentisity, their honesty make them look beautiful without any superficial makeup. These videos are one of the most interesting content that exists in Internet. Watching and listening to them has a direct effect on our souls, you feel automatically more empathic, less judgemental, more tolerant and maybe emotionally smarter and more grateful. This was shoot maybe only in the US but this kind of pain exists unfortunately in the rest of the world as well
When i got with my ex he couldn't read or write very well either. His reading was at elementary level at best. Once I got pregnant, I would ask him to read Dr. Suess books to our daughter in my stomach. He was hesitant at first but eventually did. Our daughter is now going to be 18 next month and heading to college. And my ex reading level is at a high school graduate at least. He can sufficiently read and write. He thanks me all the time but my thing was I didn't want him to feel embarrassed or uneducated. I encouraged him for our daughter and for him. My son is an amputee. He lost his left leg at age 18 from an impaired driver striking him while he was walking home. I was helping his sister with a school project and him and his friends were being obnoxious teens. I asked him to walk to the gas station for me. His friends went home and he walked up there. He laid in a hospital bed for a year to try to save his leg. It didn't work. This gentleman in the video it looks like his stump is infected. He definitely needs medical care. Luckily my son took only Tylenol and smoked weed when he was losing his leg. He would not take opiates. He lives in a medical marijuana state. I still struggle with the guilt I feel every single day for asking him to go to the store for me. I can't understand why folks say their parents are to blame. I was put through hell as a child and I made sure not to end up like them. I even cut them off for many years and wouldn't speak to them until I was mentally able to handle it. His parents are not making him do drugs, his addiction is. His hurt may be from his childhood but the addiction is not. He seems to give the answers that folks want to hear. He is aware of what he is doing. Why is there no medication for his mental health issue?
Yes his addiction is his addiction but trauma permanently damages the brain. It's actually very interesting and very very sad. And it definitely activates addiction. Trauma is so all consuming that humans will do whatever to not feel it. And with trauma causing actual brain damage, people don't always make the right choices. His parents are not to blame for his addiction. But they are 100 percent to blame for the trauma and pain they caused him that altered his line of thinking, mind and decision making.
Not everyone is resilient as you. Not to mention everyone responds to trauma differently. It’s also not his choice not to be on medication there is no cure or medication specifically for dissociative identity disorder (formerly known as multiple personality disorder). (And medications really affect people differently and can worsen your mental health state) Please don’t judge others because they are not like you. You would think as someone who has endured trauma you would have some empathy. Your lack of understanding of trauma and addiction is clear.
I don't normally share this, but due to childhood trauma I developed DID around the age of 7. And its progressed through the years to manage the fallout and memories coming back. I currently have 11 alters. Shit is rough. My parents caused that. And there's no medicine for it because it is NOT caused me a chemical imbalance. but environmental factors such a trauma. His parents caused this. His childhood caused that. No matter what someone wants to believe, his parents indirectly. Or even directly. Caused his addiction. If he didnt suffer from mental health issues stemming from abuse or neglect, there's a huge chance he wouldnt be where he is right now.
Blues were the absolute love of my life. I was down here in Florida during the whole pill mill craze 180 blues, 90 bars, and 90 somas every 2 weeks. Today thank God I have close to 5 years of sobriety. I would not touch one of those pressed pills if you put a gun to my head. Ps. I could never smoke them, snorted them like a respectable addict..lol.
Lmao that last part got me . Thsts amazing though keep it up chick ans I agree them fetty bars are a death sentence they are killin everybody up here in ohio
I love your TN accent. I hope you find your way into recovery. You are self aware but I see the addiction has its teeth deep in you. You deserve a better life. It can be done. I said a prayer for you. Best wishes.
He's right, 30 days will not work for him. It takes a couple years for someone like him to really start to feel safe. Why can't we have places where people like David can live peacefully for as long as it takes? We certainly don't have a prison shortage. But we can't build facilities where people can learn how to deal with life all over again.
If David can make it to rehab for 30 days or more .He has to get some social help & he really needs an advocate to take him by the hand to reach out for help. If someone got him cleaned up & dressed appropriately for a press photo , I bet if it was posted in the news he needed a leg & a trained service animals ,I think people would give from their hearts to help. Especially because he had been to rehab first , it would give him a great reason to stay sober.
Yeah I know the nod at the start and the procrastination also I know all about trading habits and I still ain't sober but I'm all world n more in terms of where I am now to what a horrible shit I was then.i hope he can clean up but what I see is a man who will find his peace another way as I have seen it too many times in my 30 years as a hood and a junkie but if it is peace and its on terms what's the difference as I'd rather be dead than be what I was. I still don't fit into this world mind but I never cared bout that.
I wasn't there and don't know shit except I've had some friends like this guy on that fent shit and they would lose there wallet 3 times a week That shit gets you so F up that you could lose a prosthetic leg and not realize it until the dope where's off
David...Keep fighting for yourself and your wellbeing. Its never to late to get yourself straight and on the right path in life. Anyone that looks down on you because you cant read or write is a problem within them not you! When i was in collage i helped other adults how to read. Its never to late to learn. I hope and pray that you can kick the drug life and get clean, If you do that i can see you helping others that have lived the life you have. You have a good heart and i see the good in you. I wish and pray only the best for you. Please come back and check in so we can see how your doing. Best of luck to you David!!
Your story needs to be heard. You could help alot of addicts with your experience. Please get clean. You could do many things. Youth outreach, prison outreach, treatment tech. The possibilities are endless when you're clean. 💜
I didn't want or think I was going to like this guy, but his humility, honesty, and sensitivity spoke to my heart. This vid is at least 3 years old and i really, really hope he got to a peaceful place in his life. I'm going to try to do a little research to see if I can find out anything about where he might be now. If anyone knows, please respond.❤
This guy has a great heart!! God I cried like a baby!!!! As an adopted mom and my kids bios are drug addicts I fear that no matter what I do to lead them in the right direction, biology will take over but you know what mommy will always be there no matter what they do, so I feel like his parents should of been there for him... he was chosen, just like I choose my babies... there is nothing more special then being absolutely wanted and picked. I wanted my babies more then ever having a bio kid of my own so he was loved very loved if his parents feel any sort of way that I do, I just wish they would of been there for him more.... he needed them.
Genuine guy. Old soul lost in a haze of drugs. Breaks my heart. I hope this guy gets the help he truly needs, long term. 30 days won’t cut it like he said. He wants to do better, he is trapped. Most honest interview I’ve seen. I hope to see a follow up on him.
I'm here in Denver man. Had an IV heroin problem and switched to blues so I didn't have to shoot up. Was doing 30 a day in no time. I OD'd earlier this week and thank God it brought me to my senses. I've been going through withdrawals in my parents basement since then and never looking back. This fetty is crazy man. A completely different animal that is going to destroy this nation if we aren't careful
Yeah, it already is destroying people all the time. People are seriously dropping like flies from fentanyl. These days its so much more dangerous to be an opiate addict as opposed to 20 30 years ago. With fentanyl people are dying all over the place, and sometimes they dont even have enough narcan to keep up. I know 20 to 30 people from my town who i have grown up with who are dead from fentanyl or drugs. Obviously not all friends, but people that i know of by name. That is so crazy to consider how many people are dying from that kind of thing, very sad. Shows you that most people who get into that shit aren't strong enough to get out unfortunately. You can though i you want it, and it really is a matter of just wanting it bad enough because if you want to stop 100 percent for sure you will make it happen. Sorry about your OD man, but you're still here and you can make it. The withdrawal is super hard, but im glad you're doing it. You will be so happy you did in the end, and so will your parents and family. Glad you still have family because a lot of addicts are far beyond that and have no one at all. You can do it man and still lead a life you're happy with.
@@billj4525 thank you very much for the kind words my dude. I'm sorry you have experienced so many overdoses. I have lost some good friends as well and it never gets easier. I'm still pushing through and now that I have made it over the withdrawal hump I feel much better physically. Now I have to maintain the mental and spiritual part. I plan on hitting meetings every day for the foreseeable future. I can't wait until I can start giving back to addicts in need ✊
💔 Releasing a hug into the air & sending it to go find you, David. You’ve been a warrior for many lifetimes, and don’t you forget it. Keep fighting, David, because you’re worth it. WE BELIEVE IN YOU! ♥️
He looks so familiar to me. Looks just like an old friend of mine. Crazy how similar people can look! I wish him so much positivity & a rash of good luck! 💚
I sincerely hope that David gets into a long-term treatment facility that will help him "figure out [a] new way of life" that sustains him and takes him where he wants to go. He deserves a new beginning, imo. He sounds committed to positive change, but I know how difficult that can be without serious help. I hope the folks at Soft White Underbelly can give him a hand in that direction. Sometimes simply making a good connection and helping a person walk through that door is all it takes.
Just FYI, there are no “folks” at SWU. This channel is the result of the tireless efforts of only one man, the famous photographer, Mark Laita, who single-handedly produces the channel while also helping many of the over 3,000 people he’s interviewed. That said, Mark has walked countless people into rehabs so your hope may come true if David is willing. If your interested, I highly recommend Mark’s interview on the Koncrete channel to hear more on Mark and the production of SWU: ua-cam.com/video/ta-8xFg0L0w/v-deo.html.
I know I am naive but I feel like this guy is really being raw and truthful. He's not making any promises, I don't mean to make predictions, but I see something really real and self aware in this film. I hope you are able to stay as aware as you are in this video, you will do well, David. Sending love and healing thoughts from Ohio xoxo
How different he might have been had he never been told about his bio parents. Sure, some of his issues may be inherited but if you believe you came from trash you believe you are trash and you treat yourself like trash. David is not where he came from and if he can find a rehab that will help him get clean and help him realize he is not either of his parents he might have some better years ahead.
I agree. My father's parents were horrible human beings. My father's one brother, not the youngest or oldest of his 7 siblings, was given away. His one brother was born in an abandoned streetcar. His father was a drunk who was always cheating, his mother was a pathological liar and always flirted with him and his siblings. My father disowned his family over time , got his G.E.D., went to college and ended up a Superintendent at a P.G.A. golf course. He wasn't perfect, but he got out of the poverty cycle, never drank alcohol, and was faithful to my mom and was always at home after work.
I strongly believe in complete removal and disassociation from parents who are so destructive like his bio parents were. I also don’t think that children who are removed from these type of situations should be told in depth or negatively about their parents. It causes them to believe or have strong fear that they will become their parents. So sad, I sure hope he finds sobriety and healing.
I would pay good money to have Mark photograph me and my 2 babies. His photos are absolutely beautiful and just capture that raw emotion within that person in such a beautiful way.
There is hope and you are full of it David! You are bright, aware and have wisdom! May you feel the strength we see in you! Sending prayer and light your way! 🙏🏽💙🔥
You have purpose that’s why you’re still here ❤️ I’m going through the same the withdrawals ain’t a joke it makes you feel like your dying or having the worst flu & one day we’ll be able to tell our story & help others w this same problem.. I hope everything turns out for you don’t ever give up!! I see it in you to get better you wanting sobriety is a start, now take steps at a time to get there I pray for you 🤞🏽❤️ the sky is the limit 🤞🏽
I use to live in Houston County. Next county to Dickson county. Many prayers for him. He's got this I feel it in my heart. And sad as this sounds he's probably better off on skid row. Middle Tennessee is a freaking drug haven. And the law just looks right past it. It's just so sad. Thanks Soft White Underbelly. You do amazing vids.
Every kid in Middle School and High School should watch this video and learn how drugs only lead to misery, regret and addiction. “JUST SAY NO TO DRUGS!!!!!!!!”
We all have a past that we are not proud of or ashamed of but you need to learn to let go, drugs don't help they only make those feelings more intense and more shame. It's difficult to stop drugs but there is a whole another life waiting for you to explore and enjoy. You seem like such a good guy. Leave your past life behind and the drugs you will be surprised and wished you did it sooner. If you ever need to talk to anyone all the people that comment will chat with you. I wish you all the best Mx
Hi David, thanks for your story, it is tuff to hear. It's tuff seeing you in this situation you have courage, Get out while you still can, imagine how many people you could help. Love Australia x
Tell me exactly how we're supposed to help these people? All they know how to do is think about themselves. I never stop someone when they're looking for their bottom. That's what it takes and the bottom is like an elevator going down. If you pull them off too soon they will get back on. They must get off the elevator on their own. Then they will be open to receive some help. But, it must be earned never given. I've been there. Been clean 20 years. It took what it took and noone gave me what I've earned. Now I appreciate it. It's value is incalculable. I can tell people my story and how I made my life livable. Only a few take it and internalize it. Most try to squeeze the easier softer way to make it work. There is no easy softer way that works. Everything worth anything takes work to achieve. Most addicts can't live life on life's terms. At all. Like me. Today is as easy or as hard as I make it. When I stay out of my head I'm better off. When I get into my thoughts and feelings is when I'm in danger.
Some people don't have the friends or family to intervene so they need a wake up call. Someone from UA-cam reaching out and getting him into detox may make the world seem less indifferent to him. A stranger saved me. It happens
To the original post: watch some of the follow up videos such as Matthew who were reached out to by fans of Mark's work who have access to recovery resources. If we have the funds and/or connections, that's how we help people. Addicts can't keep what they have without giving it away
Father God I am in agreement with David’s prayer to please provide him a way off of the streets. I pray father, that the chains of addiction are broken off of David! Please deliver David from evil Jesus and restore his soul. Amen 🙏🏽
When he says he don’t wanna feel that dope sick boy oh boy do I feel him. I’m 110 days clean and those sweats and withdrawal I do not miss at all. He is very self aware. I’ll pray for you man ♥️♥️♥️
The LSD and Mushrooms may be what’s giving you hope in a hopeless situation. They present a crystal clear window into your soul, your brave to use them, most people won’t. You’re desire to get clean is your power. You can do it!!
The billionaires could save most of these people. We can wish well all we want, but we are allowing people to live this way by ignoring those who live in real, grotesque excess.
I would love to see a transition to a resource based economic model and away from this cut throat corporatism we have now. People don't want to live like this. However our economy encourages it.
@@jamesjames7889 The fact that you take time to write ignorant shit like this lets me know with the beta male nonsense, you're simply speaking from experience.
What I wouldn’t give to for him to be sober, have him sit down, and quietly listen to the stories of his life. Street intelligence. 🎥 Tell me all about it, son. Go ahead. It’s all alright. Everything’s gonna be alright.
Most of America doesn’t know about it because it’s so difficult to come by out here. Last time I checked the nearest ibogaine clinic is in Cancun, $5000 total for the dosage and stay/ medical treatment. Would you mind briefly sharing your experience with it? I’m very interested.
@@kpeezyforsheezy Yea you're right, they make it quite elusive and expensive, also there is always a competitive business edge to anything in alternative healing etc...... My first experience, I had some iboga rootbark stashed away in my collection of ethnobotanicals, I had a phase where I'd ordered all these different plants, anyway somewhere in my life I found myself struggling with severe meth addiction and psychosis for many years. I remember trying the iboga rootbark out of complete desperation, I really had no expectations or belief that this would work, so let's just say that I completely lost any interest in amphetamines and basically just went on to live a good life after the trip, it was a really insightful experience to say the least, the reset was real, no withdrawal or anything, I just remember being baffled how my body and personality just reset it self that fast, everything changed for me after that
I was always very curious about it. Ive always been interested in psychedelics and dissociatves. Super interesting substances. Hearing Ibogaine is one of the best ways for most people to break addiction especially opiates is fascinating. Yeah America does not offer it. So you ordered it online and it worked? That's amazing man. Im six years clean now and have a wonderful life and great family that im very satisfied with, but when i was at my worst i would have loved to try ibogaine. Even now i would for fun. I havent actually done a psychedelic in many many years, but i would have no problem doing them because i dont consider them drugs, def not addictive like cocaine, heroin etc. I consider them positive tools in which you can learn a lot. It is interesting people don't mention ibogaine since statistically its one of the best ways to get off opiates for most people. Maybe a lot have not heard of it or are afraid.
I was an addict for years I gave up my husband house and kids for years in and out of jail and I thought I’d die being an addict I had 7 miscarriages and October 24 2019 was my last fix and 2 months later I found out I was pregnant and now I have a beautiful son I’m 41 and husband 52 and I have all my kids back my husband and my house if I can do it so can u I seen the hope in u and the desire to not give up you’ve been through a lot and once u get clean u can help others with ur story u seem like a great person just bad choices god bless u
That is one thing I must agree with I’ve been through a lot I’m no tough guy Not a lot of things scare me but the thought of being dope sick is the scariest thing ever to me
Yet another good person not being allowed to hit "rock bottom" and turn his life around. All of the enablers, drug dealers, churches/missions, beautiful/warm weather and government benefits make it impossible. There's a lot of privileged folks out there getting filthy rich off of rehab centers/programs btw. Always interesting and informative, thanks!
When he talks about the Disney channel it reminds me of the Adams Family film. Where they go to camp and the counselors try to change the behavior of the children with Disney movies. It clearly has some grounding meanings if this guy does the same thing.
Crazy to see how much he’s fighting the urge to nod off and pass out… basically his body shutting down from the drugs. Poor guy can barley keep his eyes open. Coming from a recovering addict it’s hard to watch. I used to be the same way
It would be super insightful if you interviewed someone with a food addiction. It could be a past or present addiction. I appreciate your uploads especially the one about the pastors daughter.
I use to high for 10 years I understand his world idk he's pain but he's a good person he's a man 1st and God protects his soldiers and he's a soldier...blessing bro...
It's a shame David never got proper help in school. Really sad he was overlooked. I know a man who is now a pastor who had the same problem. Fortunately, someone took time to teach him and he's written two books. I hope David will give himself the same chance.
I agree, that shouldn't happen. In the elementary school i went to everyone learned how to read. Even if kids didn't know how to they would take you individually and teach you to make sure you did. That's what most proper schools do. They put a whole year of school in when you're a kid to teaching you to read and write, and do private lessons if necessary. They put a lot of effort to make sure everyone can read and write because it's so important later in life. Sad for David, he must not have went to a good school. It's ok though, he can learn to read and do anything else he puts his mind to including getting off drugs and living a happy life. If you want it bad enough David you can do it, and you will be happy you did when its over. Maybe consider getting into a good program to start .
When he started talking about his adoptive dad having Alzheimer’s and living the life of a Christian really got to me. My grandmother was the next best thing to a saint. She lived by the word of god and has done nothing but good in her life and she recently died of Alzheimer’s. I still am extremely bitter with god for this. I totally resignate with him on such a deep level.
Please don’t be embarrassed about not being able to read or write! Social services will help you fill out the forms for benefits!!! I work in benefits and I promise I have helped many people fill out the forms! I wish you the best!
i wish there more studies done about drug use/homelessness - regarding personalities. he reminds me of a neighbors son- who was a heroine addict. he recently went to rehab and is currently clean- supposed to go to halfway house and then we'll see. i dont see him staying clean, but thats me. i hope the best for him, but am real also. both seem to be very tender hearted though- or wounded severely as a child. and i was always said to wear my feelings on my sleeves. but drugs never interested me. he needs to learn to read and write though. knowledge is power.
Is he reading comments? I hope so ! Please see your dad, that is still uour dad no matter his mental state. Just like you even on drugs your still you and the same person inside. Please see your dad as much as you can before he is gone ❤
Being dope sick will not kill you. Doing the dope is going to though. You will recover if you stop. It will be tough. At first. Don't be weak. Fight through it. Break this cycle. You have so much potential. “Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow.” -T Real Face the flames my friend. 🔥
Lila, Your writing skills are beautiful. Everything you have said is true. David be the one to break the cycle. It is one of the most freeing feelings in this realm. Facing the flames with a healing purpose is different than what has generally been offered to you. That is why rehabs don't work very well. They are set up to fail.. ~Seek~
Actually, if you’re super addicted to fentanyl, the withdrawal symptoms actually COULD kill you. (Tachycardia is one of the main symptoms that could kill) Quitting is a lot harder than it seems. Praying for everyone who’s addicted that they get through it alive.
@@SlumCut6661 yes.... Let's take away from the encouragement I've offered.... by correcting something totally unnecessary. Do you feel better about yourself now? Ugh.
Man him talking about how he feels god did his dad is absolute heart breaking. I really don’t have the strength to watch these videos even though I do enjoy them I feel that there doing something to me I can’t explain I just don’t think it’s healthy god bless all 🙏
I think we all know or live near someone like David…..he’s stuck in the vicious cycle like everyone else. It’s scary. It’s miserable. I can’t imagine what detoxing from fentanyl would be like….hope he can see the light again and make it through this….but so many people are lost forever to this. I wish these guys could do a interview with the mother of my child….maybe they could help her find some clarity and see that she needs to get straight….wherever she is. She’s been lost since a few months after our daughter was born.
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I started to cry when he started talking about the Disney channel. A part of his childhood that was likely missed. Please don’t be ashamed that you cannot read or write. It’s okay, you’ve had a long hard road. Be strong.
I'm sitting here crying like a baby. This one hurts to watch. He's got such a soft and damaged soul. He reminds me of my own dad who is an addict. I wish he recognized his strength and wisdom.
@@thomasreynolds1387 Me toooooooooooooo
Same here. He's a cool dude. ✌❤
I don’t understand why he can’t read or write. He went to the 8th grade.
@@SharonBenson2674 ..just because he went to school doesn't mean he sat there, payed attention, did the work assignments, ect...
I know what it's like bro, my heart breaks for you. Be good to yourself, it's really not too late. I checked into detox after losing everything and I've been clean a year now, it flew by like nothing. You CAN rebuild your life! Blues are the devil. Don't be a slave to the blues, you can be the master of your future! Wishing you the strength and courage to get out while you can ❤️
You are a beautiful person
Right on! Keep fighting that good fight, my friend ✌
Cheers to you. Well done getting clean! You deserve peace. 💜
Powerful!!!
❤❤❤❤
He has self-awareness and is still very hopeful that he can get clean. He has the drive that it takes to recover from the addiction, I really hope he gets into the program that he needs and makes something better of himself.
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⬆️ Overdosing on fetnyol in Prison
😂 😆 it’s too funny!!
@John S. ...Love this comment, honest and raw.
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@John S. no, your comment speaks volumes; it is perfect! It needs to be heard by all! Your honesty is so pure!
David seems like a very sensitive and aware individual. I can't help but be amazed at how much and for how long the human body can tolerate such abuse - both physical and emotional. The "will to live" is relentless and unstoppable regardless of the individual's suffering.
Right, I totally know what ya mean👍
No truer words have been said.
SBSK (special books for special kids), SWU, and Channel 5 with Andrew Callaghan- The holy Trinity of sincere interviews. Just let them speak for themselves 🙏
I know SBSK..Im a sub there, great channel 👍
I dont know Channel5, I'll have to check it out, thanks a lot, and have a great day!✌
i follow the first two, i have to check out the third 🙏🏽
I'll check out Channel 5. SBSK is already a favorite of mine. I'm relatively new to SWU and have found it relatable.
Channel 5 is such a meme... I wonder how many people will "get it". It's top tier for sure lol
Absolutely
Imagine if everyone had the same compassion, patience and sympathy for regular people they see outside like they do for regular people they see online.
Whoa dude you hit a nail there mate real fucking talk.all love my pre digital thinker,if you are not born before this revolution?People did give a fuck
Once.
The compassion online is an easy and shallow version of real compassion. It doesn’t require any effort at all. These comments are full of people who watch these videos to feel better about their own lives and then don’t help anyone in reality.
@@maverickbull1909 you aint lyin, its up to us to take action
The emotions are still so fresh.. I wish the best for him.
He is very self aware- which I find to be common amongst addicts.
But he seems genuine. Please help this man get the help that he needs🙏
He could definitely lead alot of addicts in the right direction, he's a good speaker& isn't afraid of the reality of things
self awareness happens to people when you hit rock bottom. Severe addicts are most def at rock bottom. Its about the actual psychological dependency and insecurities that remain, which fuels the addiction. Until that is healed, the cycle continues.
@@LJ-mo7kx as an ex fentanyl addict. This is true
When you say help this man, who do you expect to help him? Why not you? Who are you helping? Snowflakes always wanting " someone" to help.
@@joejakubec9708 always has to be that one smart-ass huh
I myself am a recovering addict, so my family& myself come first. And that "someone" could probably be the guy interviewing him. Since he is face to face with dude and I would imagine probably has connections.
Ewh, idk why I even explained myself to you. I imagine people like you have an extremely boring ass life come on here& comment just to be a d*ck.
Good day!
I wonder if people who are naturally self-aware are more sensitive to trauma than the average person, that their emotional pain is so severe, they turn to drugs for its numbing effects?
My heart is so full of love for David while breaking at the same time. You are worthy. I hope you find help and support you need.
Thankyou for uploading these at the time you do. Its always around 8pm on the dot in Australia when you do...i really enjoy watching these each night. Sending love and strength to everyone who is struggling xx
They show up at 6am for me, right when I get up and ready! Perfect timing!
you to homie! 4:00 am in Denver, Co. have a good one.
Its 337am in southern California
It's 541 in Cherokee village
Nice message. It's 7 am in Buenos Aires. Usually don't watch things in the morning but i watch while feeding cats, oil pulling, brushing teeth and making my yerba mate.
He’s so sweet. He needs rest.raw. honest. When he said “I’m emotional these days” I felt that.🕊may god grant the desires of all those suffering, alone and broken.
David seems like a genuine man. He is a manly man is strong, honest, sensitive and shows love. A protector and honorable. If only he had a different better path in life some of these traits wouldn’t of been used in a negative way. I hope he finds help, happiness, love and peace. ❤️
I like him. He seems very honest and genuine. I really hope he finds his way out of this
This is my uncle. He was married to my aunt for years and they had 2 adopted daughters. He didn’t say one word about them throughout the whole video though 😢 For many years, my family didn’t want to invite him to holidays and stuff because of his addiction and I defended him every single time because he was family and deserved a place to eat on a holiday no matter what he was going thru. Unfortunately, after him and my aunt divorced due to his addiction, i haven’t seen him in years. I seen him in court a few years back, but the officers wouldn’t let us speak to each other because he was an inmate at that time. I truly hope he will get clean one day. He was a pretty big part of my childhood, and I do miss him. He is a great guy, and no matter how messed up he was, he was always great to me and was there for me to talk to when I was pregnant and in an abusive relationship at 16. He defended me many times. It’s hard to watch this video and know his addiction has escalated this bad. It’s heartbreaking. He looks like a totally different person. When I knew him he was at-least 250 lbs and a big guy. Praying so hard for him to find his way and beat this addiction. I love you Uncle David and would love to catch up with you if you ever make it back out this way! ❤️
He mentioned them briefly at around 5 minutes. Its sad, he seems like a good dude, must be hard for you to watch ♥
He seems like a very good dude and it sucks to be caught up in addiction I'm 6 years sober off alcohol and 7 years clean up drugs but I just want to say thanks for your kind-hearted words towards somebody like this because a lot of people don't care❤❤❤
David- You are strong, you can succeed. look at all the bullshit you've been through and survived so far. You have been self medicating for so long to hide and mask your internal and external pain, now it's time to actually take control of your life and take care of yourself. Please find a detox and rehab with a positive group of supporters around you and you will succeed. I hope and pray we get a update that you became clean, sober and healthy. I know you can do it David!!
The pictures of all these persons are so beautiful ...their looks , their authentisity, their honesty make them look beautiful without any superficial makeup. These videos are one of the most interesting content that exists in Internet. Watching and listening to them has a direct effect on our souls, you feel automatically more empathic, less judgemental, more tolerant and maybe emotionally smarter and more grateful. This was shoot maybe only in the US but this kind of pain exists unfortunately in the rest of the world as well
When i got with my ex he couldn't read or write very well either. His reading was at elementary level at best. Once I got pregnant, I would ask him to read Dr. Suess books to our daughter in my stomach. He was hesitant at first but eventually did. Our daughter is now going to be 18 next month and heading to college. And my ex reading level is at a high school graduate at least. He can sufficiently read and write. He thanks me all the time but my thing was I didn't want him to feel embarrassed or uneducated. I encouraged him for our daughter and for him.
My son is an amputee. He lost his left leg at age 18 from an impaired driver striking him while he was walking home. I was helping his sister with a school project and him and his friends were being obnoxious teens. I asked him to walk to the gas station for me. His friends went home and he walked up there. He laid in a hospital bed for a year to try to save his leg. It didn't work. This gentleman in the video it looks like his stump is infected. He definitely needs medical care. Luckily my son took only Tylenol and smoked weed when he was losing his leg. He would not take opiates. He lives in a medical marijuana state. I still struggle with the guilt I feel every single day for asking him to go to the store for me.
I can't understand why folks say their parents are to blame. I was put through hell as a child and I made sure not to end up like them. I even cut them off for many years and wouldn't speak to them until I was mentally able to handle it. His parents are not making him do drugs, his addiction is. His hurt may be from his childhood but the addiction is not. He seems to give the answers that folks want to hear. He is aware of what he is doing. Why is there no medication for his mental health issue?
Yes his addiction is his addiction but trauma permanently damages the brain. It's actually very interesting and very very sad. And it definitely activates addiction. Trauma is so all consuming that humans will do whatever to not feel it. And with trauma causing actual brain damage, people don't always make the right choices. His parents are not to blame for his addiction. But they are 100 percent to blame for the trauma and pain they caused him that altered his line of thinking, mind and decision making.
Not everyone is resilient as you. Not to mention everyone responds to trauma differently. It’s also not his choice not to be on medication there is no cure or medication specifically for dissociative identity disorder (formerly known as multiple personality disorder). (And medications really affect people differently and can worsen your mental health state) Please don’t judge others because they are not like you. You would think as someone who has endured trauma you would have some empathy. Your lack of understanding of trauma and addiction is clear.
I don't normally share this, but due to childhood trauma I developed DID around the age of 7. And its progressed through the years to manage the fallout and memories coming back. I currently have 11 alters. Shit is rough. My parents caused that. And there's no medicine for it because it is NOT caused me a chemical imbalance. but environmental factors such a trauma. His parents caused this. His childhood caused that. No matter what someone wants to believe, his parents indirectly. Or even directly. Caused his addiction. If he didnt suffer from mental health issues stemming from abuse or neglect, there's a huge chance he wouldnt be where he is right now.
Blues were the absolute love of my life. I was down here in Florida during the whole pill mill craze 180 blues, 90 bars, and 90 somas every 2 weeks. Today thank God I have close to 5 years of sobriety. I would not touch one of those pressed pills if you put a gun to my head.
Ps. I could never smoke them, snorted them like a respectable addict..lol.
I remember when I lived in Jacksonville for a short time I began hearing about them.
Congrats on your 5 years. ❤🙏
Snorted them like a respectable addict lol! Dido!
@illmerica damit! 😣😣😩🧘🏽
Lmao that last part got me . Thsts amazing though keep it up chick ans I agree them fetty bars are a death sentence they are killin everybody up here in ohio
I love your TN accent. I hope you find your way into recovery. You are self aware but I see the addiction has its teeth deep in you. You deserve a better life. It can be done. I said a prayer for you. Best wishes.
He's right, 30 days will not work for him. It takes a couple years for someone like him to really start to feel safe. Why can't we have places where people like David can live peacefully for as long as it takes? We certainly don't have a prison shortage. But we can't build facilities where people can learn how to deal with life all over again.
I want to stand up and applaud this
That's capitalism without the social part.
If David can make it to rehab for 30 days or more .He has to get some social help & he really needs an advocate to take him by the hand to reach out for help. If someone got him cleaned up & dressed appropriately for a press photo , I bet if it was posted in the news he needed a leg & a trained service animals ,I think people would give from their hearts to help. Especially because he had been to rehab first , it would give him a great reason to stay sober.
@@blazefairchild465 How about you?
I totally agree with you
Its easy to talk like this when you are loaded as he is. I've been there. I hope he finds peace and is able to clean up his life.
Yeah I know the nod at the start and the procrastination also I know all about trading habits and I still ain't sober but I'm all world n more in terms of where I am now to what a horrible shit I was then.i hope he can clean up but what I see is a man who will find his peace another way as I have seen it too many times in my 30 years as a hood and a junkie but if it is peace and its on terms what's the difference as I'd rather be dead than be what I was.
I still don't fit into this world mind but I never cared bout that.
Imagine robbing a leg and service dog, that's just so wrong.
I mean, when u need some meth, u need some meth
How did he get in that position? He was robbing somebody and shot himself hahaha
I wasn't there and don't know shit except I've had some friends like this guy on that fent shit and they would lose there wallet 3 times a week
That shit gets you so F up that you could lose a prosthetic leg and not realize it until the dope where's off
It's fucking low.
@@MikeBova1 that's what I was thinking. Much more likely that he lost that stuff and forgot it
David...Keep fighting for yourself and your wellbeing. Its never to late to get yourself straight and on the right path in life. Anyone that looks down on you because you cant read or write is a problem within them not you! When i was in collage i helped other adults how to read. Its never to late to learn. I hope and pray that you can kick the drug life and get clean, If you do that i can see you helping others that have lived the life you have. You have a good heart and i see the good in you. I wish and pray only the best for you. Please come back and check in so we can see how your doing. Best of luck to you David!!
Your story needs to be heard. You could help alot of addicts with your experience. Please get clean. You could do many things. Youth outreach, prison outreach, treatment tech. The possibilities are endless when you're clean. 💜
I didn't want or think I was going to like this guy, but his humility, honesty, and sensitivity spoke to my heart. This vid is at least 3 years old and i really, really hope he got to a peaceful place in his life. I'm going to try to do a little research to see if I can find out anything about where he might be now. If anyone knows, please respond.❤
This guy has a great heart!! God I cried like a baby!!!! As an adopted mom and my kids bios are drug addicts I fear that no matter what I do to lead them in the right direction, biology will take over but you know what mommy will always be there no matter what they do, so I feel like his parents should of been there for him... he was chosen, just like I choose my babies... there is nothing more special then being absolutely wanted and picked. I wanted my babies more then ever having a bio kid of my own so he was loved very loved if his parents feel any sort of way that I do, I just wish they would of been there for him more.... he needed them.
Genuine guy. Old soul lost in a haze of drugs. Breaks my heart. I hope this guy gets the help he truly needs, long term. 30 days won’t cut it like he said. He wants to do better, he is trapped. Most honest interview I’ve seen. I hope to see a follow up on him.
I'm here in Denver man. Had an IV heroin problem and switched to blues so I didn't have to shoot up. Was doing 30 a day in no time. I OD'd earlier this week and thank God it brought me to my senses. I've been going through withdrawals in my parents basement since then and never looking back. This fetty is crazy man. A completely different animal that is going to destroy this nation if we aren't careful
Yeah, it already is destroying people all the time. People are seriously dropping like flies from fentanyl. These days its so much more dangerous to be an opiate addict as opposed to 20 30 years ago. With fentanyl people are dying all over the place, and sometimes they dont even have enough narcan to keep up. I know 20 to 30 people from my town who i have grown up with who are dead from fentanyl or drugs. Obviously not all friends, but people that i know of by name. That is so crazy to consider how many people are dying from that kind of thing, very sad. Shows you that most people who get into that shit aren't strong enough to get out unfortunately. You can though i you want it, and it really is a matter of just wanting it bad enough because if you want to stop 100 percent for sure you will make it happen. Sorry about your OD man, but you're still here and you can make it. The withdrawal is super hard, but im glad you're doing it. You will be so happy you did in the end, and so will your parents and family. Glad you still have family because a lot of addicts are far beyond that and have no one at all. You can do it man and still lead a life you're happy with.
@@billj4525 thank you very much for the kind words my dude. I'm sorry you have experienced so many overdoses. I have lost some good friends as well and it never gets easier. I'm still pushing through and now that I have made it over the withdrawal hump I feel much better physically. Now I have to maintain the mental and spiritual part. I plan on hitting meetings every day for the foreseeable future. I can't wait until I can start giving back to addicts in need ✊
Thanks for sharing, David. Your introspection is inspiring. I hope things start looking up for you.
It's so sad that some of the sweetest people have to live a life like this. He is such a good soul, I hope he gets the help he deserves!
He said he's killed people
💔 Releasing a hug into the air & sending it to go find you, David. You’ve been a warrior for many lifetimes, and don’t you forget it. Keep fighting, David, because you’re worth it. WE BELIEVE IN YOU! ♥️
He looks so familiar to me. Looks just like an old friend of mine. Crazy how similar people can look! I wish him so much positivity & a rash of good luck! 💚
He looks so similar to Leon from The Professional. Really rooting for him 🙏
@@jessicalund5190 huh! 💡! Now I'm understanding the...."has one of those faces" saying! Too funny!!
@@jessicalund5190 don't you EVER disrespect Jean Reno like that again
This touched my heart he knows there’s hope on the other side i hope he finds the guidance he needs to heal and get better 🙏🏽
another one that leaves one speechless. god bless him...
I sincerely hope that David gets into a long-term treatment facility that will help him "figure out [a] new way of life" that sustains him and takes him where he wants to go. He deserves a new beginning, imo. He sounds committed to positive change, but I know how difficult that can be without serious help.
I hope the folks at Soft White Underbelly can give him a hand in that direction. Sometimes simply making a good connection and helping a person walk through that door is all it takes.
Just FYI, there are no “folks” at SWU. This channel is the result of the tireless efforts of only one man, the famous photographer, Mark Laita, who single-handedly produces the channel while also helping many of the over 3,000 people he’s interviewed. That said, Mark has walked countless people into rehabs so your hope may come true if David is willing. If your interested, I highly recommend Mark’s interview on the Koncrete channel to hear more on Mark and the production of SWU: ua-cam.com/video/ta-8xFg0L0w/v-deo.html.
@@clairelumiere2901 Good to know, Claire. I'll check out Mark's interview. Thank you.
David has what it takes to make it. If only he could see it. Hoping the Best
I agree. I really liked him. 👍
I respectfully disagree.
@@tylersrevenge and that's your right! ✌❤🤘
@@tylersrevenge I respect that
He probably does but the odds are massively stacked against him
I’m from the same county that he is and he grew up just a few miles from me! God bless you brother and many prayers 🙏🏼🙏🏼
I know I am naive but I feel like this guy is really being raw and truthful. He's not making any promises, I don't mean to make predictions, but I see something really real and self aware in this film. I hope you are able to stay as aware as you are in this video, you will do well, David. Sending love and healing thoughts from Ohio xoxo
How different he might have been had he never been told about his bio parents. Sure, some of his issues may be inherited but if you believe you came from trash you believe you are trash and you treat yourself like trash. David is not where he came from and if he can find a rehab that will help him get clean and help him realize he is not either of his parents he might have some better years ahead.
I agree. My father's parents were horrible human beings. My father's one brother, not the youngest or oldest of his 7 siblings, was given away. His one brother was born in an abandoned streetcar. His father was a drunk who was always cheating, his mother was a pathological liar and always flirted with him and his siblings.
My father disowned his family over time , got his G.E.D., went to college and ended up a Superintendent at a P.G.A. golf course.
He wasn't perfect, but he got out of the poverty cycle, never drank alcohol, and was faithful to my mom and was always at home after work.
On top of that, he hasn't been taught the basics in school so that could be another reason for his lack of knowing who he is.
@@rayisrayrayisray896 That's wonderful. I'm so happy for your father.😀👏👏👏♥️
I know ppl that came from trash but made great distinction .....up to today he can't get clean because of the true pain he has now become
I strongly believe in complete removal and disassociation from parents who are so destructive like his bio parents were. I also don’t think that children who are removed from these type of situations should be told in depth or negatively about their parents. It causes them to believe or have strong fear that they will become their parents. So sad, I sure hope he finds sobriety and healing.
I would pay good money to have Mark photograph me and my 2 babies. His photos are absolutely beautiful and just capture that raw emotion within that person in such a beautiful way.
David homie I am rooting for you! I've been down a lot of the same paths and I'm struggling with my mental health a lot
We must be extremely careful 'What We Ask For'
We may not be prepared as the outcome, may not be what we truly want.
There is hope and you are full of it David! You are bright, aware and have wisdom! May you feel the strength we see in you! Sending prayer and light your way! 🙏🏽💙🔥
Sometimes a tragedy will make oneself humble and ponder on what is really important.
You have purpose that’s why you’re still here ❤️ I’m going through the same the withdrawals ain’t a joke it makes you feel like your dying or having the worst flu & one day we’ll be able to tell our story & help others w this same problem.. I hope everything turns out for you don’t ever give up!! I see it in you to get better you wanting sobriety is a start, now take steps at a time to get there I pray for you 🤞🏽❤️ the sky is the limit 🤞🏽
I use to live in Houston County. Next county to Dickson county. Many prayers for him. He's got this I feel it in my heart. And sad as this sounds he's probably better off on skid row. Middle Tennessee is a freaking drug haven. And the law just looks right past it. It's just so sad. Thanks Soft White Underbelly. You do amazing vids.
He would make a great counselor. Best wishes for David 💗💗💗
He has a beautiful soul! Cant wait to see an update after rehab 🙏💕 stay strong u will get thru this!
Every kid in Middle School and High School should watch this video and learn how drugs only lead to misery, regret and addiction. “JUST SAY NO TO DRUGS!!!!!!!!”
Every person who is thinking about making children should watch this. Start at the beginning.
I have a lot of love for this man ❤️ Continue to pray brother, as I will for you too 🙏🏼
I'm just a suburban white boi, but man my breath began to shutter. Much love
when he said he loved disney channel my heart exploded 😭
We all deserve happiness in life. David please do not be afraid to ask for help.
We all have a past that we are not proud of or ashamed of but you need to learn to let go, drugs don't help they only make those feelings more intense and more shame. It's difficult to stop drugs but there is a whole another life waiting for you to explore and enjoy. You seem like such a good guy. Leave your past life behind and the drugs you will be surprised and wished you did it sooner. If you ever need to talk to anyone all the people that comment will chat with you. I wish you all the best Mx
This is what pain truly looks like.
Hi David, thanks for your story, it is tuff to hear.
It's tuff seeing you in this situation you have courage,
Get out while you still can, imagine how many people you could help.
Love Australia x
Tell me exactly how we're supposed to help these people?
All they know how to do is think about themselves.
I never stop someone when they're looking for their bottom.
That's what it takes and the bottom is like an elevator going down.
If you pull them off too soon they will get back on.
They must get off the elevator on their own. Then they will be open to receive some help. But, it must be earned never given.
I've been there. Been clean 20 years. It took what it took and noone gave me what I've earned. Now I appreciate it. It's value is incalculable.
I can tell people my story and how I made my life livable. Only a few take it and internalize it. Most try to squeeze the easier softer way to make it work.
There is no easy softer way that works.
Everything worth anything takes work to achieve.
Most addicts can't live life on life's terms. At all. Like me.
Today is as easy or as hard as I make it.
When I stay out of my head I'm better off. When I get into my thoughts and feelings is when I'm in danger.
Some people don't have the friends or family to intervene so they need a wake up call. Someone from UA-cam reaching out and getting him into detox may make the world seem less indifferent to him. A stranger saved me. It happens
Every life story is different. What helped you may not help others. There is not a cookie cutter way to help people.
Well done!
To the original post: watch some of the follow up videos such as Matthew who were reached out to by fans of Mark's work who have access to recovery resources. If we have the funds and/or connections, that's how we help people. Addicts can't keep what they have without giving it away
Father God I am in agreement with David’s prayer to please provide him a way off of the streets. I pray father, that the chains of addiction are broken off of David! Please deliver David from evil Jesus and restore his soul. Amen 🙏🏽
Amen
Thank you for praying for him.
Amen 🙏
This man lives about 45 minutes from where we live. I feel so sorry for him. Praying❤️🙏
He's had such a hard terrible life.
I envision David to be a gym junkie, one of those giant softies who everyone's loves. Inspiring and encouraging the new comers. Pray you brother!
When he says he don’t wanna feel that dope sick boy oh boy do I feel him. I’m 110 days clean and those sweats and withdrawal I do not miss at all. He is very self aware. I’ll pray for you man ♥️♥️♥️
Good for you!
Congratulations! That is wonderful! Best of luck to you and stay strong👏
God he has such a kind heart. I can see the child within. ❤️🙏🏽 God bless him every step of the way.
The LSD and Mushrooms may be what’s giving you hope in a hopeless situation. They present a crystal clear window into your soul, your brave to use them, most people won’t. You’re desire to get clean is your power. You can do it!!
The billionaires could save most of these people.
We can wish well all we want, but we are allowing people to live this way by ignoring those who live in real, grotesque excess.
Money doesn't fix drug addiction, homeslice. Quite the opposite, but otherwise i endorse your message.
@@a.wanderer5006 what a short-sighted way to go through life
I would love to see a transition to a resource based economic model and away from this cut throat corporatism we have now.
People don't want to live like this.
However our economy encourages it.
@@jamesjames7889 The fact that you take time to write ignorant shit like this lets me know with the beta male nonsense, you're simply speaking from experience.
@@jamesjames7889 "loser beta males" how old are you? Big game James 😂 spoken like a true beta
What I wouldn’t give to for him to be sober, have him sit down, and quietly listen to the stories of his life. Street intelligence.
🎥 Tell me all about it, son. Go ahead. It’s all alright. Everything’s gonna be alright.
I'm surprised that nobody ever mentions ibogaine for opiate recovery, the stuff saved my life
Most of America doesn’t know about it because it’s so difficult to come by out here. Last time I checked the nearest ibogaine clinic is in Cancun, $5000 total for the dosage and stay/ medical treatment.
Would you mind briefly sharing your experience with it? I’m very interested.
@@kpeezyforsheezy Yea you're right, they make it quite elusive and expensive, also there is always a competitive business edge to anything in alternative healing etc...... My first experience, I had some iboga rootbark stashed away in my collection of ethnobotanicals, I had a phase where I'd ordered all these different plants, anyway somewhere in my life I found myself struggling with severe meth addiction and psychosis for many years. I remember trying the iboga rootbark out of complete desperation, I really had no expectations or belief that this would work, so let's just say that I completely lost any interest in amphetamines and basically just went on to live a good life after the trip, it was a really insightful experience to say the least, the reset was real, no withdrawal or anything, I just remember being baffled how my body and personality just reset it self that fast, everything changed for me after that
I was always very curious about it. Ive always been interested in psychedelics and dissociatves. Super interesting substances. Hearing Ibogaine is one of the best ways for most people to break addiction especially opiates is fascinating. Yeah America does not offer it. So you ordered it online and it worked? That's amazing man. Im six years clean now and have a wonderful life and great family that im very satisfied with, but when i was at my worst i would have loved to try ibogaine. Even now i would for fun. I havent actually done a psychedelic in many many years, but i would have no problem doing them because i dont consider them drugs, def not addictive like cocaine, heroin etc. I consider them positive tools in which you can learn a lot. It is interesting people don't mention ibogaine since statistically its one of the best ways to get off opiates for most people. Maybe a lot have not heard of it or are afraid.
@@billj4525 I've never heard of it.
@@kpeezyforsheezyI went to Mexico for a ibogaine experience
I was an addict for years I gave up my husband house and kids for years in and out of jail and I thought I’d die being an addict I had 7 miscarriages and October 24 2019 was my last fix and 2 months later I found out I was pregnant and now I have a beautiful son I’m 41 and husband 52 and I have all my kids back my husband and my house if I can do it so can u I seen the hope in u and the desire to not give up you’ve been through a lot and once u get clean u can help others with ur story u seem like a great person just bad choices god bless u
He’s gonna pull through I just know it I believe in you man, take your life back I cheering for you
My mind -Thinks I have it bad
Soft white underbelly - hold my addiction
That is one thing I must agree with I’ve been through a lot I’m no tough guy Not a lot of things scare me but the thought of being dope sick is the scariest thing ever to me
Keep fighting, David. You are worthy, you are special. You have what it takes to beat this. Please try. Xoxo.
Yet another good person not being allowed to hit "rock bottom" and turn his life around. All of the enablers, drug dealers, churches/missions, beautiful/warm weather and government benefits make it impossible. There's a lot of privileged folks out there getting filthy rich off of rehab centers/programs btw. Always interesting and informative, thanks!
Even if there weren't these, "enablers," there's no proof that people would get sober because it's an individual's mindset.
Awesome content Mark!!
I hope and pray this man gets clean. He seems so sincere and like a genuine person.
When he talks about the Disney channel it reminds me of the Adams Family film. Where they go to camp and the counselors try to change the behavior of the children with Disney movies. It clearly has some grounding meanings if this guy does the same thing.
Hotel room ,to have fun,nodded out whole time,is jus crazy perspective!
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..I found it humorous how he talked about the Aladdin movie, haha 😄
It was sweet.😄♥️♥️
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It was VERY endearing...it made me smile and giggle..humorous probably wasn't the right word for me to of described it though 🤣🤣👍👍
@@wesleyAlan9179 I knew what you meant.😀👍♥️
Blue pills took my life at 18 this story gave shivers listening I love u man Fr 🙏☮️💟
Crazy to see how much he’s fighting the urge to nod off and pass out… basically his body shutting down from the drugs. Poor guy can barley keep his eyes open. Coming from a recovering addict it’s hard to watch. I used to be the same way
It would be super insightful if you interviewed someone with a food addiction. It could be a past or present addiction. I appreciate your uploads especially the one about the pastors daughter.
I use to high for 10 years I understand his world idk he's pain but he's a good person he's a man 1st and God protects his soldiers and he's a soldier...blessing bro...
David you have a shining light in your eyes. Best of luck to you 🙏🏼🤍
It's a shame David never got proper help in school. Really sad he was overlooked. I know a man who is now a pastor who had the same problem. Fortunately, someone took time to teach him and he's written two books. I hope David will give himself the same chance.
I agree, that shouldn't happen. In the elementary school i went to everyone learned how to read. Even if kids didn't know how to they would take you individually and teach you to make sure you did. That's what most proper schools do. They put a whole year of school in when you're a kid to teaching you to read and write, and do private lessons if necessary. They put a lot of effort to make sure everyone can read and write because it's so important later in life. Sad for David, he must not have went to a good school. It's ok though, he can learn to read and do anything else he puts his mind to including getting off drugs and living a happy life. If you want it bad enough David you can do it, and you will be happy you did when its over. Maybe consider getting into a good program to start .
@@billj4525 Just learning to read and write would probably boost his self esteem.
Again thank u so mark..and David your story is 100 real and relatable
Hi Mark!
Who would benefit from stealing a prosthetic .....madness!
Makes ya think there's more to that story, huh?
Oh no his lungs sound so bad. I hope he finds peace.
I really hope he can find some help! He deserves a clean environment and work through the pain without horrible fentanyl.
Is it me or does he look like Sylvester Stallone???
I see it too. 😆
Yeah, a lil' bit😁👍
Just saw your comment after i posted my own saying the same thing
I hope he gets help soon. He seems ready to receive it. 🙏❤️
When he started talking about his adoptive dad having Alzheimer’s and living the life of a Christian really got to me. My grandmother was the next best thing to a saint. She lived by the word of god and has done nothing but good in her life and she recently died of Alzheimer’s. I still am extremely bitter with god for this. I totally resignate with him on such a deep level.
Please don’t be embarrassed about not being able to read or write! Social services will help you fill out the forms for benefits!!! I work in benefits and I promise I have helped many people fill out the forms! I wish you the best!
Bless his heart. I hope someone can help him.
i wish there more studies done about drug use/homelessness - regarding personalities. he reminds me of a neighbors son- who was a heroine addict. he recently went to rehab and is currently clean- supposed to go to halfway house and then we'll see. i dont see him staying clean, but thats me. i hope the best for him, but am real also. both seem to be very tender hearted though- or wounded severely as a child. and i was always said to wear my feelings on my sleeves. but drugs never interested me. he needs to learn to read and write though. knowledge is power.
Is he reading comments? I hope so !
Please see your dad, that is still uour dad no matter his mental state. Just like you even on drugs your still you and the same person inside. Please see your dad as much as you can before he is gone ❤
" Im afraid of getting dope sick" Its heartbreaking to see someone go thru this struggle.. Damn...
David don't give up on learning. There are homeless services that can get u a tutor or classes for reading, writing and simple math. God bless bro.
Being dope sick will not kill you.
Doing the dope is going to though.
You will recover if you stop. It will be tough. At first. Don't be weak. Fight through it. Break this cycle. You have so much potential.
“Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow.” -T Real
Face the flames my friend. 🔥
Lila, Your writing skills are beautiful. Everything you have said is true. David be the one to break the cycle. It is one of the most freeing feelings in this realm. Facing the flames with a healing purpose is different than what has generally been offered to you. That is why rehabs don't work very well. They are set up to fail.. ~Seek~
Actually, if you’re super addicted to fentanyl, the withdrawal symptoms actually COULD kill you. (Tachycardia is one of the main symptoms that could kill)
Quitting is a lot harder than it seems. Praying for everyone who’s addicted that they get through it alive.
@@SlumCut6661 yes.... Let's take away from the encouragement I've offered.... by correcting something totally unnecessary.
Do you feel better about yourself now?
Ugh.
@@lilaworley8935 it is not unnecessary to say people can die from withdrawals. Many need medical intervention and people should know that
@@cdb48340 do you feel better now that you've educated all of us random UA-cam stranger?
Man him talking about how he feels god did his dad is absolute heart breaking. I really don’t have the strength to watch these videos even though I do enjoy them I feel that there doing something to me I can’t explain I just don’t think it’s healthy god bless all 🙏
21:52 wait a second…dude is 40?!?!? And the Disney channel thing. This just took a whole turn and a half… 😂
I think we all know or live near someone like David…..he’s stuck in the vicious cycle like everyone else. It’s scary. It’s miserable. I can’t imagine what detoxing from fentanyl would be like….hope he can see the light again and make it through this….but so many people are lost forever to this. I wish these guys could do a interview with the mother of my child….maybe they could help her find some clarity and see that she needs to get straight….wherever she is. She’s been lost since a few months after our daughter was born.