Katelyn Nicole Davis brought me here She was 12 years old when she committed suicide on a live stream. In one of her past live streams she sang this song and now it makes me cry every time I hear it.
It turned out really good, even though I don't like the art of my part anymore. For anyone who might need it, it really does get better. When I joined this MAP I couldn't wear short sleeves, my jeans always had blood on them because the scars would tear open at school, I hated myself and my school and my art and my life. Now, that this MAP is finished, I'm clean for 4 months, in a new school. I found friends, my social anxiety is almost gone and my depression is getting better with every month. If anyone who joined this still is in a bad place right now, please keep going and listen to this song and know that there are others and that they care. ♡
That's amazing. I'm grateful you're doing better. It's truly just so strange to have gone through cutting and believing I were better dead and watch these videos a few years later. I really stop to think.. If I succeeded and went through with the things I did, I wouldn't have been there last year when my grandmother suddenly had heart problems that ended up with a severe stroke. I would not have been there to take my first summer as a honor graduate to take care of her every day. I would not have been there for her daughter for the depression she had worrying about her mother not making it through the year. I'm afraid of the thought of what could have happened throughout that summer without me there. For anyone who is depressed and thinking about ending it all, please, please, please remember those you love and what would happen if you weren't there in the coming years.. Your family and friends... What would they think of of themselves for not being able to save you. Even if you don't have many friends or family, All the people you've ever known or met throughout the years would probably feel SO bad they didn't realize the depth of what you were going through. So, I ask of you, just take a day with your normal routine and focus on the people around you, and you might just be surprised.
Which one is your's? I'm still struggling but I've learned to focus on the better things in life, don't stop to live in the past. I know, I've made mistakes. I know, I as fat. I know, I was a nerd. But I know I'm loved.
scattered senpai Well, I was in your position once, maybe for different reasons, but what I got out of it, was at the end of the day, I had to live with the scars and the self hatred I had, not anybody else. And it might sound like I just magically changed, but I didn’t. It’s hard to change hatred into acceptance of yourself, but if I can do it, anyone can.
Simply Teen Wolf but.... why? I dont like posers... the attention is not important,..... some of us NEED attention, to make them happy, but the posers....... they do it because of the attention, not because of the pain.....
there is a poser in my school who claims she gets paper cuts on purpose when my best friend has litterly tried to kill herself several times and the poser knows it too the poser gets attention my friend gets bullied
xX AceAssassin Xx She was saying that some people may not be in pain but will still cut themselves for the attention and that is true not all emo’s cut themselves
People who cut for attention piss me off they aren't really depressed (As a cutter) i know what its like to want to die and end it all, but it will eventually get better as i've learned i absolutely love this song/vid. But at the same i don't like people who think that people who are depressed hurt themselves for attention its not for that...its to escape the emotional pain by causing physical pain i've been cutting since the 5th grade because of bullying however my boyfriend has helped me out of it slowly we've been together for a whole year..over a year actually and he is always there to comfort me i love him and i'm so glad he helped me stop. Cutters out there, Emo's and depressed people, People are out there for you, you just have to let them in to help you.
well some people are in too deep and can't get out and, I hope u know this if someone is into deep u can rarely get out... the only thing that can (well not only thing) get u out is death sometimes but some get out alive but, I see where u are getting at tho. (if this caused offense I am sorry)
No offense taken i understand i was in too deep before my boyfriend came along i was almost ready to end it all once he cam into my life though, he was more important than that and..plus he took all my knives and razors...until i stopped completely now i try to help those who were like i was a year ago.
ahh you. used my part as the thumbmail. (is it spelled right XD?) Just.. ah ;-; i feel so honored This map turned out to be so amazing. Everyone did a great job It was worth the wait ^-^
Hearts are like glass and the clumsy words can accidently break it. Some words were not accidental. The more hateful the words are, the more pieces are broken. Our feelings are like a secret crush. You don't want no one know. Cause you don't want them to tell the person you like your feelings. But if the words slipped. Your crush could know everything. So you keep it inside, well that's what I do with my life. And the cut on your wrists, more scars there will be, the more the blood that flows, the more the pain will grow, the more you try to stop the pain, the more tears come anyway. Let me just end it now Let me be with god Let me grab those pills or gun or rope And say goodbye, To my glass heart, my secret feelings, and my bloody pain. I don't cut myself, but that doesn't mean I'm not suicidal. I don't want to hide the scars, it's to stressful. So goodbye, have a happy rest of you life.
BlueBell Artist I'm sorry that happened, but don't hurt yourself, and please get help if you need it! Someone out there loves you, don't leave them or this world, stay strong! Keep fighting! You don't have to be defined by this, this shouldn't shape your life! Fight against it, don't give in, find something to live for!
my friend betrayed me because I told her I cut... now everyone in my entire grade hates me for some strange reason. anyway, this is completely true for me. I feel like this everyday of my life
not to induce pity, but this keeps happening and happening, but I still pick myself up. I pick myself up to try and let them know that I'm still strong
“I may look like glass, I may crack like glass to. I may put up a front and reflect like glass. But I am as hard as a diamond, but if I’m as hard as a diamond, why do i always feel like I will shatter? Why do I always feel like a flimsy piece of glass? Because at heart, I am a diamond, and diamond are pressured. Assumed to be already perfect, no small cracks even noticed, but diamonds survive the pressure. And become beautiful, while still having that small crack.” Quote directed to others-by me
I used to watch and listen to this song all the time when I was younger, going through all my hospitalizations and treatments. I came back to soak in the bad memories I guess. To all those hurting: I know you are tired of all the empty promises of people who you think don't truly care. "It'll get better" "Just last a little while longer, things will get easier." Or the tips of "don't go before your shampoo and conditioner finish at the same time" I know you are sick and tired. Or angry. Or feel betrayed. All those tough, pent up feelings that you have to get out some way are understandable. You've been through a lot. You still got a long way to go. I know some of you could care less about this world. But I swear on my life that one day things will change. But that's something you have to consistently work on. And yeah, it's exhausting. But it's better than continuing the cycle of pain right? Repeat over and over nice things about yourself till you believe it, tell someone, anyone, about your pain so while you may not have the strength to get better, you can get help either from them or someone they redirect you to. Call your country's hotline. Talk to a friend. Hell, just allow yourself to do nothing but cry. Please, stay here. Please put down whatever you use to hurt yourself with. You might not think that people care about you, or maybe you do but you could care less about how your death would impact them, but please please stay. Fight tooth and nail until one day you will look back and realize that your story, while of pain, is also a success. You fought for your place in life. You fought your own brain, and others ill intent, to live! How amazing would that feel? So please, reach out to someone. Or just talk to a stuffed animal. Please do something else other than hurting yourself. I hope this helps at least one person. Even if this video is, like, the age of dinosaurs! I wish everyone the best of luck in their journey. I hope things get better soon. ❤ With all the love and care in the world, - A dragonfly 🦋
I don't cut...yet. But i scratch, scrape and slap hair ties against my wrists. It hurts, but i don't care. I deserve it. This video really speaks to my soul.
ClarissaKitty 103 please never cut. i do and I've tried to kill myself 3 time. But I'm getting better. So just hold on! So even though it seems like it will be forever it stops.
This came out so many years ago,when I needed it most Rewatching this where I am now I see how much things truly get better This is a beautiful video and I love is just as much as I did before and now I feel I can truly appreciate it
I was so happy when I saw the video title! I'm so glad that this is out, it's such a good song and everyone did so well, it was easily worth the wait! Thank you so very much for hosting this map Shady! And thank you to everyone that participated. 💜 Edit: Thanks for the love Shady!
I may be the only one coming back, but I just spent literal hours trying to find this song. Thank you for allowing my younger self to find this, it helped me a bunch.
Its true but said i am in this faze and i have cuts and portend i am ok but i am not i am in pain i love it for some reason but its because my mom felt me and my dad calls me ugly hes all i have my bf probably blocked me so if you see a person like me not the prettiest out of the bunch dont pick on us you dont know what we may be going through but after all of this i go to school wearing a smile because at least i am breathing and not dead like i want to be because living is hell, painful and worthless but i live for the people around me will get hurt i put them before myself i would die for them and i wouldnt be alive if i didnt have them so thank you people who care about people like me!
1:03 “just another needy kid” that’s why I’m scared to tell people how I feel, there’s to many teens my age faking depression that the ones really suffering get the hate and become scared, i even ask myself at times when I’m having a breakdown of sorts “I’m I faking it for attention?” Ive never said I’m diagnosed with depression to anyone but I still struggle with my emotions and have never seen a doctor but sometimes I think “I’m I really tricking myself into feeling this way? Are my scars and cuts my brain tricking me for attention?” I really want help but every time I try to ask for it, I get too scared and then the thoughts of me faking it come and swallow me.
Yayy I was waiting for this map to be completed and here it iss! It came out so well, everyone did so good ;w; And for everyone, I hope u'll feel better, I believe in you
Cutting wont help you know it i was depressed too but i never cut i always felt it was too messy for me but you can get yourself repaired first try to stay a week or 2 without it if you get this far you should be proud but if you cant take very small steps like 1 day or half a day you can do it if you belive
I feel the same way I fell like cutting but I don't because of my family, my best friend and my boyfriend but there are times I can't handle it anymore.
"Who let it slip and who held it together" could be interpreted 2 different ways. 1) "who let it slip" self harmers and "who held it together" people who had a reason for self harm but didn't. Or 2) "who let it slip" people who comited suicide and "Who held it together" self harmers who are still alive and fighting. - a message from a lost girl...
Where are the likes from this video? This deserve so much more likes! Every one did so well! And made it so emotional... I love it and I love the song 2!
I wanted see this MAP so badly and now there is it! I literally can't stop watching it. Everyone did amazing work with their parts. I'm glad I could be a part of this ;;w;;
@@BlackyShady You we’re actually the main factor to me becoming an animator (As you can see my first vid I didn’t try to copy your old style and I am so sorry about that. I still keep it up because Nostalgia of my channel but if you would like me to remove it I definitely can) thank you so freaking much for inspiring me. I’m glad your channel and you existed.
This is what I call the ugly truth that we see now a days, but with this art... you made it beautiful. Cutting yourself is wrong, and I'm not saying that this made cutting yourself good. I'm saying this art so good! Hope you all have a good day!
I used to self harm....and I’m not proud of it...but vent maps like this one helped me realize that I’m not alone...and the comments have shown me that there is a way out...that it does get better...I’m currently 3 weeks clean, I know, it isn’t long, but I used to cut almost every day, so it is great progress. I owe most of it to you guys, to the comments saying that it does get better, to the comments telling you that you are loved. So, I just wanted to say...thank you, you were right, it does get better❤️
Ash Marringle, I understand the want to cut but to quote the song “my self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go” this will only make it worse in the long run...I hope things will get better for you... ~emm
Really listening to the lyrics hit hard, man. This is a great PMV MAP, btw. I hope anyone who's 'sad' (you know what I mean) gets through it, just continue. There's great parts in life that you wouldn't wanna miss
This song makes it seem so easy. I really wish it was though. Not to be a downer here, but as time went on I came to a conclusion. What your going through doesn't get better, how well you can trick yourself into thinking that it does gets better.
I'm so happy! A very good artist [you] did a MAP of my favorite song! ! I'm proud of you, good boi :) [I follow you and I liked the video! now I'm watching all your other creations 👌]
I don't really know why but while I was watching this, the scars on my arm and legs started to sting, almost like they've been cut open again. I'm an extremely emotionally sensitive person, and I can relate to this, so I'm literally crying my eyes out
"Posers are awful" "There just looking for attention" But why are they?? Why is nobody talking about this?? Some people cut for attention, that's true..but why? Some people legit have to cut themselves for someone to finally notice them...some people get on my nerves "They're bad people!'' "I was suicidal for years and this girl had the audacity to cut herself for attention!" I swear I hear that way too much.
I agree. If you are so unnoticed, neglected and forgotten that the only way to be noticed was to hurt yourself. . I’m not defending them, but that’s sad.
One of the things I found sometimes helps is listening to metal. It seems a bit like the harsher and more brutal parts take a bit of your own pain with them.
tenebrae OMG i absolutly love ur art i spend two hours finding who made the BEST art and i findout its u and im like this is everything i needed your animals, oc's, and art is beautiful!!!!!!
To the people that titled this inappropriate and offensive, screw you. This helps people. It it not condoning self harm. It is saying it will get better and that there is no good reasons to do so.
I know this was posted several months ago, but I still wanted to comment. I wanted to say that this map was absolutely beautiful, and everyone's parts are amazing!!
This is so well made. And it reveals real problems that people have. This struck me emotionally and I realized many things about myself. I realized I wasn’t alone in this world. We’re all here for eachother. And soon everything will get better. Even if we we continue to do what we’ve always done. Eventually things will get better(sorry if this is an odd comment. But I felt the need to post it)
For all who are reading this, just know, you matter! You don't deserve any of these cuts I know what life is like, do not accuse me of "you don't know what it is to suffer" because I know! I know how is to don't have friends (near)... Life can be hard, and each one goes through their own valleys. But let me tell you, all valley one day has an end and you start to rise/climb. You are precious, you are a unique human being, there is no one like you, you are unique! You are so precious and worthy that the son of Love died for you to have life This Son already bled all he could, you don't have to bleed anymore... And as this Son rose to life again, you can too You may not believe in God, but just know that He knows how you feel, he doesn't judge you and waits for you to call him "Dad"... From a person who suffered a lot already, I can tell a thing: depression, bad days, bad people, all the pain, passes, nothing of this will last forever! So please, let this cuts turn into scars, scars that will tell about someone who endured the battle, and can smile again. I can't convert anyone, it's a personal choice, but when you want, there will be a God waiting for you. I can ensure you that battle and endure with him is much much easier. Live with him (it's not religion), itself, is happiness So for everyone who read until now, just know, you matter and you'll make it!
this is so happy and upbeat it made me barf rainbows. anyway, I don't believe in God. you can't change my mind. and you cannot change my view of things. sure there are highs, but before and after highs you have to come plummeting back down. maybe you dont see this way, but I do
I remember when I was younger I liked this song for all the wrong reasons... now I'm older I'm horrified at my past self. I hate how I listened to this and thought it was "ok" as in if it had no true meaning as in it was like another random song.
@@ebonydusk5512 I wasn't being literal. I know not everyone is depressed, I was referring to the people who fake it for attention which is why I quoted the lyric that included the word "posers"
Well, most people are depressed in the internet are depressdd cuz alot of us are in the sa.e situation, and we can talk and somebody will listen, plz dont say that..... it just made me worse
"keep your secrets covered up up up, we don't need another cut cut cut" I can't tell you how many times I've repeated that line to myself. This song is relatable on an unimaginable level
5 years since I last cut and I still severely struggle with it. My parents weren't supportive and I had to figure things out on my own. I promise this isn't the answer. I won't say things don't get better cuz for some it has. But for me I'm still fighting. All I can say is keep fighting. You may not feel strong, shit I don't, but we are! Lift each other up. We will get better. Together. And if not ill help you if I can't help myself. They say you can't love others if you don't love yourself and thats not true. I hate myself but I don't wanna see anyone hurt in tears or pain. I got yall. Yall need to talk or vent im here man. Weather on here my channel fb whatever. I got you. I'm 21 and still fighting. I will help fight for you and give the support you need
I don't know if you lost got your ass kicked or straight up failed but those are the moments that define us it pushes you to your limits and futher beyond and makes you stronger then you thoughts you ever would be
me to i hate i can but i can i hate the scars and cuts on my wrist if you can relate im sorry life have led you to this please dont cut i know i do and im trying to stop i just dont want others to feel this way
I Used to want to cut my self but I didn't want to feel how much pain it would do but then I remember that god is always with us and he gave us everything we have now
It is scary that when I was just 11 this rang with me so much. I actually didn't listen to the lyrics at all, I saw all the tools they used and it gave me ideas. I hate what I did back then.
Katelyn Nicole Davis brought me here
She was 12 years old when she committed suicide on a live stream.
In one of her past live streams she sang this song and now it makes me cry every time I hear it.
Who?
@@luckytiger6746 -w/ you on this one--
@@warmaesthetics3484 194 people do
@@warmaesthetics3484 Hm?
@@warmaesthetics3484 need the caps lock?
"My self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go."
*Me:* Damn! That's deep!
Super Radical well said ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
That’s what she said
I know but its true
Well guess what I go through what they go through €vërŷd@ŷ I can't handle it i can't even sleep iv been awake for 3 days
I don't feel tired
I've listened to this 17 times tonight and I'm still going.
same
17? Ha! I have a highscore of 69 times i have replayed this :3
I can't stop listening to this and realizing That it relates to my life
This has been on repeat since I woke up
Same here...
It turned out really good, even though I don't like the art of my part anymore. For anyone who might need it, it really does get better. When I joined this MAP I couldn't wear short sleeves, my jeans always had blood on them because the scars would tear open at school, I hated myself and my school and my art and my life. Now, that this MAP is finished, I'm clean for 4 months, in a new school. I found friends, my social anxiety is almost gone and my depression is getting better with every month. If anyone who joined this still is in a bad place right now, please keep going and listen to this song and know that there are others and that they care. ♡
the Mad Owl Your story made me cry. So proud of you, I hope you keep inspiring people with your story!
That's great! I'm still struggling with anorexia and social anxiety but I'm getting there. Slowly but surely.
That's amazing. I'm grateful you're doing better. It's truly just so strange to have gone through cutting and believing I were better dead and watch these videos a few years later. I really stop to think.. If I succeeded and went through with the things I did, I wouldn't have been there last year when my grandmother suddenly had heart problems that ended up with a severe stroke. I would not have been there to take my first summer as a honor graduate to take care of her every day. I would not have been there for her daughter for the depression she had worrying about her mother not making it through the year. I'm afraid of the thought of what could have happened throughout that summer without me there. For anyone who is depressed and thinking about ending it all, please, please, please remember those you love and what would happen if you weren't there in the coming years.. Your family and friends... What would they think of of themselves for not being able to save you. Even if you don't have many friends or family, All the people you've ever known or met throughout the years would probably feel SO bad they didn't realize the depth of what you were going through. So, I ask of you, just take a day with your normal routine and focus on the people around you, and you might just be surprised.
Which one is your's?
I'm still struggling but I've learned to focus on the better things in life, don't stop to live in the past. I know, I've made mistakes. I know, I as fat. I know, I was a nerd.
But I know I'm loved.
Thanks so much, I kinda understand but instead of cuts I bite myself, me and my sister hate blood anyway... Says the one watching thie
5 months clean. I promise you it gets better.
scattered senpai Well, I was in your position once, maybe for different reasons, but what I got out of it, was at the end of the day, I had to live with the scars and the self hatred I had, not anybody else. And it might sound like I just magically changed, but I didn’t. It’s hard to change hatred into acceptance of yourself, but if I can do it, anyone can.
Uno Ringtail I've been 3 months clean
one day clean...i hope it does get better i would tell the story of why i started but i dont wanna (something about parents .-.)
Ari Blue its been 6 for me. Your right. It does get better.
Mines 30 minutes clean
I love the lyric “posers who still cut themselves up for the attention
Simply Teen Wolf but.... why? I dont like posers... the attention is not important,..... some of us NEED attention, to make them happy, but the posers....... they do it because of the attention, not because of the pain.....
They’ll still hurting themselves, it shouldn’t be ignored just because of that, because they’ll keep doing it.
Most people do that, and I don't exactally think its right
there is a poser in my school who claims she gets paper cuts on purpose when my best friend has litterly tried to kill herself several times and the poser knows it too the poser gets attention my friend gets bullied
AKA everyone in my school
Just because we're emo doesn't mean we cut. It's not a stereo type. We don't do it for attention. It's a way to vent our pain.
xX AceAssassin Xx I wish people whould understand that
xX AceAssassin Xx She was saying that some people may not be in pain but will still cut themselves for the attention and that is true not all emo’s cut themselves
@Emory Carter I know how you feel my other side of the family hurts me they hate me because I have depression
@Emory Carter it's ok I am getting better my friends and my boyfriend help me out a lot. People like you help me feel like I'm not alone.
@Emory Carter no problem
Wow.... everyone did amazing. That was so emotional and just made me stop for a second to think.
Same...
People who cut for attention piss me off they aren't really depressed (As a cutter) i know what its like to want to die and end it all, but it will eventually get better as i've learned i absolutely love this song/vid. But at the same i don't like people who think that people who are depressed hurt themselves for attention its not for that...its to escape the emotional pain by causing physical pain i've been cutting since the 5th grade because of bullying however my boyfriend has helped me out of it slowly we've been together for a whole year..over a year actually and he is always there to comfort me i love him and i'm so glad he helped me stop. Cutters out there, Emo's and depressed people, People are out there for you, you just have to let them in to help you.
well some people are in too deep and can't get out and, I hope u know this if someone is into deep u can rarely get out... the only thing that can (well not only thing) get u out is death sometimes but some get out alive but, I see where u are getting at tho. (if this caused offense I am sorry)
No offense taken i understand i was in too deep before my boyfriend came along i was almost ready to end it all once he cam into my life though, he was more important than that and..plus he took all my knives and razors...until i stopped completely now i try to help those who were like i was a year ago.
STAY DETERMINED! ❤
Bish If I had a bf since 5th grade XD
Jk I'm sorry I shouldn't joke about this
“You know the deal, no one gives a damn!”
I always get emotional at this part for some unknown reason.
ahh you. used my part as the thumbmail. (is it spelled right XD?)
Just.. ah ;-; i feel so honored
This map turned out to be so amazing. Everyone did a great job It was worth the wait ^-^
Yes, everyone did an amazing job!! OwO And yeah, I really like this frame from your part ;3 soooo i choose it for the thumbnail xD
Caninedoctor dang, I wish a coude draw that well, and yes you did spell it right
Caninedoctor how THE ACTUAL FUCK do you have oly 137 subs ?!!? (138 now - w -)
Love your art
The map turned out amazing!!
this hurts my soul
ha... i know what u mean
It would hurt my soul if I had one
Frost Byte for me it just made remember...... but I don't know what that I'm remermbering.
Edit: I think I now know what I was remembering,...
i know just watcha mean heh
same
when i was younger, this video was one of my comfort videos tbh. /pos
Hearts are like glass and the clumsy words can accidently break it. Some words were not accidental. The more hateful the words are, the more pieces are broken. Our feelings are like a secret crush. You don't want no one know. Cause you don't want them to tell the person you like your feelings. But if the words slipped. Your crush could know everything. So you keep it inside, well that's what I do with my life.
And the cut on your wrists, more scars there will be, the more the blood that flows, the more the pain will grow, the more you try to stop the pain, the more tears come anyway.
Let me just end it now
Let me be with god
Let me grab those pills or gun or rope
And say goodbye,
To my glass heart, my secret feelings, and my bloody pain.
I don't cut myself, but that doesn't mean I'm not suicidal. I don't want to hide the scars, it's to stressful.
So goodbye, have a happy rest of you life.
wow
BlueBell Artist
I'm sorry that happened, but don't hurt yourself, and please get help if you need it! Someone out there loves you, don't leave them or this world, stay strong! Keep fighting! You don't have to be defined by this, this shouldn't shape your life! Fight against it, don't give in, find something to live for!
my friend betrayed me because I told her I cut...
now everyone in my entire grade hates me for some strange reason.
anyway, this is completely true for me. I feel like this everyday of my life
not to induce pity, but this keeps happening and happening, but I still pick myself up. I pick myself up to try and let them know that I'm still strong
Same but please don't leave. I'll keep fighting even though I want so bad to die. Please try to fight on ward.
I FINALLY HERE! !! AND I LOVE IT EVERYONE DID SO GOOPDDD
My heart isn't fragile like glass. it's fragile like a bomb.
BOOM. POETIC.
forget about my second remark. please and thank you.
Gosh I love this song and it's completed!?!?!? Wowwowowowowow Thanks for letting me in ^^!
“I may look like glass, I may crack like glass to. I may put up a front and reflect like glass. But I am as hard as a diamond, but if I’m as hard as a diamond, why do i always feel like I will shatter? Why do I always feel like a flimsy piece of glass? Because at heart, I am a diamond, and diamond are pressured. Assumed to be already perfect, no small cracks even noticed, but diamonds survive the pressure. And become beautiful, while still having that small crack.” Quote directed to others-by me
I used to watch and listen to this song all the time when I was younger, going through all my hospitalizations and treatments. I came back to soak in the bad memories I guess.
To all those hurting:
I know you are tired of all the empty promises of people who you think don't truly care. "It'll get better" "Just last a little while longer, things will get easier." Or the tips of "don't go before your shampoo and conditioner finish at the same time"
I know you are sick and tired. Or angry. Or feel betrayed. All those tough, pent up feelings that you have to get out some way are understandable. You've been through a lot. You still got a long way to go.
I know some of you could care less about this world.
But I swear on my life that one day things will change. But that's something you have to consistently work on. And yeah, it's exhausting. But it's better than continuing the cycle of pain right? Repeat over and over nice things about yourself till you believe it, tell someone, anyone, about your pain so while you may not have the strength to get better, you can get help either from them or someone they redirect you to. Call your country's hotline. Talk to a friend. Hell, just allow yourself to do nothing but cry.
Please, stay here. Please put down whatever you use to hurt yourself with. You might not think that people care about you, or maybe you do but you could care less about how your death would impact them, but please please stay. Fight tooth and nail until one day you will look back and realize that your story, while of pain, is also a success. You fought for your place in life. You fought your own brain, and others ill intent, to live! How amazing would that feel?
So please, reach out to someone. Or just talk to a stuffed animal. Please do something else other than hurting yourself.
I hope this helps at least one person. Even if this video is, like, the age of dinosaurs!
I wish everyone the best of luck in their journey. I hope things get better soon. ❤
With all the love and care in the world,
- A dragonfly 🦋
I don't cut...yet. But i scratch, scrape and slap hair ties against my wrists. It hurts, but i don't care. I deserve it. This video really speaks to my soul.
ClarissaKitty 103 please never cut. i do and I've tried to kill myself 3 time. But I'm getting better. So just hold on! So even though it seems like it will be forever it stops.
you don't deserve it I've cut scratched burnt and I know it hurts but just hang on and keep fighting it'll get better ❤
ClarissaKitty 103 Yea I an a cutter and so for a week clean but Im thinking about it
ClarissaKitty 103 do you have to deal with bullies?
Silly Gaming Girl do you deal with bullies
This came out so many years ago,when I needed it most
Rewatching this where I am now I see how much things truly get better
This is a beautiful video and I love is just as much as I did before and now I feel I can truly appreciate it
I was so happy when I saw the video title! I'm so glad that this is out, it's such a good song and everyone did so well, it was easily worth the wait! Thank you so very much for hosting this map Shady! And thank you to everyone that participated. 💜
Edit: Thanks for the love Shady!
this was my comfort video years ago, and it's still great. thank you for shaping my life, creator.
Headphones broken....
Idk... I just turn the volume down and lock my door... No one needs to know how much pain I'm in, NO WAY!!!
BlueBell Artist are you okay now?
I may be the only one coming back, but I just spent literal hours trying to find this song. Thank you for allowing my younger self to find this, it helped me a bunch.
im not alone but i feel like it,
ill spend my heart for anyone to be known
others have it WAY worse...
why am i like this?
Shusi boo This is exactly how I feel
just because other people have it worse, it doesnt mean we are not allowed to have issues and feel like crap about them;;
@Gone. Exactly, I struggled so much to realize this
ahhhh its done!!
Its too relatable.
I love it.
Great job to everyone.
This came out so awesome! It looks great!
Everyone did wonderful job! ^-^
I'm proud of you all :3
Its true but said i am in this faze and i have cuts and portend i am ok but i am not i am in pain i love it for some reason but its because my mom felt me and my dad calls me ugly hes all i have my bf probably blocked me so if you see a person like me not the prettiest out of the bunch dont pick on us you dont know what we may be going through but after all of this i go to school wearing a smile because at least i am breathing and not dead like i want to be because living is hell, painful and worthless but i live for the people around me will get hurt i put them before myself i would die for them and i wouldnt be alive if i didnt have them so thank you people who care about people like me!
Phase* pretend*
Sorry it was just bugging me.
I was like you but I gets better i promise
Its not a faze
1:03 “just another needy kid” that’s why I’m scared to tell people how I feel, there’s to many teens my age faking depression that the ones really suffering get the hate and become scared, i even ask myself at times when I’m having a breakdown of sorts “I’m I faking it for attention?” Ive never said I’m diagnosed with depression to anyone but I still struggle with my emotions and have never seen a doctor but sometimes I think “I’m I really tricking myself into feeling this way? Are my scars and cuts my brain tricking me for attention?” I really want help but every time I try to ask for it, I get too scared and then the thoughts of me faking it come and swallow me.
Yayy I was waiting for this map to be completed and here it iss! It came out so well, everyone did so good ;w; And for everyone, I hope u'll feel better, I believe in you
I'm not afraid to die... I'm afraid to live. Stay strong you are loved by someone at home♡
Walking Trash I'm not
I have cut. I still do. I am depressed. It hurts
xX AceAssassin Xx same.....
xX AceAssassin Xx I do to i dont cut as much as i used to but i scratch bite punch and everything in between
Cutting wont help you know it i was depressed too but i never cut i always felt it was too messy for me but you can get yourself repaired first try to stay a week or 2 without it if you get this far you should be proud but if you cant take very small steps like 1 day or half a day you can do it if you belive
xX AceAssassin Xx I no how you feel and same
I feel the same way I fell like cutting but I don't because of my family, my best friend and my boyfriend but there are times I can't handle it anymore.
"Who let it slip and who held it together" could be interpreted 2 different ways.
1) "who let it slip" self harmers and "who held it together" people who had a reason for self harm but didn't.
Or
2) "who let it slip" people who comited suicide and "Who held it together" self harmers who are still alive and fighting.
- a message from a lost girl...
Rip wish i didnt drop out!! IT LOOKS AMAZING ❤️❤️
I absolutely LOVED this, helped me realize some things about myself... anyways, thanks for putting this together!
Where are the likes from this video? This deserve so much more likes! Every one did so well! And made it so emotional... I love it and I love the song 2!
Ahhh! Everyone did so great! Thank you for letting me participate in the map! Its amazing!
This.... is beautiful and I connect to it so much
I was clean. I broke that last night. I swear you'll have your ups and downs but please keep your head up! Your so worth it.
OMG it is yaaaaaay I have been waiting sooooooo long to see this map yaaay
Holy... I have no words, just *amazing!*
Jesus Crist lmao
God, I love Ariel Bloomer!
I wanted see this MAP so badly and now there is it! I literally can't stop watching it. Everyone did amazing work with their parts. I'm glad I could be a part of this ;;w;;
This is truly beautiful! Amazing job to everyone who took part. 👍❤
Thank you for you opportunity old Tenebrae Studios. Now Shadybeast I looked up to you for so long and remember all the way back 6 years ago.
Your welcome. I hope you doing great.
@@BlackyShady You we’re actually the main factor to me becoming an animator (As you can see my first vid I didn’t try to copy your old style and I am so sorry about that. I still keep it up because Nostalgia of my channel but if you would like me to remove it I definitely can) thank you so freaking much for inspiring me. I’m glad your channel and you existed.
This is what I call the ugly truth that we see now a days, but with this art... you made it beautiful. Cutting yourself is wrong, and I'm not saying that this made cutting yourself good. I'm saying this art so good! Hope you all have a good day!
Is so good* sorry!
i never have good days anymore
I used to self harm....and I’m not proud of it...but vent maps like this one helped me realize that I’m not alone...and the comments have shown me that there is a way out...that it does get better...I’m currently 3 weeks clean, I know, it isn’t long, but I used to cut almost every day, so it is great progress. I owe most of it to you guys, to the comments saying that it does get better, to the comments telling you that you are loved. So, I just wanted to say...thank you, you were right, it does get better❤️
Yes! This is so amazing!!
My favorite song. Explains my life
This explains me and my depression but I only cut myself because I want to feel the pain when I cut
Ash Marringle, I understand the want to cut but to quote the song “my self-hatred never took me where I wanted to go” this will only make it worse in the long run...I hope things will get better for you...
~emm
Really listening to the lyrics hit hard, man. This is a great PMV MAP, btw. I hope anyone who's 'sad' (you know what I mean) gets through it, just continue. There's great parts in life that you wouldn't wanna miss
This song makes it seem so easy. I really wish it was though. Not to be a downer here, but as time went on I came to a conclusion. What your going through doesn't get better, how well you can trick yourself into thinking that it does gets better.
this is amazing and so emotion evoking, it really puts in words how (I) people with depression feel, great job to all the artists :'S
I'm so happy! A very good artist [you] did a MAP of my favorite song! ! I'm proud of you, good boi :) [I follow you and I liked the video! now I'm watching all your other creations 👌]
I just got chills over and over again... 😭😭😭
Can you please do the song where are you now and fight song and if you can please make your own song people would love it so so much
My favourite line is "and hornable mentions" its speaks that people can feel the same amount of pain but never hurt themselves
Surprised nobody is talking about how they want to kill themselves. Great map btw!
Ice Age you are😋
Eh
I'm not suicidal, I only bite myself so it goes away and I can wear short sleeves
I want to..
I don't really know why but while I was watching this, the scars on my arm and legs started to sting, almost like they've been cut open again. I'm an extremely emotionally sensitive person, and I can relate to this, so I'm literally crying my eyes out
"Posers are awful" "There just looking for attention"
But why are they?? Why is nobody talking about this?? Some people cut for attention, that's true..but why? Some people legit have to cut themselves for someone to finally notice them...some people get on my nerves "They're bad people!'' "I was suicidal for years and this girl had the audacity to cut herself for attention!" I swear I hear that way too much.
I agree. If you are so unnoticed, neglected and forgotten that the only way to be noticed was to hurt yourself. .
I’m not defending them, but that’s sad.
The animation and editing just make this so much better!
this song relates to me really well
me to
One of the things I found sometimes helps is listening to metal. It seems a bit like the harsher and more brutal parts take a bit of your own pain with them.
Tis map is awsome the art is fantastic and love the song😚
I cut eaven though im pnly 12 i did not take part in the map pls help
tenebrae OMG i absolutly love ur art i spend two hours finding who made the BEST art and i findout its u and im like this is everything i needed your animals, oc's, and art is beautiful!!!!!!
To the people that titled this inappropriate and offensive, screw you. This helps people. It it not condoning self harm. It is saying it will get better and that there is no good reasons to do so.
Wdym? If you mean the "under the knife" part then that's the actual song, other than that these are literal vents from the people that drew them
This holds some very strong memories in my mind. Thank you everyone for this project
I’m not clean yet but maybe in the future
I know this was posted several months ago, but I still wanted to comment.
I wanted to say that this map was absolutely beautiful, and everyone's parts are amazing!!
this is
PERFECT
This is so well made. And it reveals real problems that people have. This struck me emotionally and I realized many things about myself. I realized I wasn’t alone in this world. We’re all here for eachother. And soon everything will get better. Even if we we continue to do what we’ve always done. Eventually things will get better(sorry if this is an odd comment. But I felt the need to post it)
For all who are reading this, just know, you matter! You don't deserve any of these cuts
I know what life is like, do not accuse me of "you don't know what it is to suffer" because I know!
I know how is to don't have friends (near)...
Life can be hard, and each one goes through their own valleys. But let me tell you, all valley one day has an end and you start to rise/climb.
You are precious, you are a unique human being, there is no one like you, you are unique!
You are so precious and worthy that the son of Love died for you to have life This Son already bled all he could, you don't have to bleed anymore...
And as this Son rose to life again, you can too
You may not believe in God, but just know that He knows how you feel, he doesn't judge you and waits for you to call him "Dad"...
From a person who suffered a lot already, I can tell a thing: depression, bad days, bad people, all the pain, passes, nothing of this will last forever!
So please, let this cuts turn into scars, scars that will tell about someone who endured the battle, and can smile again.
I can't convert anyone, it's a personal choice, but when you want, there will be a God waiting for you. I can ensure you that battle and endure with him is much much easier. Live with him (it's not religion), itself, is happiness
So for everyone who read until now, just know, you matter and you'll make it!
this is so happy and upbeat it made me barf rainbows.
anyway, I don't believe in God. you can't change my mind. and you cannot change my view of things. sure there are highs, but before and after highs you have to come plummeting back down. maybe you dont see this way, but I do
@@ebonydusk5512 see, this is how it really feels. All the positivity in the world and I just wanna like-
how....? it feels like almost a neverending suffering...
Two years ago, when I first watched this, I never thought I would be here now. But I am.
And I am happy.
I remember when I was younger I liked this song for all the wrong reasons... now I'm older I'm horrified at my past self. I hate how I listened to this and thought it was "ok" as in if it had no true meaning as in it was like another random song.
This has been one of my favorite MAPs for a long time now. This song gets more meaningful to me each year.
Me: depressed
Song: exists
Me: 👀 O H
Lol xD
I love how she pointed out people who only cut for attention because that’s what my friend does while I do it because I’m hurting on the inside
"Posers who still cut themselves up for the attention"
Woh, true. Welcome to the internet. Basically everyone is depressed and cuts themselves.
Laventure Heart I don't cut myself. but I am still depressed. so please don't say this about people. not everyone is depressed or cuts themselves.
@@ebonydusk5512
I wasn't being literal. I know not everyone is depressed, I was referring to the people who fake it for attention which is why I quoted the lyric that included the word "posers"
Laventure Heart oh okay..
sorry if I made you upset in anyway, it's just that I most likely thought of a different thing at the time..
OwO
Well, most people are depressed in the internet are depressdd cuz alot of us are in the sa.e situation, and we can talk and somebody will listen, plz dont say that..... it just made me worse
I've have never went to a therapist.. but it hurts and I have almost cut myself hey at least I still have my sanity!! maybe~
your song helped me from starting to cut my feelings away
You did a great job with this,
"keep your secrets covered up up up, we don't need another cut cut cut" I can't tell you how many times I've repeated that line to myself. This song is relatable on an unimaginable level
5 years since I last cut and I still severely struggle with it. My parents weren't supportive and I had to figure things out on my own. I promise this isn't the answer. I won't say things don't get better cuz for some it has. But for me I'm still fighting. All I can say is keep fighting. You may not feel strong, shit I don't, but we are! Lift each other up. We will get better. Together. And if not ill help you if I can't help myself. They say you can't love others if you don't love yourself and thats not true. I hate myself but I don't wanna see anyone hurt in tears or pain. I got yall. Yall need to talk or vent im here man. Weather on here my channel fb whatever. I got you. I'm 21 and still fighting. I will help fight for you and give the support you need
I couldn't of said this any better.
@@TheFoxtabulousVixie I really don't know what to say but yeah I still mean this
23 and still mean every word. Keep fighting
This looks amazing. o0o Everyone did so great om
I’m not heartless I have a heart made of glass and I don’t want it to break
I don't cut, mostly because of my phobia of sharp objects. But I like pain, I cause myself pain in other ways. I guess I'm an honorable mention.
I recognize a lot of these artists from other maps....
I don't know if you lost got your ass kicked or straight up failed but those are the moments that define us it pushes you to your limits and futher beyond and makes you stronger then you thoughts you ever would be
soooo goooooood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Suggestions have brought me here, once more.
Five Years later, a lot has certainly changed in that time.
Ik this old but its really good ❤
This reminds me of the “To This Day” map, they’re both amazing
I just subbed. Best map channel EVERRRRRRR AAAAAAAAAAAA
This made my day that someone actually noticed the fact ppl r hurting out there and that some ppl need to realize wat they r doing
I can relate to this
me to i hate i can but i can i hate the scars and cuts on my wrist
if you can relate im sorry life have led you to this please dont cut i know i do and im trying to stop i just dont want others to feel this way
I want to stop but I hate myself so much idk what else to do
I Used to want to cut my self but I didn't want to feel how much pain it would do but then I remember that god is always with us and he gave us everything we have now
It is scary that when I was just 11 this rang with me so much. I actually didn't listen to the lyrics at all, I saw all the tools they used and it gave me ideas. I hate what I did back then.