pov: it’s the middle of the night and you're upset ; a playlist slowed

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  • @alonelost2561
    @alonelost2561  Рік тому +579

    Why am I not the first choice...?( a sad slowed playlist)
    - ua-cam.com/video/zpsUw0GP9xM/v-deo.html

    • @emmmmmm8938
      @emmmmmm8938 Рік тому +11

      What is the artists name of the last song? :)

    • @reaganglaser9682
      @reaganglaser9682 Рік тому +2

      😭

    • @damarianatrench
      @damarianatrench Рік тому +2

      @@emmmmmm8938 I really wanna know too

    • @emmmmmm8938
      @emmmmmm8938 Рік тому +3

      @@damarianatrench oh I found it the title is To Die For by Sam Smith

    • @emmmmmm8938
      @emmmmmm8938 Рік тому

      @@charlimihhalaki7489 fr

  • @gavisva
    @gavisva 2 роки тому +10269

    It's so funny how all of us think of a different person, different experiences and different stories yet we feel the same pain within us.

    • @spookidoxzsghost
      @spookidoxzsghost 2 роки тому +50

      Too true

    • @wanawshdarwish1451
      @wanawshdarwish1451 2 роки тому +19

      Ikr

    • @sarafitjeans2257
      @sarafitjeans2257 2 роки тому +25

      i wanna to say that soooo true :(

    • @Chelsea10724
      @Chelsea10724 2 роки тому +40

      Most relatable statement every I used to be such a bubbly person until my father passed away and now it’s like I’m a completely different person

    • @ver1son
      @ver1son 2 роки тому +17

      @@Chelsea10724 That must be so horrible to deal with. Im sorry for your loss

  • @enderbooo7953
    @enderbooo7953 2 роки тому +2313

    love how parents tell us 'oh you can trust me, you can tell me everything'
    then when you try to tell them everything, they talk over you, ignore your feelings, and don't even take them into consideration. but when they want to tell you everything, they expect you to listen? im sick and tired of the same shit over and over again, i just want to feel okay again

    • @marializamelachrinou4363
      @marializamelachrinou4363 2 роки тому +27

      u aint alone. stay strong bud. i love you so much and im proud of you

    • @ashweeb1947
      @ashweeb1947 2 роки тому +13

      @@marializamelachrinou4363 you too stay strong, and their right parents do that all the time, and you can’t say anything about or they’ll just say that your play the victim again. Like do you even care about what I feel like?

    • @marializamelachrinou4363
      @marializamelachrinou4363 2 роки тому +14

      @@ashweeb1947 can relate dude. im sorry to hear that. its gonna be okay one day though. keep it up!

    • @ashweeb1947
      @ashweeb1947 2 роки тому +6

      @@marializamelachrinou4363 Thank you so much!

    • @marializamelachrinou4363
      @marializamelachrinou4363 2 роки тому +6

      @@ashweeb1947 anytime!

  • @krsvy
    @krsvy 2 роки тому +4451

    No matter how often you get told, that you’re loved and you’re not alone. Yet at the end of the day you’re on your own and you cry yourself to sleep.

    • @mayabianchi968
      @mayabianchi968 2 роки тому +21

      So true😞

    • @dd_chanel4912
      @dd_chanel4912 2 роки тому +14

      You have to get out of your comfort zone buddy or it will hurt you forever go and do it for you and for your future family 🤞

    • @VipersBiteGacha
      @VipersBiteGacha 2 роки тому +23

      The one person you can trust is you pillow, it doesn’t judge you

    • @Motivated_Happysadness
      @Motivated_Happysadness 2 роки тому +6

      @@VipersBiteGacha is a pillow a person? Lol but i understand you.

    • @elizabethchilders3194
      @elizabethchilders3194 2 роки тому +3

      Yes that is true with me

  • @Wolfsta
    @Wolfsta Рік тому +4718

    i’m not depressed but i’m not happy, i can go all day laughing and smiling, but when i’m finally alone i turn into an emotional wreck..

    • @idek_0752
      @idek_0752 Рік тому +192

      “Your body is honest. When you’re in physical pain, you cry. But the heart is a liar. It stays quiet even when it’s hurting. Then, when you’re asleep, you finally weep and whimper like a dog.”
      I related to your comment and then this quote popped into my mind

    • @tatumhansotia9890
      @tatumhansotia9890 Рік тому +21

      I relate too

    • @Wolfsta
      @Wolfsta Рік тому +18

      @@idek_0752 thats an interesting comment

    • @Wolfsta
      @Wolfsta Рік тому

      @@tatumhansotia9890 🙏

    • @lipimurmu4730
      @lipimurmu4730 Рік тому +32

      Hate how much I relate to this.

  • @bluejay_6477
    @bluejay_6477 2 роки тому +3188

    Does anybody else hate the past? But not for the bad stuff, but because the good and happy memories were made then, and you can never go back to them?

    • @picollocorsa
      @picollocorsa 2 роки тому +5

      @Mr. Noobi same

    • @coolbaconkid614
      @coolbaconkid614 2 роки тому +2

      @Mr. Noobi Me to man

    • @MuscularPeterGriffin
      @MuscularPeterGriffin 2 роки тому +31

      wtf that’s what is killing me. all the good old times man. no sadness like this ever was

    • @kailani276
      @kailani276 2 роки тому +9

      To be honest, I don't really have a part of my life I want to go back too. I don't really have any memories of good times, when everything was okay all of it is just bad. Even from the beginning. And I suppose that's probably what hurts me the most

    • @angelyramirez4165
      @angelyramirez4165 2 роки тому +2

      Thats me 😢

  • @sixpencee9295
    @sixpencee9295 2 роки тому +16191

    We gotta respect our pillow for catching our tears when nobody does

    • @ashweeb1947
      @ashweeb1947 2 роки тому +182

      That’s the sad truth…love yourselves. Things do get better. Stay strong for that one person, even if you don’t think there’s anyone who cares, there always will. They just won’t Amit to it. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @infinite5019
      @infinite5019 2 роки тому +80

      my bath waters doing that :')

    • @jfashion04
      @jfashion04 2 роки тому +29

      Ow stop.

    • @fionacorro7663
      @fionacorro7663 2 роки тому +59

      bro who hurt you.....I hope u feel better after u cry

    • @brendablanco9782
      @brendablanco9782 2 роки тому +11

      Yupp..😐

  • @SolBladeGS
    @SolBladeGS 2 роки тому +2014

    Our parents always say to not trust strangers but ... the stranger's are the only people who understand you ❤❤❤

    • @heilycicilia8089
      @heilycicilia8089 2 роки тому +12

      Yup

    • @spoofrog
      @spoofrog 2 роки тому +23

      Not really, its that talking about issues to strangers give you less stress since they don't really know you well. I always talk to stranger online about my issues

    • @wanawshdarwish1451
      @wanawshdarwish1451 2 роки тому +3

      Exacly tell them

    • @bubloonboy9764
      @bubloonboy9764 2 роки тому +10

      My best friend and I took months to get close, we were both so scared of getting close to someone that we never tried but somehow we ended up together

    • @sky3086
      @sky3086 2 роки тому +2

      agreed

  • @Nyru_ur_beloved
    @Nyru_ur_beloved Рік тому +129

    "I just wanna disappear" no, you don't, you just wanna be found❤

  • @4ate994
    @4ate994 2 роки тому +2638

    You are not the problem, you are not alone. We all love you.

  • @jesuschrist1984
    @jesuschrist1984 2 роки тому +3203

    “i think that mental scars are the saddest of all, because no one will ever see them and no one will ever care.”
    literally made me sob.

  • @iiOwnYourLife
    @iiOwnYourLife 2 роки тому +1199

    When you're dying.. When you're mentally unstable.. When all you want it a hug, they don't care. But the second you're dead, the second you're gone, the second they can't keep an eye on you, they're suddenly "sad."

    • @mkla23
      @mkla23 2 роки тому +23

      Exactly. Then they go ahead and call you selfish for just wanting out.

    • @spookidoxzsghost
      @spookidoxzsghost 2 роки тому +4

      Lovely how that works

    • @coolbaconkid614
      @coolbaconkid614 2 роки тому +7

      I've ask myself that if they would really care..

    • @coolbaconkid614
      @coolbaconkid614 2 роки тому +2

      @@baanamousselli2550 yes

    • @nikarozman3091
      @nikarozman3091 2 роки тому +1

      @@baanamousselli2550 yes you can

  • @soha2027
    @soha2027 Рік тому +117

    It's not the music that breaks me, but the comments under this playlist💔
    But it calms me how people here are trying to help each other, and it's nice to know that someone will understand you❤

  • @lukassoderholm3291
    @lukassoderholm3291 2 роки тому +3305

    Nothing hurts more than loving someone too much

    • @ashweeb1947
      @ashweeb1947 2 роки тому +80

      Then being used or hurt by them.

    • @addyslife4017
      @addyslife4017 2 роки тому +32

      I know how you feel, and I just want you to know that you will get through whatever you are getting through. It may hurt in the moment but I promise you it will get better

    • @Gmk-864
      @Gmk-864 2 роки тому +15

      It’s sad because for a while I thought I loved my gf less than she loved me and I don’t know why but it affected me

    • @khaleedan
      @khaleedan 2 роки тому +5

      @@addyslife4017 wht if it doesn't..... nothing heal if fall in ur abyss

    • @addyslife4017
      @addyslife4017 2 роки тому +4

      @@khaleedan it will trust me it may not seem like it right away but it'll all make sense in the future

  • @eilishedit7758
    @eilishedit7758 2 роки тому +4101

    It’s funny how i feel more connected with people i don’t even know than i feel with my parents.

    • @abijiththillaiyampalam9397
      @abijiththillaiyampalam9397 2 роки тому +52

      Hits hard

    • @brentgoris287
      @brentgoris287 2 роки тому +40

      This shit hits hard i feel you

    • @addyslife4017
      @addyslife4017 2 роки тому +30

      Same though. Its like I'm not even there....

    • @tavleenkaur7055
      @tavleenkaur7055 2 роки тому +48

      I was so tired of my parents being toxic that now I don't wanna be with them and therefore I don't sleep with them anymore aswell lmao . Since I and my brother don't have private rooms and ig our parents never trusted us to share a room , I usually sleep there and my brother is with our grandpa. Today he wanted to sleep there, I had no problem with that but when he said, what problem do you have sleeping with our parents , I was a bit speechless at first since I couldn't tell them the truth directly , I used the excuse that the bed isn't comfortable and now here I am, on the foldable mattress being depressed af lol
      THIS IS SO LONG DAMN IM SORRY BUT I JUST WANTED TO RANT

    • @addyslife4017
      @addyslife4017 2 роки тому +19

      Its ok to rant and whatever you're going through you will get through it. Just keep your head held high

  • @Sadsxmurai
    @Sadsxmurai 2 роки тому +1896

    I wish I could escape this world and get lost somewhere far far far away
    Where I don’t have to worry about fitting to what society expects
    Where I don’t need to worry about anything financially, physically, or emotionally
    Listening to music laying down with my eyes closes in bed with the window open on a nice afternoon for a couple of hours is the closest I get to escaping this world

  • @iplays-e8v
    @iplays-e8v Рік тому +70

    When someone asks how im doing, i replay with "fine". because there's no short way of saying "im alive, but if you hug me, ill cry"

  • @Sadgesaltine
    @Sadgesaltine 2 роки тому +1468

    It’s only when you realize that music is your only source of comfort do you realize how lonely you truly are…

    • @noneedtoknow4909
      @noneedtoknow4909 Рік тому +6

      And when some people are trying to take away your this one and only comfort zone? .... Plz can you tell me how can I stop them. They are trying to take away my one and only comfort zone ; music by telling it's not allowed in the religion. :) Plz

    • @missamaoon
      @missamaoon Рік тому +6

      Honestly this is so true and i hate to admit it
      I honestly have no one in my life that would care about me and it really sucks. Music is where i get my comfort from.

    • @ivysperothepuppy580
      @ivysperothepuppy580 Рік тому +3

      Aye thats me and my regression are my only comfort zone but both I have to do in secret

    • @poprocks3411
      @poprocks3411 Рік тому +6

      I’m having the same experience Mari, Ive been close to a friend I had last year , now they didn’t wanna be my friend anymore few weeks ago, but that’s ok for them because they chose to talk to someone else over me, now I don’t know how to feel, sad, angry idk, no one bothers to check up on me see if I’m doing ok, I just feel ignored by everyone around me , I wish someone could see I’m not doing fine and give me a big hug 😔

    • @sk1tt1xs
      @sk1tt1xs Рік тому +2

      @@poprocks3411 I wish I could hug u rn. I rlly need a hug too. I’m going through the same shi

  • @biprakashsamanta5662
    @biprakashsamanta5662 2 роки тому +698

    I fought so hard to get out of that hole. Now I feel like I'm being dragged back in . and nobody can save me this time, not even myself.

    • @mkla23
      @mkla23 2 роки тому +9

      We have the exact same problem my friend.
      At this point I just want out.

    • @julesravenclaw7001
      @julesravenclaw7001 2 роки тому +12

      You got out once and i know you can do it again. It doesnt matter if it takes more time. You got this! (Sending you strenght)

    • @viroyaal5173
      @viroyaal5173 2 роки тому +6

      You are not alone man.
      We're there for you, when u need us

    • @wanawshdarwish1451
      @wanawshdarwish1451 2 роки тому +2

      Thiss

    • @wanawshdarwish1451
      @wanawshdarwish1451 2 роки тому +3

      @@julesravenclaw7001 happy new year

  • @Sadgesaltine
    @Sadgesaltine 2 роки тому +544

    It’s when the tears struggle to fall do you realize how numb you have become to constant pain and disappointment.

    • @briannamazibuko5581
      @briannamazibuko5581 2 роки тому +8

      I've just realized that 😭

    • @minji4471
      @minji4471 Рік тому +6

      This, this right here explains the situation of a lot beings who do not know what to feel and have lost touch with them like myself

    • @k.s_era2467
      @k.s_era2467 Рік тому

      😭😭😭😭😭

    • @Pandora_0901
      @Pandora_0901 Рік тому +5

      This and also when you don't know why your crying because you have no reason to :/

    • @adityarautela4330
      @adityarautela4330 Рік тому +1

      Ig!
      All we're hoping for us end and hope is a stupid thing...

  • @Borrrrrrrredddd
    @Borrrrrrrredddd Рік тому +1412

    Everyone else in my family sound asleep
    The T.V. off
    The windows closed
    The lights off
    The house full of silence
    Everyone soundly sleeps
    Except for me.
    I sit on my bed
    Rethinking my day
    Trying to calm my mind
    Trying to sleep
    I look at the clock
    10:30 pm
    I draw to escape
    I listen to music to escape
    I read to escape
    I dance to escape
    I write to escape
    I look at the clock
    4:30 am
    Another day
    No sleep…

    • @rizu8521
      @rizu8521 Рік тому +18

      Try doing something productive that will actually help you escape later on....... people usually loose their whole or maybe half good life just cause they want to escape the days frustration or anger by doing these small things.....I'm not saying these are bad ,these tasks may be comforting/escaping but it's just for a small fraction of time and you need to think ahed of time/in long run then only you can escape...it's the one and only thing you can actually do to change things you hate!

    • @Borrrrrrrredddd
      @Borrrrrrrredddd Рік тому +3

      @@rizu8521 I will definitely try this! I have had trouble sleeping since forever, and I’m always looking for help. Thank you!!!

    • @peytonnn_0
      @peytonnn_0 Рік тому +6

      may i use this for something in school? please.

    • @Borrrrrrrredddd
      @Borrrrrrrredddd Рік тому +1

      @@peytonnn_0 of course!!

    • @peytonnn_0
      @peytonnn_0 Рік тому +2

      @@Borrrrrrrredddd thank you.!

  • @nabiha7955
    @nabiha7955 2 роки тому +642

    Sometimes it's the people with the saddest souls, has beautiful smiles...

    • @lockaveid7818
      @lockaveid7818 2 роки тому

      Hm but I think I'm different

    • @VipersBiteGacha
      @VipersBiteGacha 2 роки тому +13

      We have to, ‘hide the pain’ best way to do that is act fine and smile till the point you can’t anymore…

    • @Icedouthouda_111
      @Icedouthouda_111 2 роки тому +2

      That's true

    • @lonelyfran2091
      @lonelyfran2091 2 роки тому +4

      I don't have a beautiful smile I just can't stop the smile

    • @_valeria._
      @_valeria._ 2 роки тому +4

      cause we just don't want them to show our pain 🙂💔

  • @designcorsinf3489
    @designcorsinf3489 2 роки тому +289

    I think i can trust in every single person who commented this video, cause all us are broken, all us are strangers to each other

    • @natedrake1107
      @natedrake1107 2 роки тому

      😪☝🏻

    • @VipersBiteGacha
      @VipersBiteGacha 2 роки тому +4

      Sometimes the strangers are the people who can save a life - life

    • @lizziebijl4477
      @lizziebijl4477 2 роки тому

      Yea. It feels so weird that all the people who even watched this, made smthng terrible in their life. I'm not english btw, dont mind that hahah

    • @kae2399
      @kae2399 Рік тому +1

      i feel connected to every viewer here than anyone i know

    • @XTHETIC_STAR
      @XTHETIC_STAR 4 місяці тому +1

      ​​​@@kae2399true 🌷

  • @hesangaomg3845
    @hesangaomg3845 2 роки тому +432

    its ok to not get good grades its ok to do mistakes its ok to not be perfect whatever that may make u sad is gonna go away trust me bad marks doesn't mean the end of the world u always can retry :))

    • @ghzlab4745
      @ghzlab4745 2 роки тому +7

      Thanks.. I really needed that

    • @neham1208
      @neham1208 2 роки тому +3

      Thanks.. I really needed that

    • @kylaiscool6076
      @kylaiscool6076 2 роки тому +10

      tell that to my mom

    • @Cloud-oo8xu
      @Cloud-oo8xu 2 роки тому +3

      I love you thanks for this

    • @annanymous8372
      @annanymous8372 2 роки тому +4

      Thanks for this.. new month I have exam but I cant attend due to fam bussiness

  • @bunbon9987
    @bunbon9987 Рік тому +187

    When music comforts you more than your parents

  • @sabila7651
    @sabila7651 2 роки тому +212

    his eyes, warm. I want to hold his hand, cry in his arms in the middle of the night.

  • @anshee_15
    @anshee_15 2 роки тому +786

    I bet we are gonna be better parents than our parents ever have been 🙃💕

    • @pixxie0
      @pixxie0 2 роки тому +34

      This generation has seen it all

    • @the_army_stay-08
      @the_army_stay-08 2 роки тому +29

      I don't wanna be a parent I don't wanna marry anyone this world is fake so fake 😂

    • @imnotok775
      @imnotok775 2 роки тому +8

      @Jυɳɠƙσσƙ¡ frr. so many fake ppl, I hate it. but u will find someone who is not fake. trust me, I promise u that u will

    • @the_army_stay-08
      @the_army_stay-08 2 роки тому +4

      @@imnotok775 it will be possible if we will have that life and society but i guess ........yeah and atb for ur life dear be happy no matter what and may god blast u with happiness 😊✨✨😙

    • @kizoru8493
      @kizoru8493 2 роки тому +6

      My social anxiety is so bad, that I probably won't find someone.

  • @ghostyghosty9816
    @ghostyghosty9816 2 роки тому +147

    When your the person everyone talks to about their problems, putting their problems before your own, them always expecting for you to be there when they need to talk, but no one is ever there for you, so you just keep your feelings to yourself, and lie to everyone saying your fine, when your just lying to your self. Anyone else like this?

    • @jess78231
      @jess78231 2 роки тому +2

      This is perfectly me😓

    • @VipersBiteGacha
      @VipersBiteGacha 2 роки тому +4

      I get told all sorts of crap, from ppl saying how the j7mped from a bridge but was saved to ppls life story’s,
      It’s hard

    • @kimlili3052
      @kimlili3052 2 роки тому +1

      Yes its me

    • @chanceusealeena7952
      @chanceusealeena7952 2 роки тому +1

      Exactly,I listen to everyone but when I have problem no ones listen no one there to available

    • @kae2399
      @kae2399 Рік тому

      me

  • @Zozo_919
    @Zozo_919 Рік тому +21

    You finally realize how numb u are when you're just sitting there in pain whating to cry but nothing comes so u sit there staring at the ceiling with thoughts that will never escape your mind

    • @manishacharya6411
      @manishacharya6411 10 місяців тому

      Just numb to everything.. i escape back to reality so fast that i can't even enjoy a moment.

  • @Rose-wn2pz
    @Rose-wn2pz 2 роки тому +265

    Sometimes I hold my tears back because I’m afraid my parents will see me
    And ask me why I’m crying and the problem that I’m wondering that too, I’m wondering why I’m so sad like an year ago I was so happy ,I’m wondering why I’m so insecure , I’m wondering why I’m so ugly and fat is like I’m afraid to express my feelings to someone cuz I’m afraid they will laugh and make fun of me….
    I wish I could be like those girls that have the perfect life ,perfect face ,perfect body like I hate myself so much
    I may look happy but I’m not

    • @viviii7765
      @viviii7765 2 роки тому +5

      I really felt this..

    • @bendover-ge5he
      @bendover-ge5he 2 роки тому +6

      trust me no girl is perfect they only show their good side to make themselves look perfect :)
      ur beautiful the way u are

    • @slutfor2d
      @slutfor2d 2 роки тому +1

      So relatable.

    • @zehrahamdani7176
      @zehrahamdani7176 2 роки тому +2

      I feel like this all the time i am very bad at explaining so i dont have words to describe what i am feeling but this... this is exactly what i feel like💯❤

    • @kelseylister7686
      @kelseylister7686 2 роки тому +2

      U are beautiful in your own way darling you will heal princess 💗

  • @Sadsoybeans
    @Sadsoybeans 2 роки тому +418

    Ik this is gonna get lost in the comments.
    But, you’re good enough
    Grades:they’re numbers
    Friends: they’re people, just like you
    Thoughts: its your imagination, don’t be scared if your own brain.
    The scariest possibilities, are so small, they’re more scared of you than you are of it.
    But I’m sitting here, suicidal, and I’m telling everyone else it’s ok.
    Cause I’m the end, we’re all just a bunch of kids telling each other it’s ok, when it’s not, and it’s never been ok.

    • @444oneka
      @444oneka 2 роки тому +9

      thank you so much for this.. and I would like to say to you that everything will be okay & im so glad that you’re still here I love you

    • @VipersBiteGacha
      @VipersBiteGacha 2 роки тому +8

      Indeed, we are all people trying to lift up those who struggle
      We are people who are there for others
      But we are people who can’t smile, can’t laugh

    • @ManageMayhem
      @ManageMayhem 2 роки тому +4

      That's very well put, hope you're doing better, this has made me feel better, I appreciate it alot. 🥲

    • @gabbybrewton5456
      @gabbybrewton5456 Рік тому +5

      hey, i love you. it's gonna be ok. i know it hurts, but hang in there for me. we all have different stories and experiences, but are all experiencing the same pain.
      As i'm writing this, i have tears streaming down my face, because i'm finally breaking from the pain, but i'm not going to give up and i don't want you to either. i know it will be hard, but i believe in you, i believe you can do it

    • @DaarIsAltydHoop
      @DaarIsAltydHoop Рік тому +1

      One thing, dont ever end yourself
      You wil just go to hell if you do

  • @aishablizzard_1097
    @aishablizzard_1097 2 роки тому +278

    Hey, comment section I hope each and every one of you is doing ok. While I was listening I wrote out my emotions and what is going through my head right now, You don't haft to read I just needed a place to share.
    I struggle to decipher the difference between feeling sorry for my parents and being annoyed at them. I know I'm not ok but they don’t seem to get it at all, they say it’s just about being a teenager but I know it runs a lot deeper. It’s weird because I find it easier to be silent. I can't be bothered to explain and justify to people why I feel like this.
    With my parents, I wished nothing more that they would understand but they don't. And they will never, I have a better bond with some of my teachers than I ever will with my parents. That’s the thing they don’t understand my pain they think I want attention when im struggling.
    I thought mum would understand the emotional side of it more considering she had anxiety and depression before but she’s far from it, she isn’t the type of mum you can talk to. I don’t even think that she notices it but she is so unintentionally judgey that you feel embarrassed or ashamed to tell her anything.
    Dad, we have a good relationship I guess but he always takes mums side even though he is hardly there to see it for himself.
    He always accuses me of being a moody teenager, when I’m, not they are simple warning signs that im not doing ok.
    I feel as if I tell my parents everything I will just be reprimanded, they say their techniques are so great and righteous but if they were I wouldn't be so afraid to tell them what is going on inside my head. There’s no point because they wouldn’t get anyways.
    On one side of my mind, I feel sorry for them, especially my mum I know she was expecting me to turn out like my older brother again I don’t know whether she realises she’s doing it but she is constantly comparing me to him. But the truth is im not him, im nothing like him at all.
    Maybe if my parents acted differently then I could tell them everything, but I can’t because they don’t.
    But on the other side of my brain, I am so mad at them because I am constantly holding my tongue arround them as I know I can’t tell them anything. I wish they were more understanding sometimes.
    Well after tonight’s shit show I Know that I have destroyed the relationship I have with both parents. Before that made me sad, but I know im not their little girl anymore, Im tired of trying to get their approval or making them proud.
    It’s better this way because when I leave (move out as soon as I can) they will expect it. They might feel betrayed or hurt but trust me I know that feeling they WILL get over it SOONER or LATER.

    • @mentallyunstableram
      @mentallyunstableram 2 роки тому +15

      OMG I'm going through the same thing too. My parents blame it all on being a teenager and even one time when I admitted that I think I might have depression my mum got so pissed at me, I just cried alone in my room. My dad is the same but like u he's not really there to see anything. No matter how much I help them: get them water or help with translating into English or help my dad with writing an email or whatever, they can't help my emotional state at all. Even when I told them what I was feeling, they completely dismissed it and made me feel like shit so now I just stay quite around them and never tell them anything bc if I do ik they'll just compare me to my older brother who was problematic as a kid. It's so weird that a stranger on the internet understands me better than my own parents but it's reassuring that there's someone else out there going through the same shit as me.
      I'm wishing u the best
      Wow that was long but I really needed to vent 😅

    • @anshee_15
      @anshee_15 2 роки тому +9

      I hope you broke their fucking heart and they regret all the shit they have and haven't done to you
      I wish you all the the best and I can tell you that I understand what you are going through 💕
      It's funny how those 'strangers' in the comment section understand you better than anyone. Love you so much I wish you the best love❤

    • @aishablizzard_1097
      @aishablizzard_1097 2 роки тому +7

      @@anshee_15 ik It's been ok ig. So little update: I told my parents they said they didn't know and I have a doctors appointment, im 1 day 11 hours clean, I just got broken up, like 2 hours ago, but my ex is helping me through it, we are really close friends so ig that is good.

    • @anshee_15
      @anshee_15 2 роки тому +3

      @@aishablizzard_1097 that is GREAT I hope you you feel a much better
      And I'm sure that it's going to get better soon
      I wish you all the best in the world and I hope your ex don't fuck up again if he did in the past oh and btw what kind of doctors appointment?( If you don't mind me asking)
      I love you❤

  • @staying_silent
    @staying_silent Рік тому +16

    Listening to things like this and reading the comments is such a surreal experience for me. Just months ago, I felt just like everyone else in this comment section. Like no one cared, like I was just a burden, like people would be better off without me. But I stuck around. I started living one day at a time, putting everything into just surviving until I could crawl back into bed. It was miserable, but it kept me alive for just that little bit longer. Just long enough for the right person to notice and give me an opportunity to get better.
    I know how hard it can be just to exist, some days. I have the scars to prove that I couldn't bear that pain. But I'm still here, and I'm improving little by little each day, because I held out. I know that sometimes, the pain feels like too much, like you'll never be able to survive it, but I _promise_ you can. Humans are so much stronger than we give ourselves credit for. You just need to hang in there until help comes. It might sound impossible but I swear it's not. Help is out there, it will find you eventually. It could take days or years but I promise _it will happen._ You may not be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel but _it is there._
    Do whatever it takes to keep yourself going. Focus on the little things. Live for that book you want to read, or that game you haven't finished, or that food you want to try one more time. Just *stay alive,* and someday it'll pay off. Because tomorrow might be better, but you'll never know if you're not there to see it.

  • @shamelmae
    @shamelmae 2 роки тому +299

    I knew it was bad when I had to cover my mouth when I cried so no one could hear me

    • @jackbarber1451
      @jackbarber1451 2 роки тому +2

      Tell me, why do you cry?
      Remember that I'm with you. I have always been.

    • @xxxxxxx0816
      @xxxxxxx0816 2 роки тому +1

      yea lol me rn

    • @liya6118
      @liya6118 2 роки тому

      me rn

    • @DawnDoMinecraft
      @DawnDoMinecraft 2 роки тому +5

      my parents room is right beside my room so I have to cover my mouth to keep them from hearing me...

    • @id10cyy
      @id10cyy 2 роки тому +1

      Same. I wish i was never like this. I wish i was never stuck in my personal hell all the time. I wish there was a way out :(

  • @Alplay5
    @Alplay5 2 роки тому +160

    I want to leave this comment for people who say they can't, and who can't get out or be happy, I know you have difficult parents and that your friends aren't real, I know that even if you look for help no one is there, that when you needed comfort when you were crying at 3am, when you screamed into your pillow asking for help, but remember in life it's just you and you, i know it's hard to get out of bed, out of this loop, but I give you advice from a person who has been in your position who has tried to kill himself to end the pain, that you don't have to follow their advice to be happy, you can do it your own way, you may not have help, but you have yourself, it doesn't have to be their way, be your way, dream because everyone deserves it, try to achieve something that is bothering you, if you feel ugly or ugly for any part of your body that is and wants change , fight to change because you can make you happy, only you can get out of this hole that you are, if you think you can't pass a test, look for reinforcement try to study 5 hours a day even if it's difficult, manage to find a way to get what's bothering you, knock it down barriers that prevent you from walking, before you say you are not worthy or you are not the person who can get you out of there, remember every day to believe in yourself, because you don't realize your efforts and your values ​​now, because you you are blind from darkness, fear, and lack of support, if you are angry or any other feeling you are feeling use this to get up, tell yourself that you will go up and rub it in the face of those who don't believe or didn't help you, show that despite the difficulties you are better than they say and believe only in you because if I get out of this situation, why can't you? Just because you're not strong like me? This is bullshit, each one is strong in their own way, so don't take your efforts because someone said you're not good enough, because you are but you still need to find your little star that's waiting for you, you have to find your light , and she has not abandoned you and is not far , they are very close to you

    • @atmanimarwa941
      @atmanimarwa941 2 роки тому +3

      thanks

    • @jess78231
      @jess78231 2 роки тому +2

      trying is all I can do 😓

    • @mel-rx3ox
      @mel-rx3ox 2 роки тому +1

      I love you .

    • @nabiha7955
      @nabiha7955 2 роки тому +1

      Thank you, stranger. That helped

    • @idkwhhaatt
      @idkwhhaatt 2 роки тому +2

      I want you to know how amazing you are doing this for us! Your really an amazing person, I hope the best for you!! :)

  • @user-gq8mz3ek9x
    @user-gq8mz3ek9x 2 роки тому +194

    Just remeber when you are lonely and feel afraid, you are not the only person on earth who isn't ok
    There's millions of us just like you, like you, like you...

  • @Perowyd
    @Perowyd Рік тому +76

    You know you're broken inside when it doesn't hurt or you cry about it

  • @beekilpatrick183
    @beekilpatrick183 2 роки тому +403

    me? oh yeah im fine. well actually *they continue to walk away* oh ummm ok.

    • @bxnnybxy7241
      @bxnnybxy7241 2 роки тому +13

      Hey, it's okey.. Someday someone will look at you and realize how down you are, how you really feel.. Someone will notice and be there for you, they will love you the way you are. Thank you for being on earth, I'm proud of you

    • @beekilpatrick183
      @beekilpatrick183 2 роки тому +4

      @@bxnnybxy7241 I hope so

    • @figure3790
      @figure3790 2 роки тому +5

      Lol

    • @jazcey1122
      @jazcey1122 2 роки тому +8

      "Pats you on the back gently." Come on. I know this great coffee shop just down the block. You look like you need something sweet. ☺️

    • @beekilpatrick183
      @beekilpatrick183 2 роки тому +1

      @@jazcey1122

  • @rain7007
    @rain7007 2 роки тому +191

    the worst feeling is when u don’t really cry anymore, you just sit there with no expression and tears are just rolling down ur face

  • @camillecrawford7388
    @camillecrawford7388 Рік тому +313

    Parents always say they will be there but I feel like they will judge you. Your friends don’t care. You don’t wanna annoy them or your bf. So here I am laying in bed listening to this playlist reflecting on past mistakes and doubting myself but I feel like the people on here understand better than anyone that is why I come on here. Thank you

    • @fa555e
      @fa555e Рік тому +1

      Yu are strong 💪 ❤️

    • @kenlen-wv4sm
      @kenlen-wv4sm Рік тому

      I know they judge me about my poo couler and type

    • @lili_yaa1297
      @lili_yaa1297 Рік тому +2

      My friend, I really feel you. Don't worry, I have hope that we will get through this and become much better❤❤

    • @fall179
      @fall179 Рік тому +2

      People will judge for you and not everyone will care, unfortunately that’s a part of life. I think it would be better to clear your mind and try not to care about that. I know it’s hard but I’ve been able to get passed the storm my life was in and come into calmness, and it feels nice. I wish you well, and I will be here if you need me❤

    • @Anjalii303
      @Anjalii303 Рік тому

      Friends are so fu**** fake ...

  • @jilly7691
    @jilly7691 Рік тому +6

    you listen to sad music to try and get yourself to cry. like you've been hurting for so long that you can't let that feeling out. am i the only one?

    • @XTHETIC_STAR
      @XTHETIC_STAR 4 місяці тому +1

      No you're not the only one :)

  • @brofra3249
    @brofra3249 2 роки тому +126

    it's strange how people you don't know understand you like know one can

    • @lizziebijl4477
      @lizziebijl4477 2 роки тому +1

      Exactly. Everybody in this Comment section understands me more then my own friends and family.

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому

      Ess tee eff u

  • @444oneka
    @444oneka 2 роки тому +143

    I’ve never done this before or shared this to anyone before.. but.. here I am, about to share the hardest time of my life to a bunch of strangers I feel strangely connected to..
    i feel as if my “emo phase” was the absolute worst pain I’ve ever been in. I’ve never felt that kind of pain ever and i felt so empty & alone. i still remember it was during quarantine, there wasn’t anybody around & I saw a bottle of pills.. I still remember that same day, the exact say feeling I felt in my heart, my mind.. I was going to do it.. I was just thinking “am I really about to do this.. what will afterlife be like.. will my pain finally be over?” I didn’t have anybody that I could mentally think about other than myself in that moment. that may sound selfish but it’s the truth.. I couldn’t think of my parents, I couldn’t think of any friends.. not that I had any.. i couldn’t think of my cousins or siblings… all I could think about, in that moment, was that bottle of pills.. now you may be thinking why am I still here if i was so close to taking the pills well, I ask myself that same exact question every single day.. “why are you still here? why didn’t you just take the pills?” I’m not sure why I didn’t.. I’m not really glad I didn’t.. but there are some moments in my life, now, that I feel somewhat glad I didn’t end it. I sometimes do, somehow find myself missing the deep deep sadness I felt in that period of time in my life. i miss the aching feeling of myself crying in my room at night wishing I was dead, wishing I didn’t look how I look, wishing I wasn’t who I am. i wouldn’t say that I’m happy but I wouldn’t say that I’m depressed.. I still struggle with my inner thoughts & I still sometimes find myself crying.. staring at a pill bottle.. but hey, here I am, writing this awful paragraph about my awful life to a bunch of strangers. thank you..(?)

    • @SHAMAN0
      @SHAMAN0 2 роки тому +5

      I'm so proud of you...keep going. your life is worthy so don't end it...ur so strong everything's gonna be alright soon i promise. i also feel the same way sometimes you're not alone...ik it's been 2 months now i just wanted to reply since no one replied you. i'm not good at replying to people sorry for that if that doesn't make sense or something.😅 but i hope you feel better and i hope you see this :)...hope you have a great day💗

    • @Blurb-playz
      @Blurb-playz 2 роки тому +1

      Not thinking of others is not selfish, it just means your finally thinking of yourself, even if you had before, for this it’s different, please don’t come back to this sadness, it would break most the second time….. I bet if this happens my entire life or it stops then starts, I’ll break, so please try not to go back, it would lift me up to know that there’s an example to follow out of the darkness

    • @Ada-pc3nt
      @Ada-pc3nt 2 роки тому +1

      hey, i had the same experience in 2019 but here i am fully happy and really grateful that i didn’t end my life, but sometimes i have a days like this this, and remember life gets better you need to trust the world

    • @BlaBla-no6el
      @BlaBla-no6el Рік тому

      I love you sm and I'm so proud of you!!!

    • @lili_yaa1297
      @lili_yaa1297 Рік тому

      ❤❤

  • @TanTan-of8vc
    @TanTan-of8vc 2 роки тому +146

    To the one's hurting we gonna make it we just gotta stay strong and keep moving on I love you all please stay safe

    • @idkwhhaatt
      @idkwhhaatt 2 роки тому

      thank you so much! this helps people a lot so thank you for taking your time and doing this for us! Your a beautiful person thank you.

  • @dwolf3559
    @dwolf3559 Рік тому +301

    00:00 Lovely
    3:53 Arcade
    7:49 Moral of the story
    12:06 Falling
    16:24 This City
    19:50 Hold me while you wait
    24:04 July
    26:59 Past lives
    29:46 Can we kiss forever?
    33:10 Too sad to cry
    37:17 To Die for

  • @iqvvvv
    @iqvvvv 2 роки тому +44

    parents say to never talk to online people or strangers but.. i met my best friend online, and he has been there since day one, he actually understands where im coming from

    • @neham1208
      @neham1208 2 роки тому

      how did it go????

    • @avabush3507
      @avabush3507 2 роки тому

      How was it!

    • @alinajuliajagic3831
      @alinajuliajagic3831 2 роки тому +1

      I wish that this happend to me my story was the same but he said goodbye to soon

  • @coreymccaffery9477
    @coreymccaffery9477 2 роки тому +38

    🥺 there are people who really do care... don't be afraid to admit you are confused, lonely, scared, or sad, or just need a friend. I'm sorry you're hurting

  • @madisonbryan3111
    @madisonbryan3111 2 роки тому +20

    the people who are meant to love and support me instead discourage and gaslight me. i’m a freshman in college who has no idea what she’s doing with her life because for the past nineteen years i’ve always been told what i’ll be. other people’s expectations have become my goals. i don’t know what i want to be and that terrifies me to my core. my future is so unpredictable and it’s hard to live in the moment because every second i am reminded of their words. i get scared thinking of my future, thoughts of ending everything sometimes creeping in my mind. but then they win and i get nothing. this upcoming year i really want to find out who i am, without the past holding me back.
    for everyone dealing with discouraging family/friends, you and i will get through it. i promise. we will be successful and make our own decisions and be who we are. let’s learn to not let anyone hold us back. we will grow. we will live.

  • @fattygamer1159
    @fattygamer1159 Рік тому +35

    Remember y'all, you are never alone. Even at your darkest there are many that will listen to your stories, you just have to find the light within your darkest hours and you will become stronger with every painful event life throws at you, keep moving forward and life will get better. I love you ❤️

  • @penelope_kirsc8826
    @penelope_kirsc8826 2 роки тому +85

    I can't believe that 3 or more Years ago I was an innocent little kid enjoying life to its fullest. now I'm a broken mess and when i think of all those happy memories its makes me so sad and makes me feel so alone. to the strangers reading this, youre not alone. :(

    • @321hat
      @321hat Рік тому

      @Nishali Dhanushika indian😂?

    • @321hat
      @321hat Рік тому

      @Nishali Dhanushika so what

    • @321hat
      @321hat Рік тому

      @Nishali Dhanushika why you are here?? broken

    • @XIN_5_fanpage
      @XIN_5_fanpage Рік тому +2

      Time passes so fast😔🖤

  • @venven9938
    @venven9938 2 роки тому +1697

    Hello to the person reading this with a heavy heart: )
    Hang in there dear
    I know that it'll feel like you're falling down your knees straight to distancing from the world (coz you feel like no one would understand you)but you know what?
    You can get through this
    Remember that after every storm there's always a brighter day
    Sometimes the sun rise brightly but it gets dark as the storm rolls in
    But it isn't dark forever
    Like wise life is all about downhills,uphils,silent battles,unseen tears, judgmental stares,fake smiles
    But what's important is that you should never even think of giving up coz some years later you're probably gonna thank yourself for not giving up becoz of how amazing your life will be^_^
    Its all gonna be okay and you can cry dear let all those pain get out of your shoulders, you're carrying too much: )
    But just hold on there brighter days are to come🖤
    Edit : everyone has got their own Stories to tell, I hope this reminds you that you're not trapped alone in this castle of grief.
    Be there when no one else sees your hidden tears and no one else hears your untold stories.
    Sometimes your presence is the reason why someone feels alive.
    You're all that really matters.❤️

    • @akiratakeo4011
      @akiratakeo4011 2 роки тому +40

      Thank you so so much...
      I really needed that.

    • @non_of_your_business_
      @non_of_your_business_ 2 роки тому +19

      Thank you soooo much i really really need that cuz i don't have anyone who understand me.

    • @rituparnasamal535
      @rituparnasamal535 Рік тому +25

      Had me in the first part ... Just read "hang in there dear" and I just burst into tears ..

    • @Oak89804
      @Oak89804 Рік тому +13

      Why are you the only nice porson that has tryed to help me

    • @noraizahnase7493
      @noraizahnase7493 Рік тому +15

      Hoping that someday I can finally feel genuine happiness

  • @Harry-yu3uq
    @Harry-yu3uq 2 роки тому +356

    I pretend it doesn't hurt
    I act like it's nothing
    But really, it's everything,
    and it's killing me.

    • @anassnettach8301
      @anassnettach8301 Рік тому +1

      I was doing good with her i even invited her to cinems until she confess that she like someone else
      Broo i don't know what to do

    • @dkjikookie5241
      @dkjikookie5241 Рік тому +1

      Me too

    • @kimjk1292
      @kimjk1292 Рік тому +1

      ​@@dkjikookie5241 i find an Army in every video's comment section

    • @kimjk1292
      @kimjk1292 Рік тому

      Dont suppress or fake ur feelings , it will turn u into a stone n it makes u feel empty

    • @dkjikookie5241
      @dkjikookie5241 Рік тому

      @@kimjk1292 correct

  • @aisha_jm
    @aisha_jm Рік тому +25

    *you can never know the pain, behind a smile* 🌷

  • @aliceae7057
    @aliceae7057 2 роки тому +52

    i hope we’re gonna be parents our kids will feel free and safe to talk to so they know they’re not alone and won’t ever be cause we’ll always be by their side
    they will maybe hurt, but they won’t feel this kinda pain cause we’ll be wiping their tears every time, over and over again

    • @edunomad
      @edunomad 2 роки тому +3

      To be honest, after such experience of parents, I don’t want to have kids…I feel that I cannot even struggle with me, myself. How can I give my kids love and attention, when I can’t do it with myself…

  • @Xdit116
    @Xdit116 2 роки тому +227

    "The scars on my skin are not a suicidal intendency, They're my mental scars carved into my wrist and fore arms so they won't get ignored like how they were once before."
    -A gone forever friend
    Better explanation; I had a very old friend who had scars in her skin. Like I have now. Last thing I heard from her was the quote I quoted from her. I hope to see her one day.

  • @yukipop1386
    @yukipop1386 2 роки тому +68

    Im not mad im not sad im not happy im not worried im not scared i fell nothing . No mood idk what feelings is this is anyone agree with me ? Do you guys have the same feeling with me or just me...

    • @jemisha4056
      @jemisha4056 2 роки тому +4

      yea i do

    • @jemisha4056
      @jemisha4056 2 роки тому +4

      it just... i cant describe it tere is so much questions in my mind but can t find ansewrs
      all i wanted is a hug .
      my problem is i love a guy very very much but he dont even know that i exist i wish he knows how much i love him i wish i can see him one day and hold his hand for once 😯😧
      if you still here you should know that you are special i dont know you guys but i know that everyone needs another chance .
      dont stop you worked all of these years to make yor dream come true you cant just stop now .
      i know what u feeling , iknow its hard to fake a smile every day but you have to work dont stop make you dream come true and do not ever care what people say you are the best .😊
      ♡SMILE♡

    • @yukipop1386
      @yukipop1386 2 роки тому +2

      @@jemisha4056 you make me smile so much today :) im sorry from what you have been tru , girl its okay maybe he is not the right guy for you :( but im sure one day you will find a guy will be so caring to you and give you so much love and you will fell special but you already special ^^ its okay to cry , because if you cry pain can go away little by little and if you think you cant find your happines its alright just wait because it not the end . If you think your really ugly girl noo your beautiful even tho idk how you look like but your very beautiful god work hard to make you and you just say your ugly :( no its not like that okay , ily < 3 *sending you warm hug!*

    • @jemisha4056
      @jemisha4056 2 роки тому +3

      @@yukipop1386 thank u soo much you rlly made my day :)

    • @yukipop1386
      @yukipop1386 2 роки тому +2

      @@jemisha4056 have a good day hun

  • @O1K0ツ
    @O1K0ツ Рік тому +61

    To however reads this

    • @4444ANDYG
      @4444ANDYG Рік тому +1

      That's a lot of love 🤗 much needed in these times

    • @DeathArc-iw8gg
      @DeathArc-iw8gg Рік тому +2

      Love you more❤️🥀

    • @XTHETIC_STAR
      @XTHETIC_STAR 4 місяці тому +2

      Love you too 💗✨

  • @yukiiii_mlbb
    @yukiiii_mlbb 2 роки тому +406

    Room: I'll close the door so people won't see you crying
    Mirror: don't worry I know your true self
    Shower: I won't Make fun of your voice
    Pillows: It's okay I'll be here when you cry
    Teddys: I don't care if you hate me you can hug me when you're sad
    Light: I'll make it dark so you can sleep
    TV: I hope I calm you down while watching videos
    Mind: I'm great at keeping secrets
    Songs: I'll distract you while You thinking something that makes you sad
    Blanket: Hug me if you're sad
    Food: Eat! Eat! Stop starving yourself
    Fan: I hope you'll be okay I am here always so you won't feel hot
    AND THEN PEOPLE SAYS< NO ONE CARES ABOUT US~
    LOVE YOURSELF 🖤

    • @Kris-yt6yr
      @Kris-yt6yr Рік тому +6

      It's stupidly adorable🥺❤
      It's 3am when my numbness has completely consumed me
      And this just put a smile on my face.
      Thank you for that!
      It felt good.
      I felt it❤

    • @JikarHanifi
      @JikarHanifi Рік тому +4

      You know I tried

    • @areebaahsan6698
      @areebaahsan6698 Рік тому +4

      Such beautiful lines 😭

    • @Someone_unknown1515
      @Someone_unknown1515 Рік тому +3

      ngl crying

    • @Misoraaa_
      @Misoraaa_ Рік тому +3

      Haha! Lemme just cry,
      bro I got goosebumps :(

  • @afkjasmine1649
    @afkjasmine1649 2 роки тому +127

    moral of the story hits hard when im a mistake myself

    • @idkwhhaatt
      @idkwhhaatt 2 роки тому +2

      don’t say this!! You are not a mistake, nobody is and you need to realize this. If you feel down don’t make yourself think that your a mistake bc your not don’t let negativity get to you. I know you got this! Please be strong and one day you’ll get through it!!

  • @holyoryu_s
    @holyoryu_s 2 роки тому +40

    it's so hard when everyone is there, but yourself is not there for you. you'll feel so lost and confused... you'll run away from them to find yourself, but keep losing yourself more. you won't know where to go.

  • @catalinamariemallory1025
    @catalinamariemallory1025 Рік тому +8

    i honestly can’t find who i am anymore. i feel like a whole different person. a person who overthinks,cry’s everyday,stays up on school nights,and has no motivation to do anything. i miss the times where i was little and didn’t over think or cry every night. i miss the old time. i wish i could go back. so i’m not depressed all the time 😕

    • @Cr0wn3d597
      @Cr0wn3d597 2 місяці тому

      Do you feel happier now?

  • @ifeeltootiredtotry9758
    @ifeeltootiredtotry9758 2 роки тому +423

    when you're happy you enjoy the music. when you're sad you understand the lyrics

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому +1

      Ok well so you’re saying people who know basic English are sad?

    • @AchtungMann
      @AchtungMann Рік тому +2

      @@CIeansing I'd think he's trying to say, that when you're feeling down your pay more attention to the story of the song than the rythm

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому

      @@AchtungMann obviously

    • @jakato9689
      @jakato9689 Рік тому

      @@CIeansing bro

  • @umaiza7887
    @umaiza7887 2 роки тому +295

    Hey everybody,
    You all are doing great, don't give up. It's okay to feel sad It's okay to feel empty everything is okay, everything will be fine I swear. Ily all

    • @pixxie0
      @pixxie0 2 роки тому

      This made me cry. Tysm

    • @Ritodoggamer
      @Ritodoggamer 2 роки тому +3

      just you saying this makes me feel better. That just shows you how much I hurt. Just words from someone I have never even met make me feel better and cry.

    • @DrawnDisco
      @DrawnDisco 2 роки тому +1

      I know u are trying to help but it’s so fucking hard i am losing myself i am losing everything

    • @tojasandra2044
      @tojasandra2044 2 роки тому

      Tysm

    • @pradhanduet9754
      @pradhanduet9754 2 роки тому +1

      Ily thanks so much it's weird how random ppl on the Internet care more than our friends. Then fucked up people say the Internet has no good side

  • @Gabrielle-ew1dh
    @Gabrielle-ew1dh 2 роки тому +61

    I was always told "never talk to strangers" but the people I don't know understand me the most.

  • @trxst153
    @trxst153 Рік тому +2

    im 12, the worst feeling I’ve ever had was when I was 5. my mother told me “don’t you dare call me mom again, call me by my name, and im not your mom anymore!!” people can say that it’s normal for everyone, it’ll come for every person, including me. 7 years went by and those words are still killing me from inside..

  • @tavleenkaur7055
    @tavleenkaur7055 2 роки тому +66

    The fact that I was listening to this during midnight, crying my eyes out cuz LIFE SUCKS and I was missing one of my uncle, my grandma's brother, he was the best human being in the world, he literally was the sweetest, nicest and I could keep blabbering on and on about him . He passed away 8-10 years ago but still I was old enough to go into depression,due to his death, at the age of 4-5 years . Yeah I was a kid but was in depression. Sucks to lose the only person who cared about everyone. I miss him . Alot . And when I was watching the video, the midnight, I just wished him to take me from here and that I'll go literally anywhere but here . I asked him to take me to him cuz that is all that I want nowadays.
    Kudos to you guys for reading it till the end 😂 it's long af

    • @supravietuitoriblog547
      @supravietuitoriblog547 2 роки тому +1

      Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?

    • @tavleenkaur7055
      @tavleenkaur7055 2 роки тому +2

      @@supravietuitoriblog547 thank you so so much ❤️I had my exam while you wrote this so it was even better this gave me hope to finish the exam completely 😭❤️ we need more people like you 🙂 thanks again 😀😊

    • @supravietuitoriblog547
      @supravietuitoriblog547 2 роки тому +1

      @@tavleenkaur7055 I'm happy for you! I hope you'll get a very good grade at your exam! Take care!

    • @tavleenkaur7055
      @tavleenkaur7055 2 роки тому +2

      @@supravietuitoriblog547 thanks 😄❤hope so!

    • @malvinaslavinska2490
      @malvinaslavinska2490 2 роки тому

      Sorry, but I had the same thing 10 month ago😭

  • @bc8724
    @bc8724 2 роки тому +154

    I know this is from a month ago,but this came to me right in time.
    Nobody believes me.
    My damn voice.
    Why is it so quiet?
    Why is everything so weird?
    I literally cannot feel things.
    I don't like it.
    But y'know what?
    If i could wish for something,i wish i could see you smile.
    Yeah you,whoever is reading this right now.
    I hope you'll smile again one day.
    Keep your head up:)
    -bc

    • @the_army_stay-08
      @the_army_stay-08 2 роки тому +2

      Tq so much buddy 💜ily

    • @ivysperothepuppy580
      @ivysperothepuppy580 Рік тому

      This helped me more than my irl "friends" and family thank you

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому

      Don’t particularly care?

    • @rizu8521
      @rizu8521 Рік тому

      The probability of you actually wishing that is pretty low.....and I wanna ask why would you want us to smile when you need it more than any of us...

    • @mennaragab4227
      @mennaragab4227 Рік тому

      do fake smiles work?

  • @이경수-k3y
    @이경수-k3y 2 роки тому +86

    Its okay yall im hugging yall cause you guys deserve it:D

  • @koobagdarrell1893
    @koobagdarrell1893 11 місяців тому +5

    I swear this is the last time I'm trying to carry on. Thank you for this mix. Tired of telling me every day for 19 years that things gonna be okie.. and I realized that , life isn't for everyone to live the fullest. 🙏

  • @noone-sp1dw
    @noone-sp1dw 2 роки тому +131

    When ur crying the shit out of u and then the ad comes up and ur switching ur mood for 2sec
    ....
    Prob only me.....
    Btw beautiful playlist!

  • @cccsss-zd1qe
    @cccsss-zd1qe 2 роки тому +33

    Why does nobody wants me. I feel like something's wrong with me,I've never had friends since i was a child,i was always different and i am know,my family abuses me and im not even safe in the house i used to call home. Im so cold and empty. Im feeling my spark going away by each day. I just want someone to love me.

    • @sxlxnhn
      @sxlxnhn 2 роки тому +1

      yeah I feel the same

    • @blxckshp3125
      @blxckshp3125 2 роки тому

      I feel you, everytime I wake up, it feels like cement is weighting me down, ever time I try to talk to my friends, they don’t listen, ever time I go home there’s always a fight or someone angry that I’m sacred to go home, I so empty and all I want is to feel whole again, I want so to be there for me, not just lecturing me, not trying to give me advice, I’ll I want is someone to hug me and tell me that everything is ok. I hope that you find your someone and you live happy.

  • @sunlitsky_8541
    @sunlitsky_8541 2 роки тому +86

    It’s crazy to how just one person can ruin your whole day by saying something negative. Wanna vent a little. Today was my soccer home game and I was excited about it and my day was going good, until when 5th period ended and I was walking one of my friends to 6th period and then my soccer friend came along with her Bf and she said “omg *my name* move” in a joke and I said the same things back, but her bf didn’t take it that way and said “fat bitch” he didn’t say it directly towards me but I over heard him saying it in the back. It stunk, it really did, It really is hard to hold back tears in school they said, but I never really believed it until today. I know I shouldn’t have cared about his commentary but it really did hurt, and i then overheard her say in a quiet voice”be quiet” to him, but it didn’t matter no more cause he had already said it. The whole day I tried to hard to forget about it, because those simple words had Already ruined my day. But at the end of the day it came back and I just finished having a mental breakdown, if I’m honest I’m glad I had one, I’m more calmed now and I’m glad I let it out. So word of advise for you guys just think before you say something to someone. - a friend

    • @janamichels9188
      @janamichels9188 2 роки тому +4

      i am so sorry about this. i hope you are okay now

    • @sunlitsky_8541
      @sunlitsky_8541 2 роки тому +2

      @@janamichels9188 thank you, I’m doing sm better now 💜

    • @444oneka
      @444oneka 2 роки тому +3

      I’m so sorry, I completely understand and can relate to how you must have felt.

    • @Blurb-playz
      @Blurb-playz 2 роки тому

      It happened to me too, it’s not fun, and the worst part about it was the fact that they said it directly to my face, not caring, and other “friends” of mine didn’t even acknowledge me… heh…. Funny, isn’t it? When people talk bad about you behind your back you wish they’d just told you, and when you hear it to your face you’re also devastated

  • @Atang0204
    @Atang0204 Рік тому +6

    I had a friend, well actually a brother,we were the best of homies .we loved to party and have fun back in high school, but mostly we enjoyed playing football ⚽️ together, he was my greatest competition and motivation.he shortly died and now i feel all alone ,i lost motivation for football since he's no longer here with me .life just became hard ,my dad abandoned us ,im broke without any solution, bro was the only person who pushed me to see life in a positive way ,RIP Tebello💔

    • @anti-people00
      @anti-people00 3 місяці тому

      Man, I can't even imagine your pain😔 I'm sorry for your loss. My sincerest condolences. May his soul rest in peace🕊️

    • @Convenrir
      @Convenrir 2 місяці тому

      Rip man i hope your fine now and sincere condolences

  • @junbagchand9472
    @junbagchand9472 2 роки тому +93

    "Everything will be alright " is all I can say before starting my day and at the end of the day I just ended up crying..

  • @scarcasticedits3496
    @scarcasticedits3496 Рік тому +731

    For those who feel sad, just remember 2.5 million people are with you on this playlist.❤️

  • @marshallhargrave6229
    @marshallhargrave6229 2 роки тому +48

    It’s crazy how we all feel so down at one point in our life’s. Just imagine if there was no pain we would never truly grow up without pain.
    I’m not saying having pain is fun. I feel broken and that’s why I’m here like so many other people. I just thought about how many of us have the same problem we’re not alone.

  • @Angelic_Disaster_
    @Angelic_Disaster_ Рік тому +15

    To everyone here, myself included honestly, sending virtual hugs your way.
    It's okay to lay down, cry, feel upset. It's what makes you human after all. But remember that the fact you're here is a beautiful thing in itself. Some humans never got to have that chance even before they were born, and some have spent their last day with their last breath. Cherish what got you to push yourself this far in your life.

    • @LiamODell-qy2hx
      @LiamODell-qy2hx Рік тому

      I’m growing up in a family where crying is only acceptable when you’re alone not in front of people so crying and stuff like that is like a foreign language

  • @allegramorgagni7340
    @allegramorgagni7340 2 роки тому +130

    I love the fact that you put a Billie song in every playlist you do.
    Good taste dude.
    Good taste.

  • @fl0w3r_P4rKss
    @fl0w3r_P4rKss 2 роки тому +5289

    Some time stamps if anyone wants them. (●'◡'●)
    0:01 - 3:48 [Lovely by Billie Eilish]
    3:49 - 7:47 [Arcade by Duncan Laurence]
    7:48 - 12:06 [Moral of the story by Ashe]
    12:07 - 16:14 [Falling by Harry Styles]
    16:15 - 19:50 [This city by Sam Fischer]
    19:51 - 24:04 [Hold me while you wait by Lewis Capaldi]
    24:05 - 26:59 [July by Noah Cyrus]
    27:00 - 29:46 [Pastlives by sapientdream]
    29:47 - 33:10 [Can we kiss forever? by Kina]
    33:11 - 37:17 [To sad to cry by Sasha Alex Sloan]
    37:18 - 41:15 [To die for by Same Smith]
    I hope all the time stamps work
    and have a great day! ༼ つ ◕◡◕ ༽つ

  • @smayrababbar2950
    @smayrababbar2950 2 роки тому +239

    We gotta respect our pillows for catching our tears when nobody else does✨

    • @ckp09er
      @ckp09er 2 роки тому +2

      And our blanket(s) for protecting us ✨

    • @poosypumpkin
      @poosypumpkin 2 роки тому +4

      @@ckp09er and our mirrors for crying with us

    • @devpdas
      @devpdas 2 роки тому +1

      And our diaries for keeping our secrets

    • @Norselaelena
      @Norselaelena 2 роки тому

      And our washing machine for saving our favourite clothes to cry in

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому

      Shut up

  • @rose_blush4098
    @rose_blush4098 Рік тому +10

    A dear person whoever reads this, Hey, you, yes, I am talking right to you. I hope you will see yourself with the eyes I see you one day because I can tell you have some awesome music taste :) You’re such a beautiful human being and worth and enough. I hope you know that you do only need yourself to be happy, I know society builds up the standard that whenever you’re alone you’re not living a happy life. But in fact, that is not true, if you start to realize that you actually deserve all the good things happening to you, you will treat yourself a lot nicer. I hope you let yourself rest, don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, over regret, and over everything your mind wants to destroy you. I wish I could remove all those demons inside of your head because you deserve to feel happy. If you ever feel lonely then watch the sky, because you know, someone, at the same time is watching the sky too, maybe feeling the same way..I am glad you exist and I hope you won’t ever remove your own spot in this world, maybe you don’t feel like you belong here but, Angel, then build your home here. I don’t want you to leave this world unhappy. I want you to live every little second, I want you to feel alive, I don’t want you to see yourself just existing. You deserve it. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault, the demons in your head recognize that you have a beautiful heart, they want to take it because they have never seen such a beautiful heart as yours, so why let them win over you? . You’re not selfish for isolating yourself, but you deserve to talk to someone. If you’re reading this then please never forget to breathe and smile.
    Don’t live up to other standards! It’s your story and not theirs.
    Life for those who couldn’t smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like it’s your last one.
    I love you and send you hugs.
    You’re so strong, you’re still here, and I am proud of you.
    YOU ARE NOT USELESS. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE WORTH IT. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE LOVED. READ THAT AGAIN.
    I AM GLAD YOU EXIST. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE NOT A PROBLEM. YOU ARE HUMAN AND YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID. READ THAT AGAIN.
    YOU ARE NOT BEING DRAMATIC.
    You’re not a burden to anyone, don’t be afraid to talk, to use your voice. You’re beautiful inside out. Your body is beautiful the way it is. Please don’t starve yourself. Please eat, I know it’s hard but you deserve food. You deserve to eat and drink.
    I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. READ THAT AGAIN. I WISH I COULD HUG YOU RIGHT NOW, SO A VIRTUAL HUG WILL DO.
    It hurts me to see you’re in pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I love u I love u I love u I love u I love u please don’t go. I am sorry that no one is hearing you, I am sorry no one is noticing that you have lost yourself. I wish I could take your pain away, it hurts me to see the pain in your eyes. I love you through my words and I mean it. I just want you to stay, hold on a little longer okay? Please? For Me.?? I hope you have an awesome day/ morning/ evening/ night.
    If it’s a night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you.
    If it’s a day for you, don’t start it with such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such a mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water in the morning, and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits.
    If it’s an evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course, you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self-care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed. And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re stronger than you think, I know you will make it :)
    Now wipe those tears away and smile for me, you really don’t know much a smile can brighten someone’s day, do you? I hope one day yours will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
    Remember crying is not weakness, let it out as much as you can but don’t let the emotion control you by giving up. It’s okay, you’re here, you’re safe, you can let it out. Did anyone ask you, how you are feeling today? If not, how are you really? I don’t think you’re doing good, but you will feel good at one point. Don’t give yourself up. I am sorry you feel misunderstood. But anyone who gets to be with you doesn’t know how lucky he/ she/ they are :).
    Enough with beating up yourself for today, okay?! - The stranger that cares about you more than anything. I hope this is enough for you to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. I hope you can stay. This is your sign to stay and treat yourself with love, you deserve it.
    And in case no one told you today, again, I am so proud of you. I
    hope you will remember my words today tomorrow..

  • @spookidoxzsghost
    @spookidoxzsghost 2 роки тому +34

    If anyone wants to talk, and you don't have to believe me, but I will listen. I may not be able to help, but I will listen for eternity.

    • @kasih1415
      @kasih1415 2 роки тому +1

      i would love too ❤️

    • @lockaveid7818
      @lockaveid7818 2 роки тому

      Saya sedar apa yang saya buat pada dia itu salah. Sumpah saya sedar. Saya sangat menyesal. Saya tak patut buat macam tu. Saya dah minta maaf pada dia. Tapi dia susah untuk terima. Saya sayang dia lagi sumpah. Selepas putus saya sudah tidak tahu mahu buat apa. Saya seperti tiada hala tuju. Saya perlukan dia. Saya sayang dia sumpah. Saya menyesal. Saya nak betulkan balik semua silap saya. Saya nak awak balik. Saya perlukan awak. Saya tiada tempat bahagia. Awak tempat bahagia saya. Saya sayang awak Adriana, saya rindu awak Adriana, saya tunggu awak Adriana. ADRIANA SAYA BETUL BETUL SAYANG AWAK SAYA SAYANG AWAK

  • @sharonmahana4480
    @sharonmahana4480 2 роки тому +60

    My postpartum depression is hitting so hard 2 weeks after having my baby... shout out to every mom who goes through this shit.

    • @heyitsme669
      @heyitsme669 2 роки тому +2

      i hope everything gets better for you! you are so strong! and congrats!!

    • @supravietuitoriblog547
      @supravietuitoriblog547 2 роки тому +2

      Hi! I don't want to bother you or something, but I saw your comment and I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this. If you ever need someoane to talk to, I'm here for you, okay?

  • @cheysnyder6387
    @cheysnyder6387 2 роки тому +76

    i think the reason i listen to music all the time is so i don’t feel alone for a just a little while. it’s almost comforting to know that someone else isn’t feeling the best like me.

    • @444oneka
      @444oneka 2 роки тому +3

      literally, music is my escape from reality, an escape from all my problems, my pain. but I know music isn’t going to ALWAYS be the solution to everything. and I’m afraid because music is literally the only thing keeping me together right now.

  • @Tamatilo
    @Tamatilo Рік тому +3

    Im not a sad person and i honestly just came to this playlist to chill and seeing all of these comments just motivates me so much to be happy and greatfull with what i have , i saw this comment saying that if youre here and having a tough time , theres a lot of people here with you and for you and that just warms my heart❤

  • @roseclouds2023
    @roseclouds2023 2 роки тому +91

    I feel like only my bed knows how much I truly cry.

    • @Amy-jg6vu
      @Amy-jg6vu Рік тому +3

      sadly its so true and the next day I go to school and put on a fake smile and make them laugh...

    • @kenlen-wv4sm
      @kenlen-wv4sm Рік тому

      Yes me too I’m the only one who knows how much I cry on my bed because I lost my v bucks on the fortnite battle pass because I forgot to finish it it has been 7 days since this happend I’m still sad this has made a bit indent on my life

  • @hopinmydungeon
    @hopinmydungeon 2 роки тому +180

    Hey there.
    What are you doing here so late?
    Can't sleep?
    Ah. Coming to cry in the middle of the night.
    I get that.
    It feels nice to do that, so I understand.
    Take all the time you need.
    You know, I just happened to find you stumble upon the video where I'm taking a break.
    Wanna sit down for a while?
    Tell me about what's bothering you?
    Oh, don't worry about me. I don't find you annoying.
    I wanna be here for you.
    I'll try to help as best as I can.
    I won't judge you. Everyone has their own story.
    Ah, that sucks.
    I can't begin to imagine how you must feel.
    You're so tough for getting through all of that.
    I'm so proud of you for not giving up.
    Of course I understand.
    One broken soul to another.
    I just want to remind you.
    No matter how hard it gets, please stay strong.
    Take care of yourself.
    You can't go into a battle already wounded.
    You can't wave the white flag without trying your hardest.
    This will all be over soon.
    And hey.
    If you ever need to take another break, I'm always here.
    Helping people is my specialty.
    They always find their way, one way or another.
    You can come sit down with me any time.
    I'll try to lend some advice, or just an ear to listen.
    And if this is your last time visiting me, I'm proud of you.
    My job is done.
    Go take on life with all your energy, and remember that you have one soul always cheering you on.
    You'll always have my support.
    I can't wait to see the great things you'll achieve.
    Before you go...
    I love you.

    • @gracieradford8672
      @gracieradford8672 Рік тому +9

      Thank you

    • @darkwhater7929
      @darkwhater7929 Рік тому +5

      ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ I love you too

    • @jj_4ever619
      @jj_4ever619 Рік тому +5

      Thanks needed that love you to❤

    • @ivysperothepuppy580
      @ivysperothepuppy580 Рік тому +7

      This has touched me more than my "friends" or family I felt welcomed and validated better than ever by my rl friends or family thnk you

    • @hopinmydungeon
      @hopinmydungeon Рік тому +4

      @@gracieradford8672 you're so welcome, i hope youre doing well :)

  • @roadtonowhere6997
    @roadtonowhere6997 2 роки тому +81

    Do any of you agree that 'you can bury the past but it never dies'

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому

      No, i agree that it’s a shit and cringe quote

    • @LoverStay
      @LoverStay Рік тому

      @@CIeansing why are you even here?

    • @CIeansing
      @CIeansing Рік тому

      @@LoverStay it’s very fucking clear why i’m here, it’s not for the shit ass music

  • @JannatulTasnim
    @JannatulTasnim Рік тому +63

    Nothing hurts more when you're crying at night without making a noise : )

  • @siimplysxnny7090
    @siimplysxnny7090 2 роки тому +28

    not me dealing with meltdowns and breakdowns from everyone, being expected to be better 🥺

  • @throughbellaseyes
    @throughbellaseyes 2 роки тому +72

    A couple of days ago, I cried myself to sleep wondering how he is ok with not talking to me for hours and hours .. and then I woke up to my heart physically hurting. It was more than just a heartache but it woke me up and I got scared because I’ve never felt this type of sadness that goes from just a feeling of heartache to it becoming a physical heart pain in which it wakes you up…
    But that’s how much I love him and miss him and that’s how much I’m hurting.

    • @idkwhhaatt
      @idkwhhaatt 2 роки тому

      You shouldn’t hurt for anyone you should tell him how you feel don’t keep this sadness that you hate to yourself it’s better to get it out than keeping it in! Know your not alone and your got this!! Yeah

    • @quenniestargarcia
      @quenniestargarcia 2 роки тому +2

      Hi! Hope you are doing okay now 🙂 Btw, I am currently in this situation where you know and feel that everything has changed. I’m keeping myself busy to distract myself but at the end of the day the sadness and pain come back especially at night. I know I’m gonna move on and learn from this lesson 🙂 virtual hugs to everyone~

    • @bullfrog788jp5
      @bullfrog788jp5 Рік тому

      Hey i wish i had someone care about me like that im tired of feeling alone

  • @kiwielsasser3619
    @kiwielsasser3619 2 роки тому +29

    Its sad being told by your own stepfather that your real dad will never love you, then being told your sexuality's and feelings are bullshit. You forgive your stepfather, and then move on, only for him to forget you...

    • @Iamnewtnothuman
      @Iamnewtnothuman 2 роки тому +1

      My gender and sexuality aren't supported in my whole family and there all hard-core Christians so I can kinda relate

  • @Vox1ek_Trust_Us
    @Vox1ek_Trust_Us Рік тому +5

    I like this playlist because it is the only thing that i feel understands me deeper than the personality of this happy person. When there is so much more happening on the inside that nobody can see.. Expect this playlist and the comments. ❤

  • @booktok.girl00
    @booktok.girl00 2 роки тому +116

    *friends: are you ok? *Taps my shoulder*
    *Me:*flinches* y-yea I'm fine
    *Them: oh ok *walks away*
    *Me: oh uh ok *turns around crying*

    • @Iamnewtnothuman
      @Iamnewtnothuman 2 роки тому +3

      Why do I relate?

    • @spookidoxzsghost
      @spookidoxzsghost 2 роки тому +9

      Unlike these said friends, I'm open to talk if you want. I'm always open to talk with anyone. I may not be able to help but I will listen for eternity.

    • @booktok.girl00
      @booktok.girl00 2 роки тому +3

      @@spookidoxzsghost you are a first

    • @booktok.girl00
      @booktok.girl00 2 роки тому +2

      @@spookidoxzsghost also thx

    • @Blurb-playz
      @Blurb-playz 2 роки тому

      YO! WHO THE HECK DOES THAT?! THEY COULD ATLEST MAKE SURE YOURE OKAY!!! And since I’m now your friend I declare that I would like to get to know you

  • @blxckshp3125
    @blxckshp3125 2 роки тому +40

    Every day is a struggle to wake up, to talk to my friends, to work, to eat, to come home and your family yelling at you, at each other, to love someone with all your heart to have them break it into pieces, you try to fix it but someone breaks it more, to go to school and be picked on and touched, you want to tell your parents but are afraid of what they’ll do to you, I hate life, I hate I can’t talk to someone, I hate that all I want is someone to hug me, all I want is someone to love me with all their heart and to care about and protect me from people and even myself
    Thank you, if you read all of that, I just wanted somebody to know at least, so thank you again

    • @viviii7765
      @viviii7765 2 роки тому

      I really want to give you a hug right now! Sending you lots of love and you got this alrighty?

    • @megancouch314
      @megancouch314 2 роки тому

      🤗🤗🤗some virtual hugs for you
      It’s gonna be okay , you just gotta be strong and hang in there ♥️

  • @meiilol5539
    @meiilol5539 2 роки тому +5

    i hate how i have to take care of other people than myself. i asked my mom if my father would say yes to me going to lv. she said idk. but i already know him, he would be asking and telling me, " then who would take care of them? " or "what would he eat when youre not home? " and "whats gonna be in it for me? ". btw, im 16 and ive been independent since i was in elementary school. i was left at home with the saying "look out the window before answering the door" and "theres food inside the refrigerator if im gone for too long". ive been left alone with babies and kids and the saying " make sure to watch them and feed them". my mom said she doesnt trust me? why? why dont you trust me? youve trusted me with lives of babies and younger sibling and cousins. i dont get this at all. why am i watching kids i didnt give birth too? why am i the one responsible for this shit? i get why older siblings are so overwhelmed with parenting the younger ones. i was in elementary school taking care of children and skipped out of school just to watch them. i was in elementary school when i started making dinner and doing dishes and babysitting. i had to vent somewhere because this really upsets me how im the one responsible for watching and taking care of children that i didnt give birth too. i wanna have a life where i dont have to think "are they okay if i go here? " or "did i feed them", " did i do the dishes and dump the trash and clean the kitchen and living room? " and " oh god, theyre gonna be so mad if i dont get ahead of my work". yk, id love if i had a house alone for me to just yell and cry out loud. i hate this.

  • @Millie.Orchard
    @Millie.Orchard Рік тому +7

    It shocks me how upset I actually am. And it mostly shocks me how I put on this facade so well and nobody notices. It shocks me how lonely I am. But I am lonely. I have to hold myself ,and just pretend it’s someone who actually cares about me, to eventually fall asleep. I know I’m gonna get past this. It just doesn’t feel like there’s light at the end of the tunnel yet.

  • @stel3361
    @stel3361 2 роки тому +38

    The soul is an incomprehensible thing. No one knows where it is, but everyone knows how it hurts. 💔

  • @ЖамиляАсылбекова-е4з

    I will always stay for you.Stay strong.Stay loudly.Keep going.

  • @KittyCaitlyn
    @KittyCaitlyn Рік тому +62

    hits different when you finally let everything out and you’re trying to keep your cries silent so no one hears