XANA - 19 (Official Music Video)
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- Опубліковано 18 вер 2022
- if the wishes on my candles came true, it would have been you.
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I don’t know when it started
I think that one day I just woke up
In love with you
God damn
She’s got herself a girlfriend now
Well I guess she finally came out
Wish I coulda waited around
Maybe it coulda been me
Its all good
Im always wanting more than I should
And I bet you’d really love me if you could
Cause if the wishes on my candles came true
it woulda been you
We were 19
The world was hard to please
And my daddy didn’t understand
That I just couldn’t love a man
The way I love you
It’s all that I do
But It would be nice
If you would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me a little more?
It would be fun
If you and me coulda won
Walked off together into the sun
Where you would call me the one
It woulda been sweet
If you had married me
But its all good baby
We were only 19
Just promise me one thing
Don’t go getting married
Cause I’m going to cross oceans for you one day
God damn
I’m stuck on this once again
And I don’t know if we can be friends
One look at you and i’m a mess
Well I dug out your letters
They still make me weak
And I know it’s been years
But it killed me to leave
And I know it killed you too
Mid summer afternoon
On redwood avenue
If I could hold you once again
I wouldn’t let you loose
I wouldn’t make you choose
I wouldn’t make you choose
I wish I was ready for you now
But It would be nice
If you would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me a little more?
It would be fun
If you and me coulda won
Walked off together into the sun
Where you would call me the one
It woulda been sweet
If you had married me
But its all good baby
We were only 19
We try not to think about it
We try not to think about it
We try not to think about it
I still think about it
Do you think about it? How
We grew up, we moved out
We fucked up, fucked around
Got a job, made some money
Blew it all, Its kinda funny
You don’t talk to your dad
I don't talk when I’m mad
We get scared, don’t admit it
I don’t care, you don’t feel it
Breaking hearts, just for fun
Cause we could, It's so dumb
Fall in love, too young
fall apart In my arms
And I know that it hurts
cause I'm feeling so far
My Darling, I promise
Ain’t this what you wanted?
What you wanted?
And It would be nice
If you would walk me home
Leave your coat and your keys in the corridor
Would you kiss me a little more? Oh
And It would be fun
If you and me coulda won
Walked off together into the sun
Where you would call me the one
And it would be sweet
If you would marry me
But it’s all good baby
Yeah It’s all good
It’s all good baby
Yeah it's all
It’s all
And I would’ve loved
Woulda’ve loved you forever
It’s never enough
But I wanted it to be
Every night
You were sleeping in my sweater
Its never enough
But you wanted it to be
I would’ve loved
Would’ve loved you forever
It’s never enough
But I wanted it to be
Every night
you were sleeping in my sweater
It’s never enough
But you wanted it to be
Mmm, mmm
I'm dragging on the ending of this letter because I’m afraid
Afraid that once I stop writing
That's it for our story
I hope that's not the case
A love like ours
Never really goes away
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“A love like ours, never really goes away.” So true.
This is, no joke, the best music video I’ve ever seen. The callbacks to your other music videos to make it come full circle, the never ending longing you’ll always have for this relationship, the just missing each other, the “in another life”, and the “if it happened this way instead”. Oh my god. This is what storytelling is. This is what true art is. I’m simply in awe. Thank you.
The tears in my eyes have been hiding behind my heart for months. Thank you for letting them out with this.
❤️🩹❤️🩹
A hug 🤗 for you dear, if you're comfortable with it, and a reminder that it's completely wonderfully healing to let those tears out when you need to.
Drink plenty of water and wash your face with cold water during and after , it helps with the sticky salty remnants (and the puffiness) from a good cry session 💛💛💛
Hugs
Same here. Feels good to get it out. Whishing you my best luck though❤️
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There are no words that describe how absolutely perfect your music is. I especially love the little throwbacks to your previous videos in here. Please don’t ever stop making music
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She is damn good. I'm a gay male. When I first heard this song tonight it reminded me of a female friend who went through things when we were younger.
this ain't music nor art this is straight up PORN.
I'm turning 28 this year but I wish I had had a song like this when I was 19, very deep in the closet, denying my own identity because of all the religious bullcrap that had been ingrained into my brain since I was a toddler. I wish I had had this kind of comfort, of hope back then. It would've spared me a lot of tears over the years to get to the point where I am now - out and proud, shamelessly living my life. Thank you for bringing solace to the young ones growing up and figuring themselves out now, and bless you and your talent for it to resonate so much with the rest of us as well. 💙✨
Well you still have a chance to make things right
Be whoever you want to be. Nothing should ever keep you from yourself. Find YOURSELF and stay true. You are loved and Beloved by many more people than you think.
You two have chemistry since yellow and kitchen light 🥺
Hi, new here and I was just wondering is there like a story line through multiple songs? And if there is can you list them in order?
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@@Sirenonix yes, that’s her album tantrums. she has it in a playlist in her channel
This song has such an emotional weight to it that I can't imagine anyone not being able to relate in some way. I'm left sorrowful and yet joyous within the knowledge that the hurt it invokes for me is in the past where it belongs.
WHY CAN'T I HAVE THIS. thank you, Xana, for the representation we needed. Your music makes me feel like maybe I could have what you sing about. You're my favorite artist and your absolutely perfect, thank you.
Didn't even realize that 6 minutes went by...but at the same time it felt like a movie.
I absolutely love Xana. Her songs have helped me regain my independence and stop being a door mat. Thank you for being part of our lives Xana.
proud of you❤
Your words speak volumes. I second them. Thank you for them. And I must say thank you for being part of our lives too, Xana!!! 👌👍
the fact that this music video broke me and yet i can listen to the rest of the album for a bit of a boost, now that's what you call an incredible artist. Xana, keep following your dreams, you're making it ❤
I'm in love with the whole album but this song specially hits me different.
Thank you, Xana! 💘
I went through this when I was 19. Now in mid-20s and you captured the weird mixture of joy, pain, and love perfectly.
yep, i'm gay.
I’m crying right now. I just discovered this song today and I can’t stop listening. As someone who got into her first queer relationship at 19 that ended in an engagement that fell through, every lyric feels like it was ripped straight from my heart. This is talent and celebration of what queer love is and it’s one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard.
And now... Replay. Just replay.
God, this is incredible, the aesthetic, the rhythm, all the references... I'm melting 💚
Xana is such an underrated artist, all of her songs are so heartfelt and BEUTIFUL and she has such an amazing voice. I hope she goes on tour :0
I also can't not comment how perfectly flows the "tipsy" shot at 4:19 with the "moore" scream in the song. Hitting right in my feels with the editing... 👏🏻
coming out of a 2 year long relationship that started when i was 18 and ended right after my 20th birthday. this song and video understand me in ways im not sure i understand myself. xana you have plugged into a whole world of young lesbians that are aching to be understood through music so completely like you do. thank you for this even though it just broke me all over again. i hope your first love knows how special she is. i hope mine does too
There is no reason I should feel like I was the one in this video. Why am I crying over something I have never come close to knowing? Your emotions and pain was so real that I couldn't help but feel them too. You really loved her, I don't know who she is or what made her the one, but I do know that pain is real. My tears are real. And this song and video are beautiful. Thank you for sharing with the rest of us!
I literally cannot wait
Damn. Made me cry once again, this was heartbreakingly beautiful. That beautiful chemistry was just amazing. Thank you for sharing your art with the world.
i've been rewatching the video since it came out and it's amazing how it makes me cry every single time and how i seem to notice new little things oneach rewatch.
it's always amazing to witness the magic you both (and the whole team) create.
I AM IN ABSOLUTE SHOCK
CONGRATS to Maia, Lindsey, Xana and all the rest of this beautiful team, you did such a masterpiece
Tears and talent are real here, I am amazed by the work, the cinematography, photography, writing, acting of this video, it really brings together all the emotions of 19 and the other MV references just broke my heart in pieces
THIS IS GONNA BE AMAZING. I JUUST KNOW IT.
I also sing this song and cry in my car in the rain. Unapologetically at the top of my lungs. Goosebumps every time. Thank you for sharing your art!
I’m currently sitting in class and watching this and oh my god my heart is full but shattered at the same time. I will be watching it over and over when I get home. 💚💚 thank you for this work of art, Xana.
The symbolism and layers blow me away every time 💚
An absolute master piece! I can’t even fathom how deep that touched me! The little references as well *chefs kiss* thank you for being so talented @xana 🥰
The vocals, lighting, talent and chemistry - yes, the chemistry! Absolutely love you two! Excelsior! ♡♡♡
I’m so excited to get my heart broken by this
I like this series of music videos a lot! 💜
I guess it's Tipsy, Kitchen Light, Yellow, So It's Your Birthday and 19.
It also reminds me of Hollie Col's The Julia Stevens video series from last year
Me contemplating whenever or not to show this to my bf
Edit: he loved it too
This song truly describes my first ever wlw relationship. I fell in love with my ex when I was 21 and she was 19 (same as in the song.) She made me so happy and we thought it would last forever. We broke up nine months later and I mourned her for two years. Only now have I healed enough that I can accept it wasn’t meant to be but I will never forget her.💔 “It was never enough but [we] wanted it to be.”
the video did justice to the amazing song, what a masterpiece... heartbreaking in a good way
And now that this song has visuals to it, it hurts that much more and I love it 💚
Had just gotten broken up with right before this video was posted. Have cried to this song numerous times since then, as well as to a good number of the rest of the album. To have a artist who gives us songs that I can relate to, as another wlw…I consider myself incredibly lucky. Thank you, Xana. Here’s to one month of 19, and to many, many more.💓💓💓
I'm not crying! You're crying... 😭 what a powerful song and video clip! Love you, Xana. Never stop creating this art 🖤
I cried so much it was so good. Never stop making music xana you're AMAZING! now its time to watch all of your amazing music videoes and cry even more
1:22 Goals right there, finding someone that looks at me like that right there. I need that in my life, heck, we ALL need that on our lives.
My luck with dating, it'll be a dog I get from the shelter LOL. Love your music lady, please keep up the excellent work!
Htf this song hasn't reached 10 million views and likes? Ms X your day is on the rise
I knew this song was gonna be good when i saw you two on the thumbnail
this video was so beautiful, the aesthetic , the chemistry, the details. its just WOW. keep it up xana!
90k... i'm here just to say again. Xana is the real deal babies! You will never know how many times you saved us, you little green-haired canadian Girl! :)
already in love x
I watched this video and it was better than I could imagine and I’ve listened to it so many times I know all the words and I enjoy it each time ❤ thank you!
Intimate, charming and powerful, real and dreamy, at the same time!❤❤🔥🔥
Não é fácil fazer um vídeo clipe, quanto menos um tão longo, e cada segundo desse ficou maravilhoso !
This song is never going to stop being one of my favourites , along side yellow and so it’s your birthday
WORLD'S BEST BRIDGE TO EVER EXIST PERIOD
Yasssss it's my birthday and I get a present!!
Same :D
@@elina3559 Happy Birthday beautiful!!
@@oobiedoobie1204 thanks! You too
my birthday is in a week its like an early present from her
@@helenamorgan1672 come listen again 🤗 happy late birthday love!!
i love that Xana features the same girl in her mv's and now i think im also inlove w her and she broke my heart as well
MY HEART JUST BREAK INTRO THE PIECES AND BACK TOGRTHER WHEN I WATCH THISSSSSSSSS
could be cause I’m on my period but I’m ugly crying right now after watching the previous videos and then this one. Great story thanks for making me cry
DP hit this one outta the park
🙏🙏🙏🥹🥹🥹
I am literally in love with this song. It's so beautiful
I’ll watch this ‘till the day I die
I can’t believe it’s been two months since this video came for my life like that.
Cannot wait to have this on repeat for the next month 😅
ugly crying while watching this. what a gorgeous song it really hit close to home
This is Saved under my Funeral Music, for anyone who is Wondering.
Patiently waiting…. ❤️
I've watched this wayyyy too many times now ❤❤❤
It’s so annoying when people start cutting onions next to me every time I play this song or watch this video. Ugh
i cannot properly put into words how much things song means to me and how seen and understood i feel by it but i hope you know how much i love you and your music and the impact it has had on me and so many other people. this mv is absolutely amazing you did such an amazing job and you both looks so good and it just made me feel so many things even more so than just hearing it. please never stop what you do
Omg can't wait!!
Dang it. I cried the first time I listened to this song and the video lives up to all the feelings. 😢❤
OmG... So excited!!
1:19-1:24 That has to be the widest, most beautiful smile I have seen in a long time. She is stunning ❤
coming back every few days since the release to watch and listening to the song...
I have watched this so much in the past 9 hours and it still make me cry
thank u for watching and loving!!!
i am: E M O T I O N A L ahhhhhhhhh help this was breathtaking omg
great just great! no more words
Esse clipe está a coisa mais linda do mundo, está perfeito, dá pra sentir tudo !! Obrigada Xana, por todo cuidado e carinho que você tem pelo seu trabalho, e por todo o cuidado que você nos passa através dele também ❤️
Verdade ! Está perfeito ❤
Just finished watching this video and I'm sitting on my bed, not knowing what to do with myself except cry. Holy shit Xana this is BEAUTIFUL! I thought 19 couldn't hurt anymore until this video came out. My God, this was excellent!❤❤❤❤❤
My jaw dropped when the references to previous MVs popped up, and my heart BROKE when you two stopped running and you realised you couldn't get back together. Damn man😭💔
Damn it Xana, making me cry again. 😭
I'm in my 40s now but still hurt for her... god I still miss her!
I’ve been looking for this music since 1999. Thank you
Ich habe noch nie so ein gefühlstarkes, emotionales und authentisches Video gesehen, bei dem man sich in die Partnerinnen so gut einfühlen kann, wirklich super umgesetzt!
this is precious
Couldn't stop listeting to this for 2 days already. Emotions are so perfectly conveyed and your voice is amazing.
I listen to this song in a russian music store. I didn't expect there to be something like this, but I'm glad I found it.
Lesbians in Russia have less and less ways to express and see a representation of themselves due to new laws (in addition to the old homophobic ones).
I was so glad to find this amazing song in a time like this even though it makes me remember things I wish didn't happen but it helps to live with it.
This broke my heart in all the best ways. It was absolutely beautiful.
Please always keep her in all of your music videos 😭🤍 I love your chemistry!!
The thing about Xana is ... I came here only to watch this new video, but now I feel compelled to just put the whole album on repeat ... again. I can't add Xana to my playlist, because when one of her songs start to play randomly, I have to stop and put her whole album on repeat. It's impossible to listen only one of her songs. Further than this, I would like to say thank you. This song is so close to my first love experience, and it was hard. For me music is such an important part in the process of healing and 18 years ago there was nothing, it felt so lonely. So, thank U.
Edit: Just to clarify - when I say there was nothing 18/20 years ago, for me, it's more about the existence of an oppressive culture/society than the lack of LGBTQIAP+ artists.
🥹🥹🥹😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 literally soooooooo good
Essa música é tão >>>> ❤️❤️❤️
All love from Brazil 🇧🇷✨
Perfeita 😍
Siiim
I blasttttttt this in the car. Daily. ✌
This song will always tear me up and now finding the video?????? Oh my gosh 😭😭😭😭
And once again, you never cease to amaze me 😭❤️
Angels on Earth.... thank you Xana♥
this is BY FAR the best music video ever - it is so perfect, i could just watch it over and over and over again!!
Oh my god the emotions !!! You’re such an amazing director and writer
😭omg this video production is soo good
Holy moly, what a powerful, cathartic song. Loved it!
Wow! That’s was beautiful ❤️
Just wow Xana
This describes my first relationship to a T ❤
This is a MASTERPIECE!
Xana, thank you very much for what you doing!!!!
I wish that I could watch this all over again for the first time
i must say, euro and link are great actors
As if it didn't hurt enough the first time I heard it 😭