Awesome! So awesome. Thank you also. It was hard to do this video right in open public but since a week or so before my 5 year anniversary and seeing that young man battling at 645am I just feel I should share, feel like I need to do more I guess to help...
The vicious endless cycle is so hard to get out of once you fall into it. I just have to tell myself when I have that craving is " not today satan" Thanks for sharing your story, these types of videos help me in my sobriety ❤💯
I am so proud of you brother I have ten years in alcoholics anonymous and Almost 3 years continuous sobriety I go to meetings almost daily and the program save my life.
What a story, thanks so much for sharing. My wife and I never drank during the week but had huge binges on weekends that eventually turned into benders that eventually turned into being weekend alcoholics. I remember the pain/fear/anxiety/sweats/shaking/depressive thoughts/suicidal thoughts/no food/no water/no energy/can barely move from bed every single Sunday and it was TORTURE. Monday and Tuesday I'd be functioning but with no joy in my life, completely depressed. Started to feel normal around Wednesday and then back to it from Friday 5pm. I can't imagine living that lifestyle 24/7. You poor thing. I'm so happy you're sober. My wife and I are 14 months sober and absolutely thriving, it's been easy, no cravings whatsoever.
I can relate, weekend drinker here, beer, never hard liquor though, I'm ready to give it all up, I have 3 day weekends, off Saturday, Sunday and Monday so it's 3 day binges for me, I hate it
@@TEXASLOYAL 3 day weekend must be hard...so much time to get drunk. All I can say is if you want to quit, you can. It was something I thought I'd never be able to do, it was tied to who I was as a person, my identity etc. These are just lies the alcohol tells us. We're not how much we can drink. Wishing you luck my man.
Your story is so similar to mine...BAC .57 & still able to "function", multiple detoxes & treatments, body failing/bleeding from everywhere, can't swallow from esophagus irritation, waking up in the hospital with palm-sized bruises on my ribcage (defib)...thank you & I get it!
Thank you for your share, I too believe that if I ever drink again I will be 6 ft under as i should have been. I remember standing at the gates of hell ready to walk in, but if it weren’t for a loving God that somehow spared me and gave me another chance at life, i wouldn’t be here. I too was in Detox’s and emergency rooms multiple times. I got really involved with AA, and the 12 step program saved my soul. I still can’t believe it I actually have 12yrs sober this past Feb. I was having a bad night and somehow I suppose God lead me too hear your story, thank you for being so vulnerable!
The road to alcoholism is a very similar road for many people. I don't belittle the stories because its important to the process but its just so repetitive and common among alcoholics at its core that its almost universal. The road to recovery is what fascinates me. Everyone it seems used a shovel to dig their hole. Shoveling is just a routine act that requires no thought, or serious ability of any kind.. But people need to be very clever and resourceful and imaginative to get out of a hole. Most often they will need help depending on how deep the hole is. Once out they need to fill that space with things that can make sure we never get onto that hole again. We just needed a shovel to get in that hole. But getting out and staying out required more. Much more.
I am soo grateful that you are alive to tell this story! I didn't drink even a quarter as bad as you and was drinking for ten years since I was 21 back in the military. Being 31 now and going on 8 days sober is exactly these types of experience that need's to be shared to keep us going with sobriety! I truly thank you man.
Thanks for sharing your story. I thoroughly "enjoyed" it. You're very good at speaking, the way you describe things really allows me to picture what was happening. Glad you made it through.
Awesome. There are so few raw videos like this covering alcohol addiction and how bad it can get. It would be interesting to see if you do more in the future.
I'm on day one. Just binge watching rock bottom stories. Fascinating and terrifying stuff. I'm just hoping to make til tomorrow. We'll go from there I guess. Thanks for sharing, sir.
Painful to listen too. But I’ve been through it myself. Worst episode I had full on dts on a fishing trawler in the Bering sea. Used to stay drunk between fishing seasons living in the Philippines. Learned the go to sea and sober up habit from my Navy days. I’m still alive brother and so are you. Sober now four years. Second go at it. Damn life is a trip.
Thank you very much for sharing your story. It is helping me to see things better. I noticed that you said your trigger was stress, for me it’s boredom. But the ironic thing is for both of us, the cognitive dissonance, you drink to relieve the stress which just caused you an additional amount of lifetime stress, when I drink when I’m bored, people will call me to do things but I turn them down because I’m drinking by myself. The one thing that we turn to to help us with our triggers, keep us from living a full life. God bless you and everyone watching this video.
You are rock solid. great personality , keep up the good work. (you are going places). btw. charted your NNDM pic. and i bought in yesterday at open. was a great play. keep them coming.
My friend is near death and I’m on my last effort to help her save herself and myself. Thank you for sharing. I’m at the point where I can’t try force her to change anymore. I fear my only option is to be there for her when she dies. My heart is breaking, but I’m full of love and hope and I thank you so much for sharing your story.
Awesome job. I don’t usually watch these types of videos but I was hoping you’d release another AMC video but saw that you posted this one. Hehe. Keep doing what you’re doing. I’ve been through my issue with alcohol for a long time also. 4 years sober here, got sober a little after my son was born. Thanks for sharing your story. It reminded me of the reason why I’m doing what I’m doing.
This is what my life was like for last 5 years. Not relapses but 2 to 3 week binges every 1 to 2 months. Over a litre of vodka every day. Now 38 and not teetotal but I just don’t drink or get drunk. I’ve had wine and champagne at weddings but I just sip it like others and doesn’t bother me. Being that drunk was an awful existence.
As an addict I can relate to the extremes we go to in order to come back from a relapse. Thank you for sharing your story and giving me hope after I've been through a relapse and know I need professional help again to get out of this cycle. (and a higher power/God)
@@megaclips.1 my addictions are pornography and technology use. It's just as damaging mentally and spiritually as alcoholism in my opinion. I've gone to inpatient in 2017 and took recovery seriously. Over time, stress got to me too and I find myself in a year's relapse. It's much more subtle than alcoholism but I had a panic attack on march 2nd of this year, and I hadn't had a panic attack as bad as this one was. So I can relate to having to go half a block for food because I was so anxious and scared to leave my apartment. I've been to the ER over panic attacks because of my addiction manifesting into so much fear. The dangerous thing is that I still think "one more time won't kill me" but truth is, each acting out kills me mentally and spiritually and there's no bs'ing about that. So I am grateful that you shared your story because even though I don't relate with the alcoholic in that sense, the unmanageability and powerlessness I definitely can in my own way.
@@x10x11x12 oh I get it bro. Addiction is Addiction. I went to a few gambling anonymous meetings and I tell ya what the stories in there were mind blowing how much it ruined lives.
Thank u so much for telling your story and explaining the true glamour of booze. Your tale is a doozy and I’m sure it’s scared sober many newcomers to those monthly meetings u attend! 💪🙏🏻👏👏
Your story is truly moving❤. I had a high tolerance as well despite being a woman. Many detoxes as well, just like you. My sober date is 11/27/17 🎉. Good to know we are not alone.
thank you for sharing this ❤❤❤ my last night of drinking I still remember the dream. I was on a island and the ground kept falling away from underneath me. I don’t think I slept at all and had the worst anxiety for days. It still gives me anxiety over a week later.
This video is almost a carbon copy of my Life and even though I can relate to to all of it is so hard to watch. To make things worse I'm still drinking!
I'm an alcoholic but never been close to what you have gone thru. Thx god 🙏 I never know. Keeps me in AA and never forget I'm a alcoholic. Thx for your story.
I work at a prison I run the DWI program and they all do life story’s where they tell their story start to finish and I’d really like to take your story and read it to the woman. I tried to get the transcript but I can’t copy and paste it. Is there anyway I can get this in writing? We don’t have access to UA-cam clearly haha
I'm do glad I wasn't that bad with drinking. But I had to have beer every day. My wonderful wife intervened and went to a doctor with me. The doctor prescribed two medications that have completely killed all my cravings for alcohol. I can't even stand to snell beer or liquor anymore! I'm coming up on 80 days clean and I'm never looking back! I wake up every morning with so much energy and I feel great. I don't think I can feel any better than the days before, but each new day has me feeling that much greater. Life us so wonderful now!!!
Been there bro. I used to drink a six pack and finish a fifth of Jack 2-3 times a week. If I was going out to a club or bar I would have at least a half bottle of Jack just to be ready to drink. Next day is wtf did I do or say last night? Never got to your level but I suffered like a bitch for years in that pattern
Thankyou for sharing your story to help others. You are clearly made of tough stuff to consume all that booze and survive. You should donate your body to science when you go! ❤️
Hi friend!❤ I am so glad you got some relief from an illness many people experience. I took a 23 and me gene test, and found that alcohol intolerance is genetically based. I myself can’t drink without vomiting, and that’s why I never judge those that can drink without getting sick which leads to,addiction . Another example is that drug sensitivity in another species (dogs) can vary up to 400 times. Addiction is an illness that needs to be medically managed, not stigmatized.
@@jamesbyrne9312 I wasn’t in a good place when I went and found it very shaming they made me feel like i was a horrendous person (which I know I am not). They go on about how selfish, self-centred you are and how many character flaws addicts have it’s almost enough to make you drink. I mean people that are addicted to smoking are never berated this way. I preferred the online zoom ones personally however they are all similar. I have quit drinking for 100 days so far. The online meetings have helped but I’m not doing them very often now only when I get cravings and it’s working so far.
@@helenalovelock1030 I like their inventory process but the stuff you mention is what puts me off, thing is though I can't drink anymore and not sure how to stop.
Proud of you. 5 years sober here too. Never felt better my friend keep up the great work
Awesome! So awesome. Thank you also. It was hard to do this video right in open public but since a week or so before my 5 year anniversary and seeing that young man battling at 645am I just feel I should share, feel like I need to do more I guess to help...
Did you ever get a Cirrhosis diagnosis after all of the years of this, and if so how did you overcome it?
Your story moved me. I'm in early recovery and I needed to hear this so I can get and stay sober.
The vicious endless cycle is so hard to get out of once you fall into it. I just have to tell myself when I have that craving is " not today satan" Thanks for sharing your story, these types of videos help me in my sobriety ❤💯
You can do it
I am so proud of you brother I have ten years in alcoholics anonymous and Almost 3 years continuous sobriety I go to meetings almost daily and the program save my life.
I am going through this right now brother. Its only been my third day sober, its hard
How's sobriety going now?
Good for you
What a story, thanks so much for sharing. My wife and I never drank during the week but had huge binges on weekends that eventually turned into benders that eventually turned into being weekend alcoholics. I remember the pain/fear/anxiety/sweats/shaking/depressive thoughts/suicidal thoughts/no food/no water/no energy/can barely move from bed every single Sunday and it was TORTURE. Monday and Tuesday I'd be functioning but with no joy in my life, completely depressed. Started to feel normal around Wednesday and then back to it from Friday 5pm. I can't imagine living that lifestyle 24/7. You poor thing. I'm so happy you're sober. My wife and I are 14 months sober and absolutely thriving, it's been easy, no cravings whatsoever.
I can relate, weekend drinker here, beer, never hard liquor though, I'm ready to give it all up, I have 3 day weekends, off Saturday, Sunday and Monday so it's 3 day binges for me, I hate it
@@TEXASLOYAL 3 day weekend must be hard...so much time to get drunk. All I can say is if you want to quit, you can. It was something I thought I'd never be able to do, it was tied to who I was as a person, my identity etc. These are just lies the alcohol tells us. We're not how much we can drink. Wishing you luck my man.
@@archangel_josh Thanks brother
This was horrendous but very valuable for me to hear. I’m in day 34 today. Thanks for posting your story.
You got this
Your story is so similar to mine...BAC .57 & still able to "function", multiple detoxes & treatments, body failing/bleeding from everywhere, can't swallow from esophagus irritation, waking up in the hospital with palm-sized bruises on my ribcage (defib)...thank you & I get it!
Hey man. Thanks for sharing this. Maybe I can get out alive too. Great clip. Best wishes✌️
Needed to hear this, got relapsed after 5 years of sobriety/ mainly just an abstinence, today is my first day without alcohol after 3 months bender.
Thank you for your share, I too believe that if I ever drink again I will be 6 ft under as i should have been. I remember standing at the gates of hell ready to walk in, but if it weren’t for a loving God that somehow spared me and gave me another chance at life, i wouldn’t be here. I too was in Detox’s and emergency rooms multiple times. I got really involved with AA, and the 12 step program saved my soul. I still can’t believe it I actually have 12yrs sober this past Feb. I was having a bad night and somehow I suppose God lead me too hear your story, thank you for being so vulnerable!
The road to alcoholism is a very similar road for many people. I don't belittle the stories because its important to the process but its just so repetitive and common among alcoholics at its core that its almost universal. The road to recovery is what fascinates me. Everyone it seems used a shovel to dig their hole. Shoveling is just a routine act that requires no thought, or serious ability of any kind.. But people need to be very clever and resourceful and imaginative to get out of a hole. Most often they will need help depending on how deep the hole is. Once out they need to fill that space with things that can make sure we never get onto that hole again. We just needed a shovel to get in that hole. But getting out and staying out required more. Much more.
A very moving story. I am glad you have beat this. You are remarkable for your honesty. Thanks care of yourself and thank you?
I am soo grateful that you are alive to tell this story! I didn't drink even a quarter as bad as you and was drinking for ten years since I was 21 back in the military. Being 31 now and going on 8 days sober is exactly these types of experience that need's to be shared to keep us going with sobriety! I truly thank you man.
Thanks for sharing your story. I thoroughly "enjoyed" it. You're very good at speaking, the way you describe things really allows me to picture what was happening. Glad you made it through.
I hope this reaches many more people, thanks for sharing your story. It is truly inspiring and I’m glad you are still here.
awwww tyty means a lot
Thank you for sharing! Congratulations on your continued sobriety. Its amazing you're alive! Keep sharing.
Awesome. There are so few raw videos like this covering alcohol addiction and how bad it can get. It would be interesting to see if you do more in the future.
I'm on day one. Just binge watching rock bottom stories. Fascinating and terrifying stuff. I'm just hoping to make til tomorrow. We'll go from there I guess. Thanks for sharing, sir.
Painful to listen too. But I’ve been through it myself. Worst episode I had full on dts on a fishing trawler in the Bering sea. Used to stay drunk between fishing seasons living in the Philippines. Learned the go to sea and sober up habit from my Navy days. I’m still alive brother and so are you. Sober now four years. Second go at it. Damn life is a trip.
Thank you very much for sharing your story. It is helping me to see things better. I noticed that you said your trigger was stress, for me it’s boredom. But the ironic thing is for both of us, the cognitive dissonance, you drink to relieve the stress which just caused you an additional amount of lifetime stress, when I drink when I’m bored, people will call me to do things but I turn them down because I’m drinking by myself. The one thing that we turn to to help us with our triggers, keep us from living a full life. God bless you and everyone watching this video.
You are rock solid. great personality , keep up the good work. (you are going places). btw. charted your NNDM pic. and i bought in yesterday at open. was a great play. keep them coming.
Rob! Thank you sir. Really appreciate it this has been a blast so far man
My friend is near death and I’m on my last effort to help her save herself and myself. Thank you for sharing. I’m at the point where I can’t try force her to change anymore. I fear my only option is to be there for her when she dies. My heart is breaking, but I’m full of love and hope and I thank you so much for sharing your story.
This was really powerful. Scary as hell and really made me think. I appreciate your honesty and respect to you today and forever. Thanks.
Awesome job. I don’t usually watch these types of videos but I was hoping you’d release another AMC video but saw that you posted this one. Hehe. Keep doing what you’re doing. I’ve been through my issue with alcohol for a long time also. 4 years sober here, got sober a little after my son was born. Thanks for sharing your story. It reminded me of the reason why I’m doing what I’m doing.
Awwww. Thank you. It was difficult to do this on such a big level but I hope I can help at least one person would make me happy 💛
Wow Jeff this is a great video man gonna watch the entirety after I watch all my amc vids tonight. Ha
Thank you buddy, Means a lot. Just upload a fresh one!
Life is amazing. The human body is amazing. And You are inspiring and amazing too!
This is what my life was like for last 5 years. Not relapses but 2 to 3 week binges every 1 to 2 months. Over a litre of vodka every day. Now 38 and not teetotal but I just don’t drink or get drunk. I’ve had wine and champagne at weddings but I just sip it like others and doesn’t bother me. Being that drunk was an awful existence.
Thank you. I relapse again, and looking for a way out again. This was extremely relatable.
Really appreciate your experience strength and hope 🙏 helped me today.
Thank you for sharing your story. It was powerful!
I knew there was something about you. ... I love a recovery story.
Thank you Brian!
As an addict I can relate to the extremes we go to in order to come back from a relapse. Thank you for sharing your story and giving me hope after I've been through a relapse and know I need professional help again to get out of this cycle. (and a higher power/God)
Hi Greg! You're very welcome bro. You ever need anything feel free to reach out anytime! 🙏
@@megaclips.1 my addictions are pornography and technology use. It's just as damaging mentally and spiritually as alcoholism in my opinion. I've gone to inpatient in 2017 and took recovery seriously. Over time, stress got to me too and I find myself in a year's relapse. It's much more subtle than alcoholism but I had a panic attack on march 2nd of this year, and I hadn't had a panic attack as bad as this one was. So I can relate to having to go half a block for food because I was so anxious and scared to leave my apartment. I've been to the ER over panic attacks because of my addiction manifesting into so much fear. The dangerous thing is that I still think "one more time won't kill me" but truth is, each acting out kills me mentally and spiritually and there's no bs'ing about that. So I am grateful that you shared your story because even though I don't relate with the alcoholic in that sense, the unmanageability and powerlessness I definitely can in my own way.
@@x10x11x12 oh I get it bro. Addiction is Addiction. I went to a few gambling anonymous meetings and I tell ya what the stories in there were mind blowing how much it ruined lives.
Thanks for the story another tool in the box of sobriety
Happy i am 32 days sober. Day drinking is hell
EVERYBODY STAY SOBER.... I LOVE THAT SAYING ❤
Thank u so much for telling your story and explaining the true glamour of booze. Your tale is a doozy and I’m sure it’s scared sober many newcomers to those monthly meetings u attend! 💪🙏🏻👏👏
Thank you. These stories helps keep me and many others sober.
Your story is truly moving❤. I had a high tolerance as well despite being a woman. Many detoxes as well, just like you. My sober date is 11/27/17 🎉. Good to know we are not alone.
thank you for sharing this ❤❤❤
my last night of drinking I still remember the dream. I was on a island and the ground kept falling away from underneath me. I don’t think I slept at all and had the worst anxiety for days. It still gives me anxiety over a week later.
Thanks so much for sharing your story!!!
Thank you for sharing your story 😢 I am currently struggling with this issue.. This is day #2 of my sobriety
I identify so much - even the part of sending taxi down the block for hard liquer coz i couldnt walk - i was shaking so bad.
This video is almost a carbon copy of my Life and even though I can relate to to all of it is so hard to watch. To make things worse I'm still drinking!
I'm an alcoholic but never been close to what you have gone thru. Thx god 🙏 I never know. Keeps me in AA and never forget I'm a alcoholic. Thx for your story.
I work at a prison I run the DWI program and they all do life story’s where they tell their story start to finish and I’d really like to take your story and read it to the woman. I tried to get the transcript but I can’t copy and paste it. Is there anyway I can get this in writing? We don’t have access to UA-cam clearly haha
Great story telling. Please upload more
I'm do glad I wasn't that bad with drinking. But I had to have beer every day. My wonderful wife intervened and went to a doctor with me. The doctor prescribed two medications that have completely killed all my cravings for alcohol. I can't even stand to snell beer or liquor anymore! I'm coming up on 80 days clean and I'm never looking back! I wake up every morning with so much energy and I feel great. I don't think I can feel any better than the days before, but each new day has me feeling that much greater. Life us so wonderful now!!!
Amazing story thank you
So much respect to you man! Your channeling your energies into a far more positive direction. Let’s get this channel to 100k 🚀
Thank you buddy
Thank you for sharing ❤️
Thank you for sharing 🙂👍
Thanks bro. I just got out of my 2nd detox. We do recover, but never forget just one drink will take you straight back to hell.
Been there bro. I used to drink a six pack and finish a fifth of Jack 2-3 times a week. If I was going out to a club or bar I would have at least a half bottle of Jack just to be ready to drink. Next day is wtf did I do or say last night? Never got to your level but I suffered like a bitch for years in that pattern
Massive respect for the video
Stay Safe brother
Big steve
The uk
Thank you Steve. I made it through it. I was nervous sharing with the whole world lol.
Thankyou for sharing your story to help others. You are clearly made of tough stuff to consume all that booze and survive. You should donate your body to science when you go! ❤️
Congratulations brother 🙏
Frederick thank you! Appreciate it
Thank you for sharing
your story ❤️🫂🙏
Thanks for the video, it helped me..!!!
You are welcome bro! That's all I can ask for, you ever need anything feel free and email me anytime
@@megaclips.1 Sure bro, what's your E-mail..??
@@risk603 stockswinger@yahoo.com
@@megaclips.1 I'm now 775 days Sober
Hi friend!❤ I am so glad you got some relief from an illness many people experience. I took a 23 and me gene test, and found that alcohol intolerance is genetically based. I myself can’t drink without vomiting, and that’s why I never judge those that can drink without getting sick which leads to,addiction . Another example is that drug sensitivity in another species (dogs) can vary up to 400 times. Addiction is an illness that needs to be medically managed, not stigmatized.
Amen
I was there. Morning drinking daily. 2 years sober.
Thank you!
That’s detoxing off Fent and alcohol usually at the same time. That’s always fun
Do you do 1/ steps?
respect to the AA art work in the background
Thank you buddy
Hey guy that made this video. Have you ever read the Big Book? Alcoholic Anonymous book?
"treatment facility are money pits"
100%
I know huh. I want to do a whole other video on that, I really do. It's such a scam and embarrassment to AA and so on....
Amazing story. May i ask how your insides are doing? Amazing how the body heals. Hope all's well.
Suprisingly. Everything is great! My liver is a trooper. It always healed up good
I’m fairly certain my detox visits are about 109 times
He kept saying it gets worse... this was my expression 😮
You still ok?
If you relapse again please stick with beer and do not buy liquor! And drink water + eat food. Liquor + no food + no water = certain doom.
I know buddy. How I'm here is beyond me. But thank the lord it wasn't time! 💛
Thank you
What makes you different?
I feel like I'm heading there.
Friend of Bill
Almost impossible to believe he drank himself to almost die literally, definitely one of the worst but glad he made it !! Wow congrats 👏
Your story is awesome and I respect you. It's just too long and my attention span is to short.
I would encourage you to call and ask that 12 GROUP would pay you a visit. You won't regret it.
So proud of you. And..."Treatment Facilities".....hahahahahahaha......$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Wow
I finally stopped.
"throwing up black tar stomach lining crap"
maybe actually throwing up blood. google "coffee ground throw up"
There was blood also. So bad yuck
Fu alcohol
I had a very bad experience at AA. I don't like this cultish organization.
It’s weird
That was incredible! Only addicts get addicts and therefore we need each other to stay alive n breathe x
I am thinking of going, what didn't you like? I am intrigued
@@jamesbyrne9312 I wasn’t in a good place when I went and found it very shaming they made me feel like i was a horrendous person (which I know I am not). They go on about how selfish, self-centred you are and how many character flaws addicts have it’s almost enough to make you drink.
I mean people that are addicted to smoking are never berated this way.
I preferred the online zoom ones personally however they are all similar. I have quit drinking for 100 days so far. The online meetings have helped but I’m not doing them very often now only when I get cravings and it’s working so far.
@@helenalovelock1030 I like their inventory process but the stuff you mention is what puts me off, thing is though I can't drink anymore and not sure how to stop.
No human power......
boring
Your Sister is boring