We have a mission together. That is first and foremost. I have not understood what that mission is so far but I get closer day by day. I hope you do too. I think that by the time we get clear on it we will have gone a long way towards defining our lives, their meaning and where we are going. Is that what maturing means? In the process of doing those things, I’m thinking we will clarify much more than our purpose together. This is a huge undertaking that we have accepted here. No wonder it has taken all of this lifetime and then some. We’ve both made mistakes in doing this. I think that our getting together is not one of those. Yes it has been painful at times but I think that was necessary for us to get past. And now we can move on. Hopefully to better things.
Considering this is a compilation… my personal reader channeled a message from my DM today.. that you are ready to stop allowing fear to dictate you and be brave for US. To finally allow yourself to bring more meaning to our bond that we share… that you are seeing how you need to make better choices for yourself in life and that I am at the top of your list…. So guess we shall see baby. But if im not strong and help you see it then who is going too ? Bc I don’t see ANYONE doing shit to see you do better in life but me…and much more I’d be willing to share with you. I don’t need a tarot reader to tell me who my soulmate is ever… it’s you and it always has been 🤷🏼♀️. BUT it starts with you accepting those feelings and stepping up by making a move towards me. I won’t settle. I am your happiness.. so I hope you stop allowing everything to prevent it being in your life finally.
Jesus I surrender All to Jesus just as I am. All my flaws everything. He gives us another chance. We fight ourselves and all our mistakes. He gives us Peace. 🎉🎉❤
If youre scared of giving me your all then lets end this now it means youre with someone else and i wont beg and wanted my peace to start with new beginning be honest with yourself you cant paddle in two boats so just leave me im happy with my life now because i knew youre in a good hands you maybe found the love from her which you havent seen within me just stay with your new love
I absolutely resonate with this, I believe this DM is a soulmate or twin flame but he is always running. I've been trying to hold space for him to grow emotionally honestly😔
You are like a broken record. You go back to the most comfortable feelings you have and you never let anyone go not your karmic or your sidepiece that you have been sleeping with all along! You have to let something go in order to make room for me or it is never going to happen! You love the
I met you months before you messaged me > you literally stepped out of my body and looked at me and said I'm here to protect you * I KNEW YOU BEFORE AND I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU SAY AND FEEL I BROUGHT YOU YOUR MESSAGE I WOULD SOMEDAY TO HEAR IT BACK FROM YOU IF YOU REMEMBER❤
It’s true left people like that never knew them truth matter did this with me figured it out . But it will backfire when find good woman treated like family good as my own . Miracle Heaven willing trust him again has nerves leave me when needed him most . I’m strong person setbacks letdown something was accustomed others doing same me . Wish him well just truth many of them miserable restless sleepless nights he too old playing games . 30 younger 55 better it’s sad 😔 my younger age 20 was more mature real woman . Player got played all was never committted loyal one woman man wasn’t aware left him at age because this .
When things get hard you run instead of working through the hard stuff! You have not been around me enough to really know me! You are still running and not trying to find out the problem we need to work on!
So kind and nice of you to say some soulful messages . So proud of you seeing all this changes as a testament of the impact that propel you by mile for the better . The heavens is working with you and it slowly manifest you from inside out. Your soulful you is the manifestation. Your words is getting lighter and full of life. So glad to hear from you “ that you’ve changed’ I can’t keep my tears of joy knowing how far you’ve come spiritually. Lovibgly❤❤❤❤❤
I'm not even able to do what I need to do to relieve myself, let alone, not live in a can. I haven't been able to get back to myself for 4 yrs now. I know what I need.
OMGoodness. This is excellent to see this progression. It brings all my issues back up to revisit them as I start to find a way to put them to rest. Thank you very much for this. I am growing to accept the love of a real relationship, and so is he.
Being financially stablewas not my thing over you i had .loved you because of who youre and for im when im.with you i m not on material things because i had enough i only wanted the purity of your intentions towards me but you bettayed me and not even your priority im just just your shadow you wanted more that what im giving you im not enough you played on my emotion the sweetness of your words makes me smile but only words coming from mr.lightwork no wonder if you feel the same
❤❤❤Make no mistake My Love, The changes you are making are amazing and your determination shines like a star. I say YES my love!!!! Proud? Oh Yes more than You know right now, but I know you are going to feel it……….I think your awesome, keep going my Love I am your biggest fan and I always knew what you were all about and now your shinning like I knew you would‼️‼️‼️I am so proud to share my life with you and I will treasure every day with you. I feel like together we have been gifted the most. incredible gift of perfect agape Love. ❤You did deserve me because God said so❤ So stand tall and Be proud you have worked so hard….I am so excited for that day you appear in front of me…………..I am one happy woman knowing “My Mr. Perfect for me” is coming soon. I Love you so so much Honey ❤❤❤❤ Its time to put the yesterdays far away along with every negative thought. You are going to live “ happy” so beautiful.
❤❤Your messages are so well received Is good to know what your partner is thinking? I love him deeply and I listen to all of your messages and I put me in him in your messages so I could better understand him. We’ve been in separation for over a year and a half. He is my one true love, but I need him to understand that not just me , so when he comes back, he come back a better man he needs to be❤❤❤ Thank you for your kind words😊
I thoroughly let you go as you naturally rebelled for whatever reasons ❤ Depending on which Independent Flame(s) penetrate the right side of My Vineyard, we can be kind associate(s) 🌞
Lieverd ik moet naar bed 2 uur snachts hier ben helemaal op ik laat phone aan om naar je stem te luisteren. Love you je moest je frustraties kwijt toen je tegen me tekeer ging ik begrijp het dank je wel voor je lieve video ga hem morgen zeker nog bekijken weet dat ik aan je denk en je mis. You deserve all the best alleen je rot streken moet je afleren 😂 neem je tijd man zal ik blij zijn als we hollands kunnen praten. Ik heb niet het gevoel dat ik zoveel gedaan heb voor je. Probeer lekker te slapen okay met een gerust gevoel. Je was geweldig om je zo te uiten dank je wel. Heerlijk om je stem te horen❤❤. Dag babe laterr❤
YES PLEASE COME BACK TO ME MY JM FOR RICHER OR POORER IN GOOD HEALTH OR IN SICKNESS OUR LOVE TO EACHOTHER EVERLASTING LOVE TILL DEATH DO US PART I LOVE YOU ❤❤❤
Protect me from and with whom i dont even know what kind of job youre into i only need a bit of your time always saying youre in fear im here waiting until when but fir sure you got someone over me youre hurting much so better let go of me mr lightwork is the only speaking i dont even knowif you only feel the same so lets end this and free yourself from being stuck
Dennis Verheugd I love you, dont believe darkness, belleve God who says we belong together abd we are equally joked, deal bb , i only go with YOU, period!
Thank you beautiful man I love you for you ❤ I'm listening to every word you're saying baby you have another chance beautiful man you are my everything you are the love of my life baby ❤ I miss you babe stay positive babe I will never give up on you my loving man ❤
I dont recall ever asking you for anything except loyalty trust fidelity it seems it IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU TO GRASP AND I CAN LET GO NOW .I HAVE TO LET GO ITS TOO MUCH I NEED TO MOVE ON AT ANY COST .
I am unpredictable because spirits use my body to speak scribe write it’s lke everywhere I go a ghost spirit gets in my body so I’m like a different person on the flip but I’m the the command of them so they speak and respect me …. This is what I think happens to you … also you should never worry about material things money is nothingness… love is the highest form of currency unconditional love is true wealth
And I hope you're reading this because you know I've been lonely for so long I'm single still and I don't want to be single anymore I want to find somebody that will love me
Im about to woke away this stuck situation its almost a year and now I have to take care off my mond. Im detaching from u slowly slowly for my own good even if I love u i have to let u go
Just be yourself cause I ain’t in your life I gave the best everything but you wanted a job that wasn’t real but now you stay and be happy with her it’s your way of saying it’s ok I’m still young cute and sexy so love yourself ok first
It’s not to late I already have the key to your heart and you have the key to mine. I am ready to receive you.. I hate this separation between us. It feels like it’s been forever. I will do anything for us to be together.❤❤I love you babe.Sounds good to me I’ll take future A too.The man I want is you. We are going to have a wonderful life I can feel it. I understand what you’re saying. I still think we would be better together than being apart. We can go slow start dating and see how we do 1 step at time.❤❤
I t t uly love and will await your growth, my love.. i understand you so much better now. I love and thank you u ou with all my love. You DO mean the world to me! We are so special together. I value your connections always! Until you are you I will continue to love you always ! You are almost totally anew! Im yours my so valued and special LOVE ❤️ 😍 💖 ❣️ 💕 💘 ❤️ 😍 💖
I wish we could be talking to each other on the phone so we are not misunderstanding each other by guessing what the other is thinking. I know we both need to heal & grow and that you don’t know how. I would love to talk to you about what I have been doing to try to heal and grow. I want to help guide you find options for your own healing & growth. I know I am not ready for us to start seeing each other (even though I want to so sadly) but what I need the most is for us to start being friends again, communicating, and re-building the trust that was broken.. Your unhealed trauma cause a lot of trauma for me with the emotional abuse of gaslighting and ghosting & blocking triggering my years of abuse. It is going to take me awhile to heal from what happened before I can be in a relationship with anyone. At our age, I don’t want to waste any unnecessary time miscommunicating or being stagnant or stuck, when I think talking on the phone could help both of us.. I don’t expect you to heal me or me you, but at least we could bounce ideas off of each other. To be honest, I am afraid to be alone with you because I want to be the high value, authentic, Godly woman that I know I am, but when it comes to you I have almost no willpower. I burn for you to the point of almost madness. But having intimate relations out of wedlock or at least engaged is not something I have wanted to lower my self to. I am not a cheap whore and don’t want to be treated like one. As a general rule, I don’t casually date just for the fun of it, I date with the purpose of finding a Godly life partner in marriage. But with you things moved so fast and felt so intense and I was so starved that I simply lost all control. I am sorry I didn’t do better! - I was a disappointment to myself and God, and you too. How can you trust a woman to be faithful to you when around other men when she can’t even control herself around you? I didn’t want to be like Crystal & Robin, I wanted you to know you could trust and feel secure in my faithfulness without any doubts. And how is having sex without commitment giving glory to God, especially after blessing us with the gifts of each other?? Are you aware that when I stayed at your house since that first time, that as I laid next to you watching you sleep, I would thank God for bringing this incredible man (that I had waited my whole life for) to me, with tears of gratitude, love, and joy running down my face? I fell so hard for you so soon!!! I knew what I wanted and I wanted you!!!! In my eyes you were prefect for me - your flaws & all. I ended up loving you more because of your flaws because that made you more human & real & more like me. You made me want to be a better person and to be willing to do things that i would not have done in the past for a relationship. As broken as I was, I was willing to let my walls down with you and be vulnerable with you. I wanted to give you a safe space to do the same with me. I am sorry I pushed you for more than you could handle or were ready for! I wished that when I triggered you or did something that made you feel uncomfortable that you would have felt you could talk to me about it instead of involving other toxic people in our relationship and making me look bad and leaving me not having a clue that anything was even wrong. I would like to try to reconcile & have a fresh start after we have established healthy, honest, open communication with each other as friends. Can we please drop the no contact and just open the lines of communication - without communication, we have nothing. I love you and want to make this work!
When things get hard you run instead of working through the hard stuff!
Father protects us , even now.❤
The most sense you've made in ALONG TIME .WERE JUST GETTING OLDER EACH DAY .TIME DOESNT WAIT ..FOR ANYONE THATS WHAT SUCKS
I can make you drop your guard by asking you the right questions and wake you up
Only God can decide. Only mercy from God can forgive. 😢
LORD JESUS CHIRST keep his heart mind body soul.Make him be man you want him be.
Amen! 🙏🏿
We have a mission together. That is first and foremost. I have not understood what that mission is so far but I get closer day by day. I hope you do too. I think that by the time we get clear on it we will have gone a long way towards defining our lives, their meaning and where we are going. Is that what maturing means? In the process of doing those things, I’m thinking we will clarify much more than our purpose together.
This is a huge undertaking that we have accepted here. No wonder it has taken all of this lifetime and then some.
We’ve both made mistakes in doing this. I think that our getting together is not one of those. Yes it has been painful at times but
I think that was necessary for us to get past. And now we can move on. Hopefully to better things.
Considering this is a compilation… my personal reader channeled a message from my DM today.. that you are ready to stop allowing fear to dictate you and be brave for US. To finally allow yourself to bring more meaning to our bond that we share… that you are seeing how you need to make better choices for yourself in life and that I am at the top of your list…. So guess we shall see baby. But if im not strong and help you see it then who is going too ? Bc I don’t see ANYONE doing shit to see you do better in life but me…and much more I’d be willing to share with you. I don’t need a tarot reader to tell me who my soulmate is ever… it’s you and it always has been 🤷🏼♀️. BUT it starts with you accepting those feelings and stepping up by making a move towards me. I won’t settle. I am your happiness.. so I hope you stop allowing everything to prevent it being in your life finally.
This is an old letter ❤ is this another excuse to keep me trapped here alone ❤ while You Go and Do whatever You want
I LOVE YOU MY LOVE
GOOD YOU SUCCESS IN YOUR LIFE NOW
I WANT TO CLAIM ALL THIS MESSAGES
I WANT TO CLAIM ALL THE MESSAGES ❤❤❤
Keep growing and believe in yourself love you your my world
Jesus
I surrender All to Jesus just as I am. All my flaws everything. He gives us another chance. We fight ourselves and all our mistakes. He gives us Peace. 🎉🎉❤
Change is good but you got to devote yourself to the change
Remember to love you first. So you know what true love really is. I love you so much and I haven't given up on you. I will always be here.💜🦋💜
Learn, do better, grow, evolve, treat others the way you want to be treated. I like you as a friend 🖤♾️ chin up buttercup
That reading was so unexpected... But absolutely beautiful... Thank you so much... I'm so proud of you Brandon ❤
If youre scared of giving me your all then lets end this now it means youre with someone else and i wont beg and wanted my peace to start with new beginning be honest with yourself you cant paddle in two boats so just leave me im happy with my life now because i knew youre in a good hands you maybe found the love from her which you havent seen within me just stay with your new love
3:10 you’re comfortable feeling sorry for yourself in the chaos you’ve created and caused
I absolutely resonate with this, I believe this DM is a soulmate or twin flame but he is always running. I've been trying to hold space for him to grow emotionally honestly😔
You are strong enough and its not all your fauld its from your past and other influenses
I can feel your hurt. I still will be by your side always. You will get there have faith my dear God is good.❤
GIVE IT TO GOD
You are like a broken record. You go back to the most comfortable feelings you have and you never let anyone go not your karmic or your sidepiece that you have been sleeping with all along! You have to let something go in order to make room for me or it is never going to happen! You love the
I can feel you right now in me❤❤❤
You are forgiven
Give yourself a chance love yourself more
I met you months before you messaged me > you literally stepped out of my body and looked at me and said I'm here to protect you * I KNEW YOU BEFORE AND I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU SAY AND FEEL I BROUGHT YOU YOUR MESSAGE I WOULD SOMEDAY TO HEAR IT BACK FROM YOU IF YOU REMEMBER❤
It’s true left people like that never knew them truth matter did this with me figured it out .
But it will backfire when find good woman treated like family good as my own .
Miracle Heaven willing trust him again has nerves leave me when needed him most .
I’m strong person setbacks letdown something was accustomed others doing same me .
Wish him well just truth many of them miserable restless sleepless nights he too old playing games .
30 younger 55 better it’s sad 😔 my younger age 20 was more mature real woman .
Player got played all was never committted loyal one woman man wasn’t aware left him at age because this .
When things get hard you run instead of working through the hard stuff! You have not been around me enough to really know me! You are still running and not trying to find out the problem we need to work on!
Keep growing!!!!love you. !
So kind and nice of you to say some soulful messages . So proud of you seeing all this changes as a testament of the impact that propel you by mile for the better . The heavens is working with you and it slowly manifest you from inside out. Your soulful you is the manifestation. Your words is getting lighter and full of life. So glad to hear from you “ that you’ve changed’ I can’t keep my tears of joy knowing how far you’ve come spiritually. Lovibgly❤❤❤❤❤
Always on your side
GOD IS THE WAY TO GET BACK TO ME
Soul Truth so much. Yes so much
Beautiful rampage❤️🔥
When things get hard you run instead of working through the hard stuff
I'm not even able to do what I need to do to relieve myself, let alone, not live in a can. I haven't been able to get back to myself for 4 yrs now. I know what I need.
Remember that I do love you and in my heart
You don't know how much I see me in you
Love you from a distance. You taught me how to do that. 6:15
OMGoodness. This is excellent to see this progression. It brings all my issues back up to revisit them as I start to find a way to put them to rest. Thank you very much for this. I am growing to accept the love of a real relationship, and so is he.
If you want to treat her good you will ❤❤❤
Happy to hear from you. I have the 1:19:05 worst head ache.
Every good thing I've had guess will be always at a distance that's what I hear ❤
I had glimpses of your childhood and other parts they sometimes flood though my mind like movies or pictures words feelings😢😢❤❤❤❤
Being financially stablewas not my thing over you i had .loved you because of who youre and for im when im.with you i m not on material things because i had enough i only wanted the purity of your intentions towards me but you bettayed me and not even your priority im just just your shadow you wanted more that what im giving you im not enough you played on my emotion the sweetness of your words makes me smile but only words coming from mr.lightwork no wonder if you feel the same
🙏💥❤ I dont think people can understand unconditional love when it hits them straight smack with a tree trunk in the face.
❤❤❤Make no mistake My Love, The changes you are making are amazing and your determination shines like a star. I say YES my love!!!!
Proud? Oh Yes more than
You know right now, but I know you are going to feel it……….I think your awesome, keep going my Love I am your biggest fan
and I always knew what you were all about and now your shinning like I knew you would‼️‼️‼️I am so proud to share my life with you and I will treasure every day with you. I feel like together we have been gifted the most. incredible gift of perfect agape Love. ❤You did deserve me because God said so❤ So stand tall and
Be proud you have worked so hard….I am so excited for that day you appear in front of me…………..I am one happy woman knowing “My Mr. Perfect for me” is coming soon. I Love you so so much Honey ❤❤❤❤ Its time to put the yesterdays far away along with every negative thought. You are going to live “ happy” so beautiful.
Thank you so much for your special reading, much divine LOVE and God’s Blessings, Hilary ❤❤❤❤
❤so i hear you saying...practice with!!!!!! Until you are perfect and you have reached 100% on on your record. Please be careful 😢
I can’t get you off my mind either let’s work this out together stop running and let’s come together again
I miss you so much my love❤❤❤
I will always be here for you ❤
❤❤Your messages are so well received
Is good to know what your partner is thinking?
I love him deeply and I listen to all of your messages and I put me in him in your messages so I could better understand him. We’ve been in separation for over a year and a half. He is my one true love, but I need him to understand that not just me , so when he comes back, he come back a better man he needs to be❤❤❤
Thank you for your kind words😊
YOU DO THE INNER WORK, when that is completed. WE, WORK THROUGH THIS TOGETHER “ LOVE 💕 “ TRUE LOVE CAN MAKE THROUGH ANYTHING…! 🙏💝🙏💝
I strongly claim this message ❤🪽
You dont have to stay away from me your not a slave
I CLAIM THIS MESSAGE POSITIVE ENERGY
❤❤❤
❤❤I LOVE YOU MY JM MY DIVINE MASCULINE
❤❤❤ I claim your Messages
AMEN MY LOVE AMEN AMEN
YES I AGREE TO BE REUNITED WITH YOU I LOVE YOU MY JM ❤❤❤
I love you, DM. My sweet baby boi. 🪽🤍
You know I have friends that I've been taking care of and I don't need people I try to help them as much as I can to find their way in life
8:12 Peace ✌🏾
I thoroughly let you go as you naturally rebelled for whatever reasons ❤
Depending on which Independent Flame(s) penetrate the right side of My Vineyard, we can be kind associate(s) 🌞
Thank❤you❤so❤much❤
Lieverd ik moet naar bed 2 uur snachts hier ben helemaal op ik laat phone aan om naar je stem te luisteren. Love you je moest je frustraties kwijt toen je tegen me tekeer ging ik begrijp het dank je wel voor je lieve video ga hem morgen zeker nog bekijken weet dat ik aan je denk en je mis. You deserve all the best alleen je rot streken moet je afleren 😂 neem je tijd man zal ik blij zijn als we hollands kunnen praten. Ik heb niet het gevoel dat ik zoveel gedaan heb voor je. Probeer lekker te slapen okay met een gerust gevoel. Je was geweldig om je zo te uiten dank je wel. Heerlijk om je stem te horen❤❤. Dag babe laterr❤
You're my mirror too
Wow this sound true but very sad😢
Thank❤you❤
You are in my mind in th morning in the afternoon in th evening and in the night that is were i really miss you so much my love❤❤❤❤❤
4:38 can’t tell by looking at your actions. Let go for yourself
I needed this ❤
YES PLEASE COME BACK TO ME MY JM FOR RICHER OR POORER IN GOOD HEALTH OR IN SICKNESS OUR LOVE TO EACHOTHER EVERLASTING LOVE TILL DEATH DO US PART I LOVE YOU ❤❤❤
❤❤❤
I will love you till you get there
Keep talking I'm listening
Thank for your help ❤❤
🙏 my favorite emoji reason still here healing trying trust love again one day this was heavy hurtful .
We both have to handle situations with each other or asking ech other for help
I'm breaking. I haven't been able to get back to myself that I want because of the limitations of this can I'm trying to live in.
It's 3.30am I'm listening
❤yes❤
When when!!!!
Yes you did!!!!!!
Your past is gone you are not in destruction you're just in the you just went the wrong way that's all
On point
Protect me from and with whom i dont even know what kind of job youre into i only need a bit of your time always saying youre in fear im here waiting until when but fir sure you got someone over me youre hurting much so better let go of me mr lightwork is the only speaking i dont even knowif you only feel the same so lets end this and free yourself from being stuck
I see all and I hear all
Thank you
Dennis Verheugd I love you, dont believe darkness, belleve God who says we belong together abd we are equally joked, deal bb , i only go with YOU, period!
Just let go of all the crap...❤ U! 🦋🙏🦢
Thank you beautiful man I love you for you ❤ I'm listening to every word you're saying baby you have another chance beautiful man you are my everything you are the love of my life baby ❤ I miss you babe stay positive babe I will never give up on you my loving man ❤
Do things that fullfil you not what doesnt make you feel good
I ❤Love❤you❤so❤much♥️yes❤so❤much❤
I dont recall ever asking you for anything except loyalty trust fidelity it seems it IS TOO MUCH FOR YOU TO GRASP AND I CAN LET GO NOW .I HAVE TO LET GO ITS TOO MUCH I NEED TO MOVE ON AT ANY COST .
I am unpredictable because spirits use my body to speak scribe write it’s lke everywhere I go a ghost spirit gets in my body so I’m like a different person on the flip but I’m the the command of them so they speak and respect me …. This is what I think happens to you … also you should never worry about material things money is nothingness… love is the highest form of currency unconditional love is true wealth
I miss you and love you so much my baby❤❤❤
And I hope you're reading this because you know I've been lonely for so long I'm single still and I don't want to be single anymore I want to find somebody that will love me
Ok❤
Im about to woke away this stuck situation its almost a year and now I have to take care off my mond. Im detaching from u slowly slowly for my own good even if I love u i have to let u go
Just be yourself cause I ain’t in your life I gave the best everything but you wanted a job that wasn’t real but now you stay and be happy with her it’s your way of saying it’s ok I’m still young cute and sexy so love yourself ok first
It’s not to late I already have the key to your heart and you have the key to mine. I am ready to receive you.. I hate this separation between us. It feels like it’s been forever. I will do anything for us to be together.❤❤I love you babe.Sounds good to me I’ll take future A too.The man I want is you. We are going to have a wonderful life I can feel it. I understand what you’re saying. I still think we would be better together than being apart. We can go slow start dating and see how we do 1 step at time.❤❤
It’s the God forbid 😂😂😂Ty love
My goodness you need me❤😅
I t t uly love and will await your growth, my love.. i understand you so much better now. I love and thank you u ou with all my love. You DO mean the world to me! We are so special together. I value your connections always! Until you are you I will continue to love you always ! You are almost totally anew! Im yours my so valued and special LOVE ❤️ 😍 💖 ❣️ 💕 💘 ❤️ 😍 💖
I wish we could be talking to each other on the phone so we are not misunderstanding each other by guessing what the other is thinking. I know we both need to heal & grow and that you don’t know how. I would love to talk to you about what I have been doing to try to heal and grow. I want to help guide you find options for your own healing & growth. I know I am not ready for us to start seeing each other (even though I want to so sadly) but what I need the most is for us to start being friends again, communicating, and re-building the trust that was broken.. Your unhealed trauma cause a lot of trauma for me with the emotional abuse of gaslighting and ghosting & blocking triggering my years of abuse. It is going to take me awhile to heal from what happened before I can be in a relationship with anyone. At our age, I don’t want to waste any unnecessary time miscommunicating or being stagnant or stuck, when I think talking on the phone could help both of us.. I don’t expect you to heal me or me you, but at least we could bounce ideas off of each other. To be honest, I am afraid to be alone with you because I want to be the high value, authentic, Godly woman that I know I am, but when it comes to you I have almost no willpower. I burn for you to the point of almost madness. But having intimate relations out of wedlock or at least engaged is not something I have wanted to lower my self to. I am not a cheap whore and don’t want to be treated like one. As a general rule, I don’t casually date just for the fun of it, I date with the purpose of finding a Godly life partner in marriage. But with you things moved so fast and felt so intense and I was so starved that I simply lost all control. I am sorry I didn’t do better! - I was a disappointment to myself and God, and you too. How can you trust a woman to be faithful to you when around other men when she can’t even control herself around you? I didn’t want to be like Crystal & Robin, I wanted you to know you could trust and feel secure in my faithfulness without any doubts. And how is having sex without commitment giving glory to God, especially after blessing us with the gifts of each other?? Are you aware that when I stayed at your house since that first time, that as I laid next to you watching you sleep, I would thank God for bringing this incredible man (that I had waited my whole life for) to me, with tears of gratitude, love, and joy running down my face? I fell so hard for you so soon!!! I knew what I wanted and I wanted you!!!! In my eyes you were prefect for me - your flaws & all. I ended up loving you more because of your flaws because that made you more human & real & more like me. You made me want to be a better person and to be willing to do things that i would not have done in the past for a relationship. As broken as I was, I was willing to let my walls down with you and be vulnerable with you. I wanted to give you a safe space to do the same with me. I am sorry I pushed you for more than you could handle or were ready for! I wished that when I triggered you or did something that made you feel uncomfortable that you would have felt you could talk to me about it instead of involving other toxic people in our relationship and making me look bad and leaving me not having a clue that anything was even wrong. I would like to try to reconcile & have a fresh start after we have established healthy, honest, open communication with each other as friends. Can we please drop the no contact and just open the lines of communication - without communication, we have nothing. I love you and want to make this work!
Fact 5:01 144K ❤ 7:59:50 Yes it is very real and each lifetime 🌙 my love.