I have bipolar disorder and I'm determined to live through this curse but sometimes I feel like just giving up and ending my struggle. Bipolar disorder is hell on earth and it's a fight to live every single day.
My heart goes out to you as my Brother suffers from this disorder and at times it is so hard to deal with him during his cycles. I am currently dealing with one now. I pray all the time that the Lord will send angels to cure him but, I have been praying for a long time with no results. It comes and goes and people around me tell me to shun him but, I can not do that as he is my Brother.
Hell on Earth is accurate. People criticize me for not believing in God because God would not place an innocent person in hell. I just want it to all cease in nothingness I don't need an afterlife.
This is a year late. But I just want you to know as a woman seeing a man express himself is a gift to the world. I hope you feel able to open up and talk about this more now. Men deserve understanding just as much as women.
Bro you are totally not alone.... I hate the roller-coaster I'm in right now. I lost intrest in all my hobbies literally over night about a year ago ....This has been the longest episode I've had and I feel like I'm in a waiting room waiting on my desire to return. Usually these are short 2 month events and I get into one of my three hobbies eventually.....but not this time around. Depression has been rough and heaviness over life is weighing on me. ... I just have to take it day by day cause looking to far out is not healthy . I'm a Christian so I have faith in God and Jesus my rock ....Without that grace and love I would be an empty shell of skin. That's my anchor to reality holding me in place , he carries me when I can't walk anymore.
I’m currently in a low low now. I’m obsessing over suicide. It seems like the only way out…however, my head tells me that I don’t want to die I just don’t want to live like this. It’s so miserable. I’m medicated but the meds are dated and I’m hoping there’s something better out there. This pain is mental and physical. I’m sorry for anyone living in pain. Stay strong🩷
I'm taking medication and going through theraphy, Idk if you go to theraphy, but doctors usually say you need both, I might be wrong, but your doctor might not be good for you or you could be misdiagnosed or have other mental disorders, some psychiatrists might give you the wrong medication, all psychiatrists make mistakes, maybe youre now beggining to take medication, but if you do what he/she says for a very long time and you dont get any better I advice you go to another psychiatrist until you find a good one, it also stands for the therapist
My dad has bipolar and its so hard when you have someone you care about go through that. As a caregiver/daughter of someone with this I understood that much of what is happening is misunderstood. I still love my dad but there is so much pain associated with this. Thank you for your post.
I always hear people say, "I just can't understand how someone could be going through so much they would take their own life". But I don't understand how you couldn't understand. Ever since a child it's been in the back of my mind daily. Sickens me how closed minded people are and how unable they are to actually put themselves in someone else's mind. It's not hard at all. I'm convinced I'm in hell. And I don't know what I did to deserve it.
It's difficult to put yourself into someone's shoes when you've never walked what they've walked. If they've never felt what it's like to be bipolar, suicidal or even depressed, then how can they possibly understand the perspective? It's easy to us because we've lived with it all our lives, it's all we've ever known. Same reason it's hard for me to imagine being someone who's casually happy and enjoys life, has a clear cut direction and wants, as I see everyone around me
this is a message to anyone who’s loved one has bipolar. don’t run away from their illness, deny it or live in fear of their emotions check in with them and ask what it really feels like. a lot of people end their lives because it hurts and they think it will make their suffering more visible
i find it interesting that everyone with a loss seems to have like an interesting, repetitive dream about that person. My mom told me as a child her mom would be there at a party or something, some event, but in the dream she wasn't fully aware of the significance of that and wouldn't go speak to her, she could speak to her whenever. Then at the end of the dream she'd start to remember and go over there, but wake up before they could talk. I think I remember she had a dream where they spoke around the time she was dying, or maybe when she was first diagnosed. For me, I've had one of her types of dreams, but I will always have these dreams where there is some kind of emergency and the whole time, I'm trying to reach her on the phone but she never picks up, and I get increasingly worried by the end of the dream.
I’m the exact same brother. I’ve had multiple suicide attempts and I have been having suicidal thoughts everyday. But I’m going to keep pushing forward. We can do this together
@@kingt8434 stay strong my man. Finding a partner tho would help tremendously. I have a girl who likes me but has a bf since 3 months. Hope it gets somewhere.
I don't care for psychologists.Their ego. His dead brother probably forgave him all the time but never needed to tell him. It's like that. Saners are so selfish
They are incapable of thinking through someone else's mind. Just so stuck in their own selfish self revolving world. And thinking they're the good people the whole time. I want to end it all just so they live the rest of their lives thinking what they could have done. Maybe it will change them to put someone else in front of them for the first time. I guess that's the only impact I'll have in the world hope it all works out. Probably not. Nobody changes.
You guys are all correct. It is a super common additional problem in the treatment of people with severe mental illness. No one gets it and they try to apply non-ill logic (their thinking) to an ill person (the one suffering). This is maybe the worst thing you can do because it further cuts any potential connection, and that is what a mentally ill person needs most of all. The connection of someone who simply listens and is empathetic and as understanding as possible. The world in general is still so ignorant, even many so called "experts". Sad.
Yes, his story is definitely about his own perspective as someone who has lost someone to suicide. It's valid too but it's not really about bipolar disorder at all, it's about grief so ideally the video title should be changed.
I have bipolar disorder and I'm determined to live through this curse but sometimes I feel like just giving up and ending my struggle. Bipolar disorder is hell on earth and it's a fight to live every single day.
My heart goes out to you as my Brother suffers from this disorder and at times it is so hard to deal with him during his cycles. I am currently dealing with one now. I pray all the time that the Lord will send angels to cure him but, I have been praying for a long time with no results. It comes and goes and people around me tell me to shun him but, I can not do that as he is my Brother.
God bless you dude, be strong
Hell on Earth is accurate. People criticize me for not believing in God because God would not place an innocent person in hell. I just want it to all cease in nothingness I don't need an afterlife.
@goober8431 I feel that same way often times if I am being honest
You’re not only brother. Im diagnosed with bipolar depression and I hate the ups and downs
I have bipolar 2 and suffer in silence. A man that comes forward with a mental illness will be stigmatized regardless of what it may be
Same here, know you’re not alone brother
@@wesleyeverhart1782 same here and struggling......
@@siddharthrajan24 everything will be okay🤲
This is a year late. But I just want you to know as a woman seeing a man express himself is a gift to the world. I hope you feel able to open up and talk about this more now. Men deserve understanding just as much as women.
Bro you are totally not alone....
I hate the roller-coaster I'm in right now.
I lost intrest in all my hobbies literally over night about a year ago ....This has been the longest episode I've had and I feel like I'm in a waiting room waiting on my desire to return.
Usually these are short 2 month events and I get into one of my three hobbies eventually.....but not this time around. Depression has been rough and heaviness over life is weighing on me. ... I just have to take it day by day cause looking to far out is not healthy .
I'm a Christian so I have faith in God and Jesus my rock ....Without that grace and love I would be an empty shell of skin.
That's my anchor to reality holding me in place , he carries me when I can't walk anymore.
I’m currently in a low low now. I’m obsessing over suicide. It seems like the only way out…however, my head tells me that I don’t want to die I just don’t want to live like this. It’s so miserable. I’m medicated but the meds are dated and I’m hoping there’s something better out there. This pain is mental and physical. I’m sorry for anyone living in pain. Stay strong🩷
I'm taking medication and going through theraphy, Idk if you go to theraphy, but doctors usually say you need both, I might be wrong, but your doctor might not be good for you or you could be misdiagnosed or have other mental disorders, some psychiatrists might give you the wrong medication, all psychiatrists make mistakes, maybe youre now beggining to take medication, but if you do what he/she says for a very long time and you dont get any better I advice you go to another psychiatrist until you find a good one, it also stands for the therapist
I am dealing with bipolar 2 depression. Resigned several jobs and this illness consuming my life.
We're on the same boat. At least you know you have it, you can brace for it better than not knowing.
I have bipolar 1 with rapid cycling 💀
@@sugawaraaa9167shits rough… I don’t trust when I’m happy anymore…
There is no help. That's why so many are dead.
It’s like it took me over and I woke up to life being nothing I’ve ever wanted but it was me who got me here
My dad has bipolar and its so hard when you have someone you care about go through that. As a caregiver/daughter of someone with this I understood that much of what is happening is misunderstood. I still love my dad but there is so much pain associated with this. Thank you for your post.
Fuck you. Barely loving a parent because of a heinous illness. Fuck you coward.
I always hear people say, "I just can't understand how someone could be going through so much they would take their own life". But I don't understand how you couldn't understand. Ever since a child it's been in the back of my mind daily. Sickens me how closed minded people are and how unable they are to actually put themselves in someone else's mind. It's not hard at all. I'm convinced I'm in hell. And I don't know what I did to deserve it.
It's difficult to put yourself into someone's shoes when you've never walked what they've walked. If they've never felt what it's like to be bipolar, suicidal or even depressed, then how can they possibly understand the perspective? It's easy to us because we've lived with it all our lives, it's all we've ever known. Same reason it's hard for me to imagine being someone who's casually happy and enjoys life, has a clear cut direction and wants, as I see everyone around me
this is a message to anyone who’s loved one has bipolar. don’t run away from their illness, deny it or live in fear of their emotions
check in with them and ask what it really feels like. a lot of people end their lives because it hurts and they think it will make their suffering more visible
i find it interesting that everyone with a loss seems to have like an interesting, repetitive dream about that person. My mom told me as a child her mom would be there at a party or something, some event, but in the dream she wasn't fully aware of the significance of that and wouldn't go speak to her, she could speak to her whenever. Then at the end of the dream she'd start to remember and go over there, but wake up before they could talk.
I think I remember she had a dream where they spoke around the time she was dying, or maybe when she was first diagnosed.
For me, I've had one of her types of dreams, but I will always have these dreams where there is some kind of emergency and the whole time, I'm trying to reach her on the phone but she never picks up, and I get increasingly worried by the end of the dream.
Found out I have this. Explains my suïcide attempts/thoughts. Still I am ok tho despite that.
I’m the exact same brother. I’ve had multiple suicide attempts and I have been having suicidal thoughts everyday. But I’m going to keep pushing forward. We can do this together
@@kingt8434 stay strong my man. Finding a partner tho would help tremendously. I have a girl who likes me but has a bf since 3 months. Hope it gets somewhere.
Thank you thank you thank you
sorry for your loss
The sound ballaaaanceeeee !!!! Damn ! Edit it please !!! There is echo AND the ballance is not equalized x_x ...
😢😢😢how long depression
I don't care for psychologists.Their ego.
His dead brother probably forgave him all the time but never needed to tell him.
It's like that.
Saners are so selfish
They are incapable of thinking through someone else's mind. Just so stuck in their own selfish self revolving world. And thinking they're the good people the whole time. I want to end it all just so they live the rest of their lives thinking what they could have done. Maybe it will change them to put someone else in front of them for the first time. I guess that's the only impact I'll have in the world hope it all works out. Probably not. Nobody changes.
@@GloFazo I understand all too well brother. Please message me back if u see this. I hope you’re doing ok
What is this guy even talking about?
This guy is just complaining about his life, it has nothing to do with the struggle of bipolar disorder.
That’s often the case. People around the person suffering with a disorder have no idea what’s really happening.
Right. I was thinking he made it all about him.
You guys are all correct. It is a super common additional problem in the treatment of people with severe mental illness. No one gets it and they try to apply non-ill logic (their thinking) to an ill person (the one suffering). This is maybe the worst thing you can do because it further cuts any potential connection, and that is what a mentally ill person needs most of all. The connection of someone who simply listens and is empathetic and as understanding as possible. The world in general is still so ignorant, even many so called "experts". Sad.
Yes, his story is definitely about his own perspective as someone who has lost someone to suicide. It's valid too but it's not really about bipolar disorder at all, it's about grief so ideally the video title should be changed.
@katec9893 100 Percent