I'm only 17 and I'm currently suffering with bad insomnia and a bad spiritual warfare but I've been praying and building up my faith so I can overcome this season of my life! And there's days where I wanna give up but I just gotta cling onto him and that's what I'm doing.
I'm currently on my 3rd week of suffering from anxiety, fear, depression, insomnia and this has been a blessing to hear. I'll keep looking to God. It is so hard but I pray God's Grace helps all of us. I also read Bondage Breaker, thank you for the recommendation. It is a struggle, I've had okay days but days like today have been so hard but I'll keep looking to God. God bless you, thank you for continuing to share. Please pray for me.
I prayed for you Ruth. Hang in there, the Lord is totally in control. You are suffering a lot, but be encouraged: when our hardships increase, so does His grace. Through and during your hardship, may you be able to truly agree with the Apostle Paul: 9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 God is so good to you dear sister. Aaron
I was, and still am in a situation where my only option was God. I really struggle to trust God at times. It can be difficult to hand over control, especially when you're a control freak like me. But even at my most hopeless times, I call on God and he gives me the strength to continue. You're videos are really helpful. Thank you for sharing you're wisdom.
Brother Aaron i have in the same situation like for about.. almost 5years...and it was getting more more tough ...all these anxieties,lies,depression dispair.diffirenet types of phobias..But praise be to the most High.it was a blessing from him and.Deep within our soul that we know he will teach us how to lean and trust in him...and wants to show us we can get through all storms ......AMEN ..I BELIEVE IN THE LOVE OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST...Today i surrender everything..To him....
I have experienced the same dreadful suffering for about 5 years as well. In my life the Lord has not instantly relieved me. He works and reveals delivery over time. I learn slowly painfully. But, He is active and I am improving. But OH....So slowly.
Thanks to the Living God for your deliverance on that day Aaron... I too believe suffering is like a education in itself, when you seek God's will you see him fashioning your strength, your Faith MUSCLE so to speak. 1 Peter 5:10 But the God of all grace, who had called us unto His eternal GLORY by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, MAKE YOU PERFECT, STABLISH, STRENGTHEN, SETTLE YOU. I too have suffered unique wars in sufferings without understanding at times... but I give it to Our ALMIGHTY GOD. I TRUST Him only. AMEN. As you Aaron I thought it be no end to SEVERE Depression, Intrusive thoughts, OCD, HEAVY-VERY HEAVY ANXIETY, hallucinations. Most definitely I agree the medical community had their chance to try fix my condition. MEDICALLY ... APATHY that was MY DIAGNOSIS in them.. leaving their grounds with forced-drugs in hand (drugs with side affects that worsen my conditions). Depression and Anxieties followed me Day in, Day out 2013-14 (straight through) then again most of 2015 then about the mid to the end of 2016 Intrusive thoughts w/hallucinations blended in. My mind and the normal me was no longer ME. My husband didn't recognize me. I was constantly in fear, crying continuously, nightmares, paranoia, hearing voices, counting numbers...etc I DID NOT KNOW WHY. Twice I had the urge to end the pain because their was NO HOPE ,NO WORTH, NO REASON FOR me to continue , which medically induced me into a mental hospital. Which in all honesty I felt understood in mental facility because you see everyone else there spoke the same crippling problem. ... Yet weird but I wanted to stay in the mental health care, because I felt I was understood FINALLY PEOPLE with whom I can relate. After awhile (2 1/2 wks about) my husband convinced me to be released.. I didn't want to but deep inside me i wanted my husband to have his wife back, to do whatever "I" can to be normal again. Besides there in that mental health care I saw people whose personality was severely fractured, their mind was way past BROKEN. It scared me to want to get better ...to avoid to LET GO like that. You see, I was sooooo mad at God before 2007 for A LOT OF THINGS in my life. Before this I believed in God... Jesus... Holy Spirit since I was very young. But I believe I didn't take God seriously back then. I grew up both practicing my Native American beliefs/myths and attending to church-revivals, Wednesday bible studies only so I could get to sing. I know I only held on to God for the GOOD THINGS as in materialism of this world. I grew up by limited means and was very proud of my favorite faith IN my Native American roots.. so God came not even 2nd but most likely somewhere dead last. It's funny though I blamed ALMIGHTY GOD for EVERYTHING bad and miserable. I didn't even lash out at my Native beliefs. 2015-2016, battling Depression- Mental illness I did give into the Native American healings, native medicine and shamans. Nothing!!! Just left me with a horrible taste in my mouth ...litteraly. Mental illness of course got worse. I was avid runner it was my foundation also for positivity but that too was a make up (lifted me only for little while) ... not only mental illness but sister to that issue because of long running/ training I was also juggling periformis muscle pain (aka Sciactic Nerve pain) from my left buttocks toward my ankles. This pain has no cure as well... so again both mental and sciatic pain seemed phantom. Sept 2017 I became crippling depressed ... I just wanted the PAIN(s) to STOP. I felt like a HUGE BURDEN to my husband ... I felt so numb, so gone, so worthless... NO HOPE. One day I decided "you know that intrusive thought" (to give up only then ALL OF IT WILL STOP)... that exhausted me heavily ... I cried alot toward thinking about what could I do to guarantee death... I just wanted my corpse-gravely thoughts to STOP! Before I went any further... I took a drive crying at the wheel... then ALL OF SUDDEN I HEARD His voice " turn right...right here" .. (there was a Church) ... walked in ,don't know what I was doing there being numb and all. I couldn't give an account how? why? but when the man of that church ask "what can I help you with?.." . My voice said "I just want to be next to God". He invited me to pray with him, I did. Before the prayer he asked if I knew Jesus? Imbarresingly I said "I'm a backsliders, prodigal daughter" (I bursted into tears). I asked Jesus back into my life.. to take my pain, these pains away from me. ..... (Long tearful prayer.. AMEN). Immediately I HEARD "I got you" ... I felt so sure of my life, I felt so filled of HOPE , of OVERFLOWING LOVING PEACE. I felt HIM. Days followed I continued to feel HOPE, HARMONY AND I FELT WORTHY! I did have small amounts of depressions but it didn't chip away my Hope ...it however didn't numb me like it use to. 5 months strong (mid 2018) I believe I was being spiritually sifted... because in me i strongly believed in Jesus Christ My Lord and Savior ...His purpose. At this time I could feel the scariness of Depressions and it's ugly cousins (anxiety, OCD etc) started to touch at me... about a week 1/2 into this I fasted (honestly I didn't know where that obedience came from but I fasted) ...I prayed, continue to read The Holy Bible KJV... continued to TRUST God. There was one moment it got way to much for me ... I asked "Heavenly Father God... God of Abraham, God of Isaac.... of Moses ... of Daniel... the God of John the Baptist... the Living God that sent His Son the Christ to die for all our sins ...please take this pain, this depressions from me throw it back into hell where it belongs... please Father deliver me, FIGHT FOR ME, Fight this for me because I CANT ....I need you in Jesus Name Amen". (Tears smothered all over my face down my shirt ,eyes blurred red) ... moments after the Depression left. I felt like I cannot be defeated because of Him that I feel inside. Who sits in the CENTER of LIFE. My mind is very peaceful and I'm able to think HOPE in God... Hope and Love and I don't feel any nerve pain in my left leg ... just normal leg aches. I run again but not as passionate as I use to, because my passion is learning and getting closer to God (...and I know that leads into spiritual warfare..).. Every now and then I get hit in a storm (spiritually understood), oh yes ....thats why I believe in suffering is God's design to ready those that have a ear... listen... understand and stay focus, steadfast in the Living God through His Son Christ Jesus Our Lord and Savior. Press on and Stay obedient in God .. it's not fun at all to go through storms in life, but it IS necessary in our Christ centered Faith. It will, oh yes it will get worse for us (BODY in Christ)... Remember Christ suffered too... and there is none that will EVER suffer like He did... He defeated DEATH (AMEN) for you, me and EVERYONE. (1 Peter 4:1) I pray you continue your walk with ALMIGHTY GOD and strengthen your Faith MUSCLE through all days TRUSTING ALMIGHTY GOD for EVERYTHING! Amen... Blessings+Love+Scriptures..
My sister-in-Christ, thank you for sharing your powerful testimony! Thank God He rescued you and molded you so beautifully. I had a general understanding the last time you shared, but what you shared today gives more insight and the magnitude of what happened. Have you considered making a testimony UA-cam video? I encourage you to consider it because many could benefit from your testimony; especially those going through a similar situation. God is so good. As we are held securely in His hands, all we can do is thank and praise Him =]
Wow this post sounds word for word and dates exactly what I went through and am going through. I truly thought I was alone in all this and suffering in all this in vain.
I've been suffering from chronic depression for almost 25 years; light depression, but still enough to make me useless as a functioning human being. One pill of paroxetin a day kept the beast at bay. Last september I felt good for the first time in years. I decided to try and quit the slavery to chemicals, having faith in God. I quit slowly, as antidepressants should be quit, and, while other times I tried i felt immediately the beast coming back, this time everything seemed to work out fine. I was overjoyed. But at the beginning of january it all came back. I had to restart the paroxetin, adding anti anxiety drops, to be able to sleep. I was sad; I had had so much hope; I had prayed much. But either my prayers were feeble, or it was not God's plan for me to stop suffering now. I surely learned to be much more empathic towards others; so, suffering taught me something. I accept God's plan, hoping for release, but walking along His path. I read Saint Faustina Kowalska's diaries (you can find them on UA-cam), and learned a lot about suffering, and leaving the rudder to God. How suffering is necessary to counterbalance the evil at work. My faith is so weak, compared to so many christians, but I keep fighting, I want to grow into really believing in God's incomprehensible, unending love for us. Into His Forgiveness. Thank you, Aaron for your encouragement. God bless you. A prayer for all the suffering.
Assuming you are a child of God and as long as you trust in Jesus, everything is going to be more than okay. If you have humbly and in faith asked the Lord to heal you and He did not heal you at this time, then be thankful for the suffering for it has a good purpose for you. Don’t you know through our weakness the strength of Christ manifest through us? Let the Lord do His work in you. It is purely out of love. I know it hurts, but you are in a blessed position. Many Saints used mightily by God, famous ones to man and unknown to man, were led through dark and painful roads in order for them to be made more like Jesus and to prepare them for God’s use. You may be no different. Hang onto the faith in Jesus and march forward. Do what you believe God wants you to do and leave all the consequences to Him. God bless you.
@@aaronkim1074 Thank you, Aaron! I believe so, too. He is working something inside of me. I trust He knows what He's doing. :) I see a path my life has been following; too many "coincidences" leading to a specific way. I can only think of Him shaping me up for something; to have me think a certain way. After all, it's only through suffering that we grow up; when you're ok, you tend to forget about bad times, and try to have fun in order to bury bad times. Or it may be some kind of test, to see how you deal with temptations. Maybe even fall, so to rise again, stronger. I can't figure out God's plan, I can only have faith in Him, and try to be up to the task. Big hug, my brother! Thank you.
God bless you Aaron! I found your channel when I was in the depths of the darkest valley, out of all the channels I search for encouragement as currently I do not have ANYONE in my life to do that. Your testimony brought the biggest comfort to my heart, anointed God produced comfort! He is using you in a mighty way! Now on the other side of it, I can testify with you that it TRULY is a gift! We CANNOT reach the point of surrender we need to be at for Him to accomplish all He wants to do through us without it! Yes it IS a gift!! Doesn’t feel like it at the time.. but PRAISE GOD it produces something amazing in us! 🙌🏼🙌🏼 I clung to the promise of, Philippians 1:6 He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion.. Praying for everyone who is in the valley 🙏 God’s got you
Thank you Aaron for having the heart for the suffering christians. I can feel the sincerity in your face. I am so lifted up bec right now i am suffering physically and ive been praying so hard and been fasted but things seem no change. But your teaching gives me such understanding that indeed God has a purpose for this. I believe in all youve shared and said and i believe in the Word of God. Thank you for helping me to totally surrender to God. Continue your ministry brother you are such a blessing.
Please pray for me. Torment, anxiety, ptsd, nightmares, fear. I haven't had peace in so long, in years. It been one tormenting mental thought after another. I am trying to rebuild my trust in Him, I fear he is not good completely. I just want to feel peace and rest again. Trust him again.
Thank you for these videos. I’m battling insomnia and anxiety right now and these are exactly what I need to hear. God is the only one who can get us through the tough times.
Brother Aaron, thank you so much for this video. You have no idea how encouraging this word was and how badly I needed to hear this. I am going through really bad insomnia right now which spiraled into many other things and for the longest time, I relied on my own understanding and used my power and ways to fix the problem and now I am realizing I need to give it to God and let Him take the wheel. I may not see results right away or in the timeline as i’d like, but I have FAITH and HOPE in our God and that He will deliver me in His perfect timing. Before, I’d pray to Him so He can deliver my insomnia, but now my prayer topic has changed. Whether or not I sleep, I pray that His will is done in my life. I pray that it is Christ who lives in me, and not me living for myself. I surrender. I just relate to your message so much and feel immense love and gratitude for you, so thank you and God bless you.
Hi Aaron, Thanks for the videos and for sharing your testimony. I am enjoying listening to them. One of the things that I struggle with in your teachings and understanding of trials is that God wills these things to happen in a persons life. I have been studying and putting into practice divine healing for a long time and most teachers with great success in seeing others healed teach very clearly that It is the devil causing the havoc in a persons life and that we are in a spiritual battle to appropriate Christ’s victory on the cross in our personal lives. Christs miracles in the Gospels demonstrate that He was always willing to heal people instantly and he commanded us to do the same. In the book of Acts it states that he healed all that were oppressed of the devil. John 10:10 states that it is the thief that comes to steal, kill and destroy but Jesus came to give life more abundantly. The bible also teaches in James that, When we are being tested, we should not say that it is God testing us as he is not tempted of evil nor can he tempt anyone with evil. These scriptures clearly reveal that the devil is the source of the trouble in our lives not God trying to teach us something. I see Anxiety, depression, fear, pain etc is evil and destructive. I don’t see clear scriptural proof stating these things to be gifts from God. What scriptural proof do you have that supports the view that God is behind the test? Many of the texts in scripture about suffering are in reference to persecution. I’m not asking this question to be argumentative or contrary, as I’m very open to hear different views from scripture and do find your testimony and understanding of your experience to be intriguing. However Im concerned that this kind of teaching about suffering could render some people passive to the attacks of our enemy. I know you might bring up Job but remember that Job is old covenant. We are under the new covenant where Jesus took the suffering in our place. I look forward to hearing your thoughts on this.
Hello Robert, I appreciate you wanting to discuss rather than argue. You bring up an excellent question and point, which I appreciate because I usually learn as I think and discuss. I agree with all the scriptures you quoted and they make sense with my understanding of suffering. As I studied the scriptures in deep agony and for survival, God opened my eyes to the reality of suffering in a believer’s life. As I understood it from mind to heart, I was healed. I agree, God is not the source of evil or temptation. However, He allows hardships to come our way for our good. Think about this: Why does God allow satan and his demons to roam around and attack us? The answer: because by doing so, it would bring more glory to His name. As Tim Keller says, God only gives the devil enough rope to hang himself. Because we have Jesus, we have nothing to fear in this world; not even all the demons and hell combined. Regarding the book of Job, I believe the new covenant does not take anything away from what happened between God and satan, and what happened to Job. The story of Job was not a matter of the law vs grace. It was a OT story just as valid as the story of David and Goliath, Joseph, and Moses. I would be interested in hearing how Jesus taking our sins away takes anything away from the story of Job. In the book of Job, we are privileged to see how God allowed terrible suffering to come Job’s way through satan, which ultimately was used to bless millions for thousands of years. Also, I encourage you to think about 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. God allowed “a messenger of satan” to torment Paul for Paul’s good (to keep him from becoming conceited). Suffering for Jesus is not limited to being in prison or persecuted for Jesus, but sanctification as well. God often sanctifies His children through suffering/discipline. There are many reasons why I view suffering as a gift, to talk on a few… Philippians 1:29: For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him, This verse says that it has been “granted” to us to suffer for Him. I see this as God giving us the gift of suffering. This is in reference to Paul being in prison, but it would be incorrect to limit it to prison. James 1:2-4 2Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. James makes it clear we are to celebrate the sufferings that come our way because it leads to so much good. Romans 5:3-5 3Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. Paul says to glory in our sufferings because it leads to much good as well. After studying suffering in the Bible and from Bible teachers during my time of hardship, I realized that ALL suffering is good for a child of God that continues to trust in the Lord. No matter what happens, the Lord uses it all for the good of His children. The anxiety, depression, panic, and etc is not a result of God giving that to us, but a result of us choosing to hold onto control and refusing to surrender and trust in God often times in the midst of difficult circumstances. It is our own doing. However, God still uses those mental hardships for our good. If it wasn’t for depression and loneliness, I likely would not have turned to Christ for salvation 11 years ago. If it wasn’t for depression, anxiety, panic, insomnia, fearful/suicidal thoughts, I likely would not have been able to come to full surrender and trust to God to be able to live a life abiding in Him. Also, I never encourage anyone to be passive about the attacks from the enemy. Instead, I encourage them to submit to God and resist the devil as commanded in James 4:7. Often times, God allows us to endure attack from the enemy to teach us to fight this spiritual war we are in. I actually talked about these subjects in some of my videos. My hope is to show believers the invincibility we have in Jesus when we surrender and trust in Him. Sorry for my thoughts being all over the place. I better stop before it gets any longer! Hope this all makes sense. God bless you friend.
I've been watching your videos over the last little while as I have been suffering greatly for the past 2 years with a very humbling affliction. I notice that I have begun to believe for the first time in my life that God is sovereign and has a plan for me. I believe I have surrendered my life to His will.
Hi Aaron, I just watched your inspirational video. This help me a lot, past week have been really hard I am suffering of panic attacks. I know God will rescue me in this hardship in God's time. I will not give up on Him, I know He is listening and I know He cares for me. With courage and faith I will be waiting for God's hands to pull me out of this hardship. Thanks Aaron!
I just want to be a simple man, I do not want anything to lift me, there are so many things there are so many ways, when the faith should be simple we deepen so much in pain, and we fall madly and we answer Him God, with so much insanity, instead of being behind Jesus instead of hiding in His love, I show myself with insanity to Him, I resist to show who I really am, crazy, He is life as and we have the life to remain in Him, what is outside of Him is simply madness
My friend, keep seeking God as you are. It only makes sense to be honest and open with God; after all, He knows you even better than you know yourself. Do not give up. God is real, and He loves you. If you genuinely seek Him, He will reveal Himself to you. “You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” - Jeremiah 29:13
your videos made feel so comfortable to stay and listen with you, i' started watching your videos when i' can't really do nothing anymore but to cry but since I found you as a man of God. the word of God healed me from my panic attacks, anxiety, insomia and overthinking,,, thank you so much for this hoping you'll still doing this kind of thing to help other God bless you
My whole family died in quick succession, & just as I accepted God's will and communed with Him again, I was hit with another great catastrophe. I can't take much more. I really don't know why I'm even here. I'm born again Christian. It's been a fiery trial ever since I became a believer in Christ, knowing who He is.
Colleen, I read your other comment as well. Assuming you were genuinely saved, you are going through a trial with an good purpose. I know you are hurting and suffering, but rest assured the Lord is working through them and has everything under control. What you need to do at this time is totally surrender to God, and stay totally surrendered. When you are out of the picture and surrendered and trusting in God, He will freely live His life in and through you. He will fix you. You mentioned the end times are near and you do not see a purpose for why you are still here. There is a great purpose for you dear sister. I don't know what that is, but Jesus knows. And He wants to finish the good works He has started in you. Do not be idle because you think the end is near, but instead let God live His life in and through you until He calls you home. If you are done with your life, good! Hand it over to Jesus and give Him full control. I know this sounds radical, but it's not. It's the normal life for a Christian. We are vessels to be filled with God alone; to be used by Him according to what His will. Sister, I advise you to watch my other videos on total surrender and rejoicing always, and other videos you think may be helpful. Also, please consider reaching out to a good Christian counselor like Dr. John Woodward at Grace Fellowship International. He was my counselor and he is a wonderful man of God. God bless you.
Aaron Kim thank you for your time and encouraging words! One thing that has helped me a lot is the fact that the scriptures are opening... It's really amazing! Regarding surrender, I know you're right! I've prayed He remove all obstacles within me, and continue to. Thank you again, I've been watching your videos. They make me cry so I can only do a few at a time lol God continue to bless and keep you! I agree about a Christian counselor, do you know of any in northern Indiana? Much love to you and yours!
Aaron Kim ps I love the statement you made "if you are done with your life, great! Hand it over to God..." I definitely handed it over thru all this, but He hasn't sent me to task yet. I will be so happy when He begins to use me in the full!
Amen! You can count on that. Our job is to patiently and with faith wait on Him. He knows the perfect timing. In the meantime, live a life trusting in Him knowing is grace will always sustain us. As long as we trust in God, we cannot fail.
I feel the anxiety as torture and the trouble as fire in my core i feel the strength of God not allowing me to lay on the floor and cry like a 3 year old.Its a strange thing
I have horrible anxiety so bad, I vomit a lot and i've lost about 10kg and struggle to eat. I'm unable to work, completely housebound because my anxiety symptoms are so debilitating. Im on 4 different medications to manage the symptoms. Been to doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists and I've tried all kinds of treatments like acupuncture, osteopathy, reflexology, kinesiology but it makes no difference. I was told by a doctor once that I was at risk of having a heart attack because my weight is so low and i almost ended up in hospital. I am suffering and the devil has got me exactly where he wants me to be. Stuck and paralysed with fear. "Be merciful to me Lord, for I am in trouble; my eyes are tired from so much crying; I am completely worn out. I am exhausted by sorrow, and weeping has shortened my life. I am weak from all my troubles; even my bones are wasting away." Psalm 31:9-10
The irony is that all this has made me desperately seek God. I've been reading scriptures from the bible and taking notes. I have also formed a good relationship with my aunt because she is a very spiritual person.
Alex Cooper You have no option but to completely surrender your existence to God. Whatever happens to you, give yourself to God. Make your life a blank check to Jesus. When you do this, your life becomes God’s responsibility. Then He takes over and lives His life in and through you. Do this and you will be healed. I encourage you to watch the video I made on total surrender if you haven’t already. God bless you my friend.
Read books from Rebeccah Brown, Prepare for War and Becoming a vessel of honour. Many of the things you are doing are demonic (acupuncture, kinesiolgy).
Aaron I want to thank you so much for this site it has helped me immensely in my path along this road, please keep this going for the Body of Christ and those suffering in this way. Yesterday I would have to say was my lowest, deepest day of despair I have ever had feeling so fearful, anxious, hopeless and alone, (but he knows) and today a new day, yet again the Lord in his loving mercy has shown more pieces of this puzzle (Psalm 30:5) Weeping may lodge for the night, but shouts of joy will come in the morning, His perfect love (in me and through me) casts out all fear, once we get a true revelation of that word the Sword of the spirit we have ........VICTORY & standing and standing to be aware.
Amen. Be encouraged, you are doing well in your trial! It looks like you are on your way of receiving much blessings from your trial, and will emerge from it with much to show for it. Keep surrendered and trusting in His Word. Also, thank you for the encouragement. I know in my heart God called me to this ministry, so I definitely will not stop following His lead. May God bless you and strengthen you. May His wings cover you and provide you His peace. May Jesus be your strong tower so that nothing can shake you. May Jesus be your life from head to heart.
@Azureblu 50 I Just want to say praise God he has shown me his love and faithfulness, I have been lifted up and set free for two months now and I am on the other side of this, the Lord has directed my paths, and continues to guide and and help me everyday. No weapon formed against me has prevailed, Who the Lords sets free is free indeed. Thank you for your prayers. God is so good, where he leads me I shall follow :) :)
Hallelujah Carol!!!! Hopefully the Lord will use your testimony to help fellow Christian's in their dark night of the soul. Praise God! Looking forward to my miracle also😊 I am seeing genuine transformation in the fires of suffering from mental illness. Km so grateful. It's still my mountain unfortunately, but I'm learning obedience and surrender. I'm a changed man.
@@davemoores5945 God Bless you in your journey, remember what we focus on we magnify. I know it is not easy when you are in the fire and the torment seems relentless, Gods word is the only truth, once that gets deep in your heart and you begin to see his faithfulness, he lifts us up and places our feet upon a Rock...Christ himself is our solid rock. Take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ, be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Keep in the word, keep on trusting, your breakthrough and healing is near. Your battle belongs to the Lord, surrender it all to him and you can enter into his rest.
@@cmnotley amen sis wow, I can just tell by that message how the Holy Spirit truly has gotten a hold of you in a big way... That's the truth...the past 9 months I was warring in the flesh, only recently have I learned that God's word is the only foundation of truth and to put my life on it. Even when I'm just broken, I just cry tears of thankfulness to the Lord, and thank Him for His promises and say " I still trust you!" Even if its just all black I dont look to the darkness I just walk by faith through that darkness. Hes taught me to do so. Please keep me lifted. I thank you for your encouragement, what a blessing to wake up to. God bless you 😊
I experience 3 nights of sleeplessness but now i will get sleep the next day no sleep and the next day i get to sleep again somehow i'm grateful that i'm not dependent on any meds. And also in those sleeplessness nights im grateful that i could still do jogging the next day.
Very good. I too was and am grateful to God for not being dependent on meds. If you keep surrendering and trusting in God, you come to better realize whatever sleep God gives you is sufficient because His grace is always sufficient; even allowing you to jog and etc! The less you think about sleep and cast all your anxieties onto God, the more peace you will have. Child-like faith is a blessing. God bless you.
@@aaronkim1074 its hard to be in meds like rivotril because its not advisable to be taken in the long run as it loses its effectivity. I've known lately people with insomnia complaining that they're taking rivotril but they were not able to sleep anymore and a woman says that she got type 2 diabetes because of her meds and she did'nt take those meds again after knowing this it made me more worry although i have'nt talk to a psychiatrist i miss my session twice and last monday i told him that im not comfortable to talk about my insomnia although they message me but i have not replied. I prefer to just go on my routine. All i know as months pass by im not that much afraid of not getting sleep. Keep making videos and inspiring people for those struggling and having a hard time trusting god. God bless Aaron Kim
Just a question when you were going through your trial. I find when I am just waking up in the early morning hours the bad thoughts just flood my mind; I’ll never get through this, no one loves you, you are all alone, etc. I really struggle first thing in the morning. Did you have a similar experience? This morning I felt just overwhelmed and almost broke down in tears (my issue is that my daughter is not speaking to me now) but I grabbed my iPad and watched your video instead. Please pray for me, I want to reconcile with my daughter.
I prayed for you Susan. I encourage you to watch a video I made on Taking every thought captive. Spiritual battle happens in our thought life. God bless you.
Thank you for these videos, they are giving me so much hope in my restlessness and tormented mind, I trust this is not my destiny. Do you by chance take phone calls? Or anything like that
Thank you for the encouragement. I do not take calls or emails, but I encourage you to consider receiving counseling from GFI as I did at 865-429-0450. God bless you.
Did you ever have feelings other than sadness during your depression or was it as if everyday was another day to just try to make it through and how did you notice the good feelings were there again
Hi Tom, yes, at my worst I had a lot of different feelings when I was depressed and etc. I was full of fear and felt hopeless. I wasn't thinking of even trying to get through the day because every moment was agony; the days all blurred into just continuous torture. As I started to trust in God, the good feelings started to come in tiny spurts. They only came by reading, listening, and meditating on scripture; there was no other source. Someone could have given me $100 billion, and it would have done nothing for me. Certain truths and promises from the Bible gave me glimmers of hope, but I would go back down, and then back up. My emotions were like how stock prices zig zag across a report. When you look at it from a single day's report, it looks like I got nowhere. However, if I looked at it over a month or more, you could see the zig zag trending upward. After a while, it stayed up and out of the red. Then the good feelings became the norm. Tom, as you trust in God and meditate on His promises, your good feelings will come whether you like it or not, it is just a matter of time. Let me say for you and Org, your time of suffering has great purpose. God is blessing you with character and godliness you would never be able to obtain otherwise. You may think you want to forfeit the blessings of the present sufferings if you can get out of it now, but you will regret that thought once you are out. Bask in the sovereignty of God in the good times AND bad times; because He is using it all for your good and His glory. I know you are hurting brother... but God is near to you and carefully orchestrating every detail in your life. You can trust God. God bless you brother.
@@aaronkim1074 Thank you Aaron I just watched a 2 part sermon i think you will enjoy ua-cam.com/video/ZoMAbc4gAnU/v-deo.html & ua-cam.com/video/_EOUtA-GUg8/v-deo.html
@@thomast1956 Brother Tom, thanks for sending me these sermons. They were wonderful. When a man of God like Pastor Farrar, who has gone through the valley and seen the goodness of God, gives us these lessons it is powerful and life changing. As he said, we are just dumb sheep, but we don't need to worry since we have Jesus as our Shepherd. Also, I love how God directed him out of the pastoral job and into something much better for him. I'm hoping for God to lead me as well. God bless you brother. Please let me know if you have any prayer requests.
I don't get it! What is the point of him not letting me sleep at night? I am tired and pissed off all day, I don't find a job because of this, and BTW. Single and barren and almost 50. How does this waste of life bring Glory to God?
Hi Juan, I'm not certain, but I think acupuncture will do little to nothing for anxiety. Anxiety is produced from your thoughts, so it must be dealt with through your thoughts. The root cause of your anxieties is created from the lies the devil speaks to your mind, and those lies produce fears. If you stop believing the lies by choosing to believe in God's promises instead, you will be healed. If you haven't already, I encourage you to watch this video on overcoming anxiety: ua-cam.com/video/mbuBxLLlMVI/v-deo.html God bless you my friend.
Aaron Kim Thanks for your reply and good word. This anxiety came about through an illness. The symptoms I have I find very difficult to categorize. Most discouraging are the fast resting heart rate, the tinnitus, and headaches. Are they anxiety produced or symptoms of all the blood pressure meds I’ve been on in the past 5 months? So I’m caught in this cycle, and only sleeping 3 hours a night for 2 months now. I think you can relate. Thank you for your videos. They are encouraging, thank you.
Hey brother, that is some real suffering... but, you will be okay as long as you put it all in God’s hands. I can’t say for certain what the cause of those symptoms are, but if you haven’t already I would see a doctor to see if they could be side effects from the blood pressure meds you mentioned. If you have already seen doctors and they can’t identify where those symptoms are coming from, your rapid heart beating, headaches, and insomnia very well could be a result of anxiety. (I don’t know much about tinnitus) When I was under anxiety, I had rapid heart beats that were so strong it caused massive chest pains. You may be going through something similar. I believe the answer to your problem is total surrender to God, and to rest in His sovereignty over you. I still encourage you to consult doctors to see if they can help, but my opinion is that the power of surrender to God is what is going to set you free from all these symptoms. Regarding your 3 hours of sleep a night, you need to hold onto two promises during the night: 1) God’s grace is enough now and will be enough during the day. You don’t need sleep or anything, but only his grace (2 Corinthians 12:9) 2) God is using your lack of sleep for your good (Romans 8:28). You can apply these truths to your other symptoms as well. This requires you to use your faith, and if you are a believer, you have enough faith.
Hey brother, I just remembered I watched a video on curing tinnitus a few weeks ago for some reason. I’m not sure how safe it is, but worth a watch. ua-cam.com/video/KBgkPOGD6gw/v-deo.html
Do you still feel the darkness creeping over you time to time? Or are you completely healed and able to function just like you did before you experienced those anxiety, depression, and panic attacks? I recently began to experience those and afraid if I have to fight these symptoms the rest of my life.
Hi Org, it was a gradual battle for me. Depression seemed to have left at one definite time, but anxiety, panic attacks, and insomnia gradually left as I trusted in God. It was a fierce battle. The battle can be summed as this: As my emotions were spiraling out of control, I took the promises in scripture by faith and overruled my emotions with God's word. Even when my emotions didn't agree, I forced the truth over the lies and my emotions. As I did this, the darkness decreased a little, and then some more, and more, until it was completely gone. I am completely free today. I will say, the fearful thoughts do try and make their way in some time, but I fight them off by a few Bible verses I memorized and there is no fear. Assuming you are a Christian, I believe you will be completely free as I am as you trust in God. There is no room for permanent anxiety, depression, panic attacks, etc in a body indwelt by the Holy Spirit. How am I so sure? Psalm 34:17-19. Especially look at verse 19: "Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all." Either God is real or He is not. If He is real, which He is, He will deliver you out of all your afflictions. There are no caveats or conditions... He will rescue you in HIs perfect timing my dear Org. Rest in this truth.
@@aaronkim1074 Thank you. You have no idea how much your videos and comments here on UA-cam have helped me. If you don't mind I would like to ask another question. Do you think the people who go through trials like this (such as living in agony every second) as born again christians have certain characteristics in common?
Brother, I’m thankful to God you are benefitting. He will see you through. Regarding your question, one common characteristic I see for Christians going through intense suffering is that they usually offer their lives to God unconditionally at some point before the fiery trial. However, when they initially offer themselves to God, it is from only their mind. Then God answers them through a trial, and then they are able to offer themselves not only from their mind, but from their heart; a totally surrender described in Romans 12:1. This is not always the case, but that seemed to be a theme in a lot of testimonies I read and heard. Sometimes, I’ve seen not very serious Christians or even non Christians go through intense trials and come out with vibrant faith, peace, and joy. So, God definitely works in mysterious ways! One thing is certain, these intense trials are a true blessing to His children.
@@orghanagie1516 It is my pleasure and honor my dear brother. I am praying and pleading for you and the others. That you may all stay strong in the Lord as He works powerfully and lovingly in you all. That even though you suffer and things do not make sense at the moment, that you learn to trust Him no matter what. I pray that you understand and believe in your heart the sovereignty of God, so that you may have the peace and joy of God. God bless you brother.
Being saved in death is not an issue. Many prayed and fasted for death. Many would rejoice at the cold touch that would get them to Heaven 🙂. After they have already stepped out in faith and, years later, see some spiritual benefit, but nothing but destruction following getting out of the boat and daring to attempt to walk on water at what they were sure was the Lord's calling 🙂. What scares sometimes is the perspective of decade upon decade of pain, frustration, and worsening conditions, for those that went above and beyond, when others chose the safe route and even ridiculed them. I know some of this select club, and there's nothing, really, to tell then they haven't already heard. They obeyed the Lord, left the consequences to Him and they were monstruous. These people are living sacrifices and love Him dearly. He will ask or the unthinkable again, again and again in some of his best children's lives. Not an easy pill to swallow. Martyrs are to be admired; however, their lot was sweeter than some of the others'. I understand you had an impact over others. You were, ultimately, delivered. Some have no choice but to show that living in constant mental and/or physical turmoil is possible. No glorious redemption, other than those in the past, that, instead of allowing death to take its toll, have prolonged other and gave opportunity for other types of suffering to appear in the life of some saints. Imagine some going year after tear after year throug what you went twice, from what I understand, being delivered out of one such issue, only for two others to pounce on them at the same time. The depths of suffering and unfairness some saints go through is so deep, that only looking at Christ's agony on the cross as the most unjust one gives them some sort of mental comfort. Again, I lnow such people and I know many whose crosses would pulverize me. So yes, we do have to continue die towards ourselves, take up our cross daily, respectfully, even if you don't like the wording. You'd feel the need to scream in frustration if I were to tell you of a few such life stories. Imagine, for instane, going through decades of the dark night of the soul - for me it was only six months. Imagine living a Job experience for years, losing even more for stepping out in faith, and being lectured by others that a God of love wouldn't do that - that for them the things went opposite. And these started from the same point as you, and are not babes in Christ. Appreciate your ministry.
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I'm only 17 and I'm currently suffering with bad insomnia and a bad spiritual warfare but I've been praying and building up my faith so I can overcome this season of my life! And there's days where I wanna give up but I just gotta cling onto him and that's what I'm doing.
Very good. Don’t give up, but keep trusting in Jesus alone no matter what. God bless you Omar.
Man cant relate enough to this, im so enraged but we need to keep going.
You know I've been feeling g the same way on suffering. Why me lord why me . But thru my suffering I do feel so much closer to Jesus...
I'm currently on my 3rd week of suffering from anxiety, fear, depression, insomnia and this has been a blessing to hear. I'll keep looking to God. It is so hard but I pray God's Grace helps all of us. I also read Bondage Breaker, thank you for the recommendation. It is a struggle, I've had okay days but days like today have been so hard but I'll keep looking to God. God bless you, thank you for continuing to share. Please pray for me.
I prayed for you Ruth. Hang in there, the Lord is totally in control. You are suffering a lot, but be encouraged: when our hardships increase, so does His grace. Through and during your hardship, may you be able to truly agree with the Apostle Paul:
9 But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
God is so good to you dear sister.
Aaron
I was, and still am in a situation where my only option was God. I really struggle to trust God at times. It can be difficult to hand over control, especially when you're a control freak like me. But even at my most hopeless times, I call on God and he gives me the strength to continue. You're videos are really helpful. Thank you for sharing you're wisdom.
Brother Aaron i have in the same situation like for about.. almost 5years...and it was getting more more tough ...all these anxieties,lies,depression dispair.diffirenet types of phobias..But praise be to the most High.it was a blessing from him and.Deep within our soul that we know he will teach us how to lean and trust in him...and wants to show us we can get through all storms ......AMEN ..I BELIEVE IN THE LOVE OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST...Today i surrender everything..To him....
Amen! May the Lord bless you and keep you. Stay surrendered and trusting in Jesus my friend.
I have experienced the same dreadful suffering for about 5 years as well. In my life the Lord has not instantly relieved me. He works and reveals delivery over time. I learn slowly painfully. But, He is active and I am improving. But OH....So slowly.
Thanks to the Living God for your deliverance on that day Aaron... I too believe suffering is like a education in itself, when you seek God's will you see him fashioning your strength, your Faith MUSCLE so to speak.
1 Peter 5:10 But the God of all grace, who had called us unto His eternal GLORY by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, MAKE YOU PERFECT, STABLISH, STRENGTHEN, SETTLE YOU.
I too have suffered unique wars in sufferings without understanding at times... but I give it to Our ALMIGHTY GOD. I TRUST Him only. AMEN.
As you Aaron I thought it be no end to SEVERE Depression, Intrusive thoughts, OCD, HEAVY-VERY HEAVY ANXIETY, hallucinations. Most definitely I agree the medical community had their chance to try fix my condition. MEDICALLY ... APATHY that was MY DIAGNOSIS in them.. leaving their grounds with forced-drugs in hand (drugs with side affects that worsen my conditions).
Depression and Anxieties followed me Day in, Day out 2013-14 (straight through) then again most of 2015 then about the mid to the end of 2016 Intrusive thoughts w/hallucinations blended in. My mind and the normal me was no longer ME. My husband didn't recognize me. I was constantly in fear, crying continuously, nightmares, paranoia, hearing voices, counting numbers...etc I DID NOT KNOW WHY.
Twice I had the urge to end the pain because their was NO HOPE ,NO WORTH, NO REASON FOR me to continue , which medically induced me into a mental hospital. Which in all honesty I felt understood in mental facility because you see everyone else there spoke the same crippling problem. ... Yet weird but I wanted to stay in the mental health care, because I felt I was understood FINALLY PEOPLE with whom I can relate. After awhile (2 1/2 wks about) my husband convinced me to be released.. I didn't want to but deep inside me i wanted my husband to have his wife back, to do whatever "I" can to be normal again. Besides there in that mental health care I saw people whose personality was severely fractured, their mind was way past BROKEN. It scared me to want to get better ...to avoid to LET GO like that.
You see, I was sooooo mad at God before 2007 for A LOT OF THINGS in my life. Before this I believed in God... Jesus... Holy Spirit since I was very young. But I believe I didn't take God seriously back then. I grew up both practicing my Native American beliefs/myths and attending to church-revivals, Wednesday bible studies only so I could get to sing. I know I only held on to God for the GOOD THINGS as in materialism of this world. I grew up by limited means and was very proud of my favorite faith IN my Native American roots.. so God came not even 2nd but most likely somewhere dead last. It's funny though I blamed ALMIGHTY GOD for EVERYTHING bad and miserable. I didn't even lash out at my Native beliefs.
2015-2016, battling Depression- Mental illness I did give into the Native American healings, native medicine and shamans. Nothing!!! Just left me with a horrible taste in my mouth ...litteraly. Mental illness of course got worse. I was avid runner it was my foundation also for positivity but that too was a make up (lifted me only for little while) ... not only mental illness but sister to that issue because of long running/ training I was also juggling periformis muscle pain (aka Sciactic Nerve pain) from my left buttocks toward my ankles. This pain has no cure as well... so again both mental and sciatic pain seemed phantom.
Sept 2017 I became crippling depressed ... I just wanted the PAIN(s) to STOP. I felt like a HUGE BURDEN to my husband ... I felt so numb, so gone, so worthless... NO HOPE. One day I decided "you know that intrusive thought" (to give up only then ALL OF IT WILL STOP)... that exhausted me heavily ... I cried alot toward thinking about what could I do to guarantee death... I just wanted my corpse-gravely thoughts to STOP! Before I went any further... I took a drive crying at the wheel... then ALL OF SUDDEN I HEARD His voice " turn right...right here" .. (there was a Church) ... walked in ,don't know what I was doing there being numb and all. I couldn't give an account how? why? but when the man of that church ask "what can I help you with?.." . My voice said "I just want to be next to God". He invited me to pray with him, I did. Before the prayer he asked if I knew Jesus? Imbarresingly I said "I'm a backsliders, prodigal daughter" (I bursted into tears).
I asked Jesus back into my life.. to take my pain, these pains away from me. ..... (Long tearful prayer.. AMEN). Immediately I HEARD "I got you" ... I felt so sure of my life, I felt so filled of HOPE , of OVERFLOWING LOVING PEACE. I felt HIM.
Days followed I continued to feel HOPE, HARMONY AND I FELT WORTHY! I did have small amounts of depressions but it didn't chip away my Hope ...it however didn't numb me like it use to.
5 months strong (mid 2018) I believe I was being spiritually sifted... because in me i strongly believed in Jesus Christ My Lord and Savior ...His purpose. At this time I could feel the scariness of Depressions and it's ugly cousins (anxiety, OCD etc) started to touch at me... about a week 1/2 into this I fasted (honestly I didn't know where that obedience came from but I fasted) ...I prayed, continue to read The Holy Bible KJV... continued to TRUST God.
There was one moment it got way to much for me ... I asked "Heavenly Father God... God of Abraham, God of Isaac.... of Moses ... of Daniel... the God of John the Baptist... the Living God that sent His Son the Christ to die for all our sins ...please take this pain, this depressions from me throw it back into hell where it belongs... please Father deliver me, FIGHT FOR ME, Fight this for me because I CANT ....I need you in Jesus Name Amen". (Tears smothered all over my face down my shirt ,eyes blurred red) ... moments after the Depression left. I felt like I cannot be defeated because of Him that I feel inside. Who sits in the CENTER of LIFE. My mind is very peaceful and I'm able to think HOPE in God... Hope and Love and I don't feel any nerve pain in my left leg ... just normal leg aches. I run again but not as passionate as I use to, because my passion is learning and getting closer to God (...and I know that leads into spiritual warfare..)..
Every now and then I get hit in a storm (spiritually understood), oh yes ....thats why I believe in suffering is God's design to ready those that have a ear... listen... understand and stay focus, steadfast in the Living God through His Son Christ Jesus Our Lord and Savior. Press on and Stay obedient in God .. it's not fun at all to go through storms in life, but it IS necessary in our Christ centered Faith.
It will, oh yes it will get worse for us (BODY in Christ)...
Remember Christ suffered too... and there is none that will EVER suffer like He did... He defeated DEATH (AMEN) for you, me and EVERYONE. (1 Peter 4:1)
I pray you continue your walk with ALMIGHTY GOD and strengthen your Faith MUSCLE through all days TRUSTING ALMIGHTY GOD for EVERYTHING! Amen... Blessings+Love+Scriptures..
My sister-in-Christ, thank you for sharing your powerful testimony! Thank God He rescued you and molded you so beautifully. I had a general understanding the last time you shared, but what you shared today gives more insight and the magnitude of what happened. Have you considered making a testimony UA-cam video? I encourage you to consider it because many could benefit from your testimony; especially those going through a similar situation.
God is so good. As we are held securely in His hands, all we can do is thank and praise Him =]
Wow this post sounds word for word and dates exactly what I went through and am going through. I truly thought I was alone in all this and suffering in all this in vain.
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Jesus is the ONLY ONE that can deliver you.
Blessings+Love+Scriptures
I keep fighting my addiction , I feel like this spoke right to me! So well spoken Thankyou soo much ! God bless ❤️🩹🙏
I've been suffering from chronic depression for almost 25 years; light depression, but still enough to make me useless as a functioning human being. One pill of paroxetin a day kept the beast at bay. Last september I felt good for the first time in years. I decided to try and quit the slavery to chemicals, having faith in God. I quit slowly, as antidepressants should be quit, and, while other times I tried i felt immediately the beast coming back, this time everything seemed to work out fine. I was overjoyed. But at the beginning of january it all came back. I had to restart the paroxetin, adding anti anxiety drops, to be able to sleep. I was sad; I had had so much hope; I had prayed much. But either my prayers were feeble, or it was not God's plan for me to stop suffering now. I surely learned to be much more empathic towards others; so, suffering taught me something. I accept God's plan, hoping for release, but walking along His path. I read Saint Faustina Kowalska's diaries (you can find them on UA-cam), and learned a lot about suffering, and leaving the rudder to God. How suffering is necessary to counterbalance the evil at work. My faith is so weak, compared to so many christians, but I keep fighting, I want to grow into really believing in God's incomprehensible, unending love for us. Into His Forgiveness. Thank you, Aaron for your encouragement. God bless you. A prayer for all the suffering.
Assuming you are a child of God and as long as you trust in Jesus, everything is going to be more than okay. If you have humbly and in faith asked the Lord to heal you and He did not heal you at this time, then be thankful for the suffering for it has a good purpose for you. Don’t you know through our weakness the strength of Christ manifest through us? Let the Lord do His work in you. It is purely out of love. I know it hurts, but you are in a blessed position. Many Saints used mightily by God, famous ones to man and unknown to man, were led through dark and painful roads in order for them to be made more like Jesus and to prepare them for God’s use. You may be no different. Hang onto the faith in Jesus and march forward. Do what you believe God wants you to do and leave all the consequences to Him. God bless you.
@@aaronkim1074 Thank you, Aaron! I believe so, too. He is working something inside of me. I trust He knows what He's doing. :) I see a path my life has been following; too many "coincidences" leading to a specific way. I can only think of Him shaping me up for something; to have me think a certain way. After all, it's only through suffering that we grow up; when you're ok, you tend to forget about bad times, and try to have fun in order to bury bad times. Or it may be some kind of test, to see how you deal with temptations. Maybe even fall, so to rise again, stronger. I can't figure out God's plan, I can only have faith in Him, and try to be up to the task. Big hug, my brother! Thank you.
Amen. One of the main ways God matures us is through suffering. May the Lord continue to sanctify, guide, comfort, and bless you!
@@aaronkim1074 I have to learn to fully trust Him, and walk the path with serenity. May the Lord's presence be clearer and clearer to us.
36 years of dealing with anxiety and depression brother! I got saved 12/12/21 and I resonate with your videos! You’re teaching me a lot!
God bless you Aaron! I found your channel when I was in the depths of the darkest valley, out of all the channels I search for encouragement as currently I do not have ANYONE in my life to do that. Your testimony brought the biggest comfort to my heart, anointed God produced comfort!
He is using you in a mighty way!
Now on the other side of it, I can testify with you that it TRULY is a gift! We CANNOT reach the point of surrender we need to be at for Him to accomplish all He wants to do through us without it! Yes it IS a gift!! Doesn’t feel like it at the time.. but PRAISE GOD it produces something amazing in us! 🙌🏼🙌🏼
I clung to the promise of, Philippians 1:6 He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion..
Praying for everyone who is in the valley 🙏
God’s got you
Thank you Aaron for having the heart for the suffering christians. I can feel the sincerity in your face. I am so lifted up bec right now i am suffering physically and ive been praying so hard and been fasted but things seem no change. But your teaching gives me such understanding that indeed God has a purpose for this. I believe in all youve shared and said and i believe in the Word of God. Thank you for helping me to totally surrender to God. Continue your ministry brother you are such a blessing.
Amen. Believing in God's Word is a blessing and a tremendous gift! May the Lord strengthen, guide, and bless you friend!
Please pray for me. Torment, anxiety, ptsd, nightmares, fear. I haven't had peace in so long, in years. It been one tormenting mental thought after another. I am trying to rebuild my trust in Him, I fear he is not good completely. I just want to feel peace and rest again. Trust him again.
Thank you for praying for me. I still need it. Thank you so much.
May the Lord give you His peace as you totally surrender and trust in Him. God bless you.
Never stop posting 🙏
Sometimes I want to give up already but I always think about God. I'm holding on to God.
Thank you for these videos. I’m battling insomnia and anxiety right now and these are exactly what I need to hear. God is the only one who can get us through the tough times.
God bless us that are suffering. With hope we have our Lord. Thank you Aron for your ministry. God bless you.
Thank you so much it was very hopeful and inspiring. Those were all beautiful words. God bless you Aaron.
Thank you for your wonderful testimony!
Amen.
Thank you dear brother in Christ for sharing your testimonies.
See you heaven one day brother and we can share more stories.
Thank you for making these videos. They are very comforting and helpful
Man this is life changing. Love your videos. Watched alot.
Brother Aaron, thank you so much for this video. You have no idea how encouraging this word was and how badly I needed to hear this. I am going through really bad insomnia right now which spiraled into many other things and for the longest time, I relied on my own understanding and used my power and ways to fix the problem and now I am realizing I need to give it to God and let Him take the wheel. I may not see results right away or in the timeline as i’d like, but I have FAITH and HOPE in our God and that He will deliver me in His perfect timing. Before, I’d pray to Him so He can deliver my insomnia, but now my prayer topic has changed. Whether or not I sleep, I pray that His will is done in my life. I pray that it is Christ who lives in me, and not me living for myself. I surrender. I just relate to your message so much and feel immense love and gratitude for you, so thank you and God bless you.
Good to see you back man
Thank you for this video
Hi Aaron, Thanks for the videos and for sharing your testimony. I am enjoying listening to them. One of the things that I struggle with in your teachings and understanding of trials is that God wills these things to happen in a persons life. I have been studying and putting into practice divine healing for a long time and most teachers with great success in seeing others healed teach very clearly that It is the devil causing the havoc in a persons life and that we are in a spiritual battle to appropriate Christ’s victory on the cross in our personal lives. Christs miracles in the Gospels demonstrate that He was always willing to heal people instantly and he commanded us to do the same. In the book of Acts it states that he healed all that were oppressed of the devil. John 10:10 states that it is the thief that comes to steal, kill and destroy but Jesus came to give life more abundantly. The bible also teaches in James that, When we are being tested, we should not say that it is God testing us as he is not tempted of evil nor can he tempt anyone with evil. These scriptures clearly reveal that the devil is the source of the trouble in our lives not God trying to teach us something. I see Anxiety, depression, fear, pain etc is evil and destructive. I don’t see clear scriptural proof stating these things to be gifts from God. What scriptural proof do you have that supports the view that God is behind the test? Many of the texts in scripture about suffering are in reference to persecution. I’m not asking this question to be argumentative or contrary, as I’m very open to hear different views from scripture and do find your testimony and understanding of your experience to be intriguing. However Im concerned that this kind of teaching about suffering could render some people passive to the attacks of our enemy. I know you might bring up Job but remember that Job is old covenant. We are under the new covenant where Jesus took the suffering in our place. I look forward to hearing your thoughts on this.
Hello Robert, I appreciate you wanting to discuss rather than argue. You bring up an excellent question and point, which I appreciate because I usually learn as I think and discuss. I agree with all the scriptures you quoted and they make sense with my understanding of suffering. As I studied the scriptures in deep agony and for survival, God opened my eyes to the reality of suffering in a believer’s life. As I understood it from mind to heart, I was healed.
I agree, God is not the source of evil or temptation. However, He allows hardships to come our way for our good. Think about this: Why does God allow satan and his demons to roam around and attack us? The answer: because by doing so, it would bring more glory to His name. As Tim Keller says, God only gives the devil enough rope to hang himself. Because we have Jesus, we have nothing to fear in this world; not even all the demons and hell combined. Regarding the book of Job, I believe the new covenant does not take anything away from what happened between God and satan, and what happened to Job. The story of Job was not a matter of the law vs grace. It was a OT story just as valid as the story of David and Goliath, Joseph, and Moses. I would be interested in hearing how Jesus taking our sins away takes anything away from the story of Job. In the book of Job, we are privileged to see how God allowed terrible suffering to come Job’s way through satan, which ultimately was used to bless millions for thousands of years. Also, I encourage you to think about 2 Corinthians 12:7-10. God allowed “a messenger of satan” to torment Paul for Paul’s good (to keep him from becoming conceited).
Suffering for Jesus is not limited to being in prison or persecuted for Jesus, but sanctification as well. God often sanctifies His children through suffering/discipline. There are many reasons why I view suffering as a gift, to talk on a few…
Philippians 1:29: For it has been granted to you on behalf of Christ not only to believe in him, but also to suffer for him,
This verse says that it has been “granted” to us to suffer for Him. I see this as God giving us the gift of suffering. This is in reference to Paul being in prison, but it would be incorrect to limit it to prison.
James 1:2-4 2Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.
James makes it clear we are to celebrate the sufferings that come our way because it leads to so much good.
Romans 5:3-5 3Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope.
Paul says to glory in our sufferings because it leads to much good as well.
After studying suffering in the Bible and from Bible teachers during my time of hardship, I realized that ALL suffering is good for a child of God that continues to trust in the Lord. No matter what happens, the Lord uses it all for the good of His children.
The anxiety, depression, panic, and etc is not a result of God giving that to us, but a result of us choosing to hold onto control and refusing to surrender and trust in God often times in the midst of difficult circumstances. It is our own doing. However, God still uses those mental hardships for our good. If it wasn’t for depression and loneliness, I likely would not have turned to Christ for salvation 11 years ago. If it wasn’t for depression, anxiety, panic, insomnia, fearful/suicidal thoughts, I likely would not have been able to come to full surrender and trust to God to be able to live a life abiding in Him.
Also, I never encourage anyone to be passive about the attacks from the enemy. Instead, I encourage them to submit to God and resist the devil as commanded in James 4:7. Often times, God allows us to endure attack from the enemy to teach us to fight this spiritual war we are in.
I actually talked about these subjects in some of my videos. My hope is to show believers the invincibility we have in Jesus when we surrender and trust in Him.
Sorry for my thoughts being all over the place. I better stop before it gets any longer! Hope this all makes sense. God bless you friend.
Amen, brother
I've been watching your videos over the last little while as I have been suffering greatly for the past 2 years with a very humbling affliction. I notice that I have begun to believe for the first time in my life that God is sovereign and has a plan for me. I believe I have surrendered my life to His will.
Amazing! Truth in love! Thank u!
This is awesome!!!! Thanks for letting yourself be used!! I also sent this to my daughter. PLEASE keep her in prayer. Thank you! Blessings!!!
Hi Aaron, I just watched your inspirational video. This help me a lot, past week have been really hard I am suffering of panic attacks. I know God will rescue me in this hardship in God's time. I will not give up on Him, I know He is listening and I know He cares for me. With courage and faith I will be waiting for God's hands to pull me out of this hardship.
Thanks Aaron!
I just want to be a simple man, I do not want anything to lift me, there are so many things there are so many ways, when the faith should be simple we deepen so much in pain, and we fall madly and we answer Him God, with so much insanity, instead of being behind Jesus instead of hiding in His love, I show myself with insanity to Him, I resist to show who I really am, crazy, He is life as and we have the life to remain in Him, what is outside of Him is simply madness
My friend, keep seeking God as you are. It only makes sense to be honest and open with God; after all, He knows you even better than you know yourself. Do not give up. God is real, and He loves you. If you genuinely seek Him, He will reveal Himself to you.
“You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” - Jeremiah 29:13
It's a honor to learn from you, thank you very very much, God bless you!
You are a bright sparking light of God for me and im sure not only me mr.Aaron i appreciate the work of Christ in you
your videos made feel so comfortable to stay and listen with you, i' started watching your videos when i' can't really do nothing anymore but to cry but since I found you as a man of God. the word of God healed me from my panic attacks, anxiety, insomia and overthinking,,, thank you so much for this hoping you'll still doing this kind of thing to help other God bless you
My whole family died in quick succession, & just as I accepted God's will and communed with Him again, I was hit with another great catastrophe. I can't take much more. I really don't know why I'm even here. I'm born again Christian. It's been a fiery trial ever since I became a believer in Christ, knowing who He is.
Colleen, I read your other comment as well. Assuming you were genuinely saved, you are going through a trial with an good purpose. I know you are hurting and suffering, but rest assured the Lord is working through them and has everything under control. What you need to do at this time is totally surrender to God, and stay totally surrendered. When you are out of the picture and surrendered and trusting in God, He will freely live His life in and through you. He will fix you. You mentioned the end times are near and you do not see a purpose for why you are still here. There is a great purpose for you dear sister. I don't know what that is, but Jesus knows. And He wants to finish the good works He has started in you. Do not be idle because you think the end is near, but instead let God live His life in and through you until He calls you home. If you are done with your life, good! Hand it over to Jesus and give Him full control. I know this sounds radical, but it's not. It's the normal life for a Christian. We are vessels to be filled with God alone; to be used by Him according to what His will. Sister, I advise you to watch my other videos on total surrender and rejoicing always, and other videos you think may be helpful. Also, please consider reaching out to a good Christian counselor like Dr. John Woodward at Grace Fellowship International. He was my counselor and he is a wonderful man of God. God bless you.
Aaron Kim thank you for your time and encouraging words! One thing that has helped me a lot is the fact that the scriptures are opening... It's really amazing! Regarding surrender, I know you're right! I've prayed He remove all obstacles within me, and continue to. Thank you again, I've been watching your videos. They make me cry so I can only do a few at a time lol
God continue to bless and keep you! I agree about a Christian counselor, do you know of any in northern Indiana? Much love to you and yours!
Aaron Kim ps I love the statement you made "if you are done with your life, great! Hand it over to God..." I definitely handed it over thru all this, but He hasn't sent me to task yet. I will be so happy when He begins to use me in the full!
Amen! You can count on that. Our job is to patiently and with faith wait on Him. He knows the perfect timing. In the meantime, live a life trusting in Him knowing is grace will always sustain us. As long as we trust in God, we cannot fail.
Amen.
thank you
Thanks for sharing!
Thank you
I needed this, thank you. God bless you
Great stuff.
POWERFULL MESSAGE!!!!
God Bless you Sir
You're awesome, appreciated. Praise the Lord, Amen🙇
All credit to God! God bless you.
I feel the anxiety as torture and the trouble as fire in my core i feel the strength of God not allowing me to lay on the floor and cry like a 3 year old.Its a strange thing
I have horrible anxiety so bad, I vomit a lot and i've lost about 10kg and struggle to eat. I'm unable to work, completely housebound because my anxiety symptoms are so debilitating. Im on 4 different medications to manage the symptoms. Been to doctors, psychiatrists, psychologists and I've tried all kinds of treatments like acupuncture, osteopathy, reflexology, kinesiology but it makes no difference. I was told by a doctor once that I was at risk of having a heart attack because my weight is so low and i almost ended up in hospital. I am suffering and the devil has got me exactly where he wants me to be. Stuck and paralysed with fear. "Be merciful to me Lord, for I am in trouble; my eyes are tired from so much crying; I am completely worn out. I am exhausted by sorrow, and weeping has shortened my life. I am weak from all my troubles; even my bones are wasting away." Psalm 31:9-10
The irony is that all this has made me desperately seek God. I've been reading scriptures from the bible and taking notes. I have also formed a good relationship with my aunt because she is a very spiritual person.
Alex Cooper You have no option but to completely surrender your existence to God. Whatever happens to you, give yourself to God. Make your life a blank check to Jesus. When you do this, your life becomes God’s responsibility. Then He takes over and lives His life in and through you. Do this and you will be healed. I encourage you to watch the video I made on total surrender if you haven’t already. God bless you my friend.
Amen. You are blessed to be able to see the hand of God in this. Keep surrendering and trusting in Jesus. He is obviously sanctifying you!
Read books from Rebeccah Brown, Prepare for War and Becoming a vessel of honour. Many of the things you are doing are demonic (acupuncture, kinesiolgy).
Aaron I want to thank you so much for this site it has helped me immensely in my path along this road, please keep this going for the Body of Christ and those suffering in this way. Yesterday I would have to say was my lowest, deepest day of despair I have ever had feeling so fearful, anxious, hopeless and alone, (but he knows) and today a new day, yet again the Lord in his loving mercy has shown more pieces of this puzzle (Psalm 30:5) Weeping may lodge for the night, but shouts of joy will come in the morning, His perfect love (in me and through me) casts out all fear, once we get a true revelation of that word the Sword of the spirit we have ........VICTORY & standing and standing to be aware.
Amen. Be encouraged, you are doing well in your trial! It looks like you are on your way of receiving much blessings from your trial, and will emerge from it with much to show for it. Keep surrendered and trusting in His Word. Also, thank you for the encouragement. I know in my heart God called me to this ministry, so I definitely will not stop following His lead.
May God bless you and strengthen you. May His wings cover you and provide you His peace. May Jesus be your strong tower so that nothing can shake you. May Jesus be your life from head to heart.
@Azureblu 50 I Just want to say praise God he has shown me his love and faithfulness, I have been lifted up and set free for two months now and I am on the other side of this, the Lord has directed my paths, and continues to guide and and help me everyday. No weapon formed against me has prevailed, Who the Lords sets free is free indeed. Thank you for your prayers. God is so good, where he leads me I shall follow :) :)
Hallelujah Carol!!!!
Hopefully the Lord will use your testimony to help fellow Christian's in their dark night of the soul.
Praise God!
Looking forward to my miracle also😊
I am seeing genuine transformation in the fires of suffering from mental illness. Km so grateful. It's still my mountain unfortunately, but I'm learning obedience and surrender. I'm a changed man.
@@davemoores5945 God Bless you in your journey, remember what we focus on we magnify. I know it is not easy when you are in the fire and the torment seems relentless, Gods word is the only truth, once that gets deep in your heart and you begin to see his faithfulness, he lifts us up and places our feet upon a Rock...Christ himself is our solid rock. Take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ, be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Keep in the word, keep on trusting, your breakthrough and healing is near. Your battle belongs to the Lord, surrender it all to him and you can enter into his rest.
@@cmnotley amen sis wow, I can just tell by that message how the Holy Spirit truly has gotten a hold of you in a big way...
That's the truth...the past 9 months I was warring in the flesh, only recently have I learned that God's word is the only foundation of truth and to put my life on it. Even when I'm just broken, I just cry tears of thankfulness to the Lord, and thank Him for His promises and say " I still trust you!" Even if its just all black I dont look to the darkness I just walk by faith through that darkness. Hes taught me to do so. Please keep me lifted. I thank you for your encouragement, what a blessing to wake up to. God bless you 😊
I am suffering 11 years..
I experience 3 nights of sleeplessness but now i will get sleep the next day no sleep and the next day i get to sleep again somehow i'm grateful that i'm not dependent on any meds. And also in those sleeplessness nights im grateful that i could still do jogging the next day.
Very good. I too was and am grateful to God for not being dependent on meds. If you keep surrendering and trusting in God, you come to better realize whatever sleep God gives you is sufficient because His grace is always sufficient; even allowing you to jog and etc! The less you think about sleep and cast all your anxieties onto God, the more peace you will have. Child-like faith is a blessing. God bless you.
@@aaronkim1074 its hard to be in meds like rivotril because its not advisable to be taken in the long run as it loses its effectivity. I've known lately people with insomnia complaining that they're taking rivotril but they were not able to sleep anymore and a woman says that she got type 2 diabetes because of her meds and she did'nt take those meds again after knowing this it made me more worry although i have'nt talk to a psychiatrist i miss my session twice and last monday i told him that im not comfortable to talk about my insomnia although they message me but i have not replied. I prefer to just go on my routine. All i know as months pass by im not that much afraid of not getting sleep. Keep making videos and inspiring people for those struggling and having a hard time trusting god.
God bless
Aaron Kim
How do we know when something is from God or from the enemy? When do we fight and when do we suffer patiently?
Aaron are you saying that ir could possibly be the plan of God for us to die in our trials
Just a question when you were going through your trial. I find when I am just waking up in the early morning hours the bad thoughts just flood my mind; I’ll never get through this, no one loves you, you are all alone, etc. I really struggle first thing in the morning. Did you have a similar experience? This morning I felt just overwhelmed and almost broke down in tears (my issue is that my daughter is not speaking to me now) but I grabbed my iPad and watched your video instead. Please pray for me, I want to reconcile with my daughter.
I prayed for you Susan. I encourage you to watch a video I made on Taking every thought captive. Spiritual battle happens in our thought life. God bless you.
I will watch that for sure! Thank you Aaron.
Thank you for these videos, they are giving me so much hope in my restlessness and tormented mind, I trust this is not my destiny. Do you by chance take phone calls? Or anything like that
Thank you for the encouragement. I do not take calls or emails, but I encourage you to consider receiving counseling from GFI as I did at 865-429-0450. God bless you.
Aaron are you saying that depression and anxiety could lead to physical death and that would be God's will?
Did you ever have feelings other than sadness during your depression or was it as if everyday was another day to just try to make it through and how did you notice the good feelings were there again
Hi Tom, yes, at my worst I had a lot of different feelings when I was depressed and etc. I was full of fear and felt hopeless. I wasn't thinking of even trying to get through the day because every moment was agony; the days all blurred into just continuous torture. As I started to trust in God, the good feelings started to come in tiny spurts. They only came by reading, listening, and meditating on scripture; there was no other source. Someone could have given me $100 billion, and it would have done nothing for me. Certain truths and promises from the Bible gave me glimmers of hope, but I would go back down, and then back up. My emotions were like how stock prices zig zag across a report. When you look at it from a single day's report, it looks like I got nowhere. However, if I looked at it over a month or more, you could see the zig zag trending upward. After a while, it stayed up and out of the red. Then the good feelings became the norm. Tom, as you trust in God and meditate on His promises, your good feelings will come whether you like it or not, it is just a matter of time. Let me say for you and Org, your time of suffering has great purpose. God is blessing you with character and godliness you would never be able to obtain otherwise. You may think you want to forfeit the blessings of the present sufferings if you can get out of it now, but you will regret that thought once you are out. Bask in the sovereignty of God in the good times AND bad times; because He is using it all for your good and His glory. I know you are hurting brother... but God is near to you and carefully orchestrating every detail in your life. You can trust God. God bless you brother.
@@aaronkim1074 Thank you Aaron I just watched a 2 part sermon i think you will enjoy ua-cam.com/video/ZoMAbc4gAnU/v-deo.html & ua-cam.com/video/_EOUtA-GUg8/v-deo.html
Thanks brother, I’ll check it out.
@@thomast1956 Brother Tom, thanks for sending me these sermons. They were wonderful. When a man of God like Pastor Farrar, who has gone through the valley and seen the goodness of God, gives us these lessons it is powerful and life changing. As he said, we are just dumb sheep, but we don't need to worry since we have Jesus as our Shepherd. Also, I love how God directed him out of the pastoral job and into something much better for him. I'm hoping for God to lead me as well. God bless you brother. Please let me know if you have any prayer requests.
I don't get it! What is the point of him not letting me sleep at night? I am tired and pissed off all day, I don't find a job because of this, and BTW. Single and barren and almost 50. How does this waste of life bring Glory to God?
Aaron, how do you feel about acupuncture treatment for anxiety. I have been dealing with this for three months.
Hi Juan, I'm not certain, but I think acupuncture will do little to nothing for anxiety. Anxiety is produced from your thoughts, so it must be dealt with through your thoughts. The root cause of your anxieties is created from the lies the devil speaks to your mind, and those lies produce fears. If you stop believing the lies by choosing to believe in God's promises instead, you will be healed. If you haven't already, I encourage you to watch this video on overcoming anxiety: ua-cam.com/video/mbuBxLLlMVI/v-deo.html
God bless you my friend.
Aaron Kim Thanks for your reply and good word. This anxiety came about through an illness. The symptoms I have I find very difficult to categorize. Most discouraging are the fast resting heart rate, the tinnitus, and headaches. Are they anxiety produced or symptoms of all the blood pressure meds I’ve been on in the past 5 months? So I’m caught in this cycle, and only sleeping 3 hours a night for 2 months now. I think you can relate. Thank you for your videos. They are encouraging, thank you.
Hey brother, that is some real suffering... but, you will be okay as long as you put it all in God’s hands. I can’t say for certain what the cause of those symptoms are, but if you haven’t already I would see a doctor to see if they could be side effects from the blood pressure meds you mentioned.
If you have already seen doctors and they can’t identify where those symptoms are coming from, your rapid heart beating, headaches, and insomnia very well could be a result of anxiety. (I don’t know much about tinnitus) When I was under anxiety, I had rapid heart beats that were so strong it caused massive chest pains. You may be going through something similar. I believe the answer to your problem is total surrender to God, and to rest in His sovereignty over you. I still encourage you to consult doctors to see if they can help, but my opinion is that the power of surrender to God is what is going to set you free from all these symptoms.
Regarding your 3 hours of sleep a night, you need to hold onto two promises during the night: 1) God’s grace is enough now and will be enough during the day. You don’t need sleep or anything, but only his grace (2 Corinthians 12:9) 2) God is using your lack of sleep for your good (Romans 8:28). You can apply these truths to your other symptoms as well. This requires you to use your faith, and if you are a believer, you have enough faith.
Hey brother, I just remembered I watched a video on curing tinnitus a few weeks ago for some reason. I’m not sure how safe it is, but worth a watch.
ua-cam.com/video/KBgkPOGD6gw/v-deo.html
Thank you. Very insightful. I watched your first video several times and it encourages me. Wonder if I could reach out to you via voice.
Do you still feel the darkness creeping over you time to time? Or are you completely healed and able to function just like you did before you experienced those anxiety, depression, and panic attacks?
I recently began to experience those and afraid if I have to fight these symptoms the rest of my life.
Hi Org, it was a gradual battle for me. Depression seemed to have left at one definite time, but anxiety, panic attacks, and insomnia gradually left as I trusted in God. It was a fierce battle. The battle can be summed as this: As my emotions were spiraling out of control, I took the promises in scripture by faith and overruled my emotions with God's word. Even when my emotions didn't agree, I forced the truth over the lies and my emotions. As I did this, the darkness decreased a little, and then some more, and more, until it was completely gone. I am completely free today. I will say, the fearful thoughts do try and make their way in some time, but I fight them off by a few Bible verses I memorized and there is no fear.
Assuming you are a Christian, I believe you will be completely free as I am as you trust in God. There is no room for permanent anxiety, depression, panic attacks, etc in a body indwelt by the Holy Spirit. How am I so sure? Psalm 34:17-19. Especially look at verse 19: "Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all." Either God is real or He is not. If He is real, which He is, He will deliver you out of all your afflictions. There are no caveats or conditions... He will rescue you in HIs perfect timing my dear Org. Rest in this truth.
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Thank you. You have no idea how much your videos and comments here on UA-cam have helped me.
If you don't mind I would like to ask another question.
Do you think the people who go through trials like this (such as living in agony every second) as born again christians have certain characteristics in common?
Brother, I’m thankful to God you are benefitting. He will see you through.
Regarding your question, one common characteristic I see for Christians going through intense suffering is that they usually offer their lives to God unconditionally at some point before the fiery trial. However, when they initially offer themselves to God, it is from only their mind. Then God answers them through a trial, and then they are able to offer themselves not only from their mind, but from their heart; a totally surrender described in Romans 12:1. This is not always the case, but that seemed to be a theme in a lot of testimonies I read and heard.
Sometimes, I’ve seen not very serious Christians or even non Christians go through intense trials and come out with vibrant faith, peace, and joy. So, God definitely works in mysterious ways!
One thing is certain, these intense trials are a true blessing to His children.
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Brother, thank you so much for spending your time and energy to help us who are in deperate need not of secular teaching but of God's.
@@orghanagie1516 It is my pleasure and honor my dear brother. I am praying and pleading for you and the others. That you may all stay strong in the Lord as He works powerfully and lovingly in you all. That even though you suffer and things do not make sense at the moment, that you learn to trust Him no matter what. I pray that you understand and believe in your heart the sovereignty of God, so that you may have the peace and joy of God. God bless you brother.
Being saved in death is not an issue. Many prayed and fasted for death. Many would rejoice at the cold touch that would get them to Heaven 🙂. After they have already stepped out in faith and, years later, see some spiritual benefit, but nothing but destruction following getting out of the boat and daring to attempt to walk on water at what they were sure was the Lord's calling 🙂.
What scares sometimes is the perspective of decade upon decade of pain, frustration, and worsening conditions, for those that went above and beyond, when others chose the safe route and even ridiculed them. I know some of this select club, and there's nothing, really, to tell then they haven't already heard. They obeyed the Lord, left the consequences to Him and they were monstruous. These people are living sacrifices and love Him dearly. He will ask or the unthinkable again, again and again in some of his best children's lives. Not an easy pill to swallow.
Martyrs are to be admired; however, their lot was sweeter than some of the others'.
I understand you had an impact over others. You were, ultimately, delivered. Some have no choice but to show that living in constant mental and/or physical turmoil is possible. No glorious redemption, other than those in the past, that, instead of allowing death to take its toll, have prolonged other and gave opportunity for other types of suffering to appear in the life of some saints.
Imagine some going year after tear after year throug what you went twice, from what I understand, being delivered out of one such issue, only for two others to pounce on them at the same time.
The depths of suffering and unfairness some saints go through is so deep, that only looking at Christ's agony on the cross as the most unjust one gives them some sort of mental comfort.
Again, I lnow such people and I know many whose crosses would pulverize me. So yes, we do have to continue die towards ourselves, take up our cross daily, respectfully, even if you don't like the wording. You'd feel the need to scream in frustration if I were to tell you of a few such life stories. Imagine, for instane, going through decades of the dark night of the soul - for me it was only six months. Imagine living a Job experience for years, losing even more for stepping out in faith, and being lectured by others that a God of love wouldn't do that - that for them the things went opposite. And these started from the same point as you, and are not babes in Christ.
Appreciate your ministry.
Why are there so many horrifying hellish testimonies, has satan the power to give dreams and visions to cause fear?