Beautiful quote. But a true soldier fights because he has his orders. It does not matter to him if good or bad. Soldiers are broken down in training to be built back up with that exact mentality in mind.
I am very tired, I feel unappreciated by people around me especially my family. I am tired of all of this. (Anyway thanks for this song, I feel calm and can forget everything even though it hurts so much). Have a nice day everyone!
My father has had problems with his health for 6 years. He was always struggling but a few months ago, his conditions got worse and last month, 4th December 2023, he passed away. His said his last words to me a day before he passed and they were 'take care of your mother. And I told him I'll keep the promise and cried on his hospital bed. I didn't know know he passed until I came back from school. When I arrived home, I saw the picture of his parents that my mother took to the hospital, I also saw the box of his medicine. I felt like my heart stopped for a moment there, I expected it but hoped that it wasn't true. But it was. I saw my mother come out of her room, hugging an old picture of him and she told me the news. It really hit me, I couldn't see him anymore and couldn't be a better son. But I couldn't cry. I only cried once beside him and no more after that, not even at the funeral. That felt much worse than crying, I wanted to break down into tears right then and there but it wouldn't let me. I know it looks like I'm just yapping but all of it is true. I can't describe what I felt. I needed to take dare of my mother but I had no motivation. Though, it's getting better(i think). I try to comfort her whenever I can and I feel like it's working. So yeah, basically just take care of your parents while you can before you regret not doing so.
This song is so peaceful Actually My grandpa pass away yesterday and I found this song I hope this song can make him have a peaceful sleep in the afterlife Goodnight. Grandpa ❤ We all love you 23/09❤️
@@A_________DudeAnd I say that beauty is in overcoming it and completing your life as it should be, if not for you, then for the sake of your family, for the sake of everyone who loves you and whom you love, because you truly care for them.
@@A_________Dudei could argue that wisdom and growth comes from pain instead of time, said pain brings sadness with it. Maybe it’s because deep down you know that sadness you feel will turn you into a better you that you find beauty in it, thus the beauty comes from the soul healing and growing not from just the sadness.
Jesus Christ saved me from suicidal thoughts, depression and sadness that i knew my entire life. Staring down a glock and having no motivation for anything. No pills, no psychologists, nothing but the Lord. He delivered me from all my demons bro. He can and will do the same for you. Ask him to help you. Ask him to reveal himself to you. Because he will, and in the Bible it says "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Its all true bro. Find out.
Same thing here, although I didnt get to the point of staring down a glock, but I would have gotten to that point eventually if it wasnt for Jesus, all praise be upon him!
Here is a different story of me cause as much help I was seeking I never felt help from him... but my ex saved me and I'm still praying for at least bring me a person who I loved more than anything ever because she's my hero
@@N0v1lux Didnt help you? Jesus sent your ex to help you, but remember, as much as someone can save you, they can also betray you, the same rule does not apply to Jesus, so no matter what, you should rely on him the most, read the Bible, pray, and be patient, Jesus wont let you suffer for long, he is just preparing you for something greater
@@N0v1lux Ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Read the Bible. Pray pray pray. The main thing that blocks us from a relationship with Him is pride. Humble yourself before Him and He will exalt you.
My grandfather died five months ago in his hunting lodge. Everyone fought over everything he owned and couldn’t agree who should have anything. Just a month ago I was up at the lodge preparing it for winter when I moved the bed he died in. Under the mattress was a note written to me, and my grandfather’s Type 94 pistol that he treasured. That was a rough night for me…
Hey what I do when I’m going through hard times is read the Bible and pray to God. I don’t know if you believe in that. But it helps me find peace to know that Jesus Christ is in control and I can always rely on him.
@@jexuzgr3060نعم يوجد شيء بعد الموت الذهب لي يوم الحساب الدي غافل عنه الناس اد عملت خير تدخل جنة تستطيع الحصول على من احببت في الجنة لتكون معك لي الأبد هل الله غفور رحيم
That’s right no one can say the opposite but sometimes the family is the cause of your suffering being a man in with the same mindset of mine who can’t say anything he feels about it because I think nobody gives a shit about my problems because I’m the person who always solves problems they love me need me so I need to stay strong all the time I don’t trust anybody to tell what I think I tried once the laughed cuz they have that thought that I’m all the time laugh don’t care about shit at all so I hide all my thoughts and kept going in the same direction recently some people noticed that I’m not the same I’m depressed my mind is busy all the time all my life I thought I’m vulnerable to everything but I’m not in the end I’m just a person who everyone depends on literally I’m the person who lost his self to help others there is a lot of people who in worse shape than me people makes my problems small compared to them which makes me a bit happier but my bad decisions get worse and worse ending everything for me isn’t my way to deal with things but in some situations it gets a good end for me
i cant really describes the feeling after hearing this masterpiece. Its like i am not feeling anything or i am feeling everything or sad or may be happy / idk man.
Dont throw around empty statements like that, you dont even know who youre talking about, so how would you know if theyre doing great or are loved? You just come off as being a virtue signaling bot that couldnt be asked to say something actually genuine and supportive despite me knowing that wasnt your intention, but it can be taken that way by people who are in a very dark place, the same people youre targeting with your comment, they most likely already think that nobody loves them, which makes them very paranoid and distrustful of anyone to begin with, and then they see copy paste comments like yours and think that even more so, I would know because i was once in a very dark place like that also. So next time you try cheering people up, either offer to have a real talk with them, say something genuine and actually helpful other than ''you got this :))))'' or just dont say anything at all, sometimes staying quiet does more good than bad
being on a distant battlefield, drawing your last breath. feeling cold rain hit your skin, for the last time. thinking about all the things youve done and decisions you made. hopes and dreams, left at the foot of this world as you pass to the next.
I know that there will come a time when you feel lost and feel that the whole world is narrow and that you are tired of everything and that you are in a place where you do not belong. Don't worry, I have been through all of this and more, and believe me, you will never find happiness as long as you stay away from" allah" This is how we Muslims are. It is just a test from allah to choose us. He does not hate us, but rather wants us to get closer to Him. Believe me, if you were close to Him, you would never feel such a thing as depression or anything again.
Your not alone i know life is shit but think positive your family will miss you if your gone look forward to the good side ask for help and it will come.. i might be a stranger what isn't for so long here anymore but i will watch over you
The somg matches this picture perfectly its so sad to think about how many soilders laid down their lives just so we can have what we have today To all those brave soilders enjoy heaven
"Someday, somewhere, someone will be the last person to think about you. Then you will cease to exist." But truly, i tell you. You will never be forgotten.
To everyone who has pain be stronger the life is so hard ok bro stay focused the God with you he will never let you go down like this not today not month but you will be fine I trust you🌌
This music will be the kind of music I'll listen to while slowly dying. For other people, they think of this music as peaceful.. But i took it differently since she left
Ouvindo esse som enquanto a dor me consome, meus pensamentos me esmagam e a droga circula pelas minhas veias. Estou apenas aguardando para adormecer, sei que isso acontecerá em alguns instantes, espero acordar amanhã e estar me sentindo um pouco melhor.
Essa música, me faz lembrar dela meu primeiro e único amor nunca esquecerei ela, tem 6 anos que não a vejo, não que ela tenha morrido mas essa distância entre nois esta me matando não consigo tira-la de minha cabeça mesmo que nunca namoramos ou ficamos ela e especial demais pra mim, diziam que ela era mediana, feia que so tinha corpo mas pra mim não ela e perfeita em todos os detalhes mais o que eu mais quero e poder estar ao lado dela e escutar a voz dela e poder dizer tudo que sinto e estar ao seu lado Rayane eu te amo Espero que veja isso algum dia Fortal-ce
Ouvindo essa música agora, digo para todos aqueles que sonham mas estão desanimados com seus sonhos, digo para esses que nunca desistam, sejam pacientes e continuem gratos a Deus por tudo que ele fez e por tudo que ainda será feito em suas vidas, Ele está mudando a minha e irá mudar a de vocês...❤
Amen 🙏😭😭 I love you god your the best that ever happened to me if you weren’t here then I wouldn’t be here till this day breathing being healthy and being loved by my peers I love you Jesus I really do ❤
idk why did you make me feel so special and needed and then just gone like nothing happened like you didn’t see how much I attached to you. I really wanted to know you, be with you and see how we grow together. but I was nothing for you. you saw me only as a fun achievement for your ego, like a naive kid who will follow you like a homeless dog. you were right. I was a naive child who wanted to love and be loved. but I’m not a kid anymore. I don’t need you in my life anymore because I have a pride and self worth now. thanks for lessons. I forgive you. and I forgive myself for loving you
When i was 12 years old i got a dream of my in a car crash and 1 month later it happend but berfore dat dream i never where car bucelt i try told my parents but they dont believe me
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“The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front of him, but because he loves what is behind him.”
― G.K. Chesterton
Beautiful quote
That's why tyrants governors uses family as fuel to maintain war. A lonely and free man has no intention in fight a war
Wow
Prajurit sejati bertempur bukan karena dia membenci apa yang ada dihadapannya tapi karena dia mencintai apa yang ada di hadapannya
Beautiful quote. But a true soldier fights because he has his orders. It does not matter to him if good or bad. Soldiers are broken down in training to be built back up with that exact mentality in mind.
"forgive them, not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace." 💕
Bro I’m so tried if everything I want the pain to go away 😢
Keep fighting brother the sun will shine on you again
we dont have other options brother just fight ! We will see us soon in the heaven
go gym brother
Walk with God
keep fighting brother, i promise one morning u will wake up happy, maybe sooner than u expect, maybe tomorrow(i strongly hope that)
good luck
For all, you‘re not alone, the sun will shine for us again.
I've been waiting for awhi🥲
@@princenari1939 sooner or later, i promise.
I am very tired, I feel unappreciated by people around me especially my family. I am tired of all of this. (Anyway thanks for this song, I feel calm and can forget everything even though it hurts so much). Have a nice day everyone!
Have a Nice day brother hope you find a person that he love you and treat you good
Jesus loves you, in a way no other human ever could❤️
Chill man everything turns out good. Eventually
My father has had problems with his health for 6 years. He was always struggling but a few months ago, his conditions got worse and last month, 4th December 2023, he passed away. His said his last words to me a day before he passed and they were 'take care of your mother. And I told him I'll keep the promise and cried on his hospital bed. I didn't know know he passed until I came back from school. When I arrived home, I saw the picture of his parents that my mother took to the hospital, I also saw the box of his medicine. I felt like my heart stopped for a moment there, I expected it but hoped that it wasn't true. But it was. I saw my mother come out of her room, hugging an old picture of him and she told me the news. It really hit me, I couldn't see him anymore and couldn't be a better son. But I couldn't cry. I only cried once beside him and no more after that, not even at the funeral. That felt much worse than crying, I wanted to break down into tears right then and there but it wouldn't let me. I know it looks like I'm just yapping but all of it is true. I can't describe what I felt. I needed to take dare of my mother but I had no motivation. Though, it's getting better(i think). I try to comfort her whenever I can and I feel like it's working. So yeah, basically just take care of your parents while you can before you regret not doing so.
😢
what happened
I hope you'll pass through this phase in your life, may it strengthens you, wish you love and hope ❤
I miss the feeling of being loved by her
And my heart breaks all over again for I'll never experience it again
I don't know but maybe im just still enough for him im just nothing for him im tired i already try my best but im tired
@@ihahihahid1517 tell him how you feel and you can work things out with him. Your enough 😊
Someday things will get better, just keep moving forward
We born
We live
We die
This song is so peaceful
Actually
My grandpa pass away yesterday and I found this song
I hope this song can make him have a peaceful sleep in the afterlife
Goodnight. Grandpa ❤
We all love you
23/09❤️
This is a messenger from somewhere youve never been, your Grandad wants you to know hes at peace and have lived a fulfilling life with you : )
@@sureyeah4146 thank a lot man
Rest in peace, he will be your guardian angel
heavy bro 😢
@@motol7937 thank you
I hope he will watch us from Heaven
Music makes me go to another world and live normally 🥺💔
For every comment here, *THAT IS A F**#CKING** DEAD SOILDER.* NOT A DEPRESSED ONE.
Why is this so...calming? I know the song by heart and it's supposed to be like a quiet type of happiness, but this feels sad yet being at peace?
Some say that there is a beauty in sadness.
@@A_________DudeAnd I say that beauty is in overcoming it and completing your life as it should be, if not for you, then for the sake of your family, for the sake of everyone who loves you and whom you love, because you truly care for them.
@@A_________Dudei could argue that wisdom and growth comes from pain instead of time, said pain brings sadness with it. Maybe it’s because deep down you know that sadness you feel will turn you into a better you that you find beauty in it, thus the beauty comes from the soul healing and growing not from just the sadness.
It makes me happy because it resonates with me
Cheers to the pain we received, when we only wanted to be loved.
Whenever i feel like im not wanted, loved or understood i listen to this to console and cry myself to sleep to forget all my pain.
You matter, never forget that
it will get better have faith
Jesus christ are your love
Mom I'm so tired
For being on the phone
Jesus Christ saved me from suicidal thoughts, depression and sadness that i knew my entire life. Staring down a glock and having no motivation for anything. No pills, no psychologists, nothing but the Lord. He delivered me from all my demons bro. He can and will do the same for you. Ask him to help you. Ask him to reveal himself to you. Because he will, and in the Bible it says "You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." Its all true bro. Find out.
Same thing here, although I didnt get to the point of staring down a glock, but I would have gotten to that point eventually if it wasnt for Jesus, all praise be upon him!
@@Jlezy 🙏🔥💪🙌
Here is a different story of me cause as much help I was seeking I never felt help from him... but my ex saved me and I'm still praying for at least bring me a person who I loved more than anything ever because she's my hero
@@N0v1lux Didnt help you? Jesus sent your ex to help you, but remember, as much as someone can save you, they can also betray you, the same rule does not apply to Jesus, so no matter what, you should rely on him the most, read the Bible, pray, and be patient, Jesus wont let you suffer for long, he is just preparing you for something greater
@@N0v1lux Ask Him to reveal Himself to you. Read the Bible. Pray pray pray. The main thing that blocks us from a relationship with Him is pride. Humble yourself before Him and He will exalt you.
I can’t lose her
thanks boxing, because you save me.
At least we’re all here feeling each other 🫠
What More Could I Lose
This is the hardest silent music i ever heard, it feels like having pain and taking it out of my body and soul
We need more songs like this ❤
My grandfather died five months ago in his hunting lodge. Everyone fought over everything he owned and couldn’t agree who should have anything. Just a month ago I was up at the lodge preparing it for winter when I moved the bed he died in.
Under the mattress was a note written to me, and my grandfather’s Type 94 pistol that he treasured. That was a rough night for me…
Go ahead brother, I know how to lose someone special.
improvements.
I want this banger to be played at my funeral
the song in general or this version?
@@landynb6484 this version
i dont know what i feel anymore
Hey what I do when I’m going through hard times is read the Bible and pray to God. I don’t know if you believe in that. But it helps me find peace to know that Jesus Christ is in control and I can always rely on him.
When I listened to this song, I remembered my friend who died in a traffic accident 3 years ago. I hope you are in heaven.
I surely know that she loves you and is looking down in heaven, she loves what she's looking down at 2 ❤❤❤❤
sorry , but he's just in grave
The patient person is the winner
this is exactly what i searching for for 2 months
"Eu vou te esperar... não importa quando irar volta,eu vou está aqui em tua espera".
ETZIN GAMEIS
Ate hoje...
Hasta el último día de mi vida, y si existe algo después de la muerte mi alma te amara por el resto de la eternidad.....
@@jexuzgr3060نعم يوجد شيء بعد الموت الذهب لي يوم الحساب الدي غافل عنه الناس اد عملت خير تدخل جنة تستطيع الحصول على من احببت في الجنة لتكون معك لي الأبد هل الله غفور رحيم
this kind of song takes me to another universe
life has phases and no matter what ur suffering right now dont ever give up things gonna get better for you
Just remember, our parents making sacrifices just to make our life easy..
Yeah, remember what your parents sacrificed for you and change your degenerate profile picture
That’s right no one can say the opposite but sometimes the family is the cause of your suffering being a man in with the same mindset of mine who can’t say anything he feels about it because I think nobody gives a shit about my problems because I’m the person who always solves problems they love me need me so I need to stay strong all the time I don’t trust anybody to tell what I think I tried once the laughed cuz they have that thought that I’m all the time laugh don’t care about shit at all so I hide all my thoughts and kept going in the same direction recently some people noticed that I’m not the same I’m depressed my mind is busy all the time all my life I thought I’m vulnerable to everything but I’m not in the end I’m just a person who everyone depends on literally I’m the person who lost his self to help others there is a lot of people who in worse shape than me people makes my problems small compared to them which makes me a bit happier but my bad decisions get worse and worse ending everything for me isn’t my way to deal with things but in some situations it gets a good end for me
Rely on Jesus bro, he will never dissapoint you@@sayafsinan3606
it does calm my soul after hard day....
i cant really describes the feeling after hearing this masterpiece. Its like i am not feeling anything or i am feeling everything or sad or may be happy / idk man.
"Face me to west so I can see the setting sun & remember all the good times we had" - A good man.
It hurts a lot 💔
Been looking for it!!!! Ty!! Saw this on Insta
On which video? Can you remember? I saw it in an edit for the movie "This is Where I Leave You", where the guy catches his wife cheating
same, the reel was titled "how long would you wait for them"
nobody drew the stars , i was bleeding all the time .
Tropinha do Brasil 🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷🇧🇷
Perfect song 🎧
the vibe of this song is so.....🌌
thanks finally 😭❤❤❤
I'm sorry to bother with you can you send me the next 😭😔
A soldier fights because he has too, not because he wants to. And unfortunately there is no choice involved.
damn I cried to this
I lost my beloved best friends
Thank you so much.
Hey everyone. I hope you know you're really loved and I know it's hard but you're doing great. You got this:)
Dont throw around empty statements like that, you dont even know who youre talking about, so how would you know if theyre doing great or are loved? You just come off as being a virtue signaling bot that couldnt be asked to say something actually genuine and supportive despite me knowing that wasnt your intention, but it can be taken that way by people who are in a very dark place, the same people youre targeting with your comment, they most likely already think that nobody loves them, which makes them very paranoid and distrustful of anyone to begin with, and then they see copy paste comments like yours and think that even more so, I would know because i was once in a very dark place like that also. So next time you try cheering people up, either offer to have a real talk with them, say something genuine and actually helpful other than ''you got this :))))'' or just dont say anything at all, sometimes staying quiet does more good than bad
@@Jlezybro 😭😭😭
@@Yeo58809 what
u is getting mad over someone being positive🤦
@@Yeo58809 Congratulations, you missed the point 🤦♂️
I've learned to embrace the pain, for its all I've known and its all I will ever know .........
being on a distant battlefield, drawing your last breath. feeling cold rain hit your skin, for the last time. thinking about all the things youve done and decisions you made. hopes and dreams, left at the foot of this world as you pass to the next.
I know that there will come a time when you feel lost and feel that the whole world is narrow and that you are tired of everything and that you are in a place where you do not belong. Don't worry, I have been through all of this and more, and believe me, you will never find happiness as long as you stay away from" allah" This is how we Muslims are. It is just a test from allah to choose us. He does not hate us, but rather wants us to get closer to Him. Believe me, if you were close to Him, you would never feel such a thing as depression or anything again.
Love from🇵🇰 brilliant soothing song
Enjoy the pain, she will made you stronger for ur entier life 😌
an old man always said "believe what hero do,do not believe what hero did"
i don't understand can you explain to me
huh ? i was thing u gonna be understand about it hahaha🤣@@shin9380
Nigga that doesn't make any sense
lets just say it was for u that lost your hope to do IT but NOT believe it
Your not alone i know life is shit but think positive your family will miss you if your gone look forward to the good side ask for help and it will come..
i might be a stranger what isn't for so long here anymore but i will watch over you
We fall. We cry. We lost hope. We lose love. But we never give up...
The somg matches this picture perfectly its so sad to think about how many soilders laid down their lives just so we can have what we have today
To all those brave soilders enjoy heaven
“ eu vou te esperar, até quando meu eu não existir mais nessa vida, quem sabe você me encontra em meio à natureza”
Bro I can’t handle this pain 🥲
*I'm tired. I'm so tired. I js want it all to end. The pain, the stress, the exams, school, everything.*
"Someday, somewhere, someone will be the last person to think about you. Then you will cease to exist."
But truly, i tell you. You will never be forgotten.
Any similar kind of songs with audio like that please.🥰
I did everything for her and it's wasn't enough. So sick of this world.
Its crazy of how, Taylor Swift, the most joyful and happy singer makes the most depressing and calm song of all time, this song takes the cake😢😢😢
How long I'll wait for her :
To everyone who has pain be stronger the life is so hard ok bro stay focused the God with you he will never let you go down like this not today not month but you will be fine I trust you🌌
Thank u brother I really need this message 🙏🏻 God bless you
The kind of music you can listen to a hundred times and still cry
I can’t lie I’m just listening to this song because it’s mesmerising
Thank you for saving my life, Agios Lucifer
The fact that this song makes me want to tear up 🥲🥲
"وعُدتُ مِنَ المعاركِ لستُ أدري
علامَ أضعتُ عمري فـي النِّزالِ!"
This music will be the kind of music I'll listen to while slowly dying. For other people, they think of this music as peaceful.. But i took it differently since she left
This song makes me think twice about my life decisions...
You alright bro? ❤
@@ExcitedBoy678 i Hope i will be in the future... if the future will come for me
real … this song also makes me think of the happier & easier times and to come to the realization of how things will never be the same .
Real ⚘️🖤💔
Please can see photos and photos of the place and that the best 😭
May the Lord light your path and lead you to eternal life.
do a 1 hour one please
Ouvindo esse som enquanto a dor me consome, meus pensamentos me esmagam e a droga circula pelas minhas veias. Estou apenas aguardando para adormecer, sei que isso acontecerá em alguns instantes, espero acordar amanhã e estar me sentindo um pouco melhor.
Essa música, me faz lembrar dela meu primeiro e único amor nunca esquecerei ela, tem 6 anos que não a vejo, não que ela tenha morrido mas essa distância entre nois esta me matando não consigo tira-la de minha cabeça mesmo que nunca namoramos ou ficamos ela e especial demais pra mim, diziam que ela era mediana, feia que so tinha corpo mas pra mim não ela e perfeita em todos os detalhes mais o que eu mais quero e poder estar ao lado dela e escutar a voz dela e poder dizer tudo que sinto e estar ao seu lado Rayane eu te amo
Espero que veja isso algum dia
Fortal-ce
So sad🖤🖤🥲
my life is just i
Why she had to do me like that .. 😔💔
Ouvindo essa música agora, digo para todos aqueles que sonham mas estão desanimados com seus sonhos, digo para esses que nunca desistam, sejam pacientes e continuem gratos a Deus por tudo que ele fez e por tudo que ainda será feito em suas vidas, Ele está mudando a minha e irá mudar a de vocês...❤
Amen 🙏😭😭 I love you god your the best that ever happened to me if you weren’t here then I wouldn’t be here till this day breathing being healthy and being loved by my peers I love you Jesus I really do ❤
It’s…it’s a good day for rain.
idk why did you make me feel so special and needed and then just gone like nothing happened like you didn’t see how much I attached to you. I really wanted to know you, be with you and see how we grow together. but I was nothing for you. you saw me only as a fun achievement for your ego, like a naive kid who will follow you like a homeless dog. you were right. I was a naive child who wanted to love and be loved. but I’m not a kid anymore. I don’t need you in my life anymore because I have a pride and self worth now. thanks for lessons. I forgive you. and I forgive myself for loving you
💎🙂❤️
Do meu corpo apodrecido flores cresceram e assim me tornarei parte da eternidade.
eu choro ouvindo essa...
Qaqalar dərd eləmiyin duzələcəy😉😉😉
war is the worst way the world can end, but you just have to stay resilient.
Essa música me lembra quando eu era feliz
Плакать хочу ... 🥺
When i was 12 years old i got a dream of my in a car crash and 1 month later it happend but berfore dat dream i never where car bucelt i try told my parents but they dont believe me
🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🙂
Me recuerda mi antigua novia
Sad and calming at the same time 🤍🦋
I just want to rest
thuggin it out aint workin no more, i jus want someone real i can talk with
A imagem do soldado que quebrou... 😢
Vdd ficar olhando da uma tristeza
that’s the worse part about growing up , you’ve gotta be okay with not bieng okay.
When I first heard it I thought it was lovely from ellish