This song opens the most depressing moment of my life. One time in the past, I tried to leave this beautiful world in a way that was against my faith. I smiled at the people around me but deep inside I was asking for help. The attempts failed and things got better because of God and of my mom. Now I am a registered nurse helping patients and trying to help those who are risks for suicide. Thank you Alexander for this wonderful song.
I am happy that you didn't succeed. My son has been there and I am the mum who always worries and wishing for him to get better. Some days are brighter than others and finally he got some help by talking to a psychologist 🙏 I really hope you never fall back on the negative side again 🙏😇
@@LellaAnderzon Hello Lella, I think one of the reason why I am still alive is my mom. She was the one who saw everything especially when everything and everyone was against you because you just came from a poor family. And I think support from your loved one especially your parents will really help you out from this darkness. And I already promised to God and to my parents that I will never do it again. I hope and pray that your son will overcome this situation with your help.
Please come to an Orthodox Christian church, God is everywhere but there you can have God just for you! 🥰✝️ Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me a sinner! ✝️
And those who find the courage to open up but are thrown back into the same hole by the people they reach out to. I am so broken once again but this time I do not know how to get out of this hell. 😢😢💔
I covered my scar with a tattoo on my wrist but I remember that night like it was yesterday. This is for all the survivors out there who tried, or is thinking about trying, don't put your loved oned through that pain. No matter much it rains in your head it gets better, no matter what loss youre facing, our purpose is to carry the pain the others can't bear. We got this. You are loved. When you think nobody understands come here and read these comments and see how many of us do. We all do. We all hurt, but most of all we have each other
Depression is REAL. We must always check on loved ones. It's a very dark place mentally. I Pray for everyone going through the inner to be strong and don't give in to suicidal thoughts. It's a phase that shall pass. Peace and Love
Jake, What a beautiful song. You have brought healing to so many people. ❤ In 2021 my son put on his angel wings and went to heaven. It was so hard for me to see my son go through so many struggles with depression and anxiety. Life in incomplete without him. He was so talented, smart and handsome. I miss my baby everyday. He was my life, my joy, my sunshine! Remember you are loved and stay strong! ❤ God Bless
My son got his angel wings in 2019. His 14 year old brother was murdered in 1994. As his mother l feel so guilty that l didn't see that my son never got over this loss. My son wrote, recorded and mixed music and when going thru a box under his bed, l found hundreds of pages of lyrics that he wrote and this is how l found out that he was still in so much pain even thouugh many years had passed. He wanted to be with his brother. I pray that he finally found peace. If l had only known, this will haunt me until l die. I love and miss you David and I'm sorry l didn't see. I can't wait to have you and Brett back in my arms.
Depression and the struggles with suicidal thoughts are some of the most daunting. I survived my attempt years ago, and lately it’s been tough to find a way out of the rut my mind has put myself in. Thank you for such a beautiful song.
The world is so much better because you're still in it. You're incredible for surviving it, and sending you all the love from a stranger who knows how it feels to have to fight so hard just to survive. Keep fighting. You deserve it. Everyone here deserves it. ❤
🫂🫂 As you're listening to this and trying to push through, think back what makes you feel so happy. Movie? Nature? Traveling? Gardening? So not overwhelming by whatever you're feeling. The world is beautiful with each petal of flower that fall and bloom again cause as your petal fall and new leaves regrow again, you'll feel like it was crushing you but let it crush you cause this crush is not the old one, it is the thought that is not you anymore. A new you, a new petal has regrown, taking the crush away now. Flush it! Please know everything will pass even when you think otherwise
This song hits me really hard. I lost my baby boy on 6/17/23 to suicide. Exactly one week after his 24th birthday. He struggled with anxiety and depression for so many years and my heart is in a million pieces. He was my life and I adored him. We had such a special bond but even my love couldn't save him. I tried so hard to fix him and I failed. I just need to know that he is ok. I was raised catholic but as a mother, I still worry about him even though I do believe in Heaven. Praying for everyone struggling with mental health. Don't give up!
@@toumazosdemetriou7632 thank you. I pray that mental health gets more awareness and is more affordable and readily available to everyone struggling. So many people need help. 🙏🏼
I am 22. Your comment spoke to me; I can’t imagine how my mom would feel 😢you are so strong. Your boy loves you hunny you did enough for him. He loves you. And God wanted me to tell you that your baby is safe in heaven 💕until you two meet again (or whatever you may believe in) I wish you peace.
@@nicolexomarie999 thank you so much for responding. Please take care of yourself. If anything happened to you, your mother would be devastated. It’s the worst pain and unexplainable when you lose your child. They are forever a part of you and it’s an unconditional love like no other. I believe he’s in heaven and I can’t wait to see him again. I know life can be so hard. My son struggled with social anxiety and depression for 12 years. We tried so many different meds and therapists. I know he hung on as long as he could just for me. We were so close. When he decided to leave he wrote me a note apologizing for hurting me. I try to find comfort in knowing he isn’t in pain anymore but I just miss my baby so much. I have a daughter with the same name as you. Nicole Marie. Love and prayers to you. Please don’t give up! Reach out anytime if I can help or offer encouragement, I certainly would. 💕
It is relatable- me not wanting my Mother to worry and, now I'm a Mother & I worry about my son. You have beautiful & exceptional voice! You are a gift to the world, please remain strong & keep singing! The world is a better place with you in it, and you songs!💗🤗
I relate to this so much ever since my dad died I have stayed strong for my mom but I just can’t do it this anymore the pain is just to much. I want my dad back. I am tired of hiding my feelings.
@@roanreinecke9380 your dad's love is with you always. His soul didn't die, just the body he lived in. Love lives forever. He's holding you up, cheering you on. God knows you need your dad, so your dad is close in heart. Comfort your mom. Share his memory. Live as much as you can, knowing the wall between you & your dad is thin. ❤️🩹 Keep going.
Thank you so much for the song. At least now I know I'm not the only one feeling the same feelings. Every time someone likes my comment I live longer now.
I lost my mum in August, and I have not been able to cry. Thank you, Alexander, for giving me a door to open into that part of my heart that needs to heal.
Battling depression with a smile on my face and constant tears in my eyes... I don't know how to tell my mom but this song has made me know that I'm not alone so thank you 💕
Please, please, please talk to your mom. As close as me and my daughter are, she didn't tell me how much pain she was in. Following an ambulance to the hospital, not knowing what was going to happen was the worst day of my life! Thankfully, she survived and is strong today ...but if I only knew...I would've done anything to ease her pain.
This isn't a depressing song, It's a song how people are made feeling alone in the world, Most likely with narcissists, abuser's, predator, Of the past & possible present, The only thing that really closes the door on that is Praying to God, find Jesus, It's not about staying stuck in silence.
I don't know if you'll ever read this but your song saved my life tonight. I really wanted to leave this world but I remembered your song and played it on a constant loop until the feeling passed. Thank you ❤
I am so glad that you chose life! You were created with a purpose and a plan! God does not make mistakes. You are loved and wanted. He loves you so much, that He sent His son Jesus to earth from heaven to die for you, so that you ( and everyone else) won’t have to pay the eternal punishment for your sins. You now can choose the gift of eternal life in heaven with Him!! If you were the only on on earth, Jesus would have come just for your salvation.
I felt exactly like this a year ago but then I entrusted myself to Jesus and He saved me. He gave me life, hope and love back. As the lyrics say "God take me away from this hell", He really did ❤
God is and will always be. I to believe in God. He found me when I was at my worst. I was mean as a snake my job was collecting money and when they didn't pay up I made sure they wouldn't forget about the money they owed. God stepped in on my last job and opened my eyes to the damage I left behind. Before I realized what I had done I managed to send several men to the hospital. They had borrowed money from my boss and weren't planning on paying it back. So I did what I was paid to do. Later that night I came home to my empty pad and did my usual. Until I turned the TV on. It was a preacher who got my full attention. I got saved that night and I've been saved now for a year. God has given me peace now. Stay strong for God and he will keep you protected and at peace ..
@@_ruth__ so glad this is behind you. I pray that you keep trusting in Jesus and he gives you the strength to keep going and continue to live a beautiful life. ❤️
I know that releasing a song like this can feel like exposing a piece of your heart to a crowd of people, so thank you for sharing this with us & know that you’ve made the biggest impact by pressing that upload button 🤍
I'm in tears because this is how I feel every single day since I was just a kid. Now I have children of my own and I don't want them to see my deepest heart. You have opened such a flood of pent up pain in such a beautiful way. Thank you.
I have no words to describe how many emotions your music makes me feel. Every lyric has a deep meaning and I’m so grateful for discovering your music. Thank you for everything
I know this song is already a a hit because you've already helped so many people who are really sad and hurt from others in their life. Alexander you have THE MOST Beautiful SOUL AND SPIRI T AND EYES AND yourr ability to portray EMOTIONS that are SO Super INTENSE is BEYOND genius and talent I don't know what it is except Magic ❤❤ and from ANOTHER WORLD !!!!!!! We all wish you the best success with your career you are really honest and down-to-earth and you write the MOST Exquisite and gorgeous songs in the universe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
bro this should hit all the men out there because we are taught that we hold our feelings in and just bottle it up and this song helps me at least release what i feel so thank you
The song is not even out yet and I'm already blowing my eyes out 🥺🥺🥺😫😭😭😭😭 This is how I'll end 2023, with this song on repeat. Definitely going to be the only song I listen to for the rest of the year.
I'm from Germany, 28 years old, Male.. My life has been filled with violence and darkness. I lost both my grandfathers within 8 months, my best friends.... One of them I saw as my father since he raised me. He made me feel safe when my mother only ruined me. Then I found the love of my life and before I know the war in ukraine started, I volenteered and went to the front lines... now im back, love of my life is gone... but the trauma from the war is with me for the rest of my life... I've crossed over into the darkness for good. and this song allows me to to feel again. it hurts a lot, but I deserve to feel it Thank you Alexander
My life has had violence and darkness too; but you don't have to stay there. My mom committed suicide when I was 16 and two of my three sisters were murdered a few years later. I cried out to Jesus and asked him to help me through both those tragedies. It is still tough walking through pain, but you don't have to walk alone. Jesus is the only one who can heal all that brokenness inside, but you have to ask him for help. Jesus is real, he loves you and he has a plan for your life. He will use what you have been through to help others if you will surrender to him.
Hands down, one of the most heartfelt tracks out there. If THIS doesn't hit you right in the feels, then you must be a rock. Sincerely, I just want to give hugs to everyone, who needs them. ♥
@@randallbelaire7708 I can only send you a virtual hug. ♥ I hope you can kick your mind's ass and tell it to stop messing with you like that. MUCH MUCH LOVE TO YOU!!!!
Me and my brother haven't spoken in a few years. Out of nowhere I got a call today. It was my brother, this 6ft10 350 pound Federal Agent of 20 years was crying so hard I could feel it through the phone. He lost his son today in a tragic motorcycle accident. I didn't know what to say so I just started crying with him. I'm 51 years old I've road in a biker gang for so long I can't remember when the last time I cried about anything. But I finally broke. We didn't say but a few words to each other. But it was enough to know that we were and always will be brothers. I sent your song to his phone and told him how it's already helped me realize how precious life truly is. I hope it helps him through some of his pain like it has me. Thank you for this one of a kind masterpiece. Big fan Blackwater.
Another real good one is by Cooper Alan, Never not remember you. So very sorry to hear of the loss of your nephew. I lost my son 3 yrs ago this April. The pain never goes away, it's not something any parent should have to go through
I've been through a lot in life, and this song really hits home. Even though I'm alone. I know that the lord is with me. And I know Even though I have no one in my life I know that the lord will always be there for me
Young man, you have a gift from God. Not just your amazing voice, but your music reaches inside people and touches their soul. This song...OMG. My grandson shared this video on his FB page. I think it's time he and I talk. God bless you.
This song has helped me to understand how much I've grown in my spiritual journey since I tried to take my own life since 14 yrs old. I'm 32 now and a being of light. A mom of 2 & a wife. I thank you so much for writing this ❤💯✨☄️🙏
I relate with this song so much! This is literally how I've been feeling for the past seven years and i could never put it to towards. I am very proud of you and I can tell how much this song means to you, I hope you are ok and if you're ever feeling that way again please don't hold it in talk to someone because i know how much that can destroy us if you keep everything to yourself!! Love you so much and keep being yourself...
the part "take me out of this hell" LITERALLY BROKE MY HEART! thank you for telling about it to us, you are not alone. by the way all your songs was amazing, im left with no words
[Verse 1] I've been tryin' so hard to survive Sometimes I think that I wanna die I feel so fucking guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to live my life So I keep all the pain to myself Losin' faith but nobody can tell Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me So I pretend I'm fine [Chorus] If you only knew What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh If you only knew All the shit my brain is puttin' me through You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you, oh If you only knew [Verse 2] I wish I was somebody else I'm constantly overwhelmed Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends It's a silent cry for help I wanna get better, I want you to know That I can't do this on my own [Chorus] If you only knew What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh If you only knew All the shit my brain is puttin' me through You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you, oh [Bridge] Take me out of this hell Oh, somebody help Take me out of this hell Oh, I'm not myself [Outro] I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry but I want to Oh, if you only knew
I've been tryin' so hard to survive sometimes I think that I wanna die I feel so fucking guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky To live my life So I keep all the pain to myself Losin' faith but nobody can tell Mom, i don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me So I pretend I'm fine [Chorus] If you only knew What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight I'm too sad to cry , it's true, oh If you only knew All the shit my brain is puttin' me through You'd come runnin' over straight to my room Here tonight I'm sorry but I need you, oh If you only knew [ Verse 2] I wish I was somebody else I'm constantly overwhelmed Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some Friends It's a silent cry for help I wanna get better, i want you to know That I can't do this on my own [Chorus] If you only knew What my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here Tonight I'm too sad to Cry, it's true,oh If you only knew All the shit my brain is puttin' me through You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight I'm sorry but I need you , oh [Bridge] Take me out of this hell Oh, somebody help Take me out of this hell Oh, I'm not myself [Outro] I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here Tonight I'm too sad to Cry but I want to Oh, If you only knew
It's been a year since my mother left me. he came in my dream to apologize even though I was the one who made many mistakes in his life. then I met this song, the tears that I had been holding back came out. No one around me knows that I am still devastated by my mother's death. thank you alexander, your song knows my feelings. Yes, only your song knows how I feel on this earth
So many people feel this way but can't put it into words. Crying listening to this. We had a horrible loss in April as our only daughter passed at 28 weeks after one week of life. These words hit so close. Thank you for being volunerable and releasing this. So many people can relate ❤
@@pamella7374 lets analyse the nonsense /lies many amongst you believe in: lie: schools are of use (fact. schools keep slavery alive) lie: moon and mars landings, (fact: even masons know they cannot leave) lie: news channels share truth (fact: these are for politic propaganda) lie: money has a value of its own (fact: it is just a tool of this world, which value has been agreed upon world wide) lie: NASA lies (globe and all....) (fact: NASA stands for to deceive) - you havn´t searched - have you? lie: the lgbtq++++ propaganda (fact: it is a part of masonry depopulation agenda, 500 000 000 souls, thats their goal.) lie: Evolution and the dinosaurs. (fact: mankind is not hybrid kind) to keep stating that there was an evolution, then we ain´t humans, we aint then mankind, we are then hybrids. Lie: holidays (xmas, halloween, new year eve and so on) (fact: PAGAN HOLIDAYS, to praise BAAL, the god of this world) lie: U.F.Os (fact: they are demons/evil spirits in high places, against whom we fight daily = spiritual warfare) lie: rules and laws rule the world (fact: signs and symbols of masonry do) 10 lies, should i go on?
Big artists releasing music like this is SO important. Thank you so much for opening up and making yourself vulnerable for us. So much emotion in this song, I'm in tears
This. This is what I have felt for just over 2 years since my mama passed away from cancer. Numb, enraged, grief stricken, empty. It's a dangerous cocktail of emotional hell....... I didn't know I needed this 😭😭😭😭 an absolutely epic masterpiece sir, my hats off to you 🥀
Words can’t describe how happy and excited I am I need this song sm rn 55 minutes left Then it’s music to my ears I can’t wait to sing along to this 😭☺️💕
Terima kasih telah menciptakan lagu ini, sungguh suaramu luar biasa dan lagunya juga sangat indah. Aku menangis saat mendengar lagumu. Aku baru tahu lagu ini dan tentang mu dan mulai saat ini aku memutuskan kamu salah satu penyanyi favorite yang aku sukai. Aku akan selalu mendukungmu Alexander. Tetaplah berkarya❤
I just love you so much it hits home you're so young I'm 54 and I just love your voice and love your song it makes good sense keep up the good work love from Michigan❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
I've been listening to this song so much now... as well as trying to think of the perfect thing to say in response to these lyrics. I'm so sorry about this. What a brave thing to do to put these feelings in a song for the world to hear. How amazingly beautiful. No, don't wish you were someone else, Alexander Stewart. You're everything that you need to be. Your story is needed. You are precious even in your toughest moments. Luckily enough we get to hear your songs, but there are other beautiful parts about you that maybe we don't know about, that maybe you don't know about. Please don't give up on yourself. Perhaps as a fan I only know a part of you, but you inspire me. You are someone I look up to. And the bad moments and bad days delete nothing from all the positive things you hold in your heart and all the positive you have left to discover. I wish you only the best. If you only knew... the great memories that await, the difference you make, what you have yet to achieve, the awesome days that await. Everything is temporary, be patient with yourself, and use the bad moments to reflect and work towards an even better version of yourself. Don't escape. You've come so far. Proud of you always, not only when you're thriving but also when you're only surviving. I don't think that what I said is close to perfect, but I do want you to know that your life and your character are worth fighting for, that your dreams are worth working for, and that every day is worth surviving for. Keep going. Perhaps negative feelings come with guilt, yes, but it's okay - sometimes the best thing we can do is be kind and patient with ourselves. Ask for help if you need it. You don't need to go through anything alone. I see so much greatness in you, and I only hope that when you feel the opposite, you remember that there are people who don't need to know exactly what you're going through in order to believe that you will make it. You will get better. You will get out of this hell. Sending you lots of encouragement. Take it easy, take it slowly if you need to, and take care of yourself.
This is such a beautiful song. This used to be my wife’s favorite song. We played this at her funeral as her last request before she passed away. Every time I listen to this, it gets too emotional.
Alexander perfectly explains what so many people are going through in our world today. He is incredibly talented in expressing his feelings through his songs. Thank you alexander!
I've been fighting against depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 8, this song describes exactly the feelings I've had for the last 27 years, combined with depression I've also been fighting against GAD since I was like 3, most of these years I've been fighting alone, now I've been on treatment for 3 years after almost losing the fight while having a panic attack.
I can relate to you it's never easy I hope you find your salvation like I did ❤❤❤ just suggesting to you I hope you go on a spiritual journey learn about different religions and just see you will find the true path 😊 may Allah guide to the right path ❤❤
Hand in there im in the same boat i know the pain had this since i was 9 and 45 now so plase hang in there you are loved i know its hard but you MUST make
For everyone that is going through a hard and having thoughts of hurting yourself your not alone you have people who love you you are strong you got this
I literally starting balling when i heard this. Took right to my heart. It's amazing how we keep our deep thoughts, secrets. Thank you for this song! I need this for the bad days....
there are simply no words to express how amazing this dong is… depression and the loneliness thats comes with it are pure struggles. you creating this song and making people feel less alone is amazing. just thank you. thank you for making ME feel like i’m not the only one. this is a beautiful song. and for anyone one else feeling this way as well just know that you arnt alone either and you will get past this hell make it through. Thank you Alexander!!!
This song is truly beautiful💜 It brought me to tears in seconds😭 I hope everyone here has a wonderful day(or night) and know they’re worth being loved and deserve happiness
Thank you for writing this song so beautifully brutally honest...The first time I listened to your song, it made me cry.... it felt like you opened my diary and read all its pages... all my thoughts and feelings put into music.... and all the pain and confusion and darkness laid bare ... I have suffered from PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, Manic Depression and last but not least, post-partum depression... for almost my entire teen and adult life... healing is a life-long journey. At least that has been my experience. Thank you for giving a beautiful voice to some of my most darkest....my most vulnerable moments..
I loved the song. This will be on repeat 24/7 because I relate so much and this made me cry. I really needed a song like this to describe how I’ve been feeling everyday.
Why do these songs hit so hard? I have been in this mood lately that i can not do anything right. When i get in that zone i come back to listen to this song and others. Hope everyone is well in the world.
Alexander Stewart I love your music your a inspiration to me you inspire me to be just like you and to create music one day like you thanks your music helps me alot!
This song just described everything ive been going through and I literally can't stop crying when i listen to it. I am going to see you this Tuesday. Thank you for all that you do!
I have watched this video many times as this is where I am in the mindset. It's tough to be in the place and I keep going, but I can honestly say I wish life were different.
This song really hit me deep. I felt every word. There was a time when life got too hard, and I felt like giving up. I was all by myself, feeling weak and my mom was far away. No one knew what I was going through; I kept it all inside and put on a happy face. But the one who saved me was my daughter, then I decided to stay strong for her and her sister. Instead of me helping them, they ended up helping me. I hope everyone talks about what they're going through, especially with their moms. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Thanks for this awesome song.❤
This song is currently helping me get through a tough time in my life. I've always had anxiety, but recently its gotten to the point where I am in physical pain 24/7 and am not eating enough for my growing body. On top of all of that, I started a deppresive episode, probably the worst one I've had so far. I stay up late and just sob, and I'm barely surviving. I've obviously worked with my mom to get me to a good therapist, but I haven't told her everything about how I feel, because just like Alexander said, I don't want her worried because that would just hurt me. I had to start Zoloft, which was the one thing I didn't want to do. Listening to this song and hearing that other people feel the same as me has really helped me.
As an Army Veteran with 15months in Iraq between oif V and oif VII/New Dawn and who struggles with PTSD every day, this hit me like a train man! Keep it going! 😟😢
This song hits me so hard. My life collapsed in a way that I never thought was possible. Constantly fighting myself without saying a word. I don’t want to be a burden and make anyone’s life harder I just wish there was someone who’s been through what I have just to have someone to talk to. It’s been almost six months since I last saw my dad and it gets hard. Constantly fighting thoughts of suicide is harder than some people think. I just wish my life wasn’t a living hell.
I lost my baby at birth, then lost both grandparents, I’m drowning just like you, stuck and my heart will be broken forever, my babies I have now keep me going or I wouldn’t be here now 💔💔
You sent chills through my body and tears to my eyes with this song. You’ve said, in this song, what I feel in my heart. The world is so heavy, and my mind is so loud. Thank you for this song.
To all you women out there. I hope you all get through the fire. Please don't cover it so well. You can look like youve been through. Please let your scars shine through. Your hair doesn't need to be in place. You are all beautiful just the way you are. You don't need to hide the hell yiuve been through. You came out like the most loveliest diamond and always have done. Your smile has always out shon the stars moon and universe. Your eyes can always tell the truth but that's ok. Please to all you amazing ladies. I respect you, i cherish every women on this earth. We should all be equal in this planet. Love to you all.
I can empathize with you. Not belonging is so common for many of us, which even sounds a bit weird to say. I hope that you find the support and love that you need from others. I hope you know that you are amazing and important. You are here for a reason and I hope you find that reason. Take care of yourself and help others. Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I’m so excited you don’t know how many times I have watched the short on repeat I already know some parts to this song Love you so much Alexander you don’t know how much I am happy for you I will always support no matter what.❤
This song expresses how I feel 24/7 I have attempted so many times but failed due to the thought of my family. Honestly if I didn’t have them I wouldn’t be here right now. I never knew how to express my thoughts to my mom then I heard this song and sent it to her and said “mom this is exactly how u feel.” Thank you so much Alexander for letting us know we’re not alone. We have people who really care. We just have to open up. ❤️❤️❤️
I'm so glad you're still here 🩵 I know it feels so impossible to ever feel differently and not spend every second not wanting to be here but it is possible unfortunately I didn't feel differently untill my little brother lost his life to it and I don't know how to deal with that fact but for the first time in over 16 years I'm glad I'm still here even on the most painful days keep reaching out and talking about it there's always support out there ❤
Every single time I hear this song I cry and I have it on repeat. This song say the words for me when I can't or don't know how. Thank you Alexander I hope you know I look up to you I really do.
I believe that some of the most beautiful art and music are inspired by people who understand brokenness. I hope that this song reaches a lot of lives. Let it be healing for the soul.
This hit me. I'm so thankful to be alive every day and have what health I have when I should have died at the age of 31. Life is worth being here for you. Stay strong and stay safe all.❤
This song hits you so hard. Although i relate to it in retrospection cuz I've been lost in past and didn't know what to do or how to share with people close to me. It was like i was screaming deep inside but didn't know how to in front of people. Still makes me cry thinking about how i survived out of it all. I'm so thankful to God to have this life the Alexander says in the beginning.
I've had times all throughout my teenage and adult years where I've been on the brink of ending it all. It takes a lot to not just get it over with, but it takes even more to remind yourself that you are enough and the world won't be better off without you. The thoughts may never go away, but they don't have to consume you either. You're enough. You're loved. Even when it feels like you're all alone.
Pls if this is you pls tell whats going on and who you are because i dont know how much more i can take its eating me up inside i know i have a conection with someone and just being made so confusing for me all i ever do is cry because i know this is my twinflame but making me think its this person or that person is just making doubt everything so pls if this is u u need to start being honest with me because if you dont come forward and be honest its just not going to happen instead of it making me happy its making me the total opposite if you want to be with me you have to be honest and come forward because i cant keep doing this like this its hurting me inside so pls i know you will see this you need to be honest for both our sakes ❤❤❤❤
I have a note tucked away that I once let my therapist read. He did so slowly and then folded it back neatly, handed to me and sat forward in his chair. He proceeded to tell me that he had read others just like that. My letter had every element. But told he had hope because I was the first still alive. My life has had its ups and downs, but I am so grateful I didn't get my wish. So many times I couldn't see anything but my pain. Now many years later all I see and hear is the laughter of my grandchildren.
When I hear this song I know that I’m alone… But also know that God is watching me and he doesn’t like what he sees! If you are struggling with some bad stuff, just remember: I love you and I’m here with you, no matter what are you going through you are not alone!❤
All I want to do after hearing this is hug you. Half because I need it, half because you do. There has never been another song that put how I feel into perfect words, and since I can't cry, I can just play and sing this song on repeat. Thank you. It's been so hard for me to explain how I feel, but not I can just send people this song. It's genuinely beautiful and you have helped so many people through your music. ❤
I totally admire Alexander Stewart. His talent and passion for music are truly inspiring. I love how he puts his heart and soul into every performance, making each song come alive. His voice is just incredible, and he always manages to captivate his audience. It's no wonder he has such a dedicated fan base.❤
To those out there who think that no one cares... I can tell you the horror on my brothers face when he found me nearly gone in a pile of my blood. The scream still haunts me to this day and I know I will never be able to make up for the trauma I put him through because I was convinced no one cared. Please...speak out. I will leave you some words from one of my favorite poems, it saved my life and hopefully can help someone else out too. "Every nightmare has a beginning, but every bad day has an end. Ignore what others have called you. I am calling you friend. Make us comprehend the urgency of your crisis. Silence left to its own devices, breed’s silence. So speak and be heard. One word after the next, express yourself and put your life into context - if you find that no one is listening, be loud. Make noise. Stand in poise and be open. Hope in these situations is not enough and you will need someone to lean on. In the unlikely event that you have no one, look again. Everyone is blessed with the ability to listen. The deaf will hear you with their eyes. The blind will see you with their hands. Let your heart fill their newsstands, let them read all about it. Admit to the bad days, the impossible nights. Listen to the insights of those who have been there, but have come back. They’ll tell you; you can stack misery, you can pack despair, you can even wear your sorrow - but come tomorrow you must change your clothes." since my last attempt I learned...it always gets better. Hold on to those moments. They will be your armor when the feeling strikes again. Know that emotion and logic do not mix and just because you think no one cares...I do, and I don't even know who I am writing to. Be strong, stay sane, help will find you.
This song reminded me of the worst part of my life. When I was depressed to the point I was contemplating suicide. Thank you for expressing how so many people feel with your amazing gift of music.
Beautiful song. Very much resonates with me & the thoughts I've had in the past, as well as some I still battle with. It really hit me at the bridge when you were belting out "...take me out of this hell...". I can hear the real, deep emotion especially in that part. You are very talented. So many people from different walks of life can relate to this song & no matter how great someone's life may seem, we have no idea what burden they carry in their heart & mind. Keep yourself surrounded by good people who genuinely care about you, whats best for you & will remind you of all the great qualities that make you special. The more you talk about what you are going through, its going to get easier & the pain loses its power over you. God bless you & all that are touched by this song as I am. Much love to all❤❤❤
Alexander Stewart is truly an angel! His angelic voice always makes me cry, he is so special and deserves all the love in this whole world. (Him releasing his new EP on my BIRTHDAY means everything to me) WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALEXANDER!! 😍😭❤
😭I burst into tears... This describes word for word how I have felt since childhood, the black sheep, the stranger among these pairs, I let myself be carried away by your voice you take my soul by the hand to heal every little crack, A huge thank you for your transparency. *Please come to Canada/Quebec I want and need to scream this song with you, I swear to be in the front row!💜🙏
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This song opens the most depressing moment of my life. One time in the past, I tried to leave this beautiful world in a way that was against my faith. I smiled at the people around me but deep inside I was asking for help. The attempts failed and things got better because of God and of my mom. Now I am a registered nurse helping patients and trying to help those who are risks for suicide. Thank you Alexander for this wonderful song.
I am happy that you didn't succeed. My son has been there and I am the mum who always worries and wishing for him to get better. Some days are brighter than others and finally he got some help by talking to a psychologist 🙏
I really hope you never fall back on the negative side again 🙏😇
@@LellaAnderzon Hello Lella, I think one of the reason why I am still alive is my mom. She was the one who saw everything especially when everything and everyone was against you because you just came from a poor family. And I think support from your loved one especially your parents will really help you out from this darkness. And I already promised to God and to my parents that I will never do it again. I hope and pray that your son will overcome this situation with your help.
I'm so glad you are still here
You have such a beautiful and inspiring story ❤
Please come to an Orthodox Christian church, God is everywhere but there you can have God just for you! 🥰✝️ Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on me a sinner! ✝️
This song explains so much about what many of us are going through but don't open up about. Thanks for making us not feel alone!
@Yudidrajwords hold power
Hello Cathy, how are you doing?
And those who find the courage to open up but are thrown back into the same hole by the people they reach out to. I am so broken once again but this time I do not know how to get out of this hell. 😢😢💔
🙏
Sad but true .. I felt identified by it
I covered my scar with a tattoo on my wrist but I remember that night like it was yesterday. This is for all the survivors out there who tried, or is thinking about trying, don't put your loved oned through that pain. No matter much it rains in your head it gets better, no matter what loss youre facing, our purpose is to carry the pain the others can't bear. We got this. You are loved. When you think nobody understands come here and read these comments and see how many of us do. We all do. We all hurt, but most of all we have each other
Cheers buddy we made it🤝
@@MR.Nobody257 We def did bro. Here is to more!!!
I'm sorry, i'm so sorry, I did it again, I feel so guilty and stupid and empty but mostly hurts and tired
Thank you ❤
@@Lou-gskI feel so so tired too ❤
Leaving this here so everything someone likes it I can be reminded to listen to it. Needed to hear this more than you know
I listen to the song about 20 times in a row already cuz I'm going through a lot right now
@@thedaddytwon same 😭
Ik his gf
And his gf looks so beautiful
@@Selestemarie-o7tWho
Depression is REAL.
We must always check on loved ones.
It's a very dark place mentally.
I Pray for everyone going through the inner to be strong and don't give in to suicidal thoughts. It's a phase that shall pass.
Peace and Love
thank you 😔
Please reach out for help
Jake, What a beautiful song. You have brought healing to so many people. ❤ In 2021 my son put on his angel wings and went to heaven. It was so hard for me to see my son go through so many struggles with depression and anxiety. Life in incomplete without him. He was so talented, smart and handsome.
I miss my baby everyday. He was my life, my joy, my sunshine! Remember you are loved and stay strong! ❤ God Bless
❤ he's waiting in heaven for you 💞
I can not even imaging that kind of pain. A heart can only be broken if it has been touched.
My son got his angel wings in 2019. His 14 year old brother was murdered in 1994. As his mother l feel so guilty that l didn't see that my son never got over this loss. My son wrote, recorded and mixed music and when going thru a box under his bed, l found hundreds of pages of lyrics that he wrote and this is how l found out that he was still in so much pain even thouugh many years had passed. He wanted to be with his brother. I pray that he finally found peace. If l had only known, this will haunt me until l die. I love and miss you David and I'm sorry l didn't see. I can't wait to have you and Brett back in my arms.
I’m so sorry for your loss Gentle hugs
I have no words, this is simply... thank you Alexander for opening with us and once again showing none of us are alone❤😭
True none of as are alone everyone have nothing or someone
yes, everyone need to someone
Amen!!
Depression and the struggles with suicidal thoughts are some of the most daunting. I survived my attempt years ago, and lately it’s been tough to find a way out of the rut my mind has put myself in. Thank you for such a beautiful song.
You’re stronger than you think. I know how it feels but I promise you got this 🫶🏽
Im so sorry. Push through.
The world is so much better because you're still in it. You're incredible for surviving it, and sending you all the love from a stranger who knows how it feels to have to fight so hard just to survive.
Keep fighting. You deserve it.
Everyone here deserves it. ❤
🫂🫂 As you're listening to this and trying to push through, think back what makes you feel so happy. Movie? Nature? Traveling? Gardening? So not overwhelming by whatever you're feeling. The world is beautiful with each petal of flower that fall and bloom again cause as your petal fall and new leaves regrow again, you'll feel like it was crushing you but let it crush you cause this crush is not the old one, it is the thought that is not you anymore. A new you, a new petal has regrown, taking the crush away now. Flush it! Please know everything will pass even when you think otherwise
I went through the same, you are a strong woman, stay strong, and continue, like Alex says , we are lucky to be here
This song hits me really hard. I lost my baby boy on 6/17/23 to suicide. Exactly one week after his 24th birthday. He struggled with anxiety and depression for so many years and my heart is in a million pieces. He was my life and I adored him. We had such a special bond but even my love couldn't save him. I tried so hard to fix him and I failed. I just need to know that he is ok. I was raised catholic but as a mother, I still worry about him even though I do believe in Heaven. Praying for everyone struggling with mental health. Don't give up!
@@heathermallory2096 thank you. No my son’s name was Cameron. 😇🪽
So sorry. God bless you ❤
@@toumazosdemetriou7632 thank you. I pray that mental health gets more awareness and is more affordable and readily available to everyone struggling. So many people need help. 🙏🏼
I am 22. Your comment spoke to me; I can’t imagine how my mom would feel 😢you are so strong. Your boy loves you hunny you did enough for him. He loves you. And God wanted me to tell you that your baby is safe in heaven 💕until you two meet again (or whatever you may believe in) I wish you peace.
@@nicolexomarie999 thank you so much for responding. Please take care of yourself. If anything happened to you, your mother would be devastated. It’s the worst pain and unexplainable when you lose your child. They are forever a part of you and it’s an unconditional love like no other. I believe he’s in heaven and I can’t wait to see him again.
I know life can be so hard. My son struggled with social anxiety and depression for 12 years. We tried so many different meds and therapists. I know he hung on as long as he could just for me. We were so close. When he decided to leave he wrote me a note apologizing for hurting me. I try to find comfort in knowing he isn’t in pain anymore but I just miss my baby so much. I have a daughter with the same name as you. Nicole Marie. Love and prayers to you. Please don’t give up! Reach out anytime if I can help or offer encouragement, I certainly would. 💕
"Mom i don't want you worried
Cuz that would just hurt me
So i pretend i'm fine" is so relatable💔 🙃
I know it sounds cliche, but ask Jesus for help. He will if you sincerely call out for him.
It is relatable- me not wanting my Mother to worry and, now I'm a Mother & I worry about my son. You have beautiful & exceptional voice! You are a gift to the world, please remain strong & keep singing! The world is a better place with you in it, and you songs!💗🤗
That really hit me so badly 😭😭😭😭😭
I relate to this so much ever since my dad died I have stayed strong for my mom but I just can’t do it this anymore the pain is just to much. I want my dad back. I am tired of hiding my feelings.
@@roanreinecke9380 your dad's love is with you always. His soul didn't die, just the body he lived in. Love lives forever. He's holding you up, cheering you on. God knows you need your dad, so your dad is close in heart. Comfort your mom. Share his memory. Live as much as you can, knowing the wall between you & your dad is thin. ❤️🩹 Keep going.
This is not a song. It's a masterpiece.
Oh yes ❤
It’s his feelings which is coming straight from his heart.
Yes it is!
Yes!
Yes
Thank you so much for the song. At least now I know I'm not the only one feeling the same feelings.
Every time someone likes my comment I live longer now.
Stay Strong Because *GOD* And *JESUS* Love You And WIiLL Help You To Believe Everything Will Be Okay....
Stay strong.bless you❤❤❤
Then here are a billion likes👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍
I lost my mum in August, and I have not been able to cry. Thank you, Alexander, for giving me a door to open into that part of my heart that needs to heal.
I lost my mum too July i feel like this song is for me 😢
I lost my mom in August too😢
Sorry that you lost your mom, I lost a friend in 2021/22. I know how it feels.
Same as me .. i lost my mom on august 😢
Damn one of my birth friends is still healing from losing her mother too also birth friend is a friend born the exact date as their friend
Battling depression with a smile on my face and constant tears in my eyes... I don't know how to tell my mom but this song has made me know that I'm not alone so thank you 💕
Wearing that mask all the time is exhausting, I know.
Please, please, please talk to your mom. As close as me and my daughter are, she didn't tell me how much pain she was in. Following an ambulance to the hospital, not knowing what was going to happen was the worst day of my life! Thankfully, she survived and is strong today ...but if I only knew...I would've done anything to ease her pain.
Hlo, can we be friends plz
This isn't a depressing song,
It's a song how people are made feeling alone in the world,
Most likely with narcissists, abuser's, predator,
Of the past & possible present,
The only thing that really closes the door on that is Praying to God, find Jesus,
It's not about staying stuck in silence.
This song has become one of my favorites from him. The vocals, lyrics all perfect. He deserves more recognition for sure.
How amazing it is to be able to listen to a song that can hit every fiber of your being.
May we all win the silent battles we don't tell anyone about!
Amen
Bu b
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Amen bro 😢
Amen
Amen🙏💔
I don't know if you'll ever read this but your song saved my life tonight. I really wanted to leave this world but I remembered your song and played it on a constant loop until the feeling passed. Thank you ❤
I'm currently doing the same exact thing. Reading the comments I know we aren't alone!
I'm not saying things will get better, but I hope you find the beauty in the ugliest of moments
🫶
I am so glad that you chose life! You were created with a purpose and a plan! God does not make mistakes. You are loved and wanted. He loves you so much, that He sent His son Jesus to earth from heaven to die for you, so that you ( and everyone else) won’t have to pay the eternal punishment for your sins. You now can choose the gift of eternal life in heaven with Him!! If you were the only on on earth, Jesus would have come just for your salvation.
I almost did the same don't give up for the people you love
I felt exactly like this a year ago but then I entrusted myself to Jesus and He saved me. He gave me life, hope and love back. As the lyrics say "God take me away from this hell", He really did ❤
God is and will always be. I to believe in God. He found me when I was at my worst. I was mean as a snake my job was collecting money and when they didn't pay up I made sure they wouldn't forget about the money they owed. God stepped in on my last job and opened my eyes to the damage I left behind. Before I realized what I had done I managed to send several men to the hospital. They had borrowed money from my boss and weren't planning on paying it back. So I did what I was paid to do. Later that night I came home to my empty pad and did my usual. Until I turned the TV on. It was a preacher who got my full attention. I got saved that night and I've been saved now for a year. God has given me peace now. Stay strong for God and he will keep you protected and at peace ..
YESS!! Praise JESUS!!!
That's what we're talking about. So be it he's always with us.
Btw Christ is our firm foundation as always
@@_ruth__ so glad this is behind you. I pray that you keep trusting in Jesus and he gives you the strength to keep going and continue to live a beautiful life. ❤️
I know that releasing a song like this can feel like exposing a piece of your heart to a crowd of people, so thank you for sharing this with us & know that you’ve made the biggest impact by pressing that upload button 🤍
I'm in tears because this is how I feel every single day since I was just a kid. Now I have children of my own and I don't want them to see my deepest heart.
You have opened such a flood of pent up pain in such a beautiful way. Thank you.
❤🙏🏽
you are so strong person
This song will actually help so many people to give a voice to their feelings. Instant chills and tears for me. Thank you brother!
I have no words to describe how many emotions your music makes me feel. Every lyric has a deep meaning and I’m so grateful for discovering your music. Thank you for everything
😭😭😭😭💕 feel every emotion 😢
Hello Marie, how are you doing today?
POWERFUL AND REAL...LOTS OF IDENTIFICATION ❤THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS UNREAL SONG!
1.6 million views in just 3 weeks tells you just how powerful this song is. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve listened to this song and just cried.
I know this song is already a a hit because you've already helped so many people who are really sad and hurt from others in their life.
Alexander you have THE MOST Beautiful SOUL AND SPIRI T AND EYES AND yourr ability to portray EMOTIONS that are SO Super INTENSE is BEYOND genius and talent I don't know what it is except Magic ❤❤ and from ANOTHER WORLD !!!!!!! We all wish you the best success with your career you are really honest and down-to-earth and you write the MOST Exquisite and gorgeous songs in the universe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Agreed 💚
bro this should hit all the men out there because we are taught that we hold our feelings in and just bottle it up and this song helps me at least release what i feel so thank you
The song is not even out yet and I'm already blowing my eyes out 🥺🥺🥺😫😭😭😭😭 This is how I'll end 2023, with this song on repeat. Definitely going to be the only song I listen to for the rest of the year.
I'm from Germany, 28 years old, Male..
My life has been filled with violence and darkness.
I lost both my grandfathers within 8 months, my best friends....
One of them I saw as my father since he raised me.
He made me feel safe when my mother only ruined me.
Then I found the love of my life and before I know the war in ukraine started, I volenteered and went to the front lines...
now im back, love of my life is gone... but the trauma from the war is with me for the rest of my life...
I've crossed over into the darkness for good.
and this song allows me to to feel again.
it hurts a lot, but I deserve to feel it
Thank you Alexander
Du kannst alles schaffen du bist stark vergisst das nie bitte viele Grüße aus München ❤
I'm so very sorry. I really hope you are ok 🙏
My life has had violence and darkness too; but you don't have to stay there. My mom committed suicide when I was 16 and two of my three sisters were murdered a few years later. I cried out to Jesus and asked him to help me through both those tragedies. It is still tough walking through pain, but you don't have to walk alone. Jesus is the only one who can heal all that brokenness inside, but you have to ask him for help. Jesus is real, he loves you and he has a plan for your life. He will use what you have been through to help others if you will surrender to him.
May God be with you..
You are so strong person believe me
0:33 my faith is wavering and it’s eating me alive…if they only knew. Oh, if only they knew
Your not alone in the journey😊
Be strong ❤
Do you want to talk about it? ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Hands down, one of the most heartfelt tracks out there. If THIS doesn't hit you right in the feels, then you must be a rock. Sincerely, I just want to give hugs to everyone, who needs them. ♥
I so need a hug right now the things that are going thru my mind is killing me every day
@@randallbelaire7708 I can only send you a virtual hug. ♥ I hope you can kick your mind's ass and tell it to stop messing with you like that. MUCH MUCH LOVE TO YOU!!!!
Me and my brother haven't spoken in a few years. Out of nowhere I got a call today. It was my brother, this 6ft10 350 pound Federal Agent of 20 years was crying so hard I could feel it through the phone. He lost his son today in a tragic motorcycle accident. I didn't know what to say so I just started crying with him. I'm 51 years old I've road in a biker gang for so long I can't remember when the last time I cried about anything. But I finally broke. We didn't say but a few words to each other. But it was enough to know that we were and always will be brothers. I sent your song to his phone and told him how it's already helped me realize how precious life truly is. I hope it helps him through some of his pain like it has me. Thank you for this one of a kind masterpiece. Big fan Blackwater.
Another real good one is by Cooper Alan, Never not remember you. So very sorry to hear of the loss of your nephew. I lost my son 3 yrs ago this April. The pain never goes away, it's not something any parent should have to go through
Thanks for putting it to a song , it really makes it one little bit less hard , great voice , and for real , thank you
same
So incredibly sorry for the loss of your nephew, as a rider myself your story hit home more than I can say. Prayers to your family
@@jmackenzie2131 Thank you so much for your kind words and prayers.
I've been through a lot in life, and this song really hits home. Even though I'm alone. I know that the lord is with me. And I know Even though I have no one in my life I know that the lord will always be there for me
Young man, you have a gift from God. Not just your amazing voice, but your music reaches inside people and touches their soul. This song...OMG. My grandson shared this video on his FB page. I think it's time he and I talk. God bless you.
I shared it on my Facebook too 😢
I love this song and I hate that too many of us can relate to it... A beautiful sound to describe some place so dark.
This song has helped me to understand how much I've grown in my spiritual journey since I tried to take my own life since 14 yrs old. I'm 32 now and a being of light. A mom of 2 & a wife. I thank you so much for writing this ❤💯✨☄️🙏
I relate with this song so much! This is literally how I've been feeling for the past seven years and i could never put it to towards. I am very proud of you and I can tell how much this song means to you, I hope you are ok and if you're ever feeling that way again please don't hold it in talk to someone because i know how much that can destroy us if you keep everything to yourself!! Love you so much and keep being yourself...
the part "take me out of this hell" LITERALLY BROKE MY HEART! thank you for telling about it to us, you are not alone. by the way all your songs was amazing, im left with no words
Never before has one artist made me cry so much like this man. So many powerful feelings its hard to keep them silent. I love his music so much.
[Verse 1]
I've been tryin' so hard to survive
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
I feel so fucking guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky to live my life
So I keep all the pain to myself
Losin' faith but nobody can tell
Mom, I don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
So I pretend I'm fine
[Chorus]
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you, oh
If you only knew
[Verse 2]
I wish I was somebody else
I'm constantly overwhelmed
Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some friends
It's a silent cry for help
I wanna get better, I want you to know
That I can't do this on my own
[Chorus]
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry, it's true, oh
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you, oh
[Bridge]
Take me out of this hell
Oh, somebody help
Take me out of this hell
Oh, I'm not myself
[Outro]
I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry but I want to
Oh, if you only knew
I've been tryin' so hard to survive sometimes I think that I wanna die
I feel so fucking guilty 'cause god I'm so lucky
To live my life
So I keep all the pain to myself
Losin' faith but nobody can tell
Mom, i don't want you worried 'cause that would just hurt me
So I pretend I'm fine
[Chorus]
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
I'm too sad to cry , it's true, oh
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room
Here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you, oh
If you only knew
[ Verse 2]
I wish I was somebody else
I'm constantly overwhelmed
Now I'm falling again gettin' drunk with some
Friends
It's a silent cry for help
I wanna get better, i want you to know
That I can't do this on my own
[Chorus]
If you only knew
What my mind is tellin' me I should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here
Tonight
I'm too sad to Cry, it's true,oh
If you only knew
All the shit my brain is puttin' me through
You'd come runnin' over straight to my room here tonight
I'm sorry but I need you , oh
[Bridge]
Take me out of this hell
Oh, somebody help
Take me out of this hell
Oh, I'm not myself
[Outro]
I wanna tell you what my mind is tellin' me I
should do
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here
Tonight
I'm too sad to Cry but I want to
Oh, If you only knew
The way this song hits me on a deep level is so uncanny... Been lost for quite sometime, so much the lyrics feel so relatable.💔
It's been a year since my mother left me. he came in my dream to apologize even though I was the one who made many mistakes in his life. then I met this song, the tears that I had been holding back came out. No one around me knows that I am still devastated by my mother's death. thank you alexander, your song knows my feelings. Yes, only your song knows how I feel on this earth
So many people feel this way but can't put it into words. Crying listening to this. We had a horrible loss in April as our only daughter passed at 28 weeks after one week of life. These words hit so close. Thank you for being volunerable and releasing this. So many people can relate ❤
I'm so so sorry. Sending love and strength to you
I needed to hear this song 5 years ago when my son passed away but now I'm better and this is a very beautiful song
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lets analyse the nonsense /lies many amongst you believe in:
lie: schools are of use (fact. schools keep slavery alive)
lie: moon and mars landings, (fact: even masons know they cannot leave)
lie: news channels share truth (fact: these are for politic propaganda)
lie: money has a value of its own (fact: it is just a tool of this world, which value has been agreed upon world wide)
lie: NASA lies (globe and all....) (fact: NASA stands for to deceive) - you havn´t searched - have you?
lie: the lgbtq++++ propaganda (fact: it is a part of masonry depopulation agenda, 500 000 000 souls, thats their goal.)
lie: Evolution and the dinosaurs. (fact: mankind is not hybrid kind)
to keep stating that there was an evolution, then we ain´t humans, we aint then mankind, we are then hybrids.
Lie: holidays (xmas, halloween, new year eve and so on) (fact: PAGAN HOLIDAYS, to praise BAAL, the god of this world)
lie: U.F.Os (fact: they are demons/evil spirits in high places, against whom we fight daily = spiritual warfare)
lie: rules and laws rule the world (fact: signs and symbols of masonry do)
10 lies, should i go on?
Big artists releasing music like this is SO important. Thank you so much for opening up and making yourself vulnerable for us. So much emotion in this song, I'm in tears
Wow I never thought that I would find a song 100% describing how I have feeling for a very long time, this is a very powerful song.
This. This is what I have felt for just over 2 years since my mama passed away from cancer. Numb, enraged, grief stricken, empty. It's a dangerous cocktail of emotional hell....... I didn't know I needed this 😭😭😭😭 an absolutely epic masterpiece sir, my hats off to you 🥀
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Words can’t describe how happy and excited I am I need this song sm rn 55 minutes left Then it’s music to my ears I can’t wait to sing along to this 😭☺️💕
Terima kasih telah menciptakan lagu ini, sungguh suaramu luar biasa dan lagunya juga sangat indah. Aku menangis saat mendengar lagumu. Aku baru tahu lagu ini dan tentang mu dan mulai saat ini aku memutuskan kamu salah satu penyanyi favorite yang aku sukai. Aku akan selalu mendukungmu Alexander. Tetaplah berkarya❤
How could he just pour out my mind like this? I can’t stop listening and crying 😭
I don't have words to describe my feelings ... This song touched my heart.
I just love you so much it hits home you're so young I'm 54 and I just love your voice and love your song it makes good sense keep up the good work love from Michigan❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
The broken sound in If You Only Knew, what my mind is telling Me I should do adds up to it all
I've been listening to this song so much now... as well as trying to think of the perfect thing to say in response to these lyrics. I'm so sorry about this. What a brave thing to do to put these feelings in a song for the world to hear. How amazingly beautiful. No, don't wish you were someone else, Alexander Stewart. You're everything that you need to be. Your story is needed. You are precious even in your toughest moments. Luckily enough we get to hear your songs, but there are other beautiful parts about you that maybe we don't know about, that maybe you don't know about. Please don't give up on yourself. Perhaps as a fan I only know a part of you, but you inspire me. You are someone I look up to. And the bad moments and bad days delete nothing from all the positive things you hold in your heart and all the positive you have left to discover. I wish you only the best. If you only knew... the great memories that await, the difference you make, what you have yet to achieve, the awesome days that await. Everything is temporary, be patient with yourself, and use the bad moments to reflect and work towards an even better version of yourself. Don't escape. You've come so far. Proud of you always, not only when you're thriving but also when you're only surviving. I don't think that what I said is close to perfect, but I do want you to know that your life and your character are worth fighting for, that your dreams are worth working for, and that every day is worth surviving for. Keep going. Perhaps negative feelings come with guilt, yes, but it's okay - sometimes the best thing we can do is be kind and patient with ourselves. Ask for help if you need it. You don't need to go through anything alone. I see so much greatness in you, and I only hope that when you feel the opposite, you remember that there are people who don't need to know exactly what you're going through in order to believe that you will make it. You will get better. You will get out of this hell. Sending you lots of encouragement. Take it easy, take it slowly if you need to, and take care of yourself.
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This is such a beautiful song. This used to be my wife’s favorite song. We played this at her funeral as her last request before she passed away. Every time I listen to this, it gets too emotional.
That’s so sad. I’m glad this song provided some comfort.
Alexander perfectly explains what so many people are going through in our world today. He is incredibly talented in expressing his feelings through his songs. Thank you alexander!
I've been fighting against depression and suicidal thoughts since I was 8, this song describes exactly the feelings I've had for the last 27 years, combined with depression I've also been fighting against GAD since I was like 3, most of these years I've been fighting alone, now I've been on treatment for 3 years after almost losing the fight while having a panic attack.
I can relate to you it's never easy I hope you find your salvation like I did ❤❤❤ just suggesting to you I hope you go on a spiritual journey learn about different religions and just see you will find the true path 😊 may Allah guide to the right path ❤❤
Hand in there im in the same boat i know the pain had this since i was 9 and 45 now so plase hang in there you are loved i know its hard but you MUST make
God be with you🙏
For everyone that is going through a hard and having thoughts of hurting yourself your not alone you have people who love you you are strong you got this
I literally starting balling when i heard this. Took right to my heart. It's amazing how we keep our deep thoughts, secrets. Thank you for this song! I need this for the bad days....
there are simply no words to express how amazing this dong is… depression and the loneliness thats comes with it are pure struggles. you creating this song and making people feel less alone is amazing. just thank you. thank you for making ME feel like i’m not the only one. this is a beautiful song. and for anyone one else feeling this way as well just know that you arnt alone either and you will get past this hell make it through. Thank you Alexander!!!
This song is truly beautiful💜 It brought me to tears in seconds😭 I hope everyone here has a wonderful day(or night) and know they’re worth being loved and deserve happiness
Thank you for writing this song so beautifully brutally honest...The first time I listened to your song, it made me cry.... it felt like you opened my diary and read all its pages... all my thoughts and feelings put into music.... and all the pain and confusion and darkness laid bare ... I have suffered from PTSD, Anxiety Disorder, Manic Depression and last but not least, post-partum depression... for almost my entire teen and adult life... healing is a life-long journey. At least that has been my experience. Thank you for giving a beautiful voice to some of my most darkest....my most vulnerable moments..
This song is my comfort zone. Thank you Alexander for this beautiful masterpiece.
I loved the song. This will be on repeat 24/7 because I relate so much and this made me cry. I really needed a song like this to describe how I’ve been feeling everyday.
Why do these songs hit so hard? I have been in this mood lately that i can not do anything right. When i get in that zone i come back to listen to this song and others. Hope everyone is well in the world.
Alexander Stewart I love your music your a inspiration to me you inspire me to be just like you and to create music one day like you thanks your music helps me alot!
This song just described everything ive been going through and I literally can't stop crying when i listen to it. I am going to see you this Tuesday. Thank you for all that you do!
I have watched this video many times as this is where I am in the mindset. It's tough to be in the place and I keep going, but I can honestly say I wish life were different.
This song really hit me deep. I felt every word. There was a time when life got too hard, and I felt like giving up. I was all by myself, feeling weak and my mom was far away. No one knew what I was going through; I kept it all inside and put on a happy face. But the one who saved me was my daughter, then I decided to stay strong for her and her sister. Instead of me helping them, they ended up helping me. I hope everyone talks about what they're going through, especially with their moms. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Thanks for this awesome song.❤
This song is a masterpiece! I can relate to every single word and every word hits hard. Thanks so much for this song Alexander!
alexander you don’t understand how much this means to me.”im too sad to cry” hits me so hard everytime. thank you for this, im glad im not alone.
This song is currently helping me get through a tough time in my life. I've always had anxiety, but recently its gotten to the point where I am in physical pain 24/7 and am not eating enough for my growing body. On top of all of that, I started a deppresive episode, probably the worst one I've had so far. I stay up late and just sob, and I'm barely surviving. I've obviously worked with my mom to get me to a good therapist, but I haven't told her everything about how I feel, because just like Alexander said, I don't want her worried because that would just hurt me. I had to start Zoloft, which was the one thing I didn't want to do. Listening to this song and hearing that other people feel the same as me has really helped me.
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As an Army Veteran with 15months in Iraq between oif V and oif VII/New Dawn and who struggles with PTSD every day, this hit me like a train man! Keep it going! 😟😢
Thank you for your service!!!! My Uncle Adam died in Iraq in 2008...all respect to you
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My ptsd is excruciating and exhausting and endlessly hellish. I get it. You are so brave❤❤
This song hits me so hard. My life collapsed in a way that I never thought was possible. Constantly fighting myself without saying a word. I don’t want to be a burden and make anyone’s life harder I just wish there was someone who’s been through what I have just to have someone to talk to. It’s been almost six months since I last saw my dad and it gets hard. Constantly fighting thoughts of suicide is harder than some people think. I just wish my life wasn’t a living hell.
If you want to talk, I am here for you. All the best to you.
I lost my baby at birth, then lost both grandparents, I’m drowning just like you, stuck and my heart will be broken forever, my babies I have now keep me going or I wouldn’t be here now 💔💔
You sent chills through my body and tears to my eyes with this song. You’ve said, in this song, what I feel in my heart. The world is so heavy, and my mind is so loud. Thank you for this song.
To all you women out there. I hope you all get through the fire. Please don't cover it so well. You can look like youve been through. Please let your scars shine through. Your hair doesn't need to be in place. You are all beautiful just the way you are. You don't need to hide the hell yiuve been through. You came out like the most loveliest diamond and always have done. Your smile has always out shon the stars moon and universe. Your eyes can always tell the truth but that's ok. Please to all you amazing ladies. I respect you, i cherish every women on this earth. We should all be equal in this planet. Love to you all.
If I only knew. Maybe he would still be here. We miss you Danny, we will always miss you 💜
I'm involved with Alexander's music because I relate too much ,the pain,hurt,thoughts of not belonging it helps me cope with my life😢
I can empathize with you. Not belonging is so common for many of us, which even sounds a bit weird to say.
I hope that you find the support and love that you need from others. I hope you know that you are amazing and important. You are here for a reason and I hope you find that reason. Take care of yourself and help others.
Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
I am suffering depression. ..lots of pain...jobless....mom getting old
Love this Song ❤️❤️❤️ You are Wonderful Singer and with talent Voice 💯👍👏 keep doing incredible job Alexander Stewart 😊
I’m so excited you don’t know how many times I have watched the short on repeat I already know some parts to this song Love you so much Alexander you don’t know how much I am happy for you I will always support no matter what.❤
This song expresses how I feel 24/7 I have attempted so many times but failed due to the thought of my family. Honestly if I didn’t have them I wouldn’t be here right now. I never knew how to express my thoughts to my mom then I heard this song and sent it to her and said “mom this is exactly how u feel.” Thank you so much Alexander for letting us know we’re not alone. We have people who really care. We just have to open up. ❤️❤️❤️
I'm so glad you're still here 🩵 I know it feels so impossible to ever feel differently and not spend every second not wanting to be here but it is possible unfortunately I didn't feel differently untill my little brother lost his life to it and I don't know how to deal with that fact but for the first time in over 16 years I'm glad I'm still here even on the most painful days keep reaching out and talking about it there's always support out there ❤
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Every single time I hear this song I cry and I have it on repeat. This song say the words for me when I can't or don't know how. Thank you Alexander I hope you know I look up to you I really do.
I am happy you make silent words into a beautiful song. You give a voice to those scared to speak. Thank you
regrets haunt me from the past, anxiety keeps me from moving into the future, now I'm numb and sinking slowly. i really hope i can survive longer
Omg anxiety controls my life since I buried my baby boy, panic attacks and travel anxiety, why me! I hate it 😢 my heart will be broken forever 💔
Okay, but this isn't a song, it's a feeling! Simply perfect!
I just listened to it on Apple Music and I was so happy. It is absolutely amazing. Gonna be listening to it on repeat for months!
I believe that some of the most beautiful art and music are inspired by people who understand brokenness. I hope that this song reaches a lot of lives. Let it be healing for the soul.
This hit me. I'm so thankful to be alive every day and have what health I have when I should have died at the age of 31. Life is worth being here for you. Stay strong and stay safe all.❤
This song hits you so hard. Although i relate to it in retrospection cuz I've been lost in past and didn't know what to do or how to share with people close to me. It was like i was screaming deep inside but didn't know how to in front of people. Still makes me cry thinking about how i survived out of it all. I'm so thankful to God to have this life the Alexander says in the beginning.
I've had times all throughout my teenage and adult years where I've been on the brink of ending it all. It takes a lot to not just get it over with, but it takes even more to remind yourself that you are enough and the world won't be better off without you. The thoughts may never go away, but they don't have to consume you either. You're enough. You're loved. Even when it feels like you're all alone.
Pls if this is you pls tell whats going on and who you are because i dont know how much more i can take its eating me up inside i know i have a conection with someone and just being made so confusing for me all i ever do is cry because i know this is my twinflame but making me think its this person or that person is just making doubt everything so pls if this is u u need to start being honest with me because if you dont come forward and be honest its just not going to happen instead of it making me happy its making me the total opposite if you want to be with me you have to be honest and come forward because i cant keep doing this like this its hurting me inside so pls i know you will see this you need to be honest for both our sakes ❤❤❤❤
I have a note tucked away that I once let my therapist read. He did so slowly and then folded it back neatly, handed to me and sat forward in his chair. He proceeded to tell me that he had read others just like that. My letter had every element. But told he had hope because I was the first still alive. My life has had its ups and downs, but I am so grateful I didn't get my wish. So many times I couldn't see anything but my pain. Now many years later all I see and hear is the laughter of my grandchildren.
When I hear this song I know that I’m alone… But also know that God is watching me and he doesn’t like what he sees! If you are struggling with some bad stuff, just remember: I love you and I’m here with you, no matter what are you going through you are not alone!❤
Impossible not to cry with this song 🥺 I love you Alexander 💗 Another masterpiece 💕
Finally a song that describe me... the most song that describes me god bless u
All I want to do after hearing this is hug you. Half because I need it, half because you do. There has never been another song that put how I feel into perfect words, and since I can't cry, I can just play and sing this song on repeat. Thank you. It's been so hard for me to explain how I feel, but not I can just send people this song. It's genuinely beautiful and you have helped so many people through your music. ❤
I totally admire Alexander Stewart. His talent and passion for music are truly inspiring. I love how he puts his heart and soul into every performance, making each song come alive. His voice is just incredible, and he always manages to captivate his audience. It's no wonder he has such a dedicated fan base.❤
To those out there who think that no one cares... I can tell you the horror on my brothers face when he found me nearly gone in a pile of my blood. The scream still haunts me to this day and I know I will never be able to make up for the trauma I put him through because I was convinced no one cared. Please...speak out. I will leave you some words from one of my favorite poems, it saved my life and hopefully can help someone else out too. "Every nightmare has a beginning, but every bad day has an end. Ignore what others have called you. I am calling you friend. Make us comprehend the urgency of your crisis. Silence left to its own devices, breed’s silence.
So speak and be heard. One word after the next, express yourself and put your life into context - if you find that no one is listening, be loud. Make noise. Stand in poise and be open. Hope in these situations is not enough and you will need someone to lean on. In the unlikely event that you have no one, look again. Everyone is blessed with the ability to listen. The deaf will hear you with their eyes. The blind will see you with their hands. Let your heart fill their newsstands, let them read all about it. Admit to the bad days, the impossible nights. Listen to the insights of those who have been there, but have come back. They’ll tell you; you can stack misery, you can pack despair, you can even wear your sorrow - but come tomorrow you must change your clothes." since my last attempt I learned...it always gets better. Hold on to those moments. They will be your armor when the feeling strikes again. Know that emotion and logic do not mix and just because you think no one cares...I do, and I don't even know who I am writing to. Be strong, stay sane, help will find you.
This song reminded me of the worst part of my life. When I was depressed to the point I was contemplating suicide. Thank you for expressing how so many people feel with your amazing gift of music.
This song is literally a masterpiece.
Beautiful song. Very much resonates with me & the thoughts I've had in the past, as well as some I still battle with. It really hit me at the bridge when you were belting out "...take me out of this hell...". I can hear the real, deep emotion especially in that part. You are very talented. So many people from different walks of life can relate to this song & no matter how great someone's life may seem, we have no idea what burden they carry in their heart & mind. Keep yourself surrounded by good people who genuinely care about you, whats best for you & will remind you of all the great qualities that make you special. The more you talk about what you are going through, its going to get easier & the pain loses its power over you. God bless you & all that are touched by this song as I am. Much love to all❤❤❤
Alexander Stewart is truly an angel! His angelic voice always makes me cry, he is so special and deserves all the love in this whole world. (Him releasing his new EP on my BIRTHDAY means everything to me) WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH ALEXANDER!! 😍😭❤
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Happy birthday and yes
😭I burst into tears... This describes word for word how I have felt since childhood, the black sheep, the stranger among these pairs, I let myself be carried away by your voice you take my soul by the hand to heal every little crack, A huge thank you for your transparency.
*Please come to Canada/Quebec I want and need to scream this song with you, I swear to be in the front row!💜🙏
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