Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light. (Ephesians 5:14) ua-cam.com/video/kKwrdGBnMiU/v-deo.htmlsi=qXUCzlIQaXy95dp9
I also cried because I recognized myself in what she said... Feeling alone... or just pretending to be happy in front of people... then when you come home that's when your anxieties resurface... Sometimes I feel useless... I like to make others laugh... but when I feel alone that's when I'm the saddest... I like to learn the violin and the keyboard personally. I can't stop crying just thinking that I recognize myself in this video... I know what it feels like and I'm with you all the way...
I don't wanna lie to you Everybody is like this to see that you are not truly good is a good thing to see that we pretend isn't a bad thing at all so we just cope with it by talking to friends and seeing that we are truly not alone I personally don't hate the life you're describing but I hate the loneliness too it's the worst thing in my life and I think the answer is to find somebody understanding and kiss them till you don't remember why you hated yourself Wish you the best and go find love
The best advice I ever got from my therapist is that I wasn’t broken and that nothing was wrong with me. I’m just who I am and that’s okay. Some people might react because you’re different but it doesn’t mean you’re doing anything wrong, you’re just being you and that’s okay. I spent a good majority of my life as someone who dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts. I always thought there was something broken inside of me, something innately wrong that I had to dig deep and fix. I felt emotions so strongly and it drained me, to the point that I would feel hollow and lonely. I thought it was wrong of me to feel this way. Nobody had ever told me it was okay to just be the way I was. I felt guilty and doubted myself. There were so many times I felt like a burden and a failure. It didn’t matter that I was finishing college or graduating top of my class. It didn’t matter that my future looked bright because I couldn’t even see five feet in front of me. I was living in darkness. I was living in a constant cloud of self doubt, inferiority and I incorrectly beloved that I was this broken shell that needed to get better and that needed to fix the broken part of me. Nothing was broken. I just needed some polishing. I needed to face the insecurity within myself. I needed to trust the world a bit more and forgive the people who had hurt me, including myself. I went to therapy and did some hard work but I still didn’t feel happy and didn’t feel satisfied with my progress. Then one day my therapist told me there was nothing wrong with me, that I wasn’t this broken, incorrect mess. I’m just a person and I’m just living my life how I need to. It was so freeing and it helped to connect so many dots deep within myself. Even the people who loved me the most were unintentionally perpetuating this pattern of me “needing to change” certain aspects of me. I would always internally say I need to stop doing this or that. I would internally knock myself down a peg and never celebrate myself. I would create and write but after I read it a couple times I would just doubt it and think it was trash. I wasn’t writing it for anyone but myself and yet I would judge it as garbage as if these phantom judges were coming in and deeming it so. Every single instance of my being was judged by my mind and deemed right or wrong. My self guilt would overwhelm me and many many times I would just want to end things because I didn’t deserve the life I was living. I had so much story book type reasons to be happy and I just couldn’t will myself to be happy and appreciate the moments. I wasn’t a kid anymore. I didn’t know how to be happy. It didn’t come naturally anymore. I confronted so many sad, lonely, overprotective parts of myself that just wanted to be loved and cared for. They were parts that nobody could really take care of except for myself and I was ashamed of them, sadly neglecting them for years and years out of shame. Now, I have confronted them all and come to understand them better. I’ve forgiven others and I’ve forgiven myself for pain that was unfairly caused to me. It wasn’t easy but I feel a lot more happy now and I haven’t had any suicidal thoughts in a long time thankfully. Even when you are alone, you are never alone. Your mind is made up of parts, parts meant to protect you and parts that want you to live. They get confused sometimes and think they are protecting you from pain or trauma but in reality they can sometimes make things worse. Forgive yourself, confront yourself, and over time, learn to love yourself. You are special. You are unique. You are your mind’s favorite person even if you don’t realize it. It spends its entire existence trying to take care of you and protect you from the world. Typing about this makes me feel free and understood. Thank you for the experience. You are heard. You are felt. You are appreciated. Your mind loves you so much even when nobody else does. If your mind is telling you differently, that’s your self doubt or fear trying to invade. Be strong. Life is always worth it, you might just not feel it yet. Close your eyes and feel your soul connect with the rest of the world. We are all connected. Every act of pain or violence hurts us all. Every act of love and care heals us all. If you read this, thank you for listening. I feel healed for the moment. Good night.
everyone that has tried to help me said I needed to take action and change to be better. I still kinda believe that, but maybe you're right.. ive been told its my fault for not even trying to change (I am trying so hard) idk what to believe anymore
@@cashiusCon you know saying Bot? under every comment also just makes you look like a bot. That bot had a lot more of a relevant comment than you did to the video The book is related to bettering yourself, which is the focus of the video Maybe you should pick up that book, bud
@@luvbird I only put it under one comment cause I was wondering, Calm down bro. Were free to comment as much as we want man it doesn’t hurt anybody it doesn’t have to be relevant to the video because it’s relevant to the comment cause i’m commenting under the comment not the video. Maybe we both should read it lol.
pianist here with 8 years of classical training. Your playing is light and evokes beautiful, peaceful emotions. You made me lie down and close my eyes, listening to you sing and play.. I understand your feelings. The biggest amount of money and the best food and the best clothes will not make you happy. What will make you happy is self-actualization - becoming who you want to be and accomplishing what you want to accomplish. And I want you to know that it's not over. Even if you feel like you wasted something you had, you need to believe that's simply the way your life was meant to go. That's the path God laid out for you, so that something else could happen in your life, or so you would realize something... And we all believe that you can still find happiness, this way or another. Peace be with you.
To me, we don't lose parts of ourselves forever, simply because it's not broken. It's still here, inside. Certain parts of ourselves have fallen into a state of dormancy as a result of an environment and activities that no longer stimulate them sufficiently. But being aware of this is enough to give us back access to these lost parts by working on what we forgot to work on. Or by doing what we forgot we liked to do.
That's something I actually think everyday and it makes me feel calm and composed. It's like I have to play my part on the role God has laid down for me and he guides me everyday.
You don’t know how much this resonates in my soul, I feel the same way about my past and way my life is going, I’m thankful for the things I went through though because they make me what I am today. I loved it when you said “ the things you hate to do now might be one of the most beautiful things that helped shape the future you.” so I thank you! For this video, being vulnerable with a multitude of strangers about your own personal struggles, I hope you stay positive and build upon your self and grow. God bless you.
hey i dont know u and u dont know me but i js wanted to leave a comment and say that pain & suffering never lasts forever. if u give up today you'll never know if tomorrow was the day that everything would change, and if you stop trying you'll never know what could've happened if you decided to try. everyone watching this video is loved by someone. everyone. have a wonderful day and please stay safe 😁😁
@@NEPtune-fy1ug they might not dissolve or dissapear but problems and awful days or weeks dont last forever, if they do not get washed away with time over time you will get the oppurtunity to overcome them I am speaking from experience with dealing with really shitty circumstances, just do what you can and leave the rest to time and the rest of the forces in this world we cannot control
If you, at the end of your life watch your last ever movie, you'll notice these beautiful moments where you never gave up and kept trying until you became the best version of you.
i've always dreamed of being a footballer, being on the pitch, score goals, hear the chants of the crowd and be the best player until someone toke away my dedication, my football and my happiness by saying that i would never do that because i was bad and i have no money and my parents are poor and i could never get an opportunity and now i look back and thank myself for not giving up, cuz ladies and gentlemen i just got an big opportunity and by the way nym, your voice is so relaxing, and your skills with the piano gives me chills (i legit just found you on YT)
When you're a kid the bar is low, almost anyone could be labeled as talented/gifted. I say this from experience, everyone seems to see me as smart. Yet I disagree. I feel like I had a head start with school so naturally I stood out. Entering adulthood (I'm turning 18 soon) the bar isn't nearly as low. There are many bars but the only one you feel proud of crossing is one that none other have crossed. Not only does the world ask more of you, but you begin to do so as well. Witnessing only the success of others and the way others interpret the world takes a toll on an average person's life. I say this because it's possible you feel certain moments should make you feel happy just because it made others happy, I know I feel this way. The story of the hero and the villain doesn't interest everyone, some like to see a sad ending. Other's (Like me) just want to feel a strong emotion: sadness, anger, happiness, anxiousness. Sometimes improving feels like a chore, so whenever you come across a strong emotion remember that moment. If your chest feels heavy, if your eyes feel tired, if your stomach feels empty, or if you still feel empty. Don't interpret an emotion as negative, no emotion is "bad" per say. I doubt you'll be numb to other emotions, it's just harder to feel them. Oh, and I know you can feel a mix of both, sometimes you can feel a heavy chest and feel like whatever's happening is suffocating but you're still feeling happy. If so, dig deeper, there's something underneath that's eating you from within. I have no experience with depression, but I hope this helped you. (There I go again, giving people solutions when they just want to voice their thoughts) 🙃
I appreciate this, sometimes advice aren’t wanted by others and that’s okay but that doesn’t apply to everyone. I’m thankful you spent your time writing your thought, it helps enlighten others like myself. Just trying to figure things out, I need more insight from others
Couldn't agree more. I'm also about to turn 18 and I've been feeling miserable for the last 6 years (yeah since i was 12). I don't know if it's depression or not but sometimes I just wish not to wake up. That's because, like you said, the bar is set too high, I've got to reach the expectations and I can't afford failing once more. I've always felt so different, so wrong, that sometimes I wish I just wasn't here. Sometimes I feel like others wish that I wasn't there too... All my friends just don't accept me from what I am because I'm too different, and I don't reach their expectations. I just wish I didn't feel the need to make anybody else happy but me. I wish I liked myself a bit more too. Anyways sorry for the rambling but I guess your comment gave me an excuse to tell myself why I feel this way lol
Man, now I think I wanna share my thoughts. Honestly I wanted to say more but held back. It’s kinda funny, I’m finding a lot of comfort from hearing everyone’s story. I think the similarities are helping me. I know I’m not the only one going through this but no one ever talks about it so despite you knowing that you’re not alone, you feel alone. I’m 18 already and just recently graduated this year, hopefully I’m not outing myself too much 😅. But yeah I’ve been struggling with my mental health for a while now too about 6-7 years. I think I just wanted to share a rant from my journal that I wrote a few days ago, I feel like it resonates with the idea of success and expectations. 8/3/24 If being “smart” discredits my work, then I don’t want to be smart. It’s funny cause being called smart is a compliment right? But I’m becoming really tired of hearing it, I’m annoyed when people call me “smart”. When my family and others talk about how they can’t do something but I can because I’m “smart” and when I describe something as “not hard” and they say “Well that’s because you’re smart”. Using it as a word to describe my achievements and work. Using it to differentiate my efforts and theirs. They think it comes easy to me, they think I’m some genius but I’m not. I remember when I went back to my elementary school for Grad Walk I ran into some acquaintances. Having found out that I’m valedictorian from grad practice, they congratulated me. To which one of them said “You’re valedictorian, you must be really smart.” I replied, trying to explain how I wasn’t smart but just worked really hard. She told me to not sell myself short but I wasn’t. I was telling the truth, the absolute truth. I’m self-aware and I know that my intelligence is average. (I’ve taken an IQ test before and I’ve scored below the average. A task that will take another person 10 minutes, would take me a whole hour. I work at an unbelievably slow pace, my brain runs at the speed of a sloth and my best friend jokes that I have one brain cell despite me being academically successful than her (love her to death)). To add on to this, I remember how at grad practice one of the teachers commented “aren’t you guys supposed to be the smart ones?” After our row messed up. Like somehow us achieving good grades meant we couldn’t make mistakes anymore. This stupid idea of how students who attain honorable marks and recognition means they’re smart, intelligent, and above average irritates me. Of course, there are individuals who are like that and some who wouldn’t complain about being called smart because it is the case. However to sum up theirs and others accomplishments to them just being “smart” doesn’t give justice to their efforts. I do not have an unordinary mind, I just worked really really hard. Sleepless nights, hours of studying, reading, and researching, putting things aside that I enjoyed, and out of all, my health. I wrecked myself up to obtain it. I’m not smart, just overly determined and ambitious. I just didn’t want to fail my parents expectations and most of all, my efforts. Destroying myself over the years only to fail would’ve killed me. I was just scared. I pushed myself over my limits because of pressure and my ambitions, now I’m burnt out. I persevered through and I made it, I’m proud but I’m also empty. I feel empty with what I achieved. I’m alive, I made it through but I’m also dead. My honors and awards make me proud but a part of me also wants to burn them. I worked so hard and I sacrificed so much of myself and time not to be called “smart”. “Oh you’re valedictorian? you must have worked really hard.” Would have sounded nice. “It’s because you work hard, it’s because you strive, it’s because you try, that’s a lot of effort.” Yeah, I worked really hard. Really really hard. To the point that I don’t feel whole anymore, to the point where I don’t even know myself… (There’s more but I’ll stop there) The pressure to succeed is suffocating, don’t lose yourself in the grind. Work at your own pace, I was stupid. Now I have to do a lot of damage control, healing takes time so don’t rush it. Be patient, keep trying.
Thank you Guys all! I thought it was only me experiencing such things around, thank u guys again I read almost every comment&reply, I love the stories, really wanna hug ya`ll and say good luck if I ever had the chance. GOOD LUCK on everything, everything is gonna be pretty good, I'm also turning 18 this Fall, and I wanna say that I relate 98% with ya`ll and I'm still thinking, is that all just the part of the Gods plan for everything or is it related cz that kinda people (like us) are a bit alike and like uh maybe rare cz I also almost feel alone and I always thought that there is no one experiencing such thing ( I mean being somewhat different from others around)... Really lightened inside of me after reading this all, Thanks u guys a lot (triple kill :D)
I'm here right now. I've been walking on the edge. Meeting you right now almost feels like a sign. Thank you for this video. I wish I knew you, you seem like a very special type of person or friend I'd like to have. You are talented. Things didn't go the way you thought, but that rarely does. Being this low on life gives a chance to still go up, right? There's nowhere else to go. I'm tired of pretending. I want to keep trying. I miss doodling in my piano, drawing, animating, editing.. I used to do so many things and impress so many kids back then. Now I'm alone, working tirelessly, trying to escape but so low those escapes no longer feel good anymore. Anyways, thank you. I hope I can be as hopeful as you one day.
This video was really comforting. There were many days this past summer where I felt like giving up because I lost the talents I once had as a kid. I felt like I couldn't draw or play piano again, but once I started doing those things again I felt happy that I did them. I tend to relapse from doing and not doing those things, but I'm not giving up. So wherever you are, and wherever I am, don't give up and stay determined ❤
Went I listen to your song... life flashes before my eyes a good memory and the bad one.. Sometimes I just want lay on the bed and imagine someone says to me(you have done enough, you can rest now)
It's crazy that when you started crying, I started crying too. The song you played brought back memories, good and bad, and now I am more thankful for what I went through, because I know it was for a good reason. I just need to keep going to find out what that reason is. I wouldn't have realised it without you, thanks. ❤
Not sure how YT algorithm led me here but I'm glad it did. This video connected to me on a whole other level. It's like my conscious was talking to me. Every word I read in the video is exactly how I feel currently. I used to play piano, I enjoyed it but somewhere along the line my brain just went haywire and everything I used to enjoy just felt emotionless to me. I am alone as well, but watching this vid helps me find peace. I hope u continue to play piano again, u have a beautiful talent. Thank u for sharing this emotional part of ur life to us random strangers. I hope you know that it has touched many lives and it will continue to do so, remember never give up and continue trying to reach new peaks in ur life. Every day is a new page in ur story thats waiting to happen, its up to us the writers to decide what we make of this story.
Even while i think this time period has many problems, i am truly happy to be able to live in this world; hundreds of thousands have seen this video, and some more will see it too. We are all humans living in the same world, we all struggle, we all cry, and we all smile, at least once. What we can do in this world is as immense as the streng in our hearts, the fact that so many people can share the same feeling is incredible to me. When i listened to you playing the piano, i remembered walking in a cobblestone path in a slightly cold place, feeling slightly empty after leaving my house the same way, and while the details themselves don't matter, it's wonderful what a simple song can cause in the mind, i'm sure everyone remembered or felt something diferent, but we all felt something
i love UA-cam recommendations so much, ive been having a bad week and i needed absolute motivation and thanks to this i can lift myself up again better ill try and try and keep up and be better than myself in the past
Damn when she started crying i actually teared up myself 😭. Great message and i hope you start to love yourself more, and really see how far you have come in life. Just the ability to live alone and travel, eat what you like, do what you want it's something that people dream of.
"As long as you keep trying" I haven't heard this line in so long. Life's just tough now. If you need someone to talk you got the entire fanbase you created, i'm not any better then you, i've been depressed, i truly feel terrible for my past self for believing i could change and make a difference. I hope you get what you're aiming for, and if you have nothing to aim for, just enjoy life, block out everyone and everything and focus on yourself, keep going. Wish the best for you Sarah, and remember. You are not alone.
Idk if this sentence are really true after all, Ive been loving the same girl for years, she IS my dream girl, but since the day that I met her 7 years ago, Ive never stopped loving her, we have been in a relationship for a moment , right people - wrong wind, I loved her so much that she couldnt love me back as much as I did, and she felt guilty for that, I was so blinded by love that Ive never seen that my love was hurting her, and when I tried to talk to her she didnt want to tell me what was wrong, because she was full of guilt, and it filled me with sorrow and regrets, its been 2 years now and Ive never let my love decrease for her, shes in a relationship with someone else and she look happy with it, I tried to date others girls too but it dont feel the same, I am bitter about life. Recently we have watched the stars together on a night walk, and she announced me that she will move far from our town in 2 weeks for studying, so I could see her again in 1 year only, all that to say that it made me think that now Im not sure if life is really about chasing dream or the end of it, do I let her go forever and give up those years and loose all my goals, or do I wait hoping selfishly that her couple break so maybe I will get an other chance with her and then I do chasing my dream ? I have no power over that, I cant even take drastic step that will stop all my sorrow because she will never forgive it to herself, no matter what I do it look like I can only make the bad choice, so yes, maybe giving up on everything is the way to settle things once and for all .
@@FlavourFR whatever you do do not kys instead go the gym change yourself change you’re personality until you feel like you’ve done everything right and you can do it again and again and again and again you will be fine and you will be happy and you will be able to do whatever it takes you to do it
ily nym thanks for this whats harder than being alone is being surrounded by people you dont like and being forced into a religion so strict that u cant do anything u want
If anyone is reading this YOUR PAST DOESNT DEFINE YOU, just because it was sunny long ago and it has rained for a long time doesn’t mean that the sun wont come out again, trough tough times you have to accept them, crying and thinking how i could’ve changed something wont bring my father back or literally anything that has happened in my life, you have to accept who you are your past and then you can heal and change, most people are depressed because they hate who they become but ITS NOT YOUR FAULT there is A LOT of thing you couldn’t affect and if there was its fine, you can always change but you have to stop being chained to your past and give yourself a breather or a hug, IT IS FINE even tho life has thrown many rocks at you you are still here. And when your going through doubts me personally when i go trough lows and doubts i get back up because i know my true calling and i truly believe that i was put on this earth for a reason, you have to find your passion (it could be literally ANYTHING) and pursue it, you wont doubt yourself if you truly believe you were made for something bigger, you have to find what you love and share it with people. I just woke up so i haven’t said everything thats on my mind so if you have questions just ask :)
What if youre stuck in unsafety, or have to choose between unsafety and loneliness? What if your abuser/neglecter doesn't respect your space and invades it even when you are away?
@@harirao7929trying to find people you can Trust who Show interest and listen to what you say people who give you Comfort and learning to be your own friend that will never give up on himself
@@harirao7929 me personally i have never been in that situation but you should NEVER put up with abuse, you are not a dog or an animal to need to get disciplined or something like that, idk your feelings towards that person but if they loved you like you love them they would never do something like that, they might seem like they are the only one for you but believe you can find someone that is worthy of you and respect you. You dont love someone if you dont respect them
I had a freind that was very naturally gifted at playing piano, he could listen to a song and try a few times to play it and learn it. That made me want to try aswell and even though i still suck at it i still try to play because it makes me happy. And you were very good and i hope you get better🙏
@lixzww yeah I'll keep trying I just can't get my left hand to work with my right I know it takes a lot of practice to get that down but I js feel like I can't do it
Sadness/Depression is beautiful if we accept it and listen to ourselves in those moments where time seemingly stands still. Everything passes and life moves as the tide does, high to low the waves always fluctuate. We only become stuck when we avoid our senses and distract to ease that pain. Thank you for sharing. Keep going. Ur playing got me singing, thank you.
Lately, I’ve been feeling like doing nothing and giving up but then this video pops in my recommendation. Good to see I am not the only one feeling this way. Stay strong guys hope you all will achieve what you are working for!
Yesterday was my 18th birthday... And I had never fellt so lonely in life. Then your video came in my UA-cam algorithm even though I don't know you ... And whatever you said in this video resonated so much with my feelings. Because I was also once a talented kid and was loved by everyone, but now that I am growing older I am becoming more and more lonely. Your video really helped me with the processing of my feelings. Honestly, I don't want to be liked by anyone now. I dont want to change anything. Everything is perfect and I will enjoy my life the way I want to. As a kid, I was a brilliant student but I am not that smart anymore. I will try my best to again reach my full potential and be the same smart and bright kid I used to be once, even though no one is there by my side. I know that I have not done anything for which I have to be disliked by anyone. So its ok. I will live my life and whoever has to be a part of my life, will eventually come up. From now on, I will not let anyone to have the power of controlling my emotions. And thank you for the video and I also wish you all the best for your life.
i can understand what you're going through and i can also understand why this is happening... people are so quick to label us as talented/gifted but they don't realize that this tag can and will stay for a long time which will haunt you when you grow older. There are a lot of times that i feel the same way as you but the only thing that worked for me was to address this feeling of loneliness by first identifying why this is happening to me in the first place, then trying to rectify/ solve it by getting out of my comfort zone. It will take a LOT of conscious effort and painful amount of time for this to go away but you'll need to understand that the only person who can genuinely help you, is your own self. I wish you a very Happy Birthday (belated) and i hope that you have a great year. We are here to help you (p.s: just ask:))
Man watching this is like having a feeling of comfort which my pathetic life doesn't have, soon I'm going to be forgotten. I just know it.. it is going to happen. The description is helpful but I hope my family understood what I been going through, I already lost 3 of my friends. Depression for almost 5 years and I can't help myself anymore. plus the only thing I heard from one of the 3 gone friends was just "let's go hangout" in which I didn't and never heard of them again.
Yeah this reminds me of a quote I heard when I was really young “If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes, you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, this thing we call ‘failure’ is the falling down, it is the staying down.” I’m still young, but I understand the importance of this quote more and more every day, the importance of making mistakes and practicing every aspect of my life daily, noting everything that went well. Most importantly never letting go of my talents (never quitting music, even when my career takes me away from it) and keeping in touch with friends. Any way hope you have a nice day, to you who read this comment!
Bro that crying while playing is the realest thing cuz its not just the sadness its the nostalgia hitting you its the fact that you wont get that time back those days of happiness you felt back it feels weird to describe but easier to show
Nym, thank you. This is truly a powerful message, truly. I am currently a Sophomore, and though young I know more about depression then most, I'm sure. Depression is truly something to deal with. Lost my grandma at the age of 9. Began to overthink everything. Fell into depression. First heartbreak in middle school. 2nd week of my freshman year a friend of mine passed away. In Freshman year, many connections with friends were weakened. I was depressed, alone, afraid. Another heartbreak in that same year, and another some time after that. Depression, overthinking, self harm, anxiety, anything you can think of. I've gone through it. I've given up on a lot. I know how it is giving up, truly I do. But watching a video like this, from a girl I saw and thought "Wow, she's beautiful. Perfect. Famous too, amazing." It's nice to know it's not just "normal" people who go through this. Although I know every famous celebrity or famous social media users go through what we do, it's still a nice refreshment to see they truly do. Don't get me wrong, seeing one in pain is not a nice refresher, but seeing one get through it, and are confident enough to share it to their fanbase and in telling them their not alone and giving them this motivation to keep going, it's beautiful. You truly are kind, Nym. Truly. Thank you for caring. Though we may be strangers, us, your fanbase, are here with you. Your never alone. I'm here for you. Your never alone. Keep going Nym. Keep doing what you love. Don't let haters get in the way of that. Your doing just fine. Your doing great. I love you. If you needed to hear these words, I'll day it again from the heart. I love you. Thank you.
Merci, ta vidéo ma fait comprendre que moi aussi j'ai perdu une partie de moi, une partie qui était fière de ce qu'il accomplissait... Je faisait aussi des vidéo mais pour x raison j'ai arrêter. La motivation et la passion n'était plus là même les résultats était là les vue et ma commu... J'ai perdu bcp...mais ta vidéo ma donné envie de reprendre même si c'est presque de zéro tant pis j'y crois à fond. Courage pour ton développement personnal you are your own hero of your life peace.
From the past few days I was very irritated by myself because of the pressure from my parents and they are my parents I can't tell them about my feelings and let thier dreams shatter but after listening to your story I felt like I can overcome from all of the pressure and can achieve something big thank you so much for this This side of youtube is very hard to find nowadays but i found it thanks to youtube algorithm and once again thank you so much it means alot
I think this video was a saving grace for me. The way she reconnected with herself by doing something she used to be good at, and still is, hit me very hard. I think focusing on things we want to do and that we're good at, will help us keep going. Also, she has a lovely voice, you should definitely sing more.
Please keep in mind that you should NEVER throw away your dreams. This is meant for everyone. Please guys focus on your dreams. Never give up, I’ve been in the same tracks of giving up on my dreams. But when I heard this speech said by Ke Huy Quan, it had inspired me to keep believing in my dreams. “To all of you out there, please keep your dreams alive. Dreams are something you have to believe in. I almost gave up on mine, they say stories like this happen in the movies. I cannot believe it happened to me.” -Ke Huy Quan
Salut Nym, je fais ce message pour te donner tout mon soutien possible. La vie n'est pas facile, mais il faut garder la tête haute pour pouvoir continuer. Tu mérites littéralement tout le bonheur du monde. Tu es une femme forte avec un grand coeur et une gentillesse hors-norme. Malheureusement tu souffrais derrière ton masque pour au final avoir encore plus mal. Il faut continuer sans relâche pour réussir, la seule chose qu'il faut, c'est de toujours se relever dans les moments où on a failli abandonner. Je te souhaite le meilleur pour toi, Merci infiniment Nym, ne doute jamais de toi ❤️
If i looked like you i would make the most of every single day 😭 the world will always love you even if you have nothing else to offer, you should be thankful to God for creating you and giving you these opportunities. Accept the life you’ve been blessed with as a beautiful person
ive been depressed most of my life and i usually avoid these types of vids because they never work and I don't really feel anything but I feel empathy in a way and understand it and appreciate it, not sure what made me watch it but thank you for making it
Strong video Nym. I never expected you make a motivational video like that. This video gave me motivation to improve my self further. Thank you and Stand proud. You worked hard to get your piano skills back and improved when thinking back when you played piano in the cooking stream with your mother. You did a great job and hopefully you wont suffer from depression for long. Take care!
thank you for this, I'm at a relatively small age to already have depression, along with suicidal thoughts, but I felt something free itself in my body, I just cant explain it but I feel better now, thank you...
You’ve been through quite a lot, I can understand feeling sad and hopeless. The feeling of being alone but you still being here and to continue trying in life shows tremendous strength and will. Things will get better in life for you and not knowing you I can still say I’m very proud of you for trying and getting back up! Things will get better I promise! (You also played the piano and sang beautifully good job!!)
This reminds me of the time i went through a long depression myself, for years. I got out of it eventually and i did thank God that i was still alive. I was grateful. I remember those times of introspectiveness and search for meaning and wondered why this was happening to me. One day at a time I told myself. One day at a time. This too shall pass. The journey will end eventually on it's own, there's no point in rushing it. I was curious to see what was the next chapter in life not just for myself but for everyone around me. And sometimes my one favorite show at the time is what kept me going, i wanted to see the next season. i now have twin nieces that i would've never met had i not been around. I can't believe they're still real. They remind me of my mom which is so strange. They're so cute. I have plenty of other reasons to keep going now, but above all i feel better and i never thought that I would. Keep going.
ive seen tons of videos about anxiety and depression, but this one really hit my heart...so unexpected that i cried... i feel the same way about my past, and how i was a really good kid but now im scared to try anything cause failing would make everyone hate me. i dont know if the people around me would care if i died, or if they want me to die... i tried freeing myself. relieving them. it didnt work, but this video made me feel like im not a complete failure, and i have people who can relate to me now...thankyou for saving me...i needed this.
I might not know what kind of person you are or what you are like but I know you can get through whatever you are struggling with remember you have no obligation to be someone else or someone you used to be strive to be better than you were yesterday. it's okay to not feel like yourself sometimes. try to be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to grow and change. Even if it feels like you’re not the person you used to be, you’re still you and that’s someone worth caring for and appreciating. Focus on small steps, Every step counts, no matter how small it seems. Please remember that you are valuable and loved, just as you are now, and there is always hope for a brighter tomorrow.
What scares me the most is not that my life is spiraling out of control. It's that I can't seem to care about it. Zero emotions. I just let it happen and I can't find motivation to change anything. I'm doing more and more harm by poisoning my body and mind each day even though I know better. I can't seem to care about anything anymore. I guess I'm depressed? That seems about right. How can you not be depressed when you're failing at every single aspect of life? Nevermind asking questions like "why are we here?". I'm sad enough already. I don't know what to do. I look at people who seem to have at least a couple of aspects figured out and root for them to succeed. As for myself, it might be too late. I'm sinking deeper and deeper every day and my soul is aching. My mind is thinking about the happier days from my childhood and how much went wrong with the "plan" I made back then. The damage is done and now I'm just lost, drifting through life. I need help...
@DivineRogue_ Thanks for your reply. It's at least somewhat comforting to know that I'm not alone. I truly hope you'll find someone like that, though I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to regardless. Just drop a new reply and I'll be here.
Idk how to help you but i hope tomorrow you r gonna feel fullness and i wish something really good happen and make you feel way more better ! I wish you the best i cry when i see someone like this ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ big warm hugs and blessings
I was once there too man. For several years during high school, I fell into apathy. I was exhausted from emotions. I had cared too much about achieving results to keep my family members and teachers happy, and it led to me not wanting to feel at all. I would have several classes in each of those two academic years where I would constantly be in danger of failing and barely pull my grades upward in time for report cards. I wanted to care so badly-- I could see I was going nowhere, and falling apart. It felt like I was constantly in battle with myself, but I just couldn't bring myself to care still. It took me around four years to fully recover from that point in life. I finally asked my dad if he could help me with some of my chemistry homework, and help keep me accountable. I spent a year trying to notice beautiful things in life and doing my best to notice the small beauty in everything around me. It took some therapy, and learning through conversation with someone that it was really important to show compassion to my younger past self-- someone who was lost, hurt, confused, and just trying to navigate a big and complicated world and making mistakes along the way. I started taking notes in my classes more diligently, first because a teacher required it and then out of habit. And now, one of the most important thoughts I return to is a lyric from an artist I like (Noah Kahan), where he says "That feeling, the ache, is better than nothing at all." I've gradually learned it's okay to be vulnerable with myself and others and open myself to experiencing more deep emotions again, even if sometimes it hurts so much. I've started focusing on following a trajectory that takes me toward being the kind of person I want to become, rather than worrying about concrete end goals and which exact path I'll take. I know everyone says it, but it really does get better as long as you don't let yourself lose hope, and start with just stacking up those little moments piece by piece. Eventually, they become something so much bigger than they started, and you'll realize you've come such a long way since those times. It's never too late to experience beautiful things in life, and to open yourself up to emotions, others, and caring about things again, even if it hurts and can be a long process.
Was not prepared for an emotional vid at such a random time but that aside im so proud of what youve had to overcome and still keep going. Love watching your stuff, ur community is awesome to be a part of and i cant wait to see whats ahead for u. Stay golden
You saying "This is why you practice everyday" hit me so hard to remind me of how hard you have to work for things you might want and not everything comes without it. Working out, getting better looks, better health, it all comes with putting energy and effort into those things and the reward is great despite the hardships in front of us. Hearing you cry hurts but also remember you are never alone, I and many others support you are your fan and love you dearly never stop working hard for us and importantly yourself dear, you're wonderful in everyway truly. Can't imagine what it's like to feel alone like this, travelling places to feel something, again we are all here for you if you need it :) being forced to do things can be hard for a while of initially beginning them but they are beautiful in how they impact your life and change how you are in some good ways some bad, but the experiences affect your whole life to make that mould of a person. You may get put on a pedestal by us because of your beautiful body and looks, beautiful voice and your talent on the piano, and we say that for how hard we see you try and work to get those things and we're proud of you for getting through all this, even posting a video like this takes courage and is admiring as heck. I could type for hours saying good things here but the main things is keep working hard like you are, and we will be there behind you, much love and hugs sent your way keep going you got this ❤
I loved taking these 10 minutes of my life to listen to you play and learn about you. And I hope that one day you will find something or someone who will love you more than. themselves,then he will make you as happy as you wish.
i had always seen you around on pinterest and stuff and i find it really inspiring and cool to hear the story behind those images now, how we all are more than just how we appear online. stay strong and always take the next opportunity you're given to get out of your comfort zone.
Least you got back to it. I’ve had an attraction to the violin since I was a young child. Back in my early teens I would play every week. I was also very shy , and every time I was invited to play concertos I would decline out of fear. Over time I stopped playing. I’m much older now , and I look back at it as something I deeply regret leaving behind. A piece of me.
Well it's never too late to pick it back up right, go for it at least for a bit and see if the spark comes back to you , good luck and wish you the best
This actually made a diffrence in my life thanks to you i didnt give up on my self i was planing to quit evrything and end it all thank you for making this vid
You strong, don't cry don't forcing you to hard. Take some rest, do you see how infinite are you. I'm a new fan, i'm just start following you on twitch and tiktok and i know you're a strong woman. Strong people need to take some rest
i had depression my whole life now. Went to a mental hospital in 2018 and stayed in there for 3 months. I wanted to share that now (2024) i have been way happier because i’ve been living the life i wanted to live due to my hard work. I wanted to be an actor/content creator and i started to do acting professionally in 2021. I quit my day job in 2023 and it’s helped so much. An eye opening moment that saved me from myself was when i lost a friend in high school and recently i lost a family member. Both to mental health. Knowing that it could’ve been me is sad but i stay strong. Of course the times come every now and then but i been good. Therapy helped a lot also! Hope whoever is reading this in the future keeps going and live the lifestyle that they want. It’s possible to get what you want but you have to find out how.
Thank you so much for this! I think I'm a loser now, old, no money, no partner, no skills, nothing. But I ain't gonna give up on trying. Thank you so much! You give me the courage! LETSGO!!!👍👍💖
I also have been suffering from depression for almost the same reasons u have. Not feeling like ur good at anything and being alone. But everytime you fail you always learn and get better, thats just how it works. If your alone, consider that people like me and others are always here for you, stay strong nym🙏🙏🙏
Was depressed for almost 2 years, i got out of it by quitting my job and having 1 year only to myself figuring myself out. Now i know i should‘ve gotten professional help, it would have helped me so much more but i am a stubborn guy. Now i am working a different job, 2,5years together with my beautiful gf, 2 cats, nice money and a nice apartment. I am not scared for the anxiety comming back or possibly depression- because i know how to get out of it and what to do to avoid it. You guys need to figure yourself out and spend time with your thoughts- ask yourself who you rly are and what u rly want in life- this takes months or years to figure out so don‘t rush yourself. ❤
I haven't cried for about two years. I just physically couldn’t. but when I started watching this video, I saw how similar our stories are. You very accurately described how I feel and what is happening in my life. I felt a little better knowing that I wasn't the only one going through this. when you started singing, I cried. for the first time in a very long time. you have a very beautiful voice and I admire you. thank you, nym
your voice and piano playing are absolutely beautiful i'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way please remember that you are not alone and that there are people who care about you your talent and presence mean a lot to many of us take one day at a time and don't hesitate to reach out for support stay strong
THIS IS THE REALEST VIDEO I EVER SEEN: WHAT EVER HAPPEND DONT GIVE UP. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR YOUR VIDEO AND I JUST WRITE IN BIG LETTERS RIGHT KNOW BECAUSE I HOPE YOU SEE THIS. I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Damn… that shi hit hard. It actually made me cry. Recently I’ve been feeling like shit and that everybody hates me and nobody cares but this gave me hope that I should keep pushing forward. Thanks :3 ur vid was great :). Also ur really good at piano and it was very calming listening to it :D
"The things you hate to do now might be one of the most beautiful things that helped shape the future you." This happened to me with cooking. I grew up with my mom cooking a lot of meals at home. Not every meal was great, but she tried, and she'd often rope me into helping in some way; shucking corn, cutting onions, mashing potatoes, etc. At the time, I hated it. I thought it was stupid, boring, and pointless. But now? It's all I can do to not think of those moments fondly. It's because of those meals, those people, and those things I hated to do that now make me feel like I'm finally feel like I'm finding a piece of myself that I was convinced died a long time ago. Thank you for sharing this. It makes me feel like I'm not so crazy for changing careers to try and do something that makes me feel anything.
genuinely one of the most beautiful videos i've ever watched. i've always struggled with finding motivation or willpower to do anything, even if it's something i love. my rediscovered talent that has helped me start pushing past that struggle is writing. in march, i finally went back and finished a short story series i'd started a year prior. more recently, i've found my love in writing music and poetry. i'm working on a sixteen track album and i only have one song left to finish writing. as i read back the older songs i've finished compared to ones i've finished now, i can see the improvement. that improvement is motivation in and of itself, it makes me so happy. watching myself grow from the corny lyrics to the ones with genuine impact and deep context is wonderful. that motivation to keep pushing forward, keep getting better, keep fighting to be the best version of myself, it saved my life. i went through hell, but my patience persevered. now, i'm the happiest i've ever been, and i can't be more grateful for that.
Ya know boss, it’s good that you’re reconnecting with something that you liked as a kid, that’s admirable to see someone do, which is not always easy sometimes man. Yeah sure, it’s like you said, failing at something doesn’t mean you give up on said thing that you yourself are trying to achieve, it’s a constant reminder to push yourself to be better at it. A side note; You play the piano amazingly well, along with your stunning singing voice, hopefully you go far beyond with that talent.
Something i never knew I needed.. right now i don’t know what i’ll do in life. I just finished school and as far as i knew, that’s all i really had planned in my life. Wake up, go to school, get home, do my hw, sleep and repeat. But now, during summer break, I’ve realized i have no idea where i’ll go from here. There’s so much i want, so much I want to see.. but the world isn’t a place where we can act as we want without some sort of challenge following. I wish i didn’t have to face the dangers and the hardships but as they say.. life is full of challenges you have to overcome. And this made me accept that. Thank you for this..
Your singing is beautiful and so is the way you play the piano. But I do hope you reconnect with the side that made you happy and I believe you will I hope you get better 1 step at a time. The world is brighter with you in it. You make my day better every time I see your TikToks and streams
The worst thing that can happen to a growing kid is being labeled as "gifted & talented". They don't learn how to grow through hard work, but rather "talent", and once they grow up and compete with other people who didn't rely on talent, they fall behind.
I went through a similar dark and depressed stint in the Marine Corps. I was trying so hard to be a good Marine that I lost touch with who I was. It wasn’t until my wife was offered an old upright piano from her college friend that I started to wake up. Having a piano in the house to play reminded me that I am a musician, a friend, a teacher, a lover. I used to write music growing up and played for 15 years. Then the Marines took up all my time. It consumed everything. Now 3 year after that realization I fought for my time back. I am playing music almost daily, I volunteer to play at my church, and I promised myself that no matter how busy I get, I will never let my work overcome who I am again. Never. Remember, your work will never love you back. Your passions allow you to love yourself. And you have to be able to love yourself, no matter how many people love you.
been trying to fight the urge to kms for a few years now. but I don't do it for my parents and my friends, plus I wanna know if life gets better (I hope it does, and the singing was good too keep it up, you got this)
It truly does, idk you life story but you sure have a reason, idk that reason, but believe me, if you look at a marathon you think you can never compete it because its too big, but if you take your time and enjoy that route you will finish it, in a day or a two, but you will finish it, but some finish in hours, you cant compare yourself with others, everyone has their own speed. Just like a marathon healing is a long process and everyone have their own speed of healing, i am a stranger on the internet and i cant help you with everything, but if you try at your own speed and appreciate the journey you will reach your destination
It gets better, I promise. There are times where I felt like an empty shell and I would cry every time I woke up. I genuinely did not see a future for myself but I promise you that you have one and that there are bright days ahead. I’m rooting for you💗
Sarah I know it's been hard for you but I know you still can manage to squeak through give all your problems to god because he loves you he will talk with you about your problems a wise man once said "Everything will be ok at the end if it's not ok it's not the end" I know you've been depressed but it's not worth it to give up on everything there's a lot of ppl watching you I hope this reaches out to you I just know you can manage ur depression I know you can do it WE know you CAN do it because we love you we love your content, I hope this helps.
"Everything is good or for good" Pain comes, pain goes. Yesterday you were happy, today you might be sad. But, I feel like that's the whole point. If we were happy all the time we would be bored as well. That's like the balance of life.
as Bob Ross quoted "Gotta have opposites dark and light, light and dark in painting. It's like in life. Gotta have a little sadness once in a while so you know when the good times come." "Put light against light - you have nothing. Put dark against dark - you have nothing. It's the contrast of light and dark that each give the other one meaning."
1:26 That question hit hard ngl... cuz I feel like it too. I make music, I remember my younger self being a fearless experimentalist in music production, but now I can't get myself to challenge those boundaries again.. Fear of failure, fear of being questioned, fear of being looked down upon.. Idk why I feel that way, but if I can get back to be like my younger self again, then I'd do anything for it.. Also your Piano skills are pretty amazing mate, don't give up yet, keep it up 💛💙
Sarah you are one of my favorite person on earth I used to watch your streams on twitch when you were still averaging around 50-100 viewers and you would respond to my stuff on twitch which never happened to me… please don’t give up since you helped me you don’t understand how much you’ve helped me a stranger just by uploading your contents and streaming ❤🎉
I went to your channel to see more videos of that vibe and found out it's actually your first, congratulations! It resonated with me and was absolutely honest which I admired. If you were wondering what to do next, that kind of melancholic piano and singing are what I WISH I could listen to, it's calming and simply beautiful, the way you do it. Cheers and good luck for the future!
I started my journey on making my own video game alone 7 months ago, it’s a very long and difficult process, sometimes I have 0 motivations and I do nothing, sometimes I work so much and do sleepless night. But I hope someday I will publish my game and it’s gonna be a banger and played in the entire world. This comment is a testament to myself, I’m gonna do it, no matter what it costs, because this is one of my dream and I will not give up, I will live without any regret and by doing everything I can do. Thanks for reading, this comment will be found in the future when my game will be known internationally, it’s the foreshadowing of my life. I love you all !
_“what happened to the talented kid i used to be?”_ actually hit so SO close to home
followed by: "where is everyone?" had me in tears immediately
@@JustFinnS mhm 😭
Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light. (Ephesians 5:14)
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the making of a legend.
Relatable
“You will thank yourself in the future” simple but hits hard
Your welcome pastis
@TopTommer lol 😂
If only I could still remember what better feels like
what if it never worked out for you, you will hate yourself and everything
SO MUCH
I also cried because I recognized myself in what she said... Feeling alone... or just pretending to be happy in front of people... then when you come home that's when your anxieties resurface... Sometimes I feel useless... I like to make others laugh... but when I feel alone that's when I'm the saddest... I like to learn the violin and the keyboard personally. I can't stop crying just thinking that I recognize myself in this video... I know what it feels like and I'm with you all the way...
I'm so sorry for you buddy...
sameee
My life is trash but i like it😭
I don't wanna lie to you
Everybody is like this to see that you are not truly good is a good thing to see that we pretend isn't a bad thing at all so we just cope with it by talking to friends and seeing that we are truly not alone
I personally don't hate the life you're describing but I hate the loneliness too it's the worst thing in my life and I think the answer is to find somebody understanding and kiss them till you don't remember why you hated yourself
Wish you the best and go find love
same
she can actually be a singer...her voice is so peaceful making me sleep
Clairo like voice
Dude or dudette you need to come to my church, my pastor will put you to sleep like a baby! 😂
She can sing the lullaby and I can guarantee that most of her viewers are going to fall asleep
agree..
Damn right
The best advice I ever got from my therapist is that I wasn’t broken and that nothing was wrong with me. I’m just who I am and that’s okay. Some people might react because you’re different but it doesn’t mean you’re doing anything wrong, you’re just being you and that’s okay.
I spent a good majority of my life as someone who dealt with depression and suicidal thoughts. I always thought there was something broken inside of me, something innately wrong that I had to dig deep and fix. I felt emotions so strongly and it drained me, to the point that I would feel hollow and lonely. I thought it was wrong of me to feel this way.
Nobody had ever told me it was okay to just be the way I was. I felt guilty and doubted myself. There were so many times I felt like a burden and a failure. It didn’t matter that I was finishing college or graduating top of my class. It didn’t matter that my future looked bright because I couldn’t even see five feet in front of me. I was living in darkness. I was living in a constant cloud of self doubt, inferiority and I incorrectly beloved that I was this broken shell that needed to get better and that needed to fix the broken part of me.
Nothing was broken. I just needed some polishing. I needed to face the insecurity within myself. I needed to trust the world a bit more and forgive the people who had hurt me, including myself.
I went to therapy and did some hard work but I still didn’t feel happy and didn’t feel satisfied with my progress. Then one day my therapist told me there was nothing wrong with me, that I wasn’t this broken, incorrect mess. I’m just a person and I’m just living my life how I need to. It was so freeing and it helped to connect so many dots deep within myself. Even the people who loved me the most were unintentionally perpetuating this pattern of me “needing to change” certain aspects of me.
I would always internally say I need to stop doing this or that. I would internally knock myself down a peg and never celebrate myself. I would create and write but after I read it a couple times I would just doubt it and think it was trash. I wasn’t writing it for anyone but myself and yet I would judge it as garbage as if these phantom judges were coming in and deeming it so. Every single instance of my being was judged by my mind and deemed right or wrong. My self guilt would overwhelm me and many many times I would just want to end things because I didn’t deserve the life I was living. I had so much story book type reasons to be happy and I just couldn’t will myself to be happy and appreciate the moments.
I wasn’t a kid anymore. I didn’t know how to be happy. It didn’t come naturally anymore.
I confronted so many sad, lonely, overprotective parts of myself that just wanted to be loved and cared for. They were parts that nobody could really take care of except for myself and I was ashamed of them, sadly neglecting them for years and years out of shame.
Now, I have confronted them all and come to understand them better. I’ve forgiven others and I’ve forgiven myself for pain that was unfairly caused to me. It wasn’t easy but I feel a lot more happy now and I haven’t had any suicidal thoughts in a long time thankfully.
Even when you are alone, you are never alone. Your mind is made up of parts, parts meant to protect you and parts that want you to live. They get confused sometimes and think they are protecting you from pain or trauma but in reality they can sometimes make things worse. Forgive yourself, confront yourself, and over time, learn to love yourself. You are special. You are unique. You are your mind’s favorite person even if you don’t realize it. It spends its entire existence trying to take care of you and protect you from the world.
Typing about this makes me feel free and understood. Thank you for the experience. You are heard. You are felt. You are appreciated. Your mind loves you so much even when nobody else does. If your mind is telling you differently, that’s your self doubt or fear trying to invade. Be strong. Life is always worth it, you might just not feel it yet.
Close your eyes and feel your soul connect with the rest of the world. We are all connected. Every act of pain or violence hurts us all. Every act of love and care heals us all.
If you read this, thank you for listening. I feel healed for the moment. Good night.
thank you alex
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everyone that has tried to help me said I needed to take action and change to be better. I still kinda believe that, but maybe you're right.. ive been told its my fault for not even trying to change (I am trying so hard) idk what to believe anymore
if you want to go deeper into the rabbit hole, 'Unveiling Your Hidden Potential' by Bruce Thornwood is a must-read
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@@cashiusCon yuppp
You’re genuinely puerile for self promoting your book on here. This is coming from a writer…
@@cashiusCon you know saying Bot? under every comment also just makes you look like a bot.
That bot had a lot more of a relevant comment than you did to the video
The book is related to bettering yourself, which is the focus of the video
Maybe you should pick up that book, bud
@@luvbird I only put it under one comment cause I was wondering, Calm down bro. Were free to comment as much as we want man it doesn’t hurt anybody it doesn’t have to be relevant to the video because it’s relevant to the comment cause i’m commenting under the comment not the video. Maybe we both should read it lol.
pianist here with 8 years of classical training. Your playing is light and evokes beautiful, peaceful emotions. You made me lie down and close my eyes, listening to you sing and play..
I understand your feelings. The biggest amount of money and the best food and the best clothes will not make you happy. What will make you happy is self-actualization - becoming who you want to be and accomplishing what you want to accomplish.
And I want you to know that it's not over. Even if you feel like you wasted something you had, you need to believe that's simply the way your life was meant to go. That's the path God laid out for you, so that something else could happen in your life, or so you would realize something... And we all believe that you can still find happiness, this way or another.
Peace be with you.
To me, we don't lose parts of ourselves forever, simply because it's not broken. It's still here, inside.
Certain parts of ourselves have fallen into a state of dormancy as a result of an environment and activities that no longer stimulate them sufficiently. But being aware of this is enough to give us back access to these lost parts by working on what we forgot to work on. Or by doing what we forgot we liked to do.
That's something I actually think everyday and it makes me feel calm and composed. It's like I have to play my part on the role God has laid down for me and he guides me everyday.
You don’t know how much this resonates in my soul, I feel the same way about my past and way my life is going, I’m thankful for the things I went through though because they make me what I am today. I loved it when you said “ the things you hate to do now might be one of the most beautiful things that helped shape the future you.” so I thank you! For this video, being vulnerable with a multitude of strangers about your own personal struggles, I hope you stay positive and build upon your self and grow. God bless you.
we have free will, our choices are not predetermined
hey i dont know u and u dont know me but i js wanted to leave a comment and say that pain & suffering never lasts forever. if u give up today you'll never know if tomorrow was the day that everything would change, and if you stop trying you'll never know what could've happened if you decided to try. everyone watching this video is loved by someone. everyone. have a wonderful day and please stay safe 😁😁
what does that mean? not like all my problems are gonna magically dissolve if i just hope for it to be?
thank you for leaving this here
@@NEPtune-fy1ug they might not dissolve or dissapear but problems and awful days or weeks dont last forever, if they do not get washed away with time over time you will get the oppurtunity to overcome them
I am speaking from experience with dealing with really shitty circumstances, just do what you can and leave the rest to time and the rest of the forces in this world we cannot control
@@NEPtune-fy1ug disrespectfully shut the fuck up. You come to terms with things in your mind.
my gabling mentality gotta love it
You actually hit me with “what happened to the talented kid i used to be” not everybody will relate
im at a deep depression peak and i see this, i thank you and youtube for helping me with it
Same
nah next week we are going to be the same
@@lothar1443 dont bring others down with you
@@lothar1443 at least this week you have enough courage to do something that will break the cycle that you are in
@@lothar1443 go be a mood killer somewhere else dawg
If you, at the end of your life watch your last ever movie, you'll notice these beautiful moments where you never gave up and kept trying until you became the best version of you.
what a beautiful sentence, thank you.
What you said does not apply to the majority of the population who are essentially soulless.
@@SirArtorias of course, I hope you can become the best version of you
@@butterflyqueen2894 well, that's your opinion, but this is one way of thinking to do better in life
Wish u could see my comment but urs is cool
i've always dreamed of being a footballer, being on the pitch, score goals, hear the chants of the crowd and be the best player until someone toke away my dedication, my football and my happiness by saying that i would never do that because i was bad and i have no money and my parents are poor and i could never get an opportunity and now i look back and thank myself for not giving up, cuz ladies and gentlemen i just got an big opportunity
and by the way nym, your voice is so relaxing, and your skills with the piano gives me chills (i legit just found you on YT)
Good to hear, keep working hard and i hope you make it 👊
very relaxing the way she plays the piano
Real
true
True
True, but my heart aches when she cries..
Fax
When you're a kid the bar is low, almost anyone could be labeled as talented/gifted. I say this from experience, everyone seems to see me as smart. Yet I disagree. I feel like I had a head start with school so naturally I stood out. Entering adulthood (I'm turning 18 soon) the bar isn't nearly as low. There are many bars but the only one you feel proud of crossing is one that none other have crossed. Not only does the world ask more of you, but you begin to do so as well. Witnessing only the success of others and the way others interpret the world takes a toll on an average person's life. I say this because it's possible you feel certain moments should make you feel happy just because it made others happy, I know I feel this way. The story of the hero and the villain doesn't interest everyone, some like to see a sad ending. Other's (Like me) just want to feel a strong emotion: sadness, anger, happiness, anxiousness. Sometimes improving feels like a chore, so whenever you come across a strong emotion remember that moment. If your chest feels heavy, if your eyes feel tired, if your stomach feels empty, or if you still feel empty. Don't interpret an emotion as negative, no emotion is "bad" per say. I doubt you'll be numb to other emotions, it's just harder to feel them. Oh, and I know you can feel a mix of both, sometimes you can feel a heavy chest and feel like whatever's happening is suffocating but you're still feeling happy. If so, dig deeper, there's something underneath that's eating you from within. I have no experience with depression, but I hope this helped you.
(There I go again, giving people solutions when they just want to voice their thoughts) 🙃
I appreciate this, sometimes advice aren’t wanted by others and that’s okay but that doesn’t apply to everyone. I’m thankful you spent your time writing your thought, it helps enlighten others like myself. Just trying to figure things out, I need more insight from others
Couldn't agree more. I'm also about to turn 18 and I've been feeling miserable for the last 6 years (yeah since i was 12). I don't know if it's depression or not but sometimes I just wish not to wake up. That's because, like you said, the bar is set too high, I've got to reach the expectations and I can't afford failing once more. I've always felt so different, so wrong, that sometimes I wish I just wasn't here. Sometimes I feel like others wish that I wasn't there too... All my friends just don't accept me from what I am because I'm too different, and I don't reach their expectations. I just wish I didn't feel the need to make anybody else happy but me. I wish I liked myself a bit more too. Anyways sorry for the rambling but I guess your comment gave me an excuse to tell myself why I feel this way lol
Man, now I think I wanna share my thoughts. Honestly I wanted to say more but held back. It’s kinda funny, I’m finding a lot of comfort from hearing everyone’s story. I think the similarities are helping me. I know I’m not the only one going through this but no one ever talks about it so despite you knowing that you’re not alone, you feel alone. I’m 18 already and just recently graduated this year, hopefully I’m not outing myself too much 😅. But yeah I’ve been struggling with my mental health for a while now too about 6-7 years. I think I just wanted to share a rant from my journal that I wrote a few days ago, I feel like it resonates with the idea of success and expectations.
8/3/24
If being “smart” discredits my work, then I don’t want to be smart. It’s funny cause being called smart is a compliment right? But I’m becoming really tired of hearing it, I’m annoyed when people call me “smart”. When my family and others talk about how they can’t do something but I can because I’m “smart” and when I describe something as “not hard” and they say “Well that’s because you’re smart”. Using it as a word to describe my achievements and work. Using it to differentiate my efforts and theirs. They think it comes easy to me, they think I’m some genius but I’m not. I remember when I went back to my elementary school for Grad Walk I ran into some acquaintances. Having found out that I’m valedictorian from grad practice, they congratulated me. To which one of them said “You’re valedictorian, you must be really smart.” I replied, trying to explain how I wasn’t smart but just worked really hard. She told me to not sell myself short but I wasn’t. I was telling the truth, the absolute truth. I’m self-aware and I know that my intelligence is average. (I’ve taken an IQ test before and I’ve scored below the average. A task that will take another person 10 minutes, would take me a whole hour. I work at an unbelievably slow pace, my brain runs at the speed of a sloth and my best friend jokes that I have one brain cell despite me being academically successful than her (love her to death)). To add on to this, I remember how at grad practice one of the teachers commented “aren’t you guys supposed to be the smart ones?” After our row messed up. Like somehow us achieving good grades meant we couldn’t make mistakes anymore. This stupid idea of how students who attain honorable marks and recognition means they’re smart, intelligent, and above average irritates me. Of course, there are individuals who are like that and some who wouldn’t complain about being called smart because it is the case. However to sum up theirs and others accomplishments to them just being “smart” doesn’t give justice to their efforts. I do not have an unordinary mind, I just worked really really hard. Sleepless nights, hours of studying, reading, and researching, putting things aside that I enjoyed, and out of all, my health. I wrecked myself up to obtain it. I’m not smart, just overly determined and ambitious. I just didn’t want to fail my parents expectations and most of all, my efforts. Destroying myself over the years only to fail would’ve killed me. I was just scared. I pushed myself over my limits because of pressure and my ambitions, now I’m burnt out. I persevered through and I made it, I’m proud but I’m also empty. I feel empty with what I achieved. I’m alive, I made it through but I’m also dead. My honors and awards make me proud but a part of me also wants to burn them. I worked so hard and I sacrificed so much of myself and time not to be called “smart”. “Oh you’re valedictorian? you must have worked really hard.” Would have sounded nice. “It’s because you work hard, it’s because you strive, it’s because you try, that’s a lot of effort.” Yeah, I worked really hard. Really really hard. To the point that I don’t feel whole anymore, to the point where I don’t even know myself… (There’s more but I’ll stop there)
The pressure to succeed is suffocating, don’t lose yourself in the grind. Work at your own pace, I was stupid. Now I have to do a lot of damage control, healing takes time so don’t rush it. Be patient, keep trying.
Thank you Guys all! I thought it was only me experiencing such things around, thank u guys again I read almost every comment&reply, I love the stories, really wanna hug ya`ll and say good luck if I ever had the chance. GOOD LUCK on everything, everything is gonna be pretty good, I'm also turning 18 this Fall, and I wanna say that I relate 98% with ya`ll and I'm still thinking, is that all just the part of the Gods plan for everything or is it related cz that kinda people (like us) are a bit alike and like uh maybe rare cz I also almost feel alone and I always thought that there is no one experiencing such thing ( I mean being somewhat different from others around)...
Really lightened inside of me after reading this all, Thanks u guys a lot (triple kill :D)
Dang, dropped a whole story
I'm here right now. I've been walking on the edge. Meeting you right now almost feels like a sign. Thank you for this video. I wish I knew you, you seem like a very special type of person or friend I'd like to have. You are talented. Things didn't go the way you thought, but that rarely does. Being this low on life gives a chance to still go up, right? There's nowhere else to go. I'm tired of pretending. I want to keep trying. I miss doodling in my piano, drawing, animating, editing.. I used to do so many things and impress so many kids back then. Now I'm alone, working tirelessly, trying to escape but so low those escapes no longer feel good anymore. Anyways, thank you. I hope I can be as hopeful as you one day.
This video was really comforting. There were many days this past summer where I felt like giving up because I lost the talents I once had as a kid. I felt like I couldn't draw or play piano again, but once I started doing those things again I felt happy that I did them. I tend to relapse from doing and not doing those things, but I'm not giving up. So wherever you are, and wherever I am, don't give up and stay determined ❤
@@seraphvineyard5425 i’m sure you’re still as talented as you once were and have yet to improve on everything you once loved practicing :)
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Went I listen to your song... life flashes before my eyes a good memory and the bad one.. Sometimes I just want lay on the bed and imagine someone says to me(you have done enough, you can rest now)
@@sanymaaa very inspiring
It's crazy that when you started crying, I started crying too. The song you played brought back memories, good and bad, and now I am more thankful for what I went through, because I know it was for a good reason. I just need to keep going to find out what that reason is.
I wouldn't have realised it without you, thanks. ❤
Wahahahaahhahaa
oh wonder are my fav🩵
womp womp
what's the song called?
@@Pek1gn 'OH WONDER - WITHOUT YOU' I think?
Not sure how YT algorithm led me here but I'm glad it did. This video connected to me on a whole other level. It's like my conscious was talking to me. Every word I read in the video is exactly how I feel currently. I used to play piano, I enjoyed it but somewhere along the line my brain just went haywire and everything I used to enjoy just felt emotionless to me. I am alone as well, but watching this vid helps me find peace. I hope u continue to play piano again, u have a beautiful talent. Thank u for sharing this emotional part of ur life to us random strangers. I hope you know that it has touched many lives and it will continue to do so, remember never give up and continue trying to reach new peaks in ur life. Every day is a new page in ur story thats waiting to happen, its up to us the writers to decide what we make of this story.
bro just wrote an whole essay
@@Twine1085 you should read his/her essay it's good, spot-on and it felt genuine.
Same here!
"Although it's difficult today to see beyond the sorrow, may looking back in memory help comfort you tomorrow."
--sm wise guy
Even while i think this time period has many problems, i am truly happy to be able to live in this world; hundreds of thousands have seen this video, and some more will see it too.
We are all humans living in the same world, we all struggle, we all cry, and we all smile, at least once. What we can do in this world is as immense as the streng in our hearts, the fact that so many people can share the same feeling is incredible to me.
When i listened to you playing the piano, i remembered walking in a cobblestone path in a slightly cold place, feeling slightly empty after leaving my house the same way, and while the details themselves don't matter, it's wonderful what a simple song can cause in the mind, i'm sure everyone remembered or felt something diferent, but we all felt something
thank you so much. we dont know each other and i dont think you can comprehend how much this means to me. i am eternally grateful
Hearing you cry broke my heart. And your singing was beautiful, don’t stop. this helped me a lot, thank you. 🙏🏼
i love UA-cam recommendations so much, ive been having a bad week and i needed absolute motivation and thanks to this i can lift myself up again better ill try and try and keep up and be better than myself in the past
Her voice is so majestic when she sings and plays piano at the same time
real 😗
All while looking fabulous at the same time, it’s unreal! 😂
Damn when she started crying i actually teared up myself 😭. Great message and i hope you start to love yourself more, and really see how far you have come in life. Just the ability to live alone and travel, eat what you like, do what you want it's something that people dream of.
Anyone reading this, know crying is a release of the depression . Every time you cry you release tension crying is good if you need to ❤❤
"As long as you keep trying" I haven't heard this line in so long. Life's just tough now. If you need someone to talk you got the entire fanbase you created, i'm not any better then you, i've been depressed, i truly feel terrible for my past self for believing i could change and make a difference. I hope you get what you're aiming for, and if you have nothing to aim for, just enjoy life, block out everyone and everything and focus on yourself, keep going. Wish the best for you Sarah, and remember. You are not alone.
No don’t give up on everything keep Chasing your dream
And don’t be sad about it we’ve all been forced to do stuff in the past like me I use to hate soccer but now I’m a professional at it
love this comment
Idk if this sentence are really true after all, Ive been loving the same girl for years, she IS my dream girl, but since the day that I met her 7 years ago, Ive never stopped loving her, we have been in a relationship for a moment , right people - wrong wind, I loved her so much that she couldnt love me back as much as I did, and she felt guilty for that, I was so blinded by love that Ive never seen that my love was hurting her, and when I tried to talk to her she didnt want to tell me what was wrong, because she was full of guilt, and it filled me with sorrow and regrets, its been 2 years now and Ive never let my love decrease for her, shes in a relationship with someone else and she look happy with it, I tried to date others girls too but it dont feel the same, I am bitter about life. Recently we have watched the stars together on a night walk, and she announced me that she will move far from our town in 2 weeks for studying, so I could see her again in 1 year only, all that to say that it made me think that now Im not sure if life is really about chasing dream or the end of it, do I let her go forever and give up those years and loose all my goals, or do I wait hoping selfishly that her couple break so maybe I will get an other chance with her and then I do chasing my dream ? I have no power over that, I cant even take drastic step that will stop all my sorrow because she will never forgive it to herself, no matter what I do it look like I can only make the bad choice, so yes, maybe giving up on everything is the way to settle things once and for all .
@@FlavourFR whatever you do do not kys instead go the gym change yourself change you’re personality until you feel like you’ve done everything right and you can do it again and again and again and again you will be fine and you will be happy and you will be able to do whatever it takes you to do it
@@FlavourFRIf you didn’t end up together, it was never meant to be.
most ppl go their whole lives not trying to reconnect with their inner child
and wonder why theyre depressed
its good to see you trying..
its a start
ily nym thanks for this whats harder than being alone is being surrounded by people you dont like and being forced into a religion so strict that u cant do anything u want
If anyone is reading this YOUR PAST DOESNT DEFINE YOU, just because it was sunny long ago and it has rained for a long time doesn’t mean that the sun wont come out again, trough tough times you have to accept them, crying and thinking how i could’ve changed something wont bring my father back or literally anything that has happened in my life, you have to accept who you are your past and then you can heal and change, most people are depressed because they hate who they become but ITS NOT YOUR FAULT there is A LOT of thing you couldn’t affect and if there was its fine, you can always change but you have to stop being chained to your past and give yourself a breather or a hug, IT IS FINE even tho life has thrown many rocks at you you are still here. And when your going through doubts me personally when i go trough lows and doubts i get back up because i know my true calling and i truly believe that i was put on this earth for a reason, you have to find your passion (it could be literally ANYTHING) and pursue it, you wont doubt yourself if you truly believe you were made for something bigger, you have to find what you love and share it with people. I just woke up so i haven’t said everything thats on my mind so if you have questions just ask :)
What if youre stuck in unsafety, or have to choose between unsafety and loneliness? What if your abuser/neglecter doesn't respect your space and invades it even when you are away?
@@harirao7929trying to find people you can Trust who Show interest and listen to what you say people who give you Comfort and learning to be your own friend that will never give up on himself
@@harirao7929
Find people you can Trust and who listen to you people that give you Comfort and be your own Friend who never gives up on himself
@@harirao7929 me personally i have never been in that situation but you should NEVER put up with abuse, you are not a dog or an animal to need to get disciplined or something like that, idk your feelings towards that person but if they loved you like you love them they would never do something like that, they might seem like they are the only one for you but believe you can find someone that is worthy of you and respect you. You dont love someone if you dont respect them
I’m not bothered reading that
I had a freind that was very naturally gifted at playing piano, he could listen to a song and try a few times to play it and learn it. That made me want to try aswell and even though i still suck at it i still try to play because it makes me happy. And you were very good and i hope you get better🙏
learn at your own pace :)
@sanymaaa yeah I'll try I actually have been trying to learn fir elise recently I might try to learn it more from this video
@@Cakeeaa nice bro👌
@@Cakeeaa Keep going bro, you can train a lot, she already seems to be better at it, she can help you better, you can do it
@lixzww yeah I'll keep trying I just can't get my left hand to work with my right I know it takes a lot of practice to get that down but I js feel like I can't do it
Sadness/Depression is beautiful if we accept it and listen to ourselves in those moments where time seemingly stands still. Everything passes and life moves as the tide does, high to low the waves always fluctuate. We only become stuck when we avoid our senses and distract to ease that pain. Thank you for sharing. Keep going. Ur playing got me singing, thank you.
Lately, I’ve been feeling like doing nothing and giving up but then this video pops in my recommendation. Good to see I am not the only one feeling this way. Stay strong guys hope you all will achieve what you are working for!
Yesterday was my 18th birthday... And I had never fellt so lonely in life. Then your video came in my UA-cam algorithm even though I don't know you ... And whatever you said in this video resonated so much with my feelings. Because I was also once a talented kid and was loved by everyone, but now that I am growing older I am becoming more and more lonely. Your video really helped me with the processing of my feelings. Honestly, I don't want to be liked by anyone now. I dont want to change anything. Everything is perfect and I will enjoy my life the way I want to. As a kid, I was a brilliant student but I am not that smart anymore. I will try my best to again reach my full potential and be the same smart and bright kid I used to be once, even though no one is there by my side. I know that I have not done anything for which I have to be disliked by anyone. So its ok. I will live my life and whoever has to be a part of my life, will eventually come up. From now on, I will not let anyone to have the power of controlling my emotions. And thank you for the video and I also wish you all the best for your life.
i can understand what you're going through and i can also understand why this is happening... people are so quick to label us as talented/gifted but they don't realize that this tag can and will stay for a long time which will haunt you when you grow older. There are a lot of times that i feel the same way as you but the only thing that worked for me was to address this feeling of loneliness by first identifying why this is happening to me in the first place, then trying to rectify/ solve it by getting out of my comfort zone. It will take a LOT of conscious effort and painful amount of time for this to go away but you'll need to understand that the only person who can genuinely help you, is your own self. I wish you a very Happy Birthday (belated) and i hope that you have a great year. We are here to help you (p.s: just ask:))
Can’t relate I’ve always just been average
Man watching this is like having a feeling of comfort which my pathetic life doesn't have, soon I'm going to be forgotten. I just know it.. it is going to happen.
The description is helpful but I hope my family understood what I been going through, I already lost 3 of my friends. Depression for almost 5 years and I can't help myself anymore.
plus the only thing I heard from one of the 3 gone friends was just "let's go hangout" in which I didn't and never heard of them again.
“It’s not about the miles you walk in a year it’s about the steps you take everyday” -toastie
Yeah this reminds me of a quote I heard when I was really young “If you have made mistakes, even serious mistakes, you may have a fresh start any moment you choose, this thing we call ‘failure’ is the falling down, it is the staying down.” I’m still young, but I understand the importance of this quote more and more every day, the importance of making mistakes and practicing every aspect of my life daily, noting everything that went well. Most importantly never letting go of my talents (never quitting music, even when my career takes me away from it) and keeping in touch with friends. Any way hope you have a nice day, to you who read this comment!
Bro that crying while playing is the realest thing cuz its not just the sadness its the nostalgia hitting you its the fact that you wont get that time back those days of happiness you felt back it feels weird to describe but easier to show
Nym, thank you. This is truly a powerful message, truly. I am currently a Sophomore, and though young I know more about depression then most, I'm sure. Depression is truly something to deal with. Lost my grandma at the age of 9. Began to overthink everything. Fell into depression. First heartbreak in middle school. 2nd week of my freshman year a friend of mine passed away. In Freshman year, many connections with friends were weakened. I was depressed, alone, afraid. Another heartbreak in that same year, and another some time after that. Depression, overthinking, self harm, anxiety, anything you can think of. I've gone through it. I've given up on a lot. I know how it is giving up, truly I do. But watching a video like this, from a girl I saw and thought "Wow, she's beautiful. Perfect. Famous too, amazing." It's nice to know it's not just "normal" people who go through this. Although I know every famous celebrity or famous social media users go through what we do, it's still a nice refreshment to see they truly do. Don't get me wrong, seeing one in pain is not a nice refresher, but seeing one get through it, and are confident enough to share it to their fanbase and in telling them their not alone and giving them this motivation to keep going, it's beautiful. You truly are kind, Nym. Truly. Thank you for caring. Though we may be strangers, us, your fanbase, are here with you. Your never alone. I'm here for you. Your never alone. Keep going Nym. Keep doing what you love. Don't let haters get in the way of that. Your doing just fine. Your doing great. I love you. If you needed to hear these words, I'll day it again from the heart. I love you. Thank you.
@schmeegie2006 those are great goals to put for yourself. I'm rooting for you! I pray you have a great future
its okay, you found bleach so you have a will to get your bankai.
Merci, ta vidéo ma fait comprendre que moi aussi j'ai perdu une partie de moi, une partie qui était fière de ce qu'il accomplissait... Je faisait aussi des vidéo mais pour x raison j'ai arrêter. La motivation et la passion n'était plus là même les résultats était là les vue et ma commu... J'ai perdu bcp...mais ta vidéo ma donné envie de reprendre même si c'est presque de zéro tant pis j'y crois à fond.
Courage pour ton développement personnal you are your own hero of your life peace.
From the past few days I was very irritated by myself because of the pressure from my parents and they are my parents I can't tell them about my feelings and let thier dreams shatter but after listening to your story I felt like I can overcome from all of the pressure and can achieve something big thank you so much for this
This side of youtube is very hard to find nowadays but i found it thanks to youtube algorithm and once again thank you so much it means alot
I think this video was a saving grace for me. The way she reconnected with herself by doing something she used to be good at, and still is, hit me very hard. I think focusing on things we want to do and that we're good at, will help us keep going. Also, she has a lovely voice, you should definitely sing more.
Please keep in mind that you should NEVER throw away your dreams. This is meant for everyone. Please guys focus on your dreams. Never give up, I’ve been in the same tracks of giving up on my dreams. But when I heard this speech said by Ke Huy Quan, it had inspired me to keep believing in my dreams.
“To all of you out there, please keep your dreams alive. Dreams are something you have to believe in. I almost gave up on mine, they say stories like this happen in the movies. I cannot believe it happened to me.” -Ke Huy Quan
I’ve been depressed for a couple weeks and this has to be one of the most relatable videos ever
Salut Nym, je fais ce message pour te donner tout mon soutien possible.
La vie n'est pas facile, mais il faut garder la tête haute pour pouvoir continuer. Tu mérites littéralement tout le bonheur du monde. Tu es une femme forte avec un grand coeur et une gentillesse hors-norme.
Malheureusement tu souffrais derrière ton masque pour au final avoir encore plus mal.
Il faut continuer sans relâche pour réussir, la seule chose qu'il faut, c'est de toujours se relever dans les moments où on a failli abandonner.
Je te souhaite le meilleur pour toi,
Merci infiniment Nym, ne doute jamais de toi ❤️
Vraiment...
That piano is perfectly tuned and the sound is very resonant.
Don't give up everything keep fighting
Nah I'll just let things happen 🤷♂️
@@LICHT_FLOW dont
If i looked like you i would make the most of every single day 😭 the world will always love you even if you have nothing else to offer, you should be thankful to God for creating you and giving you these opportunities. Accept the life you’ve been blessed with as a beautiful person
ive been depressed most of my life and i usually avoid these types of vids because they never work and I don't really feel anything but I feel empathy in a way and understand it and appreciate it, not sure what made me watch it but thank you for making it
Strong video Nym. I never expected you make a motivational video like that. This video gave me motivation to improve my self further. Thank you and Stand proud. You worked hard to get your piano skills back and improved when thinking back when you played piano in the cooking stream with your mother. You did a great job and hopefully you wont suffer from depression for long. Take care!
thank you for this, I'm at a relatively small age to already have depression, along with suicidal thoughts, but I felt something free itself in my body, I just cant explain it but I feel better now, thank you...
You’ve been through quite a lot, I can understand feeling sad and hopeless. The feeling of being alone but you still being here and to continue trying in life shows tremendous strength and will. Things will get better in life for you and not knowing you I can still say I’m very proud of you for trying and getting back up! Things will get better I promise!
(You also played the piano and sang beautifully good job!!)
Nym sad = sad world, but Nym ur the best streamer frfr and wish you nothing but the best always!!.
i don't know why this showed up in my recommended, but im glad, this has genuinely got to be one of the most beautiful youtube vidoes ive ever seen
“the things you hate to do now, might be one of the most beautiful things” hits hard icl
This reminds me of the time i went through a long depression myself, for years. I got out of it eventually and i did thank God that i was still alive. I was grateful. I remember those times of introspectiveness and search for meaning and wondered why this was happening to me. One day at a time I told myself. One day at a time. This too shall pass. The journey will end eventually on it's own, there's no point in rushing it. I was curious to see what was the next chapter in life not just for myself but for everyone around me. And sometimes my one favorite show at the time is what kept me going, i wanted to see the next season. i now have twin nieces that i would've never met had i not been around. I can't believe they're still real. They remind me of my mom which is so strange. They're so cute. I have plenty of other reasons to keep going now, but above all i feel better and i never thought that I would. Keep going.
ive seen tons of videos about anxiety and depression, but this one really hit my heart...so unexpected that i cried... i feel the same way about my past, and how i was a really good kid but now im scared to try anything cause failing would make everyone hate me. i dont know if the people around me would care if i died, or if they want me to die... i tried freeing myself. relieving them. it didnt work, but this video made me feel like im not a complete failure, and i have people who can relate to me now...thankyou for saving me...i needed this.
I might not know what kind of person you are or what you are like but I know you can get through whatever you are struggling with remember you have no obligation to be someone else or someone you used to be strive to be better than you were yesterday. it's okay to not feel like yourself sometimes. try to be gentle with yourself and allow yourself to grow and change. Even if it feels like you’re not the person you used to be, you’re still you and that’s someone worth caring for and appreciating. Focus on small steps, Every step counts, no matter how small it seems.
Please remember that you are valuable and loved, just as you are now, and there is always hope for a brighter tomorrow.
real, brother
Real.
Such raw emotions in this short, thanks for sharing! and thanks for reminding many of us to try more things out!
What scares me the most is not that my life is spiraling out of control. It's that I can't seem to care about it. Zero emotions. I just let it happen and I can't find motivation to change anything. I'm doing more and more harm by poisoning my body and mind each day even though I know better. I can't seem to care about anything anymore. I guess I'm depressed? That seems about right. How can you not be depressed when you're failing at every single aspect of life? Nevermind asking questions like "why are we here?". I'm sad enough already.
I don't know what to do. I look at people who seem to have at least a couple of aspects figured out and root for them to succeed. As for myself, it might be too late. I'm sinking deeper and deeper every day and my soul is aching. My mind is thinking about the happier days from my childhood and how much went wrong with the "plan" I made back then. The damage is done and now I'm just lost, drifting through life. I need help...
@DivineRogue_ Thanks for your reply. It's at least somewhat comforting to know that I'm not alone. I truly hope you'll find someone like that, though I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to regardless. Just drop a new reply and I'll be here.
Idk how to help you but i hope tomorrow you r gonna feel fullness and i wish something really good happen and make you feel way more better ! I wish you the best i cry when i see someone like this ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ big warm hugs and blessings
@@GODSTAYSTRONG Thank you. That’s very kind. ❤️
I was once there too man. For several years during high school, I fell into apathy. I was exhausted from emotions. I had cared too much about achieving results to keep my family members and teachers happy, and it led to me not wanting to feel at all. I would have several classes in each of those two academic years where I would constantly be in danger of failing and barely pull my grades upward in time for report cards. I wanted to care so badly-- I could see I was going nowhere, and falling apart. It felt like I was constantly in battle with myself, but I just couldn't bring myself to care still. It took me around four years to fully recover from that point in life. I finally asked my dad if he could help me with some of my chemistry homework, and help keep me accountable. I spent a year trying to notice beautiful things in life and doing my best to notice the small beauty in everything around me. It took some therapy, and learning through conversation with someone that it was really important to show compassion to my younger past self-- someone who was lost, hurt, confused, and just trying to navigate a big and complicated world and making mistakes along the way. I started taking notes in my classes more diligently, first because a teacher required it and then out of habit. And now, one of the most important thoughts I return to is a lyric from an artist I like (Noah Kahan), where he says "That feeling, the ache, is better than nothing at all." I've gradually learned it's okay to be vulnerable with myself and others and open myself to experiencing more deep emotions again, even if sometimes it hurts so much. I've started focusing on following a trajectory that takes me toward being the kind of person I want to become, rather than worrying about concrete end goals and which exact path I'll take. I know everyone says it, but it really does get better as long as you don't let yourself lose hope, and start with just stacking up those little moments piece by piece. Eventually, they become something so much bigger than they started, and you'll realize you've come such a long way since those times. It's never too late to experience beautiful things in life, and to open yourself up to emotions, others, and caring about things again, even if it hurts and can be a long process.
Was not prepared for an emotional vid at such a random time but that aside im so proud of what youve had to overcome and still keep going. Love watching your stuff, ur community is awesome to be a part of and i cant wait to see whats ahead for u. Stay golden
You saying "This is why you practice everyday" hit me so hard to remind me of how hard you have to work for things you might want and not everything comes without it. Working out, getting better looks, better health, it all comes with putting energy and effort into those things and the reward is great despite the hardships in front of us. Hearing you cry hurts but also remember you are never alone, I and many others support you are your fan and love you dearly never stop working hard for us and importantly yourself dear, you're wonderful in everyway truly. Can't imagine what it's like to feel alone like this, travelling places to feel something, again we are all here for you if you need it :) being forced to do things can be hard for a while of initially beginning them but they are beautiful in how they impact your life and change how you are in some good ways some bad, but the experiences affect your whole life to make that mould of a person. You may get put on a pedestal by us because of your beautiful body and looks, beautiful voice and your talent on the piano, and we say that for how hard we see you try and work to get those things and we're proud of you for getting through all this, even posting a video like this takes courage and is admiring as heck. I could type for hours saying good things here but the main things is keep working hard like you are, and we will be there behind you, much love and hugs sent your way keep going you got this ❤
I loved taking these 10 minutes of my life to listen to you play and learn about you. And I hope that one day you will find something or someone who will love you more than. themselves,then he will make you as happy as you wish.
i had always seen you around on pinterest and stuff and i find it really inspiring and cool to hear the story behind those images now, how we all are more than just how we appear online. stay strong and always take the next opportunity you're given to get out of your comfort zone.
Least you got back to it.
I’ve had an attraction to the violin since I was a young child. Back in my early teens I would play every week.
I was also very shy , and every time I was invited to play concertos I would decline out of fear. Over time I stopped playing.
I’m much older now , and I look back at it as something I deeply regret leaving behind. A piece of me.
Well it's never too late to pick it back up right, go for it at least for a bit and see if the spark comes back to you , good luck and wish you the best
This actually made a diffrence in my life thanks to you i didnt give up on my self i was planing to quit evrything and end it all thank you for making this vid
You strong, don't cry don't forcing you to hard. Take some rest, do you see how infinite are you. I'm a new fan, i'm just start following you on twitch and tiktok and i know you're a strong woman. Strong people need to take some rest
"Your fingers dance on the keyboard,
Like raindrops on the sea.
Each note is a whisper of love,
That beats in my heart, without stopping."
well said
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Alr holy glaze
@@Miserablekidyeah they doin too much now
The singing part was simply soothing. Helped me silence my head for minute
i had depression my whole life now. Went to a mental hospital in 2018 and stayed in there for 3 months. I wanted to share that now (2024) i have been way happier because i’ve been living the life i wanted to live due to my hard work. I wanted to be an actor/content creator and i started to do acting professionally in 2021. I quit my day job in 2023 and it’s helped so much. An eye opening moment that saved me from myself was when i lost a friend in high school and recently i lost a family member. Both to mental health. Knowing that it could’ve been me is sad but i stay strong. Of course the times come every now and then but i been good. Therapy helped a lot also! Hope whoever is reading this in the future keeps going and live the lifestyle that they want. It’s possible to get what you want but you have to find out how.
Thank you so much for this! I think I'm a loser now, old, no money, no partner, no skills, nothing. But I ain't gonna give up on trying. Thank you so much! You give me the courage! LETSGO!!!👍👍💖
Stay strong :))) sending you many blessings and hugs 💗 💕
@@GODSTAYSTRONG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! You are so heartwarming!😭😭💖❤️
“You were better back then?” When that text popped up I thought back then when I wasn’t weird and wouldn’t push everyone away
I also have been suffering from depression for almost the same reasons u have. Not feeling like ur good at anything and being alone. But everytime you fail you always learn and get better, thats just how it works. If your alone, consider that people like me and others are always here for you, stay strong nym🙏🙏🙏
Was depressed for almost 2 years, i got out of it by quitting my job and having 1 year only to myself figuring myself out.
Now i know i should‘ve gotten professional help, it would have helped me so much more but i am a stubborn guy.
Now i am working a different job, 2,5years together with my beautiful gf, 2 cats, nice money and a nice apartment.
I am not scared for the anxiety comming back or possibly depression- because i know how to get out of it and what to do to avoid it.
You guys need to figure yourself out and spend time with your thoughts- ask yourself who you rly are and what u rly want in life- this takes months or years to figure out so don‘t rush yourself.
❤
congrats man some people just needed that emotional break from everything.
aw man
I haven't cried for about two years. I just physically couldn’t. but when I started watching this video, I saw how similar our stories are. You very accurately described how I feel and what is happening in my life. I felt a little better knowing that I wasn't the only one going through this. when you started singing, I cried. for the first time in a very long time. you have a very beautiful voice and I admire you. thank you, nym
This is genuinely a work of art
your voice and piano playing are absolutely beautiful i'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way please remember that you are not alone and that there are people who care about you your talent and presence mean a lot to many of us take one day at a time and don't hesitate to reach out for support stay strong
THIS IS THE REALEST VIDEO I EVER SEEN: WHAT EVER HAPPEND DONT GIVE UP. I AM SO THANKFUL FOR YOUR VIDEO AND I JUST WRITE IN BIG LETTERS RIGHT KNOW BECAUSE I HOPE YOU SEE THIS. I JUST WANT TO SAY THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Damn… that shi hit hard. It actually made me cry. Recently I’ve been feeling like shit and that everybody hates me and nobody cares but this gave me hope that I should keep pushing forward. Thanks :3 ur vid was great :). Also ur really good at piano and it was very calming listening to it :D
"The things you hate to do now might be one of the most beautiful things that helped shape the future you."
This happened to me with cooking. I grew up with my mom cooking a lot of meals at home. Not every meal was great, but she tried, and she'd often rope me into helping in some way; shucking corn, cutting onions, mashing potatoes, etc.
At the time, I hated it. I thought it was stupid, boring, and pointless. But now? It's all I can do to not think of those moments fondly. It's because of those meals, those people, and those things I hated to do that now make me feel like I'm finally feel like I'm finding a piece of myself that I was convinced died a long time ago.
Thank you for sharing this. It makes me feel like I'm not so crazy for changing careers to try and do something that makes me feel anything.
genuinely one of the most beautiful videos i've ever watched.
i've always struggled with finding motivation or willpower to do anything, even if it's something i love. my rediscovered talent that has helped me start pushing past that struggle is writing. in march, i finally went back and finished a short story series i'd started a year prior. more recently, i've found my love in writing music and poetry. i'm working on a sixteen track album and i only have one song left to finish writing. as i read back the older songs i've finished compared to ones i've finished now, i can see the improvement. that improvement is motivation in and of itself, it makes me so happy. watching myself grow from the corny lyrics to the ones with genuine impact and deep context is wonderful.
that motivation to keep pushing forward, keep getting better, keep fighting to be the best version of myself, it saved my life. i went through hell, but my patience persevered. now, i'm the happiest i've ever been, and i can't be more grateful for that.
Ya know boss, it’s good that you’re reconnecting with something that you liked as a kid, that’s admirable to see someone do, which is not always easy sometimes man. Yeah sure, it’s like you said, failing at something doesn’t mean you give up on said thing that you yourself are trying to achieve, it’s a constant reminder to push yourself to be better at it.
A side note; You play the piano amazingly well, along with your stunning singing voice, hopefully you go far beyond with that talent.
It gave me a genuine shiver when you started crying
Something i never knew I needed.. right now i don’t know what i’ll do in life. I just finished school and as far as i knew, that’s all i really had planned in my life. Wake up, go to school, get home, do my hw, sleep and repeat. But now, during summer break, I’ve realized i have no idea where i’ll go from here. There’s so much i want, so much I want to see.. but the world isn’t a place where we can act as we want without some sort of challenge following. I wish i didn’t have to face the dangers and the hardships but as they say.. life is full of challenges you have to overcome. And this made me accept that.
Thank you for this..
Your singing is beautiful and so is the way you play the piano. But I do hope you reconnect with the side that made you happy and I believe you will I hope you get better 1 step at a time. The world is brighter with you in it. You make my day better every time I see your TikToks and streams
The worst thing that can happen to a growing kid is being labeled as "gifted & talented". They don't learn how to grow through hard work, but rather "talent", and once they grow up and compete with other people who didn't rely on talent, they fall behind.
I went through a similar dark and depressed stint in the Marine Corps. I was trying so hard to be a good Marine that I lost touch with who I was. It wasn’t until my wife was offered an old upright piano from her college friend that I started to wake up. Having a piano in the house to play reminded me that I am a musician, a friend, a teacher, a lover. I used to write music growing up and played for 15 years. Then the Marines took up all my time. It consumed everything. Now 3 year after that realization I fought for my time back. I am playing music almost daily, I volunteer to play at my church, and I promised myself that no matter how busy I get, I will never let my work overcome who I am again. Never.
Remember, your work will never love you back. Your passions allow you to love yourself. And you have to be able to love yourself, no matter how many people love you.
been trying to fight the urge to kms for a few years now. but I don't do it for my parents and my friends, plus I wanna know if life gets better (I hope it does, and the singing was good too keep it up, you got this)
It truly does, idk you life story but you sure have a reason, idk that reason, but believe me, if you look at a marathon you think you can never compete it because its too big, but if you take your time and enjoy that route you will finish it, in a day or a two, but you will finish it, but some finish in hours, you cant compare yourself with others, everyone has their own speed. Just like a marathon healing is a long process and everyone have their own speed of healing, i am a stranger on the internet and i cant help you with everything, but if you try at your own speed and appreciate the journey you will reach your destination
yo man if you need anyone im here like I can talk or listen about anything
I nearly did it, 2 years ago. I also didn't because of friends and family. Life did get better tho, and honestly I came out a better man
It gets better, I promise. There are times where I felt like an empty shell and I would cry every time I woke up. I genuinely did not see a future for myself but I promise you that you have one and that there are bright days ahead. I’m rooting for you💗
Sarah I know it's been hard for you but I know you still can manage to squeak through give all your problems to god because he loves you he will talk with you about your problems a wise man once said "Everything will be ok at the end if it's not ok it's not the end" I know you've been depressed but it's not worth it to give up on everything there's a lot of ppl watching you I hope this reaches out to you I just know you can manage ur depression I know you can do it WE know you CAN do it because we love you we love your content, I hope this helps.
currently crying my eyes out, thank you sm for sharing this emotional moment with us
"Everything is good or for good"
Pain comes, pain goes. Yesterday you were happy, today you might be sad. But, I feel like that's the whole point. If we were happy all the time we would be bored as well. That's like the balance of life.
as Bob Ross quoted "Gotta have opposites dark and light, light and dark in painting. It's like in life. Gotta have a little sadness once in a while so you know when the good times come." "Put light against light - you have nothing. Put dark against dark - you have nothing. It's the contrast of light and dark that each give the other one meaning."
For those who wonder what the first piano song is, it's 'Oh Wonder - Without You' :)
And the last ?
Sarah, you're the most talented person I've ever seen, and I'm being deadass. You play the piano so beautifully, and your voice is just amazing!
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That question hit hard ngl... cuz I feel like it too. I make music, I remember my younger self being a fearless experimentalist in music production, but now I can't get myself to challenge those boundaries again.. Fear of failure, fear of being questioned, fear of being looked down upon.. Idk why I feel that way, but if I can get back to be like my younger self again, then I'd do anything for it..
Also your Piano skills are pretty amazing mate, don't give up yet, keep it up 💛💙
Sarah you are one of my favorite person on earth I used to watch your streams on twitch when you were still averaging around 50-100 viewers and you would respond to my stuff on twitch which never happened to me… please don’t give up since you helped me you don’t understand how much you’ve helped me a stranger just by uploading your contents and streaming ❤🎉
Thank you for helping me out of this dark place,this video really helped me❤
Never knew your so good at playing piano but dont give up never give up
I literally cannot escape her, i wasn't even subbed to her on youtube only on instagram, and i randomly get recommended this, i cant escape good girls
Good girls?
@@Its2inchesbtw💀
@@Its2inchesbtwsimps lmaooo
So relatable bruh 😭😭😭😭😭
@@chixl7802I don't think that was the implication here 💀
I went to your channel to see more videos of that vibe and found out it's actually your first, congratulations! It resonated with me and was absolutely honest which I admired. If you were wondering what to do next, that kind of melancholic piano and singing are what I WISH I could listen to, it's calming and simply beautiful, the way you do it. Cheers and good luck for the future!
Thank you I really needed to watch something like this because I'm feeling like this everyday and it's nice to see that I'm not the only one
I started my journey on making my own video game alone 7 months ago, it’s a very long and difficult process, sometimes I have 0 motivations and I do nothing, sometimes I work so much and do sleepless night. But I hope someday I will publish my game and it’s gonna be a banger and played in the entire world. This comment is a testament to myself, I’m gonna do it, no matter what it costs, because this is one of my dream and I will not give up, I will live without any regret and by doing everything I can do. Thanks for reading, this comment will be found in the future when my game will be known internationally, it’s the foreshadowing of my life. I love you all !
I believe in you, looking forward to discovering your game ❤