Colleen, in portuguese “ladybug” it’s “joaninha”. So it’s common that people named as “Joanna/Joana” our version of “Joanne” are related to the bug. So for me it was such a funny coincidence to see you calling Maisy as your Ladybug while the name still was a secret 🐞
I just realized that the perfect word to describe you is "Empowering." That is truly what you are to your audience. Another word that comes to mind is "Inspiring." You're a great role model and we, as well as your children, are lucky to have you. We love you, Colleen!
The silk blouse and the pink skort are everything. Also the kismet letter moment is so sweet. I’ve been loving the confetti moments in all the blogs of the shows such a fun shot. The seagul was so funny I always thought starfish were poisonous 👀. I also want to say it’s honestly inspiring to see you face Vancouver. It can be so hard to accept when you’ve moved chapters, so seeing you talk in depth about what it meant having worked there then leaving. From someone who has watched your daily blogs throughout the COVID times it really has impacted my life. It’s such a turbulent time but having your blogs available was my constant. Change may not always be what we planned but all change has a beauty within it we just have to look for the beauty.
I totally and completely agree with everything that you wrote. And I love what you said about change and finding the beauty within life even when the changes aren’t the ones that we planned.💗
Right!!?!?! I am OBSESSED with that silk shirt, and love that black bodysuit type top as well. I am convinced she can pull anything off and not even realize it.
Last time you were in a relationship you weren't happy in. This last few years your life has changed in so many wonderful ways. You've really made a difference in a lot of your audience over the last couple of years and your daily vlogging has been amazing, not only for us but for you. You have helped me understand my trichotillomania and my daughter's ADHD. You are loved Colleen.
So extremely proud of Colleens journey through the years. So hardworking and dedicated all while having her own personal problems and yet still tours & gives us content. We love you, I speak for all of us
@@paulafamularo5001 I speak for all who have the same views toward Colleen as I do. You’re clearly here just to spread negativity. Colleen is grateful for where she is in life and expresses so a lot. Just because people have money doesn’t mean that they can’t have their own problems like depression for example. Now spread your negativity elsewhere thanks
The negativity here makes me so mad, and I honestly don't know how to comment on it without sounding like a horrible person, but I hope that whenever challenges in life your going through right now that makes you feel like you have a need to bring others down gets better soon, and that you'll be able to learn be happy for others successes and strengths and bravery to be vulnerable and showing others it's okay to do the same, even if you haven't been able to get there yourself. I honestly don't know where I'm going with this so I'm going to stop now but I felt a need to say something
I kind of feel like he just doesn't like how she dresses and since he is into fashion he is trying to change her look. He is trying to get her out if her normal clothing. And she wears it because she does care either way. Lol
I have to agree. I love Colleen, but her sense of style is so bland and I think he wants her to dress a bit better/trendier/more hipster. Luckily, Colleen doesn’t care and lives her best life and I love her for that.
It gave me so many warm fuzzies to see you and Erik out and about enjoying life. It's been a long two years and you both deserve all the happiness this life has to offer. I now have added Mister to my must try list. That dance you did when you tried that Ice Cream was pure joy. You deserve this.
When you were talking about the difference of this trip to Vancouver versus previous trips, one of the biggest differences I feel comes from the fact that you have vlogged everyday and we as viewers and fans have created such a huge bond with you over the last 2 years. Because of the pandemic, you haven’t been able to travel and do things you might have before but the impact that your vlogs have had on others is so huge and has become part of all of our routines and lives. So when you’re meeting everyone out and about, we really feel like we are seeing a friend and we finally get to express our gratitude in person❤️
I’ve been tempted to write you a letter so many times - I found you during a difficult pregnancy in 2019 and I gave birth just before the pandemic. I was locked inside for the whole of my maternity and my son was unwell and we struggled to get access to healthcare. Your videos have kept me sane when I was unable to meet other mums or go to baby groups. It was such a lonely and isolating experience and you kept me company and made me feel like I had a friend (oh god sounds so pathetic!). Thank you for doing what you do - I think you’ve impacted so many lives x
Not pathetic at all! I had twins during the time she was also pregnant with hers so I can relate to this! You’re not alone momma! Colleen def has impacted my life as well. Sending love and good vibes to you! 🤟🏼
Definitely not pathetic - but smart! A safe way to connect with friends-from-afar; it was good for your mental health. I hope you and your family are doing better. Sending you some love. xo
Doing what’s necessary for you and your mental health isn’t pathetic at all! I’m really glad you were able to find a way to take care of you so you could take care of your baby. Us mums totally get where you’re coming from. Much love ❤️
Everything you said about how you felt coming to Vancouver vs leaving made total sense and you explained it perfectly. I know Eric was teasing you about it but what you said was heartfelt and I’m so glad you shared those feelings and moments with us. I love you! Enjoy being home with the kiddos ♥️
Yeah, I love them both so much but I have to say I was disappointed by that, that was such a nice, important moment for both Colleen and her loyal viewers and his response was a little invalidating.
Colleen I wanted to say, when you were opening up about how you were feeling about Vancouver I realized that I think what happened during the past few years is that you had a shift in your purpose! You have become a lighthouse for women and people going through pregnancy and people going through mental health struggles or even ADHD (I have found you to be so reassuring in my ADHD journey) you have inspired so many people and I really think that your passion and drive in the fact that you post these Vlogs online makes us feel like we have a best friend to go through something with, or a really cool Aunty. Not to mention I’m sure it’s just really nice to see a family daily, and watch your family memories and see the kids grow. I don’t see my family often so much and it makes me sad that we don’t have the connection I thought we did when we were alll kids so I like hanging with family blogs and feeling that warmth.
what you said about her being like a cool aunty is exactly how i feel. the relationship she has with all of us is so special, and i’m so grateful. thank you for sharing!
Totally get what you were saying about how you felt like your purpose for this trip was to meet and interact with people! Its important for you to know that We all love you and no matter what you are doing in your career, we all will always support you. The impact you have on me and all of us is indescribable and the being able to see your show in Vancouver was so amazing and felt like a dream. I love seeing you every time in Vancouver and hope that y’all will come back soon❤️
day one of saying: WE NEED AN ALL COLLEEN SHOW!!! live tortilla talks, watching you sing your favorite musicals and just a vlog with a live audience! everything you do on your vlogs with the same audience but you get to see us :))
Colleen I just want to let you know that even though you don't feel like you've accomplished anything in the last few years, know that you have changed (and so many others) peoples worlds by bringing your vlogs to us everyday. You have no idea how much you have helped me. From listening to your podcast after a hard day teaching to you inspiring me to have the courage to get tested and diagnosed with adhd... "if Colleen can be as amazing as she is living with adhd, so can I" I tell myself. You are so unbelievably incredible. Thank you ♥️ Ps I was at your Vancouver show and never once did I notice the screen lag! :)!
When you read your diary at then end… you literally could have been reading MINE. After leaving my abusive childhood home in 2020 for college I have basically been rebuilding my life and fighting to feel worthy of the things that I’ve worked for. I bought a car, rent a house, and I’m in college. I know I should be proud but it’s still hard to fight those thoughts that tell me I don’t deserve it and everyone hates me. It makes me feel so connected to you and feel that everything is gonna be okay for me. Throughout the hardest parts of my life so far your vlogs have been one of the only stable things that I could know for sure would be there for me. Thank you for everything that you do Colleen. So so so much love from Louisiana. :)
I am also from Louisiana and I experienced this too! My dad was emotionally abusive my entire life. He convinced me of so many awful things about myself. When I went to college I was a WRECK. I was absolutely convinced that people were going to find out I was a fraud and kick me out of school and friend groups. Instead I built the most beautiful friendships and learned how to believe in who the Lord says I am. I learned my Dad was wrong. I was worthy. I was loved. I was wanted. I was accepted. I was capable. I was smart. And so are YOU! It was and still can be at times the HARDEST road, but here I am, 6 years later, graduated with my dream job. Living with my best friend and my little sister helping her to heal and grow too and so so grateful for the journey of it all. It has at times felt like hell on earth. But we have to believe we're worth fighting for and keep pressing on! I wish you the best of luck! You keep on thriving ^_^
Just want to take a moment to appreciate the wholesome community Colleen has created for complete strangers to talk and connect and build each other up through times of darkness… despite the haters!!❤️
Sweetheart, you earned it therefore you deserve it! Those pesky thoughts about not being good enough suck, I’ve started to heal through CBT therapy. Cognitive behavioral therapy. It sounds complicated but to me it’s about dissecting those thoughts and finding out whose voice from the past is responsible. I’ve seen apps for cbt but I need a therapist too. You are going to get through this with love and help from others. Don’t forget that you deserve it! ❤️
@@lifewithmesarahmarie thank you so much for your comment! It’s so uplifting to hear from people who have succeeded before me and I’m so excited for one day when everything in my life settles. I’m so grateful to Colleen for giving me a constant in my life and making me feel like I have someone at the end of the day who cares about me, but I am also so incredibly grateful for the people in this community like you who take time to share and be kind.
as someone who has been watching since before you were filming season 1 of haters, it’s so amazing to see the place you’re in now compared to where you were then. it makes me so happy that you were able to conquer some of those stronger feelings of self doubt and build yourself a beautiful life and family. it’s been amazing to watch you grow and to grow up along with you 💖
I love having been around since then. I feel like so many people here don’t *really* know. When you saw her then, you can read between the lines now. Her life has changed so much.
almost perfectly sums up what i was thinking of commenting. her life is 180 what it was at that previous point, and we’ve all witnessed the growth. whether she realized it fully, i hope it helps affirm the positive side and that she truly has come so far/shouldn’t •have• to be concerned (though i know that’s hard to break from when it comes to anxieties & insecurities) sad i had to miss the show on Tuesday - woulda been amazing to finally see her after all these years… NEXT TIME, i’m buying tickets immediately 😭🤣
"Hole still works.... that's my motto." lmfao I adore Erik I'm so happy he's gotten more comfortable in the vlogs. I'm so happy you two have one another, you're both so lucky. Also there isn't a channel that I'm more thankful for on UA-cam. Your vulnerability is inspiring and welcoming. You are one of my biggest role models and I aspire to be as strong as you are. I know you don't always feel as though you deserve things like success or happiness but I promise you, there isn't anyone more deserving of all the amazing things life as to offer than you.
This is the best 2022 tour vlog. Hilarious video that you would send to Flynn, a hilarious story on FaceTime with Flynn, a try-on haul, flirting with Erik,and best of all Colleen actually appreciating herself and a ton of other moms and people in the world, best 2022 tour vlog ever.
It was so beautiful to see you and Erik out and about in Vancouver after watching your vlogs all through out covid. You gave me and others so much comfort during that time and I think you should be so proud about the person you are today. Sending so much love ❤️
Colleen, you single-handedly got me (and millions of others, I’m sure!) through the pandemic the last 2 years. I’m an Australian living in Japan and I had to stay here thru the pandemic for work. You may see your daily vlogs as silly or boring but for me it was a familiarity, normality and routine to watch them and feel like I was hanging out with a friend who was doing normal things, when I was in a foreign country during a pandemic when nothing felt normal. Colleen, I wish you could see your own worth as much as your subscribers do. No new tv show or movie that you could have written would have had that same effect, so you shouldn’t feel disappointed in yourself because you provided the world what the world needed at that moment in time and so many people love and appreciate you for it in ways that you will probably never know or hear about. Heck, I’m in Japan and rarely comment on UA-cam videos or have “fan-girl” moments and for sure will never randomly bump into you on the street, so next time you do “literally” walk into someone and they share their story with you, just multiply that by 1000 every time and that is how many people you inspire and touch without ever knowing. Thank you for all you do and all the love, kindness and generosity you bring to the world. It makes me sad that you may never truly realize how special you are. 🇯🇵✌🏻💜
When you’ve been watching for so long, it’s easy to read between the lines of what she’s talking about. The insecurity, the self doubt, the pain, it was all right in front of our faces, and we couldn’t see it. It’s crystal clear why being around amazing, kind, loyal people furthering her career came with that other huge change. Without Vancouver, she would not know Erik. She very well may be mom to “Lily Mae” and “Noah” right now if anyone else knows what I mean...Her life may have never turned around.
I thought abou this the whole video. she was being incredibly pressured and pulled in several directions the first time she lived in Vancouver. she broke free of a lot of expectations and limitations and other nonsense that the people in her life (if you know what I mean) brought to her life at the moment. being celebrated for who she is and being supported and cheered on instead of pulled back makes a world of difference
@@chloe_3787 I've watched Colleen since way back during the you know who days, and I don't recall who Lily Mae or Noah is. I found a Twitter for Lily Mae but it looks like it's a troll? Mind explaining it to me please?
my boyfriend and I came from tacoma to see you and it was so fun!! our first time seeing you and we both had massive smiles on our faces the entire time. you do an excellent job making people laugh and the way you interact with your audience is like no other! you're a true performing queen and it was an absolute privilege to be able to see it in person, thank you!!!
Colleen, I’m almost in tears hearing you talk about how inspirational you are to so many people. You have no idea how much you have helped me get through the beginning of the pandemic with your daily vlogs. I feel like whenever I watch your vlogs I always somehow relate to you in a new way each time ❤️ hopefully I get to meet my best friend one day 👯♀️
As much as I love seeing Flynn and the babies, I have been loving these tour vlogs. I’m so impressed with Colleen being a working mom and changing so many lives. It may just seem like silly little videos of her feelings and life, but I think I can say to us it shows us it’ll be okay and gives us reassurance that someone understands what everyone has or is going through in way. ❤️
When I came to the show in Vancouver I BAWLED. Don’t underestimate the impact you have on our lives. ❤️❤️ We love you so much we don’t care if all you do is mom and wife and vlog lol ❤️❤️
Genuinely sat here crying thinking about how emotional I would be if we ever met, I’m in the UK and hope one day I can come to a show, see you so happy performing and meet you. You’ve helped me through the darkest of times, you don’t understand how valued by everyone you are. Never stop shining, you’re the brightest star ⭐️ ❤️
cried so hard listening to Colleen’s reflections on Vancouver T-T love you Colleen 💕💕 what you do touches the lives of so many and it’s absolutely wonderful to hear that your recent fan run ins have been a reminder of that; like the Vancouver mom said, keep doing what you’re doing xoxo
Colleen... everything you think looks weird, is what suits you the best!! The silk blouse was stunning on you! It was litterally one of my fave pieces of clothing on you ever. And I've been following you for around 10 years! And can we talk about how cute Erik is to go shopping and finding stuff for you?!
Erik- ITS MEEE! Queen/Colleen- I was just crying. Erik- What are you crying about. That sudden drop of Erik's energy showed how much he cares about Colleen. That moment was so sad but funny to me. Also Love You girl. No need to feel any mum guilt (yes I am an Aussie) you have been amazing.
@@hippychick420 I watch every vlog, I was just wondering if he could tell them part of they were wearing the same thing and she didn’t tell him who was who.
I definitely can relate when you said you think you’re supposed to be doing one big thing in your lifetime and continuing on that path but life is so complicated and the plan is ever changing. I have been going through a lot mentally lately and seeing you get all emotional about how you aren’t doing what you imagined you’d be doing, hit home. Just think, you have a beautiful marriage and 3 ADORABLE babies at home. You’re so lucky and sometimes it just takes a second to step back and think about the good things going on in life, rather than thinking about what could’ve been. It’s hard though. I love you, your family, and your videos. They make my day better!
This might be one of my favorite vlogs you have ever posted. Hearing you talk about the change of mindset you've had since the last time you were in Vancouver, and how much happier you seem now is so refreshing and nice to hear. Knowing that all those negative thoughts about myself are valid and will eventually go away makes me feel so much better. Thank you for uploading this, and all of your vlogs!
this vlog feels so profound and human. i don’t understand how it isn’t scripted because it’s so well established from beginning to end. i can hear and feel the growth in colleen especially as she was getting philosophical, as well as share her pain in moving on. i’m in a similar place in my life right now, but regardless, this vlog is gold. ✨
As someone who watched your Vancouver vlogs way back when and saw the change that you talked about in real time, it was honestly emotional for me as well to see you back in Vancouver bc when you first went to Vancouver to film hbo I was also in a bad mental place and my personal life was a mess and I felt watching you grow back then helped me grow as well. It's made me emotional and so happy to see that the light you radiate in this city is still brighter than ever. Love you Colleen. Stay magical 🌟
i am so so proud of u mama!! You are such an inspiration to me and to a lot of people!! This is a odd question! TTQ: when you take cups out of the dishwasher do you flip them upside down when you put them in the cabinet or keep them right side up? I personally put them right side up. I love you Colleen!!
Not me bawling right now listening to colleen talk about how THIS trip to Vancouver is so much better, and more meaningful. It reminded me of one of my favorite quotes: “She remembered who she was and the game changed.” - lalah deliah I’ve truly enjoyed watching you, colleen, grow as a woman, a mother, a wife. You’re an amazing woman, and you’ve empowered other women - people, during your continued to journey toward loving yourself. Your vulnerability encourages other people to allow themselves to honor whatever they’re feeling in any given moment. I hope, in the quiet moments you can find, that you are kind to yourself, and that you give yourself the grace you offer to others.🤟🏻
Colleen, when you talked about your feelings about coming back to Vancouver, it was really impact full for me. I'm going into high school this year and at the end of 8th grade, I was happy to be moving on. I pictured myself meeting and becoming friends with a lot of classmates during softball practices over the summer and having a whole friend group before the school year even started as well as accomplishing so much over the summer and becoming my best self. Usually, it's hard for me to have high expectations because I'm always afraid of being let down but for once, I was hopeful. However, this summer has gone by so fast and like you said, it feels like I haven't accomplished anything or gotten any further than at the start of this summer. Meanwhile, it seems like my other friends have already found great friend groups and upperclassmen to make connections with. Usually I always put myself down and below them, but I thought that for once, maybe I'd be the one ahead, unlike how it usually is. It almost makes me miss my middle school and elementary school even though they treated us way younger than we were and the people I surrounded myself with didn't help me grow, improve, feel happy, and even made me feel unworthy to be their friend. There was just something comforting about the back to school energy and the teachers acting as if we were 4th graders. It makes me question just how ready I really am for high school not academically but mentally and emotionally. However, you have helped me so much realizing who I want to be and how to get there. Although our problems may be very different and yours much bigger than mine, I've been able to connect with you and when you explain your emotions, it helps me understand exactly how I'm feeling and how to deal with it. Thank you so much and I wish you the best of luck moving forward.
I am from Oregon and I have watched you for almost a decade. You have grown so much, worked so hard and you deserve all of the feelings of fulfillment, contentment and magic from realizing your dreams! Colleen you are a living breathing walking inspiration and I am so proud to be a witness to your joy and your gratitude for your blessed life! It is no accident that you are special to so many! We love you for your authenticity, humility, vulnerability, grace and so much more. It truly is a miracle to exist at all and even more so, to shine like you do!! Thank you for everything you do! We love you! You sparkling space hippie!! 🌈🕉❤🌼☺
I just wanna thank Vancouver for making Colleen feel this way 💕✨ I love to see her happy and I love to hear y’all are happy from her. Hands down the best person ever! 💕✨ love you Colleen 💕✨
Watching you realize how much you've grown & be so self aware is so unbelievably refreshing Colleen! Please continue to open up & be honest with us & with yourself of course. You are needed, you are wanted, & you are loved!
Colleen, I've said it before but your vlogs meant everything to me these last few years!! I was honestly in the worst place of my life, going through something I'd never wish on anyone, but I always had you to brighten my days. Even when you were just making bread and whipped coffee, it was the best times of my day. You've touched soo many people by "just vlogging". Whenever I hear you talk about your interactions with other viewers it makes me feel so happy and excited inside because I would LOVE to be able to tell you how much you mean to me in person. Sorry that was so long, I just felt like you should know ❤️
You are SO worthy of everything that you have achieved Colleen! You comfort so many of us, myself included and if I ever run into you in the future, I will be one of the people crying telling you how much you've helped me in my journey into motherhood.
Colleen, I just felt the need to comment and say to you that I’m from just north of Vancouver and I always adore when you’ve talked about the city in the past with such love and passion. But after watching this vlog today, it actually brought me to tears, the amount of love and just how much this city has changed your life. I guess I just wanted to say thank you for sharing all that you do. I’m not sure if you realize how much it truly impacts me and so many other people. Your honestly, vulnerability, and realness is what keeps me coming back to your videos year after year after year. I just felt like I needed to say that I appreciate you more then you will ever know, and I’m truly humbled and grateful for the fact that you have such a deep connection to this city I grew up near. I love you so much and thank you for everything you continue to do. You are absolutely amazing, and a role model for me, as far as your drive and passion goes. (Unfortunately I wasn’t able to make it to your live show this time because of work and the chaos that is my life currently… but please, please come back some day because it’s a dream of mine to see you live one day) Thank you endlessly. ❤️❤️❤️ ((Also big thank you to Kory aswell, you never fail to make me laugh))
Colleen, watching you grow and become more at home with yourself from the first time in Vancouver to now, is a beautiful metamorphosis of finding and thriving in who you truly were made to be. As a long time subscriber, I remember thinking when you first left for Vancouver to film haters "I hope she begins to see herself how we all see her! Strong, kind, smart, genuine!" And now, today watching this vlog, LOOK HOW FAR YOUVE COME! We are so damn proud of you! Truly knowing and loving oneself is the hardest most rewarding job- it's an honor to do life on this planet with you. Your vulnerability and insight is refreshing!
Colleen, I was diagnosed with a bunch of illnesses this year and I watch your videos everyday. It makes me feel like I have a friend that I get to hear from. Which people with chronic illnesses know, can be very isolating because I can't do much until it's under control. Thank you for being you and sharing your life. You and Eric are goals ❤️ real, genuine and loving. And congratulations on all the babies, you're an amazing mama, they're all lucky to have you and you and Eric have a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing everything that you do. It helps me and others I'm sure, more than you know. ❤️
Colleen, I know you're happy to vlog for us, as well as creating family memories for yourself, everyday. That said, I sure hope that you never forget this trip, as it is a true testament from the likes of your fans, that vlogging the way that you do, opening up to us (many of us that you have never met) talking about some of the hardest subjects with real, raw emotion. What you have created on this channel is a safe space for anyone to open up & share similar experiences with unfavorable talking points. I can honestly say that, while you are definitely a successful writer, entertainer, performer, all the things... when "Hater's Back Off" ended and you didn't write another show & felt like a failure, I think the opposite happened. You not only finished 2 seasons, but you also: met your husband and had 3 kids all in a very short time AND your vlogging throughout CV19 to now has truly offered all of us so much hope that your vlogs have become an important part of our lives too - THAT'S WHAT I CALL SUCCESS! You're amazing, girl! Never stop being true to YOU!
i'm so glad you were able to see your trip in a new perspective. you really have given me and i know so many other people so so much. you're a role model to me, literally so cool to see a woman being such a kick ass mom and performer doing her thing despite how hard it is to balance all of life.
Colleen you have had such a huge impact on my life and watching your vlogs and seeing you talk about your mental health and sharing your journey with us makes me feel not so alone with my struggles. You are so empowering to so many people and I hope you know how much we love you. Thank you for everything
I know mom guilt is hard but so happy you are getting to see these amazing places! And so happy Erik is coming to see you! To bring a little piece of home to you❤️I completely relate to your end of the video, I struggled with my Self worth and it’s funny when you think no one else has similar thought like you especially someone like you! Who is talented, amazing, and more🥹 it’s so amazing what I know a lot of us feel watching your videos and how many people you truly help❤️
COLLEEN!! Your Vancouver show was absolutely incredible, I am SO happy to have seen my idol on stage, and I cannot wait to see you again. Vancouver is different for everybody, but I hope this city can be a place for you to escape and explore your new experiences in life. Maybe bring your kids here next time for a get away and show them the city where your dreams came true! Growing up on the Canadian west coast shaped who I am today and I could totally see Flynn, Wesley and Maisie making this city their own too! ❤️
I think those of us who were raised by Colleen in the last decade know why she has these feelings about Vancouver. The people she surrounds herself with allow her to be the best version of herself and are all her #1 fans, which is support she did not have the first time she came to Vancouver. I love that she is processing these feelings and has Erik by her side while doing so. Colleen is exactly where she is supposed to be and I hope she learns that she has the life and success that she truly deserves
Omg I’m crying tears of happiness with and for you!! Thank you to everyone that got to meet Colleen in Vancouver and tell her how wonderful she truly is and how much we appreciated and still appreciate her daily vlogs!! I would tell you Miranda is amazing and your career is amazing but what we all truly love and what is beyond wonderful is….Colleen we love YOU everything up and everything down everything from laughter to tears you sharing yourself is the truly why we care so much your true calling is doing exactly what you’ve been doing never look back and think less of your self these last few years because are u kidding me….Flynn Maisey and Wesley are THE best “performance “ you’ve ever created and the joy that you share them with us is beyond beautiful thank you so much!!!🥰
You guys are the cutest couple and parents with your matching ladybug earrings ☺️ Also, I love when magical moments create new memories in places that used to feel bittersweet🌸
I got goosebumps when you started reading that journal entry. It felt like the beginning of a really good audiobook. I know you might think you're not great with words sometimes but you have such a gift with making others feel what you feel. Love you so much 💖
There is always a reason for everything. I love that you had a moment of perspective about the impact you’ve had rather than what you did or didn’t make.
I can honestly say you got me through the pandemic! Working in healthcare during it was exhausting and I looked forward to watching your videos every day on my lunch break! You have helped so many people! We love you and are so thankful for you!
Been with Colleen since the beginning. She's always been my escape when it comes to mental health struggles. Knowing I'm not alone and for her to say how she feels and show her life just motivates me to continue. I love you Colleen. Always ❤️
I love hearing you and eric talk when you are in all the feeling and he is like but this is why you came here lol. It reminds me of interactions between me and my husband!
Colleen please know how much I appreciate you and love how open you are. My daughter and I came to the Vancouver show to celebrate her 13th birthday. The show was amazing and we truly had a blast. That’s time we won’t forget together and please never forget the huge positive impact you have in the lives of others. Love to you and your family.
your feelings are valid colleen & the little things & interactions are huge blessings i understand where your feelings are coming from not many people get to experience what you do so it makes me happy you are happy for those little moments in life💜💜
The moments you described with the people you met in Vancouver ARE magical. What a blessing to be your true self, and inspire others by doing so. If even ONE person said that to me, I'd feel like I've accomplished something important in this life, on this planet, in this universe. Those moments are everything. And you're connecting with/inspiring thousands upon thousands of people. I hope you know how loved you are, and how ENOUGH you are by just being you. And then there's Eric to keep you grounded. hahaha Love you, little space hippy! I'm right there with you in spirit.
When you were reading your journal I felt so close to you. I understand what you mean about how your life flashes before your eyes when you come back somewhere that means so much to you. All the bad feelings that you were saying in the journal , none of them are true. You’re amazing and so inspiring and incredible that you deserve the world. Everything you’ve gone through in your life and all the good and bad time are important and what have shaped you to be you and that is an amazing person. Keep trying and never ever give up or change for anyone. Oh and btw you’re a great writer and you should write a book of your own. Like a memoir. I would totallly read it. Not because it’s you, well of course I’d read it because it’s you, but because you were a great writer and I like the way you portray your feelings into it. Plus you’re a great writer because of all the diaries you made in your life. I think you should also make a comedy special of YOU. I want to see YOU. Not that I don’t want to see miranda but I love Colleen specifically. I went to your show in Reading PA this year and yes it was fun but I was hoping to see a lot more of you. I went to two of your shows in the past and they were so much fun because you were so funny on your own without miranda. If you ever want to drift off from Miranda, you can have a great career without her. Colleen is great! Always think of that
As much as we loved Haters no show or movie could give us as much as you do through vlogging. Your vulnerability, honesty & humor are so important and unique and you give so much to all of us..more than you'll probably ever know!
i never thought i would comment on your videos for this reason but here we go. im a young trans male who has been watching you for a little over a year now and you have helped me so much opening up with your emotions and being honest about how hard depression can be. i struggle with depression and many other things, but one thing is that i am hard on myself(mainly transphobic towards myself) saying things like you shouldnt watch such feminine things if you wanna be masculine or why the heck do you get emotional over a youtubers babys, stuff like that, but in a way you have helped me get over that a little, you have helped my mind know that its ok for me to still watch feminine stuff especially when i see in these vlogs all the guys in the audiences. thank you so much colleen! you mean so much to so many people
Colleen You will never be able to know what you truly mean to all of us that watch your videos. You have helped soooo many of us through some really really hard times in our lives. I've been struggling the last few years especially with severe depression and anxiety and I knew that no matter how bad I was feeling that I wasn't alone because I had you and your videos to look forward to. You have been such a tremendous blessing to us all. I found you 6 or 7 years ago through my son watching Miranda videos. I really hope that you come to Oregon to do a show someday because I will be the first person to buy a ticket and a VIP pass for my son and I. You are an incredibly talented and amazing woman. We all love you so much.
I totally hear what you’re saying about this experience being different…it had a different meaning. I’m so glad you got to experience something so special! Not many people get to have those moments in life, and I appreciate all the work you put into UA-cam and your shows ❤️ felt like maybe Derek didn’t ‘get it’ in the end, and if that had been happening to me, I would have down played my feeling and made jokes to make it seem like not such a big deal, but it IS a big deal. I’m sure you guys have talked about it 😊 I just want to validate everything you’re saying because it IS real, and it IS important. Love you Colleen, you are amazeballs ❤️
hearing you talk about vancouver made me so emotional. it has been such a joy to watch you create and grow over the years. you are so very worthy of all of your successes and i can't wait to see the things you create in the future too!!
YES!!! i think her one of her next big projects could be a book centering around the mental health of a mother/ working mother. Her diary entry put her difficult feelings into words so beautifully!!
Honestly, I loved that baby pink skort :P loved the look on you. Also, my favorite was probably the sequined leather skirt, wow super sparkly! I bet it would look super cool in the sun :P
Tortilla talk question!! What is some advice you’d give to a another twin mom who struggles with postpartum depression and doesn’t feel like they are a good mom? Also I just wanted to say thank you for opening up about all of your struggles it has definitely helped me so so much with my depression, I’ve been struggling a lot lately and your videos have given me so much joy back in my life! I love you Colleen! 💕💕
Having you here in vlogs being open and honest and enjoying life but being real has helped me grow. It has helped me feel not alone, when right now otherwise I feel like I am at times. Thank you so much, and I am so so grateful for you and for it. It’s not a TV show, but it has made such a big impact.
Colleen, I totally feel you with all the universe thoughts haha. There are no accidents and you're always where you are supposed to be :) Glad you had such wonderdul experiences in Vancouver!!
TTQ: Did you ever get those adorable rainbow blackout curtains, maybe I’m the only one who cares about this, but I thought they were so cut I just wanted to know… love you and you little growing family, watching you go through your motherhood is so inspiring. Keep doing what your doing!! 🥰🤩
Well she bought them but they were not tall enough so she ended up putting the pink ones up… was she ever gonna buy other rainbow ones that were taller? Did I miss a vlog? Lol
Colleen, can we just talk about how absolutely Amazing it is that you're stuck between two things that are so stupendous fulfilling in your life that you're so excited to do either but the default is the one you are always most excited to go back to. I think so many of us strive to love our home and family lives as much as work. Or to enjoy work so much that we crave it. And you have both of those blessings. Ik it is so horrendously difficult to leave your Littles behind for however long. I'm so glad that you have these two amazing things at war in your mind. Love and passion. What better way to fill your time with than experiencing those two things.
Tortilla Talk Question: Do you ever try bringing Flynn and/or the babies on your trips? Also have you visited all 50 states in America yet in all your life.
colleen i’ve been watching you since way before haters back off and i know you’re saying how amazing your experience in vancouver was, but i remember how hard you were struggling during post production and the break downs you had in every vlog. so even though you had good times, there were also some hard ones, yet you still remember the good ones first. same thing goes for in a couple years when you look back on what you’ve been doing since the pandemic hit, and you’ll feel proud of all of the wonderful memories you created for you and your family
So proud of you Colleen for being on your journey though the years keep up the great work stay positive and strong and you are so amazing blessing angel unbelievable blessing angel unique and so amazing and inspiring and mom wife partner and and best friends and making a great impact and xoxo 😘
Colleen, in portuguese “ladybug” it’s “joaninha”. So it’s common that people named as “Joanna/Joana” our version of “Joanne” are related to the bug. So for me it was such a funny coincidence to see you calling Maisy as your Ladybug while the name still was a secret 🐞
that is so funny... my best friend speaks Portuguese and it is such a beautiful language
Liking to bump!
Sim, isso é super fofo!
@@CatarinaCastroBR what does that mean in English?
Omg! I’m brazilian and I speak portuguese and I love this comment❤️
I just realized that the perfect word to describe you is "Empowering." That is truly what you are to your audience. Another word that comes to mind is "Inspiring." You're a great role model and we, as well as your children, are lucky to have you. We love you, Colleen!
The silk blouse and the pink skort are everything.
Also the kismet letter moment is so sweet.
I’ve been loving the confetti moments in all the blogs of the shows such a fun shot.
The seagul was so funny I always thought starfish were poisonous 👀.
I also want to say it’s honestly inspiring to see you face Vancouver. It can be so hard to accept when you’ve moved chapters, so seeing you talk in depth about what it meant having worked there then leaving. From someone who has watched your daily blogs throughout the COVID times it really has impacted my life. It’s such a turbulent time but having your blogs available was my constant.
Change may not always be what we planned but all change has a beauty within it we just have to look for the beauty.
I totally and completely agree with everything that you wrote. And I love what you said about change and finding the beauty within life even when the changes aren’t the ones that we planned.💗
Right!!?!?! I am OBSESSED with that silk shirt, and love that black bodysuit type top as well. I am convinced she can pull anything off and not even realize it.
Last time you were in a relationship you weren't happy in. This last few years your life has changed in so many wonderful ways. You've really made a difference in a lot of your audience over the last couple of years and your daily vlogging has been amazing, not only for us but for you. You have helped me understand my trichotillomania and my daughter's ADHD. You are loved Colleen.
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Love this! ❤️
@@30nash30 I believe he got married, he started drinking heavily but has since sobered up, thank goodness, and other than that, I'm not sure!
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So extremely proud of Colleens journey through the years. So hardworking and dedicated all while having her own personal problems and yet still tours & gives us content. We love you, I speak for all of us
She is amazing!
@@paulafamularo5001 I speak for all who have the same views toward Colleen as I do. You’re clearly here just to spread negativity.
Colleen is grateful for where she is in life and expresses so a lot. Just because people have money doesn’t mean that they can’t have their own problems like depression for example. Now spread your negativity elsewhere thanks
@@thebrokengeneration8100 👏 👏 👏
*some* people in this comment thread are just.... bitter and nasty for no reason
The negativity here makes me so mad, and I honestly don't know how to comment on it without sounding like a horrible person, but I hope that whenever challenges in life your going through right now that makes you feel like you have a need to bring others down gets better soon, and that you'll be able to learn be happy for others successes and strengths and bravery to be vulnerable and showing others it's okay to do the same, even if you haven't been able to get there yourself. I honestly don't know where I'm going with this so I'm going to stop now but I felt a need to say something
Colleen is so emotionally expressive that watching her helps me feel more comfortable with my own emotions.
so true!! this is definitely one of the things I would tell her if I ever get to be so lucky to meet her
I love how Erik expresses his love for Colleen through gift giving, you can tell that it’s his love language ❤️
I kind of feel like he just doesn't like how she dresses and since he is into fashion he is trying to change her look. He is trying to get her out if her normal clothing. And she wears it because she does care either way. Lol
@@Ladypanic13 I disagree I think he likes buying things for her and watching her do a “fashion show”
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I have to agree. I love Colleen, but her sense of style is so bland and I think he wants her to dress a bit better/trendier/more hipster. Luckily, Colleen doesn’t care and lives her best life and I love her for that.
It gave me so many warm fuzzies to see you and Erik out and about enjoying life. It's been a long two years and you both deserve all the happiness this life has to offer. I now have added Mister to my must try list. That dance you did when you tried that Ice Cream was pure joy. You deserve this.
When you were talking about the difference of this trip to Vancouver versus previous trips, one of the biggest differences I feel comes from the fact that you have vlogged everyday and we as viewers and fans have created such a huge bond with you over the last 2 years. Because of the pandemic, you haven’t been able to travel and do things you might have before but the impact that your vlogs have had on others is so huge and has become part of all of our routines and lives. So when you’re meeting everyone out and about, we really feel like we are seeing a friend and we finally get to express our gratitude in person❤️
this was so well said!! 🥹
YESS!!! exactly what I just commented too
That’s kinda true!! Thanks for pointing that out! She is amazing and so inspiring and has helped so many of us!!
I’ve been tempted to write you a letter so many times - I found you during a difficult pregnancy in 2019 and I gave birth just before the pandemic. I was locked inside for the whole of my maternity and my son was unwell and we struggled to get access to healthcare. Your videos have kept me sane when I was unable to meet other mums or go to baby groups. It was such a lonely and isolating experience and you kept me company and made me feel like I had a friend (oh god sounds so pathetic!). Thank you for doing what you do - I think you’ve impacted so many lives x
That doesn’t sound pathetic it sounds wonderful like you found a good friend during a hard time when you needed it the most
Not pathetic at all! I had twins during the time she was also pregnant with hers so I can relate to this! You’re not alone momma! Colleen def has impacted my life as well. Sending love and good vibes to you! 🤟🏼
Definitely not pathetic - but smart! A safe way to connect with friends-from-afar; it was good for your mental health. I hope you and your family are doing better. Sending you some love. xo
Doing what’s necessary for you and your mental health isn’t pathetic at all! I’m really glad you were able to find a way to take care of you so you could take care of your baby. Us mums totally get where you’re coming from. Much love ❤️
DANGGG 30 minutes!! colleen’s vlogs are the best part of my day🥰she just feels like a friend and she’s actually relatable
Yes same!! ❤️
Yes!! And I love longer videos. I have such a short attention span but since her clips aren’t very long, long videos are great!!!
@@kathrynm5885 yess and her chats are always so entertaining as well!
Everything you said about how you felt coming to Vancouver vs leaving made total sense and you explained it perfectly. I know Eric was teasing you about it but what you said was heartfelt and I’m so glad you shared those feelings and moments with us. I love you! Enjoy being home with the kiddos ♥️
*Colleen crying and feeling sentimental*
Erik: I don’t get it
Us, her loyal followers: *We* get it
Men... lol they see emotion and get nervous and try to distract away from it 😂 go away Erik! We're chatting!
@@kelsie7109 For real! 😂😂
I was crying along with her and my fiancé walked in and totally didn’t get it either! 😂
Yeah, I love them both so much but I have to say I was disappointed by that, that was such a nice, important moment for both Colleen and her loyal viewers and his response was a little invalidating.
lol yeah I wish he’d validate her feelings a lil more
Colleen
I wanted to say, when you were opening up about how you were feeling about Vancouver I realized that I think what happened during the past few years is that you had a shift in your purpose! You have become a lighthouse for women and people going through pregnancy and people going through mental health struggles or even ADHD (I have found you to be so reassuring in my ADHD journey) you have inspired so many people and I really think that your passion and drive in the fact that you post these Vlogs online makes us feel like we have a best friend to go through something with, or a really cool Aunty. Not to mention I’m sure it’s just really nice to see a family daily, and watch your family memories and see the kids grow. I don’t see my family often so much and it makes me sad that we don’t have the connection I thought we did when we were alll kids so I like hanging with family blogs and feeling that warmth.
what you said about her being like a cool aunty is exactly how i feel. the relationship she has with all of us is so special, and i’m so grateful. thank you for sharing!
Exactly! She's doing so much even if it looks different to a typical career path with typical milestones.
Totally get what you were saying about how you felt like your purpose for this trip was to meet and interact with people! Its important for you to know that We all love you and no matter what you are doing in your career, we all will always support you. The impact you have on me and all of us is indescribable and the being able to see your show in Vancouver was so amazing and felt like a dream. I love seeing you every time in Vancouver and hope that y’all will come back soon❤️
I love how every time colleen curls her hair she says she’s straightening it😂
Oh man I've been thinking this same thing for so long 🤣
Never change Colleen 😂
GIRL your natural, after-braid, 80’s hair is on fire! Do that more often! 🤩
as someone with curly hair myself, exactly the same thing happens to my hair and it gets FRIZZYYYY like not pretty anymore
day one of saying: WE NEED AN ALL COLLEEN SHOW!!! live tortilla talks, watching you sing your favorite musicals and just a vlog with a live audience! everything you do on your vlogs with the same audience but you get to see us :))
Yes!! I love Colleen but I know I wouldn’t have anyone who would sit with me through Miranda to get through Colleen😅
Colleen I just want to let you know that even though you don't feel like you've accomplished anything in the last few years, know that you have changed (and so many others) peoples worlds by bringing your vlogs to us everyday. You have no idea how much you have helped me. From listening to your podcast after a hard day teaching to you inspiring me to have the courage to get tested and diagnosed with adhd... "if Colleen can be as amazing as she is living with adhd, so can I" I tell myself. You are so unbelievably incredible. Thank you ♥️
Ps I was at your Vancouver show and never once did I notice the screen lag! :)!
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When you read your diary at then end… you literally could have been reading MINE. After leaving my abusive childhood home in 2020 for college I have basically been rebuilding my life and fighting to feel worthy of the things that I’ve worked for. I bought a car, rent a house, and I’m in college. I know I should be proud but it’s still hard to fight those thoughts that tell me I don’t deserve it and everyone hates me. It makes me feel so connected to you and feel that everything is gonna be okay for me. Throughout the hardest parts of my life so far your vlogs have been one of the only stable things that I could know for sure would be there for me. Thank you for everything that you do Colleen. So so so much love from Louisiana. :)
I am also from Louisiana and I experienced this too! My dad was emotionally abusive my entire life. He convinced me of so many awful things about myself. When I went to college I was a WRECK. I was absolutely convinced that people were going to find out I was a fraud and kick me out of school and friend groups. Instead I built the most beautiful friendships and learned how to believe in who the Lord says I am. I learned my Dad was wrong. I was worthy. I was loved. I was wanted. I was accepted. I was capable. I was smart. And so are YOU! It was and still can be at times the HARDEST road, but here I am, 6 years later, graduated with my dream job. Living with my best friend and my little sister helping her to heal and grow too and so so grateful for the journey of it all. It has at times felt like hell on earth. But we have to believe we're worth fighting for and keep pressing on! I wish you the best of luck! You keep on thriving ^_^
Just want to take a moment to appreciate the wholesome community Colleen has created for complete strangers to talk and connect and build each other up through times of darkness… despite the haters!!❤️
Sweetheart, you earned it therefore you deserve it! Those pesky thoughts about not being good enough suck, I’ve started to heal through CBT therapy. Cognitive behavioral therapy. It sounds complicated but to me it’s about dissecting those thoughts and finding out whose voice from the past is responsible. I’ve seen apps for cbt but I need a therapist too.
You are going to get through this with love and help from others. Don’t forget that you deserve it! ❤️
@@lifewithmesarahmarie thank you so much for your comment! It’s so uplifting to hear from people who have succeeded before me and I’m so excited for one day when everything in my life settles. I’m so grateful to Colleen for giving me a constant in my life and making me feel like I have someone at the end of the day who cares about me, but I am also so incredibly grateful for the people in this community like you who take time to share and be kind.
as someone who has been watching since before you were filming season 1 of haters, it’s so amazing to see the place you’re in now compared to where you were then. it makes me so happy that you were able to conquer some of those stronger feelings of self doubt and build yourself a beautiful life and family. it’s been amazing to watch you grow and to grow up along with you 💖
I love having been around since then. I feel like so many people here don’t *really* know. When you saw her then, you can read between the lines now. Her life has changed so much.
almost perfectly sums up what i was thinking of commenting. her life is 180 what it was at that previous point, and we’ve all witnessed the growth. whether she realized it fully, i hope it helps affirm the positive side and that she truly has come so far/shouldn’t •have• to be concerned (though i know that’s hard to break from when it comes to anxieties & insecurities)
sad i had to miss the show on Tuesday - woulda been amazing to finally see her after all these years… NEXT TIME, i’m buying tickets immediately 😭🤣
"Hole still works.... that's my motto." lmfao I adore Erik I'm so happy he's gotten more comfortable in the vlogs. I'm so happy you two have one another, you're both so lucky.
Also there isn't a channel that I'm more thankful for on UA-cam. Your vulnerability is inspiring and welcoming. You are one of my biggest role models and I aspire to be as strong as you are. I know you don't always feel as though you deserve things like success or happiness but I promise you, there isn't anyone more deserving of all the amazing things life as to offer than you.
This is the best 2022 tour vlog. Hilarious video that you would send to Flynn, a hilarious story on FaceTime with Flynn, a try-on haul, flirting with Erik,and best of all Colleen actually appreciating herself and a ton of other moms and people in the world, best 2022 tour vlog ever.
It was so beautiful to see you and Erik out and about in Vancouver after watching your vlogs all through out covid. You gave me and others so much comfort during that time and I think you should be so proud about the person you are today. Sending so much love ❤️
Colleen: "you know we are just tiny specks on this giant floating rock in space"
Erik: "omg, you see ONE picture of space..."
Lmao
This is me and my girlfriend (I am Colleen) and I’m the nevermind after her deep introspective thoughts
HAHAHAHAHA god that was hilarious
Colleen, you single-handedly got me (and millions of others, I’m sure!) through the pandemic the last 2 years. I’m an Australian living in Japan and I had to stay here thru the pandemic for work. You may see your daily vlogs as silly or boring but for me it was a familiarity, normality and routine to watch them and feel like I was hanging out with a friend who was doing normal things, when I was in a foreign country during a pandemic when nothing felt normal. Colleen, I wish you could see your own worth as much as your subscribers do. No new tv show or movie that you could have written would have had that same effect, so you shouldn’t feel disappointed in yourself because you provided the world what the world needed at that moment in time and so many people love and appreciate you for it in ways that you will probably never know or hear about. Heck, I’m in Japan and rarely comment on UA-cam videos or have “fan-girl” moments and for sure will never randomly bump into you on the street, so next time you do “literally” walk into someone and they share their story with you, just multiply that by 1000 every time and that is how many people you inspire and touch without ever knowing. Thank you for all you do and all the love, kindness and generosity you bring to the world. It makes me sad that you may never truly realize how special you are. 🇯🇵✌🏻💜
tearing up about how cute colleen and erik are! they truly are soulmates
When you’ve been watching for so long, it’s easy to read between the lines of what she’s talking about. The insecurity, the self doubt, the pain, it was all right in front of our faces, and we couldn’t see it. It’s crystal clear why being around amazing, kind, loyal people furthering her career came with that other huge change. Without Vancouver, she would not know Erik. She very well may be mom to “Lily Mae” and “Noah” right now if anyone else knows what I mean...Her life may have never turned around.
💯 Vancouver changed EVERYTHING for her, but for the best. Bittersweet in a way.
I thought abou this the whole video. she was being incredibly pressured and pulled in several directions the first time she lived in Vancouver. she broke free of a lot of expectations and limitations and other nonsense that the people in her life (if you know what I mean) brought to her life at the moment. being celebrated for who she is and being supported and cheered on instead of pulled back makes a world of difference
also I remember the lily and noah days sooooo well, it's so strange to see all of that as part of the life of the same person
@@nadzmoc yesssssss! What’s even stranger is that over half of her audience probably *doesn’t* remember the Lily and Noah era.
@@chloe_3787 I've watched Colleen since way back during the you know who days, and I don't recall who Lily Mae or Noah is. I found a Twitter for Lily Mae but it looks like it's a troll? Mind explaining it to me please?
my boyfriend and I came from tacoma to see you and it was so fun!! our first time seeing you and we both had massive smiles on our faces the entire time. you do an excellent job making people laugh and the way you interact with your audience is like no other! you're a true performing queen and it was an absolute privilege to be able to see it in person, thank you!!!
Colleen, I’m almost in tears hearing you talk about how inspirational you are to so many people. You have no idea how much you have helped me get through the beginning of the pandemic with your daily vlogs. I feel like whenever I watch your vlogs I always somehow relate to you in a new way each time ❤️ hopefully I get to meet my best friend one day 👯♀️
As much as I love seeing Flynn and the babies, I have been loving these tour vlogs. I’m so impressed with Colleen being a working mom and changing so many lives. It may just seem like silly little videos of her feelings and life, but I think I can say to us it shows us it’ll be okay and gives us reassurance that someone understands what everyone has or is going through in way. ❤️
When I came to the show in Vancouver I BAWLED. Don’t underestimate the impact you have on our lives. ❤️❤️ We love you so much we don’t care if all you do is mom and wife and vlog lol ❤️❤️
Can’t forget the vlog haha 🤣
@@katelynwalker8719 😂😂
Genuinely sat here crying thinking about how emotional I would be if we ever met, I’m in the UK and hope one day I can come to a show, see you so happy performing and meet you. You’ve helped me through the darkest of times, you don’t understand how valued by everyone you are. Never stop shining, you’re the brightest star ⭐️ ❤️
cried so hard listening to Colleen’s reflections on Vancouver T-T love you Colleen 💕💕 what you do touches the lives of so many and it’s absolutely wonderful to hear that your recent fan run ins have been a reminder of that; like the Vancouver mom said, keep doing what you’re doing xoxo
Colleen... everything you think looks weird, is what suits you the best!! The silk blouse was stunning on you! It was litterally one of my fave pieces of clothing on you ever. And I've been following you for around 10 years! And can we talk about how cute Erik is to go shopping and finding stuff for you?!
Erik- ITS MEEE!
Queen/Colleen- I was just crying.
Erik- What are you crying about.
That sudden drop of Erik's energy showed how much he cares about Colleen. That moment was so sad but funny to me. Also Love You girl. No need to feel any mum guilt (yes I am an Aussie) you have been amazing.
So glad you had some time alone with Erik in Vancouver and that your parents were able to take care of the kids!
Seeing you both have time together melts my heart! Its hard when you have kids, but its very important!
colleen! my favorite part of my day.
Same
I feel like I could never say it enough, I have such a deep respect for Colleen. She has such a precious soul.
TTQ: Can Flynn tell the twins apart? ❣️ Also I love you Colleen and you are such a good role model to people everywhere! 💕💕💕
he can, colleen had answered his in a previous vid
@@hippychick420 I watch every vlog, I was just wondering if he could tell them part of they were wearing the same thing and she didn’t tell him who was who.
I definitely can relate when you said you think you’re supposed to be doing one big thing in your lifetime and continuing on that path but life is so complicated and the plan is ever changing. I have been going through a lot mentally lately and seeing you get all emotional about how you aren’t doing what you imagined you’d be doing, hit home. Just think, you have a beautiful marriage and 3 ADORABLE babies at home. You’re so lucky and sometimes it just takes a second to step back and think about the good things going on in life, rather than thinking about what could’ve been. It’s hard though. I love you, your family, and your videos. They make my day better!
This might be one of my favorite vlogs you have ever posted. Hearing you talk about the change of mindset you've had since the last time you were in Vancouver, and how much happier you seem now is so refreshing and nice to hear. Knowing that all those negative thoughts about myself are valid and will eventually go away makes me feel so much better. Thank you for uploading this, and all of your vlogs!
I agree with you 100 percent!!✌
me too!!
this vlog feels so profound and human. i don’t understand how it isn’t scripted because it’s so well established from beginning to end. i can hear and feel the growth in colleen especially as she was getting philosophical, as well as share her pain in moving on. i’m in a similar place in my life right now, but regardless, this vlog is gold. ✨
@@alienpotatosquid7850 It is!
As someone who watched your Vancouver vlogs way back when and saw the change that you talked about in real time, it was honestly emotional for me as well to see you back in Vancouver bc when you first went to Vancouver to film hbo I was also in a bad mental place and my personal life was a mess and I felt watching you grow back then helped me grow as well. It's made me emotional and so happy to see that the light you radiate in this city is still brighter than ever. Love you Colleen. Stay magical 🌟
i am so so proud of u mama!! You are such an inspiration to me and to a lot of people!! This is a odd question! TTQ: when you take cups out of the dishwasher do you flip them upside down when you put them in the cabinet or keep them right side up? I personally put them right side up. I love you Colleen!!
Not me bawling right now listening to colleen talk about how THIS trip to Vancouver is so much better, and more meaningful. It reminded me of one of my favorite quotes:
“She remembered who she was and the game changed.” - lalah deliah
I’ve truly enjoyed watching you, colleen, grow as a woman, a mother, a wife. You’re an amazing woman, and you’ve empowered other women - people, during your continued to journey toward loving yourself. Your vulnerability encourages other people to allow themselves to honor whatever they’re feeling in any given moment. I hope, in the quiet moments you can find, that you are kind to yourself, and that you give yourself the grace you offer to others.🤟🏻
Colleen, when you talked about your feelings about coming back to Vancouver, it was really impact full for me. I'm going into high school this year and at the end of 8th grade, I was happy to be moving on. I pictured myself meeting and becoming friends with a lot of classmates during softball practices over the summer and having a whole friend group before the school year even started as well as accomplishing so much over the summer and becoming my best self. Usually, it's hard for me to have high expectations because I'm always afraid of being let down but for once, I was hopeful. However, this summer has gone by so fast and like you said, it feels like I haven't accomplished anything or gotten any further than at the start of this summer. Meanwhile, it seems like my other friends have already found great friend groups and upperclassmen to make connections with. Usually I always put myself down and below them, but I thought that for once, maybe I'd be the one ahead, unlike how it usually is. It almost makes me miss my middle school and elementary school even though they treated us way younger than we were and the people I surrounded myself with didn't help me grow, improve, feel happy, and even made me feel unworthy to be their friend. There was just something comforting about the back to school energy and the teachers acting as if we were 4th graders. It makes me question just how ready I really am for high school not academically but mentally and emotionally. However, you have helped me so much realizing who I want to be and how to get there. Although our problems may be very different and yours much bigger than mine, I've been able to connect with you and when you explain your emotions, it helps me understand exactly how I'm feeling and how to deal with it. Thank you so much and I wish you the best of luck moving forward.
I am from Oregon and I have watched you for almost a decade. You have grown so much, worked so hard and you deserve all of the feelings of fulfillment, contentment and magic from realizing your dreams! Colleen you are a living breathing walking inspiration and I am so proud to be a witness to your joy and your gratitude for your blessed life! It is no accident that you are special to so many! We love you for your authenticity, humility, vulnerability, grace and so much more. It truly is a miracle to exist at all and even more so, to shine like you do!! Thank you for everything you do! We love you! You sparkling space hippie!! 🌈🕉❤🌼☺
I just wanna thank Vancouver for making Colleen feel this way 💕✨ I love to see her happy and I love to hear y’all are happy from her. Hands down the best person ever! 💕✨ love you Colleen 💕✨
Watching you realize how much you've grown & be so self aware is so unbelievably refreshing Colleen! Please continue to open up & be honest with us & with yourself of course. You are needed, you are wanted, & you are loved!
Colleen, I've said it before but your vlogs meant everything to me these last few years!! I was honestly in the worst place of my life, going through something I'd never wish on anyone, but I always had you to brighten my days. Even when you were just making bread and whipped coffee, it was the best times of my day. You've touched soo many people by "just vlogging". Whenever I hear you talk about your interactions with other viewers it makes me feel so happy and excited inside because I would LOVE to be able to tell you how much you mean to me in person.
Sorry that was so long, I just felt like you should know ❤️
You are SO worthy of everything that you have achieved Colleen! You comfort so many of us, myself included and if I ever run into you in the future, I will be one of the people crying telling you how much you've helped me in my journey into motherhood.
Colleen, I just felt the need to comment and say to you that I’m from just north of Vancouver and I always adore when you’ve talked about the city in the past with such love and passion. But after watching this vlog today, it actually brought me to tears, the amount of love and just how much this city has changed your life. I guess I just wanted to say thank you for sharing all that you do. I’m not sure if you realize how much it truly impacts me and so many other people. Your honestly, vulnerability, and realness is what keeps me coming back to your videos year after year after year. I just felt like I needed to say that I appreciate you more then you will ever know, and I’m truly humbled and grateful for the fact that you have such a deep connection to this city I grew up near. I love you so much and thank you for everything you continue to do. You are absolutely amazing, and a role model for me, as far as your drive and passion goes. (Unfortunately I wasn’t able to make it to your live show this time because of work and the chaos that is my life currently… but please, please come back some day because it’s a dream of mine to see you live one day) Thank you endlessly. ❤️❤️❤️
((Also big thank you to Kory aswell, you never fail to make me laugh))
Colleen, watching you grow and become more at home with yourself from the first time in Vancouver to now, is a beautiful metamorphosis of finding and thriving in who you truly were made to be. As a long time subscriber, I remember thinking when you first left for Vancouver to film haters "I hope she begins to see herself how we all see her! Strong, kind, smart, genuine!" And now, today watching this vlog, LOOK HOW FAR YOUVE COME! We are so damn proud of you!
Truly knowing and loving oneself is the hardest most rewarding job- it's an honor to do life on this planet with you. Your vulnerability and insight is refreshing!
A 30 minute video?! My heart is so happy right now!!! I love me some Colleen content 😻
Colleen, I was diagnosed with a bunch of illnesses this year and I watch your videos everyday. It makes me feel like I have a friend that I get to hear from. Which people with chronic illnesses know, can be very isolating because I can't do much until it's under control. Thank you for being you and sharing your life. You and Eric are goals ❤️ real, genuine and loving. And congratulations on all the babies, you're an amazing mama, they're all lucky to have you and you and Eric have a beautiful family. Thank you for sharing everything that you do. It helps me and others I'm sure, more than you know. ❤️
Colleen, I know you're happy to vlog for us, as well as creating family memories for yourself, everyday. That said, I sure hope that you never forget this trip, as it is a true testament from the likes of your fans, that vlogging the way that you do, opening up to us (many of us that you have never met) talking about some of the hardest subjects with real, raw emotion. What you have created on this channel is a safe space for anyone to open up & share similar experiences with unfavorable talking points. I can honestly say that, while you are definitely a successful writer, entertainer, performer, all the things... when "Hater's Back Off" ended and you didn't write another show & felt like a failure, I think the opposite happened. You not only finished 2 seasons, but you also: met your husband and had 3 kids all in a very short time AND your vlogging throughout CV19 to now has truly offered all of us so much hope that your vlogs have become an important part of our lives too - THAT'S WHAT I CALL SUCCESS! You're amazing, girl! Never stop being true to YOU!
Holy cow, Colleen! You are so so strong! You inspire me to love myself more and become a better person every single day. Thank you so much!
i'm so glad you were able to see your trip in a new perspective. you really have given me and i know so many other people so so much. you're a role model to me, literally so cool to see a woman being such a kick ass mom and performer doing her thing despite how hard it is to balance all of life.
Colleen you have had such a huge impact on my life and watching your vlogs and seeing you talk about your mental health and sharing your journey with us makes me feel not so alone with my struggles. You are so empowering to so many people and I hope you know how much we love you. Thank you for everything
A half hour long vlog is just what my soul NEEDS 😍
I know mom guilt is hard but so happy you are getting to see these amazing places! And so happy Erik is coming to see you! To bring a little piece of home to you❤️I completely relate to your end of the video, I struggled with my
Self worth and it’s funny when you think no one else has similar thought like you especially someone like you! Who is talented, amazing, and more🥹 it’s so amazing what I know a lot of us feel watching your videos and how many people you truly help❤️
COLLEEN!! Your Vancouver show was absolutely incredible, I am SO happy to have seen my idol on stage, and I cannot wait to see you again.
Vancouver is different for everybody, but I hope this city can be a place for you to escape and explore your new experiences in life. Maybe bring your kids here next time for a get away and show them the city where your dreams came true! Growing up on the Canadian west coast shaped who I am today and I could totally see Flynn, Wesley and Maisie making this city their own too! ❤️
I think those of us who were raised by Colleen in the last decade know why she has these feelings about Vancouver. The people she surrounds herself with allow her to be the best version of herself and are all her #1 fans, which is support she did not have the first time she came to Vancouver. I love that she is processing these feelings and has Erik by her side while doing so. Colleen is exactly where she is supposed to be and I hope she learns that she has the life and success that she truly deserves
I've just recently started watching her videos. If you dont mind can you tell me what happened?
Omg I’m crying tears of happiness with and for you!! Thank you to everyone that got to meet Colleen in Vancouver and tell her how wonderful she truly is and how much we appreciated and still appreciate her daily vlogs!! I would tell you Miranda is amazing and your career is amazing but what we all truly love and what is beyond wonderful is….Colleen we love YOU everything up and everything down everything from laughter to tears you sharing yourself is the truly why we care so much your true calling is doing exactly what you’ve been doing never look back and think less of your self these last few years because are u kidding me….Flynn Maisey and Wesley are THE best “performance “ you’ve ever created and the joy that you share them with us is beyond beautiful thank you so much!!!🥰
You guys are the cutest couple and parents with your matching ladybug earrings ☺️
Also, I love when magical moments create new memories in places that used to feel bittersweet🌸
I got goosebumps when you started reading that journal entry. It felt like the beginning of a really good audiobook. I know you might think you're not great with words sometimes but you have such a gift with making others feel what you feel. Love you so much 💖
Colleen, thank you for blessing us with your vlogs. I couldn’t imagine not watching your videos every single night! Love you!!
There is always a reason for everything. I love that you had a moment of perspective about the impact you’ve had rather than what you did or didn’t make.
I can honestly say you got me through the pandemic! Working in healthcare during it was exhausting and I looked forward to watching your videos every day on my lunch break! You have helped so many people! We love you and are so thankful for you!
ICU nurse here…I can totally relate.
Been with Colleen since the beginning. She's always been my escape when it comes to mental health struggles. Knowing I'm not alone and for her to say how she feels and show her life just motivates me to continue. I love you Colleen. Always ❤️
TTQ: would you ever move your family to Vancouver? You seem to love it so much!
I love hearing you and eric talk when you are in all the feeling and he is like but this is why you came here lol. It reminds me of interactions between me and my husband!
I agree these vlogs have been getting me through this summer as I'm recovering from surgery. Thank you Colleen for all the content luv ya 💞
Colleen please know how much I appreciate you and love how open you are. My daughter and I came to the Vancouver show to celebrate her 13th birthday. The show was amazing and we truly had a blast. That’s time we won’t forget together and please never forget the huge positive impact you have in the lives of others. Love to you and your family.
your feelings are valid colleen & the little things & interactions are huge blessings i understand where your feelings are coming from not many people get to experience what you do so it makes me happy you are happy for those little moments in life💜💜
The moments you described with the people you met in Vancouver ARE magical. What a blessing to be your true self, and inspire others by doing so. If even ONE person said that to me, I'd feel like I've accomplished something important in this life, on this planet, in this universe. Those moments are everything. And you're connecting with/inspiring thousands upon thousands of people. I hope you know how loved you are, and how ENOUGH you are by just being you. And then there's Eric to keep you grounded. hahaha Love you, little space hippy! I'm right there with you in spirit.
When you were reading your journal I felt so close to you. I understand what you mean about how your life flashes before your eyes when you come back somewhere that means so much to you. All the bad feelings that you were saying in the journal , none of them are true. You’re amazing and so inspiring and incredible that you deserve the world. Everything you’ve gone through in your life and all the good and bad time are important and what have shaped you to be you and that is an amazing person. Keep trying and never ever give up or change for anyone.
Oh and btw you’re a great writer and you should write a book of your own. Like a memoir. I would totallly read it. Not because it’s you, well of course I’d read it because it’s you, but because you were a great writer and I like the way you portray your feelings into it. Plus you’re a great writer because of all the diaries you made in your life.
I think you should also make a comedy special of YOU. I want to see YOU. Not that I don’t want to see miranda but I love Colleen specifically. I went to your show in Reading PA this year and yes it was fun but I was hoping to see a lot more of you. I went to two of your shows in the past and they were so much fun because you were so funny on your own without miranda. If you ever want to drift off from Miranda, you can have a great career without her. Colleen is great! Always think of that
Oh my god I love the videos you sent Flynn! 😭 crying. You’re the best mom
you should def wear the dress that Eric bought you!!! looks soo goooood!!!
As much as we loved Haters no show or movie could give us as much as you do through vlogging. Your vulnerability, honesty & humor are so important and unique and you give so much to all of us..more than you'll probably ever know!
You know its a great vlog when you have the urge to like it multiple times and forgetting you already did each time
i never thought i would comment on your videos for this reason but here we go. im a young trans male who has been watching you for a little over a year now and you have helped me so much opening up with your emotions and being honest about how hard depression can be. i struggle with depression and many other things, but one thing is that i am hard on myself(mainly transphobic towards myself) saying things like you shouldnt watch such feminine things if you wanna be masculine or why the heck do you get emotional over a youtubers babys, stuff like that, but in a way you have helped me get over that a little, you have helped my mind know that its ok for me to still watch feminine stuff especially when i see in these vlogs all the guys in the audiences. thank you so much colleen! you mean so much to so many people
Colleen You will never be able to know what you truly mean to all of us that watch your videos. You have helped soooo many of us through some really really hard times in our lives. I've been struggling the last few years especially with severe depression and anxiety and I knew that no matter how bad I was feeling that I wasn't alone because I had you and your videos to look forward to. You have been such a tremendous blessing to us all. I found you 6 or 7 years ago through my son watching Miranda videos. I really hope that you come to Oregon to do a show someday because I will be the first person to buy a ticket and a VIP pass for my son and I. You are an incredibly talented and amazing woman. We all love you so much.
Colleen- just wanted to say, you've helped me a lot too. Especially on the topic of mental health. Thank you.
I totally hear what you’re saying about this experience being different…it had a different meaning. I’m so glad you got to experience something so special! Not many people get to have those moments in life, and I appreciate all the work you put into UA-cam and your shows ❤️ felt like maybe Derek didn’t ‘get it’ in the end, and if that had been happening to me, I would have down played my feeling and made jokes to make it seem like not such a big deal, but it IS a big deal. I’m sure you guys have talked about it 😊 I just want to validate everything you’re saying because it IS real, and it IS important. Love you Colleen, you are amazeballs ❤️
hearing you talk about vancouver made me so emotional. it has been such a joy to watch you create and grow over the years. you are so very worthy of all of your successes and i can't wait to see the things you create in the future too!!
colleen needs to write a book about herself! she has a wonderful way of explaining her ups and down moments.
YES!!! i think her one of her next big projects could be a book centering around the mental health of a mother/ working mother. Her diary entry put her difficult feelings into words so beautifully!!
Honestly, I loved that baby pink skort :P loved the look on you. Also, my favorite was probably the sequined leather skirt, wow super sparkly! I bet it would look super cool in the sun :P
Tortilla talk question!! What is some advice you’d give to a another twin mom who struggles with postpartum depression and doesn’t feel like they are a good mom? Also I just wanted to say thank you for opening up about all of your struggles it has definitely helped me so so much with my depression, I’ve been struggling a lot lately and your videos have given me so much joy back in my life! I love you Colleen! 💕💕
Having you here in vlogs being open and honest and enjoying life but being real has helped me grow. It has helped me feel not alone, when right now otherwise I feel like I am at times. Thank you so much, and I am so so grateful for you and for it. It’s not a TV show, but it has made such a big impact.
Colleen, I totally feel you with all the universe thoughts haha. There are no accidents and you're always where you are supposed to be :) Glad you had such wonderdul experiences in Vancouver!!
I am in love with the “secretary” outfit. Like actually it’s so cute.
TTQ: Did you ever get those adorable rainbow blackout curtains, maybe I’m the only one who cares about this, but I thought they were so cut I just wanted to know… love you and you little growing family, watching you go through your motherhood is so inspiring. Keep doing what your doing!! 🥰🤩
Well she bought them but they were not tall enough so she ended up putting the pink ones up… was she ever gonna buy other rainbow ones that were taller? Did I miss a vlog? Lol
@@gabrielleoana1092 Exactly I thought they were so cute I wondered if she ended up buying the right size
Colleen, can we just talk about how absolutely Amazing it is that you're stuck between two things that are so stupendous fulfilling in your life that you're so excited to do either but the default is the one you are always most excited to go back to. I think so many of us strive to love our home and family lives as much as work. Or to enjoy work so much that we crave it. And you have both of those blessings. Ik it is so horrendously difficult to leave your Littles behind for however long. I'm so glad that you have these two amazing things at war in your mind. Love and passion. What better way to fill your time with than experiencing those two things.
Tortilla Talk Question: Do you ever try bringing Flynn and/or the babies on your trips? Also have you visited all 50 states in America yet in all your life.
colleen i’ve been watching you since way before haters back off and i know you’re saying how amazing your experience in vancouver was, but i remember how hard you were struggling during post production and the break downs you had in every vlog. so even though you had good times, there were also some hard ones, yet you still remember the good ones first. same thing goes for in a couple years when you look back on what you’ve been doing since the pandemic hit, and you’ll feel proud of all of the wonderful memories you created for you and your family
So proud of you Colleen for being on your journey though the years keep up the great work stay positive and strong and you are so amazing blessing angel unbelievable blessing angel unique and so amazing and inspiring and mom wife partner and and best friends and making a great impact and xoxo 😘
connection is the greatest gift
TTQ: Hey Colleen, I was wondering where do you think you would be in life if you never met Erik?